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genesis-23096	Chopra, Natasha	DOES GRIEVING EVER END OR DO ITS INSTANCES JUST GROW FURTHER AND FURTHER APART	2019	1	.pdf	application/pdf	277	4	34	i did not realize that choosing this dupatta led to such a strict cleaning regiment, did not realize i had to ration out my laundry, dirty it only so much before it started fading, slipping through my royal blue nails, the weight of commitment rests heavily on my lungs; i wonder if dadi ever cringed when i called her sarees dupattas or the other way around, but the more i think about her, the more she fractures, the more she fades, i didn’t realize i had to ration out my grief, didn’t realize i had such a strict schedule to mourn her, i wonder if she’s even there at all or if she washed out over time, becoming only a ghost i wish i could be haunted by. - 62 - DOES GRIEVING EVER END OR DO ITS INSTANCES JUST GROW FURTHER AND FURTHER APART Natasha Chopra the indigo dye of my new dupatta rubs off on my fingertips, turning the white strips of my nails a faded royal blue; i wonder if dadi ever wore this color, wonder if her hands ever looked like mine, wonder if she knew the last time we spoke would be the last time we spoke; i remember in college, i learned that every time you think of a memory, you only think of the last time you remembered it, you remember only its ghost.	cache/genesis-23096.pdf	txt/genesis-23096.txt