Layout 1 Amid tragedy, a doctor’s most heroic act may be to listen - to be a sacred witness to the suffering of patients. Yet where do heroic doctors go with their pain? Who lis- tens to the suffering of physicians? The guilt of not being able to do more for patients. The burden of delivering dev- astating news to families. The work-related anxiety and depression due to unrealistic expectations of perfection- ism. Few venues exist for medical students and physicians to share their uncensored lived experiences. Welcome to a special issue of Qualitative Research in Medicine and Healthcare dedicated to physician mental health and the unexplored lives of our wounded healers. Doctor suicide has been a well-hidden occupational hazard of the medical profession for more than a century. Though students enter medicine with their mental health on par with or better than their peers, they are up to three times more likely to kill themselves according to the American Medical Student Association. In some resi- dency programs 75% of interns meet criteria for major de- pression. We know that suicide risk increases with untreated mental illness. Physicians who die by suicide are less likely to be receiving mental health care compared with non-physician suicides. In fact, doctors are more likely to self-medicate for anxiety, depression, and suici- dality - with tragic outcomes. Why? Here physicians share their personal journeys with anxiety, depression, PTSD, and suicide amid life-and- death decisions for patients - and themselves. Some doc- tors have prevailed. Others have been injured by the very agencies claiming to support them. A few have lost careers due to seeking help for occupationally induced mental health wounds. So how do we harness health in a system that under- mines the mental health of our healers? Well - meaning medical institutions offer physician wellness activities with ice cream, yoga, and chamomile tea, yet these pro- grams have been less effective at addressing the vicarious trauma doctors sustain from helping victims of child abuse, domestic violence, and social injustice. To create a culture of wellness in medicine, simple foundational so- lutions are proposed and celebrated here such as the recent decision by the National Board of Medical Examiners to change the United States Medical Licensing Examination from a numeric grade to pass/fail and the Federation of State Medical Board’s decision to remove questions from licensing applications that may violate the Americans with Disabilities Act. Eradicating mental health stigma from within medi- cine allows our healers to receive the non-punitive psy- chological support they require - and as a result we all benefit. May you enjoy this unique opportunity to explore physician psychology. Introduction to the Special Issue on Physician Mental Health Pamela Wible Family Physician, Founder Ideal Medical Care, Eugene, OR, USA Correspondence: Pamela Wible, P.O. Box 5225, Eugene, OR 97405, USA. Tel.: +1.541.345.2437. E-mail: roxywible@comcast.net Received for publication: 29 October 2019. Accepted for publication: 12 November 2019. This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution Non- Commercial 4.0 License (CC BY-NC 4.0). ©Copyright: the Author(s), 2019 Licensee PAGEPress, Italy Qualitative Research in Medicine & Healthcare 2019; 3:98 doi:10.4081/qrmh.2019.8922 [page 98] [Qualitative Research in Medicine & Healthcare 2019; 3:8922] Qualitative Research in Medicine & Healthcare 2019; volume 3:98 No n- co mm er cia l u se on ly