Green Glass Riches Green Glass Riches Kelly Danielson [Ilntil she turned twenty, Anna lived a of hfe. Like one that's three-mch thick, corner-fringed, pictureless, coverless, with miniature black words scrawled on white onion-thin sheets, dusty and unreadable. But one with potential. Potential if you're vacationing in the bathroom with saturated bubble-bath-hair, immersed in a tub excreting the underneath emerging water, and there's a George .Winston CD beckoning you to become familiat with the wind, the seasons, the world. Potential if you qecide to explore, wander and discover, and don't have deadlines. But no one saw the potential or opened Anna Lint's hardback: the red-stitched, neatly-bound, ' diljgently-written six-hundred-paged-or-so book to even take "But something happened a glance. Until she to Anna Lint that turnedtransformed her into a twenty. butter-glazed croissant, all Anna curved and twisted, bent Lint. The and flipped up, served atop name a china saucer ... " itself doesn't provoke interest; plain and simple, like white bread. But something happened to Anna Lint that transformed her into a butter-glazed croissant, all curved and twisted, bent and flipped up, served atop a china saucer. That something was Robert LeMur. Rob, Robby, Ra-bear, Ra- Beart, Robo: her love, her husband, the man who opened her book and wouldn't let it close. She saw him and she knew they would be together. They married when she turned twenty-four, exactly four years after their marriage was arranged. By Anna. Anna would say by fate. That "master plan" stuff doesn't really exist, her mother told Anna after she informed her parents of her future destination. Oh, Mommy, she responded, you'll see. Four years later her parents said they guessed they'd been wrong. And that was that. Anna liked Robert, grew to love Robert, because of what he did to her. Did to her, not for her. He did it to her on the ten-thousand- dollar Oriental crimson and gold rug in the living room, did it atop the sheets, clothes, and scattered scraps of papers strung along the mattress upstairs, did it to her against the walls in the dining room, the walls along the staircase. Her head pounding, banging, smacking not from the sex, from the wine. A bottle of it a day, once a week. He'd give it to her on a Sunday, granting her the freedom to drink it whenever she wanted during the coming week. She picked Tuesday. Always. Tuesday was a blah day, worse than Wednesday, because it hadn't yet reached the hump. When she thought of Tuesday, Anna thought meatless chili. Tuesday had the beans and the noodles, the tomatoes, but something was missing: the meat and chili wasn't good at all, wasn't even worth eating, without brown hamburger to fill it up. So to cover her blank-tape Tuesdays, she filled her body scarlet-red in the afternoons and Robert filled her body creamy-white during the nights. 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That was what she thought at first, and then she thought yes, yes they'll say, that crazy woman thinks her dead husband is perfectly accessible, sitting on the kitchen table inside that bottle. I can see the mental guards now, laughing at the lunatic woman in bed eight who worships a green glass container because she thinks her used-to-be husband's going to float out of it. Crazy woman. Mentally marble-headed woman. That was what Anna's mind whispered every time she thought of Robert dying or leaving. But they wouldn't laugh. They wouldn't laugh or smirk or say a syllable, the mental guards or the neighbors, they'd just wonder what that bottle was. Everyone'djust wonder what was so special, so unique about that inexpensive object, but she would never tell. Because it was their bottle, all green and red and fine or all empty and scattered and pieced apart, it was their bottle whether they were together or not. And no one would ever understand. No one could ever understand that it gave her life, and whether she knew it or not, gave him life, too. And they'd never comprehend that the bottle, each identically sized and filled bottle that somehow all mentally emerged into one bottle, Anna and Robert together gave it life. But that was how it was. And that was that.O 13