living up to billy [illustration: "i near went nutty, and made an awful fool of myself."--page 137] living up to billy by elizabeth cooper author of "my lady of the chinese courtyard," "sayonara," etc. [illustration] new york frederick a. stokes company publishers _copyright, 1915, by_ frederick a. stokes company living up to billy i _dear kate_: two years! only two years, what do you think of it! why, when i heard the judge say two years, i nearly fell off the bench. you were caught with the goods, and he had your record with its two stretches right before him, yet he only gave you two years. you told me yourself you thought you would get at least five. we tried to dope it out up to the room, and kind of figured that he had it in for the prosecuting attorney, and you got the benefit. well, if you ain't singing to-night in the tombs, you orter be. and two years, old girl, will go by so quick that when you see the lights of broadway again, you won't even see a change. you can get a lot off for good behavior, and you know how to work all the con games there is to be worked, so as it will make it easy for you, cause it ain't as if it was your first time. put on a good face, and don't get sulky and you will be out before you have time to remember you was ever sent up. now, i will come up and see you just as often as i can, and i will get you a letter regular once a month anyway, and i will tell you all that is doing. oh, kate, it kinda breaks me all up to think of you being put away again. you're all i got, and i don't know what i will do without you. that last stretch of yours i nearly died. you and me have just got each other and we have been mighty close, more so than most sisters i think. you have not always treated me white, sometimes you have been mean, but it was not your fault. i suppose it is hard in a girl like you to have a sister left on her hands, and i was only a kid when you had to take me over and was lots of trouble to you. you have been good in your way, and kate, i want you to know when you are setting alone at night, that i am just counting the days till you come back to me. yours, _nan_. ii _dear kate_: i didn't write you before cause i wanted to be able to tell you what we are going to do about the kid. jim was up and we talked it all over and i said i would take him. i don't want none of jim's friends to have him cause he ain't no good, kate, and i have always told you so. i made him promise if i take billy that he will leave him alone. i won't have him hanging around and i don't want billy to see nothing more of him than he has to. i blame him for all that has come to you. before you married him and got in with his crowd, you was on the level, but--it ain't no use kicking now, it is all done; only i want him to keep his hands off billy. there is a roomer on the floor below that has got a little girl who will come in and kinda look after billy when i am out. i can take him out for a walk every day and perhaps i can get him in one of those kids' schools for two or three hours in the afternoon. jim brought him up at night, and he was all sleepy and soft and warm and cuddled up to me just like a little kitten. i never noticed before how pretty he was, but i watched him as he lay there with his red lips half open and his long black lashes laying on his cheeks and his hair all curling around his face, and i just could not go to sleep for looking at him. he is too pale, i think. seems to me he ought to have more color in his cheeks. i suppose it is cause he hasn't had enough outdoor exercise that babies should have. roomers should not have kids. it don't seem just right to shut a baby up in four walls when he would like to run and play outside with other young things. but i am going to do the best i can by him, so don't you worry, he will be all right. jim is pretty sore about you getting pinched, and says he is going to leave town. the crowd is kinda scared, and i think they are going to scatter. irene went to st. louis the other day, cause she said the cops are getting too familiar with her face. i told the whole bunch what i thought of them, and that they had better clear out. do you remember jenny kerns? she was that little blond that use to clerk in siegel's store. she has got the room right next to me, and say, she is awful sick. i have been setting up nights with her till i am dippy for want of sleep. i think she is all in. i didn't let her know it, but i have sent for her mother. i snooped around her place the other night till i found her mother's address, and i wrote her a letter telling her just how jenny was, and that some one orter come and get her. jenny would kill me if she knew it, cause she don't want her folks to know what she is doing, but it seems too bad to have her die here alone in a rotten little room on 28th street when she has got a mother, who, no matter what she has done, would be glad to see her. say what you will kate, girls that have got mothers have a darned sight better chance than girls like you and me who was brought up on the street, and when she gets sick and lonely, no matter how tough she has been, if she can reach out her hand and touch her mother, she can sort of begin over again. i have been learning a lot of the new dances, and fred stillman and me took the prize the other night for the best hesitation waltz. i am going to try to get a job dancing in one of the restaurants. i am tired working like a dog in these cheap theatres, and i know i can dance as well as any girl on broadway. a crowd of us blew in the other night at that big dance hall at 59th street, and everybody stopped to watch me and fred. it kinda makes you feel good to know you can do anything well, if it is only tangoing, and i do love it! when i get a good partner it seems to me i hear voices calling, and the music ain't made just by some niggers in the corner, but it is just something speaking to me and something inside of me answers and i forget i am in a hall with a lot of people looking at me, i am just a dancing by myself to the things i hear. jim says you have fixed it with a guard so as you can get all the letters you want. i can't slip you over twenty dollars a month to save my soul. that orter be able to fix him enough, but if it ain't, let me know, cause you know kate, you can have every dollar i make except just enough to keep the kid a going, if it will make things easier for you. get me out a letter whenever you can. remember i am always thinking of you. _nan_. iii _dear kate_: i told you, didn't i, of sending for jenny kerns' mother. well, she come and she was just the kind you read about in story books. the moment i opened the door i knew who she was and i took her in my room and had her take her hat off and smooth her hair and try to make it easy about jenny. i told her she had been working too hard, and had caught cold and that if she was took home where she had the right kind of things to eat and real nursing, not just us girls going in when we had the time, that she would soon get all right. the mother could hardly wait until i had finished, and she sort of trembled all over. when i took her into jenny's room, jenny was laying with her eyes shut, not asleep, but just like she lays most of the time, and she looked so white and little and her lashes were so black against her white face, that i could see it went right into that mother's heart. she went up to the bed, and put her arms around jenny, and her face against hers, and said, "my little girl, mother's own little girl," and then i left, 'cause i am kinda soft, and i could see it was the hose cart for me. in about half an hour, i went in to see if they was hungry, and jenny was laying there with her mother's hand in hers looking as if she had found peace. i just wanted to put my arms around that little old fashioned woman and cry. you know, style don't seem to count when it is your mother. the old lady is going to stay until jenny is better, then they are going home, and i hope we will never see jenny again. being a chorus girl ain't her place. she belongs in a little town playing the church organ. but say, you would laugh to see the old lady. she don't fit in a rooming house in 28th street. she has a nice, sweet, old face and she combs her hair back from it, parted in the middle, and she smiles at all of us in a loving way, cause she thinks we have been good to jenny. and the girls! it is funny to see them when they first blow into the room and run into her. they look as if they saw a ghost, and then they set back quiet, and let her talk. she tells them all about iowa or wherever it is she is from, and about jenny when she was a little girl, and her father and her two brothers, and how sorry they were when jenny come to new york to study music, but they didn't want to stand in her way. all the girls come in whenever they have a chance and bring jenny some little thing from the delicatessen or some plants or flowers. her room is awful pretty, cause they keep it just filled with flowers. mary callahan took the mother out the other afternoon to a moving picture show. she didn't want to leave jenny, but we told her she must get out a little or she would get sick too. mary said that everyone stared at her, and some of the crowd at the corner were going to guy her, but she gave them one look, and they said nothing. i stayed with jenny and she talked about her mother all the time that she was gone and about the home and the little berg where she comes from. she is crazy to get back, cause i think she knows it won't be for long, and she wants to pass in her checks with the folks around her. she said to me, "oh, nan, i have had my lesson, and it has cost me dear, but i won't kick, as i wouldn't have been satisfied till i had tried it." but i thought, if all the preachers could bring up a few girls who think they want to try the great white way, and let them take a good look at jenny, it would be better than all their sermons. any girl with half a brain would say, "oh, little oskaloosa is good enough for me." no, i won't bring billy up to see you, kate. he is big enough to remember things, and i don't want him to know what a prison is, and his first remembrance of his mother must not be that he saw her behind the bars. i know you want to see him and i can understand it, because i love him too, but i would die without ever touching his hand rather than ever let him see me in stripes. he will be five years old when you get out kate, and he grows cunninger each day. he don't look a bit like jim, has got our curly reddish hair, and his eyes are blue like yours instead of brown like mine. i suppose i orter have his hair cut, as it is so thick and curly, but i can't bear to, as it is the only thing he has of mine, and i like to look at it, and feel he is a little bit like me. i make him up a bed at night on the morris chair, cause jenny's mother sleeps with me, and do you know, at night when she is sound asleep if she hears jenny cough, she raises up and listens and if it don't stop right away, she slips out of bed and goes into her room. i tell you, i am going to have a mother some day if i have to get you to steal one for me. yours, _nan_. iv _dear kate_: i ain't wrote you for quite a time, cause i have been in a lot of trouble, and so busy and kinda tired out that any time i set down long enough to write a letter, i go to sleep. billy had an awful accident. i was making some hot chocklate in my room, and he pulled the pan over on him and burned his hand and arm and shoulder. i took him to st. vincent's hospital and they fixed him up, but said he didn't look well and i orter leave him there awhile. they put him in a ward with a lot of other babies, and i go every day to see him. he can set up now and play. i take him up something every time i go, and some things for the other kiddies too. there are twelve little tads in the room, and they are awful good when you think that they are sick. one little kid had both his hips broke, and he lies on his back with his feet in a sling that holds his legs straight up and he plays with his toys and talks to himself and never whimpers except when he sees the doctor come in the ward. then his face gets awful scared, and his eyes get big and black with a helpless look of fear in them, cause he knows the doctor means changing his bandages and that hurts. the doctors and the nurses talk and handle the children just as if they loved them. there is a little boy in the bed next to billy who is only six months older than billy, and he looks something like him. he has got billy's blond curls, and great big eyes, only he is much stronger. i suppose it is because he lives in the country. his mother is an english woman with an awful funny accent, but i like her real well. she lives out in new jersey, somewhere on a little farm. her kid is going to leave next week, and she asked me to bring billy and come and see her. i told her i would, but lord, i don't believe i know where new jersey is. when i come to think of it, i ain't never been even to hoboken. all the united states of america i know is bounded on the north by 59th street, and on the south by 14th street, on the east by third avenue, and the sun sets on seventh avenue for me. i never stopped to think that people lived anywhere else, but i suppose all these folks that we see chasing up and down with packages in their hands must be going somewhere. you know, kate, we ain't never been in the country in our lives. honest, i don't believe we have ever seen real grass and i never wanted to before, but when i saw the look in that little woman's face, and how different her baby was than billy, i kinda thought i would like to see how she lived. i wonder if country kids do have a better time than city kids? we had an awful good time, if doing just as you please is having a good time. do you remember how you used to shake my teeth out for following the hand organ men around town? it is funny we young ones didn't get run over or killed, the way we was always in the streets. it might have been all right, but i would hate to see billy bringing himself up the way i did. oh, kate, he is the cutest thing! he has a cot in the corner of the room facing the doorway, and i step in the door and stand there a minute until he looks up, and then his face all changes and breaks in little dimples and smiles, and he holds out his arms to me and says, "nannie, my nannie is tum." why you know, i all choke up and i hold him close in my arms and talk to him and play with him until the nurse comes with their suppers, and all the visitors must leave. i go back to the room which is empty without him. it is funny what a change a baby brings to a place, and how it makes home out of a bum little six-dollar-a-week room. i didn't put his things away when he was took to the hospital, cause i like to see them laying around. his shoes look so funny under the bed setting by mine, and i got a lot of his clothes hanging up on a line behind the door. i washed lots of his clothes out myself, not so much to save the money as i like to be a doing something for him. i must say you dressed him nice, kate, his clothes looked so pretty when they was all ironed and hung up in a row and his funny little white stockings--don't he wear them out fast? when i undressed him at night, if there was a hole in his stocking, he would wiggle his little pink toe out of it and point to it and say, "naughty, naughty billy." the girls in the place were just crazy about him, but they gave him too much candy and fussed over him more than i liked, yet i hated to call them down, as the poor devils don't have a chance to see a baby often. mary callahan is sick. i want her to go to the hospital, but she won't do it. the other night coming home from the theatre in a lot of slush and snow, she caught an awful cold. she is all in. i fussed around her all morning and put a mustard plaster on her chest, which burned the skin all off and made her awful mad at me. she says she won't be able to cover it with make-up for a month, and it will mean a good fat call-down from the manager, but between you and me, she will have time to get a brand new skin before she will be able to show up at work again. well, so long, old girl. i must go to bed. gee, how i do miss billy. night-times i used to have to lift him over on his own side, cause he would lay cross wise on the bed, and when i would get in it would be all warm where his little body had been. oh, kate, he is the dearest kid! i bought him a funny little jumping jack to-day. you pull a string and a man's neck goes away out and i can just see billy's eyes and hear his funny laugh when he first sees him. _nan_. v _dear kate_: i got a lot to tell you cause things have shaken up a bit. do you remember that little english woman who had a baby in the hospital next to billy? well, i went out to see her one sunday. it was such a nice, warm spring day, just seemed as though i had to do something different, and the greatest shock i could give my system was to leave the pavements of new york for a time. i dressed billy in a blue velvet coat i bought at macy's, and he had on a blue hat over his little red curls, and his shoes had dark blue tassels on the front of them, and he looked cunning enough to eat. he was so proud of his tassels that he showed them to everybody in the street car and in the train. it took us almost two hours to get out there, and the people met us with a horse and buggy and drove us to their house. why, kate, i didn't know there was such places! the house is on a side hill with great trees around it, and in the front of it is a little lake with ducks and geese swimming on it. they had a great big stable opening on to a pasture where there was calves and cows and horses and pigs. i think i stood half an hour looking at the pigs. it is funny, but i always thought a pig a sort of a ham hanging up in the window of a delicatessen, instead of being a live, friendly animal that will come when you call it. there were a lot of chickens, white leghorns, i think the woman called them, and they looked friendly and home-like wandering around the place talking and singing to themselves like a bunch of happy women. mrs. smith let me feed them. she gave me a milk pan full of corn and told me to hit on its edge with a spoon, and they came flocking from every direction, some half flying, half running, as if they were afraid they would miss the party. they were so tame that i had to hold the pan up high to keep some of the sassy roosters from climbing into it. mrs. smith knows them all and can tell if one is missing, though they all look alike to me. she says she hates to kill them cause it seems like eating some of the family. her husband laughed and said, "i will tell you the tragedy of the wrong hen." he said, "you know once a week we have chicken pot pie, and for seven days mary goes mourning around wondering which one of her precious chickens she can part with,--and live. we hear the virtues and the vices of each old biddy, cause my wife loves each feather. the other day after heart breakening talks mary decided that peggy could be killed, and a motherly old hen who wanted to set should be tied up. we caught them at night and put a blue string on peggy, and a white string on the motherly hen, and tied them to the ice-house door. mary took an hour and a half to explain to me that the chicken with the blue string was to be eaten, and she of the white string was to be left tied to the ice-house door until her longings toward motherhood would stop. in the morning when i went out to see those chickens, blest if i could tell which was to be killed, and which was not, but i thought i would take my chance on the fattest, and i took her head off. i suppose you noticed mary's eyes--it was the wrong head." billy and the kid played out-doors all day and his face got sun burnt and his eyes sparkled, and he looked just like another baby. her boy is only six months older than billy, but he is so much bigger, and it just makes me sick to think i can't give this to billy and let him have a chance to grow up big and strong like other boys. all the way in on the train, i kinda cussed under my breath, to think i had to take him back to that dirty little room, and the girls who were always talking to him and feeding him things he orter not have, and him a hearing things that perhaps he will remember when he grows up, and it may make him do a lot of thinking by himself. i wish i could do something, but i don't know what i can do. i feel helpless, as if my hands was tied down by my sides, and i couldn't get them loose. good-bye, i am kinda sore to-night. seems to me we got in wrong somewhere, kate, and i don't know where nor how. it ain't your fault, and it ain't mine, but it don't seem to me we have had our chance like other women have. i saw a picture the other day on a calendar. it was a happy looking woman dressed in a long blue gown carrying a baby up a beautiful stairs with flowers everywhere, and they were looking over her shoulder at the father down below. now, can you imagine anything nicer than that to be in a home of your own with a pretty dress on, your baby in your arms, going to put it in its bed and your husband looking up at you proud? nothing to be ashamed of, and nothing to be afraid of. that is the biggest kind of heaven i know, but i guess it ain't for us. we got in wrong from the start, but oh, kate, i do wish things was different. i don't care so much for myself, but i do want to get billy out of this life where thieving and being a crook is the natural thing, and a person on the level is looked upon as being queer. sometimes when i see billy do some little thing or have a look in his face like jim, my heart most stops beating. i don't pray, but i do say, "oh, if there is such a thing as a god, don't let billy grow up like his father." and, there are a lot of your little ways that i would just as soon not see cropping out in him. well, good night, i am glad you are getting along so well. i can't send you any money this time, cause i am flat broke since i paid your storage bill, but i will give you twenty next month. do write me a decent letter, kate. your last letter was simply a touch from the beginning to the end, and between you and your friends, i am kept pretty well cleaned up. _nan_. vi _dear kate_: say, but i am a happy girl! what do you think, billy and me is in the country. i am going to stay a week, and billy is going to stay always, i hope. after i had made that first visit to mrs. smith, i kept seeing that place with the pigs and the chickens and the trees and the lake and the nice green grass and the kids rolling over on it, and the room here got smaller and hotter, and billy got whiter, and i felt i couldn't stand it, so i sat down and wrote mrs. smith, and asked her if she wouldn't take billy to board. she was real nice and came over to see me one day, and ended up by taking me and billy back with her. she asked me to stay a week so billy would get used to her and the place and not be lonesome. the manager kicked, but i said i was sick, and i got a week's leave. mrs. smith offered to take billy for nothing, but i wouldn't stand for that and we settled on $3.50 for his board. i offered to pay more, but she would not listen to me. she says he will be company for her baby, and that two is easier to take care of than one anyway. this life here don't seem real to me. i went to bed at nine o'clock, which i don't remember i have ever done in my life before. even as a kid i was on the streets until ten or eleven o'clock and, in the last three years, three in the morning has been my bye-bye time. i went up to a little room under the roof, and lay awake until almost morning, hearing such a lot of strange sounds that i was as nervous as a hen. there was a big tree by the corner of the house, and its branches would swish across the roof as if a ghost was trying to get in the window. talk about the quiet of a country night, i never heard so many sounds in all my life and they all seemed sad. the little frogs go chug, chug, as if their hearts was broken, and every once in a while, the tinkle of the cow-bell from some pasture down below, would come to me. there is a night bird called the whip-o-will that set in a tree up near the barn and called another one across the lake whose answer i could just hear. there is a funny animal up here called the bull-frog, who sets upon a log over at the back of the lake and hollars at his friends. the first time i heard them, it nearly scared a lung from me, but now i lie in bed and laugh when they commence. i thought the smiths were joshing me when they showed me the little thing that made such a big noise. wouldn't it be nice if we could make a noise as big according to our size as the bull-frog does to his? i know lots of people that i would like to sit on a log and hollar at. it seemed i had just shut my eyes when they called me to breakfast, but it was beautiful. we ate out in front of the kitchen door and saw a gray mist rise over the lake all turning to rose when the sun touched it. it looked like a pink silk dancing petticoat under a gray chiffon skirt. did you ever eat at a table under a great big tree looking out on the water? you know you eat different. you eat slow, and you think of the things you love, the things you have read about, and of what you would like to be. the toast seems crisper, and the coffee tastes better, and you forget the rotten crowd and old new york and the hot, dry streets and the childs restaurants and the dance halls and the whole bum world. then our evenings are so happy! we row around the lake and afterwards come home and water the flowers. we must pump the water from the pump in the kitchen and carry it in pails. i had one side of the lawn and mrs. smith had the other side, and last night my flowers took fifteen pails. it makes my back ache, and the pump coughs as if it had the t. b., but the flowers are so pretty, and they look so happy and so old fashioned in the big green tubs, that i am willing to do anything for them. mrs. smith has learnt me their names. there are pansies with purple and yellow faces, and proud red dahlias, and china astors and hollyhocks against the wall, and flox all mixed together in a way that shows, as mrs. smith says, that there is no social standing in the country. there are some poor tea roses that by mistake got planted in a bed of merrigolds, and they are not doing very well and act unhappy. each morning i go over them all and take away the foolish green worms that always crawl back in the night, although i throw them over the fence. then, when all the "chores," as mr. smith calls them are done, we shut the boat-house door and set on the veranda and watch the moon as it goes down over the tree tops. it shines so beautiful through the pine trees at the edge of the lake. everyone is quiet. even the babies snuggle down in our arms and stop their chattering. there are two great toads that live under the front veranda, who come out on the walk and look at each other as only toads in love can look, and there is a cricket in the tree down by the lake that calls to a lady cricket who lives over by the ice house. she answered lovingly for two evenings, but i guess now she is gone, and he sets in his lonely tree, and calls and calls, and no soft-voiced cricket says, "yes, dear." there is a loud-voiced cricket that sets near the boat-house door, and says, "come to me, come to me," and i fear my lady cricket has gone to him. then we take our little lamps and go to bed, and i have the baby near me if i want to speak to him. i use to have to read till i couldn't keep my eyes open any longer, but now sleep seems to come to me just like a friend. some way i feel that this is the right life, and if i only could live it long enough, i might become a woman after all. _nan_. vii _dear kate_: i have had the grandest week. it is billy's birthday, and i come out to stay two days with him and have stayed on and on and won't go back until next monday. i brought out both the kids a white pique suit and white shoes and stockings, and they look awful cunning. i always buy something for paul, because it seems kind of selfish to give to billy and not to the other one. i don't think the smiths have much money. he was a teacher in a school in england, and his health broke down and he come to america because he thought he could do better here, but i don't think every thing is going just as he thought it would. his brother is in australia, and is doing fine, and i guess they wish that they had gone there instead. he is an awful nice man and knows all about the birds, and the trees, and the flowers, and he tells it to me and it has changed lots of things for me, because i know all the sounds now and what they mean, and they talk to me instead of being just noises. i am learning to be a housekeeper, and "i help round," as mrs. smith says, all day. we washed monday and i never knew it took such work to just wash clothes. i have washed handkerchiefs and some of billy's things up in my room, but here we wash sheets and pillow cases and table clothes and shirt waists. talk about shirt waists! i use to tell mrs. murphy that did mine up, that she was an old thief, cause she charged me twenty cents for them, but now i know she earned her money all right. first mrs. smith soaked the clothes over night with some white powder in the water. then mr. smith fished the washing machine out of the lake where it was put where its seams would swell up, and i turned the handle of the thing, till i thought my arm would come off, but it was rather fun, as it was out-of-doors and i could watch the chip-monks as they come looking for scraps from the kitchen. there is some squirrels in the trees, and they look so pretty setting up on their haunches with their long bushy tails curled over their backs, nibbling away at a nut. if i lived in the country, i wouldn't keep a cat, because it kills the chip-monks and birds. the young black birds are just now trying to leave their nests, and sometimes they fall out and set on the ground under the bushes and call their father and mother with a funny little chirp sound, and the cat hears it and creeps with her stomach close to the ground till she is close to the baby bird, and then pounces like lightening on him, and the poor little chap cries for help most like a human baby. the mother bird will fight for her little ones, as long as she can, and sometimes i wish she would peck the old cat's eyes out. i spent a good share of my time chasing the cat from place to place, but even after doing that and watching the chip-monks and squirrels and stopping to keep the children from falling off the dock, i got the washing done at last, and mrs. smith rinsed and blued the clothes and hung part of them up on a line and part she spread on the grass to bleach. my clothes looked surprised as they never found themselves in such a place before, laying on nice clean grass with the hot sun blazing down on them. they seemed sort of happy, and they took such odd positions that i looked at them in wonder, hardly knowing my old friends. but they got whiter and whiter, and we gathered them in when the dusk come and they smelled so sweet, that i am sure i will have to carry clean thoughts for the rest of the week. mrs. smith lets me gather the vegetables for dinner. every morning after the dishes are washed, i go across the road to the garden and pick the string-beans and gather summer squash and grub around the nice smelly earth for potatoes. i get the dirt all under my finger nails, and can just see the duchess at gimble's who manicures me, when she takes my lily-white hands in hers next time. i pick the cucumbers from the vines, and i never in all my life saw such big tomatoes. then we come down the path, billy carrying a cucumber in each hand, because they don't break if he drops them, and paul with a summer squash swinging by the neck, and me with my apron piled full of things that smell of the vines. there is nothing to drink up here, and i don't miss it and i don't bring cigarettes with me. my friends think it ain't nice to smoke, and i would not hurt them for worlds. their friendship and the love they show me is worth more than all the drinks or smokes in little old new york. why, i would give up anything just to see the look in their faces when they meet me at the station, and i know they really want me to come. it rained yesterday, not a dull, drizzling rain like we have in the city, but a happy "i am good for you" rain, that washed old mother earth's face and left quiet gray shadows on the lake. i never thought i could think a rain was pretty, but yesterday it was just beautiful as it came down slantwise on the water. we heard it coming long before it got to us, sounded just like the patter patter of soft footed things on a chifon carpet, and way across the lake we could see a blue-gray wall that come nearer and nearer till it got to us. then when the rain was finished, the lake looked like a dull looking glass with every leaf and tree showing in its face. the birds began to call to one another again, and the robbins came out on the lawn looking for worms. there is one saucy robbin who comes toward me and cocks his little head and says, "am i not a little dandy? do i not hold myself as a gentleman should?" then he finds a big fat worm and pulls and tugs until he gets him loose and flies away to his wife and babies because, although his vest is far too gay for a person who is the main support, quite likely of a large and growing family, he don't seem to have the air of a bachelor. there is a loon at the other end of the lake that laughs just like a person, and twice i have seen a big bird walking around on the edge of the water that mr. smith says is a blue heron. when we go up into the woods, little red lizzards with gold spots run across the path, and the babies try to get them. i have been fishing twice, but i won't do it no more, as i can't bear to take the hooks out of the fish's mouth, so when the others go i will stay on shore and watch the funny water-bugs that make such big jumps. if we could jump like them, one good hop would take us from 14th street to the grand central, and there would be no use for the subway. i just live out-of-doors, setting on the veranda watching the mist rise over the lake, or, when i am not helping mrs. smith, spending long hours lying flat on my back looking up at the sky and wondering if there is some path for me, and if i will ever find it. i think it is good to get close to the ground, and i tell it all my secrets. it gives me strength, and a sort of hope i never had before. oh, kate, i am so happy here! you know i have been hungry all these years and didn't know it, just hungry for friends. i wanted love that you didn't have to watch, and these people give it to me. they show me that they want me and i have a part in their life, eat the things they eat and hear their home talk and am just one of them. you know i never tasted food, no matter how much it cost, that tastes so good as it does out here. it ain't just the things, if you got lots of money you can buy them, but it is the something that goes with the "why, come right in, you are in time for dinner." if it was only potatoes and salt, the way they offer it to you makes it better than a dinner party at martin's. in the afternoon, we have tea and bread and butter and preserves that mrs. smith has made herself. she is english you know, and says she could not go without her afternoon tea any more than she could go without her breakfast. and we set and talk and laugh and i feel as if there was such a thing as windows in one's soul, mine are all open to the sunlight for the first time. good night, kate dear. do i seem sort of stupid to you? i know you wouldn't like it here, as it is too far from broadway, but i love it! we have been out on the water all evening, each sitting in our end of the boat with a lot of pillows at our back and looking at the moon. you know i never seemed to have known the moon before, he is a new friend that i have made at lake rest, and life will never be quite the same now i have known him. he makes me dream and i plan such a happy future for you and me and billy, and when i look at him there is nothing but rose leaves in life. but--well--it is a new moon now, i wonder what the old moon will say. lovingly, _nan_. viii _dear kate_: it is raining and i am staying in the room cause i bit my tongue last night and i can't talk. i am sore. sometimes i think i will never do a good trick for a person as long as i live, and then, when the time comes i am always mr. easymark. last night i was coming along home after work about two o'clock, and it was cold and rainy and a miserably bum night. at the corner of sixth avenue i saw a fellow all sort of hunched up, walking along as if he had a jag. as i went by him i saw it was fred dennis, and he sure looked all in. he was shaking as if he had chills and fever, and i stopped and asked him what was the matter. he said he just come out of the hospital where he had typhoid. between you and me, i think he had been in the jag ward at bellevue, but that was none of my business, and he sure needed help. he said he was stone broke, that he didn't have the price for a ten-cent lodging house, and he give me a touch. first i thought i would cough, then i looked in his shifty eyes, and i knew he would go straight to kelly's and get a drink and take a chance of sleeping on the floor, so i said to him, "you come up to my room, and i will make you some hot cocoa, and you go to bed in a _bed_. that is what you need, or you will be costing the city a funeral." i sneaked him up to the room and had him put on that old japanese wadded wrapper of mine and get in bed, and i made him some hot cocoa. his teeth chattered like they was playing a tune, but i piled all my bed clothes on him and my winter coat and most of my clothes and when he got warm, i went in and slept with myrtle seaman. she has only a single bed, and i went to turn over in the night and fell out and bit my tongue. say, but it is sore. it seems to fill my whole mouth, and i spend most of my time setting in front of the looking glass to see if the swelling is stopped. but my tongue ain't half as sore as i was, when i went into my room this morning thinking i would make fred some coffee and give him a half a dollar, so as he could get a square meal. now what do you think that piker had done? he had copped everything in my room that he could hock. he took my black bag, my winter coat, my new green silk petticoat that i got to wear with my slit skirt, the buckles off my dancing slippers, and the little silver frame that had billy's picture in it. my can of cocoa was gone and he even sneaked the bottle of milk in front of the door. can you beat that for nerve! now, the next time i see a bum standing on a corner, shaking his teeth out with the cold, he can stand there and scatter his pearls from 14th street to 42nd for all me. i am just sore to-day. i have been a setting here and a thinking that this game ain't worth it. there must be something better somewhere than living from hand to mouth with people that would steal the pennies off your eyes. you can't tell where you stand with any of them. they will be good to you one minute, and the next minute do you a dirty trick. just like ethel rooney who sat up three nights running with mamie callahan when she was sick, then pinched her only pair of slippers. i believe crooks have something wrong down deep inside of them. they never do nothing like other people. their hearts are good, they will go to the pen for a friend rather than peach on him, and yet that friend wouldn't trust him alone in his room with a five dollar bill, and the women--if they don't steal each other's money, they steal each other's fellows if they're left around careless-like. i sent your letter to jim, and i told you before, i paid the storage man. don't get so blue, it won't be long, and i am doing everything i can for you. you are always a kicking at me, kate, and i am a doing the best i know how. i am working like a dog, and i don't spend a cent for myself more than i have to. i am a thinking of you, kate, and i love you even if you do seem to always have a grouch against me. yours, _nan_. ix _dear kate_: i haven't wrote you for a long time, cause i know you will be sore at what i am going to tell you, and i was afraid you would tell some of the old crowd where i was, and they would queer me in some way. i have been doing housework, kate. yes, i can see you throw a fit as you read it, but it will tell you one reason why i have not been able to send you any money the last two months. i had been dancing steady for a long time and i got dead tired of the crowd. the bum faces and the cheap girls and the dirty restaurants and the fresh waiters got on my nerves and it even spoiled my work. mrs. smith has been after me for a long time to leave it. she just talks to me and talks to me every time i go over there. i got half sick and went over to lake rest for a couple of weeks, and i used to lie at nights up in my room a hearing the sounds and a feeling the quiet, and in some way it made me hate the sidewalks and the hot dusty streets and the dance halls and the nights when i was up till morning and the days when i was a feeling like a boiled owl. i talked it all over with mrs. smith and she didn't want me to do clerking, cause i would still have to live in a room, and it is the people in the rooming houses she is dead sore at. she wants me to do something that will take me away from the crowd. then she asked me if i would be willing to do house work. i told her i would be willing to try scrubbing, that sometimes it seemed that any old thing was better than what i have been doing for the last seven years. but i told her i didn't know nothing about housework, as i don't remember ever having been in a real house except hers. i lived in furnished rooms all my life but i was willing to learn and it seems to me if you are only willing to try, you can learn anything. i stayed with her two weeks, and she showed me how to cook potatoes, to fix meat, and i think the first day i made an apple pie all by myself, i nearly bust with pride. why, kate, there is a joy in just making something. to take some apples and some flour and butter and lard and to fix it all yourself, then take it out of the oven crisp and hot and have some one say, "ain't that fine"! why, you feel you have really _done_ something. it must be like when an artist paints a great picture. i had _made_ something, something that is a part of me. the last week i was there, she let me get all the meals, and if i ever marry a man, i would want to do all the cooking myself. i don't think there could be any bigger happiness for a woman who really loved her man, than to see him eat the food that she had fixed with her own hands, and if i could hear a man of mine say, "pass me them biscuits, nan," or "you sure can make good gravey," well--i would have all that is coming to me. i learned to set a table and how to put the right knives and the right forks in the right places, and i always put a bowl of flowers in the middle. sometimes they was yellow nasturcheons, and i would mix them in with leaves and put them in a big yellow bowl and they would make the food taste better just to look at them. often the babies and me would go out in the fields and get great arms full of daisies and i would put them in with some pretty ferns we had around the house, or else i would gather red poppies, and wheat and it would make it look as if all out-doors was a growing on the table. mrs. smith showed me how to make a bed just right, and to dust and sweep, to iron the clothes and to do all the things that women must know if they keep a house clean. but finally she said she thought i would do, and one day she went over town to a friend of hers that lives up in the bronx. what she told her i don't know, but anyway i got a job and i went over to my room and packed my things, and i have been here two months. it was hard at first, as i didn't know how to manage, and couldn't make my head save my legs. but i got along somehow, although at night i used to be so dead tired that two or three times i cried myself to sleep. the woman ain't as nice as mrs. smith, she is kind of suspicious of me, and watches me a lot, and she feels i ought to know more than i do and tells me to do things without telling me how. but i am going to stick it out. the main trouble is that it is devilish lonesome. at night after i get the dishes done, there ain't no place to go except a little room which looks out on a courtyard, and there is nothing to do and nobody to talk to, and i set by myself trying to think things all over. sometimes i think i am a fool to work like a dog a whole week and only get six dollars for it, and then again i remember all mrs. smith said to me, and the nice letters she writes me telling me to be brave and that i am doing the square thing. my afternoons off i don't take, because i don't want to see the old crowd, and i don't know no one else. every two weeks i have been over to see billy, but it costs quite a lot, and after i pay $3.50 a week for his board, i ain't what you call a j. d. rockefeller. i used always to take the kid some little thing, but now it has to be so darned little you can't see it. the woman next door has got a baby, and she knits things for it, and i asked the woman i worked for if she would ask the woman to learn me how to knit. she was awful nice about it, and i bought a lot of white yarn, and nights up in my room i made billy and paul each a jacket, and now i am making them some mittens, so when it gets cold they can wear them when they play outside. next week after i get my pay, i am going to get some of that grey pusey yarn and make them each a cap. one night i got so blue i almost died, and i went downtown to see irene who is back from st. louis. i had an awful good time, a lot of fellows and girls come into irene's room, and i sent one of the boys out for some oysters and showed them some fine stunts i could do with the chafing dish. they was crazy to know where i was and what i was doing but i wouldn't tell them, as i knowed they wouldn't understand. i suppose there is something wrong in me somewhere, but it seemed awful nice to see all the crowd again, and hear them talk and laugh and even the old cigarette smoke smelled good. there didn't one of them seem to have any trouble nor have to work hard, and i thought of how they could sleep in the morning, and how i would have to get up when my old alarm clock went off at half past six. for a minute i thought i wouldn't go back, then i thought of mrs. smith and how bad she would feel if i didn't stick, so i said, "oh, me for my little room," and i left the crowd at half past ten, sort of the middle of the day for most of them. but i ain't been unhappy, though i didn't know there was so little money in the world. why, it seems funny not to be able to buy anything at all. when you look in the shop windows and see all the fluffy petticoats and the pretty collars and the silk stockings and the fancy shoes, and you know you can't buy one of them, it makes you feel sore all over. why, i think every body ought to take their hat off to a pretty girl who is pegging along on six or eight a week, and who wants pretty things just the same as all women do and who knows all she has got to do is to give a little nod to get them, i say, _them_ is the people that ought to have a statue up on that hall of fame on the hudson. i had to buy two maid's dresses when i come here, plain black with little white collars and cuffs, and in the afternoon the woman makes me wear a dinkey little cap on my head which makes my hair look curlier than ever though i brush it down as best i can. callers kind of looked surprised when they see me first, i guess cause i am kind of thin now and my eyes sort of fill my face. billy is looking fine. he is most as big as paul and he has learned a lot of things. mr. smith takes the kids with him in the woods and billy knows the names of trees and plants and can tell the robin's call from the blue bird's whistle. mrs. smith reads little stories to the children and they know their a b c's already, and by the time billy is ten, he will have lots more book-learning than i have now. now don't write me a rotten letter, kate, and don't put any of the gang on to try to queer me nor to try and come and talk to me, cause house work ain't no joke for a person who ain't never done nothing, and sometimes i feel all in and something told me at the wrong time, might make me throw the whole thing up. and i don't want to. i want to make good if it is only at housework, and if i can, i am going to stick to it till there's skating down below. _nan_. x _dear kate_: i am back in my old room and i guess there is where i belong. i did intend to stick, and i didn't think i would ever see this old room again, but here i am, and guess here i will stay. you know i was getting along real well in that place where i worked, and things got much easier, as i kind of learned to save my steps and plan the work, and it didn't make me so tired as it did at first. i had saved up twelve dollars too, and was going to buy billy's winter clothes and send you five, then the darn thing fell. i had been over on sunday to see billy and was chasing along home about half past ten at night along 33rd street to catch the subway, when one of them old rounders passed me by and stuck his old face down into mine and as i didn't say nothing, he kept chasing after me and saying something in a low voice. i pretended i didn't hear and went on a little faster and he kept right after me. when we got near to fourth avenue, he came up close to me and said, "don't be in such a hurry, little girl," and i didn't say nothing, then he stuck his face right down into mine and said something, and it just made me sick, and before i knew what i did i slapped his dirty old mouth for him. he stood still a minute, and almost turned white and then what do you think the piker did? he called the cop from the corner and had me arrested for speaking to him. it was casey who knew me and i told casey he was a liar, and casey said to the man, "are you going to court and make a charge against this girl?" and the man says, "i am, and if you don't take her i will have you broke." i honestly think casey believed me, but he couldn't do nothing, and they took me down to jefferson court. i hoped i would never see that place again, but there i was with the girls and the bums and the plain closemen and the cops and the shister lawyers and the probation officer who knew me at once as your sister, and i kinda felt i was up against it. but i told my story straight to the judge, and the man told his, and of course the judge took his word against mine and he fined me ten dollars or ten days. when i thought of that ten dollars and what it meant and how hard i had saved and scrimped for it, and how i had gone without things and that billy wouldn't have the winter things that he ought to have, i just lost my head and i told the judge he was an old fool, that if he couldn't tell a lie from the truth, he had not orter be a setting up there like an old brooding hen. i told him he didn't see nothing but crooks, and he couldn't tell a crook from a decent person and then he got back at me by saying, "_did_ i say ten dollars or ten days, i made a mistake, i meant ten dollars _and_ ten days," and i had to go to the island. i don't think i was ever so broke up in my life, it didn't seem i was getting a square deal. i suppose i did say things i shouldn't have, cause i was so mad i couldn't see and then i cried all night. i wrote a letter to mrs. smith and told her just how it was and asked her to go and see the woman i worked for and tell her about it and not blame me. now, mrs. smith believed me and came over to see me on the island but that other woman didn't believe me and went down to the night court and saw the probation officer and i guess she got the idea you built the jefferson court with your fines. anyway, she said she didn't want me in her house no more. i guess she is afraid i would hurt the dishes. when i got out i went up to see her and her face was hard and nasty and she wouldn't take my word at all. i asked her if she seen a thing out of the way for four months, if i hadn't done my work right and if i hadn't stayed in nights and been as good as any girl she ever had. she said "yes" to them all, but she didn't believe in encouraging vice and she never could tell what i might do because i come of a bad family. she got your record from a to z and she even knew about father and she acted as if she thought perhaps, that all the cussedness of the family was stored up in me and might have busted any minit. well, it made me all sore, and i come right down to the old room and told mrs. murphy that she quite likely would have me for the rest of her life, i had all i wanted a working. i went out that night to kelly's dance hall and danced till closing time trying to forget my troubles. it did make me forget because i can dance, kate, and if i ain't a fine dish washer nor fit to be in somebody's kitchen, i sure can tango. i fished out all my pretty clothes again and done them two maid's dresses up in a wad and threw them under the bed. it is me for the slit skirt and the high heeled slippers, and i am going to be the best dancer on broadway or know the difference. yours, _nan_. xi _dear kate_: i have been dancing at rudolph's, it is awful hard work there and the hours are long, but it is better than it was down at the corner inn. i am working up, kate, and i expect one of these days to be dancing on broadway. the manager from casey's come in and watched me dance the other night, and he said he thought i was the lightest thing on my feet in new york. billy flynn is my partner now, and he is working real hard. we go mornings to a teacher up at 59th street who learned me a lot of new steps. we practise most every afternoon. i have met some of the other dancers in the cabarets and they are mostly a nice lot of girls. it ain't so hard for me as it is for some of them, as i have been dancing all my life, and i only have to see a new step once to be able to do it. i don't see why the people are against dancing, it is awful good for everybody. why, you see old men and women that never done nothing before but stay at home and read the christian advocate, dancing in the restaurants, and it makes them forget all their troubles. dancing makes you say with your body what you would like to say with your tongue, and you don't know how. lots of people have beautiful thoughts and they can't tell them, so they have to read books writ by people who say just what they think, but can't tell, or they go to the theatre and hear acted all the love and beautiful things that they would like to have come to them, but can't. with dancing they can say themselves all the things they feel and the swaying of their body in time to the music is just a telling the love and the romance and the poetry that is inside of them. why, when i am dancing with a good partner, i forget all the ugly things of life and it seems to me that if there ever is a god, he is a speaking to me and i sometimes feel as if i had wings and could fly right away with them. there is nothing wrong with the dancing itself, as i keep a telling mrs. smith. she wants me to leave it all the time, and of course in some of the places where i have to dance, there is a bum crowd and you do have to talk to the men and lots of the women that you wouldn't choose for your sister. i tell you i am going to work out of this, i am a good dancer and there ain't no reason why i shouldn't be working in the better places where the management won't allow the men to get fresh with the girls. if i live long enough and don't get paralyzed in my legs, you will see at the winter garden "nancy lane" in great big electric lights. i have been around some of them places and if i ever get a chance, i know i can do as well as the girls there now. why, kate, i would rather dance at the winter garden than have a front seat in heaven, and i got a mighty poor chance of either one, but i am going to try for them both. you know i believe when you want a thing real bad and just keep thinking of it night and day, you are going to get it some way and when you come out, kate, i think you are going to be straight, and you won't queer me as you have so many times, just when i was beginning to get along. i am sending you twenty. you ought to own that boarding house you are in, with the money i've sent you the last year. mamie callahan was in yesterday, she is working in a chorus somewhere. gee, she does look swell! she must have cost a thousand just as she stood. she wants me to go back to miner's, but the restaurants pay more. one of the boys i met the other night at kelley's wants me to join him and go dance out west somewhere, but i don't want to go so far away from billy. i know he would be all right with the smiths, but i kinda like to see him, and i am always planning little things about him and what he will say to me and what i will say to him and what i am going to buy him. i kind of feel that if i wasn't able to go out there once in two or three weeks, and touch him and play with his hair and wash his little hands and notice how he is growing out of his clothes, that i wouldn't care to live. the money i could earn wouldn't mean nothing without him. i had just as much happiness out of him when i was earning six dollars a week and i could only take him out a ten cent jumping jack, as i would if i was earning fifty and could buy him fur coats. babies just love, they don't think of the price of the thing you give them, but they seem to feel the heart behind it. billy put his arms just as tight around nannie's neck when she didn't have nothing in her hands for him, as when they was full. i heard through long dave that jim has been pinched in chicago, but they think he will get off. he struck me for fifty but i wouldn't cough up, he can go to the pen for all i care. i always did tell him that stripes become his style of beauty. you know he is like a lot of crooks that even hate to look at a barber's pole cause of the stripes on it, and when you stop to think about it, you never see a crook wear a striped suit of clothes. they will wear plain colors, pepper and salts, cheques, but no stripes for the con man, they make him nervous. i am coming down next week. i wish i could bring you something but i don't know what you could use. i am glad you are getting along so well, kate, you will get four months off, won't you? i miss you awful, you are the only one i can talk to, and though you don't see some things my way, you are my sister, the only mother i ever knew. i wish when you are quiet there, kate, you would think things over and decide to do different. you and me and billy could go away somewhere. you must see by this time, kate, that thieving don't pay. why you are only thirty-three years old, and you have had five years in the pen and you are getting bitter and sour and you will have a grouch against life, and you know you are awfully clever, if you could only turn your brain to something honest, i don't see why you couldn't get along. i believe we could save up some money and go somewhere and start a boarding house. i can cook real well, and i believe something could be doing in that line. billy had a party and it sure was some party. mrs. smith asked some of the farmers' children in, and she gave them cake, and i brought him out presents and give each of the children a toy. billy ate too much cake and was awful sick in the night. mrs. smith give him some medicine and he was all right the next day, and ready to eat more cake. why, he eats all the time, kate, and he is the fattest, biggest boy. we dress him awful swell. mrs. smith makes her boy's clothes and i help her and we made billy some funny little linen pants like a dutch baby, and he is the cutest looking thing. we cut his hair off square, but it still curls and don't look dutch at all. good night, i must go to bed. _nan_. xii _dear kate_: say, but i am having a good time! and what do you think? i am having my picture painted. some artist people blew into the cafe the other night, and after i had danced a couple of times they talked to the manager, then they asked me to come over and talk to them. i set down to the table and they were awful nice to me, didn't get fresh, but asked me a lot of questions about myself and where i learned to dance. i told them i could dance ever since i could walk, that i danced as a kid at coney island, and miner's theatre had got in trouble twice with the children's society because of me. i laughed and said, "why, i never _learned_ to dance, i just _danced_." the artist man said he wanted to paint my picture. it is a funny idea it seems to me. he wants to paint me in this dirty cabaret with the tables all around me and the bum men setting around and me a dancing in the center with the lights on me. he said he is going to call it "youth." he said to one of the men that was with him, "can't you see it, phillip, can't you see it? that pretty girl the very spirit of youth with her gold hair around her face and her wonderful body swaying to the time of the music and all those bloated beasts looking up at her through the smoke?" i don't see how he is going to paint the picture, but that is his business. mine is to go to his studio every day at ten o'clock. do you remember will henderson who used to play in the orchestra in the grand opera and who lived next to us when we was at 129? well, what do you think? he is playing the piano in this joint here. isn't that a come-down? he got to taking coke and he couldn't be trusted to keep his dates and he lost all his good jobs and now he can only get a place in the joints, but he does play wonderful! and when he is not too dopey, he sets down at the piano and makes music that draws the heart right out of you. he won't touch his violin cause it makes him remember, he says. it is a lucky thing for me in a way, as he likes me and he has wrote some music for me to dance by. he wrote a piece for me called "the poppy," and that artist chap who is painting my picture got me a dress made for the dance, and oh, kate, it is grand! it is red chiffon, and over it green chiffon like the leaves of the poppy, and i wear red slippers with pale green silk stockings that are so thin i can hardly get them on, and he had my hair all fluffed out and piled on top of my head, where it made a "golden halo," whatever that is. him and will explained to me about the dance. it seems that opium is made out of the flower, and they wanted me to show by dancing all the beautiful dreams that come with opium, and then the sleep afterward. i have known a lot of people who hit the pipe, and i don't know as they have ever had many beautiful dreams, but anyway the dance is awful pretty. the artist gave a party the other night, and had me come and do it. all the lights in the room was turned off and a greenish light was thrown on me and i danced fast at first and then i went slower and slower until at the last i dropped down on the stage and the lights went out and i run away in the dark. everybody was crazy about it, and one of the big restaurants on broadway is going to have me give the dance every night at midnight. do you see, kate, i told you if i got a chance i would get away from seventh avenue. i begun at 14th street, and i am working up. i am up to 42nd and one of these days, i tell you, i am going to be dancing at the winter garden. i don't see why i shouldn't, i can dance as well as any girl in new york city, and now that jim and your gang ain't around to queer me, there ain't no reason why i shouldn't be in the best places in town. i have had to stick to a lot of bum joints just because the managers of decent places didn't want to have a person who was mixed up with the crowd that i was in, around their place. i am really having an awful good time. i get home about three in the morning and i sleep until about nine. i make my breakfast in my room yet, cause i like my own coffee, and then jim kelly who is my dancing partner now, comes up and we practise steps or else will henderson and jim and me go over to mamie callahan's who has got a piano, and we work at some new thing. i don't have to be at the cafe till night and most every afternoon, i go around to some of the other places or to the shows to see what the other girls are dancing. i thought i would take some lessons from some of the swell teachers, but lord, i can dance as well as any of them so what is the use of me spending my money. i bought a swell new suit yesterday, and i sure do look some going up the avenue and, hear _me_, it is fifth avenue instead of seventh. oh, there is some class to your sister, kate, and when i get on the new lid that the milliner made me, well--i should worry. i went up to a party the other night at rose fisher's. i couldn't blow in until after work, but even as late as it was, i won $4.90 at penny ante, and it tickled me most to death. i have been trying to learn a new game called bridge that the girls are crazy about. i guess it is not in my line cause it is a thinking part. i can't remember what cards are out or what is trumps or what is anything else, and set sort of making over my old clothes or thinking up new steps when we are playing, and you can't do that with bridge. i lost a lot of money the other afternoon, and what is worse, katie regan was my partner and she took it hard and gave me an awful call-down. i got sore and felt like slapping her face, but i guess she is right. don't play a game with other people's money unless you attend to business. do you remember that fat old brewer that use to come hanging around you? well, he blew in while i was dancing the other night, and claimed to be a long lost friend. he come down every night for about a week, and then tried that old gag of putting some money for me in a wheat deal or some such thing where it was tails i win and heads you lose. i told him i was on to that chorus trick, and wasn't at all crazy about it. you see, whether he won or lost he would have handed me over three or four hundred dollars and kinda felt he owned me body and soul. i simply laughed at him, and said with a voice of a wall street broker, "man, i am making so much money that it is quite impossible to find investments for my income, so i am planting it around the yard in tin cans." i even offered to make him a loan if business was bad. he went away in a huff, and i got a call-down from the manager because the brewer owns the bar the same as he does all the other saloons around our district, and the saloon-keeper is only in on a percentage. if the temperance people would only go after the brewer and the distiller, instead of the poor devil of a saloon-keeper, they might do something worth while, cause there ain't one bar in twenty in new york that is owned by the man who keeps it. well, good-bye, i am going to dinner in a place in 39th street where they say they have an awful pretty dancer. i am saving up my money, kate, so when you come out, you will have enough to live on for awhile until you find out what you want to do. now don't worry, and don't write me any more letters like that last one. everything is fine and dandy. billy is all right, and i am as happy as a clam and getting fat. i have put on two pounds in three months. i weigh 118 now, which is a lot for me, and if i keep on like this i will look like taft one of these days. i am coming down to see you next week, and i have got something for you. oh, kate, i am fond of you and i get just crazy to see you. yours, _nan_. xiii _dear kate_: i have been working again. mrs. smith got at me about the dancing, not that she thinks the dancing is bad, but she don't like the places where i dance nor the people i have to be with, and she is dead sore at the rooming house where i live. she don't like the girls i float around with, and that hang around my room. i can't understand it, because they are all right, and i have known them kind of girls all my life. she came up to see me one afternoon, and there was half a dozen in the room, and the smoke was so thick you could cut it with a knife, and she cried after they left, and said a lot of rot about me being too good to throw my life away with them sort of people. she talked and she talked to me, and i thought i would try to work again, not but what dancing ain't work and there ain't nothing wrong with it either, but there is a hard crowd down at kelley's, and sometimes it kinda makes me sick. she talked to me a lot about billy, and said it will make a great difference in his life if he can look back to his folks as being respectable. i myself don't see why he should be any prouder of his aunt being a servant than he would be if she was a dancing girl, and i get thirty per for dancing, and only six little bucks for housework. i stayed awake two nights thinking about it, wondering if i was getting tough and didn't know it, cause things that i don't think nothing about at all, mrs. smith thinks awful, and she says that the longer you live in that kind of life and with people who have no "ideals"--whatever them is, one is just bound to go down. i don't want to go down, and i don't want to get so i will think crookedness is right, and that decent people are wrong, so i just piped it out to myself as i lay awake at night that i would give the honest work job another chance. i answered an "ad" in the paper. i got a place up on west end avenue. i stayed there two months, then i had bad luck again. i liked the place real well, and the people liked me, and i suppose i would have been there yet, if i hadn't of cut my hand, because, take it from me, kate i am a dandy housekeeper and i like it too. i can't imagine nothing nicer than having a little home of your own and taking care of it yourself. it even give me a little thrill to walk into some body else's kitchen and see it all clean and nice, the dishes and the glasses shining, and the pretty white cloth on the table, and a bird singing in a cage before the window, and know that all looked so home-like cause i made it so. if somebody else's kitchen can make me feel that way, if i had one of my own, i suppose i'd just naturally bust. the woman i worked for was one of those sort of no-good women who ain't bad or who ain't good, who is just _nothing_. she didn't do a thing around the house, didn't even take care of her own clothes. she read a little in the morning, then went down town every afternoon of her life, either to the theatres or to the restaurants or shopping. then at night as often as she could, she made her poor husband put on his dress clothes and go somewhere with her. they use to scrap a lot about it, as he was tired and generally wanted to put on a pair of old slippers and set and smoke and read. sometimes i use to wonder what she done to earn her board, as she wasn't as much of a help as a wife of a crook generally is. even you, kate, used to pass the leather on when jim pinched one, which was doing your share in buying your meal ticket. she was dippy on the dancing, and women used to come in the afternoon and dance with the victrola. i didn't let her know that i danced at first. one night i was a cutting bread and the knife slipped and cut my hand between my thumb and first finger. the woman was awful nice about it, and kept me on for two weeks. it didn't seem to get no better and the doctor thinks i poisoned it. i didn't have the nerve to stay there without doing something, so one day when she and some of her friends were dancing like a lump of cheese, i told her i would learn her the dance if she wanted me to, and--gee, didn't those females work me after that! they didn't care nothing about the housework. it could go hang, but morning, night and noon i was a holding some fat lady or some tall lady or some short one from breaking her neck, as she tried to do the castle glide or the maxixe. i must say my boss was generous, she was perfectly willing to loan me to all her friends and they grabbed after me like a cat after a mouse, cause they was getting five-dollar lessons for nothing. i stayed two weeks and i lost six pounds and my hand didn't heal none and i didn't see where i was doing any better being a private dancing teacher for a lot of fool women who really think no better than a lot of the girls i had to go with, but who only know how to say it better. here i was working harder for six a week and at the same kind of work, than i would be if i was dancing at thirty, so i told the woman i must go. i spent all my money with the doctor and i didn't know what to do, as i didn't want to go back to my room. mrs. smith was awful nice and told me to come with her. i did and i am there now. my hand is a little better but i still can't do much work and have to keep it tied up. i can't wash dishes, nor do nothing where it will get wet. billy has learned his letters and he knows a lot of stories, especially bible stories out of a book that is full of pictures. he is awful funny. he was showing me the book the other day, and he come to an old man with long whiskers and i said, "who is that old guy, billy?" and he looked at me so shocked and said, "why, aunt nannie, where have you been? that is moses," and he told me all about him and the israelites which is another name for jews. i said if he has got anything to do with jews, i orter know something about them, cause there ain't much else in new york, yet they ain't much in my line, as i just naturally hit the irish. do you remember rosie o'grady who got married about three years ago? well, she is only twenty years old now. she has got a kid and supporting it herself. that fellow she married was a coke fiend, and she fired him, and she is doing real well. her brother is a driver at mccreey's, and between them they hire a little flat down on 20th street and her mother takes care of the baby and they are real happy. i went down to see her the other night. a lot of women live there who scrub offices or go out washing or do any kind of day work they can get. most every one of them support a drunken husband. one woman next door to rosie has both her husband and her brother on her hands, and her brother has been full for three months and that poor woman goes out washing to give these good-for-nothing men their food. i'd let their stomachs grow to their back bone before i'd feed them. you see an awful lot of drink down around eighth avenue, and it seems like it is done by the men that most need the money. yet i suppose when they are out on the wagon all day in the cold and the wet, that a saloon looks awful nice and warm and the free lunch tastes mighty good. they can't afford to go to the restaurants, even cheap ones, so they go to the saloon and drink that rotten whiskey that drives them crazy. that is one thing i never saw no fun in, and i must say for you, kate, that with all the rotten crowd you run with, you didn't take to booze nor dope. if you hadn't just naturally not known the difference between what belonged to you and what belonged to the other man, you might have been a pretty respectable member of society. i tell you i am watching billy mighty close to see that he don't have too small fingers. by the looks of him now, the way he is growing, his hands are going to be like hams, and if he ever got them in another man's pocket, he would never get them out again. i can't send you no money. i tell you i am absolutely flat strapped. i hocked my two rings and i even sold my dancing slippers. i ain't paid mrs. smith for billy's board in most a month, and i know they need the money. cheer up, old girl, you only have a short time now. i keep a trying to think what you can do when you come out, but i don't seem to light on nothing you would like. anyway, you know i am thinking of you. yours, _nan_. xiv _dear kate_: i am worried to death. i don't know what to do and my hand don't seem to get well. i haven't got a cent to my name, i owe mrs. smith six weeks' board money for billy, and i have been eating off her for three weeks. she can't afford to feed me, and every mouthfull i take chokes me. i know they are hard up, cause i caught her crying the other day. her husband is awful nice, but he ain't got much sense and his business in life is teaching not trying to raise vegetables. she says she won't hear me going back to dancing, but i don't see what else i can do. my hand don't affect my feet. i was over town the other day and saw my old dancing partner, fred keeney. he said we can get a job at the cafe boulevard and i am crazy to try it. yet if i could work, i would cut the whole thing out, cause mrs. smith is right when she says that dancing ain't bad, just the bum crowd you have got to go with. and i am up against it more than most of the girls, cause nearly all of them have homes, but everybody seems to know or finds out mighty sudden that i am your sister, and it ain't up to me then to go in for the heavy respectable. gee, kate you have got a reputation! you must have had a lot of newspaper advertising. nobody ever says i am nan lane, they just say i am kate lane's sister. then they look at me as if i was going to take a bite out of them. that is why it is more comfortable for me to keep with the old crowd, cause they don't throw a fit every time your name is mentioned. oh, i am sure distracted. i've walked the floor nights till i wore a path in the carpet. what with my hand aching and me wondering what in the world i ought to do, i can't sleep. i go out in the afternoon and lie down in the woods and if i knew something to pray to, i would sure get right down on my knees and ask it to tell me which way to turn. i have been in mrs. smith's room twice when they have what they call family worship. it didn't seem to do me much good but i bowed my head as i saw them do. why, if they wanted to stand on their heads and meow like cats, i would bark an accompaniment cause i like them so. mrs. smith cries every time i speak of the dancing, but i can't live on charity for the rest of my life and i am pestered to death for money. when i was coming out of kelley's the other day, i saw father and of course, he give me a touch. he never shows up unless he wants something. oh, i hate him, kate. when i saw his shifty old eyes i just turned sick. every time i see him i think of the kicks and the cuffs we kids got whenever he come round, which, thank goodness, wasn't often. do you remember how happy we was when we went down to court and heard him get that seven years' stretch? that was the finest present the judge could give us, and when we got back to the room i remember we just hugged each other and danced round and round and made up a song with the chorus, "pa's got seven years, we ain't glad, oh, no." you gave a party that night, and we almost got pulled for being so noisy. i wonder what mother was like. what kind of a woman she could have been to have seen anything in him. you must be something like her, cause you stick to jim and you know what i think of _him_. i suppose being married to a man does something to a woman because i know a lot of nice women that stick to good-for-nothing bums because they are married to them. as for me, i don't suppose i ever will be married cause none of the crowd i know now for _mine_ and i don't have much chance to meet the henry van dykes or the john t. wanamakers. well this ain't telling me what to do. what _will_ i do? i am near crazy. well--i can always go to bed, good night. _nan_. xv _dear kate_: well, i am back at the old work and it is all right. i have been dancing in the best restaurants in new york, and what do you think, kate, i am going to dance at the winter garden. the manager there saw my poppy dance the other night, and he is giving me a dance. i can still come back and dance at twelve o'clock in the restaurant. fred kelly, my dancing partner, is crazy glad. will henderson nearly cried. he said, "you have got your chance, nan, you have got your chance." i offered to give him part of my salary because if he had not thought out all the pretty dances, him and the artist chap, i never could have piped them out myself. but he won't take a cent. he is dead square, and not a half bad fellow, and i have been trying to get him to take the cure. i offered to pay all expenses if he would go up to that dope cure joint at white plains, and sometimes he says he will, then again says he won't. you can't trust a person who takes dope. sometimes he shows up every night and plays just beautiful, then again we don't see him for ten days. fred kelly is so tickled at this chance to work in the good places, that he has braced up and seems a different fellow. he used to drink a lot and one time when he was tanked up, he had to throw me from one arm to the other in the dance, and he let me fall and hurt my back so bad, i could hardly move for a week. it gave me an awful scare and i had a good heart to heart talk with him. i told him he either had to cut out the booze or cut out working with me, cause you can't do the two things and do both well. oh, i am glad that i have left the joints and i am proud of myself. i have worked awful hard and something inside of me has always said i would win out, and it _is_ winning out, because there ain't no bigger thing in my line than dancing at the winter garden. they are going to advertise me, kate, and they call me nancy lane. sounds kinda pretty, doesn't it? i got some of the nicest clothes you ever saw. my new dancing slippers is made to order, and i got some pretty things for my hair, though i think it looks better without anything in it, as it is hard to match the color. mrs. smith and the children came over the other afternoon to see the toys. i bought the kids some things, then we went to a place and had ice cream sodas and sundaes until i bet two babies went to sleep that night with a stomach-ache. oh, yes, i forgot to tell you. i got a funny present. do you remember jenny who was sick about a year ago, and whose mother come from iowa or kansas or somewhere to get her? well, i got a package the other day about the size of a house and when i opened it there was a bed quilt in it made of little pieces of colored calico set around with white pieces. jenny's mother wrote me a beautiful letter saying she made it herself for me out of pieces of cloth she had saved from her family's dresses. i put it on the bed, and gee, it was the funniest looking thing you ever saw. it didn't seem to belong to 28th street anymore than the old lady did. it was funny to watch the girls when they come into the room. them who had been born on the sidewalks like me whooped when they saw it, and made a lot of fun of it, but the girls who had come from the country looked at it different and a sort of change come over their faces. one girl who is in the chorus at the columbia, set down by the bed and run her hand up and down the cover and then put her head on it and cried, and mary crosby who comes somewhere from pennsylvania and has only been in the quarter about three months, looked at it straight for about five minutes without speaking and then turned and left the room. i followed her out into the hall and said, "what is the matter, mary?" and she said in a queer choked way, "good-bye, nan, me for that little room down in old p-a. i've got enough." and i'll be darned if she didn't go home. it was nice to see you, kate, and you are looking real well. you have got the only soft snap there, but i can trust you for getting anything that is laying around easy. i am off to work, going to try a new dance on to-night. _nan_. xvi _dear kate_: i opened your trunk and got out the clothes you wrote about. i give the grey dress to mary, and the coat to mrs. keenan. there are a lot of things that you won't be able to use when you come out. hadn't i better give them to some one? it seems a shame to have them laying there no use to any body. i had a dandy day yesterday. mildred carter met me in a shop and we spent the whole day together. you know she is married. married some swell man and lives in a fine place on riverside drive. she is just as pretty as ever. no wonder she was in all the broadway shows. she hasn't a bit of sense, but her tiny figure has the most perfect curves, and her face and eyes are just like a wondering child. she makes me think of billy. she has a baby two years old, and if it wasn't for him, she would go back to the stage. she is awful lonesome up in her fine home, and she misses the lights and the fun and the pretty dresses. she is crazy over the clothes the girls are wearing in the new field show, and i think she misses the suppers after the shows when a lot of the girls used to go with the johnnies and sort of joy ride. there wasn't nothing wrong with the parties, but her mother-in-law thinks it is awful to even mention them. a pretty girl like mildred could have four suppers a night if she wanted to, because lots of men like to take a show girl out. they wear pretty clothes and attract attention and are funny, have lots of up-to-date slang, know all the new songs, and don't expect a man to be clever. all that they want of him is to pay the supper. and they are perfectly willing to pay for it if you don't expect them to talk of art or the uplifting of the drama. just look pretty and say fool things and whistle popular songs and say things that don't make their head ache to answer. i tell mrs. smith who, like so many women, think it is always wrong to go to supper, that it is done by heaps of girls who are on the level. i am kind of sorry for mildred. she is pretty but nothing but a little butterfly, and tom's folks don't like her, and make little dabs at her about being in the chorus, and they are trying to educate her. read to her from a man named emerson and tennyson and a lot of high brows that put a kink in her brain that lasts for days. and they think the theatre is all wrong except things by ibsen and shakespeare and a man named shaw, and of course mildred thinks, and so do i, that a funny show where the comedian makes a monkey of himself and the girls change their dresses twenty times, and do stunts under the spot light is a lot decenter than those nasty shows where people turn their feelings inside out, especially their private feelings that ought not be talked about in public. she is bound to go back and i had a long talk with her. i told her that his folks might take the baby away from her, and she nearly went crazy. she turned on me like a cat, and said, "what do you mean?" i said that they would like her and tom to separate and they would take the baby. she could not speak for a minute then she blazed at me: "take my baby, take tommy? but he is mine. he is my baby. no one can take him away from me. i couldn't live without him." i saw that was the only way to get her switched off from going back, cause she met some stage manager the other day who offered her a job, so i rubbed it in; i don't know whether i am right, but it worked with her all right. after a while she sat down and talked sense, and i am sorry for her. she said sort of pitiful, "tom is in newspaper work, and i am alone nights and i lay there alone a longing for something to be going on. i hate the dark and the being alone. why i never used to be alone. his people don't look at my side of the question at all. they are not fair to me. i had no idea when i married tom that his people would not like me. every one always liked me. i had my picture in all the shop windows and people always jollying and making me laugh. "his people make me old. all the sun goes out of the room as soon as one of them come into it. to have dinner with them is awful. i am afraid to move at the table or ask for more bread. every one is so polite and so quiet. you can't laugh and if you should happen to put your elbow on the table, it would be a tragedy. and i have lived that life two years, and tom blames me and looks hurt cause sometimes i want the old life. and, nan, i see you are with him and think i am wrong. but remember i am only calling for my own. i can't help longing for it. i think it is my right to laugh and to be gay _my_ way. i have tried to make myself over in tom's way, but i can't. god did not make me a new england woman. all i want is the lights and the music and the laughter. i want to snuggle down in a big chair and have somebody make me laugh, laugh, laugh, and never be told it is bad form to laugh too loud. everything i do is bad form, and oh, nan, i don't want to do anything wrong, i just want to live." poor little devil, i am sorry for her, but she must stay where she is. i am going to get hold of tom some day and tell him to side step so much family and take mildred out more and give her a good time _her_ way. but we had had an awful good time until we got to talking about the baby, when she got scared and hurried home to see if anything had happened to him. we had lunch together at bustanoby's, and went to that swell castle garden for tea. she treated cause it cost $2.50 per and that was too rich for my blood. i danced with her and she looked awful cunning, and i learnt her some new steps, altho' i never dance with women, as i don't think it looks nice. one of the dancers who runs the place came over and asked me to dance with him, and everybody stopped to watch us. gee, i wish i could get a place in one of them swell places, but i will, you just watch me do it. i had on a pretty new dress and a hat that is a dream, and silk stockings and new patent colonials and i felt _some_. ain't it funny how everybody is dancing, i wonder how long it will last. i must get in before everyone gets over the bug. it sure can't last forever. seems awful funny to see a lot of old men and grannies fluffing around a room, when they ought to be home rubbing their backs with omega oil. one old lady, sure she was sixty, danced with the professional at bustanoby's, and he told me she had a table there every day, and about three nights a week, and dances till closing time. i heard her tell some friends, "i told john that if he didn't want to learn he could stay home and go to bed, _i_ am going to dance," and she is sure a dame of her word. what do you think? fred kelly, my dancing partner, is engaged to an awful nice girl. she is crazy over him, but she is making an awful mistake. his legs are all right, but his head was just put on his neck to finish it off. there is nothing in it, and if this dancing craze goes out, he will have to run a sizzor's grinding machine to earn a living, as he couldn't even play a thinkin' part. i went out to see billy last sunday and we went to church. i felt awful jay as i didn't know what to do, but i watched mrs. smith and done everything she done and got through all right. the kids looked so nice in their little sunday clothes, and billy was so good. i didn't think much of the sermon, as it didn't seem to hit anything, but i am glad the smiths take billy every sunday. it may do him good, and it can't hurt him, yet it seems to me that if the preacher talked a little more about how to get help and how to peg along every day, that it would do people more good than to talk about some old guy--he called him isaih--who has been dead a long time. when billy gets a little bigger, i would like him to sing in church. he would look lovely in a long white night dress, and his eyes and hair would show up wonderful. i asked the smiths about it, and they said that they would get both paul and billy in the choir if i wanted them to. i would like it, but still i am kinda scared that it might put ideas of the stage in his head and no theatre for our billy. i want him to be a working man of some kind. a man that builds things, or invents, or writes. i want him to do something and _be_ something, not just amuse a lot of fool people who can't amuse themselves. when you come home we will pipe up something great for that son of yours, and we will stick to it and _make_ him be something. there is a chance for every one in this nice big fat world of ours, and billy will come out on top some way, or his aunt nan will know the reason why. lots of love, _nan_. xvii _dear kate_: i am having the best time of any girl in the whole world. oh, kate, i do love to dance, cause dancing is just a saying the nice-thoughts inside of you with your body instead of your lips. and i think when you get better thoughts you do better work. i know mine is different somehow, cause even old, fat casey who never throws you a decent word if he can help it, said i'd do. when i used to dance in the joints around 14th street and over on eighth avenue i danced just the things i knew then, which was cafes filled with cigarette smoke, booze on the tables and puffy, bad faced men staring at me. my dancing was not good, just making my feet go, but now i think about other things and i dance the buds coming out on the pussey willows, the dog wood blossoms and the ripples of the lake when the moon shines on it. i hear the crickets and the katey-dids and the little peepers from the pond, and instead of hard-faced girls puffing cigarette smoke into men's faces, i see billy with his curls hanging round his laughing face as he runs up the long road to meet me when i come from the station. my body seems to have grown softer with my feelings and it bends more easy and i believe i have even changed my face. i don't feel that all the world is against me and that i have to fight my way through it, cause i know i am loved and trusted and there is always some one waiting for me at the gate. why, kate, it changes your whole life to know there is some one caring for you who won't try to do you the first chance they get, and if it makes such a difference in your feelings, it is bound to make a difference in your actions, and that is the reason when i dance, i sway and bend and turn as light as if i was a fairy one reads about in story books. it ain't dancing, it ain't work. it is just a telling all the world i'm happy. dancing in these better places is not bad for a girl cause the management don't make you talk to no one and won't let the men get fresh. of course i get a lot of notes and bids to dinner, but i don't mind them cause i have had them all my life. the only difference now, the spelling is good in these and they are supposed to come from gentlemen. yet i tear them up just as easy as i did the other kind. mrs. smith is always scared about me. i showed her a mash note once and she sure threw a fit, but i tell her she don't need to worry about me, i know how to take care of myself all right, as i have been doing it all my life. i seen too much crookedness and i have seen that it don't pay. i never knew a girl yet that went the limit but landed hard some day on the pavement. even you was straight, kate, your only trouble is that your hands are too small, and when you married jim and he showed you how easy they went in other people's pockets, you kinda took to it natural. i suppose that is because of father who is a born dip and it had to come out again in some of the family. i wonder if lots of people ain't crooked cause they don't know no better. i have been thinking a lot lately about education. mr. smith was a teacher in a boy's school in england, and he talks sometimes about the right kind of learning, and i sit by and listen trying to hear all i can that will help billy. mr. smith says that if a boy has got the right kind of education, he will just naturally choose the right things in life. he don't believe because billy's father and his grandfather are dips that that is any reason that billy should be one. he says, give him the right kind of schooling and teachers that will understand him or show him what kind of books to read and tell him the great things that have been done by other men, and that he can do it if he tries, that it will make him ambitious and he will naturally choose the right kind of a life instead of the wrong kind. he will go with the right kind of people, instead of the wrong kind. he wants to make paul an electrical engineer, but first he wants him to go to college and get a lot of book-learning, so when he is by himself he will be willing to sit by the fire and read some book he loves instead of chasing down the great white way to find amusement. he says a man must know something besides his business or when he ain't working he won't know what to do with himself. them is the men, he says, that fill the night restaurants and sets in the front row at the burlesques. he believes that if men were educated in the way they orter be, there would not be no crookedness. that the upper story men and the dips and the safe blowers most always ain't got no education, and they are crooked because they don't know nothing different. he says ignorance makes a man not able to tell right from wrong. i told him i knew lots of dips who were clever, and he said, "yes, that is so, but if they had been able to train that cleverness in the right way when they was young, they would not be dips now. they would use their brains in building up some business that was on the square. they ain't never had the right chance, so they can't be blamed." that is so, part of it, kate. lots of people i know, feel it in their bones that crookedness don't pay, but they don't know nothing else, cause they got in wrong at the start. now if it is all true that he says and education will make a man on the level, then me for education. billy is going to have it if i have to pour it down him with a spoon. billy is going to have just as good a chance as paul. i am getting to be such a tight wad that i am losing all my friends. i won't buy a drink for no one, and i even shove the girls sweet caporals instead of melachrino's when they come up to my room. why, i squeeze a nickle till it hollers, and i wear out three dollars of shoe leather chasing up the street to find an eating joint where they will fill me up for a quarter. any way, kate, your son is going to have a lot of letters writ after his name, if his aunt nan don't get the cholly hoss in her legs, and lose her thirty bucks per week that she is making now. good-bye, kate, i am coming to see you soon, and i will bring you some pictures of the kid that we took when he went in swimming. he can float on his back and mr. smith nearly scares a lung out of me learning him to dive. i am thinking of you always. _nan_. xviii _dear kate_: i went down to miner's the other night and saw mable lee. i was in her dressing room with her most two hours. she is a near star now, and don't she put on airs! she has a dressing room of her own, and any mere chorus girl that puts her nose in her door gets a lady-like call-down that you can hear to 42nd street. she forgot that she ever worked at coney with us, and rustled beer between acts, and that ain't the only thing that has happened to her memory. she says she is only twenty one, and she was twenty one when we were playing together at the casino and i was doing a kid act. that was ten years ago. i must say it for her, she gets it over because she has got new red hair and when she gets her face fixed up and her long ear rings on, which is about all she wears in this new act, she looks about sixteen. i danced the other night at a party. there was a lot of swell folks there, women with low neck dresses and real diamonds. gee, if anthony comstock had come in he'd a got busy when he piped off some of the clothes. they acted as if they were trying to be tough, set around and smoked and acted like street girls dressed up. funny, ain't it, street girls try to act like real ladies, and real ladies try to act like street girls. i suppose everybody wishes sometimes they could be what they ain't, and so they play at the other thing. i wondered as i looked at them if they had homes or babies, and if they ever set in front of the fire and talked of things like mr. and mrs. smith does. sometimes mr. smith reads at night from a bible and he read the other night something written by a jewish gentleman named moses. i heard it all one evening when i was dancing. it just come back to me like a soft voice: "as an eagle that stirreth up her nest, that fluttereth over her young. he spread abroad his wings, he took them, he bare them on his pinions." now, ain't that pretty? i thought after i went to bed about the big bird that broke up her nest, as mr. smith told to me, and pushed her babies out so as they could learn to fly, and then went under them with her wings all stretched out wide to catch them if they fell. that is just like a mother, ain't it? they want their children to go in the world and learn, yet they would put out their bodies if they could for them to fall on when things went wrong. i suppose it is because children are so helpless and their mothers must care for them and keep them from everything that is hard and so it brings out all the love and sweetness in a woman's heart and makes her give her life for her own. anyway, i heard it a humming in my heart along with the music, and i didn't dance my dance at all, i just danced old moses, and i will never see a kike again with the same eyes. i got another new dress. gee, it is like pulling teeth to spend the money. will henderson made up another dance for me, and i had to have the clothes to go with it. he is a wonder, kate, a sure wonder! even when he is half full of dope he sets down to that old piano and makes it talk. some times he sets for half an hour with his head in his hands, and then he raises up and has a funny look in his eyes and plays such music that all the crowd stops laughing and listens to him. i can dance anything he plays, cause he makes the music talk to me. sometimes it is country fields and flowers and birds and running brooks, and then it changes to dull wet nights beneath the street lamps with sad eyed girls and bad-faced men and hungry eager people all looking for something they have missed, and they go into cabarets like this i dance in, filled with smoke and laughs that only come from lips not from the heart--and i whirl and dance until i am mad from dizziness. and then the music quiets down again and sadness comes and you know the searchers have not found what they were looking for, and they, wander out into the dim grey light of morning and disappear like mist upon the lake. oh, kate, i love to dance! i hope i will never grow old, i want to die a dancing. yours, _nan_. xix _dear kate_: i have not time to write much, but i am so glad i must tell some one, and i know you will be glad with me. i am going to dance at the winter garden at last. we are going to have our try out, and if we take, we will sign a contract like real professionals. i can't talk it to you, i can't say all i am feeling, but if you was here i would dance it to you. yours, _nan_. xx _dear kate_: just as i was a getting ready to go up to the winter garden for our try out, i got a letter from mrs. smith saying that billy had the diptheria. she said, "don't come," that she would let me know all the time how he was. fred come to take me up and i told him i was not going, that i was going to billy, and he almost went crazy. he said, "why, nan, don't you see you will lose your chance if you don't show up now, they will never give it to you again." i said, "i don't care, i am going to billy." he nearly cried. he said, "nan, you have been working two years trying to get on broadway, and if they had told you six months ago that you had a chance to go on at the garden, you would a said they were liars or you would a died for joy. and now you throw it all over for a kid." i said, i didn't care, i was a going to billy. he talked and he talked and then he went down and phoned for will henderson who come over and talked to me. they made me feel that i was doing them a rotten trick, cause will wrote the music and was going to have his name on the program, and he said that if i didn't show up, he would lose the biggest chance he ever had, to get back decent again. so i gave in if they would promise to get me to the train as soon as our turn was over. well, we went and the dance sure did go. i came back eight times and i never saw anybody so tickled in his life as will to think that he can have his name on a program again. he says he will go out to that dope joint in white plains to-morrow, cause he believes he still has got a chance of making good. it does put heart into you when you are down and out to feel that perhaps there is something still ahead of you if you will only buck up. after my turn the manager came into the dressing room and offered us season's work. i think it was the happiest minit of my life. i have worked for it ever since i was a kid and i just seemed to know that some day i would be on top. why, think of it, kate, i am going to have my name, nancy lane, on a program of the biggest dancing place in america, and i will be dancing along side of girls from europe and real actresses. i felt all choked up and i was dead scared that fat manager would see how tickled i was. i am going to do three dances, and talk about wages--no, it is salary now--say, when i die i will leave a foundation fund for poor dancers who have caught rheumatism in their lower limbs. i'll bet you to-morrow that everybody from 14th street to 42nd street will be trying to give me a touch. that is a sure sign you are getting along well in the world, when your friends try to borrow money off you, but hetty green will be a willful waster compared to me, cause i am going to plant it all in the saving's bank for you and billy. good-bye, old lady, i am off for new jersey. even when i was a dancing and the people was a giving me a hand, i was a wondering how billy was, and every once in a while his face would come before me and nearly shut out the lights. your happy _nan_. xxi _dear kate_: we are out of quarantine. i sent you word twice that billy was all right, and he is getting well, but poor little paul died. when i got out here that monday night, the doctor was in the house and told me that if i come in he would have to put me in quarantine and i couldn't leave. it kinda paralyzed me for a minit, cause i thought of that fat garden contract, and how all my chances would be gone because you can't talk to theatre managers about kids or diptheria, as that don't fill the house. then i thought of will and fred and how it would knock fred out of a job and i kinda got sick and set down quick. i asked the doctor how billy was, and he said they was both pretty sick, then i said, "to hell with contracts," and i took off my hat and i'm here. oh, it has been awful, kate. did you ever see a sick baby, when he couldn't tell what was the matter with him and lay just fighting for his breath and you not able to help him, just a standing by with helpless hands, promising god that if your kid ain't took this time you will sure do something for him if you ever get a chance? billy was much worse than paul for a time, and i was scared when i seen him lyin' on the pillow with his face all red with fever, and he didn't seem to know me. the doctor put a tube in their throats and it worked all right with billy, but it was no good for paul, and he died just at daylight, wednesday morning. oh, kate, my heart just broke for his mother. she didn't cry nor nothing, and when they got her away from the baby she come in my room where billy was and she looked down at him for a long time and then--she cursed him. it would a made your blood run cold to hear her talk. she said in a low, _hate_ voice, "you, a child of the streets, a baby nobody wants, you are left and my baby is taken. you,--you will grow up to be a professional thief like your father. they say your mother is in prison, and yet god leaves you. there ain't no god! i tell you it is all a lie, there ain't no god!" i was a setting in a chair at the foot of the bed and she turned and looked at me as if she didn't know me. then all at once she dropped on her knees at my feet and put her face in my lap and said, "oh, nannie, why didn't god take me too? how can i live the to-morrows." and oh, kate, if you have never seen a mother when her only baby is lying in the next room white and cold, you ain't never seen real sorrow. she set on the floor at my feet nearly an hour then she wanted me to go in and help her dress little paul. we put on the new suit i bought him for his birthday, and he looked just as if he was asleep. they buried him in a little grave yard on the hillside, and mrs. smith can see it from her bed room, which i think is bad for her. she acts queer and won't come in the room where billy is, and i never speak his name to her. he is getting along all right now, but it turns me cold to think what might have happened. i will send you word as often as i can, so don't be worried. _nan_. xxii _dear kate_: i am staying to-night at lake rest and it seems like home. i am a setting in front of a fire of logs in a great big fire-place, and the flicker of the fire and the ticking of the clock seem a sort of music to me. oh, kate, it is wonderful here now! it is a little cold and the hills around the lake instead of being green, are all scarlet and brown. the maple trees look as if they had put on their dancing dresses and the beach turns to gold when the sun strikes it. the bitter-sweet has little yellow berries which burst open and show the red centres, and the sumac is all rouged standing stiff and straight as if waiting for the calcium to be turned on it. the brown of the oak trees seem only made to show off the green of the pines and hemlock and spruce, and the brakes that was so green a month ago, are now all crisping up and dying along with the golden rod and the purple astors. the ground is covered with a thick brown carpet of oak leaves that rustle when you walk through them, as if the fairies mrs. smith reads about, was trying to speak to you. it rained yesterday when i come, sort of an unhappy rain that made little ripples on the water and the lake was covered with grey shadows that said as plain as they could. "there is something deep and wonderful below me here that i am covering up with my veil of mystery." i was disappointed that i couldn't see the moon, but he broke out of the clouds a while ago and touched their edges with silver. i am sure it ain't the same sun and moon shining here that shines on city streets. this morning i woke up early and from the ground to the sky there was nothing but a sea of color. it looked as if the world was on fire over there beyond the hills. it waved and rippled a great crimson thing without a shadow, and then it changed to colors which i have never seen before and i felt i was looking into a world of beauty that drawed the heart right out of me. the sky above grew bluer and lighter with only here and there a cloud till it was lost in a great cup that closed down over the earth like a cap of silver. oh, kate, i love it here, i wish i never had to go back. after i have had a night here with the quiet and the peace that seems to be everywhere, the restaurants, and the smoke and the people make me sick. but after a couple of nights i slide back into it again, and like it, i suppose because i have never knowed anything else. but i believe that if i had a home like this i would never go to the city and rush around with the women with tired faces and loud voices that seem to be trying to hurry to finish something before they die. i sometimes set and listen to women who seem to be so busy doing nothing, and when i hear them say, "i am rushed to death" or "i haven't time to do a thing," i wonder what would happen if they didn't do it. what is the difference anyway? if they died to-morrow they wouldn't care it wasn't done, and if they don't die, they will have time to do it, if it is the thing to be done. i am tired of it all. mrs. smith says i have been working too hard and i am blue because i am tired. anyway i want to get way down in a big easy chair and watch the fire and hear the wind in the trees and once in a while, hear the acorns as they drop on the roof. that is all the music i want. i never want to hear an orchestra, and i am sure that some day i will put my foot through the big drum that keeps time for the dancing. i wish you liked the country, kate, and we could get a little place and have a pig and some chickens and a duck and i wouldn't never have to see a pavement or a street light. i am thinking of you, kate, though i am awful tired. _nan_. xxiii _dear kate_: i know you will be dead sore at me, but i could not do nothing else and perhaps some day you will understand why i done it. anyway, i have given billy his chance. he has got just as good a show as any boy of growing up and being a good man, and he won't ever need to know that there are such things as thieves and prisons. he'll learn to think of mrs. smith as mother and he won't ever know that his real mother was in the stir. he will think of his aunt nan, as a little red headed girl who loved him and brought him toys, and he won't never have bitterness or wickedness come into his life through us. he is going away. i will tell you all about it, so as you can get the worst of your madness off before you come out, cause i know when you read this you will want to kill me, and perhaps you will, but i don't care, i have done the only thing i knew to do for billy. after mrs. smith's baby died, she wouldn't look at billy for a long time. then she got to holding him and rocking him to sleep at night, and after a while she couldn't let him out of her sight. i was awful glad, cause i thought perhaps she would be always glad to have him, and then one day i heard them talk about going to australia. mrs. smith didn't like the house since paul was gone. she stops and listens as if she expects to hear him round the corner, and she don't want to go in his room, and she acts queer. mr. smith thinks that if she got away where everything was different, she would forget sooner, or if she didn't forget she wouldn't remember with so much pain. his brother wrote from australia and asked them to come there a long time ago. he is in the sheep business and doing very well. they talked it over and talked it over, and now they have decided to go. it most killed me, cause this is the only home i ever knew, and i didn't know what would become of billy. i felt i couldn't take him back to the room. i said to mrs. smith one day that it kinda kicked my feet from under me to think of billy losing his home and the mother and things he has had for two years. she looked at me a long time and then she said, "nan, billy don't need to lose his home." i said, "what do you mean?" "i will take him with me," she said. it took my breath away for a minit to think of losing billy, as he is all i got, and i guess she saw it in my face cause she said quickly, "you can come too." i did not say nothing for a long time. i thought that this was my chance, i would get away from the old crowd, get away from all the things i hate and yet seemed kinda drawed to. i could leave this life that may be will take me down and down, and billy and i could commence over again in a new country. then i thought of you, kate, and how you are coming out soon, and if both billy and me was gone, you would have nothing to hold to, and i know you, and i know you would go straight to hell. there would be no half way place for you, you would keep on sliding. and, kate, i couldn't leave you. billy can get on without me, he won't never know no difference, but you would be all alone, and it's hard enough to try to be decent when once you've been in stir--even with friends to help you, and when you come out, kate, i am going to be waiting for you at the gate, and you are going to make a fight and win out and live decent. i thought of all this when i sat there looking at mrs. smith and then i said, "no, i can't go, but you can take billy." she said, "nannie, i won't take a baby unless i can adopt him and make him really mine. i don't want any father and mother to come and take him when i have grown to love him." i said nothing cause i knew neither you or jim would give him up unless you saw something in it for yourselves, and these people are poor people and could not afford to pay you nothing. then mrs. smith moved over close to me and took my hand and said, "nan, i am going to say something that perhaps will hurt your feelings. won't you give billy to me?" i said, "why, i would love to, but i can't, he ain't my billy." then mrs. smith said, "now, don't be angry at me, i have never said anything, but i have never believed that story about billy being your sister's baby. isn't he your little boy?" at first i didn't understand her, and then it all come over me what she meant. she thought i had lied to her, thought i had made up that story about you being billy's mother. at first i was mad, not because she thought billy was mine, cause that don't make no difference one way or another, but i hated to think she thought i had lied to her. she saw i was hurt and she held my hand a little tighter and said, "remember, child, i don't blame you, and i don't think none the less of you. i have loved you for two years and i will love you always, but if you want me to take billy, i must take him as his mother." then she got up and kissed me and said, "don't answer me to-night, think it over and tell me to-morrow morning." they left me alone that evening and i sat before the fire till midnight, and when i went up to my room i stood by the window and looked over the lake till the sun come up. and then it all come to me. i would give billy his chance. in a few months you were coming out, in a year jim would be out. you may settle down and be straight, but jim--never. billy would grow up with crooks, would live around in little cheap rooms, getting no education, playing on the streets nights, knowing nothing but dirt all his life and quite likely spend most of his time after he grew up in prison, all through no fault of his, but just because he didn't have a chance. if he could go with mrs. smith he could live in a great big out-of-doors country, where people have clean thoughts and live clean lives, and instead of eating out of the garbage pails of life, he could eat in a clean dining room with a white cloth on the table. i went down in the morning and i did not say nothing until after breakfast, then i said to mrs. smith, "yes, you are right, i lied to you. billy is my baby." she come over and kissed me and said, "i knew it, dear, and i will always like to think of you as his mother." i said to her quick so she would not know how bad i felt, "what must i do to give you billy?" and she said, "we will go to the lawyer's and he will make out the papers." so we went and i swore that i was his mother and that his father was dead, and i give billy to mrs. smith and when he come back he was her little boy. oh, kate, i can't write more, my heart is nearly broke. _nan_. xxiv _dear kate_: billy is gone. he sailed away at ten o'clock this morning. i went over to the boat with them and i didn't say nothing. i don't think even mrs. smith knew how bad i felt. it seemed when i saw that boat pulling out that it was taking all the world with it, and as i stood on the dock watching billy dressed in his little blue suit, his pretty gold curls all around his face, i just wanted to die. the smiths and billy are the only good things i ever had in my life, and it seemed at the last i _couldn't_ let them go. even the morning of the sailing mrs. smith wanted me to go with them, and i felt at first i _had_ to go, that i couldn't stay on here and look all the days and nights in the face and keep on living. then i knew it would not be playing the game. you do need me, don't you, kate? you won't be dead sore about billy, will you, and some day you will understand? i have just walked the streets all day, i didn't want to go up to the room, and i am writing this in kelly's restaurant. i begin to work to-morrow night at the cafe boulevard, and perhaps when i am dancing i won't remember. you will be out in a few weeks and we will be together and happy again. you won't be sore at me, say you won't, kate? oh, kate, i wish things had been different, so we could have kept him. it is hell to be crooked, ain't it? yours, _nan_. xxv _dear kate_: billy is back! i don't know hardly how i can tell you all about it, it don't seem real to me yet. two days out from new york the ship that they was on run into another ship in a fog and everybody was saved except eighteen people, and the smiths was lost. an officer saw billy and threw him in a boat and the smiths was put in another boat that was swamped. i read it in the papers first, and it said the smiths was drowned and of course i thought billy was with them, and i was near crazy because i thought it was all my fault. if i had not of given him to the smiths, he would be alive still. i went down to the dock where the people who was brought in by the other boat landed, and one of the first persons i see was billy, standing with a man and woman, looking just as natural as ever, with his curls around his face and his eyes a laughing just as if nothing had happened. i near went nutty, and made an awful fool of myself, but i was so tickled, i didn't care. i suppose it is wrong to be so glad as i am to have him back, and i feel so bad about the smiths, that one minit i am crying about them and the next minit i am hugging the life out of billy to have him again. i got him up in the room and i will never let him out of my sight a minit if i can help it. i leave him with myrtle williams when i am at work and i hurry right home as soon as i am through. he just makes the sun shine in the old room again. he is such a big strong boy, it is all i can do to lift him over to his own side of the bed at night. i take him out in the morning and we have a long walk. we went up to the park the other day and saw the animals. i think i was as tickled with them as much as billy was, but i guess i made a mistake taking him up there because if he had his way he would board with miss murphy and her baby. he seems to take to hippopotamuses and elephants and things big. i bought him all new clothes, and he looks awful cunning. oh, kate, he sure is one kid. and talk, why, he has got bryan beat to a finish. i have to watch him kinda close cause girls have no sense with babies. myrtle took him out the other afternoon when i was at work and filled him up with ice cream and candy and all kinds of stuff till he nearly died. i gave her a call-down and she said, "well, he wanted it." i said, "of course, he wanted it, kids want everything they see, but that is no sign they should have it. ain't you got nothing in your head but your rat?" she got sore and then i was sorry cause she has been awful good, and i gave her my best slipper buckles to make up. but i tell you it threw a scare into me. billy got all blue and kinda swelled up and i chased her out for a doctor and he said it was all right, and gave him some stuff and the next day billy was nearly all right. i gave billy a talking to and told him that if he coaxed aunt myrtle for everything he saw that i would spank him. it was hot air, and i think he knows it, cause i couldn't bear to spank him. i only did it once and then i was so mad that i did it before i thought. he and paul had a fight, and he pulled a big handful of paul's hair out and made mrs. smith mad, and i just up and gave him a good fat spanking where it did the most good and it helped a lot. i just can't whip him, but sometimes i set him down with a thud that jars his teeth. i don't know what i will do with him, as it ain't good for him to live in one room, but i am so glad to have him that i ain't worrying much. write me a long letter kate. i have been scared to see a post man come my way since i sent you the letter about billy going away, but now, you sure can't be sore, and i will give the old man a good fat hug when i see him ambling up my stairway. yours, _nan_. xxvi _dear kate_: i have been house furnishing. no, not for myself, but for charlie haines who lives across the hall from me. he is an awful nice fellow and is working in the general electric and doing real good. he told me he is getting seventy five a month now and was going to get married to a little girl he has been engaged to a long time, way off in vermont where he used to live. we had a heart to heart talk and i asked him all about her and found she was just a nice little girl who goes to sunday school and teaches the girls and has never been farther away from home than brattleboro, wherever that is. he thought of taking a bigger room and rooming for a while, but i told him not to be a fool, and not to board neither. take a little girl from the country that has always had something to do and put her in a room in a rooming house or a boarding house, and she would go crazy or get to chasing around with the lazy women who live in them places and if she was not a fine sort of girl you can't tell where she would land. a woman wants something to do, and then it ain't no life for a man to come home from work and have to chase out to a restaurant for his grub or down to a long table of folks. what he wants is to take off his coat and wash his face in the kitchen sink and put on a pair of straw slippers and set down smelling the beef steak and onions frying in his own kitchen. and they can talk without a lot of people rubbering and after supper he can help her wash the dishes, and water the geranium and then get in the morris chair and put his feet on the radiator or window sill and smoke and sing "home sweet home." he fell for the stuff and got quite excited, but then he sort of shifted around and i tumbled to the fact that he hadn't saved much money and didn't know how to get the furniture. i said, "now, you just trust your aunt nancy, we will buy it on the installment plan." i found out he had only about $25 after he had payed their fare down here, cause her folks are poor, so i said, "well, we will go look up a flat. better get out a ways so you will get more for your money", and we found a pretty place at 207th street for twenty dollars a month. four rooms and bath on the fifth floor and there ain't no elevator, but they are both strong so it won't hurt them to climb the stairs, and he will be so tickled to get home nights that he won't think about them. he wanted to furnish it and have it all ready when they come back, he is going up to get her and be married at her folks', but i put the nix on that too. i said, "we will furnish the bed room and the kitchen so as you can have a place to stay, but let her pick out the fancy things like the parlor rug and the dining room table. it will make it seem more like her own," and so he done everything i said. they got back about five days ago and say, haven't we been the busy ladies! she is an awful nice little thing, has not got much sense and green--well, kate. believe me, we are the funniest looking pair. i guess she makes her own clothes and her hats--they must have been wished on her. but i like her and she is the happiest thing about the flat. she thinks it is the grandest place she ever seen. i was right about letting her pick her own things as it has given her something to do, the first few days when she was kinda lonesome for her mother and little bit afraid of charlie. we went to a place on 125th street and picked out the furniture, a real nice dining room table and a little side board that looks like real mahogany, and six chairs. got a centre table and a nifty rug for the parlor and a morris chair and a rocking chair, and got the bed room furniture all white, and didn't we have fun buying kitchen things! we went to the ten-cent store and bought everything you ever heard of, from frying pans to egg beaters, and we packed them home in the subway looking like immigrants just landed. she got the grandest set of dishes, a hundred pieces for three ninety five. each dish has got a wreath of pink roses around the edge and they would make even fried onions smell like spring. i am going to help her make the curtains, cause lace ones don't look right in such a little place and we bought some white stuff with dots in it for six cents a yard. i can come up mornings once in a while and sew them. they didn't have money enough to pay all down, so i lent charlie fifteen dollars and they have to pay ten dollars a month. they will get along fine. alice is going to the market herself and i told them they ought to live for five dollars a week for the two of them, so they will save money. gee, it kinda made me feel all in that the flat was not mine. when you come out, kate, let us hire a flat and you stay home and take care of billy and do the cooking and i will hustle the dough. wouldn't i just love to put my door key at night into a little place like they are in, and feel it was ours and go out in the kitchen and eat some irish stew, and then set down and have a gab fest with you over what we had done all day? well, maybe we will do it. just want a thing bad and you will get it and i want a little place of our own some day and you and billy with me and no fear of the police. i am waiting to hear from you. yours, _nan_. xxvii oh, kate, but your letter made me happy. i just carry it round with me and take a peep at it every once in a while to make sure it is real. you say when setting alone you have been thinking and you want to go straight when you come out for billy's sake. i understood how you feel about me giving him away and that it was a rotten trick for me to play you, but i didn't know what else to do then. and then you feel so glad to have him back and know you can see him again, that it has kinda braced you up. now, perhaps if i had not give him away, and he hadn't been nearly drowned, you wouldn't have had the scare about losing him, and you wouldn't never have known how much you cared for him. oh, kate, i just feel it in my bones that we are going to be happy as goats when you get out. we will shake jim someway, and anyway, it will be a long time before