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mess. but few of any sort, and none of name. leon. a victory is twice itself when the achiever brings home full numbers. i find here that don pedro hath bestowed much honour on a young florentine called claudio. mess. much deserv'd on his part, and equally rememb'red by don pedro. he hath borne himself beyond the promise of his age, doing in the figure of a lamb the feats of a lion. he hath indeed better bett'red expectation than you must expect of me to tell you how. leon. he hath an uncle here in messina will be very much glad of it. mess. i have already delivered him letters, and there appears much joy in him; even so much that joy could not show itself modest enough without a badge of bitterness. leon. did he break out into tears? mess. in great measure. leon. a kind overflow of kindness. there are no faces truer than those that are so wash'd. how much better is it to weep at joy than to joy at weeping! beat. i pray you, is signior mountanto return'd from the wars or no? mess. i know none of that name, lady. there was none such in the army of any sort. leon. what is he that you ask for, niece? hero. my cousin means signior benedick of padua. mess. o, he's return'd, and as pleasant as ever he was. beat. he set up his bills here in messina and challeng'd cupid at the flight, and my uncle's fool, reading the challenge, subscrib'd for cupid and challeng'd him at the burbolt. i pray you, how many hath he kill'd and eaten in these wars? but how many hath he kill'd? for indeed i promised to eat all of his killing. leon. faith, niece, you tax signior benedick too much; but he'll be meet with you, i doubt it not. mess. he hath done good service, lady, in these wars. beat. you had musty victual, and he hath holp to eat it. he is a very valiant trencherman; he hath an excellent stomach. mess. and a good soldier too, lady. beat. and a good soldier to a lady; but what is he to a lord? mess. a lord to a lord, a man to a man; stuff'd with all honourable virtues. beat. it is so indeed. he is no less than a stuff'd man; but for the stuffing--well, we are all mortal. leon. you must not, sir, mistake my niece. there is a kind of merry war betwixt signior benedick and her. they never meet but there's a skirmish of wit between them. beat. alas, he gets nothing by that! in our last conflict four of his five wits went halting off, and now is the whole man govern'd with one; so that if he have wit enough to keep himself warm, let him bear it for a difference between himself and his horse; for it is all the wealth that he hath left to be known a reasonable creature. who is his companion now? he hath every month a new sworn brother. mess. is't possible? beat. very easily possible. he wears his faith but as the fashion of his hat; it ever changes with the next block. mess. i see, lady, the gentleman is not in your books. beat. no. an he were, i would burn my study. but i pray you, who is his companion? is there no young squarer now that will make a voyage with him to the devil? mess. he is most in the company of the right noble claudio. beat. o lord, he will hang upon him like a disease! he is sooner caught than the pestilence, and the taker runs presently mad. god help the noble claudio! if he have caught the benedick, it will cost him a thousand pound ere 'a be cured. mess. i will hold friends with you, lady. beat. do, good friend. leon. you will never run mad, niece. beat. no, not till a hot january. mess. don pedro is approach'd. enter don pedro, claudio, benedick, balthasar, and john the bastard. pedro. good signior leonato, are you come to meet your trouble? the fashion of the world is to avoid cost, and you encounter it. leon. never came trouble to my house in the likeness of your grace; for trouble being gone, comfort should remain; but when you depart from me, sorrow abides and happiness takes his leave. pedro. you embrace your charge too willingly. i think this is your daughter. leon. her mother hath many times told me so. bene. were you in doubt, sir, that you ask'd her? leon. signior benedick, no; for then were you a child. pedro. you have it full, benedick. we may guess by this what you are, being a man. truly the lady fathers herself. be happy, lady; for you are like an honourable father. bene. if signior leonato be her father, she would not have his head on her shoulders for all messina, as like him as she is. beat. i wonder that you will still be talking, signior benedick. nobody marks you. bene. what, my dear lady disdain! are you yet living? beat. is it possible disdain should die while she hath such meet food to feed it as signior benedick? courtesy itself must convert to disdain if you come in her presence. bene. then is courtesy a turncoat. but it is certain i am loved of all ladies, only you excepted; and i would i could find in my heart that i had not a hard heart, for truly i love none. beat. a dear happiness to women! they would else have been troubled with a pernicious suitor. i thank god and my cold blood, i am of your humour for that. i had rather hear my dog bark at a crow than a man swear he loves me. bene. god keep your ladyship still in that mind! so some gentleman or other shall scape a predestinate scratch'd face. beat. scratching could not make it worse an 'twere such a face as yours were. bene. well, you are a rare parrot-teacher. beat. a bird of my tongue is better than a beast of yours. bene. i would my horse had the speed of your tongue, and so good a continuer. but keep your way, a god's name! i have done. beat. you always end with a jade's trick. i know you of old. pedro. that is the sum of all, leonato. signior claudio and signior benedick, my dear friend leonato hath invited you all. i tell him we shall stay here at the least a month, and he heartly prays some occasion may detain us longer. i dare swear he is no hypocrite, but prays from his heart. leon. if you swear, my lord, you shall not be forsworn. [to don john] let me bid you welcome, my lord. being reconciled to the prince your brother, i owe you all duty. john. i thank you. i am not of many words, but i thank you. leon. please it your grace lead on? pedro. your hand, leonato. we will go together. exeunt. manent benedick and claudio. claud. benedick, didst thou note the daughter of signior leonato? bene. i noted her not, but i look'd on her. claud. is she not a modest young lady? bene. do you question me, as an honest man should do, for my simple true judgment? or would you have me speak after my custom, as being a professed tyrant to their sex? claud. no. i pray thee speak in sober judgment. bene. why, i' faith, methinks she's too low for a high praise, too brown for a fair praise, and too little for a great praise. only this commendation i can afford her, that were she other than she is, she were unhandsome, and being no other but as she is, i do not like her. claud. thou thinkest i am in sport. i pray thee tell me truly how thou lik'st her. bene. would you buy her, that you enquire after her? claud. can the world buy such a jewel? bene. yea, and a case to put it into. but speak you this with a sad brow? or do you play the flouting jack, to tell us cupid is a good hare-finder and vulcan a rare carpenter? come, in what key shall a man take you to go in the song? claud. in mine eye she is the sweetest lady that ever i look'd on. bene. i can see yet without spectacles, and i see no such matter. there's her cousin, an she were not possess'd with a fury,exceeds her as much in beauty as the first of may doth the last of december. but i hope you have no intent to turn husband, have you? claud. i would scarce trust myself, though i had sworn the contrary, if hero would be my wife. bene. is't come to this? in faith, hath not the world one man but he will wear his cap with suspicion? shall i never see a bachelor of threescore again? go to, i' faith! an thou wilt needs thrust thy neck into a yoke, wear the print of it and sigh away sundays. enter don pedro. look! don pedro is returned to seek you. pedro. what secret hath held you here, that you followed not to leonato's? bene. i would your grace would constrain me to tell. pedro. i charge thee on thy allegiance. bene. you hear, count claudio. i can be secret as a dumb man, i would have you think so; but, on my allegiance--mark you this-on my allegiance! he is in love. with who? now that is your grace's part. mark how short his answer is: with hero, leonato's short daughter. claud. if this were so, so were it utt'red. bene. like the old tale, my lord: 'it is not so, nor 'twas not so; but indeed, god forbid it should be so!' claud. if my passion change not shortly, god forbid it should be otherwise. pedro. amen, if you love her; for the lady is very well worthy. claud. you speak this to fetch me in, my lord. pedro. by my troth, i speak my thought. claud. and, in faith, my lord, i spoke mine. bene. and, by my two faiths and troths, my lord, i spoke mine. claud. that i love her, i feel. pedro. that she is worthy, i know. bene. that i neither feel how she should be loved, nor know how she should be worthy, is the opinion that fire cannot melt out of me. i will die in it at the stake. pedro. thou wast ever an obstinate heretic in the despite of beauty. claud. and never could maintain his part but in the force of his will. bene. that a woman conceived me, i thank her; that she brought me up, i likewise give her most humble thanks; but that i will have a rechate winded in my forehead, or hang my bugle in an invisible baldrick, all women shall pardon me. because i will not do them the wrong to mistrust any, i will do myself the right to trust none; and the fine is (for the which i may go the finer), i will live a bachelor. pedro. i shall see thee, ere i die, look pale with love. bene. with anger, with sickness, or with hunger, my lord; not with love. prove that ever i lose more blood with love than i will get again with drinking, pick out mine eyes with a ballad-maker's pen and hang me up at the door of a brothel house for the sign of blind cupid. pedro. well, if ever thou dost fall from this faith, thou wilt prove a notable argument. bene. if i do, hang me in a bottle like a cat and shoot at me; and he that hits me, let him be clapp'd on the shoulder and call'd adam. pedro. well, as time shall try. 'in time the savage bull doth bear the yoke.' bene. the savage bull may; but if ever the sensible benedick bear it, pluck off the bull's horns and set them in my forehead, and let me be vilely painted, and in such great letters as they write 'here is good horse to hire,' let them signify under my sign 'here you may see benedick the married man.' claud. if this should ever happen, thou wouldst be horn-mad. pedro. nay, if cupid have not spent all his quiver in venice, thou wilt quake for this shortly. bene. i look for an earthquake too then. pedro. well, you will temporize with the hours. in the meantime, good signior benedick, repair to leonato's, commend me to him and tell him i will not fail him at supper; for indeed he hath made great preparation. bene. i have almost matter enough in me for such an embassage; and so i commit you- claud. to the tuition of god. from my house--if i had it- pedro. the sixth of july. your loving friend, benedick. bene. nay, mock not, mock not. the body of your discourse is sometime guarded with fragments, and the guards are but slightly basted on neither. ere you flout old ends any further, examine your conscience. and so i leave you. exit. claud. my liege, your highness now may do me good. pedro. my love is thine to teach. teach it but how, and thou shalt see how apt it is to learn any hard lesson that may do thee good. claud. hath leonato any son, my lord? pedro. no child but hero; she's his only heir. dost thou affect her, claudio? claud.o my lord, when you went onward on this ended action, i look'd upon her with a soldier's eye, that lik'd, but had a rougher task in hand than to drive liking to the name of love; but now i am return'd and that war-thoughts have left their places vacant, in their rooms come thronging soft and delicate desires, all prompting me how fair young hero is, saying i lik'd her ere i went to wars. pedro. thou wilt be like a lover presently and tire the hearer with a book of words. if thou dost love fair hero, cherish it, and i will break with her and with her father, and thou shalt have her. wast not to this end that thou began'st to twist so fine a story? claud. how sweetly you do minister to love, that know love's grief by his complexion! but lest my liking might too sudden seem, i would have salv'd it with a longer treatise. pedro. what need the bridge much broader than the flood? the fairest grant is the necessity. look, what will serve is fit. 'tis once, thou lovest, and i will fit thee with the remedy. i know we shall have revelling to-night. i will assume thy part in some disguise and tell fair hero i am claudio, and in her bosom i'll unclasp my heart and take her hearing prisoner with the force and strong encounter of my amorous tale. then after to her father will i break, and the conclusion is, she shall be thine. in practice let us put it presently. exeunt. scene ii. a room in leonato's house. enter [at one door] leonato and [at another door, antonio] an old man, brother to leonato. leon. how now, brother? where is my cousin your son? hath he provided this music? ant. he is very busy about it. but, brother, i can tell you strange news that you yet dreamt not of. leon. are they good? ant. as the event stamps them; but they have a good cover, they show well outward. the prince and count claudio, walking in a thick-pleached alley in mine orchard, were thus much overheard by a man of mine: the prince discovered to claudio that he loved my niece your daughter and meant to acknowledge it this night in a dance, and if he found her accordant, he meant to take the present time by the top and instantly break with you of it. leon. hath the fellow any wit that told you this? ant. a good sharp fellow. i will send for him, and question him yourself. leon. no, no. we will hold it as a dream till it appear itself; but i will acquaint my daughter withal, that she may be the better prepared for an answer, if peradventure this be true. go you and tell her of it. [exit antonio.] [enter antonio's son with a musician, and others.] [to the son] cousin, you know what you have to do. --[to the musician] o, i cry you mercy, friend. go you with me, and i will use your skill.--good cousin, have a care this busy time. exeunt. scene iii. another room in leonato's house.] enter sir john the bastard and conrade, his companion. con. what the goodyear, my lord! why are you thus out of measure sad? john. there is no measure in the occasion that breeds; therefore the sadness is without limit. con. you should hear reason. john. and when i have heard it, what blessings brings it? con. if not a present remedy, at least a patient sufferance. john. i wonder that thou (being, as thou say'st thou art, born under saturn) goest about to apply a moral medicine to a mortifying mischief. i cannot hide what i am: i must be sad when i have cause, and smile at no man's jests; eat when i have stomach, and wait for no man's leisure; sleep when i am drowsy, and tend on no man's business; laugh when i am merry, and claw no man in his humour. con. yea, but you must not make the full show of this till you may do it without controlment. you have of late stood out against your brother, and he hath ta'en you newly into his grace, where it is impossible you should take true root but by the fair weather that you make yourself. it is needful that you frame the season for your own harvest. john. i had rather be a canker in a hedge than a rose in his grace, and it better fits my blood to be disdain'd of all than to fashion a carriage to rob love from any. in this, though i cannot be said to be a flattering honest man, it must not be denied but i am a plain-dealing villain. i am trusted with a muzzle and enfranchis'd with a clog; therefore i have decreed not to sing in my cage. if i had my mouth, i would bite; if i had my liberty, i would do my liking. in the meantime let me be that i am, and seek not to alter me. con. can you make no use of your discontent? john. i make all use of it, for i use it only. enter borachio. who comes here? what news, borachio? bora. i came yonder from a great supper. the prince your brother is royally entertain'd by leonato, and i can give you intelligence of an intended marriage. john. will it serve for any model to build mischief on? what is he for a fool that betroths himself to unquietness? bora. marry, it is your brother's right hand. john. who? the most exquisite claudio? bora. even he. john. a proper squire! and who? and who? which way looks he? bora. marry, on hero, the daughter and heir of leonato. john. a very forward march-chick! how came you to this? bora. being entertain'd for a perfumer, as i was smoking a musty room, comes me the prince and claudio, hand in hand in sad conference. i whipt me behind the arras and there heard it agreed upon that the prince should woo hero for himself, and having obtain'd her, give her to count claudio. john. come, come, let us thither. this may prove food to my displeasure. that young start-up hath all the glory of my overthrow. if i can cross him any way, i bless myself every way. you are both sure, and will assist me? con. to the death, my lord. john. let us to the great supper. their cheer is the greater that i am subdued. would the cook were o' my mind! shall we go prove what's to be done? bora. we'll wait upon your lordship. exeunt. <<this electronic version of the complete works of william shakespeare is copyright 1990-1993 by world library, inc., and is provided by project gutenberg etext of carnegie mellon university with permission. electronic and machine readable copies may be distributed so long as such copies (1) are for your or others personal use only, and (2) are not distributed or used commercially. prohibited commercial distribution includes by any service that charges for download time or for membership.>> act ii. scene i. a hall in leonato's house. enter leonato, [antonio] his brother, hero his daughter, and beatrice his niece, and a kinsman; [also margaret and ursula]. leon. was not count john here at supper? ant. i saw him not. beat. how tartly that gentleman looks! i never can see him but i am heart-burn'd an hour after. hero. he is of a very melancholy disposition. beat. he were an excellent man that were made just in the midway between him and benedick. the one is too like an image and says nothing, and the other too like my lady's eldest son, evermore tattling. leon. then half signior benedick's tongue in count john's mouth, and half count john's melancholy in signior benedick's face- beat. with a good leg and a good foot, uncle, and money enough in his purse, such a man would win any woman in the world--if 'a could get her good will. leon. by my troth, niece, thou wilt never get thee a husband if thou be so shrewd of thy tongue. ant. in faith, she's too curst. beat. too curst is more than curst. i shall lessen god's sending that way, for it is said, 'god sends a curst cow short horns,' but to a cow too curst he sends none. leon. so, by being too curst, god will send you no horns. beat. just, if he send me no husband; for the which blessing i am at him upon my knees every morning and evening. lord, i could not endure a husband with a beard on his face. i had rather lie in the woollen! leon. you may light on a husband that hath no beard. beat. what should i do with him? dress him in my apparel and make him my waiting gentlewoman? he that hath a beard is more than a youth, and he that hath no beard is less than a man; and he that is more than a youth is not for me; and he that is less than a man, i am not for him. therefore i will even take sixpence in earnest of the berrord and lead his apes into hell. leon. well then, go you into hell? beat. no; but to the gate, and there will the devil meet me like an old cuckold with horns on his head, and say 'get you to heaven, beatrice, get you to heaven. here's no place for you maids.' so deliver i up my apes, and away to saint peter--for the heavens. he shows me where the bachelors sit, and there live we as merry as the day is long. ant. [to hero] well, niece, i trust you will be rul'd by your father. beat. yes faith. it is my cousin's duty to make cursy and say, 'father, as it please you.' but yet for all that, cousin, let him be a handsome fellow, or else make another cursy, and say, 'father, as it please me.' leon. well, niece, i hope to see you one day fitted with a husband. beat. not till god make men of some other metal than earth. would it not grieve a woman to be overmaster'd with a piece of valiant dust? to make an account of her life to a clod of wayward marl? no, uncle, i'll none. adam's sons are my brethren, and truly i hold it a sin to match in my kinred. leon. daughter, remember what i told you. if the prince do solicit you in that kind, you know your answer. beat. the fault will be in the music, cousin, if you be not wooed in good time. if the prince be too important, tell him there is measure in everything, and so dance out the answer. for, hear me, hero: wooing, wedding, and repenting is as a scotch jig, a measure, and a cinque-pace: the first suit is hot and hasty like a scotch jig--and full as fantastical; the wedding, mannerly modest, as a measure, full of state and ancientry; and then comes repentance and with his bad legs falls into the cinque-pace faster and faster, till he sink into his grave. leon. cousin, you apprehend passing shrewdly. beat. i have a good eye, uncle; i can see a church by daylight. leon. the revellers are ent'ring, brother. make good room. [exit antonio.] enter, [masked,] don pedro, claudio, benedick, and balthasar. [with them enter antonio, also masked. after them enter] don john [and borachio (without masks), who stand aside and look on during the dance]. pedro. lady, will you walk a bout with your friend? hero. so you walk softly and