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What is the Good of the “Examined Life”? Some Thoughts 
on the Apology and Liberal Education 

BRIAN SATTERFIELD

Villanova University

Advocates of liberal education often hold up the Apology of Socrates as a 
model for how to understand its aims and practice. But what, really, is the 
good of the “examined life” that Socrates preaches? In the brief essay that 
follows I offer some reflections about how we might understand the value 
of knowledge of ignorance.

…of all things it is just this that is most difficult to persuade you …
that the unexamined life is not worth living for a human being.

The Apology of Socrates 37e4-a6

Thoughtfulness can be paralyzing—so much so that it can bring life 
to a stop. In his Confessions, Tolstoy describes the experience of crip-
pling perplexity that came to him more and more frequently as he grew 
older, making it all but impossible to complete even the most ordinary 
tasks:

…five years ago (1874) a strange state of mind-torpor began at times to 
grow upon me. I had moments of perplexity, of a stoppage, as it were, 
of life, as if I did not know how I was to live, what I was to do. I began 
to wander, and was a victim to low spirits. This, however, passed, and 
I continued to live as before. Later, these periods of perplexity grew 
more and more frequent, and invariably took the same form. During 
their continuance the same questions always presented themselves to 
me: “Why?” and “What after?” … I became aware that this was not a 
mere passing phase of mental ill-health, but that the symptoms were of 
the utmost importance, and that if these questions continued to recur 
I must find an answer to them. (Tolstoy 1901, 73)

“My life,” Tolstoy goes on, “had come to a sudden stop. I was able to 
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but there was no real life in me.”  Despite his wealth, his consciousness 
of literary success, and a life in other respects comfortable and pleasant, 
he began to think of suicide. “Why?” and “What after?” the author of 
War and Peace and Anna Kerenina found himself wondering. In low 
spirits, it was as if he did not know how to live, he wrote, the experi-
ence, one of stoppage.

Is it perverse to wonder whether the goal of liberal education is to  
inflict such stoppage on our students? Parents and administrators, sure-
ly, would feel unease at any handling of the young that aims to induce 
“low spirits” and “wandering” (let alone thoughts of suicide). And 
yet the questions that the older Tolstoy describes himself as paralyzed 
by are patently Socratic—questions that lie at the center of almost 
any description of liberal education. Their effect on Tolstoy, indeed,  
reminds us of Meno’s description of Socrates. Socrates, says Meno, is 
like a “torpedo fish” (Meno 80 a-b), a kind of electric eel that shocks 
those it comes into contact with, temporarily leaving them paralyzed, 
torpid regarding matters that they had previously believed they knew 
with certainty.  To be questioned by Socrates, Meno suggests, is to be 
made to feel one’s own ignorance regarding the most important ques-
tions; and it stings. 

 What value could there possibly be in being brought to a stop in this 
way, one wonders? Especially if reflection turns out to be—as Tolstoy’s 
words seem to forebode—antithetical to life? As described by Tolstoy, 
Socratic stoppage is the experience of pain and paralysis, of a loss of 
mental health and even the will to live. And yet, strangely, both he and 
Socrates considered the experience invaluable, in some sense central 
to a fully human life. Speaking in the Apology, Socrates claims that a 
life lacking in such self-examination is “not worth living for a human  
being,” while to “examine oneself and others,” re-raising on a daily 
basis the question of how one ought to live, is the “greatest good for a 
human being” (Apology 37e3-a8). The characterization is stark, redo-
lent with uncomfortable implications: most human beings, Socrates 
implies, live lives in which self-examination plays little or no role—
and to that extent are “not worth living for a human being.” Placed on 
trial for his life’s activity, indeed, Socrates identifies the jury’s refusal to  
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and a fortiori the real reason for his having been convicted.  
In truth, parents and administrators need hardly worry: if the chief 

objection to liberal education were that it induces “wandering” and 
“low spirits,” we could defend it beautifully by pointing out how sel-
dom it succeeds. The inherent difficulty of breaking through is simply 
too great, and though made worse by the distractions of technology, 
the problem is not a new one. Throughout the Platonic dialogues Soc-
rates continually bumps into characters who in one way or another 
are temporarily struck by him—but ultimately bounce off as though 
he were a species of slippery rock, unharmed (largely—Socrates had at 
least two spectacular failures), but also unchanged in any fundamen-
tal way. On the other hand, the fact that students are seldom really 
harmed by it is not a defense for it either.