he is out, and we will begin over again and you will keep house for billy and me and--i just can't talk i am so happy. heaven's going to have to offer a lot to coax nancy lane away from little old new york when all these pipes come true. yours, _nan_. xxviii _dear kate_: i just don't know how i can tell you all about it. jim is out and it is awful. i suppose you know it by this time in that way that you people seem to get all the news, especially any news that has to do with crooks or prisons. the papers say that him and french louis hit one of the guards over the head with a hammer while coming from work, and got away. they hit too hard, and the guard is dead. well, i didn't think much about it except to be kinda sorry that jim had made such a fool of himself as he only had a year more, and it nearly knocked my pins out from under me when i come up to my room one night and found jim setting there. he was all in and in an awful bad way, and i said to him, "for god's sake, jim, why did you come to me? the police will sure watch me." he said, "i couldn't help it, nan, i am sick and broke and i got to have money and i didn't know who else to touch who wouldn't peach." well, i just stood with my back against the door and looked at him, with one ear ready to listen if any one come up the stairs. he sure did look tough. the year hasn't done him no good. he couldn't look even me in the face. i asked him if it was so what it said in the papers that he had killed a guard. he all broke down and said, "honest to god, nan, we didn't mean to croak him. we didn't hit hard enough to break a baby's head. it must a been like mush." he got up and walked up and down the room and was all in a tremble and he kept saying, "we didn't mean to croak him." i asked him how he got in my room cause my door was locked, and he just laughed and said, "well, if i get so as i can't unlock a crazy lock like this, i better stay in stir the rest of my life." he talked about half an hour with me and i was scared that he had been seen, and i tried to get him to go away, but it seemed he wanted to talk with some one he was not afraid of. i asked him what he was going to do, and he started to tell me where he was going to hide, but i stopped him and said, "don't tell me, jim. then i won't know if the police get after me." i said, "here is fifty dollars, all i got now, but i will get you more, only don't let no one come here or don't send no letters nor nothing. the bulls are bound to think of me first thing." billy was laying in the bed and hadn't waked up cause we talked in whispers, and when he got ready to go, he walked over to the bed and looked down at him, and i really think something come into his rotten little heart. he stood there with his hands in his pockets a long time and then said, "so that is the kid! well--well--he don't look like me, does he? but he is mine, and if i ever get out of this scrape i'll take him." that made me sick and i nearly said, "well, i hope you won't get out of this scrape then." i felt for a minit that if i thought he would get billy that i would peach on him, though that is the lowest trick and ain't done by no one who is white. i went down stairs first to see all was right, and then he sneaked out. i come back and sat down in a chair and set there till morning. i was just all in. now when everything was coming along so nice, why did he have to come and butt in and spoil it all? it is just that way all my life. if it ain't father getting in trouble, it is you or jim. and the nerve of him to say he would take billy! i suppose he would bring him up to be a swell second story man or something big in the profession, so as he could live off him. well, he won't get him, i tell you, and i most hope they find him, although that is rotten in me to even think such a thing. when it come light and nothing happened, i laid down on the bed by billy and put my face against him and cried till i woke him up, and he was so sweet. he said, "poor nanny, somefing hurt her. let billy kiss it," and then i broke all up for sure. i got to get some of my money out of the bank so i can have it handy when jim sends for it. well, good night, kate, don't worry, i'll keep you posted, and i'll send you some money next week. _nan_. xxix _dear kate_: i can't write much, i am so nervous i am near crazy. the police are hot after jim, and they haven't done a thing to me but give me the third degree twice. once they had me up before the captain of the police station here, and once they had me at the central office where the old man himself took a turn at me. i was there four hours, and they done everything they could to make me tell short of putting me behind the bars. they promised me that they would see you got better time, but i know that is only hot air, and they coaxed and bullied and tried to scare me for hours. i told them that it was on the level, i didn't know where he was. i said "yes" that i'd seen him, that he came to me but left the same night. the captain was rotten with me, and if it hadn't been for tom cassidy, i think he would a locked me up until jim was found. but that great big cop stood up for me and said, "oh, captain, take my word for it, she is all right. she ain't lying. i watched her for years and she is on the level. the only thing to do is to watch her." he talked quite a lot with the captain and they let me go, but i tell you setting four hours with a police captain who knows you and your people from the time they entered the ark, and who thinks you are lying just because your relations are crooks, ain't a rest cure for nervous women. i can't dance worth a damn, and i am so fidgety that if i hear a door slam i go all to pieces. that ain't all either. when i was just turning our corner the other night a man came out of sweeney's saloon and handed me a note from jim asking me to give the bearer fifty dollars. i had been expecting it so i went down in my sock and give it to him. i don't know who he was, but i was dead scared for fear that he'd been seen. don't worry, things will come right some way. they can't be much worse. i will write you all the news. _nan_. xxx oh, kate, can't you get word to jim some way and call him off? he is just bleeding me to death, and every time i turn round there is some one with a note from him asking for money. i have drawn most all i have in the bank, and will soon be flat broke if this keeps up. i want to help him all i can, but it just kills me to see all the money that i have saved so careful and gone without things so as to have some for you when you come out so as you could rest a while and see what you wanted to do, go to that cheap crook and his friends. i suppose he is a paying them dear to hide him, cause they are a rotten lot and won't do nothing without pay. it scares me cold every time i see a man with a note in his hand, because the police are bound to get on to it sooner or later, and they will follow the fellow and find jim. i have give him enough to get to australia, why don't he go? oh, i don't want them to get him of course, but i wish something would happen that would call him off of me. _nan_. xxxi _dear kate_: i am worried near sick, and i can't sleep nor eat nor nothing. i refused to send jim any more money and the other night a man walked along the street with me and said, "jim wants you to send him fifty." i said, "i haven't got it to send, i am busted." he bent his head toward me and said, "jim said to tell you that if you didn't send the dough, he would take the kid." i just near went cold at that, and the man saw it scared me white. i had my week's pay in my bag and like a fool i gave him twenty, which tipped my hand off to them, showing i was scared for the kid. i went home and i ain't let billy out of my sight since, except when i am working, and then i take him up to myrtle's, and tell her to keep the door locked, and not to answer it for nobody. i tell you, kate, if he touches billy, i will peach on him as sure as i am a living sinner. i am dead sore. he has got all my money, and i am in all wrong with the police, but i will help him anyway i can, so long as he keeps his hands off billy. now, if you or your friends have got any way of getting word with him, you just let him know it. _nan_. xxxii _dear kate_: billy is all right. i got him planted in a place where jim would never dare look for him. i was in an awful fix. every time i turned around it seemed i saw some one from jim, and i got so scared i couldn't do my work, because every time i come home, i thought perhaps they might have copped him. did you ever know tom cassidy, a young cop at our station? his father was captain there for years and years and years, a great big good-looking irishman. well, young tom is just as good looking as his dad, and he has been awful nice to me. he is the one that took my part before the captain, when the captain tried to give me the third degree. he walks down to the corner with me every once in awhile, and he likes billy. the other day he walked home with me and billy, and i was all in, as i just had a rotten note from jim. he was so kinda nice, i started a crying in the street, and he said, "you poor little thing, let me go up with you and tell me all about it." first i thought it might be a plant, then i thought i didn't care, for i had to talk to somebody who had some sense, and it would not be peaching on jim, for i really didn't know where he was. so he came up to the room, and i made some coffee to give me time to get my feelings collected so i could talk, and he sat down and played with billy. then i told him all about it, how i didn't know where jim was, but that he kept a touching me all the time, till i didn't have a cent left, and now he was threatening to take the kid. he was awful nice, and patted my hand with his great big hand, and said, "you poor little red head, it has sure made you peaked looking. your eyes are bigger than your face. what you going to do?" "that's just it," i said, "i don't know what to do. i've got to work, i can't set around and watch billy all the time. i just don't know _what_ to do. if i could only get him away somewhere where they couldn't find him, i'd tell the whole bunch to go to hell." "say, kid," he said, "i got an idea. why don't you send him up to my mother's? we got a swell little house up at 225th street, lots of room, a big yard where he could play, and ma would be tickled to death to have him. she is dippy on kids, and since me and jack growed up, she says her hands have been empty." i nearly fainted, a thinking of billy in the home of a cop, cause that is the last place on earth they would think of looking for him, and then i got suspicious again. you know, kate, i have got an awful bad suspicious disposition. i am looking everywhere for a plant, but i studied it all over, and i couldn't see none in this, and i was so tickled that i couldn't say even "thank you." tom said to me, "now, you put his little duds in a bundle, and when i go off duty at four o'clock, i will come and get you, and we will go up on the subway." then i got a thinking after he went away that some of jim's friends might be watching the house, so i went down to cassidy's beat, and told him i would meet him at the grand central, where there wouldn't be so much danger of us being piped off. talk about a grand little home, kate. tom cassidy has sure got it, and his mother is the nicest little irish woman that ever lived! and _irish_! you could cut her brogue with a knife. but she just laughs all the time, and her face breaks up in the funniest little wrinkles that make you laugh with her. she came to the door herself, wiping her hands on her kitchen apron, and when she saw tom and me and billy, she looked at us funny for a minit and then she said, "say, tom, ye ain't been married all these years, and just now a bringing your family to your old mother?" tom laughed and said, "no such luck, mother, but i've adopted a family. i think the house is lonely without kids." she took billy and me up to a little bed room, and she helped take off his hat and coat, talking all the time, billy talking back, not a bit scared of her. then we went down to the kitchen to finish getting supper. another son came in named jack who is studying farming and he is crazy about it. tom introduced him to me by saying, "this is john cassidy, farmer, greatest onion expert in the world." the kid, who is about nineteen, said, "ah, cut it out, tom," and tom's mother said, "now, don't plague the bye." then we sat down and had the dandiest dinner. we ate in the kitchen, and then i had to go to work. billy was all right, didn't seem to feel a bit bad about me going. jack had him in the back yard, building something with little pieces of wood. tom went to the station with me, but i wouldn't let him go no farther, cause i did not want to be seen too much with him. i told him i wouldn't come and see billy, cause i might be followed. i tell you, i went home feeling better than when i went up there, cause jim can do his worse now, he can't get billy. i got your letter, kate. it was an awful nice letter. you seem all different, and it makes me happy way inside. yours, _nan_. xxxiii _dear kate_: i don't know how i'm going to tell you, so you won't feel too bad. jim is dead. he sent two or three times to me asking me for money, and i wouldn't send it to him, cause i didn't have it, and when the last fellow threatened to take the kid, i told him to go to the devil, that the kid was where they couldn't touch it. well, that night i just got home from work and had taken my waist off and was starting to brush my hair when i saw my door open sneaking like, and jim crept in. i was paralyzed for a minit and couldn't move, just stood there with the brush on my hair. he had been drinking and looked awful. i said low like, "jim, for god's sake, jim, why do you come here?" he said, "where else am i to go?" i said, "jim, go--go--don't stay a minit." he didn't move, just stood and looked at me. "but, jim," i said, "the police, they're watching the place." he come up to me and put his face close against mine and i backed away, and said, "jim, get out. you've been drinkin'." then he sort of got sore and he said, "what do you mean by sendin' me the messages you have?" i said, "i mean just what i said, i ain't got no more money to give you," and he sneered at me. "oh, you ain't got no money, and you ain't hauling down thirty a week, are you?" "well," i said, "suppose i am, it's mine, ain't it?" and then he said i ought to divy up when a feller's in trouble, and at that i got mad. "divy up?" i said. "_divy up._ what have i been doin' the last month but divy up. i've give you all i got. why don't you get out of the country, you'll be pinched the first thing you know." and then he said fierce like and with an awful look on his face, "you take it from me, nan, they'll never pinch jim sheridan. if the bulls git me it'll be because i can't handle a gun." i didn't know what to do with him and i said again, "get out, jim, i'm scared to death you've been seen." he said, "gimme some money. i got to have money." i asked him, "what've you done with all i sent you. i've give you enough to take you to australia." he said, "i've had to pay for my hidin' and i got to put up some more." that kind of made me sick and i said, "well, you'll have to get it from some one else then, i've give you the last dollar i've got. i'm busted." he kind of saw it was true i think, cause he started looking around the room, then he said, "where's the kid?" i said, "never you mind where he is," and he got sore again and said, "never mind my own kid. well, believe me, he's mine, and i've got an idea i want him. where is he?" and i said, "he's where you won't get him." jim come over to me again and stood in front of me and says, "he is, is he? well, i'm going to have him," and then i got mad clear through and said, "well, you can't have him. so help me god, jim, if you try to touch billy, i'll peach on you as sure as i'm alive." jim laughed and said, "yes, you will, you ain't that kind," and i said quick, "oh, i ain't, ain't i. no, i ain't that kind. i been brought up to believe that it's the last trick to peach, but i'll go back on all i ever knowed, and put you behind the bars if you ever try to touch that kid." jim kind of sneered. "what do you want of him?" he said; "he ain't no better off with you than with me." i said, "perhaps he ain't. but he won't be raised with crooks and grow up feeling that crookedness is straight. he'll know decent people, not a lot of cheap second story men and dips." jim laughed. "you're a nice one to talk, old bill lane's daughter." and then kate, oh i said awful things, and i remember every word and go over it all at night. i said, "yes, and kate lane's sister. i know, i've had it rubbed in enough. no one ever says nancy lane, they always say bill lane's daughter, kate lane's sister or jim sheridan's sister-in-law. hain't i had that to fight against all my life? ain't i lost every good chance that i ever had to work in the good places, just because i've had to buck against the reputation of my family? and then when _you_ come in the family, i might a carried the others, but no one could carry you. why, you dirty crook, you're known from san francisco to new york, and i've had to work in cheap shows and dirty cabarets just because of you always coming and queering me when i got started. look at the crowd i go with," i said. "do you suppose i'm crazy about them? but i have to go with that kind, the kind that don't fall dead, when they find out who i am." jim looked at me a minit, then he said, "you're getting dam nice lately, what's the matter with you?" i thought a minit and then i said, "yes, i'm different, i know it, but i've had most two years of not havin' to be scared to death, not having to look over my shoulder for fear a cop was following me to find out about some of you. i've been able to read the papers without being scared i'd see some of your names in it, and i've been allowed to work in peace. and i've done good work too, i've been able to leave the rotten joints and i'm workin' up, and i'd get to the top if i was left alone. why the only peace i've had in all my life has been the last year when you and dad and kate was all in jail. i been able to sleep nights knowing where you all was and that you couldn't be doing nothing to get in trouble." jim said, "oh, can the hot air. i want the kid, i'm going to get out, but i'm going to take him with me." i said, "yes, you are, _nit_." jim looked at me kind of curiously for a minit and said, "what are you so crazy about him for, why do you want him?" i said, "i don't know what i want him for. i don't know, but you won't have him. he's the first thing i ever had in my life that's sweet and clean, and he's the first thing that ever loved me without thinking what they could make out of me. why, when he was in the country and he'd come to the gate to meet me, with his eyes shining with love and his face all dimpling with laughs, i'd choke up and some times not be able to speak. billy's made me _live_. he's made something new come to me, he's made me see all life different, and i'm going to pay him back for what he's done for me by giving him a chance." jim laughed, "you give him a chance," he said, "what kind of a chance can you give him?" i said, "i don't know for sure. i ain't got it all figured out, but he's going to have his chance to grow up like other men." jim acted sore again and said, "ah--what's the use of talking. we're wasting time. i want money and i'm going to have the kid. if i can't find him i'll put the gang wise, and some of them'll find him all right." at that i think i just went off my head, and i didn't care whether the police heard me or not. i said, "jim, don't you _dare_ to try to take billy. don't you _dare_ to put any of your dirty gang on to get him away from me. i tell you i'll peach on you. i'll find out where you're hiding and i'll bring the police there myself. i'll fight for billy. i'll fight as any woman'll fight for a baby. if you dare to touch him or let any of your sneakin' pals come near him, i'll follow you till i see you behind the bars if i have to follow you till hell freezes over." jim seemed as if he couldn't speak for a minit, then his face got red and he come towards me. he said, low and fierce like, "tell me where that kid is." i said, and moved away from him, "i won't tell you." he said again to me, "i say, tell me where he is." i said again, "i won't tell you. he's planted where you'll never find him." i was standing by the bed and he grabbed me by the throat, and bent me over backwards, and his eyes just burned into mine. "oh," he said, "you won't tell me, you won't--we'll see if you won't, by--" and just then the door opened and three plain clothes men and two cops walked in. i don't know how it happened. i don't know nothing that happened after jim turned and knew the game was up, but there was three quick shots all at once, and when the smoke cleared away, jim was lying on his back on the floor, one of the plain clothes men had a bullet through his shoulder. they bent over and found that jim was all in. pretty soon an ambulance come, and he was took away. the sergeant talked to me, but i can't remember nothing he said. it all happened so quick, that it seemed an awful nightmare, and i just sat there, saying "yes and no" to the sergeant, not understanding nor caring. when they all went away, tom cassidy stayed behind, and he come up to me, and put his arms around my shoulders and said, "you poor little red head, you do seem to be getting more than your share, don't you?" and at that i just all broke up, and i put my head against his great big chest, and i cried all down the front of his uniform. he just patted me quiet like, and let me cry, and then when things quieted down a bit, he said, "now, i will tell you what you do. you just put on your bonnet and i will take you up to the old lady's. you don't want to sit here alone, and billy will be tickled to death to see you." i said, i didn't want to be a trouble to him, that having one of us was enough, and he said, "my grandmother's grey cat's kittens, why you won't be no trouble, mother likes somebody to wipe the dishes, and jack likes somebody to talk onions to. we have all heard it, but it will be new to you." well, he helped me find my hat, and he almost put the hat pin through my brains, and he helped me find my blouse, i had been a setting all the time without a waist and didn't know it, and he was awful nice, never showed by the bat of an eye that i wasn't dressed in a mackintosh. then when i had powdered my eyes, we went over to the station. he wasn't on duty, but he had heard the men talking about jim being at my place, and he come along with them to see that nothing happened to me. i am going to stay here a week. i can't work and tom went and saw the manager and fred keeney, my dancing partner, and got me off for a week. mabel sullivan is going to take my place. she dances a good deal better than i have the last month since i have been so worried, so it'll be all right. billy is looking fine. he calls the old lady "granny" and talks as irish as she does. she is crazy about him, and says she will never let me take him away. now, don't feel too broke up, kate. i am afraid i haven't told you very well about it, but i had rather have you hear it from me, so you will get it straight. there is no use a telling you i am sorry, cause i ain't. i always hated jim's eyes, yet i wouldn't have peached on him, nor done nothing to hurt him. yours, _nan_. xxxiv _dear kate_: i am having a dandy time! this is an awful pretty place. it is kinda in the country, yet it is right in the city. captain thomas cassidy must have been a very saving man, or else he didn't let many things get by him, to be able to buy a nice little home like this. yet, perhaps, he bought it when this was real country, and cheap. the house has got a parlor and a dining room and another room and a kitchen and a laundry down stairs, and up stairs there are five bed rooms and a bath, and a great big attic where billy can play when it rains. there is a big yard, both front and back. the front yard has flowers and belongs to mrs. cassidy, and the back yard has a vegetable garden, and belongs to jack and tom, half and half. you would laugh to see them two great big babies quarreling over their vegetables. tom comes home and takes off his uniform and his collar and fusses around his garden every night. he weeds and sweats and swears, and his garden ain't nothing like jack's. all jack has to do is to look at a cabbage and it grows, and their poor mother has an awful time keeping peace in the family. if they have lettuce from jack's garden, jack says to her, "mother, ain't that the finest lettuce you ever et?" and tom drops his knife and looks up sudden at her, and she says careful-like, "it is awful good lettuce, jacky bye, but that we had yesterday was most as good," and then tom goes on eating. jack has just finished his farm schooling, and he is dippy about it. onions is his graft. why, he will talk about an onion for an hour. he got me in a corner one day, and he talked about the money there was in raising onions, how many bushels there was eaten in the world, and how many thousands of bushels there was brought in from some place down south, and the price of onions a bushel, and how many million could be raised on an acre, well, my head whirled before he got through, and i felt as if everybody had made a mistake by not turning the whole earth into an onion farm. i said to him one day, "what are you studying farming for, that don't pay? why don't you go into the police like your father and like tom?" "ah," he said, "who wants to walk up and down a hot street all day and bat a drunk over the head or pinch a kid for hooking a watermelon. i am going out in the country where i can see things grow." his mother said, "he do be taking after my people. he is just like me feyther, who always had to have his little bit of garden and his pig." here jack started in again talking so fast you could hardly understand him, he gets so excited and his eyes get bright and he waves his hands around in the air--he is awful funny. tom and his mother set back in a chair and laugh at him, just like i did when he started on pigs. he said, "now for pigs, there is more money in pigs--" just then tom hollered, "choke him, nan, choke him, if he gets started on pigs we are done for. onions is bad enough, but pigs is pigs." jack gets awful mad and hates to be laughed at, and his mother has to smooth him down. she says to him running her hand soft up and down his coat sleeve, "never you mind, jacky me bye, it is yourself that will be making the family fortune one of these days, with your onions and your pigs." tom laughed and says, "yes, if he feeds the onions to the pigs." but i think jack is right, and i hope some day he has a chance to get a farm, cause it would be a shame for a person to love a thing the way he loves it, and not be able to work at it. i asked him one day if he thought he could make it pay, and he said, "sure, don't the italians and the chinamen out west make truck farming pay? the trouble with us is, we don't go at it right. we go at it too big, and raise corn and oats and barley instead of vegetables. why, a farm near a big city like this, if it was run right, ought to just coin money." i am teaching, the boys to dance. you would kill yourself a laughing watching them. after supper we push the kitchen table back, cause the kitchen is a big old-fashioned kind, and tom takes off his coat, because he goes at it as if he was going to saw a load of lumber, and jack runs the phonograph and i try to teach tom to dance, but you might just as well teach an elephant to walk a tight rope. tom is all feet. to begin with, he is six feet two, and i come to about the second button on his coat, and i have an awful time trying to get him around. he tries so hard, he puckers his face all up in worried lines, and he sweats and he breathes hard, and then when he gets through, he falls into a chair just done up, mops his face and the back of his neck with a handkerchief or a handy towel, and says, "talk about work, why i would rather load a dray all day." then when he gets cooled off, he runs the phonograph for jack. jack dances lovely. he is awful light on his feet. you don't have to show him a step but once when he knows it, but he don't care much for dancing, not half as much as tom does, who would never learn the tango if he lived a thousand years. but it is funny to see tom. when jack is a dancing tom will take an onion and go in front of tom, holding it just out of reach and moving just as jack moves, as if he was trying to chase the onion. when i say jack is a good dancer, tom says, "sure, he is, cause he thinks he is chasing an onion. now if we only had a pig, no tellin' what he'd do." the one that can beat them all out is mrs. cassidy. at first she wouldn't get up and try, and said, "the likes of an old woman like me dancing around," but i gave her a great line of talk, told her how all the old ladies was dancing, that if she went down to the restaurants where i danced, she would see women old enough to be her grandmother, having the time of their lives. first she wouldn't listen to it, and said, "gwan, they are trying to make a fool of me in my old age," but finally i got her to try, and say, she done grand. like all irish girls, she used to dance when she was young, and it all come back to her, and she took to the new steps just natural. it was fun to see her. her face flushed, her eyes got bright, and she didn't seem to be old no more. tom and jack were tickled to death. when she got through, they clapped their hands, stamped their feet on the floor, just like the hoodlums do in the gallery, when the hero rescues the maiden. mrs. cassidy flushed, was half ashamed, and half tickled, and said she would never make a fool of herself again, but she does and she likes it, and she and jack can do the hesitation waltz beautiful. i mustn't write you any more, kate. i am awful happy here. i think of you all the time, and your letters are so good. yours, _nan_. xxxv _dear kate_: i got your letter and i know how you feel. if jim was no good, he was your husband and you cared for him, and you were a mighty good wife, too. i am sorry if i said things that hurt you about him, but oh, kate, i am glad for one thing, that is, you begin to see that crookedness don't pay, whether it is right or whether it is wrong, it just _don't pay_. look at jim and his crowd. he is dead and five of his friends are in prison, and most of the rest of them are afraid to lift their heads for fear they will see a cop a watching them. i am so glad you see it that way now, and i like to hear you say you have had enough of prison. you will never see one again, kate, except to admire the architecture from the outside. you are right about one thing. you can brace up in new york just as well as outside of it. there is no reason in the world why you should leave this little old berg. we will get up in the bronx somewhere in a little flat like charlie haines', and you won't never need to see the old crowd. something will turn up some way for you to do, and anyway, i can make enough to keep us three. why, kate, i would dance my legs off to have you and billy with me, and you a playing the game straight. so cheer up, old lady, everything is fine and dandy, and you are going to be the happiest woman one of these days in the buzum of your family. yours, _nan_. xxxvi _dear kate_: what do you think? billy is an heir! before the smiths went away they tried to sell their place over in new jersey, but they was going away too soon, and an agent couldn't sell it for them in such a hurry, so they made a will, that if mrs. smith died, the place was to go to mr. smith, and if mr. smith died first the place was to go to mrs. smith, and if they both died, the place was to go to their adopted son, william smith, and that is billy. now, what do you know about that? a lawyer came to me and told me all about it, and the will has been done something to in court, and i have had to sign some papers, and billy is a landowner. why, we was all so excited when we heard it, we all talked at once, and when jack heard it was a farm, he talked onions and pigs at the same time. we went over there last sunday, and it looked just as pretty as ever. it made me feel awful bad about the smiths, and i cried at first a lot. the house seemed lonesome with blinds all shut, and no pigs nor chickens or cattle around the barn, or in the pasture. the house inside was just as mrs. smith left it, cause they had hoped to sell it furnished, and there was even pickles and preserves in the cellar. we ate our lunch on the kitchen table which we put under the big tree looking out over the lake. it was awful pretty. the water was just like a looking glass, and once and a while a little spurt of wind would come and ruffle it all up and then it would die down quiet again. mrs. cassidy said it made her think of her home back in ireland, which is by a lake, and she talked a long time about her man who has been dead ten years, "who was one of the finest" in new york and that meant something in those days. mrs. cassidy set down in the shade with billy, and tom and jack and me went over the place. jack was crazy about it. he would take little handfuls of mud and smell it or taste it, and say, "too sour," or "it needs salt" or "there ain't lime enough," just kinda talking to himself all the time. he found the pasture with a brook running through it, and said it would be just the right thing for pigs, and he saw about ten acres he said the lord intended for an onion field. he made over the barn in his mind, and filled it full of holsteins, and i think if it had not begun to get late and we had to catch a train, that he would have all the holsteins mothers of growing families, cause he just located the right kind of a calf pen when we took him by the coat-tails and dragged him away. we got home awful tired, and everybody went to bed except jack, who set down with a pencil and paper to figure out how much money it would need to make lake rest the model farm of new jersey. good bye, kate, don't feel too bad. remember you are going to be just as happy as me some day, and that's going some. yours, _nan_. xxxvii _dear kate_: i got the grandest idea. i just can't wait to tell you. i thought it all out in the middle of the night, and i had to talk to somebody, so i got up and went into mrs. cassidy's room and got in bed with her and we talked till most morning. she was awful nice, and we talked it over and over. here it is now, kate, don't you think it is wonderful? you and billy and jack can live at lake rest when you come out! now what do you think of it! the house is there all furnished, and jack will do the farming. he is just crazy about it, and he says sure he can make it pay. tom says he will cough up and buy the things jack needs to start, if the little money jack's father left him ain't enough. you give the farm and the house, and jack will furnish the farming things and the work, and you can go halves. that sounds all right, doesn't it? anyway, even if you don't make much the first few years, you get your living, which is about all we get anyway, ain't it, kate? i feel awful bad that i can't do much, but my money all went to jim, but i will live on eggs and buttermilk, and every cent i make will go into the place. you can't help but get along, kate, and out there the old crowd will never get on to you, nobody will ever know nothing about you, and you can begin again as if you was new born. oh, i think it is grand, kate! i can see tom and mrs. cassidy and me coming to see you on a sunday morning, and you and billy and jack waiting for us at the station when the train pulls in, and we will drive over to the place and look at the chickens and scratch the pig and pick the cabbage and hear about the onions, and then after supper we will set on the porch and listen to the frogs and the whip-o-wills and see the shadows come on the lake, and feel that everything is all right, and somebody must be a sure taking care of us. write me soon, kate, and tell me you are as glad about this as i am. _nan_. xxxviii _dear kate_: i feel so kind of shamed, kind of choked up and happy, that it is awful hard for me to put down on paper just what i am a feeling, i don't know what you will say about it, kate, and i know that you will nearly drop dead when you read this, but i am going to get married and--wait a minute--i am going to marry a cop! can you beat that? me, nancy lane, who has been brought up since a kid to feel that cops is her natural enemy, and to hate a uniform as the devil hates holy water. but some way i never think of tom as being a policeman, he is so kind and good and big hearted, always doing something nice for people, and he is so nice at home, just like a great, big boy. he loves his little mother and jollies her and laughs at her, he is just like a good pal to both her and jack, and they simply worship the ground he walks on, and i don't blame them, kate, because--put your head down close--dear, i do too. it is the first time i dared say it out loud even to myself. i didn't know what was the matter with me, i used to be so anxious to get up in the morning to see him at the breakfast table, and i liked to pour his coffee, and fasten his stick in his belt and go to the gate with him. it seemed like the day would never go by until he got back. sometimes he would call me up on the telephone. why, kate, i couldn't hardly talk to him and he would notice it and his voice would get worried and he would ask me if i was sick. when he would come home at night, we would all have supper, and set around and josh and laugh and talk, him and jack half quarreling in a good natured way over their vegetables, or we would dance, or just set out on the front porch with some of the neighbors who'd come in. i didn't know i was loving him cause i wanted to be close to him, but when he was a setting by me, i didn't want to talk or nothing, i was happy just being near him. one night everybody went in and left us on the porch together. he was quiet for a long while, then he moved over closer to me and put his arm around me and he said soft and quiet-like, "nan, are you happy here with us?" and i said, "why, i ain't never been so happy in my life," and he said, "do you think you could stand it to stay always," and i kinda edged away from him and said, "i can't stay always, i must go to work next week," and he said, "no, you ain't going to work no more, nan, except for tom cassidy. you have got a life-long job teaching him to tango." i laughed kinda nervous-like. "that ain't no lie. it would take more than one life to teach you to tango." tom took hold of my face and leaned my head back, and said, "nannie, little girl, i just want you. won't you marry me?" "oh, tom," i said, and i couldn't say no more, and he said, "i don't know how to make love much, but i do love you, nan. from the first minit i laid eyes on you i wanted to take you up in my big arms and take care of you, you seemed so little and alone--and you crept right inside of my uniform and stuck around my heart till there ain't room for nothing else. why everything i hear says your name, and your face goes dancing before me as i walk up and down my beat, and when i looked up sudden the other day at the captain, hanged if for a minit he didn't have red, curly hair. say you will marry me, nancy, and we will be the happiest bunch in the bronx." when he had been talking to me it seemed i was just choked up two ways, one with happiness and the other with misery. i said to him, "oh, tom, i couldn't marry you." he said, "why not, don't you love me?" "it ain't that, tom," i said, "but my family is all crooks. you couldn't marry _me_." he said, "well, what has that got to do with it? i don't see how they can stop me marrying you. most of them is in jail anyway." i couldn't help but laugh, as he was so earnest about it, but i said, "why, tom, if they knowed down at central office that you had married me, they might break you. all the bulls know father." and then tom got mad. "break me--what would they break me for? i guess i got the right to marry the finest little girl in new york if i want to and i would just as soon take you right up to the chief himself and say 'chief, this is nancy lane and i am going to marry her. her father is old bill lane, and the worst crook this side of the pacific, but my little girl is white and clean right through.' and do you know what he would do? he would give you one look over with that clever eye of his, and say, 'put a rose in your hair and go as far as you like, _and_ because you have shown common sense for once in your life, you will be made a captain next week.'" i laughed and couldn't say nothing much, and he moved over close to me again and laid my face against his coat, and put his head down on my hair, kinda patting my face soft with his big hand. he said, "nancy darling, you do like me a little bit, don't you? i will be so good to you, little one, and i will stand between you and all your troubles. you have had your share, and you never need to have no more, cause when things don't go right, all you need to do is to run to big tom cassidy, and rub your little face up and down the front of his big coat, and squeeze a little water out of one eye, and put a little tremble in your voice, and he would go out and lick a st. patrick's day procession for you." then he was quiet but went on after a while soft and tender like, "i sure do love you, little one. don't you care for me a little?" "oh, tom," i said, "it ain't little, it is lots." then he said, "why won't you say we will be married?" and i said, "tom, i care more for you than for anything in the world, but i wouldn't hurt you for nothing." and he said, "the only way you can hurt me, nan, is to say you won't have me and you don't say that, do you dear?" i looked up at him for a minit and he must a saw what was in my eyes, cause he was quiet, just a looking deep into my eyes. then he drew my face to him with his two hands and kissed me. kate i went all of a tremble and it seemed my heart came right up on my lips when i felt his touch mine, and when he said, "say, 'i love you, tom,'" i only needed to whisper it for him to hear, and i was glad cause i couldn't have spoke it out loud to save my soul. oh, kate, i didn't know there was such a thing in the world as what i am feeling. i am so happy it keeps me quiet, and i like to set by myself and think of tom, how big and strong he is, how he will always fight my troubles. but i feel i will never have troubles if i live with him, cause he is so good and kind and gentle, that sorrow could never come near him or his. i won't write you more, cause if i wrote you a hundred pages, i couldn't say more than that i'm the happiest girl in the world, cause i love him, love him, love him. _nan_. xxxix _dear kate_: tom told his mother this morning at the breakfast table and she put down her saucer of coffee, and come over to me and kissed me, and said, "faith, the gosoon, i thought he never was going to do it. sure he's not the son of his father, or he'd a asked you the question the second day you was here. i've always wanted a daughter and now i've got one that couldn't a suited me better if i'd ordered her making." she was so happy, she spent the whole morning making plans for the future, how she would pass part of the time with me and tom, and then when we got tired of her, she would go over to see you and jack. and kate you sure will love her. she is just a dear little irish woman who has always had a great big husband or a son to stand between her and anything that might hurt her. and just think, dear, i won't never have to be alone no more, never have to worry about things all by myself, cause i, too, am going to have a great big man all my own. your happy _nan_. xl _dear kate_: we were married this morning by the priest at the church near here. mother was there (oh, kate, it is nice to say "mother"), and jack and the captain of the station that bullied me so, but he is really all right when his uniform is off and he was a great friend of tom's father. it was over awful sudden. it seemed they just had begun, when he said, "kiss your wife," and i found we was married. now you are out on saturday, kate. tom is coming with me, and we will be there at 10:30. now, i don't want you to feel, like you said in your letter, that you are ashamed to look anybody in the face. you don't need to be, and when those old doors close behind you, you just forget them, and think of what is before you. why, you went in there with nobody but me and jim and billy, and you come out having a great big family, a mother and two brothers, a kid and a sister, not to speak of a farm and two live pigs and a black and white cow that is a waiting for you, and we are all a loving you, and ain't a thinking or a caring nothing about your past, just going to help you make a future. when we step out of the gates, we will look up at the great big, blue sky and though none of us ain't long on prayer, perhaps who is ever watching above there, will know just what we feel and will start us right. anyway, kate, we will be waiting for you, and we are all going to be so happy, that there will never be a grey day, they will all be blue and gold with the sun a shining. yours, _nan cassidy_. the end true to himself roger strong's struggle for place by edward stratemeyer preface "true to himself," while a complete story in itself, forms the third volume of the "ship and shore series," tales of adventure on land and sea, written for both boys and girls. in this story we are introduced to roger strong, a typical american country lad, and his sister kate, who, by an unhappy combination of events, are thrown upon their own resources and compelled to make their own way in the world. to make one's way in the world is, ordinarily, difficult enough; but when one is handicapped by a cloud on the family name, the difficulty becomes far greater. with his father thrown into prison on a serious charge, roger finds that few people will have anything to do with either himself or his sister, and the jeers flung at him are at times almost more than he can bear. but he is "true to himself" in the best meaning of that saying, rising above those who would pull him down, and, in the end, not only succeeds in making a place for himself in the world, but also scores a worthy triumph over those who had caused his parents' downfall. when this story was first printed as a serial, the author has every reason to believe it was well received by the boys and girls for whom it was written. in its present revised form he hopes it will meet with equal commendation. edward stratemeyer. newark, n.j., april 15, 1900. chapter i the trouble in the orchard "hi, there, duncan woodward!" i called out. "what are you doing in widow canby's orchard?" "none of your business, roger strong," replied the only son of the wealthiest merchant in darbyville. "you are stealing her pears," i went on. "your pockets are full of them." "see here, roger strong, just you mind your own business and leave me alone." "i am minding my business," i rejoined warmly. "indeed!" and duncan put as much of a sneer as was possible in the word. "yes, indeed. widow canby pays me for taking care of her orchard, and that includes keeping an eye on these pear trees," and i approached the tree upon the lowest branch of which duncan was standing. "humph! you think you're mighty big!" he blustered, as he jumped to the ground. "what right has a fellow like you to talk to me in this manner? you are getting too big for your boots." "i don't think so. i'm guarding this property, and i want you to hand over what you've taken and leave the premises," i retorted, for i did not fancy the style in which i was being addressed. "pooh! do you expect me to pay any attention to that?" "you had better, duncan. if you don't you may get into trouble." "i suppose you intend to tell the widow what i've done." "i certainly shall; unless you do as i've told you to." duncan bit his lip. "how do you know but what the widow said i could have the pears?" he ventured. "if she did, it's all right," i returned, astonished, not so much over the fact that widow canby had granted the permission, as that such a high-toned young gentleman as duncan woodward should desire that privilege. "you've no business to jump at conclusions," he added sharply. "if i judged you wrongly, i beg your pardon, duncan. i'll speak to the widow about it." i began to move off toward the house. duncan hurried after me and caught me by the arm. "you fool you, what do you mean?" he demanded. "i'm going to find out if you are telling the truth." "isn't my word enough?" "it will do no harm to ask," i replied evasively, not caring to pick a quarrel, and yet morally sure that he was prevaricating. "so you think i'm telling you a falsehood? i've a good mind to give you a sound drubbing," he cried angrily. duncan woodward had many of the traits of a bully about him. he was the only son of a widower who nearly idolized him, and, lacking a mother's guiding influence, he had grown up wayward in the extreme. he was a tall, well-built fellow, strong from constant athletic exercise, and given, on this account, to having his way among his associates. yet i was not afraid of him. indeed, to tell the truth, i was not afraid of any one. for eight years i had been shoved in life from pillar to post, until now threats had no terrors for me. both of my parents were dead to me. my mother died when i was but five years old. she was of a delicate nature, and, strange as it may seem, i am inclined to believe that it was for the best that her death occurred when it did. the reason i believe this is, because she was thus spared the disgrace that came upon our family several years later. at her death my father was employed as head clerk by the firm of holland & mack, wholesale provision merchants of newville, a thriving city which was but a few miles from darbyville, a pretty village located on the pass river. we occupied a handsome house in the centre of the village. our family, besides my parents and myself, contained but one other member--my sister kate, who was several years my senior. when our beloved mother died, kate took the management of our home upon her shoulders, and as she had learned, during my mother's long illness, how everything should be done, our domestic affairs ran smoothly. all this time i attended the darbyville school, and was laying the foundation for a commercial education, intending at some later day to follow in the footsteps of my father. two years passed, and then my father's manner changed. from being bright and cheerful toward us he became moody and silent. what the cause was i could not guess, and it did not help matters to be told by duncan woodward, whose father was also employed by holland & mack, that "some folks would soon learn what was what, and no mistake." at length the thunderbolt fell. returning from school one day, i found kate in tears. "oh, roger!" she burst out. "they say father has stolen money from holland & mack, and they have just arrested him for a thief!" the blow was a terrible one. i was but a boy of fourteen, and the news completely bewildered me. i put on my cap, and together with kate, took the first horse car to newville to find out what it all meant. we found my father in jail, where he had been placed to await the action of the grand jury. it was with difficulty that we obtained permission to see him, and ascertained the facts of the case. the charge against him was for raising money upon forged cheeks, eight in number, the total amount being nearly twelve thousand dollars. the name of the firm had been forged, and the money collected in new york and brooklyn. i was not old enough to understand the particulars. my father protested his innocence, but it was of no avail. the forgery was declared to be his work, and, though it was said that he must have had an accomplice to obtain the money, he was adjudged the guilty party. "ten years in the state's prison." that was the penalty. my father grew deadly white, while as for me, my very heart seemed to stop beating. kate fainted, and two days later the doctor announced that she had an attack of brain fever. two months dragged slowly by. then my sister was declared to be out of danger. next the house was sold over our heads, and we were turned out upon the world, branded as the children of a thief, to get a living as best we could. both of us would willingly have left darbyville, but where should we go? the only relation we had was an uncle,--captain enos moss,--and he was on an extended trip to south america, and when he would return no one knew. all the friends we had had before deserted us. the girls "turned up their noses" at kate,--which made my blood boil,--and the boys fought shy of me. i tried to find work, but without success. even in places where help was wanted excuses were made to me--trivial excuses that meant but one thing--that they did not desire any one in their employ who had a stain upon his name. kate was equally unsuccessful; and we might have starved but for a lucky incident that happened just as we were ready to give up in despair. walking along the road one day, i saw farmer tilford's bull tearing across the field toward a gate which had been accidentally left open. the widow canby, absorbed in thought and quite unconscious of the danger that threatened her, was just passing this gate, when i darted forward and closed it just a second before the bull reached it. i did not consider my act an heroic one, but the widow canby declared it otherwise. "you are a brave boy," she said. "who are you?" i told her, coloring as i spoke. but she laid a kindly hand upon my shoulder. "even if your father was guilty, you are not to blame," she said, and she made me tell her all about myself, and about kate, and the hard luck we were having. the widow canby lived in an old-fashioned house, surrounded on three sides by orchards several acres in extent. she was well to do, but made no pretence to style. many thought her extremely eccentric but that was only because they did not know her. the day i came to her assistance she made me stay to supper, and when i left it was under promise to call the next day and bring my sister along. this i did, and a long conversation took place, which resulted in kate and myself going to live with the widow--i to take care of the garden and the orchards, and my sister to help with the housekeeping, for which we received our board and joint wages of fifteen dollars per month. we could not have fallen into better hands. mrs. canby was as considerate as one would wish, and had it not been for the cloud upon our name we would have been content. but the stain upon our family was a source of unpleasantness to us. i fully believed my father innocent, and i wondered if the time would ever come when his character would be cleared. my duties around widow canby's place were not onerous, and i had plenty of chance for self-improvement. i had finished my course at the village school in spite of the calumny that was cast upon me, and now i continued my studies in private whenever the opportunity offered. i was looked down upon by nearly every one in the village. to strangers i was pointed out as the convict's son, and people reckoned that the "widder canby wasn't right sharp when she took in them as wasn't to be trusted." i was not over-sensitive, but these remarks, which generally reached my ears sooner or later, made me very angry. what right had people to look down on my sister and myself? it was not fair to kate and me, and i proposed to stand it no longer. it was a lovely morning in september, but i was in no mood to enjoy the bright sunshine and clear air that flooded the orchard. i had just come from the depot with the mail for mrs. canby, and down there i had heard two men pass opinions on my father's case that were not only uncharitable but unjust. i was therefore in no frame of mind to put up with duncan woodward's actions, and when he spoke of giving me a good drubbing i prepared to defend myself. "two can play at that game, duncan," i replied. "ho! ho! do you mean to say you can stand up against me?" he asked derisively. "i can try," i returned stoutly. "i'm sure now that you have no business here." "why, you miserable little thief--" "stop that! i'm no thief, if you please." "well, you're the son of one, and that's the same thing." "my father is innocent, and i won't allow any one, big or little, to call him a thief," i burst out. "some day he will be cleared." "not much!" laughed duncan. "my father knows all about the case. i can tell you that." "then perhaps he knows where the money went to," i replied quickly. "i know he was very intimate with my father at that time." had i stopped to think i would not have spoken as i did. my remark made the young man furious, and i had hardly spoken before duncan hit me a stinging blow on the forehead, and, springing upon me, bore me to the ground. chapter ii an assault on the road i knew duncan woodward would not hesitate to attack me. he was a much larger fellow than myself, and always ready to fight any one he thought he could whip. yet i was not prepared for the sudden onslaught that had been made. had i been, i might have parried his blow. but i did not intend to be subdued as easily as he imagined. the blow on my forehead pained not a little, and it made me mad "clear through." "get off of me!" i cried, as duncan brought his full weight down upon my chest. "not much! not until you promise to keep quiet about this affair," he replied. "if you don't get off, you'll be mighty sorry;" was my reply, as i squirmed around in an effort to throw him aside. suddenly he caught me by the ear, and gave that member a twist that caused me to cry out with pain. "now will you do as i say?" he demanded. "no" again he caught my ear. but now i was ready for him. it was useless to try to shake him off. he was too heavy and powerful for that. so i brought a small, but effective weapon into play. the weapon was nothing more than a pin that held together a rent in my trousers made the day previous. without hesitation i pulled it out and ran it a good half-inch into his leg. the yell he gave would have done credit to a wild indian, and he bounded a distance of several feet. i was not slow to take advantage of this movement, and in an instant i was on my feet and several yards away. duncan's rage knew no bounds. he was mad enough to "chew me up," and with a loud exclamation he sprang after me, aiming a blow at my head as he did so. i dodged his arm, and then, gathering myself together, landed my fist fairly and squarely upon the tip of his nose, a blow that knocked him off his feet and sent him rolling to the ground. to say that i was astonished at what i had done would not express my entire feelings. i was amazed, and could hardly credit my own eyesight. yet there he lay, the blood flowing from the end of his nasal organ. he was completely knocked out, and i had done the deed. i did not fear for consequences. i felt justified in what i had done. but i wondered how duncan would stand the punishment. with a look of intense bitterness on his face he rose slowly to his feet. the blood was running down his chin, and there were several stains upon his white collar and his shirt front. if a look could have crushed me i would have been instantly annihilated. "i'll fix you for that!" he roared. "roger strong, i'll get even with you, if it takes ten years!" "do what you please, duncan woodward," i rejoined. "i don't fear you. only beware how you address me in the future. you will get yourself into trouble." "i imagine you will be the one to get into trouble," he returned insinuatingly. "i'm not afraid. but--hold up there!" i added, for duncan had begun to move off toward the fence. "what for?" "i want you to hand over the pears you picked." "i won't." "very well. then i'll report the case to mrs. canby." duncan grew white. "take your confounded fruit," he howled, throwing a dozen or more of the luscious pears at my feet. "if i don't get even with you, my name isn't duncan woodward!" and with this parting threat he turned to the fence, jumped over, and strode down the road. in spite of the seriousness of the affair i could not help but laugh. duncan had no doubt thought it a great lark to rob the widow's orchard, never dreaming of the wrong he was doing or of the injury to the trees. now his nose was swollen, his clothes soiled, and he had suffered defeat in every way. i had no doubt that he would do all in his power to get even with me. he hated me and always had. at school i had surpassed him in our studies, and on the ball field i had proved myself a superior player. i do not wish to brag about what i did, but it is necessary to show why duncan disliked me. nor was there much love lost on my side, though i always treated him fairly. the reason for this was plain. as i have stated, his father, aaron woodward, was at one tune a fellow-clerk with my father. at the time my father was arrested, woodward was one of his principal accusers. duncan had, of course, taken up the matter. since then mr. woodward had received a large legacy from a dead relative in chicago, or its suburbs, and started the finest general store in darbyville. but his bitterness toward us still continued. that the man knew something about the money that had been stolen i did not doubt, but how to prove it was a difficult problem that i had pondered many times without arriving at any satisfactory conclusion. i watched duncan out of sight and then turned and walked slowly toward the house. "roger!" it was mrs. canby who called me. she stood on the side porch with a letter in her hand. "you want me?" "yes, i have quite important news," she continued. "my sister in norfolk is very ill, and i must go to her at once. i have spoken to kate about it. do you think you can get along while i am gone?" "yes, ma'am. how long do you expect to be away?" "if she is not seriously ill i shall be back by day after to-morrow. you can hitch up jerry at once. the train leaves in an hour." "i'll have him at the door in five minutes." "and, roger, you and kate must take good care of things while i am gone. there are several hundred dollars locked up in my desk. i would take the money to the bank in newville, only i hate to lose the time." "i reckon it will be safe," i replied; "i'll keep good watch against burglars." "do you think you can handle a pistol?" she went on. "i think i could," i replied, with all the interest of the average american boy in firearms. "there is a pistol upstairs in my bureau that belonged to mr. canby. i will let you have that, though of course i trust you won't need it." "is it loaded?" "yes; i loaded it last week. i will lay it out before i go. be very careful with it." "i will," i promised her. i hurried down to the barn, and in a few moments had jerry hooked up to the family turnout. as i was about to jump in and drive to the house, a man confronted me. he was a stranger, about forty years of age, with black hair and shaggy beard and eyebrows. he was seedily dressed, and altogether looked to be a disreputable character. "say, young man, can you help a fellow as is down on his luck?" he asked in a hoarse tone. "who are you?" i responded. "i'm a moulder from factoryville. the shop's shut down, and i'm out of money and out of work." "how long have you been out?" "two weeks." "and you haven't found work anywhere?" "not a stroke." "been to newville?" "all through it, and everything full." i thought this was queer. i had glanced at the want column of a newville newspaper and had noted that moulders were wanted in several places. the man's appearance did not strike me favorably, and when he came closer to me i noted that his breath smelt strongly of liquor. "i don't think i can help you," said i. "i have nothing for you to do." "give me a quarter, then, will you? i ain't had nothing to eat since yesterday." "but you've had something to drink," i could not help remark. the man scowled, "how do you know?" "i can smell it on you." "i only had one glass,--just to knock out a cold i caught. come, make it half a dollar. i'll pay you back when i get work." "i don't care to lend." "make it ten cents." "not a cent." "you're mighty independent about it," he sneered. "i have to be when such fellows as you tackle me," i returned with spirit. "you're mighty high toned for a boy of your age." "i'm too high toned to let you talk to me in this fashion. i want you to leave at once." the tramp--for the man was nothing else--scowled worse than before. "i'll leave when i please," he returned coolly. i was nonplussed. i was in a hurry to get away to drive widow canby to the station. to leave the man hanging about the house with no one but my sister kate home was simply out of the question. suddenly an idea struck me. like most people who live in the country, mrs. canby kept a watch-dog--a large and powerful mastiff called major. he was tied up near the back stoop out of sight, but could be pressed into service on short notice. "if you don't go at once, i'll set the dog on you." "huh! you can't fool me!" "no fooling about it. major! major!" i called. there was a rattling of chain as the animal tried to break away, and then a loud barking. the noise seemed to strike terror to the tramp's heart. "i'll get even with you, young fellow!" he growled, and running to the fence he scrambled over and out of sight. i did not wait to see in what direction he went. when i reached the porch i found mrs. canby bidding my sister good-by. a moment more and she was on the seat. i touched up jerry and we were off. "it took you a long time to hitch up," the widow remarked as we drove along. "it wasn't that," i replied, and told her about the tramp. "you must be very careful of those men," she said anxiously. "some of them will not stop at anything." "i'll be wide awake," i rejoined reassuringly. it was not a long drive to the station. when we arrived there, mrs. canby had over five minutes to spare, and this time was spent in buying a ticket and giving me final instructions. at length the train came along and she was off. i waited a few moments longer and then drove away. i had several purchases to make in the village--a pruning-knife, a bag of feed, and some groceries, and these took some time to buy, so it was nearly noon when i started home. several times i imagined that a couple of the village young men noticed me very closely, but i paid no attention and went on my way, never dreaming of what was in store for me. the road to the widow's house ran for half a mile or more through a heavy belt of timber land. we were jogging along at a fair pace, and i was looking over a newspaper i had picked up on the station platform. suddenly some one sprang out from the bushes and seized jerry by the bridle. astonished and alarmed, i sprang up to see what was the matter. as i did so i received a stinging blow on the side of the head, and the next instant was dragged rudely from the carriage. chapter iii the models i had been taken completely off my guard, but by instinct i tried to ward off my assailants. my effort was a useless one. in a trice i found myself on the ground, surrounded by half a dozen of the fastest young men to be found in darbyville. prominent among them was duncan woodward, and i rightfully guessed that it was he who had organized the attack. "take it easy, strong," exclaimed a fellow named moran, "unless you want to be all broke up." "what do you mean by treating me in this way?" i cried indignantly. "you'll find out soon enough," said phillips, another of the young men. "come, stop your struggling." "i'll do nothing of the kind. you have no right to molest me." "pooh!" sniffed duncan. "the models have a right to do anything." "the models?" i queried, in perplexity. "who are they?" "the models are a band of young gentlemen organized for the purpose of social enjoyment and to teach cads lessons that they are not likely to forget," replied moran. "i suppose you are the members," i said, surveying the half-dozen. "we have that honor," rejoined a boy named barton, who had not yet spoken. "and we intend to teach you a lesson," added pultzer, a short, stout chap, whose father had once been a butcher. "what for?" "for your unwarranted attack upon our illustrious president." "your president? you mean duncan?" "mr. woodward, if you please," interrupted duncan, loftily. "i won't have such a low-bred fellow as you calling me by my first name." "i'm no lower bred than you are," i retorted. "come, none of that!"cried moran. "we all know you well. we shall at once proceed to teach you a lesson." i could not help smile--the whole affair seemed so ridiculous that had it not been for the rough handling i had received when pulled from the carriage, i would have considered it a joke. "you'll find it no laughing matter," said duncan, savagely, angry, no doubt, because i did not show more signs of fear. "just wait till we are through with you. you'll grin on the other side of your face." "what do you intend to do with me?" "you'll see soon enough." i began to think the affair might be more serious than i had imagined. six to one was heavy odds, and who could tell what these wild fellows would not do? "i want you to let me go at once," i said decidedly. "if you don't, it will be the worse for you." "not a bit of it. we intend that you shall remember this occasion as long as you live," returned moran. "come, march along with us." "where to?" "never mind. march!" for reply i turned, and made a hasty jump for the carriage, intending to utilize jerry in a bold dash for liberty. i had just placed my foot upon the step and called to the horse when moran caught me by the jacket and dragged me to the ground. "no you don't!" he ejaculated roughly. "there, dunc, catch hold of him; and you too, ellery. we mustn't let him escape after we've watched two hours to catch him!" in an instant, i was surrounded. now that duncan had his friends to back him he was brave enough and held my arm in a grip of iron. "any one bring a rope?" went on moran. "here's one," replied ellery blake. "hand it over. we had better bind his hands." knowing that it would be folly to resist, i allowed them to do as moran had advised. my wrists were knotted together behind my back, and then the cord was drawn tightly about my waist. "now march!" "how about the horse and carriage?" "they'll be o. k." there seemed to be no help for it, so i walked along with them. had there been the slightest chance offered to escape i would have taken it, but warned by experience, all six kept close watch over me. away we went through the woods that lined the east side of the road. it was bad walking, and with both my hands behind me i was several times in danger of stumbling. indeed, once i did go down, but the firm grasp of my captors saved me from injury. presently we came to a long clearing, where it had once been the intention of some capitalists to build a railroad. but the matter had drifted into litigation, and nothing was done but to build a tool house and cut away the trees and brush. the building had often been the resort of tramps, and was in a dilapidated condition. it was probably fifteen feet square, having a door at one end and a window at the other. the roof was flat and full of holes, but otherwise the building was fairly strong. "here we are, fellows," said duncan, as we stopped in front of the door. "just let go of him." the others did as he requested. but they formed a small circle around me that i might not escape. "now that i have got you in a place free from interruption i intend to square up accounts with you," continued the president of the models. "you hit me a foul blow this morning." "you brought it on yourself, duncan," i replied, as coolly as i could, though i was keenly interested. "stop! how many times must i tell you not to call me by my first name." "well, then, woodward, if that suits you better." "mr. woodward, if you please." "oh, come, dunc, hurry up," interrupted moran. "we don't want to stay here all day." "i'm only teaching this fellow a lesson in politeness." "all right; only cut it short." "see here, moran, who's the president of this club?" "you are." "well, then, i'll take my own time," replied duncan, loftily. "go ahead then. but you'll have to do without me," rejoined moran, considerably provoked by the other's domineering tone. "i will?" "yes. i've got other things to do besides standing here gassing all day." "indeed!" sneered duncan. "yes, indeed!" i enjoyed the scene. it looked very much as if there would be lively times without my aid. "you're getting up on your dignity mighty quick, dan moran." "i don't intend to play servant-in-waiting for any one, duncan woodward." "who asked you to?" "'actions speak louder than words.'" "i'm the president of the models, am i not?" "yes, but you're not a model president." i could not help smiling at moran's pun. he was not a bad chap, and had he not been to a great extent under duncan's influence he might have been a first-rate fellow. of course, as is the fashion among men as well as boys, all the others groaned at the pun; and then ellery broke in:-"come, come, this will never do. go ahead with strong, dunc." "i intend to," was the president's rejoinder. "but you all promised to stick by me, and i don't want any one to back out." "i'm not backing out," put in moran. "i only want to hurry matters up." there was a pause after this speech, then duncan addressed me:-"perhaps you are anxious to know why i brought you here?" "not particularly," i returned coldly. duncan gave a sniff. "i guess that's all put on." "not at all. what i am anxious to know is, what you intend to do with me." "well, first of all i want you to get down on your knees and apologize for your conduct toward me this morning." "not much!" i cried. "you are in my power." "i don't care. go ahead and do your worst," i replied recklessly, willing to suffer almost anything rather than apologize to such a chap as duncan woodward. besides, what had i done to call for an apology? i had certainly treated him no worse than he deserved. he was a spoilt boy and a bully, and i would die rather than go down on my knees to him. "you don't know what's in store for you," said dunce, nonplussed by my manner. "as i said before, i'll risk it." "very well. where is the rope, boys?" "here you are," answered pultzer. "plenty of it." as he spoke he produced a stout clothes line, five or six yards in length. "we'll bind his hands a little tighter first," instructed duncan, "and then his legs. be sure and make the knots strong, so they won't slip. he must not escape us." i tried to protest against these proceedings, but with my hands already bound it was useless. in five minutes the clothes line had been passed around my body from head to feet, and i was almost as stiff as an egyptian mummy. "now catch hold, and we'll carry him into the tool house," said duncan. "i guess after he has spent twenty-four hours in that place without food or water he'll be mighty anxious to come to terms." i was half dragged and half carried to the tool house and dropped upon the floor. then the door was closed upon me, and i was left to my fate. chapter iv the tramp again i am sure that all will admit that the prospect before me was not a particularly bright one. i was bound hand and foot and left without food or water. yet as i lay upon the hard floor of the tool house i was not so much concerned about myself as i was about matters at widow canby's house. it would be a hardship to pass the night where i was, to say nothing of how i might be treated when duncan woodward and his followers returned. but in the meantime, how would kate fare? i knew that my sister would be greatly alarmed at my continued absence. she fully expected me to be home long before this. as near as i could judge it was now an hour or so after noon, and she would have dinner kept warm on the kitchen stove, expecting every minute to see me drive up the lane. then again i was worried over the fact that the widow had left the house and her money in my charge. to be sure, the latter was locked up in her private secretary; but i felt it to be as much in my care as if it had been placed in my shirt bosom or the bottom of my trunk. i concluded that it was my duty, then, to free myself as quickly as possible from the bonds which the members of the model club had placed upon me. but this idea was more easily conceived than carried out. in vain i tugged at the clothes line that held my arms and hands fast to my body. duncan and the others had done their work well, and the only result of my efforts was to make the cord cut so deep into my flesh that several times i was ready to cry out from pain. in my attempts i tried to rise to my feet, but found it an impossibility, and only succeeded in bumping my head severely against the wall. there was no use in calling for help, and though i halloed several times i soon gave it up. i was fully three-quarters of a mile from any house and half that distance from the road, and who would be likely to hear me so far off? the afternoon dragged slowly along, and finally the sun went down and the evening shadows crept up. by this time i was quite hungry and tremendously thirsty. but with nothing at hand to satisfy the one or allay the other i resolutely put all thoughts of both out of my head. in the old tool house there had been left several empty barrels, behind which was a quantity of shavings that i found far more comfortable to rest upon than the bare floor. as the evening wore on i wondered if i would be able to sleep. there was no use worrying about matters, as it would do no good, so i was inclined to treat the affair philosophically and make the best of it. an hour passed, and i was just dropping into a light doze when a noise outside attracted my attention. i listened intently and heard a man's footsteps. i was inclined to call out, and, in fact, was on the point of so doing, when the door of the tool house opened and in the dim light i recognized the form of the tramp moulder who earlier in the day had so impudently asked me for help. i was not greatly surprised to see him, for, as mentioned before, the old tool house was frequently used by men of his stamp. he had as much right there as i had, and though i was chagrined to see him enter i was in no position to protest. on the contrary, i deemed it advisable to keep quiet. if he did not see me, so much the better. if he did, who could tell what indignities he might visit upon me? so i crouched down behind the empty barrels, hardly daring to breathe. the man stumbled into the building, leaving the door wide open. by his manner i was certain that he had been drinking heavily, and his rambling soliloquy proved it. "the same old shebang," he mumbled to himself, as he swayed around in the middle of the floor, "the same old shebang where aaron woodward and i parted company four years ago. he's took care of his money, and i've gone to the dogs," and he gave a yawn and sat down on top of a barrel. i was thoroughly surprised at his words. was it possible that this seedy-looking individual had once been intimate with duncan woodward's father? it hardly seemed reasonable. i made a rapid calculation and concluded that the meeting must have had something to do with the proposed railroad in which i knew mr. woodward had held an interest. perhaps this tramp had once been a prosperous contractor. "great times them were. plenty of money and nothing to do," continued the man. "wonder if any one in darbyville would recognize--hold up, stumpy, you mustn't repeat that name too often or you'll be mentioning it in public when it ain't no interest for you to do it. stumpy, john stumpy, is good enough for the likes of you." and with great deliberation mr. john stumpy brought forth a short clay pipe which he proceeded to fill and light with evident satisfaction. during the brief period of lighting up i caught a good glance at his face, and fancied that i saw beneath the surface of dirt and dissipation a look of shrewdness and intelligence. evidently he was one of the unfortunates who allowed drink to make off with their brains. mr. john stumpy puffed on in silence for several minutes. i wondered what he intended to do, and was not prepared for the surprises that were to follow. "times are changed and no mistake," he went on. "here i am, down at the bottom, nick weaver dead, woodward a rich man, and carson strong in jail. humph! but times do change!" carson strong! my heart gave a bound. this man was speaking of my father. what did it mean? what did the tramp know of the events of the past? as i lay behind the barrels, i earnestly hoped he would go on with his talk. i had heard just enough to arouse my curiosity. i was certain that i had never, until that day, seen the man. what, then, could he have in common with my father? instinctively i connected the man with the cause of my father's imprisonment--i will not say downfall, because i firmly believed him innocent. why i should do so i cannot to this day explain, but from the instant he mentioned my parent's name the man was firmly fixed in my memory. in a few moments mr. john stumpy had puffed his pipe out, leaving the place filled with a heavy and vile smoke which gave me all i could do to keep from coughing. then he slowly knocked the ashes from the bowl and restored the pipe to his pocket. "now i reckon i'm in pretty good trim to go ahead," he muttered as he arose. "no use of talking; there ain't anything like a good puff to steady a man's nerves. was a time when i didn't need it, but them times are gone, and the least little job on hand upsets me. wonder how much that old woman left behind." i nearly uttered an ejaculation of astonishment. was this man speaking of mrs. canby? what was the job that he contemplated? clearly there could be but one answer to that question. he knew the widow had gone away, and in her absence he contemplated robbing her house. perhaps he had overheard her make mention of the money locked up in her desk, and the temptation to obtain possession of it was too strong to resist. "i'll have to get rid of that boy and the dog, i suppose," he went on. "if it wasn't for the noise i'd shoot the dog; but it won't do to arouse the neighborhood. as for the lad, i reckon the sight of a pistol will scare him to death." i was not so sure of that, and i grated my teeth at the thought of my present helplessness. had i been free, i am sure i could have escaped easily, and perhaps have had the tramp arrested. it was an alarming prospect. kate was the only occupant of the house, and the nearest neighbor lived a full five hundred feet away. if attacked in the middle of the night, what would my sister do? for a moment i felt like exposing myself, but then i reflected that such a course would not liberate me, and he would know that he had nothing to fear from me at the house, whereas, if i kept quiet, he might, by some lucky incident, be kept at bay. so i lay still, wondering when he would start on his criminal quest. "now, one more drink and then i'll be off," he continued, and, producing a bottle, he took a deep draught. "ha! that's the stuff to brace a man's nerves! but you mustn't drink too much, john stumpy, or you'll be no good at all. if you'd only let liquor alone you might be as rich as aaron woodward, remember that." he gave something like a sigh. "oh, well; let it pass. i'll get the tools and be on the way. the money in my pocket, i'll take the first train in the morning for the west." he paused a moment. "but no; i won't go until i've seen woodward. he owes me a little on the old score, and i'll not go until he has settled up." there was an interval of silence, during which stumpy must have been feeling around in his pockets for a match; for a moment later there were several slight scratches, and then a tiny flame lit up the interior of the tool house. "let's see, where did i leave them tools? ah, yes; i remember now. behind those barrels." and stumpy moved over to where i was in hiding. chapter v following john stumpy i expected to be discovered. i could not see how it could possibly be avoided. john stumpy was but a few feet away. in a second more he would be in full sight of me. what the outcome of the discovery would be i could not imagine. i was at the man's mercy, and i was inclined to think that, our interview of the morning would not tend to soften his feelings toward me. but at that instant a small, yet extremely lucky incident occurred. a draught of wind came in at the partly open door and blew out the match, leaving the place in darkness. "confound the luck!" ejaculated john stumpy, in high irritation. "there goes the light, and it's the last match i've got, too." this bit of information was gratifying to me, and, without making any noise, i rolled back into the corner as far as possible. "well, i'll have to find them tools in the dark, that's all." he groped around for several seconds, during which i held my breath. "ah, here they are, just as i left 'em last night. reckon no one visits this shanty, and maybe it will be a good place to bring the booty, especially if i happen to be closely pushed." i sincerely hoped that he would be closely pushed, and in fact so closely pushed that he would have no booty to bring. but if he did succeed in his nefarious plans, i was glad that i would know where to look for him. no sooner had the man found the bag of tools,--which was nothing more nor less than a burglar's kit,--than he quitted the place, and i was left to my own reflections. my thoughts alarmed me. beyond a doubt john stumpy intended to rob the widow canby's house. the only one at home was kate, and i groaned as i thought of the alarm and terror that she might be called upon to suffer. as it was, i was sure she was worried about my continued absence. in my anguish i strove with all my might to burst asunder the bonds that held me. at the end of five minutes' struggle i remained as securely tied as ever. what was to be done? it was a puzzling, but pertinent question. by hook or by crook i must get free. at great risk of hurting my head i rolled to the door of the tool house, which stumpy had left wide open. outside, the stars were shining brightly, and in the southwest the pale crescent of the new moon was falling behind the tree-tops, casting ghostly shadows that would have made a timid person shiver. but as the reader may by this time know, i was not of a timid nature, and i gave the shadows scant attention until a sudden movement among the trees attracted my notice. it was the figure of some person coming rapidly toward me. at first i judged it must be stumpy returning, and i was on the point of rolling back to my hiding-place when i saw that the newcomer was a boy. when he reached the edge of the clearing he paused, and approached slowly. "roger strong!" he called out. i instantly recognized the voice of dick blair, one of the youngest members of the models, who, during my capture, had had little to say or do. he was the son of a wealthy farmer who lived but a short distance down the road from the widow canby's place. i had always considered dick a pretty good chap, and had been disagreeably surprised to see him in company with duncan woodward's crowd. how duncan had ever taken up with him i could not imagine, except it might have been on account of the money dick's father allowed him to have. "roger strong!" he repeated. "are you still here?" i could, not imagine what had brought him to this place at such an hour of the night. yet i answered at once. "yes, i am, dick blair." "i thought maybe you had managed to get away," he continued, as he came closer. "no; you fellows did your work pretty well," i replied as lightly as i could, for i did not want to show the white feather. "precious little i had to do with it," he went on, as he struck a match and lit a lantern that he carried. "you were with the crowd." "i know it; but i wouldn't have been if i'd known what they were up to. i hope you will not think too badly of me, roger." "i thought it was strange you would go into anything of this kind, dick. what brings you back to-night?" "i am ashamed of the whole thing," he answered earnestly, "and i came to release you--that is, on certain conditions." my heart gave a bound. "what conditions, dick?" "i want you to promise that you won't tell who set you free," he explained. "if dunc or the rest heard of it, they would never forgive me." "what of it, dick? their opinion isn't worth anything." "i know it--now. but they could tell mighty mean stories about me if they wanted to." and dick blair turned away and shuffled his foot on the ground to hide his shame. "don't mind them, dick. if they start any bad report about you, do as i'm doing with the stain on our name--live it down." "i'll try it. but you'll promise, won't you?" "if you wish it, yes." "all right; i know i can trust you," said dick. producing his pocket knife, he quickly cut the cords that bound me. somewhat stiff from the position in which i had been forced to remain, i rose slowly to my feet. "i don't know whether to thank you or not for what you've done for me, dick," i began. "but i appreciate your actions." "i don't deserve any thanks. it was a mean trick, and i guess legally i was as guilty as any one. just keep quiet about it and don't think too hard of me." "i'll do both," i responded quickly. "it's a mighty lonely place to spend the night in," he went on. "i'm no coward, but i wouldn't care to do it, all alone." "i haven't been alone." "no." and dick looked intensely surprised. "who has been here?" i hesitated. should i tell him? "a tramp," i began. "why didn't he untie you?" "he didn't see me." "oh, i suppose you hid away. what did he want, i wonder?" "he was after some tools." "tools! there are none here, any more." "but there were." "what kind of tools?" i hesitated again. should i tell dick the secret? perhaps he might give me some timely assistance. "will you promise to keep silent if i tell?" "why, what do you mean, roger?" "it is very important." "all right. fire away." "he came after some burglar's tools." dick stepped back in astonishment. "you surely don't mean it!" he gasped "who was he going to rob?" "the widow's house. he knows she is away and has left considerable money in her desk." and in a rapid manner i told dick of what i had overheard, omitting the mentioning of my father's and mr. woodward's names. of course he was tremendously excited. what healthy country boy would not be? "what are you going to do about it?" he questioned. "now i'm free i'm going to catch the fellow," i returned decidedly. "he shall not rob mrs. canby's house if i can help it." "aren't you afraid?" "i intend to be cautious." "he may have a pistol." "the widow left one in the house. maybe i can secure it. then we'll be on an equal footing." "i've got a pistol, roger." "you!" "yes, the models all carry them. dunc always insisted that it was the proper thing." as dick spoke, he produced a highly polished nickel-plated five-shooter. "it looks like a good one," i said, after examining it. "is it loaded?" "oh, yes; and i've got a box of cartridges in my pocket besides." "lend it to me, dick." "if you don't mind i'll--i'll go along with you, roger," he returned. "you won't find me such a terrible coward." "all right. but we must hurry. that fellow has got a good start, and he may even now be in the house." "hardly. he'll want to take a look around first." nevertheless, we lost no time in getting away from the tool house. we walked side by side, i with the pistol in the pocket of my jacket, and dick with the lantern held aloft, that we might see to make rapid progress over the unaccustomed road. it was a good walk to the widow's, and once dick stumbled down in a heap, while the lantern rolled several yards away. but he picked himself up without grumbling and went along faster than ever. "if i'm not mistaken, i saw that tramp down at the depot this morning," said he, as we drew near to the main road. "he was hanging around, and i thought he looked like a suspicious character." "did you see him yesterday?" "no." "did you ever hear of him before?" "i guess not. he was near the baggage room when i saw him. then mr. woodward came up to see about a trunk, and the tramp made right off." i was interested. john stumpy had intimately that he intended to have an interview with duncan woodward's father, and if this was so, why had he not taken advantage of the opportunity thus offered? i could arrive at but one conclusion. the tramp wished their meeting to be a strictly private one. he did not care to be seen in mr. woodward's presence, or else the wealthy merchant would not tolerate such a thing. if the meeting was to be of a private nature, it would no doubt be of importance. had my father's name not been mentioned i would not have cared; but as it was, i was deeply interested. perhaps it would be better to merely scare the fellow off. if he was captured, all chance of finding out his secrets might be lost. by this time the reader may be aware that i thought john stumpy's secrets important. such was a fact. try as hard as i was able, i could not but imagine that they concerned my father and his alleged downfall. in five minutes dick and i came within sight of widow canby's house. there was a light burning in the kitchen and another in the dining-room. "everything seems to be all right," said dick, as we stood near a corner of the front fence. "i guess the fellow hasn't put in an appearance yet." "i don't know. see i the side porch door is open. we generally keep it closed, and kate would certainly have it shut if she was alone." "what do you intend to do? go into the house?" "guess we had better. i'd like to know where that fellow is," i replied. "likely as not he is prowling about here somewhere. if we can only catch sight of him, we can--hark!" as i uttered the last word, a shrill cry reached our ears. it was kate's voice; and with my heart jumping wildly i made a dash for the house, with dick blair following me. chapter vi a strange envelope i was sure that my sister's cry could mean but one thing--that the tramp had made a raid on the house. i was thoroughly alarmed, and ran with all possible speed in the direction of the dining-room, from whence the sound proceeded. as i tore across the lawn, regardless of the bed of flowers which was mrs. canby's pride, kate's cry was repeated, this time in a more intense tone. an instant later i dashed across the porch and into the room through the door that, as i have said, stood wide open. i found my sister standing in the middle of the floor, holding in her hand a heavy umbrella with which she had evidently been defending herself. she was pale, and trembled from head to foot. "what is it, kate?" i exclaimed. "where is the fellow?" "oh, roger!" she gasped. "i'm so glad you've come. a tramp was here--he robbed--robbed the desk--the window--" she pointed to the open window on the opposite side of the room. then her breast heaved, the umbrella slipped from her grasp, and she sank into a chair. "are you hurt?" i cried anxiously. "no, no--but the money--it is gone! what will mrs. canby say?" and overcome with the dreadful thought, my sister fainted dead away. as for myself i felt sick at heart. john stumpy had been there--the widow's money had been stolen. what could be done? meanwhile, dick blair had come in. his common sense told him what had happened, and he set to work to restore my sister to consciousness. "will you stay here with kate?" i asked. "certainly," he returned promptly. "but where are you going? after that tramp?" "yes." "be careful, for he may be a desperate character." "i'm not afraid of him. i'm going to get that money back or know the reason why," was my determined reply; and i meant every word i said. to my mind it was absolutely necessary that i recover the stolen property. it would have been bad enough to have had it taken when the widow canby was at home, but it had been stolen when left in my charge, and that was enough to make me turn darbyville district up side down before letting the matter drop. besides, there was still another important factor in the case. i knew well enough that if the money was not recovered, there would be plenty of people mean enough to intimate that i had had something to do with its disappearance. the strong honor was considered low by many, and they would not hesitate to declare that i was only following in my father's footsteps. to a person already suffering under an unjust accusation such an intimation is doubly stinging, and when i told dick that i was not afraid of mr. john stumpy, i meant that i would rather face the robber now than the darbyville people later on. "i want to take the pistol," i added. "all right. there is the box of extra cartridges. do you want the lantern?" "yes; i may want to use it before i return. i'll blow it out now." our conversation had lasted but a few seconds, and an instant after i was on my way, the lantern on my left arm and the pistol in my right hand. "take good care of kate," i called back as i passed out. "i will," replied dick. "don't stay away too long, if you don't find the fellow." i passed around to the other side of the garden, where an open gateway led to the pear orchard. i felt pretty certain that john stumpy had pursued this course, and i entered the orchard on a run. the thief, i reckoned, was not over five minutes ahead of me. to be sure, he could easily hide, but it was not likely that he would care to remain in the neighborhood, unless it was really necessary for him to see mr. aaron woodward. when i got well into the orchard, where it was darker than in the garden, i listened intently, hoping that i might hear some sound that would guide me. but all was silent. occasionally a night bird fluttered through the trees and a frog gave a dismal croak, but otherwise not a sound broke the stillness. i continued on my way toward the road, and reaching the fence, paused again. had the thief jumped over? if so, which way had he gone, up, down, or into the woods beyond? it was a perplexing question. perhaps if i had been in a story book i might have found some clew to direct me. but i was not that kind of a hero. i was only an everyday boy, and consequently no clew presented itself. i stood by the fence for several minutes, my eyes and ears on the alert to catch anything worthy of notice. i judged it was near midnight, and hardly had i thought of the matter before the distant town bells tolled the hour of twelve. as the echo of the last stroke died away, two figures came slowly up the road. as they drew nearer, i recognized moran and pultzer, the two models members who had assisted at my capture. i was astonished at their appearance. what on earth could they be doing out at this time of night? as they drew near i thought for many reasons that it would not be advisable to show myself, and i stepped behind a tree. "i don't care what you say," said pultzer, "dunc was half scared to death when we came away." "i guess he didn't think what a serious matter it was when he asked us to go into it," returned moran. "it's the worst affair i ever got into." "ditto myself," responded pultzer. "and if we get out without being caught, you'll never find me in another such," continued the other earnestly. "i wonder what dunc's father will say when he hears of it?" "and all the rest of the darbyville people? of course they've got to lay it to some one." i surmised that they must be speaking of what they had done to me. i never dreamed that they were discussing a subject much more serious. "i'm glad dick blair wasn't along to-night," went on moran. "dick is not to be trusted any more. he kicked awfully at the idea of tying up strong this noon." i was gratified to hear this bit of news. i liked dick in many respects, and now i was almost ready to look upon him as a friend. "strong didn't give in quite as much as dunc thought he would. hang it, if i didn't admire his grit." "so did i. wonder how he's getting along in the old tool house. we must release him first thing in the morning." "no need of doing that, gentlemen," i put in, stepping out from behind the tree. "i am--" but it would have been useless for me to say more, as no one would have heard me. at the first sound of my voice both of the models had started in alarm, and then, led by pultzer, they dashed up the road as fast as their feet could carry them. at first i was amazed at their actions, and then, as the ridiculousness of the situation presented itself, i smiled. "a guilty conscience needeth no accuser," it is said, and this truth was verified to the letter. yet i was sorry that i had not had a chance to speak to them. i wanted to question them in regard to the thief. perhaps they had seen him, and if so, i did not want to miss my chance of getting upon his track. jumping over the fence, i walked slowly down the road, but not in hopes of meeting john stumpy. if he was anywhere near, the approach of the two boys had certainly driven him into hiding. suddenly i thought of the tool house. the tramp had spoken of returning to the place. he evidently knew the road. i determined to go to the spot and make a search at once. it was no easy matter to find my way back to the tool house, and at the risk of being seen i lit the lantern. as i walked along i wondered how my sister and dick were faring. no doubt kate had been much surprised to see who was with her on her recovery, and i sincerely hoped that the shock stumpy had given her would not have any evil effects. she was a sensitive girl, and such happenings were calculated to try her nerves severely. at length i came within sight of the clearing. here i hesitated for an instant, and then, pistol in hand, approached the tool house boldly. the door was still open, and i entered, only to find the place empty. with a sigh i realized that my journey thither was a useless one. nothing remained but to go back to the road, and i was about to leave again when the rays of the lantern fell upon a white object lying on the floor. i picked it up. it was a common square envelope. thinking it contained a letter i turned it over to read the address. judge of my astonishment when i read the following:-dying statement of nicholas weaver concerning the forgeries for which carson strong was sent to state's prison. chapter vii a war of words no words of mine can express the feeling that came over me as i read the superscription written on the envelope i had picked up in the old tool house. was it possible that this envelope contained the solution of the mystery that had taken away our good name and sent my father to prison? the very thought made me tremble. the packet was not a thick one. in fact, it was so thin that for an instant i imagined the envelope was empty. but a hasty examination proved my fears groundless. in nervous excitement i put the lantern down on the top of a barrel, and then drew from the envelope the single shoot of foolscap that it contained. a glance showed me that the pages were closely written in a cramped hand extremely difficult to read. for the moment i forgot everything else--forgot that the widow canby's house had been robbed and that i was on the track of the robber--and drawing close to the feeble light the lantern afforded, strove with straining eyes and palpitating heart to decipher the contents of the written pages. "i, nicholas weaver, being on the point of death from pneumonia, do make this my last statement, which i hereby swear is true in every particular." this was the beginning of the document which i hoped would in some way free my father's character from the stain that now rested on it. exactly who nicholas weaver was i did not know, though it ran in my mind that i had heard this name mentioned by my father during the trial. beyond the opening paragraph i have quoted the handwriting was almost illegible, and in the dim light it was only here and there that i could pick out such words as "bank," "assumed," "risk," "name," and so forth, which gave but an inkling of the real contents of the precious document. "it's too bad," was my thought. "i'd give all i possess to be able to read this right off, word for word." hardly had the reflection crossed my mind when a noise outside startled me. i had just time enough to thrust the paper into my pocket when the door was swung open and the tramp appeared. he was evidently as much surprised as i was, for he stopped short in amazement, while the short pipe he carried between his lips fell unnoticed to the floor. i rightly conjectured he had not noticed the light of the lantern and fully believed the tool house tenantless. "you here!" he cried. "it looks like it, doesn't it?" was all i could find to reply, and as i spoke my hand sought the pistol i carried. "what brought you here?" he demanded roughly. "i came after you," i returned as coolly as i could; and by this time i had the pistol where it could be brought into instant use. "what do you want of me?" "i want you to hand over the money you stole awhile ago." "what are you talking about? i never stole any money." "you did. you broke into the widow canby's house less than an hour ago. come, hand over that money." the fellow gave a coarse laugh. "ha! ha! do you think i'm to be bluffed by a boy? get home with you, before i hammer you for calling me a thief." "that's just what you are, and i don't intend to go until you hand over the money, john stumpy," i returned decidedly. "ha! you know my name?" i bit my lip. i was sorry for the slip i had made. but i put on a bold front. "i know what you are called," i replied. "what i am called?" "yes." "what do you mean? come, out with it." "i will when i please. in the meantime hand over that money." "you talk like a fool!" he cried. "never mind. you'll find i won't act like one." "what do you know about me?" he went on curiously, believing, no doubt, that he was perfectly safe from attack. "i know more than you think. i know you are a burglar, and may be worse." "i'll kill you!" he cried, rushing forward. "stand where you are!" i returned, pulling out the pistol. "don't stir a step." he did not see the weapon until he was fairly upon me. the glint of the nickeled steel made him shiver. "don't shoot!" he cried in sudden terror, that showed he was a coward at heart. "don't--don't shoot." "i won't if you do as i tell you." "do what?" "give up the widow's money." "see here, young fellow, you've made a mistake. i never was near the widow's house, 'cepting this morning." "i know better. you just broke open her desk and stole over two hundred dollars." "it's a mistake. put down the pistol and i'll tell you all about it." "i'm not such a fool, mr. john stumpy, or whatever your name is," was my decided reply. the tone of my voice disconcerted the man, for he paused as if not knowing what to say next. "say, young feller, do you want to make some money?" he asked suddenly, after a short pause. the change in his manner surprised me. "how?" i asked, although i knew about what was coming. "i've got nearly three hundred dollars in cash with me. i'll give you fifty of it if you'll go home and say you couldn't find me." "thank you; i'm not doing business that way," i rejoined coldly. "fifty dollars ain't to be sneezed at," he went on insinuatingly. "i wouldn't care if you offered me fifty thousand," i cried sharply. "i'm no thief." "humph; don't you suppose i know who you are?" he went on. "you're the son of a thief. do you hear that?--the son of a thief! what right have you got to set yourself up to be any better than your father was afore you?" "take care!" i cried, my blood fairly boiling as i spoke. he saw his mistake. "i didn't mean no harm, partner. but what's the use of being high toned when it don't pay?" "it always pays to be honest," i said firmly. "there are those who don't think so any more than i," he replied. "my father never was a thief. they may say all they please, i will always think him innocent." "humph!" "if it hadn't been for men like you and nicholas weaver, my father would never be in prison." the words were out before i knew it. they were most injudicious ones. "what do you mean?" gasped the man. "what do you know about nick weaver?" "more than you imagine. when he died he made a confession--" "it's false. nick weaver wasn't in his right mind when he died, anyhow." "perhaps he was." "what you--" began the man. then he paused and began a rapid search in his pockets. "you've got that paper," he cried hoarsely. "give it up," and as he spoke, john stumpy took a threatening step toward me. "stand back!" and i raised the pistol. i was trembling in every limb, but i actually believe i would have fired it if he had rushed upon me. "i won't. give up that paper." "never. i'll die first." and die i would. his earnestness convinced me of the letter's worth. if it contained that which could clear my father's name, only death would be the means of parting me from it. "give it up, i say! do you think i'm to be defeated by a boy?" "stand back!" i raised the pistol on a level with his head. as i did so, he made a dash forward and caught up a stick which was lying near. "i'll fix you!" he roared, and swinging the billet over his head, he brought it down with all his force on my arm, causing the pistol to fly from my hand into a corner beyond. "now we'll see who's master here," he cried exultingly. "you're a smart boy, but you don't know everything!" rushing over to the corner, he secured the pistol and aimed it at me. "now, we'll settle this matter according to my notions," he went on triumphantly. chapter viii the struggle i was deeply chagrined at the unexpected turn affairs had taken, and i felt decidedly uncomfortable as john stumpy levelled the weapon at my head. i could readily see that the battle of words was at an end. action was now the order of the day. i wondered what the fellow would do next; but i was not kept long in suspense. "now, it's my turn, young fellow," he remarked, with a shrewd grin, as i fell back. "well, what do you want?" i asked, as coolly as i could recognizing the fact that nothing was to be gained by "stirring him up." "you'll see fast enough. in the first place, hand over that paper." i was silent. i did not intend to tell a falsehood by saying i did not have it, nor did i intend to give it up if it could possibly be avoided. "did you hear what i said?" continued stumpy, after a pause. "i thought you said the paper wasn't valuable," i returned, more to gain time than anything else. "neither it ain't, but, just the same, i want it. come, hand it over." he was getting ugly now, and no mistake. what was to be done? as i have mentioned before, it would have been useless to call for help, as no one would have heard the calls. suddenly the thought struck me to try a bit of deception. i put my hand in my pocket and drew out the empty envelope. "is that what you want?" i asked, holding it up. "reckon it is," he returned eagerly. "just toss it over." somewhat disappointed that he did not approach me and thus give me a chance of attacking him, i did as requested. it fell at his feet, and he was not long in transferring it to his pocket. "next time don't try to walk over a man like me," he said sharply. "i know a thing or two, and i'm not to be downed by a boy." "are you satisfied?" i asked calmly, though secretly exultant that he had not discovered my trick. "not yet. you followed me when you had no business to, and now you've got to take the consequences." "what are you going to do?" "you'll see soon enough. i ain't the one to make many mistakes. years ago i made a few, but i ain't making no more." "you knew my father quite well, didn't you?" i inquired in deep curiosity. "as the old saying goes, 'ask me no questions and i'll tell you no lies.' maybe i didn't; maybe i did." "i know you did." "well, what of it? so did lots of other people." "but not quite as well as you and nicholas weaver and mr. aaron woodward," i continued, determined to learn all i could. "ha! what do you know of them?" he scowled at me. "reckon you've been reading that paper of nick's putty closely. i was a fool for not tearing it up long ago." "why did you keep it--to deliver it to mr. wentworth?" it was a bold stroke and it told. stumpy grew pale in spite of the dirt that covered his face, and the hand that held the pistol trembled. "say, young fellow, you know too much, you do. i suppose you read that paper clear through, did you?" "as you say: maybe i didn't; maybe i did." "perhaps you wasn't careful of it. maybe i'd better examine it," he added. my heart sank within me. in another moment the deception i had practised would be known--and then? he fumbled in his pocket and drew forth the envelope. he could not extract the letter he supposed it contained with one hand very well, and so lowered the pistol for a moment. this was my chance. unarmed i was evidently in his power. if i could only escape from the tool house! the door still stood partly open, and the darkness of night--for the moon had gone down--was beyond. a dash and i would be outside. still the tramp stood between me and liberty. should i attack him or endeavor to slip to one side? i had but an instant to think; another, and it would be too late. john stumpy was fumbling in the envelope. his eyes were searching for the precious document. with a single bound i sprang against him, knocking him completely off his feet. then i made another jump for the door. but he was too quick for me. dropping the envelope and the pistol, he caught me by the foot, and in an instant both of us were rolling on the floor. it was an unequal struggle. strong as i was for a boy of my age, i was no match for this burly man. turn and twist all i could, he held me in his grip while he heaped loud imprecations upon my head. in our movements on the floor we came in contact with the lantern and upset it, smashing the frame as well as the glass. for a moment darkness reigned. then a tiny light from the corner lit up the place. the flames had caught the shavings. "the place is on fire!" i cried in horror. "yes, and you did it," replied the tramp. "it was you!" i returned stoutly, and, as a matter of fact, it may be as well to state that john stumpy's foot had caused the accident. "not much; it was your fault, and you've got to take the blame." as the rascal spoke, he caught me by the throat, squeezing it so tightly that i was in great danger of being choked to death. "let--let up!" i gasped. the choking continued. my head began to grow dizzy, and strange lights danced before my eyes. i protested against this proceeding as vigorously as i could by kicking the man sharply and rapidly. but stumpy now meant to do me real injury. he realized that i knew too much for his future welfare. in fact, he, no doubt, imagined i knew far more than i really did. if i was out of the way for all time so much the better for him. "take that!" he suddenly cried, and springing up he brought his heel down with great force on my head. i cannot describe the sensation that followed. it was as if a sharp, blinding pain had stung me to the very heart. then my senses forsook me. how long i lay in a comatose state i do not know. certainly it could not have been a very long time--probably not over five or six minutes. in the meantime the fire rapidly spread igniting the barrels that were stored in the tool house, and climbing up the walls of the building to the roof. when i recovered my senses, my face was fairly scorched, and no sooner had i opened my eyes than they were blinded by smoke and flame. by instinct rather than reason i staggered to my feet. i was so weak i could hardly stand, and my head spun around like a top. where was the door? i tottered to one side and felt around. there was the window tightly closed. the door i knew was opposite. reeling, i made my way through the smoke that now seemed to fill my lungs, to where i knew the door to be. oh, horror! it was closed and secured! "heaven help me now!" burst from my parched lips. "am i to be roasted alive?" with all my remaining strength i threw myself against the door. once, and again, and still it did not budge. "help! help!" i called at the top of my voice. no answer came to my cry. the fire behind me became hotter and hotter. the roof had now caught, and the sparks fell down upon me in a perfect shower. another moment and it would be all over. with a brief prayer to god for help in my dire need, i attacked the door for the last time. at first it did not budge. then there was a creaking, a sharp crack, and at last it flew wide open. oh, how grateful was the breath of fresh air that struck me! i stumbled out into the clearing and opened wide my throat to take in the pure draught. then for the first time i realized how nearly i had been overcome. i could no longer stand, and swooning, sank in a heap to the ground. chapter ix new trouble "he's alive, boys." these were the words that greeted my ears on recovering my senses. i opened my eyes and saw that i was surrounded by a number of boys and men. "how did you come here?" asked henry morse, a sturdy farmer who lived in the neighborhood. i was too much confused to make any intelligent reply. rising to a sitting position, i gazed around. the tool house had burned to the ground, there being no means at hand to extinguish the fire. the glare of the conflagration had called out several dozens of people from darbyville and the vicinity, several of whom had stumbled upon me as i lay in the clearing. "what's the matter, roger?" asked larry simpson, a young man who kept a bookstore in the town. "the matter is that i nearly lost my life in that fire," i replied. "how did you come here?" as briefly as i could i related my story, leaving out all references to my personal affairs and the finding of nicholas weaver's statement. at present i considered it would do no good to disclose what i knew on those points. "i think i saw that tramp yesterday," said larry after i had finished. "he bought a sheet of paper and an envelope in my store, and then asked if he could write a letter there." "and did he?" i asked in curiosity. "yes. at first i hated to let him do it,--he looked so disreputable,--but then i thought it might be an application for a position, and so told him to go ahead." "who did he write to? do you know?" "somebody in chicago, i think." "do you remember the name?" "he tried the pen on a slip of paper first. it wouldn't work very well. but i think the name was holtzmann, or something similar." i determined to remember the name, thinking it might prove of value sometime. "the thing of it is," broke in henry morse, "what has become of this stumpy? if he stole the widow canby's money, it's high time somebody was after him." "that's true," ejaculated another. "have you any idea which way the fellow went?" of course i had not. indeed, i was hardly in condition to do any rational thinking, much less form an opinion. the thief might be in hiding close at hand, or he might be miles away. "some of us had better make a search," put in another. "come, boys, we'll spread out and scour the woods." "that's a good idea," said tony parsons, the constable of the town. "meanwhile, roger strong, let us go to judge penfold's house and put the case in his hands. he'll get out a warrant, and perhaps a reward." i thought this was a good idea, and readily assented, first, however, getting one of the boys to promise that he would call at the widow's house and quiet kate's fears concerning my whereabouts. it was now early morning, and we had no difficulty in making our way through the woods to the main road. "guess we won't find the judge up yet," remarked tony parsons as we hurried along. "i've never yet found him out of bed afore seven o'clock. it will make him mighty mad to get up afore this time." "i'm sorry to disturb him," i replied, with something of awe at the thought of rousing a magistrate of the law. "but it's got to be done," went on parsons, with a grave shake of his head, "unless we all want to be murdered and robbed in our beds!" "that's true. i'd give all i'm worth to catch that tramp." "reckon widow canby'll be dreadfully cut up when she hears about the robbery." "i suppose so." "she may blame you, roger. you see if it was anybody else, it would be different. but being as it's you, why--" "i know what you mean," i returned bitterly. "no one in darbyville believes i can be honest." "i ain't saying nothing against you, roger," returned parsons, hastily. "i reckon you ain't no worse than any other boy. but you know what public sentiment is." "so i do; but public sentiment isn't always right," was my spirited answer. "who did you say those boys were that tied you up?" went on the constable, to change the subject. "duncan woodward was the principal one." "phew! reckon he didn't think tying you up would prove such a serious matter." "if it hadn't been for that, the robbery might have been prevented. i would have been home guarding the widow's property, as she expected me to do." "reckon so you would." "in a certain sense i hold duncan woodward and his followers responsible for what has occurred." "phew! what will mr. woodward say to that, i wonder?" "i can't help what he says. i'm not going to bear all the blame when it isn't my fault." "no, neither would i." at length we reached the outskirts of the town. judge penfold lived at the top of what was termed the hill, the aristocratic district of the place, and thither we made our way. "indeed, but the judge ain't stirring yet!" exclaimed the irish girl who came to answer our summons at the door. "then wake him at once," said parsons. "tell him there has been a most atrocious robbery and assault committed." "mercy on us!" said the girl, lifting up her hands in horror. "and who was it, mr. parsons?" "never mind who it was. go at once." "i will that! robbery and assault. mercy on us!" and leaving us standing in the hall, the hired girl sped up the front stairway. "the judge will be down as soon as he can," she reported on her return. we waited as patiently as we could. while doing so i revolved what had occurred over in my mind, and came to the conclusion that the crime would be a difficult one to trace. john stumpy had probably made good use of his time, knowing that even if i had lost my life in the fire my sister would still recognize him as the thief. suddenly i thought of the written confession that must yet remain in my pocket, and i was on the point of assuring myself that it was still safe when a heavy foot-step sounded overhead, and judge penfold came down. the judge was a tall, slender men of fifty, with hollow cheeks, a pointed nose, and a sharp chin. his voice was of a peculiarly high and rasping tone, and his manner far from agreeable. "what's the trouble?" he demanded, and it was plain to see that he did not relish having his early morning sleep broken. "widow canby's house was robbed last night," replied the constable; and he gave the particulars. judge penfold was all ears at once. indeed, it may be as well to state that he was a widower and had paid widow canby much attention, which, however, i well knew that good lady heartily resented. no doubt he thought if he could render her any assistance it would help along his suit. "we must catch the fellow at once," he said. "parsons, you must catch him without fail." "easier said than done, judge," replied the constable, doubtfully. "where am i to look for him? the country around here is pretty large." "no matter. you are constable, and it is your duty to seek him out. i will sign the warrant for his arrest, and you must have him in jail by to-night, without fail." "i'll do what i can, judge," returns parsons, meekly. "strong, i'll have to bind you over as a witness." "bind me over?" i queried in perplexity. "what do you mean?" "hold you, unless you can give a bond to appear when wanted." "but i had nothing to do with the burglary." "you are principal accuser of this john stumpy." "well, i'll promise to be on hand whenever wanted." "that is not sufficient. your character is--is not--ahem! of the best, and--" "why is my character not of the best?" i demanded. "well, ahem! your father, you see--" "is innocent." "perhaps--perhaps, but, nevertheless, i will have to hold you. parsons, i will leave him in your charge." "you have no right to arrest me," i cried, for i knew very little of the law. "what's that?" demanded judge penfold, pompously. "you forget i am the judge of that." "i don't care," i burst out. "i have done no wrong." "it ain't that, roger. many innocent men are held as witnesses," put in parsons. "but i've got to attend to mrs. canby's business," i explained. "i fancy mrs. canby would rather get on the track of her money," said judge penfold severely. "can you furnish bail?" i did not know that i could. the woman who had been robbed was my only friend, and she was away. "then you'll have to take him to the lockup, parsons." this news was far from agreeable. it would be no pleasant thing to be confined in the darbyville jail, not to say anything of the anxiety it might cause kate. besides, i wanted to follow up john stumpy. i was certain i could do it fully as well as the constable. "come, roger, there is no help for it," said parsons, as i still lingered. "it's the law, and it won't do any good to kick." "maybe not, but, nevertheless, it isn't fair." we walked out into the front hall, the judge following us. "of course if you can get bail any time during the day i will let you go," he said; "i will be down in my office from nine to twelve and two to four." "will you offer a reward for the capture of the man?" i asked. "i cannot do that. the freeholders of the county attend to all such matters. parsons, no doubt, will find the scoundrel." as the judge finished there was a violent ringing of the door bell. judge penfold opened the door and was confronted by mr. aaron woodward, who looked pale and excited. "judge, i want you--hello! that boy! judge, i want that boy arrested at once! don't you let him escape!" "want me arrested?" i ejaculated in astonishment. "what for?" "you know well enough. you thought to hide your tracks, but i have found you out. parsons, don't let him get out of the door. he's a worse villain than his father was!" chapter x under arrest i will not hesitate to state that i was nearly stunned by mr. aaron woodward's unexpected statement. i knew that when he announced that i was a worse villain than my father he meant a good deal. yet try as hard as i could it was impossible for me to discover what he really did mean. i was not conscious of having done him any injury, either bodily or otherwise. indeed, of late i had hardly seen the man. the widow canby was not partial to dealings with him, and i never went near him on my own account. it was plain to see that the merchant was thoroughly aroused. his face was pale with anger, and the look he cast upon me was one of bitter resentment. for the instant he eyed me as if he intended to spring upon me and choke the life out of my body, and involuntarily i shrank back. but then i recollected that the minions of the law who stood beside me would not allow such a course of procedure, and this made me breathe more freely. "yes, sir; he's a worse villain than his father!" repeated mr. aaron woodward, turning to judge penfold; "a most accomplished villain, sir." and he shook his fist within an inch of my nose. "what have i done to you, mr. woodward?" i demanded, as soon as i could speak. "done, sir? you know very well what you've done, you young rascal!" puffed the merchant. "oh, but i'll make you pay dearly for your villainy." "i've committed no villainy," i returned warmly. "if you refer to the way i treated duncan this morning, why all i've got to say is that it was his own fault, and i can prove it." "treated duncan? oh, pshaw! this is far more serious affair than a boy's quarrel. don't let him escape, parsons"--the last to the constable, who had his hand on my shoulder. "no fear, sir," was parson's reply. "he's already under arrest." "under arrest?" repeated the merchant quickly. "then you've already heard--" "he is ahem--only under detention as a witness," spoke up judge penfold. "i do not think he had anything to do with the theft of the widow's money." "widow's money! what do you mean?" in a few words judge penfold explained the situation. "isn't this what you came about?" he asked then. "indeed, no, sir. my affair is far more important--at least to me. but you can make up your mind that strong's story is purely fiction. he is undoubtedly the real culprit, undoubtedly. takes after his father." "my father was an honest man!" i cried out. "i don't care what you or any one may say! some day he will be cleared of the stain on his name." "oh, undoubtedly," sneered mr. woodward. "mean while, however, the community at large had better keep a sharp eye on his son. whom do you assert stole the widow canby's money?" "a tramp." "humph! a likely story." "it's true. his name was john stumpy." "john stumpy!" as mr. aaron woodwind uttered the name, all the color forsook his face. "yes, sir. and he claimed to know you," i went on, my curiosity amused over the merchant's show of feeling. "it's a falsehood! i never heard of such a man," cried mr. woodward, but his face belied his words. "well, what is your charge against strong?" asked judge penfold, impatiently, probably tired of being so utterly ignored in the discussion. the merchant hesitated. "i prefer to speak to you about the matter in private," he said sourly. "that isn't fair. he ought to tell me what i am accused of," i cried, "every one who is arrested has a right to know that. i have done no wrong and i am not afraid." "all assumed bravery, judge penfold; quite assumed, sir." "no, sir. tell me why you want me locked up," i repeated. but instead of replying mr. woodward drew judge penfold to the rear end of the hall and began to speak in so low a tone that i could not catch a word. "you don't mean it!" i heard the judge say presently. "come into the library and give me the particulars." the two men passed into the room, closing the door tightly behind them. they were gone nearly quarter of an hour--a long wait for me. i wondered what could be the nature of mr. woodward's accusation against me, but failed to solve the mystery. at length they came out. judge penfold's face was a trifle sterner than before. mr. woodward looked pleased, as if his argument had proven conclusive. "you will take strong to the jail at once," said the judge to parsons "and tell booth to be careful of his prisoner." "yes, sir." "don't let him escape," added aaron woodward, anxiously. "don't let him escape, sir, under any circumstances." "no fear," was parsons's ready answer. "i never had one of 'em give me the slip yet." and with great gravity he drew from his pocket a pair of ancient handcuffs, one of which he attached to my wrist and the other to his own. "come, roger. better take it easy," he said. "no use of kicking. march!" "but i'd like to know something about this," i protested. "what right--" "it is all quite legal," put in judge penfold, pompously. "i understand the law perfectly." "but--" "say no more. parsons, take him away." "i shall see you later," whispered mr. woodward in my ear as the constable hurried me off. the next instant we were on the street. arrests in darbyville were rare, and by the time we reached the jail we had a goodly following of boys and idle men, all anxious to know what was up. "he stole the widow canby's money," i heard one man whisper, to which another replied:-"light fingered, eh? must take after his father. i always knew the strongs couldn't be trusted." the jail was a small affair, being nothing more than the loft over a carpenter shop. the jailer was a round-faced man named booth, who filled in his spare time by doing odd jobs of carpentering in the shop downstairs. we found him hard at work glueing some doors together. i knew him tolerably well, and he evinced considerable surprise at seeing me in custody. "what, roger; arrested! what for?" "that's what i would like to know," i returned. in a few words parsons told him what was to be done, and booth led the way upstairs. "'tain't a very secure place," he returned. "reckon i'll have to nail down some of the windows unless you'll give me your word not to run away." "i'll promise nothing," was my reply. "i'm being treated unfairly, and i shall do as i think best." "then i'll fasten everything as tight as a drum," returned booth. going below, he secured a hammer and some nails, with which he secured the windows and the scuttle on the roof. "reckon it's tight enough now," he said. "just wait, parsons, till i get him a bucket of water." this was done, and then the two men left me, closing and locking the door of the enclosed staircase behind them. the loft was empty, saving a nail keg that stood in one corner of the floor. pulling this out, i sat down to think matters over. try my best i could not imagine what charge mr. aaron woodward had brought against me. yet such had been his earnestness that for the nonce everything else was driven from my mind. the sounds of talking below interrupted my meditations. i recognized kate's voice, and the next moment my sister stood beside me. "oh, roger!" was all she could say, and catching me by the arm she burst into tears. "don't take it so hard, kate," i said. "make sure it will all come out right in the end." "but to be arrested like--like a thief! oh, roger, it is dreadful!" "never mind. i have done no wrong, and i'm not afraid of the result. have they heard anything of john stumpy yet?" "dick blair says not. mr. parsons and the rest are after him, but he seems to have disappeared for good--and mrs. canby's money with him." "have you heard from her yet?" "no; but i've written her a letter and just posted it to norfolk." "she won't get it till day after to-morrow." "what will she say? oh, roger, do you think--" "no, i don't. the widow always trusted me, and i know she'll take my word now. she is not so narrow-minded as the very folks who look down on her." "but it is awful! over two hundred dollars! we can never make it up. we've only got twenty-eight!" "we can't exactly be called upon to make it up--" i began. "but we'll want to," put in kate, hastily. "i'd feel better if we did. the widow has always been so kind to us." "how long must you stay here?" "i don't know. as long as judge penfold sees fit, i suppose." "if only they could catch this john stumpy." "i hope so--for other reasons than those you know, kate." "other reasons?" "yes; very important ones, too. john stumpy knew father well. and he was mixed up in that--that miserable affair." "oh, roger, how do you know?" "i heard him say so. besides, he dropped a letter that proved it. i have the letter in my pocket now. it's the dying statement of one nicholas weaver--" "nicholas weaver! he was a clerk with father!" "so i thought. who stumpy is, though, i don't know. do you?" "no; but his face i'm sure i've seen before. let me see the letter. have you read it?" "no; i hadn't time to spell it out, it is so badly written. maybe you can read it." "i'll try," replied kate. "hand it over." i put my hand in my pocket to do so. the statement was gone! chapter xi aaron woodward's visit puzzled and dismayed, i made a rapid search of my clothes--first one pocket and then another. it was useless. beyond a doubt the statement was nowhere about my person. i was quite sure it had not been taken from me. strange as it may seem, neither parsons nor booth had searched me. perhaps they deemed it useless to take away the possessions of a poor country boy. my jack-knife and other odds and ends were still in their accustomed places. "it's gone!" i gasped, when i was certain that such was a fact. "gone?" repeated kate. "yes, gone, and i don't know where. they didn't take it from me. i must have lost it." "oh, roger, and it was so important!" "i know it, kate. it must have dropped from my pocket down at the tool house. perhaps if i go down i can find it." "go down?" she queried. "oh, i forgot i was a prisoner." "never mind, roger. i'll go down myself." "aren't you afraid?" "not now. i wouldn't have been of this stumpy only he came on me so suddenly. i'll go at once." "you'd better," said a voice behind her. "your five minutes is up, miss kate." and booth appeared at the head of the stairs and motioned her down. "good-by, roger. i'm so sorry to leave you here alone." "it's not such a dreadful place," i rejoined lightly. "if you discover anything, let me know at once." "be sure i will." and with this assurance kate was gone. i was as sorry for her as i was for myself. i knew all she would have to face in public--the mean things people would say to her, the snubbing she would be called on to bear. the loss of the statement rendered me doubly downhearted. oh, how much i had counted on it, assuring myself over and over again that it would surely clear my father's name! hardly had my sister left me than there were more voices below, and i heard mr. woodward tell booth that he had an order from judge penfold for a private interview with me. "better go right upstairs then, mr. woodward," was the jailer's reply. "he's all alone." i wondered what the merchant's visit could portend, but had little time for speculation. "so, sir, they've got you fast," said mr. woodward sharply as he faced me. "fast, and no mistake." "what do you want?" i demanded boldly, coming at once to the front. "what do i want?" repeated the merchant, looking behind him to make sure that booth had not followed him. "what do i want? why, i want to help you, strong, that's what i want." i could not help but smile. the idea of mr. woodward helping any one, least of all myself! "the only way you can help me is to set me free," i returned. "oh, i can't do that. you are held on the canby charge solely." "but you told me you wanted me arrested." "so i did, but i intend to give you a chance--that is, if you will do what i want." "but why did you want me arrested?" "you know well enough, strong." "on the contrary, i haven't the least idea." "stuff and nonsense. see here, if you want to get off without further trouble, hand over those papers." "what papers?" "the papers you took last night," replied mr. woodward, sharply. i was truly astonished. how in the world had he found out about the statement dropped by stumpy? was it possible there had been a meeting between the two? it looked like it. "i haven't got the papers," i rejoined. "don't tell me a falsehood sir," he thundered. "it's true." "do you deny you have the packet?" "i do." "come, strong, that story won't answer. hand it over." "i haven't it." "where is it?" "i lost it," i replied, before i had time to think. "lost it!" he cried anxiously. "yes, sir," i returned boldly, resolved to make the best of it, now the cat was out of the bag. "either that or it was stolen from me." he looked at me in silence for a moment. "do you expect me to believe all your lies?" he demanded finally. "i don't care what you believe," i answered. "i tell the truth. and one question i want to ask you, aaron woodward. why are you so anxious to gain possession of nicholas weaver's dying statement?" the merchant gave a cry of astonishment, nay, horror. he turned pale and glared at me fiercely. "nicholas weaver's dying statement!" he ejaculated. "what do you know of nicholas weaver?" now i had spoken i was almost sorry i had said what i had. yet i could not but notice the tremendous effect my words had produced. "never mind what i know," i replied. "why do you take an interest in it?" "i? i don't know anything about it," he faltered. "i hardly knew nicholas weaver." "indeed? yet you want his statement." "no, i don't. i don't know anything about his statement," he continued doggedly. "i want my papers. i don't care a rap about any one else's." it was now my turn to be astonished. evidently i had been on the wrong track from the beginning. "if you don't want his statement, i'm sure i don't know what you do want," i rejoined, and i spoke the exact truth. "don't tell lies, strong. you know well enough. hand them over." "hand what over?" "the packet of papers." "i haven't any packet." "strong, if you don't do as i demand, i'll send you to prison after your father." "i can't help it. i haven't any papers. if you don't believe me, search me." "where have you hidden them?" "i never had them to hide." "i know better, sir, i know better," he fumed. i made no reply. what could i say? "do you hear me, strong?" for reply i walked over to the slatted window and began to whistle. my action only increased the merchant's anger. "for the last time, strong, will you give up the papers?" he cried. "for the last time, mr. woodward, let me say i haven't got them, never had them, and, therefore, cannot possibly give them up." "then you shall go to prison, sir. mark my word,--you shall go to prison!" and with this parting threat the merchant hurried down the loft steps and rapped loudly for booth to come and let him out. when he was gone, i sat down again to think over the demand he had made upon me. to what papers did he refer? in vain i cudgelled my brain to elicit an answer. he spoke about sending me to prison, and in such tones as if it were an easy matter to do. assuredly he must have some grounds upon which to base so positive an assertion. no doubt he was now on his way to judge penfold's office to swear out the necessary papers. i did not know much about the law, but i objected strongly to going to prison. once in a regular lockup, the chances of getting out would be indeed slim. i reasoned that the best thing to do was to escape while there was a chance. perhaps i was wrong in this conclusion, but i was only a country boy, and i had a horror of stone walls and iron bars. escape! no sooner had the thought entered my mind than i was wrapped up in it. undoubtedly it was the best thing to do. freedom meant not only liberty, but also a chance to hunt down john stumpy and clear my father's name. i looked about the loft for the best means of accomplishing my purpose. as i have said, the place was over a carpenter shop. the roof was sloping to the floor, and at each end was a small window heavily slatted. the distance to the ground from the window was not less than fifteen feet, rather a long drop even if i could manage to get the slats loose, which i doubted, for i had no tools at hand. i resolved to try the door, and was about to do so when i heard the bolts shoot back and booth appeared. for an instant i thought to trip him up and rush past him, but he stood on the steps completely blocking the way. "all right, roger?" he asked. "yes, sir." "quite com'table, boy?" "as comfortable as any one could be in such a place," i rejoined lightly. "'tain't exactly a parlor," he chuckled. "no easy chairs or sofys; but the food's good. i'm a-going to get it for you now. then after that maybe the judge will call around. i'll bring the dinner in a minute." he climbed downstairs, bolting the door after him. in five minutes--or ten at the most--i knew he would be back. after that there was no telling how long he would stay. now, therefore, was the proper time to escape, now or never! chapter xii a surprise no time must be lost. booth lived but a short hundred feet from the jail, if such it might be called, and if his wife had dinner ready it would not take him long to bring it. i surveyed the room in which i was incarcerated critically. escape by either window was, as i have intimated, out of the question. on account of its height, the scuttle was also not to be considered. apparently nothing remained to try but the door. running down the steps, i looked it over. it was of solid oak planking, an inch thick, and fastened at both top and bottom. it was a hard thing to tackle, especially with no tools, and, after surveying it, i went upstairs again to search for something that might do as a pry. i could see nothing but the empty nail keg, and i could discover no use at first in this until the idea struck me of wedging it between one of the lower steps and the door, and, by jumping upon it, forcing the bottom bolt. with some difficulty i placed the keg in position and brought down my full weight upon it. the first time the bolt merely creaked, but the second there was a snap, and the lower part of the door burst outward several inches. the bottom bolt had yielded, and now only the top one remained. but to reach this was a difficult matter, as no purchase could be had against it. while considering the situation, i imagined i heard my jailer returning, and my heart jumped into my throat. what if booth should see the damage i had done? i reckoned that things would go hard with me if it became known that i had attempted to break jail. judge penfold would surely give me the full penalty of the law. but the approach of booth was only imaginary, and, after a brief interval of silence, i breathed freer. i ascends the stairs once more to see if i could not find something besides the keg to assist me. if only i had a plank or a beam, i might use it as a battering-ram. the thought of a plank led me to examine the floor, and, going over it carefully, i soon came to a short board, one end of which was loose. raising it, i pulled with all my might, and the board came up. i was astonished to see that it made an opening into the shop below. i had imagined that the floor or ceiling was of double thickness. this gave me a new idea. why not escape through the floor? to pry up another board would perhaps be easier than to force the door. i tried the board next to the opening. the end was somewhat rotted, and it came up with hardly an effort. in another moment the opening would be large enough to allow the passage of my body. putting the first board under the edge of the second, i bore down upon it. as i did so i heard a noise that alarmed me greatly. it was the sound of booth returning, and the next instant the carpenter had opened the outer door and entered. in one hand he carried a tray containing my dinner. he crossed the floor directly under me without looking up. then his eyes caught the shattered door and he gave a loud exclamation. "by ginger! if that boy ain't gone and escaped!" he set down the tray with a rattle and tried to pull the door open. but the top bolt had become displaced, and it was several seconds before it could be shot back. meanwhile i was not idle. as quietly as i could i tore up the second board. the deed was done just as booth stumbled over the keg on his way up the stairs. as my jailer appeared at the top, i let my body through the opening. it was a tight squeeze, especially when accomplished in a hurry. i landed in a heap on a pile of shavings. "stop! stop!" called out booth. "roger, don't you hear me?" i certainly did hear him, but paid no attention to his words. my one thought was to get away as quickly as possible. "if you don't stop, i'll shoot you," went on booth at the top of his voice. "don't you know breaking jail is a--a felony?" i did not know what kind of a crime it was. i had made up my mind to escape, and intended to do so, even if such a deed constituted manslaughter. i made a break for the door and passed out just as booth came tramping down the stairs. i ran across the yard that separated the carpenter shop from the house. as i did so, mrs. booth appeared at the back door. upon seeing me she held up her hands in horror. "mercy on us! roger strong! where be you a-running to? 