look sweetly and say nothing, i am yours for the walk; and especially when i walk away. pedro. with me in your company? hero. i may say so when i please. pedro. and when please you to say so? hero. when i like your favour, for god defend the lute should be like the case! pedro. my visor is philemon's roof; within the house is jove. hero. why then, your visor should be thatch'd. pedro. speak low if you speak love. [takes her aside.] balth. well, i would you did like me. marg. so would not i for your own sake, for i have many ill qualities. balth. which is one? marg. i say my prayers aloud. balth. i love you the better. the hearers may cry amen. marg. god match me with a good dancer! balth. amen. marg. and god keep him out of my sight when the dance is done! answer, clerk. balth. no more words. the clerk is answered. [takes her aside.] urs. i know you well enough. you are signior antonio. ant. at a word, i am not. urs. i know you by the waggling of your head. ant. to tell you true, i counterfeit him. urs. you could never do him so ill-well unless you were the very man. here's his dry hand up and down. you are he, you are he! ant. at a word, i am not. urs. come, come, do you think i do not know you by your excellent wit? can virtue hide itself? go to, mum you are he. graces will appear, and there's an end. [ they step aside.] beat. will you not tell me who told you so? bene. no, you shall pardon me. beat. nor will you not tell me who you are? bene. not now. beat. that i was disdainful, and that i had my good wit out of the 'hundred merry tales.' well, this was signior benedick that said so. bene. what's he? beat. i am sure you know him well enough. bene. not i, believe me. beat. did he never make you laugh? bene. i pray you, what is he? beat. why, he is the prince's jester, a very dull fool. only his gift is in devising impossible slanders. none but libertines delight in him; and the commendation is not in his wit, but in his villany; for he both pleases men and angers them, and then they laugh at him and beat him. i am sure he is in the fleet. i would he had boarded me. bene. when i know the gentleman, i'll tell him what you say. beat. do, do. he'll but break a comparison or two on me; which peradventure, not marked or not laugh'd at, strikes him into melancholy; and then there's a partridge wing saved, for the fool will eat no supper that night. [music.] we must follow the leaders. bene. in every good thing. beat. nay, if they lead to any ill, i will leave them at the next turning. dance. exeunt (all but don john, borachio, and claudio]. john. sure my brother is amorous on hero and hath withdrawn her father to break with him about it. the ladies follow her and but one visor remains. bora. and that is claudio. i know him by his bearing. john. are you not signior benedick? claud. you know me well. i am he. john. signior, you are very near my brother in his love. he is enamour'd on hero. i pray you dissuade him from her; she is no equal for his birth. you may do the part of an honest man in it. claud. how know you he loves her? john. i heard him swear his affection. bora. so did i too, and he swore he would marry her tonight. john. come, let us to the banquet. exeunt. manet claudio. claud. thus answer i in name of benedick but hear these ill news with the ears of claudio. [unmasks.] 'tis certain so. the prince wooes for himself. friendship is constant in all other things save in the office and affairs of love. therefore all hearts in love use their own tongues; let every eye negotiate for itself and trust no agent; for beauty is a witch against whose charms faith melteth into blood. this is an accident of hourly proof, which i mistrusted not. farewell therefore hero! enter benedick [unmasked]. bene. count claudio? claud. yea, the same. bene. come, will you go with me? claud. whither? bene. even to the next willow, about your own business, county. what fashion will you wear the garland of? about your neck, like an usurer's chain? or under your arm, like a lieutenant's scarf? you must wear it one way, for the prince hath got your hero. claud. i wish him joy of her. bene. why, that's spoken like an honest drovier. so they sell bullocks. but did you think the prince would have served you thus? claud. i pray you leave me. bene. ho! now you strike like the blind man! 'twas the boy that stole your meat, and you'll beat the post. claud. if it will not be, i'll leave you. exit. bene. alas, poor hurt fowl! now will he creep into sedges. but, that my lady beatrice should know me, and not know me! the prince's fool! ha! it may be i go under that title because i am merry. yea, but so i am apt to do myself wrong. i am not so reputed. it is the base (though bitter) disposition of beatrice that puts the world into her person and so gives me out. well, i'll be revenged as i may. enter don pedro. pedro. now, signior, where's the count? did you see him? bene. troth, my lord, i have played the part of lady fame, i found him here as melancholy as a lodge in a warren. i told him, and i think i told him true, that your grace had got the good will of this young lady, and i off'red him my company to a willow tree, either to make him a garland, as being forsaken, or to bind him up a rod, as being worthy to be whipt. pedro. to be whipt? what's his fault? bene. the flat transgression of a schoolboy who, being overjoyed with finding a bird's nest, shows it his companion, and he steals it. pedro. wilt thou make a trust a transgression? the transgression is in the stealer. bene. yet it had not been amiss the rod had been made, and the garland too; for the garland he might have worn himself, and the rod he might have bestowed on you, who, as i take it, have stol'n his bird's nest. pedro. i will but teach them to sing and restore them to the owner. bene. if their singing answer your saying, by my faith you say honestly. pedro. the lady beatrice hath a quarrel to you. the gentleman that danc'd with her told her she is much wrong'd by you. bene. o, she misus'd me past the endurance of a block! an oak but with one green leaf on it would have answered her; my very visor began to assume life and scold with her. she told me, not thinking i had been myself, that i was the prince's jester, that i was duller than a great thaw; huddling jest upon jest with such impossible conveyance upon me that i stood like a man at a mark, with a whole army shooting at me. she speaks poniards, and every word stabs. if her breath were as terrible as her terminations, there were no living near her; she would infect to the north star. i would not marry her though she were endowed with all that adam had left him before he transgress'd. she would have made hercules have turn'd spit, yea, and have cleft his club to make the fire too. come, talk not of her. you shall find her the infernal ate in good apparel. i would to god some scholar would conjure her, for certainly, while she is here, a man may live as quiet in hell as in a sanctuary; and people sin upon purpose, because they would go thither; so indeed all disquiet, horror, and perturbation follows her. enter claudio and beatrice, leonato, hero. pedro. look, here she comes. bene. will your grace command me any service to the world's end? i will go on the slightest errand now to the antipodes that you can devise to send me on; i will fetch you a toothpicker now from the furthest inch of asia; bring you the length of prester john's foot; fetch you a hair off the great cham's beard; do you any embassage to the pygmies--rather than hold three words' conference with this harpy. you have no employment for me? pedro. none, but to desire your good company. bene. o god, sir, here's a dish i love not! i cannot endure my lady tongue. [exit.] pedro. come, lady, come; you have lost the heart of signior benedick. beat. indeed, my lord, he lent it me awhile, and i gave him use for it--a double heart for his single one. marry, once before he won it of me with false dice; therefore your grace may well say i have lost it. pedro. you have put him down, lady; you have put him down. beat. so i would not he should do me, my lord, lest i should prove the mother of fools. i have brought count claudio, whom you sent me to seek. pedro. why, how now, count? wherefore are you sad? claud. not sad, my lord. pedro. how then? sick? claud. neither, my lord. beat. the count is neither sad, nor sick, nor merry, nor well; but civil count--civil as an orange, and something of that jealous complexion. pedro. i' faith, lady, i think your blazon to be true; though i'll be sworn, if he be so, his conceit is false. here, claudio, i have wooed in thy name, and fair hero is won. i have broke with her father, and his good will obtained. name the day of marriage, and god give thee joy! leon. count, take of me my daughter, and with her my fortunes. his grace hath made the match, and all grace say amen to it! beat. speak, count, 'tis your cue. claud. silence is the perfectest herald of joy. i were but little happy if i could say how much. lady, as you are mine, i am yours. i give away myself for you and dote upon the exchange. beat. speak, cousin; or, if you cannot, stop his mouth with a kiss and let not him speak neither. pedro. in faith, lady, you have a merry heart. beat. yea, my lord; i thank it, poor fool, it keeps on the windy side of care. my cousin tells him in his ear that he is in her heart. claud. and so she doth, cousin. beat. good lord, for alliance! thus goes every one to the world but i, and i am sunburnt. i may sit in a corner and cry 'heigh-ho for a husband!' pedro. lady beatrice, i will get you one. beat. i would rather have one of your father's getting. hath your grace ne'er a brother like you? your father got excellent husbands, if a maid could come by them. pedro. will you have me, lady? beat. no, my lord, unless i might have another for working days: your grace is too costly to wear every day. but i beseech your grace pardon me. i was born to speak all mirth and no matter. pedro. your silence most offends me, and to be merry best becomes you, for out o' question you were born in a merry hour. beat. no, sure, my lord, my mother cried; but then there was a star danc'd, and under that was i born. cousins, god give you joy! leon. niece, will you look to those things i told you of? beat. i cry you mercy, uncle, by your grace's pardon. exit. pedro. by my troth, a pleasant-spirited lady. leon. there's little of the melancholy element in her, my lord. she is never sad but when she sleeps, and not ever sad then; for i have heard my daughter say she hath often dreamt of unhappiness and wak'd herself with laughing. pedro. she cannot endure to hear tell of a husband. leon. o, by no means! she mocks all her wooers out of suit. pedro. she were an excellent wife for benedick. leon. o lord, my lord! if they were but a week married, they would talk themselves mad. pedro. county claudio, when mean you to go to church? claud. to-morrow, my lord. time goes on crutches till love have all his rites. leon. not till monday, my dear son, which is hence a just sevennight; and a time too brief too, to have all things answer my mind. pedro. come, you shake the head at so long a breathing; but i warrant thee, claudio, the time shall not go dully by us. i will in the interim undertake one of hercules' labours, which is, to bring signior benedick and the lady beatrice into a mountain of affection th' one with th' other. i would fain have it a match, and i doubt not but to fashion it if you three will but minister such assistance as i shall give you direction. leon. my lord, i am for you, though it cost me ten nights' watchings. claud. and i, my lord. pedro. and you too, gentle hero? hero. i will do any modest office, my lord, to help my cousin to a good husband. pedro. and benedick is not the unhopefullest husband that i know. thus far can i praise him: he is of a noble strain, of approved valour, and confirm'd honesty. i will teach you how to humour your cousin, that she shall fall in love with benedick; and i, [to leonato and claudio] with your two helps, will so practise on benedick that, in despite of his quick wit and his queasy stomach, he shall fall in love with beatrice. if we can do this, cupid is no longer an archer; his glory shall be ours, for we are the only love-gods. go in with me, and i will tell you my drift. exeunt. scene ii. a hall in leonato's house. enter [don] john and borachio. john. it is so. the count claudio shall marry the daughter of leonato. bora. yea, my lord; but i can cross it. john. any bar, any cross, any impediment will be med'cinable to me. i am sick in displeasure to him, and whatsoever comes athwart his affection ranges evenly with mine. how canst thou cross this marriage? bora. not honestly, my lord, but so covertly that no dishonesty shall appear in me. john. show me briefly how. bora. i think i told your lordship, a year since, how much i am in the favour of margaret, the waiting gentlewoman to hero. john. i remember. bora. i can, at any unseasonable instant of the night, appoint her to look out at her lady's chamber window. john. what life is in that to be the death of this marriage? bora. the poison of that lies in you to temper. go you to the prince your brother; spare not to tell him that he hath wronged his honour in marrying the renowned claudio (whose estimation do you mightily hold up) to a contaminated stale, such a one as hero. john. what proof shall i make of that? bora. proof enough to misuse the prince, to vex claudio, to undo hero, and kill leonato. look you for any other issue? john. only to despite them i will endeavour anything. bora. go then; find me a meet hour to draw don pedro and the count claudio alone; tell them that you know that hero loves me; intend a kind of zeal both to the prince and claudio, as--in love of your brother's honour, who hath made this match, and his friend's reputation, who is thus like to be cozen'd with the semblance of a maid--that you have discover'd thus. they will scarcely believe this without trial. offer them instances; which shall bear no less likelihood than to see me at her chamber window, hear me call margaret hero, hear margaret term me claudio; and bring them to see this the very night before the intended wedding (for in the meantime i will so fashion the matter that hero shall be absent) and there shall appear such seeming truth of hero's disloyalty that jealousy shall be call'd assurance and all the preparation overthrown. john. grow this to what adverse issue it can, i will put it in practice. be cunning in the working this, and thy fee is a thousand ducats. bora. be you constant in the accusation, and my cunning shall not shame me. john. i will presently go learn their day of marriage. exeunt. scene iii. leonato's orchard. enter benedick alone. bene. boy! [enter boy.] boy. signior? bene. in my chamber window lies a book. bring it hither to me in the orchard. boy. i am here already, sir. bene. i know that, but i would have thee hence and here again. (exit boy.) i do much wonder that one man, seeing how much another man is a fool when he dedicates his behaviours to love, will, after he hath laugh'd at such shallow follies in others, become the argument of his own scorn by falling in love; and such a man is claudio. i have known when there was no music with him but the drum and the fife; and now had he rather hear the tabor and the pipe. i have known when he would have walk'd ten mile afoot to see a good armour; and now will he lie ten nights awake carving the fashion of a new doublet. he was wont to speak plain and to the purpose, like an honest man and a soldier; and now is he turn'd orthography; his words are a very fantastical banquet- just so many strange dishes. may i be so converted and see with these eyes? i cannot tell; i think not. i will not be sworn but love may transform me to an oyster; but i'll take my oath on it, till he have made an oyster of me he shall never make me such a fool. one woman is fair, yet i am well; another is wise, yet i am well; another virtuous, yet i am well; but till all graces be in one woman, one woman shall not come in my grace. rich she shall be, that's certain; wise, or i'll none; virtuous, or i'll never cheapen her; fair, or i'll never look on her; mild, or come not near me; noble, or not i for an angel; of good discourse, an excellent musician, and her hair shall be of what colour it please god. ha, the prince and monsieur love! i will hide me in the arbour. [hides.] enter don pedro, leonato, claudio. music [within]. pedro. come, shall we hear this music? claud. yea, my good lord. how still the evening is, as hush'd on purpose to grace harmony! pedro. see you where benedick hath hid himself? claud. o, very well, my lord. the music ended, we'll fit the kid-fox with a pennyworth. enter balthasar with music. pedro. come, balthasar, we'll hear that song again. balth. o, good my lord, tax not so bad a voice to slander music any more than once. pedro. it is the witness still of excellency to put a strange face on his own perfection. i pray thee sing, and let me woo no more. balth. because you talk of wooing, i will sing, since many a wooer doth commence his suit to her he thinks not worthy, yet he wooes, yet will he swear he loves. pedro. nay, pray thee come; or if thou wilt hold longer argument, do it in notes. balth. note this before my notes: there's not a note of mine that's worth the noting. pedro. why, these are very crotchets that he speaks! note notes, forsooth, and nothing! [music.] bene. [aside] now divine air! now is his soul ravish'd! is it not strange that sheep's guts should hale souls out of men's bodies? well, a horn for my money, when all's done. [balthasar sings.] the song. sigh no more, ladies, sigh no more! men were deceivers ever, one foot in sea, and one on shore; to one thing constant never. then sigh not so, but let them go, and be you blithe and bonny, converting all your sounds of woe into hey nonny, nonny. sing no more ditties, sing no moe, of dumps so dull and heavy! the fraud of men was ever so, since summer first was leavy. then sigh not so, &c. pedro. by my troth, a good song. balth. and an ill singer, my lord. pedro. ha, no, no, faith! thou sing'st well enough for a shift. bene. [aside] an he had been a dog that should have howl'd thus, they would have hang'd him; and i pray god his bad voice bode no mischief. i had as live have heard the night raven, come what plague could have come after it. pedro. yea, marry. dost thou hear, balthasar? i pray thee get us some excellent music; for to-morrow night we would have it at the lady hero's chamber window. balth. the best i can, my lord. pedro. do so. farewell. exit balthasar [with musicians]. come hither, leonato. what was it you told me of to-day? that your niece beatrice was in love with signior benedick? claud. o, ay!-[aside to pedro] stalk on, stalk on; the fowl sits. --i did never think that lady would have loved any man. leon. no, nor i neither; but most wonderful that she should so dote on signior benedick, whom she hath in all outward behaviours seem'd ever to abhor. bene. [aside] is't possible? sits the wind in that corner? leon. by my troth, my lord, i cannot tell what to think of it, but that she loves him with an enraged affection. it is past the infinite of thought. pedro. may be she doth but counterfeit. claud. faith, like enough. leon. o god, counterfeit? there was never counterfeit of passion came so near the life of passion as she discovers it. pedro. why, what effects of passion shows she? claud. [aside] bait the hook well! this fish will bite. leon. what effects, my lord? she will sit you--you heard my daughter tell you how. claud. she did indeed. pedro. how, how, i pray you? you amaze me. i would have thought her spirit had been invincible against all assaults of affection. leon. i would have sworn it had, my lord--especially against benedick. bene. [aside] i should think this a gull but that the white-bearded fellow speaks it. knavery cannot, sure, hide himself in such reverence. claud. [aside] he hath ta'en th' infection. hold it up. pedro. hath she made her affection known to benedick? leon. no, and swears she never will. that's her torment. claud. 'tis true indeed. so your daughter says. 'shall i,' says she, 'that have so oft encount'red him with scorn, write to him that i love him?'" leon. this says she now when she is beginning to write to him; for she'll be up twenty times a night, and there will she sit in her smock till she have writ a sheet of paper. my daughter tells us all. claud. now you talk of a sheet of paper, i remember a pretty jest your daughter told us of. leon. o, when she had writ it, and was reading it over, she found 'benedick' and 'beatrice' between the sheet? claud. that. leon. o, she tore the letter into a thousand halfpence, rail'd at herself that she should be so immodest to write to one that she knew would flout her. 