The defensibility of liberal education looks even worse when one con-
siders that it has no obvious products: where technical education can 
point to skills or information successfully transmitted and acquired, 
the effects of liberal education are largely invisible, difficult to measure. 
One can usually tell from essays whether a student can think, or write; 
and from conversations whether someone is familiar with good books.  
But the bare utility of these skills is doubtful. And if the goal were sim-
ply to prepare students to win employment, the passing on of minimal 
communications skills could probably be accomplished adequately in 
other ways.  

What, then, does one respond to a student who asks, perhaps not 
even closed-mindedly, but with real failure to understand, “Why would 
I want to do that?” The very question bespeaks a set of attitudes, of 
course, a confidence, bordering on certitude, that the basic supposi-
tions by which they live are adequate. Not infrequently, this certainty 
is accompanied by an unarticulated mistrust of reason, a deep reluc-
tance to believe that it could interrogate or even evaluate conflicting 
teachings about how to live well. Even more fundamentally, such stu-
dents tend not to see themselves as products of any particular teaching 
or tradition which might have shaped them in ways that are not easy to 
see, but instead regard their choices as wholly their own.   

And yet, the question deserves an answer: what good does one get 
from the “examined life”? The phrase itself is suggestive—if problem-



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atic. It suggests that the primary task of philosophy, or at least Socratic 
philosophy, is to examine or interrogate the fundamental standards by 
which one lives. In that sense, Socratic philosophy differs from pre- and 
much post- Socratic philosophy in that it aims, not to give an account 
of the whole, but of how men ought to live. Even so, “examination” 
could mean a number of things. As one of my students pointed out last 
semester, the Catholic practice of confession is one kind of examining 
one’s life. At regular intervals it requires one to hold up one’s actions 
to scrutiny, acknowledge one’s failures, repent sincerely, receive for-
giveness, and then resolve to “go and sin no more.” A morally serious 
life, the Church fathers concluded, is impossible without regular and 
unflinching self-assessment.  

It is likely that Socrates would have concurred in the importance of 
such self-examination. Time and again, in both Plato and Xenophon, 
he is depicted as calling people to account for their failures to abide by 
standards that they themselves recognize as authoritative. An Alcibi-
ades, a Critias, or even Socrates’ own sons, if we are to believe Plato and 
Xenophon, were the frequent targets of stinging rebukes in which he 
exhorted them to live up to their own notions of virtuous behavior. 

And yet, in the end, it does not seem that this is what Socrates 
meant by “examination.” Rather, he seems to have meant, not only 
that one should assess how one is doing in relation to standards that 
are recognized as authoritative, but that these standards themselves 
should be interrogated. “Has one, under a given set of circumstances,  
behaved justly?” is a question incumbent upon a morally serious person.   
“What, for that matter, is justice?” is a question for the philosopher.

The two do not obviously go together. One can be morally serious, 
one might think, without being philosophical. A man who has never 
reflected systematically can nevertheless perform actions of heroism, 
justice, or self-sacrifice. Even simple—which is to say unreflective—
decency properly compels respect. Equally, one can be inquisitive, even 
a brilliant inquirer, without evincing any particular concern for the 
morality of one’s own behavior.

And yet, perhaps the two are not as separable as they first appear. The 
morally serious man can, at times, be guilty of horrors, all the worse for 
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in that they can be prepared to sacrifice their lives in the service of goals 
larger than themselves. And yet, the goodness of the goals actually mat-
ters; in that sense, it is essential for moral seriousness, if it is even to 
be what it is, that it be joined to a degree of reflectiveness. Skepticism, 
doubt—stoppage—may, in that sense, be no more than proof of sanity 
or humanity. Indeed, in one place in the Apology Socrates says plainly 
that those politicians he encountered who were not disposed to believe 
that they knew were “more decent” (Apology 22a).  