'zekel! 'zekel! the prisoner's broke loose!" "i know it, mandy!" i heard ezekiel booth answer. "dunno how he did it, though. stop, roger, it's best now; jest you mark my word!" i heard no more. jumping the side fence, i ran through a bit of orchard and across a stony lot until i reached the pass river. at this point this body of water was several hundred feet wide. the bank sloped directly to the water's edge. near at hand were several private boat-houses, one belonging to mr. aaron woodward, he having built it to please duncan. at the end of the boat-house pier lay a skiff, the oars resting upon the seats. i knew it was wrong to make use of the craft, but "necessity knows no law," and my need was great. running down to the end of the pier, i dropped into the boat and shoved off. as i did so, duncan woodward, accompanied by pultzer, came out of the boat-house. "hi, there, what are you doing in my boat?" he sang out. "what, roger strong!" he continued as he came nearer. "you must lend me the boat, duncan," i returned. "i've got to cross the river in a hurry." "not much! i thought you were in jail." "not just now," i replied. "you can get your boat on the other side." "hold up! you shan't have her. come back!" but i was already pulling out into the stream. he continued to shout after me, and presently i saw the two joined by booth, and all watched me in dismay as i made for the opposite shore. reaching the bank, i beached the boat high up and then climbed to the roadway that ran beside the stream. trees and bushes were thick here, and i had but little difficulty in hiding from the view of those opposite. for a moment i hesitated as to which way to proceed. a number of miles down the stream lay newville, of which i have already spoken. probably my pursuers would think i had gone in that direction. if so, they would hasten to the bridge below, with the intention of cutting me off. i therefore started immediately on my way up the river road, resolved to put as much ground as possible between myself and my pursuers. i had no definite destination in view, but thought to gain some hiding-place where i might rest secure and think things over. it was now going on to two o'clock in the afternoon, and as i had not had anything to eat since the noon previous, i began to feel decidedly hungry. i felt in my pocket and discovered that i was the possessor of sixty-five cents, and with this amount of cash i did not see any reason for my remaining hungry any longer. presently i came to a small, white cottage, upon the front porch of which was displayed the sign boarding ascending the steps, i knocked at the door, and a comely, middle-aged woman answered my summons. "i see that you take boarders here," i said, "i am hungry, and several miles from any restaurant. can you furnish me with dinner?" she looked me over rather sharply before replying. then i realize for the first time that my appearance was not of the best. my clothes were considerably the worse for having rolled over and over in the old tool house, and in escaping from my prison i had made several rents in my coat. "i will pay you whatever you charge," i added hastily, "and i would like to wash and brush up, too; i have had a tumble," which was literally true. "i can let you have dinner for twenty-five cent," she said finally. "i won't charge you anything for cleaning up," she added, with something like a smile. "will you mind paying in advance?" "no, ma'am," and i handed over the money. "i suppose i won't have to wait very long." "oh, no, the regular boarders have just finished. you can sit right down." "if you don't mind, i'll take a wash first." the woman led the way to an ante-room, in which were placed a bowl of water, towel, and soap, as well as a dust brush. it did not take me long to fix myself up, and then i flattered myself i did not present an unbecoming appearance. the dinner that the woman served was not as good as that which my sister kate helped to prepare at the widow canby's, but it was wholesome food, and my sharpened appetite made it disappear rapidly. as i ate i reflected upon my situation. for the life of me i did not know what to do next. i longed to see my sister and tell her that i was safe. this done, i intended to devote my time to hunting up the man who i firmly believed held my father's reputation in his hand. i was sure i would discover him sooner or later, and this accomplished, i would not let him out of my sight until he had confessed his secret. i wondered if kate had succeeded in finding that precious statement i had lost. heartily did i reproach myself for not having taken better care of it. having satisfied myself upon the substantial things set before me, i finished my meal with a small cut of apple pie. as i was swallowing the last mouthful i glanced out of the window up the road, and gave a cry of surprise. and no wonder, for coming toward the house was mr. aaron woodward, and beside him walked john stumpy! chapter xiii an interesting conversation i could hardly believe the evidence of my senses when i saw mr. aaron woodward coming up the road with john stumpy beside him. it would have astonished me to have seen the merchant alone, but to see him in company with the very man i was looking for was more than i had thought possible. yet i reflected that the tramp--or whatever the man was--had evinced a determination to secure an interview with mr. woodward before quitting darbyville. there was important business to be transacted between them. mr. john stumpy intended to have his say, whatever that might mean. what was to be done? it would never do for me to be seen. nothing short of arrest would follow. i must get out of the way as quickly as possible. during the time i had been eating, the sky had become overcast as if a shower was imminent. taking advantage of this fact i rose quickly and reached for my hat. "guess we're going to have a thunder shower," i remarked. "hope it holds off. i don't want to get wet." "then you'll have to hurry," rejoined the woman as she looked out of the door. "looks as if it would be here in less than quarter of an hour." "then i'm off. good day." "good day. come again." i slipped out of the door, and passing behind a hedge, made my way to the road. as i did so, mr. woodward and stumpy turned from the highway and walked directly up the gravel path that led to the house! i was dumfounded by this movement. what did they mean by going to the very place i had just vacated? was it possible they had seen me? i earnestly hoped not; for if so, it would spoil a little plan that had just come to me, which was to follow them, see what they were up to, and, if possible, overhear whatever might be said. i was soon convinced that neither of the men was aware of my presence. they were talking earnestly and stepped up on the porch just as ordinary visitors would have done. in a moment the woman let them in and the door closed behind them. my curiosity was aroused to its highest pitch, and at the risk of being discovered by any one who might chance to be passing by i walked cautiously back along the hedge until i reached a clump of rose bushes that grew directly under one of the dining-room windows. the window was open, and by a little manoeuvring i easily managed to see and hear what was going on within. "you came for the rent, i suppose, mr. woodward," the woman was saying. "joel was going to bring it up to-night. he would have brought it over this morning, only he thought it was going to rain and he had some hay he wanted to get in." "yes, i did come for the rent, mrs. decker," replied the merchant. "it's due several days now." "i have it here--thirty dollars. here is the receipt book." there was the rustle of bills and the scratching of a pen. "here you are, mrs. decker." "thank you, sir. now we'll be worry free for another month." "so you are. nothing like being prompt." "my husband was going to speak to you about the roof. it leaks dreadfully." "pooh! that can't be. why, it was patched only two years ago." "you are wrong, mr. woodward. it is four years, and then but very little was done to it." "it cost near twelve dollars," growled the merchant. "you can't expect me to be fixing up the house all the time." "it leaks very badly." "then your husband will have to attend to it. i can't spend any more money this year." "i don't know what we'll do. i wish you would just step outside and look up at the shingles. nearly all of them are ready to fall off." i was alarmed by mrs. decker's request. suppose the trio should come out? i would surely be discovered. but my fears were groundless, as the next words of mr. woodward proved. "i can't go out now, madam, not now. i haven't time. i have a little business to transact with this man, and then i must return to darbyville." "i'm sorry--" began the woman. "so am i; but it cannot be helped. can i use this room for a while?" by the look upon mrs. decker's face it was plain to see she wanted to say, "no, you can't," but she hardly dared to speak the words, so she gave an icy assent and withdrew. the merchant followed her to the door and saw that it was closed tightly behind her. then he strode across the room and faced john stumpy. "wall, sir, now we'll have an accounting," he began in an authoritative voice. "so we will, woody," returned john stumpy, in no wise abashed by the other's manner. the merchant winced at the use of a nickname, but after an instant's hesitation passed it over. "what do you mean by coming to darbyville, sir, when i have repeatedly written you to stay away?" "oh, come, woody, don't get on your high horse," was stumpy's response, as he swung back in the rocker he occupied. "you know i never could stand your high-toned ways." "i flatter myself i am a trifle above common people," returned mr. woodward, and it was plain to see where duncan got his arrogant manner. "oh, pshaw! don't make me tired," yawned stumpy. "come, let's to business." "i am at business. why did you come here?" "you know well enough. didn't i write to you?" "yes, and got my answer. we've squared up accounts, sir." "don't 'sir' me,--it don't go down," cried stumpy, angrily. "we haven't squared up, not by a jugful,--not till you hand over some more cash." "i've handed over enough now." "no, you hain't. do you think i'm going to do all your work for nothing?" "you were well paid." "it's only you as thinks so; i don't." "how much more do you want?" "a thousand dollars." the largeness of the demand fairly took away my breath. as for mr. aaron woodward, he was beside himself. "a thousand dollars!" he said. "why, you're crazy, sir." "no, i ain't; i mean just what i say." "you expect me to pay you a thousand dollars?" "of course i do. i wouldn't ask it if i didn't." "see here, fer--" "sh!--john stumpy, if you please." "that's so, i forgot. but see here, a thousand dollars! why, i've already paid you that." "so you have. now i want another thousand and then we'll cry quits." mr. aaron woodward grew white with rage. "i never heard of such an outrageous demand," he cried. "i'll never pay it." "oh, yes, you will," rejoined the other, coolly. "aaron woodward never yet acted rashly." "suppose i refuse to pay?" "better not; i'm a bad man when i am aroused." "i don't fear you. you can do nothing to me." "oh, yes, i can. i can tell ugly stories about mr. aaron woodward; stories concerning his doings when he was collector for holland & mack." "and who would believe you?" sneered the merchant. "you, a common tramp--" "tramp, am i--" interrupted john stumpy, with a scowl. "if i am, who made me so?" "your own self and the bottle. do you think you can hurt me? nonsense!" "i can try." "and who will believe you, i repeat? a common tramp--whom the police are now hunting for, because of a robbery that occurred only last night." "'tain't so!" "it is. you broke into the widow canby's house and stole over two hundred dollars." in spite of the dirt on his face, john stumpy grew pale. "who can prove it?" "several people. carson strong's son, for one." stumpy sprang to his feet. then almost as suddenly sat down. "didn't know he had a son," he said, as carelessly as he could. "yes, you did," returned the merchant, flatly. "i think, fer--stumpy, i know a little more about you than you do about me." bitter hatred spread itself over the tramp's face. "oh, ho, you do, do you? well, we'll see. 'them laughs best as laughs last.' if you won't pay, i'm off." he rose to his feet and reached for his hat, mr. woodward intercepted him. "where are you going?" "that's my business. i want you to know i didn't come on all the way from chicago for nothing." "are you hard up?" "yes, i am. i want money, and i'm going to have it." "how about the two hundred dollars you stole last night?" stumpy hesitated. "well, if you want to know the truth, i lost the money," he said. chapter xiv the price of silence for a moment i was staggered by john stumpy's announcement. was it possible he was telling the truth? if so, the chances of recovering the widow canby's money would assume a different shape. to arrest him would prove a moral satisfaction, but it would not restore the stolen dollars. occupying the position i did, i was more interested in restoring the stolen money than i was in having the tramp incarcerated. nothing would have given me greater satisfaction than to have met the widow canby at the depot with the two hundred odd dollars in my pocket. it would have silenced the public tongue and made my breaking jail of no consequence. but perhaps john stumpy was telling a falsehood. he was not above such a thing, and would not hesitate if he thought anything could be gained thereby. that mr. aaron woodward also guessed such to be a fact was proven by the words that followed stumpy's statement. "lost the money?" he ejaculated. "do you expect me to believe you, sir?" "it's true." "nonsense, sir. jack fer--" "sh!" "john stumpy isn't the one to lose over two hundred dollars!" "just what i always said myself, partner, and--" "don't 'partner ' me, sir!" "well, wasn't we all partners in the good times gone by?" "no, sir!" "i reckon we were. howsomever, let it pass. well, as i was saying, i reckoned i'd never lose any money, leasewise a small pile, but that's what i have done, and that's why i want you to come down." and john stumpy leaned back in the rocker in a defiant fashion. the merchant eyed him sharply in silence for a moment. "where did you lose the money?" he asked at length. "how do i know? if i did, don't you suppose i'd go back and pick it up?" "i thought perhaps you were afraid of discovery." "humph! i'm not skeered of any such constables as they have in darbyville." "but you must have some idea where you dropped it," went on mr. woodward, and i was astonished to see how coolly this man, who always pretended to be so straightforward, could inquire about stolen money. "not the least," responded john stumpy. "there was two hundred and sixty dollars in all. i took out ten and left the rest in the pocketbook it was in. i've got the ten dollars, and that's all. and that's why you've got to come down," he went on deliberately. "i'm off for chicago to-night, and i'm not going back empty handed." "you think i ought to pay you for your own carelessness," returned mr. woodward, coolly. "not a bit of it. you owe me every cent i ask." "i don't owe you a penny." "you owe me a thousand dollars, and for the last time let me tell you, you've got to pay or take the consequences." and john stumpy brought his fist down on the table with a bang. "hold on; don't make so much noise," cried mr. aaron woodward in alarm. "there is no use of rousing the household." "i don't care. either you'll come down or i'll rouse the whole of darbyville," cried the tramp, vehemently. "i haven't any money." "you can't tell me that." "it's true. times are getting worse every day." "didn't the woman who lives here just pay you?" "yes; thirty dollars--" "and didn't you put the bills in with a big roll in your vest pocket?" went on stumpy, triumphantly. the merchant bit his lip. "that money is to pay a bill that falls due to-morrow," he replied. "well, my 'bill' falls due to-day, and it's got to be met. so come; no more beating about the bush. we've talked long enough. now to business. do you intend to pay or not?" the merchant hesitated. evidently he was afraid to oppose the other too strongly. "well, i don't want to let you go without anything," he began. "i'll let you have twenty-five dollars--" john stumpy jumped up in a passion. "that settles it. i'm done with you. to-night i'll send a letter to chris holtzmann, 897 sherman street, chicago, and tell him a few things he wants to know, and--" "you dare!" almost shrieked mr. woodward. "write a single word to him and i'll--i'll--" "so! ho! you're afraid of him, are you?" "no, i'm not, but what's the use of letting him know anything?" "humph! do you suppose i'd tell him without pay? not much! i can easily get him to fork over fifty or a hundred dollars. and he'll make you pay it back, ten times over." mr. aaron woodward sank back in a chair without a word. evidently he was completely baffled, and knew not which way to turn. as for myself, i was very much in the dark as to what all this was about. i was certain the past events spoken of pertained to my father's affairs, but failed to "make connections." one thing, however, i did do, and that was to make a note of mr. chris holtzmann's address. he was the man stumpy had written to just previous to the robbery, and he was perhaps one of the persons concerned in my father's downfall. "see here," said the merchant at last. "it's too late for us to quarrel. what good would an exposure to holtzmann do?" "never mind. if you won't come to time, i shall do as i please," growled stumpy. "but a thousand dollars! i haven't got it in cash." "you can easily get it." "not so easily as you think. tell you what i will do. i'll give you a hundred. but you must give up all evidence you have against me." stumpy gave a short, contemptuous laugh. "you must think me as green as grass," he sneered. "i'm not giving up any evidence. i'm holding on to all i've got and gathering more." "you have nicholas weaver's statement," went on mr. woodward, with interest. "so i have. nick told the truth in it, too." "i would like to see it" "of course you would. so would some other people,--carson strong's boy, for instance." "sh!--not so loud." "well, then, don't bring the subject up." "have you the statement with you?" "maybe i haven't; maybe i have." "perhaps it was taken from you," went on mr. woodward, curiously. "what do you know about that?" stumpy again jumped to his feet. "you've been talking to that strong boy," he cried. "supposing i have?" "well, it didn't do you no good. say, how much does the young cub know?" "he knows too much for the good of either of us," responded the merchant. "sorry he wasn't found in the ruins of that tool house," growled the tramp, savagely. this was certainly a fine assertion for me to hear. yet it was no more than i would expect from john stumpy. he was a villain through and through. "you meant to burn him up, did you?" asked mr. woodward. "and if i had, mr. aaron woodward would never have shed a tear," laughed john stumpy. "let me see the statement." john stumpy hesitated. "hand over the money first, and maybe i will." "the hundred dollars?" "no, a thousand." "do you suppose i carry so much money with me?" "give me what you have in that roll, and i'll take your word for the rest." the merchant gave something that sounded very much like a groan. "well, i suppose if you insist on it, i must," he said. "i'll give you what i have, but i won't promise you any more." "hand it over," was stumpy's laconic reply. he probably thought half a loaf better than no bread, at all. with a heavy sigh mr. woodward drew the roll of bills from his pocket and began to count them over. i was eager to catch sight of them. i stood on tiptoe and peered into the window. it was an interesting scene; the sour look upon the merchant's face; the look of greed in the tramp's eye. in a moment the counting was finished. "a hundred and seventy dollars," said mr. aaron woodward. "here you are." and he held them out. stumpy almost snatched them from his hand. "there, now that's settled," he said. "now about--what was that?" a noise had disturbed him. while absorbed in what the two were doing i had given an involuntary cough. "somebody listening," he declared as he thrust the money into his pocket. "we ought to be more careful." "only some one coughing in the next room," returned mr. woodward. "don't get scared." "i ain't scared, but i don't want other folks to know my business. reckon you don't either." "no, indeed. it's bad enough for me to be seen in your company," returned mr. aaron woodward, with just a trace of his former lofty manner. "no insinuations, please," was the ready reply. "my hands ain't any dirtier than yours." "well, well, let's stop quarrelling. let me see the statement." "will you promise to hand it back if i do?" "why not let me have it?" "never mind why. will you give it back?" "if you insist on it, you shall have it back," was mr. woodward's final reply, seeing that he could gain nothing by parleying. stumpy drew forth the envelope. i anticipated what was coming. "here it is," he said, and handed it over, as he supposed. "the envelope is empty," said mr. woodward. stumpy looked dumfounded. chapter xv an odd statement before mr. woodward made the announcement just recorded he had walked close up to the window, probably to get into the light, for the sky was now darkening rapidly, portending the near breaking out of the storm i have mentioned. in doing this the merchant's back was turned upon his companion, and for an instant stumpy had been unable to see what the other was doing. when therefore mr. woodward declared the envelope to be empty every action of the tramp indicated that he did not believe the statement. "empty?" he cried hoarsely. "yes, empty," replied the merchant; "and you knew it," he added. "no such thing. the statement was inside. woody, you're trying to play a sharp game, but it won't work." "what do you mean, sir?" "you're trying to rob me." "nonsense. i say the envelope was empty." "and i say it wasn't. come, hand over my property." "i tell you, fer--stumpy, i haven't it." "i don't care what you say. you can't play any such game off on me," rejoined john stumpy, with increasing anger. "i'm only speaking the truth." "you ain't. hand it over, or i'll--" john stumpy caught the merchant by the coat collar. "what would you do?" cried mr. woodward in alarm, and it was plain to see he was a coward at heart. "i'll choke the life out of you; that's what i'll do. hand over the statement." "i haven't it, upon my honor." "your honor? bah! what does that amount to?" john stumpy suddenly shifted his hand from its grasp on the collar to the merchant's throat. for a moment i thought mr. woodward was in danger of being choked to death. "stop! stop! se--search me if you--you want to," he gasped. but john stumpy's passion seemed to have got the better of his reason. he did not relax his hold in the least. a short struggle ensued. the two backed up against the table, and presently a chair was upset. of course all this made considerable noise. yet neither of the men heeded it. presently the door from the other room swung open, and the two had hardly time to separate before a tall, lank farmer entered. "hello, what's up?" he asked in a loud, drawling tone. for an instant neither spoke, evidently not knowing what to say. "we were--were--ahem--trying to--to catch a rat," replied mr. woodward, with an effort. "a rat?" "exactly, sir. had a terrible time with him, mr. decker." the farmer looked surprised. "so i supposed by the row that was going on," he said. "curious. i knew there were rats down to the barn, but i didn't suppose they came up to the house. what became of him?" "slipped out of the door just now," put in john stumpy. "there he goes!" he added, pointing out into the hall. mr. decker made a spring out of the room. "i must ketch him, by gopher!" he cried. "there's enough eat up here now without having the vermin taking a hand in." mr. woodward closed the door after the man. "now see to what your actions have brought us," he exclaimed. "if it hadn't been for my quick wit we'd been in a pretty mess." "not my fault," growled john stumpy. "why don't you give up the statement?" i could not help but feel amused at his persistency. his demands upon the merchant were about on a footing with those mr. woodward had made upon me. "if you'll only listen to reason," began the merchant, "i will prove--" the rest of his remark was drowned out in a clap of thunder. somewhat startled, i looked up at the sky. the black clouds in the south had rolled up rapidly, until now the entire horizon was covered. the first burst of thunder was succeeded directly by several others, and then large drops of rain began to fall. the wind blew the drops directly into the window. i crouched down out of sight, and the next moment mr. woodward said:-"it's raining in the window. we'd better close it up." of course directly the window was closed i could hear no longer. i remained in my position for half a minute or more, and then as the rain began to pour down rapidly i made a break for better shelter. i sought the barn. it was a low, rambling structure, with great wide doors. no one seemed to be around, and i rushed in without ceremony. i was pretty fairly soaked, but as it was warm i did not mind the ducking. i shook out my hat and coat and then sat down to think matters over. what i had heard had not given me much satisfaction. to be sure, it had proved beyond a doubt that mr. aaron woodward was a thorough scoundrel, but of this i had been already satisfied in my own mind. what was i to do? i had asked myself that question several times, and now i asked it again. if only i could get john stumpy arrested, perhaps it would be possible to force him to make a confession. but how was this to be done? while i sat on the edge of a feed box, a form darkened the doorway, and farmer decker appeared. "hello!" he exclaimed. "what are you doing here?" "i took the liberty to come in out of the rain," i replied. "have you any objections to my remaining until the shower is over?" "no, guess not. it's a mighty heavy one. where're you from? newville?" "no, sir, darbyville." "yes? had quite a robbery down there, i understand." "is that so?" "yes, a chap named strong robbed an old woman of nearly five hundred dollars. do you know him or the woman?" "i know the woman quite well," was my reply, and i hoped he would not question me further. "they've got him in jail, i believe. the fellow and his sister tried to make out that a tramp had taken the money, but i understand no one would listen to the story." "no?" "no. it seems this strong boy's father is in jail now for stealing, so it ain't strange the boy's a thief." "but maybe he isn't guilty," i put in, by way of a mild protest. "maybe. of course it's rather tough on him if he isn't. but you can't tell nowadays; boys is so all-fired high toned, and want to play big fiddle." "some boys are, but not all of them." "some of them. now there's our landlord, who is in the house now, he's got a son as extravagant as can be, and if it wasn't for mr. woodward keeping him in funds i don't know what that boy might not do. he--whoa, there, billy, whoa!" the last remark was addressed to a horse standing in one of the stalls. a clap of thunder had set the animal to prancing. "your horse feels rather uneasy," i remarked, glad of a chance to change the subject. "allers acts that way when there's a storm going on. too bad, too, for i want to hitch him up and take mr. woodward and another man that's with him over to darbyville." as mr. decker spoke he led the horse from the stall and backed him up between the shafts of the carriage that stood near the rear of the barn. while he was hitching up i set myself to thinking. while i was perfectly willing that mr. woodward should return to darbyville, i did not wish to allow john stumpy out of my sight. once away, and i might not be able to lay hands on him. had i been sure that kate had succeeded in finding the lost statement, i would not have cared, but the chances in her favor were slim, and i did not wish to run any risks. "are you going to drive around to the house for them?" i asked as the farmer finished the job. "guess i'll have to. it will be a beastly drive. sorry i can't offer you a seat--it would be better than walking." "i think i'll wait till it clears off," i returned. "i'm not on business, and--" "say, decker, how long is it going to take you to hitch up?" interrupted a voice from the doorway, and the next instant mr. woodward strode into the barn, followed by john stumpy. i did not have time to conceal myself. i tried to step behind a partition, but before i could do so the merchant's eye was on me. "roger strong!" he exclaimed. "yes, sir," i replied, as boldly as i could. "how did you get here?" he demanded. "walked, just as you did." "thought you were in jail." "so do most people." "who is this chap?" asked the farmer, staring at me with open eyes. "it's the boy who was arrested for that robbery last night," explained the merchant. "shoo--you don't say? and i was talking to him about that very thing. you rascal, you!" "how did you get out?" put in john stumpy. "none of your business," i replied briskly. "if you'd had your way i'd been burnt up in the tool house last night." "no such thing," was the tramp's reply. "never saw you before." "you're the fellow who stole the widow canby's money." "you must be crazy, young fellow. i don't know anything about the widow canby or her money." "i can prove it. my sister can prove it, too." "then your sister must be as crazy as yourself." "stop there! you're the thief and you know it." "i know nothing of the kind." "your story is nonsensical, strong," broke in mr. woodward. "gentlemen like mr. stumpy here do not break into people's houses and commit robberies." "gentlemen! he's nothing but a tramp, and you know it." "tramp? how dare you?" cried stumpy, in suddenly assumed dignity, put on for the farmer's benefit. "i am a ranchero from texas and an honest man. i am visiting mr. woodward, and know nothing more of the robbery excepting having heard that it occurred--ahem!" and john stumpy drew himself up. under other circumstances i would have laughed at his effrontery. but the situation was too serious to indulge in any humor. "being placed under arrest has turned your head, strong," said the merchant. "you seem to be quite out of your mind." "when was the robbery committed?" put in john stumpy, suddenly. "you know well enough," i cried. "i heard it was about two o'clock in the morning," vouchsafed farmer decker. "then i can easily prove an alibi," said the tramp, triumphantly. "i can prove i was with my esteemed friend mr. woodward at that hour. isn't it so, aaron?" the merchant hesitated. i fairly held my breath to catch his answer. would he commit deliberate perjury? "quite true," he replied slowly. "mr. stumpy was with me last night. we sat up in the library, smoking, and playing cards until after midnight, and then i showed him to bed. he could not possibly have committed the crime of which strong speaks." "then the boy must be the guilty one hisself," said the farmer. "and so young, too. who would a-thought it! what shall we do with him, mr. woodward?" "you had better help me take him back to darbyville jail," responded the merchant. chapter xvi my uncle enos john stumpy gave a smile of triumph. as for myself, i stood aghast. mr. aaron woodward had committed deliberate perjury, or at least, something that amounted to the same thing. he had positively declared that john stumpy was at his house at the time of the robbery of widow canby's house, and could not, therefore, be the guilty party. it was easy to guess that in this statement it was his intention to screen his partner in iniquity. to be sure, he had been forced to take the position by stumpy himself, but once having taken it, i was morally certain he would not back down. his action would make it harder than ever for me to clear myself and bring the tramp to justice. his word in a court of law would carry more weight than mine or my sister's, and consequently our case would fall to the ground. i was glad that dick blair could testify concerning my whereabouts and the scene in the dining room directly after the robbery. the merchant knew nothing of blair's presence on the occasion--at least i imagined so from his conversation--and might, by saying too much, "put his foot in it." but now my mind was filled with only one thought. the three men intended to take me to the darbyville jail. i was to be ignominiously dragged back to the prison from which i had escaped. once again in ezekiel booth's custody i was certain he would keep so strict a guard over me that further breaking away would be out of the question. perhaps judge penfold would consider me so dangerous a prisoner as to send me to the county jail for safe keeping, in which case it would be harder than ever for me to clear myself or see kate. for an instant i meditated taking to my legs and running my chances, but this idea was knocked in the head by farmer decker grasping me by the collar. "maybe he might take a notion and run away," he explained. "he did it once, you say." "a good idea to hold him," said mr. woodward. "have you finished hitching up?" "yes, sir." "have you room for him?" "i might put in another seat." "do so. and hurry; the rain has slackened up a bit, and we may reach darbyville before it starts again." the extra seat was soon placed in the carriage. then the farmer procured a couple of rubber blankets. "all ready now," he said. "how shall we sit?" "you and mr. stumpy sit in front. i and the boy will occupy the back seat. come, strong, get in." for an instant i thought of refusing. the merchant had no right to order me. but then i reflected that a refusal would do no good, and might do harm, so without a word i entered the carriage. the others were not slow to follow. then farmer decker chirruped to billy, and we rolled out of the farm yard and down the road. but little was said on the way. i was busy with my own thoughts, and so were mr. woodward and stumpy. the farmer asked several questions, but the merchant said he would learn all he wished to know at the judge's office, and this quieted him. about five o'clock in the afternoon we rolled into darbyville. while crossing the pass river the sun had burst through the clouds, and now all was as bright and fresh as ever. judge penfold's office was situated in the centre of the principal business block. when we arrived there we found a number of men standing about the door, no doubt discussing my escape, for they uttered many exclamations of surprise on seeing me. chief among them was parsons, who looked pale and worried. "roger strong!" he exclaimed. "where have you been?" "took a walk for my health," i replied as lightly as i could, though my heart was heavy. "well, i guess we'll make sure it shan't happen again," he returned. "hi, there, booth! here's your prisoner come back!" in a moment the carpenter appeared upon the scene. "you rascal, you!" he cried in angry tones. "a fine peck of trouble you've got yourself into!" "what's all this about?" asked a heavy voice from the stairs, and judge penfold stood before me. "i have brought your prisoner back, judge," replied mr. woodward. "so i see. well, strong, what have you to say for yourself? do you know breaking jail is a serious offence?" "i don't know anything about it. i know i was locked up for nothing at all, and i escaped at the first chance offered." "there was no chance offered at all, judge," broke in booth, fearful of having a reflection cast upon his character. "he just went and ripped the hull floor up, that's what he did." "silence, booth! come upstairs and we will hear the particulars." in a moment we were in judge penfold's office. i was told to take a seat on a bench, with booth on one side of me and parsons on the other. then mr. woodward introduced john stumpy as a friend from san antonio, texas, and the two told their story, corroborated at its end by farmer decker, who trembled from head to foot at the idea of addressing as high a dignitary as judge penfold. "what have you to say to this, strong?" i was asked. in a plain, straightforward way i told my story from beginning to end, told it in a manner that did not fail to impress nearly every one in the court-room but the judge and my accusers. of course mr. woodward and john stumpy stoutly denied all i said, and their denial carried the day. "until we can have a real trial i will send you back to jail," said judge penfold. "why don't you send john stumpy to jail, too?" i asked. "he is as much accused as i." "we have only your word for that." "then let me send for my sister kate and dick blair." judge penfold rubbed his chin reflectively. "i think i'll have to put you under bonds," he said to john stumpy. "why so? the boy's word doesn't amount to anything," put in mr. woodward. "only a matter of form, mr. woodward. i will make it a thousand dollars. will you go his bondsman?" "of course he will," said john stumpy, hastily. "won't you?" the merchant winced. "i--i guess so," he stammered. "but it's a strange proceeding." in a few moments, by the aid of two other men, the bond was made out. "i will make your bail a thousand dollars also," said judge penfold, turning to me. "i suppose it's quite useless though," he added sarcastically. "not quite so useless as you might think," exclaimed a hearty voice from the rear of the court-room. i thought i recognized the tones, and turned hastily. there beside my sister kate stood my uncle, enos moss, of whom i have already spoken. he was a grizzly bearded sea-captain of seventy, with manner and speech suggestive of the brine. breaking from parsons and booth, i ran to meet him. he shook both my hands and then clapped me on the shoulder. "cast up on a lee shore, are you, roger?" he exclaimed. "and the wind a-blowing a hurricane." "yes, i am," i replied, "and i'm mighty glad you've come, uncle enos." "just dropped anchor in time," he went on. "judge penfold, do you remember me?" "you are carson strong's brother-in-law, i believe?" replied the judge. "you've hit it. captain enos moss, part owner and sailing master of the hattie baker, as trim a craft as ever rounded the horn. been away for three years, and now on shore to stay." "you're not going on any more voyages?" i queried. "no, my hearty. i've made enough to keep me, and i'm getting too old to walk the quarter-deck. besides, i've heard of your father's troubles from kate, and i reckon they need sounding." "indeed they do." "well, now about your difficulty. a thousand-dollar bond, eh. it's pretty stiff, but i guess i can stand it." "thank you, sir," was all i could say. "don't say a word. didn't your father put in a good word for me when i was a-courting your aunt that's dead and gone--god bless her! indeed, he did! and i'll stand by you, roger, no matter how hard the gale blows." "then you don't think i'm guilty?" "what! a lad with your bearing a thief? not much. the people in this village must be asleep--not to know better'n that?" "ahem!" coughed judge penfold, sternly. he considered my uncle's remarks decidedly impertinent. "are you able to go his bail?" he asked. "reckon i am. i've just deposited ten thousand dollars in the bank here, and i've got twenty and more in new york. how will you have it--in cash?" "a conditional check, certified, will do," replied judge penfold, shortly. what he meant had to be explained, and then we all went to the banker's office. my uncle's account was found to be as he had stated, and about ten minutes later my bond was signed and i was at liberty to go where i pleased until called upon to appear. mr. aaron woodward and john stumpy apparently did not relish the turn affairs had taken. but i paid no attention to them, and the business over, i hurried off with my sister and my newly arrived uncle. "did you find the statement?" i asked of kate, as soon as we were out of hearing of the crowd. "no, roger, i looked and looked, but it wasn't anywhere, either at the tool house or on the way to judge penfold's." "have you heard from mrs. canby yet?" "yes, she is coming home." "does she blame me for what has happened?" "she doesn't say." "never mind, roger. we'll stick up for you," put in uncle enos, kindly. i was considerably disturbed. what if mrs. canby should consider me at fault? as we drew near to the cottage, i saw a lady standing by the gate, watching our approach. it was the widow canby. chapter xvii a sudden resolve my heart beat rapidly as i walked up to the gate. how would the good lady who had done so much for kate and myself receive me? an unkind word or an unfavorable insinuation from her would have hurt me worse than a thousand from any one else. she had been so generous that to have her turn would have made me feel as if i had lost my last friend on earth. but as she had taken me in before when others had cast me out, so she now proved the friend in need. "so they've thought better of it and set you free, roger?" she said as i hurried up. "yes, mrs. canby," i returned. "i hope--i hope--" i began, and then came to a full stop. "what?" and she caught my hand. "i hope you don't think i had anything to do with the robbery," i stammered. "no, roger, i don't. i think you're an honest boy, and i've got to have more proof against you than i've heard yet before i'll believe otherwise." "thank you, ma'am, oh, thank you!" i blurted out, and the tears started to my eyes and rolled down my cheeks. the events of which i am writing occurred several years ago, but i am not ashamed of those tears. they were the outcome of long-pent-up feelings, and i could not hold them back. my sister cried, too, and the widow canby and uncle enos looked very much as if they wished to join in. "i knew you wouldn't think roger did it," cried kate. "i said all along you wouldn't, though everybody said you would." "folks don't appear to know me very well," returned widow canby, with a bit of grim humor in her tone. "i don't always think as others do. come into the house and give me full particulars. who is this man? why, really! captain moss, i believe?" "yes, ma'am, captain moss--roger's uncle, at your service," replied he, taking off his cap and bowing low. "i thought you'd remember me. your husband as was once sailed to boston with me." "oh, yes, i remember you. will you come in?" "thank you, reckon i will. i have no home now, and hotels is scarce in darbyville. i only arrived this noon, and i've been with kate ever since. i must hunt up a boarding-house to stay at. do you know of any close at hand?" "perhaps i do. let us talk of that later on. i want to hear roger's story first." "just as you say, ma'am. only i must get a place to stop at to-night." "you shall be provided for, captain moss. i have a spare room." "you are very kind to an old sea-dog like myself, mrs. canby," said uncle enos. the widow led the way into the dining room. the lamp was already lighted, and while my sister kate busied herself with preparing supper, mrs. canby and my uncle sat down to listen to my story. for the first time i told it with all the details that concerned myself,--how i had been waylaid by the models, how dick blair had released me, what stumpy had done at the tool house, and all, not forgetting about the statement kate and i wished so much to find. the widow canby and my uncle listened with close attention until i had finished. "it's a strange story, roger," said the widow, at its conclusion. "one hard to believe. but i know you tell the truth." "what a rascal this woodward must be!" broke in my uncle "he's a far greater villain in his way than this john stumpy. i am strongly inclined to figure that you're right, and he is the one that ran your father up on a lee shore." "i don't think father did a single thing that was wrong--that is, knowingly," i returned. "if he did do wrong, i'm sure mr. woodward made it appear as if it was all right." "no doubt, no doubt. if you could only get to the bottom of this weaver's statement." "and when is this trial to come off?" put in mrs. canby. "really i don't see what good it will do me if this man has lost the money." "i'd like to find that, too," i returned. presently kate announced that supper was ready, and we all sat down. the widow said that she had found her sister much better, and on receiving kate's letter had started for her home at once. the loss of the money did not disturb her as much as i had anticipated, and as every one was hungry, the meal passed off tolerably well. when we had nearly finished there was a knock on the door, and kate admitted mr. woodward's errand boy. he had a note for me. it contained but a single sentence:-"please call at my house this evening about nine o'clock." i read the note over with interest, and then informed the others of what it contained. "shall you go?" asked kate, anxiously. "i suppose i might." "maybe it's a plot," suggested the widow. "might waylay you," added uncle enos. "a man like him is liable to do 'most anything." "i don't think he would dare do me any bodily injury," i replied. "he would know i had told some one where i was going, and that my absence would be noticed." "if you go, take me in tow," said my uncle. "i needn't go in with you, but i can hang around outside, and if anything goes wrong, all you've got to do is to holler like all creation, and i'll come to the rescue." "oh, if roger runs any risk, i'd rather he wouldn't go," exclaimed kate, in alarm. "i don't think the risk is very great," i returned. "besides, i may find the missing statement. that is worth trying for." "i shall be in dread until you return," she replied, with a grave shake of her head. "when will you start?" asked uncle enos. "about half past eight. it won't take over half an hour to reach his house." we continued to discuss mr. woodward for some time, and also the action of the models and what i should do on their score. my uncle enos was for prosecuting them, but the widow canby said that the future would bring its own punishment, and on this we rested. "and now about my board," began uncle enos, during a dull in the conversation. "i must find a boarding-house for after to-night." "wouldn't you like to stay with the children?" asked mrs. canby. "yes, ma'am; indeed i would. to tell the truth, it's my intention sooner or later to offer them a home with me." "i should hate to have them leave me," returned the widow, quickly. "i suppose so." "how would you like to board with me? as i have said, there is lots of room, and you have just eaten a sample meal. we do not live in style--but--" "plenty good enough style," interrupted captain enos, "and better grub then we had on the hattie baker, i'll be bound. i'd like it first rate here if the terms wasn't too high." "what do you think fair?" "i'm sure i don't know, ma'am. i haven't paid a week's board in three years." "would five dollars a week be too much?" "no, ma'am. are you sure it's enough? i don't want to crowd your hospitality." "i'd be satisfied with five dollars. of course boarders are out of my line, but there are exceptions to all cases. besides, i'll feel safer with another man about the house. no reflection on you, roger, but you won't always be here together." "no, ma'am," replied my uncle. "i must visit my brother-in-law at the prison--that will take several days." "will you take me with you?" asked kate, eagerly. "certainly, and you, too, roger, if you want to go." "i would like to very much," was my reply. "but i want to ask even a bigger favor than that, uncle enos." "yes?" "yes, sir. you may think it a good deal, but you've been so kind, and i haven't any one else to go to." "well, what is it, my boy? i'll do it if i can." "lend me about fifty dollars." my uncle enos raised his eyebrows in surprise. "fifty dollars?" he repeated. "yes, sir. that is, if you can spare it. i'll promise to pay it back some day." "and what do you intend to do with it?" "i want to go to chicago, sir." "to chicago?" all three of my listeners repeated the words in chorus; then captain enos continued:-"and what are you going to do there?" "i want to hunt up this holtzmann, and find out what he knows about my father's affairs. i'm satisfied that he is as deep in it as mr. woodward or john stumpy, and if i can only by some means get him to tell what he knows, i may accomplish a good deal." my uncle enos put his hand upon my shoulder; "well, roger, you're a brave boy, and i'll trust you. you shall have fifty dollars, and a hundred, if you want it, to do as you think best. only don't get into trouble." "thank you uncle enos, thank you!" i cried heartily. "some day i'll pay you back." "i don't want it back, my lad. if you can catch any proofs that will help clear your father, i shall be more than satisfied." "and when shall you go?" asked kate. "i don't know. it will depend on my interview with mr. woodward and also on what john stumpy does. not inside of several days, at least. besides, we want to see father first, you know." "of course." "we can go to trenton tomorrow," said uncle enos. at trenton was located the state prison. after consulting a time table printed in the darbyville record, we found we could catch a train for that city at 8.25 from newville the next morning, and this we decided to take. having settled this matter, we returned again to the discussion of the incidents surrounding the robbery, and what would probably be the next movements of those fighting against me. uncle enos grew greatly interested, and said he knew a lawyer in new york who might secure some good private detective who could take the case in hand. finally it came half past eight, and putting on my hat, i started for mr. woodward's residence. chapter xviii in mr. woodward's library though outwardly calm, i was considerably agitated as i walked to darbyville. why the merchant had sent for me i could not surmise. of course it was on account of the robbery, but so far as i knew both of us had taken a separate stand, and neither would turn back. i thought it barely possible that he wished to intimidate me into receding from my position. he was as much of a bully in his way as duncan, and would not hesitate to use every means in his power to bring me to terms. arriving at mr. woodward's house, i ascended the steps and rang the bell. "is mr. woodward in?" i asked of the girl who answered the summons. "i'll see, sir," she replied. "who shall i say it is?" "roger strong." the girl left me standing in the hall. while waiting for her return i could not help but remember the old lines:- "'will you walk into my parlor?' said the spider to the fly." but if i was walking into the spider's parlor, it would be my own fault if i got hurt, for i was entering with my eyes open. i determined to be on my guard, and take nothing for granted. "mr. woodward will be pleased to see you in his library," said the girl upon her return, and then, having indicated the door, she vanished down the back hall. as i put my hand upon the door-knob, i heard steps upon the stairs, and looking up saw duncan woodward descending. his face was still swollen from the punishment i had inflicted upon him. nevertheless, he was faultlessly dressed in full evening costume, and i rightly conjectured he was going to spend the night in some fashionable dissipation such as dancing or card-playing. "hello! how did you get in here?" he exclaimed. "was let in," was my mild reply, not caring to pick a quarrel with him. "was, eh? and what for, i'd like to know?" "that's your father's business, duncan." "don't duncan me any more, roger strong. what's my father's business?" "what i came for. he sent for me." "oh, he did. reckon he's going to square accounts with you." "i don't know what accounts he's going to square," i went on in curiosity. "didn't you as much as try to intimate he was lying--down in judge penfold's court this afternoon?" "i only told what i knew to be the truth," i replied calmly. "the truth. humph! i believe you took the widow's money yourself." "take care what you're saying," i replied angrily. "i don't propose to stand any such talk from you." duncan grew speechless. "why, you--you--" he began. "hold up now before you say something that you'll be sorry for. this is your house, but you have no right to insult me in it." "quite right, strong, quite right." the library door had opened, and mr. woodward stood upon the threshold, gazing sharply at his son. "strong is here upon my invitation, duncan; you ought to treat him with more politeness," he added. if duncan was amazed at this speech, so was i. the merchant taking my part? what did it mean? "why, i--i--" began duncan, but he could really get no further. "no explanation is necessary," interrupted his father, coolly. "strong, please step in, will you?" "yes, sir," and i suited the action to the word. as i did so duncan passed on to the front door. "i'll get even with you yet, you cad!" he muttered under his breath; but i paid no attention to his words. i had "bigger fish to fry." once inside of mr. woodward's library, the merchant closed the door behind me and then invited me to take a seat beside his desk, at the same time throwing himself back in his easy chair. "i suppose you thought it rather singular that i should send for you," he said by way of an opening. "yes, sir, i did," was all i could reply. "i thought as much. it was only an impulse of mine, sir, only an impulse. i wished to see if we cannot arrange this--this little difficulty without publicity. i would rather lose a good deal, yes, sir, a good deal, than have my name dragged into court." "all i ask is for justice," i replied calmly. "i am under arrest for a crime of which i am innocent. on the other hand, you are trying to shield a man i know is guilty." i expected a storm of indignation from mr. woodward because of the last remark. yet he showed no sign of resentment. "don't you think you might be mistaken in your identification of mr. stumpy?" he replied, and i noticed that again he nearly stumbled in pronouncing the tramp's name. "no, sir," i replied promptly. "remember that you saw him only by lantern light, and then but for a few minutes." "i saw him by daylight as well." "when?" "in the morning. he came as a beggar." "a beggar? impossible!" the merchant held, up his hands in assumed amazement. "why, strong, the idea of mr. stumpy begging is ridiculous." "just the same it is true, mr. woodward. and what is more, he is the thief, and you know it." "that's a strong assertion to make, sir, a very strong assertion." "nevertheless, i believe i can prove my words." mr. woodward turned slightly pale. "you can prove no such thing," he cried. "yes, i can. didn't stumpy admit he had taken the money?" "never, sir." "he did." "when?" "this afternoon while you were at decker's place." had i slapped the merchant in the face he would not have been more surprised. he sprang to his feet and glared at me. "you--you--who says he made such an admission?" "i say so." "ah! i see, you were spying on us. you rascal!" "it strikes me that you are the rascal," i returned. "you try deliberately to shield a thief." "what!" "yes, it's true." "can you prove it?" mr. woodward asked the question sneeringly, but there was much of curiosity in his tones. "perhaps i can." the merchant pulled his mustache nervously. "strong, you are greatly mistaken. but don't let us quarrel any more." "i don't want to quarrel." "i feel badly over the whole affair, and mr. stumpy is fairly sick. i suppose you think you are right, but you are mistaken. now i have a proposition to make to you." mr. woodward leaned forward in his chair. "suppose you admit that you are mistaken--that mr. stumpy is not the man? do this, and i will not prosecute you for having taken my papers." i was surprised and indignant; surprised that mr. woodward should still insist upon my having taken his papers, and indignant because of his outrageous offer. "mr. woodward," i began firmly, "you can prosecute me or not; stumpy is the guilty man, and i shall always stick to it." "then you will go to jail, too." "for the last time let me say i have not seen your papers." "it is false. you took them from this room last night. at the very time you pretend you were after the robber at mrs. canby's house you were here ransacking my desk." "mr. woodward--" "there is no use in denying it. i have abundant proofs. the girl who cleaned up here this morning found a handkerchief with your name on it lying on the floor. if you weren't here, how did that come here?" "my handkerchief?" "yes, sir, your handkerchief; and mary o'brien can identify it and tell where she found it." "some one else must have had it," i stammered, and then suddenly: "i know who the party is--duncan." "duncan!" "yes, sir. he took that handkerchief away from me when the models waylaid me!" "my son! really, strong, you are mad! but i will take you in hand, sir; yes, indeed, i will." "no, you won't, aaron woodward!" i cried, for once letting my temper get the better of me. "you are awfully cunning, but i am not afraid of you. i am willing to have all these matters sifted to the bottom, and the sooner the better. what papers have you missed? were they the ones that holtzmann of chicago is after? how is it that my father is in prison while you live in style on money you never earned? who is the relative that left it to you? did you ever make a clear statement concerning the transactions that took away my father's honest name?" "stop! stop!" "i will not stop! you want an investigation; so do i. luckily my uncle, captain enos moss, has just returned from a voyage. he has quite some money, and i know he will use it to bring the guilty parties to justice. and then--" i did not finish. mr. woodward had strode over to the door and locked it, putting the key in his pocket. "you know too much, strong," he muttered between his set teeth, as he caught me by the collar; "too much entirely. we must come to a settlement before you leave this room." chapter xix a clever ruse i must confess i was frightened when mr. woodward locked the door of his library and caught me by the collar. was it possible that he contemplated doing me physical harm? it looked that way. i was not accustomed to such rough treatment, and i resented it instantly. i was not very large for my age, but i was strong, and ducking my head i wrenched myself free from his grasp and sprang to the other side of the small table that stood in the centre of the room. "what do you mean by treating me in this manner!" i cried. "unlock that door at once!" "not much, sir," replied mr. woodward, vehemently. "you've made some remarkable statements, young man, and i demand a clear explanation before you leave." "well, you demand too much, aaron woodward," i replied firmly. "unlock that door." "not just yet. i want to know what you know of holtzmann of chicago?" "you won't learn by treating me in this manner," was my determined reply. "unlock that door, or, take my word for it, i'll arouse the whole neighborhood." "you'll do nothing of the kind, young man," he rejoined. "i will." "make the least disturbance and you shall pay dearly for it. understand, sir, i'm not to be trifled with." "and i'm not to be frightened into submission," i returned with spirit. "i have a right to leave when i please and i shall do so." "not till i am ready," said he, coolly. i was nonplussed and alarmed--nonplussed over the question of how to get away, and alarmed at the thought of what might happen if i was compelled to remain. i began to understand mr. aaron woodward's true character. like duncan, he was not only a bully, but also a brute. words having failed, he was now evidently going to see what physical force could accomplish. "forewarned is forearmed" is an old saying, and now i applied it to myself. in other words, i prepared for an encounter. on the centre table lay a photograph album. it was thick and heavy and capable of proving quite a formidable article of defence. i picked it up, and stepping behind a large easy chair, stood on my guard. seeing the action, the merchant paused. "what are going to do with that?" he asked. "you'll see if you keep on," i replied. "i don't intend to stand this much longer. you had better open the door." "you think you're a brainy boy, strong," he sneered. "i've got too much brain to let you ride over me." "you think you have a case against me and mr. stumpy, and you intend to drag it into court and make a great fuss over it," he went on. "i'm going to get back my father's honest name." "what you mean is that you intend to drag my name in the mire," he stormed. "you can have it so, if you please." "i shall not allow it. you, a young upstart!" "take care, mr. woodward!" "do you think i will submit to it?" he glared at me and threw a hasty glance around the room. "not much!" suddenly he stepped to the windows and pulled down the shades. then he took out his watch and looked at the time. i wondered what he was up to now. i was not long in finding out. "listen to me," he said in a low, intense tone, "we are alone in this house--you and i--and will be for half an hour or more. you are in my power. what will you do? give up all the papers you possess and promise to keep silent about what you know or take the consequences." it would be telling an untruth to say i was not thoroughly startled by the merchant's sudden change of manner. he was about to assault me, that was plain to see, and he wished me to understand that no one was near either to assist me or to bear witness against his dark doings. i must fight my own battles, not only in a war of words, but also in a war of blows. i was not afraid after the first shock was over. my cause was a just one, and i would stand by it, no matter what the consequences might be. "i don't fear you, aaron woodward," i replied, as steadily as i could. "i am in the right and shall stick up for it, no matter what comes." "you defy me?" he cried in a rage. "yes, i do." i had hardly uttered the words before he caught up a heavy cane standing beside his desk and made for me. there was a wicked determination in his eyes, and i could see that all the evil passions within him were aroused. "we'll see who is master here," he went on. "stand back!" i cried. "don't come a step nearer! if you do, you'll be sorry for it!" he paid no attention to my warning, but kept on advancing, raising the cane over his head as he did so. when he was within three feet of me he aimed a blow at my head. had he hit me, i am certain he would have cracked my skull open. but i was too quick for him, i dodged, and the cane struck the back of the chair. before he could recover from his onslaught i hurled the album at him with all force. it struck him full in the face, and must have loosened several of his teeth, for he put his hand up to his mouth as he reeled over backward. i was not astonished. i had accomplished just what i had set out to do. my one thought now was to make my escape. how was it to be done? the key to the door was in the merchant's pocket, and this i could, not obtain. the windows were closed, and the blinds drawn down. i had but an instant to think. spluttering to himself, my assailant was endeavoring to rise to his feet. a hasty glance around the room revealed a door partly hidden by a curtain next the mantelpiece. where it led to i did not know, but concluding that any place would be better than to remain in the library, i tried the door, found it open, and slipped out. "stop, stop!" roared mr. woodward. "stop, this instant!" but i did not stop. i found myself in the dining room, and at once put the long table between us. "don't you come any nearer," i called out sharply. "if you do, it may be at the cost of your life." as i spoke i picked up a fancy silver knife that lay on the table. it had a rough resemblance to a pocket pistol, and gave me the idea of palming it off as such. "would you shoot me?" cried the merchant, in sudden terror, as he saw what he supposed was the barrel of a revolver pointed at his head. "why shouldn't i?" was the reply. "you have no right to detain me." "i don't want to detain you. i only want to come to a settlement," he returned lamely. "and i want nothing more to do with you. i'll give you one minute to show me the way to the front door." "yes, but, strong--" "no more talk, if you please. do you intend to show me the way out, or shall i fire?" then mr. aaron woodward showed what a coward he really was. he gave a cry of horror and sank completely out of sight. "don't shoot, strong. i pray you, take care. i'll show you the way out, indeed i will!" "well, hurry about it. i don't intend to stand any more nonsense." "here, this way. please stop pointing that pistol at me; it might go off, you know." "then the sooner you show me the way out, the better for you," i returned coolly, inwardly amused at his sudden change of manner "this way, then. i--i trust you will keep this--this little meeting of ours a secret." "why should i?" "because it--it would do no good to have it made public." "i'll see about it," was my reply. by this time we had reached the front door, and with unwilling hands the merchant opened it. "now stand aside and let me pass," i commanded. "i will. but, strong--" "no more words are needed," i returned. "i have had enough of you, mr. aaron woodward. the next time you hear from me it will be in quite a different shape." "what do you mean?" he cried, in sudden alarm. "you will find out soon enough. in the meantime let me return your fancy knife. i have no further use for it." i tossed the article over. he looked at it and then at me. clearly he was mad enough to "chew me up." bidding him a mocking good night, i ran down the steps and hurried away. chapter xx at the prison mr. woodward's actions had aroused me as i had never been aroused before. my eyes were wide open at last. i realized that if i ever expected to gain our family rights i must fight for them--and fight unflinchingly to the bitter end. it was nearly ten o'clock when i reached the widow canby's house. i met my uncle enos on the porch. he had grown impatient, and was about to start for darbyville in search of me. in the dining room i told my story. all laughed heartily at the ruse i had played upon the merchant, but were indignant at the treatment i had received. "wish i'd been with you," remarked my uncle, with a vigorous shake of his head. "i'd a-smashed in his figurehead, keelhaul me if i wouldn't!" "what do you intend to do now?" asked kate. "let's see; to-day is friday. if you will take us to trenton to-morrow, uncle enos, i'll start for chicago on monday." "don't you think you had better have this woodward arrested first?" asked captain enos. "no; i would rather let him think that for the present i had dropped the whole matter. it may throw him off his guard and enable me to pick up more clews against him." "that's an idea. roger, you've got a level head on your shoulders, and we can't do any better than follow your advice," returned my uncle. i did but little sleeping that night. for a long time i lay awake thinking over my future actions. then when i did fall into a doze my rest was broken by dreams of the fire at the tool house and mr. woodward's attack. i was up at five o'clock in the morning, attending to the regular chores. i did not know who would do them during my absence, and as soon as the widow appeared i spoke to her on the subject. "your uncle mentioned the matter last night," said mrs. canby. "he said he would do all that was required until you came back. he doesn't want to remain idle all day, and thought the work would just suit him." this was kind of uncle enos, and i told him so when an hour later he appeared, dressed in his best, his trunk having arrived the evening before. "yes, roger, i'd rather do it than sit twirling my thumbs, a-waiting for you to come back," said he. "i used to do such work years ago, before i shipped on the anna siegel, and to do it again will make me feel like a boy once more. but come; let's go to mess and then hoist anchor and away." a few minutes later we were at breakfast. then i put on my good clothes and brought around the horse and carriage, for the widow canby insisted upon driving us down to newville by way of darbyville just to show folks, as she said, that she had not lost confidence in me. kate was in a flutter of excitement. she had wished to see my father every day since he had been taken away. as for myself, i was fully as impatient. my father was very dear to me, and every time i thought of him i prayed that god would place it within my power to clear his name from the stain that now rested upon him. we reached the station in newville five minutes before train time. my uncle procured our tickets and also checked the basket of delicacies the widow canby had prepared. "remember me to mr. strong," said the widow, as we boarded the train. "tell him i don't believe he's guilty, and perhaps other people in darbyville won't think so either before long." a moment later and we were off. kate and uncle enos occupied one seat, and i sat directly behind them. a ride of an hour followed, and finally, after crossing a number of other railroads, we rolled into a brick station, and the conductor sang out:-"trenton!" it was eleven o'clock when we crossed the wooden foot-bridge of the station and emerged upon the street. "we'll go to the prison at once," said my uncle. "perhaps it isn't 'visiting day,' as they call it, but i reckon i can fix it. sailors on shore have special privileges," he added with a laugh. "which way is it?" asked kate. "i don't know. we'll take a carriage and trust to the driver." he called a coach, and soon we were rolling off. finally the coach stopped, and the driver sprang from his box. "here you are, sir," he said, as he opened the door. i looked up at the big stone buildings before us. my father was behind those walls. i glanced at kate. the poor girl was in tears. "you had better stay on board here till i go in and take soundings," said captain enos. "i won't be gone long." jumping to the pavement, he walked up to the big open door and entered. "what a dreadful place!" said my sister, as she strained her eyes to catch sight of some prisoner. my uncle was gone not over ten minutes, yet the wait seemed an age. he returned with a brightened face. "i had hard work to get permission, but we are to have half an hour's talk with your father under the supervision of a deputy," he explained. in another moment we were inside. we walked along a wide corridor and into an office, and then a short, stout man, mr. carr, the deputy, joined us. "this way, please," he said, and gave a kindly glance at kate and myself. "you will have to leave the basket here. i will see that it reaches the--the--your father." he led the way. how my heart beat! why, i cannot tell. "i'll go in first," said my uncle enos. we entered a room. in a moment the deputy brought in a man dressed in striped clothing, and with his hair cut close. it was my father. my uncle and i rushed forward. but we were too late. with a cry kate was in his arms. it was a great moment all around. "my children! my katie and my roger!" was all my father could say, but the words went straight home. "i am heartily glad that you are back," he said then to my uncle. "you will look after them, enos, until i am free." "indeed i will," replied captain enos, heartily. "but you must listen to roger. he has a long story to tell." "then tell it. i am dying to hear news from home." we sat down, and i told my story. perhaps the deputy ought not to have allowed me to say all i did, but he pretended not to hear. my father listened with keen attention to every word, and as i went on, his eyes grew brighter and brighter. "roger, my faithful boy, you almost make me hope for freedom," he cried. "oh, how i long to be set right before the world!" "god make it so," put in my uncle, solemnly. "to suffer unjustly is terrible." then i told of my interview with mr. woodward in his library and of holtzmann. "holtzmann was one of the principal witnesses against me," said my father. "so was nicholas weaver, who managed the brooklyn business for holland & mack. who john stumpy can be i do not know. perhaps i would if i saw him face to face. there was another man--he was quite bald, with a red blotch on the front of his hand--who was brought forward by woodward to prove that he had nothing to do with the presentation of the forged checks and notes, but what his name was i have forgotten." "this can't be the man, for he has a heavy head of hair," i replied. "but i am sure stumpy is not his true name." "probably not. well, roger, do your best, not only for me but for katie's sake and your own." then the conversation became general, and all too soon the half hour was at an end. my father sent his regards to mrs. canby, with many thanks for the basket of delicacies, and then with a kiss for kate and a shake of the hand to uncle enos and me, we parted. little was said on the way back. no one cared to go to a restaurant, and we took the first train homeward. it was dark when we reached newville. the widow canby's carriage was at the depot waiting for us. "suppose i get my ticket for chicago now," said i. "it will save time monday, and i can find out all about the train." "a good idea," returned my uncle. "i'll go with you." so while kate joined mrs. canby we entered the depot. the ticket was soon in my possession, and then i asked the ticket seller a number of questions concerning the route and the time i would reach my destination. suddenly instinct prompted me to turn quickly. i did so and found john stumpy at my shoulder. chapter xxi a midnight adventure mr. john stumpy had evidently been watching my proceedings closely, for when i turned to him he was quite startled. however, it did not take him long to recover, and then, bracing up, he hurried away without a word. he was now neatly dressed and had had his face shaved. i conjectured that mr. woodward had advised this change in order to more fully carry out the deception in relation to the tramp's real character. "there's that stumpy," i whispered to captain enos, as i pointed my finger at the man. "he has been watching us." "how do you know?" asked my uncle. "because he was just looking over my shoulder," i replied. "shall i speak to him? i'd like to know what he intends to do next." "it won't do any good. it ain't likely he'd tell you anything, and if he did, it wouldn't be the truth." "maybe it might." "well, do as you think best, roger, only don't be too long--the widow and kate are waiting, you know." pushing through the crowd, i tapped stumpy on the shoulder. he looked around in assumed surprise. "hullo!" he exclaimed sharply. "what do you want?" "nothing much," i returned. "i just saw you were greatly interested in what i was doing." "why, i didn't see you before." "you were just looking over my shoulder." "you're mistaken, young man, just as you are in several other things." "i'm not mistaken in several other things." "what do you intend to do?" he asked curiously. "that's my business." "where have you been?" "that is my business also." "strong, you're a fool," he whispered. "do you think you can hurt men like mr. woodward and myself?" "i can bring you to justice." "bah! i suppose you think you can do wonders by going to chicago." "how do you know i am going to chicago?" i questioned quickly. stumpy's face fell, as he realized the slip he had made. "never mind. but you won't gain anything," he went on. "better stay home and save your money." and to avoid further talk he pushed his way through the crowd and was lost to sight. a moment later i joined the others in the carriage. while driving home i related the conversation recorded above. "it's too bad he found out you were going to chicago," said my uncle. "he may try to stop you." "i'll keep my eyes open," i replied. the remainder of the day was spent in active work around the widow's place. not only did i labor all the afternoon, but far into the evening as well, to show that i did not intend to shirk my duty even though i was going away. besides, mrs. canby had treated me so well that i was almost willing to work my fingers to the bone to serve her. the following day was sunday. kate and i were in the habit of attending church and sunday-school over in darbyville, but we shrank from doing so now. but uncle enos and i went to church, and despite the many curious eyes levelled at me, i managed to give attention to an excellent sermon. i noticed that the woodward pew was empty, but then this was of common occurrence and excited no comment. on sunday evening my handbag stood in my room packed, ready for my departure. dick blair came over to see me and brought strange and sad news. duncan woodward and pultzer, his intimate crony, had gotten into a row in a pool room down in newville and were both under arrest. mr. woodward and mr. pultzer had gone off to get their sons out of jail. dick did not know how the row had started, but had heard that the young men had been drinking heavily. i was much shocked at the news, and so were the others. if affairs kept on like this, mr. aaron woodward would certainly have his hands full. i retired early so as to be on hand the next day. sleep was out of the question. i had never been a hundred miles away from darbyville, and the prospect of leaving filled me with excitement. i was up long before it was necessary, but found kate ahead of me. "you're going to have a good, hot breakfast before you go," she said. "sit right down. it's all ready." presently, as i was eating, my uncle and mrs. canby joined me. they were full of advice as to what to do and what to avoid, and i listened to all they had to say attentively. but all things must come to an end, and at length breakfast was over. my uncle enos and kate drove me to newville, and waited till the train rolled in. "good-by, roger," said kate. "please, please, now do keep out of trouble." "i will, kate," i returned, and kissed her. then i shook hands with my uncle. "keep a clear weather eye and a strong hand at the wheel, roger, my boy," he said, "and you'll make port all safe." "i'll try, uncle enos." a moment more and i was on the cars. then with an "all aboard" the conductor gave the signal, and the train moved off. i passed into the car and took a vacant seat near the centre. i had hardly sat down before a well-dressed stranger took the seat beside me. "hot day," said he, after he had arranged his bag on the floor beside my own. "yes, it is," i replied, "and dry, too." "meanest part of the country i've struck yet," he went on. "don't have any such climate as this out west." "i should think that would depend on where you come from," i returned, with a short laugh. "i hail from chicago. it's hot there, but we get plenty of breeze from the lakes." i looked at the man with some attention. he came from the city i intended to visit, and perhaps he might give me some information. he was a burly man of middle age, and, as i have said, well dressed, though a trifle loud. his hair was black, as was also his mustache, which he continually kept smoothing down with one hand. i did not like his looks particularly, nor his tone of voice. they reminded me strongly of some one, but whom i could not remember. "you come from chicago," i said. "i am going there." "is that so? then we can travel together. i like to have some one going along, don't you?" i felt like saying that that would depend on who the some one was, but thinking this would hardly be polite, i returned:-"i don't know. i've never travelled before." "no? well, it's fun at first, but you soon get tired of it. my name is allen price; what is yours?" "roger strong." "glad to meet you." he extended his hand. "you're rather young to be travelling alone--that is, going a distance. do you smoke? we'll go into the smoker and take it easy. i have some prime cigars." "thank you, i don't smoke." "that's too bad. nothing like a good cigar to quiet a man's nerves when he's riding. so you're going to chicago? on a visit?" "no, sir; on business." "yes? rather young for business--excuse me for saying so." "it is a personal business." "oh, i see. going to claim a dead uncle's property or something like that, i suppose. ha! ha! well, i wish you luck." mr. allen price rattled on in this fashion for some time, and at length i grew interested in the man in spite of myself. i was positive i had seen him before, but where i could not tell. i asked him if he had ever been to darbyville. "never heard of the place," he replied. "only been in jersey a month, and that time was spent principally in jersey city and camden. i'm in the pottery business. our principal office is in chicago." "do you know much about that city?" "lived there all my life." i was on the point of asking him about holtzmann, but on second thought decided to remain silent. on and on sped the train, making but few stops. there was a dining-car attached but i was travelling on a cheap scale, and made my dinner and supper from the generous lunch the widow had provided. mr. price went to the dining-car and also the smoker. he returned about nine o'clock in the evening, just as i was falling into a light doze. "thought i'd get a sleeper," he explained. "but they are all full, so i'll have to snooze beside you here." his breath smelt strongly of liquor, but i had no right to object, and he dropped heavily into the seat. presently i went sound asleep. how long i slept i do not know. when i awoke it was with a sharp, stinging sensation in the head. a pungent odor filled my nose, the scent coming from a handkerchief some one had thrown over my face. with a gasp i pulled the handkerchief aside and sat up. beside me sat mr. allen price with my handbag on his lap. he had a number of keys in his hand and was trying to unlock the bag. chapter xxii a telegram i was startled and indignant when i discovered mr. allen price with my handbag, trying to open it. it looked very much as if my fellow-passenger was endeavoring to rob me. i had suspected from the start that this man was not "straight." there was that peculiar something about his manner which i did not like. he had been altogether too familiar from the first; too willing to make himself agreeable. what he expected to find in my bag i could not imagine. if his mission was robbery pure and simple, why had he not selected some one who looked richer than myself? there was, i am certain, nothing about me to make him believe i had anything of great value in the bag. "what are you doing with my valise?" i demanded as i straightened up. my sudden question made the man almost jump to his feet. the bag dropped from his lap to the floor, and the keys in his hand jingled after it. "i--i--didn't think you were awake," he stammered. "you didn't?" i repeated, puzzled as to what to say. "no--i--i--" "you were trying to open my bag." "so i was--but it's all a mistake, i assure you." "a mistake?" "quite a mistake, strong." he cleared his throat. "the fact is, i'm suffering so from the toothache that i'm hardly able to judge of what i'm doing. i thought your bag was my own." "they are not much alike," i returned bluntly. "well, you see mine is a new one, and i'm not used to it yet. i hope you don't think i was trying to rob you?" he went on, with a look of reproach. i was silent. i did think that that was just what he was trying to do, but i hardly cared to say so. "it's awful to have such toothaches as i get," he continued, putting his hand to his cheek. "they come on me unawares, and drive me frantic. i wanted to get my teeth attended to in jersey city when i was there, but i didn't have time." "what's this on the handkerchief?" i asked. "oh, i guess i spilled some of my toothache cure on it," he replied, after some hesitation. "i used some and then put the bottle back in the valise. that's how i came to look for the bottle again. i hope you're not offended. it was all a mistake." "it's all right if that's the case," i returned coolly. holding my valise on my lap, i settled back in the seat again, but not to sleep. the little adventure had aroused me thoroughly. mr. allen price sat beside me for a few moments in silence. "guess i'll go into the smoker," he said finally, as he rose. "maybe a cigar will help me," and taking up his handbag, he walked down the aisle. in a dreamy way i meditated over what had occurred. i could not help but think that the handkerchief i had found spread over my face had been saturated with chloroform, and that my fellow-passenger had endeavored to put me in a sound sleep and then rifle my bag. of course i might be mistaken, but still i was positive that mr. allen price would bear watching. about four o'clock in the morning the train came to a sudden stop. the jar was so pronounced that it woke nearly all of the passengers. thinking that possibly we had arrived at our destination, i raised the window and peered out. instead of being in the heart of a city, however, i soon discovered we were in a belt of timber land. huge trees lined the road on both sides, and ahead i could hear the flowing of a mountain stream. the train hands were out with their lanterns, and by their movements it was plain to see that something was up. i waited in my seat for ten minutes or more, and then as a number of passengers left the car, i took up my bag and did the same. a walk to the front of the train soon made known the cause of the delay. over a small mountain stream a strong wooden bridge with iron frame had been built. near the bridge grew a number of tall trees, and one of these had been washed loose by the water and overturned in such a manner that the largest branch blocked the progress of the locomotive. the strong headlight had revealed the state of affairs to the engineer, and he had stopped within five feet of the obstruction. had he run on, it is impossible to calculate what amount of damage might have been done. "don't see what we are going to do, except to run back to smalleyville," said the engineer, who was in consultation with the conductor. "can't we roll the tree out of the way?" asked the latter official. the engineer shook his head. "too heavy. all the men on the train couldn't budge it." they stood in silence for a moment. "if you had a rope, you could make the engine haul it," i suggested to the fireman, who was a young fellow. "a good idea," he exclaimed, and reported it to his superior. "first-class plan; but we haven't got the rope," said the engineer. "have you got an axe?" "yes." "then why not chop it off?" "that's so! larry, bring the axes." "it won't do any good," said one of the brakemen who had just come up. "the bridge has shifted." an examination proved his assertion to be correct. as soon as this became known, a danger light was hung at either end of the structure, and then we started running backward to smalleyville. "how long will this delay us?" i asked of the conductor as he came through, explaining matters. "i can't tell. perhaps only a few hours, perhaps more. it depends on how soon the wrecking gang arrive on the spot. as soon as they get there, they will go right to work, and it won't take them long to fix matters up." smalleyville proved to be a small town of not over five hundred inhabitants. there was quite an excitement around the depot when the train came in, and despatches were sent in various directions. presently a shower came up, and this drove the passengers to the cars and the station. i got aboard the train at first to listen to what the train hands might have to say. i found one of the brakemen quite a friendly fellow, and willing to talk. "this rain will make matters worse," said he. "that tree was leaning against the bridge for all it was worth, and if it loosens any more it will carry the thing away clean." "isn't there danger of trains coming from the other way?" "not now. we've telegraphed to chicago, and no train will leave till everything is in running order." "when does the next train arrive behind us?" "at 9.30 this morning." we chatted for quite a while. then there was a commotion on the platform, and we found that part of the wrecking gang had arrived on a hand-car. they brought with them a great lot of tools, and soon a flat car with a hoisting machine was run out of a shed, and they were off. by this time it was raining in torrents, and the station platform was deserted. not caring to get wet, i again took my seat in the car, and presently fell asleep. when i awoke i found it was six o'clock. the rain still fell steadily, without signs of abating. i was decidedly hungry, and buttoning my coat up tightly about my neck, i sallied forth in search of a restaurant. i found one within a block of the depot, and entering, i called for some coffee and muffins--first, however, assuring myself that my train was not likely to leave for fully an hour. while busy with what the waiter had brought, i saw mr. allen price enter. luckily the table i sat at was full, and he was compelled to take a seat some distance from me. "good morning, my young friend," said he, as he stopped for an instant in front of me. i was surprised at his pleasant manner. he acted as if nothing had ever happened to bring up a coolness between us. "good morning," i replied briefly. "terrible rain, this, isn't it?" "it is." "my toothache's much better," he went on, "and i feel like myself once more. funny i mistook your valise for mine, last night, wasn't it?" "i don't know," i replied flatly. i returned to my breakfast, and, seeing i would not converse further, the man passed on and sat down. but i felt that his eyes were on me, and instinctively i made up my mind to be on my guard. as i was about to leave the place, several more passengers came in, and by what they said i learned that the train would not start for chicago till noon, the bridge being so badly damaged that the road engineer would not let anything cross until it was propped up. not caring to go back to the train, i entered the waiting-room and took in all there was to be seen. at one end of the place was a news stand, and i walked up to this to look at the picture papers that were displayed. i was deeply interested in a cartoon on the middle pages of an illustrated paper when i heard mr. price's voice asking for some chicago daily, and then making inquiries as to where the telegraph once was located. he did not see me, and i at once stepped out of sight behind him. having received his directions, mr. price sat down to write out his telegram. evidently what he wrote did not satisfy him, for he tore up several slips of paper before he managed to prepare one that suited him. then he arose, and throwing the scraps in a wad on the floor, walked away. unobserved, i picked up the wad. right or wrong, i was bound to see what it contained. perhaps it might be of no earthly interest to me; on the other hand, it might contain much i would desire to know. strange things had happened lately, and i was prepared for all sorts of surprises. a number of the slips of paper were missing and the remainder were so crumpled that the pencil marks were nearly illegible. at length i managed to fit one of the sheets together and then read these words:- c. hholtzmann, chicago: look out for a young man claiming to-chapter xxiii in chicago i had not been mistaken in my opinion of mr. allen price. he was following me, and doing it with no good intention. i concluded the man must be employed by mr. woodward. perhaps i had seen him at some time in darbyville, and so thought his face familiar. i was glad that if he was a detective i was aware of the fact. i would now know how to trust him, and i made up my mind that if he got the best of me it would be my own fault. one thing struck me quite forcibly. the merchant and john stumpy both considered my proposed visit to chris holtzmann of importance. they would not have put themselves to the trouble and expense of hiring some one to follow me if this was not so. though mr. aaron woodward was rich, he was close, and did not spend an extra dollar except upon himself. i was chagrined at the thought that holtzmann would be prepared to receive me. i had hoped to come upon him unawares, and get into his confidence before he could realize what i was after. i began to wonder when the telegram would reach chicago. perhaps something by good fortune might delay it. mr. allen price walked over to the telegraph office, and following him with my eyes i saw him pay for the message and then stroll away. hardly had he gone before i too stepped up to the counter. "how long will it take to send a message to chicago?" i asked of the clerk in charge. "probably till noon," was the reply. "the storm has crippled us, and we are having trouble with our lineman." "it won't go before noon!" i repeated, and my heart gave a bound. "are you sure?" "yes; perhaps even longer." "how about the message that gentleman just handed in?" "i told him i would send it as soon as possible," "did you tell him it wouldn't go before noon?" "no; he didn't ask," returned the clerk, coolly. he was evidently not going to let any business slip if he could help it. "is there any possible way i can get to chicago before noon?" i went on. the clerk shook his head. "i don't think there is," he replied. "what is the nearest station on the other side of the bridge?" "foley." "and how far is that from chicago?" "twelve miles." "thank you." i walked away from the counter filled with a sudden resolve. i must reach chicago before the telegram or mr. allen price. if i did not, my trip to the city of the lakes would be a failure. how was the thing to be accomplished? walking out on the covered platform, out of sight of the man who was following me, i tried to solve the problem. smalleyville was a good ten miles from the misplaced bridge, and in a soaking rain such a distance was too far to walk. perhaps i might get a carriage to take me to the spot. i supposed the cost would be several dollars, but decided not to stand on that amount. i had about made up my mind to hunt up a livery stable, when some workingmen rolled up to the station on a hand-car. "where are you going?" i inquired of one of them. "down to the foley bridge," was the reply, "will you take a passenger?" i went on quickly. "you'll have to ask the boss." the boss proved to be a jolly german. "vont ter haf a ride, does you!" he laughed. "i'm not over particular about the ride," i explained. "i've got to get to chicago as soon as possible, even if i have to walk." "vell, jump on, den." i did so, and a moment later we were off. i was pretty confident that mr. allen price had not witnessed my departure, and i hoped he would not find it out for some hours to come. the rain had now slackened, so there was no further danger of getting soaked to the skin. there were four men on the car besides the boss, and seeing they were short a hand i took hold with a will. fortunately the grade was downward, and we had but little difficulty in sending the car on its way. at the end of half an hour the stream came in sight, and then as we slackened up i hopped off. down by the water's edge i found that the bridge had shifted fully six inches out of line with the roadbed. it was, however, in a pretty safe condition, and i had no difficulty in crossing to the other side. despite the storm a goodly number of men were assembled on the opposite bank, anxiously watching the efforts of the workmen. among them i found a man, evidently a cabman, standing near a coupe, the horses of which were still smoking from a long run. "are you from foley?" i asked, stepping up. "no; just come all the way from chicago," was the reply. "had to bring two men down that wanted to get to smalleyville." this was interesting news. perhaps i could get the man to take me back with him. of course he would take me if i hired him in the regular way, but if i did this, i was certain he would charge me a small fortune. "i am going to chicago," i said. "i just came from smalleyville." "that so? want to hire my rig?" "you charge too much," i returned. "a fellow like me can't afford luxuries." "take you there for two dollars. it's worth five--those two men gave me ten." "what time will you land me in chicago?" "where do you want to go?" that question was a poser. i knew no more of the city of chicago than i did of paris or pekin. yet i did not wish to be set down on the outskirts, and not to show my ignorance i answered cautiously:-"to the railroad depot." "have you the time now?" "it is about seven o'clock." "i'll be there by nine." "all right. land me there by that time, and i'll pay you the two dollars." "it's a go. jump in," he declared. i did so. a moment later he gathered up the reins, and we went whirling down the road. the ride was an easy one, and as we bowled along i had ample opportunity to ponder over my situation. i wondered what mr. allen price would think when he discovered i was nowhere to be found. i could well imagine his chagrin, and i could not help smiling at the way i had outwitted him. i was not certain what sort of a man chris holtzmann would prove to be, and therefore it was utterly useless to plan a means of approaching him. at length we reached the suburbs of chicago, and rolled down one of the broad avenues. it was now clear and bright, and the clean broad street with its handsome houses pleased me very much. in half an hour we reached the business portion of the city, and soon the coupe came to a halt and the driver opened the door. "here we are," said he. i jumped to the ground and gazed around. opposite was the railroad station, true enough, and beyond blocks and blocks of tall business buildings, which reminded me strongly of new york. i paid the cabman the two dollars i had promised, and he drove off. in chicago at last! i looked around. i was in the heart of a great city, knowing no one, and with no idea of where to go. yet my heart did not fail me. my mind was too full of the object of my quest to allow me to become faint-hearted. i was there for a purpose, and that purpose must be accomplished. my clothes were still damp, but the sunshine was fast drying them. near by was a bootblack's chair, and dropping into this, i had him polish my shoes and brush me up generally. while he was performing the operation i questioned him concerning the streets and gained considerable information. "did you ever hear of a man by the name of chris holtzmann?" i asked. "i dunno," was the slow reply. "what does he do?" "i don't know what business he is in. he came from brooklyn." the bootblack shook his head. "this city is a big place. there might be a dozen men by his name here. the street what you spoke about has lots of saloons and theatres on it. maybe he's in that business." "maybe he is," i returned. "i must find out somehow." "you can look him up in the directory. you'll find one over in the drug store on the corner." "thank you; i guess that's what i'll do," i replied. when he had finished, i paid him ten cents for his work, and walked over to the place he had mentioned. a polite clerk waited on me and pointed out the directory lying on a stand. i looked it over carefully, and three minutes later walked out with chris holtzmann's new address in my pocket. as i did so, i saw a stream of people issue from the depot. some of them looked familiar. was it possible that the train from smalleyville had managed to come through, after all? it certainly looked like it. i was not kept long in doubt. i crossed over to make sure, and an instant later found myself face to face with allen price! chapter xxiv who mr. allen price was i will not deny that i was considerably taken aback by my unexpected meeting with the man who had been following me. i had been firmly under the impression that he was still lolling around smalleyville, waiting for a chance to continue his journey. but if i was surprised, so was mr. allen price. every indication showed that he had not missed me at my departure, and that he was under the belief that i had been left behind. he stopped short and gazed at me in blank astonishment. "why--why--where did you come from?" he stammered. "from smalleyville," i returned as coolly as i could. "and that's where you came from, too," i added. "i didn't see you on the train," he went on, ignoring my last remark. "i didn't come up by train." "maybe you walked," he went on, with some anxiety. "oh no; i rode in a carriage." "humph! it seems to me you must have been in a tremendous hurry." "perhaps i was." "why, you excite my curiosity. may i ask the cause of your sudden impatience?" he put the question in an apparently careless fashion, but his sharp eyes betrayed his keen interest. "you may." "and what, was it?" i looked at him for a moment in silence. "i came to see a man." "ah! a friend? perhaps he is seriously sick." "i don't know if he is sick or not." "and yet you hurried to see him?" "yes." "well, that--that is out of the ordinary." he hesitated for a moment. "of course it is none of my business, but i am interested. perhaps i know the party and can help you. may i ask his name?" "it's the same man you telegraphed to," i returned. mr. allen price stopped short and nearly dropped his handbag. my unexpected reply had taken the "wind out of his sails." "i telegraphed to?" he repeated. "exactly." "but--but i telegraphed to no one." "yes, you did." "why, my dear young friend, you are mistaken." "i'm not your dear friend," i returned with spirit. "you telegraphed to chris holtzmann to beware of me. why did you do it?" the man's face fell considerably, and he did not answer. i went on:-"you are following me and trying to defeat the object of my trip to chicago. but you shall not do it. you pretend to be an ordinary traveller, but you are nothing more than a spy sent on by mr. aaron woodward to stop me. but i have found you out, and now you can go back to him and tell him that his little plan didn't work." the man's brow grew black with anger. he was very angry, and i could see that it was with difficulty he kept his hands off me. "think you're smart, don't you?" he sneered. "i was too smart for you." "but you don't know it all," he went on. "you don't know it all--not by a jugful." "i know enough to steer clear of you." "maybe you do." the man evidently did not know what to say, and as a matter of fact, neither did i. i had told him some plain truths, and now i was anxious to get away from him and think out my future course of action. "what's your idea of calling on chris holtzmann?" he went an after a long pause. "that's my business." "it won't do you any good." "perhaps it may." "i know it won't," he replied in decided tones. "what do you know about it?" i said sharply. "a moment ago you denied knowing anything about me. now i've done with you, and i want you to leave me alone." "you needn't get mad about it." "i'll do as i please." "no, you won't," he growled. "if you don't do as i want you to, i'll have you arrested." this was strong language, and i hardly knew what to say in reply. not that i was frightened by his threat, but what made the man take such a strong personal interest in the matter? as i have said, i was almost certain i had seen the fellow before, though where and when was more than i could determine. perhaps he was disguised. "perhaps you don't think i know who you are," i said quickly. my words were a perfect shock to mr. allen price. in spite of his bronzed face he turned pale. "you know who i am? why, i am as i tell you,--allen price," he faltered. "really," i replied, with assumed sarcasm. "yes, really." "i know better," i returned boldly. i was hardly prepared for what was to follow. the man caught me by the arm. "then what you know shall cost you dear," he cried. "i'm not to be outwitted by a country boy. help! police! police!" as he uttered his call for assistance he let drop his handbag and drew his purse from his pocket. "i've got you, you young thief!" he cried, letting the purse fall to the sidewalk. "you didn't think to be caught as easily, did you? help! po--oh, officer, i'm glad you've come!" the last to a policeman who had just hurried to the scene. "what's the matter here?" demanded the minion of the law. "i just caught this young fellow picking my pocket," exclaimed mr. allen. "where's my pocketbook?" "there's a pocketbook on the sidewalk," put in a man in the crowd that had quickly gathered. "so it is." he picked it up. "you rascal! you thought to get away in fine style, didn't you?" he continued to me. for a moment i was too stunned to speak. the un-looked-for turn of affairs took away my breath. "i didn't pick his pocket," i burst out. "yes, you did." "it isn't so. he's a swindler and is trying to get me into trouble." "here! here! none of that!" broke in the officer. "tell me your story," he said to mr. allen price. "i was coming along looking in the shop windows," began my accuser, "when i felt a hand in my pocket. i turned quickly and just in time to catch this fellow trying to make off with my pocketbook." "it is a falsehood, every word of it," i declared. "shut up!" said the officer, sternly. "please go on." "he is evidently a smart thief," continued mr. allen price. "i must see if i have lost anything else." he began a pretended examination of his clothes. in the meantime the crowd began to grow larger and larger. "we can't stay here all day," said the policeman, roughly. "what have you got to say to the charge?" "i say it isn't true," i replied. "this man is a humbug. he is following me for a purpose, and is trying to get me into trouble." "ridiculous!" cried my accuser. "why, i never heard of such a thing before!" "that story won't wash," said the officer to me. "do you make a charge?" he continued to mr. allen price. my accuser hesitated. "i will, if it is not necessary for me to go along," he said. "i am pressed for time. my name is sylvester manners. i am a partner in the manners clothing company. you know the firm, i presume." "oh, yes, sir," replied the officer. he knew the manners clothing company to be a rich concern. "i will stop at the station house to-morrow morning and make a complaint," continued mr. allen price. "don't let the young rascal escape." "no fear, sir. come on!" the last to me. "i've done no wrong. i want that man arrested!" i cried. "he is no more a merchant here in chicago than i am. he--" but the officer would not listen. he took a strong hold upon my collar and began to march me off. mr. allen price walked beside us until we reached the corner. "i will leave you here, officer," he said. "i'll be down in the morning, sure. as for you," he continued to me, "i trust you will soon see the error of your ways and try to mend them, and--" he continued in a whisper, as the officer's attention was distracted for a moment, "never try to outwit john stumpy again!" chapter xxv an exciting adventure mr. allen price and john stumpy were one and the same person! for a moment so great was my surprise that i forgot i was under arrest, and walked on beside the officer without a protest. now that i knew the truth it was easy to trace the resemblance, and i blamed myself greatly for not having discovered it when we first met. of a certainty the man was bent upon frustrating my plans, partly for his own safety, and more so upon mr. aaron woodward's account. no doubt the merchant was paying him well for his work, and john stumpy intended to do all he could to crush me. but i was not to be crushed. the forces brought against me only made my will stronger to go ahead. it was do or die, and that was all there was to it. i could easily understand why john stumpy wished to obtain possession of my handbag. in it he hoped to find the papers mr. woodward had lost and nicholas weaver's confession. i could not help but smile at the thought that, notwithstanding all i had said to the contrary, the two plotters still believed i had the lost documents. one thing perplexed me. why was my visit to chris holtzmann considered of such importance that every possible means was taken to prevent it? did this man possess the entire key to the situation? and were they afraid he could be bought up or threatened into a confession? it looked so. "you are not from chicago, young fellow?" said the policeman who had me in charge. "no; i'm from the east." "humph! got taken in short, didn't you?" "i'm not guilty of any crime," i returned, "and you'll find it out when it comes to the examination." "i'll chance it," replied the officer, grimly. "that man is a fraud. if you call on the manners clothing company, you will find it so." "that's not part of my duty. i'll take you to the station house, and you can tell the judge your story," replied the policeman. yet i could see by the way his brow contracted that my assertion had had its effect upon him. probably had he given the matter proper thought in the first place, he would have compelled john stumpy to accompany him. still, this did me no good. here i was being taken to the jail while the man who should have been under arrest was free. i would probably have to remain in confinement until the following morning, and in the meantime john stumpy could call on chris holtzmann and arrange plans to suit himself. this would never do, as it would defeat the whole object of my trip west, and send me home to be laughed at by mr. aaron woodward and duncan. "can i ask for an examination at once?" i inquired. "maybe; if the judge is there." "and if he isn't?" "you'll have to wait till to-morrow morning. you see it isn't--hello! thunder and lightning! what's that?" as the officer uttered the exclamation there was a wild cry on the streets, and the next instant the crowds of people scattered in every direction. and no wonder, for down the pavement came an infuriated bull, charging everybody and everything before him. the animal had evidently broken away from a herd that was being driven to the stock-yards, and his nose, where the ring was fastened, was torn and covered with blood, and he breathed hard, as if he had run a great distance. "it's a mad bull!" i cried. "take care, or he'll horn both of us!" my words of caution were unnecessary, for no sooner had the bull turned in our direction than the officer let go his hold upon me and fled into a doorway near at hand. for an instant i was on the point of following him. then came the sudden thought that now would be a good chance to escape. to think was to act. no sooner had the policeman jumped into the doorway than i dodged through the crowd and hurried across the street. reaching the opposite side, i ran into an alley. it was long and led directly into the back garden of a handsome stone mansion. the garden was filled with beautiful flowers and plants, and in the centre a tiny fountain sent a thin spray into the air. at one side, under a small arbor, stood a garden bench, and on this sat a little girl playing with a number of dolls. her golden hair hung heavy over her shoulders, and she looked supremely happy. she greeted my entrance with a smile, and took me at once into her confidence. "this is my new dolly," she explained, holding the article up. "is it?" i asked, hardly knowing what to say. "yes; papa bringed it home yesterday. does oo like dollies?" "oh, yes, nice ones like that. you must have lots of fun. i--" i did not finish the sentence. there was a noise in the alley, and the next instant the mad bull came crashing into the garden! for a second i was too surprised to move or speak. the little girl uttered a piercing scream, and gathering her dolls in her arms huddled into a corner of the bench. why the animal had followed so closely behind me i could not tell, but once in the garden, it was plain to see he was bent upon doing considerable damage. he was more enraged than ever, and scattered the sodding about in every direction. at first some red flowers attracted his attention, and he charged upon these with a fury that wrecked the entire flower-bed in which they were standing. while the bull was at this work i partly recovered my senses, and then the first thought that came to my mind was the necessity of getting the little girl to a place of safety. let the bull once get at her, and her life might pay the penalty. i was not many feet away from the little miss, and a few bounds took me to her side. "come, let me take you into the house," i said, and picked her up. she made no reply, but continued to scream and clung to me with all the strength of her little