'i measure him,' says she, 'by my own spirit; for i should flout him if he writ to me. yea, though i love him, i should.' claud. then down upon her knees she falls, weeps, sobs, beats her heart, tears her hair, prays, curses--'o sweet benedick! god give me patience!' leon. she doth indeed; my daughter says so. and the ecstasy hath so much overborne her that my daughter is sometime afeard she will do a desperate outrage to herself. it is very true. pedro. it were good that benedick knew of it by some other, if she will not discover it. claud. to what end? he would make but a sport of it and torment the poor lady worse. pedro. an he should, it were an alms to hang him! she's an excellent sweet lady, and (out of all suspicion) she is virtuous. claud. and she is exceeding wise. pedro. in everything but in loving benedick. leon. o, my lord, wisdom and blood combating in so tender a body, we have ten proofs to one that blood hath the victory. i am sorry for her, as i have just cause, being her uncle and her guardian. pedro. i would she had bestowed this dotage on me. i would have daff'd all other respects and made her half myself. i pray you tell benedick of it and hear what 'a will say. leon. were it good, think you? claud. hero thinks surely she will die; for she says she will die if he love her not, and she will die ere she make her love known, and she will die, if he woo her, rather than she will bate one breath of her accustomed crossness. pedro. she doth well. if she should make tender of her love, 'tis very possible he'll scorn it; for the man (as you know all) hath a contemptible spirit. claud. he is a very proper man. pedro. he hath indeed a good outward happiness. claud. before god! and in my mind, very wise. pedro. he doth indeed show some sparks that are like wit. claud. and i take him to be valiant. pedro. as hector, i assure you; and in the managing of quarrels you may say he is wise, for either he avoids them with great discretion, or undertakes them with a most christianlike fear. leon. if he do fear god, 'a must necessarily keep peace. if he break the peace, he ought to enter into a quarrel with fear and trembling. pedro. and so will he do; for the man doth fear god, howsoever it seems not in him by some large jests he will make. well, i am sorry for your niece. shall we go seek benedick and tell him of her love? claud. never tell him, my lord. let her wear it out with good counsel. leon. nay, that's impossible; she may wear her heart out first. pedro. well, we will hear further of it by your daughter. let it cool the while. i love benedick well, and i could wish he would modestly examine himself to see how much he is unworthy so good a lady. leon. my lord, will you .walk? dinner is ready. [they walk away.] claud. if he dote on her upon this, i will never trust my expectation. pedro. let there be the same net spread for her, and that must your daughter and her gentlewomen carry. the sport will be, when they hold one an opinion of another's dotage, and no such matter. that's the scene that i would see, which will be merely a dumb show. let us send her to call him in to dinner. exeunt [don pedro, claudio, and leonato]. [benedick advances from the arbour.] bene. this can be no trick. the conference was sadly borne; they have the truth of this from hero; they seem to pity the lady. it seems her affections have their full bent. love me? why, it must be requited. i hear how i am censur'd. they say i will bear myself proudly if i perceive the love come from her. they say too that she will rather die than give any sign of affection. i did never think to marry. i must not seem proud. happy are they that hear their detractions and can put them to mending. they say the lady is fair--'tis a truth, i can bear them witness; and virtuous --'tis so, i cannot reprove it; and wise, but for loving me--by my troth, it is no addition to her wit, nor no great argument of her folly, for i will be horribly in love with her. i may chance have some odd quirks and remnants of wit broken on me because i have railed so long against marriage. but doth not the appetite alters? a man loves the meat in his youth that he cannot endure in his age. shall quips and sentences and these paper bullets of the brain awe a man from the career of his humour? no, the world must be peopled. when i said i would die a bachelor, i did not think i should live till i were married. enter beatrice. here comes beatrice. by this day, she's a fair lady! i do spy some marks of love in her. beat. against my will i am sent to bid you come in to dinner. bene. fair beatrice, i thank you for your pains. beat. i took no more pains for those thanks than you take pains to thank me. if it had been painful, i would not have come. bene. you take pleasure then in the message? beat. yea, just so much as you may take upon a knives point, and choke a daw withal. you have no stomach, signior. fare you well. exit. bene. ha! 'against my will i am sent to bid you come in to dinner.' there's a double meaning in that. 'i took no more pains for those thanks than you took pains to thank me.' that's as much as to say, 'any pains that i take for you is as easy as thanks.' if i do not take pity of her, i am a villain; if i do not love her, i am a jew. i will go get her picture. exit. <<this electronic version of the complete works of william shakespeare is copyright 1990-1993 by world library, inc., and is provided by project gutenberg etext of carnegie mellon university with permission. electronic and machine readable copies may be distributed so long as such copies (1) are for your or others personal use only, and (2) are not distributed or used commercially. prohibited commercial distribution includes by any service that charges for download time or for membership.>> act iii. scene i. leonato's orchard. enter hero and two gentlewomen, margaret and ursula. hero. good margaret, run thee to the parlour. there shalt thou find my cousin beatrice proposing with the prince and claudio. whisper her ear and tell her, i and ursley walk in the orchard, and our whole discourse is all of her. say that thou overheard'st us; and bid her steal into the pleached bower, where honeysuckles, ripened by the sun, forbid the sun to enter--like favourites, made proud by princes, that advance their pride against that power that bred it. there will she hide her to listen our propose. this is thy office. bear thee well in it and leave us alone. marg. i'll make her come, i warrant you, presently. [exit.] hero. now, ursula, when beatrice doth come, as we do trace this alley up and down, our talk must only be of benedick. when i do name him, let it be thy part to praise him more than ever man did merit. my talk to thee must be how benedick is sick in love with beatrice. of this matter is little cupid's crafty arrow made, that only wounds by hearsay. [enter beatrice.] now begin; for look where beatrice like a lapwing runs close by the ground, to hear our conference. [beatrice hides in the arbour]. urs. the pleasant'st angling is to see the fish cut with her golden oars the silver stream and greedily devour the treacherous bait. so angle we for beatrice, who even now is couched in the woodbine coverture. fear you not my part of the dialogue. hero. then go we near her, that her ear lose nothing of the false sweet bait that we lay for it. [they approach the arbour.] no, truly, ursula, she is too disdainful. i know her spirits are as coy and wild as haggards of the rock. urs. but are you sure that benedick loves beatrice so entirely? hero. so says the prince, and my new-trothed lord. urs. and did they bid you tell her of it, madam? hero. they did entreat me to acquaint her of it; but i persuaded them, if they lov'd benedick, to wish him wrestle with affection and never to let beatrice know of it. urs. why did you so? doth not the gentleman deserve as full, as fortunate a bed as ever beatrice shall couch upon? hero. o god of love! i know he doth deserve as much as may be yielded to a man: but nature never fram'd a woman's heart of prouder stuff than that of beatrice. disdain and scorn ride sparkling in her eyes, misprizing what they look on; and her wit values itself so highly that to her all matter else seems weak. she cannot love, nor take no shape nor project of affection, she is so self-endeared. urs. sure i think so; and therefore certainly it were not good she knew his love, lest she'll make sport at it. hero. why, you speak truth. i never yet saw man, how wise, how noble, young, how rarely featur'd, but she would spell him backward. if fair-fac'd, she would swear the gentleman should be her sister; if black, why, nature, drawing of an antic, made a foul blot; if tall, a lance ill-headed; if low, an agate very vilely cut; if speaking, why, a vane blown with all winds; if silent, why, a block moved with none. so turns she every man the wrong side out and never gives to truth and virtue that which simpleness and merit purchaseth. urs. sure, sure, such carping is not commendable. hero. no, not to be so odd, and from all fashions, as beatrice is, cannot be commendable. but who dare tell her so? if i should speak, she would mock me into air; o, she would laugh me out of myself, press me to death with wit! therefore let benedick, like cover'd fire, consume away in sighs, waste inwardly. it were a better death than die with mocks, which is as bad as die with tickling. urs. yet tell her of it. hear what she will say. hero. no; rather i will go to benedick and counsel him to fight against his passion. and truly, i'll devise some honest slanders to stain my cousin with. one doth not know how much an ill word may empoison liking. urs. o, do not do your cousin such a wrong! she cannot be so much without true judgment (having so swift and excellent a wit as she is priz'd to have) as to refuse so rare a gentleman as signior benedick. hero. he is the only man of italy, always excepted my dear claudio. urs. i pray you be not angry with me, madam, speaking my fancy: signior benedick, for shape, for bearing, argument, and valour, goes foremost in report through italy. hero. indeed he hath an excellent good name. urs. his excellence did earn it ere he had it. when are you married, madam? hero. why, every day to-morrow! come, go in. i'll show thee some attires, and have thy counsel which is the best to furnish me to-morrow. [they walk away.] urs. she's lim'd, i warrant you! we have caught her, madam. hero. if it prove so, then loving goes by haps; some cupid kills with arrows, some with traps. exeunt [hero and ursula]. [beatrice advances from the arbour.] beat. what fire is in mine ears? can this be true? stand i condemn'd for pride and scorn so much? contempt, farewell! and maiden pride, adieu! no glory lives behind the back of such. and, benedick, love on; i will requite thee, taming my wild heart to thy loving hand. if thou dost love, my kindness shall incite thee to bind our loves up in a holy band; for others say thou dost deserve, and i believe it better than reportingly. exit. scene ii. a room in leonato's house. enter don pedro, claudio, benedick, and leonato. pedro. i do but stay till your marriage be consummate, and then go i toward arragon. claud. i'll bring you thither, my lord, if you'll vouchsafe me. pedro. nay, that would be as great a soil in the new gloss of your marriage as to show a child his new coat and forbid him to wear it. i will only be bold with benedick for his company; for, from the crown of his head to the sole of his foot, he is all mirth. he hath twice or thrice cut cupid's bowstring, and the little hangman dare not shoot at him. he hath a heart as sound as a bell; and his tongue is the clapper, for what his heart thinks, his tongue speaks. bene. gallants, i am not as i have been. leon. so say i. methinks you are sadder. claud. i hope he be in love. pedro. hang him, truant! there's no true drop of blood in him to be truly touch'd with love. if he be sad, he wants money. bene. i have the toothache. pedro. draw it. bene. hang it! claud. you must hang it first and draw it afterwards. pedro. what? sigh for the toothache? leon. where is but a humour or a worm. bene. well, every one can master a grief but he that has it. claud. yet say i he is in love. pedro. there is no appearance of fancy in him, unless it be a fancy that he hath to strange disguises; as to be a dutchman to-day, a frenchman to-morrow; or in the shape of two countries at once, as a german from the waist downward, all slops, and a spaniard from the hip upward, no doublet. unless he have a fancy to this foolery, as it appears he hath, he is no fool for fancy, as you would have it appear he is. claud. if he be not in love with some woman, there is no believing old signs. 'a brushes his hat o' mornings. what should that bode? pedro. hath any man seen him at the barber's? claud. no, but the barber's man hath been seen with him, and the old ornament of his cheek hath already stuff'd tennis balls. leon. indeed he looks younger than he did, by the loss of a beard. pedro. nay, 'a rubs himself with civet. can you smell him out by that? claud. that's as much as to say, the sweet youth's in love. pedro. the greatest note of it is his melancholy. claud. and when was he wont to wash his face? pedro. yea, or to paint himself? for the which i hear what they say of him. claud. nay, but his jesting spirit, which is new-crept into a lutestring, and now govern'd by stops. pedro. indeed that tells a heavy tale for him. conclude, conclude, he is in love. claud. nay, but i know who loves him. pedro. that would i know too. i warrant, one that knows him not. claud. yes, and his ill conditions; and in despite of all, dies for him. pedro. she shall be buried with her face upwards. bene. yet is this no charm for the toothache. old signior, walk aside with me. i have studied eight or nine wise words to speak to you, which these hobby-horses must not hear. [exeunt benedick and leonato.] pedro. for my life, to break with him about beatrice! claud. 'tis even so. hero and margaret have by this played their parts with beatrice, and then the two bears will not bite one another when they meet. enter john the bastard. john. my lord and brother, god save you. pedro. good den, brother. john. if your leisure serv'd, i would speak with you. pedro. in private? john. if it please you. yet count claudio may hear, for what i would speak of concerns him. pedro. what's the matter? john. [to claudio] means your lordship to be married tomorrow? pedro. you know he does. john. i know not that, when he knows what i know. claud. if there be any impediment, i pray you discover it. john. you may think i love you not. let that appear hereafter, and aim better at me by that i now will manifest. for my brother, i think he holds you well and in dearness of heart hath holp to effect your ensuing marriage--surely suit ill spent and labour ill bestowed! pedro. why, what's the matter? john. i came hither to tell you, and, circumstances short'ned (for she has been too long a-talking of), the lady is disloyal. claud. who? hero? john. even she--leonato's hero, your hero, every man's hero. claud. disloyal? john. the word is too good to paint out her wickedness. i could say she were worse; think you of a worse title, and i will fit her to it. wonder not till further warrant. go but with me to-night, you shall see her chamber window ent'red, even the night before her wedding day. if you love her then, to-morrow wed her. but it would better fit your honour to change your mind. claud. may this be so? pedro. i will not think it. john. if you dare not trust that you see, confess not that you know. if you will follow me, i will show you enough; and when you have seen more and heard more, proceed accordingly. claud. if i see anything to-night why i should not marry her to-morrow, in the congregation where i should wed, there will i shame her. pedro. and, as i wooed for thee to obtain her, i will join with thee to disgrace her. john. i will disparage her no farther till you are my witnesses. bear it coldly but till midnight, and let the issue show itself. pedro. o day untowardly turned! claud. o mischief strangely thwarting! john. o plague right well prevented! so will you say when you have seen the sequel. exeunt. scene iii. a street. enter dogberry and his compartner [verges], with the watch. dog. are you good men and true? verg. yea, or else it were pity but they should suffer salvation, body and soul. dog. nay, that were a punishment too good for them if they should have any allegiance in them, being chosen for the prince's watch. verg. well, give them their charge, neighbour dogberry. dog. first, who think you the most desartless man to be constable? 1. watch. hugh oatcake, sir, or george seacoal; for they can write and read. dog. come hither, neighbour seacoal. god hath bless'd you with a good name. to be a well-favoured man is the gift of fortune, but to write and read comes by nature. 2. watch. both which, master constable- dog. you have. i knew it would be your answer. well, for your favour, sir, why, give god thanks and make no boast of it; and for your writing and reading, let that appear when there is no need of such vanity. you are thought here to be the most senseless and fit man for the constable of the watch. therefore bear you the lanthorn. this is your charge: you shall comprehend all vagrom men; you are to bid any man stand, in the prince's name. 2. watch. how if 'a will not stand? dog. why then, take no note of him, but let him go, and presently call the rest of the watch together and thank god you are rid of a knave. verg. if he will not stand when he is bidden, he is none of the prince's subjects. dog. true, and they are to meddle with none but the prince's subjects. you shall also make no noise in the streets; for for the watch to babble and to talk is most tolerable, and not to be endured. 2. watch. we will rather sleep than talk. we know what belongs to a watch. dog. why, you speak like an ancient and most quiet watchman, for i cannot see how sleeping should offend. only have a care that your bills be not stol'n. well, you are to call at all the alehouses and bid those that are drunk get them to bed. 2. watch. how if they will not? dog. why then, let them alone till they are sober. if they make you not then the better answer, you may say they are not the men you took them for. 2. watch. well, sir. dog. if you meet a thief, you may suspect him, by virtue of your office, to be no true man; and for such kind of men, the less you meddle or make with them, why, the more your honesty. 2. watch. if we know him to be a thief, shall we not lay hands on him? dog. truly, by your office you may; but i think they that touch pitch will be defil'd. the most peaceable way for you, if you do take a thief, is to let him show himself what he is, and steal out of your company. verg. you have been always called a merciful man, partner. dog. truly, i would not hang a dog by my will, much more a man who hath any honesty in him. verg. if you hear a child cry in the night, you must call to the nurse and bid her still it. 2. watch. how if the nurse be asleep and will not hear us? dog. why then, depart in peace and let the child wake her with crying; for the ewe that will not hear her lamb when it baes will never answer a calf when he bleats. verg. 'tis very true. dog. this is the end of the charge: you, constable, are to present the prince's own person. if you meet the prince in the night, you may stay him. verg. nay, by'r lady, that i think 'a cannot. dog. five shillings to one on't with any man that knows the statutes, he may stay him! marry, not without the prince be willing; for indeed the watch ought to offend no man, and it is an offence to stay a man against his will. verg. by'r lady, i think it be so. dog. ha, ah, ha! well, masters, good night. an there be any matter of weight chances, call up me. keep your fellows' counsels and your own, and good night. come, neighbour. 2. watch. well, masters, we hear our charge. let us go sit here upon the church bench till two, and then all to bed. dog. one word more, honest neighbours. i pray you watch about signior leonato's door; for the wedding being there tomorrow, there is a great coil to-night. adieu. be vigitant, i beseech you. exeunt [dogberry and verges]. enter borachio and conrade. bora. what, conrade! 2. watch. [aside] peace! stir not! bora. conrade, i say! con. here, man. i am at thy elbow. bora. mass, and my elbow itch'd! i thought there would a scab follow. con. i will owe thee an answer for that; and now forward with thy tale. bora. stand thee close then under this penthouse, for it drizzles rain, and i will, like a true drunkard, utter all to thee. 2. watch. [aside] some treason, masters. yet stand close. bora. therefore know i have earned of don john a thousand ducats. con. is it possible that any villany should be so dear? bora. thou shouldst rather ask if it were possible any villany should be so rich; for when rich villains have need of poor ones, poor ones may make what price they will. con. i wonder at it. bora. that shows thou art unconfirm'd. thou knowest that the fashion of a doublet, or a hat, or a cloak, is nothing to a man. con. yes, it is apparel. bora. i mean the fashion. con. yes, the fashion is the fashion. bora. tush! i may as well say the fool's the fool. but seest thou not what a deformed thief this fashion is? 2. watch. [aside] i know that deformed. 'a bas been a vile thief this seven year; 'a goes up and down like a gentleman. i remember his name. bora. didst thou not hear somebody? con. no; 'twas the vane on the house. bora. seest thou not, i say, what a deformed thief this fashion is? how giddily 'a turns about all the hot-bloods between fourteen and five-and-thirty? sometimes fashioning them like pharaoh's soldiers in the reechy painting, sometime like god bel's priests in the old church window, sometime like the shaven hercules in the smirch'd worm-eaten tapestry, where his codpiece seems as massy as his club? con. all this i see; and i see that the fashion wears out more apparel than the man. but art not thou thyself giddy with the fashion too, that thou hast shifted out of thy tale into telling me of the fashion? bora. not so neither. but know that i have to-night wooed margaret, the lady hero's gentlewoman, by the name of hero. she leans me out at her mistress' chamber window, bids me a thousand times good night--i tell this tale vilely; i should first tell thee how the prince, claudio and my master, planted and placed and possessed by my master don john, saw afar off in the orchard this amiable encounter. con. and thought they margaret was hero? bora. two of them did, the prince and claudio; but the devil my master knew she was margaret; and partly by his oaths, which first possess'd them, partly by the dark night, which did deceive them, but chiefly by my villany, which did confirm any slander that don john had made, away went claudio enrag'd; swore he would meet her, as he was appointed, next morning at the temple, and there, before the whole congregation, shame her with what he saw o'ernight and send her home again without a husband. 2. watch. we charge you in the prince's name stand! 1. watch. call up the right master constable. we have here recover'd the most dangerous piece of lechery that ever was known in the commonwealth. 