Conversely, it seems that inquiry that is not morally serious is unlikely 
to be genuinely inquisitive. One must, in effect, have some sense that 
the questions that we are asking have real import for how we are to live 
before we are likely to take them seriously. “What is truth?” asks Pilate; 
it is doubtful whether any character in the history of literature can have 
been sketched so completely in three words. 

Even if one is prepared to accept the proposition that moral seri-
ousness and authentic philosophical inquisitiveness are not even what 
they are apart from one another, however, their union is a problem, 
both theoretically and practically. The point is demonstrated, as Hegel 
pointed out, in Socrates’ efforts to transmit philosophy: having set his 
students the example of morally serious inquisitiveness, he was unable 
to transmit their conjoined-ness. It was, thus, no accident that Socrates 
became the father of the Stoics on the one hand, and the Skeptics on 
the other. The Stoics, seeing only his ethical side, interpreted his legacy 
as one of ethical and moral practice—of philosophy as therapeia, mean-
ing tendence of the soul in the light of criteria not themselves subjected 
to doubt. Most of the time, the Stoics appear to have concluded, we 
already know what needs to be done; the problem is that we fail to do 
it. The Academic Skeptics, on the other hand, lost sight of Socrates’ 
essential concern with moral questions, setting aside moral seriousness 
in favor of suspensions and doubt, “ephexis.” When we use the phrase 
“it’s academic,” we pay them tribute.

And yet, is it so clear that the moral standards by which we live 
and call for, even require philosophic reflection?  In a recent article in 
the New York Times entitled “The End of Philosophy,” David Brooks 
argued that everything we really need to know—about right, wrong, 
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Moral judgments are like that. They are rapid intuitive decisions and 
involve the emotion-processing parts of the brain. Most of us make 
snap moral judgments about what feels fair or not, or what feels good 
or not. We start doing this when we are babies, before we have lan-
guage. And even as adults, we often can’t explain to ourselves why 
something feels wrong. (Brooks 2009, A29)

The moral standards by which we judge, researchers are concluding 
(claims Brooks), are probably innate, the product of evolution. We do 
not reflect rationally when we make decisions; we judge, acting on the 
basis of beliefs that we have internalized since infancy. Moral vision, 
to that extent, is largely intuitive; and philosophy, Brooks claims, is 
thereby rendered unnecessary.

Brooks’s main point is silly, of course. Even if what he is saying about 
evolution were true, it would not remove the phenomenon of the ethi-
cal dilemma, nor would it account for the fact that in making big deci-
sions people actually do sit down and think hard. Though he is loathe 
to admit it, even the most thoughtless life has a role for rationality. 
And yet Brooks does make one worthwhile point: that most of what 
we do is guided by internalized ethical assumptions. It is, however, a 
point that was known to Aristotle before it was “discovered” by “evo-
lutionary researchers”; for as Aristotle understood, ethical dispositions 
(hexeis) are not rote habituations; they are seeing and judging disposi-
tions.1 To be morally virtuous requires not only habituation through 
action; rather, through familiarity with ethical actions one’s vision for 
the ethical—especially the noble (to kalon)—is sharpened.    

The question, thus, is not whether our actions are largely guided by 
implicit accounts—of course they are—but rather how good, or bad, 
those accounts may be taken to be. The fundamental assumption of 
students who do not want to reflect (or Brooks) is that their start-
ing assumptions are good enough. There is, they seem to feel, little 
danger that they could waste their lives, or again, be guilty of really 
catastrophic missteps.  