arms. there was a back piazza to the mansion five or six steps high. i knew that if we once reached this we would be safe, for no matter what the bull might do, he could not climb. "oh, millie, my child!" came s voice from the house, and i saw a lady at one of the windows. "oh, save her! bring her here!" she cried, as she caught sight of the bull. i uttered no reply, but sprang toward the steps. but though i wasted no time, the bull was too quick for me. springing over the flower-bed, he planted himself directly in my path. it made my blood run cold to have him face me with that vicious look and those glaring eyes. one prod of those horns and all would be over. "oh, save millie! save my child!" the lady had opened the door and now came running out upon the piazza. "i will if i can!" i returned. "don't come down here. he'll tear you all to pieces!" even as i spoke the bull made a plunge for me. i darted to one side and sprang over to the edge of the piazza corner. "give her to me! hand her up!" exclaimed the lady, as she rushed over, and as i held the little one on my shoulder, the lady drew her up and clasped the child, dolls and all, to her breast. hardly had i got rid of my charge than the bull came for me again. the trick i had played on him only served to increase his rage, and he snorted loudly. i was in a bad fix. between the piazza and the next-door fence was a distance of but ten feet, and behind me was the solid stone wall of the house. escape on any side was impossible. had i had time i might have climbed up to the piazza, but now this was not to be thought of, and another means of getting out of danger must be instantly devised. "oh, he will be killed!" cried the lady, in horror. "help! help!" i glanced around for some weapon with which to defend myself. i had nothing with me. even my valise lay at the other end of the garden, where i had dropped it when the animal first made his appearance. as i said, i looked around, and behind me found a heavy spade the gardener had at one time or another used for digging post holes. it was a strong and sharp implement, and i took it up with a good deal of satisfaction. the bull charged on me with fury. as he did so, i took the spade and held it on a level with my waist, resting the butt end on the wall behind me. the next instant there was a terrific crash that made me sick from head to foot. with all his force the bull had sprung forward, only to receive the sharp end of the spade straight between his eyes. the blow was as if it had been delivered by an axe. it made a frightful cut, and the blood rushed forth in a torrent. with a mad cry of pain the bull backed out. at first i thought he was going to charge me again, but evidently the blow was too much for him, for with several moans he turned, and with his head hanging down, he staggered across the garden to the alley and disappeared. chapter xxvi sammy simpson i gave a sigh of relief when the bull was gone. the encounter with the mad animal had been no laughing matter. i had once heard of a man being gored to death by just such an infuriated creature, and i considered that i had had a narrow escape. i put my hand to my forehead and found the cold sweat standing out upon it. taking my handkerchief, i mopped it away. "are you hurt?" inquired the lady, with great solicitation. "no, ma'am," i replied. "but it was a close shave!" "indeed it was. and you saved my millie's life! how can i thank you!" "i didn't do so much. i guess she's scared a good bit." "she hardly realized the danger, dear child. did you, millie, my pet?" "the bad cow wanted to eat up my dollies!" exclaimed the little miss, with a grave shake of the head. "but oo helped me," she added, to me. "i'm glad i was here," i returned. "may i ask how you happened to come in?" continued the lady. in a few words i told my story. i had hardly finished when the back door opened and a gentleman stepped out. "what is the trouble here?" he asked anxiously. "i just heard that a mad bull had run into the garden." "so he did, james; a savage monster indeed. this young man just beat him off and saved millie's life." "hardly that," i put in modestly. i did not want more praise than i was justly entitled to receive. "indeed, but he did. see the spade covered with blood? had he not hit the animal over the head with that, something dreadful would have happened." "i didn't hit him exactly," i laughed. "i held it up and he ran against it," and once more i told my story. "you have done us a great service, young man," said the gentleman when i had concluded. "i was once in the butcher business myself,--in fact, i am in it yet, but only in the export trade,--and i know full well how dangerous bulls can get. had it not been for you my little girl might have been torn to pieces. one of her dolls is dressed in red, and this would have attracted the bull's immediate attention. i thank you deeply." he grasped my hand warmly. "may i ask your name?" "roger strong, sir." "my name is harrison--james harrison. you live here in chicago, i suppose?" "no, sir, i come from darbyville, new jersey." "darbyville?" he thought a moment. "i never heard of such a town." "it is only a small place several miles from new york. i came to chicago on business. i arrived about half an hour ago." "really? your introduction into our city has been rather an exciting one." "i've had other adventures fully as exciting in the past few days," i returned. "yes?" and mr. harrison eyed me curiously. "yes. our train was delayed, i almost had my handbag stolen, and i've been arrested as a thief." "and all in a half an hour?" the gentleman and his wife both looked incredulous. "no, sir; since i've left home." "i should like to hear your story--that is, if you care to tell it." "i will tell you the whole thing if you care to listen," i returned, reflecting that my newly made friend might give me some material assistance in my quest. "then come into the house." "i'd better shut the alley gate first," said i, and running down i did so, and picked up my handbag as well. mr. harrison led the way inside. i could not help but note the rich furnishings of the place--the soft carpets, artistically papered walls, the costly pictures and bric-a-brac, all telling of wealth. mrs. harrison and the little girl had disappeared up the stairs. mr. harrison ushered me into his library and motioned me to a seat. i hardly knew how to begin my story. to show how john stumpy had had me arrested, it would be necessary to go back to affairs at darbyville, and this i hesitated about doing. "if you have time i would like to tell you about my affairs before i started to come to chicago," i said. "i would like your advice." the gentleman looked at the clock resting upon the mantel shelf. "i have an engagement at eleven o'clock," he returned. "until then i am entirely at your service, and will be in the afternoon if you desire it. i'll promise to give you the best advice i can." "thank you. i am a stranger here, and most people won't pay much attention to a boy," i replied. then i told my story in full just as i have written it here. mr. harrison was deeply interested. "it is a strange case," he said, when i had concluded. "these men must be thorough rascals, every one of them. of course it yet remains to be seen what this chris holtzmann has to do with the affair. he may be made to give evidence for or against your father just as he is approached. i think i would be careful at the first meeting." "i did not intend to let him know who i was." "a good plan." "but now if i venture on the street i may be arrested," i went on. "it is not likely. chicago is a big city, and unless the officer who arrested you before meets you, it is improbable that he can give an accurate enough description of you for others to identify you. then again, having failed in his duty, he may not report the case at all." "that's so; but if i do run across him--" "then send for me. here is my card. if i can be of service to you, i shall be glad." mr. harrison gave me minute directions how to reach holtzmann's place. then it was time for him to go, and we left the house together. i promised to call on him again before quitting chicago. it was with a lighter heart that i went on my way. in some manner i felt that i had at least one friend in the big city, to whom i could turn for advice and assistance. guided by the directions mr. harrison had given me, i had no difficulty in making my way in the direction of chris holtzmann's place of business or house, whatever it might prove to be. as i passed up one street and down another, i could not help but look about me with great curiosity. if chicago was not new york, it was "next door" to it, and i could have easily spent the entire day in sightseeing. but though my eyes were taking in all that was to be seen, my mind was busy speculating upon the future. what would chris holtzmann think of my visit, and what would be the result of our interview? at length i turned down the street upon which his place was located. it was a wide and busy thoroughfare, lined with shops of all kinds. saloons were numerous, and from several of them came the sounds of lively music. "can you tell me where chris holtzmann's place is?" i asked of a man on the corner. "holtzmann's? sure! down on the next corner." "thank you." "variety actor?" went on the man, curiously. "oh, no!" i laughed. "thought not. they're generally pretty tough--the ones chris hires." "does he have a variety theatre?" "that's what he calls it. but it's nothing but a concert hall with jugglers and tumblers thrown in." i did not relish the idea of going into such a place, and i knew that my sister kate and the widow canby would be horrified when they heard of it. "what kind of a man is this holtzmann?" i continued, seeing that the man i had accosted was inclined to talk. "oh, he's a good enough kind of a fellow if you know how to take him," was the reply. "he's a bit cranky if he's had a glass too much, but that don't happen often." "does he run the place himself?" "what, tend bar and so?" "yes." "oh, no; he's too high-toned for that. he only bosses things. they say he's rich. be came from the east some years ago with quite a little money, and he's been adding to it ever since." "then you know him quite well?" "worked for him two years. then he up one day and declared i was robbing him. we had a big row, and i got out." "did he have you arrested?" "arrested? not much. he knew better than to try such a game on me. when i was in his employ i kept my eyes and ears open, and i knew too much about his private affairs for him to push me, even if i had been guilty. oh, sammy simpson knows a thing or two." "that is your name?" "yes; samuel a. simpson. generally called sammy for short. i was his bookkeeper and corresponding clerk." "maybe you're just the man i want to see," i said. "do you know anything about mr. holtzmann's private affairs in the east?" "in brooklyn?" "yes." sammy simpson hesitated for a moment. "maybe i do," he replied, with a shrewd look in his eyes. "is there anything to be made out of it?" "i will pay you for whatever you do for me." "then i'm your huckleberry. who are you and what do you want to know?" chapter xxvii the palace of pleasure mr. sammy simpson was a character. he was tall and slim, certainly not less than fifty years of age, but with an evident desire to appear much younger. his face was cleanly shaven, and when he removed his hat to scratch his head i saw that he was nearly bald. he was dressed in a light check suit and wore patent-leather shoes. i put him down as a dandy, but fond of drink, and that he proved to be. "whom do you work for now?" i asked. "no one. to tell the truth, i'm down on my luck and i'm waiting for something to turn up." "you say you worked for holtzmann two years ago?" "no, i said i worked for him two years. i only left last month." "and he accused you of stealing?" "yes; but it was only to get rid of me because i knew too much of his private affairs." "what do you know of his private affairs?" sammy simpson rubbed his chin. "excuse me, but who am i talking to?" he asked abruptly. "never mind who i am. i am here to get all the information i can about chris holtzmann, and i'm willing to pay for it. of course i'm not rich, but i've got a few dollars. if you can't help me i'll have to go elsewhere." my plain speech startled sammy simpson. "hold up; don't get mad because i asked your name. you've a perfect right to keep it to yourself if you want to. only make it sure to me that i'll get paid for what i tell and it will be all right." i was perplexed. i had half a mind to mention mr. harrison's name, but if i did that, the man might expect altogether too much. "i will promise you that you lose nothing," i said. "but we can't talk things over in the street. tell me where i can meet you later on." "want to see holtzmann first?" "yes." "you won't get anything out of him, i'll wager you that." "i don't expect to. i want to see what kind of a man he is." "well, you'll find me at 28 hallock street generally. if i'm not in, you can find out there where i've gone to." "i'll remember it. in the meantime don't speak of this meeting to any one." "mum's the word," rejoined sammy simpson. i went on my way deep in thought. i considered it a stroke of luck that i had fallen in with chris holtzmann's former clerk. no doubt the man knew much that would prove of value to me. i doubted if this man was perfectly honest. i was satisfied that the concert-hall manager had had good grounds for discharging him. but it often "takes a rogue to catch a rogue," and i was willing to profit by any advantage that came to hand. at length i reached the next corner. on it stood a splendid building of marble, having over the door in raised letters:- chris holtzmann's palace of pleasure. open all the time. admission free! for a moment i hesitated. should i enter such a hole of iniquity? then came the thought of my mission; how i wished to clear the family name from the stain that rested upon it and free my father from imprisonment, and i went in. i do not care to describe the scene that met my eyes. the magnificent decorations of the place were to my mind entirely out of keeping with its character. the foulness of a subcellar would have been more appropriate. in the back, where a stage was located, were a number of small tables. i sat down at one of these and had a waiter bring me a glass of soda water. "is mr. holtzmann about?" i asked. "yes, sir. there he is over by the cigar counter. shall i call him?" "no." i paid for my soda and sipped it leisurely. the place was about half full, and all attention was being paid to "master ardon, the wonderful boy dancer," who was doing a clog on the stage. mr. chris holtzmann was very much the style of a man i had imagined him to be. he was short and stout, with a thick neck and a double chin. he was loudly dressed, including several seal rings and a heavy gold watch chain. i calculated that he would be a hard man to approach, and now that i was face to face with him i hardly knew how to proceed. at first i thought to ask him for a situation of some kind and thus get on speaking terms with him, but concluded that openness would pay best in the end, and so, rising, i approached him. "mr. holtzmann, i believe?" i began. "yes," he said slowly, looking me over from head to foot. "if you please i would like to have a talk with you," i went on. "what is it?" and he turned his ear toward me. "i have come all the way from darbyville, new jersey, to see you." "what!" he started. "and what is your business with me, sir?" he went on sharply. "i would like to see you in private," and i glanced at the clerk and several others who were staring at us. "come to my office," he returned, and led the way through a door at one side, into a handsomely furnished apartment facing the side street. "ross, you can post the letters," he said to a clerk who was writing at a desk. "be back in half an hour." it was a hint that we were to be left alone, and the clerk was not long in gathering up the letters that had been written, and leaving. "i suppose woodward sent you," began chris holtzmann, when we were seated. this remark nearly took away my breath. i thought he would deny all knowledge of having ever known the merchant, and here he was mentioning the man at the very start. i hardly knew how to reply, and he continued:-"i've been expecting him for several days." "well, you know there was an accident on the railroad," i began as coolly as i could. "the bridge shifted and the trains couldn't run." "yes, i heard of that." he paused for a moment. "what brought you?" this was a home question. i plunged in like a swimmer into a deep stream. "i came to get the papers relating to the strong forgeries. you have all of them, i suppose." i was surprised at my own boldness. so was my listener. "sh! not so loud," he exclaimed. "who said i had the papers?" "john stumpy spoke about them to mr. woodward." "he did, eh?" sneered chris holtzmann. "he had better keep his mouth shut. how does he know but what the papers were destroyed long ago?" "i hope not," i replied earnestly. "what does woodward want of the papers?" "i don't know exactly. the strong family are going to have the case opened again, and he's afraid they may be dragged in." "no one knows i have them but him, stumpy--and you." he gave me a suspicious glance. "who are--" "the strongs know," i put in hastily, thus cutting him off. "what!" he jumped up from his chair. "who was fool enough to tell them?" "nicholas weaver left a dying statement--" "the idiot! i always said he was a weak-minded fool!" cried chris holtzmann. "who has this statement?" "i don't know where it is now, but carson strong's son had it." "strong's son! great scott! then woodward's goose is cooked. i always told him he hadn't covered up his tracks." "yes, but he paid you pretty well for your share of the work," i returned. i was getting mixed. the deception could not be kept up much longer, and i wondered what would happen when the truth became known. "didn't pay me half of what i should have got. i helped him not only in brooklyn, but here in chicago as well. how would he have accounted for all his money if i hadn't had a rich aunt die and leave it to him?" chris holtzmann gave a short laugh. "i reckon that was a neat plan of mine." "you ran a big risk." "so we did--but it paid." "and john stumpy helped, too." "he did in a way. but he drank too much to be of any great use. by the way, do you drink?" as holtzmann spoke he opened a closet at one side of the room, behind a screen, and brought forth a bottle of liquor and a pair of glasses. "no, thank you," i replied. "no? have a cigar, then." "thank you; i don't smoke." "what! don't smoke or drink! that's queer. wish i could say the same. mighty expensive habits. what did you say your name was?" at this instant there was a knock on the door, and chris holtzmann walked back of the screen and opened it. "a man to see you, sir," i heard a voice say. "who is it?" asked chris holtzmann. "says his name is aaron woodward." chapter xxviii a deal for a thousand dollars i was thunderstruck by the announcement that mr. aaron woodward was waiting to come in. had it been john stumpy who was announced, i would not have been so much surprised. but aaron woodward! the chase after me was indeed getting hot. evidently the merchant was not satisfied to leave affairs in chicago entirely in his confederate's hands. either he did not trust stumpy or else the matter was of too much importance. i did not give these thoughts close attention at the time, but revolved them in my mind later. just now i was trying to resolve what was best to do. would it be advisable for me to remain or had i better get out? to retire precipitately might not be "good form," but it might save me a deal of trouble. i had had one "round" with the merchant in his mansion in darbyville, and i was not particularly anxious for another encounter. i was but a boy, and between the two men they might carry "too many guns" for me. i looked around for some immediate means of escape. as i have said, the office was located on the side street. directly in front of the desk was a large window, opened to let in the fresh morning air. for me to think was to act. in less than a minute i was seated on the desk with my legs dangling over the window sill. "aaron woodward!" repeated chris holtzmann, in evident surprise. "yes, sir, and he says he must see you at once." "did you hear that?" called out holtzmann to me. "yes, i did," i returned as coolly as i could. "did you expect him?" "no." "humph!" holtzmann made a movement as if to step into view, and i prepared to vanish from the scene. but he changed his mind and walked from the office. i was in a quandary. to remain would place me in great peril, yet i was anxious to know the result of the meeting between the two men. they were the prime movers in my father's downfall, and nothing must be left undone to bring them to justice. i resolved to remain, even if it were at the peril of my life. i was not an over-brave boy, but the thought of my father languishing in prison because of these men's misdeeds, nerved me to stay. the closet door was still open, and that gave me a sudden idea. as i jumped from the desk another idea struck me, and without any hesitation i scattered the papers on the floor and upset the ink-well. then i squeezed myself into the closet, crouching down into one corner, behind several canes and umbrellas. i was not an instant too soon, for hardly had i settled myself than the door opened, and chris holtzmann reentered, followed by mr. aaron woodward. both men were highly excited, and both uttered an exclamation when they saw the room was empty. "he's gone!" cried holtzmann. "gone?" repeated the merchant. "get out, holtzmann! he was never here." "i say he was, less than two minutes ago." "well, where is he now?" "i don't know. ha! i see it! he has jumped through the windows. see how he has upset the ink and scattered the papers. it's as clear as day." "can you see anything of him outside?" chris holtzmann leaned out of the window. "no; he's up and around the corner long ago." "we must catch the rascal," went on mr. woodward, in a high voice. "he knows too much; he will ruin us both." "ruin us both?" sneered the proprietor of the palace of pleasure. "i don't see how he can ruin me." "you're in it just as deep as i am--just as deep." "not a bit of it," returned holtzmann, with spirit. "you are the only one who profited by the whole transaction, and you are the one to take the blame." "see here, chris, you're not going back on me in this way," exclaimed the merchant, in a tone of reproach. "i'm not going back on you at all, woody. but you can't use me as you used john stumpy. it won't go down." "now don't get excited, chris." "i'm not excited. but i know a thing or two just as well as you do. if there is any exposure to take place, you must stand the brunt of it. you were a fool to let the boy get ahead of you." "i didn't; it was stumpy. he let the boy get hold of nick weaver's statement, and that started the thing. then the boy stole some of my papers that were in my desk, and how much information he has now i don't know." "all your own fault," responded holtzmann, coolly. "why don't you destroy all the evidence on hand?" "do you do that?" asked mr. woodward, furiously. "i do when i think it isn't going to do me any more good," replied holtzmann, evasively. "have you destroyed all the evidence in this matter?" holtzmann closed one eye. "i'm not so green as you take me to be," he replied impressively. "all my evidence against you is locked up in my safe." "you intend to use it against me?" said the merchant. "only if it becomes necessary." "and yet you pretend to be a friend of mine." "i was until you cheated me out of my fair share of the spoils. but i am satisfied, and willing to let the whole matter rest." "what will you take for the papers you hold?" "wouldn't sell them at any price. i'm not running my head into any trap." "it will be all right." "maybe it will, but i'll run no risk," he paused a moment. "i'll tell you what i will do. give me a thousand dollars and i'll let you see me burn them up. i was intensely surprised at this proposition, more so, i believe, than was mr. woodward. "a thousand dollars!" he exclaimed. "chris, you're crazy." "no, indeed. i know a thing or two. what do you suppose the strongs would pay for them?" "you don't mean to say you would play me false?" ejaculated the merchant, hoarsely. "i mean to say i'd do anything to save myself if you got us into a hole. as far as i can see, you have allowed this boy to get the best of you at every turn." "humph! you needn't talk. you let him walk right into your confidence the first thing." "only when he told me all about your affairs." "well, let that drop. can't you let me have the papers cheaper?" "i said i wouldn't let you have the papers at all. i'll burn them up." "will you let me see them?" chris holtzmann's brow contracted. "what for?" "oh, i only want to make sure of what you've got. "will you pay the price?" "make them cheaper." "no." "i'll take them." "you mean have them burnt up." "yes. but i must examine them first." "i'm willing. and i must have my check before they go into the fire." "you are very suspicious, chris, very suspicious." "no more so than you, woody. i wasn't born yesterday." "well, let's have the papers and i'll write out the check. but it must be understood that you give no more information to the boy." "give him information!" cried holtzmann. "let him show his face here again and i'll break every bone in his body," he added grimly. this was certainly an interesting bit of news. i made up my mind that to be seen would render matters decidedly warm for me. but i was even more interested over the fact that the two men intended to burn up part of the evidence that might clear my father's name. such a thing must not happen. i must use every means in my power to prevent it. yet what was to be done? if the documents were produced at once, how could i save them from destruction? a bold dash for them seemed the only way. once snatched from holtzmann's or aaron woodward's hands, and escape through the window or the door would be difficult, but not impossible. yet while i was revolving these thoughts over in my mind the same thing evidently suggested itself to the proprietor of the palace of pleasure. "wait till i lock the door," he said. "we don't want to be interrupted." "no indeed," returned mr. woodward; "interruptions don't pay." "and i'll close the window, too," went on holtzmann; "it's cool enough without having it open." "so it is." so the window and the door were both closed and fastened. i was chagrined, but could do nothing. a moment later i heard chris holtzmann at his safe, and then the rattle of something on his desk. "the papers are in this tin box," he said. "i placed them there over six months ago." he opened the box, and i heard a rustling of documents. "why--why--what does this mean!" he ejaculated. "they are not here!" "what!" cried mr. aaron woodward, aghast. "the papers are not here!" holtzmann hurried over to his safe and began a hasty search. "as sure as you're born, woody, they have been stolen!" "it's that boy," exclaimed the merchant. "he's a wizard of a sly one. he has stolen them, and we are lost!" chapter xxix the precious papers i was not as much surprised over the situation as were the two men. i could put two and two together as quickly as any one, and i knew exactly where the papers were to be found. sammy simpson, of 28 hallock street, was the thief. he had intimated that he had evidence against chris holtzmann, and these papers were that evidence. this being so, there was no further use for my remaining in my cramped position in the closet, and i longed for a chance for escape. it was not long in coming. "i don't see how that boy managed it," said holtzmann. "he was alone only a few minutes." "never mind. he's as smart as a steel trap. was the safe door open?" "yes. my clerk left it open. he is a new one and rather careless. what's to be done?" "i'm going after the rascal," cried aaron woodward. "you'd have a fine time finding him here in chicago." "i must find him. most likely when he discovers how valuable the papers are he'll be off at once for home with them. i can intercept him at the depot." "that's an idea, if you can locate the right depot." "i'll be off at once," went on mr. woodward. "i'll go with you," returned chris holtzmann, and three minutes later the two men quitted the office, locking the door after them. i waited several minutes to make sure they were not returning, and then emerged from my hiding-place. i was stiff in every joint and nearly stifled from the hot air in the closet. but at present i gave these personal matters scant attention, my mind being bent upon escape. even if the door had been unlocked, i would not have chosen it as a means of egress. it led into the main hall of the palace of pleasure, and here i might meet some one to bar my escape. the window was close at hand, and i threw it open. the noise i made did not frighten me, for in the main hall a loud orchestra was drowning out every other sound. i looked out and saw a number of people walking up and down the street. no one appeared to be watching me, and waiting a favorable opportunity, i slid out of the window to the sidewalk below. with my ever present handbag beside me i hurried down the side street as fast as my feet would carry me. the neighborhood of the palace of pleasure was dangerous for me, and i wished to get away from it as quickly as possible. after travelling several blocks i slackened my pace and dropped into a rapid walk. coming to a fruit-stand, i invested in a couple of bananas, and then asked its proprietor where hallock street was. "sure an' it's the first street beyant the cable road," was the reply. "and where is the cable road?" i queried. "two squares that way, sor," and the woman pointed it out. i thanked her and hurried on. when i reached the street, i found the numbers ran in the three hundreds, and i had quite a walk to the southward to reach no. 28. at length i stood in front of the house. it was a common-looking affair, and the vicinity was not one to be chosen by fastidious people. the street, sidewalks, and doorways all looked dirty and neglected. i concluded that since being discharged sammy simpson had come down in the world. "does mr. simpson live here?" i asked of a slip of a girl who sat on the stoop, nursing a ragged doll. "yes, sir; on the third floor in the front," she replied. i climbed up the creaky stairs two flights, and rapped on the door. "come," said a voice, and i entered. the room was the barest kind of a kitchen. by the open window sat a thin, pale woman, holding a child. "does mr. samuel simpson live here?" i asked. "yes, sir, but he's not in now," she returned. "can i do anything for you?" "i guess not." "i hope--i hope there is nothing wrong," she went on falteringly. "wrong?" i queried. i did not quite understand her. "yes, sir." "not exactly. what makes you think so?" "because he drinks so," she replied. "i wish to get some information from him; that is all," i returned. as i concluded a heavy step sounded in the hall, and an instant later sammy simpson appeared. he had evidently been imbibing freely, for his voice was thick and his sentences muddled. "hello!" he cried. "you here already, eh! what brought you? want to find out all about chris holtzmann?" "yes." "thought so. saw it in your eye. yes, sir, your optic betrayed you. sit down. mag, give mr. what's-his-name a chair. i'll sit down myself." and he sank heavily down on a low bench, threw one leg over the other, and clasped his hands on his knee. "i want to see those documents you took from mr. holtzmann's safe," i began boldly. he started slightly and stared at me. "who said i took any document out of his safe?" "didn't you say so? i mean the ones relating to holtzmann's affairs in brooklyn." "well, yes, i did." "i want to see them." "again i ask, what is there in it?" he exclaimed dramatically. "if they really prove of value to me, i will pay you well for all your trouble," i replied. "is that straight?" he asked thickly. "it is," i replied, and, i may as well add, i was thoroughly disgusted with the man. "then i'm yours truly, and no mistake. excuse me till i get them." be rose unsteadily and left the room. hardly had he gone before his wife hurried to my side. "oh, sir, i hope you are not getting him into trouble?" she cried. "he is a good man when he is sober; indeed he is," "i am not going to harm him, madam. a great wrong has been done, and i only want your husband to assist me in righting it. he has papers that can do it." "you are telling me the truth?" she questioned earnestly. "yes, ma'am." "i think i can trust you," she said slowly. "you look honest. and these papers--ought you to have them?" "yes. if your husband does not give them up, he will certainly get into great trouble." "you are young, and you don't look as if you would lie. if sam has the papers, he shall give them to you. he's coming now." "here's all the evidence in the case," said sammy simpson, on returning. he held a thick and long envelope. "what's the value to you?" "i can tell better after i have examined them," i returned. "will you give them back if i let you see them?" "yes." he handed the precious papers to me and then sat down. oh, how eagerly i grasped the envelope! how much of importance it might contain for me! there were three letters and four legal papers. like nicholas weaver's statement, all were badly written, and i had a hard job to decipher even a portion of the manuscript. yet i made out enough to learn that aaron woodward was the forger of the notes and checks that had sent my father to prison, and that the death of a relative in chicago was only a pretence. the work had been done in brooklyn through that branch of holland & mack's establishment. chris holtzmann had helped in the scheme, and john stumpy had presented one of the checks, for which service he had received six hundred dollars. this much was clear to me. but two other points still remained dark. one was of a certain ferguson connected with the scheme, who seemed to be intimate with my father. he was probably the man my father had mentioned when we had visited him at the prison. his connection with the affair was far from clear. the other dark point in the case was concerning agatha mitts, of 648 vannack avenue, brooklyn. she was a boarding-mistress, and the three or four men had stopped at her house. but how much she knew of their doings i could not tell. "well, what do you think?" muttered sammy simpson. "mighty important, i'll be bound." "not so very important," i returned, as coolly as i could. "they will be if i can get hold of other papers to use with them." "exactly, sir; just as i always said. well, you can get them easily enough, no doubt." "i don't know about that," i said doubtfully. "no trouble at all. come, what will you give?" "five dollars." "ha! ha! they're worth a million." he blinked hard at me. "say, you're a friend of mine, a good boy. meg, shall i give them to him?" "you ought to do what's right, sam," replied his wife, severely. "so i ought. you're a good woman; big improvement on a chap like me. say, young man, give my lady ten dollars, keep the papers, and clear out. i'm drunk, and when sammy simpson's drunk he's a fool." i handed over the money without a word. perhaps i was taking advantage of the man's present state, but i considered i was doing things for the best. a minute later, with the precious papers in my pocket, i left. chapter xxx the train for new york down in the street i hesitated as to where to go next. i felt that the case on hand was getting too complicated for me, and that i needed assistance. i did not relish calling on the police for help. they were probably on the watch for me, and even if not, they would deem me only a boy, and give me scant attention. my mind reverted to the adventure earlier in the day, and i remembered mr. harrison's kind offer. i had done his little daughter a good turn, and i was positive the gentleman would assist me to the best of his ability. i decided to call on him at once. i had his address still in my pocket, and though i was quite tired, i hurried along at a rapid rate. on the way i revolved in my mind all that had occurred within the past two hours, and by the time i reached mr. harrison's place i had the matter in such shape that i could tell a clear, straightforward story. i found the gentleman in, and pleased at my return. "i was afraid you had gotten into more difficulties," he explained, with a smile. "so i did but i got out of them again," i replied. sitting down, i gave him the particulars of my visit to chris holtzmann and to sammy simpson, and handed over the documents for inspection. mr. harrison was deeply interested, and examined the papers with great care. it took him nearly an hour to do so, and then he plied me with numerous questions. "do you know what my advice is?" he asked, at length. "no, sir." "i advise you to have both holtzmann and woodward arrested at once. they are thorough rascals, and your father is the innocent victim of their cupidity." "but how can i do that? no one knows me here in chicago." "hold up, you make a mistake. i know you." "yes, but you don't know anything about me," i began. "i know you to be a brave fellow, and brave people are generally honest. besides, your face speaks for itself." "you are very kind." "i have not forgotten the debt i owe you, and whatever i do for you will never fully repay it." "and you advise me--" "to put the case in the hands of the police without delay. come, i will go with you. perhaps this holtzmann may be frightened into a confession." "i trust so. it will save a good deal of trouble." "woodward can be taken into custody as soon as the necessary papers are made out," concluded. mr. harrison. an instant later we were on the way. i wondered what had become of john stumpy. it was strange that he had not turned up at the palace of pleasure. perhaps mr. aaron woodward had intercepted him and either scared or bought him off. the fellow held much evidence that i wished to obtain, for every letter or paper against mr. woodward would make my father's case so much stronger, and i determined with all my heart that when once brought to trial there should be no failure to punish the guilty, so that the innocent might be acquitted. at the police station we found the sergeant in charge. mr. harrison was well known in the locality, and his presence gained at once for us a private audience. the officer of the law gave the case his closest attention, and asked me even more questions than had been put to me before. "i remember reading of this affair in the court records," he said. "judge fowler and i were saying what a peculiar case it was. chris holtzmann claims to keep a first-class resort, and i would hardly dare to proceed against him were it not for these papers, and you, mr. harrison." "you will arrest him at once?" questioned the gentleman. "if you say so." "i do, most assuredly." "you are interested in the case?" queried the sergeant, as he prepared to leave. "only on this young man's account. he saved my little daughter from a horrible death this morning." "indeed? how so?" "there was a mad bull broke into my back garden from the street, and was about to gore her, when this young man, who had been driven into the garden in the first place, came between and drove the bull out." "oh, i heard of that bull." "what became of him?" i put in curiously. "he was killed by a couple of officers on the next block. he was nearly dead before they shot him, having received a terrible cut between the eyes." "given by this young man," explained mr. harrison. "you don't mean it!" cried the officer, in admiration. "phew! but you must be strong!" "it was more by good luck than strength," i returned modestly. "nonsense!" said mr. harrison. "my wife witnessed the whole occurrence, and she says it was pure bravery." five minutes later a cab was called, and we all got in. i was not sorry to ride, for my long tramp from one place to another on the stone pavement had made me footsore. i did not mind walking, but the darbyville roads were softer than those of chicago. it did not take long to reach the palace of pleasure. "just wait in the cab for a minute or two," said the sergeant to me. "if he sees you first, he may make a scene." "most likely he's gone out," i returned. the sergeant and mr. harrison left the carriage and entered the building. i awaited their return impatiently. would they get their man? and would mr. aaron woodward be along? five--ten minutes dragged slowly by. then the two returned. "he's not in the place, and no one knows where he has gone," said the officer. "he can't be far off," i replied. "no doubt he and mr. woodward have gone off to look for me." "and where?" put in mr. harrison. i thought a moment. "the depot!" i exclaimed. "he spoke about looking for me there." "then we'll be off at once," returned the sergeant. as he spoke, a familiar figure came shambling around the corner. it was sammy simpson. "hello, you!" he cried, on catching sight of me. "i want those papers back." "why do you want them back?" i asked. "you didn't pay the value of 'em, didn't pay enough," he hiccoughed. "i paid all i agreed to." "can't say anything about that. but 'tain't enough." he glared at me. "holtzmann said he'd pay me a hundred dollars. yes, sir, ten times as much as you." "when de you see holtzmann?" i cried, in great interest. "saw him about half an hour ago. he came to see me--came to see sammy simpson--climbed the stairs to my abode. wanted the papers--said i must have 'em. went wild with rage when i let slip you had 'em. so did the other gent." "who? mr. woodward?" "that's the identical name. yes, sir--the correct handle. and they wanted the papers. offered a hundred dollars for 'em. think of it. here's the ten dollars--give 'em back." had sammy simpson been sober he would not have made such a simple proposition. "no, sir," i replied decidedly. "a bargain's a bargain. i've got the papers, and i intend to keep them." "no, you don't." "what's that?" broke in the sergeant of police. "i want those papers." "do you know who i am?" "no, and don't care." "i am sergeant of police, and i want you to behave yourself, or i'll run you in," was the decided reply. at the mention of an officer sammy simpson grew pale. "no, no, don't do that. i've never been arrested in my life." "the papers are in the hands of the proper parties," went on the sergeant. "then i can't have 'em back?" "no; and the less you have to do with the whole matter, the better off you'll be. where has holtzmann gone?" "to brooklyn." i was astonished. to brooklyn, and so soon! "you are sure?" i queried. "yes; he and the other gent intended to take the first train." here was indeed news. this sudden and unexpected departure must portend something of importance. "we must catch them!" i exclaimed. "do you know anything about the trains?" asked mr. harrison. "no." "jump in, and we'll be off to the depot," said the sergeant. in an instant we had started, leaving sammy simpson standing in the middle of the pavement too astonished to speak. it was the last i ever saw of the man. we made the driver urge his horse at the top of his speed. i calculated that the pair would take the same line that had brought me to chicago. i was not mistaken; for when we reached the depot a few questions put by the sergeant revealed the fact that the two men had purchased tickets for new york but a minute before. "and when does the train leave?" i asked. "her time's up now." at that instant a bell rang. "there's the bell." "we must catch her," i cried, and ran though the gate and on to the platform. but the train was already moving. i tried to catch her, but failed; and a minute later the cars rolled out of sight. mr. aaron woodward and chris holtzmann had escaped me. what was to be done next? chapter xxxi in the metropolis i was thoroughly chagrined when i stood on the platform and saw the train roll away. now that i had mr. harrison and the sergeant of police with me i had fondly hoped to capture the two men, even if it was at the last minute. but now that chance was gone, and as i turned back to my two companions i felt utterly nonplussed. one thing was perfectly clear in my mind. the two men had gone to brooklyn to see mrs. agatha mitts. no doubt they thought that now i had the papers sammy simpson had stolen in my possession i would follow up the train of evidence by calling on the woman--a thing i most likely would have done. they intended to head me off, and by this means break down my case against them at its last stage. yet though i was disappointed i was not disheartened. i was fighting for honor and intended to keep on until not a single thing remained to do. my evidence against woodward and holtzmann was gradually accumulating, and sooner or later it must bring them to the bar of justice. "well, they're gone," i exclaimed, as i joined the others. "that is, if they were on that train." "we'll ask the gateman and make sure," said the sergeant. this was done, and we soon learned that beyond a doubt mr. woodward and chris holtzmann had been among the departed passengers. "my work in chicago is at an end," remarked the sergeant, as we stood in the waiting-room discussing the situation. "and so is mine," i replied. "i've got the papers, and now the two men are gone, there is no use of my remaining." "what do you intend to do?" asked mr. harrison. "follow them to brooklyn." "to brooklyn? it's a good distance." "i can't help it; i must go. as for the distance, it is not many miles from my home." mr. harrison mused for a moment. "i have an idea of going along with you," he said at length. "going along with me!" i repeated, astonished by his offer. "yes; i intended to take a trip to new york, on special business next week, but i can go to-day instead. you no doubt need help, and i want to give it to you." "you are very kind," i replied. "i would like to see you and your family get your rights," he went on. "i wonder when the next train leaves." "i'll find out at the ticket office," i replied. i walked over to the box, and at the window learned that the next train would not start for two hours and a half. "that will give me time to go home, pack my valise, and arrange my affairs," said mr. harrison. "come, you can go with me, and we can dine together." "thank you," was my answer. "and you, sergeant. i will be pleased to have you, too," continued mr. harrison, turning to the officer. "you're kind, mr. harrison, but duty calls me elsewhere. i'll have to return to the station. but you've forgotten one thing." "what?" "that you can telegraph to new york and have the two men arrested as soon as they arrive." "that's so! what do you say, strong?" i thought for a moment. it would be the simplest way to do, but would it be the best? "don't you think we had better let them go ahead?" i returned. "we know exactly where they are going, and by following them up may gain some additional information." "i don't know but what you are right," replied mr. harrison. "then, in that case, my duty here is at an end," said the sergeant. "i'm very much obliged for the trouble you've taken. are there any charges to pay?" "none at all. good day. hope you will meet with success in the future." "thank you. if we do, i'll write you." "now we'll jump into a cab at once," said mr. harrison, when we were alone. a minute later we were whirling along in the direction of his mansion. "i hope you are not taking too much trouble on my account," i observed. "i don't consider it too much," he replied. "even if i had no business of my own to call me to new york i would go along if i thought i would be of service to you. you saved my little girl's life, and that debt, as i have told you before, i can never repay you." we soon reached mr. harrison's mansion. of course mrs. harrison was surprised at her husband's sudden determination, but when the situation was explained to her, she urged him to do his best for me. the dinner served was the most elegant i had ever eaten, and despite the excited state of mind i was in, i did ample justice to it. little millie was present, and during the progress of the meal we became great friends. but all good things must come to an end, and an hour later, each with his handbag, we entered the cab and were off. on the way we stopped at mr. harrison's office, where that gentleman left directions concerning things to be done during his absence. evidently he was a thorough business man, and i could not help but wonder what he was worth when i saw him place several hundred dollars in bills in his pocketbook. arriving at the depot, we found we had just five minutes to spare. this mr. harrison spent in the purchase of a ticket for himself--i had mine--and in getting parlor-car seats for both of us. it was a novelty to me to have such a soft chair to sit in, and i thoroughly enjoyed it. as we rode along, my kind friend questioned me closely about myself, and i ended by giving him my entire history. "you've had rather a hard row to hoe, and no mistake," he said. "it is a dreadful thing to have one's family honor assailed. many a man has broken down completely under it." "it is so with my father," i replied. "he used to be as bright as any one, but now he doesn't have much hope of any kind left." in the evening another surprise awaited me. instead of remaining in the comfortable chair, mr. harrison bade me follow him to the sleeping-car, and i was assigned as soft a bed as i had ever occupied. i slept "like a top," resolved to get the full value of so elegant an accommodation. when i awoke, it was broad daylight. i climbed down from my bed and made my toilet leisurely. when i had finished, mr. harrison appeared, and together we had breakfast, and, five hours later, dinner. it was six o'clock in the evening when we rolled into the station at jersey city, and alighted. i was a little stiff from the long ride, but not near as much so as i would have been had i travelled in the ordinary cars. "we'll cross the ferry at once," said mr. harrison. "the sooner we get to new york, the better." "and the sooner we get to brooklyn, the better," i added. "do you think it will be advisable for me to hunt up mrs. agatha mitts to-night?" "i think it would. even if you don't call on her, you can find out about her and see how the land lies. we will find a hotel to stop at first." we were soon in new york and on our way up broadway. opposite the post-office we found an elegant hotel, where mr. harrison hired a room for himself. he insisted on my having supper with him. then leaving our handbags in his room, we started for the fulton street ferry to brooklyn. it was now growing dark, and the streets were filled with people hurrying homeward. i tried to keep as close to mr. harrison as possible, but something in a window attracted my attention, and when i looked around he was gone. i supposed he had gone on ahead and hurried to catch him. but in this i was mistaken, for in no direction could i catch sight of the gentleman. deeply concerned, i stood on the corner of a narrow street or alley, undecided what to do. should i go on to brooklyn or retrace my steps to the hotel? i had about made up my mind to go on, when a disturbance down the alley attracted my attention. straining my eyes in the semi-darkness, i discovered several rough-looking young fellows in a group. "give it to him, bandy; hit him over the head!" i heard one of them exclaim. "fair share of plunder, mickey," cried another. and then i saw a helpless young man in their midst, who was being beaten and no doubt robbed. i did not give thought to the great risk i ran, but hurried at once to the scene. "what are you doing here?" i asked. "help me! help me!" called out the young man, in a beseeching voice. i stared at him in amazement. and no wonder. the young man was duncan woodward. chapter xxxii a night at the hotel "duncan woodward!" i exclaimed. "is it possible?" he gave me a quick look of wonder. "roger strong!" he gasped. oh, save me, roger! these rowdies want to kill me!" even as he spoke he received a cruel blow in the side. "i'll help you all i can," i replied promptly. i knew it would be a waste of words to try to argue with the gang of toughs, so i simply went at them in a physical way. i hit out right and left with all my might, and as quickly as i could, repeated the blows. the suddenness of my attack disconcerted the three footpads, and when duncan recovered sufficiently to lend a hand, one of them took to his heels and disappeared up the alley. the two remaining ones stood their ground, and called on their companions to come back and bring "noxy an' de rest." i received a blow in the shoulder that nearly threw me over on my back. but i straightened up, and in return gave my assailant a hard one in the nose that drew blood. "duncan, you clear out to the street," i whispered. "i'll come after." the young man followed my advice, first, however, stopping to pick up several things he had dropped or that had been taken from him. when he was twenty or thirty feet away i started after him. as i did so, i noticed he had left a large note-book lying on the ground. i took it up, and hurried on. for a moment more we were safe upon the street again, and the two toughs slunk away up the alley. then, for the first time, i noted something about duncan that i thought shameful beyond words. he had been drinking heavily. the smell of liquor was in his breath, and it was with difficulty that he kept from staggering. "you're my best, friend," he mumbled. "my enemy and my friend." "what are you doing in new york, duncan?" i asked. "come on important business, roger. say, take me to the hotel, will you? that's a good fellow." "where are you staying?" "staying? nowhere." "then why don't you take the train to newville and go home?" "can't do that." "why not?" "the old gent would kill me. he says i spend too much money. well, maybe i do." "you've bean drinking, duncan." "so i have, roger. take me to a hotel." "will you promise to go to bed and not to drink any more if i do?" "yes. i've had enough." "then brace up and come with me." not without a good deal of difficulty did i manage to make him walk several blocks to a good though not stylish hotel. here i took him into the office and explained the situation to the clerk in charge, who promptly assigned us to a room on the third floor. the charge was three dollars, which duncan with some difficulty managed to pay; and then we took the elevator to the third floor. the room was a good one, with a soft bed. no sooner did duncan reach it than he sank down, and in five minutes he was fast asleep. i was in a quandary as to what to do. i did not care to leave him in his present state, and at the same time i was anxious to find mr. harrison and visit mrs. agatha mitts in brooklyn. i wondered if my kind friend from chicago had gone on without me, until i suddenly remembered that the brooklyn address was in my pocket, and that he probably did not remember the street and number. this being the case, he had no doubt returned to the hotel and was awaiting me. i looked at duncan, and made up my mind that he would sleep several hours, if not longer, without awaking. making him as comfortable as possible on the bed, i left the room, locking the door behind me. down in the office i explained the situation to the clerk when i left the key, and he promised to attend to matters if anything unusual happened. i was not very well acquainted with new york city, and in trying to find my way to the hotel at which mr. harrison was stopping, i nearly lost my way. but several inquiries, made here and there, set me right, and at length i reached the large, open corridor. as i was about to step into the office, a well-known voice hailed me. "well, here you are at last." of course it was mr. harrison. "yes, sir." "did i lose you, or vice versa?" he went on. "i don't know. i'm sure it wasn't intentional, anyway." "have you been over to brooklyn?" he continued curiously. "no, sir." "i thought you had; it is so long since we parted." "i've had quite an adventure in the meantime." "indeed? you didn't meet chris holtzmann or this aaron woodward, did you?" "i met mr. woodward's son," i replied, and in a brief way i related my adventures. mr. harrison listened with deep interest. "it is too bad that the son has started in such a wrong path," he said. "i trust it teaches him a lesson to let liquor alone. what do you intend to do now?" "i suppose i had better go back and stay all night with him. it is now too late to go to brooklyn." "i think you are right. i can call for you at, say, eight o'clock in the morning." this was agreed upon, and as it was then after nine o'clock, i hurried back to duncan at once. i found him still sleeping, and i did not disturb him. there was a lounge in the room, and throwing off my coat, vest, and shoes, i made my bed upon this. for once i found it difficult to sleep. it seemed to me that my adventures must soon come to an end. was it the foreshadowing of coming events that disturbed me? i could not tell. i wondered how all were at home; my sister kate, uncle enos, and the widow canby, and i prayed god that i might be permitted to bring good news to them. about midnight i fell into a light doze. half an hour later i awoke with a start. some one was talking in the room. sitting up, i listened intently. it was duncan, muttering in his sleep. "lift the spring, pultzer," he said in a whisper. "hist! don't make so much noise, the old gent may hear you." he paused for a moment. "there wasn't any money. but i've got the papers, yes, i've got the papers, and when i find out their true value the old gent shall pay me to keep quiet." i could not help but start at duncan's words. like a flash of lightning came the revelation to me. he had entered his father's library and taken the papers which mr. woodward had accused me of stealing. it was as clear as day. it explained why pultzer, accompanied by another, who must have been of the party, had been out so late the night of the robbery. they had helped duncan in his nefarious work, hoping they would be rewarded by the finding of a sum of money. evidently the models were a bad set, and i was thoroughly glad dick blair had turned his back upon them. i waited with bated breath for duncan to continue his speaking, but was disappointed. he turned over on his side and dreamed on, without a word. at length i fell asleep. when i awoke it was daylight. i jumped up and looked at duncan. he was just stirring, and a moment later he opened his eyes. "where am i?" he asked, with a puzzled look at me. "you're all right, duncan," i replied. "don't you remember?" "oh, yes, i do now. how my head hurts. is there any water around?" i went over to the faucet and drew him a glass. he sat up and gulped it down. "have we been here all night?" "yes." "you saved me from those toughs that wanted to rob me last night?" "yes." "i'm not dreaming?" "no, you're not," i laughed. "i was just in the nick of time." "i know it all. you saved me, brought me to this place, and put me to bed. roger, you're a better fellow than i thought you were. you're a better fellow than i am." "you ought to turn over a new leaf," i said. "don't preach, roger." "i'm not preaching. i'm only telling you something for your own good." "i know it. i don't blame you. i've been doing wrong--sowing my wild oats. but they're all gone now. just let me get straightened out and i'll be a different fellow, see if i'm not." "i hope so with all my heart. what brought you to new york?" he started. "i--i came--i don't care to tell," he stammered. "were you going to brooklyn?" i questioned, struck by a sudden idea. "why, how did you know?" he exclaimed. "you have certain papers," i continued. "yes, i--" he felt in his pockets. "why, where are they?" "are they in this?" i asked, suddenly remembering the note-book i had picked up, and producing it. "yes, yes, give them to me." "i think i had better keep them," i replied decidedly. chapter xxxiii in brooklyn i fully understood the value of the papers that were contained in the note-book. mr. aaron woodward would not have persecuted me so closely had he not deemed them of great importance. and when i told duncan i would keep them, i meant what i said. it might not be right legally, but i was sure it was right morally, and that was enough to quiet my conscience. "better keep them?" repeated duncan, as he sprang to his feet. "exactly." "you have no right to do that." "i don't know about that. i was arrested for having them, and what's the use of my having the name without the game?" duncan sank down on the edge of the bed again. "if you had spoken to me like that yesterday, i'd have wanted to punch your head," he said. "but you're a good fellow, roger, and i don't blame you for acting as you do. do you know what the papers contain?" "i think i do." "they concern my father's affairs," he went on uneasily. "and my father's as well," i added. "not so very much." "i think so." "let me show you. hand the papers over." "excuse me, duncan, if i decline to do so. you, aided by pultzer and others, stole them from your father's library, and then threw suspicion on me." "i didn't throw suspicion on you. my father did that himself." "you had nothing to do with that handkerchief?" "i took the handkerchief by accident." "then i beg your pardon for having said so," i said heartily. "never mind, let that pass. i'll tell you what i'll do. give me the papers and i will restore them to my father and tell him the truth." "i must decline your offer." "why? don't you believe i'll confess? if you don't i'll give you a written confession." "no, it isn't that. i am going to keep the papers because they are valuable to me." "what do you mean by valuable?" asked duncan, his curiosity increasing. "just what i say." "what will the old gent say when he hears of it?" "i don't care what he says. he'll hear of a good deal more before long." "how about the robbery at the widow canby's?" "that will be straightened out, too." there was a knock on the door, and, opening it, i was confronted by one of the servants. "mr. strong here, sir?" he asked. "that's my name." "a gentleman below to see you, sir. gave his name as mr. harrison." "tell him i will be down in a minute," i said. "now i'm ready to leave you," i went on to duncan, when the servant had departed. "i advise you to take a good wash, get your breakfast, and take the first train home. good-by." "yes, but, roger--" "by doing that you may be doing your father a greater service than in any other way. you say you will turn over a new leaf, and i hope you will. if all goes as it should you will have a hard trial to stand before long. but do as i did when things went wrong in our family, bear up under it, and if you do what's right somebody is bound to respect you." and, without waiting for a reply, i caught up my hat and hurried from the room. i found mr. harrison waiting for me in the parlor. "i thought i'd come over early," he explained. "i know young blood is impatient, and i half expected to find you gone." "i didn't want to make a call before folks were up," i answered. "besides, i have made quite an important discovery since we parted." "indeed." "yes. come away from this place and i'll tell you. i don't want to meet duncan woodward again." and as we walked away from the hotel i related the particulars about the note-book. "you are gathering evidence by the wholesale," laughed mr. harrison. "you'll have more than enough to convict." "i don't want to make a failure of it," i said firmly. "when i go to court i want a clear case from start to finish." "good! strong, i admire your grit. come in the restaurant, and while we have a bit of breakfast let us look over the papers. i declare, i was never before so interested in some one else's affairs." and as we waited for our rolls, eggs, and coffee, we read the papers through carefully. they gave much information, the most startling of which was that john stumpy and ferguson were one and the same person. "that explains why mr. woodward made so many slips of the tongue when addressing him," i said. "here is another important thing," remarked mr. harrison; "a letter from this john woodward stating that mrs. agatha mitts knows of the forgeries. now, if you can get this woman to testify against the two culprits, i think you will have a clear case." "and that is just what i will force her to do," i said, with strong determination. i could hardly wait to finish breakfast. fortunately it did not take mr. harrison long to do so, and, five minutes later we were on our way to the ferry. the trip over the east river, near the big bridge, did not take long, and we soon stood on the opposite shore. vannack avenue was pretty well up town, and we took the elevated train to reach it. "there is no. 648," said mr. harrison, pointing to a neat three-story brick building that stood in the middle of the block; "let us walk past first, and see if there is any name on the door." we did so, and found a highly polished silver plate bearing the words:- mrs. agatha mitts boarding "perhaps it would be a good plan to find out something about the woman before we call on her," suggested my companion, after we had passed the house. "there is a drug store on the corner," i said. "we can stop in there. no doubt they'll think we are looking for board." "an excellent idea." we walked down to the drug store. on entering, mr. harrison ordered a couple of glasses of soda water and then called the proprietor aside. "can you tell me anything about the lady that keeps the boarding-house below here?" he asked. "which one?" "mrs. agatha mitts." "i've heard it's a very good house," was the noncommittal reply. "you know the lady?" "she comes in here once in a while for drugs." "may i ask what kind of a woman she is?" "well, she's good enough in her way, though rather eccentric. i understand she furnishes good board, however. she has kept the house for many years." "has she many boarders?" "eight or ten. she used to have more. but they were rather a lively set and hurt the reputation of the place." mr. harrison paid for the soda, and a second later we quitted the place. "not much information gained there," said my chicago friend, when we were once again on the street. "one thing is certain," i replied. "she is the right party. it would never have done to have tackled the wrong person." "i guess the best thing for us to do is to call on the woman without waiting further." "so i think." "she may be a very hard person to manage. strong, you must be careful of what you say." "i shall, mr. harrison," i replied. "but that woman must do what is right or go to prison." "i agree with you." ascending the steps of the house, i rang the bell. a tidy irish girl answered the summons. "is mrs. agatha mitts in?" i asked. "yes, sir." "we would like to see her." "will you please step into the parlor?" went on the girl, and we did so. "who shall i say it is?" "mr. harrison," put in my western friend. "yes, sir." the girl disappeared. my heart beat strongly. it seemed to me as if life and death hung upon the meeting that was to follow. chapter xxxiv mrs. agatha. mitts i could not help but wonder, as i sat in the parlor with my friend mr. harrison, waiting for the appearance of mrs. agatha mitts, what kind of a person the keeper of the boarding-house would prove to be. for some reason the name suggested to me a tall, gaunt female with sharp features; and i was taken by surprise when a short, dumpy woman, with a round face, came wobbling in and asked what was wanted. "this is mrs. agatha mitts?" asked mr. harrison, as he arose. "yes, sir. and you are mr. harrison, i suppose. i don't remember you." "i didn't think you would," laughed my friend from chicago. "i am from the west, and have never before been in brooklyn." "yes? then your business with me is--? perhaps you desire board?" and she smiled; first at him and then at me. "no; we do not wish board," was the quiet reply. "we come to see you on business." "and what is it?" "we would like to see you privately." "certainly. pray take a seat. i will close the doors." she shut the folding doors leading to the sitting room, and then the door to the hall. "now i am quite at your service," she said, and peered at us rather sharply. there was an awkward pause for a moment, and then mr. harrison went on bluntly:-"has mr. aaron woodward or chris holtzmann been here since yesterday, madam?" mrs. mitts started at the mention of the two names. then she recovered herself. "whom did you say, sir?" she queried innocently. mr. harrison repeated his question. "why, i really haven't heard of those two gentlemen in so long a time i've nearly forgotten them," she said sweetly. "they weren't here yesterday?" i put in. "no." and this time her tone was a trifle cold. "do you expect them to-day?" i went on. "no, i don't." she paused a second. "is that all you wish to know?" "no, ma'am," i replied promptly. "there is a good deal more i wish to know." "who are you, if i may ask?" "my name is strong." she looked puzzled for a moment. "i don't recognize the name," she said, and then she suddenly turned pale. "i am the son of carson strong, who was sent to prison for alleged forgery and the passing of worthless checks," i continued. "i suppose you remember the case." "har--hardly," she faltered. "i--i heard something of it, but not the particulars." "that is strange, when you were so interested in it." "i?" she repeated, in pretended surprise. "yes, madam," said mr. harrison. "you were very much interested." "who says so?" "i say so," said i. "you! you are only a boy." "i suppose i am, but that doesn't make any difference. you know all about the great wrong that has been done, and--" "it is false! i know nothing!" she cried in anger. "you know all, and we want you to tell as all you know before we leave this house." mrs. agatha mitts arose in a passion. "i want you to get out of my house at once!" she ejaculated. "i won't stand your presence here another minute." "excuse me, madam; not so fast," said mr. harrison, calmly. "my young friend strong is quite right in what he says." "i don't care what you think about it," she snapped. "oh, yes, you do. perhaps you don't know who i am," went on my western friend, deliberately. the sly insinuation had its effect. evidently the woman had a swift vision of a detective in citizens' clothes before her mind's eye. "you come in authority," she said faintly. "we won't speak about that now," said mr. harrison. "all we want you to do is to make a complete confession of your knowledge of the affair." "i haven't any knowledge." "you have," i said. "you know everything. i have papers here belonging to woodward, holtzmann, and ferguson to prove it. there is no use for you to deny it, and if you insist and make it necessary to call in the police--" "no, no! please don't do that, i beg of you," she cried. "then will you do as i wish?" "but my reputation? it will be gone forever," she moaned. "it will be gone anyway, if you have to go to prison," observed mr. harrison, sagely. "and if i make a clean confession you will not prosecute me?" she asked eagerly. "i'll promise you that," i said. "you are not fooling me?" "no, ma'am." she sprang to her feet and paced the room several times. "i'll do it," she cried. "they have never treated me right, and i do not care what becomes of them so long as i go clear. what do you wish me to do, gentlemen?" i was nonplussed for an instant. mr. harrison helped me out. "i will write out your confession and you can sign it," he said. "have you ink and paper handy?" "yes." mrs. mitts brought forth the material, and we all sat down again. "remember to give us only the plain facts," i said. "i will," she returned sharply. in a rather roundabout way she made her confession, if it could be called such. it filled several sheets of paper, and it took over half an hour. it contained but little more than what my readers already know or suspect. she knew positively that mr. aaron woodward was the forger of the checks, holtzmann had presented them, and ferguson had so altered the daily reports that my father had unwittingly made a false showing on his books. about weaver she knew nothing. when once explained the whole matter was as clear as day. when he had finished the writing, mr. harrison read the paper out loud, and after some hesitation the woman signed it, and then we both witnessed it. "i guess our business here is at an end," said my western friend. "i think so," i replied. "but one thing more, mrs. mitts," i continued, turning to her. "if mr. woodward or chris holtzmann calls, i think you will find it advisable to keep this affair a secret." "i will not be at home to them," she replied briefly. "a good plan," said mr. harrison. "now that you have done the right thing, the less you say about the matter the better for you." a few minutes later, with the paper tucked safely in my pocket, we left the house. mrs. mitts watched us sharply from behind the half-closed blinds. in half an hour we were down town and across the ferry once more. "i suppose you wish to get home as soon as possible," said mr. harrison, as we boarded a street-car to take us to his hotel. "yes, sir. my sister and the rest will be anxious to hear how i've made out, and besides i'm anxious to learn how things have gone since i have been away." "i've no doubt of it." "what do you intend to do?" "i hardly know. i have some business, but i am quite interested in your case, and--" "would you like to go along! you'll be heartily welcome, sir." "thank you, i will. i want to see how this drama ends," said mr. harrison. a little later i procured my valise, and we set out for darbyville. chapter xxxv the widow canby's money i am sure my readers will well understand why my thoughts were busy as the train rolled on its way to newville. i could hardly realize that i held the proofs of my father's innocence in my possession; and i was strongly tempted several times to ask my kind western friend to pinch me to make sure that i was really awake, and was not merely dreaming my good fortune. mr. harrison probably guessed what was passing in my mind, for he placed a kindly hand upon my shoulder, and said, with a smile:-"does it seem almost too good to be true?" "that's just it," i returned. "the events of the past week have so crowded on each other that i'm in a perfect whirl." "you will have a little more excitement before it is over." "i suppose so. but now that i know it is all right i shall not mind it. i wonder if i couldn't send my father the good news by telegraph?" "you can easily enough. but don't you think you had better wait until all is settled? you might raise false hopes." "no fear; aaron woodward is guilty beyond a doubt. but i will wait if you think best." it was not long before the train rolled into newville. on alighting mr. harrison insisted on hiring a cab, and in this we bowled swiftly on our way to darbyville. as we passed out of the city and up on the country road i wondered how matters had progressed during my absence. had the merchant returned home? at darbyville a crowd of men gazed at us with curious eyes. among them was parsons the constable and others who knew me. "hello, you back again?" shouted parsons. "yes, indeed," i replied. "i suppose you didn't expect me so soon?" "i'll allow as how i didn't expect you at all," he returned, with a grin. "well, you were mistaken. i'm back, and back to stay," said i. my heart beat high as we turned into the side road that led to the widow canby's house. i strained my eyes to catch sight of the first one who might appear. it was my uncle enos. he was doing a bit of mending on the front fence. as soon as he saw me he threw down his hammer, and ran toward us. "well, well, roger, struck port again, have you? glad you're back." and he shook my right hand hard. "my friend, mr. harrison, from chicago," said i. "this is my uncle, captain enos moss." they had hardly finished hand-shaking, when kate and the widow canby came out of the house. "oh, roger, i'm so glad you're back!" cried kate. and then she looked earnestly into my eyes. "did you--did, you--" "yes, kate, i've succeeded. father's innocence can be proven." "oh, thank god!" cried my sister, and the tears of joy started from her eyes. i felt like crying, too, and soon, somehow, there was hardly a dry eye in the group. "you must have had a hard time of it," sail the widow canby. "my kind friend here helped me a good deal," i said. mr. harrison was introduced to the others, and soon we were seated, on the piazza, and i was relating my experiences. the interest of my listeners grew as i went on. they could hardly believe it possible that mr. aaron woodward, with all his outward show of gentlemanliness, was such a thoroughly bad man. when i came to speak of john stumpy, alias ferguson, kate burst out:-"i declare, i've almost forgotten. i've got good news, too. this very morning i went hunting again and picked up the paper that was lost. i was trying to read it when you drove up. here it is." and my sister handed over nicholas weaver's dying statement. "it is hardly of use now," i said. "still, it will make the evidence against mr. woodward so much stronger." "i've discovered that this nick weaver was a chum of woodward's," said uncle enos. "a chum?" "yes. he came from chicago." "from chicago!" i ejaculated. "exactly." meanwhile mr. harrison was examining the statement, which kate had produced from her dress pocket. "i see it all," he cried. "nicholas weaver was the man who helped holtzmann concoct the scheme whereby a relative in chicago was supposed to have died and willed aaron woodward all his money." "i see. but why did he leave the statement?" i asked. "because, he says here, woodward did not treat him right. this ferguson or stumpy was a friend to weaver, and the paper was gotten up to bring woodward to terms." that explanation was clear enough, and i could easily understand why john stumpy had come to darbyville, and how it was the merchant had treated him with so much consideration. "and there is another thing to tell you, roger," put in the widow canby. "something i know you will be greatly pleased to hear." "what is it?" i asked, in considerable curiosity. "i have evidence to show that this john stumpy was the man who robbed me of my money. of course i knew it was so when kate and you said so, but outsiders now know it." "and how?" "miles nanson saw the man running from the house. he was hurrying to get a doctor for his wife, who was very sick, and he didn't stop to question the fellow." "but why didn't he speak of it before?" i asked. "he might have saved us a deal of trouble." "he never heard of the robbery until last night, his wife has been so sick. he can testify to seeing the man." "i'm glad of that," i said. "but unfortunately, that doesn't restore the money." "no, i suppose not. this stumpy still has it." "no; he claims to have lost it," i returned, and i related the particulars as i had overheard them in the boarding-house on the opposite side of the pass river. "i wish i could find it--the money, i mean--as i did the papers," put in kate. "where did he jump over the fence?" i asked suddenly. "down by the crab-apple tree," said uncle enos. "have you looked there?" queried mr. harrison. "no," said kate; "you don't think--" she began. "there is nothing like looking," said my western friend, slowly. "i guess you're right," i replied, "and the sooner the better." in a minute i was out of the house. kate was close on my heels, and together we made our way to the orchard, followed by the others. "now, let me see," i went on. "if he went over the fence here he must have vaulted over. i'll try that, and note how the money might have dropped." i placed my hands on the top rail and sprang up to vault over. as my head bent over, my eyes caught sight of an object lying in the hole of the fence post. i picked it up. it was the widow canby's pocketbook. chapter xxxvi "all's well that ends well" of course i was highly delighted with the success of my search, and as i brought forth the pocketbook all the others gave a cry of surprise. "you've got it, roger!" ejaculated my uncle. "you've got it, just as sure as guns is guns!" "so i have," i replied, as coolly as i could, though i was at the top notch of excitement. "better examine it," put in mr. harrison, cautiously. "it may be empty." "empty!" cried kate in dismay, and the word sent a chill through my own heart. with nervous fingers i tore the pocketbook open. i suppose i ought to have given it to the widow, but i was too excited to think of what was just right and what was not. "the money was in a piece of newspaper," said the widow canby. "i had--ah, there it is!" and sure enough, there it was--nearly three hundred dollars--safe and sound. i almost felt like dancing a jig, and could not refrain from throwing up my hat, which i did in such a way that it caught in a limb of a tree, and forced me to climb up to recover it. as i was about jumping to the ground i heard a buggy pass on the road. looking down, i was surprised to see that it contained mr. aaron woodward and chris holtzmann. on seeing the party on the ground below, the merchant stopped his horse and jumped out. "how do you do, mrs. canby?" he said, as he came over to the fence without catching sight of me. "pretty well, mr. woodward," was the widow's reply. "have you heard anything of your money yet?" went on the merchant, with apparent concern. "oh, yes--" and the widow hesitated. my sister whispered something in her ear. "it was just found," said kate. the merchant gave a start. "you don't mean it!" he cried. "where?" "down here by the fence." "who put it there?" asked mr. woodward, sharply. "no one. it was dropped by john stumpy." "humph! perhaps so!" sneered the merchant. "it's true," exclaimed kate, stoutly. "more likely by your brother roger." "avast there!" cried uncle enos. "you're saying too much." "i don't think so," replied mr. woodward, in deep sarcasm. "of course you want to shield the boy all you can, but i 'm sure in my mind that he is guilty." "and i'm positive in my own mind that i'm innocent," said i, and i jumped to the ground. "roger strong!" he cried, stepping back in surprise; and i saw chris holtzmann give a start. "where did you come from?" "i came from--up a tree," i returned lightly, and i may add that never before had i felt in such particularly good humor. "don't trifle with me," he cried in anger. "answer my question." "i will when i get ready." "you refuse?" "oh, no. but i'm not compelled to answer, understand that, mr. aaron woodward. i'll answer because i choose to do so." "never mind," he snapped. "where have you been?" "to chicago--as you know--and to brooklyn." "to brooklyn!" he cried, growing pale. "yes, sir, to see mrs. agatha mitts." "and did you see her?" he faltered. "yes, sir." "and she--" he began. "what she said or did will be produced in court later on," put in mr. harrison. "eh?" the merchant wheeled around. "who are you?" "my name is james harrison. i am from chicago. i am this boy's friend, and i am here to see justice done." "what do you mean?" "i mean that you and your colleagues--chris holtzmann there, john stumpy, alias ferguson, and the late nicholas weaver--have foully wronged this boy's father." "it's a lie!" cried aaron woodward, with a quivering lip. "it's the truth," i said. "the plain truth, and i can prove every word of it." "prove it!" "yes, in every detail, mr. aaron woodward. i have worked hard fighting for honor, but i have won. soon my father shall be free, and for aught i know to the contrary, you will occupy his place in prison." "i!" cried the merchant, in horror. "a likely thing!" "we shall see," i said. "in the meantime be careful of what you say against me, or i will have you arrested before sundown." mr. woodward gave me a look that was savageness itself. apparently he was on the verge of giving way to a burst of temper. but he seemed to think better of it, and turning, he jumped into his buggy and drove away. it was the last time i ever saw him. on the following day mr. harrison, uncle enos, and myself drove down to newville and engaged a first-class lawyer to take up the case. this legal gentleman pushed matters so fast that on the following monday all the papers necessary for woodward's arrest were ready for execution. the officers came to darbyville late in the afternoon to secure their man. they were told that mr. woodward had gone to new york on business. they waited for him the remainder of the day and all of the next. it was useless. the highly respected head merchant of darbyville did not appear; and an examination showed that he had mortgaged his house and his business, and taken every cent of cash with him. it was an open acknowledgment of his guilt, and kate was for letting it go at that. "it will do no good to have him locked up," she said. "one thing is certain, sech a rascal ain't fit to be at liberty," put in my uncle enos. "he may turn around and rob somebody else," added the widow canby. "that's just it," i said; and determined to bring the man to justice, i set a detective on his track. the search was successful, for in a week aaron woodward was caught in boston, preparing to embark for europe. he was brought back to newville to await the action of the grand jury. but he never came to trial. in less than a week he was found in his cell one morning, dying. rather than face the humiliation of going to jail he had taken his life. what became of duncan i did not know for a long while until, through mr. harrison, i learned that he was in chicago working for one of the railroads. he had the making of a good fellow in him, and i trust that he became one. chris holtzmann disappeared, and his palace of pleasure is a thing of the past. john stumpy went to texas, and i heard that pultzer went with him. it was not long before my father received his pardon and came home. i cannot express the joy that all of us experienced when he came forth from prison, not only a free man, but also bearing the proofs of his innocence. we were all there to greet him, and as my sister kate rushed into his arms i felt that fighting for honor meant a good deal. five years have gone by. my father and i are now in business in newville. we live in darbyville, along with my uncle,--who married the widow canby,--and my sister kate. holland & mack have recovered all that was stolen from them. they were profuse in their apologies to my father, and offered him a good situation, which he declined. we are all happy--especially kate and i. during off hours we are all but inseparable. i like my work, and expect some day to be a leading merchant. the clouds that hung over the family honor have passed, and sunshine seems to have come to stay, and that being so i will bid my readers good-by. the end transcribed form the 1914 methuen & co. edition by david price, email ccx074@coventry.ac.uk chance--a tale in two parts those that hold that all things are governed by fortune had not erred, had they not persisted there sir thomas browne to sir hugh clifford, k.c.m.g. who steadfast friendship is responsible for the existence of these pages part i--the damsel chapter one--young powell and his chance i believe he had seen us out of the window coming off to dine in the dinghy of a fourteen-ton yawl belonging to marlow my host and skipper. we helped the boy we had with us to haul the boat up on the landing-stage before we went up to the riverside inn, where we found our new acquaintance eating his dinner in dignified loneliness at the head of a long table, white and inhospitable like a snow bank. the red tint of his clear-cut face with trim short black whiskers under a cap of curly iron-grey hair was the only warm spot in the dinginess of that room cooled by the cheerless tablecloth. we knew him already by sight as the owner of a little five-ton cutter, which he sailed alone apparently, a fellow yachtsman in the unpretending band of fanatics who cruise at the mouth of the thames. but the first time he addressed the waiter sharply as 'steward' we knew him at once for a sailor as well as a yachtsman. presently he had occasion to reprove that same waiter for the slovenly manner in which the dinner was served. he did it with considerable energy and then turned to us. "if we at sea," he declared, "went about our work as people ashore high and low go about theirs we should never make a living. no one would employ us. and moreover no ship navigated and sailed in the happy-golucky manner people conduct their business on shore would ever arrive into port." since he had retired from the sea he had been astonished to discover that the educated people were not much better than the others. no one seemed to take any proper pride in his work: from plumbers who were simply thieves to, say, newspaper men (he seemed to think them a specially intellectual class) who never by any chance gave a correct version of the simplest affair. this universal inefficiency of what he called "the shore gang" he ascribed in general to the want of responsibility and to a sense of security. "they see," he went on, "that no matter what they do this tight little island won't turn turtle with them or spring a leak and go to the bottom with their wives and children." from this point the conversation took a special turn relating exclusively to sea-life. on that subject he got quickly in touch with marlow who in his time had followed the sea. they kept up a lively exchange of reminiscences while i listened. they agreed that the happiest time in their lives was as youngsters in good ships, with no care in the world but not to lose a watch below when at sea and not a moment's time in going ashore after work hours when in harbour. they agreed also as to the proudest moment they had known in that calling which is never embraced on rational and practical grounds, because of the glamour of its romantic associations. it was the moment when they had passed successfully their first examination and left the seamanship examiner with the little precious slip of blue paper in their hands. "that day i wouldn't have called the queen my cousin," declared our new acquaintance enthusiastically. at that time the marine board examinations took place at the st. katherine's dock house on tower hill, and he informed us that he had a special affection for the view of that historic locality, with the gardens to the left, the front of the mint to the right, the miserable tumble-down little houses farther away, a cabstand, boot-blacks squatting on the edge of the pavement and a pair of big policemen gazing with an air of superiority at the doors of the black horse public-house across the road. this was the part of the world, he said, his eyes first took notice of, on the finest day of his life. he had emerged from the main entrance of st. katherine's dock house a full-fledged second mate after the hottest time of his life with captain r-, the most dreaded of the three seamanship examiners who at the time were responsible for the merchant service officers qualifying in the port of london. "we all who were preparing to pass," he said, "used to shake in our shoes at the idea of going before him. he kept me for an hour and a half in the torture chamber and behaved as though he hated me. he kept his eyes shaded with one of his hands. suddenly he let it drop saying, "you will do!" before i realised what he meant he was pushing the blue slip across the table. i jumped up as if my chair had caught fire. "thank you, sir," says i, grabbing the paper. "good morning, good luck to you," he growls at me. "the old doorkeeper fussed out of the cloak-room with my hat. they always do. but he looked very hard at me before he ventured to ask in a sort of timid whisper: "got through all right, sir?" for all answer i dropped a half-crown into his soft broad palm. "well," says he with a sudden grin from ear to ear, "i never knew him keep any of you gentlemen so long. he failed two second mates this morning before your turn came. less than twenty minutes each: that's about his usual time." "i found myself downstairs without being aware of the steps as if i had floated down the staircase. the finest day in my life. the day you get your first command is nothing to it. for one thing a man is not so young then and for another with us, you know, there is nothing much more to expect. yes, the finest day of one's life, no doubt, but then it is just a day and no more. what comes after is about the most unpleasant time for a youngster, the trying to get an officer's berth with nothing much to show but a brand-new certificate. it is surprising how useless you find that piece of ass's skin that you have been putting yourself in such a state about. it didn't strike me at the time that a board of trade certificate does not make an officer, not by a long long way. but the slippers of the ships i was haunting with demands for a job knew that very well. i don't wonder at them now, and i don't blame them either. but this 'trying to get a ship' is pretty hard on a youngster all the same . . . " he went on then to tell us how tired he was and how discouraged by this lesson of disillusion following swiftly upon the finest day of his life. he told us how he went the round of all the ship-owners' offices in the city where some junior clerk would furnish him with printed forms of application which he took home to fill up in the evening. he used to run out just before midnight to post them in the nearest pillar-box. and that was all that ever came of it. in his own words: he might just as well have dropped them all properly addressed and stamped into the sewer grating. then one day, as he was wending his weary way to the docks, he met a friend and former shipmate a little older than himself outside the fenchurch street railway station. he craved for sympathy but his friend had just "got a ship" that very morning and was hurrying home in a state of outward joy and inward uneasiness usual to a sailor who after many days of waiting suddenly gets a berth. this friend had the time to condole with him but briefly. he must be moving. then as he was running off, over his shoulder as it were, he suggested: "why don't you go and speak to mr. powell in the shipping office." our friend objected that he did not know mr. powell from adam. and the other already pretty near round the corner shouted back advice: "go to the private door of the shipping office and walk right up to him. his desk is by the window. go up boldly and say i sent you." our new acquaintance looking from one to the other of us declared: "upon my word, i had grown so desperate that i'd have gone boldly up to the devil himself on the mere hint that he had a second mate's job to give away." it was at this point that interrupting his flow of talk to light his pipe but holding us with his eye he inquired whether we had known powell. marlow with a slight reminiscent smile murmured that he "remembered him very well." then there was a pause. our new acquaintance had become involved in a vexatious difficulty with his pipe which had suddenly betrayed his trust and disappointed his anticipation of self-indulgence. to keep the ball rolling i asked marlow if this powell was remarkable in any way. "he was not exactly remarkable," marlow answered with his usual nonchalance. "in a general way it's very difficult for one to become remarkable. people won't take sufficient notice of one, don't you know. i remember powell so well simply because as one of the shipping masters in the port of london he dispatched me to sea on several long stages of my sailor's pilgrimage. he resembled socrates. i mean he resembled him genuinely: that is in the face. a philosophical mind is but an accident. he reproduced exactly the familiar bust of the immortal sage, if you will imagine the bust with a high top hat riding far on the back of the head, and a black coat over the shoulders. as i never saw him except from the other side of the long official counter bearing the five writing desks of the five shipping masters, mr. powell has remained a bust to me." our new acquaintance advanced now from the mantelpiece with his pipe in good working order. "what was the most remarkable about powell," he enunciated dogmatically with his head in a cloud of smoke, "is that he should have had just that name. you see, my name happens to be powell too." it was clear that this intelligence was not imparted to us for social purposes. it required no acknowledgment. we continued to gaze at him with expectant eyes. he gave himself up to the vigorous enjoyment of his pipe for a silent minute or two. then picking up the thread of his story he told us how he had started hot foot for tower hill. he had not been that way since the day of his examination--the finest day of his life--the day of his overweening pride. it was very different now. he would not have called the queen his cousin, still, but this time it was from a sense of profound abasement. he didn't think himself good enough for anybody's kinship. he envied the purple-nosed old cab-drivers on the stand, the boot-black boys at the edge of the pavement, the two large bobbies pacing slowly along the tower gardens railings in the consciousness of their infallible might, and the bright scarlet sentries walking smartly to and fro before the mint. he envied them their places in the scheme of world's labour. and he envied also the miserable sallow, thin-faced loafers blinking their obscene eyes and rubbing their greasy shoulders against the door-jambs of the black horse pub, because they were too far gone to feel their degradation. i must render the man the justice that he conveyed very well to us the sense of his youthful hopelessness surprised at not finding its place in the sun and no recognition of its right to live. he went up the outer steps of st. katherine's dock house, the very steps from which he had some six weeks before surveyed the cabstand, the buildings, the policemen, the boot-blacks, the paint, gilt, and plateglass of the black horse, with the eye of a conqueror. at the time he had been at the bottom of his heart surprised that all this had not greeted him with songs and incense, but now (he made no secret of it) he made his entry in a slinking fashion past the doorkeeper's glass box. "i hadn't any half-crowns to spare for tips," he remarked grimly. the man, however, ran out after him asking: "what do you require?" but with a grateful glance up at the first floor in remembrance of captain r-'s examination room (how easy and delightful all that had been) he bolted down a flight leading to the basement and found himself in a place of dusk and mystery and many doors. he had been afraid of being stopped by some rule of no-admittance. however he was not pursued. the basement of st. katherine's dock house is vast in extent and confusing in its plan. pale shafts of light slant from above into the gloom of its chilly passages. powell wandered up and down there like an early christian refugee in the catacombs; but what little faith he had in the success of his enterprise was oozing out at his finger-tips. at a dark turn under a gas bracket whose flame was half turned down his selfconfidence abandoned him altogether. "i stood there to think a little," he said. "a foolish thing to do because of course i got scared. what could you expect? it takes some nerve to tackle a stranger with a request for a favour. i wished my namesake powell had been the devil himself. i felt somehow it would have been an easier job. you see, i never believed in the devil enough to be scared of him; but a man can make himself very unpleasant. i looked at a lot of doors, all shut tight, with a growing conviction that i would never have the pluck to open one of them. thinking's no good for one's nerve. i concluded i would give up the whole business. but i didn't give up in the end, and i'll tell you what stopped me. it was the recollection of that confounded doorkeeper who had called after me. i felt sure the fellow would be on the look-out at the head of the stairs. if he asked me what i had been after, as he had the right to do, i wouldn't know what to answer that wouldn't make me look silly if no worse. i got very hot. there was no chance of slinking out of this business. "i had lost my bearings somehow down there. of the many doors of various sizes, right and left, a good few had glazed lights above; some however must have led merely into lumber rooms or such like, because when i brought myself to try one or two i was disconcerted to find that they were locked. i stood there irresolute and uneasy like a baffled thief. the confounded basement was as still as a grave and i became aware of my heart beats. very uncomfortable sensation. never happened to me before or since. a bigger door to the left of me, with a large brass handle looked as if it might lead into the shipping office. i tried it, setting my teeth. "here goes!" "it came open quite easily. and lo! the place it opened into was hardly any bigger than a cupboard. anyhow it wasn't more than ten feet by twelve; and as i in a way expected to see the big shadowy cellar-like extent of the shipping office where i had been once or twice before, i was extremely startled. a gas bracket hung from the middle of the ceiling over a dark, shabby writing-desk covered with a litter of yellowish dusty documents. under the flame of the single burner which made the place ablaze with light, a plump, little man was writing hard, his nose very near the desk. his head was perfectly bald and about the same drab tint as the papers. he appeared pretty dusty too. "i didn't notice whether there were any cobwebs on him, but i shouldn't wonder if there were because he looked as though he had been imprisoned for years in that little hole. the way he dropped his pen and sat blinking my way upset me very much. and his dungeon was hot and musty; it smelt of gas and mushrooms, and seemed to be somewhere 120 feet below the ground. solid, heavy stacks of paper filled all the corners half-way up to the ceiling. and when the thought flashed upon me that these were the premises of the marine board and that this fellow must be connected in some way with ships and sailors and the sea, my astonishment took my breath away. one couldn't imagine why the marine board should keep that bald, fat creature slaving down there. for some reason or other i felt sorry and ashamed to have found him out in his wretched captivity. i asked gently and sorrowfully: "the shipping office, please." he piped up in a contemptuous squeaky voice which made me start: "not here. try the passage on the other side. street side. this is the dock side. you've lost your way . . . " he spoke in such a spiteful tone that i thought he was going to round off with the words: "you fool" . . . and perhaps he meant to. but what he finished sharply with was: "shut the door quietly after you." and i did shut it quietly--you bet. quick and quiet. the indomitable spirit of that chap impressed me. i wonder sometimes whether he has succeeded in writing himself into liberty and a pension at last, or had to go out of his gas-lighted grave straight into that other dark one where nobody would want to intrude. my humanity was pleased to discover he had so much kick left in him, but i was not comforted in the least. it occurred to me that if mr. powell had the same sort of temper . . . however, i didn't give myself time to think and scuttled across the space at the foot of the stairs into the passage where i'd been told to try. and i tried the first door i came to, right away, without any hanging back, because coming loudly from the hall above an amazed and scandalized voice wanted to know what sort of game i was up to down there. "don't you know there's no admittance that way?" it roared. but if there was anything more i shut it out of my hearing by means of a door marked _private_ on the outside. it let me into a six-feet wide strip between a long counter and the wall, taken off a spacious, vaulted room with a grated window and a glazed door giving daylight to the further end. the first thing i saw right in front of me were three middle-aged men having a sort of romp together round about another fellow with a thin, long neck and sloping shoulders who stood up at a desk writing on a large sheet of paper and taking no notice except that he grinned quietly to himself. they turned very sour at once when they saw me. i heard one of them mutter 'hullo! what have we here?' "'i want to see mr. powell, please,' i said, very civil but firm; i would let nothing scare me away now. this was the shipping office right enough. it was after 3 o'clock and the business seemed over for the day with them. the long-necked fellow went on with his writing steadily. i observed that he was no longer grinning. the three others tossed their heads all together towards the far end of the room where a fifth man had been looking on at their antics from a high stool. i walked up to him as boldly as if he had been the devil himself. with one foot raised up and resting on the cross-bar of his seat he never stopped swinging the other which was well clear of the stone floor. he had unbuttoned the top of his waistcoat and he wore his tall hat very far at the back of his head. he had a full unwrinkled face and such clear-shining eyes that his grey beard looked quite false on him, stuck on for a disguise. you said just now he resembled socrates--didn't you? i don't know about that. this socrates was a wise man, i believe?" "he was," assented marlow. "and a true friend of youth. he lectured them in a peculiarly exasperating manner. it was a way he had." "then give me powell every time," declared our new acquaintance sturdily. "he didn't lecture me in any way. not he. he said: 'how do you do?' quite kindly to my mumble. then says he looking very hard at me: 'i don't think i know you--do i?' "no, sir," i said and down went my heart sliding into my boots, just as the time had come to summon up all my cheek. there's nothing meaner in the world than a piece of impudence that isn't carried off well. for fear of appearing shamefaced i started about it so free and easy as almost to frighten myself. he listened for a while looking at my face with surprise and curiosity and then held up his hand. i was glad enough to shut up, i can tell you. "well, you are a cool hand," says he. "and that friend of yours too. he pestered me coming here every day for a fortnight till a captain i'm acquainted with was good enough to give him a berth. and no sooner he's provided for than he turns you on. you youngsters don't seem to mind whom you get into trouble." "it was my turn now to stare with surprise and curiosity. he hadn't been talking loud but he lowered his voice still more. "don't you know it's illegal?" "i wondered what he was driving at till i remembered that procuring a berth for a sailor is a penal offence under the act. that clause was directed of course against the swindling practices of the boarding-house crimps. it had never struck me it would apply to everybody alike no matter what the motive, because i believed then that people on shore did their work with care and foresight. "i was confounded at the idea, but mr. powell made me soon see that an act of parliament hasn't any sense of its own. it has only the sense that's put into it; and that's precious little sometimes. he didn't mind helping a young man to a ship now and then, he said, but if we kept on coming constantly it would soon get about that he was doing it for money. "a pretty thing that would be: the senior shipping-master of the port of london hauled up in a police court and fined fifty pounds," says he. "i've another four years to serve to get my pension. it could be made to look very black against me and don't you make any mistake about it," he says. "and all the time with one knee well up he went on swinging his other leg like a boy on a gate and looking at me very straight with his shining eyes. i was confounded i tell you. it made me sick to hear him imply that somebody would make a report against him. "oh!" i asked shocked, "who would think of such a scurvy trick, sir?" i was half disgusted with him for having the mere notion of it. "who?" says he, speaking very low. "anybody. one of the office messengers maybe. i've risen to be the senior of this office and we are all very good friends here, but don't you think that my colleague that sits next to me wouldn't like to go up to this desk by the window four years in advance of the regulation time? or even one year for that matter. it's human nature." "i could not help turning my head. the three fellows who had been skylarking when i came in were now talking together very soberly, and the long-necked chap was going on with his writing still. he seemed to me the most dangerous of the lot. i saw him sideface and his lips were set very tight. i had never looked at mankind in that light before. when one's young human nature shocks one. but what startled me most was to see the door i had come through open slowly and give passage to a head in a uniform cap with a board of trade badge. it was that blamed old doorkeeper from the hall. he had run me to earth and meant to dig me out too. he walked up the office smirking craftily, cap in hand. "what is it, symons?" asked mr. powell. "i was only wondering where this 'ere gentleman 'ad gone to, sir. he slipped past me upstairs, sir." i felt mighty uncomfortable. "that's all right, symons. i know the gentleman," says mr. powell as serious as a judge. "very well, sir. of course, sir. i saw the gentleman running races all by 'isself down 'ere, so i . . ." "it's all right i tell you," mr. powell cut him short with a wave of his hand; and, as the old fraud walked off at last, he raised his eyes to me. i did not know what to do: stay there, or clear out, or say that i was sorry. "let's see," says he, "what did you tell me your name was?" "now, observe, i hadn't given him my name at all and his question embarrassed me a bit. somehow or other it didn't seem proper for me to fling his own name at him as it were. so i merely pulled out my new certificate from my pocket and put it into his hand unfolded, so that he could read _charles powell_ written very plain on the parchment. "he dropped his eyes on to it and after a while laid it quietly on the desk by his side. i didn't know whether he meant to make any remark on this coincidence. before he had time to say anything the glass door came open with a bang and a tall, active man rushed in with great strides. his face looked very red below his high silk hat. you could see at once he was the skipper of a big ship. "mr. powell after telling me in an undertone to wait a little addressed him in a friendly way. "i've been expecting you in every moment to fetch away your articles, captain. here they are all ready for you." and turning to a pile of agreements lying at his elbow he took up the topmost of them. from where i stood i could read the words: "ship _ferndale_" written in a large round hand on the first page. "no, mr. powell, they aren't ready, worse luck," says that skipper. "i've got to ask you to strike out my second officer." he seemed excited and bothered. he explained that his second mate had been working on board all the morning. at one o'clock he went out to get a bit of dinner and didn't turn up at two as he ought to have done. instead there came a messenger from the hospital with a note signed by a doctor. collar bone and one arm broken. let himself be knocked down by a pair horse van while crossing the road outside the dock gate, as if he had neither eyes nor ears. and the ship ready to leave the dock at six o'clock to-morrow morning! "mr. powell dipped his pen and began to turn the leaves of the agreement over. "we must then take his name off," he says in a kind of unconcerned sing-song. "what am i to do?" burst out the skipper. "this office closes at four o'clock. i can't find a man in half an hour." "this office closes at four," repeats mr. powell glancing up and down the pages and touching up a letter here and there with perfect indifference. "even if i managed to lay hold some time to-day of a man ready to go at such short notice i couldn't ship him regularly here--could i?" "mr. powell was busy drawing his pen through the entries relating to that unlucky second mate and making a note in the margin. "you could sign him on yourself on board," says he without looking up. "but i don't think you'll find easily an officer for such a pier-head jump." "upon this the fine-looking skipper gave signs of distress. the ship mustn't miss the next morning's tide. he had to take on board forty tons of dynamite and a hundred and twenty tons of gunpowder at a place down the river before proceeding to sea. it was all arranged for next day. there would be no end of fuss and complications if the ship didn't turn up in time . . . i couldn't help hearing all this, while wishing him to take himself off, because i wanted to know why mr. powell had told me to wait. after what he had been saying there didn't seem any object in my hanging about. if i had had my certificate in my pocket i should have tried to slip away quietly; but mr. powell had turned about into the same position i found him in at first and was again swinging his leg. my certificate open on the desk was under his left elbow and i couldn't very well go up and jerk it away. "i don't know," says he carelessly, addressing the helpless captain but looking fixedly at me with an expression as if i hadn't been there. "i don't know whether i ought to tell you that i know of a disengaged second mate at hand." "do you mean you've got him here?" shouts the other looking all over the empty public part of the office as if he were ready to fling himself bodily upon anything resembling a second mate. he had been so full of his difficulty that i verify believe he had never noticed me. or perhaps seeing me inside he may have thought i was some understrapper belonging to the place. but when mr. powell nodded in my direction he became very quiet and gave me a long stare. then he stooped to mr. powell's ear--i suppose he imagined he was whispering, but i heard him well enough. "looks very respectable." "certainly," says the shipping-master quite calm and staring all the time at me. "his name's powell." "oh, i see!" says the skipper as if struck all of a heap. "but is he ready to join at once?" "i had a sort of vision of my lodgings--in the north of london, too, beyond dalston, away to the devil--and all my gear scattered about, and my empty sea-chest somewhere in an outhouse the good people i was staying with had at the end of their sooty strip of garden. i heard the shipping master say in the coolest sort of way: "he'll sleep on board to-night." "he had better," says the captain of the _ferndale_ very businesslike, as if the whole thing were settled. i can't say i was dumb for joy as you may suppose. it wasn't exactly that. i was more by way of being out of breath with the quickness of it. it didn't seem possible that this was happening to me. but the skipper, after he had talked for a while with mr. powell, too low for me to hear became visibly perplexed. "i suppose he had heard i was freshly passed and without experience as an officer, because he turned about and looked me over as if i had been exposed for sale. "he's young," he mutters. "looks smart, though . . . you're smart and willing (this to me very sudden and loud) and all that, aren't you?" "i just managed to open and shut my mouth, no more, being taken unawares. but it was enough for him. he made as if i had deafened him with protestations of my smartness and willingness. "of course, of course. all right." and then turning to the shipping master who sat there swinging his leg, he said that he certainly couldn't go to sea without a second officer. i stood by as if all these things were happening to some other chap whom i was seeing through with it. mr. powell stared at me with those shining eyes of his. but that bothered skipper turns upon me again as though he wanted to snap my head off. "you aren't too big to be told how to do things--are you? you've a lot to learn yet though you mayn't think so." "i had half a mind to save my dignity by telling him that if it was my seamanship he was alluding to i wanted him to understand that a fellow who had survived being turned inside out for an hour and a half by captain rwas equal to any demand his old ship was likely to make on his competence. however he didn't give me a chance to make that sort of fool of myself because before i could open my mouth he had gone round on another tack and was addressing himself affably to mr. powell who swinging his leg never took his eyes off me. "i'll take your young friend willingly, mr. powell. if you let him sign on as second-mate at once i'll take the articles away with me now." "it suddenly dawned upon me that the innocent skipper of the _ferndale_ had taken it for granted that i was a relative of the shipping master! i was quite astonished at this discovery, though indeed the mistake was natural enough under the circumstances. what i ought to have admired was the reticence with which this misunderstanding had been established and acted upon. but i was too stupid then to admire anything. all my anxiety was that this should be cleared up. i was ass enough to wonder exceedingly at mr. powell failing to notice the misapprehension. i saw a slight twitch come and go on his face; but instead of setting right that mistake the shipping master swung round on his stool and addressed me as 'charles.' he did. and i detected him taking a hasty squint at my certificate just before, because clearly till he did so he was not sure of my christian name. "now then come round in front of the desk, charles," says he in a loud voice. "charles! at first, i declare to you, it didn't seem possible that he was addressing himself to me. i even looked round for that charles but there was nobody behind me except the thin-necked chap still hard at his writing, and the other three shipping masters who were changing their coats and reaching for their hats, making ready to go home. it was the industrious thin-necked man who without laying down his pen lifted with his left hand a flap near his desk and said kindly: "pass this way." i walked through in a trance, faced mr. powell, from whom i learned that we were bound to port elizabeth first, and signed my name on the articles of the ship _ferndale_ as second mate--the voyage not to exceed two years. "you won't fail to join--eh?" says the captain anxiously. "it would cause no end of trouble and expense if you did. you've got a good six hours to get your gear together, and then you'll have time to snatch a sleep on board before the crew joins in the morning." "it was easy enough for him to talk of getting ready in six hours for a voyage that was not to exceed two years. he hadn't to do that trick himself, and with his sea-chest locked up in an outhouse the key of which had been mislaid for a week as i remembered. but neither was i much concerned. the idea that i was absolutely going to sea at six o'clock next morning hadn't got quite into my head yet. it had been too sudden. "mr. powell, slipping the articles into a long envelope, spoke up with a sort of cold half-laugh without looking at either of us. "mind you don't disgrace the name, charles." "and the skipper chimes in very kindly: "he'll do well enough i dare say. i'll look after him a bit." "upon this he grabs the articles, says something about trying to run in for a minute to see that poor devil in the hospital, and off he goes with his heavy swinging step after telling me sternly: "don't you go like that poor fellow and get yourself run over by a cart as if you hadn't either eyes or ears." "mr. powell," says i timidly (there was by then only the thin-necked man left in the office with us and he was already by the door, standing on one leg to turn the bottom of his trousers up before going away). "mr. powell," says i, "i believe the captain of the _ferndale_ was thinking all the time that i was a relation of yours." "i was rather concerned about the propriety of it, you know, but mr. powell didn't seem to be in the least. "did he?" says he. "that's funny, because it seems to me too that i've been a sort of good uncle to several of you young fellows lately. don't you think so yourself? however, if you don't like it you may put him right--when you get out to sea." at this i felt a bit queer. mr. powell had rendered me a very good service:because it's a fact that with us merchant sailors the first voyage as officer is the real start in life. he had given me no less than that. i told him warmly that he had done for me more that day than all my relations put together ever did. "oh, no, no," says he. "i guess it's that shipment of explosives waiting down the river which has done most for you. forty tons of dynamite have been your best friend to-day, young man." "that was true too, perhaps. anyway i saw clearly enough that i had nothing to thank myself for. but as i tried to thank him, he checked my stammering. "don't be in a hurry to thank me," says he. "the voyage isn't finished yet." our new acquaintance paused, then added meditatively: "queer man. as if it made any difference. queer man." "it's certainly unwise to admit any sort of responsibility for our actions, whose consequences we are never able to foresee," remarked marlow by way of assent. "the consequence of his action was that i got a ship," said the other. "that could not do much harm," he added with a laugh which argued a probably unconscious contempt of general ideas. but marlow was not put off. he was patient and reflective. he had been at sea many years and i verily believe he liked sea-life because upon the whole it is favourable to reflection. i am speaking of the now nearly vanished sea-life under sail. to those who may be surprised at the statement i will point out that this life secured for the mind of him who embraced it the inestimable advantages of solitude and silence. marlow had the habit of pursuing general ideas in a peculiar manner, between jest and earnest. "oh, i wouldn't suggest," he said, "that your namesake mr. powell, the shipping master, had done you much harm. such was hardly his intention. and even if it had been he would not have had the power. he was but a man, and the incapacity to achieve anything distinctly good or evil is inherent in our earthly condition. mediocrity is our mark. and perhaps it's just as well, since, for the most part, we cannot be certain of the effect of our actions." "i don't know about the effect," the other stood up to marlow manfully. "what effect did you expect anyhow? i tell you he did something uncommonly kind." "he did what he could," marlow retorted gently, "and on his own showing that was not a very great deal. i cannot help thinking that there was some malice in the way he seized the opportunity to serve you. he managed to make you uncomfortable. you wanted to go to sea, but he jumped at the chance of accommodating your desire with a vengeance. i am inclined to think your cheek alarmed him. and this was an excellent occasion to suppress you altogether. for if you accepted he was relieved of you with every appearance of humanity, and if you made objections (after requesting his assistance, mind you) it was open to him to drop you as a sort of impostor. you might have had to decline that berth for some very valid reason. from sheer necessity perhaps. the notice was too uncommonly short. but under the circumstances you'd have covered yourself with ignominy." our new friend knocked the ashes out of his pipe. "quite a mistake," he said. "i am not of the declining sort, though i'll admit it was something like telling a man that you would like a bath and in consequence being instantly knocked overboard to sink or swim with your clothes on. however, i didn't feel as if i were in deep water at first. i left the shipping office quietly and for a time strolled along the street as easy as if i had a week before me to fit myself out. but by and by i reflected that the notice was even shorter than it looked. the afternoon was well advanced; i had some things to get, a lot of small matters to attend to, one or two persons to see. one of them was an aunt of mine, my only relation, who quarrelled with poor father as long as he lived about some silly matter that had neither right nor wrong to it. she left her money to me when she died. i used always to go and see her for decency's sake. i had so much to do before night that i didn't know where to begin. i felt inclined to sit down on the kerb and hold my head in my hands. it was as if an engine had been started going under my skull. finally i sat down in the first cab that came along and it was a hard matter to keep on sitting there i can tell you, while we rolled up and down the streets, pulling up here and there, the parcels accumulating round me and the engine in my head gathering more way every minute. the composure of the people on the pavements was provoking to a degree, and as to the people in shops, they were benumbed, more than half frozen--imbecile. funny how it affects you to be in a peculiar state of mind: everybody that does not act up to your excitement seems so confoundedly unfriendly. and my state of mind what with the hurry, the worry and a growing exultation was peculiar enough. that engine in my head went round at its top speed hour after hour till eleven at about at night it let up on me suddenly at the entrance to the dock before large iron gates in a dead wall." * * * * * these gates were closed and locked. the cabby, after shooting his things off the roof of his machine into young powell's arms, drove away leaving him alone with his sea-chest, a sail cloth bag and a few parcels on the pavement about his feet. it was a dark, narrow thoroughfare he told us. a mean row of houses on the other side looked empty: there wasn't the smallest gleam of light in them. the white-hot glare of a gin palace a good way off made the intervening piece of the street pitch black. some human shapes appearing mysteriously, as if they had sprung up from the dark ground, shunned the edge of the faint light thrown down by the gateway lamps. these figures were wary in their movements and perfectly silent of foot, like beasts of prey slinking about a camp fire. powell gathered up his belongings and hovered over them like a hen over her brood. a gruffly insinuating voice said: "let's carry your things in, capt'in! i've got my pal 'ere." he was a tall, bony, grey-haired ruffian with a bulldog jaw, in a torn cotton shirt and moleskin trousers. the shadow of his hobnailed boots was enormous and coffinlike. his pal, who didn't come up much higher than his elbow, stepping forward exhibited a pale face with a long drooping nose and no chin to speak of. he seemed to have just scrambled out of a dust-bin in a tam-o'shanter cap and a tattered soldier's coat much too long for him. being so deadly white he looked like a horrible dirty invalid in a ragged dressing gown. the coat flapped open in front and the rest of his apparel consisted of one brace which crossed his naked, bony chest, and a pair of trousers. he blinked rapidly as if dazed by the faint light, while his patron, the old bandit, glowered at young powell from under his beetling brow. "say the word, capt'in. the bobby'll let us in all right. 