2. watch. and one deformed is one of them. i know him; 'a wears a lock. con. masters, masters- 1. watch. you'll be made bring deformed forth, i warrant you. con. masters- 2. watch. never speak, we charge you. let us obey you to go with us. bora. we are like to prove a goodly commodity, being taken up of these men's bills. con. a commodity in question, i warrant you. come, we'll obey you. exeunt. scene iv. a room in leonato's house. enter hero, and margaret and ursula. hero. good ursula, wake my cousin beatrice and desire her to rise. urs. i will, lady. hero. and bid her come hither. urs. well. [exit.] marg. troth, i think your other rebato were better. hero. no, pray thee, good meg, i'll wear this. marg. by my troth, 's not so good, and i warrant your cousin will say so. hero. my cousin's a fool, and thou art another. i'll wear none but this. marg. i like the new tire within excellently, if the hair were a thought browner; and your gown's a most rare fashion, i' faith. i saw the duchess of milan's gown that they praise so. hero. o, that exceeds, they say. marg. by my troth, 's but a nightgown in respect of yours- cloth-o'-gold and cuts, and lac'd with silver, set with pearls down sleeves, side-sleeves, and skirts, round underborne with a blush tinsel. but for a fine, quaint, graceful, and excellent fashion, yours is worth ten on't. hero. god give me joy to wear it! for my heart is exceeding heavy. marg. 'twill be heavier soon by the weight of a man. hero. fie upon thee! art not ashamed? marg. of what, lady? of speaking honourably? is not marriage honourable in a beggar? is not your lord honourable without marriage? i think you would have me say, 'saving your reverence, a husband.' an bad thinking do not wrest true speaking, i'll offend nobody. is there any harm in 'the heavier for a husband'? none, i think, an it be the right husband and the right wife. otherwise 'tis light, and not heavy. ask my lady beatrice else. here she comes. enter beatrice. hero. good morrow, coz. beat. good morrow, sweet hero. hero. why, how now? do you speak in the sick tune? beat. i am out of all other tune, methinks. marg. clap's into 'light o' love.' that goes without a burden. do you sing it, and i'll dance it. beat. yea, 'light o' love' with your heels! then, if your husband have stables enough, you'll see he shall lack no barnes. marg. o illegitimate construction! i scorn that with my heels. beat. 'tis almost five o'clock, cousin; 'tis time you were ready. by my troth, i am exceeding ill. hey-ho! marg. for a hawk, a horse, or a husband? beat. for the letter that begins them all, h. marg. well, an you be not turn'd turk, there's no more sailing by the star. beat. what means the fool, trow? marg. nothing i; but god send every one their heart's desire! hero. these gloves the count sent me, they are an excellent perfume. beat. i am stuff'd, cousin; i cannot smell. marg. a maid, and stuff'd! there's goodly catching of cold. beat. o, god help me! god help me! how long have you profess'd apprehension? marg. ever since you left it. doth not my wit become me rarely? beat. it is not seen enough. you should wear it in your cap. by my troth, i am sick. marg. get you some of this distill'd carduus benedictus and lay it to your heart. it is the only thing for a qualm. hero. there thou prick'st her with a thistle. beat. benedictus? why benedictus? you have some moral in this 'benedictus.' marg. moral? no, by my troth, i have no moral meaning; i meant plain holy thistle. you may think perchance that i think you are in love. nay, by'r lady, i am not such a fool to think what i list; nor i list not to think what i can; nor indeed i cannot think, if i would think my heart out of thinking, that you are in love, or that you will be in love, or that you can be in love. yet benedick was such another, and now is he become a man. he swore he would never marry; and yet now in despite of his heart he eats his meat without grudging; and how you may be converted i know not, but methinks you look with your eyes as other women do. beat. what pace is this that thy tongue keeps? marg. not a false gallop. enter ursula. urs. madam, withdraw. the prince, the count, signior benedick, don john, and all the gallants of the town are come to fetch you to church. hero. help to dress me, good coz, good meg, good ursula. [exeunt.] scene v. the hall in leonato's house. enter leonato and the constable [dogberry] and the headborough [verges]. leon. what would you with me, honest neighbour? dog. marry, sir, i would have some confidence with you that decerns you nearly. leon. brief, i pray you; for you see it is a busy time with me. dog. marry, this it is, sir. verg. yes, in truth it is, sir. leon. what is it, my good friends? dog. goodman verges, sir, speaks a little off the matter--an old man, sir, and his wits are not so blunt as, god help, i would desire they were; but, in faith, honest as the skin between his brows. verg. yes, i thank god i am as honest as any man living that is an old man and no honester than i. dog. comparisons are odorous. palabras, neighbour verges. leon. neighbours, you are tedious. dog. it pleases your worship to say so, but we are the poor duke's officers; but truly, for mine own part, if i were as tedious as a king, i could find in my heart to bestow it all of your worship. leon. all thy tediousness on me, ah? dog. yea, in 'twere a thousand pound more than 'tis; for i hear as good exclamation on your worship as of any man in the city; and though i be but a poor man, i am glad to hear it. verg. and so am i. leon. i would fain know what you have to say. verg. marry, sir, our watch to-night, excepting your worship's presence, ha' ta'en a couple of as arrant knaves as any in messina. dog. a good old man, sir; he will be talking. as they say, 'when the age is in, the wit is out.' god help us! it is a world to see! well said, i' faith, neighbour verges. well, god's a good man. an two men ride of a horse, one must ride behind. an honest soul, i' faith, sir, by my troth he is, as ever broke bread; but god is to be worshipp'd; all men are not alike, alas, good neighbour! leon. indeed, neighbour, he comes too short of you. dog. gifts that god gives. leon. i must leave you. dog. one word, sir. our watch, sir, have indeed comprehended two aspicious persons, and we would have them this morning examined before your worship. leon. take their examination yourself and bring it me. i am now in great haste, as it may appear unto you. dog. it shall be suffigance. leon. drink some wine ere you go. fare you well. [enter a messenger.] mess. my lord, they stay for you to give your daughter to her husband. leon. i'll wait upon them. i am ready. [exeunt leonato and messenger.] dog. go, good partner, go get you to francis seacoal; bid him bring his pen and inkhorn to the jail. we are now to examination these men. verg. and we must do it wisely. dog. we will spare for no wit, i warrant you. here's that shall drive some of them to a non-come. only get the learned writer to set down our excommunication, and meet me at the jail. [exeunt.] <<this electronic version of the complete works of william shakespeare is copyright 1990-1993 by world library, inc., and is provided by project gutenberg etext of carnegie mellon university with permission. electronic and machine readable copies may be distributed so long as such copies (1) are for your or others personal use only, and (2) are not distributed or used commercially. prohibited commercial distribution includes by any service that charges for download time or for membership.>> act iv. scene i. a church. enter don pedro, [john the] bastard, leonato, friar [francis], claudio, benedick, hero, beatrice, [and attendants]. leon. come, friar francis, be brief. only to the plain form of marriage, and you shall recount their particular duties afterwards. friar. you come hither, my lord, to marry this lady? claud. no. leon. to be married to her. friar, you come to marry her. friar. lady, you come hither to be married to this count? hero. i do. friar. if either of you know any inward impediment why you should not be conjoined, i charge you on your souls to utter it. claud. know you any, hero? hero. none, my lord. friar. know you any, count? leon. i dare make his answer--none. claud. o, what men dare do! what men may do! what men daily do, not knowing what they do! bene. how now? interjections? why then, some be of laughing, as, ah, ha, he! claud. stand thee by, friar. father, by your leave: will you with free and unconstrained soul give me this maid your daughter? leon. as freely, son, as god did give her me. claud. and what have i to give you back whose worth may counterpoise this rich and precious gift? pedro. nothing, unless you render her again. claud. sweet prince, you learn me noble thankfulness. there, leonato, take her back again. give not this rotten orange to your friend. she's but the sign and semblance of her honour. behold how like a maid she blushes here! o, what authority and show of truth can cunning sin cover itself withal! comes not that blood as modest evidence to witness simple virtue, would you not swear, all you that see her, that she were a maid by these exterior shows? but she is none: she knows the heat of a luxurious bed; her blush is guiltiness, not modesty. leon. what do you mean, my lord? claud. not to be married, not to knit my soul to an approved wanton. leon. dear my lord, if you, in your own proof, have vanquish'd the resistance of her youth and made defeat of her virginity- claud. i know what you would say. if i have known her, you will say she did embrace me as a husband, and so extenuate the forehand sin. no, leonato, i never tempted her with word too large, but, as a brother to his sister, show'd bashful sincerity and comely love. hero. and seem'd i ever otherwise to you? claud. out on the seeming! i will write against it. you seem to me as dian in her orb, as chaste as is the bud ere it be blown; but you are more intemperate in your blood than venus, or those pamp'red animals that rage in savage sensuality. hero. is my lord well that he doth speak so wide? leon. sweet prince, why speak not you? pedro. what should i speak? i stand dishonour'd that have gone about to link my dear friend to a common stale. leon. are these things spoken, or do i but dream? john. sir, they are spoken, and these things are true. bene. this looks not like a nuptial. hero. 'true!' o god! claud. leonato, stand i here? is this the prince, is this the prince's brother? is this face hero's? are our eyes our own? leon. all this is so; but what of this, my lord? claud. let me but move one question to your daughter, and by that fatherly and kindly power that you have in her, bid her answer truly. leon. i charge thee do so, as thou art my child. hero. o, god defend me! how am i beset! what kind of catechising call you this? claud. to make you answer truly to your name. hero. is it not hero? who can blot that name with any just reproach? claud. marry, that can hero! hero itself can blot out hero's virtue. what man was he talk'd with you yesternight, out at your window betwixt twelve and one? now, if you are a maid, answer to this. hero. i talk'd with no man at that hour, my lord. pedro. why, then are you no maiden. leonato, i am sorry you must hear. upon my honour, myself, my brother, and this grieved count did see her, hear her, at that hour last night talk with a ruffian at her chamber window, who hath indeed, most like a liberal villain, confess'd the vile encounters they have had a thousand times in secret. john. fie, fie! they are not to be nam'd, my lord- not to be spoke of; there is not chastity, enough in language without offence to utter them. thus, pretty lady, i am sorry for thy much misgovernment. claud. o hero! what a hero hadst thou been if half thy outward graces had been plac'd about thy thoughts and counsels of thy heart! but fare thee well, most foul, most fair! farewell, thou pure impiety and impious purity! for thee i'll lock up all the gates of love, and on my eyelids shall conjecture hang, to turn all beauty into thoughts of harm, and never shall it more be gracious. leon. hath no man's dagger here a point for me? [hero swoons.] beat. why, how now, cousin? wherefore sink you down? john. come let us go. these things, come thus to light, smother her spirits up. [exeunt don pedro, don juan, and claudio.] bene. how doth the lady? beat. dead, i think. help, uncle! hero! why, hero! uncle! signior benedick! friar! leon. o fate, take not away thy heavy hand! death is the fairest cover for her shame that may be wish'd for. beat. how now, cousin hero? friar. have comfort, lady. leon. dost thou look up? friar. yea, wherefore should she not? leon. wherefore? why, doth not every earthly thing cry shame upon her? could she here deny the story that is printed in her blood? do not live, hero; do not ope thine eyes; for, did i think thou wouldst not quickly die, thought i thy spirits were stronger than thy shames, myself would on the rearward of reproaches strike at thy life. griev'd i, i had but one? child i for that at frugal nature's frame? o, one too much by thee! why had i one? why ever wast thou lovely in my eyes? why had i not with charitable hand took up a beggar's issue at my gates, who smirched thus and mir'd with infamy, i might have said, 'no part of it is mine; this shame derives itself from unknown loins'? but mine, and mine i lov'd, and mine i prais'd, and mine that i was proud on--mine so much that i myself was to myself not mine, valuing of her--why, she, o, she is fall'n into a pit of ink, that the wide sea hath drops too few to wash her clean again, and salt too little which may season give to her foul tainted flesh! bene. sir, sir, be patient. for my part, i am so attir'd in wonder, i know not what to say. beat. o, on my soul, my cousin is belied! bene. lady, were you her bedfellow last night? beat. no, truly, not; although, until last night, i have this twelvemonth been her bedfellow. leon. confirm'd, confirm'd! o, that is stronger made which was before barr'd up with ribs of iron! would the two princes lie? and claudio lie, who lov'd her so that, speaking of her foulness, wash'd it with tears? hence from her! let her die. friar. hear me a little; for i have only been silent so long, and given way unto this course of fortune, by noting of the lady. i have mark'd a thousand blushing apparitions to start into her face, a thousand innocent shames in angel whiteness beat away those blushes, and in her eye there hath appear'd a fire to burn the errors that these princes hold against her maiden truth. call me a fool; trust not my reading nor my observation, which with experimental seal doth warrant the tenure of my book; trust not my age, my reverence, calling, nor divinity, if this sweet lady lie not guiltless here under some biting error. leon. friar, it cannot be. thou seest that all the grace that she hath left is that she will not add to her damnation a sin of perjury: she not denies it. why seek'st thou then to cover with excuse that which appears in proper nakedness? friar. lady, what man is he you are accus'd of? hero. they know that do accuse me; i know none. if i know more of any man alive than that which maiden modesty doth warrant, let all my sins lack mercy! o my father, prove you that any man with me convers'd at hours unmeet, or that i yesternight maintain'd the change of words with any creature, refuse me, hate me, torture me to death! friar. there is some strange misprision in the princes. bene. two of them have the very bent of honour; and if their wisdoms be misled in this, the practice of it lives in john the bastard, whose spirits toil in frame of villanies. leon. i know not. if they speak but truth of her, these hands shall tear her. if they wrong her honour, the proudest of them shall well hear of it. time hath not yet so dried this blood of mine, nor age so eat up my invention, nor fortune made such havoc of my means, nor my bad life reft me so much of friends, but they shall find awak'd in such a kind both strength of limb and policy of mind, ability in means, and choice of friends, to quit me of them throughly. friar. pause awhile and let my counsel sway you in this case. your daughter here the princes left for dead, let her awhile be secretly kept in, and publish it that she is dead indeed; maintain a mourning ostentation, and on your family's old monument hang mournful epitaphs, and do all rites that appertain unto a burial. leon. what shall become of this? what will this do? friar. marry, this well carried shall on her behalf change slander to remorse. that is some good. but not for that dream i on this strange course, but on this travail look for greater birth. she dying, as it must be so maintain'd, upon the instant that she was accus'd, shall be lamented, pitied, and excus'd of every hearer; for it so falls out that what we have we prize not to the worth whiles we enjoy it, but being lack'd and lost, why, then we rack the value, then we find the virtue that possession would not show us whiles it was ours. so will it fare with claudio. when he shall hear she died upon his words, th' idea of her life shall sweetly creep into his study of imagination, and every lovely organ of her life shall come apparell'd in more precious habit, more moving, delicate, and full of life, into the eye and prospect of his soul than when she liv'd indeed. then shall he mourn (if ever love had interest in his liver) and wish he had not so accused her- no, though be thought his accusation true. let this be so, and doubt not but success will fashion the event in better shape than i can lay it down in likelihood. but if all aim but this be levell'd false, the supposition of the lady's death will quench the wonder of her infamy. and if it sort not well, you may conceal her, as best befits her wounded reputation, in some reclusive and religious life, out of all eyes, tongues, minds, and injuries. bene. signior leonato, let the friar advise you; and though you know my inwardness and love is very much unto the prince and claudio, yet, by mine honour, i will deal in this as secretly and justly as your soul should with your body. leon. being that i flow in grief, the smallest twine may lead me. friar. 'tis well consented. presently away; for to strange sores strangely they strain the cure. come, lady, die to live. this wedding day perhaps is but prolong'd. have patience and endure. exeunt [all but benedick and beatrice]. bene. lady beatrice, have you wept all this while? beat. yea, and i will weep a while longer. bene. i will not desire that. beat. you have no reason. i do it freely. bene. surely i do believe your fair cousin is wronged. beat. ah, how much might the man deserve of me that would right her! bene. is there any way to show such friendship? beat. a very even way, but no such friend. bene. may a man do it? beat. it is a man's office, but not yours. bene. i do love nothing in the world so well as you. is not that strange? beat. as strange as the thing i know not. it were as possible for me to say i loved nothing so well as you. but believe me not; and yet i lie not. i confess nothing, nor i deny nothing. i am sorry for my cousin. bene. by my sword, beatrice, thou lovest me. beat. do not swear, and eat it. bene. i will swear by it that you love me, and i will make him eat it that says i love not you. beat. will you not eat your word? bene. with no sauce that can be devised to it. i protest i love thee. beat. why then, god forgive me! bene. what offence, sweet beatrice? beat. you have stayed me in a happy hour. i was about to protest i loved you. bene. and do it with all thy heart. beat. i love you with so much of my heart that none is left to protest. bene. come, bid me do anything for thee. beat. kill claudio. bene. ha! not for the wide world! beat. you kill me to deny it. farewell. bene. tarry, sweet beatrice. beat. i am gone, though i am here. there is no love in you. nay, i pray you let me go. bene. beatrice- beat. in faith, i will go. bene. we'll be friends first. beat. you dare easier be friends with me than fight with mine enemy. bene. is claudio thine enemy? beat. is 'a not approved in the height a villain, that hath slandered, scorned, dishonoured my kinswoman? o that i were a man! what? bear her in hand until they come to take hands, and then with public accusation, uncover'd slander, unmitigated rancour--o god, that i were a man! i would eat his heart in the market place. bene. hear me, beatrice! beat. talk with a man out at a window!