Finding the purpose of my life
Of all the existential questions, the one that comes to my mind most often is none other than the “purpose of my existence”. I'm still trying to figure out the meaning of my life. I always make sure I have a focal point on which to base my goals. Following Deresiewicz's quote “unless you know who you are, how you will figure out what you what to do with the rest of your life?”, it is essential to define who I am to find this central point on which I need to rely the meaning of my life one.
Aged only 19, I had the chance to experience various socio-cultural and economic realities while spending time in both the United States and in Haiti. They are two totally different countries in terms of their social and economic realities. One is poor and the other one is rich. One is a great power and the other one is a third world country. One is politically stable and the other one is politically unstable. One has a high rate of insecurity, the other one has a more secure environment. Of all these characteristics, Haiti finds itself on the wrong side. However, if we take an approach where we analyze other less superficial elements such as the sense of community, I believe that Haiti is better off compared to the United States. This can be seen in the words of William Deresiewicz: “We have a crisis of leadership in America because our overwhelming power and wealth, earned under earlier generations of leaders, made us complacent, and for too long we have been training leaders who only know how to keep the routine going. Who can answer questions, but don't know how to ask them. Who can fulfill goals, but don't know how to set them. Who think about how to get things done, but not whether they're worth doing in the first place. What we have now are the greatest technocrats the world has ever seen, people who have been trained to be incredibly good at one specific thing, but who have no interest in anything beyond their area of expertise. What we don't have are leaders”.
One of the things I know about myself is that I have seen a lot." I have experienced a multitude of characteristics of human reality by living in communities with totally opposite social realities.  In terms of immediate environment, I grew up in a family with complementary parents. My mother tried to make me understand the existence of God, and my father made me understand the reality of human life. From his experiences, I was able to get an idea of ​​the avarice of men as well as their bad faith. 
The immediate context in which I grew up, in addition with the breadth of different social contexts I have experienced, are the generators of my goals and convictions in life. I owe my faith in God to my mother, my character to my father, and my worldwide view to my experiences in Haiti and the United States.  I have the firm conviction that my objective on this earth must be directly related to the improvement of the Republic of Haiti. I know that this is a difficult task. It responds positively to the three questions of Fr Michael Himes : “Is this a source of joy? Is this something that taps into my talents and gifts and uses them in the fullest way possible? Is this role a genuine service to the people around you, to society at large?” 
Indeed, achieving such a task would give me a lot of joy and pride. I always tell myself that the biggest regret I could have in my entire life is to face the sad reality where I would have spent my whole life doing nothing to contribute to the development of Haiti. I also believe that I have the “talents and gifts” to accomplish such a mission because I know perfectly the Haitian reality on every aspect.  It would be more than a genuine service to the people around me. A prosperous Haiti would be beneficial to the community as a whole. I want to sacrifice my life “doing good for the Haitian community”. I must think about how I will achieve my plan in a concrete way. I know I know that I have to be self-aware. If we’re not self-aware, it’s almost impossible to master the skills that make us stronger team players, superior leaders and better relationship builders, either at work or in the rest of our lives. 
Also, keeping in mind what Pope Francis said, in order to do good, we need memory, courage and creativity, I am looking forward to embody those skills in my life.  Amongst them, the most important one that I have been facing recently is “courage”. The past two years have been really challenging to me. The socio-political and economic situation of Haiti has fallen considerably. The terrible rate of insecurity created panic in the daily routine of all. In addition, political riots became commonplace and sometimes prevented me from going to school. Despite everything, I was able to overcome these difficulties, with of course the help of my parents. When I had to leave Haiti for my collegiate studies almost a year ago, the adaptation was not at all easy. My courage has been greatly tested. This situation has not yet come to an end, but I will do my best to improve it.
In terms of creativity, I believe that the different social settings I have had the chance to experience have created in me a certain capacity to try to adapt to any environment. In terms of memory, in my opinion, this implies an awareness of the context of the environment where one wants to do good. In my case, I grew up in Haiti, I know the history of this country, my father was involved in politics. Therefore I know perfectly the history of this people and I can thus have an idea of ​​the solutions which have already failed in the past while trying to change Haiti. I don't know what the future holds for me, but I'm proud that my life has gone this way so far and I will try to stick firmly to my goals and beliefs.