This position—that conventional wisdom is sufficient for the recog-
nizing of good and bad—deserves, I suspect, more respect than Soc-
rates gives it in his mid-Apology exchange with Meletus. For Socrates’ 
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know enough about Meletus to dismiss him as a trivial human being, 
as does Socrates; or again, that Socrates’ “demonstration” that Meletus 
“doesn’t care” succeeds. Put on the spot by Socrates, he claims, first, 
that the laws of Athens improve the youth, and subsequently, that or-
dinary Athenians do. And what Meletus seems to mean is that average 
Athenians know enough about just and unjust, good and bad. These 
are not fundamentally matters of expertise, but learned in childhood 
(perhaps in much the same way that children learn to speak a lan-
guage). Is this such a bad view, then? Or is it rather the view behind our 
own penal laws, as well as the moral censure that we deal out so freely?  
When someone has murdered, stolen, or cheated, we are prepared to 
say of the guilty person, not that he was insufficiently philosophical, 
but that he ought to have known better. The difficulty is similar with 
Socrates’ “demonstration” that Meletus has not reflected on the ques-
tion of who improves the youth; is it at all self-evident that someone 
who has not reflected on precisely this question does not care?

To suggest—as Socrates does in his reply—that such questions are 
fundamentally a matter of expertise, on the other hand, raises disquiet-
ing, seemingly absurd possibilities. For if questions of just and unjust, 
good and bad, are subjects for experts, then most of us, not being ex-
perts, are likely to get it wrong. While we are perfectly prepared to 
recognize expertise in other fields, however, something in us strongly 
resists doing so in questions of this kind—not least because of the scope 
of the consequences. Could it really be the case that most human beings 
lack the knowledge necessary to live well? And—as the necessary corol-
lary seems to demand—that to take one’s bearings by the conventional 
opinions on such a question would be to make of one’s life a disaster? 

Students have a hard time with this proposition. It takes a certain 
amount of effort, for instance, to wrest from them any acknowledge-
ment that it is possible to waste one’s life. “How can you ever judge 
another person’s life wasted?” is a typical response. “Well, stop thinking 
about others for a moment,” is my own. “Would you agree that you 
could waste your own life, say, by becoming a drug addict, squander-
ing your talents, never loving another human being, and in one way 
or another, destroying yourself, slowly or quickly?” For most, this is a 
possibility they can envision; and once they can acknowledge it in their 



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own case, they are at least sometimes willing to pay others the courtesy 
of setting aside blind tolerance. 

Such possibilities are, however, nowhere near as terrifying as the ones 
that Socrates seems to have in mind. For while utter dissipation—
through drug addiction or whatever—is an obvious path to self- 
destruction, the paths he has in mind are more horrifying, because 
they are more insidious. The most horrifying possibility of all, for  
instance, is that one could live out an entire life without sensing that 
something is wrong—only to discover on one’s deathbed that one had 
gotten it completely wrong, that one had thought one was living well, 
but in fact doing everything backwards. Could this ever really happen? 
Students, being young, have a hard time believing it, tending to think 
that one knows immediately and infallibly whether one is happy. To 
combat that mistake I have found the Tolstoy novella, The Death of 
Ivan Ilych, helpful.

Short, but remarkably powerful, the novella was written after Tolstoy 
had his crisis, and has all the hallmarks of a man who has been asking 
himself “Why?” and “What after?” It tells the story of an unreflective 
man, a judge, who has lived a life that is in all outward respects sol-
idly successful. Married, the father of children, he has had an impres-
sive career, and built a home both elegant and comfortable. Had he 
been asked, he would have said—and without hesitation—that he was 
happy, having achieved everything that a successful life should aim at.  
Climbing a ladder one day, he stumbles and bumps his hip. And—as 
my nursing students have told me can happen—the bruise develops 
into a cancer. From the peak of health, Ivan Ilych begins to waste slow-
ly, dying before his own eyes. The result, as Tolstoy tells us, was that 
something in him—his soul—began urging questions on him:

“What is it you want?” was the first clear conception capable of expres-
sion in words, that he heard “What do you want? What do you want?” 
he repeated to himself.
“What do I want? To live and not to suffer,” he answered.
And again he listened with such concentrated attention that even his 
pain did not distract him.
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“Why, to live as I used to—well and pleasantly.”
“As you lived before, well and pleasantly?” the voice repeated.
And in imagination he began to recall the best moments of his pleas-
ant life. But strange to say none of those best moments of his pleasant 
life now seemed at all what they had then seemed—none of them 
except the first recollections of childhood. There, in childhood, there 
had been something really pleasant with which it would be possible to 
live if it could return. But the child who had experienced that happi-
ness existed no longer, it was like a reminiscence of somebody else.
As soon as the period began which had produced the present Ivan 
Ilych, all that had then seemed joys now melted before his sight and 
turned into something trivial and often nasty. (Tolstoy 2004, 294)

The voice of Ivan Ilych’s soul is horrifying because it speaks truth—
not propositional truth that elicits premises and deductions, but the 
truth of the mirror. It does not argue; it refutes by sounding Ivan’s own 
words back to him, making their full emptiness evident. Even alone, 
sick, and armored by a lifetime’s habits of evasion and self-protection, 
Ivan cannot fail—once he has been pushed to articulate what he really 
wants—to hear the hollowness in it, and rethink. 

For us, thinking about the question of whether it is possible, even 
easy, to waste one’s life, Ivan Ilych offers one powerful illustration. Just 
taking the conventional views of things at face value, Tolstoy suggests, 
will all but guarantee a wasted life, because the conventional opin-
ions necessarily arise out of falseness and inauthenticity—out of a host 
of social hypocrisies, and especially what Tolstoy characterizes as the  
innate human desire for comfort, the desire not to be shaken up, both-
ered, embarrassed, or hurt. To strive for success, to live for what the 
world considers good and names “correct,” is the surest way to shut 
down the authentic voice of the soul—and we get better at it with 
time. For Tolstoy, adulthood is one long education in hypocrisy. The 
further Ivan Ilych departed from childhood, Tolstoy writes, the more 
and more he now realized how worthless and doubtful were the things 
he had believed to be joys. “It is as if I had been going downhill while 
I imagined I was going up. And that is really what it was. I was going 
up in public opinion, but to the same extent life was ebbing away from 
me. And now it is all done and there is only death.” What might he 



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have done differently? A thought occurs to him:
“Maybe I did not live as I ought to have done,” it suddenly occurred to 
him. “But how could that be, when I did everything properly?” he re-
plied, and immediately dismissed from his mind this, the sole solution 
of all the riddles of life and death, as something quite impossible.

 (Tolstoy 2004, 295)
It is hard, of course, to know what such an amended life might have 

looked like. Perhaps, given a second chance, Ivan might have pursued 
a more genuine love with his wife and children, greater seriousness in 
religion, work that would allow him to live more humanly. But one 
thing is certain: such a life could never have come into being as long 
as the habits of complacency and self-protection, the love of comfort, 
both physical and psychological, had governed his soul. In some ways, 
the worst tragedy of Ivan Ilych’s life was that he never experienced the 
kind of life-changing tragedy—stoppage—that might have led him to 
assess his life anew. A life without such suffering might be the worst 
deprivation of all. 

Key to such a reassessment, Tolstoy seems to be suggesting, is the 
awareness of death. And again, the sentiment is hardly a new one. 
“Teach us to number our days,” says the psalmist (Psalms 90:12)—the 
point being that to live a worthwhile life requires keeping before the 
mind’s eye an acute consciousness of its brevity and finitude. To be 
aware of its shortness is to invest our living with new demands for 
meaningfulness, an impatience of the trivial, the distracting. These  
demands are potentially manifested in everything that we do. “Whatso-
ever thy hand findeth to do, do it with thy might; for there is no work, 
nor device, nor knowledge, nor wisdom, in the grave, whither thou 
goest” (Ecclesiastes 9:10). Paradoxically, and as all of the great teachers 
appear to have concluded, living well is the practice of learning to die.