-a proper saying! bene. nay but beatrice- beat. sweet hero! she is wrong'd, she is sland'red, she is undone. bene. beat- beat. princes and counties! surely a princely testimony, a goodly count, count comfect, a sweet gallant surely! o that i were a man for his sake! or that i had any friend would be a man for my sake! but manhood is melted into cursies, valour into compliment, and men are only turn'd into tongue, and trim ones too. he is now as valiant as hercules that only tells a lie,and swears it. i cannot be a man with wishing; therefore i will die a woman with grieving. bene. tarry, good beatrice. by this hand, i love thee. beat. use it for my love some other way than swearing by it. bene. think you in your soul the count claudio hath wrong'd hero? beat. yea, as sure is i have a thought or a soul. bene. enough, i am engag'd, i will challenge him. i will kiss your hand, and so i leave you. by this hand, claudio shall render me a dear account. as you hear of me, so think of me. go comfort your cousin. i must say she is dead-and so farewell. [exeunt.] scene ii. a prison. enter the constables [dogberry and verges] and the sexton, in gowns, [and the watch, with conrade and] borachio. dog. is our whole dissembly appear'd? verg. o, a stool and a cushion for the sexton. sex. which be the malefactors? dog. marry, that am i and my partner. verg. nay, that's certain. we have the exhibition to examine. sex. but which are the offenders that are to be examined? let them come before master constable. dog. yea, marry, let them come before me. what is your name, friend? bor. borachio. dog. pray write down borachio. yours, sirrah? con. i am a gentleman, sir, and my name is conrade. dog. write down master gentleman conrade. masters, do you serve god? both. yea, sir, we hope. dog. write down that they hope they serve god; and write god first, for god defend but god should go before such villains! masters, it is proved already that you are little better than false knaves, and it will go near to be thought so shortly. how answer you for yourselves? con. marry, sir, we say we are none. dog. a marvellous witty fellow, i assure you; but i will go about with him. come you hither, sirrah. a word in your ear. sir, i say to you, it is thought you are false knaves. bora. sir, i say to you we are none. dog. well, stand aside. fore god, they are both in a tale. have you writ down that they are none? sex. master constable, you go not the way to examine. you must call forth the watch that are their accusers. dog. yea, marry, that's the eftest way. let the watch come forth. masters, i charge you in the prince's name accuse these men. 1. watch. this man said, sir, that don john the prince's brother was a villain. dog. write down prince john a villain. why, this is flat perjury, to call a prince's brother villain. bora. master constable- dog. pray thee, fellow, peace. i do not like thy look, i promise thee. sex. what heard you him say else? 2. watch. marry, that he had received a thousand ducats of don john for accusing the lady hero wrongfully. dog. flat burglary as ever was committed. verg. yea, by th' mass, that it is. sex. what else, fellow? 1. watch. and that count claudio did mean, upon his words, to disgrace hero before the whole assembly, and not marry her. dog. o villain! thou wilt be condemn'd into everlasting redemption for this. sex. what else? watchmen. this is all. sex. and this is more, masters, than you can deny. prince john is this morning secretly stol'n away. hero was in this manner accus'd, in this manner refus'd, and upon the grief of this suddenly died. master constable, let these men be bound and brought to leonato's. i will go before and show him their examination. [exit.] dog. come, let them be opinion'd. verg. let them be in the hands- con. off, coxcomb! dog. god's my life, where's the sexton? let him write down the prince's officer coxcomb. come, bind them.--thou naughty varlet! con. away! you are an ass, you are an ass. dog. dost thou not suspect my place? dost thou not suspect my years? o that he were here to write me down an ass! but, masters, remember that i am an ass. though it be not written down, yet forget not that i am an ass. no, thou villain, thou art full of piety, as shall be prov'd upon thee by good witness. i am a wise fellow; and which is more, an officer; and which is more, a householder; and which is more, as pretty a piece of flesh as any is in messina, and one that knows the law, go to! and a rich fellow enough, go to! and a fellow that hath had losses; and one that hath two gowns and everything handsome about him. bring him away. o that i had been writ down an ass! exeunt. <<this electronic version of the complete works of william shakespeare is copyright 1990-1993 by world library, inc., and is provided by project gutenberg etext of carnegie mellon university with permission. electronic and machine readable copies may be distributed so long as such copies (1) are for your or others personal use only, and (2) are not distributed or used commercially. prohibited commercial distribution includes by any service that charges for download time or for membership.>> act v. scene i. the street, near leonato's house. enter leonato and his brother [ antonio]. ant. if you go on thus, you will kill yourself, and 'tis not wisdom thus to second grief against yourself. leon. i pray thee cease thy counsel, which falls into mine ears as profitless as water in a sieve. give not me counsel, nor let no comforter delight mine ear but such a one whose wrongs do suit with mine. bring me a father that so lov'd his child, whose joy of her is overwhelm'd like mine, and bid him speak to me of patience. measure his woe the length and breadth of mine, and let it answer every strain for strain, as thus for thus, and such a grief for such, in every lineament, branch, shape, and form. if such a one will smile and stroke his beard, bid sorrow wag, cry 'hem' when he should groan, patch grief with proverbs, make misfortune drunk with candle-wasters--bring him yet to me, and i of him will gather patience. but there is no such man; for, brother, men can counsel and speak comfort to that grief which they themselves not feel; but, tasting it, their counsel turns to passion, which before would give preceptial medicine to rage, fetter strong madness in a silken thread, charm ache with air and agony with words. no, no! 'tis all men's office to speak patience to those that wring under the load of sorrow, but no man's virtue nor sufficiency to be so moral when he shall endure the like himself. therefore give me no counsel. my griefs cry louder than advertisement. ant. therein do men from children nothing differ. leon. i pray thee peace. i will be flesh and blood; for there was never yet philosopher that could endure the toothache patiently, however they have writ the style of gods and made a push at chance and sufferance. ant. yet bend not all the harm upon yourself. make those that do offend you suffer too. leon. there thou speak'st reason. nay, i will do so. my soul doth tell me hero is belied; and that shall claudio know; so shall the prince, and all of them that thus dishonour her. enter don pedro and claudio. ant. here comes the prince and claudio hastily. pedro. good den, good den. claud. good day to both of you. leon. hear you, my lords! pedro. we have some haste, leonato. leon. some haste, my lord! well, fare you well, my lord. are you so hasty now? well, all is one. pedro. nay, do not quarrel with us, good old man. ant. if he could right himself with quarrelling, some of us would lie low. claud. who wrongs him? leon. marry, thou dost wrong me, thou dissembler, thou! nay, never lay thy hand upon thy sword; i fear thee not. claud. mary, beshrew my hand if it should give your age such cause of fear. in faith, my hand meant nothing to my sword. leon. tush, tush, man! never fleer and jest at me i speak not like a dotard nor a fool, as under privilege of age to brag what i have done being young, or what would do, were i not old. know, claudio, to thy head, thou hast so wrong'd mine innocent child and me that i am forc'd to lay my reverence by and, with grey hairs and bruise of many days, do challenge thee to trial of a man. i say thou hast belied mine innocent child; thy slander hath gone through and through her heart, and she lied buried with her ancestors o, in a tomb where never scandal slept, save this of hers, fram'd by thy villany! claud. my villany? leon. thine, claudio; thine i say. pedro. you say not right, old man. leon. my lord, my lord, i'll prove it on his body if he dare, despite his nice fence and his active practice, his may of youth and bloom of lustihood. claud. away! i will not have to do with you. leon. canst thou so daff me? thou hast kill'd my child. if thou kill'st me, boy, thou shalt kill a man. and. he shall kill two of us, and men indeed but that's no matter; let him kill one first. win me and wear me! let him answer me. come, follow me, boy,. come, sir boy, come follow me. sir boy, i'll whip you from your foining fence! nay, as i am a gentleman, i will. leon. brother- ant. content yourself. god knows i lov'd my niece, and she is dead, slander'd to death by villains, that dare as well answer a man indeed as i dare take a serpent by the tongue. boys, apes, braggarts, jacks, milksops! leon. brother anthony- ant. hold you content. what, man! i know them, yea, and what they weigh, even to the utmost scruple, scambling, outfacing, fashion-monging boys, that lie and cog and flout, deprave and slander, go anticly, show outward hideousness, and speak off half a dozen dang'rous words, how they might hurt their enemies, if they durst; and this is all. leon. but, brother anthony- ant. come, 'tis no matter. do not you meddle; let me deal in this. pedro. gentlemen both, we will not wake your patience. my heart is sorry for your daughter's death; but, on my honour, she was charg'd with nothing but what was true, and very full of proof. leon. my lord, my lord- pedro. i will not hear you. leon. no? come, brother, away!--i will be heard. ant. and shall, or some of us will smart for it. exeunt ambo. enter benedick. pedro. see, see! here comes the man we went to seek. claud. now, signior, what news? bene. good day, my lord. pedro. welcome, signior. you are almost come to part almost a fray. claud. we had lik'd to have had our two noses snapp'd off with two old men without teeth. pedro. leonato and his brother. what think'st thou? had we fought, i doubt we should have been too young for them. bene. in a false quarrel there is no true valour. i came to seek you both. claud. we have been up and down to seek thee; for we are high-proof melancholy, and would fain have it beaten away. wilt thou use thy wit? bene. it is in my scabbard. shall i draw it? pedro. dost thou wear thy wit by thy side? claud. never any did so, though very many have been beside their wit. i will bid thee draw, as we do the minstrel--draw to pleasure us. pedro. as i am an honest man, he looks pale. art thou sick or angry? claud. what, courage, man! what though care kill'd a cat, thou hast mettle enough in thee to kill care. bene. sir, i shall meet your wit in the career an you charge it against me. i pray you choose another subject. claud. nay then, give him another staff; this last was broke cross. pedro. by this light, he changes more and more. i think he be angry indeed. claud. if he be, he knows how to turn his girdle. bene. shall i speak a word in your ear? claud. god bless me from a challenge! bene. [aside to claudio] you are a villain. i jest not; i will make it good how you dare, with what you dare, and when you dare. do me right, or i will protest your cowardice. you have kill'd a sweet lady, and her death shall fall heavy on you. let me hear from you. claud. well, i will meet you, so i may have good cheer. pedro. what, a feast, a feast? claud. i' faith, i thank him, he hath bid me to a calve's head and a capon, the which if i do not carve most curiously, say my knife's naught. shall i not find a woodcock too? bene. sir, your wit ambles well; it goes easily. pedro. i'll tell thee how beatrice prais'd thy wit the other day. i said thou hadst a fine wit: 'true,' said she, 'a fine little one.' 'no,' said i, 'a great wit.' 'right,' says she, 'a great gross one.' 'nay,' said i, 'a good wit.' 'just,' said she, 'it hurts nobody.' 'nay,' said i, 'the gentleman is wise.' 'certain,' said she, a wise gentleman.' 'nay,' said i, 'he hath the tongues.' 'that i believe' said she, 'for he swore a thing to me on monday night which he forswore on tuesday morning. there's a double tongue; there's two tongues.' thus did she an hour together transshape thy particular virtues. yet at last she concluded with a sigh, thou wast the proper'st man in italy. claud. for the which she wept heartily and said she cared not. pedro. yea, that she did; but yet, for all that, an if she did not hate him deadly, she would love him dearly. the old man's daughter told us all. claud. all, all! and moreover, god saw him when he was hid in the garden. pedro. but when shall we set the savage bull's horns on the sensible benedick's head? claud. yea, and text underneath, 'here dwells benedick, the married man'? bene. fare you well, boy; you know my mind. i will leave you now to your gossiplike humour. you break jests as braggards do their blades, which god be thanked hurt not. my lord, for your many courtesies i thank you. i must discontinue your company. your brother the bastard is fled from messina. you have among you kill'd a sweet and innocent lady. for my lord lackbeard there, he and i shall meet; and till then peace be with him. [exit.] pedro. he is in earnest. claud. in most profound earnest; and, i'll warrant you, for the love of beatrice. pedro. and hath challeng'd thee. claud. most sincerely. pedro. what a pretty thing man is when he goes in his doublet and hose and leaves off his wit! enter constables [dogberry and verges, with the watch, leading] conrade and borachio. claud. he is then a giant to an ape; but then is an ape a doctor to such a man. pedro. but, soft you, let me be! pluck up, my heart, and be sad! did he not say my brother was fled? dog. come you, sir. if justice cannot tame you, she shall ne'er weigh more reasons in her balance. nay, an you be a cursing hypocrite once, you must be look'd to. pedro. how now? two of my brother's men bound? borachio one. claud. hearken after their offence, my lord. pedro. officers, what offence have these men done? dog. marry, sir, they have committed false report; moreover, they have spoken untruths; secondarily, they are slanders; sixth and lastly, they have belied a lady; thirdly, they have verified unjust things; and to conclude, they are lying knaves. pedro. first, i ask thee what they have done; thirdly, i ask thee what's their offence; sixth and lastly, why they are committed; and to conclude, what you lay to their charge. claud. rightly reasoned, and in his own division; and by my troth there's one meaning well suited. pedro. who have you offended, masters, that you are thus bound to your answer? this learned constable is too cunning to be understood. what's your offence? bora. sweet prince, let me go no farther to mine answer. do you hear me, and let this count kill me. i have deceived even your very eyes. what your wisdoms could not discover, these shallow fools have brought to light, who in the night overheard me confessing to this man, how don john your brother incensed me to slander the lady hero; how you were brought into the orchard and saw me court margaret in hero's garments; how you disgrac'd her when you should marry her. my villany they have upon record, which i had rather seal with my death than repeat over to my shame. the lady is dead upon mine and my master's false accusation; and briefly, i desire nothing but the reward of a villain. pedro. runs not this speech like iron through your blood? claud. i have drunk poison whiles he utter'd it. pedro. but did my brother set thee on to this? bora. yea, and paid me richly for the practice of it. pedro. he is compos'd and fram'd of treachery, and fled he is upon this villany. claud. sweet hero, now thy image doth appear in the rare semblance that i lov'd it first. dog. come, bring away the plaintiffs. by this time our sexton hath reformed signior leonato of the matter. and, masters, do not forget to specify, when time and place shall serve, that i am an ass. verg. here, here comes master signior leonato, and the sexton too. enter leonato, his brother [antonio], and the sexton. leon. which is the villain? let me see his eyes, that, when i note another man like him, i may avoid him. which of these is he? bora. if you would know your wronger, look on me. leon. art thou the slave that with thy breath hast kill'd mine innocent child? bora. yea, even i alone. leon. no, not so, villain! thou beliest thyself. here stand a pair of honourable men- a third is fled--that had a hand in it. i thank you princes for my daughter's death. record it with your high and worthy deeds. 'twas bravely done, if you bethink you of it. claud. i know not how to pray your patience; yet i must speak. choose your revenge yourself; impose me to what penance your invention can lay upon my sin. yet sinn'd i not but in mistaking. pedro. by my soul, nor i! and yet, to satisfy this good old man, i would bend under any heavy weight that he'll enjoin me to. leon. i cannot bid you bid my daughter live that were impossible; but i pray you both, possess the people in messina here how innocent she died; and if your love can labour aught in sad invention, hang her an epitaph upon her tomb, and sing it to her bones--sing it to-night. to-morrow morning come you to my house, and since you could not be my son-in-law, be yet my nephew. my brother hath a daughter, almost the copy of my child that's dead, and she alone is heir to both of us. give her the right you should have giv'n her cousin, and so dies my revenge. claud. o noble sir! your over-kindness doth wring tears from me. i do embrace your offer; and dispose for henceforth of poor claudio. leon. to-morrow then i will expect your coming; to-night i take my leave. this naughty man shall fact to face be brought to margaret, who i believe was pack'd in all this wrong, hir'd to it by your brother. bora. no, by my soul, she was not; nor knew not what she did when she spoke to me; but always hath been just and virtuous in anything that i do know by her. dog. moreover, sir, which indeed is not under white and black, this plaintiff here, the offender, did call me ass. i beseech you let it be rememb'red in his punishment. and also the watch heard them talk of one deformed. they say he wears a key in his ear, and a lock hanging by it, and borrows money in god's name, the which he hath us'd so long and never paid that now men grow hard-hearted and will lend nothing for god's sake. pray you examine him upon that point. leon. i thank thee for thy care and honest pains. dog. your worship speaks like a most thankful and reverent youth, and i praise god for you. leon. there's for thy pains. [gives money.] dog. god save the foundation! leon. go, i discharge thee of thy prisoner, and i thank thee. dog. i leave an arrant knave with your worship, which i beseech your worship to correct yourself, for the example of others. god keep your worship! i wish your worship well. god restore you to health! i humbly give you leave to depart; and if a merry meeting may be wish'd, god prohibit it! come, neighbour. exeunt [dogberry and verges]. leon. until to-morrow morning, lords, farewell. ant. farewell, my lords. we look for you to-morrow. pedro. we will not fall. claud. to-night i'll mourn with hero. [exeunt don pedro and claudio.] leon. [to the watch] bring you these fellows on.--we'll talk with margaret, how her acquaintance grew with this lewd fellow. exeunt. scene ii. leonato's orchard. enter benedick and margaret [meeting]. bene. pray thee, sweet mistress margaret, deserve well at my hands by helping me to the speech of beatrice. marg. will you then write me a sonnet in praise of my beauty? bene. in so high a style, margaret, that no man living shall come over it; for in most comely truth thou deservest it. marg. to have no man come over me? why, shall i always keep below stairs? bene. thy wit is as quick as the greyhound's mouth--it catches. marg. and yours as blunt as the fencer's foils, which hit but hurt not. bene. a most manly wit, margaret: it will not hurt a woman. and so i pray thee call beatrice. i give thee the bucklers. marg. give us the swords; we have bucklers of our own. bene. if you use them, margaret, you must put in the pikes with a vice, and they are dangerous weapons for maids. marg. well, i will call beatrice to you, who i think hath legs. bene. and therefore will come. exit margaret. [sings] the god of love, that sits above and knows me, and knows me, how pitiful i deserve- i mean in singing; but in loving leander the good swimmer, troilus the first employer of panders, and a whole book full of these quondam carpet-mongers, whose names yet run smoothly in the even road of a blank verse--why, they were never so truly turn'd over and over as my poor self in love. marry, i cannot show it in rhyme. i have tried. i can find out no rhyme to 'lady' but 'baby' --an innocent rhyme; for 'scorn,' 'horn'--a hard rhyme; for 'school', 'fool'--a babbling rhyme: very ominous endings! no, i was not born under a rhyming planet, nor cannot woo in festival terms. enter beatrice. sweet beatrice, wouldst thou come when i call'd thee? beat. yea, signior, and depart when you bid me. bene. o, stay but till then! beat. 'then' is spoken. fare you well now. and yet, ere i go, let me go with that i came for, which is, with knowing what hath pass'd between you and claudio. bene. only foul words; and thereupon i will kiss thee. beat. foul words is but foul wind, and foul wind is but foul breath, and foul breath is noisome. therefore i will depart unkiss'd. bene. thou hast frighted the word out of his right sense, so forcible is thy wit. but i must tell thee plainly, claudio undergoes my challenge; and either i must shortly hear from him or i will subscribe him a coward. and i pray thee now tell me, for which of my bad parts didst thou first fall in love with me? beat. for them all together, which maintain'd so politic a state of evil that they will not admit any good part to intermingle with them. but for which of my good parts did you first suffer love for me? bene. suffer love!