'e knows both of us." "i didn't answer him," continued mr. powell. "i was listening to footsteps on the other side of the gate, echoing between the walls of the warehouses as if in an uninhabited town of very high buildings dark from basement to roof. you could never have guessed that within a stone's throw there was an open sheet of water and big ships lying afloat. the few gas lamps showing up a bit of brick work here and there, appeared in the blackness like penny dips in a range of cellars--and the solitary footsteps came on, tramp, tramp. a dock policeman strode into the light on the other side of the gate, very broad-chested and stern. "hallo! what's up here?" "he was really surprised, but after some palaver he let me in together with the two loafers carrying my luggage. he grumbled at them however and slammed the gate violently with a loud clang. i was startled to discover how many night prowlers had collected in the darkness of the street in such a short time and without my being aware of it. directly we were through they came surging against the bars, silent, like a mob of ugly spectres. but suddenly, up the street somewhere, perhaps near that public-house, a row started as if bedlam had broken loose: shouts, yells, an awful shrill shriek--and at that noise all these heads vanished from behind the bars. "look at this," marvelled the constable. "it's a wonder to me they didn't make off with your things while you were waiting." "i would have taken good care of that," i said defiantly. but the constable wasn't impressed. "much you would have done. the bag going off round one dark corner; the chest round another. would you have run two ways at once? and anyhow you'd have been tripped up and jumped upon before you had run three yards. i tell you you've had a most extraordinary chance that there wasn't one of them regular boys about to-night, in the high street, to twig your loaded cab go by. ted here is honest . . . you are on the honest lay, ted, ain't you?" "always was, orficer," said the big ruffian with feeling. the other frail creature seemed dumb and only hopped about with the edge of its soldier coat touching the ground. "oh yes, i dare say," said the constable. "now then, forward, march . . . he's that because he ain't game for the other thing," he confided to me. "he hasn't got the nerve for it. however, i ain't going to lose sight of them two till they go out through the gate. that little chap's a devil. he's got the nerve for anything, only he hasn't got the muscle. well! well! you've had a chance to get in with a whole skin and with all your things." "i was incredulous a little. it seemed impossible that after getting ready with so much hurry and inconvenience i should have lost my chance of a start in life from such a cause. i asked: "does that sort of thing happen often so near the dock gates?" "often! no! of course not often. but it ain't often either that a man comes along with a cabload of things to join a ship at this time of night. i've been in the dock police thirteen years and haven't seen it done once." "meantime we followed my sea-chest which was being carried down a sort of deep narrow lane, separating two high warehouses, between honest ted and his little devil of a pal who had to keep up a trot to the other's stride. the skirt of his soldier's coat floating behind him nearly swept the ground so that he seemed to be running on castors. at the corner of the gloomy passage a rigged jib boom with a dolphin-striker ending in an arrow-head stuck out of the night close to a cast iron lamp-post. it was the quay side. they set down their load in the light and honest ted asked hoarsely: "where's your ship, guv'nor?" "i didn't know. the constable was interested at my ignorance. "don't know where your ship is?" he asked with curiosity. "and you the second officer! haven't you been working on board of her?" "i couldn't explain that the only work connected with my appointment was the work of chance. i told him briefly that i didn't know her at all. at this he remarked: "so i see. here she is, right before you. that's her." "at once the head-gear in the gas light inspired me with interest and respect; the spars were big, the chains and ropes stout and the whole thing looked powerful and trustworthy. barely touched by the light her bows rose faintly alongside the narrow strip of the quay; the rest of her was a black smudge in the darkness. here i was face to face with my start in life. we walked in a body a few steps on a greasy pavement between her side and the towering wall of a warehouse and i hit my shins cruelly against the end of the gangway. the constable hailed her quietly in a bass undertone '_ferndale_ there!' a feeble and dismal sound, something in the nature of a buzzing groan, answered from behind the bulwarks. "i distinguished vaguely an irregular round knob, of wood, perhaps, resting on the rail. it did not move in the least; but as another brokendown buzz like a still fainter echo of the first dismal sound proceeded from it i concluded it must be the head of the ship-keeper. the stalwart constable jeered in a mock-official manner. "second officer coming to join. move yourself a bit." "the truth of the statement touched me in the pit of the stomach (you know that's the spot where emotion gets home on a man) for it was borne upon me that really and truly i was nothing but a second officer of a ship just like any other second officer, to that constable. i was moved by this solid evidence of my new dignity. only his tone offended me. nevertheless i gave him the tip he was looking for. thereupon he lost all interest in me, humorous or otherwise, and walked away driving sternly before him the honest ted, who went off grumbling to himself like a hungry ogre, and his horrible dumb little pal in the soldier's coat, who, from first to last, never emitted the slightest sound. "it was very dark on the quarter deck of the _ferndale_ between the deep bulwarks overshadowed by the break of the poop and frowned upon by the front of the warehouse. i plumped down on to my chest near the after hatch as if my legs had been jerked from under me. i felt suddenly very tired and languid. the ship-keeper, whom i could hardly make out hung over the capstan in a fit of weak pitiful coughing. he gasped out very low 'oh! dear! oh! dear!' and struggled for breath so long that i got up alarmed and irresolute. "i've been took like this since last christmas twelvemonth. it ain't nothing." "he seemed a hundred years old at least. i never saw him properly because he was gone ashore and out of sight when i came on deck in the morning; but he gave me the notion of the feeblest creature that ever breathed. his voice was thin like the buzzing of a mosquito. as it would have been cruel to demand assistance from such a shadowy wreck i went to work myself, dragging my chest along a pitch-black passage under the poop deck, while he sighed and moaned around me as if my exertions were more than his weakness could stand. at last as i banged pretty heavily against the bulkheads he warned me in his faint breathless wheeze to be more careful. "what's the matter?" i asked rather roughly, not relishing to be admonished by this forlorn broken-down ghost. "nothing! nothing, sir," he protested so hastily that he lost his poor breath again and i felt sorry for him. "only the captain and his missus are sleeping on board. she's a lady that mustn't be disturbed. they came about half-past eight, and we had a permit to have lights in the cabin till ten to-night." "this struck me as a considerable piece of news. i had never been in a ship where the captain had his wife with him. i'd heard fellows say that captains' wives could work a lot of mischief on board ship if they happened to take a dislike to anyone; especially the new wives if young and pretty. the old and experienced wives on the other hand fancied they knew more about the ship than the skipper himself and had an eye like a hawk's for what went on. they were like an extra chief mate of a particularly sharp and unfeeling sort who made his report in the evening. the best of them were a nuisance. in the general opinion a skipper with his wife on board was more difficult to please; but whether to show off his authority before an admiring female or from loving anxiety for her safety or simply from irritation at her presence--nobody i ever heard on the subject could tell for certain. "after i had bundled in my things somehow i struck a match and had a dazzling glimpse of my berth; then i pitched the roll of my bedding into the bunk but took no trouble to spread it out. i wasn't sleepy now, neither was i tired. and the thought that i was done with the earth for many many months to come made me feel very quiet and self-contained as it were. sailors will understand what i mean." marlow nodded. "it is a strictly professional feeling," he commented. "but other professions or trades know nothing of it. it is only this calling whose primary appeal lies in the suggestion of restless adventure which holds out that deep sensation to those who embrace it. it is difficult to define, i admit." "i should call it the peace of the sea," said mr. charles powell in an earnest tone but looking at us as though he expected to be met by a laugh of derision and were half prepared to salve his reputation for common sense by joining in it. but neither of us laughed at mr. charles powell in whose start in life we had been called to take a part. he was lucky in his audience. "a very good name," said marlow looking at him approvingly. "a sailor finds a deep feeling of security in the exercise of his calling. the exacting life of the sea has this advantage over the life of the earth that its claims are simple and cannot be evaded." "gospel truth," assented mr. powell. "no! they cannot be evaded." that an excellent understanding should have established itself between my old friend and our new acquaintance was remarkable enough. for they were exactly dissimilar--one individuality projecting itself in length and the other in breadth, which is already a sufficient ground for irreconcilable difference. marlow who was lanky, loose, quietly composed in varied shades of brown robbed of every vestige of gloss, had a narrow, veiled glance, the neutral bearing and the secret irritability which go together with a predisposition to congestion of the liver. the other, compact, broad and sturdy of limb, seemed extremely full of sound organs functioning vigorously all the time in order to keep up the brilliance of his colouring, the light curl of his coal-black hair and the lustre of his eyes, which asserted themselves roundly in an open, manly face. between two such organisms one would not have expected to find the slightest temperamental accord. but i have observed that profane men living in ships like the holy men gathered together in monasteries develop traits of profound resemblance. this must be because the service of the sea and the service of a temple are both detached from the vanities and errors of a world which follows no severe rule. the men of the sea understand each other very well in their view of earthly things, for simplicity is a good counsellor and isolation not a bad educator. a turn of mind composed of innocence and scepticism is common to them all, with the addition of an unexpected insight into motives, as of disinterested lookers-on at a game. mr. powell took me aside to say, "i like the things he says." "you understand each other pretty well," i observed. "i know his sort," said powell, going to the window to look at his cutter still riding to the flood. "he's the sort that's always chasing some notion or other round and round his head just for the fun of the thing." "keeps them in good condition," i said. "lively enough i dare say," he admitted. "would you like better a man who let his notions lie curled up?" "that i wouldn't," answered our new acquaintance. clearly he was not difficult to get on with. "i like him, very well," he continued, "though it isn't easy to make him out. he seems to be up to a thing or two. what's he doing?" i informed him that our friend marlow had retired from the sea in a sort of half-hearted fashion some years ago. mr. powell's comment was: "fancied had enough of it?" "fancied's the very word to use in this connection," i observed, remembering the subtly provisional character of marlow's long sojourn amongst us. from year to year he dwelt on land as a bird rests on the branch of a tree, so tense with the power of brusque flight into its true element that it is incomprehensible why it should sit still minute after minute. the sea is the sailor's true element, and marlow, lingering on shore, was to me an object of incredulous commiseration like a bird, which, secretly, should have lost its faith in the high virtue of flying. chapter two--the fynes and the girl-friend we were on our feet in the room by then, and marlow, brown and deliberate, approached the window where mr. powell and i had retired. "what was the name of your chance again?" he asked. mr. powell stared for a moment. "oh! the _ferndale_. a liverpool ship. composite built." "_ferndale_," repeated marlow thoughtfully. "_ferndale_." "know her?" "our friend," i said, "knows something of every ship. he seems to have gone about the seas prying into things considerably." marlow smiled. "i've seen her, at least once." "the finest sea-boat ever launched," declared mr. powell sturdily. "without exception." "she looked a stout, comfortable ship," assented marlow. "uncommonly comfortable. not very fast tho'." "she was fast enough for any reasonable man--when i was in her," growled mr. powell with his back to us. "any ship is that--for a reasonable man," generalized marlow in a conciliatory tone. "a sailor isn't a globe-trotter." "no," muttered mr. powell. "time's nothing to him," advanced marlow. "i don't suppose it's much," said mr. powell. "all the same a quick passage is a feather in a man's cap." "true. but that ornament is for the use of the master only. and by the by what was his name?" "the master of the _ferndale_? anthony. captain anthony." "just so. quite right," approved marlow thoughtfully. our new acquaintance looked over his shoulder. "what do you mean? why is it more right than if it had been brown?" "he has known him probably," i explained. "marlow here appears to know something of every soul that ever went afloat in a sailor's body." mr. powell seemed wonderfully amenable to verbal suggestions for looking again out of the window, he muttered: "he was a good soul." this clearly referred to captain anthony of the _ferndale_. marlow addressed his protest to me. "i did not know him. i really didn't. he was a good soul. that's nothing very much out of the way--is it? and i didn't even know that much of him. all i knew of him was an accident called fyne. at this mr. powell who evidently could be rebellious too turned his back squarely on the window. "what on earth do you mean?" he asked. "an--accident--called fyne," he repeated separating the words with emphasis. marlow was not disconcerted. "i don't mean accident in the sense of a mishap. not in the least. fyne was a good little man in the civil service. by accident i mean that which happens blindly and without intelligent design. that's generally the way a brother-in-law happens into a man's life." marlow's tone being apologetic and our new acquaintance having again turned to the window i took it upon myself to say: "you are justified. there is very little intelligent design in the majority of marriages; but they are none the worse for that. intelligence leads people astray as far as passion sometimes. i know you are not a cynic." marlow smiled his retrospective smile which was kind as though he bore no grudge against people he used to know. "little fyne's marriage was quite successful. there was no design at all in it. fyne, you must know, was an enthusiastic pedestrian. he spent his holidays tramping all over our native land. his tastes were simple. he put infinite conviction and perseverance into his holidays. at the proper season you would meet in the fields, fyne, a serious-faced, broadchested, little man, with a shabby knap-sack on his back, making for some church steeple. he had a horror of roads. he wrote once a little book called the 'tramp's itinerary,' and was recognised as an authority on the footpaths of england. so one year, in his favourite over-the-fields, back-way fashion he entered a pretty surrey village where he met miss anthony. pure accident, you see. they came to an understanding, across some stile, most likely. little fyne held very solemn views as to the destiny of women on this earth, the nature of our sublunary love, the obligations of this transient life and so on. he probably disclosed them to his future wife. miss anthony's views of life were very decided too but in a different way. i don't know the story of their wooing. i imagine it was carried on clandestinely and, i am certain, with portentous gravity, at the back of copses, behind hedges . . . "why was it carried on clandestinely?" i inquired. "because of the lady's father. he was a savage sentimentalist who had his own decided views of his paternal prerogatives. he was a terror; but the only evidence of imaginative faculty about fyne was his pride in his wife's parentage. it stimulated his ingenuity too. difficult--is it not?--to introduce one's wife's maiden name into general conversation. but my simple fyne made use of captain anthony for that purpose, or else i would never even have heard of the man. "my wife's sailor-brother" was the phrase. he trotted out the sailor-brother in a pretty wide range of subjects: indian and colonial affairs, matters of trade, talk of travels, of seaside holidays and so on. once i remember "my wife's sailor-brother captain anthony" being produced in connection with nothing less recondite than a sunset. and little fyne never failed to add "the son of carleon anthony, the poet--you know." he used to lower his voice for that statement, and people were impressed or pretended to be." the late carleon anthony, the poet, sang in his time of the domestic and social amenities of our age with a most felicitous versification, his object being, in his own words, "to glorify the result of six thousand years' evolution towards the refinement of thought, manners and feelings." why he fixed the term at six thousand years i don't know. his poems read like sentimental novels told in verse of a really superior quality. you felt as if you were being taken out for a delightful country drive by a charming lady in a pony carriage. but in his domestic life that same carleon anthony showed traces of the primitive cave-dweller's temperament. he was a massive, implacable man with a handsome face, arbitrary and exacting with his dependants, but marvellously suave in his manner to admiring strangers. these contrasted displays must have been particularly exasperating to his long-suffering family. after his second wife's death his boy, whom he persisted by a mere whim in educating at home, ran away in conventional style and, as if disgusted with the amenities of civilization, threw himself, figuratively speaking, into the sea. the daughter (the elder of the two children) either from compassion or because women are naturally more enduring, remained in bondage to the poet for several years, till she too seized a chance of escape by throwing herself into the arms, the muscular arms, of the pedestrian fyne. this was either great luck or great sagacity. a civil servant is, i should imagine, the last human being in the world to preserve those traits of the cave-dweller from which she was fleeing. her father would never consent to see her after the marriage. such unforgiving selfishness is difficult to understand unless as a perverse sort of refinement. there were also doubts as to carleon anthony's complete sanity for some considerable time before he died. most of the above i elicited from marlow, for all i knew of carleon anthony was his unexciting but fascinating verse. marlow assured me that the fyne marriage was perfectly successful and even happy, in an earnest, unplayful fashion, being blessed besides by three healthy, active, selfreliant children, all girls. they were all pedestrians too. even the youngest would wander away for miles if not restrained. mrs. fyne had a ruddy out-of-doors complexion and wore blouses with a starched front like a man's shirt, a stand-up collar and a long necktie. marlow had made their acquaintance one summer in the country, where they were accustomed to take a cottage for the holidays . . . at this point we were interrupted by mr. powell who declared that he must leave us. the tide was on the turn, he announced coming away from the window abruptly. he wanted to be on board his cutter before she swung and of course he would sleep on board. never slept away from the cutter while on a cruise. he was gone in a moment, unceremoniously, but giving us no offence and leaving behind an impression as though we had known him for a long time. the ingenuous way he had told us of his start in life had something to do with putting him on that footing with us. i gave no thought to seeing him again. marlow expressed a confident hope of coming across him before long. "he cruises about the mouth of the river all the summer. he will be easy to find any week-end," he remarked ringing the bell so that we might settle up with the waiter. * * * * * later on i asked marlow why he wished to cultivate this chance acquaintance. he confessed apologetically that it was the commonest sort of curiosity. i flatter myself that i understand all sorts of curiosity. curiosity about daily facts, about daily things, about daily men. it is the most respectable faculty of the human mind--in fact i cannot conceive the uses of an incurious mind. it would be like a chamber perpetually locked up. but in this particular case mr. powell seemed to have given us already a complete insight into his personality such as it was; a personality capable of perception and with a feeling for the vagaries of fate, but essentially simple in itself. marlow agreed with me so far. he explained however that his curiosity was not excited by mr. powell exclusively. it originated a good way further back in the fact of his accidental acquaintance with the fynes, in the country. this chance meeting with a man who had sailed with captain anthony had revived it. it had revived it to some purpose, to such purpose that to me too was given the knowledge of its origin and of its nature. it was given to me in several stages, at intervals which are not indicated here. on this first occasion i remarked to marlow with some surprise: "but, if i remember rightly you said you didn't know captain anthony." "no. i never saw the man. it's years ago now, but i seem to hear solemn little fyne's deep voice announcing the approaching visit of his wife's brother "the son of the poet, you know." he had just arrived in london from a long voyage, and, directly his occupations permitted, was coming down to stay with his relatives for a few weeks. no doubt we two should find many things to talk about by ourselves in reference to our common calling, added little fyne portentously in his grave undertones, as if the mercantile marine were a secret society. you must understand that i cultivated the fynes only in the country, in their holiday time. this was the third year. of their existence in town i knew no more than may be inferred from analogy. i played chess with fyne in the late afternoon, and sometimes came over to the cottage early enough to have tea with the whole family at a big round table. they sat about it, an unsmiling, sunburnt company of very few words indeed. even the children were silent and as if contemptuous of each other and of their elders. fyne muttered sometimes deep down in his chest some insignificant remark. mrs. fyne smiled mechanically (she had splendid teeth) while distributing tea and bread and butter. a something which was not coldness, nor yet indifference, but a sort of peculiar self-possession gave her the appearance of a very trustworthy, very capable and excellent governess; as if fyne were a widower and the children not her own but only entrusted to her calm, efficient, unemotional care. one expected her to address fyne as mr. when she called him john it surprised one like a shocking familiarity. the atmosphere of that holiday was--if i may put it so--brightly dull. healthy faces, fair complexions, clear eyes, and never a frank smile in the whole lot, unless perhaps from a girl-friend. the girl-friend problem exercised me greatly. how and where the fynes got all these pretty creatures to come and stay with them i can't imagine. i had at first the wild suspicion that they were obtained to amuse fyne. but i soon discovered that he could hardly tell one from the other, though obviously their presence met with his solemn approval. these girls in fact came for mrs. fyne. they treated her with admiring deference. she answered to some need of theirs. they sat at her feet. they were like disciples. it was very curious. of fyne they took but scanty notice. as to myself i was made to feel that i did not exist. after tea we would sit down to chess and then fyne's everlasting gravity became faintly tinged by an attenuated gleam of something inward which resembled sly satisfaction. of the divine frivolity of laughter he was only capable over a chess-board. certain positions of the game struck him as humorous, which nothing else on earth could do . . . "he used to beat you," i asserted with confidence. "yes. he used to beat me," marlow owned up hastily. so he and fyne played two games after tea. the children romped together outside, gravely, unplayfully, as one would expect from fyne's children, and mrs. fyne would be gone to the bottom of the garden with the girlfriend of the week. she always walked off directly after tea with her arm round the girl-friend's waist. marlow said that there was only one girl-friend with whom he had conversed at all. it had happened quite unexpectedly, long after he had given up all hope of getting into touch with these reserved girl-friends. one day he saw a woman walking about on the edge of a high quarry, which rose a sheer hundred feet, at least, from the road winding up the hill out of which it had been excavated. he shouted warningly to her from below where he happened to be passing. she was really in considerable danger. at the sound of his voice she started back and retreated out of his sight amongst some young scotch firs growing near the very brink of the precipice. "i sat down on a bank of grass," marlow went on. "she had given me a turn. the hem of her skirt seemed to float over that awful sheer drop, she was so close to the edge. an absurd thing to do. a perfectly mad trick--for no conceivable object! i was reflecting on the foolhardiness of the average girl and remembering some other instances of the kind, when she came into view walking down the steep curve of the road. she had mrs. fyne's walking-stick and was escorted by the fyne dog. her dead white face struck me with astonishment, so that i forgot to raise my hat. i just sat and stared. the dog, a vivacious and amiable animal which for some inscrutable reason had bestowed his friendship on my unworthy self, rushed up the bank demonstratively and insinuated himself under my arm. the girl-friend (it was one of them) went past some way as though she had not seen me, then stopped and called the dog to her several times; but he only nestled closer to my side, and when i tried to push him away developed that remarkable power of internal resistance by which a dog makes himself practically immovable by anything short of a kick. she looked over her shoulder and her arched eyebrows frowned above her blanched face. it was almost a scowl. then the expression changed. she looked unhappy. "come here!" she cried once more in an angry and distressed tone. i took off my hat at last, but the dog hanging out his tongue with that cheerfully imbecile expression some dogs know so well how to put on when it suits their purpose, pretended to be deaf. she cried from the distance desperately. "perhaps you will take him to the cottage then. i can't wait." "i won't be responsible for that dog," i protested getting down the bank and advancing towards her. she looked very hurt, apparently by the desertion of the dog. "but if you let me walk with you he will follow us all right," i suggested. she moved on without answering me. the dog launched himself suddenly full speed down the road receding from us in a small cloud of dust. it vanished in the distance, and presently we came up with him lying on the grass. he panted in the shade of the hedge with shining eyes but pretended not to see us. we had not exchanged a word so far. the girl by my side gave him a scornful glance in passing. "he offered to come with me," she remarked bitterly. "and then abandoned you!" i sympathized. "it looks very unchivalrous. but that's merely his want of tact. i believe he meant to protest against your reckless proceedings. what made you come so near the edge of that quarry? the earth might have given way. haven't you noticed a smashed fir tree at the bottom? tumbled over only the other morning after a night's rain." "i don't see why i shouldn't be as reckless as i please." i was nettled by her brusque manner of asserting her folly, and i told her that neither did i as far as that went, in a tone which almost suggested that she was welcome to break her neck for all i cared. this was considerably more than i meant, but i don't like rude girls. i had been introduced to her only the day before--at the round tea-table--and she had barely acknowledged the introduction. i had not caught her name but i had noticed her fine, arched eyebrows which, so the physiognomists say, are a sign of courage. i examined her appearance quietly. her hair was nearly black, her eyes blue, deeply shaded by long dark eyelashes. she had a little colour now. she looked straight before her; the corner of her lip on my side drooped a little; her chin was fine, somewhat pointed. i went on to say that some regard for others should stand in the way of one's playing with danger. i urged playfully the distress of the poor fynes in case of accident, if nothing else. i told her that she did not know the bucolic mind. had she given occasion for a coroner's inquest the verdict would have been suicide, with the implication of unhappy love. they would never be able to understand that she had taken the trouble to climb over two post-and-rail fences only for the fun of being reckless. indeed even as i talked chaffingly i was greatly struck myself by the fact. she retorted that once one was dead what horrid people thought of one did not matter. it was said with infinite contempt; but something like a suppressed quaver in the voice made me look at her again. i perceived then that her thick eyelashes were wet. this surprising discovery silenced me as you may guess. she looked unhappy. and--i don't know how to say it--well--it suited her. the clouded brow, the pained mouth, the vague fixed glance! a victim. and this characteristic aspect made her attractive; an individual touch--you know. the dog had run on ahead and now gazed at us by the side of the fyne's garden-gate in a tense attitude and wagging his stumpy tail very, very slowly, with an air of concentrated attention. the girl-friend of the fynes bolted violently through the aforesaid gate and into the cottage leaving me on the road--astounded. a couple of hours afterwards i returned to the cottage for chess as usual. i saw neither the girl nor mrs. fyne then. we had our two games and on parting i warned fyne that i was called to town on business and might be away for some time. he regretted it very much. his brother-inlaw was expected next day but he didn't know whether he was a chess-player. captain anthony ("the son of the poet--you know") was of a retiring disposition, shy with strangers, unused to society and very much devoted to his calling, fyne explained. all the time they had been married he could be induced only once before to come and stay with them for a few days. he had had a rather unhappy boyhood; and it made him a silent man. but no doubt, concluded fyne, as if dealing portentously with a mystery, we two sailors should find much to say to one another. this point was never settled. i was detained in town from week to week till it seemed hardly worth while to go back. but as i had kept on my rooms in the farmhouse i concluded to go down again for a few days. it was late, deep dusk, when i got out at our little country station. my eyes fell on the unmistakable broad back and the muscular legs in cycling stockings of little fyne. he passed along the carriages rapidly towards the rear of the train, which presently pulled out and left him solitary at the end of the rustic platform. when he came back to where i waited i perceived that he was much perturbed, so perturbed as to forget the convention of the usual greetings. he only exclaimed oh! on recognizing me, and stopped irresolute. when i asked him if he had been expecting somebody by that train he didn't seem to know. he stammered disconnectedly. i looked hard at him. to all appearances he was perfectly sober; moreover to suspect fyne of a lapse from the proprieties high or low, great or small, was absurd. he was also a too serious and deliberate person to go mad suddenly. but as he seemed to have forgotten that he had a tongue in his head i concluded i would leave him to his mystery. to my surprise he followed me out of the station and kept by my side, though i did not encourage him. i did not however repulse his attempts at conversation. he was no longer expecting me, he said. he had given me up. the weather had been uniformly fine--and so on. i gathered also that the son of the poet had curtailed his stay somewhat and gone back to his ship the day before. that information touched me but little. believing in heredity in moderation i knew well how sea-life fashions a man outwardly and stamps his soul with the mark of a certain prosaic fitness--because a sailor is not an adventurer. i expressed no regret at missing captain anthony and we proceeded in silence till, on approaching the holiday cottage, fyne suddenly and unexpectedly broke it by the hurried declaration that he would go on with me a little farther. "go with you to your door," he mumbled and started forward to the little gate where the shadowy figure of mrs. fyne hovered, clearly on the lookout for him. she was alone. the children must have been already in bed and i saw no attending girl-friend shadow near her vague but unmistakable form, half-lost in the obscurity of the little garden. i heard fyne exclaim "nothing" and then mrs. fyne's well-trained, responsible voice uttered the words, "it's what i have said," with incisive equanimity. by that time i had passed on, raising my hat. almost at once fyne caught me up and slowed down to my strolling gait which must have been infinitely irksome to his high pedestrian faculties. i am sure that all his muscular person must have suffered from awful physical boredom; but he did not attempt to charm it away by conversation. he preserved a portentous and dreary silence. and i was bored too. suddenly i perceived the menace of even worse boredom. yes! he was so silent because he had something to tell me. i became extremely frightened. but man, reckless animal, is so made that in him curiosity, the paltriest curiosity, will overcome all terrors, every disgust, and even despair itself. to my laconic invitation to come in for a drink he answered by a deep, gravely accented: "thanks, i will" as though it were a response in church. his face as seen in the lamplight gave me no clue to the character of the impending communication; as indeed from the nature of things it couldn't do, its normal expression being already that of the utmost possible seriousness. it was perfect and immovable; and for a certainty if he had something excruciatingly funny to tell me it would be all the same. he gazed at me earnestly and delivered himself of some weighty remarks on mrs. fyne's desire to befriend, counsel, and guide young girls of all sorts on the path of life. it was a voluntary mission. he approved his wife's action and also her views and principles in general. all this with a solemn countenance and in deep measured tones. yet somehow i got an irresistible conviction that he was exasperated by something in particular. in the unworthy hope of being amused by the misfortunes of a fellow-creature i asked him point-blank what was wrong now. what was wrong was that a girl-friend was missing. she had been missing precisely since six o'clock that morning. the woman who did the work of the cottage saw her going out at that hour, for a walk. the pedestrian fyne's ideas of a walk were extensive, but the girl did not turn up for lunch, nor yet for tea, nor yet for dinner. she had not turned up by footpath, road or rail. he had been reluctant to make inquiries. it would have set all the village talking. the fynes had expected her to reappear every moment, till the shades of the night and the silence of slumber had stolen gradually over the wide and peaceful rural landscape commanded by the cottage. after telling me that much fyne sat helpless in unconclusive agony. going to bed was out of the question--neither could any steps be taken just then. what to do with himself he did not know! i asked him if this was the same young lady i saw a day or two before i went to town? he really could not remember. was she a girl with dark hair and blue eyes? i asked further. he really couldn't tell what colour her eyes were. he was very unobservant except as to the peculiarities of footpaths, on which he was an authority. i thought with amazement and some admiration that mrs. fyne's young disciples were to her husband's gravity no more than evanescent shadows. however, with but little hesitation fyne ventured to affirm that--yes, her hair was of some dark shade. "we had a good deal to do with that girl first and last," he explained solemnly; then getting up as if moved by a spring he snatched his cap off the table. "she may be back in the cottage," he cried in his bass voice. i followed him out on the road. it was one of those dewy, clear, starry nights, oppressing our spirit, crushing our pride, by the brilliant evidence of the awful loneliness, of the hopeless obscure insignificance of our globe lost in the splendid revelation of a glittering, soulless universe. i hate such skies. daylight is friendly to man toiling under a sun which warms his heart; and cloudy soft nights are more kindly to our littleness. i nearly ran back again to my lighted parlour; fyne fussing in a knicker-bocker suit before the hosts of heaven, on a shadowy earth, about a transient, phantom-like girl, seemed too ridiculous to associate with. on the other hand there was something fascinating in the very absurdity. he cut along in his best pedestrian style and i found myself let in for a spell of severe exercise at eleven o'clock at night. in the distance over the fields and trees smudging and blotching the vast obscurity, one lighted window of the cottage with the blind up was like a bright beacon kept alight to guide the lost wanderer. inside, at the table bearing the lamp, we saw mrs. fyne sitting with folded arms and not a hair of her head out of place. she looked exactly like a governess who had put the children to bed; and her manner to me was just the neutral manner of a governess. to her husband, too, for that matter. fyne told her that i was fully informed. not a muscle of her ruddy smooth handsome face moved. she had schooled herself into that sort of thing. having seen two successive wives of the delicate poet chivied and worried into their graves, she had adopted that cool, detached manner to meet her gifted father's outbreaks of selfish temper. it had now become a second nature. i suppose she was always like that; even in the very hour of elopement with fyne. that transaction when one remembered it in her presence acquired a quaintly marvellous aspect to one's imagination. but somehow her self-possession matched very well little fyne's invariable solemnity. i was rather sorry for him. wasn't he worried! the agony of solemnity. at the same time i was amused. i didn't take a gloomy view of that "vanishing girl" trick. somehow i couldn't. but i said nothing. none of us said anything. we sat about that big round table as if assembled for a conference and looked at each other in a sort of fatuous consternation. i would have ended by laughing outright if i had not been saved from that impropriety by poor fyne becoming preposterous. he began with grave anguish to talk of going to the police in the morning, of printing descriptive bills, of setting people to drag the ponds for miles around. it was extremely gruesome. i murmured something about communicating with the young lady's relatives. it seemed to me a very natural suggestion; but fyne and his wife exchanged such a significant glance that i felt as though i had made a tactless remark. but i really wanted to help poor fyne; and as i could see that, manlike, he suffered from the present inability to act, the passive waiting, i said: "nothing of this can be done till to-morrow. but as you have given me an insight into the nature of your thoughts i can tell you what may be done at once. we may go and look at the bottom of the old quarry which is on the level of the road, about a mile from here." the couple made big eyes at this, and then i told them of my meeting with the girl. you may be surprised but i assure you i had not perceived this aspect of it till that very moment. it was like a startling revelation; the past throwing a sinister light on the future. fyne opened his mouth gravely and as gravely shut it. nothing more. mrs. fyne said, "you had better go," with an air as if her self-possession had been pricked with a pin in some secret place. and i--you know how stupid i can be at times--i perceived with dismay for the first time that by pandering to fyne's morbid fancies i had let myself in for some more severe exercise. and wasn't i sorry i spoke! you know how i hate walking--at least on solid, rural earth; for i can walk a ship's deck a whole foggy night through, if necessary, and think little of it. there is some satisfaction too in playing the vagabond in the streets of a big town till the sky pales above the ridges of the roofs. i have done that repeatedly for pleasure--of a sort. but to tramp the slumbering country-side in the dark is for me a wearisome nightmare of exertion. with perfect detachment mrs. fyne watched me go out after her husband. that woman was flint. * * * * * the fresh night had a smell of soil, of turned-up sods like a grave--an association particularly odious to a sailor by its idea of confinement and narrowness; yes, even when he has given up the hope of being buried at sea; about the last hope a sailor gives up consciously after he has been, as it does happen, decoyed by some chance into the toils of the land. a strong grave-like sniff. the ditch by the side of the road must have been freshly dug in front of the cottage. once clear of the garden fyne gathered way like a racing cutter. what was a mile to him--or twenty miles? you think he might have gone shrinkingly on such an errand. but not a bit of it. the force of pedestrian genius i suppose. i raced by his side in a mood of profound self-derision, and infinitely vexed with that minx. because dead or alive i thought of her as a minx . . ." i smiled incredulously at marlow's ferocity; but marlow pausing with a whimsically retrospective air, never flinched. "yes, yes. even dead. and now you are shocked. you see, you are such a chivalrous masculine beggar. but there is enough of the woman in my nature to free my judgment of women from glamorous reticency. and then, why should i upset myself? a woman is not necessarily either a doll or an angel to me. she is a human being, very much like myself. and i have come across too many dead souls lying so to speak at the foot of high unscaleable places for a merely possible dead body at the bottom of a quarry to strike my sincerity dumb. the cliff-like face of the quarry looked forbiddingly impressive. i will admit that fyne and i hung back for a moment before we made a plunge off the road into the bushes growing in a broad space at the foot of the towering limestone wall. these bushes were heavy with dew. there were also concealed mudholes in there. we crept and tumbled and felt about with our hands along the ground. we got wet, scratched, and plastered with mire all over our nether garments. fyne fell suddenly into a strange cavity--probably a disused lime-kiln. his voice uplifted in grave distress sounded more than usually rich, solemn and profound. this was the comic relief of an absurdly dramatic situation. while hauling him out i permitted myself to laugh aloud at last. fyne, of course, didn't. i need not tell you that we found nothing after a most conscientious search. fyne even pushed his way into a decaying shed half-buried in dewsoaked vegetation. he struck matches, several of them too, as if to make absolutely sure that the vanished girl-friend of his wife was not hiding there. the short flares illuminated his grave, immovable countenance while i let myself go completely and laughed in peals. i asked him if he really and truly supposed that any sane girl would go and hide in that shed; and if so why? disdainful of my mirth he merely muttered his basso-profundo thankfulness that we had not found her anywhere about there. having grown extremely sensitive (an effect of irritation) to the tonalities, i may say, of this affair, i felt that it was only an imperfect, reserved, thankfulness, with one eye still on the possibilities of the several ponds in the neighbourhood. and i remember i snorted, i positively snorted, at that poor fyne. what really jarred upon me was the rate of his walking. differences in politics, in ethics and even in aesthetics need not arouse angry antagonism. one's opinion may change; one's tastes may alter--in fact they do. one's very conception of virtue is at the mercy of some felicitous temptation which may be sprung on one any day. all these things are perpetually on the swing. but a temperamental difference, temperament being immutable, is the parent of hate. that's why religious quarrels are the fiercest of all. my temperament, in matters pertaining to solid land, is the temperament of leisurely movement, of deliberate gait. and there was that little fyne pounding along the road in a most offensive manner; a man wedded to thick-soled, laced boots; whereas my temperament demands thin shoes of the lightest kind. of course there could never have been question of friendship between us; but under the provocation of having to keep up with his pace i began to dislike him actively. i begged sarcastically to know whether he could tell me if we were engaged in a farce or in a tragedy. i wanted to regulate my feelings which, i told him, were in an unbecoming state of confusion. but fyne was as impervious to sarcasm as a turtle. he tramped on, and all he did was to ejaculate twice out of his deep chest, vaguely, doubtfully. "i am afraid . . . i am afraid! . . . " this was tragic. the thump of his boots was the only sound in a shadowy world. i kept by his side with a comparatively ghostly, silent tread. by a strange illusion the road appeared to run up against a lot of low stars at no very great distance, but as we advanced new stretches of whiteybrown ribbon seemed to come up from under the black ground. i observed, as we went by, the lamp in my parlour in the farmhouse still burning. but i did not leave fyne to run in and put it out. the impetus of his pedestrian excellence carried me past in his wake before i could make up my mind. "tell me, fyne," i cried, "you don't think the girl was mad--do you?" he answered nothing. soon the lighted beacon-like window of the cottage came into view. then fyne uttered a solemn: "certainly not," with profound assurance. but immediately after he added a "very highly strung young person indeed," which unsettled me again. was it a tragedy? "nobody ever got up at six o'clock in the morning to commit suicide," i declared crustily. "it's unheard of! this is a farce." as a matter of fact it was neither farce nor tragedy. coming up to the cottage we had a view of mrs. fyne inside still sitting in the strong light at the round table with folded arms. it looked as though she had not moved her very head by as much as an inch since we went away. she was amazing in a sort of unsubtle way; crudely amazing--i thought. why crudely? i don't know. perhaps because i saw her then in a crude light. i mean this materially--in the light of an unshaded lamp. our mental conclusions depend so much on momentary physical sensations--don't they? if the lamp had been shaded i should perhaps have gone home after expressing politely my concern at the fynes' unpleasant predicament. losing a girl-friend in that manner is unpleasant. it is also mysterious. so mysterious that a certain mystery attaches to the people to whom such a thing does happen. moreover i had never really understood the fynes; he with his solemnity which extended to the very eating of bread and butter; she with that air of detachment and resolution in breasting the common-place current of their unexciting life, in which the cutting of bread and butter appeared to me, by a long way, the most dangerous episode. sometimes i amused myself by supposing that to their minds this world of ours must be wearing a perfectly overwhelming aspect, and that their heads contained respectively awfully serious and extremely desperate thoughts--and trying to imagine what an exciting time they must be having of it in the inscrutable depths of their being. this last was difficult to a volatile person (i am sure that to the fynes i was a volatile person) and the amusement in itself was not very great; but still--in the country--away from all mental stimulants! . . . my efforts had invested them with a sort of amusing profundity. but when fyne and i got back into the room, then in the searching, domestic, glare of the lamp, inimical to the play of fancy, i saw these two stripped of every vesture it had amused me to put on them for fun. queer enough they were. is there a human being that isn't that--more or less secretly? but whatever their secret, it was manifest to me that it was neither subtle nor profound. they were a good, stupid, earnest couple and very much bothered. they were that--with the usual unshaded crudity of average people. there was nothing in them that the lamplight might not touch without the slightest risk of indiscretion. directly we had entered the room fyne announced the result by saying "nothing" in the same tone as at the gate on his return from the railway station. and as then mrs. fyne uttered an incisive "it's what i've said," which might have been the veriest echo of her words in the garden. we three looked at each other as if on the brink of a disclosure. i don't know whether she was vexed at my presence. it could hardly be called intrusion--could it? little fyne began it. it had to go on. we stood before her, plastered with the same mud (fyne was a sight!), scratched by the same brambles, conscious of the same experience. yes. before her. and she looked at us with folded arms, with an extraordinary fulness of assumed responsibility. i addressed her. "you don't believe in an accident, mrs. fyne, do you?" she shook her head in curt negation while, caked in mud and inexpressibly serious-faced, fyne seemed to be backing her up with all the weight of his solemn presence. nothing more absurd could be conceived. it was delicious. and i went on in deferential accents: "am i to understand then that you entertain the theory of suicide?" i don't know that i am liable to fits of delirium but by a sudden and alarming aberration while waiting for her answer i became mentally aware of three trained dogs dancing on their hind legs. i don't know why. perhaps because of the pervading solemnity. there's nothing more solemn on earth than a dance of trained dogs. "she has chosen to disappear. that's all." in these words mrs. fyne answered me. the aggressive tone was too much for my endurance. in an instant i found myself out of the dance and down on all-fours so to speak, with liberty to bark and bite. "the devil she has," i cried. "has chosen to . . . like this, all at once, anyhow, regardless . . . i've had the privilege of meeting that reckless and brusque young lady and i must say that with her air of an angry victim . . . " "precisely," mrs. fyne said very unexpectedly like a steel trap going off. i stared at her. how provoking she was! so i went on to finish my tirade. "she struck me at first sight as the most inconsiderate wrongheaded girl that i ever . . . " "why should a girl be more considerate than anyone else? more than any man, for instance?" inquired mrs. fyne with a still greater assertion of responsibility in her bearing. of course i exclaimed at this, not very loudly it is true, but forcibly. were then the feelings of friends, relations and even of strangers to be disregarded? i asked mrs. fyne if she did not think it was a sort of duty to show elementary consideration not only for the natural feelings but even for the prejudices of one's fellow-creatures. her answer knocked me over. "not for a woman." just like that. i confess that i went down flat. and while in that collapsed state i learned the true nature of mrs. fyne's feminist doctrine. it was not political, it was not social. it was a knock-medown doctrine--a practical individualistic doctrine. you would not thank me for expounding it to you at large. indeed i think that she herself did not enlighten me fully. there must have been things not fit for a man to hear. but shortly, and as far as my bewilderment allowed me to grasp its naive atrociousness, it was something like this: that no consideration, no delicacy, no tenderness, no scruples should stand in the way of a woman (who by the mere fact of her sex was the predestined victim of conditions created by men's selfish passions, their vices and their abominable tyranny) from taking the shortest cut towards securing for herself the easiest possible existence. she had even the right to go out of existence without considering anyone's feelings or convenience since some women's existences were made impossible by the shortsighted baseness of men. i looked at her, sitting before the lamp at one o'clock in the morning, with her mature, smooth-cheeked face of masculine shape robbed of its freshness by fatigue; at her eyes dimmed by this senseless vigil. i looked also at fyne; the mud was drying on him; he was obviously tired. the weariness of solemnity. but he preserved an unflinching, endorsing, gravity of expression. endorsing it all as became a good, convinced husband. "oh! i see," i said. "no consideration . . . well i hope you like it." they amused me beyond the wildest imaginings of which i was capable. after the first shock, you understand, i recovered very quickly. the order of the world was safe enough. he was a civil servant and she his good and faithful wife. but when it comes to dealing with human beings anything, anything may be expected. so even my astonishment did not last very long. how far she developed and illustrated that conscienceless and austere doctrine to the girl-friends, who were mere transient shadows to her husband, i could not tell. any length i supposed. and he looked on, acquiesced, approved, just for that very reason--because these pretty girls were but shadows to him. o! most virtuous fyne! he cast his eyes down. he didn't like it. but i eyed him with hidden animosity for he had got me to run after him under somewhat false pretences. mrs. fyne had only smiled at me very expressively, very self-confidently. "oh i quite understand that you accept the fullest responsibility," i said. "i am the only ridiculous person in this--this--i don't know how to call it--performance. however, i've nothing more to do here, so i'll say good-night--or good morning, for it must be past one." but before departing, in common decency, i offered to take any wires they might write. my lodgings were nearer the post-office than the cottage and i would send them off the first thing in the morning. i supposed they would wish to communicate, if only as to the disposal of the luggage, with the young lady's relatives . . . fyne, he looked rather downcast by then, thanked me and declined. "there is really no one," he said, very grave. "no one," i exclaimed. "practically," said curt mrs. fyne. and my curiosity was aroused again. "ah! i see. an orphan." mrs. fyne looked away weary and sombre, and fyne said "yes" impulsively, and then qualified the affirmative by the quaint statement: "to a certain extent." i became conscious of a languid, exhausted embarrassment, bowed to mrs. fyne, and went out of the cottage to be confronted outside its door by the bespangled, cruel revelation of the immensity of the universe. the night was not sufficiently advanced for the stars to have paled; and the earth seemed to me more profoundly asleep--perhaps because i was alone now. not having fyne with me to set the pace i let myself drift, rather than walk, in the direction of the farmhouse. to drift is the only reposeful sort of motion (ask any ship if it isn't) and therefore consistent with thoughtfulness. and i pondered: how is one an orphan "to a certain extent"? no amount of solemnity could make such a statement other than bizarre. what a strange condition to be in. very likely one of the parents only was dead? but no; it couldn't be, since fyne had said just before that "there was really no one" to communicate with. no one! and then remembering mrs. fyne's snappy "practically" my thoughts fastened upon that lady as a more tangible object of speculation. i wondered--and wondering i doubted--whether she really understood herself the theory she had propounded to me. everything may be said--indeed ought to be said--providing we know how to say it. she probably did not. she was not intelligent enough for that. she had no knowledge of the world. she had got hold of words as a child might get hold of some poisonous pills and play with them for "dear, tiny little marbles." no! the domestic-slave daughter of carleon anthony and the little fyne of the civil service (that flower of civilization) were not intelligent people. they were commonplace, earnest, without smiles and without guile. but he had his solemnities and she had her reveries, her lurid, violent, crude reveries. and i thought with some sadness that all these revolts and indignations, all these protests, revulsions of feeling, pangs of suffering and of rage, expressed but the uneasiness of sensual beings trying for their share in the joys of form, colour, sensations--the only riches of our world of senses. a poet may be a simple being but he is bound to be various and full of wiles, ingenious and irritable. i reflected on the variety of ways the ingenuity of the late bard of civilization would be able to invent for the tormenting of his dependants. poets not being generally foresighted in practical affairs, no vision of consequences would restrain him. yes. the fynes were excellent people, but mrs. fyne wasn't the daughter of a domestic tyrant for nothing. there were no limits to her revolt. but they were excellent people. it was clear that they must have been extremely good to that girl whose position in the world seemed somewhat difficult, with her face of a victim, her obvious lack of resignation and the bizarre status of orphan "to a certain extent." such were my thoughts, but in truth i soon ceased to trouble about all these people. i found that my lamp had gone out leaving behind an awful smell. i fled from it up the stairs and went to bed in the dark. my slumbers--i suppose the one good in pedestrian exercise, confound it, is that it helps our natural callousness--my slumbers were deep, dreamless and refreshing. my appetite at breakfast was not affected by my ignorance of the facts, motives, events and conclusions. i think that to understand everything is not good for the intellect. a well-stocked intelligence weakens the impulse to action; an overstocked one leads gently to idiocy. but mrs. fyne's individualist woman-doctrine, naively unscrupulous, flitted through my mind. the salad of unprincipled notions she put into these girl-friends' heads! good innocent creature, worthy wife, excellent mother (of the strict governess type), she was as guileless of consequences as any determinist philosopher ever was. as to honour--you know--it's a very fine medieval inheritance which women never got hold of. it wasn't theirs. since it may be laid as a general principle that women always get what they want we must suppose they didn't want it. in addition they are devoid of decency. i mean masculine decency. cautiousness too is foreign to them--the heavy reasonable cautiousness which is our glory. and if they had it they would make of it a thing of passion, so that its own mother--i mean the mother of cautiousness--wouldn't recognize it. prudence with them is a matter of thrill like the rest of sublunary contrivances. "sensation at any cost," is their secret device. all the virtues are not enough for them; they want also all the crimes for their own. and why? because in such completeness there is power--the kind of thrill they love most . . . " "do you expect me to agree to all this?" i interrupted. "no, it isn't necessary," said marlow, feeling the check to his eloquence but with a great effort at amiability. "you need not even understand it. i continue: with such disposition what prevents women--to use the phrase an old boatswain of my acquaintance applied descriptively to his captain--what prevents them from "coming on deck and playing hell with the ship" generally, is that something in them precise and mysterious, acting both as restraint and as inspiration; their femininity in short which they think they can get rid of by trying hard, but can't, and never will. therefore we may conclude that, for all their enterprises, the world is and remains safe enough. feeling, in my character of a lover of peace, soothed by that conclusion i prepared myself to enjoy a fine day. and it was a fine day; a delicious day, with the horror of the infinite veiled by the splendid tent of blue; a day innocently bright like a child with a washed face, fresh like an innocent young girl, suave in welcoming one's respects like--like a roman prelate. i love such days. they are perfection for remaining indoors. and i enjoyed it temperamentally in a chair, my feet up on the sill of the open window, a book in my hands and the murmured harmonies of wind and sun in my heart making an accompaniment to the rhythms of my author. then looking up from the page i saw outside a pair of grey eyes thatched by ragged yellowy-white eyebrows gazing at me solemnly over the toes of my slippers. there was a grave, furrowed brow surmounting that portentous gaze, a brown tweed cap set far back on the perspiring head. "come inside," i cried as heartily as my sinking heart would permit. after a short but severe scuffle with his dog at the outer door, fyne entered. i treated him without ceremony and only waved my hand towards a chair. even before he sat down he gasped out: "we've heard--midday post." gasped out! the grave, immovable fyne of the civil service, gasped! this was enough, you'll admit, to cause me to put my feet to the ground swiftly. that fellow was always making me do things in subtle discord with my meditative temperament. no wonder that i had but a qualified liking for him. i said with just a suspicion of jeering tone: "of course. i told you last night on the road that it was a farce we were engaged in." he made the little parlour resound to its foundations with a note of anger positively sepulchral in its depth of tone. "farce be hanged! she has bolted with my wife's brother, captain anthony." this outburst was followed by complete subsidence. he faltered miserably as he added from force of habit: "the son of the poet, you know." a silence fell. fyne's several expressions were so many examples of varied consistency. this was the discomfiture of solemnity. my interest of course was revived. "but hold on," i said. "they didn't go together. is it a suspicion or does she actually say that . . . " "she has gone after him," stated fyne in comminatory tones. "by previous arrangement. she confesses that much." he added that it was very shocking. i asked him whether he should have preferred them going off together; and on what ground he based that preference. this was sheer fun for me in regard of the fact that fyne's too was a runaway match, which even got into the papers in its time, because the late indignant poet had no discretion and sought to avenge this outrage publicly in some absurd way before a bewigged judge. the dejected gesture of little fyne's hand disarmed my mocking mood. but i could not help expressing my surprise that mrs. fyne had not detected at once what was brewing. women were supposed to have an unerring eye. he told me that his wife had been very much engaged in a certain work. i had always wondered how she occupied her time. it was in writing. like her husband she too published a little book. much later on i came upon it. it had nothing to do with pedestrianism. it was a sort of hand-book for women with grievances (and all women had them), a sort of compendious theory and practice of feminine free morality. it made you laugh at its transparent simplicity. but that authorship was revealed to me much later. i didn't of course ask fyne what work his wife was engaged on; but i marvelled to myself at her complete ignorance of the world, of her own sex and of the other kind of sinners. yet, where could she have got any experience? her father had kept her strictly cloistered. marriage with fyne was certainly a change but only to another kind of claustration. you may tell me that the ordinary powers of observation ought to have been enough. why, yes! but, then, as she had set up for a guide and teacher, there was nothing surprising for me in the discovery that she was blind. that's quite in order. she was a profoundly innocent person; only it would not have been proper to tell her husband so. chapter three--thrift--and the child but there was nothing improper in my observing to fyne that, last night, mrs. fyne seemed to have some idea where that enterprising young lady had gone to. fyne shook his head. no; his wife had been by no means so certain as she had pretended to be. she merely had her reasons to think, to hope, that the girl might have taken a room somewhere in london, had buried herself in town--in readiness or perhaps in horror of the approaching day-he ceased and sat solemnly dejected, in a brown study. "what day?" i asked at last; but he did not hear me apparently. he diffused such portentous gloom into the atmosphere that i lost patience with him. "what on earth are you so dismal about?" i cried, being genuinely surprised and puzzled. "one would think the girl was a state prisoner under your care." and suddenly i became still more surprised at myself, at the way i had somehow taken for granted things which did appear queer when one thought them out. "but why this secrecy? why did they elope--if it is an elopement? was the girl afraid of your wife? and your brother-in-law? what on earth possesses him to make a clandestine match of it? was he afraid of your wife too?" fyne made an effort to rouse himself. "of course my brother-in-law, captain anthony, the son of . . . " he checked himself as if trying to break a bad habit. "he would be persuaded by her. we have been most friendly to the girl!" "she struck me as a foolish and inconsiderate little person. but why should you and your wife take to heart so strongly mere folly--or even a want of consideration?" "it's the most unscrupulous action," declared fyne weightily--and sighed. "i suppose she is poor," i observed after a short silence. "but after all . . . " "you don't know who she is." fyne had regained his average solemnity. i confessed that i had not caught her name when his wife had introduced us to each other. "it was something beginning with an swasn't it?" and then with the utmost coolness fyne remarked that it did not matter. the name was not her name. "do you mean to say that you made a young lady known to me under a false name?" i asked, with the amused feeling that the days of wonders and portents had not passed away yet. that the eminently serious fynes should do such an exceptional thing was simply staggering. with a more hasty enunciation than usual little fyne was sure that i would not demand an apology for this irregularity if i knew what her real name was. a sort of warmth crept into his deep tone. "we have tried to befriend that girl in every way. she is the daughter and only child of de barral." evidently he expected to produce a sensation; he kept his eyes fixed upon me prepared for some sign of it. but i merely returned his intense, awaiting gaze. for a time we stared at each other. conscious of being reprehensibly dense i groped in the darkness of my mind: de barral, de barral--and all at once noise and light burst on me as if a window of my memory had been suddenly flung open on a street in the city. de barral! but could it be the same? surely not! "the financier?" i suggested half incredulous. "yes," said fyne; and in this instance his native solemnity of tone seemed to be strangely appropriate. "the convict." marlow looked at me, significantly, and remarked in an explanatory tone: "one somehow never thought of de barral as having any children, or any other home than the offices of the "orb"; or any other existence, associations or interests than financial. i see you remember the crash . . . " "i was away in the indian seas at the time," i said. "but of course--" "of course," marlow struck in. "all the world . . . you may wonder at my slowness in recognizing the name. but you know that my memory is merely a mausoleum of proper names. there they lie inanimate, awaiting the magic touch--and not very prompt in arising when called, either. the name is the first thing i forget of a man. it is but just to add that frequently it is also the last, and this accounts for my possession of a good many anonymous memories. in de barral's case, he got put away in my mausoleum in company with so many names of his own creation that really he had to throw off a monstrous heap of grisly bones before he stood before me at the call of the wizard fyne. the fellow had a pretty fancy in names: the "orb" deposit bank, the "sceptre" mutual aid society, the "thrift and independence" association. yes, a very pretty taste in names; and nothing else besides--absolutely nothing--no other merit. well yes. he had another name, but that's pure luck--his own name of de barral which he did not invent. i don't think that a mere jones or brown could have fished out from the depths of the incredible such a colossal manifestation of human folly as that man did. but it may be that i am underestimating the alacrity of human folly in rising to the bait. no doubt i am. the greed of that absurd monster is incalculable, unfathomable, inconceivable. the career of de barral demonstrates that it will rise to a naked hook. he didn't lure it with a fairy tale. he hadn't enough imagination for it . . . " "was he a foreigner?" i asked. "it's clearly a french name. i suppose it _was_ his name?" "oh, he didn't invent it. he was born to it, in bethnal green, as it came out during the proceedings. he was in the habit of alluding to his scotch connections. but every great man has done that. the mother, i believe, was scotch, right enough. the father de barral whatever his origins retired from the customs service (tide-waiter i think), and started lending money in a very, very small way in the east end to people connected with the docks, stevedores, minor barge-owners, ship-chandlers, tally clerks, all sorts of very small fry. he made his living at it. he was a very decent man i believe. he had enough influence to place his only son as junior clerk in the account department of one of the dock companies. "now, my boy," he said to him, "i've given you a fine start." but de barral didn't start. he stuck. he gave perfect satisfaction. at the end of three years he got a small rise of salary and went out courting in the evenings. he went courting the daughter of an old seacaptain who was a churchwarden of his parish and lived in an old badly preserved georgian house with a garden: one of these houses standing in a reduced bit of "grounds" that you discover in a labyrinth of the most sordid streets, exactly alike and composed of six-roomed hutches. some of them were the vicarages of slum parishes. the old sailor had got hold of one cheap, and de barral got hold of his daughter--which was a good bargain for him. the old sailor was very good to the young couple and very fond of their little girl. mrs. de barral was an equable, unassuming woman, at that time with a fund of simple gaiety, and with no ambitions; but, woman-like, she longed for change and for something interesting to happen now and then. it was she who encouraged de barral to accept the offer of a post in the west-end branch of a great bank. it appears he shrank from such a great adventure for a long time. at last his wife's arguments prevailed. later on she used to say: 'it's the only time he ever listened to me; and i wonder now if it hadn't been better for me to die before i ever made him go into that bank.' you may be surprised at my knowledge of these details. well, i had them ultimately from mrs. fyne. mrs. fyne while yet miss anthony, in her days of bondage, knew mrs. de barral in her days of exile. mrs. de barral was living then in a big stone mansion with mullioned windows in a large damp park, called the priory, adjoining the village where the refined poet had built himself a house. these were the days of de barral's success. he had bought the place without ever seeing it and had packed off his wife and child at once there to take possession. he did not know what to do with them in london. he himself had a suite of rooms in an hotel. he gave there dinner parties followed by cards in the evening. he had developed the gambling passion--or else a mere card mania--but at any rate he played heavily, for relaxation, with a lot of dubious hangers on. meantime mrs. de barral, expecting him every day, lived at the priory, with a carriage and pair, a governess for the child and many servants. the village people would see her through the railings wandering under the trees with her little girl lost in her strange surroundings. nobody ever came near her. and there she died as some faithful and delicate animals die--from neglect, absolutely from neglect, rather unexpectedly and without any fuss. the village was sorry for her because, though obviously worried about something, she was good to the poor and was always ready for a chat with any of the humble folks. of course they knew that she wasn't a lady--not what you would call a real lady. and even her acquaintance with miss anthony was only a cottage-door, a village-street acquaintance. carleon anthony was a tremendous aristocrat (his father had been a "restoring" architect) and his daughter was not allowed to associate with anyone but the county young ladies. nevertheless in defiance of the poet's wrathful concern for undefiled refinement there were some quiet, melancholy strolls to and fro in the great avenue of chestnuts leading to the park-gate, during which mrs. de barral came to call miss anthony 'my dear'--and even 'my poor dear.' the lonely soul had no one to talk to but that not very happy girl. the governess despised her. the housekeeper was distant in her manner. moreover mrs. de barral was no foolish gossiping woman. but she made some confidences to miss anthony. such wealth was a terrific thing to have thrust upon one she affirmed. once she went so far as to confess that she was dying with anxiety. mr. de barral (so she referred to him) had been an excellent husband and an exemplary father but "you see my dear i have had a great experience of him. i am sure he won't know what to do with all that money people are giving to him to take care of for them. he's as likely as not to do something rash. when he comes here i must have a good long serious talk with him, like the talks we often used to have together in the good old times of our life." and then one day a cry of anguish was wrung from her: 'my dear, he will never come here, he will never, never come!' she was wrong. he came to the funeral, was extremely cut up, and holding the child tightly by the hand wept bitterly at the side of the grave. miss anthony, at the cost of a whole week of sneers and abuse from the poet, saw it all with her own eyes. de barral clung to the child like a drowning man. he managed, though, to catch the half-past five fast train, travelling to town alone in a reserved compartment, with all the blinds down . . . " "leaving the child?" i said interrogatively. "yes. leaving . . . he shirked the problem. he was born that way. he had no idea what to do with her or for that matter with anything or anybody including himself. he bolted back to his suite of rooms in the hotel. he was the most helpless . . . she might have been left in the priory to the end of time had not the high-toned governess threatened to send in her resignation. she didn't care for the child a bit, and the lonely, gloomy priory had got on her nerves. she wasn't going to put up with such a life and, having just come out of some ducal family, she bullied de barral in a very lofty fashion. to pacify her he took a splendidly furnished house in the most expensive part of brighton for them, and now and then ran down for a week-end, with a trunk full of exquisite sweets and with his hat full of money. the governess spent it for him in extra ducal style. she was nearly forty and harboured a secret taste for patronizing young men of sorts--of a certain sort. but of that mrs. fyne of course had no personal knowledge then; she told me however that even in the priory days she had suspected her of being an artificial, heartless, vulgar-minded woman with the lowest possible ideals. but de barral did not know it. he literally did not know anything . . . " "but tell me, marlow," i interrupted, "how do you account for this opinion? he must have been a personality in a sense--in some one sense surely. you don't work the greatest material havoc of a decade at least, in a commercial community, without having something in you." marlow shook his head. "he was a mere sign, a portent. there was nothing in him. just about that time the word thrift was to the fore. you know the power of words. we pass through periods dominated by this or that word--it may be development, or it may be competition, or education, or purity or efficiency or even sanctity. it is the word of the time. well just then it was the word thrift which was out in the streets walking arm in arm with righteousness, the inseparable companion and backer up of all such national catch-words, looking everybody in the eye as it were. the very drabs of the pavement, poor things, didn't escape the fascination . . . however! . . . well the greatest portion of the press were screeching in all possible tones, like a confounded company of parrots instructed by some devil with a taste for practical jokes, that the financier de barral was helping the great moral evolution of our character towards the newlydiscovered virtue of thrift. he was helping it by all these great establishments of his, which made the moral merits of thrift manifest to the most callous hearts, simply by promising to pay ten per cent. interest on all deposits. and you didn't want necessarily to belong to the well-to-do classes in order to participate in the advantages of virtue. if you had but a spare sixpence in the world and went and gave it to de barral it was thrift! it's quite likely that he himself believed it. he must have. it's inconceivable that he alone should stand out against the infatuation of the whole world. he hadn't enough intelligence for that. but to look at him one couldn't tell . . . " "you did see him then?" i said with some curiosity. "i did. strange, isn't it? it was only once, but as i sat with the distressed fyne who had suddenly resuscitated his name buried in my memory with other dead labels of the past, i may say i saw him again, i saw him with great vividness of recollection, as he appeared in the days of his glory or splendour. no! neither of these words will fit his success. there was never any glory or splendour about that figure. well, let us say in the days when he was, according to the majority of the daily press, a financial force working for the improvement of the character of the people. i'll tell you how it came about. at that time i used to know a podgy, wealthy, bald little man having chambers in the albany; a financier too, in his way, carrying out transactions of an intimate nature and of no moral character; mostly with young men of birth and expectations--though i dare say he didn't withhold his ministrations from elderly plebeians either. he was a true democrat; he would have done business (a sharp kind of business) with the devil himself. everything was fly that came into his web. he received the applicants in an alert, jovial fashion which was quite surprising. it gave relief without giving too much confidence, which was just as well perhaps. his business was transacted in an apartment furnished like a drawing-room, the walls hung with several brown, heavily-framed, oil paintings. i don't know if they were good, but they were big, and with their elaborate, tarnished gilt-frames had a melancholy dignity. the man himself sat at a shining, inlaid writing table which looked like a rare piece from a museum of art; his chair had a high, oval, carved back, upholstered in faded tapestry; and these objects made of the costly black havana cigar, which he rolled incessantly from the middle to the left corner of his mouth and back again, an inexpressibly cheap and nasty object. i had to see him several times in the interest of a poor devil so unlucky that he didn't even have a more competent friend than myself to speak for him at a very difficult time in his life. i don't know at what hour my private financier began his day, but he used to give one appointments at unheard of times: such as a quarter to eight in the morning, for instance. on arriving one found him busy at that marvellous writing table, looking very fresh and alert, exhaling a faint fragrance of scented soap and with the cigar already well alight. you may believe that i entered on my mission with many unpleasant forebodings; but there was in that fat, admirably washed, little man such a profound contempt for mankind that it amounted to a species of good nature; which, unlike the milk of genuine kindness, was never in danger of turning sour. then, once, during a pause in business, while we were waiting for the production of a document for which he had sent (perhaps to the cellar?) i happened to remark, glancing round the room, that i had never seen so many fine things assembled together out of a collection. whether this was unconscious diplomacy on my part, or not, i shouldn't like to say--but the remark was true enough, and it pleased him extremely. "it _is_ a collection," he said emphatically. "only i live right in it, which most collectors don't. but i see that you know what you are looking at. not many people who come here on business do. stable fittings are more in their way." i don't know whether my appreciation helped to advance my friend's business but at any rate it helped our intercourse. he treated me with a shade of familiarity as one of the initiated. the last time i called on him to conclude the transaction we were interrupted by a person, something like a cross between a bookmaker and a private secretary, who, entering through a door which was not the anteroom door, walked up and stooped to whisper into his ear. "eh? what? who, did you say?" the nondescript person stooped and whispered again, adding a little louder: "says he won't detain you a moment." my little man glanced at me, said "ah! well," irresolutely. i got up from my chair and offered to come again later. he looked whimsically alarmed. "no, no. it's bad enough to lose my money but i don't want to waste any more of my time over your friend. we must be done with this today. just go and have a look at that _garniture de cheminee_ yonder. there's another, something like it, in the castle of laeken, but mine's much superior in design." i moved accordingly to the other side of that big room. the _garniture_ was very fine. but while pretending to examine it i watched my man going forward to meet a tall visitor, who said, "i thought you would be disengaged so early. it's only a word or two"--and after a whispered confabulation of no more than a minute, reconduct him to the door and shake hands ceremoniously. "not at all, not at all. very pleased to be of use. you can depend absolutely on my information"--"oh thank you, thank you. i just looked in." "certainly, quite right. any time . . . good morning." i had a good look at the visitor while they were exchanging these civilities. he was clad in black. i remember perfectly that he wore a flat, broad, black satin tie in which was stuck a large cameo pin; and a small turn down collar. his hair, discoloured and silky, curled slightly over his ears. his cheeks were hairless and round, and apparently soft. he held himself very upright, walked with small steps and spoke gently in an inward voice. perhaps from contrast with the magnificent polish of the room and the neatness of its owner, he struck me as dingy, indigent, and, if not exactly humble, then much subdued by evil fortune. i wondered greatly at my fat little financier's civility to that dubious personage when he asked me, as we resumed our respective seats, whether i knew who it was that had just gone out. on my shaking my head negatively he smiled queerly, said "de barral," and enjoyed my surprise. then becoming grave: "that's a deep fellow, if you like. we all know where he started from and where he got to; but nobody knows what he means to do." he became thoughtful for a moment and added as if speaking to himself, "i wonder what his game is." and, you know, there was no game, no game of any sort, or shape or kind. it came out plainly at the trial. as i've told you before, he was a clerk in a bank, like thousands of others. he got that berth as a second start in life and there he stuck again, giving perfect satisfaction. then one day as though a supernatural voice had whispered into his ear or some invisible fly had stung him, he put on his hat, went out into the street and began advertising. that's absolutely all that there was to it. he caught in the street the word of the time and harnessed it to his preposterous chariot. one remembers his first modest advertisements headed with the magic word thrift, thrift, thrift, thrice repeated; promising ten per cent. on all deposits and giving the address of the thrift and independence aid association in vauxhall bridge road. apparently nothing more was necessary. he didn't even explain what he meant to do with the money he asked the public to pour into his lap. of course he meant to lend it out at high rates of interest. he did so--but he did it without system, plan, foresight or judgment. and as he frittered away the sums that flowed in, he advertised for more--and got it. during a period of general business prosperity he set up the orb bank and the sceptre trust, simply, it seems for advertising purposes. they were mere names. he was totally unable to organize anything, to promote any sort of enterprise if it were only for the purpose of juggling with the shares. at that time he could have had for the asking any number of dukes, retired generals, active m.p.'s, ex-ambassadors and so on as directors to sit at the wildest boards of his invention. but he never tried. he had no real imagination. all he could do was to publish more advertisements and open more branch offices of the thrift and independence, of the orb, of the sceptre, for the receipt of deposits; first in this town, then in that town, north and south--everywhere where he could find suitable premises at a moderate rent. for this was the great characteristic of the management. modesty, moderation, simplicity. neither the orb nor the sceptre nor yet their parent the thrift and independence had built for themselves the usual palaces. for this abstention they were praised in silly public prints as illustrating in their management the principle of thrift for which they were founded. the fact is that de barral simply didn't think of it. of course he had soon moved from vauxhall bridge road. he knew enough for that. what he got hold of next was an old, enormous, rat-infested brick house in a small street off the strand. strangers were taken in front of the meanest possible, begrimed, yellowy, flat brick wall, with two rows of unadorned window-holes one above the other, and were exhorted with bated breath to behold and admire the simplicity of the head-quarters of the great financial force of the day. the word thrift perched right up on the roof in giant gilt letters, and two enormous shield-like brass-plates curved round the corners on each side of the doorway were the only shining spots in de barral's business outfit. nobody knew what operations were carried on inside except this--that if you walked in and tendered your money over the counter it would be calmly taken from you by somebody who would give you a printed receipt. that and no more. it appears that such knowledge is irresistible. people went in and tendered; and once it was taken from their hands their money was more irretrievably gone from them than if they had thrown it into the sea. this then, and nothing else was being carried on in there . . . " "come, marlow," i said, "you exaggerate surely--if only by your way of putting things. it's too startling." "i exaggerate!" he defended himself. "my way of putting things! my dear fellow i have merely stripped the rags of business verbiage and financial jargon off my statements. and you are startled! i am giving you the naked truth. it's true too that nothing lays itself open to the charge of exaggeration more than the language of naked truth. what comes with a shock is admitted with difficulty. but what will you say to the end of his career? it was of course sensational and tolerably sudden. it began with the orb deposit bank. under the name of that institution de barral with the frantic obstinacy of an unimaginative man had been financing an indian prince who was prosecuting a claim for immense sums of money against the government. it was an enormous number of scores of lakhs--a miserable remnant of his ancestors' treasures--that sort of thing. and it was all authentic enough. there was a real prince; and the claim too was sufficiently real--only unfortunately it was not a valid claim. so the prince lost his case on the last appeal and the beginning of de barral's end became manifest to the public in the shape of a half-sheet of note paper wafered by the four corners on the closed door of the orb offices notifying that payment was stopped at that establishment. its consort the sceptre collapsed within the week. i won't say in american parlance that suddenly the bottom fell out of the whole of de barral concerns. there never had been any bottom to it. it was like the cask of danaides into which the public had been pleased to pour its deposits. that they were gone was clear; and the bankruptcy proceedings which followed were like a sinister farce, bursts of laughter in a setting of mute anguish--that of the depositors; hundreds of thousands of them. the laughter was irresistible; the accompaniment of the bankrupt's public examination. i don't know if it was from utter lack of all imagination or from the possession in undue proportion of a particular kind of it, or from both--and the three alternatives are possible--but it was discovered that this man who had been raised to such a height by the credulity of the public was himself more gullible than any of his depositors. he had been the prey of all sorts of swindlers, adventurers, visionaries and even lunatics. wrapping himself up in deep and imbecile secrecy he had gone in for the most fantastic schemes: a harbour and docks on the coast of patagonia, quarries in labrador--such like speculations. fisheries to feed a canning factory on the banks of the amazon was one of them. a principality to be bought in madagascar was another. as the grotesque details of these incredible transactions came out one by one ripples of laughter ran over the closely packed court--each one a little louder than the other. the audience ended by fairly roaring under the cumulative effect of absurdity. the registrar laughed, the barristers laughed, the reporters laughed, the serried ranks of the miserable depositors watching anxiously every word, laughed like one man. they laughed hysterically--the poor wretches--on the verge of tears. there was only one person who remained unmoved. it was de barral himself. he preserved his serene, gentle expression, i am told (for i have not witnessed those scenes myself), and looked around at the people with an air of placid sufficiency which was the first hint to the world of the man's overweening, unmeasurable conceit, hidden hitherto under a diffident manner. it could be seen too in his dogged assertion that if he had been given enough time and a lot more money everything would have come right. and there were some people (yes, amongst his very victims) who more than half believed him, even after the criminal prosecution which soon followed. when placed in the dock he lost his steadiness as if some sustaining illusion had gone to pieces within him suddenly. he ceased to be himself in manner completely, and even in disposition, in so far that his faded neutral eyes matching his discoloured hair so well, were discovered then to be capable of expressing a sort of underhand hate. he was at first defiant, then insolent, then broke down and burst into tears; but it might have been from rage. then he calmed down, returned to his soft manner of speech and to that unassuming quiet bearing which had been usual with him even in his greatest days. but it seemed as though in this moment of change he had at last perceived what a power he had been; for he remarked to one of the prosecuting counsel who had assumed a lofty moral tone in questioning him, that--yes, he had gambled--he liked cards. but that only a year ago a host of smart people would have been only too pleased to take a hand at cards with him. yes--he went on--some of the very people who were there accommodated with seats on the bench; and turning upon the counsel "you yourself as well," he cried. he could have had half the town at his rooms to fawn upon him if he had cared for that sort of thing. "why, now i think of it, it took me most of my time to keep people, just of your sort, off me," he ended with a good humoured--quite unobtrusive, contempt, as though the fact had dawned upon him for the first time. this was the moment, the only moment, when he had perhaps all the audience in court with him, in a hush of dreary silence. and then the dreary proceedings were resumed. for all the outside excitement it was the most dreary of all celebrated trials. the bankruptcy proceedings had exhausted all the laughter there was in it. only the fact of wide-spread ruin remained, and the resentment of a mass of people for having been fooled by means too simple to save their self-respect from a deep wound which the cleverness of a consummate scoundrel would not have inflicted. a shamefaced amazement attended these proceedings in which de barral was not being exposed alone. for himself his only cry was: time! time! time would have set everything right. in time some of these speculations of his were certain to have succeeded. he repeated this defence, this excuse, this confession of faith, with wearisome iteration. everything he had done or left undone had been to gain time. he had hypnotized himself with the word. sometimes, i am told, his appearance was ecstatic, his motionless pale eyes seemed to be gazing down the vista of future ages. time--and of course, more money. "ah! if only you had left me alone for a couple of years more," he cried once in accents of passionate belief. "the money was coming in all right." the deposits you understand--the savings of thrift. oh yes they had been coming in to the very last moment. and he regretted them. he had arrived to regard them as his own by a sort of mystical persuasion. and yet it was a perfectly true cry, when he turned once more on the counsel who was beginning a question with the words "you have had all these immense sums . . . " with the indignant retort "_what_ have i had out of them?" "it was perfectly true. he had had nothing out of them--nothing of the prestigious or the desirable things of the earth, craved for by predatory natures. he had gratified no tastes, had known no luxury; he had built no gorgeous palaces, had formed no splendid galleries out of these "immense sums." he had not even a home. he had gone into these rooms in an hotel and had stuck there for years, giving no doubt perfect satisfaction to the management. they had twice raised his rent to show i suppose their high sense of his distinguished patronage. he had bought for himself out of all the wealth streaming through his fingers neither adulation nor love, neither splendour nor comfort. there was something perfect in his consistent mediocrity. his very vanity seemed to miss the gratification of even the mere show of power. in the days when he was most fully in the public eye the invincible obscurity of his origins clung to him like a shadowy garment. he had handled millions without ever enjoying anything of what is counted as precious in the community of men, because he had neither the brutality of temperament nor the fineness of mind to make him desire them with the will power of a masterful adventurer . . . " "you seem to have studied the man," i observed. "studied," repeated marlow thoughtfully. "no! not studied. i had no opportunities. you know that i saw him only on that one occasion i told you of. but it may be that a glimpse and no more is the proper way of seeing an individuality; and de barral was that, in virtue of his very deficiencies for they made of him something quite unlike one's preconceived ideas. there were also very few materials accessible to a man like me to form a judgment from. but in such a case i verify believe that a little is as good as a feast--perhaps better. if one has a taste for that kind of thing the merest starting-point becomes a coign of vantage, and then by a series of logically deducted verisimilitudes one arrives at truth--or very near the truth--as near as any circumstantial evidence can do. i have not studied de barral but that is how i understand him so far as he could be understood through the din of the crash; the wailing and gnashing of teeth, the newspaper contents bills, "the thrift frauds. cross-examination of the accused. extra special"--blazing fiercely; the charitable appeals for the victims, the grave tones of the dailies rumbling with compassion as if they were the national bowels. all this lasted a whole week of industrious sittings. a pressman whom i knew told me "he's an idiot." which was possible. before that i overheard once somebody declaring that he had a criminal type of face; which i knew was untrue. the sentence was pronounced by artificial light in a stifling poisonous atmosphere. something edifying was said by the judge weightily, about the retribution overtaking the perpetrator of "the most heartless frauds on an unprecedented scale." i don't understand these things much, but it appears that he had juggled with accounts, cooked balance sheets, had gathered in deposits months after he ought to have known himself to be hopelessly insolvent, and done enough of other things, highly reprehensible in the eyes of the law, to earn for himself seven years' penal servitude. the sentence making its way outside met with a good reception. a small mob composed mainly of people who themselves did not look particularly clever and scrupulous, leavened by a slight sprinkling of genuine pickpockets amused itself by cheering in the most penetrating, abominable cold drizzle that i remember. i happened to be passing there on my way from the east end where i had spent my day about the docks with an old chum who was looking after the fitting out of a new ship. i am always eager, when allowed, to call on a new ship. they interest me like charming young persons. i got mixed up in that crowd seething with an animosity as senseless as things of the street always are, and it was while i was laboriously making my way out of it that the pressman of whom i spoke was jostled against me. he did me the justice to be surprised. "what? you here! the last person in the world . . . if i had known i could have got you inside. plenty of room. interest been over for the last three days. got seven years. well, i am glad." "why are you glad? because he's got seven years?" i asked, greatly incommoded by the pressure of a hulking fellow who was remarking to some of his equally oppressive friends that the "beggar ought to have been poleaxed." i don't know whether he had ever confided his savings to de barral but if so, judging from his appearance, they must have been the proceeds of some successful burglary. the pressman by my side said 'no,' to my question. he was glad because it was all over. he had suffered greatly from the heat and the bad air of the court. the clammy, raw, chill of the streets seemed to affect his liver instantly. he became contemptuous and irritable and plied his elbows viciously making way for himself and me. a dull affair this. all such cases were dull. no really dramatic moments. the book-keeping of the orb and all the rest of them was certainly a burlesque revelation but the public did not care for revelations of that kind. dull dog that de barral--he grumbled. he could not or would not take the trouble to characterize for me the appearance of that man now officially a criminal (we had gone across the road for a drink) but told me with a sourly, derisive snigger that, after the sentence had been pronounced the fellow clung to the dock long enough to make a sort of protest. 'you haven't given me time. if i had been given time i would have ended by being made a peer like some of them.' and he had permitted himself his very first and last gesture in all these days, raising a hard-clenched fist above his head. the pressman disapproved of that manifestation. it was not his business to understand it. is it ever the business of any pressman to understand anything? i guess not. it would lead him too far away from the actualities which are the daily bread of the public mind. he probably thought the display worth very little from a picturesque point of view; the weak voice; the colourless personality as incapable of an attitude as a bed-post, the very fatuity of the clenched hand so ineffectual at that time and place--no, it wasn't worth much. and then, for him, an accomplished craftsman in his trade, thinking was distinctly "bad business." his business was to write a readable account. but i who had nothing to write, i permitted myself to use my mind as we sat before our still untouched glasses. and the disclosure which so often rewards a moment of detachment from mere visual impressions gave me a thrill very much approaching a shudder. i seemed to understand that, with the shock of the agonies and perplexities of his trial, the imagination of that man, whose moods, notions and motives wore frequently an air of grotesque mystery--that his imagination had been at last roused into activity. and this was awful. just try to enter into the feelings of a man whose imagination wakes up at the very moment he is about to enter the tomb . . . " * * * * * "you must not think," went on marlow after a pause, "that on that morning with fyne i went consciously in my mind over all this, let us call it information; no, better say, this fund of knowledge which i had, or rather which existed, in me in regard to de barral. information is something one goes out to seek and puts away when found as you might do a piece of lead: ponderous, useful, unvibrating, dull. whereas knowledge comes to one, this sort of knowledge, a chance acquisition preserving in its repose a fine resonant quality . . . but as such distinctions touch upon the transcendental i shall spare you the pain of listening to them. there are limits to my cruelty. no! i didn't reckon up carefully in my mind all this i have been telling you. how could i have done so, with fyne right there in the room? he sat perfectly still, statuesque in homely fashion, after having delivered himself of his effective assent: "yes. the convict," and i, far from indulging in a reminiscent excursion into the past, remained sufficiently in the present to muse in a vague, absent-minded way on the respectable proportions and on the (upon the whole) comely shape of his great pedestrian's calves, for he had thrown one leg over his knee, carelessly, to conceal the trouble of his mind by an air of ease. but all the same the knowledge was in me, the awakened resonance of which i spoke just now; i was aware of it on that beautiful day, so fresh, so warm and friendly, so accomplished--an exquisite courtesy of the much abused english climate when it makes up its meteorological mind to behave like a perfect gentleman. of course the english climate is never a rough. it suffers from spleen somewhat frequently--but that is gentlemanly too, and i don't mind going to meet him in that mood. he has his days of grey, veiled, polite melancholy, in which he is very fascinating. how seldom he lapses into a blustering manner, after all! and then it is mostly in a season when, appropriately enough, one may go out and kill something. but his fine days are the best for stopping at home, to read, to think, to muse--even to dream; in fact to live fully, intensely and quietly, in the brightness of comprehension, in that receptive glow of the mind, the gift of the clear, luminous and serene weather. that day i had intended to live intensely and quietly, basking in the weather's glory which would have lent enchantment to the most unpromising of intellectual prospects. for a companion i had found a book, not bemused with the cleverness of the day--a fine-weather book, simple and sincere like the talk of an unselfish friend. but looking at little fyne seated in the room i understood that nothing would come of my contemplative aspirations; that in one way or another i should be let in for some form of severe exercise. walking, it would be, i feared, since, for me, that idea was inseparably associated with the visual impression of fyne. where, why, how, a rapid striding rush could be brought in helpful relation to the good fyne's present trouble and perplexity i could not imagine; except on the principle that senseless pedestrianism was fyne's panacea for all the ills and evils bodily and spiritual of the universe. it could be of no use for me to say or do anything. it was bound to come. contemplating his muscular limb encased in a golf-stocking, and under the strong impression of the information he had just imparted i said wondering, rather irrationally: "and so de barral had a wife and child! that girl's his daughter. and how . . . " fyne interrupted me by stating again earnestly, as though it were something not easy to believe, that his wife and himself had tried to befriend the girl in every way--indeed they had! i did not doubt him for a moment, of course, but my wonder at this was more rational. at that hour of the morning, you mustn't forget, i knew nothing as yet of mrs. fyne's contact (it was hardly more) with de barral's wife and child during their exile at the priory, in the culminating days of that man's fame. fyne who had come over, it was clear, solely to talk to me on that subject, gave me the first hint of this initial, merely out of doors, connection. "the girl was quite a child then," he continued. "later on she was removed out of mrs. fyne's reach in charge of a governess--a very unsatisfactory person," he explained. his wife had then--h'm--met him; and on her marriage she lost sight of the child completely. but after the birth of polly (polly was the third fyne girl) she did not get on very well, and went to brighton for some months to recover her strength--and there, one day in the street, the child (she wore her hair down her back still) recognized her outside a shop and rushed, actually rushed, into mrs. fyne's arms. rather touching this. and so, disregarding the cold impertinence of that . . . h'm . . . governess, his wife naturally responded. he was solemnly fragmentary. i broke in with the observation that it must have been before the crash. fyne nodded with deepened gravity, stating in his bass tone-"just before," and indulged himself with a weighty period of solemn silence. de barral, he resumed suddenly, was not coming to brighton for week-ends regularly, then. must have been conscious already of the approaching disaster. mrs. fyne avoided being drawn into making his acquaintance, and this suited the views of the governess person, very jealous of any outside influence. but in any case it would not have been an easy matter. extraordinary, stiff-backed, thin figure all in black, the observed of all, while walking hand-in-hand with the girl; apparently shy, but--and here fyne came very near showing something like insight--probably nursing under a diffident manner a considerable amount of secret arrogance. mrs. fyne pitied flora de barral's fate long before the catastrophe. most unfortunate guidance. very unsatisfactory surroundings. the girl was known in the streets, was stared at in public places as if she had been a sort of princess, but she was kept with a very ominous consistency, from making any acquaintances--though of course there were many people no doubt who would have been more than willing to--h'm--make themselves agreeable to miss de barral. but this did not enter into the plans of the governess, an intriguing person hatching a most sinister plot under her severe air of distant, fashionable exclusiveness. good little fyne's eyes bulged with solemn horror as he revealed to me, in agitated speech, his wife's more than suspicions, at the time, of that, mrs., mrs. what's her name's perfidious conduct. she actually seemed to have--mrs. fyne asserted--formed a plot already to marry eventually her charge to an impecunious relation of her own--a young man with furtive eyes and something impudent in his manner, whom that woman called her nephew, and whom she was always having down to stay with her. "and perhaps not her nephew. no relation at all"--fyne emitted with a convulsive effort this, the most awful part of the suspicions mrs. fyne used to impart to him piecemeal when he came down to spend his week-ends gravely with her and the children. the fynes, in their good-natured concern for the unlucky child of the man busied in stirring casually so many millions, spent the moments of their weekly reunion in wondering earnestly what could be done to defeat the most wicked of conspiracies, trying to invent some tactful line of conduct in such extraordinary circumstances. i could see them, simple, and scrupulous, worrying honestly about that unprotected big girl while looking at their own little girls playing on the sea-shore. fyne assured me that his wife's rest was disturbed by the great problem of interference. "it was very acute of mrs. fyne to spot such a deep game," i said, wondering to myself where her acuteness had gone to now, to let her be taken unawares by a game so much simpler and played to the end under her very nose. but then, at that time, when her nightly rest was disturbed by the dread of the fate preparing for de barral's unprotected child, she was not engaged in writing a compendious and ruthless hand-book on the theory and practice of life, for the use of women with a grievance. she could as yet, before the task of evolving the philosophy of rebellious action had affected her intuitive sharpness, perceive things which were, i suspect, moderately plain. for i am inclined to believe that the woman whom chance had put in command of flora de barral's destiny took no very subtle pains to conceal her game. she was conscious of being a complete master of the situation, having once for all established her ascendancy over de barral. she had taken all her measures against outside observation of her conduct; and i could not help smiling at the thought what a ghastly nuisance the serious, innocent fynes must have been to her. how exasperated she must have been by that couple falling into brighton as completely unforeseen as a bolt from the blue--if not so prompt. how she must have hated them! but i conclude she would have carried out whatever plan she might have formed. i can imagine de barral accustomed for years to defer to her wishes and, either through arrogance, or shyness, or simply because of his unimaginative stupidity, remaining outside the social pale, knowing no one but some card-playing cronies; i can picture him to myself terrified at the prospect of having the care of a marriageable girl thrust on his hands, forcing on him a complete change of habits and the necessity of another kind of existence which he would not even have known how to begin. it is evident to me that mrs. what's her name would have had her atrocious way with very little trouble even if the excellent fynes had been able to do something. she would simply have bullied de barral in a lofty style. there's nothing more subservient than an arrogant man when his arrogance has once been broken in some particular instance. however there was no time and no necessity for any one to do anything. the situation itself vanished in the financial crash as a building vanishes in an earthquake--here one moment and gone the next with only an ill-omened, slight, preliminary rumble. well, to say 'in a moment' is an exaggeration perhaps; but that everything was over in just twenty-four hours is an exact statement. fyne was able to tell me all about it; and the phrase that would depict the nature of the change best is: an instant and complete destitution. i don't understand these matters very well, but from fyne's narrative it seemed as if the creditors or the depositors, or the competent authorities, had got hold in the twinkling of an eye of everything de barral possessed in the world, down to his watch and chain, the money in his trousers' pocket, his spare suits of clothes, and i suppose the cameo pin out of his black satin cravat. everything! i believe he gave up the very wedding ring of his late wife. the gloomy priory with its damp park and a couple of farms had been made over to mrs. de barral; but when she died (without making a will) it reverted to him, i imagine. they got that of course; but it was a mere crumb in a sahara of starvation, a drop in the thirsty ocean. i dare say that not a single soul in the world got the comfort of as much as a recovered threepenny bit out of the estate. then, less than crumbs, less than drops, there were to be grabbed, the lease of the big brighton house, the furniture therein, the carriage and pair, the girl's riding horse, her costly trinkets; down to the heavily gold-mounted collar of her pedigree st. bernard. the dog too went: the most noble-looking item in the beggarly assets. what however went first of all or rather vanished was nothing in the nature of an asset. it was that plotting governess with the trick of a "perfect lady" manner (severely conventional) and the soul of a remorseless brigand. when a woman takes to any sort of unlawful man-trade, there's nothing to beat her in the way of thoroughness. it's true that you will find people who'll tell you that this terrific virulence in breaking through all established things, is altogether the fault of men. such people will ask you with a clever air why the servile wars were always the most fierce, desperate and atrocious of all wars. and you may make such answer as you can--even the eminently feminine one, if you choose, so typical of the women's literal mind "i don't see what this has to do with it!" how many arguments have been knocked over (i won't say knocked down) by these few words! for if we men try to put the spaciousness of all experiences into our reasoning and would fain put the infinite itself into our love, it isn't, as some writer has remarked, "it isn't women's doing." oh no. they don't care for these things. that sort of aspiration is not much in their way; and it shall be a funny world, the world of their arranging, where the irrelevant would fantastically step in to take the place of the sober humdrum imaginative . . . " i raised my hand to stop my friend marlow. "do you really believe what you have said?" i asked, meaning no offence, because with marlow one never could be sure. "only on certain days of the year," said marlow readily with a malicious smile. "to-day i have been simply trying to be spacious and i perceive i've managed to hurt your susceptibilities which are consecrated to women. when you sit alone and silent you are defending in your mind the poor women from attacks which cannot possibly touch them. i wonder what can touch them? but to soothe your uneasiness i will point out again that an irrelevant world would be very amusing, if the women take care to make it as charming as they alone can, by preserving for us certain wellknown, well-established, i'll almost say hackneyed, illusions, without which the average male creature cannot get on. and that condition is very important. for there is nothing more provoking than the irrelevant when it has ceased to amuse and charm; and then the danger would be of the subjugated masculinity in its exasperation, making some brusque, unguarded movement and accidentally putting its elbow through the fine tissue of the world of which i speak. and that would be fatal to it. for nothing looks more irretrievably deplorable than fine tissue which has been damaged. the women themselves would be the first to become disgusted with their own creation. there was something of women's highly practical sanity and also of their irrelevancy in the conduct of miss de barral's amazing governess. it appeared from fyne's narrative that the day before the first rumble of the cataclysm the questionable young man arrived unexpectedly in brighton to stay with his "aunt." to all outward appearance everything was going on normally; the fellow went out riding with the girl in the afternoon as he often used to do--a sight which never failed to fill mrs. fyne with indignation. fyne himself was down there with his family for a whole week and was called to the window to behold the iniquity in its progress and to share in his wife's feelings. there was not even a groom with them. and mrs. fyne's distress was so strong at this glimpse of the unlucky girl all unconscious of her danger riding smilingly by, that fyne began to consider seriously whether it wasn't their plain duty to interfere at all risks--simply by writing a letter to de barral. he said to his wife with a solemnity i can easily imagine "you ought to undertake that task, my dear. you have known his wife after all. that's something at any rate." on the other hand the fear of exposing mrs. fyne to some nasty rebuff worried him exceedingly. mrs. fyne on her side gave way to despondency. success seemed impossible. here was a woman for more than five years in charge of the girl and apparently enjoying the complete confidence of the father. what, that would be effective, could one say, without proofs, without . . . this mr. de barral must be, mrs. fyne pronounced, either a very stupid or a downright bad man, to neglect his child so. you will notice that perhaps because of fyne's solemn view of our transient life and mrs. fyne's natural capacity for responsibility, it had never occurred to them that the simplest way out of the difficulty was to do nothing and dismiss the matter as no concern of theirs. which in a strict worldly sense it certainly was not. but they spent, fyne told me, a most disturbed afternoon, considering the ways and means of dealing with the danger hanging over the head of the girl out for a ride (and no doubt enjoying herself) with an abominable scamp. chapter four--the governess and the best of it was that the danger was all over already. there was no danger any more. the supposed nephew's appearance had a purpose. he had come, full, full to trembling--with the bigness of his news. there must have been rumours already as to the shaky position of the de barral's concerns; but only amongst those in the very inmost know. no rumour or echo of rumour had reached the profane in the west-end--let alone in the guileless marine suburb of hove. the fynes had no suspicion; the governess, playing with cold, distinguished exclusiveness the part of mother to the fabulously wealthy miss de barral, had no suspicion; the masters of music, of drawing, of dancing to miss de barral, had no idea; the minds of her medical man, of her dentist, of the servants in the house, of the tradesmen proud of having the name of de barral on their books, were in a state of absolute serenity. thus, that fellow, who had unexpectedly received a most alarming straight tip from somebody in the city arrived in brighton, at about lunch-time, with something very much in the nature of a deadly bomb in his possession. but he knew better than to throw it on the public pavement. he ate his lunch impenetrably, sitting opposite flora de barral, and then, on some excuse, closeted himself with the woman whom little fyne's charity described (with a slight hesitation of speech however) as his "aunt." what they said to each other in private we can imagine. she came out of her own sitting-room with red spots on her cheek-bones, which having provoked a question from her "beloved" charge, were accounted for by a curt "i have a headache coming on." but we may be certain that the talk being over she must have said to that young blackguard: "you had better take her out for a ride as usual." we have proof positive of this in fyne and mrs. fyne observing them mount at the door and pass under the windows of their sitting-room, talking together, and the poor girl all smiles; because she enjoyed in all innocence the company of charley. she made no secret of it whatever to mrs. fyne; in fact, she had confided to her, long before, that she liked him very much: a confidence which had filled mrs. fyne with desolation and that sense of powerless anguish which is experienced in certain kinds of nightmare. for how could she warn the girl? she did venture to tell her once that she didn't like mr. charley. miss de barral heard her with astonishment. how was it possible not to like charley? afterwards with naive loyalty she told mrs. fyne that, immensely as she was fond of her she could not hear a word against charley--the wonderful charley. the daughter of de barral probably enjoyed her jolly ride with the jolly charley (infinitely more jolly than going out with a stupid old ridingmaster), very much indeed, because the fynes saw them coming back at a later hour than usual. in fact it was getting nearly dark. on dismounting, helped off by the delightful charley, she patted the neck of her horse and went up the steps. her last ride. she was then within a few days of her sixteenth birthday, a slight figure in a riding habit, rather shorter than the average height for her age, in a black bowler hat from under which her fine rippling dark hair cut square at the ends was hanging well down her back. the delightful charley mounted again to take the two horses round to the mews. mrs. fyne remaining at the window saw the house door close on miss de barral returning from her last ride. and meantime what had the governess (out of a nobleman's family) so judiciously selected (a lady, and connected with well-known county people as she said) to direct the studies, guard the health, form the mind, polish the manners, and generally play the perfect mother to that luckless child--what had she been doing? well, having got rid of her charge by the most natural device possible, which proved her practical sense, she started packing her belongings, an act which showed her clear view of the situation. she had worked methodically, rapidly, and well, emptying the drawers, clearing the tables in her special apartment of that big house, with something silently passionate in her thoroughness; taking everything belonging to her and some things of less unquestionable ownership, a jewelled penholder, an ivory and gold paper knife (the house was full of common, costly objects), some chased silver boxes presented by de barral and other trifles; but the photograph of flora de barral, with the loving inscription, which stood on her writing desk, of the most modern and expensive style, in a silver-gilt frame, she neglected to take. having accidentally, in the course of the operations, knocked it off on the floor she let it lie there after a downward glance. thus it, or the frame at least, became, i suppose, part of the assets in the de barral bankruptcy. at dinner that evening the child found her company dull and brusque. it was uncommonly slow. she could get nothing from her governess but monosyllables, and the jolly charley actually snubbed the various cheery openings of his "little chum"--as he used to call her at times,--but not at that time. no doubt the couple were nervous and preoccupied. for all this we have evidence, and for the fact that flora being offended with the delightful nephew of her profoundly respected governess sulked through the rest of the evening and was glad to retire early. mrs., mrs.