46 CROSSROADS. A Journal of English Studies Michael W. Thomas Only a rose Only a rose in an area window telling the tale of a sportive yesterday or pressed in haste on someone by somebody else in a bar who’d been stood up but even so wished love to dance over the evening the rose knows nothing of what it was meant to say how it was dressed to say it all it wants is to sing back the glow of the moon which never says what it’s said to say either but happily listens while nosing apart the dark of the rose’s room fixing the way an old-gold blouse pours down the back of a chair the way a clock-hand tickles the low hours only a rose only a moon doing what nobody sees free from mortal chat of urge and contrition in all the old co-opted places platform calendar bluff THE WRITERS’ CORNER 47 THE WRITER’S CORNER if the rose dreams it’s of rain’s delirium arching clear of its birth-soil if the moon dreams it’s of birthing its own light no more the cold courier of sun-sweat Almost 1961 When you were young, a thousand helpless miles lay between, say, the tenth of December and Christmas—which stood there, mule-indifferent, knowing fine it had you fast in its heart, that even now you heard the morning roads, the last shunt in the fire-pluming night as other than the regulated drone your breath and bones were made of. Round the school, the stony faces of alcoved torment in Friday church, the iron air thinned out and lifted: something else drew on, ahead of fidget-arsed nativities, tea-towels on kingly crewcuts, cards of solder-glue. Time softened, the blood rose to its face. Bells almost rang beneath the hoosh of buses, the clouds were undersides of magic ways where angels got into first position, shepherds took form in sputnik-space, prepared to be unprepared, mithering, scared stiff. Then all at once the last Wednesday of term 48 CROSSROADS. A Journal of English Studies with the ex-Navy barber (Dads and Lads), and you high in the chair, buffed, clippered, set to meet the only land you loved. Mirrored, the brushings of the dead year fell like snow. Travellers They are made of mist, a seasoned need to step light and thin round the mires of the world. The ends of unlettered roads will find them, possibly, if a caravan rocks its green roof, betrays that it is not after all the high skirt of midsummer. But the first steeps of autumn draw them out: to the broads of grass, say, beside a rat-run island. Bits of them appear with the middle days of October: a bassinette against a wheel, tarped horses posted up and back, a pot to simmer the damps of another year going. Bargees, they could be, but with a course laid secret through the earth. Windscreens show them seeming to be about themselves on the usual levels of the day. Only someone in the back, maybe, with a child’s distaste for wherefores, might see them truly, flowing where they stand, their past dropped over a tailboard, the future not even the first twitch of a dream.