--a good epithet. i do suffer love indeed, for i love thee against my will. beat. in spite of your heart, i think. alas, poor heart! if you spite it for my sake, i will spite it for yours, for i will never love that which my friend hates. bene. thou and i are too wise to woo peaceably. beat. it appears not in this confession. there's not one wise man among twenty, that will praise himself. bene. an old, an old instance, beatrice, that liv'd in the time of good neighbours. if a man do not erect in this age his own tomb ere he dies, he shall live no longer in monument than the bell rings and the widow weeps. beat. and how long is that, think you? bene. question: why, an hour in clamour and a quarter in rheum. therefore is it most expedient for the wise, if don worm (his conscience) find no impediment to the contrary, to be the trumpet of his own virtues, as i am to myself. so much for praising myself, who, i myself will bear witness, is praiseworthy. and now tell me, how doth your cousin? beat. very ill. bene. and how do you? beat. very ill too. bene. serve god, love me, and mend. there will i leave you too, for here comes one in haste. enter ursula. urs. madam, you must come to your uncle. yonder's old coil at home. it is proved my lady hero hath been falsely accus'd, the prince and claudio mightily abus'd, and don john is the author of all, who is fled and gone. will you come presently? beat. will you go hear this news, signior? bene. i will live in thy heart, die in thy lap, and be buried thy eyes; and moreover, i will go with thee to thy uncle's. exeunt. scene iii. a churchyard. enter claudio, don pedro, and three or four with tapers, [followed by musicians]. claud. is this the monument of leonato? lord. it is, my lord. claud. [reads from a scroll] epitaph. done to death by slanderous tongues was the hero that here lies. death, in guerdon of her wrongs, gives her fame which never dies. so the life that died with shame lives in death with glorious fame. hang thou there upon the tomb, [hangs up the scroll.] praising her when i am dumb. now, music, sound, and sing your solemn hymn. song. pardon, goddess of the night, those that slew thy virgin knight; for the which, with songs of woe, round about her tomb they go. midnight, assist our moan, help us to sigh and groan heavily, heavily, graves, yawn and yield your dead, till death be uttered heavily, heavily. claud. now unto thy bones good night! yearly will i do this rite. pedro. good morrow, masters. put your torches out. the wolves have prey'd, and look, the gentle day, before the wheels of phoebus, round about dapples the drowsy east with spots of grey. thanks to you all, and leave us. fare you well. claud. good morrow, masters. each his several way. pedro. come, let us hence and put on other weeds, and then to leonato's we will go. claud. and hymen now with luckier issue speeds than this for whom we rend'red up this woe. exeunt. scene iv the hall in leonato's house. enter leonato, benedick, [beatrice,] margaret, ursula, antonio, friar [francis], hero. friar. did i not tell you she was innocent? leon. so are the prince and claudio, who accus'd her upon the error that you heard debated. but margaret was in some fault for this, although against her will, as it appears in the true course of all the question. ant. well, i am glad that all things sort so well. bene. and so am i, being else by faith enforc'd to call young claudio to a reckoning for it. leon. well, daughter, and you gentlewomen all, withdraw into a chamber by yourselves, and when i send for you, come hither mask'd. exeunt ladies. the prince and claudio promis'd by this hour to visit me. you know your office, brother: you must be father to your brother's daughter, and give her to young claudio. ant. which i will do with confirm'd countenance. bene. friar, i must entreat your pains, i think. friar. to do what, signior? bene. to bind me, or undo me--one of them. signior leonato, truth it is, good signior, your niece regards me with an eye of favour. leon. that eye my daughter lent her. 'tis most true. bene. and i do with an eye of love requite her. leon. the sight whereof i think you had from me, from claudio, and the prince; but what's your will? bene. your answer, sir, is enigmatical; but, for my will, my will is, your good will may stand with ours, this day to be conjoin'd in the state of honourable marriage; in which, good friar, i shall desire your help. leon. my heart is with your liking. friar. and my help. enter don pedro and claudio and two or three other. here comes the prince and claudio. pedro. good morrow to this fair assembly. leon. good morrow, prince; good morrow, claudio. we here attend you. are you yet determin'd to-day to marry with my brother's daughter? claud. i'll hold my mind, were she an ethiope. leon. call her forth, brother. here's the friar ready. [exit antonio.] pedro. good morrow, benedick. why, what's the matter that you have such a february face, so full of frost, of storm, and cloudiness? claud. i think he thinks upon the savage bull. tush, fear not, man! we'll tip thy horns with gold, and all europa shall rejoice at thee, as once europa did at lusty jove when he would play the noble beast in love. bene. bull jove, sir, had an amiable low, and some such strange bull leap'd your father's cow and got a calf in that same noble feat much like to you, for you have just his bleat. enter [leonato's] brother [antonio], hero, beatrice, margaret, ursula, [the ladies wearing masks]. claud. for this i owe you. here comes other reckonings. which is the lady i must seize upon? ant. this same is she, and i do give you her. claud. why then, she's mine. sweet, let me see your face. leon. no, that you shall not till you take her hand before this friar and swear to marry her. claud. give me your hand before this holy friar. i am your husband if you like of me. hero. and when i liv'd i was your other wife; [unmasks.] and when you lov'd you were my other husband. claud. another hero! hero. nothing certainer. one hero died defil'd; but i do live, and surely as i live, i am a maid. pedro. the former hero! hero that is dead! leon. she died, my lord, but whiles her slander liv'd. friar. all this amazement can i qualify, when, after that the holy rites are ended, i'll tell you largely of fair hero's death. meantime let wonder seem familiar, and to the chapel let us presently. bene. soft and fair, friar. which is beatrice? beat. [unmasks] i answer to that name. what is your will? bene. do not you love me? beat. why, no; no more than reason. bene. why, then your uncle, and the prince, and claudio have been deceived; for they swore you did. beat. do not you love me? bene. troth, no; no more than reason. beat. why, then my cousin, margaret, and ursula are much deceiv'd; for they did swear you did. bene. they swore that you were almost sick for me. beat. they swore that you were well-nigh dead for me. bene. 'tis no such matter. then you do not love me? beat. no, truly, but in friendly recompense. leon. come, cousin, i am sure you love the gentleman. claud. and i'll be sworn upon't that he loves her; for here's a paper written in his hand, a halting sonnet of his own pure brain, fashion'd to beatrice. hero. and here's another, writ in my cousin's hand, stol'n from her pocket, containing her affection unto benedick. bene. a miracle! here's our own hands against our hearts. come, i will have thee; but, by this light, i take thee for pity. beat. i would not deny you; but, by this good day, i yield upon great persuasion, and partly to save your life, for i was told you were in a consumption. bene. peace! i will stop your mouth. [kisses her.] beat. i'll tell thee what, prince: a college of wit-crackers cannot flout me out of my humour. dost thou think i care for a satire or an epigram? no. if a man will be beaten with brains, 'a shall wear nothing handsome about him. in brief, since i do purpose to marry, i will think nothing to any purpose that the world can say against it; and therefore never flout at me for what i have said against it; for man is a giddy thing, and this is my conclusion. for thy part, claudio, i did think to have beaten thee; but in that thou art like to be my kinsman, live unbruis'd, and love my cousin. claud. i had well hop'd thou wouldst have denied beatrice, that i might have cudgell'd thee out of thy single life, to make thee a double-dealer, which out of question thou wilt be if my cousin do not look exceeding narrowly to thee. bene. come, come, we are friends. let's have a dance ere we are married, that we may lighten our own hearts and our wives' heels. leon. we'll have dancing afterward. bene. first, of my word! therefore play, music. prince, thou art sad. get thee a wife, get thee a wife! there is no staff more reverent than one tipp'd with horn. enter messenger. mess. my lord, your brother john is ta'en in flight, and brought with armed men back to messina. bene. think not on him till to-morrow. i'll devise thee brave punishments for him. strike up, pipers! dance. [exeunt.] the end <<this electronic version of the complete works of william shakespeare is copyright 1990-1993 by world library, inc., and is provided by project gutenberg etext of carnegie mellon university with permission. electronic and machine readable copies may be distributed so long as such copies (1) are for your or others personal use only, and (2) are not distributed or used commercially. prohibited commercial distribution includes by any service that charges for download time or for membership.>> by al haines. persuasion by jane austen (1818) chapter 1 sir walter elliot, of kellynch hall, in somersetshire, was a man who, for his own amusement, never took up any book but the baronetage; there he found occupation for an idle hour, and consolation in a distressed one; there his faculties were roused into admiration and respect, by contemplating the limited remnant of the earliest patents; there any unwelcome sensations, arising from domestic affairs changed naturally into pity and contempt as he turned over the almost endless creations of the last century; and there, if every other leaf were powerless, he could read his own history with an interest which never failed. this was the page at which the favourite volume always opened: "elliot of kellynch hall. "walter elliot, born march 1, 1760, married, july 15, 1784, elizabeth, daughter of james stevenson, esq. of south park, in the county of gloucester, by which lady (who died 1800) he has issue elizabeth, born june 1, 1785; anne, born august 9, 1787; a still-born son, november 5, 1789; mary, born november 20, 1791." precisely such had the paragraph originally stood from the printer's hands; but sir walter had improved it by adding, for the information of himself and his family, these words, after the date of mary's birth-"married, december 16, 1810, charles, son and heir of charles musgrove, esq. of uppercross, in the county of somerset," and by inserting most accurately the day of the month on which he had lost his wife. then followed the history and rise of the ancient and respectable family, in the usual terms; how it had been first settled in cheshire; how mentioned in dugdale, serving the office of high sheriff, representing a borough in three successive parliaments, exertions of loyalty, and dignity of baronet, in the first year of charles ii, with all the marys and elizabeths they had married; forming altogether two handsome duodecimo pages, and concluding with the arms and motto:--"principal seat, kellynch hall, in the county of somerset," and sir walter's handwriting again in this finale:-"heir presumptive, william walter elliot, esq., great grandson of the second sir walter." vanity was the beginning and the end of sir walter elliot's character; vanity of person and of situation. he had been remarkably handsome in his youth; and, at fifty-four, was still a very fine man. few women could think more of their personal appearance than he did, nor could the valet of any new made lord be more delighted with the place he held in society. he considered the blessing of beauty as inferior only to the blessing of a baronetcy; and the sir walter elliot, who united these gifts, was the constant object of his warmest respect and devotion. his good looks and his rank had one fair claim on his attachment; since to them he must have owed a wife of very superior character to any thing deserved by his own. lady elliot had been an excellent woman, sensible and amiable; whose judgement and conduct, if they might be pardoned the youthful infatuation which made her lady elliot, had never required indulgence afterwards.--she had humoured, or softened, or concealed his failings, and promoted his real respectability for seventeen years; and though not the very happiest being in the world herself, had found enough in her duties, her friends, and her children, to attach her to life, and make it no matter of indifference to her when she was called on to quit them.--three girls, the two eldest sixteen and fourteen, was an awful legacy for a mother to bequeath, an awful charge rather, to confide to the authority and guidance of a conceited, silly father. she had, however, one very intimate friend, a sensible, deserving woman, who had been brought, by strong attachment to herself, to settle close by her, in the village of kellynch; and on her kindness and advice, lady elliot mainly relied for the best help and maintenance of the good principles and instruction which she had been anxiously giving her daughters. this friend, and sir walter, did not marry, whatever might have been anticipated on that head by their acquaintance. thirteen years had passed away since lady elliot's death, and they were still near neighbours and intimate friends, and one remained a widower, the other a widow. that lady russell, of steady age and character, and extremely well provided for, should have no thought of a second marriage, needs no apology to the public, which is rather apt to be unreasonably discontented when a woman does marry again, than when she does not; but sir walter's continuing in singleness requires explanation. be it known then, that sir walter, like a good father, (having met with one or two private disappointments in very unreasonable applications), prided himself on remaining single for his dear daughters' sake. for one daughter, his eldest, he would really have given up any thing, which he had not been very much tempted to do. elizabeth had succeeded, at sixteen, to all that was possible, of her mother's rights and consequence; and being very handsome, and very like himself, her influence had always been great, and they had gone on together most happily. his two other children were of very inferior value. mary had acquired a little artificial importance, by becoming mrs charles musgrove; but anne, with an elegance of mind and sweetness of character, which must have placed her high with any people of real understanding, was nobody with either father or sister; her word had no weight, her convenience was always to give way--she was only anne. to lady russell, indeed, she was a most dear and highly valued god-daughter, favourite, and friend. lady russell loved them all; but it was only in anne that she could fancy the mother to revive again. a few years before, anne elliot had been a very pretty girl, but her bloom had vanished early; and as even in its height, her father had found little to admire in her, (so totally different were her delicate features and mild dark eyes from his own), there could be nothing in them, now that she was faded and thin, to excite his esteem. he had never indulged much hope, he had now none, of ever reading her name in any other page of his favourite work. all equality of alliance must rest with elizabeth, for mary had merely connected herself with an old country family of respectability and large fortune, and had therefore given all the honour and received none: elizabeth would, one day or other, marry suitably. it sometimes happens that a woman is handsomer at twenty-nine than she was ten years before; and, generally speaking, if there has been neither ill health nor anxiety, it is a time of life at which scarcely any charm is lost. it was so with elizabeth, still the same handsome miss elliot that she had begun to be thirteen years ago, and sir walter might be excused, therefore, in forgetting her age, or, at least, be deemed only half a fool, for thinking himself and elizabeth as blooming as ever, amidst the wreck of the good looks of everybody else; for he could plainly see how old all the rest of his family and acquaintance were growing. anne haggard, mary coarse, every face in the neighbourhood worsting, and the rapid increase of the crow's foot about lady russell's temples had long been a distress to him. elizabeth did not quite equal her father in personal contentment. thirteen years had seen her mistress of kellynch hall, presiding and directing with a self-possession and decision which could never have given the idea of her being younger than she was. for thirteen years had she been doing the honours, and laying down the domestic law at home, and leading the way to the chaise and four, and walking immediately after lady russell out of all the drawing-rooms and dining-rooms in the country. thirteen winters' revolving frosts had seen her opening every ball of credit which a scanty neighbourhood afforded, and thirteen springs shewn their blossoms, as she travelled up to london with her father, for a few weeks' annual enjoyment of the great world. she had the remembrance of all this, she had the consciousness of being nine-and-twenty to give her some regrets and some apprehensions; she was fully satisfied of being still quite as handsome as ever, but she felt her approach to the years of danger, and would have rejoiced to be certain of being properly solicited by baronet-blood within the next twelvemonth or two. then might she again take up the book of books with as much enjoyment as in her early youth, but now she liked it not. always to be presented with the date of her own birth and see no marriage follow but that of a youngest sister, made the book an evil; and more than once, when her father had left it open on the table near her, had she closed it, with averted eyes, and pushed it away. she had had a disappointment, moreover, which that book, and especially the history of her own family, must ever present the remembrance of. the heir presumptive, the very william walter elliot, esq., whose rights had been so generously supported by her father, had disappointed her. she had, while a very young girl, as soon as she had known him to be, in the event of her having no brother, the future baronet, meant to marry him, and her father had always meant that she should. he had not been known to them as a boy; but soon after lady elliot's death, sir walter had sought the acquaintance, and though his overtures had not been met with any warmth, he had persevered in seeking it, making allowance for the modest drawing-back of youth; and, in one of their spring excursions to london, when elizabeth was in her first bloom, mr elliot had been forced into the introduction. he was at that time a very young man, just engaged in the study of the law; and elizabeth found him extremely agreeable, and every plan in his favour was confirmed. he was invited to kellynch hall; he was talked of and expected all the rest of the year; but he never came. the following spring he was seen again in town, found equally agreeable, again encouraged, invited, and expected, and again he did not come; and the next tidings were that he was married. instead of pushing his fortune in the line marked out for the heir of the house of elliot, he had purchased independence by uniting himself to a rich woman of inferior birth. sir walter had resented it. as the head of the house, he felt that he ought to have been consulted, especially after taking the young man so publicly by the hand; "for they must have been seen together," he observed, "once at tattersall's, and twice in the lobby of the house of commons." his disapprobation was expressed, but apparently very little regarded. mr elliot had attempted no apology, and shewn himself as unsolicitous of being longer noticed by the family, as sir walter considered him unworthy of it: all acquaintance between them had ceased. this very awkward history of mr elliot was still, after an interval of several years, felt with anger by elizabeth, who had liked the man for himself, and still more for being her father's heir, and whose strong family pride could see only in him a proper match for sir walter elliot's eldest daughter. there was not a baronet from a to z whom her feelings could have so willingly acknowledged as an equal. yet so miserably had he conducted himself, that though she was at this present time (the summer of 1814) wearing black ribbons for his wife, she could not admit him to be worth thinking of again. the disgrace of his first marriage might, perhaps, as there was no reason to suppose it perpetuated by offspring, have been got over, had he not done worse; but he had, as by the accustomary intervention of kind friends, they had been informed, spoken most disrespectfully of them all, most slightingly and contemptuously of the very blood he belonged to, and the honours which were hereafter to be his own. this could not be pardoned. such were elizabeth elliot's sentiments and sensations; such the cares to alloy, the agitations to vary, the sameness and the elegance, the prosperity and the nothingness of her scene of life; such the feelings to give interest to a long, uneventful residence in one country circle, to fill the vacancies which there were no habits of utility abroad, no talents or accomplishments for home, to occupy. but now, another occupation and solicitude of mind was beginning to be added to these. her father was growing distressed for money. she knew, that when he now took up the baronetage, it was to drive the heavy bills of his tradespeople, and the unwelcome hints of mr shepherd, his agent, from his thoughts. the kellynch property was good, but not equal to sir walter's apprehension of the state required in its possessor. while lady elliot lived, there had been method, moderation, and economy, which had just kept him within his income; but with her had died all such right-mindedness, and from that period he had been constantly exceeding it. it had not been possible for him to spend less; he had done nothing but what sir walter elliot was imperiously called on to do; but blameless as he was, he was not only growing dreadfully in debt, but was hearing of it so often, that it became vain to attempt concealing it longer, even partially, from his daughter. he had given her some hints of it the last spring in town; he had gone so far even as to say, "can we retrench? does it occur to you that there is any one article in which we can retrench?" and elizabeth, to do her justice, had, in the first ardour of female alarm, set seriously to think what could be done, and had finally proposed these two branches of economy, to cut off some unnecessary charities, and