--i've really forgotten her name--the governess, invited her nephew to her sitting-room, mentioning aloud that it was to talk over some family matters. this was meant for flora to hear, and she heard it--without the slightest interest. in fact there was nothing sufficiently unusual in such an invitation to arouse in her mind even a passing wonder. she went bored to bed and being tired with her long ride slept soundly all night. her last sleep, i won't say of innocence--that word would not render my exact meaning, because it has a special meaning of its own--but i will say: of that ignorance, or better still, of that unconsciousness of the world's ways, the unconsciousness of danger, of pain, of humiliation, of bitterness, of falsehood. an unconsciousness which in the case of other beings like herself is removed by a gradual process of experience and information, often only partial at that, with saving reserves, softening doubts, veiling theories. her unconsciousness of the evil which lives in the secret thoughts and therefore in the open acts of mankind, whenever it happens that evil thought meets evil courage; her unconsciousness was to be broken into with profane violence with desecrating circumstances, like a temple violated by a mad, vengeful impiety. yes, that very young girl, almost no more than a child--this was what was going to happen to her. and if you ask me, how, wherefore, for what reason? i will answer you: why, by chance! by the merest chance, as things do happen, lucky and unlucky, terrible or tender, important or unimportant; and even things which are neither, things so completely neutral in character that you would wonder why they do happen at all if you didn't know that they, too, carry in their insignificance the seeds of further incalculable chances. of course, all the chances were that de barral should have fallen upon a perfectly harmless, naive, usual, inefficient specimen of respectable governess for his daughter; or on a commonplace silly adventuress who would have tried, say, to marry him or work some other sort of common mischief in a small way. or again he might have chanced on a model of all the virtues, or the repository of all knowledge, or anything equally harmless, conventional, and middle class. all calculations were in his favour; but, chance being incalculable, he fell upon an individuality whom it is much easier to define by opprobrious names than to classify in a calm and scientific spirit--but an individuality certainly, and a temperament as well. rare? no. there is a certain amount of what i would politely call unscrupulousness in all of us. think for instance of the excellent mrs. fyne, who herself, and in the bosom of her family, resembled a governess of a conventional type. only, her mental excesses were theoretical, hedged in by so much humane feeling and conventional reserves, that they amounted to no more than mere libertinage of thought; whereas the other woman, the governess of flora de barral, was, as you may have noticed, severely practical--terribly practical. no! hers was not a rare temperament, except in its fierce resentment of repression; a feeling which like genius or lunacy is apt to drive people into sudden irrelevancy. hers was feminine irrelevancy. a male genius, a male ruffian, or even a male lunatic, would not have behaved exactly as she did behave. there is a softness in masculine nature, even the most brutal, which acts as a check. while the girl slept those two, the woman of forty, an age in itself terrible, and that hopeless young "wrong 'un" of twenty-three (also well connected i believe) had some sort of subdued row in the cleared rooms: wardrobes open, drawers half pulled out and empty, trunks locked and strapped, furniture in idle disarray, and not so much as a single scrap of paper left behind on the tables. the maid, whom the governess and the pupil shared between them, after finishing with flora, came to the door as usual, but was not admitted. she heard the two voices in dispute before she knocked, and then being sent away retreated at once--the only person in the house convinced at that time that there was "something up." dark and, so to speak, inscrutable spaces being met with in life there must be such places in any statement dealing with life. in what i am telling you of now--an episode of one of my humdrum holidays in the green country, recalled quite naturally after all the years by our meeting a man who has been a blue-water sailor--this evening confabulation is a dark, inscrutable spot. and we may conjecture what we like. i have no difficulty in imagining that the woman--of forty, and the chief of the enterprise--must have raged at large. and perhaps the other did not rage enough. youth feels deeply it is true, but it has not the same vivid sense of lost opportunities. it believes in the absolute reality of time. and then, in that abominable scamp with his youth already soiled, withered like a plucked flower ready to be flung on some rotting heap of rubbish, no very genuine feeling about anything could exist--not even about the hazards of his own unclean existence. a sneering half-laugh with some such remark as: "we are properly sold and no mistake" would have been enough to make trouble in that way. and then another sneer, "waste time enough over it too," followed perhaps by the bitter retort from the other party "you seemed to like it well enough though, playing the fool with that chit of a girl." something of that sort. don't you see it--eh . . . " marlow looked at me with his dark penetrating glance. i was struck by the absolute verisimilitude of this suggestion. but we were always tilting at each other. i saw an opening and pushed my uncandid thrust. "you have a ghastly imagination," i said with a cheerfully sceptical smile. "well, and if i have," he returned unabashed. "but let me remind you that this situation came to me unasked. i am like a puzzle-headed chiefmate we had once in the dear old _samarcand_ when i was a youngster. the fellow went gravely about trying to "account to himself"--his favourite expression--for a lot of things no one would care to bother one's head about. he was an old idiot but he was also an accomplished practical seaman. i was quite a boy and he impressed me. i must have caught the disposition from him." "well--go on with your accounting then," i said, assuming an air of resignation. "that's just it." marlow fell into his stride at once. "that's just it. mere disappointed cupidity cannot account for the proceedings of the next morning; proceedings which i shall not describe to you--but which i shall tell you of presently, not as a matter of conjecture but of actual fact. meantime returning to that evening altercation in deadened tones within the private apartment of miss de barral's governess, what if i were to tell you that disappointment had most likely made them touchy with each other, but that perhaps the secret of his careless, railing behaviour, was in the thought, springing up within him with an emphatic oath of relief "now there's nothing to prevent me from breaking away from that old woman." and that the secret of her envenomed rage, not against this miserable and attractive wretch, but against fate, accident and the whole course of human life, concentrating its venom on de barral and including the innocent girl herself, was in the thought, in the fear crying within her "now i have nothing to hold him with . . . " i couldn't refuse marlow the tribute of a prolonged whistle "phew! so you suppose that . . . " he waved his hand impatiently. "i don't suppose. it was so. and anyhow why shouldn't you accept the supposition. do you look upon governesses as creatures above suspicion or necessarily of moral perfection? i suppose their hearts would not stand looking into much better than other people's. why shouldn't a governess have passions, all the passions, even that of libertinage, and even ungovernable passions; yet suppressed by the very same means which keep the rest of us in order: early training--necessity--circumstances--fear of consequences; till there comes an age, a time when the restraint of years becomes intolerable--and infatuation irresistible . . . " "but if infatuation--quite possible i admit," i argued, "how do you account for the nature of the conspiracy." "you expect a cogency of conduct not usual in women," said marlow. "the subterfuges of a menaced passion are not to be fathomed. you think it is going on the way it looks, whereas it is capable, for its own ends, of walking backwards into a precipice. when one once acknowledges that she was not a common woman, then all this is easily understood. she was abominable but she was not common. she had suffered in her life not from its constant inferiority but from constant self-repression. a common woman finding herself placed in a commanding position might have formed the design to become the second mrs. de barral. which would have been impracticable. de barral would not have known what to do with a wife. but even if by some impossible chance he had made advances, this governess would have repulsed him with scorn. she had treated him always as an inferior being with an assured, distant politeness. in her composed, schooled manner she despised and disliked both father and daughter exceedingly. i have a notion that she had always disliked intensely all her charges including the two ducal (if they were ducal) little girls with whom she had dazzled de barral. what an odious, ungratified existence it must have been for a woman as avid of all the sensuous emotions which life can give as most of her betters. she had seen her youth vanish, her freshness disappear, her hopes die, and now she felt her flaming middle-age slipping away from her. no wonder that with her admirably dressed, abundant hair, thickly sprinkled with white threads and adding to her elegant aspect the piquant distinction of a powdered coiffure--no wonder, i say, that she clung desperately to her last infatuation for that graceless young scamp, even to the extent of hatching for him that amazing plot. he was not so far gone in degradation as to make him utterly hopeless for such an attempt. she hoped to keep him straight with that enormous bribe. she was clearly a woman uncommon enough to live without illusions--which, of course, does not mean that she was reasonable. she had said to herself, perhaps with a fury of self-contempt "in a few years i shall be too old for anybody. meantime i shall have him--and i shall hold him by throwing to him the money of that ordinary, silly, little girl of no account." well, it was a desperate expedient--but she thought it worth while. and besides there is hardly a woman in the world, no matter how hard, depraved or frantic, in whom something of the maternal instinct does not survive, unconsumed like a salamander, in the fires of the most abandoned passion. yes there might have been that sentiment for him too. there _was_ no doubt. so i say again: no wonder! no wonder that she raged at everything--and perhaps even at him, with contradictory reproaches: for regretting the girl, a little fool who would never in her life be worth anybody's attention, and for taking the disaster itself with a cynical levity in which she perceived a flavour of revolt. and so the altercation in the night went on, over the irremediable. he arguing "what's the hurry? why clear out like this?" perhaps a little sorry for the girl and as usual without a penny in his pocket, appreciating the comfortable quarters, wishing to linger on as long as possible in the shameless enjoyment of this already doomed luxury. there was really no hurry for a few days. always time enough to vanish. and, with that, a touch of masculine softness, a sort of regard for appearances surviving his degradation: "you might behave decently at the last, eliza." but there was no softness in the sallow face under the gala effect of powdered hair, its formal calmness gone, the dark-ringed eyes glaring at him with a sort of hunger. "no! no! if it is as you say then not a day, not an hour, not a moment." she stuck to it, very determined that there should be no more of that boy and girl philandering since the object of it was gone; angry with herself for having suffered from it so much in the past, furious at its having been all in vain. but she was reasonable enough not to quarrel with him finally. what was the good? she found means to placate him. the only means. as long as there was some money to be got she had hold of him. "now go away. we shall do no good by any more of this sort of talk. i want to be alone for a bit." he went away, sulkily acquiescent. there was a room always kept ready for him on the same floor, at the further end of a short thickly carpeted passage. how she passed the night, this woman with no illusions to help her through the hours which must have been sleepless i shouldn't like to say. it ended at last; and this strange victim of the de barral failure, whose name would never be known to the official receiver, came down to breakfast, impenetrable in her everyday perfection. from the very first, somehow, she had accepted the fatal news for true. all her life she had never believed in her luck, with that pessimism of the passionate who at bottom feel themselves to be the outcasts of a morally restrained universe. but this did not make it any easier, on opening the morning paper feverishly, to see the thing confirmed. oh yes! it was there. the orb had suspended payment--the first growl of the storm faint as yet, but to the initiated the forerunner of a deluge. as an item of news it was not indecently displayed. it was not displayed at all in a sense. the serious paper, the only one of the great dailies which had always maintained an attitude of reserve towards the de barral group of banks, had its "manner." yes! a modest item of news! but there was also, on another page, a special financial article in a hostile tone beginning with the words "we have always feared" and a guarded, half-column leader, opening with the phrase: "it is a deplorable sign of the times" what was, in effect, an austere, general rebuke to the absurd infatuations of the investing public. she glanced through these articles, a line here and a line there--no more was necessary to catch beyond doubt the murmur of the oncoming flood. several slighting references by name to de barral revived her animosity against the man, suddenly, as by the effect of unforeseen moral support. the miserable wretch! . . . " * * * * * "--you understand," marlow interrupted the current of his narrative, "that in order to be consecutive in my relation of this affair i am telling you at once the details which i heard from mrs. fyne later in the day, as well as what little fyne imparted to me with his usual solemnity during that morning call. as you may easily guess the fynes, in their apartments, had read the news at the same time, and, as a matter of fact, in the same august and highly moral newspaper, as the governess in the luxurious mansion a few doors down on the opposite side of the street. but they read them with different feelings. they were thunderstruck. fyne had to explain the full purport of the intelligence to mrs. fyne whose first cry was that of relief. then that poor child would be safe from these designing, horrid people. mrs. fyne did not know what it might mean to be suddenly reduced from riches to absolute penury. fyne with his masculine imagination was less inclined to rejoice extravagantly at the girl's escape from the moral dangers which had been menacing her defenceless existence. it was a confoundedly big price to pay. what an unfortunate little thing she was! "we might be able to do something to comfort that poor child at any rate for the time she is here," said mrs. fyne. she felt under a sort of moral obligation not to be indifferent. but no comfort for anyone could be got by rushing out into the street at this early hour; and so, following the advice of fyne not to act hastily, they both sat down at the window and stared feelingly at the great house, awful to their eyes in its stolid, prosperous, expensive respectability with ruin absolutely standing at the door. by that time, or very soon after, all brighton had the information and formed a more or less just appreciation of its gravity. the butler in miss de barral's big house had seen the news, perhaps earlier than anybody within a mile of the parade, in the course of his morning duties of which one was to dry the freshly delivered paper before the fire--an occasion to glance at it which no intelligent man could have neglected. he communicated to the rest of the household his vaguely forcible impression that something had gone d---bly wrong with the affairs of "her father in london." this brought an atmosphere of constraint through the house, which flora de barral coming down somewhat later than usual could not help noticing in her own way. everybody seemed to stare so stupidly somehow; she feared a dull day. in the dining-room the governess in her place, a newspaper half-concealed under the cloth on her lap, after a few words exchanged with lips that seemed hardly to move, remaining motionless, her eyes fixed before her in an enduring silence; and presently charley coming in to whom she did not even give a glance. he hardly said good morning, though he had a halfhearted try to smile at the girl, and sitting opposite her with his eyes on his plate and slight quivers passing along the line of his clean-shaven jaw, he too had nothing to say. it was dull, horribly dull to begin one's day like this; but she knew what it was. these never-ending family affairs! it was not for the first time that she had suffered from their depressing after-effects on these two. it was a shame that the delightful charley should be made dull by these stupid talks, and it was perfectly stupid of him to let himself be upset like this by his aunt. when after a period of still, as if calculating, immobility, her governess got up abruptly and went out with the paper in her hand, almost immediately afterwards followed by charley who left his breakfast half eaten, the girl was positively relieved. they would have it out that morning whatever it was, and be themselves again in the afternoon. at least charley would be. to the moods of her governess she did not attach so much importance. for the first time that morning the fynes saw the front door of the awful house open and the objectionable young man issue forth, his rascality visible to their prejudiced eyes in his very bowler hat and in the smart cut of his short fawn overcoat. he walked away rapidly like a man hurrying to catch a train, glancing from side to side as though he were carrying something off. could he be departing for good? undoubtedly, undoubtedly! but mrs. fyne's fervent "thank goodness" turned out to be a bit, as the americans--some americans--say "previous." in a very short time the odious fellow appeared again, strolling, absolutely strolling back, his hat now tilted a little on one side, with an air of leisure and satisfaction. mrs. fyne groaned not only in the spirit, at this sight, but in the flesh, audibly; and asked her husband what it might mean. fyne naturally couldn't say. mrs. fyne believed that there was something horrid in progress and meantime the object of her detestation had gone up the steps and had knocked at the door which at once opened to admit him. he had been only as far as the bank. his reason for leaving his breakfast unfinished to run after miss de barral's governess, was to speak to her in reference to that very errand possessing the utmost possible importance in his eyes. he shrugged his shoulders at the nervousness of her eyes and hands, at the half-strangled whisper "i had to go out. i could hardly contain myself." that was her affair. he was, with a young man's squeamishness, rather sick of her ferocity. he did not understand it. men do not accumulate hate against each other in tiny amounts, treasuring every pinch carefully till it grows at last into a monstrous and explosive hoard. he had run out after her to remind her of the balance at the bank. what about lifting that money without wasting any more time? she had promised him to leave nothing behind. an account opened in her name for the expenses of the establishment in brighton, had been fed by de barral with deferential lavishness. the governess crossed the wide hall into a little room at the side where she sat down to write the cheque, which he hastened out to go and cash as if it were stolen or a forgery. as observed by the fynes, his uneasy appearance on leaving the house arose from the fact that his first trouble having been caused by a cheque of doubtful authenticity, the possession of a document of the sort made him unreasonably uncomfortable till this one was safely cashed. and after all, you know it was stealing of an indirect sort; for the money was de barral's money if the account was in the name of the accomplished lady. at any rate the cheque was cashed. on getting hold of the notes and gold he recovered his jaunty bearing, it being well known that with certain natures the presence of money (even stolen) in the pocket, acts as a tonic, or at least as a stimulant. he cocked his hat a little on one side as though he had had a drink or two--which indeed he might have had in reality, to celebrate the occasion. the governess had been waiting for his return in the hall, disregarding the side-glances of the butler as he went in and out of the dining-room clearing away the breakfast things. it was she, herself, who had opened the door so promptly. "it's all right," he said touching his breast-pocket; and she did not dare, the miserable wretch without illusions, she did not dare ask him to hand it over. they looked at each other in silence. he nodded significantly: "where is she now?" and she whispered "gone into the drawing-room. want to see her again?" with an archly black look which he acknowledged by a muttered, surly: "i am damned if i do. well, as you want to bolt like this, why don't we go now?" she set her lips with cruel obstinacy and shook her head. she had her idea, her completed plan. at that moment the fynes, still at the window and watching like a pair of private detectives, saw a man with a long grey beard and a jovial face go up the steps helping himself with a thick stick, and knock at the door. who could he be? he was one of miss de barral's masters. she had lately taken up painting in water-colours, having read in a high-class woman's weekly paper that a great many princesses of the european royal houses were cultivating that art. this was the water-colour morning; and the teacher, a veteran of many exhibitions, of a venerable and jovial aspect, had turned up with his usual punctuality. he was no great reader of morning papers, and even had he seen the news it is very likely he would not have understood its real purport. at any rate he turned up, as the governess expected him to do, and the fynes saw him pass through the fateful door. he bowed cordially to the lady in charge of miss de barral's education, whom he saw in the hall engaged in conversation with a very good-looking but somewhat raffish young gentleman. she turned to him graciously: "flora is already waiting for you in the drawing-room." the cultivation of the art said to be patronized by princesses was pursued in the drawing-room from considerations of the right kind of light. the governess preceded the master up the stairs and into the room where miss de barral was found arrayed in a holland pinafore (also of the right kind for the pursuit of the art) and smilingly expectant. the water-colour lesson enlivened by the jocular conversation of the kindly, humorous, old man was always great fun; and she felt she would be compensated for the tiresome beginning of the day. her governess generally was present at the lesson; but on this occasion she only sat down till the master and pupil had gone to work in earnest, and then as though she had suddenly remembered some order to give, rose quietly and went out of the room. once outside, the servants summoned by the passing maid without a bell being rung, and quick, quick, let all this luggage be taken down into the hall, and let one of you call a cab. she stood outside the drawing-room door on the landing, looking at each piece, trunk, leather cases, portmanteaus, being carried past her, her brows knitted and her aspect so sombre and absorbed that it took some little time for the butler to muster courage enough to speak to her. but he reflected that he was a free-born briton and had his rights. he spoke straight to the point but in the usual respectful manner. "beg you pardon, ma'am--but are you going away for good?" he was startled by her tone. its unexpected, unlady-like harshness fell on his trained ear with the disagreeable effect of a false note. "yes. i am going away. and the best thing for all of you is to go away too, as soon as you like. you can go now, to-day, this moment. you had your wages paid you only last week. the longer you stay the greater your loss. but i have nothing to do with it now. you are the servants of mr. de barral--you know." the butler was astounded by the manner of this advice, and as his eyes wandered to the drawing-room door the governess extended her arm as if to bar the way. "nobody goes in there." and that was said still in another tone, such a tone that all trace of the trained respectfulness vanished from the butler's bearing. he stared at her with a frank wondering gaze. "not till i am gone," she added, and there was such an expression on her face that the man was daunted by the mystery of it. he shrugged his shoulders slightly and without another word went down the stairs on his way to the basement, brushing in the hall past mr. charles who hat on head and both hands rammed deep into his overcoat pockets paced up and down as though on sentry duty there. the ladies' maid was the only servant upstairs, hovering in the passage on the first floor, curious and as if fascinated by the woman who stood there guarding the door. being beckoned closer imperiously and asked by the governess to bring out of the now empty rooms the hat and veil, the only objects besides the furniture still to be found there, she did so in silence but inwardly fluttered. and while waiting uneasily, with the veil, before that woman who, without moving a step away from the drawingroom door was pinning with careless haste her hat on her head, she heard within a sudden burst of laughter from miss de barral enjoying the fun of the water-colour lesson given her for the last time by the cheery old man. mr. and mrs. fyne ambushed at their window--a most incredible occupation for people of their kind--saw with renewed anxiety a cab come to the door, and watched some luggage being carried out and put on its roof. the butler appeared for a moment, then went in again. what did it mean? was flora going to be taken to her father; or were these people, that woman and her horrible nephew, about to carry her off somewhere? fyne couldn't tell. he doubted the last, flora having now, he judged, no value, either positive or speculative. though no great reader of character he did not credit the governess with humane intentions. he confessed to me naively that he was excited as if watching some action on the stage. then the thought struck him that the girl might have had some money settled on her, be possessed of some means, of some little fortune of her own and therefore-he imparted this theory to his wife who shared fully his consternation. "i can't believe the child will go away without running in to say goodbye to us," she murmured. "we must find out! i shall ask her." but at that very moment the cab rolled away, empty inside, and the door of the house which had been standing slightly ajar till then was pushed to. they remained silent staring at it till mrs. fyne whispered doubtfully "i really think i must go over." fyne didn't answer for a while (his is a reflective mind, you know), and then as if mrs. fyne's whispers had an occult power over that door it opened wide again and the white-bearded man issued, astonishingly active in his movements, using his stick almost like a leaping-pole to get down the steps; and hobbled away briskly along the pavement. naturally the fynes were too far off to make out the expression of his face. but it would not have helped them very much to a guess at the conditions inside the house. the expression was humorously puzzled--nothing more. for, at the end of his lesson, seizing his trusty stick and coming out with his habitual vivacity, he very nearly cannoned just outside the drawing-room door into the back of miss de barral's governess. he stopped himself in time and she turned round swiftly. it was embarrassing; he apologised; but her face was not startled; it was not aware of him; it wore a singular expression of resolution. a very singular expression which, as it were, detained him for a moment. in order to cover his embarrassment, he made some inane remark on the weather, upon which, instead of returning another inane remark according to the tacit rules of the game, she only gave him a smile of unfathomable meaning. nothing could have been more singular. the good-looking young gentleman of questionable appearance took not the slightest notice of him in the hall. no servant was to be seen. he let himself out pulling the door to behind him with a crash as, in a manner, he was forced to do to get it shut at all. when the echo of it had died away the woman on the landing leaned over the banister and called out bitterly to the man below "don't you want to come up and say good-bye." he had an impatient movement of the shoulders and went on pacing to and fro as though he had not heard. but suddenly he checked himself, stood still for a moment, then with a gloomy face and without taking his hands out of his pockets ran smartly up the stairs. already facing the door she turned her head for a whispered taunt: "come! confess you were dying to see her stupid little face once more,"--to which he disdained to answer. flora de barral, still seated before the table at which she had been wording on her sketch, raised her head at the noise of the opening door. the invading manner of their entrance gave her the sense of something she had never seen before. she knew them well. she knew the woman better than she knew her father. there had been between them an intimacy of relation as great as it can possibly be without the final closeness of affection. the delightful charley walked in, with his eyes fixed on the back of her governess whose raised veil hid her forehead like a brown band above the black line of the eyebrows. the girl was astounded and alarmed by the altogether unknown expression in the woman's face. the stress of passion often discloses an aspect of the personality completely ignored till then by its closest intimates. there was something like an emanation of evil from her eyes and from the face of the other, who, exactly behind her and overtopping her by half a head, kept his eyelids lowered in a sinister fashion--which in the poor girl, reached, stirred, set free that faculty of unreasoning explosive terror lying locked up at the bottom of all human hearts and of the hearts of animals as well. with suddenly enlarged pupils and a movement as instinctive almost as the bounding of a startled fawn, she jumped up and found herself in the middle of the big room, exclaiming at those amazing and familiar strangers. "what do you want?" you will note that she cried: what do you want? not: what has happened? she told mrs. fyne that she had received suddenly the feeling of being personally attacked. and that must have been very terrifying. the woman before her had been the wisdom, the authority, the protection of life, security embodied and visible and undisputed. you may imagine then the force of the shock in the intuitive perception not merely of danger, for she did not know what was alarming her, but in the sense of the security being gone. and not only security. i don't know how to explain it clearly. look! even a small child lives, plays and suffers in terms of its conception of its own existence. imagine, if you can, a fact coming in suddenly with a force capable of shattering that very conception itself. it was only because of the girl being still so much of a child that she escaped mental destruction; that, in other words she got over it. could one conceive of her more mature, while still as ignorant as she was, one must conclude that she would have become an idiot on the spot--long before the end of that experience. luckily, people, whether mature or not mature (and who really is ever mature?) are for the most part quite incapable of understanding what is happening to them: a merciful provision of nature to preserve an average amount of sanity for working purposes in this world . . . " "but we, my dear marlow, have the inestimable advantage of understanding what is happening to others," i struck in. "or at least some of us seem to. is that too a provision of nature? and what is it for? is it that we may amuse ourselves gossiping about each other's affairs? you for instance seem--" "i don't know what i seem," marlow silenced me, "and surely life must be amused somehow. it would be still a very respectable provision if it were only for that end. but from that same provision of understanding, there springs in us compassion, charity, indignation, the sense of solidarity; and in minds of any largeness an inclination to that indulgence which is next door to affection. i don't mean to say that i am inclined to an indulgent view of the precious couple which broke in upon an unsuspecting girl. they came marching in (it's the very expression she used later on to mrs. fyne) but at her cry they stopped. it must have been startling enough to them. it was like having the mask torn off when you don't expect it. the man stopped for good; he didn't offer to move a step further. but, though the governess had come in there for the very purpose of taking the mask off for the first time in her life, she seemed to look upon the frightened cry as a fresh provocation. "what are you screaming for, you little fool?" she said advancing alone close to the girl who was affected exactly as if she had seen medusa's head with serpentine locks set mysteriously on the shoulders of that familiar person, in that brown dress, under that hat she knew so well. it made her lose all her hold on reality. she told mrs. fyne: "i didn't know where i was. i didn't even know that i was frightened. if she had told me it was a joke i would have laughed. if she had told me to put on my hat and go out with her i would have gone to put on my hat and gone out with her and never said a single word; i should have been convinced i had been mad for a minute or so, and i would have worried myself to death rather than breathe a hint of it to her or anyone. but the wretch put her face close to mine and i could not move. directly i had looked into her eyes i felt grown on to the carpet." it was years afterwards that she used to talk like this to mrs. fyne--and to mrs. fyne alone. nobody else ever heard the story from her lips. but it was never forgotten. it was always felt; it remained like a mark on her soul, a sort of mystic wound, to be contemplated, to be meditated over. and she said further to mrs. fyne, in the course of many confidences provoked by that contemplation, that, as long as that woman called her names, it was almost soothing, it was in a manner reassuring. her imagination had, like her body, gone off in a wild bound to meet the unknown; and then to hear after all something which more in its tone than in its substance was mere venomous abuse, had steadied the inward flutter of all her being. "she called me a little fool more times than i can remember. i! a fool! why, mrs. fyne! i do assure you i had never yet thought at all; never of anything in the world, till then. i just went on living. and one can't be a fool without one has at least tried to think. but what had i ever to think about?" "and no doubt," commented marlow, "her life had been a mere life of sensations--the response to which can neither be foolish nor wise. it can only be temperamental; and i believe that she was of a generally happy disposition, a child of the average kind. even when she was asked violently whether she imagined that there was anything in her, apart from her money, to induce any intelligent person to take any sort of interest in her existence, she only caught her breath in one dry sob and said nothing, made no other sound, made no movement. when she was viciously assured that she was in heart, mind, manner and appearance, an utterly common and insipid creature, she remained still, without indignation, without anger. she stood, a frail and passive vessel into which the other went on pouring all the accumulated dislike for all her pupils, her scorn of all her employers (the ducal one included), the accumulated resentment, the infinite hatred of all these unrelieved years of--i won't say hypocrisy. the practice of perfect hypocrisy is a relief in itself, a secret triumph of the vilest sort, no doubt, but still a way of getting even with the common morality from which some of us appear to suffer so much. no! i will say the years, the passionate, bitter years, of restraint, the iron, admirably mannered restraint at every moment, in a never-failing perfect correctness of speech, glances, movements, smiles, gestures, establishing for her a high reputation, an impressive record of success in her sphere. it had been like living half strangled for years. and all this torture for nothing, in the end! what looked at last like a possible prize (oh, without illusions! but still a prize) broken in her hands, fallen in the dust, the bitter dust, of disappointment, she revelled in the miserable revenge--pretty safe too--only regretting the unworthiness of the girlish figure which stood for so much she had longed to be able to spit venom at, if only once, in perfect liberty. the presence of the young man at her back increased both her satisfaction and her rage. but the very violence of the attack seemed to defeat its end by rendering the representative victim as it were insensible. the cause of this outrage naturally escaping the girl's imagination her attitude was in effect that of dense, hopeless stupidity. and it is a fact that the worst shocks of life are often received without outcries, without gestures, without a flow of tears and the convulsions of sobbing. the insatiable governess missed these signs exceedingly. this pitiful stolidity was only a fresh provocation. yet the poor girl was deadly pale. "i was cold," she used to explain to mrs. fyne. "i had had time to get terrified. she had pushed her face so near mine and her teeth looked as though she wanted to bite me. her eyes seemed to have become quite dry, hard and small in a lot of horrible wrinkles. i was too afraid of her to shudder, too afraid of her to put my fingers to my ears. i didn't know what i expected her to call me next, but when she told me i was no better than a beggar--that there would be no more masters, no more servants, no more horses for me--i said to myself: is that all? i should have laughed if i hadn't been too afraid of her to make the least little sound." it seemed that poor flora had to know all the possible phases of that sort of anguish, beginning with instinctive panic, through the bewildered stage, the frozen stage and the stage of blanched apprehension, down to the instinctive prudence of extreme terror--the stillness of the mouse. but when she heard herself called the child of a cheat and a swindler, the very monstrous unexpectedness of this caused in her a revulsion towards letting herself go. she screamed out all at once "you mustn't speak like this of papa!" the effort of it uprooted her from that spot where her little feet seemed dug deep into the thick luxurious carpet, and she retreated backwards to a distant part of the room, hearing herself repeat "you mustn't, you mustn't" as if it were somebody else screaming. she came to a chair and flung herself into it. thereupon the somebody else ceased screaming and she lolled, exhausted, sightless, in a silent room, as if indifferent to everything and without a single thought in her head. the next few seconds seemed to last for ever so long; a black abyss of time separating what was past and gone from the reappearance of the governess and the reawakening of fear. and that woman was forcing the words through her set teeth: "you say i mustn't, i mustn't. all the world will be speaking of him like this to-morrow. they will say it, and they'll print it. you shall hear it and you shall read it--and then you shall know whose daughter you are." her face lighted up with an atrocious satisfaction. "he's nothing but a thief," she cried, "this father of yours. as to you i have never been deceived in you for a moment. i have been growing more and more sick of you for years. you are a vulgar, silly nonentity, and you shall go back to where you belong, whatever low place you have sprung from, and beg your bread--that is if anybody's charity will have anything to do with you, which i doubt--" she would have gone on regardless of the enormous eyes, of the open mouth of the girl who sat up suddenly with the wild staring expression of being choked by invisible fingers on her throat, and yet horribly pale. the effect on her constitution was so profound, mrs. fyne told me, that she who as a child had a rather pretty delicate colouring, showed a white bloodless face for a couple of years afterwards, and remained always liable at the slightest emotion to an extraordinary ghost-like whiteness. the end came in the abomination of desolation of the poor child's miserable cry for help: "charley! charley!" coming from her throat in hidden gasping efforts. her enlarged eyes had discovered him where he stood motionless and dumb. he started from his immobility, a hand withdrawn brusquely from the pocket of his overcoat, strode up to the woman, seized her by the arm from behind, saying in a rough commanding tone: "come away, eliza." in an instant the child saw them close together and remote, near the door, gone through the door, which she neither heard nor saw being opened or shut. but it was shut. oh yes, it was shut. her slow unseeing glance wandered all over the room. for some time longer she remained leaning forward, collecting her strength, doubting if she would be able to stand. she stood up at last. everything about her spun round in an oppressive silence. she remembered perfectly--as she told mrs. fyne--that clinging to the arm of the chair she called out twice "papa! papa!" at the thought that he was far away in london everything about her became quite still. then, frightened suddenly by the solitude of that empty room, she rushed out of it blindly. * * * * * with that fatal diffidence in well doing, inherent in the present condition of humanity, the fynes continued to watch at their window. "it's always so difficult to know what to do for the best," fyne assured me. it is. good intentions stand in their own way so much. whereas if you want to do harm to anyone you needn't hesitate. you have only to go on. no one will reproach you with your mistakes or call you a confounded, clumsy meddler. the fynes watched the door, the closed street door inimical somehow to their benevolent thoughts, the face of the house cruelly impenetrable. it was just as on any other day. the unchanged daily aspect of inanimate things is so impressive that fyne went back into the room for a moment, picked up the paper again, and ran his eyes over the item of news. no doubt of it. it looked very bad. he came back to the window and mrs. fyne. tired out as she was she sat there resolute and ready for responsibility. but she had no suggestion to offer. people do fear a rebuff wonderfully, and all her audacity was in her thoughts. she shrank from the incomparably insolent manner of the governess. fyne stood by her side, as in those old-fashioned photographs of married couples where you see a husband with his hand on the back of his wife's chair. and they were about as efficient as an old photograph, and as still, till mrs. fyne started slightly. the street door had swung open, and, bursting out, appeared the young man, his hat (mrs. fyne observed) tilted forward over his eyes. after him the governess slipped through, turning round at once to shut the door behind her with care. meantime the man went down the white steps and strode along the pavement, his hands rammed deep into the pockets of his fawn overcoat. the woman, that woman of composed movements, of deliberate superior manner, took a little run to catch up with him, and directly she had caught up with him tried to introduce her hand under his arm. mrs. fyne saw the brusque half turn of the fellow's body as one avoids an importunate contact, defeating her attempt rudely. she did not try again but kept pace with his stride, and mrs. fyne watched them, walking independently, turn the corner of the street side by side, disappear for ever. the fynes looked at each other eloquently, doubtfully: what do you think of this? then with common accord turned their eyes back to the street door, closed, massive, dark; the great, clear-brass knocker shining in a quiet slant of sunshine cut by a diagonal line of heavy shade filling the further end of the street. could the girl be already gone? sent away to her father? had she any relations? nobody but de barral himself ever came to see her, mrs. fyne remembered; and she had the instantaneous, profound, maternal perception of the child's loneliness--and a girl too! it was irresistible. and, besides, the departure of the governess was not without its encouraging influence. "i am going over at once to find out," she declared resolutely but still staring across the street. her intention was arrested by the sight of that awful, sombrely glistening door, swinging back suddenly on the yawning darkness of the hall, out of which literally flew out, right out on the pavement, almost without touching the white steps, a little figure swathed in a holland pinafore up to the chin, its hair streaming back from its head, darting past a lamp-post, past the red pillar-box . . . "here," cried mrs. fyne; "she's coming here! run, john! run!" fyne bounded out of the room. this is his own word. bounded! he assured me with intensified solemnity that he bounded; and the sight of the short and muscular fyne bounding gravely about the circumscribed passages and staircases of a small, very high class, private hotel, would have been worth any amount of money to a man greedy of memorable impressions. but as i looked at him, the desire of laughter at my very lips, i asked myself: how many men could be found ready to compromise their cherished gravity for the sake of the unimportant child of a ruined financier with an ugly, black cloud already wreathing his head. i didn't laugh at little fyne. i encouraged him: "you did!--very good . . . well?" his main thought was to save the child from some unpleasant interference. there was a porter downstairs, page boys; some people going away with their trunks in the passage; a railway omnibus at the door, white-breasted waiters dodging about the entrance. he was in time. he was at the door before she reached it in her blind course. she did not recognize him; perhaps she did not see him. he caught her by the arm as she ran past and, very sensibly, without trying to check her, simply darted in with her and up the stairs, causing no end of consternation amongst the people in his way. they scattered. what might have been their thoughts at the spectacle of a shameless middleaged man abducting headlong into the upper regions of a respectable hotel a terrified young girl obviously under age, i don't know. and fyne (he told me so) did not care for what people might think. all he wanted was to reach his wife before the girl collapsed. for a time she ran with him but at the last flight of stairs he had to seize and half drag, half carry her to his wife. mrs. fyne waited at the door with her quite unmoved physiognomy and her readiness to confront any sort of responsibility, which already characterized her, long before she became a ruthless theorist. relieved, his mission accomplished, fyne closed hastily the door of the sitting-room. but before long both fynes became frightened. after a period of immobility in the arms of mrs. fyne, the girl, who had not said a word, tore herself out from that slightly rigid embrace. she struggled dumbly between them, they did not know why, soundless and ghastly, till she sank exhausted on a couch. luckily the children were out with the two nurses. the hotel housemaid helped mrs. fyne to put flora de barral to bed. she was as if gone speechless and insane. she lay on her back, her face white like a piece of paper, her dark eyes staring at the ceiling, her awful immobility broken by sudden shivering fits with a loud chattering of teeth in the shadowy silence of the room, the blinds pulled down, mrs. fyne sitting by patiently, her arms folded, yet inwardly moved by the riddle of that distress of which she could not guess the word, and saying to herself: "that child is too emotional--much too emotional to be ever really sound!" as if anyone not made of stone could be perfectly sound in this world. and then how sound? in what sense--to resist what? force or corruption? and even in the best armour of steel there are joints a treacherous stroke can always find if chance gives the opportunity. general considerations never had the power to trouble mrs. fyne much. the girl not being in a state to be questioned she waited by the bedside. fyne had crossed over to the house, his scruples overcome by his anxiety to discover what really had happened. he did not have to lift the knocker; the door stood open on the inside gloom of the hall; he walked into it and saw no one about, the servants having assembled for a fatuous consultation in the basement. fyne's uplifted bass voice startled them down there, the butler coming up, staring and in his shirt sleeves, very suspicious at first, and then, on fyne's explanation that he was the husband of a lady who had called several times at the house--miss de barral's mother's friend--becoming humanely concerned and communicative, in a man to man tone, but preserving his trained high-class servant's voice: "oh bless you, sir, no! she does not mean to come back. she told me so herself"--he assured fyne with a faint shade of contempt creeping into his tone. as regards their young lady nobody downstairs had any idea that she had run out of the house. he dared say they all would have been willing to do their very best for her, for the time being; but since she was now with her mother's friends . . . he fidgeted. he murmured that all this was very unexpected. he wanted to know what he had better do with letters or telegrams which might arrive in the course of the day. "letters addressed to miss de barral, you had better bring over to my hotel over there," said fyne beginning to feel extremely worried about the future. the man said "yes, sir," adding, "and if a letter comes addressed to mrs. . . . " fyne stopped him by a gesture. "i don't know . . . anything you like." "very well, sir." the butler did not shut the street door after fyne, but remained on the doorstep for a while, looking up and down the street in the spirit of independent expectation like a man who is again his own master. mrs. fyne hearing her husband return came out of the room where the girl was lying in bed. "no change," she whispered; and fyne could only make a hopeless sign of ignorance as to what all this meant and how it would end. he feared future complications--naturally; a man of limited means, in a public position, his time not his own. yes. he owned to me in the parlour of my farmhouse that he had been very much concerned then at the possible consequences. but as he was making this artless confession i said to myself that, whatever consequences and complications he might have imagined, the complication from which he was suffering now could never, never have presented itself to his mind. slow but sure (for i conceive that the book of destiny has been written up from the beginning to the last page) it had been coming for something like six years--and now it had come. the complication was there! i looked at his unshaken solemnity with the amused pity we give the victim of a funny if somewhat ill-natured practical joke. "oh hang it," he exclaimed--in no logical connection with what he had been relating to me. nevertheless the exclamation was intelligible enough. however at first there were, he admitted, no untoward complications, no embarrassing consequences. to a telegram in guarded terms dispatched to de barral no answer was received for more than twenty-four hours. this certainly caused the fynes some anxiety. when the answer arrived late on the evening of next day it was in the shape of an elderly man. an unexpected sort of man. fyne explained to me with precision that he evidently belonged to what is most respectable in the lower middle classes. he was calm and slow in his speech. he was wearing a frockcoat, had grey whiskers meeting under his chin, and declared on entering that mr. de barral was his cousin. he hastened to add that he had not seen his cousin for many years, while he looked upon fyne (who received him alone) with so much distrust that fyne felt hurt (the person actually refusing at first the chair offered to him) and retorted tartly that he, for his part, had _never_ seen mr. de barral, in his life, and that, since the visitor did not want to sit down, he, fyne, begged him to state his business as shortly as possible. the man in black sat down then with a faint superior smile. he had come for the girl. his cousin had asked him in a note delivered by a messenger to go to brighton at once and take "his girl" over from a gentleman named fyne and give her house-room for a time in his family. and there he was. his business had not allowed him to come sooner. his business was the manufacture on a large scale of cardboard boxes. he had two grown-up girls of his own. he had consulted his wife and so that was all right. the girl would get a welcome in his home. his home most likely was not what she had been used to but, etc. etc. all the time fyne felt subtly in that man's manner a derisive disapproval of everything that was not lower middle class, a profound respect for money, a mean sort of contempt for speculators that fail, and a conceited satisfaction with his own respectable vulgarity. with mrs. fyne the manner of the obscure cousin of de barral was but little less offensive. he looked at her rather slyly but her cold, decided demeanour impressed him. mrs. fyne on her side was simply appalled by the personage, but did not show it outwardly. not even when the man remarked with false simplicity that florrie--her name was florrie wasn't it? would probably miss at first all her grand friends. and when he was informed that the girl was in bed, not feeling well at all he showed an unsympathetic alarm. she wasn't an invalid was she? no. what was the matter with her then? an extreme distaste for that respectable member of society was depicted in fyne's face even as he was telling me of him after all these years. he was a specimen of precisely the class of which people like the fynes have the least experience; and i imagine he jarred on them painfully. he possessed all the civic virtues in their very meanest form, and the finishing touch was given by a low sort of consciousness he manifested of possessing them. his industry was exemplary. he wished to catch the earliest possible train next morning. it seems that for seven and twenty years he had never missed being seated on his office-stool at the factory punctually at ten o'clock every day. he listened to mrs. fyne's objections with undisguised impatience. why couldn't florrie get up and have her breakfast at eight like other people? in his house the breakfast was at eight sharp. mrs. fyne's polite stoicism overcame him at last. he had come down at a very great personal inconvenience, he assured her with displeasure, but he gave up the early train. the good fynes didn't dare to look at each other before this unforeseen but perfectly authorized guardian, the same thought springing up in their minds: poor girl! poor girl! if the women of the family were like this too! . . . and of course they would be. poor girl! but what could they have done even if they had been prepared to raise objections. the person in the frock-coat had the father's note; he had shown it to fyne. just a request to take care of the girl--as her nearest relative--without any explanation or a single allusion to the financial catastrophe, its tone strangely detached and in its very silence on the point giving occasion to think that the writer was not uneasy as to the child's future. probably it was that very idea which had set the cousin so readily in motion. men had come before out of commercial crashes with estates in the country and a comfortable income, if not for themselves then for their wives. and if a wife could be made comfortable by a little dexterous management then why not a daughter? yes. this possibility might have been discussed in the person's household and judged worth acting upon. the man actually hinted broadly that such was his belief and in face of fyne's guarded replies gave him to understand that he was not the dupe of such reticences. obviously he looked upon the fynes as being disappointed because the girl was taken away from them. they, by a diplomatic sacrifice in the interests of poor flora, had asked the man to dinner. he accepted ungraciously, remarking that he was not used to late hours. he had generally a bit of supper about half-past eight or nine. however . . . he gazed contemptuously round the prettily decorated dining-room. he wrinkled his nose in a puzzled way at the dishes offered to him by the waiter but refused none, devouring the food with a great appetite and drinking ("swilling" fyne called it) gallons of ginger beer, which was procured for him (in stone bottles) at his request. the difficulty of keeping up a conversation with that being exhausted mrs. fyne herself, who had come to the table armed with adamantine resolution. the only memorable thing he said was when, in a pause of gorging himself "with these french dishes" he deliberately let his eyes roam over the little tables occupied by parties of diners, and remarked that his wife did for a moment think of coming down with him, but that he was glad she didn't do so. "she wouldn't have been at all happy seeing all this alcohol about. not at all happy," he declared weightily. "you must have had a charming evening," i said to fyne, "if i may judge from the way you have kept the memory green." "delightful," he growled with, positively, a flash of anger at the recollection, but lapsed back into his solemnity at once. after we had been silent for a while i asked whether the man took away the girl next day. fyne said that he did; in the afternoon, in a fly, with a few clothes the maid had got together and brought across from the big house. he only saw flora again ten minutes before they left for the railway station, in the fynes' sitting-room at the hotel. it was a most painful ten minutes for the fynes. the respectable citizen addressed miss de barral as "florrie" and "my dear," remarking to her that she was not very big "there's not much of you my dear" in a familiarly disparaging tone. then turning to mrs. fyne, and quite loud "she's very white in the face. why's that?" to this mrs. fyne made no reply. she had put the girl's hair up that morning with her own hands. it changed her very much, observed fyne. he, naturally, played a subordinate, merely approving part. all he could do for miss de barral personally was to go downstairs and put her into the fly himself, while miss de barral's nearest relation, having been shouldered out of the way, stood by, with an umbrella and a little black bag, watching this proceeding with grim amusement, as it seemed. it was difficult to guess what the girl thought or what she felt. she no longer looked a child. she whispered to fyne a faint "thank you," from the fly, and he said to her in very distinct tones and while still holding her hand: "pray don't forget to write fully to my wife in a day or two, miss de barral." then fyne stepped back and the cousin climbed into the fly muttering quite audibly: "i don't think you'll be troubled much with her in the future;" without however looking at fyne on whom he did not even bestow a nod. the fly drove away. chapter five--the tea-party "amiable personality," i observed seeing fyne on the point of falling into a brown study. but i could not help adding with meaning: "he hadn't the gift of prophecy though." fyne got up suddenly with a muttered "no, evidently not." he was gloomy, hesitating. i supposed that he would not wish to play chess that afternoon. this would dispense me from leaving my rooms on a day much too fine to be wasted in walking exercise. and i was disappointed when picking up his cap he intimated to me his hope of seeing me at the cottage about four o'clock--as usual. "it wouldn't be as usual." i put a particular stress on that remark. he admitted, after a short reflection, that it would not be. no. not as usual. in fact it was his wife who hoped, rather, for my presence. she had formed a very favourable opinion of my practical sagacity. this was the first i ever heard of it. i had never suspected that mrs. fyne had taken the trouble to distinguish in me the signs of sagacity or folly. the few words we had exchanged last night in the excitement--or the bother--of the girl's disappearance, were the first moderately significant words which had ever passed between us. i had felt myself always to be in mrs. fyne's view her husband's chess-player and nothing else--a convenience--almost an implement. "i am highly flattered," i said. "i have always heard that there are no limits to feminine intuition; and now i am half inclined to believe it is so. but still i fail to see in what way my sagacity, practical or otherwise, can be of any service to mrs. fyne. one man's sagacity is very much like any other man's sagacity. and with you at hand--" fyne, manifestly not attending to what i was saying, directed straight at me his worried solemn eyes and struck in: "yes, yes. very likely. but you will come--won't you?" i had made up my mind that no fyne of either sex would make me walk three miles (there and back to their cottage) on this fine day. if the fynes had been an average sociable couple one knows only because leisure must be got through somehow, i would have made short work of that special invitation. but they were not that. their undeniable humanity had to be acknowledged. at the same time i wanted to have my own way. so i proposed that i should be allowed the pleasure of offering them a cup of tea at my rooms. a short reflective pause--and fyne accepted eagerly in his own and his wife's name. a moment after i heard the click of the gate-latch and then in an ecstasy of barking from his demonstrative dog his serious head went past my window on the other side of the hedge, its troubled gaze fixed forward, and the mind inside obviously employed in earnest speculation of an intricate nature. one at least of his wife's girl-friends had become more than a mere shadow for him. i surmised however that it was not of the girl-friend but of his wife that fyne was thinking. he was an excellent husband. i prepared myself for the afternoon's hospitalities, calling in the farmer's wife and reviewing with her the resources of the house and the village. she was a helpful woman. but the resources of my sagacity i did not review. except in the gross material sense of the afternoon tea i made no preparations for mrs. fyne. it was impossible for me to make any such preparations. i could not tell what sort of sustenance she would look for from my sagacity. and as to taking stock of the wares of my mind no one i imagine is anxious to do that sort of thing if it can be avoided. a vaguely grandiose state of mental self-confidence is much too agreeable to be disturbed recklessly by such a delicate investigation. perhaps if i had had a helpful woman at my elbow, a dear, flattering acute, devoted woman . . . there are in life moments when one positively regrets not being married. no! i don't exaggerate. i have said--moments, not years or even days. moments. the farmer's wife obviously could not be asked to assist. she could not have been expected to possess the necessary insight and i doubt whether she would have known how to be flattering enough. she was being helpful in her own way, with an extraordinary black bonnet on her head, a good mile off by that time, trying to discover in the village shops a piece of eatable cake. the pluck of women! the optimism of the dear creatures! and she managed to find something which looked eatable. that's all i know as i had no opportunity to observe the more intimate effects of that comestible. i myself never eat cake, and mrs. fyne, when she arrived punctually, brought with her no appetite for cake. she had no appetite for anything. but she had a thirst--the sign of deep, of tormenting emotion. yes it was emotion, not the brilliant sunshine--more brilliant than warm as is the way of our discreet self-repressed, distinguished, insular sun, which would not turn a real lady scarlet--not on any account. mrs. fyne looked even cool. she wore a white skirt and coat; a white hat with a large brim reposed on her smoothly arranged hair. the coat was cut something like an army mess-jacket and the style suited her. i dare say there are many youthful subalterns, and not the worst-looking too, who resemble mrs. fyne in the type of face, in the sunburnt complexion, down to that something alert in bearing. but not many would have had that aspect breathing a readiness to assume any responsibility under heaven. this is the sort of courage which ripens late in life and of course mrs. fyne was of mature years for all her unwrinkled face. she looked round the room, told me positively that i was very comfortable there; to which i assented, humbly, acknowledging my undeserved good fortune. "why undeserved?" she wanted to know. "i engaged these rooms by letter without asking any questions. it might have been an abominable hole," i explained to her. "i always do things like that. i don't like to be bothered. this is no great proof of sagacity--is it? sagacious people i believe like to exercise that faculty. i have heard that they can't even help showing it in the veriest trifles. it must be very delightful. but i know nothing of it. i think that i have no sagacity--no practical sagacity." fyne made an inarticulate bass murmur of protest. i asked after the children whom i had not seen yet since my return from town. they had been very well. they were always well. both fyne and mrs. fyne spoke of the rude health of their children as if it were a result of moral excellence; in a peculiar tone which seemed to imply some contempt for people whose children were liable to be unwell at times. one almost felt inclined to apologize for the inquiry. and this annoyed me; unreasonably, i admit, because the assumption of superior merit is not a very exceptional weakness. anxious to make myself disagreeable by way of retaliation i observed in accents of interested civility that the dear girls must have been wondering at the sudden disappearance of their mother's young friend. had they been putting any awkward questions about miss smith. wasn't it as miss smith that miss de barral had been introduced to me? mrs. fyne, staring fixedly but also colouring deeper under her tan, told me that the children had never liked flora very much. she hadn't the high spirits which endear grown-ups to healthy children, mrs. fyne explained unflinchingly. flora had been staying at the cottage several times before. mrs. fyne assured me that she often found it very difficult to have her in the house. "but what else could we do?" she exclaimed. that little cry of distress quite genuine in its inexpressiveness, altered my feeling towards mrs. fyne. it would have been so easy to have done nothing and to have thought no more about it. my liking for her began while she was trying to tell me of the night she spent by the girl's bedside, the night before her departure with her unprepossessing relative. that mrs. fyne found means to comfort the child i doubt very much. she had not the genius for the task of undoing that which the hate of an infuriated woman had planned so well. you will tell me perhaps that children's impressions are not durable. that's true enough. but here, child is only a manner of speaking. the girl was within a few days of her sixteenth birthday; she was old enough to be matured by the shock. the very effort she had to make in conveying the impression to mrs. fyne, in remembering the details, in finding adequate words--or any words at all--was in itself a terribly enlightening, an ageing process. she had talked a long time, uninterrupted by mrs. fyne, childlike enough in her wonder and pain, pausing now and then to interject the pitiful query: "it was cruel of her. wasn't it cruel, mrs. fyne?" for charley she found excuses. he at any rate had not said anything, while he had looked very gloomy and miserable. he couldn't have taken part against his aunt--could he? but after all he did, when she called upon him, take "that cruel woman away." he had dragged her out by the arm. she had seen that plainly. she remembered it. that was it! the woman was mad. "oh! mrs. fyne, don't tell me she wasn't mad. if you had only seen her face . . . " but mrs. fyne was unflinching in her idea that as much truth as could be told was due in the way of kindness to the girl, whose fate she feared would be to live exposed to the hardest realities of unprivileged existences. she explained to her that there were in the world evil-minded, selfish people. unscrupulous people . . . these two persons had been after her father's money. the best thing she could do was to forget all about them. "after papa's money? i don't understand," poor flora de barral had murmured, and lay still as if trying to think it out in the silence and shadows of the room where only a night-light was burning. then she had a long shivering fit while holding tight the hand of mrs. fyne whose patient immobility by the bedside of that brutally murdered childhood did infinite honour to her humanity. that vigil must have been the more trying because i could see very well that at no time did she think the victim particularly charming or sympathetic. it was a manifestation of pure compassion, of compassion in itself, so to speak, not many women would have been capable of displaying with that unflinching steadiness. the shivering fit over, the girl's next words in an outburst of sobs were, "oh! mrs. fyne, am i really such a horrid thing as she has made me out to be?" "no, no!" protested mrs. fyne. "it is your former governess who is horrid and odious. she is a vile woman. i cannot tell you that she was mad but i think she must have been beside herself with rage and full of evil thoughts. you must try not to think of these abominations, my dear child." they were not fit for anyone to think of much, mrs. fyne commented to me in a curt positive tone. all that had been very trying. the girl was like a creature struggling under a net. "but how can i forget? she called my father a cheat and a swindler! do tell me mrs. fyne that it isn't true. it can't be true. how can it be true?" she sat up in bed with a sudden wild motion as if to jump out and flee away from the sound of the words which had just passed her own lips. mrs. fyne restrained her, soothed her, induced her at last to lay her head on her pillow again, assuring her all the time that nothing this woman had had the cruelty to say deserved to be taken to heart. the girl, exhausted, cried quietly for a time. it may be she had noticed something evasive in mrs. fyne's assurances. after a while, without stirring, she whispered brokenly: "that awful woman told me that all the world would call papa these awful names. is it possible? is it possible?" mrs. fyne kept silent. "do say something to me, mrs. fyne," the daughter of de barral insisted in the same feeble whisper. again mrs. fyne assured me that it had been very trying. terribly trying. "yes, thanks, i will." she leaned back in the chair with folded arms while i poured another cup of tea for her, and fyne went out to pacify the dog which, tied up under the porch, had become suddenly very indignant at somebody having the audacity to walk along the lane. mrs. fyne stirred her tea for a long time, drank a little, put the cup down and said with that air of accepting all the consequences: "silence would have been unfair. i don't think it would have been kind either. i told her that she must be prepared for the world passing a very severe judgment on her father . . . " * * * * * "wasn't it admirable," cried marlow interrupting his narrative. "admirable!" and as i looked dubiously at this unexpected enthusiasm he started justifying it after his own manner. "i say admirable because it was so characteristic. it was perfect. nothing short of genius could have found better. and this was nature! as they say of an artist's work: this was a perfect fyne. compassion--judiciousness--something correctly measured. none of your dishevelled sentiment. and right! you must confess that nothing could have been more right. i had a mind to shout "brava! brava!" but i did not do that. i took a piece of cake and went out to bribe the fyne dog into some sort of self-control. his sharp comical yapping was unbearable, like stabs through one's brain, and fyne's deeply modulated remonstrances abashed the vivacious animal no more than the deep, patient murmur of the sea abashes a nigger minstrel on a popular beach. fyne was beginning to swear at him in low, sepulchral tones when i appeared. the dog became at once wildly demonstrative, half strangling himself in his collar, his eyes and tongue hanging out in the excess of his incomprehensible affection for me. this was before he caught sight of the cake in my hand. a series of vertical springs high up in the air followed, and then, when he got the cake, he instantly lost his interest in everything else. fyne was slightly vexed with me. as kind a master as any dog could wish to have, he yet did not approve of cake being given to dogs. the fyne dog was supposed to lead a spartan existence on a diet of repulsive biscuits with an occasional dry, hygienic, bone thrown in. fyne looked down gloomily at the appeased animal, i too looked at that fool-dog; and (you know how one's memory gets suddenly stimulated) i was reminded visually, with an almost painful distinctness, of the ghostly white face of the girl i saw last accompanied by that dog--deserted by that dog. i almost heard her distressed voice as if on the verge of resentful tears calling to the dog, the unsympathetic dog. perhaps she had not the power of evoking sympathy, that personal gift of direct appeal to the feelings. i said to fyne, mistrusting the supine attitude of the dog: "why don't you let him come inside?" oh dear no! he couldn't think of it! i might indeed have saved my breath, i knew it was one of the fynes' rules of life, part of their solemnity and responsibility, one of those things that were part of their unassertive but ever present superiority, that their dog must not be allowed in. it was most improper to intrude the dog into the houses of the people they were calling on--if it were only a careless bachelor in farmhouse lodgings and a personal friend of the dog. it was out of the question. but they would let him bark one's sanity away outside one's window. they were strangely consistent in their lack of imaginative sympathy. i didn't insist but simply led the way back to the parlour, hoping that no wayfarer would happen along the lane for the next hour or so to disturb the dog's composure. mrs. fyne seated immovable before the table charged with plates, cups, jugs, a cold teapot, crumbs, and the general litter of the entertainment turned her head towards us. "you see, mr. marlow," she said in an unexpectedly confidential tone: "they are so utterly unsuited for each other." at the moment i did not know how to apply this remark. i thought at first of fyne and the dog. then i adjusted it to the matter in hand which was neither more nor less than an elopement. yes, by jove! it was something very much like an elopement--with certain unusual characteristics of its own which made it in a sense equivocal. with amused wonder i remembered that my sagacity was requisitioned in such a connection. how unexpected! but we never know what tests our gifts may be put to. sagacity dictated caution first of all. i believe caution to be the first duty of sagacity. fyne sat down as if preparing himself to witness a joust, i thought. "do you think so, mrs. fyne?" i said sagaciously. "of course you are in a position . . . " i was continuing with caution when she struck out vivaciously for immediate assent. "obviously! clearly! you yourself must admit . . . " "but, mrs. fyne," i remonstrated, "you forget that i don't know your brother." this argument which was not only sagacious but true, overwhelmingly true, unanswerably true, seemed to surprise her. i wondered why. i did not know enough of her brother for the remotest guess at what he might be like. i had never set eyes on the man. i didn't know him so completely that by contrast i seemed to have known miss de barral--whom i had seen twice (altogether about sixty minutes) and with whom i had exchanged about sixty words--from the cradle so to speak. and perhaps, i thought, looking down at mrs. fyne (i had remained standing) perhaps she thinks that this ought to be enough for a sagacious assent. she kept silent; and i looking at her with polite expectation, went on addressing her mentally in a mood of familiar approval which would have astonished her had it been audible: you my dear at any rate are a sincere woman . . . " "i call a woman sincere," marlow began again after giving me a cigar and lighting one himself, "i call a woman sincere when she volunteers a statement resembling remotely in form what she really would like to say, what she really thinks ought to be said if it were not for the necessity to spare the stupid sensitiveness of men. the women's rougher, simpler, more upright judgment, embraces the whole truth, which their tact, their mistrust of masculine idealism, ever prevents them from speaking in its entirety. and their tact is unerring. we could not stand women speaking the truth. we could not bear it. it would cause infinite misery and bring about most awful disturbances in this rather mediocre, but still idealistic fool's paradise in which each of us lives his own little life--the unit in the great sum of existence. and they know it. they are merciful. this generalization does not apply exactly to mrs. fyne's outburst of sincerity in a matter in which neither my affections nor my vanity were engaged. that's why, may be, she ventured so far. for a woman she chose to be as open as the day with me. there was not only the form but almost the whole substance of her thought in what she said. she believed she could risk it. she had reasoned somewhat in this way; there's a man, possessing a certain amount of sagacity . . . " marlow paused with a whimsical look at me. the last few words he had spoken with the cigar in his teeth. he took it out now by an ample movement of his arm and blew a thin cloud. "you smile? it would have been more kind to spare my blushes. but as a matter of fact i need not blush. this is not vanity; it is analysis. we'll let sagacity stand. but we must also note what sagacity in this connection stands for. when you see this you shall see also that there was nothing in it to alarm my modesty. i don't think mrs. fyne credited me with the possession of wisdom tempered by common sense. and had i had the wisdom of the seven sages of antiquity, she would not have been moved to confidence or admiration. the secret scorn of women for the capacity to consider judiciously and to express profoundly a meditated conclusion is unbounded. they have no use for these lofty exercises which they look upon as a sort of purely masculine game--game meaning a respectable occupation devised to kill time in this man-arranged life which must be got through somehow. what women's acuteness really respects are the inept "ideas" and the sheeplike impulses by which our actions and opinions are determined in matters of real importance. for if women are not rational they are indeed acute. even mrs. fyne was acute. the good woman was making up to her husband's chess-player simply because she had scented in him that small portion of 'femininity,' that drop of superior essence of which i am myself aware; which, i gratefully acknowledge, has saved me from one or two misadventures in my life either ridiculous or lamentable, i am not very certain which. it matters very little. anyhow misadventures. observe that i say 'femininity,' a privilege--not 'feminism,' an attitude. i am not a feminist. it was fyne who on certain solemn grounds had adopted that mental attitude; but it was enough to glance at him sitting on one side, to see that he was purely masculine to his finger-tips, masculine solidly, densely, amusingly,--hopelessly. i did glance at him. you don't get your sagacity recognized by a man's wife without feeling the propriety and even the need to glance at the man now and again. so i glanced at him. very masculine. so much so that "hopelessly" was not the last word of it. he was helpless. he was bound and delivered by it. and if by the obscure promptings of my composite temperament i beheld him with malicious amusement, yet being in fact, by definition and especially from profound conviction, a man, i could not help sympathizing with him largely. seeing him thus disarmed, so completely captive by the very nature of things i was moved to speak to him kindly. "well. and what do you think of it?" "i don't know. how's one to tell? but i say that the thing is done now and there's an end of it," said the masculine creature as bluntly as his innate solemnity permitted. mrs. fyne moved a little in her chair. i turned to her and remarked gently that this was a charge, a criticism, which was often made. some people always ask: what could he see in her? others wonder what she could have seen in him? expressions of unsuitability. she said with all the emphasis of her quietly folded arms: "i know perfectly well what flora has seen in my brother." i bowed my head to the gust but pursued my point. "and then the marriage in most cases turns out no worse than the average, to say the least of it." mrs. fyne was disappointed by the optimistic turn of my sagacity. she rested her eyes on my face as though in doubt whether i had enough femininity in my composition to understand the case. i waited for her to speak. she seemed to be asking herself; is it after all, worth while to talk to that man? you understand how provoking this was. i looked in my mind for something appallingly stupid to say, with the object of distressing and teasing mrs. fyne. it is humiliating to confess a failure. one would think that a man of average intelligence could command stupidity at will. but it isn't so. i suppose it's a special gift or else the difficulty consists in being relevant. discovering that i could find no really telling stupidity, i turned to the next best thing; a platitude. i advanced, in a common-sense tone, that, surely, in the matter of marriage a man had only himself to please. mrs. fyne received this without the flutter of an eyelid. fyne's masculine breast, as might have been expected, was pierced by that old, regulation shaft. he grunted most feelingly. i turned to him with false simplicity. "don't you agree with me?" "the very thing i've been telling my wife," he exclaimed in his extramanly bass. "we have been discussing--" a discussion in the fyne menage! how portentous! perhaps the very first difference they had ever had: mrs. fyne unflinching and ready for any responsibility, fyne solemn and shrinking--the children in bed upstairs; and outside the dark fields, the shadowy contours of the land on the starry background of the universe, with the crude light of the open window like a beacon for the truant who would never come back now; a truant no longer but a downright fugitive. yet a fugitive carrying off spoils. it was the flight of a raider--or a traitor? this affair of the purloined brother, as i had named it to myself, had a very puzzling physiognomy. the girl must have been desperate, i thought, hearing the grave voice of fyne well enough but catching the sense of his words not at all, except the very last words which were: "of course, it's extremely distressing." i looked at him inquisitively. what was distressing him? the purloining of the son of the poet-tyrant by the daughter of the financier-convict. or only, if i may say so, the wind of their flight disturbing the solemn placidity of the fynes' domestic atmosphere. my incertitude did not last long, for he added: "mrs. fyne urges me to go to london at once." one could guess at, almost see, his profound distaste for the journey, his distress at a difference of feeling with his wife. with his serious view of the sublunary comedy fyne suffered from not being able to agree solemnly with her sentiment as he was accustomed to do, in recognition of having had his way in one supreme instance; when he made her elope with him--the most momentous step imaginable in a young lady's life. he had been really trying to acknowledge it by taking the rightness of her feeling for granted on every other occasion. it had become a sort of habit at last. and it is never pleasant to break a habit. the man was deeply troubled. i said: "really! to go to london!" he looked dumbly into my eyes. it was pathetic and funny. "and you of course feel it would be useless," i pursued. he evidently felt that, though he said nothing. he only went on blinking at me with a solemn and comical slowness. "unless it be to carry there the family's blessing," i went on, indulging my chaffing humour steadily, in a rather sneaking fashion, for i dared not look at mrs. fyne, to my right. no sound or movement came from that direction. "you think very naturally that to match mere good, sound reasons, against the passionate conclusions of love is a waste of intellect bordering on the absurd." he looked surprised as if i had discovered something very clever. he, dear man, had thought of nothing at all. he simply knew that he did not want to go to london on that mission. mere masculine delicacy. in a moment he became enthusiastic. "yes! yes! exactly. a man in love . . . you hear, my dear? here you have an independent opinion--" "can anything be more hopeless," i insisted to the fascinated little fyne, "than to pit reason against love. i must confess however that in this case when i think of that poor girl's sharp chin i wonder if . . . " my levity was too much for mrs. fyne. still leaning back in her chair she exclaimed: "mr. marlow!" * * * * * as if mysteriously affected by her indignation the absurd fyne dog began to bark in the porch. it might have been at a trespassing bumble-bee however. that animal was capable of any eccentricity. fyne got up quickly and went out to him. i think he was glad to leave us alone to discuss that matter of his journey to london. a sort of anti-sentimental journey. he, too, apparently, had confidence in my sagacity. it was touching, this confidence. it was at any rate more genuine than the confidence his wife pretended to have in her husband's chess-player, of three successive holidays. confidence be hanged! sagacity--indeed! she had simply marched in without a shadow of misgiving to make me back her up. but she had delivered herself into my hands . . . " interrupting his narrative marlow addressed me in his tone between grim jest and grim earnest: "perhaps you didn't know that my character is upon the whole rather vindictive." "no, i didn't know," i said with a grin. "that's rather unusual for a sailor. they always seemed to me the least vindictive body of men in the world." "h'm! simple souls," marlow muttered moodily. "want of opportunity. the world leaves them alone for the most part. for myself it's towards women that i feel vindictive mostly, in my small way. i admit that it is small. but then the occasions in themselves are not great. mainly i resent that pretence of winding us round their dear little fingers, as of right. not that the result ever amounts to much generally. there are so very few momentous opportunities. it is the assumption that each of us is a combination of a kid and an imbecile which i find provoking--in a small way; in a very small way. you needn't stare as though i were breathing fire and smoke out of my nostrils. i am not a women-devouring monster. i am not even what is technically called "a brute." i hope there's enough of a kid and an imbecile in me to answer the requirements of some really good woman eventually--some day . . . some day. why do you gasp? you don't suppose i should be afraid of getting married? that supposition would be offensive . . . " "i wouldn't dream of offending you," i said. "very well. but meantime please remember that i was not married to mrs. fyne. that lady's little finger was none of my legal property. i had not run off with it. it was fyne who had done that thing. let him be wound round as much as his backbone could stand--or even more, for all i cared. his rushing away from the discussion on the transparent pretence of quieting the dog confirmed my notion of there being a considerable strain on his elasticity. i confronted mrs. fyne resolved not to assist her in her eminently feminine occupation of thrusting a stick in the spokes of another woman's wheel. she tried to preserve her calm-eyed superiority. she was familiar and olympian, fenced in by the tea-table, that excellent symbol of domestic life in its lighter hour and its perfect security. in a few severely unadorned words she gave me to understand that she had ventured to hope for some really helpful suggestion from me. to this almost chiding declaration--because my vindictiveness seldom goes further than a bit of teasing--i said that i was really doing my best. and being a physiognomist . . . " "being what?" she interrupted me. "a physiognomist," i repeated raising my voice a little. "a physiognomist, mrs. fyne. and on the principles of that science a pointed little chin is a sufficient ground for interference. you want to interfere--do you not?" her eyes grew distinctly bigger. she had never been bantered before in her life. the late subtle poet's method of making himself unpleasant was merely savage and abusive. fyne had been always solemnly subservient. what other men she knew i cannot tell but i assume they must have been gentlemanly creatures. the girl-friends sat at her feet. how could she recognize my intention. she didn't know what to make of my tone. "are you serious in what you say?" she asked slowly. and it was touching. it was as if a very young, confiding girl had spoken. i felt myself relenting. "no. i am not, mrs. fyne," i said. "i didn't know i was expected to be serious as well as sagacious. no. that science is farcical and therefore i am not serious. it's true that most sciences are farcical except those which teach us how to put things together." "the question is how to keep these two people apart," she struck in. she had recovered. i admired the quickness of women's wit. mental agility is a rare perfection. and aren't they agile! aren't they--just! and tenacious! when they once get hold you may uproot the tree but you won't shake them off the branch. in fact the more you shake . . . but only look at the charm of contradictory perfections! no wonder men give in--generally. i won't say i was actually charmed by mrs. fyne. i was not delighted with her. what affected me was not what she displayed but something which she could not conceal. and that was emotion--nothing less. the form of her declaration was dry, almost peremptory--but not its tone. her voice faltered just the least bit, she smiled faintly; and as we were looking straight at each other i observed that her eyes were glistening in a peculiar manner. she was distressed. and indeed that mrs. fyne should have appealed to me at all was in itself the evidence of her profound distress. "by jove she's desperate too," i thought. this discovery was followed by a movement of instinctive shrinking from this unreasonable and unmasculine affair. they were all alike, with their supreme interest aroused only by fighting with each other about some man: a lover, a son, a brother. "but do you think there's time yet to do anything?" i asked. she had an impatient movement of her shoulders without detaching herself from the back of the chair. time! of course? it was less than fortyeight hours since she had followed him to london . . . i am no great clerk at those matters but i murmured vaguely an allusion to special licences. we couldn't tell what might have happened to-day already. but she knew better, scornfully. nothing had happened. "nothing's likely to happen before next friday week,--if then." this was wonderfully precise. then after a pause she added that she should never forgive herself if some effort were not made, an appeal. "to your brother?" i asked. "yes. john ought to go to-morrow. nine o'clock train." "so early as that!" i said. but i could not find it in my heart to pursue this discussion in a jocular tone. i submitted to her several obvious arguments, dictated apparently by common sense but in reality by my secret compassion. mrs. fyne brushed them aside, with the semi-conscious egoism of all safe, established, existences. they had known each other so little. just three weeks. and of that time, too short for the birth of any serious sentiment, the first week had to be deducted. they would hardly look at each other to begin with. flora barely consented to acknowledge captain anthony's presence. good morning--good night--that was all--absolutely the whole extent of their intercourse. captain anthony was a silent man, completely unused to the society of girls of any sort and so shy in fact that he avoided raising his eyes to her face at the table. it was perfectly absurd. it was even inconvenient, embarrassing to her--mrs. fyne. after breakfast flora would go off by herself for a long walk and captain anthony (mrs. fyne referred to him at times also as roderick) joined the children. but he was actually too shy to get on terms with his own nieces. this would have sounded pathetic if i hadn't known the fyne children who were at the same time solemn and malicious, and nursed a secret contempt for all the world. no one could get on terms with those fresh and comely young monsters! they just tolerated their parents and seemed to have a sort of mocking understanding among themselves against all outsiders, yet with no visible affection for each other. they had the habit of exchanging derisive glances which to a shy man must have been very trying. they thought their uncle no doubt a bore and perhaps an ass. i was not surprised to hear that very soon anthony formed the habit of crossing the two neighbouring fields to seek the shade of a clump of elms at a good distance from the cottage. he lay on the grass and smoked his pipe all the morning. mrs. fyne wondered at her brother's indolent habits. he had asked for books it is true but there were but few in the cottage. he read them through in three days and then continued to lie contentedly on his back with no other companion but his pipe. amazing indolence! the live-long morning, mrs. fyne, busy writing upstairs in the cottage, could see him out of the window. she had a very long sight, and these elms were grouped on a rise of the ground. his indolence was plainly exposed to her criticism on a gentle green slope. mrs. fyne wondered at it; she was disgusted too. but having just then 'commenced author,' as you know, she could not tear herself away from the fascinating novelty. she let him wallow in his vice. i imagine captain anthony must have had a rather pleasant time in a quiet way. it was, i remember, a hot dry summer, favourable to contemplative life out of doors. and mrs. fyne was scandalized. women don't understand the force of a contemplative temperament. it simply shocks them. they feel instinctively that it is the one which escapes best the domination of feminine influences. the dear girls were exchanging jeering remarks about "lazy uncle roderick" openly, in her indulgent hearing. and it was so strange, she told me, because as a boy he was anything but indolent. on the contrary. always active. i remarked that a man of thirty-five was no longer a boy. it was an obvious remark but she received it without favour. she told me positively that the best, the nicest men remained boys all their lives. she was disappointed not to be able to detect anything boyish in her brother. very, very sorry. she had not seen him for fifteen years or thereabouts, except on three or four occasions for a few hours at a time. no. not a trace of the boy, he used to be, left in him. she fell silent for a moment and i mused idly on the boyhood of little fyne. i could not imagine what it might have been like. his dominant trait was clearly the remnant of still earlier days, because i've never seen such staring solemnity as fyne's except in a very young baby. but where was he all that time? didn't he suffer contamination from the indolence of captain anthony, i inquired. i was told that mr. fyne was very little at the cottage at the time. some colleague of his was convalescing after a severe illness in a little seaside village in the neighbourhood and fyne went off every morning by train to spend the day with the elderly invalid who had no one to look after him. it was a very praiseworthy excuse for neglecting his brother-in-law "the son of the poet, you know," with whom he had nothing in common even in the remotest degree. if captain anthony (roderick) had been a pedestrian it would have been sufficient; but he was not. still, in the afternoon, he went sometimes for a slow casual stroll, by himself of course, the children having definitely cold-shouldered him, and his only sister being busy with that inflammatory book which was to blaze upon the world a year or more afterwards. it seems however that she was capable of detaching her eyes from her task now and then, if only for a moment, because it was from that garret fitted out for a study that one afternoon she observed her brother and flora de barral coming down the road side by side. they had met somewhere accidentally (which of them crossed the other's path, as the saying is, i don't know), and were returning to tea together. she noticed that they appeared to be conversing without constraint. "i had the simplicity to be pleased," mrs. fyne commented with a dry little laugh. "pleased for both their sakes." captain anthony shook off his indolence from that day forth, and accompanied miss flora frequently on her morning walks. mrs. fyne remained pleased. she could now forget them comfortably and give herself up to the delights of audacious thought and literary composition. only a week before the blow fell she, happening to raise her eyes from the paper, saw two figures seated on the grass under the shade of the elms. she could make out the white blouse. there could be no mistake. "i suppose they imagined themselves concealed by the hedge. they forgot no doubt i was working in the garret," she said bitterly. "or perhaps they didn't care. they were right. i am rather a simple person . . . " she laughed again . . . "i was incapable of suspecting such duplicity." "duplicity is a strong word, mrs. fyne--isn't it?" i expostulated. "and considering that captain anthony himself . . . " "oh well--perhaps," she interrupted me. her eyes which never strayed away from mine, her set features, her whole immovable figure, how well i knew those appearances of a person who has "made up her mind." a very hopeless condition that, specially in women. i mistrusted her concession so easily, so stonily made. she reflected a moment. "yes. i ought to have said--ingratitude, perhaps." after having thus disengaged her brother and pushed the poor girl a little further off as it were--isn't women's cleverness perfectly diabolic when they are really put on their mettle?--after having done these things and also made me feel that i was no match for her, she went on scrupulously: "one doesn't like to use that word either. the claim is very small. it's so little one could do for her. still . . . " "i dare say," i exclaimed, throwing diplomacy to the winds. "but really, mrs. fyne, it's impossible to dismiss your brother like this out of the business . . . " "she threw herself at his head," mrs. fyne uttered firmly. "he had no business to put his head in the way, then," i retorted with an angry laugh. i didn't restrain myself because her fixed stare seemed to express the purpose to daunt me. i was not afraid of her, but it occurred to me that i was within an ace of drifting into a downright quarrel with a lady and, besides, my guest. there was the cold teapot, the emptied cups, emblems of hospitality. it could not be. i cut short my angry laugh while mrs. fyne murmured with a slight movement of her shoulders, "he! poor man! oh come . . . " by a great effort of will i found myself able to smile amiably, to speak with proper softness. "my dear mrs. fyne, you forget that i don't know him--not even by sight. it's difficult to imagine a victim as passive as all that; but granting you the (i very nearly said: imbecility, but checked myself in time) innocence of captain anthony, don't you think now, frankly, that there is a little of your own fault in what has happened. you bring them together, you leave your brother to himself!" she sat up and leaning her elbow on the table sustained her head in her open palm casting down her eyes. compunction? it was indeed a very offhand way of treating a brother come to stay for the first time in fifteen years. i suppose she discovered very soon that she had nothing in common with that sailor, that stranger, fashioned and marked by the sea of long voyages. in her strong-minded way she had scorned pretences, had gone to her writing which interested her immensely. a very praiseworthy thing your sincere conduct,--if it didn't at times resemble brutality so much. but i don't think it was compunction. that sentiment is rare in women . . . " "is it?" i interrupted indignantly. "you know more women than i do," retorted the unabashed marlow. "you make it your business to know them--don't you? you go about a lot amongst all sorts of people. you are a tolerably honest observer. well, just try to remember how many instances of compunction you have seen. i am ready to take your bare word for it. compunction! have you ever seen as much as its shadow? have you ever? just a shadow--a passing shadow! i tell you it is so rare that you may call it non-existent. they are too passionate. too pedantic. too courageous with themselves--perhaps. no i don't think for a moment that mrs. fyne felt the slightest compunction at her treatment of her sea-going brother. what _he_ thought of it who can tell? it is possible that he wondered why he had been so insistently urged to come. it is possible that he wondered bitterly--or contemptuously--or humbly. and it may be that he was only surprised and bored. had he been as sincere in his conduct as his only sister he would have probably taken himself off at the end of the second day. but perhaps he was afraid of appearing brutal. i am not far removed from the conviction that between the sincerities of his sister and of his dear nieces, captain anthony of the _ferndale_ must have had his loneliness brought home to his bosom for the first time of his life, at an age, thirty-five or thereabouts, when one is mature enough to feel the pang of such a discovery. angry or simply sad but certainly disillusioned he wanders about and meets the girl one afternoon and under the sway of a strong feeling forgets his shyness. this is no supposition. it is a fact. there was such a meeting in which the shyness must have perished before we don't know what encouragement, or in the community of mood made apparent by some casual word. you remember that mrs. fyne saw them one afternoon coming back to the cottage together. don't you think that i have hit on the psychology of the situation? . . . " "doubtless . . . " i began to ponder. "i was very certain of my conclusions at the time," marlow went on impatiently. "but don't think for a moment that mrs. fyne in her new attitude and toying thoughtfully with a teaspoon was about to surrender. she murmured: "it's the last thing i should have thought could happen." "you didn't suppose they were romantic enough," i suggested dryly. she let it pass and with great decision but as if speaking to herself, "roderick really must be warned." she didn't give me the time to ask of what precisely. she raised her head and addressed me. "i am surprised and grieved more than i can tell you at mr. fyne's resistance. we have been always completely at one on every question. and that we should differ now on a point touching my brother so closely is a most painful surprise to me." her hand rattled the teaspoon brusquely by an involuntary movement. "it is intolerable," she added tempestuously--for mrs. fyne that is. i suppose she had nerves of her own like any other woman. under the porch where fyne had sought refuge with the dog there was silence. i took it for a proof of deep sagacity. i don't mean on the part of the dog. he was a confirmed fool. i said: "you want absolutely to interfere . . . ?" mrs. fyne nodded just perceptibly . . . "well--for my part . . . but i don't really know how matters stand at the present time. you have had a letter from miss de barral. what does that letter say?" "she asks for her valise to be sent to her town address," mrs. fyne uttered reluctantly and stopped. i waited a bit--then exploded. "well! what's the matter? where's the difficulty? does your husband object to that? you don't mean to say that he wants you to appropriate the girl's clothes?" "mr. marlow!" "well, but you talk of a painful difference of opinion with your husband, and then, when i ask for information on the point, you bring out a valise. and only a few moments ago you reproached me for not being serious. i wonder who is the serious person of us two now." she smiled faintly and in a friendly tone, from which i concluded at once that she did not mean to show me the girl's letter, she said that undoubtedly the letter disclosed an understanding between captain anthony and flora de barral. "what understanding?" i pressed her. "an engagement is an understanding." "there is no engagement--not yet," she said decisively. "that letter, mr. marlow, is couched in very vague terms. that is why--" i interrupted her without ceremony. "you still hope to interfere to some purpose. isn't it so? yes? but how should you have liked it if anybody had tried to interfere between you and mr. fyne at the time when your understanding with each other could still have been described in vague terms?" she had a genuine movement of astonished indignation. it is with the accent of perfect sincerity that she cried out at me: "but it isn't at all the same thing! how can you!" indeed how could i! the daughter of a poet and the daughter of a convict are not comparable in the consequences of their conduct if their necessity may wear at times a similar aspect. amongst these consequences i could perceive undesirable cousins for these dear healthy girls, and such like, possible causes of embarrassment in the future. "no! you can't be serious," mrs. fyne's smouldering resentment broke out again. "you haven't thought--" "oh yes, mrs. fyne! i have thought. i am still thinking. i am even trying to think like you." "mr. marlow," she said earnestly. "believe me that i really am thinking of my brother in all this . . . " i assured her that i quite believed she was. for there is no law of nature making it impossible to think of more than one person at a time. then i said: "she has told him all about herself of course." "all about her life," assented mrs. fyne with an air, however, of making some mental reservation which i did not pause to investigate. "her life!" i repeated. "that girl must have had a mighty bad time of it." "horrible," mrs. fyne admitted with a ready frankness very creditable under the circumstances, and a warmth of tone which made me look at her with a friendly eye. "horrible! no! you can't imagine the sort of vulgar people she became dependent on . . . you know her father never attempted to see her while he was still at large. after his arrest he instructed that relative of his--the odious person who took her away from brighton--not to let his daughter come to the court during the trial. he refused to hold any communication with her whatever." i remembered what mrs. fyne had told me before of the view she had years ago of de barral clinging to the child at the side of his wife's grave and later on of these two walking hand in hand the observed of all eyes by the sea. pictures from dickens--pregnant with pathos. chapter six--flora "a very singular prohibition," remarked mrs. fyne after a short silence. "he seemed to love the child." she was puzzled. but i surmised that it might have been the sullenness of a man unconscious of guilt and standing at bay to fight his "persecutors," as he called them; or else the fear of a softer emotion weakening his defiant attitude; perhaps, even, it was a self-denying ordinance, in order to spare the girl the sight of her father in the dock, accused of cheating, sentenced as a swindler--proving the possession of a certain moral delicacy. mrs. fyne didn't know what to think. she supposed it might have been mere callousness. but the people amongst whom the girl had fallen had positively not a grain of moral delicacy. of that she was certain. mrs. fyne could not undertake to give me an idea of their abominable vulgarity. flora used to tell her something of her life in that household, over there, down limehouse way. it was incredible. it passed mrs. fyne's comprehension. it was a sort of moral savagery which she could not have thought possible. i, on the contrary, thought it very possible. i could imagine easily how the poor girl must have been bewildered and hurt at her reception in that household--envied for her past while delivered defenceless to the tender mercies of people without any fineness either of feeling or mind, unable to understand her misery, grossly curious, mistaking her manner for disdain, her silent shrinking for pride. the wife of the "odious person" was witless and fatuously conceited. of the two girls of the house one was pious and the other a romp; both were coarse-minded--if they may be credited with any mind at all. the rather numerous men of the family were dense and grumpy, or dense and jocose. none in that grubbing lot had enough humanity to leave her alone. at first she was made much of, in an offensively patronising manner. the connection with the great de barral gratified their vanity even in the moment of the smash. they dragged her to their place of worship, whatever it might have been, where the congregation stared at her, and they gave parties to other beings like themselves at which they exhibited her with ignoble self-satisfaction. she did not know how to defend herself from their importunities, insolence and exigencies. she lived amongst them, a passive victim, quivering in every nerve, as if she were flayed. after the trial her position became still worse. on the least occasion and even on no occasions at all she was scolded, or else taunted with her dependence. the pious girl lectured her on her defects, the romping girl teased her with contemptuous references to her accomplishments, and was always trying to pick insensate quarrels with her about some "fellow" or other. the mother backed up her girls invariably, adding her own silly, wounding remarks. i must say they were probably not aware of the ugliness of their conduct. they were nasty amongst themselves as a matter of course; their disputes were nauseating in origin, in manner, in the spirit of mean selfishness. these women, too, seemed to enjoy greatly any sort of row and were always ready to combine together to make awful scenes to the luckless girl on incredibly flimsy pretences. thus flora on one occasion had been reduced to rage and despair, had her most secret feelings lacerated, had obtained a view of the utmost baseness to which common human nature can descend--i won't say _a propos de bottes_ as the french would excellently put it, but literally _a propos_ of some mislaid cheap lace trimmings for a nightgown the romping one was making for herself. yes, that was the origin of one of the grossest scenes which, in their repetition, must have had a deplorable effect on the unformed character of the most pitiful of de barral's victims. i have it from mrs. fyne. the girl turned up at the fynes' house at half-past nine on a cold, drizzly evening. she had walked bareheaded, i believe, just as she ran out of the house, from somewhere in poplar to the neighbourhood of sloane square--without stopping, without drawing breath, if only for a sob. "we were having some people to dinner," said the anxious sister of captain anthony. she had heard the front door bell and wondered what it might mean. the parlourmaid managed to whisper to her without attracting attention. the servants had been frightened by the invasion of that wild girl in a muddy skirt and with wisps of damp hair sticking to her pale cheeks. but they had seen her before. this was not the first occasion, nor yet the last. directly she could slip away from her guests mrs. fyne ran upstairs. "i found her in the night nursery crouching on the floor, her head resting on the cot of the youngest of my girls. the eldest was sitting up in bed looking at her across the room." only a nightlight was burning there. mrs. fyne raised her up, took her over to mr. fyne's little dressing-room on the other side of the landing, to a fire by which she could dry herself, and left her there. she had to go back to her guests. a most disagreeable surprise it must have been to the fynes. afterwards they both went up and interviewed the girl. she jumped up at their entrance. she had shaken her damp hair loose; her eyes were dry--with the heat of rage. i can imagine little fyne solemnly sympathetic, solemnly listening, solemnly retreating to the marital bedroom. mrs. fyne pacified the girl, and, fortunately, there was a bed which could be made up for her in the dressing-room. "but--what could one do after all!" concluded mrs. fyne. and this stereotyped exclamation, expressing the difficulty of the problem and the readiness (at any rate) of good intentions, made me, as usual, feel more kindly towards her. next morning, very early, long before fyne had to start for his office, the "odious personage" turned up, not exactly unexpected perhaps, but startling all the same, if only by the promptness of his action. from what flora herself related to mrs. fyne, it seems that without being very perceptibly less "odious" than his family he had in a rather mysterious fashion interposed his authority for the protection of the girl. "not that he cares," explained flora. "i am sure he does not. i could not stand being liked by any of these people. if i thought he liked me i would drown myself rather than go back with him." for of course he had come to take "florrie" home. the scene was the dining-room--breakfast interrupted, dishes growing cold, little fyne's toast growing leathery, fyne out of his chair with his back to the fire, the newspaper on the carpet, servants shut out, mrs. fyne rigid in her place with the girl sitting beside her--the "odious person," who had bustled in with hardly a greeting, looking from fyne to mrs. fyne as though he were inwardly amused at something he knew of them; and then beginning ironically his discourse. he did not apologize for disturbing fyne and his "good lady" at breakfast, because he knew they did not want (with a nod at the girl) to have more of her than could be helped. he came the first possible moment because he had his business to attend to. he wasn't drawing a tip-top salary (this staring at fyne) in a luxuriously furnished office. not he. he had risen to be an employer of labour and was bound to give a good example. i believe the fellow was aware of, and enjoyed quietly, the consternation his presence brought to the bosom of mr. and mrs. fyne. he turned briskly to the girl. mrs. fyne confessed to me that they had remained all three silent and inanimate. he turned to the girl: "what's this game, florrie? you had better give it up. if you expect me to run all over london looking for you every time you happen to have a tiff with your auntie and cousins you are mistaken. i can't afford it." tiff--was the sort of definition to take one's breath away, having regard to the fact that both the word convict and the word pauper had been used a moment before flora de barral ran away from the quarrel about the lace trimmings. yes, these very words! so at least the girl had told mrs. fyne the evening before. the word tiff in connection with her tale had a peculiar savour, a paralysing effect. nobody made a sound. the relative of de barral proceeded uninterrupted to a display of magnanimity. "auntie told me to tell you she's sorry--there! and amelia (the romping sister) shan't worry you again. i'll see to that. you ought to be satisfied. remember your position." emboldened by the utter stillness pervading the room he addressed himself to mrs. fyne with stolid effrontery: "what i say is that people should be good-natured. she can't stand being chaffed. she puts on her grand airs. she won't take a bit of a joke from people as good as herself anyway. we are a plain lot. we don't like it. and that's how trouble begins." insensible to the stony stare of three pairs of eyes, which, if the stories of our childhood as to the power of the human eye are true, ought to have been enough to daunt a tiger, that unabashed manufacturer from the east end fastened his fangs, figuratively speaking, into the poor girl and prepared to drag her away for a prey to his cubs of both sexes. "auntie has thought of sending you your hat and coat. i've got them outside in the cab." mrs. fyne looked mechanically out of the window. a four-wheeler stood before the gate under the weeping sky. the driver in his conical cape and tarpaulin hat, streamed with water. the drooping horse looked as though it had been fished out, half unconscious, from a pond. mrs. fyne found some relief in looking at that miserable sight, away from the room in which the voice of the amiable visitor resounded with a vulgar intonation exhorting the strayed sheep to return to the delightful fold. "come, florrie, make a move. i can't wait on you all day here." mrs. fyne heard all this without turning her head away from the window. fyne on the hearthrug had to listen and to look on too. i shall not try to form a surmise as to the real nature of the suspense. their very goodness must have made it very anxious. the girl's hands were lying in her lap; her head was lowered as if in deep thought; and the other went on delivering a sort of homily. ingratitude was condemned in it, the sinfulness of pride was pointed out--together with the proverbial fact that it "goes before a fall." there were also some sound remarks as to the danger of nonsensical notions and the disadvantages of a quick temper. it sets one's best friends against one. "and if anybody ever wanted friends in the world it's you, my girl." even respect for parental authority was invoked. "in the first hour of his trouble your father wrote to me to take care of you--don't forget it. yes, to me, just a plain man, rather than to any of his fine west-end friends. you can't get over that. and a father's a father no matter what a mess he's got himself into. you ain't going to throw over your own father--are you?" it was difficult to say whether he was more absurd than cruel or more cruel than absurd. mrs. fyne, with the fine ear of a woman, seemed to detect a jeering intention in his meanly unctuous tone, something more vile than mere cruelty. she glanced quickly over her shoulder and saw the girl raise her two hands to her head, then let them fall again on her lap. fyne in front of the fire was like the victim of an unholy spell--bereft of motion and speech but obviously in pain. it was a short pause of perfect silence, and then that "odious creature" (he must have been really a remarkable individual in his way) struck out into sarcasm. "well? . . . " again a silence. "if you have fixed it up with the lady and gentleman present here for your board and lodging you had better say so. i don't want to interfere in a bargain i know nothing of. but i wonder how your father will take it when he comes out . . . or don't you expect him ever to come out?" at that moment, mrs. fyne told me she met the girl's eyes. there was that in them which made her shut her own. she also felt as though she would have liked to put her fingers in her ears. she restrained herself, however; and the "plain man" passed in his appalling versatility from sarcasm to veiled menace. "you have--eh? well and good. but before i go home let me ask you, my girl, to think if by any chance you throwing us over like this won't be rather bad for your father later on? just think it over." he looked at his victim with an air of cunning mystery. she jumped up so suddenly that he started back. mrs. fyne rose too, and even the spell was removed from her husband. but the girl dropped again into the chair and turned her head to look at mrs. fyne. this time it was no accidental meeting of fugitive glances. it was a deliberate communication. to my question as to its nature mrs. fyne said she did not know. "was it appealing?" i suggested. "no," she said. "was it frightened, angry, crushed, resigned?" "no! no! nothing of these." but it had frightened her. she remembered it to this day. she had been ever since fancying she could detect the lingering reflection of that look in all the girl's glances. in the attentive, in the casual--even in the grateful glances--in the expression of the softest moods. "has she her soft moods, then?" i asked with interest. mrs fyne, much moved by her recollections, heeded not my inquiry. all her mental energy was concentrated on the nature of that memorable glance. the general tradition of mankind teaches us that glances occupy a considerable place in the self-expression of women. mrs. fyne was trying honestly to give me some idea, as much perhaps to satisfy her own uneasiness as my curiosity. she was frowning in the effort as you see sometimes a child do (what is delightful in women is that they so often resemble intelligent children--i mean the crustiest, the sourest, the most battered of them do--at times). she was frowning, i say, and i was beginning to smile faintly at her when all at once she came out with something totally unexpected. "it was horribly merry," she said. i suppose she must have been satisfied by my sudden gravity because she looked at me in a friendly manner. "yes, mrs. fyne," i said, smiling no longer. "i see. it would have been horrible even on the stage." "ah!" she interrupted me--and i really believe her change of attitude back to folded arms was meant to check a shudder. "but it wasn't on the stage, and it was not with her lips that she laughed." "yes. it must have been horrible," i assented. "and then she had to go away ultimately--i suppose. you didn't say anything?" "no," said mrs. fyne. "i rang the bell and told one of the maids to go and bring the hat and coat out of the cab. and then we waited." i don't think that there ever was such waiting unless possibly in a jail at some moment or other on the morning of an execution. the servant appeared with the hat and coat, and then, still as on the morning of an execution, when the condemned, i believe, is offered a breakfast, mrs. fyne, anxious that the white-faced girl should swallow something warm (if she could) before leaving her house for an interminable drive through raw cold air in a damp four-wheeler--mrs. fyne broke the awful silence: "you really must try to eat something," in her best resolute manner. she turned to the "odious person" with the same determination. "perhaps you will sit down and have a cup of coffee, too." the worthy "employer of labour" sat down. he might have been awed by mrs. fyne's peremptory manner--for she did not think of conciliating him then. he sat down, provisionally, like a man who finds himself much against his will in doubtful company. he accepted ungraciously the cup handed to him by mrs. fyne, took an unwilling sip or two and put it down as if there were some moral contamination in the coffee of these "swells." between whiles he directed mysteriously inexpressive glances at little fyne, who, i gather, had no breakfast that morning at all. neither had the girl. she never moved her hands from her lap till her appointed guardian got up, leaving his cup half full. "well. if you don't mean to take advantage of this lady's kind offer i may just as well take you home at once. i want to begin my day--i do." after a few more dumb, leaden-footed minutes while flora was putting on her hat and jacket, the fynes without moving, without saying anything, saw these two leave the room. "she never looked back at us," said mrs. fyne. "she just followed him out. i've never had such a crushing impression of the miserable dependence of girls--of women. this was an extreme case. but a young man--any man--could have gone to break stones on the roads or something of that kind--or enlisted--or--" it was very true. women can't go forth on the high roads and by-ways to pick up a living even when dignity, independence, or existence itself are at stake. but what made me interrupt mrs. fyne's tirade was my profound surprise at the fact of that respectable citizen being so willing to keep in his home the poor girl for whom it seemed there was no place in the world. and not only willing but anxious. i couldn't credit him with generous impulses. for it seemed obvious to me from what i had learned that, to put it mildly, he was not an impulsive person. "i confess that i can't understand his motive," i exclaimed. "this is exactly what john wondered at, at first," said mrs. fyne. by that time an intimacy--if not exactly confidence--had sprung up between us which permitted her in this discussion to refer to her husband as john. "you know he had not opened his lips all that time," she pursued. "i don't blame his restraint. on the contrary. what could he have said? i could see he was observing the man very thoughtfully." "and so, mr. fyne listened, observed and meditated," i said. "that's an excellent way of coming to a conclusion. and may i ask at what conclusion he had managed to arrive? on what ground did he cease to wonder at the inexplicable? for i can't admit humanity to be the explanation. it would be too monstrous." it was nothing of the sort, mrs. fyne assured me with some resentment, as though i had aspersed little fyne's sanity. fyne very sensibly had set himself the mental task of discovering the self-interest. i should not have thought him capable of so much cynicism. he said to himself that for people of that sort (religious fears or the vanity of righteousness put aside) money--not great wealth, but money, just a little money--is the measure of virtue, of expediency, of wisdom--of pretty well everything. but the girl was absolutely destitute. the father was in prison after the most terribly complete and disgraceful smash of modern times. and then it dawned upon fyne that this was just it. the great smash, in the great dust of vanishing millions! was it possible that they all had vanished to the last penny? wasn't there, somewhere, something palpable; some fragment of the fabric left? "that's it," had exclaimed fyne, startling his wife by this explosive unseating of his lips less than half an hour after the departure of de barral's cousin with de barral's daughter. it was still in the diningroom, very near the time for him to go forth affronting the elements in order to put in another day's work in his country's service. all he could say at the moment in elucidation of this breakdown from his usual placid solemnity was: "the fellow imagines that de barral has got some plunder put away somewhere." this being the theory arrived at by fyne, his comment on it was that a good many bankrupts had been known to have taken such a precaution. it was possible in de barral's case. fyne went so far in his display of cynical pessimism as to say that it was extremely probable. he explained at length to mrs. fyne that de barral certainly did not take anyone into his confidence. but the beastly relative had made up his low mind that it was so. he was selfish and pitiless in his stupidity, but he had clearly conceived the notion of making a claim on de barral when de barral came out of prison on the strength of having "looked after" (as he would have himself expressed it) his daughter. he nursed his hopes, such as they were, in secret, and it is to be supposed kept them even from his wife. i could see it very well. that belief accounted for his mysterious air while he interfered in favour of the girl. he was the only protector she had. it was as though flora had been fated to be always surrounded by treachery and lies stifling every better impulse, every instinctive aspiration of her soul to trust and to love. it would have been enough to drive a fine nature into the madness of universal suspicion--into any sort of madness. i don't know how far a sense of humour will stand by one. to the foot of the gallows, perhaps. but from my recollection of flora de barral i feared that she hadn't much sense of humour. she had cried at the desertion of the absurd fyne dog. that animal was certainly free from duplicity. he was frank and simple and ridiculous. the indignation of the girl at his unhypocritical behaviour had been funny but not humorous. as you may imagine i was not very anxious to resume the discussion on the justice, expediency, effectiveness or what not, of fyne's journey to london. it isn't that i was unfaithful to little fyne out in the porch with the dog. (they kept amazingly quiet there. could they have gone to sleep?) what i felt was that either my sagacity or my conscience would come out damaged from that campaign. and no man will willingly put himself in the way of moral damage. i did not want a war with mrs. fyne. i much preferred to hear something more of the girl. i said: "and so she went away with that respectable ruffian." mrs. fyne moved her shoulders slightly--"what else could she have done?" i agreed with her by another hopeless gesture. it isn't so easy for a girl like flora de barral to become a factory hand, a pathetic seamstress or even a barmaid. she wouldn't have known how to begin. she was the captive of the meanest conceivable fate. and she wasn't mean enough for it. it is to be remarked that a good many people are born curiously unfitted for the fate awaiting them on this earth. as i don't want you to think that i am unduly partial to the girl we shall say that she failed decidedly to endear herself to that simple, virtuous and, i believe, teetotal household. it's my conviction that an angel would have failed likewise. it's no use going into details; suffice it to state that before the year was out she was again at the fynes' door. this time she was escorted by a stout youth. his large pale face wore a smile of inane cunning soured by annoyance. his clothes were new and the indescribable smartness of their cut, a _genre_ which had never been obtruded on her notice before, astonished mrs. fyne, who came out into the hall with her hat on; for she was about to go out to hear a new pianist (a girl) in a friend's house. the youth addressing mrs. fyne easily begged her not to let "that silly thing go back to us any more." there had been, he said, nothing but "ructions" at home about her for the last three weeks. everybody in the family was heartily sick of quarrelling. his governor had charged him to bring her to this address and say that the lady and gentleman were quite welcome to all there was in it. she hadn't enough sense to appreciate a plain, honest english home and she was better out of it. the young, pimply-faced fellow was vexed by this job his governor had sprung on him. it was the cause of his missing an appointment for that afternoon with a certain young lady. the lady he was engaged to. but he meant to dash back and try for a sight of her that evening yet "if he were to burst over it." "good-bye, florrie. good luck to you--and i hope i'll never see your face again." with that he ran out in lover-like haste leaving the hall-door wide open. mrs. fyne had not found a word to say. she had been too much taken aback even to gasp freely. but she had the presence of mind to grab the girl's arm just as she, too, was running out into the street--with the haste, i suppose, of despair and to keep i don't know what tragic tryst. "you stopped her with your own hand, mrs. fyne," i said. "i presume she meant to get away. that girl is no comedian--if i am any judge." "yes! i had to use some force to drag her in." mrs. fyne had no difficulty in stating the truth. "you see i was in the very act of letting myself out when these two appeared. so that, when that unpleasant young man ran off, i found myself alone with flora. it was all i could do to hold her in the hall while i called to the servants to come and shut the door." as is my habit, or my weakness, or my gift, i don't know which, i visualized the story for myself. i really can't help it. and the vision of mrs. fyne dressed for a rather special afternoon function, engaged in wrestling with a wild-eyed, white-faced girl had a certain dramatic fascination. "really!" i murmured. "oh! there's no doubt that she struggled," said mrs. fyne. she compressed her lips for a moment and then added: "as to her being a comedian that's another question." mrs. fyne had returned to her attitude of folded arms. i saw before me the daughter of the refined poet accepting life whole with its unavoidable conditions of which one of the first is the instinct of selfpreservation and the egoism of every living creature. "the fact remains nevertheless that you--yourself--have, in your own words, pulled her in," i insisted in a jocular tone, with a serious intention. "what was one to do," exclaimed mrs. fyne with almost comic exasperation. "are you reproaching me with being too impulsive?" and she went on telling me that she was not that in the least. one of the recommendations she always insisted on (to the girl-friends, i imagine) was to be on guard against impulse. always! but i had not been there to see the face of flora at the time. if i had it would be haunting me to this day. nobody unless made of iron would have allowed a human being with a face like that to rush out alone into the streets. "and doesn't it haunt you, mrs. fyne?" i asked. "no, not now," she said implacably. "perhaps if i had let her go it might have done . . . don't conclude, though, that i think she was playing a comedy then, because after struggling at first she ended by remaining. she gave up very suddenly. she collapsed in our arms, mine and the maid's who came running up in response to my calls, and . . . " "and the door was then shut," i completed the phrase in my own way. "yes, the door was shut," mrs. fyne lowered and raised her head slowly. i did not ask her for details. of one thing i am certain, and that is that mrs. fyne did not go out to the musical function that afternoon. she was no doubt considerably annoyed at missing the privilege of hearing privately an interesting young pianist (a girl) who, since, had become one of the recognized performers. mrs. fyne did not dare leave her house. as to the feelings of little fyne when he came home from the office, via his club, just half an hour before dinner, i have no information. but i venture to affirm that in the main they were kindly, though it is quite possible that in the first moment of surprise he had to keep down a swear-word or two. * * * * * the long and the short of it all is that next day the fynes made up their minds to take into their confidence a certain wealthy old lady. with certain old ladies the passing years bring back a sort of mellowed youthfulness of feeling, an optimistic outlook, liking for novelty, readiness for experiment. the old lady was very much interested: "do let me see the poor thing!" she was accordingly allowed to see flora de barral in mrs. fyne's drawing-room on a day when there was no one else there, and she preached to her with charming, sympathetic authority: "the only way to deal with our troubles, my dear child, is to forget them. you must forget yours. it's very simple. look at me. i always forget mine. at your age one ought to be cheerful." later on when left alone with mrs. fyne she said to that lady: "i do hope the child will manage to be cheerful. i can't have sad faces near me. at my age one needs cheerful companions." and in this hope she carried off flora de barral to bournemouth for the winter months in the quality of reader and companion. she had said to her with kindly jocularity: "we shall have a good time together. i am not a grumpy old woman." but on their return to london she sought mrs. fyne at once. she had discovered that flora was not naturally cheerful. when she made efforts to be it was still worse. the old lady couldn't stand the strain of that. and then, to have the whole thing out, she could not bear to have for a companion anyone who did not love her. she was certain that flora did not love her. why? she couldn't say. moreover, she had caught the girl looking at her in a peculiar way at times. oh no!