That it is possible, even easy, to misspend one’s life is a sobering 
proposition; and if Tolstoy—or the Bible, or indeed, almost any of the 
books in the Western canon—is right, it is not only easy, it is the natu-
ral way of things. Left to themselves, denied the experience of being 
brought to a halt, human beings seek the way of least resistance. Man 
may be born to trouble as the sparks fly upward; but left to himself he 
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the context for rethinking when it comes, it would have done much. 
If it provided the experience of being brought to a halt—of stoppage—
early and hard, it would have done more. 

And yet, in the end the overlap between Socrates and Tolstoy is only 
partial; for to say that the reason for examining one’s life is not to mis-
spend it is to miss the more problematic dimension of Socrates’ claim; 
it is to transform Socrates’ practice into an essentially utilitarian activ-
ity, good because of its possible benefits or outcomes. It is to trivialize 
Socratic philosophy by turning it into a species of self-help. Having re-
flected and come to better views of what one ought to aim at, it implies, 
we should set aside reflection and examination, and get on with leading 
our new, more meaningful lives. So seen, reflection may be a necessary 
preliminary—especially in corrupt places and times—but it is ultimately 
only preparation for life, not life itself.  

Socrates’ own words are more challenging, and for two reasons. The 
first is that thinking things over seems to be, for Socrates, not a means 
to an end, but an end itself. It is, he says—astonishingly—not the 
practice of virtue that is the greatest good for a human being, but talk-
ing about virtue in the course of every day. This proposition is only 
defensible, I suggest, if talking about virtue is virtue. Virtue, Socrates 
seems to be suggesting, is necessarily actively self-reflective, the eye 
seeing itself seeing. Something about this tends to stick in the craw of 
students. For not only do many of them not see themselves as espe-
cially interested in thinking, but the demands that Socrates seems to 
place on them—that they suspend concerns for advancement, family, 
and personal lives while they enter upon a course of questioning that 
will ultimately prove inconclusive—seem extreme, even perverse. The 
natural tendency is to dismiss by becoming “reasonable,” temporizing.   
Sure, some reflection is good; but Socrates takes it too far. “Shouldn’t 
he be supporting his children?” is a common question.  

Reinforcing this objection is a second: if Socrates himself is a model 
of the kind of examination that he urges on others, his lifetime of 
inquiry appears remarkably unsuccessful. Having constantly engaged 
in discussions about virtue, he seems by the time of his trial to have 
learned nothing. All he has achieved, on his own account, is knowledge 
of his ignorance. The prospect of spending one’s life in unpleasant (as 



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students think) and fruitless inquiry—inquiry which does not even 
pretend to hold out the possibility of answers—is disheartening. And 
some, understandably enough, lose interest as soon as it becomes clear 
that there is no concrete prize or reward at the end. The natural ques-
tion of the student—“what am I going to get out of this?”—has no 
answer that the soul disposed to ask it in the first place is going to rec-
ognize as satisfactory; reflection and self-knowledge are not products, 
but processes, or rather activities. One does not, in thinking about 
Socratic questions, typically get a final answer; one gets—at best—
understanding of possibilities.

Is there, then, no way to communicate the goodness of the “exam-
ined life” to someone who does not already understand? At bottom,  
I doubt whether any better answer can be given than that thoughtful-
ness, awareness, and understanding—even where these are of unsettled 
questions or problems—are choiceworthy for their own sake. How-
ever unpleasant, even antithetical, to easy, comfortable living such con-
sciousness may be, it is the fullest expression of our human being. To 
persuade every student that that consciousness is not some aberration 
is not going to happen; the forces of self-love, complacency, and simple 
laziness are too human. What one can do is show them the stake—and 
hope they respond.

Notes

1. My colleague, Dr. Jonathan Yates, points out to me the remarkable similarity 
with Hebrews 5:14.

References

Brooks, David

2009 The End of Philosophy. New York Times April 7.

Tolstoy, Leo

1904 Confessions.  In The Life and Teaching of Leo Tolstoy: A Book of Extracts. Tr. 
with an Intro. London: G.H. Perris. 

2004 The Death of Ivan Ilych. In Great short works of Leo Tolstoy. Tr. Louise 
Shanks Maude, Aylmer Maude.  New York: HarperCollins.