to refrain from new furnishing the drawing-room; to which expedients she afterwards added the happy thought of their taking no present down to anne, as had been the usual yearly custom. but these measures, however good in themselves, were insufficient for the real extent of the evil, the whole of which sir walter found himself obliged to confess to her soon afterwards. elizabeth had nothing to propose of deeper efficacy. she felt herself ill-used and unfortunate, as did her father; and they were neither of them able to devise any means of lessening their expenses without compromising their dignity, or relinquishing their comforts in a way not to be borne. there was only a small part of his estate that sir walter could dispose of; but had every acre been alienable, it would have made no difference. he had condescended to mortgage as far as he had the power, but he would never condescend to sell. no; he would never disgrace his name so far. the kellynch estate should be transmitted whole and entire, as he had received it. their two confidential friends, mr shepherd, who lived in the neighbouring market town, and lady russell, were called to advise them; and both father and daughter seemed to expect that something should be struck out by one or the other to remove their embarrassments and reduce their expenditure, without involving the loss of any indulgence of taste or pride. chapter 2 mr shepherd, a civil, cautious lawyer, who, whatever might be his hold or his views on sir walter, would rather have the disagreeable prompted by anybody else, excused himself from offering the slightest hint, and only begged leave to recommend an implicit reference to the excellent judgement of lady russell, from whose known good sense he fully expected to have just such resolute measures advised as he meant to see finally adopted. lady russell was most anxiously zealous on the subject, and gave it much serious consideration. she was a woman rather of sound than of quick abilities, whose difficulties in coming to any decision in this instance were great, from the opposition of two leading principles. she was of strict integrity herself, with a delicate sense of honour; but she was as desirous of saving sir walter's feelings, as solicitous for the credit of the family, as aristocratic in her ideas of what was due to them, as anybody of sense and honesty could well be. she was a benevolent, charitable, good woman, and capable of strong attachments, most correct in her conduct, strict in her notions of decorum, and with manners that were held a standard of good-breeding. she had a cultivated mind, and was, generally speaking, rational and consistent; but she had prejudices on the side of ancestry; she had a value for rank and consequence, which blinded her a little to the faults of those who possessed them. herself the widow of only a knight, she gave the dignity of a baronet all its due; and sir walter, independent of his claims as an old acquaintance, an attentive neighbour, an obliging landlord, the husband of her very dear friend, the father of anne and her sisters, was, as being sir walter, in her apprehension, entitled to a great deal of compassion and consideration under his present difficulties. they must retrench; that did not admit of a doubt. but she was very anxious to have it done with the least possible pain to him and elizabeth. she drew up plans of economy, she made exact calculations, and she did what nobody else thought of doing: she consulted anne, who never seemed considered by the others as having any interest in the question. she consulted, and in a degree was influenced by her in marking out the scheme of retrenchment which was at last submitted to sir walter. every emendation of anne's had been on the side of honesty against importance. she wanted more vigorous measures, a more complete reformation, a quicker release from debt, a much higher tone of indifference for everything but justice and equity. "if we can persuade your father to all this," said lady russell, looking over her paper, "much may be done. if he will adopt these regulations, in seven years he will be clear; and i hope we may be able to convince him and elizabeth, that kellynch hall has a respectability in itself which cannot be affected by these reductions; and that the true dignity of sir walter elliot will be very far from lessened in the eyes of sensible people, by acting like a man of principle. what will he be doing, in fact, but what very many of our first families have done, or ought to do? there will be nothing singular in his case; and it is singularity which often makes the worst part of our suffering, as it always does of our conduct. i have great hope of prevailing. we must be serious and decided; for after all, the person who has contracted debts must pay them; and though a great deal is due to the feelings of the gentleman, and the head of a house, like your father, there is still more due to the character of an honest man." this was the principle on which anne wanted her father to be proceeding, his friends to be urging him. she considered it as an act of indispensable duty to clear away the claims of creditors with all the expedition which the most comprehensive retrenchments could secure, and saw no dignity in anything short of it. she wanted it to be prescribed, and felt as a duty. she rated lady russell's influence highly; and as to the severe degree of self-denial which her own conscience prompted, she believed there might be little more difficulty in persuading them to a complete, than to half a reformation. her knowledge of her father and elizabeth inclined her to think that the sacrifice of one pair of horses would be hardly less painful than of both, and so on, through the whole list of lady russell's too gentle reductions. how anne's more rigid requisitions might have been taken is of little consequence. lady russell's had no success at all: could not be put up with, were not to be borne. "what! every comfort of life knocked off! journeys, london, servants, horses, table--contractions and restrictions every where! to live no longer with the decencies even of a private gentleman! no, he would sooner quit kellynch hall at once, than remain in it on such disgraceful terms." "quit kellynch hall." the hint was immediately taken up by mr shepherd, whose interest was involved in the reality of sir walter's retrenching, and who was perfectly persuaded that nothing would be done without a change of abode. "since the idea had been started in the very quarter which ought to dictate, he had no scruple," he said, "in confessing his judgement to be entirely on that side. it did not appear to him that sir walter could materially alter his style of living in a house which had such a character of hospitality and ancient dignity to support. in any other place sir walter might judge for himself; and would be looked up to, as regulating the modes of life in whatever way he might choose to model his household." sir walter would quit kellynch hall; and after a very few days more of doubt and indecision, the great question of whither he should go was settled, and the first outline of this important change made out. there had been three alternatives, london, bath, or another house in the country. all anne's wishes had been for the latter. a small house in their own neighbourhood, where they might still have lady russell's society, still be near mary, and still have the pleasure of sometimes seeing the lawns and groves of kellynch, was the object of her ambition. but the usual fate of anne attended her, in having something very opposite from her inclination fixed on. she disliked bath, and did not think it agreed with her; and bath was to be her home. sir walter had at first thought more of london; but mr shepherd felt that he could not be trusted in london, and had been skilful enough to dissuade him from it, and make bath preferred. it was a much safer place for a gentleman in his predicament: he might there be important at comparatively little expense. two material advantages of bath over london had of course been given all their weight: its more convenient distance from kellynch, only fifty miles, and lady russell's spending some part of every winter there; and to the very great satisfaction of lady russell, whose first views on the projected change had been for bath, sir walter and elizabeth were induced to believe that they should lose neither consequence nor enjoyment by settling there. lady russell felt obliged to oppose her dear anne's known wishes. it would be too much to expect sir walter to descend into a small house in his own neighbourhood. anne herself would have found the mortifications of it more than she foresaw, and to sir walter's feelings they must have been dreadful. and with regard to anne's dislike of bath, she considered it as a prejudice and mistake arising, first, from the circumstance of her having been three years at school there, after her mother's death; and secondly, from her happening to be not in perfectly good spirits the only winter which she had afterwards spent there with herself. lady russell was fond of bath, in short, and disposed to think it must suit them all; and as to her young friend's health, by passing all the warm months with her at kellynch lodge, every danger would be avoided; and it was in fact, a change which must do both health and spirits good. anne had been too little from home, too little seen. her spirits were not high. a larger society would improve them. she wanted her to be more known. the undesirableness of any other house in the same neighbourhood for sir walter was certainly much strengthened by one part, and a very material part of the scheme, which had been happily engrafted on the beginning. he was not only to quit his home, but to see it in the hands of others; a trial of fortitude, which stronger heads than sir walter's have found too much. kellynch hall was to be let. this, however, was a profound secret, not to be breathed beyond their own circle. sir walter could not have borne the degradation of being known to design letting his house. mr shepherd had once mentioned the word "advertise," but never dared approach it again. sir walter spurned the idea of its being offered in any manner; forbad the slightest hint being dropped of his having such an intention; and it was only on the supposition of his being spontaneously solicited by some most unexceptionable applicant, on his own terms, and as a great favour, that he would let it at all. how quick come the reasons for approving what we like! lady russell had another excellent one at hand, for being extremely glad that sir walter and his family were to remove from the country. elizabeth had been lately forming an intimacy, which she wished to see interrupted. it was with the daughter of mr shepherd, who had returned, after an unprosperous marriage, to her father's house, with the additional burden of two children. she was a clever young woman, who understood the art of pleasing--the art of pleasing, at least, at kellynch hall; and who had made herself so acceptable to miss elliot, as to have been already staying there more than once, in spite of all that lady russell, who thought it a friendship quite out of place, could hint of caution and reserve. lady russell, indeed, had scarcely any influence with elizabeth, and seemed to love her, rather because she would love her, than because elizabeth deserved it. she had never received from her more than outward attention, nothing beyond the observances of complaisance; had never succeeded in any point which she wanted to carry, against previous inclination. she had been repeatedly very earnest in trying to get anne included in the visit to london, sensibly open to all the injustice and all the discredit of the selfish arrangements which shut her out, and on many lesser occasions had endeavoured to give elizabeth the advantage of her own better judgement and experience; but always in vain: elizabeth would go her own way; and never had she pursued it in more decided opposition to lady russell than in this selection of mrs clay; turning from the society of so deserving a sister, to bestow her affection and confidence on one who ought to have been nothing to her but the object of distant civility. from situation, mrs clay was, in lady russell's estimate, a very unequal, and in her character she believed a very dangerous companion; and a removal that would leave mrs clay behind, and bring a choice of more suitable intimates within miss elliot's reach, was therefore an object of first-rate importance. chapter 3 "i must take leave to observe, sir walter," said mr shepherd one morning at kellynch hall, as he laid down the newspaper, "that the present juncture is much in our favour. this peace will be turning all our rich naval officers ashore. they will be all wanting a home. could not be a better time, sir walter, for having a choice of tenants, very responsible tenants. many a noble fortune has been made during the war. if a rich admiral were to come in our way, sir walter--" "he would be a very lucky man, shepherd," replied sir walter; "that's all i have to remark. a prize indeed would kellynch hall be to him; rather the greatest prize of all, let him have taken ever so many before; hey, shepherd?" mr shepherd laughed, as he knew he must, at this wit, and then added-"i presume to observe, sir walter, that, in the way of business, gentlemen of the navy are well to deal with. i have had a little knowledge of their methods of doing business; and i am free to confess that they have very liberal notions, and are as likely to make desirable tenants as any set of people one should meet with. therefore, sir walter, what i would take leave to suggest is, that if in consequence of any rumours getting abroad of your intention; which must be contemplated as a possible thing, because we know how difficult it is to keep the actions and designs of one part of the world from the notice and curiosity of the other; consequence has its tax; i, john shepherd, might conceal any family-matters that i chose, for nobody would think it worth their while to observe me; but sir walter elliot has eyes upon him which it may be very difficult to elude; and therefore, thus much i venture upon, that it will not greatly surprise me if, with all our caution, some rumour of the truth should get abroad; in the supposition of which, as i was going to observe, since applications will unquestionably follow, i should think any from our wealthy naval commanders particularly worth attending to; and beg leave to add, that two hours will bring me over at any time, to save you the trouble of replying." sir walter only nodded. but soon afterwards, rising and pacing the room, he observed sarcastically-"there are few among the gentlemen of the navy, i imagine, who would not be surprised to find themselves in a house of this description." "they would look around them, no doubt, and bless their good fortune," said mrs clay, for mrs clay was present: her father had driven her over, nothing being of so much use to mrs clay's health as a drive to kellynch: "but i quite agree with my father in thinking a sailor might be a very desirable tenant. i have known a good deal of the profession; and besides their liberality, they are so neat and careful in all their ways! these valuable pictures of yours, sir walter, if you chose to leave them, would be perfectly safe. everything in and about the house would be taken such excellent care of! the gardens and shrubberies would be kept in almost as high order as they are now. you need not be afraid, miss elliot, of your own sweet flower gardens being neglected." "as to all that," rejoined sir walter coolly, "supposing i were induced to let my house, i have by no means made up my mind as to the privileges to be annexed to it. i am not particularly disposed to favour a tenant. the park would be open to him of course, and few navy officers, or men of any other description, can have had such a range; but what restrictions i might impose on the use of the pleasure-grounds, is another thing. i am not fond of the idea of my shrubberies being always approachable; and i should recommend miss elliot to be on her guard with respect to her flower garden. i am very little disposed to grant a tenant of kellynch hall any extraordinary favour, i assure you, be he sailor or soldier." after a short pause, mr shepherd presumed to say-"in all these cases, there are established usages which make everything plain and easy between landlord and tenant. your interest, sir walter, is in pretty safe hands. depend upon me for taking care that no tenant has more than his just rights. i venture to hint, that sir walter elliot cannot be half so jealous for his own, as john shepherd will be for him." here anne spoke-"the navy, i think, who have done so much for us, have at least an equal claim with any other set of men, for all the comforts and all the privileges which any home can give. sailors work hard enough for their comforts, we must all allow." "very true, very true. what miss anne says, is very true," was mr shepherd's rejoinder, and "oh! certainly," was his daughter's; but sir walter's remark was, soon afterwards-"the profession has its utility, but i should be sorry to see any friend of mine belonging to it." "indeed!" was the reply, and with a look of surprise. "yes; it is in two points offensive to me; i have two strong grounds of objection to it. first, as being the means of bringing persons of obscure birth into undue distinction, and raising men to honours which their fathers and grandfathers never dreamt of; and secondly, as it cuts up a man's youth and vigour most horribly; a sailor grows old sooner than any other man. i have observed it all my life. a man is in greater danger in the navy of being insulted by the rise of one whose father, his father might have disdained to speak to, and of becoming prematurely an object of disgust himself, than in any other line. one day last spring, in town, i was in company with two men, striking instances of what i am talking of; lord st ives, whose father we all know to have been a country curate, without bread to eat; i was to give place to lord st ives, and a certain admiral baldwin, the most deplorable-looking personage you can imagine; his face the colour of mahogany, rough and rugged to the last degree; all lines and wrinkles, nine grey hairs of a side, and nothing but a dab of powder at top. 'in the name of heaven, who is that old fellow?' said i to a friend of mine who was standing near, (sir basil morley). 'old fellow!' cried sir basil, 'it is admiral baldwin. what do you take his age to be?' 'sixty,' said i, 'or perhaps sixty-two.' 'forty,' replied sir basil, 'forty, and no more.' picture to yourselves my amazement; i shall not easily forget admiral baldwin. i never saw quite so wretched an example of what a sea-faring life can do; but to a degree, i know it is the same with them all: they are all knocked about, and exposed to every climate, and every weather, till they are not fit to be seen. it is a pity they are not knocked on the head at once, before they reach admiral baldwin's age." "nay, sir walter," cried mrs clay, "this is being severe indeed. have a little mercy on the poor men. we are not all born to be handsome. the sea is no beautifier, certainly; sailors do grow old betimes; i have observed it; they soon lose the look of youth. but then, is not it the same with many other professions, perhaps most other? soldiers, in active service, are not at all better off: and even in the quieter professions, there is a toil and a labour of the mind, if not of the body, which seldom leaves a man's looks to the natural effect of time. the lawyer plods, quite care-worn; the physician is up at all hours, and travelling in all weather; and even the clergyman--" she stopt a moment to consider what might do for the clergyman;--"and even the clergyman, you know is obliged to go into infected rooms, and expose his health and looks to all the injury of a poisonous atmosphere. in fact, as i have long been convinced, though every profession is necessary and honourable in its turn, it is only the lot of those who are not obliged to follow any, who can live in a regular way, in the country, choosing their own hours, following their own pursuits, and living on their own property, without the torment of trying for more; it is only their lot, i say, to hold the blessings of health and a good appearance to the utmost: i know no other set of men but what lose something of their personableness when they cease to be quite young." it seemed as if mr shepherd, in this anxiety to bespeak sir walter's good will towards a naval officer as tenant, had been gifted with foresight; for the very first application for the house was from an admiral croft, with whom he shortly afterwards fell into company in attending the quarter sessions at taunton; and indeed, he had received a hint of the admiral from a london correspondent. by the report which he hastened over to kellynch to make, admiral croft was a native of somersetshire, who having acquired a very handsome fortune, was wishing to settle in his own country, and had come down to taunton in order to look at some advertised places in that immediate neighbourhood, which, however, had not suited him; that accidentally hearing--(it was just as he had foretold, mr shepherd observed, sir walter's concerns could not be kept a secret,)--accidentally hearing of the possibility of kellynch hall being to let, and understanding his (mr shepherd's) connection with the owner, he had introduced himself to him in order to make particular inquiries, and had, in the course of a pretty long conference, expressed as strong an inclination for the place as a man who knew it only by description could feel; and given mr shepherd, in his explicit account of himself, every proof of his being a most responsible, eligible tenant. "and who is admiral croft?" was sir walter's cold suspicious inquiry. mr shepherd answered for his being of a