--it was not an evil look--it was an unusual expression which one could not understand. and when one remembered that her father was in prison shut up together with a lot of criminals and so on--it made one uncomfortable. if the child had only tried to forget her troubles! but she obviously was incapable or unwilling to do so. and that was somewhat perverse--wasn't it? upon the whole, she thought it would be better perhaps-mrs. fyne assented hurriedly to the unspoken conclusion: "oh certainly! certainly," wondering to herself what was to be done with flora next; but she was not very much surprised at the change in the old lady's view of flora de barral. she almost understood it. what came next was a german family, the continental acquaintances of the wife of one of fyne's colleagues in the home office. flora of the enigmatical glances was dispatched to them without much reflection. as it was not considered absolutely necessary to take them into full confidence, they neither expected the girl to be specially cheerful nor were they discomposed unduly by the indescribable quality of her glances. the german woman was quite ordinary; there were two boys to look after; they were ordinary, too, i presume; and flora, i understand, was very attentive to them. if she taught them anything it must have been by inspiration alone, for she certainly knew nothing of teaching. but it was mostly "conversation" which was demanded from her. flora de barral conversing with two small german boys, regularly, industriously, conscientiously, in order to keep herself alive in the world which held for her the past we know and the future of an even more undesirable quality--seems to me a very fantastic combination. but i believe it was not so bad. she was being, she wrote, mercifully drugged by her task. she had learned to "converse" all day long, mechanically, absently, as if in a trance. an uneasy trance it must have been! her worst moments were when off duty--alone in the evening, shut up in her own little room, her dulled thoughts waking up slowly till she started into the full consciousness of her position, like a person waking up in contact with something venomous--a snake, for instance--experiencing a mad impulse to fling the thing away and run off screaming to hide somewhere. at this period of her existence flora de barral used to write to mrs. fyne not regularly but fairly often. i don't know how long she would have gone on "conversing" and, incidentally, helping to supervise the beautifully stocked linen closets of that well-to-do german household, if the man of it had not developed in the intervals of his avocations (he was a merchant and a thoroughly domesticated character) a psychological resemblance to the bournemouth old lady. it appeared that he, too, wanted to be loved. he was not, however, of a conquering temperament--a kiss-snatching, doorbursting type of libertine. in the very act of straying from the path of virtue he remained a respectable merchant. it would have been perhaps better for flora if he had been a mere brute. but he set about his sinister enterprise in a sentimental, cautious, almost paternal manner; and thought he would be safe with a pretty orphan. the girl for all her experience was still too innocent, and indeed not yet sufficiently aware of herself as a woman, to mistrust these masked approaches. she did not see them, in fact. she thought him sympathetic--the first expressively sympathetic person she had ever met. she was so innocent that she could not understand the fury of the german woman. for, as you may imagine, the wifely penetration was not to be deceived for any great length of time--the more so that the wife was older than the husband. the man with the peculiar cowardice of respectability never said a word in flora's defence. he stood by and heard her reviled in the most abusive terms, only nodding and frowning vaguely from time to time. it will give you the idea of the girl's innocence when i say that at first she actually thought this storm of indignant reproaches was caused by the discovery of her real name and her relation to a convict. she had been sent out under an assumed name--a highly recommended orphan of honourable parentage. her distress, her burning cheeks, her endeavours to express her regret for this deception were taken for a confession of guilt. "you attempted to bring dishonour to my home," the german woman screamed at her. here's a misunderstanding for you! flora de barral, who felt the shame but did not believe in the guilt of her father, retorted fiercely, "nevertheless i am as honourable as you are." and then the german woman nearly went into a fit from rage. "i shall have you thrown out into the street." flora was not exactly thrown out into the street, i believe, but she was bundled bag and baggage on board a steamer for london. did i tell you these people lived in hamburg? well yes--sent to the docks late on a rainy winter evening in charge of some sneering lackey or other who behaved to her insolently and left her on deck burning with indignation, her hair half down, shaking with excitement and, truth to say, scared as near as possible into hysterics. if it had not been for the stewardess who, without asking questions, good soul, took charge of her quietly in the ladies' saloon (luckily it was empty) it is by no means certain she would ever have reached england. i can't tell if a straw ever saved a drowning man, but i know that a mere glance is enough to make despair pause. for in truth we who are creatures of impulse are not creatures of despair. suicide, i suspect, is very often the outcome of mere mental weariness--not an act of savage energy but the final symptom of complete collapse. the quiet, matter-of-fact attentions of a ship's stewardess, who did not seem aware of other human agonies than sea-sickness, who talked of the probable weather of the passage--it would be a rough night, she thought--and who insisted in a professionally busy manner, "let me make you comfortable down below at once, miss," as though she were thinking of nothing else but her tip--was enough to dissipate the shades of death gathering round the mortal weariness of bewildered thinking which makes the idea of non-existence welcome so often to the young. flora de barral did lie down, and it may be presumed she slept. at any rate she survived the voyage across the north sea and told mrs. fyne all about it, concealing nothing and receiving no rebuke--for mrs. fyne's opinions had a large freedom in their pedantry. she held, i suppose, that a woman holds an absolute right--or possesses a perfect excuse--to escape in her own way from a man-mismanaged world. * * * * * what is to be noted is that even in london, having had time to take a reflective view, poor flora was far from being certain as to the true inwardness of her violent dismissal. she felt the humiliation of it with an almost maddened resentment. "and did you enlighten her on the point?" i ventured to ask. mrs. fyne moved her shoulders with a philosophical acceptance of all the necessities which ought not to be. something had to be said, she murmured. she had told the girl enough to make her come to the right conclusion by herself. "and she did?" "yes. of course. she isn't a goose," retorted mrs. fyne tartly. "then her education is completed," i remarked with some bitterness. "don't you think she ought to be given a chance?" mrs. fyne understood my meaning. "not this one," she snapped in a quite feminine way. "it's all very well for you to plead, but i--" "i do not plead. i simply asked. it seemed natural to ask what you thought." "it's what i feel that matters. and i can't help my feelings. you may guess," she added in a softer tone, "that my feelings are mostly concerned with my brother. we were very fond of each other. the difference of our ages was not very great. i suppose you know he is a little younger than i am. he was a sensitive boy. he had the habit of brooding. it is no use concealing from you that neither of us was happy at home. you have heard, no doubt . . . yes? well, i was made still more unhappy and hurt--i don't mind telling you that. he made his way to some distant relations of our mother's people who i believe were not known to my father at all. i don't wish to judge their action." i interrupted mrs. fyne here. i had heard. fyne was not very communicative in general, but he was proud of his father-in-law--"carleon anthony, the poet, you know." proud of his celebrity without approving of his character. it was on that account, i strongly suspect, that he seized with avidity upon the theory of poetical genius being allied to madness, which he got hold of in some idiotic book everybody was reading a few years ago. it struck him as being truth itself--illuminating like the sun. he adopted it devoutly. he bored me with it sometimes. once, just to shut him up, i asked quietly if this theory which he regarded as so incontrovertible did not cause him some uneasiness about his wife and the dear girls? he transfixed me with a pitying stare and requested me in his deep solemn voice to remember the "well-established fact" that genius was not transmissible. i said only "oh! isn't it?" and he thought he had silenced me by an unanswerable argument. but he continued to talk of his glorious fatherin-law, and it was in the course of that conversation that he told me how, when the liverpool relations of the poet's late wife naturally addressed themselves to him in considerable concern, suggesting a friendly consultation as to the boy's future, the incensed (but always refined) poet wrote in answer a letter of mere polished _badinage_ which offended mortally the liverpool people. this witty outbreak of what was in fact mortification and rage appeared to them so heartless that they simply kept the boy. they let him go to sea not because he was in their way but because he begged hard to be allowed to go. "oh! you do know," said mrs. fyne after a pause. "well--i felt myself very much abandoned. then his choice of life--so extraordinary, so unfortunate, i may say. i was very much grieved. i should have liked him to have been distinguished--or at any rate to remain in the social sphere where we could have had common interests, acquaintances, thoughts. don't think that i am estranged from him. but the precise truth is that i do not know him. i was most painfully affected when he was here by the difficulty of finding a single topic we could discuss together." while mrs. fyne was talking of her brother i let my thoughts wander out of the room to little fyne who by leaving me alone with his wife had, so to speak, entrusted his domestic peace to my honour. "well, then, mrs. fyne, does it not strike you that it would be reasonable under the circumstances to let your brother take care of himself?" "and suppose i have grounds to think that he can't take care of himself in a given instance." she hesitated in a funny, bashful manner which roused my interest. then: "sailors i believe are very susceptible," she added with forced assurance. i burst into a laugh which only increased the coldness of her observing stare. "they are. immensely! hopelessly! my dear mrs. fyne, you had better give it up! it only makes your husband miserable." "and i am quite miserable too. it is really our first difference . . . " "regarding miss de barral?" i asked. "regarding everything. it's really intolerable that this girl should be the occasion. i think he really ought to give way." she turned her chair round a little and picking up the book i had been reading in the morning began to turn the leaves absently. her eyes being off me, i felt i could allow myself to leave the room. its atmosphere had become hopeless for little fyne's domestic peace. you may smile. but to the solemn all things are solemn. i had enough sagacity to understand that. i slipped out into the porch. the dog was slumbering at fyne's feet. the muscular little man leaning on his elbow and gazing over the fields presented a forlorn figure. he turned his head quickly, but seeing i was alone, relapsed into his moody contemplation of the green landscape. i said loudly and distinctly: "i've come out to smoke a cigarette," and sat down near him on the little bench. then lowering my voice: "tolerance is an extremely difficult virtue," i said. "more difficult for some than heroism. more difficult than compassion." i avoided looking at him. i knew well enough that he would not like this opening. general ideas were not to his taste. he mistrusted them. i lighted a cigarette, not that i wanted to smoke, but to give another moment to the consideration of the advice--the diplomatic advice i had made up my mind to bowl him over with. and i continued in subdued tones. "i have been led to make these remarks by what i have discovered since you left us. i suspected from the first. and now i am certain. what your wife cannot tolerate in this affair is miss de barral being what she is." he made a movement, but i kept my eyes away from him and went on steadily. "that is--her being a woman. i have some idea of mrs. fyne's mental attitude towards society with its injustices, with its atrocious or ridiculous conventions. as against them there is no audacity of action your wife's mind refuses to sanction. the doctrine which i imagine she stuffs into the pretty heads of your girl-guests is almost vengeful. a sort of moral fire-and-sword doctrine. how far the lesson is wise is not for me to say. i don't permit myself to judge. i seem to see her very delightful disciples singeing themselves with the torches, and cutting their fingers with the swords of mrs. fyne's furnishing." "my wife holds her opinions very seriously," murmured fyne suddenly. "yes. no doubt," i assented in a low voice as before. "but it is a mere intellectual exercise. what i see is that in dealing with reality mrs. fyne ceases to be tolerant. in other words, that she can't forgive miss de barral for being a woman and behaving like a woman. and yet this is not only reasonable and natural, but it is her only chance. a woman against the world has no resources but in herself. her only means of action is to be what _she is_. you understand what i mean." fyne mumbled between his teeth that he understood. but he did not seem interested. what he expected of me was to extricate him from a difficult situation. i don't know how far credible this may sound, to less solemn married couples, but to remain at variance with his wife seemed to him a considerable incident. almost a disaster. "it looks as though i didn't care what happened to her brother," he said. "and after all if anything . . . " i became a little impatient but without raising my tone: "what thing?" i asked. "the liability to get penal servitude is so far like genius that it isn't hereditary. and what else can be objected to the girl? all the energy of her deeper feelings, which she would use up vainly in the danger and fatigue of a struggle with society may be turned into devoted attachment to the man who offers her a way of escape from what can be only a life of moral anguish. i don't mention the physical difficulties." glancing at fyne out of the corner of one eye i discovered that he was attentive. he made the remark that i should have said all this to his wife. it was a sensible enough remark. but i had given mrs. fyne up. i asked him if his impression was that his wife meant to entrust him with a letter for her brother? no. he didn't think so. there were certain reasons which made mrs. fyne unwilling to commit her arguments to paper. fyne was to be primed with them. but he had no doubt that if he persisted in his refusal she would make up her mind to write. "she does not wish me to go unless with a full conviction that she is right," said fyne solemnly. "she's very exacting," i commented. and then i reflected that she was used to it. "would nothing less do for once?" "you don't mean that i should give way--do you?" asked fyne in a whisper of alarmed suspicion. as this was exactly what i meant, i let his fright sink into him. he fidgeted. if the word may be used of so solemn a personage, he wriggled. and when the horrid suspicion had descended into his very heels, so to speak, he became very still. he sat gazing stonily into space bounded by the yellow, burnt-up slopes of the rising ground a couple of miles away. the face of the down showed the white scar of the quarry where not more than sixteen hours before fyne and i had been groping in the dark with horrible apprehension of finding under our hands the shattered body of a girl. for myself i had in addition the memory of my meeting with her. she was certainly walking very near the edge--courting a sinister solution. but, now, having by the most unexpected chance come upon a man, she had found another way to escape from the world. such world as was open to her--without shelter, without bread, without honour. the best she could have found in it would have been a precarious dole of pity diminishing as her years increased. the appeal of the abandoned child flora to the sympathies of the fynes had been irresistible. but now she had become a woman, and mrs. fyne was presenting an implacable front to a particularly feminine transaction. i may say triumphantly feminine. it is true that mrs. fyne did not want women to be women. her theory was that they should turn themselves into unscrupulous sexless nuisances. an offended theorist dwelt in her bosom somewhere. in what way she expected flora de barral to set about saving herself from a most miserable existence i can't conceive; but i verify believe that she would have found it easier to forgive the girl an actual crime; say the rifling of the bournemouth old lady's desk, for instance. and then--for mrs. fyne was very much of a woman herself--her sense of proprietorship was very strong within her; and though she had not much use for her brother, yet she did not like to see him annexed by another woman. by a chit of a girl. and such a girl, too. nothing is truer than that, in this world, the luckless have no right to their opportunities--as if misfortune were a legal disqualification. fyne's sentiments (as they naturally would be in a man) had more stability. a good deal of his sympathy survived. indeed i heard him murmur "ghastly nuisance," but i knew it was of the integrity of his domestic accord that he was thinking. with my eyes on the dog lying curled up in sleep in the middle of the porch i suggested in a subdued impersonal tone: "yes. why not let yourself be persuaded?" i never saw little fyne less solemn. he hissed through his teeth in unexpectedly figurative style that it would take a lot to persuade him to "push under the head of a poor devil of a girl quite sufficiently plucky"--and snorted. he was still gazing at the distant quarry, and i think he was affected by that sight. i assured him that i was far from advising him to do anything so cruel. i am convinced he had always doubted the soundness of my principles, because he turned on me swiftly as though he had been on the watch for a lapse from the straight path. "then what do you mean? that i should pretend!" "no! what nonsense! it would be immoral. i may however tell you that if i had to make a choice i would rather do something immoral than something cruel. what i meant was that, not believing in the efficacy of the interference, the whole question is reduced to your consenting to do what your wife wishes you to do. that would be acting like a gentleman, surely. and acting unselfishly too, because i can very well understand how distasteful it may be to you. generally speaking, an unselfish action is a moral action. i'll tell you what. i'll go with you." he turned round and stared at me with surprise and suspicion. "you would go with me?" he repeated. "you don't understand," i said, amused at the incredulous disgust of his tone. "i must run up to town, to-morrow morning. let us go together. you have a set of travelling chessmen." his physiognomy, contracted by a variety of emotions, relaxed to a certain extent at the idea of a game. i told him that as i had business at the docks he should have my company to the very ship. "we shall beguile the way to the wilds of the east by improving conversation," i encouraged him. "my brother-in-law is staying at an hotel--the eastern hotel," he said, becoming sombre again. "i haven't the slightest idea where it is." "i know the place. i shall leave you at the door with the comfortable conviction that you are doing what's right since it pleases a lady and cannot do any harm to anybody whatever." "you think so? no harm to anybody?" he repeated doubtfully. "i assure you it's not the slightest use," i said with all possible emphasis which seemed only to increase the solemn discontent of his expression. "but in order that my going should be a perfectly candid proceeding i must first convince my wife that it isn't the slightest use," he objected portentously. "oh, you casuist!" i said. and i said nothing more because at that moment mrs. fyne stepped out into the porch. we rose together at her appearance. her clear, colourless, unflinching glance enveloped us both critically. i sustained the chill smilingly, but fyne stooped at once to release the dog. he was some time about it; then simultaneously with his recovery of upright position the animal passed at one bound from profoundest slumber into most tumultuous activity. enveloped in the tornado of his inane scurryings and barkings i took mrs. fyne's hand extended to me woodenly and bowed over it with deference. she walked down the path without a word; fyne had preceded her and was waiting by the open gate. they passed out and walked up the road surrounded by a low cloud of dust raised by the dog gyrating madly about their two figures progressing side by side with rectitude and propriety, and (i don't know why) looking to me as if they had annexed the whole countryside. perhaps it was that they had impressed me somehow with the sense of their superiority. what superiority? perhaps it consisted just in their limitations. it was obvious that neither of them had carried away a high opinion of me. but what affected me most was the indifference of the fyne dog. he used to precipitate himself at full speed and with a frightful final upward spring upon my waistcoat, at least once at each of our meetings. he had neglected that ceremony this time notwithstanding my correct and even conventional conduct in offering him a cake; it seemed to me symbolic of my final separation from the fyne household. and i remembered against him how on a certain day he had abandoned poor flora de barral--who was morbidly sensitive. i sat down in the porch and, maybe inspired by secret antagonism to the fynes, i said to myself deliberately that captain anthony must be a fine fellow. yet on the facts as i knew them he might have been a dangerous trifler or a downright scoundrel. he had made a miserable, hopeless girl follow him clandestinely to london. it is true that the girl had written since, only mrs. fyne had been remarkably vague as to the contents. they were unsatisfactory. they did not positively announce imminent nuptials as far as i could make it out from her rather mysterious hints. but then her inexperience might have led her astray. there was no fathoming the innocence of a woman like mrs. fyne who, venturing as far as possible in theory, would know nothing of the real aspect of things. it would have been comic if she were making all this fuss for nothing. but i rejected this suspicion for the honour of human nature. i imagined to myself captain anthony as simple and romantic. it was much more pleasant. genius is not hereditary but temperament may be. and he was the son of a poet with an admirable gift of individualising, of etherealizing the common-place; of making touching, delicate, fascinating the most hopeless conventions of the, so-called, refined existence. what i could not understand was mrs. fyne's dog-in-the-manger attitude. sentimentally she needed that brother of hers so little! what could it matter to her one way or another--setting aside common humanity which would suggest at least a neutral attitude. unless indeed it was the blind working of the law that in our world of chances the luckless _must_ be put in the wrong somehow. and musing thus on the general inclination of our instincts towards injustice i met unexpectedly, at the turn of the road, as it were, a shape of duplicity. it might have been unconscious on mrs. fyne's part, but her leading idea appeared to me to be not to keep, not to preserve her brother, but to get rid of him definitely. she did not hope to stop anything. she had too much sense for that. almost anyone out of an idiot asylum would have had enough sense for that. she wanted the protest to be made, emphatically, with fyne's fullest concurrence in order to make all intercourse for the future impossible. such an action would estrange the pair for ever from the fynes. she understood her brother and the girl too. happy together, they would never forgive that outspoken hostility--and should the marriage turn out badly . . . well, it would be just the same. neither of them would be likely to bring their troubles to such a good prophet of evil. yes. that must have been her motive. the inspiration of a possibly unconscious machiavellism! either she was afraid of having a sister-inlaw to look after during the husband's long absences; or dreaded the more or less distant eventuality of her brother being persuaded to leave the sea, the friendly refuge of his unhappy youth, and to settle on shore, bringing to her very door this undesirable, this embarrassing connection. she wanted to be done with it--maybe simply from the fatigue of continuous effort in good or evil, which, in the bulk of common mortals, accounts for so many surprising inconsistencies of conduct. i don't know that i had classed mrs. fyne, in my thoughts, amongst common mortals. she was too quietly sure of herself for that. but little fyne, as i spied him next morning (out of the carriage window) speeding along the platform, looked very much like a common, flustered mortal who has made a very near thing of catching his train: the starting wild eyes, the tense and excited face, the distracted gait, all the common symptoms were there, rendered more impressive by his native solemnity which flapped about him like a disordered garment. had he--i asked myself with interest--resisted his wife to the very last minute and then bolted up the road from the last conclusive argument, as though it had been a loaded gun suddenly produced? i opened the carriage door, and a vigorous porter shoved him in from behind just as the end of the rustic platform went gliding swiftly from under his feet. he was very much out of breath, and i waited with some curiosity for the moment he would recover his power of speech. that moment came. he said "good morning" with a slight gasp, remained very still for another minute and then pulled out of his pocket the travelling chessboard, and holding it in his hand, directed at me a glance of inquiry. "yes. certainly," i said, very much disappointed. chapter seven--on the pavement fyne was not willing to talk; but as i had been already let into the secret, the fair-minded little man recognized that i had some right to information if i insisted on it. and i did insist, after the third game. we were yet some way from the end of our journey. "oh, if you want to know," was his somewhat impatient opening. and then he talked rather volubly. first of all his wife had not given him to read the letter received from flora (i had suspected him of having it in his pocket), but had told him all about the contents. it was not at all what it should have been even if the girl had wished to affirm her right to disregard the feelings of all the world. her own had been trampled in the dirt out of all shape. extraordinary thing to say--i would admit, for a young girl of her age. the whole tone of that letter was wrong, quite wrong. it was certainly not the product of a--say, of a well-balanced mind. "if she were given some sort of footing in this world," i said, "if only no bigger than the palm of my hand, she would probably learn to keep a better balance." fyne ignored this little remark. his wife, he said, was not the sort of person to be addressed mockingly on a serious subject. there was an unpleasant strain of levity in that letter, extending even to the references to captain anthony himself. such a disposition was enough, his wife had pointed out to him, to alarm one for the future, had all the circumstances of that preposterous project been as satisfactory as in fact they were not. other parts of the letter seemed to have a challenging tone--as if daring them (the fynes) to approve her conduct. and at the same time implying that she did not care, that it was for their own sakes that she hoped they would "go against the world--the horrid world which had crushed poor papa." fyne called upon me to admit that this was pretty cool--considering. and there was another thing, too. it seems that for the last six months (she had been assisting two ladies who kept a kindergarten school in bayswater--a mere pittance), flora had insisted on devoting all her spare time to the study of the trial. she had been looking up files of old newspapers, and working herself up into a state of indignation with what she called the injustice and the hypocrisy of the prosecution. her father, fyne reminded me, had made some palpable hits in his answers in court, and she had fastened on them triumphantly. she had reached the conclusion of her father's innocence, and had been brooding over it. mrs. fyne had pointed out to him the danger of this. the train ran into the station and fyne, jumping out directly it came to a standstill, seemed glad to cut short the conversation. we walked in silence a little way, boarded a bus, then walked again. i don't suppose that since the days of his childhood, when surely he was taken to see the tower, he had been once east of temple bar. he looked about him sullenly; and when i pointed out in the distance the rounded front of the eastern hotel at the bifurcation of two very broad, mean, shabby thoroughfares, rising like a grey stucco tower above the lowly roofs of the dirty-yellow, two-storey houses, he only grunted disapprovingly. "i wouldn't lay too much stress on what you have been telling me," i observed quietly as we approached that unattractive building. "no man will believe a girl who has just accepted his suit to be not well balanced,--you know." "oh! accepted his suit," muttered fyne, who seemed to have been very thoroughly convinced indeed. "it may have been the other way about." and then he added: "i am going through with it." i said that this was very praiseworthy but that a certain moderation of statement . . . he waved his hand at me and mended his pace. i guessed that he was anxious to get his mission over as quickly as possible. he barely gave himself time to shake hands with me and made a rush at the narrow glass door with the words hotel entrance on it. it swung to behind his back with no more noise than the snap of a toothless jaw. the absurd temptation to remain and see what would come of it got over my better judgment. i hung about irresolute, wondering how long an embassy of that sort would take, and whether fyne on coming out would consent to be communicative. i feared he would be shocked at finding me there, would consider my conduct incorrect, conceivably treat me with contempt. i walked off a few paces. perhaps it would be possible to read something on fyne's face as he came out; and, if necessary, i could always eclipse myself discreetly through the door of one of the bars. the ground floor of the eastern hotel was an unabashed pub, with plate-glass fronts, a display of brass rails, and divided into many compartments each having its own entrance. but of course all this was silly. the marriage, the love, the affairs of captain anthony were none of my business. i was on the point of moving down the street for good when my attention was attracted by a girl approaching the hotel entrance from the west. she was dressed very modestly in black. it was the white straw hat of a good form and trimmed with a bunch of pale roses which had caught my eye. the whole figure seemed familiar. of course! flora de barral. she was making for the hotel, she was going in. and fyne was with captain anthony! to meet him could not be pleasant for her. i wished to save her from the awkwardness, and as i hesitated what to do she looked up and our eyes happened to meet just as she was turning off the pavement into the hotel doorway. instinctively i extended my arm. it was enough to make her stop. i suppose she had some faint notion that she had seen me before somewhere. she walked slowly forward, prudent and attentive, watching my faint smile. "excuse me," i said directly she had approached me near enough. "perhaps you would like to know that mr. fyne is upstairs with captain anthony at this moment." she uttered a faint "ah! mr. fyne!" i could read in her eyes that she had recognized me now. her serious expression extinguished the imbecile grin of which i was conscious. i raised my hat. she responded with a slow inclination of the head while her luminous, mistrustful, maiden's glance seemed to whisper, "what is this one doing here?" "i came up to town with fyne this morning," i said in a businesslike tone. "i have to see a friend in east india dock. fyne and i parted this moment at the door here . . . " the girl regarded me with darkening eyes . . . "mrs. fyne did not come with her husband," i went on, then hesitated before that white face so still in the pearly shadow thrown down by the hat-brim. "but she sent him," i murmured by way of warning. her eyelids fluttered slowly over the fixed stare. i imagine she was not much disconcerted by this development. "i live a long way from here," she whispered. i said perfunctorily, "do you?" and we remained gazing at each other. the uniform paleness of her complexion was not that of an anaemic girl. it had a transparent vitality and at that particular moment the faintest possible rosy tinge, the merest suspicion of colour; an equivalent, i suppose, in any other girl to blushing like a peony while she told me that captain anthony had arranged to show her the ship that morning. it was easy to understand that she did not want to meet fyne. and when i mentioned in a discreet murmur that he had come because of her letter she glanced at the hotel door quickly, and moved off a few steps to a position where she could watch the entrance without being seen. i followed her. at the junction of the two thoroughfares she stopped in the thin traffic of the broad pavement and turned to me with an air of challenge. "and so you know." i told her that i had not seen the letter. i had only heard of it. she was a little impatient. "i mean all about me." yes. i knew all about her. the distress of mr. and mrs. fyne--especially of mrs. fyne--was so great that they would have shared it with anybody almost--not belonging to their circle of friends. i happened to be at hand--that was all. "you understand that i am not their friend. i am only a holiday acquaintance." "she was not very much upset?" queried flora de barral, meaning, of course, mrs. fyne. and i admitted that she was less so than her husband--and even less than myself. mrs. fyne was a very self-possessed person which nothing could startle out of her extreme theoretical position. she did not seem startled when fyne and i proposed going to the quarry. "you put that notion into their heads," the girl said. i advanced that the notion was in their heads already. but it was much more vividly in my head since i had seen her up there with my own eyes, tempting providence. she was looking at me with extreme attention, and murmured: "is that what you called it to them? tempting . . . " "no. i told them that you were making up your mind and i came along just then. i told them that you were saved by me. my shout checked you . . . " she moved her head gently from right to left in negation . . . "no? well, have it your own way." i thought to myself: she has found another issue. she wants to forget now. and no wonder. she wants to persuade herself that she had never known such an ugly and poignant minute in her life. "after all," i conceded aloud, "things are not always what they seem." her little head with its deep blue eyes, eyes of tenderness and anger under the black arch of fine eyebrows was very still. the mouth looked very red in the white face peeping from under the veil, the little pointed chin had in its form something aggressive. slight and even angular in her modest black dress she was an appealing and--yes--she was a desirable little figure. her lips moved very fast asking me: "and they believed you at once?" "yes, they believed me at once. mrs. fyne's word to us was "go!" a white gleam between the red lips was so short that i remained uncertain whether it was a smile or a ferocious baring of little even teeth. the rest of the face preserved its innocent, tense and enigmatical expression. she spoke rapidly. "no, it wasn't your shout. i had been there some time before you saw me. and i was not there to tempt providence, as you call it. i went up there for--for what you thought i was going to do. yes. i climbed two fences. i did not mean to leave anything to providence. there seem to be people for whom providence can do nothing. i suppose you are shocked to hear me talk like that?" i shook my head. i was not shocked. what had kept her back all that time, till i appeared on the scene below, she went on, was neither fear nor any other kind of hesitation. one reaches a point, she said with appalling youthful simplicity, where nothing that concerns one matters any longer. but something did keep her back. i should have never guessed what it was. she herself confessed that it seemed absurd to say. it was the fyne dog. flora de barral paused, looking at me, with a peculiar expression and then went on. you see, she imagined the dog had become extremely attached to her. she took it into her head that he might fall over or jump down after her. she tried to drive him away. she spoke sternly to him. it only made him more frisky. he barked and jumped about her skirt in his usual, idiotic, high spirits. he scampered away in circles between the pines charging upon her and leaping as high as her waist. she commanded, "go away. go home." she even picked up from the ground a bit of a broken branch and threw it at him. at this his delight knew no bounds; his rushes became faster, his yapping louder; he seemed to be having the time of his life. she was convinced that the moment she threw herself down he would spring over after her as if it were part of the game. she was vexed almost to tears. she was touched too. and when he stood still at some distance as if suddenly rooted to the ground wagging his tail slowly and watching her intensely with his shining eyes another fear came to her. she imagined herself gone and the creature sitting on the brink, its head thrown up to the sky and howling for hours. this thought was not to be borne. then my shout reached her ears. she told me all this with simplicity. my voice had destroyed her poise--the suicide poise of her mind. every act of ours, the most criminal, the most mad presupposes a balance of thought, feeling and will, like a correct attitude for an effective stroke in a game. and i had destroyed it. she was no longer in proper form for the act. she was not very much annoyed. next day would do. she would have to slip away without attracting the notice of the dog. she thought of the necessity almost tenderly. she came down the path carrying her despair with lucid calmness. but when she saw herself deserted by the dog, she had an impulse to turn round, go up again and be done with it. not even that animal cared for her--in the end. "i really did think that he was attached to me. what did he want to pretend for, like this? i thought nothing could hurt me any more. oh yes. i would have gone up, but i felt suddenly so tired. so tired. and then you were there. i didn't know what you would do. you might have tried to follow me and i didn't think i could run--not up hill--not then." she had raised her white face a little, and it was queer to hear her say these things. at that time of the morning there are comparatively few people out in that part of the town. the broad interminable perspective of the east india dock road, the great perspective of drab brick walls, of grey pavement, of muddy roadway rumbling dismally with loaded carts and vans lost itself in the distance, imposing and shabby in its spacious meanness of aspect, in its immeasurable poverty of forms, of colouring, of life--under a harsh, unconcerned sky dried by the wind to a clear blue. it had been raining during the night. the sunshine itself seemed poor. from time to time a few bits of paper, a little dust and straw whirled past us on the broad flat promontory of the pavement before the rounded front of the hotel. flora de barral was silent for a while. i said: "and next day you thought better of it." again she raised her eyes to mine with that peculiar expression of informed innocence; and again her white cheeks took on the faintest tinge of pink--the merest shadow of a blush. "next day," she uttered distinctly, "i didn't think. i remembered. that was enough. i remembered what i should never have forgotten. never. and captain anthony arrived at the cottage in the evening." "ah yes. captain anthony," i murmured. and she repeated also in a murmur, "yes! captain anthony." the faint flush of warm life left her face. i subdued my voice still more and not looking at her: "you found him sympathetic?" i ventured. her long dark lashes went down a little with an air of calculated discretion. at least so it seemed to me. and yet no one could say that i was inimical to that girl. but there you are! explain it as you may, in this world the friendless, like the poor, are always a little suspect, as if honesty and delicacy were only possible to the privileged few. "why do you ask?" she said after a time, raising her eyes suddenly to mine in an effect of candour which on the same principle (of the disinherited not being to be trusted) might have been judged equivocal. "if you mean what right i have . . . " she move slightly a hand in a worn brown glove as much as to say she could not question anyone's right against such an outcast as herself. i ought to have been moved perhaps; but i only noted the total absence of humility . . . "no right at all," i continued, "but just interest. mrs. fyne--it's too difficult to explain how it came about--has talked to me of you--well--extensively." no doubt mrs. fyne had told me the truth, flora said brusquely with an unexpected hoarseness of tone. this very dress she was wearing had been given her by mrs. fyne. of course i looked at it. it could not have been a recent gift. close-fitting and black, with heliotrope silk facings under a figured net, it looked far from new, just on this side of shabbiness; in fact, it accentuated the slightness of her figure, it went well in its suggestion of half mourning with the white face in which the unsmiling red lips alone seemed warm with the rich blood of life and passion. little fyne was staying up there an unconscionable time. was he arguing, preaching, remonstrating? had he discovered in himself a capacity and a taste for that sort of thing? or was he perhaps, in an intense dislike for the job, beating about the bush and only puzzling captain anthony, the providential man, who, if he expected the girl to appear at any moment, must have been on tenterhooks all the time, and beside himself with impatience to see the back of his brother-in-law. how was it that he had not got rid of fyne long before in any case? i don't mean by actually throwing him out of the window, but in some other resolute manner. surely fyne had not impressed him. that he was an impressionable man i could not doubt. the presence of the girl there on the pavement before me proved this up to the hilt--and, well, yes, touchingly enough. it so happened that in their wanderings to and fro our glances met. they met and remained in contact more familiar than a hand-clasp, more communicative, more expressive. there was something comic too in the whole situation, in the poor girl and myself waiting together on the broad pavement at a corner public-house for the issue of fyne's ridiculous mission. but the comic when it is human becomes quickly painful. yes, she was infinitely anxious. and i was asking myself whether this poignant tension of her suspense depended--to put it plainly--on hunger or love. the answer would have been of some interest to captain anthony. for my part, in the presence of a young girl i always become convinced that the dreams of sentiment--like the consoling mysteries of faith--are invincible; that it is never never reason which governs men and women. yet what sentiment could there have been on her part? i remembered her tone only a moment since when she said: "that evening captain anthony arrived at the cottage." and considering, too, what the arrival of captain anthony meant in this connection, i wondered at the calmness with which she could mention that fact. he arrived at the cottage. in the evening. i knew that late train. he probably walked from the station. the evening would be well advanced. i could almost see a dark indistinct figure opening the wicket gate of the garden. where was she? did she see him enter? was she somewhere near by and did she hear without the slightest premonition his chance and fateful footsteps on the flagged path leading to the cottage door? in the shadow of the night made more cruelly sombre for her by the very shadow of death he must have appeared too strange, too remote, too unknown to impress himself on her thought as a living force--such a force as a man can bring to bear on a woman's destiny. she glanced towards the hotel door again; i followed suit and then our eyes met once more, this time intentionally. a tentative, uncertain intimacy was springing up between us two. she said simply: "you are waiting for mr. fyne to come out; are you?" i admitted to her that i was waiting to see mr. fyne come out. that was all. i had nothing to say to him. "i have said yesterday all i had to say to him," i added meaningly. "i have said it to them both, in fact. i have also heard all they had to say." "about me?" she murmured. "yes. the conversation was about you." "i wonder if they told you everything." if she wondered i could do nothing else but wonder too. but i did not tell her that. i only smiled. the material point was that captain anthony should be told everything. but as to that i was very certain that the good sister would see to it. was there anything more to disclose--some other misery, some other deception of which that girl had been a victim? it seemed hardly probable. it was not even easy to imagine. what struck me most was her--i suppose i must call it--composure. one could not tell whether she understood what she had done. one wondered. she was not so much unreadable as blank; and i did not know whether to admire her for it or dismiss her from my thoughts as a passive butt of ferocious misfortune. looking back at the occasion when we first got on speaking terms on the road by the quarry, i had to admit that she presented some points of a problematic appearance. i don't know why i imagined captain anthony as the sort of man who would not be likely to take the initiative; not perhaps from indifference but from that peculiar timidity before women which often enough is found in conjunction with chivalrous instincts, with a great need for affection and great stability of feelings. such men are easily moved. at the least encouragement they go forward with the eagerness, with the recklessness of starvation. this accounted for the suddenness of the affair. no! with all her inexperience this girl could not have found any great difficulty in her conquering enterprise. she must have begun it. and yet there she was, patient, almost unmoved, almost pitiful, waiting outside like a beggar, without a right to anything but compassion, for a promised dole. every moment people were passing close by us, singly, in two and threes; the inhabitants of that end of the town where life goes on unadorned by grace or splendour; they passed us in their shabby garments, with sallow faces, haggard, anxious or weary, or simply without expression, in an unsmiling sombre stream not made up of lives but of mere unconsidered existences whose joys, struggles, thoughts, sorrows and their very hopes were miserable, glamourless, and of no account in the world. and when one thought of their reality to themselves one's heart became oppressed. but of all the individuals who passed by none appeared to me for the moment so pathetic in unconscious patience as the girl standing before me; none more difficult to understand. it is perhaps because i was thinking of things which i could not ask her about. in fact we had nothing to say to each other; but we two, strangers as we really were to each other, had dealt with the most intimate and final of subjects, the subject of death. it had created a sort of bond between us. it made our silence weighty and uneasy. i ought to have left her there and then; but, as i think i've told you before, the fact of having shouted her away from the edge of a precipice seemed somehow to have engaged my responsibility as to this other leap. and so we had still an intimate subject between us to lend more weight and more uneasiness to our silence. the subject of marriage. i use the word not so much in reference to the ceremony itself (i had no doubt of this, captain anthony being a decent fellow) or in view of the social institution in general, as to which i have no opinion, but in regard to the human relation. the first two views are not particularly interesting. the ceremony, i suppose, is adequate; the institution, i dare say, is useful or it would not have endured. but the human relation thus recognized is a mysterious thing in its origins, character and consequences. unfortunately you can't buttonhole familiarly a young girl as you would a young fellow. i don't think that even another woman could really do it. she would not be trusted. there is not between women that fund of at least conditional loyalty which men may depend on in their dealings with each other. i believe that any woman would rather trust a man. the difficulty in such a delicate case was how to get on terms. so we held our peace in the odious uproar of that wide roadway thronged with heavy carts. great vans carrying enormous piled-up loads advanced swaying like mountains. it was as if the whole world existed only for selling and buying and those who had nothing to do with the movement of merchandise were of no account. "you must be tired," i said. one had to say something if only to assert oneself against that wearisome, passionless and crushing uproar. she raised her eyes for a moment. no, she was not. not very. she had not walked all the way. she came by train as far as whitechapel station and had only walked from there. she had had an ugly pilgrimage; but whether of love or of necessity who could tell? and that precisely was what i should have liked to get at. this was not however a question to be asked point-blank, and i could not think of any effective circumlocution. it occurred to me too that she might conceivably know nothing of it herself--i mean by reflection. that young woman had been obviously considering death. she had gone the length of forming some conception of it. but as to its companion fatality--love, she, i was certain, had never reflected upon its meaning. with that man in the hotel, whom i did not know, and this girl standing before me in the street i felt that it was an exceptional case. he had broken away from his surroundings; she stood outside the pale. one aspect of conventions which people who declaim against them lose sight of is that conventions make both joy and suffering easier to bear in a becoming manner. but those two were outside all conventions. they would be as untrammelled in a sense as the first man and the first woman. the trouble was that i could not imagine anything about flora de barral and the brother of mrs. fyne. or, if you like, i could imagine _anything_ which comes practically to the same thing. darkness and chaos are first cousins. i should have liked to ask the girl for a word which would give my imagination its line. but how was one to venture so far? i can be rough sometimes but i am not naturally impertinent. i would have liked to ask her for instance: "do you know what you have done with yourself?" a question like that. anyhow it was time for one of us to say something. a question it must be. and the question i asked was: "so he's going to show you the ship?" she seemed glad i had spoken at last and glad of the opportunity to speak herself. "yes. he said he would--this morning. did you say you did not know captain anthony?" "no. i don't know him. is he anything like his sister?" she looked startled and murmured "sister!" in a puzzled tone which astonished me. "oh! mrs. fyne," she exclaimed, recollecting herself, and avoiding my eyes while i looked at her curiously. what an extraordinary detachment! and all the time the stream of shabby people was hastening by us, with the continuous dreary shuffling of weary footsteps on the flagstones. the sunshine falling on the grime of surfaces, on the poverty of tones and forms seemed of an inferior quality, its joy faded, its brilliance tarnished and dusty. i had to raise my voice in the dull vibrating noise of the roadway. "you don't mean to say you have forgotten the connection?" she cried readily enough: "i wasn't thinking." and then, while i wondered what could have been the images occupying her brain at this time, she asked me: "you didn't see my letter to mrs. fyne--did you?" "no. i didn't," i shouted. just then the racket was distracting, a pairhorse trolly lightly loaded with loose rods of iron passing slowly very near us. "i wasn't trusted so far." and remembering mrs. fyne's hints that the girl was unbalanced, i added: "was it an unreserved confession you wrote?" she did not answer me for a time, and as i waited i thought that there's nothing like a confession to make one look mad; and that of all confessions a written one is the most detrimental all round. never confess! never, never! an untimely joke is a source of bitter regret always. sometimes it may ruin a man; not because it is a joke, but because it is untimely. and a confession of whatever sort is always untimely. the only thing which makes it supportable for a while is curiosity. you smile? ah, but it is so, or else people would be sent to the rightabout at the second sentence. how many sympathetic souls can you reckon on in the world? one in ten, one in a hundred--in a thousand--in ten thousand? ah! what a sell these confessions are! what a horrible sell! you seek sympathy, and all you get is the most evanescent sense of relief--if you get that much. for a confession, whatever it may be, stirs the secret depths of the hearer's character. often depths that he himself is but dimly aware of. and so the righteous triumph secretly, the lucky are amused, the strong are disgusted, the weak either upset or irritated with you according to the measure of their sincerity with themselves. and all of them in their hearts brand you for either mad or impudent . . . " i had seldom seen marlow so vehement, so pessimistic, so earnestly cynical before. i cut his declamation short by asking what answer flora de barral had given to his question. "did the poor girl admit firing off her confidences at mrs. fyne--eight pages of close writing--that sort of thing?" marlow shook his head. "she did not tell me. i accepted her silence, as a kind of answer and remarked that it would have been better if she had simply announced the fact to mrs. fyne at the cottage. "why didn't you do it?" i asked pointblank. she said: "i am not a very plucky girl." she looked up at me and added meaningly: "and _you_ know it. and you know why." i must remark that she seemed to have become very subdued since our first meeting at the quarry. almost a different person from the defiant, angry and despairing girl with quivering lips and resentful glances. "i thought it was very sensible of you to get away from that sheer drop," i said. she looked up with something of that old expression. "that's not what i mean. i see you will have it that you saved my life. nothing of the kind. i was concerned for that vile little beast of a dog. no! it was the idea of--of doing away with myself which was cowardly. that's what i meant by saying i am not a very plucky girl." "oh!" i retorted airily. "that little dog. he isn't really a bad little dog." but she lowered her eyelids and went on: "i was so miserable that i could think only of myself. this was mean. it was cruel too. and besides i had _not_ given it up--not then." * * * * * marlow changed his tone. "i don't know much of the psychology of self-destruction. it's a sort of subject one has few opportunities to study closely. i knew a man once who came to my rooms one evening, and while smoking a cigar confessed to me moodily that he was trying to discover some graceful way of retiring out of existence. i didn't study his case, but i had a glimpse of him the other day at a cricket match, with some women, having a good time. that seems a fairly reasonable attitude. considered as a sin, it is a case for repentance before the throne of a merciful god. but i imagine that flora de barral's religion under the care of the distinguished governess could have been nothing but outward formality. remorse in the sense of gnawing shame and unavailing regret is only understandable to me when some wrong had been done to a fellow-creature. but why she, that girl who existed on sufferance, so to speak--why she should writhe inwardly with remorse because she had once thought of getting rid of a life which was nothing in every respect but a curse--that i could not understand. i thought it was very likely some obscure influence of common forms of speech, some traditional or inherited feeling--a vague notion that suicide is a legal crime; words of old moralists and preachers which remain in the air and help to form all the authorized moral conventions. yes, i was surprised at her remorse. but lowering her glance unexpectedly till her dark eye-lashes seemed to rest against her white cheeks she presented a perfectly demure aspect. it was so attractive that i could not help a faint smile. that flora de barral should ever, in any aspect, have the power to evoke a smile was the very last thing i should have believed. she went on after a slight hesitation: "one day i started for there, for that place." look at the influence of a mere play of physiognomy! if you remember what we were talking about you will hardly believe that i caught myself grinning down at that demure little girl. i must say too that i felt more friendly to her at the moment than ever before. "oh, you did? to take that jump? you are a determined young person. well, what happened that time?" an almost imperceptible alteration in her bearing; a slight droop of her head perhaps--a mere nothing--made her look more demure than ever. "i had left the cottage," she began a little hurriedly. "i was walking along the road--you know, _the_ road. i had made up my mind i was not coming back this time." i won't deny that these words spoken from under the brim of her hat (oh yes, certainly, her head was down--she had put it down) gave me a thrill; for indeed i had never doubted her sincerity. it could never have been a make-believe despair. "yes," i whispered. "you were going along the road." "when . . . " again she hesitated with an effect of innocent shyness worlds asunder from tragic issues; then glided on . . . "when suddenly captain anthony came through a gate out of a field." i coughed down the beginning of a most improper fit of laughter, and felt ashamed of myself. her eyes raised for a moment seemed full of innocent suffering and unexpressed menace in the depths of the dilated pupils within the rings of sombre blue. it was--how shall i say it?--a night effect when you seem to see vague shapes and don't know what reality you may come upon at any time. then she lowered her eyelids again, shutting all mysteriousness out of the situation except for the sobering memory of that glance, nightlike in the sunshine, expressively still in the brutal unrest of the street. "so captain anthony joined you--did he?" "he opened a field-gate and walked out on the road. he crossed to my side and went on with me. he had his pipe in his hand. he said: 'are you going far this morning?'" these words (i was watching her white face as she spoke) gave me a slight shudder. she remained demure, almost prim. and i remarked: "you have been talking together before, of course." "not more than twenty words altogether since he arrived," she declared without emphasis. "that day he had said 'good morning' to me when we met at breakfast two hours before. and i said good morning to him. i did not see him afterwards till he came out on the road." i thought to myself that this was not accidental. he had been observing her. i felt certain also that he had not been asking any questions of mrs. fyne. "i wouldn't look at him," said flora de barral. "i had done with looking at people. he said to me: 'my sister does not put herself out much for us. we had better keep each other company. i have read every book there is in that cottage.' i walked on. he did not leave me. i thought he ought to. but he didn't. he didn't seem to notice that i would not talk to him." she was now perfectly still. the wretched little parasol hung down against her dress from her joined hands. i was rigid with attention. it isn't every day that one culls such a volunteered tale on a girl's lips. the ugly street-noises swelling up for a moment covered the next few words she said. it was vexing. the next word i heard was "worried." "it worried you to have him there, walking by your side." "yes. just that," she went on with downcast eyes. there was something prettily comical in her attitude and her tone, while i pictured to myself a poor white-faced girl walking to her death with an unconscious man striding by her side. unconscious? i don't know. first of all, i felt certain that this was no chance meeting. something had happened before. was he a man for a _coup-de-foudre_, the lightning stroke of love? i don't think so. that sort of susceptibility is luckily rare. a world of inflammable lovers of the romeo and juliet type would very soon end in barbarism and misery. but it is a fact that in every man (not in every woman) there lives a lover; a lover who is called out in all his potentialities often by the most insignificant little things--as long as they come at the psychological moment: the glimpse of a face at an unusual angle, an evanescent attitude, the curve of a cheek often looked at before, perhaps, but then, at the moment, charged with astonishing significance. these are great mysteries, of course. magic signs. i don't know in what the sign consisted in this case. it might have been her pallor (it wasn't pasty nor yet papery) that white face with eyes like blue gleams of fire and lips like red coals. in certain lights, in certain poises of head it suggested tragic sorrow. or it might have been her wavy hair. or even just that pointed chin stuck out a little, resentful and not particularly distinguished, doing away with the mysterious aloofness of her fragile presence. but any way at a given moment anthony must have suddenly _seen_ the girl. and then, that something had happened to him. perhaps nothing more than the thought coming into his head that this was "a possible woman." followed this waylaying! its resolute character makes me think it was the chin's doing; that "common mortal" touch which stands in such good stead to some women. because men, i mean really masculine men, those whose generations have evolved an ideal woman, are often very timid. who wouldn't be before the ideal? it's your sentimental trifler, who has just missed being nothing at all, who is enterprising, simply because it is easy to appear enterprising when one does not mean to put one's belief to the test. well, whatever it was that encouraged him, captain anthony stuck to flora de barral in a manner which in a timid man might have been called heroic if it had not been so simple. whether policy, diplomacy, simplicity, or just inspiration, he kept up his talk, rather deliberate, with very few pauses. then suddenly as if recollecting himself: "it's funny. i don't think you are annoyed with me for giving you my company unasked. but why don't you say something?" i asked miss de barral what answer she made to this query. "i made no answer," she said in that even, unemotional low voice which seemed to be her voice for delicate confidences. "i walked on. he did not seem to mind. we came to the foot of the quarry where the road winds up hill, past the place where you were sitting by the roadside that day. i began to wonder what i should do. after we reached the top captain anthony said that he had not been for a walk with a lady for years and years--almost since he was a boy. we had then come to where i ought to have turned off and struck across a field. i thought of making a run of it. but he would have caught me up. i knew he would; and, of course, he would not have allowed me. i couldn't give him the slip." "why didn't you ask him to leave you?" i inquired curiously. "he would not have taken any notice," she went on steadily. "and what could i have done then? i could not have started quarrelling with him--could i? i hadn't enough energy to get angry. i felt very tired suddenly. i just stumbled on straight along the road. captain anthony told me that the family--some relations of his mother--he used to know in liverpool was broken up now, and he had never made any friends since. all gone their different ways. all the girls married. nice girls they were and very friendly to him when he was but little more than a boy. he repeated: 'very nice, cheery, clever girls.' i sat down on a bank against a hedge and began to cry." "you must have astonished him not a little," i observed. anthony, it seems, remained on the road looking down at her. he did not offer to approach her, neither did he make any other movement or gesture. flora de barral told me all this. she could see him through her tears, blurred to a mere shadow on the white road, and then again becoming more distinct, but always absolutely still and as if lost in thought before a strange phenomenon which demanded the closest possible attention. flora learned later that he had never seen a woman cry; not in that way, at least. he was impressed and interested by the mysteriousness of the effect. she was very conscious of being looked at, but was not able to stop herself crying. in fact, she was not capable of any effort. suddenly he advanced two steps, stooped, caught hold of her hands lying on her lap and pulled her up to her feet; she found herself standing close to him almost before she realized what he had done. some people were coming briskly along the road and captain anthony muttered: "you don't want to be stared at. what about that stile over there? can we go back across the fields?" she snatched her hands out of his grasp (it seems he had omitted to let them go), marched away from him and got over the stile. it was a big field sprinkled profusely with white sheep. a trodden path crossed it diagonally. after she had gone more than half way she turned her head for the first time. keeping five feet or so behind, captain anthony was following her with an air of extreme interest. interest or eagerness. at any rate she caught an expression on his face which frightened her. but not enough to make her run. and indeed it would have had to be something incredibly awful to scare into a run a girl who had come to the end of her courage to live. as if encouraged by this glance over the shoulder captain anthony came up boldly, and now that he was by her side, she felt his nearness intimately, like a touch. she tried to disregard this sensation. but she was not angry with him now. it wasn't worth while. she was thankful that he had the sense not to ask questions as to this crying. of course he didn't ask because he didn't care. no one in the world cared for her, neither those who pretended nor yet those who did not pretend. she preferred the latter. captain anthony opened for her a gate into another field; when they got through he kept walking abreast, elbow to elbow almost. his voice growled pleasantly in her very ear. staying in this dull place was enough to give anyone the blues. his sister scribbled all day. it was positively unkind. he alluded to his nieces as rude, selfish monkeys, without either feelings or manners. and he went on to talk about his ship being laid up for a month and dismantled for repairs. the worst was that on arriving in london he found he couldn't get the rooms he was used to, where they made him as comfortable as such a confirmed sea-dog as himself could be anywhere on shore. in the effort to subdue by dint of talking and to keep in check the mysterious, the profound attraction he felt already for that delicate being of flesh and blood, with pale cheeks, with darkened eyelids and eyes scalded with hot tears, he went on speaking of himself as a confirmed enemy of life on shore--a perfect terror to a simple man, what with the fads and proprieties and the ceremonies and affectations. he hated all that. he wasn't fit for it. there was no rest and peace and security but on the sea. this gave one a view of captain anthony as a hermit withdrawn from a wicked world. it was amusingly unexpected to me and nothing more. but it must have appealed straight to that bruised and battered young soul. still shrinking from his nearness she had ended by listening to him with avidity. his deep murmuring voice soothed her. and she thought suddenly that there was peace and rest in the grave too. she heard him say: "look at my sister. she isn't a bad woman by any means. she asks me here because it's right and proper, i suppose, but she has no use for me. there you have your shore people. i quite understand anybody crying. i would have been gone already, only, truth to say, i haven't any friends to go to." he added brusquely: "and you?" she made a slight negative sign. he must have been observing her, putting two and two together. after a pause he said simply: "when i first came here i thought you were governess to these girls. my sister didn't say a word about you to me." then flora spoke for the first time. "mrs. fyne is my best friend." "so she is mine," he said without the slightest irony or bitterness, but added with conviction: "that shows you what life ashore is. much better be out of it." as they were approaching the cottage he was heard again as though a long silent walk had not intervened: "but anyhow i shan't ask her anything about you." he stopped short and she went on alone. his last words had impressed her. everything he had said seemed somehow to have a special meaning under its obvious conversational sense. till she went in at the door of the cottage she felt his eyes resting on her. that is it. he had made himself felt. that girl was, one may say, washing about with slack limbs in the ugly surf of life with no opportunity to strike out for herself, when suddenly she had been made to feel that there was somebody beside her in the bitter water. a most considerable moral event for her; whether she was aware of it or not. they met again at the one o'clock dinner. i am inclined to think that, being a healthy girl under her frail appearance, and fast walking and what i may call relief-crying (there are many kinds of crying) making one hungry, she made a good meal. it was captain anthony who had no appetite. his sister commented on it in a curt, businesslike manner, and the eldest of his delightful nieces said mockingly: "you have been taking too much exercise this morning, uncle roderick." the mild uncle roderick turned upon her with a "what do you know about it, young lady?" so charged with suppressed savagery that the whole round table gave one gasp and went dumb for the rest of the meal. he took no notice whatever of flora de barral. i don't think it was from prudence or any calculated motive. i believe he was so full of her aspects that he did not want to look in her direction when there were other people to hamper his imagination. you understand i am piecing here bits of disconnected statements. next day flora saw him leaning over the field-gate. when she told me this, i didn't of course ask her how it was she was there. probably she could not have told me how it was she was there. the difficulty here is to keep steadily in view the then conditions of her existence, a combination of dreariness and horror. that hermit-like but not exactly misanthropic sailor was leaning over the gate moodily. when he saw the white-faced restless flora drifting like a lost thing along the road he put his pipe in his pocket and called out "good morning, miss smith" in a tone of amazing happiness. she, with one foot in life and the other in a nightmare, was at the same time inert and unstable, and very much at the mercy of sudden impulses. she swerved, came distractedly right up to the gate and looking straight into his eyes: "i am not miss smith. that's not my name. don't call me by it." she was shaking as if in a passion. his eyes expressed nothing; he only unlatched the gate in silence, grasped her arm and drew her in. then closing it with a kick-"not your name? that's all one to me. your name's the least thing about you i care for." he was leading her firmly away from the gate though she resisted slightly. there was a sort of joy in his eyes which frightened her. "you are not a princess in disguise," he said with an unexpected laugh she found blood-curdling. "and that's all i care for. you had better understand that i am not blind and not a fool. and then it's plain for even a fool to see that things have been going hard with you. you are on a lee shore and eating your heart out with worry." what seemed most awful to her was the elated light in his eyes, the rapacious smile that would come and go on his lips as if he were gloating over her misery. but her misery was his opportunity and he rejoiced while the tenderest pity seemed to flood his whole being. he pointed out to her that she knew who he was. he was mrs. fyne's brother. and, well, if his sister was the best friend she had in the world, then, by jove, it was about time somebody came along to look after her a little. flora had tried more than once to free herself, but he tightened his grasp of her arm each time and even shook it a little without ceasing to speak. the nearness of his face intimidated her. he seemed striving to look her through. it was obvious the world had been using her ill. and even as he spoke with indignation the very marks and stamp of this illusage of which he was so certain seemed to add to the inexplicable attraction he felt for her person. it was not pity alone, i take it. it was something more spontaneous, perverse and exciting. it gave him the feeling that if only he could get hold of her, no woman would belong to him so completely as this woman. "whatever your troubles," he said, "i am the man to take you away from them; that is, if you are not afraid. you told me you had no friends. neither have i. nobody ever cared for me as far as i can remember. perhaps you could. yes, i live on the sea. but who would you be parting from? no one. you have no one belonging to you." at this point she broke away from him and ran. he did not pursue her. the tall hedges tossing in the wind, the wide fields, the clouds driving over the sky and the sky itself wheeled about her in masses of green and white and blue as if the world were breaking up silently in a whirl, and her foot at the next step were bound to find the void. she reached the gate all right, got out, and, once on the road, discovered that she had not the courage to look back. the rest of that day she spent with the fyne girls who gave her to understand that she was a slow and unprofitable person. long after tea, nearly at dusk, captain anthony (the son of the poet) appeared suddenly before her in the little garden in front of the cottage. they were alone for the moment. the wind had dropped. in the calm evening air the voices of mrs. fyne and the girls strolling aimlessly on the road could be heard. he said to her severely: "you have understood?" she looked at him in silence. "that i love you," he finished. she shook her head the least bit. "don't you believe me?" he asked in a low, infuriated voice. "nobody would love me," she answered in a very quiet tone. "nobody could." he was dumb for a time, astonished beyond measure, as he well might have been. he doubted his ears. he was outraged. "eh? what? can't love you? what do you know about it? it's my affair, isn't it? you dare say _that_ to a man who has just told you! you must be mad!" "very nearly," she said with the accent of pent-up sincerity, and even relieved because she was able to say something which she felt was true. for the last few days she had felt herself several times near that madness which is but an intolerable lucidity of apprehension. the clear voices of mrs. fyne and the girls were coming nearer, sounding affected in the peace of the passion-laden earth. he began storming at her hastily. "nonsense! nobody can . . . indeed! pah! you'll have to be shown that somebody can. i can. nobody . . . " he made a contemptuous hissing noise. "more likely _you_ can't. they have done something to you. something's crushed your pluck. you can't face a man--that's what it is. what made you like this? where do you come from? you have been put upon. the scoundrels--whoever they are, men or women, seem to have robbed you of your very name. you say you are not miss smith. who are you, then?" she did not answer. he muttered, "not that i care," and fell silent, because the fatuous self-confident chatter of the fyne girls could be heard at the very gate. but they were not going to bed yet. they passed on. he waited a little in silence and immobility, then stamped his foot and lost control of himself. he growled at her in a savage passion. she felt certain that he was threatening her and calling her names. she was no stranger to abuse, as we know, but there seemed to be a particular kind of ferocity in this which was new to her. she began to tremble. the especially terrifying thing was that she could not make out the nature of these awful menaces and names. not a word. yet it was not the shrinking anguish of her other experiences of angry scenes. she made a mighty effort, though her knees were knocking together, and in an expiring voice demanded that he should let her go indoors. "don't stop me. it's no use. it's no use," she repeated faintly, feeling an invincible obstinacy rising within her, yet without anger against that raging man. he became articulate suddenly, and, without raising his voice, perfectly audible. "no use! no use! you dare stand here and tell me that--you white-faced wisp, you wreath of mist, you little ghost of all the sorrow in the world. you dare! haven't i been looking at you? you are all eyes. what makes your cheeks always so white as if you had seen something . . . don't speak. i love it . . . no use! and you really think that i can now go to sea for a year or more, to the other side of the world somewhere, leaving you behind. why! you would vanish . . . what little there is of you. some rough wind will blow you away altogether. you have no holding ground on earth. well, then trust yourself to me--to the sea--which is deep like your eyes." she said: "impossible." he kept quiet for a while, then asked in a totally changed tone, a tone of gloomy curiosity: "you can't stand me then? is that it?" "no," she said, more steady herself. "i am not thinking of you at all." the inane voices of the fyne girls were heard over the sombre fields calling to each other, thin and clear. he muttered: "you could try to. unless you are thinking of somebody else." "yes. i am thinking of somebody else, of someone who has nobody to think of him but me." his shadowy form stepped out of her way, and suddenly leaned sideways against the wooden support of the porch. and as she stood still, surprised by this staggering movement, his voice spoke up in a tone quite strange to her. "go in then. go out of my sight--i thought you said nobody could love you." she was passing him when suddenly he struck her as so forlorn that she was inspired to say: "no one has ever loved me--not in that way--if that's what you mean. nobody would." he detached himself brusquely from the post, and she did not shrink; but mrs. fyne and the girls were already at the gate. all he understood was that everything was not over yet. there was no time to lose; mrs. fyne and the girls had come in at the gate. he whispered "wait" with such authority (he was the son of carleon anthony, the domestic autocrat) that it did arrest her for a moment, long enough to hear him say that he could not be left like this to puzzle over her nonsense all night. she was to slip down again into the garden later on, as soon as she could do so without being heard. he would be there waiting for her till--till daylight. she didn't think he could go to sleep, did she? and she had better come, or--he broke off on an unfinished threat. she vanished into the unlighted cottage just as mrs. fyne came up to the porch. nervous, holding her breath in the darkness of the living-room, she heard her best friend say: "you ought to have joined us, roderick." and then: "have you seen miss smith anywhere?" flora shuddered, expecting anthony to break out into betraying imprecations on miss smith's head, and cause a painful and humiliating explanation. she imagined him full of his mysterious ferocity. to her great surprise, anthony's voice sounded very much as usual, with perhaps a slight tinge of grimness. "miss smith! no. i've seen no miss smith." mrs. fyne seemed satisfied--and not much concerned really. flora, relieved, got clear away to her room upstairs, and shutting her door quietly, dropped into a chair. she was used to reproaches, abuse, to all sorts of wicked ill usage--short of actual beating on her body. otherwise inexplicable angers had cut and slashed and trampled down her youth without mercy--and mainly, it appeared, because she was the financier de barral's daughter and also condemned to a degrading sort of poverty through the action of treacherous men who had turned upon her father in his hour of need. and she thought with the tenderest possible affection of that upright figure buttoned up in a long frock-coat, softvoiced and having but little to say to his girl. she seemed to feel his hand closed round hers. on his flying visits to brighton he would always walk hand in hand with her. people stared covertly at them; the band was playing; and there was the sea--the blue gaiety of the sea. they were quietly happy together . . . it was all over! an immense anguish of the present wrung her heart, and she nearly cried aloud. that dread of what was before her which had been eating up her courage slowly in the course of odious years, flamed up into an access of panic, that sort of headlong panic which had already driven her out twice to the top of the cliff-like quarry. she jumped up saying to herself: "why not now? at once! yes. i'll do it now--in the dark!" the very horror of it seemed to give her additional resolution. she came down the staircase quietly, and only on the point of opening the door and because of the discovery that it was unfastened, she remembered captain anthony's threat to stay in the garden all night. she hesitated. she did not understand the mood of that man clearly. he was violent. but she had gone beyond the point where things matter. what would he think of her coming down to him--as he would naturally suppose. and even that didn't matter. he could not despise her more than she despised herself. she must have been light-headed because the thought came into her mind that should he get into ungovernable fury from disappointment, and perchance strangle her, it would be as good a way to be done with it as any. "you had that thought," i exclaimed in wonder. with downcast eyes and speaking with an almost painstaking precision (her very lips, her red lips, seemed to move just enough to be heard and no more), she said that, yes, the thought came into her head. this makes one shudder at the mysterious ways girls acquire knowledge. for this was a thought, wild enough, i admit, but which could only have come from the depths of that sort of experience which she had not had, and went far beyond a young girl's possible conception of the strongest and most veiled of human emotions. "he was there, of course?" i said. "yes, he was there." she saw him on the path directly she stepped outside the porch. he was very still. it was as though he had been standing there with his face to the door for hours. shaken up by the changing moods of passion and tenderness, he must have been ready for any extravagance of conduct. knowing the profound silence each night brought to that nook of the country, i could imagine them having the feeling of being the only two people on the wide earth. a row of six or seven lofty elms just across the road opposite the cottage made the night more obscure in that little garden. if these two could just make out each other that was all. "well! and were you very much terrified?" i asked. she made me wait a little before she said, raising her eyes: "he was gentleness itself." i noticed three abominable, drink-sodden loafers, sallow and dirty, who had come to range themselves in a row within ten feet of us against the front of the public-house. they stared at flora de barral's back with unseeing, mournful fixity. "let's move this way a little," i proposed. she turned at once and we made a few paces; not too far to take us out of sight of the hotel door, but very nearly. i could just keep my eyes on it. after all, i had not been so very long with the girl. if you were to disentangle the words we actually exchanged from my comments you would see that they were not so very many, including everything she had so unexpectedly told me of her story. no, not so very many. and now it seemed as though there would be no more. no! i could expect no more. the confidence was wonderful enough in its nature as far as it went, and perhaps not to have been expected from any other girl under the sun. and i felt a little ashamed. the origin of our intimacy was too gruesome. it was as if listening to her i had taken advantage of having seen her poor bewildered, scared soul without its veils. but i was curious, too; or, to render myself justice without false modesty--i was anxious; anxious to know a little more. i felt like a blackmailer all the same when i made my attempt with a light-hearted remark. "and so you gave up that walk you proposed to take?" "yes, i gave up the walk," she said slowly before raising her downcast eyes. when she did so it was with an extraordinary effect. it was like catching sight of a piece of blue sky, of a stretch of open water. and for a moment i understood the desire of that man to whom the sea and sky of his solitary life had appeared suddenly incomplete without that glance which seemed to belong to them both. he was not for nothing the son of a poet. i looked into those unabashed eyes while the girl went on, her demure appearance and precise tone changed to a very earnest expression. woman is various indeed. "but i want you to understand, mr. . . . " she had actually to think of my name . . . "mr. marlow, that i have written to mrs. fyne that i haven't been--that i have done nothing to make captain anthony behave to me as he had behaved. i haven't. i haven't. it isn't my doing. it isn't my fault--if she likes to put it in that way. but she, with her ideas, ought to understand that i couldn't, that i couldn't . . . i know she hates me now. i think she never liked me. i think nobody ever cared for me. i was told once nobody could care for me; and i think it is true. at any rate i can't forget it." her abominable experience with the governess had implanted in her unlucky breast a lasting doubt, an ineradicable suspicion of herself and of others. i said: "remember, miss de barral, that to be fair you must trust a man altogether--or not at all." she dropped her eyes suddenly. i thought i heard a faint sigh. i tried to take a light tone again, and yet it seemed impossible to get off the ground which gave me my standing with her. "mrs. fyne is absurd. she's an excellent woman, but really you could not be expected to throw away your chance of life simply that she might cherish a good opinion of your memory. that would be excessive." "it was not of my life that i was thinking while captain anthony was--was speaking to me," said flora de barral with an effort. i told her that she was wrong then. she ought to have been thinking of her life, and not only of her life but of the life of the man who was speaking to her too. she let me finish, then shook her head impatiently. "i mean--death." "well," i said, "when he stood before you there, outside the cottage, he really stood between you and that. i have it out of your own mouth. you can't deny it." "if you will have it that he saved my life, then he has got it. it was not for me. oh no! it was not for me that i--it was not fear! there!" she finished petulantly: "and you may just as well know it." she hung her head and swung the parasol slightly to and fro. i thought a little. "do you know french, miss de barral?" i asked. she made a sign with her head that she did, but without showing any surprise at the question and without ceasing to swing her parasol. "well then, somehow or other i have the notion that captain anthony is what the french call _un galant homme_. i should like to think he is being treated as he deserves." the form of her lips (i could see them under the brim of her hat) was suddenly altered into a line of seriousness. the parasol stopped swinging. "i have given him what he wanted--that's myself," she said without a tremor and with a striking dignity of tone. impressed by the manner and the directness of the words, i hesitated for a moment what to say. then made up my mind to clear up the point. "and you have got what you wanted? is that it?" the daughter of the egregious financier de barral did not answer at once this question going to the heart of things. then raising her head and gazing wistfully across the street noisy with the endless transit of innumerable bargains, she said with intense gravity: "he has been most generous." i was pleased to hear these words. not that i doubted the infatuation of roderick anthony, but i was pleased to hear something which proved that she was sensible and open to the sentiment of gratitude which in this case was significant. in the face of man's desire a girl is excusable if she thinks herself priceless. i mean a girl of our civilization which has established a dithyrambic phraseology for the expression of love. a man in love will accept any convention exalting the object of his passion and in this indirect way his passion itself. in what way the captain of the ship _ferndale_ gave proofs of lover-like lavishness i could not guess very well. but i was glad she was appreciative. it is lucky that small things please women. and it is not silly of them to be thus pleased. it is in small things that the deepest loyalty, that which they need most, the loyalty of the passing moment, is best expressed. she had remained thoughtful, letting her deep motionless eyes rest on the streaming jumble of traffic. suddenly she said: "and i wanted to ask you . . . i was really glad when i saw you actually here. who would have expected you here, at this spot, before this hotel! i certainly never . . . you see it meant a lot to me. you are the only person who knows . . . who knows for certain . . . " "knows what?" i said, not discovering at first what she had in her mind. then i saw it. "why can't you leave that alone?" i remonstrated, rather annoyed at the invidious position she was forcing on me in a sense. "it's true that i was the only person to see," i added. "but, as it happens, after your mysterious disappearance i told the fynes the story of our meeting." her eyes raised to mine had an expression of dreamy, unfathomable candour, if i dare say so. and if you wonder what i mean i can only say that i have seen the sea wear such an expression on one or two occasions shortly before sunrise on a calm, fresh day. she said as if meditating aloud that she supposed the fynes were not likely to talk about that. she couldn't imagine any connection in which . . . why should they? as her tone had become interrogatory i assented. "to be sure. there's no reason whatever--" thinking to myself that they would be more likely indeed to keep quiet about it. they had other things to talk of. and then remembering little fyne stuck upstairs for an unconscionable time, enough to blurt out everything he ever knew in his life, i reflected that he would assume naturally that captain anthony had nothing to learn from him about flora de barral. it had been up to now my assumption too. i saw my mistake. the sincerest of women will make no unnecessary confidences to a man. and this is as it should be. "no--no!" i said reassuringly. "it's most unlikely. are you much concerned?" "well, you see, when i came down," she said again in that precise demure tone, "when i came down--into the garden captain anthony misunderstood--" "of course he would. men are so conceited," i said. i saw it well enough that he must have thought she had come down to him. what else could he have thought? and then he had been "gentleness itself." a new experience for that poor, delicate, and yet so resisting creature. gentleness in passion! what could have been more seductive to the scared, starved heart of that girl? perhaps had he been violent, she might have told him that what she came down to keep was the tryst of death--not of love. it occurred to me as i looked at her, young, fragile in aspect, and intensely alive in her quietness, that perhaps she did not know herself then what sort of tryst she was coming down to keep. she smiled faintly, almost awkwardly as if she were totally unused to smiling, at my cheap jocularity. then she said with that forced precision, a sort of conscious primness: "i didn't want him to know." i approved heartily. quite right. much better. let him ever remain under his misapprehension which was so much more flattering for him. i tried to keep it in the tone of comedy; but she was, i believe, too simple to understand my intention. she went on, looking down. "oh! you think so? when i saw you i didn't know why you were here. i was glad when you spoke to me because this is exactly what i wanted to ask you for. i wanted to ask you if you ever meet captain anthony--by any chance--anywhere--you are a sailor too, are you not?--that you would never mention--never--that--that you had seen me over there." "my dear young lady," i cried, horror-struck at the supposition. "why should i? what makes you think i should dream of . . . " she had raised her head at my vehemence. she did not understand it. the world had treated her so dishonourably that she had no notion even of what mere decency of feeling is like. it was not her fault. indeed, i don't know why she should have put her trust in anybody's promises. but i thought it would be better to promise. so i assured her that she could depend on my absolute silence. "i am not likely to ever set eyes on captain anthony," i added with conviction--as a further guarantee. she accepted my assurance in silence, without a sign. her gravity had in it something acute, perhaps because of that chin. while we were still looking at each other she declared: "there's no deception in it really. i want you to believe that if i am here, like this, to-day, it is not from fear. it is not!" "i quite understand," i said. but her firm yet self-conscious gaze became doubtful. "i do," i insisted. "i understand perfectly that it was not of death that you were afraid." she lowered her eyes slowly, and i went on: "as to life, that's another thing. and i don't know that one ought to blame you very much--though it seemed rather an excessive step. i wonder now if it isn't the ugliness rather than the pain of the struggle which . . . " she shuddered visibly: "but i do blame myself," she exclaimed with feeling. "i am ashamed." and, dropping her head, she looked in a moment the very picture of remorse and shame. "well, you will be going away from all its horrors," i said. "and surely you are not afraid of the sea. you are a sailor's granddaughter, i understand." she sighed deeply. she remembered her grandfather only a little. he was a clean-shaven man with a ruddy complexion and long, perfectly white hair. he used to take her on his knee, and putting his face near hers, talk to her in loving whispers. if only he were alive now . . . ! she remained silent for a while. "aren't you anxious to see the ship?" i asked. she lowered her head still more so that i could not see anything of her face. "i don't know," she murmured. i had already the suspicion that she did not know her own feelings. all this work of the merest chance had been so unexpected, so sudden. and she had nothing to fall back upon, no experience but such as to shake her belief in every human being. she was dreadfully and pitifully forlorn. it was almost in order to comfort my own depression that i remarked cheerfully: "well, i know of somebody who must be growing extremely anxious to see you." "i am before my time," she confessed simply, rousing herself. "i had nothing to do. so i came out." i had the sudden vision of a shabby, lonely little room at the other end of the town. it had grown intolerable to her restlessness. the mere thought of it oppressed her. flora de barral was looking frankly at her chance confidant, "and i came this way," she went on. "i appointed the time myself yesterday, but captain anthony would not have minded. he told me he was going to look over some business papers till i came." the idea of the son of the poet, the rescuer of the most forlorn damsel of modern times, the man of violence, gentleness and generosity, sitting up to his neck in ship's accounts amused me. "i am sure he would not have minded," i said, smiling. but the girl's stare was sombre, her thin white face seemed pathetically careworn. "i can hardly believe yet," she murmured anxiously. "it's quite real. never fear," i said encouragingly, but had to change my tone at once. "you had better go down that way a little," i directed her abruptly. * * * * * i had seen fyne come striding out of the hotel door. the intelligent girl, without staying to ask questions, walked away from me quietly down one street while i hurried on to meet fyne coming up the other at his efficient pedestrian gait. my object was to stop him getting as far as the corner. he must have been thinking too hard to be aware of his surroundings. i put myself in his way, and he nearly walked into me. "hallo!" i said. his surprise was extreme. "you here! you don't mean to say you have been waiting for me?" i said negligently that i had been detained by unexpected business in the neighbourhood, and thus happened to catch sight of him coming out. he stared at me with solemn distraction, obviously thinking of something else. i suggested that he had better take the next city-ward tramcar. he was inattentive, and i perceived that he was profoundly perturbed. as miss de barral (she had moved out of sight) could not possibly approach the hotel door as long as we remained where we were i proposed that we should wait for the car on the other side of the street. he obeyed rather the slight touch on his arm than my words, and while we were crossing the wide roadway in the midst of the lumbering wheeled traffic, he exclaimed in his deep tone, "i don't know which of these two is more mad than the other!" "really!" i said, pulling him forward from under the noses of two enormous sleepy-headed cart-horses. he skipped wildly out of the way and up on the curbstone with a purely instinctive precision; his mind had nothing to do with his movements. in the middle of his leap, and while in the act of sailing gravely through the air, he continued to relieve his outraged feelings. "you would never believe! they _are_ mad!" i took care to place myself in such a position that to face me he had to turn his back on the hotel across the road. i believe he was glad i was there to talk to. but i thought there was some misapprehension in the first statement he shot out at me without loss of time, that captain anthony had been glad to see him. it was indeed difficult to believe that, directly he opened the door, his wife's "sailor-brother" had positively shouted: "oh, it's you! the very man i wanted to see." "i found him sitting there," went on fyne impressively in his effortless, grave chest voice, "drafting his will." this was unexpected, but i preserved a noncommittal attitude, knowing full well that our actions in themselves are neither mad nor sane. but i did not see what there was to be excited about. and fyne was distinctly excited. i understood it better when i learned that the captain of the _ferndale_ wanted little fyne to be one of the trustees. he was leaving everything to his wife. naturally, a request which involved him into sanctioning in a way a proceeding which he had been sent by his wife to oppose, must have appeared sufficiently mad to fyne. "me! me, of all people in the world!" he repeated portentously. but i could see that he was frightened. such want of tact! "he knew i came from his sister. you don't put a man into such an awkward position," complained fyne. "it made me speak much more strongly against all this very painful business than i would have had the heart to do otherwise." i pointed out to him concisely, and keeping my eyes on the door of the hotel, that he and his wife were the only bond with the land captain anthony had. who else could he have asked? "i explained to him that he was breaking this bond," declared fyne solemnly. "breaking it once for all. and for what--for what?" he glared at me. i could perhaps have given him an inkling for what, but i said nothing. he started again: "my wife assures me that the girl does not love him a bit. she goes by that letter she received from her. there is a passage in it where she practically admits that she was quite unscrupulous in accepting this offer of marriage, but says to my wife that she supposes she, my wife, will not blame her--as it was in self-defence. my wife has her own ideas, but this is an outrageous misapprehension of her views. outrageous." the good little man paused and then added weightily: "i didn't tell that to my brother-in-law--i mean, my wife's views." "no," i said. "what would have been the good?" "it's positive infatuation," agreed little fyne, in the tone as though he had made an awful discovery. "i have never seen anything so hopeless and inexplicable in my life. i--i felt quite frightened and sorry," he added, while i looked at him curiously asking myself whether this excellent civil servant and notable pedestrian had felt the breath of a great and fatal love-spell passing him by in the room of that east-end hotel. he did look for a moment as though he had seen a ghost, an otherworld thing. but that look vanished instantaneously, and he nodded at me with mere exasperation at something quite of this world--whatever it was. "it's a bad business. my brother-in-law knows nothing of women," he cried with an air of profound, experienced wisdom. what he imagined he knew of women himself i can't tell. i did not know anything of the opportunities he might have had. but this is a subject which, if approached with undue solemnity, is apt to elude one's grasp entirely. no doubt fyne knew something of a woman who was captain anthony's sister. but that, admittedly, had been a very solemn study. i smiled at him gently, and as if encouraged or provoked, he completed his thought rather explosively. "and that girl understands nothing . . . it's sheer lunacy." "i don't know," i said, "whether the circumstances of isolation at sea would be any alleviation to the danger. but it's certain that they shall have the opportunity to learn everything about each other in a lonely _tete-a-tete_." "but dash it all," he cried in hollow accents which at the same time had the tone of bitter irony--i had never before heard a sound so quaintly ugly and almost horrible--"you forget mr. smith." "what mr. smith?" i asked innocently. fyne made an extraordinary simiesque grimace. i believe it was quite involuntary, but you know that a grave, much-lined, shaven countenance when distorted in an unusual way is extremely apelike. it was a surprising sight, and rendered me not only speechless but stopped the progress of my thought completely. i must have presented a remarkably imbecile appearance. "my brother-in-law considered it amusing to chaff me about us introducing the girl as miss smith," said fyne, going surly in a moment. "he said that perhaps if he had heard her real name from the first it might have restrained him. as it was, he made the discovery too late. asked me to tell zoe this together with a lot more nonsense." fyne gave me the impression of having escaped from a man inspired by a grimly playful ebullition of high spirits. it must have been most distasteful to him; and his solemnity got damaged somehow in the process, i perceived. there were holes in it through which i could see a new, an unknown fyne. "you wouldn't believe it," he went on, "but she looks upon her father exclusively as a victim. i don't know," he burst out suddenly through an enormous rent in his solemnity, "if she thinks him absolutely a saint, but she certainly imagines him to be a martyr." it is one of the advantages of that magnificent invention, the prison, that you may forget people which are put there as though they were dead. one needn't worry about them. nothing can happen to them that you can help. they can do nothing which might possibly matter to anybody. they come out of it, though, but that seems hardly an advantage to themselves or anyone else. i had completely forgotten the financier de barral. the girl for me was an orphan, but now i perceived suddenly the force of fyne's qualifying statement, "to a certain extent." it would have been infinitely more kind all round for the law to have shot, beheaded, strangled, or otherwise destroyed this absurd de barral, who was a danger to a moral world inhabited by a credulous multitude not fit to take care of itself. but i observed to fyne that, however insane was the view she held, one could not declare the girl mad on that account. "so she thinks of her father--does she? i suppose she would appear to us saner if she thought only of herself." "i am positive," fyne said earnestly, "that she went and made desperate eyes at anthony . . . " "oh come!" i interrupted. "you haven't seen her make eyes. you don't know the colour of her eyes." "very well! it don't matter. but it could hardly have come to that if she hadn't . . . it's all one, though. i tell you she has led him on, or accepted him, if you like, simply because she was thinking of her father. she doesn't care a bit about anthony, i believe. she cares for no one. never cared for anyone. ask zoe. for myself i don't blame her," added fyne, giving me another view of unsuspected things through the rags and tatters of his damaged solemnity. "no! by heavens, i don't blame her--the poor devil." i agreed with him silently. i suppose affections are, in a sense, to be learned. if there exists a native spark of love in all of us, it must be fanned while we are young. hers, if she ever had it, had been drenched in as ugly a lot of corrosive liquid as could be imagined. but i was surprised at fyne obscurely feeling this. "she loves no one except that preposterous advertising shark," he pursued venomously, but in a more deliberate manner. "and anthony knows it." "does he?" i said doubtfully. "she's quite capable of having told him herself," affirmed fyne, with amazing insight. "but whether or no, _i've_ told him." "you did? from mrs. fyne, of course." fyne only blinked owlishly at this piece of my insight. "and how did captain anthony receive this interesting information?" i asked further. "most improperly," said fyne, who really was in a state in which he didn't mind what he blurted out. "he isn't himself. he begged me to tell his sister that he offered no remarks on her conduct. very improper and inconsequent. he said . . . i was tired of this wrangling. i told him i made allowances for the state of excitement he was in." "you know, fyne," i said, "a man in jail seems to me such an incredible, cruel, nightmarish sort of thing that i can hardly believe in his existence. certainly not in relation to any other existences." "but dash it all," cried fyne, "he isn't shut up for life. they are going to let him out. he's coming out! that's the whole trouble. what is he coming out to, i want to know? it seems a more cruel business than the shutting him up was. this has been the worry for weeks. do you see now?" i saw, all sorts of things! immediately before me i saw the excitement of little fyne--mere food for wonder. further off, in a sort of gloom and beyond the light of day and the movement of the street, i saw the figure of a man, stiff like a ramrod, moving with small steps, a slight girlish figure by his side. and the gloom was like the gloom of villainous slums, of misery, of wretchedness, of a starved and degraded existence. it was a relief that i could see only their shabby hopeless backs. he was an awful ghost. but indeed to call him a ghost was only a refinement of polite speech, and a manner of concealing one's terror of such things. prisons are wonderful contrivances. shut--open. very neat. shut--open. and out comes some sort of corpse, to wander awfully in a world in which it has no possible connections and carrying with it the appalling tainted atmosphere of its silent abode. marvellous arrangement. it works automatically, and, when you look at it, the perfection makes you sick; which for a mere mechanism is no mean triumph. sick and scared. it had nearly scared that poor girl to her death. fancy having to take such a thing by the hand! now i understood the remorseful strain i had detected in her speeches. "by jove!" i said. "they are about to let him out! i never thought of that." fyne was contemptuous either of me or of things at large. "you didn't suppose he was to be kept in jail for life?" at that moment i caught sight of flora de barral at the junction of the two streets. then some vehicles following each other in quick succession hid from my sight the black slight figure with just a touch of colour in her hat. she was walking slowly; and it might have been caution or reluctance. while listening to fyne i stared hard past his shoulder trying to catch sight of her again. he was going on with positive heat, the rags of his solemnity dropping off him at every second sentence. that was just it. his wife and he had been perfectly aware of it. of course the girl never talked of her father with mrs. fyne. i suppose with her theory of innocence she found it difficult. but she must have been thinking of it day and night. what to do with him? where to go? how to keep body and soul together? he had never made any friends. the only relations were the atrocious east-end cousins. we know what they were. nothing but wretchedness, whichever way she turned in an unjust and prejudiced world. and to look at him helplessly she felt would be too much for her. i won't say i was thinking these thoughts. it was not necessary. this complete knowledge was in my head while i stared hard across the wide road, so hard that i failed to hear little fyne till he raised his deep voice indignantly. "i don't blame the girl," he was saying. "he is infatuated with her. anybody can see that. why she should have got such a hold on him i can't understand. she said "yes" to him only for the sake of that fatuous, swindling father of hers. it's perfectly plain if one thinks it over a moment. one needn't even think of it. we have it under her own hand. in that letter to my wife she says she has acted unscrupulously. she has owned up, then, for what else can it mean, i should like to know. and so they are to be married before that old idiot comes out . . . he will be surprised," commented fyne suddenly in a strangely malignant tone. "he shall be met at the jail door by a mrs. anthony, a mrs. captain anthony. very pleasant for zoe. and for all i know, my brother-in-law means to turn up dutifully too. a little family event. it's extremely pleasant to think of. delightful. a charming family party. we three against the world--and all that sort of thing. and what for. for a girl that doesn't care twopence for him." the demon of bitterness had entered into little fyne. he amazed me as though he had changed his skin from white to black. it was quite as wonderful. and he kept it up, too. "luckily there are some advantages in the--the profession of a sailor. as long as they defy the world away at sea somewhere eighteen thousand miles from here, i don't mind so much. i wonder what that interesting old party will say. he will have another surprise. they mean to drag him along with them on board the ship straight away. rescue work. just think of roderick anthony, the son of a gentleman, after all . . . " he gave me a little shock. i thought he was going to say the "son of the poet" as usual; but his mind was not running on such vanities now. his unspoken thought must have gone on "and uncle of my girls." i suspect that he had been roughly handled by captain anthony up there, and the resentment gave a tremendous fillip to the slow play of his wits. those men of sober fancy, when anything rouses their imaginative faculty, are very thorough. "just think!" he cried. "the three of them crowded into a four-wheeler, and anthony sitting deferentially opposite that astonished old jail-bird!" the good little man laughed. an improper sound it was to come from his manly chest; and what made it worse was the thought that for the least thing, by a mere hair's breadth, he might have taken this affair sentimentally. but clearly anthony was no diplomatist. his brother-inlaw must have appeared to him, to use the language of shore people, a perfect philistine with a heart like a flint. what fyne precisely meant by "wrangling" i don't know, but i had no doubt that these two had "wrangled" to a profoundly disturbing extent. how much the other was affected i could not even imagine; but the man before me was quite amazingly upset. "in a four-wheeler! take him on board!" i muttered, startled by the change in fyne. "that's the plan--nothing less. if i am to believe what i have been told, his feet will scarcely touch the ground between the prison-gates and the deck of that ship." the transformed fyne spoke in a forcibly lowered tone which i heard without difficulty. the rumbling, composite noises of the street were hushed for a moment, during one of these sudden breaks in the traffic as if the stream of commerce had dried up at its source. having an unobstructed view past fyne's shoulder, i was astonished to see that the girl was still there. i thought she had gone up long before. but there was her black slender figure, her white face under the roses of her hat. she stood on the edge of the pavement as people stand on the bank of a stream, very still, as if waiting--or as if unconscious of where she was. the three dismal, sodden loafers (i could see them too; they hadn't budged an inch) seemed to me to be watching her. which was horrible. meantime fyne was telling me rather remarkable things--for him. he declared first it was a mercy in a sense. then he asked me if it were not real madness, to saddle one's existence with such a perpetual reminder. the daily existence. the isolated sea-bound existence. to bring such an additional strain into the solitude already trying enough for two people was the craziest thing. undesirable relations were bad enough on shore. one could cut them or at least forget their existence now and then. he himself was preparing to forget his brother-in-law's existence as much as possible. that was the general sense of his remarks, not his exact words. i thought that his wife's brother's existence had never been very embarrassing to him but that now of course he would have to abstain from his allusions to the "son of the poet--you know." i said "yes, yes" in the pauses because i did not want him to turn round; and all the time i was watching the girl intently. i thought i knew now what she meant with her--"he was most generous." yes. generosity of character may carry a man through any situation. but why didn't she go then to her generous man? why stand there as if clinging to this solid earth which she surely hated as one must hate the place where one has been tormented, hopeless, unhappy? suddenly she stirred. was she going to cross over? no. she turned and began to walk slowly close to the curbstone, reminding me of the time when i discovered her walking near the edge of a ninety-foot sheer drop. it was the same impression, the same carriage, straight, slim, with rigid head and the two hands hanging lightly clasped in front--only now a small sunshade was dangling from them. i saw something fateful in that deliberate pacing towards the inconspicuous door with the words _hotel entrance_ on the glass panels. she was abreast of it now and i thought that she would stop again; but no! she swerved rigidly--at the moment there was no one near her; she had that bit of pavement to herself--with inanimate slowness as if moved by something outside herself. "a confounded convict," fyne burst out. with the sound of that word offending my ears i saw the girl extend her arm, push the door open a little way and glide in. i saw plainly that movement, the hand put out in advance with the gesture of a sleep-walker. she had vanished, her black figure had melted in the darkness of the open door. for some time fyne said nothing; and i thought of the girl going upstairs, appearing before the man. were they looking at each other in silence and feeling they were alone in the world as lovers should at the moment of meeting? but that fine forgetfulness was surely impossible to anthony the seaman directly after the wrangling interview with fyne the emissary of an order of things which stops at the edge of the sea. how much he was disturbed i couldn't tell because i did not know what that impetuous lover had had to listen to. "going to take the old fellow to sea with them," i said. "well i really don't see what else they could have done with him. you told your brotherin-law what you thought of it? i wonder how he took it." "very improperly," repeated fyne. "his manner was offensive, derisive, from the first. i don't mean he was actually rude in words. hang it all, i am not a contemptible ass. but he was exulting at having got hold of a miserable girl." "it is pretty certain that she will be much less poor and miserable," i murmured. it looked as if the exultation of captain anthony had got on fyne's nerves. "i told the fellow very plainly that he was abominably selfish in this," he affirmed unexpectedly. "you did! selfish!" i said rather taken aback. "but what if the girl thought that, on the contrary, he was most generous." "what do you know about it," growled fyne. the rents and slashes of his solemnity were closing up gradually but it was going to be a surly solemnity. "generosity! i am disposed to give it another name. no. not folly," he shot out at me as though i had meant to interrupt him. "still another. something worse. i need not tell you what it is," he added with grim meaning. "certainly. you needn't--unless you like," i said blankly. little fyne had never interested me so much since the beginning of the de barral-anthony affair when i first perceived possibilities in him. the possibilities of dull men are exciting because when they happen they suggest legendary cases of "possession," not exactly by the devil but, anyhow, by a strange spirit. "i told him it was a shame," said fyne. "even if the girl did make eyes at him--but i think with you that she did not. yes! a shame to take advantage of a girl's--a distresses girl that does not love him in the least." "you think it's so bad as that?" i said. "because you know i don't." "what can you think about it," he retorted on me with a solemn stare. "i go by her letter to my wife." "ah! that famous letter. but you haven't actually read it," i said. "no, but my wife told me. of course it was a most improper sort of letter to write considering the circumstances. it pained mrs. fyne to discover how thoroughly she had been misunderstood. but what is written is not all. it's what my wife could read between the lines. she says that the girl is really terrified at heart." "she had not much in life to give her any very special courage for it, or any great confidence in mankind. that's very true. but this seems an exaggeration." "i should like to know what reasons you have to say that," asked fyne with offended solemnity. "i really don't see any. but i had sufficient authority to tell my brother-in-law that if he thought he was going to do something chivalrous and fine he was mistaken. i can see very well that he will do everything she asks him to do--but, all the same, it is rather a pitiless transaction." for a moment i felt it might be so. fyne caught sight of an approaching tram-car and stepped out on the road to meet it. "have you a more compassionate scheme ready?" i called after him. he made no answer, clambered on to the rear platform, and only then looked back. we exchanged a perfunctory wave of the hand. we also looked at each other, he rather angrily, i fancy, and i with wonder. i may also mention that it was for the last time. from that day i never set eyes on the fynes. as usual the unexpected happened to me. it had nothing to do with flora de barral. the fact is that i went away. my call was not like her call. mine was not urged on me with passionate vehemence or tender gentleness made all the finer and more compelling by the allurements of generosity which is a virtue as mysterious as any other but having a glamour of its own. no, it was just a prosaic offer of employment on rather good terms which, with a sudden sense of having wasted my time on shore long enough, i accepted without misgivings. and once started out of my indolence i went, as my habit was, very, very far away and for a long, long time. which is another proof of my indolence. how far flora went i can't say. but i will tell you my idea: my idea is that she went as far as she was able--as far as she could bear it--as far as she had to . . . " part ii--the knight chapter one--the ferndale i have said that the story of flora de barral was imparted to me in stages. at this stage i did not see marlow for some time. at last, one evening rather early, very soon after dinner, he turned up in my rooms. i had been waiting for his call primed with a remark which had not occurred to me till after he had gone away. "i say," i tackled him at once, "how can you be certain that flora de barral ever went to sea? after all, the wife of the captain of the _ferndale_--" the lady that mustn't be disturbed "of the old ship-keeper--may not have been flora." "well, i do know," he said, "if only because i have been keeping in touch with mr. powell." "you have!" i cried. "this is the first i hear of it. and since when?" "why, since the first day. you went up to town leaving me in the inn. i slept ashore. in the morning mr. powell came in for breakfast; and after the first awkwardness of meeting a man you have been yarning with overnight had worn off, we discovered a liking for each other." as i had discovered the fact of their mutual liking before either of them, i was not surprised. "and so you kept in touch," i said. "it was not so very difficult. as he was always knocking about the river i hired dingle's sloop-rigged three-tonner to be more on an equality. powell was friendly but elusive. i don't think he ever wanted to avoid me. but it is a fact that he used to disappear out of the river in a very mysterious manner sometimes. a man may land anywhere and bolt inland--but what about his five-ton cutter? you can't carry that in your hand like a suit-case. "then as suddenly he would reappear in the river, after one had given him up. i did not like to be beaten. that's why i hired dingle's decked boat. there was just the accommodation in her to sleep a man and a dog. but i had no dog-friend to invite. fyne's dog who saved flora de barral's life is the last dog-friend i had. i was rather lonely cruising about; but that, too, on the river has its charm, sometimes. i chased the mystery of the vanishing powell dreamily, looking about me at the ships, thinking of the girl flora, of life's chances--and, do you know, it was very simple." "what was very simple?" i asked innocently. "the mystery." "they generally are that," i said. marlow eyed me for a moment in a peculiar manner. "well, i have discovered the mystery of powell's disappearances. the fellow used to run into one of these narrow tidal creeks on the essex shore. these creeks are so inconspicuous that till i had studied the chart pretty carefully i did not know of their existence. one afternoon, i made powell's boat out, heading into the shore. by the time i got close to the mud-flat his craft had disappeared inland. but i could see the mouth of the creek by then. the tide being on the turn i took the risk of getting stuck in the mud suddenly and headed in. all i had to guide me was the top of the roof of some sort of small building. i got in more by good luck than by good management. the sun had set some time before; my boat glided in a sort of winding ditch between two low grassy banks; on both sides of me was the flatness of the essex marsh, perfectly still. all i saw moving was a heron; he was flying low, and disappeared in the murk. before i had gone half a mile, i was up with the building the roof of which i had seen from the river. it looked like a small barn. a row of piles driven into the soft bank in front of it and supporting a few planks made a sort of wharf. all this was black in the falling dusk, and i could just distinguish the whitish ruts of a carttrack stretching over the marsh towards the higher land, far away. not a sound was to be heard. against the low streak of light in the sky i could see the mast of powell's cutter moored to the bank some twenty yards, no more, beyond that black barn or whatever it was. i hailed him with a loud shout. got no answer. after making fast my boat just astern, i walked along the bank to have a look at powell's. being so much bigger than mine she was aground already. her sails were furled; the slide of her scuttle hatch was closed and padlocked. powell was gone. he had walked off into that dark, still marsh somewhere. i had not seen a single house anywhere near; there did not seem to be any human habitation for miles; and now as darkness fell denser over the land i couldn't see the glimmer of a single light. however, i supposed that there must be some village or hamlet not very far away; or only one of these mysterious little inns one comes upon sometimes in most unexpected and lonely places. "the stillness was oppressive. i went back to my boat, made some coffee over a spirit-lamp, devoured a few biscuits, and stretched myself aft, to smoke and gaze at the stars. the earth was a mere shadow, formless and silent, and empty, till a bullock turned up from somewhere, quite shadowy too. he came smartly to the very edge of the bank as though he meant to step on board, stretched his muzzle right over my boat, blew heavily once, and walked off contemptuously into the darkness from which he had come. i had not expected a call from a bullock, though a moment's thought would have shown me that there must be lots of cattle and sheep on that marsh. then everything became still as before. i might have imagined myself arrived on a desert island. in fact, as i reclined smoking a sense of absolute loneliness grew on me. and just as it had become intense, very abruptly and without any preliminary sound i heard firm, quick footsteps on the little wharf. somebody coming along the cart-track had just stepped at a swinging gait on to the planks. that somebody could only have been mr. powell. suddenly he stopped short, having made out that there were two masts alongside the bank where he had left only one. then he came on silent on the grass. when i spoke to him he was astonished. "who would have thought of seeing you here!" he exclaimed, after returning my good evening. "i told him i had run in for company. it was rigorously true." "you knew i was here?" he exclaimed. "of course," i said. "i tell you i came in for company." "he is a really good fellow," went on marlow. "and his capacity for astonishment is quickly exhausted, it seems. it was in the most matterof-fact manner that he said, 'come on board of me, then; i have here enough supper for two.' he was holding a bulky parcel in the crook of his arm. i did not wait to be asked twice, as you may guess. his cutter has a very neat little cabin, quite big enough for two men not only to sleep but to sit and smoke in. we left the scuttle wide open, of course. as to his provisions for supper, they were not of a luxurious kind. he complained that the shops in the village were miserable. there was a big village within a mile and a half. it struck me he had been very long doing his shopping; but naturally i made no remark. i didn't want to talk at all except for the purpose of setting him going." "and did you set him going?" i asked. "i did," said marlow, composing his features into an impenetrable expression which somehow assured me of his success better than an air of triumph could have done. * * * * * "you made him talk?" i said after a silence. "yes, i made him . . . about himself." "and to the point?" "if you mean by this," said marlow, "that it was about the voyage of the _ferndale_, then again, yes. i brought him to talk about that voyage, which, by the by, was not the first voyage of flora de barral. the man himself, as i told you, is simple, and his faculty of wonder not very great. he's one of those people who form no theories about facts. straightforward people seldom do. neither have they much penetration. but in this case it did not matter. i--we--have already the inner knowledge. we know the history of flora de barral. we know something of captain anthony. we have the secret of the situation. the man was intoxicated with the pity and tenderness of his part. oh yes! intoxicated is not too strong a word; for you know that love and desire take many disguises. i believe that the girl had been frank with him, with the frankness of women to whom perfect frankness is impossible, because so much of their safety depends on judicious reticences. i am not indulging in cheap sneers. there is necessity in these things. and moreover she could not have spoken with a certain voice in the face of his impetuosity, because she did not have time to understand either the state of her feelings, or the precise nature of what she was doing. had she spoken ever so clearly he was, i take it, too elated to hear her distinctly. i don't mean to imply that he was a fool. oh dear no! but he had no training in the usual conventions, and we must remember that he had no experience whatever of women. he could only have an ideal conception of his position. an ideal is often but a flaming vision of reality. to him enters fyne, wound up, if i may express myself so irreverently, wound up to a high pitch by his wife's interpretation of the girl's letter. he enters with his talk of meanness and cruelty, like a bucket of water on the flame. clearly a shock. but the effects of a bucket of water are diverse. they depend on the kind of flame. a mere blaze of dry straw, of course . . . but there can be no question of straw there. anthony of the _ferndale_ was not, could not have been, a straw-stuffed specimen of a man. there are flames a bucket of water sends leaping skyhigh. we may well wonder what happened when, after fyne had left him, the hesitating girl went up at last and opened the door of that room where our man, i am certain, was not extinguished. oh no! nor cold; whatever else he might have been. it is conceivable he might have cried at her in the first moment of humiliation, of exasperation, "oh, it's you! why are you here? if i am so odious to you that you must write to my sister to say so, i give you back your word." but then, don't you see, it could not have been that. i have the practical certitude that soon afterwards they went together in a hansom to see the ship--as agreed. that was my reason for saying that flora de barral did go to sea . . . " "yes. it seems conclusive," i agreed. "but even without that--if, as you seem to think, the very desolation of that girlish figure had a sort of perversely seductive charm, making its way through his compassion to his senses (and everything is possible)--then such words could not have been spoken." "they might have escaped him involuntarily," observed marlow. "however, a plain fact settles it. they went off together to see the ship." "do you conclude from this that nothing whatever was said?" i inquired. "i should have liked to see the first meeting of their glances upstairs there," mused marlow. "and perhaps nothing was said. but no man comes out of such a 'wrangle' (as fyne called it) without showing some traces of it. and you may be sure that a girl so bruised all over would feel the slightest touch of anything resembling coldness. she was mistrustful; she could not be otherwise; for the energy of evil is so much more forcible than the energy of good that she could not help looking still upon her abominable governess as an authority. how could one have expected her to throw off the unholy prestige of that long domination? she could not help believing what she had been told; that she was in some mysterious way odious and unlovable. it was cruelly true--_to her_. the oracle of so many years had spoken finally. only other people did not find her out at once . . . i would not go so far as to say she believed it altogether. that would be hardly possible. but then haven't the most flattered, the most conceited of us their moments of doubt? haven't they? well, i don't know. there may be lucky beings in this world unable to believe any evil of themselves. for my own part i'll tell you that once, many years ago now, it came to my knowledge that a fellow i had been mixed up with in a certain transaction--a clever fellow whom i really despised--was going around telling people that i was a consummate hypocrite. he could know nothing of it. it suited his humour to say so. i had given him no ground for that particular calumny. yet to this day there are moments when it comes into my mind, and involuntarily i ask myself, 'what if it were true?' it's absurd, but it has on one or two occasions nearly affected my conduct. and yet i was not an impressionable ignorant young girl. i had taken the exact measure of the fellow's utter worthlessness long before. he had never been for me a person of prestige and power, like that awful governess to flora de barral. see the might of suggestion? we live at the mercy of a malevolent word. a sound, a mere disturbance of the air, sinks into our very soul sometimes. flora de barral had been more astounded than convinced by the first impetuosity of roderick anthony. she let herself be carried along by a mysterious force which her person had called into being, as her father had been carried away out of his depth by the unexpected power of successful advertising. they went on board that morning. the _ferndale_ had just come to her loading berth. the only living creature on board was the ship-keeper--whether the same who had been described to us by mr. powell, or another, i don't know. possibly some other man. he, looking over the side, saw, in his own words, 'the captain come sailing round the corner of the nearest cargo-shed, in company with a girl.' he lowered the accommodation ladder down on to the jetty . . . " "how do you know all this?" i interrupted. marlow interjected an impatient: "you shall see by and by . . . flora went up first, got down on deck and stood stock-still till the captain took her by the arm and led her aft. the ship-keeper let them into the saloon. he had the keys of all the cabins, and stumped in after them. the captain ordered him to open all the doors, every blessed door; state-rooms, passages, pantry, fore-cabin--and then sent him away. "the _ferndale_ had magnificent accommodation. at the end of a passage leading from the quarter-deck there was a long saloon, its sumptuosity slightly tarnished perhaps, but having a grand air of roominess and comfort. the harbour carpets were down, the swinging lamps hung, and everything in its place, even to the silver on the sideboard. two large stern cabins opened out of it, one on each side of the rudder casing. these two cabins communicated through a small bathroom between them, and one was fitted up as the captain's state-room. the other was vacant, and furnished with arm-chairs and a round table, more like a room on shore, except for the long curved settee following the shape of the ship's stern. in a dim inclined mirror, flora caught sight down to the waist of a pale-faced girl in a white straw hat trimmed with roses, distant, shadowy, as if immersed in water, and was surprised to recognize herself in those surroundings. they seemed to her arbitrary, bizarre, strange. captain anthony moved on, and she followed him. he showed her the other cabins. he talked all the time loudly in a voice she seemed to have known extremely well for a long time; and yet, she reflected, she had not heard it often in her life. what he was saying she did not quite follow. he was speaking of comparatively indifferent things in a rather moody tone, but she felt it round her like a caress. and when he stopped she could hear, alarming in the sudden silence, the precipitated beating of her heart. the ship-keeper dodged about the quarter-deck, out of hearing, and trying to keep out of sight. at the same time, taking advantage of the open doors with skill and prudence, he could see the captain and "that girl" the captain had brought aboard. the captain was showing her round very thoroughly. through the whole length of the passage, far away aft in the perspective of the saloon the ship-keeper had interesting glimpses of them as they went in and out of the various cabins, crossing from side to side, remaining invisible for a time in one or another of the state-rooms, and then reappearing again in the distance. the girl, always following the captain, had her sunshade in her hands. mostly she would hang her head, but now and then she would look up. they had a lot to say to each other, and seemed to forget they weren't alone in the ship. he saw the captain put his hand on her shoulder, and was preparing himself with a certain zest for what might follow, when the "old man" seemed to recollect himself, and came striding down all the length of the saloon. at this move the ship-keeper promptly dodged out of sight, as you may believe, and heard the captain slam the inner door of the passage. after that disappointment the ship-keeper waited resentfully for them to clear out of the ship. it happened much sooner than he had expected. the girl walked out on deck first. as before she did not look round. she didn't look at anything; and she seemed to be in such a hurry to get ashore that she made for the gangway and started down the ladder without waiting for the captain. what struck the ship-keeper most was the absent, unseeing expression of the captain, striding after the girl. he passed him, the ship-keeper, without notice, without an order, without so much as a look. the captain had never done so before. always had a nod and a pleasant word for a man. from this slight the ship-keeper drew a conclusion unfavourable to the strange girl. he gave them time to get down on the wharf before crossing the deck to steal one more look at the pair over the rail. the captain took hold of the girl's arm just before a couple of railway trucks drawn by a horse came rolling along and hid them from the shipkeeper's sight for good. next day, when the chief mate joined the ship, he told him the tale of the visit, and expressed himself about the girl "who had got hold of the captain" disparagingly. she didn't look healthy, he explained. "shabby clothes, too," he added spitefully. the mate was very much interested. he had been with anthony for several years, and had won for himself in the course of many long voyages, a footing of familiarity, which was to be expected with a man of anthony's character. but in that slowly-grown intimacy of the sea, which in its duration and solitude had its unguarded moments, no words had passed, even of the most casual, to prepare him for the vision of his captain associated with any kind of girl. his impression had been that women did not exist for captain anthony. exhibiting himself with a girl! a girl! what did he want with a girl? bringing her on board and showing her round the cabin! that was really a little bit too much. captain anthony ought to have known better. franklin (the chief mate's name was franklin) felt disappointed; almost disillusioned. silly thing to do! here was a confounded old ship-keeper set talking. he snubbed the ship-keeper, and tried to think of that insignificant bit of foolishness no more; for it diminished captain anthony in his eyes of a jealously devoted subordinate. franklin was over forty; his mother was still alive. she stood in the forefront of all women for him, just as captain anthony stood in the forefront of all men. we may suppose that these groups were not very large. he had gone to sea at a very early age. the feeling which caused these two people to partly eclipse the rest of mankind were of course not similar; though in time he had acquired the conviction that he was "taking care" of them both. the "old lady" of course had to be looked after as long as she lived. in regard to captain anthony, he used to say that: why should he leave him? it wasn't likely that he would come across a better sailor or a better man or a more comfortable ship. as to trying to better himself in the way of promotion, commands were not the sort of thing one picked up in the streets, and when it came to that, captain anthony was as likely to give him a lift on occasion as anyone in the world. from mr. powell's description franklin was a short, thick black-haired man, bald on the top. his head sunk between the shoulders, his staring prominent eyes and a florid colour, gave him a rather apoplectic appearance. in repose, his congested face had a humorously melancholy expression. the ship-keeper having given him up all the keys and having been chased forward with the admonition to mind his own business and not to chatter about what did not concern him, mr. franklin went under the poop. he opened one door after another; and, in the saloon, in the captain's stateroom and everywhere, he stared anxiously as if expecting to see on the bulkheads, on the deck, in the air, something unusual--sign, mark, emanation, shadow--he hardly knew what--some subtle change wrought by the passage of a girl. but there was nothing. he entered the unoccupied stern cabin and spent some time there unscrewing the two stern ports. in the absence of all material evidences his uneasiness was passing away. with a last glance round he came out and found himself in the presence of his captain advancing from the other end of the saloon. franklin, at once, looked for the girl. she wasn't to be seen. the captain came up quickly. 'oh! you are here, mr. franklin.' and the mate said, 'i was giving a little air to the place, sir.' then the captain, his hat pulled down over his eyes, laid his stick on the table and asked in his kind way: 'how did you find your mother, franklin?'--'the old lady's first-rate, sir, thank you.' and then they had nothing to say to each other. it was a strange and disturbing feeling for franklin. he, just back from leave, the ship just come to her loading berth, the captain just come on board, and apparently nothing to say! the several questions he had been anxious to ask as to various things which had to be done had slipped out of his mind. he, too, felt as though he had nothing to say. the captain, picking up his stick off the table, marched into his stateroom and shut the door after him. franklin remained still for a moment and then started slowly to go on deck. but before he had time to reach the other end of the saloon he heard himself called by name. he turned round. the captain was staring from the doorway of his state-room. franklin said, "yes, sir." but the captain, silent, leaned a little forward grasping the door handle. so he, franklin, walked aft keeping his eyes on him. when he had come up quite close he said again, "yes, sir?" interrogatively. still silence. the mate didn't like to be stared at in that manner, a manner quite new in his captain, with a defiant and self-conscious stare, like a man who feels ill and dares you to notice it. franklin gazed at his captain, felt that there was something wrong, and in his simplicity voiced his feelings by asking point-blank: "what's wrong, sir?" the captain gave a slight start, and the character of his stare changed to a sort of sinister surprise. franklin grew very uncomfortable, but the captain asked negligently: "what makes you think that there's something wrong?" "i can't say exactly. you don't look quite yourself, sir," franklin owned up. "you seem to have a confoundedly piercing eye," said the captain in such an aggressive tone that franklin was moved to defend himself. "we have been together now over six years, sir, so i suppose i know you a bit by this time. i could see there was something wrong directly you came on board." "mr. franklin," said the captain, "we have been more than six years together, it is true, but i didn't know you for a reader of faces. you are not a correct reader though. it's very far from being wrong. you understand? as far from being wrong as it can very well be. it ought to teach you not to make rash surmises. you should leave that to the shore people. they are great hands at spying out something wrong. i dare say they know what they have made of the world. a dam' poor job of it and that's plain. it's a confoundedly ugly place, mr. franklin. you don't know anything of it? well--no, we sailors don't. only now and then one of us runs against something cruel or underhand, enough to make your hair stand on end. and when you do see a piece of their wickedness you find that to set it right is not so easy as it looks . . . oh! i called you back to tell you that there will be a lot of workmen, joiners and all that sent down on board first thing to-morrow morning to start making alterations in the cabin. you will see to it that they don't loaf. there isn't much time." franklin was impressed by this unexpected lecture upon the wickedness of the solid world surrounded by the salt, uncorruptible waters on which he and his captain had dwelt all their lives in happy innocence. what he could not understand was why it should have been delivered, and what connection it could have with such a matter as the alterations to be carried out in the cabin. the work did not seem to him to be called for in such a hurry. what was the use of altering anything? it was a very good accommodation, spacious, well-distributed, on a rather old-fashioned plan, and with its decorations somewhat tarnished. but a dab of varnish, a touch of gilding here and there, was all that was necessary. as to comfort, it could not be improved by any alterations. he resented the notion of change; but he said dutifully that he would keep his eye on the workmen if the captain would only let him know what was the nature of the work he had ordered to be done. "you'll find a note of it on this table. i'll leave it for you as i go ashore," said captain anthony hastily. franklin thought there was no more to hear, and made a movement to leave the saloon. but the captain continued after a slight pause, "you will be surprised, no doubt, when you look at it. there'll be a good many alterations. it's on account of a lady coming with us. i am going to get married, mr. franklin!" chapter two--young powell sees and hears "you remember," went on marlow, "how i feared that mr. powell's want of experience would stand in his way of appreciating the unusual. the unusual i had in my mind was something of a very subtle sort: the unusual in marital relations. i may well have doubted the capacity of a young man too much concerned with the creditable performance of his professional duties to observe what in the nature of things is not easily observable in itself, and still less so under the special circumstances. in the majority of ships a second officer has not many points of contact with the captain's wife. he sits at the same table with her at meals, generally speaking; he may now and then be addressed more or less kindly on insignificant matters, and have the opportunity to show her some small attentions on deck. and that is all. under such conditions, signs can be seen only by a sharp and practised eye. i am alluding now to troubles which are subtle often to the extent of not being understood by the very hearts they devastate or uplift. yes, mr. powell, whom the chance of his name had thrown upon the floating stage of that tragicomedy would have been perfectly useless for my purpose if the unusual of an obvious kind had not aroused his attention from the first. we know how he joined that ship so suddenly offered to his anxious desire to make a real start in his profession. he had come on board breathless with the hurried winding up of his shore affairs, accompanied by two horrible night-birds, escorted by a dock policeman on the make, received by an asthmatic shadow of a ship-keeper, warned not to make a noise in the darkness of the passage because the captain and his wife were already on board. that in itself was already somewhat unusual. captains and their wives do not, as a rule, join a moment sooner than is necessary. they prefer to spend the last moments with their friends and relations. a ship in one of london's older docks with their restrictions as to lights and so on is not the place for a happy evening. still, as the tide served at six in the morning, one could understand them coming on board the evening before. just then young powell felt as if anybody ought to be glad enough to be quit of the shore. we know he was an orphan from a very early age, without brothers or sisters--no near relations of any kind, i believe, except that aunt who had quarrelled with his father. no affection stood in the way of the quiet satisfaction with which he thought that now all the worries were over, that there was nothing before him but duties, that he knew what he would have to do as soon as the dawn broke and for a long succession of days. a most soothing certitude. he enjoyed it in the dark, stretched out in his bunk with his new blankets pulled over him. some clock ashore beyond the dock-gates struck two. and then he heard nothing more, because he went off into a light sleep from which he woke up with a start. he had not taken his clothes off, it was hardly worth while. he jumped up and went on deck. the morning was clear, colourless, grey overhead; the dock like a sheet of darkling glass crowded with upside-down reflections of warehouses, of hulls and masts of silent ships. rare figures moved here and there on the distant quays. a knot of men stood alongside with clothes-bags and wooden chests at their feet. others were coming down the lane between tall, blind walls, surrounding a hand-cart loaded with more bags and boxes. it was the crew of the _ferndale_. they began to come on board. he scanned their faces as they passed forward filling the roomy deck with the shuffle of their footsteps and the murmur of voices, like the awakening to life of a world about to be launched into space. far away down the clear glassy stretch in the middle of the long dock mr. powell watched the tugs coming in quietly through the open gates. a subdued firm voice behind him interrupted this contemplation. it was franklin, the thick chief mate, who was addressing him with a watchful appraising stare of his prominent black eyes: "you'd better take a couple of these chaps with you and look out for her aft. we are going to cast off." "yes, sir," powell said with proper alacrity; but for a moment they remained looking at each other fixedly. something like a faint smile altered the set of the chief mate's lips just before he moved off forward with his brisk step. mr. powell, getting up on the poop, touched his cap to captain anthony, who was there alone. he tells me that it was only then that he saw his captain for the first time. the day before, in the shipping office, what with the bad light and his excitement at this berth obtained as if by a brusque and unscrupulous miracle, did not count. he had then seemed to him much older and heavier. he was surprised at the lithe figure, broad of shoulder, narrow at the hips, the fire of the deep-set eyes, the springiness of the walk. the captain gave him a steady stare, nodded slightly, and went on pacing the poop with an air of not being aware of what was going on, his head rigid, his movements rapid. powell stole several glances at him with a curiosity very natural under the circumstances. he wore a short grey jacket and a grey cap. in the light of the dawn, growing more limpid rather than brighter, powell noticed the slightly sunken cheeks under the trimmed beard, the perpendicular fold on the forehead, something hard and set about the mouth. it was too early yet for the work to have begun in the dock. the water gleamed placidly, no movement anywhere on the long straight lines of the quays, no one about to be seen except the few dock hands busy alongside the _ferndale_, knowing their work, mostly silent or exchanging a few words in low tones as if they, too, had been aware of that lady 'who mustn't be disturbed.' the _ferndale_ was the only ship to leave that tide. the others seemed still asleep, without a sound, and only here and there a figure, coming up on the forecastle, leaned on the rail to watch the proceedings idly. without trouble and fuss and almost without a sound was the _ferndale_ leaving the land, as if stealing away. even the tugs, now with their engines stopped, were approaching her without a ripple, the burly-looking paddle-boat sheering forward, while the other, a screw, smaller and of slender shape, made for her quarter so gently that she did not divide the smooth water, but seemed to glide on its surface as if on a sheet of plate-glass, a man in her bow, the master at the wheel visible only from the waist upwards above the white screen of the bridge, both of them so still-eyed as to fascinate young powell into curious self-forgetfulness and immobility. he was steeped, sunk in the general quietness, remembering the statement 'she's a lady that mustn't be disturbed,' and repeating to himself idly: 'no. she won't be disturbed. she won't be disturbed.' then the first loud words of that morning breaking that strange hush of departure with a sharp hail: 'look out for that line there,' made him start. the line whizzed past his head, one of the sailors aft caught it, and there was an end to the fascination, to the quietness of spirit which had stolen on him at the very moment of departure. from that moment till two hours afterwards, when the ship was brought up in one of the lower reaches of the thames off an apparently uninhabited shore, near some sort of inlet where nothing but two anchored barges flying a red flag could be seen, powell was too busy to think of the lady 'that mustn't be disturbed,' or of his captain--or of anything else unconnected with his immediate duties. in fact, he had no occasion to go on the poop, or even look that way much; but while the ship was about to anchor, casting his eyes in that direction, he received an absurd impression that his captain (he was up there, of course) was sitting on both sides of the aftermost skylight at once. he was too occupied to reflect on this curious delusion, this phenomenon of seeing double as though he had had a drop too much. he only smiled at himself. as often happens after a grey daybreak the sun had risen in a warm and glorious splendour above the smooth immense gleam of the enlarged estuary. wisps of mist floated like trails of luminous dust, and in the dazzling reflections of water and vapour, the shores had the murky semitransparent darkness of shadows cast mysteriously from below. powell, who had sailed out of london all his young seaman's life, told me that it was then, in a moment of entranced vision an hour or so after sunrise, that the river was revealed to him for all time, like a fair face often seen before, which is suddenly perceived to be the expression of an inner and unsuspected beauty, of that something unique and only its own which rouses a passion of wonder and fidelity and an unappeasable memory of its charm. the hull of the _ferndale_, swung head to the eastward, caught the light, her tall spars and rigging steeped in a bath of red-gold, from the water-line full of glitter to the trucks slight and gleaming against the delicate expanse of the blue. "time we had a mouthful to eat," said a voice at his side. it was mr. franklin, the chief mate, with his head sunk between his shoulders, and melancholy eyes. "let the men have their breakfast, bo'sun," he went on, "and have the fire out in the galley in half an hour at the latest, so that we can call these barges of explosives alongside. come along, young man. i don't know your name. haven't seen the captain, to speak to, since yesterday afternoon when he rushed off to pick up a second mate somewhere. how did he get you?" young powell, a little shy notwithstanding the friendly disposition of the other, answered him smilingly, aware somehow that there was something marked in this inquisitiveness, natural, after all--something anxious. his name was powell, and he was put in the way of this berth by mr. powell, the shipping master. he blushed. "ah, i see. well, you have been smart in getting ready. the ship-keeper, before he went away, told me you joined at one o'clock. i didn't sleep on board last night. not i. there was a time when i never cared to leave this ship for more than a couple of hours in the evening, even while in london, but now, since--" he checked himself with a roll of his prominent eyes towards that youngster, that stranger. meantime, he was leading the way across the quarter-deck under the poop into the long passage with the door of the saloon at the far end. it was shut. but mr. franklin did not go so far. after passing the pantry he opened suddenly a door on the left of the passage, to powell's great surprise. "our mess-room," he said, entering a small cabin painted white, bare, lighted from part of the foremost skylight, and furnished only with a table and two settees with movable backs. "that surprises you? well, it isn't usual. and it wasn't so in this ship either, before. it's only since--" he checked himself again. "yes. here we shall feed, you and i, facing each other for the next twelve months or more--god knows how much more! the bo'sun keeps the deck at meal-times in fine weather." he talked not exactly wheezing, but like a man whose breath is somewhat short, and the spirit (young powell could not help thinking) embittered by some mysterious grievance. there was enough of the unusual there to be recognized even by powell's inexperience. the officers kept out of the cabin against the custom of the service, and then this sort of accent in the mate's talk. franklin did not seem to expect conversational ease from the new second mate. he made several remarks about the old, deploring the accident. awkward. very awkward this thing to happen on the very eve of sailing. "collar-bone and arm broken," he sighed. "sad, very sad. did you notice if the captain was at all affected? eh? must have been." before this congested face, these globular eyes turned yearningly upon him, young powell (one must keep in mind he was but a youngster then) who could not remember any signs of visible grief, confessed with an embarrassed laugh that, owing to the suddenness of this lucky chance coming to him, he was not in a condition to notice the state of other people. "i was so pleased to get a ship at last," he murmured, further disconcerted by the sort of pent-up gravity in mr. franklin's aspect. "one man's food another man's poison," the mate remarked. "that holds true beyond mere victuals. i suppose it didn't occur to you that it was a dam' poor way for a good man to be knocked out." mr. powell admitted openly that he had not thought of that. he was ready to admit that it was very reprehensible of him. but franklin had no intention apparently to moralize. he did not fall silent either. his further remarks were to the effect that there had been a time when captain anthony would have showed more than enough concern for the least thing happening to one of his officers. yes, there had been a time! "and mind," he went on, laying down suddenly a half-consumed piece of bread and butter and raising his voice, "poor mathews was the second man the longest on board. i was the first. he joined a month later--about the same time as the steward by a few days. the bo'sun and the carpenter came the voyage after. steady men. still here. no good man need ever have thought of leaving the _ferndale_ unless he were a fool. some good men are fools. don't know when they are well off. i mean the best of good men; men that you would do anything for. they go on for years, then all of a sudden--" our young friend listened to the mate with a queer sense of discomfort growing on him. for it was as though mr. franklin were thinking aloud, and putting him into the delicate position of an unwilling eavesdropper. but there was in the mess-room another listener. it was the steward, who had come in carrying a tin coffee-pot with a long handle, and stood quietly by: a man with a middle-aged, sallow face, long features, heavy eyelids, a soldierly grey moustache. his body encased in a short black jacket with narrow sleeves, his long legs in very tight trousers, made up an agile, youthful, slender figure. he moved forward suddenly, and interrupted the mate's monologue. "more coffee, mr. franklin? nice fresh lot. piping hot. i am going to give breakfast to the saloon directly, and the cook is raking his fire out. now's your chance." the mate who, on account of his peculiar build, could not turn his head freely, twisted his thick trunk slightly, and ran his black eyes in the corners towards the steward. "and is the precious pair of them out?" he growled. the steward, pouring out the coffee into the mate's cup, muttered moodily but distinctly: "the lady wasn't when i was laying the table." powell's ears were fine enough to detect something hostile in this reference to the captain's wife. for of what other person could they be speaking? the steward added with a gloomy sort of fairness: "but she will be before i bring the dishes in. she never gives that sort of trouble. that she doesn't." "no. not in that way," mr. franklin agreed, and then both he and the steward, after glancing at powell--the stranger to the ship--said nothing more. but this had been enough to rouse his curiosity. curiosity is natural to man. of course it was not a malevolent curiosity which, if not exactly natural, is to be met fairly frequently in men and perhaps more frequently in women--especially if a woman be in question; and that woman under a cloud, in a manner of speaking. for under a cloud flora de barral was fated to be even at sea. yes. even that sort of darkness which attends a woman for whom there is no clear place in the world hung over her. yes. even at sea! * * * * * and this is the pathos of being a woman. a man can struggle to get a place for himself or perish. but a woman's part is passive, say what you like, and shuffle the facts of the world as you may, hinting at lack of energy, of wisdom, of courage. as a matter of fact, almost all women have all that--of their own kind. but they are not made for attack. wait they must. i am speaking here of women who are really women. and it's no use talking of opportunities, either. i know that some of them do talk of it. but not the genuine women. those know better. nothing can beat a true woman for a clear vision of reality; i would say a cynical vision if i were not afraid of wounding your chivalrous feelings--for which, by the by, women are not so grateful as you may think, to fellows of your kind . . . "upon my word, marlow," i cried, "what are you flying out at me for like this? i wouldn't use an ill-sounding word about women, but what right have you to imagine that i am looking for gratitude?" marlow raised a soothing hand. "there! there! i take back the ill-sounding word, with the remark, though, that cynicism seems to me a word invented by hypocrites. but let that pass. as to women, they know that the clamour for opportunities for them to become something which they cannot be is as reasonable as if mankind at large started asking for opportunities of winning immortality in this world, in which death is the very condition of life. you must understand that i am not talking here of material existence. that naturally is implied; but you won't maintain that a woman who, say, enlisted, for instance (there have been cases) has conquered her place in the world. she has only got her living in it--which is quite meritorious, but not quite the same thing. all these reflections which arise from my picking up the thread of flora de barral's existence did not, i am certain, present themselves to mr. powell--not the mr. powell we know taking solitary week-end cruises in the estuary of the thames (with mysterious dashes into lonely creeks) but to the young mr. powell, the chance second officer of the ship _ferndale_, commanded (and for the most part owned) by roderick anthony, the son of the poet--you know. a mr. powell, much slenderer than our robust friend is now, with the bloom of innocence not quite rubbed off his smooth cheeks, and apt not only to be interested but also to be surprised by the experience life was holding in store for him. this would account for his remembering so much of it with considerable vividness. for instance, the impressions attending his first breakfast on board the _ferndale_, both visual and mental, were as fresh to him as if received yesterday. the surprise, it is easy to understand, would arise from the inability to interpret aright the signs which experience (a thing mysterious in itself) makes to our understanding and emotions. for it is never more than that. our experience never gets into our blood and bones. it always remains outside of us. that's why we look with wonder at the past. and this persists even when from practice and through growing callousness of fibre we come to the point when nothing that we meet in that rapid blinking stumble across a flick of sunshine--which our life is--nothing, i say, which we run against surprises us any more. not at the time, i mean. if, later on, we recover the faculty with some such exclamation: 'well! well! i'll be hanged if i ever, . . . ' it is probably because this very thing that there should be a past to look back upon, other people's, is very astounding in itself when one has the time, a fleeting and immense instant to think of it . . . " i was on the point of interrupting marlow when he stopped of himself, his eyes fixed on vacancy, or--perhaps--(i wouldn't be too hard on him) on a vision. he has the habit, or, say, the fault, of defective mantelpiece clocks, of suddenly stopping in the very fulness of the tick. if you have ever lived with a clock afflicted with that perversity, you know how vexing it is--such a stoppage. i was vexed with marlow. he was smiling faintly while i waited. he even laughed a little. and then i said acidly: "am i to understand that you have ferreted out something comic in the history of flora de barral?" "comic!" he exclaimed. "no! what makes you say? . . . oh, i laughed--did i? but don't you know that people laugh at absurdities that are very far from being comic? didn't you read the latest books about laughter written by philosophers, psychologists? there is a lot of them . . . " "i dare say there has been a lot of nonsense written about laughter--and tears, too, for that matter," i said impatiently. "they say," pursued the unabashed marlow, "that we laugh from a sense of superiority. therefore, observe, simplicity, honesty, warmth of feeling, delicacy of heart and of conduct, self-confidence, magnanimity are laughed at, because the presence of these traits in a man's character often puts him into difficult, cruel or absurd situations, and makes us, the majority who are fairly free as a rule from these peculiarities, feel pleasantly superior." "speak for yourself," i said. "but have you discovered all these fine things in the story; or has mr. powell discovered them to you in his artless talk? have you two been having good healthy laughs together? come! are your sides aching yet, marlow?" marlow took no offence at my banter. he was quite serious. "i should not like to say off-hand how much of that there was," he pursued with amusing caution. "but there was a situation, tense enough for the signs of it to give many surprises to mr. powell--neither of them shocking in itself, but with a cumulative effect which made the whole unforgettable in the detail of its progress. and the first surprise came very soon, when the explosives (to which he owed his sudden chance of engagement)--dynamite in cases and blasting powder in barrels--taken on board, main hatch battened for sea, cook restored to his functions in the galley, anchor fished and the tug ahead, rounding the south foreland, and with the sun sinking clear and red down the purple vista of the channel, he went on the poop, on duty, it is true, but with time to take the first freer breath in the busy day of departure. the pilot was still on board, who gave him first a silent glance, and then passed an insignificant remark before resuming his lounging to and fro between the steering wheel and the binnacle. powell took his station modestly at the break of the poop. he had noticed across the skylight a head in a grey cap. but when, after a time, he crossed over to the other side of the deck he discovered that it was not the captain's head at all. he became aware of grey hairs curling over the nape of the neck. how could he have made that mistake? but on board ship away from the land one does not expect to come upon a stranger. powell walked past the man. a thin, somewhat sunken face, with a tightly closed mouth, stared at the distant french coast, vague like a suggestion of solid darkness, lying abeam beyond the evening light reflected from the level waters, themselves growing more sombre than the sky; a stare, across which powell had to pass and did pass with a quick side glance, noting its immovable stillness. his passage disturbed those eyes no more than if he had been as immaterial as a ghost. and this failure of his person in producing an impression affected him strangely. who could that old man be? he was so curious that he even ventured to ask the pilot in a low voice. the pilot turned out to be a good-natured specimen of his kind, condescending, sententious. he had been down to his meals in the main cabin, and had something to impart. "that? queer fish--eh? mrs. anthony's father. i've been introduced to him in the cabin at breakfast time. name of smith. wonder if he has all his wits about him. they take him about with them, it seems. don't look very happy--eh?" then, changing his tone abruptly, he desired powell to get all hands on deck and make sail on the ship. "i shall be leaving you in half an hour. you'll have plenty of time to find out all about the old gent," he added with a thick laugh. * * * * * in the secret emotion of giving his first order as a fully responsible officer, young powell forgot the very existence of that old man in a moment. the following days, in the interest of getting in touch with the ship, with the men in her, with his duties, in the rather anxious period of settling down, his curiosity slumbered; for of course the pilot's few words had not extinguished it. this settling down was made easy for him by the friendly character of his immediate superior--the chief. powell could not defend himself from some sympathy for that thick, bald man, comically shaped, with his crimson complexion and something pathetic in the rolling of his very movable black eyes in an apparently immovable head, who was so tactfully ready to take his competency for granted. there can be nothing more reassuring to a young man tackling his life's work for the first time. mr. powell, his mind at ease about himself, had time to observe the people around with friendly interest. very early in the beginning of the passage, he had discovered with some amusement that the marriage of captain anthony was resented by those to whom powell (conscious of being looked upon as something of an outsider) referred in his mind as 'the old lot.' they had the funny, regretful glances, intonations, nods of men who had seen other, better times. what difference it could have made to the bo'sun and the carpenter powell could not very well understand. yet these two pulled long faces and even gave hostile glances to the poop. the cook and the steward might have been more directly concerned. but the steward used to remark on occasion, 'oh, she gives no extra trouble,' with scrupulous fairness of the most gloomy kind. he was rather a silent man with a great sense of his personal worth which made his speeches guarded. the cook, a neat man with fair side whiskers, who had been only three years in the ship, seemed the least concerned. he was even known to have inquired once or twice as to the success of some of his dishes with the captain's wife. this was considered a sort of disloyal falling away from the ruling feeling. the mate's annoyance was yet the easiest to understand. as he let it out to powell before the first week of the passage was over: 'you can't expect me to be pleased at being chucked out of the saloon as if i weren't good enough to sit down to meat with that woman.' but he hastened to add: 'don't you think i'm blaming the captain. he isn't a man to be found fault with. you, mr. powell, are too young yet to understand such matters.' some considerable time afterwards, at the end of a conversation of that aggrieved sort, he enlarged a little more by repeating: 'yes! you are too young to understand these things. i don't say you haven't plenty of sense. you are doing very well here. jolly sight better than i expected, though i liked your looks from the first.' it was in the trade-winds, at night, under a velvety, bespangled sky; a great multitude of stars watching the shadows of the sea gleaming mysteriously in the wake of the ship; while the leisurely swishing of the water to leeward was like a drowsy comment on her progress. mr. powell expressed his satisfaction by a half-bashful laugh. the mate mused on: 'and of course you haven't known the ship as she used to be. she was more than a home to a man. she was not like any other ship; and captain anthony was not like any other master to sail with. neither is she now. but before one never had a care in the world as to her--and as to him, too. no, indeed, there was never anything to worry about.' young powell couldn't see what there was to worry about even then. the serenity of the peaceful night seemed as vast as all space, and as enduring as eternity itself. it's true the sea is an uncertain element, but no sailor remembers this in the presence of its bewitching power any more than a lover ever thinks of the proverbial inconstancy of women. and mr. powell, being young, thought naively that the captain being married, there could be no occasion for anxiety as to his condition. i suppose that to him life, perhaps not so much his own as that of others, was something still in the nature of a fairy-tale with a 'they lived happy ever after' termination. we are the creatures of our light literature much more than is generally suspected in a world which prides itself on being scientific and practical, and in possession of incontrovertible theories. powell felt in that way the more because the captain of a ship at sea is a remote, inaccessible creature, something like a prince of a fairy-tale, alone of his kind, depending on nobody, not to be called to account except by powers practically invisible and so distant, that they might well be looked upon as supernatural for all that the rest of the crew knows of them, as a rule. so he did not understand the aggrieved attitude of the mate--or rather he understood it obscurely as a result of simple causes which did not seem to him adequate. he would have dismissed all this out of his mind with a contemptuous: 'what the devil do i care?' if the captain's wife herself had not been so young. to see her the first time had been something of a shock to him. he had some preconceived ideas as to captain's wives which, while he did not believe the testimony of his eyes, made him open them very wide. he had stared till the captain's wife noticed it plainly and turned her face away. captain's wife! that girl covered with rugs in a long chair. captain's . . . ! he gasped mentally. it had never occurred to him that a captain's wife could be anything but a woman to be described as stout or thin, as jolly or crabbed, but always mature, and even, in comparison with his own years, frankly old. but this! it was a sort of moral upset as though he had discovered a case of abduction or something as surprising as that. you understand that nothing is more disturbing than the upsetting of a preconceived idea. each of us arranges the world according to his own notion of the fitness of things. to behold a girl where your average mediocre imagination had placed a comparatively old woman may easily become one of the strongest shocks . . . " marlow paused, smiling to himself. "powell remained impressed after all these years by the very recollection," he continued in a voice, amused perhaps but not mocking. "he said to me only the other day with something like the first awe of that discovery lingering in his tone--he said to me: "why, she seemed so young, so girlish, that i looked round for some woman which would be the captain's wife, though of course i knew there was no other woman on board that voyage." the voyage before, it seems, there had been the steward's wife to act as maid to mrs. anthony; but she was not taken that time for some reason he didn't know. mrs. anthony . . . ! if it hadn't been the captain's wife he would have referred to her mentally as a kid, he said. i suppose there must be a sort of divinity hedging in a captain's wife (however incredible) which prevented him applying to her that contemptuous definition in the secret of his thoughts. i asked him when this had happened; and he told me that it was three days after parting from the tug, just outside the channel--to be precise. a head wind had set in with unpleasant damp weather. he had come up to leeward of the poop, still feeling very much of a stranger, and an untried officer, at six in the evening to take his watch. to see her was quite as unexpected as seeing a vision. when she turned away her head he recollected himself and dropped his eyes. what he could see then was only, close to the long chair on which she reclined, a pair of long, thin legs ending in black cloth boots tucked in close to the skylight seat. whence he concluded that the 'old gentleman,' who wore a grey cap like the captain's, was sitting by her--his daughter. in his first astonishment he had stopped dead short, with the consequence that now he felt very much abashed at having betrayed his surprise. but he couldn't very well turn tail and bolt off the poop. he had come there on duty. so, still with downcast eyes, he made his way past them. only when he got as far as the wheel-grating did he look up. she was hidden from him by the back of her deck-chair; but he had the view of the owner of the thin, aged legs seated on the skylight, his clean-shaved cheek, his thin compressed mouth with a hollow in each corner, the sparse grey locks escaping from under the tweed cap, and curling slightly on the collar of the coat. he leaned forward a little over mrs. anthony, but they were not talking. captain anthony, walking with a springy hurried gait on the other side of the poop from end to end, gazed straight before him. young powell might have thought that his captain was not aware of his presence either. however, he knew better, and for that reason spent a most uncomfortable hour motionless by the compass before his captain stopped in his swift pacing and with an almost visible effort made some remark to him about the weather in a low voice. before powell, who was startled, could find a word of answer, the captain swung off again on his endless tramp with a fixed gaze. and till the supper bell rang silence dwelt over that poop like an evil spell. the captain walked up and down looking straight before him, the helmsman steered, looking upwards at the sails, the old gent on the skylight looked down on his daughter--and mr. powell confessed to me that he didn't know where to look, feeling as though he had blundered in where he had no business--which was absurd. at last he fastened his eyes on the compass card, took refuge, in spirit, inside the binnacle. he felt chilled more than he should have been by the chilly dusk falling on the muddy green sea of the soundings from a smoothly clouded sky. a fitful wind swept the cheerless waste, and the ship, hauled up so close as to check her way, seemed to progress by languid fits and starts against the short seas which swept along her sides with a snarling sound. young powell thought that this was the dreariest evening aspect of the sea he had ever seen. he was glad when the other occupants of the poop left it at the sound of the bell. the captain first, with a sudden swerve in his walk towards the companion, and not even looking once towards his wife and his wife's father. those two got up and moved towards the companion, the old gent very erect, his thin locks stirring gently about the nape of his neck, and carrying the rugs over his arm. the girl who was mrs. anthony went down first. the murky twilight had settled in deep shadow on her face. she looked at mr. powell in passing. he thought that she was very pale. cold perhaps. the old gent stopped a moment, thin and stiff, before the young man, and in a voice which was low but distinct enough, and without any particular accent--not even of inquiry--he said: "you are the new second officer, i believe." mr. powell answered in the affirmative, wondering if this were a friendly overture. he had noticed that mr. smith's eyes had a sort of inward look as though he had disliked or disdained his surroundings. the captain's wife had disappeared then down the companion stairs. mr. smith said 'ah!' and waited a little longer to put another question in his incurious voice. "and did you know the man who was here before you?" "no," said young powell, "i didn't know anybody belonging to this ship before i joined." "he was much older than you. twice your age. perhaps more. his hair was iron grey. yes. certainly more." the low, repressed voice paused, but the old man did not move away. he added: "isn't it unusual?" mr. powell was surprised not only by being engaged in conversation, but also by its character. it might have been the suggestion of the word uttered by this old man, but it was distinctly at that moment that he became aware of something unusual not only in this encounter but generally around him, about everybody, in the atmosphere. the very sea, with short flashes of foam bursting out here and there in the gloomy distances, the unchangeable, safe sea sheltering a man from all passions, except its own anger, seemed queer to the quick glance he threw to windward where the already effaced horizon traced no reassuring limit to the eye. in the expiring, diffused twilight, and before the clouded night dropped its mysterious veil, it was the immensity of space made visible--almost palpable. young powell felt it. he felt it in the sudden sense of his isolation; the trustworthy, powerful ship of his first acquaintance reduced to a speck, to something almost undistinguishable, the mere support for the soles of his two feet before that unexpected old man becoming so suddenly articulate in a darkening universe. it took him a moment or so to seize the drift of the question. he repeated slowly: 'unusual . . . oh, you mean for an elderly man to be the second of a ship. i don't know. there are a good many of us who don't get on. he didn't get on, i suppose.' the other, his head bowed a little, had the air of listening with acute attention. "and now he has been taken to the hospital," he said. "i believe so. yes. i remember captain anthony saying so in the shipping office." "possibly about to die," went on the old man, in his careful deliberate tone. "and perhaps glad enough to die." mr. powell was young enough to be startled at the suggestion, which sounded confidential and blood-curdling in the dusk. he said sharply that it was not very likely, as if defending the absent victim of the accident from an unkind aspersion. he felt, in fact, indignant. the other emitted a short stifled laugh of a conciliatory nature. the second bell rang under the poop. he made a movement at the sound, but lingered. "what i said was not meant seriously," he murmured, with that strange air of fearing to be overheard. "not in this case. i know the man." the occasion, or rather the want of occasion, for this conversation, had sharpened the perceptions of the unsophisticated second officer of the _ferndale_. he was alive to the slightest shade of tone, and felt as if this "i know the man" should have been followed by a "he was no friend of mine." but after the shortest possible break the old gentleman continued to murmur distinctly and evenly: "whereas you have never seen him. nevertheless, when you have gone through as many years as i have, you will understand how an event putting an end to one's existence may not be altogether unwelcome. of course there are stupid accidents. and even then one needn't be very angry. what is it to be deprived of life? it's soon done. but what would you think of the feelings of a man who should have had his life stolen from him? cheated out of it, i say!" he ceased abruptly, and remained still long enough for the astonished powell to stammer out an indistinct: "what do you mean? i don't understand." then, with a low 'good-night' glided a few steps, and sank through the shadow of the companion into the lamplight below which did not reach higher than the turn of the staircase. the strange words, the cautious tone, the whole person left a strong uneasiness in the mind of mr. powell. he started walking the poop in great mental confusion. he felt all adrift. this was funny talk and no mistake. and this cautious low tone as though he were watched by someone was more than funny. the young second officer hesitated to break the established rule of every ship's discipline; but at last could not resist the temptation of getting hold of some other human being, and spoke to the man at the wheel. "did you hear what this gentleman was saying to me?" "no, sir," answered the sailor quietly. then, encouraged by this evidence of laxity in his officer, made bold to add, "a queer fish, sir." this was tentative, and mr. powell, busy with his own view, not saying anything, he ventured further. "they are more like passengers. one sees some queer passengers." "who are like passengers?" asked powell gruffly. "why, these two, sir." chapter three--devoted servants--and the light of a flare young powell thought to himself: "the men, too, are noticing it." indeed, the captain's behaviour to his wife and to his wife's father was noticeable enough. it was as if they had been a pair of not very congenial passengers. but perhaps it was not always like that. the captain might have been put out by something. when the aggrieved franklin came on deck mr. powell made a remark to that effect. for his curiosity was aroused. the mate grumbled "seems to you? . . . putout? . . . eh?" he buttoned his thick jacket up to the throat, and only then added a gloomy "aye, likely enough," which discouraged further conversation. but no encouragement would have induced the newly-joined second mate to enter the way of confidences. his was an instinctive prudence. powell did not know why it was he had resolved to keep his own counsel as to his colloquy with mr. smith. but his curiosity did not slumber. some time afterwards, again at the relief of watches, in the course of a little talk, he mentioned mrs. anthony's father quite casually, and tried to find out from the mate who he was. "it would take a clever man to find that out, as things are on board now," mr. franklin said, unexpectedly communicative. "the first i saw of him was when she brought him alongside in a four-wheeler one morning about half-past eleven. the captain had come on board early, and was down in the cabin that had been fitted out for him. did i tell you that if you want the captain for anything you must stamp on the port side of the deck? that's so. this ship is not only unlike what she used to be, but she is like no other ship, anyhow. did you ever hear of the captain's room being on the port side? both of them stern cabins have been fitted up afresh like a blessed palace. a gang of people from some tip-top west-end house were fussing here on board with hangings and furniture for a fortnight, as if the queen were coming with us. of course the starboard cabin is the bedroom one, but the poor captain hangs out to port on a couch, so that in case we want him on deck at night, mrs. anthony should not be startled. nervous! phoo! a woman who marries a sailor and makes up her mind to come to sea should have no blamed jumpiness about her, i say. but never mind. directly the old cab pointed round the corner of the warehouse i called out to the captain that his lady was coming aboard. he answered me, but as i didn't see him coming, i went down the gangway myself to help her alight. she jumps out excitedly without touching my arm, or as much as saying "thank you" or "good morning" or anything, turns back to the cab, and then that old joker comes out slowly. i hadn't noticed him inside. i hadn't expected to see anybody. it gave me a start. she says: "my father--mr. franklin." he was staring at me like an owl. "how do you do, sir?" says i. both of them looked funny. it was as if something had happened to them on the way. neither of them moved, and i stood by waiting. the captain showed himself on the poop; and i saw him at the side looking over, and then he disappeared; on the way to meet them on shore, i expected. but he just went down below again. so, not seeing him, i said: "let me help you on board, sir." "on board!" says he in a silly fashion. "on board!" "it's not a very good ladder, but it's quite firm," says i, as he seemed to be afraid of it. and he didn't look a broken-down old man, either. you can see yourself what he is. straight as a poker, and life enough in him yet. but he made no move, and i began to feel foolish. then she comes forward. "oh! thank you, mr. franklin. i'll help my father up." flabbergasted me--to be choked off like this. pushed in between him and me without as much as a look my way. so of course i dropped it. what do you think? i fell back. i would have gone up on board at once and left them on the quay to come up or stay there till next week, only they were blocking the way. i couldn't very well shove them on one side. devil only knows what was up between them. there she was, pale as death, talking to him very fast. he got as red as a turkey-cock--dash me if he didn't. a bad-tempered old bloke, i can tell you. and a bad lot, too. never mind. i couldn't hear what she was saying to him, but she put force enough into it to shake her. it seemed--it seemed, mind!--that he didn't want to go on board. of course it couldn't have been that. i know better. well, she took him by the arm, above the elbow, as if to lead him, or push him rather. i was standing not quite ten feet off. why should i have gone away? i was anxious to get back on board as soon as they would let me. i didn't want to overhear her blamed whispering either. but i couldn't stay there for ever, so i made a move to get past them if i could. and that's how i heard a few words. it was the old chap--something nasty about being "under the heel" of somebody or other. then he says, "i don't want this sacrifice." what it meant i can't tell. it was a quarrel--of that i am certain. she looks over her shoulder, and sees me pretty close to them. i don't know what she found to say into his ear, but he gave way suddenly. he looked round at me too, and they went up together so quickly then that when i got on the quarter-deck i was only in time to see the inner door of the passage close after them. queer--eh? but if it were only queerness one wouldn't mind. some luggage in new trunks came on board in the afternoon. we undocked at midnight. and may i be hanged if i know who or what he was or is. i haven't been able to find out. no, i don't know. he may have been anything. all i know is that once, years ago when i went to see the derby with a friend, i saw a peaand-thimble chap who looked just like that old mystery father out of a cab." all this the goggle-eyed mate had said in a resentful and melancholy voice, with pauses, to the gentle murmur of the sea. it was for him a bitter sort of pleasure to have a fresh pair of ears, a newcomer, to whom he could repeat all these matters of grief and suspicion talked over endlessly by the band of captain anthony's faithful subordinates. it was evidently so refreshing to his worried spirit that it made him forget the advisability of a little caution with a complete stranger. but really with mr. powell there was no danger. amused, at first, at these plaints, he provoked them for fun. afterwards, turning them over in his mind, he became impressed, and as the impression grew stronger with the days his resolution to keep it to himself grew stronger too. * * * * * what made it all the easier to keep--i mean the resolution--was that powell's sentiment of amused surprise at what struck him at first as mere absurdity was not unmingled with indignation. and his years were too few, his position too novel, his reliance on his own opinion not yet firm enough to allow him to express it with any effect. and then--what would have been the use, anyhow--and where was the necessity? but this thing, familiar and mysterious at the same time, occupied his imagination. the solitude of the sea intensifies the thoughts and the facts of one's experience which seems to lie at the very centre of the world, as the ship which carries one always remains the centre figure of the round horizon. he viewed the apoplectic, goggle-eyed mate and the saturnine, heavy-eyed steward as the victims of a peculiar and secret form of lunacy which poisoned their lives. but he did not give them his sympathy on that account. no. that strange affliction awakened in him a sort of suspicious wonder. once--and it was at night again; for the officers of the _ferndale_ keeping watch and watch as was customary in those days, had but few occasions for intercourse--once, i say, the thick mr. franklin, a quaintly bulky figure under the stars, the usual witnesses of his outpourings, asked him with an abruptness which was not callous, but in his simple way: "i believe you have no parents living?" mr. powell said that he had lost his father and mother at a very early age. "my mother is still alive," declared mr. franklin in a tone which suggested that he was gratified by the fact. "the old lady is lasting well. of course she's got to be made comfortable. a woman must be looked after, and, if it comes to that, i say, give me a mother. i dare say if she had not lasted it out so well i might have gone and got married. i don't know, though. we sailors haven't got much time to look about us to any purpose. anyhow, as the old lady was there i haven't, i may say, looked at a girl in all my life. not that i wasn't partial to female society in my time," he added with a pathetic intonation, while the whites of his goggle eyes gleamed amorously under the clear night sky. "very partial, i may say." mr. powell was amused; and as these communications took place only when the mate was relieved off duty he had no serious objection to them. the mate's presence made the first half-hour and sometimes even more of his watch on deck pass away. if his senior did not mind losing some of his rest it was not mr. powell's affair. franklin was a decent fellow. his intention was not to boast of his filial piety. "of course i mean respectable female society," he explained. "the other sort is neither here nor there. i blame no man's conduct, but a wellbrought-up young fellow like you knows that there's precious little fun to be got out of it." he fetched a deep sigh. "i wish captain anthony's mother had been a lasting sort like my old lady. he would have had to look after her and he would have done it well. captain anthony is a proper man. and it would have saved him from the most foolish--" he did not finish the phrase which certainly was turning bitter in his mouth. mr. powell thought to himself: "there he goes again." he laughed a little. "i don't understand why you are so hard on the captain, mr. franklin. i thought you were a great friend of his." mr. franklin exclaimed at this. he was not hard on the captain. nothing was further from his thoughts. friend! of course he was a good friend and a faithful servant. he begged powell to understand that if captain anthony chose to strike a bargain with old nick to-morrow, and old nick were good to the captain, he (franklin) would find it in his heart to love old nick for the captain's sake. that was so. on the other hand, if a saint, an angel with white wings came along and--" he broke off short again as if his own vehemence had frightened him. then in his strained pathetic voice (which he had never raised) he observed that it was no use talking. anybody could see that the man was changed. "as to that," said young powell, "it is impossible for me to judge." "good lord!" whispered the mate. "an educated, clever young fellow like you with a pair of eyes on him and some sense too! is that how a happy man looks? eh? young you may be, but you aren't a kid; and i dare you to say 'yes!'" mr. powell did not take up the challenge. he did not know what to think of the mate's view. still, it seemed as if it had opened his understanding in a measure. he conceded that the captain did not look very well. "not very well," repeated the mate mournfully. "do you think a man with a face like that can hope to live his life out? you haven't knocked about long in this world yet, but you are a sailor, you have been in three or four ships, you say. well, have you ever seen a shipmaster walking his own deck as if he did not know what he had underfoot? have you? dam'me if i don't think that he forgets where he is. of course he can be no other than a prime seaman; but it's lucky, all the same, he has me on board. i know by this time what he wants done without being told. do you know that i have had no order given me since we left port? do you know that he has never once opened his lips to me unless i spoke to him first? i? his chief officer; his shipmate for full six years, with whom he had no cross word--not once in all that time. aye. not a cross look even. true that when i do make him speak to me, there is his dear old self, the quick eye, the kind voice. could hardly be other to his old franklin. but what's the good? eyes, voice, everything's miles away. and for all that i take good care never to address him when the poop isn't clear. yes! only we two and nothing but the sea with us. you think it would be all right; the only chief mate he ever had--mr. franklin here and mr. franklin there--when anything went wrong the first word you would hear about the decks was 'franklin!'--i am thirteen years older than he is--you would think it would be all right, wouldn't you? only we two on this poop on which we saw each other first--he a young master--told me that he thought i would suit him very well--we two, and thirty-one days out at sea, and it's no good! it's like talking to a man standing on shore. i can't get him back. i can't get at him. i feel sometimes as if i must shake him by the arm: "wake up! wake up! you are wanted, sir . . . !" young powell recognized the expression of a true sentiment, a thing so rare in this world where there are so many mutes and so many excellent reasons even at sea for an articulate man not to give himself away, that he felt something like respect for this outburst. it was not loud. the grotesque squat shape, with the knob of the head as if rammed down between the square shoulders by a blow from a club, moved vaguely in a circumscribed space limited by the two harness-casks lashed to the front rail of the poop, without gestures, hands in the pockets of the jacket, elbows pressed closely to its side; and the voice without resonance, passed from anger to dismay and back again without a single louder word in the hurried delivery, interrupted only by slight gasps for air as if the speaker were being choked by the suppressed passion of his grief. mr. powell, though moved to a certain extent, was by no means carried away. and just as he thought that it was all over, the other, fidgeting in the darkness, was heard again explosive, bewildered but not very loud in the silence of the ship and the great empty peace of the sea. "they have done something to him! what is it? what can it be? can't you guess? don't you know?" "good heavens!" young powell was astounded on discovering that this was an appeal addressed to him. "how on earth can i know?" "you do talk to that white-faced, black-eyed . . . i've seen you talking to her more than a dozen times." young powell, his sympathy suddenly chilled, remarked in a disdainful tone that mrs. anthony's eyes were not black. "i wish to god she had never set them on the captain, whatever colour they are," retorted franklin. "she and that old chap with the scraped jaws who sits over her and stares down at her dead-white face with his yellow eyes--confound them! perhaps you will tell us that his eyes are not yellow?" powell, not interested in the colour of mr. smith's eyes, made a vague gesture. yellow or not yellow, it was all one to him. the mate murmured to himself. "no. he can't know. no! no more than a baby. it would take an older head." "i don't even understand what you mean," observed mr. powell coldly. "and even the best head would be puzzled by such devil-work," the mate continued, muttering. "well, i have heard tell of women doing for a man in one way or another when they got him fairly ashore. but to bring their devilry to sea and fasten on such a man! . . . it's something i can't understand. but i can watch. let them look out--i say!" his short figure, unable to stoop, without flexibility, could not express dejection. he was very tired suddenly; he dragged his feet going off the poop. before he left it with nearly an hour of his watch below sacrificed, he addressed himself once more to our young man who stood abreast of the mizzen rigging in an unreceptive mood expressed by silence and immobility. he did not regret, he said, having spoken openly on this very serious matter. "i don't know about its seriousness, sir," was mr. powell's frank answer. "but if you think you have been telling me something very new you are mistaken. you can't keep that matter out of your speeches. it's the sort of thing i've been hearing more or less ever since i came on board." mr. powell, speaking truthfully, did not mean to speak offensively. he had instincts of wisdom; he felt that this was a serious affair, for it had nothing to do with reason. he did not want to raise an enemy for himself in the mate. and mr. franklin did not take offence. to mr. powell's truthful statement he answered with equal truth and simplicity that it was very likely, very likely. with a thing like that (next door to witchcraft almost) weighing on his mind, the wonder was that he could think of anything else. the poor man must have found in the restlessness of his thoughts the illusion of being engaged in an active contest with some power of evil; for his last words as he went lingeringly down the poop ladder expressed the quaint hope that he would get him, powell, "on our side yet." mr. powell--just imagine a straightforward youngster assailed in this fashion on the high seas--answered merely by an embarrassed and uneasy laugh which reflected exactly the state of his innocent soul. the apoplectic mate, already half-way down, went up again three steps of the poop ladder. why, yes. a proper young fellow, the mate expected, wouldn't stand by and see a man, a good sailor and his own skipper, in trouble without taking his part against a couple of shore people who--mr. powell interrupted him impatiently, asking what was the trouble? "what is it you are hinting at?" he cried with an inexplicable irritation. "i don't like to think of him all alone down there with these two," franklin whispered impressively. "upon my word i don't. god only knows what may be going on there . . . don't laugh . . . it was bad enough last voyage when mrs. brown had a cabin aft; but now it's worse. it frightens me. i can't sleep sometimes for thinking of him all alone there, shut off from us all." mrs. brown was the steward's wife. you must understand that shortly after his visit to the fyne cottage (with all its consequences), anthony had got an offer to go to the western islands, and bring home the cargo of some ship which, damaged in a collision or a stranding, took refuge in st. michael, and was condemned there. roderick anthony had connections which would put such paying jobs in his way. so flora de barral had but a five months' voyage, a mere excursion, for her first trial of sea-life. and anthony, dearly trying to be most attentive, had induced this mrs. brown, the wife of his faithful steward, to come along as maid to his bride. but for some reason or other this arrangement was not continued. and the mate, tormented by indefinite alarms and forebodings, regretted it. he regretted that jane brown was no longer on board--as a sort of representative of captain anthony's faithful servants, to watch quietly what went on in that part of the ship this fatal marriage had closed to their vigilance. that had been excellent. for she was a dependable woman. powell did not detect any particular excellence in what seemed a spying employment. but in his simplicity he said that he should have thought mrs. anthony would have been glad anyhow to have another woman on board. he was thinking of the white-faced girlish personality which it seemed to him ought to have been cared for. the innocent young man always looked upon the girl as immature; something of a child yet. "she! glad! why it was she who had her fired out. she didn't want anybody around the cabin. mrs. brown is certain of it. she told her husband so. you ask the steward and hear what he has to say about it. that's why i don't like it. a capable woman who knew her place. but no. out she must go. for no fault, mind you. the captain was ashamed to send her away. but that wife of his--aye the precious pair of them have got hold of him. i can't speak to him for a minute on the poop without that thimble-rigging coon coming gliding up. i'll tell you what. i overheard once--god knows i didn't try to--only he forgot i was on the other side of the skylight with my sextant--i overheard him--you know how he sits hanging over her chair and talking away without properly opening his mouth--yes i caught the word right enough. he was alluding to the captain as "the jailer." the jail . . . !" franklin broke off with a profane execration. a silence reigned for a long time and the slight, very gentle rolling of the ship slipping before the n.e. trade-wind seemed to be a soothing device for lulling to sleep the suspicions of men who trust themselves to the sea. a deep sigh was heard followed by the mate's voice asking dismally if that was the way one would speak of a man to whom one wished well? no better proof of something wrong was needed. therefore he hoped, as he vanished at last, that mr. powell would be on their side. and this time mr. powell did not answer this hope with an embarrassed laugh. that young officer was more and more surprised at the nature of the incongruous revelations coming to him in the surroundings and in the atmosphere of the open sea. it is difficult for us to understand the extent, the completeness, the comprehensiveness of his inexperience, for us who didn't go to sea out of a small private school at the age of fourteen years and nine months. leaning on his elbow in the mizzen rigging and so still that the helmsman over there at the other end of the poop might have (and he probably did) suspect him of being criminally asleep on duty, he tried to "get hold of that thing" by some side which would fit in with his simple notions of psychology. "what the deuce are they worrying about?" he asked himself in a dazed and contemptuous impatience. but all the same "jailer" was a funny name to give a man; unkind, unfriendly, nasty. he was sorry that mr. smith was guilty in that matter because, the truth must be told, he had been to a certain extent sensible of having been noticed in a quiet manner by the father of mrs. anthony. youth appreciates that sort of recognition which is the subtlest form of flattery age can offer. mr. smith seized opportunities to approach him on deck. his remarks were sometimes weird and enigmatical. he was doubtless an eccentric old gent. but from that to calling his sonin-law (whom he never approached on deck) nasty names behind his back was a long step. and mr. powell marvelled . . . " "while he was telling me all this,"--marlow changed his tone--"i marvelled even more. it was as if misfortune marked its victims on the forehead for the dislike of the crowd. i am not thinking here of numbers. two men may behave like a crowd, three certainly will when their emotions are engaged. it was as if the forehead of flora de barral were marked. was the girl born to be a victim; to be always disliked and crushed as if she were too fine for this world? or too luckless--since that also is often counted as sin. yes, i marvelled more since i knew more of the girl than mr. powell--if only her true name; and more of captain anthony--if only the fact that he was the son of a delicate erotic poet of a markedly refined and autocratic temperament. yes, i knew their joint stories which mr. powell did not know. the chapter in it he was opening to me, the sea-chapter, with such new personages as the sentimental and apoplectic chief-mate and the morose steward, however astounding to him in its detached condition was much more so to me as a member of a series, following the chapter outside the eastern hotel in which i myself had played my part. in view of her declarations and my sage remarks it was very unexpected. she had meant well, and i had certainly meant well too. captain anthony--as far as i could gather from little fyne--had meant well. as far as such lofty words may be applied to the obscure personages of this story we were all filled with the noblest sentiments and intentions. the sea was there to give them the shelter of its solitude free from the earth's petty suggestions. i could well marvel in myself, as to what had happened. i hope that if he saw it, mr. powell forgave me the smile of which i was guilty at that moment. the light in the cabin of his little cutter was dim. and the smile was dim too. dim and fleeting. the girl's life had presented itself to me as a tragi-comical adventure, the saddest thing on earth, slipping between frank laughter and unabashed tears. yes, the saddest facts and the most common, and, being common perhaps the most worthy of our unreserved pity. the purely human reality is capable of lyrism but not of abstraction. nothing will serve for its understanding but the evidence of rational linking up of characters and facts. and beginning with flora de barral, in the light of my memories i was certain that she at least must have been passive; for that is of necessity the part of women, this waiting on fate which some of them, and not the most intelligent, cover up by the vain appearances of agitation. flora de barral was not exceptionally intelligent but she was thoroughly feminine. she would be passive (and that does not mean inanimate) in the circumstances, where the mere fact of being a woman was enough to give her an occult and supreme significance. and she would be enduring which is the essence of woman's visible, tangible power. of that i was certain. had she not endured already? yet it is so true that the germ of destruction lies in wait for us mortals, even at the very source of our strength, that one may die of too much endurance as well as of too little of it. such was my train of thought. and i was mindful also of my first view of her--toying or perhaps communing in earnest with the possibilities of a precipice. but i did not ask mr. powell anxiously what had happened to mrs. anthony in the end. i let him go on in his own way feeling that no matter what strange facts he would have to disclose, i was certain to know much more of them than he ever did know or could possibly guess . . . " marlow paused for quite a long time. he seemed uncertain as though he had advanced something beyond my grasp. purposely i made no sign. "you understand?" he asked. "perfectly," i said. "you are the expert in the psychological wilderness. this is like one of those red-skin stories where the noble savages carry off a girl and the honest backwoodsman with his incomparable knowledge follows the track and reads the signs of her fate in a footprint here, a broken twig there, a trinket dropped by the way. i have always liked such stories. go on." marlow smiled indulgently at my jesting. "it is not exactly a story for boys," he said. "i go on then. the sign, as you call it, was not very plentiful but very much to the purpose, and when mr. powell heard (at a certain moment i felt bound to tell him) when he heard that i had known mrs. anthony before her marriage, that, to a certain extent, i was her confidant . . . for you can't deny that to a certain extent . . . well let us say that i had a look in . . . a young girl, you know, is something like a temple. you pass by and wonder what mysterious rites are going on in there, what prayers, what visions? the privileged men, the lover, the husband, who are given the key of the sanctuary do not always know how to use it. for myself, without claim, without merit, simply by chance i had been allowed to look through the half-opened door and i had seen the saddest possible desecration, the withered brightness of youth, a spirit neither made cringing nor yet dulled but as if bewildered in quivering hopelessness by gratuitous cruelty; self-confidence destroyed and, instead, a resigned recklessness, a mournful callousness (and all this simple, almost naive)--before the material and moral difficulties of the situation. the passive anguish of the luckless! i asked myself: wasn't that ill-luck exhausted yet? ill-luck which is like the hate of invisible powers interpreted, made sensible and injurious by the actions of men? mr. powell as you may well imagine had opened his eyes at my statement. but he was full of his recalled experiences on board the _ferndale_, and the strangeness of being mixed up in what went on aboard, simply because his name was also the name of a shipping-master, kept him in a state of wonder which made other coincidences, however unlikely, not so very surprising after all. this astonishing occurrence was so present to his mind that he always felt as though he were there under false pretences. and this feeling was so uncomfortable that it nerved him to break through the awe-inspiring aloofness of his captain. he wanted to make a clean breast of it. i imagine that his youth stood in good stead to mr. powell. oh, yes. youth is a power. even captain anthony had to take some notice of it, as if it refreshed him to see something untouched, unscarred, unhardened by suffering. or perhaps the very novelty of that face, on board a ship where he had seen the same faces for years, attracted his attention. whether one day he dropped a word to his new second officer or only looked at him i don't know; but mr. powell seized the opportunity whatever it was. the captain who had started and stopped in his everlasting rapid walk smoothed his brow very soon, heard him to the end and then laughed a little. "ah! that's the story. and you felt you must put me right as to this." "yes, sir." "it doesn't matter how you came on board," said anthony. and then showing that perhaps he was not so utterly absent from his ship as franklin supposed: "that's all right. you seem to be getting on very well with everybody," he said in his curt hurried tone, as if talking hurt him, and his eyes already straying over the sea as usual. "yes, sir." powell tells me that looking then at the strong face to which that haggard expression was returning, he had the impulse, from some confused friendly feeling, to add: "i am very happy on board here, sir." the quickly returning glance, its steadiness, abashed mr. powell and made him even step back a little. the captain looked as though he had forgotten the meaning of the word. "you--what? oh yes . . . you . . . of course . . . happy. why not?" this was merely muttered; and next moment anthony was off on his headlong tramp his eyes turned to the sea away from his ship. a sailor indeed looks generally into the great distances, but in captain anthony's case there was--as powell expressed it--something particular, something purposeful like the avoidance of pain or temptation. it was very marked once one had become aware of it. before, one felt only a pronounced strangeness. not that the captain--powell was careful to explain--didn't see things as a ship-master should. the proof of it was that on that very occasion he desired him suddenly after a period of silent pacing, to have all the staysails sheets eased off, and he was going on with some other remarks on the subject of these staysails when mrs. anthony followed by her father emerged from the companion. she established herself in her chair to leeward of the skylight as usual. thereupon the captain cut short whatever he was going to say, and in a little while went down below. i asked mr. powell whether the captain and his wife never conversed on deck. he said no--or at any rate they never exchanged more than a couple of words. there was some constraint between them. for instance, on that very occasion, when mrs. anthony came out they did look at each other; the captain's eyes indeed followed her till she sat down; but he did not speak to her; he did not approach her; and afterwards left the deck without turning his head her way after this first silent exchange of glances. i asked mr. powell what did he do then, the captain being out of the way. "i went over and talked to mrs. anthony. i was thinking that it must be very dull for her. she seemed to be such a stranger to the ship." "the father was there of course?" "always," said powell. "he was always there sitting on the skylight, as if he were keeping watch over her. and i think," he added, "that he was worrying her. not that she showed it in any way. mrs. anthony was always very quiet and always ready to look one straight in the face." "you talked together a lot?" i pursued my inquiries. "she mostly let me talk to her," confessed mr. powell. "i don't know that she was very much interested--but still she let me. she never cut me short." all the sympathies of mr. powell were for flora anthony nee de barral. she was the only human being younger than himself on board that ship since the _ferndale_ carried no boys and was manned by a full crew of able seamen. yes! their youth had created a sort of bond between them. mr. powell's open countenance must have appeared to her distinctly pleasing amongst the mature, rough, crabbed or even inimical faces she saw around her. with the warm generosity of his age young powell was on her side, as it were, even before he knew that there were sides to be taken on board that ship, and what this taking sides was about. there was a girl. a nice girl. he asked himself no questions. flora de barral was not so much younger in years than himself; but for some reason, perhaps by contrast with the accepted idea of a captain's wife, he could not regard her otherwise but as an extremely youthful creature. at the same time, apart from her exalted position, she exercised over him the supremacy a woman's earlier maturity gives her over a young man of her own age. as a matter of fact we can see that, without ever having more than a half an hour's consecutive conversation together, and the distances duly preserved, these two were becoming friends--under the eye of the old man, i suppose. how he first got in touch with his captain's wife powell relates in this way. it was long before his memorable conversation with the mate and shortly after getting clear of the channel. it was gloomy weather; dead head wind, blowing quite half a gale; the _ferndale_ under reduced sail was stretching close-hauled across the track of the homeward bound ships, just moving through the water and no more, since there was no object in pressing her and the weather looked threatening. about ten o'clock at night he was alone on the poop, in charge, keeping well aft by the weather rail and staring to windward, when amongst the white, breaking seas, under the black sky, he made out the lights of a ship. he watched them for some time. she was running dead before the wind of course. she will pass jolly close--he said to himself; and then suddenly he felt a great mistrust of that approaching ship. she's heading straight for us--he thought. it was not his business to get out of the way. on the contrary. and his uneasiness grew by the recollection of the forty tons of dynamite in the body of the _ferndale_; not the sort of cargo one thinks of with equanimity in connection with a threatened collision. he gazed at the two small lights in the dark immensity filled with the angry noise of the seas. they fascinated him till their plainness to his sight gave him a conviction that there was danger there. he knew in his mind what to do in the emergency, but very properly he felt that he must call the captain out at once. he crossed the deck in one bound. by the immemorial custom and usage of the sea the captain's room is on the starboard side. you would just as soon expect your captain to have his nose at the back of his head as to have his state-room on the port side of the ship. powell forgot all about the direction on that point given him by the chief. he flew over as i said, stamped with his foot and then putting his face to the cowl of the big ventilator shouted down there: "please come on deck, sir," in a voice which was not trembling or scared but which we may call fairly expressive. there could not be a mistake as to the urgence of the call. but instead of the expected alert "all right!" and the sound of a rush down there, he heard only a faint exclamation--then silence. think of his astonishment! he remained there, his ear in the cowl of the ventilator, his eyes fastened on those menacing sidelights dancing on the gusts of wind which swept the angry darkness of the sea. it was as though he had waited an hour but it was something much less than a minute before he fairly bellowed into the wide tube "captain anthony!" an agitated "what is it?" was what he heard down there in mrs. anthony's voice, light rapid footsteps . . . why didn't she try to wake him up! "i want the captain," he shouted, then gave it up, making a dash at the companion where a blue light was kept, resolved to act for himself. on the way he glanced at the helmsman whose face lighted up by the binnacle lamps was calm. he said rapidly to him: "stand by to spin that helm up at the first word." the answer "aye, aye, sir," was delivered in a steady voice. then mr. powell after a shout for the watch on deck to "lay aft," ran to the ship's side and struck the blue light on the rail. a sort of nasty little spitting of sparks was all that came. the light (perhaps affected by damp) had failed to ignite. the time of all these various acts must be counted in seconds. powell confessed to me that at this failure he experienced a paralysis of thought, of voice, of limbs. the unexpectedness of this misfire positively overcame his faculties. it was the only thing for which his imagination was not prepared. it was knocked clean over. when it got up it was with the suggestion that he must do something at once or there would be a broadside smash accompanied by the explosion of dynamite, in which both ships would be blown up and every soul on board of them would vanish off the earth in an enormous flame and uproar. he saw the catastrophe happening and at the same moment, before he could open his mouth or stir a limb to ward off the vision, a voice very near his ear, the measured voice of captain anthony said: "wouldn't light--eh? throw it down! jump for the flare-up." the spring of activity in mr. powell was released with great force. he jumped. the flare-up was kept inside the companion with a box of matches ready to hand. almost before he knew he had moved he was diving under the companion slide. he got hold of the can in the dark and tried to strike a light. but he had to press the flare-holder to his breast with one arm, his fingers were damp and stiff, his hands trembled a little. one match broke. another went out. in its flame he saw the colourless face of mrs. anthony a little below him, standing on the cabin stairs. her eyes which were very close to his (he was in a crouching posture on the top step) seemed to burn darkly in the vanishing light. on deck the captain's voice was heard sudden and unexpectedly sardonic: "you had better look sharp, if you want to be in time." "let me have the box," said mrs. anthony in a hurried and familiar whisper which sounded amused as if they had been a couple of children up to some lark behind a wall. he was glad of the offer which seemed to him very natural, and without ceremony-"here you are. catch hold." their hands touched in the dark and she took the box while he held the paraffin soaked torch in its iron holder. he thought of warning her: "look out for yourself." but before he had the time to finish the sentence the flare blazed up violently between them and he saw her throw herself back with an arm across her face. "hallo," he exclaimed; only he could not stop a moment to ask if she was hurt. he bolted out of the companion straight into his captain who took the flare from him and held it high above his head. the fierce flame fluttered like a silk flag, throwing an angry swaying glare mingled with moving shadows over the poop, lighting up the concave surfaces of the sails, gleaming on the wet paint of the white rails. and young powell turned his eyes to windward with a catch in his breath. the strange ship, a darker shape in the night, did not seem to be moving onwards but only to grow more distinct right abeam, staring at the _ferndale_ with one green and one red eye which swayed and tossed as if they belonged to the restless head of some invisible monster ambushed in the night amongst the waves. a moment, long like eternity, elapsed, and, suddenly, the monster which seemed to take to itself the shape of a mountain shut its green eye without as much as a preparatory wink. mr. powell drew a free breath. "all right now," said captain anthony in a quiet undertone. he gave the blazing flare to powell and walked aft to watch the passing of that menace of destruction coming blindly with its parti-coloured stare out of a blind night on the wings of a sweeping wind. her very form could be distinguished now black and elongated amongst the hissing patches of foam bursting along her path. as is always the case with a ship running before wind and sea she did not seem to an onlooker to move very fast; but to be progressing indolently in long leisurely bounds and pauses in the midst of the overtaking waves. it was only when actually passing the stern within easy hail of the _ferndale_, that her headlong speed became apparent to the eye. with the red light shut off and soaring like an immense shadow on the crest of a wave she was lost to view in one great, forward swing, melting into the lightless space. "close shave," said captain anthony in an indifferent voice just raised enough to be heard in the wind. "a blind lot on board that ship. put out the flare now." silently mr. powell inverted the holder, smothering the flame in the can, bringing about by the mere turn of his wrist the fall of darkness upon the poop. and at the same time vanished out of his mind's eye the vision of another flame enormous and fierce shooting violently from a white churned patch of the sea, lighting up the very clouds and carrying upwards in its volcanic rush flying spars, corpses, the fragments of two destroyed ships. it vanished and there was an immense relief. he told me he did not know how scared he had been, not generally but of that very thing his imagination had conjured, till it was all over. he measured it (for fear is a great tension) by the feeling of slack weariness which came over him all at once. he walked to the companion and stooping low to put the flare in its usual place saw in the darkness the motionless pale oval of mrs. anthony's face. she whispered quietly: "is anything going to happen? what is it?" "it's all over now," he whispered back. he remained bent low, his head inside the cover staring at that white ghostly oval. he wondered she had not rushed out on deck. she had remained quietly there. this was pluck. wonderful self-restraint. and it was not stupidity on her part. she knew there was imminent danger and probably had some notion of its nature. "you stayed here waiting for what would come," he murmured admiringly. "wasn't that the best thing to do?" she asked. he didn't know. perhaps. he confessed he could not have done it. not he. his flesh and blood could not have stood it. he would have felt he must see what was coming. then he remembered that the flare might have scorched her face, and expressed his concern. "a bit. nothing to hurt. smell the singed hair?" there was a sort of gaiety in her tone. she might have been frightened but she certainly was not overcome and suffered from no reaction. this confirmed and augmented if possible mr. powell's good opinion of her as a "jolly girl," though it seemed to him positively monstrous to refer in such terms to one's captain's wife. "but she doesn't look it," he thought in extenuation and was going to say something more to her about the lighting of that flare when another voice was heard in the companion, saying some indistinct words. its tone was contemptuous; it came from below, from the bottom of the stairs. it was a voice in the cabin. and the only other voice which could be heard in the main cabin at this time of the evening was the voice of mrs. anthony's father. the indistinct white oval sank from mr. powell's sight so swiftly as to take him by surprise. for a moment he hung at the opening of the companion and now that her slight form was no longer obstructing the narrow and winding staircase the voices came up louder but the words were still indistinct. the old gentleman was excited about something and mrs. anthony was "managing him" as powell expressed it. they moved away from the bottom of the stairs and powell went away from the companion. yet he fancied he had heard the words "lost to me" before he withdrew his head. they had been uttered by mr. smith. captain anthony had not moved away from the taffrail. he remained in the very position he took up to watch the other ship go by rolling and swinging all shadowy in the uproar of the following seas. he stirred not; and powell keeping near by did not dare speak to him, so enigmatical in its contemplation of the night did his figure appear to his young eyes: indistinct--and in its immobility staring into gloom, the prey of some incomprehensible grief, longing or regret. why is it that the stillness of a human being is often so impressive, so suggestive of evil--as if our proper fate were a ceaseless agitation? the stillness of captain anthony became almost intolerable to his second officer. mr. powell loitering about the skylight wanted his captain off the deck now. "why doesn't he go below?" he asked himself impatiently. he ventured a cough. whether the effect of the cough or not captain anthony spoke. he did not move the least bit. with his back remaining turned to the whole length of the ship he asked mr. powell with some brusqueness if the chief mate had neglected to instruct him that the captain was to be found on the port side. "yes, sir," said mr. powell approaching his back. "the mate told me to stamp on the port side when i wanted you; but i didn't remember at the moment." "you should remember," the captain uttered with an effort. then added mumbling "i don't want mrs. anthony frightened. don't you see? . . ." "she wasn't this time," powell said innocently: "she lighted the flare-up for me, sir." "this time," captain anthony exclaimed and turned round. "mrs. anthony lighted the flare? mrs. anthony! . . . " powell explained that she was in the companion all the time. "all the time," repeated the captain. it seemed queer to powell that instead of going himself to see the captain should ask him: "is she there now?" powell said that she had gone below after the ship had passed clear of the _ferndale_. captain anthony made a movement towards the companion himself, when powell added the information. "mr. smith called to mrs. anthony from the saloon, sir. i believe they are talking there now." he was surprised to see the captain give up the idea of going below after all. he began to walk the poop instead regardless of the cold, of the damp wind and of the sprays. and yet he had nothing on but his sleeping suit and slippers. powell placing himself on the break of the poop kept a look-out. when after some time he turned his head to steal a glance at his eccentric captain he could not see his active and shadowy figure swinging to and fro. the second mate of the _ferndale_ walked aft peering about and addressed the seaman who steered. "captain gone below?" "yes, sir," said the fellow who with a quid of tobacco bulging out his left cheek kept his eyes on the compass card. "this minute. he laughed." "laughed," repeated powell incredulously. "do you mean the captain did? you must be mistaken. what would he want to laugh for?" "don't know, sir." the elderly sailor displayed a profound indifference towards human emotions. however, after a longish pause he conceded a few words more to the second officer's weakness. "yes. he was walking the deck as usual when suddenly he laughed a little and made for the companion. thought of something funny all at once." something funny! that mr. powell could not believe. he did not ask himself why, at the time. funny thoughts come to men, though, in all sorts of situations; they come to all sorts of men. nevertheless mr. powell was shocked to learn that captain anthony had laughed without visible cause on a certain night. the impression for some reason was disagreeable. and it was then, while finishing his watch, with the chilly gusts of wind sweeping at him out of the darkness where the short sea of the soundings growled spitefully all round the ship, that it occurred to his unsophisticated mind that perhaps things are not what they are confidently expected to be; that it was possible that captain anthony was not a happy man . . . in so far you will perceive he was to a certain extent prepared for the apoplectic and sensitive franklin's lamentations about his captain. and though he treated them with a contempt which was in a great measure sincere, yet he admitted to me that deep down within him an inexplicable and uneasy suspicion that all was not well in that cabin, so unusually cut off from the rest of the ship, came into being and grew against his will. chapter four--anthony and flora marlow emerged out of the shadow of the book-case to get himself a cigar from a box which stood on a little table by my side. in the full light of the room i saw in his eyes that slightly mocking expression with which he habitually covers up his sympathetic impulses of mirth and pity before the unreasonable complications the idealism of mankind puts into the simple but poignant problem of conduct on this earth. he selected and lit the cigar with affected care, then turned upon me, i had been looking at him silently. "i suppose," he said, the mockery of his eyes giving a pellucid quality to his tone, "that you think it's high time i told you something definite. i mean something about that psychological cabin mystery of discomfort (for it's obvious that it must be psychological) which affected so profoundly mr. franklin the chief mate, and had even disturbed the serene innocence of mr. powell, the second of the ship _ferndale_, commanded by roderick anthony--the son of the poet, you know." "you are going to confess now that you have failed to find it out," i said in pretended indignation. "it would serve you right if i told you that i have. but i won't. i haven't failed. i own though that for a time, i was puzzled. however, i have now seen our powell many times under the most favourable conditions--and besides i came upon a most unexpected source of information . . . but never mind that. the means don't concern you except in so far as they belong to the story. i'll admit that for some time the old-maiden-lady-like occupation of putting two and two together failed to procure a coherent theory. i am speaking now as an investigator--a man of deductions. with what we know of roderick anthony and flora de barral i could not deduct an ordinary marital quarrel beautifully matured in less than a year--could i? if you ask me what is an ordinary marital quarrel i will tell you, that it is a difference about nothing; i mean, these nothings which, as mr. powell told us when we first met him, shore people are so prone to start a row about, and nurse into hatred from an idle sense of wrong, from perverted ambition, for spectacular reasons too. there are on earth no actors too humble and obscure not to have a gallery; that gallery which envenoms the play by stealthy jeers, counsels of anger, amused comments or words of perfidious compassion. however, the anthonys were free from all demoralizing influences. at sea, you know, there is no gallery. you hear no tormenting echoes of your own littleness there, where either a great elemental voice roars defiantly under the sky or else an elemental silence seems to be part of the infinite stillness of the universe. remembering flora de barral in the depths of moral misery, and roderick anthony carried away by a gust of tempestuous tenderness, i asked myself, is it all forgotten already? what could they have found to estrange them from each other with this rapidity and this thoroughness so far from all temptations, in the peace of the sea and in an isolation so complete that if it had not been the jealous devotion of the sentimental franklin stimulating the attention of powell, there would have been no record, no evidence of it at all. i must confess at once that it was flora de barral whom i suspected. in this world as at present organized women are the suspected half of the population. there are good reasons for that. these reasons are so discoverable with a little reflection that it is not worth my while to set them out for you. i will only mention this: that the part falling to women's share being all "influence" has an air of occult and mysterious action, something not altogether trustworthy like all natural forces which, for us, work in the dark because of our imperfect comprehension. if women were not a force of nature, blind in its strength and capricious in its power, they would not be mistrusted. as it is one can't help it. you will say that this force having been in the person of flora de barral captured by anthony . . . why yes. he had dealt with her masterfully. but man has captured electricity too. it lights him on his way, it warms his home, it will even cook his dinner for him--very much like a woman. but what sort of conquest would you call it? he knows nothing of it. he has got to be mighty careful what he is about with his captive. and the greater the demand he makes on it in the exultation of his pride the more likely it is to turn on him and burn him to a cinder . . . " "a far-fetched enough parallel," i observed coldly to marlow. he had returned to the arm-chair in the shadow of the bookcase. "but accepting the meaning you have in your mind it reduces itself to the knowledge of how to use it. and if you mean that this ravenous anthony--" "ravenous is good," interrupted marlow. "he was a-hungering and a-thirsting for femininity to enter his life in a way no mere feminist could have the slightest conception of. i reckon that this accounts for much of fyne's disgust with him. good little fyne. you have no idea what infernal mischief he had worked during his call at the hotel. but then who could have suspected anthony of being a heroic creature. there are several kinds of heroism and one of them at least is idiotic. it is the one which wears the aspect of sublime delicacy. it is apparently the one of which the son of the delicate poet was capable. he certainly resembled his father, who, by the way, wore out two women without any satisfaction to himself, because they did not come up to his supra-refined standard of the delicacy which is so perceptible in his verses. that's your poet. he demands too much from others. the inarticulate son had set up a standard for himself with that need for embodying in his conduct the dreams, the passion, the impulses the poet puts into arrangements of verses, which are dearer to him than his own self--and may make his own self appear sublime in the eyes of other people, and even in his own eyes. did anthony wish to appear sublime in his own eyes? i should not like to make that charge; though indeed there are other, less noble, ambitions at which the world does not dare to smile. but i don't think so; i do not even think that there was in what he did a conscious and lofty confidence in himself, a particularly pronounced sense of power which leads men so often into impossible or equivocal situations. looked at abstractedly (the way in which truth is often seen in its real shape) his life had been a life of solitude and silence--and desire. chance had thrown that girl in his way; and if we may smile at his violent conquest of flora de barral we must admit also that this eager appropriation was truly the act of a man of solitude and desire; a man also, who, unless a complete imbecile, must have been a man of long and ardent reveries wherein the faculty of sincere passion matures slowly in the unexplored recesses of the heart. and i know also that a passion, dominating or tyrannical, invading the whole man and subjugating all his faculties to its own unique end, may conduct him whom it spurs and drives, into all sorts of adventures, to the brink of unfathomable dangers, to the limits of folly, and madness, and death. to the man then of a silence made only more impressive by the inarticulate thunders and mutters of the great seas, an utter stranger to the clatter of tongues, there comes the muscular little fyne, the most marked representative of that mankind whose voice is so strange to him, the husband of his sister, a personality standing out from the misty and remote multitude. he comes and throws at him more talk than he had ever heard boomed out in an hour, and certainly touching the deepest things anthony had ever discovered in himself, and flings words like "unfair" whose very sound is abhorrent to him. unfair! undue advantage! he! unfair to that girl? cruel to her! no scorn could stand against the impression of such charges advanced with heat and conviction. they shook him. they were yet vibrating in the air of that stuffy hotel-room, terrific, disturbing, impossible to get rid of, when the door opened and flora de barral entered. he did not even notice that she was late. he was sitting on a sofa plunged in gloom. was it true? having himself always said exactly what he meant he imagined that people (unless they were liars, which of course his brother-in-law could not be) never said more than they meant. the deep chest voice of little fyne was still in his ear. "he knows," anthony said to himself. he thought he had better go away and never see her again. but she stood there before him accusing and appealing. how could he abandon her? that was out of the question. she had no one. or rather she had someone. that father. anthony was willing to take him at her valuation. this father may have been the victim of the most atrocious injustice. but what could a man coming out of jail do? an old man too. and then--what sort of man? what would become of them both? anthony shuddered slightly and the faint smile with which flora had entered the room faded on her lips. she was used to his impetuous tenderness. she was no longer afraid of it. but she had never seen him look like this before, and she suspected at once some new cruelty of life. he got up with his usual ardour but as if sobered by a momentous resolve and said: "no. i can't let you out of my sight. i have seen you. you have told me your story. you are honest. you have never told me you loved me." she waited, saying to herself that he had never given her time, that he had never asked her! and that, in truth, she did not know! i am inclined to believe that she did not. as abundance of experience is not precisely her lot in life, a woman is seldom an expert in matters of sentiment. it is the man who can and generally does "see himself" pretty well inside and out. women's self-possession is an outward thing; inwardly they flutter, perhaps because they are, or they feel themselves to be, engaged. all this speaking generally. in flora de barral's particular case ever since anthony had suddenly broken his way into her hopeless and cruel existence she lived like a person liberated from a condemned cell by a natural cataclysm, a tempest, an earthquake; not absolutely terrified, because nothing can be worse than the eve of execution, but stunned, bewildered--abandoning herself passively. she did not want to make a sound, to move a limb. she hadn't the strength. what was the good? and deep down, almost unconsciously she was seduced by the feeling of being supported by this violence. a sensation she had never experienced before in her life. she felt as if this whirlwind were calming down somehow! as if this feeling of support, which was tempting her to close her eyes deliciously and let herself be carried on and on into the unknown undefiled by vile experiences, were less certain, had wavered threateningly. she tried to read something in his face, in that energetic kindly face to which she had become accustomed so soon. but she was not yet capable of understanding its expression. scared, discouraged on the threshold of adolescence, plunged in moral misery of the bitterest kind, she had not learned to read--not that sort of language. if anthony's love had been as egoistic as love generally is, it would have been greater than the egoism of his vanity--or of his generosity, if you like--and all this could not have happened. he would not have hit upon that renunciation at which one does not know whether to grin or shudder. it is true too that then his love would not have fastened itself upon the unhappy daughter of de barral. but it was a love born of that rare pity which is not akin to contempt because rooted in an overwhelmingly strong capacity for tenderness--the tenderness of the fiery kind--the tenderness of silent solitary men, the voluntary, passionate outcasts of their kind. at the time i am forced to think that his vanity must have been enormous. "what big eyes she has," he said to himself amazed. no wonder. she was staring at him with all the might of her soul awakening slowly from a poisoned sleep, in which it could only quiver with pain but could neither expand nor move. he plunged into them breathless and tense, deep, deep, like a mad sailor taking a desperate dive from the masthead into the blue unfathomable sea so many men have execrated and loved at the same time. and his vanity was immense. it had been touched to the quick by that muscular little feminist, fyne. "i! i! take advantage of her helplessness. i! unfair to that creature--that wisp of mist, that white shadow homeless in an ugly dirty world. i could blow her away with a breath," he was saying to himself with horror. "never!" all the supremely refined delicacy of tenderness, expressed in so many fine lines of verse by carleon anthony, grew to the size of a passion filling with inward sobs the big frame of the man who had never in his life read a single one of those famous sonnets singing of the most highly civilized, chivalrous love, of those sonnets which . . . you know there's a volume of them. my edition has the portrait of the author at thirty, and when i showed it to mr. powell the other day he exclaimed: "wonderful! one would think this the portrait of captain anthony himself if . . ." i wanted to know what that if was. but powell could not say. there was something--a difference. no doubt there was--in fineness perhaps. the father, fastidious, cerebral, morbidly shrinking from all contacts, could only sing in harmonious numbers of what the son felt with a dumb and reckless sincerity. * * * * * possessed by most strong men's touching illusion as to the frailness of women and their spiritual fragility, it seemed to anthony that he would be destroying, breaking something very precious inside that being. in fact nothing less than partly murdering her. this seems a very extreme effect to flow from fyne's words. but anthony, unaccustomed to the chatter of the firm earth, never stayed to ask himself what value these words could have in fyne's mouth. and indeed the mere dark sound of them was utterly abhorrent to his native rectitude, sea-salted, hardened in the winds of wide horizons, open as the day. he wished to blurt out his indignation but she regarded him with an expectant air which checked him. his visible discomfort made her uneasy. he could only repeat "oh yes. you are perfectly honest. you might have, but i dare say you are right. at any rate you have never said anything to me which you didn't mean." "never," she whispered after a pause. he seemed distracted, choking with an emotion she could not understand because it resembled embarrassment, a state of mind inconceivable in that man. she wondered what it was she had said; remembering that in very truth she had hardly spoken to him except when giving him the bare outline of her story which he seemed to have hardly had the patience to hear, waving it perpetually aside with exclamations of horror and anger, with fiercely sombre mutters "enough! enough!" and with alarming starts from a forced stillness, as though he meant to rush out at once and take vengeance on somebody. she was saying to herself that he caught her words in the air, never letting her finish her thought. honest. honest. yes certainly she had been that. her letter to mrs. fyne had been prompted by honesty. but she reflected sadly that she had never known what to say to him. that perhaps she had nothing to say. "but you'll find out that i can be honest too," he burst out in a menacing tone, she had learned to appreciate with an amused thrill. she waited for what was coming. but he hung in the wind. he looked round the room with disgust as if he could see traces on the walls of all the casual tenants that had ever passed through it. people had quarrelled in that room; they had been ill in it, there had been misery in that room, wickedness, crime perhaps--death most likely. this was not a fit place. he snatched up his hat. he had made up his mind. the ship--the ship he had known ever since she came off the stocks, his home--her shelter--the uncontaminated, honest ship, was the place. "let us go on board. we'll talk there," he said. "and you will have to listen to me. for whatever happens, no matter what they say, i cannot let you go." you can't say that (misgivings or no misgivings) she could have done anything else but go on board. it was the appointed business of that morning. during the drive he was silent. anthony was the last man to condemn conventionally any human being, to scorn and despise even deserved misfortune. he was ready to take old de barral--the convict--on his daughter's valuation without the slightest reserve. but love like his, though it may drive one into risky folly by the proud consciousness of its own strength, has a sagacity of its own. and now, as if lifted up into a higher and serene region by its purpose of renunciation, it gave him leisure to reflect for the first time in these last few days. he said to himself: "i don't know that man. she does not know him either. she was barely sixteen when they locked him up. she was a child. what will he say? what will he do? no, he concluded, i cannot leave her behind with that man who would come into the world as if out of a grave. they went on board in silence, and it was after showing her round and when they had returned to the saloon that he assailed her in his fiery, masterful fashion. at first she did not understand. then when she understood that he was giving her her liberty she went stiff all over, her hand resting on the edge of the table, her face set like a carving of white marble. it was all over. it was as that abominable governess had said. she was insignificant, contemptible. nobody could love her. humiliation clung to her like a cold shroud--never to be shaken off, unwarmed by this madness of generosity. "yes. here. your home. i can't give it to you and go away, but it is big enough for us two. you need not be afraid. if you say so i shall not even look at you. remember that grey head of which you have been thinking night and day. where is it going to rest? where else if not here, where nothing evil can touch it. don't you understand that i won't let you buy shelter from me at the cost of your very soul. i won't. you are too much part of me. i have found myself since i came upon you and i would rather sell my own soul to the devil than let you go out of my keeping. but i must have the right." he went away brusquely to shut the door leading on deck and came back the whole length of the cabin repeating: "i must have the legal right. are you ashamed of letting people think you are my wife?" he opened his arms as if to clasp her to his breast but mastered the impulse and shook his clenched hands at her, repeating: "i must have the right if only for your father's sake. i must have the right. where would you take him? to that infernal cardboard box-maker. i don't know what keeps me from hunting him up in his virtuous home and bashing his head in. i can't bear the thought. listen to me, flora! do you hear what i am saying to you? you are not so proud that you can't understand that i as a man have my pride too?" he saw a tear glide down her white cheek from under each lowered eyelid. then, abruptly, she walked out of the cabin. he stood for a moment, concentrated, reckoning his own strength, interrogating his heart, before he followed her hastily. already she had reached the wharf. at the sound of his pursuing footsteps her strength failed her. where could she escape from this? from this new perfidy of life taking upon itself the form of magnanimity. his very voice was changed. the sustaining whirlwind had let her down, to stumble on again, weakened by the fresh stab, bereft of moral support which is wanted in life more than all the charities of material help. she had never had it. never. not from the fynes. but where to go? oh yes, this dock--a placid sheet of water close at hand. but there was that old man with whom she had walked hand in hand on the parade by the sea. she seemed to see him coming to meet her, pitiful, a little greyer, with an appealing look and an extended, tremulous arm. it was for her now to take the hand of that wronged man more helpless than a child. but where could she lead him? where? and what was she to say to him? what words of cheer, of cour