gentleman's family, and mentioned a place; and anne, after the little pause which followed, added-"he is a rear admiral of the white. he was in the trafalgar action, and has been in the east indies since; he was stationed there, i believe, several years." "then i take it for granted," observed sir walter, "that his face is about as orange as the cuffs and capes of my livery." mr shepherd hastened to assure him, that admiral croft was a very hale, hearty, well-looking man, a little weather-beaten, to be sure, but not much, and quite the gentleman in all his notions and behaviour; not likely to make the smallest difficulty about terms, only wanted a comfortable home, and to get into it as soon as possible; knew he must pay for his convenience; knew what rent a ready-furnished house of that consequence might fetch; should not have been surprised if sir walter had asked more; had inquired about the manor; would be glad of the deputation, certainly, but made no great point of it; said he sometimes took out a gun, but never killed; quite the gentleman. mr shepherd was eloquent on the subject; pointing out all the circumstances of the admiral's family, which made him peculiarly desirable as a tenant. he was a married man, and without children; the very state to be wished for. a house was never taken good care of, mr shepherd observed, without a lady: he did not know, whether furniture might not be in danger of suffering as much where there was no lady, as where there were many children. a lady, without a family, was the very best preserver of furniture in the world. he had seen mrs croft, too; she was at taunton with the admiral, and had been present almost all the time they were talking the matter over. "and a very well-spoken, genteel, shrewd lady, she seemed to be," continued he; "asked more questions about the house, and terms, and taxes, than the admiral himself, and seemed more conversant with business; and moreover, sir walter, i found she was not quite unconnected in this country, any more than her husband; that is to say, she is sister to a gentleman who did live amongst us once; she told me so herself: sister to the gentleman who lived a few years back at monkford. bless me! what was his name? at this moment i cannot recollect his name, though i have heard it so lately. penelope, my dear, can you help me to the name of the gentleman who lived at monkford: mrs croft's brother?" but mrs clay was talking so eagerly with miss elliot, that she did not hear the appeal. "i have no conception whom you can mean, shepherd; i remember no gentleman resident at monkford since the time of old governor trent." "bless me! how very odd! i shall forget my own name soon, i suppose. a name that i am so very well acquainted with; knew the gentleman so well by sight; seen him a hundred times; came to consult me once, i remember, about a trespass of one of his neighbours; farmer's man breaking into his orchard; wall torn down; apples stolen; caught in the fact; and afterwards, contrary to my judgement, submitted to an amicable compromise. very odd indeed!" after waiting another moment-"you mean mr wentworth, i suppose?" said anne. mr shepherd was all gratitude. "wentworth was the very name! mr wentworth was the very man. he had the curacy of monkford, you know, sir walter, some time back, for two or three years. came there about the year ---5, i take it. you remember him, i am sure." "wentworth? oh! ay,--mr wentworth, the curate of monkford. you misled me by the term gentleman. i thought you were speaking of some man of property: mr wentworth was nobody, i remember; quite unconnected; nothing to do with the strafford family. one wonders how the names of many of our nobility become so common." as mr shepherd perceived that this connexion of the crofts did them no service with sir walter, he mentioned it no more; returning, with all his zeal, to dwell on the circumstances more indisputably in their favour; their age, and number, and fortune; the high idea they had formed of kellynch hall, and extreme solicitude for the advantage of renting it; making it appear as if they ranked nothing beyond the happiness of being the tenants of sir walter elliot: an extraordinary taste, certainly, could they have been supposed in the secret of sir walter's estimate of the dues of a tenant. it succeeded, however; and though sir walter must ever look with an evil eye on anyone intending to inhabit that house, and think them infinitely too well off in being permitted to rent it on the highest terms, he was talked into allowing mr shepherd to proceed in the treaty, and authorising him to wait on admiral croft, who still remained at taunton, and fix a day for the house being seen. sir walter was not very wise; but still he had experience enough of the world to feel, that a more unobjectionable tenant, in all essentials, than admiral croft bid fair to be, could hardly offer. so far went his understanding; and his vanity supplied a little additional soothing, in the admiral's situation in life, which was just high enough, and not too high. "i have let my house to admiral croft," would sound extremely well; very much better than to any mere mr--; a mr (save, perhaps, some half dozen in the nation,) always needs a note of explanation. an admiral speaks his own consequence, and, at the same time, can never make a baronet look small. in all their dealings and intercourse, sir walter elliot must ever have the precedence. nothing could be done without a reference to elizabeth: but her inclination was growing so strong for a removal, that she was happy to have it fixed and expedited by a tenant at hand; and not a word to suspend decision was uttered by her. mr shepherd was completely empowered to act; and no sooner had such an end been reached, than anne, who had been a most attentive listener to the whole, left the room, to seek the comfort of cool air for her flushed cheeks; and as she walked along a favourite grove, said, with a gentle sigh, "a few months more, and he, perhaps, may be walking here." chapter 4 he was not mr wentworth, the former curate of monkford, however suspicious appearances may be, but a captain frederick wentworth, his brother, who being made commander in consequence of the action off st domingo, and not immediately employed, had come into somersetshire, in the summer of 1806; and having no parent living, found a home for half a year at monkford. he was, at that time, a remarkably fine young man, with a great deal of intelligence, spirit, and brilliancy; and anne an extremely pretty girl, with gentleness, modesty, taste, and feeling. half the sum of attraction, on either side, might have been enough, for he had nothing to do, and she had hardly anybody to love; but the encounter of such lavish recommendations could not fail. they were gradually acquainted, and when acquainted, rapidly and deeply in love. it would be difficult to say which had seen highest perfection in the other, or which had been the happiest: she, in receiving his declarations and proposals, or he in having them accepted. a short period of exquisite felicity followed, and but a short one. troubles soon arose. sir walter, on being applied to, without actually withholding his consent, or saying it should never be, gave it all the negative of great astonishment, great coldness, great silence, and a professed resolution of doing nothing for his daughter. he thought it a very degrading alliance; and lady russell, though with more tempered and pardonable pride, received it as a most unfortunate one. anne elliot, with all her claims of birth, beauty, and mind, to throw herself away at nineteen; involve herself at nineteen in an engagement with a young man, who had nothing but himself to recommend him, and no hopes of attaining affluence, but in the chances of a most uncertain profession, and no connexions to secure even his farther rise in the profession, would be, indeed, a throwing away, which she grieved to think of! anne elliot, so young; known to so few, to be snatched off by a stranger without alliance or fortune; or rather sunk by him into a state of most wearing, anxious, youth-killing dependence! it must not be, if by any fair interference of friendship, any representations from one who had almost a mother's love, and mother's rights, it would be prevented. captain wentworth had no fortune. he had been lucky in his profession; but spending freely, what had come freely, had realized nothing. but he was confident that he should soon be rich: full of life and ardour, he knew that he should soon have a ship, and soon be on a station that would lead to everything he wanted. he had always been lucky; he knew he should be so still. such confidence, powerful in its own warmth, and bewitching in the wit which often expressed it, must have been enough for anne; but lady russell saw it very differently. his sanguine temper, and fearlessness of mind, operated very differently on her. she saw in it but an aggravation of the evil. it only added a dangerous character to himself. he was brilliant, he was headstrong. lady russell had little taste for wit, and of anything approaching to imprudence a horror. she deprecated the connexion in every light. such opposition, as these feelings produced, was more than anne could combat. young and gentle as she was, it might yet have been possible to withstand her father's ill-will, though unsoftened by one kind word or look on the part of her sister; but lady russell, whom she had always loved and relied on, could not, with such steadiness of opinion, and such tenderness of manner, be continually advising her in vain. she was persuaded to believe the engagement a wrong thing: indiscreet, improper, hardly capable of success, and not deserving it. but it was not a merely selfish caution, under which she acted, in putting an end to it. had she not imagined herself consulting his good, even more than her own, she could hardly have given him up. the belief of being prudent, and self-denying, principally for his advantage, was her chief consolation, under the misery of a parting, a final parting; and every consolation was required, for she had to encounter all the additional pain of opinions, on his side, totally unconvinced and unbending, and of his feeling himself ill used by so forced a relinquishment. he had left the country in consequence. a few months had seen the beginning and the end of their acquaintance; but not with a few months ended anne's share of suffering from it. her attachment and regrets had, for a long time, clouded every enjoyment of youth, and an early loss of bloom and spirits had been their lasting effect. more than seven years were gone since this little history of sorrowful interest had reached its close; and time had softened down much, perhaps nearly all of peculiar attachment to him, but she had been too dependent on time alone; no aid had been given in change of place (except in one visit to bath soon after the rupture), or in any novelty or enlargement of society. no one had ever come within the kellynch circle, who could bear a comparison with frederick wentworth, as he stood in her memory. no second attachment, the only thoroughly natural, happy, and sufficient cure, at her time of life, had been possible to the nice tone of her mind, the fastidiousness of her taste, in the small limits of the society around them. she had been solicited, when about two-and-twenty, to change her name, by the young man, who not long afterwards found a more willing mind in her younger sister; and lady russell had lamented her refusal; for charles musgrove was the eldest son of a man, whose landed property and general importance were second in that country, only to sir walter's, and of good character and appearance; and however lady russell might have asked yet for something more, while anne was nineteen, she would have rejoiced to see her at twenty-two so respectably removed from the partialities and injustice of her father's house, and settled so permanently near herself. but in this case, anne had left nothing for advice to do; and though lady russell, as satisfied as ever with her own discretion, never wished the past undone, she began now to have the anxiety which borders on hopelessness for anne's being tempted, by some man of talents and independence, to enter a state for which she held her to be peculiarly fitted by her warm affections and domestic habits. they knew not each other's opinion, either its constancy or its change, on the one leading point of anne's conduct, for the subject was never alluded to; but anne, at seven-and-twenty, thought very differently from what she had been made to think at nineteen. she did not blame lady russell, she did not blame herself for having been guided by her; but she felt that were any young person, in similar circumstances, to apply to her for counsel, they would never receive any of such certain immediate wretchedness, such uncertain future good. she was persuaded that under every disadvantage of disapprobation at home, and every anxiety attending his profession, all their probable fears, delays, and disappointments, she should yet have been a happier woman in maintaining the engagement, than she had been in the sacrifice of it; and this, she fully believed, had the usual share, had even more than the usual share of all such solicitudes and suspense been theirs, without reference to the actual results of their case, which, as it happened, would have bestowed earlier prosperity than could be reasonably calculated on. all his sanguine expectations, all his confidence had been justified. his genius and ardour had seemed to foresee and to command his prosperous path. he had, very soon after their engagement ceased, got employ: and all that he had told her would follow, had taken place. he had distinguished himself, and early gained the other step in rank, and must now, by successive captures, have made a handsome fortune. she had only navy lists and newspapers for her authority, but she could not doubt his being rich; and, in favour of his constancy, she had no reason to believe him married. how eloquent could anne elliot have been! how eloquent, at least, were her wishes on the side of early warm attachment, and a cheerful confidence in futurity, against that over-anxious caution which seems to insult exertion and distrust providence! she had been forced into prudence in her youth, she learned romance as she grew older: the natural sequel of an unnatural beginning. with all these circumstances, recollections and feelings, she could not hear that captain wentworth's sister was likely to live at kellynch without a revival of former pain; and many a stroll, and many a sigh, were necessary to dispel the agitation of the idea. she often told herself it was folly, before she could harden her nerves sufficiently to feel the continual discussion of the crofts and their business no evil. she was assisted, however, by that perfect indifference and apparent unconsciousness, among the only three of her own friends in the secret of the past, which seemed almost to deny any recollection of it. she could do justice to the superiority of lady russell's motives in this, over those of her father and elizabeth; she could honour all the better feelings of her calmness; but the general air of oblivion among them was highly important from whatever it sprung; and in the event of admiral croft's really taking kellynch hall, she rejoiced anew over the conviction which had always been most grateful to her, of the past being known to those three only among her connexions, by whom no syllable, she believed, would ever be whispered, and in the trust that among his, the brother only with whom he had been residing, had received any information of their short-lived engagement. that brother had been long removed from the country and being a sensible man, and, moreover, a single man at the time, she had a fond dependence on no human creature's having heard of it from him. the sister, mrs croft, had then been out of england, accompanying her husband on a foreign station, and her own sister, mary, had been at school while it all occurred; and never admitted by the pride of some, and the delicacy of others, to the smallest knowledge of it afterwards. with these supports, she hoped that the acquaintance between herself and the crofts, which, with lady russell, still resident in kellynch, and mary fixed only three miles off, must be anticipated, need not involve any particular awkwardness. chapter 5 on the morning appointed for admiral and mrs croft's seeing kellynch hall, anne found it most natural to take her almost daily walk to lady russell's, and keep out of the way till all was over; when she found it most natural to be sorry that she had missed the opportunity of seeing them. this meeting of the two parties proved highly satisfactory, and decided the whole business at once. each lady was previously well disposed for an agreement, and saw nothing, therefore, but good manners in the other; and with regard to the gentlemen, there was such an hearty good humour, such an open, trusting liberality on the admiral's side, as could not but influence sir walter, who had besides been flattered into his very best and most polished behaviour by mr shepherd's assurances of his being known, by report, to the admiral, as a model of good breeding. the house and grounds, and furniture, were approved, the crofts were approved, terms, time, every thing, and every body, was right; and mr shepherd's clerks were set to work, without there having been a single preliminary difference to modify of all that "this indenture sheweth." sir walter, without hesitation, declared the admiral to be the best-looking sailor he had ever met with, and went so far as to say, that if his own man might have had the arranging of his hair, he should not be ashamed of being seen with him any where; and the admiral, with sympathetic cordiality, observed to his wife as they drove back through the park, "i thought we should soon come to a deal, my dear, in spite of what they told us at taunton. the baronet will never set the thames on fire, but there seems to be no harm in him."--reciprocal compliments, which would have been esteemed about equal. the crofts were to have possession at michaelmas; and as sir walter proposed removing to bath in the course of the preceding month, there was no time to be lost in making every dependent arrangement. lady russell, convinced that anne would not be allowed to be of any use, or any importance, in the choice of the house which they were going to secure, was very unwilling to have her hurried away so soon, and wanted to make it possible for her to stay behind till she might convey her to bath herself after christmas; but having engagements of her own which must take her from kellynch for several weeks, she was unable to give the full invitation she wished, and anne though dreading the possible heats of september in all the white glare of bath, and grieving to forego all the influence so sweet and so sad of the autumnal months in the country, did not think that, everything considered, she wished to remain. it would be most right, and most wise, and, therefore must involve least suffering to go with the others. something occurred, however, to give her a different duty. mary, often a little unwell, and always thinking a great deal of her own complaints, and always in the habit of claiming anne when anything was the matter, was indisposed; and foreseeing that she should not have a day's health all the autumn, entreated, or rather required her, for it was hardly entreaty, to come to uppercross cottage, and bear her company as long as she should want her, instead of going to bath. "i cannot possibly do without anne," was mary's reasoning; and elizabeth's reply was, "then i am sure anne had better stay, for nobody will want her in bath." to be claimed as a good, though in an improper style, is at least better than being rejected as no good at all; and anne, glad to be thought of some use, glad to have anything marked out as a duty, and certainly not sorry to have the scene of it in the country, and her own dear country, readily agreed to stay. this invitation of mary's removed all lady russell's difficulties, and it was consequently soon settled that anne should not go to bath till lady russell took her, and that all the intervening time should be divided between uppercross cottage and kellynch lodge. so far all was perfectly right; but lady russell was almost startled by the wrong of one part of the kellynch hall plan, when it burst on her, which was, mrs clay's being engaged to go to bath with sir walter and elizabeth, as a most important and valuable assistant to the latter in all the business before her. lady russell was extremely sorry that such a measure should have been resorted to at all, wondered, grieved, and feared; and the affront it contained to anne, in mrs clay's being of so much use, while anne could be of none, was a very sore aggravation. anne herself was become hardened to such affronts; but she felt the imprudence of the arrangement quite as keenly as lady russell. with a great deal of quiet observation, and a knowledge, which she often wished less, of her father's character, she was sensible that results the most serious to his family from the intimacy were more than possible. she did not imagine that her father had at present an idea of the kind. mrs clay had freckles, and a projecting tooth, and a clumsy wrist, which he was continually making severe remarks upon, in her absence; but she was young, and certainly altogether well-looking, and possessed, in an acute mind and assiduous pleasing manners, infinitely more dangerous attractions than any merely personal might have been. anne was so impressed by the degree of their danger, that she could not excuse herself from trying to make it perceptible to her sister. she had little hope of success; but elizabeth, who in the event of such a reverse would be so much more to be pitied than herself, should never, she thought, have reason to reproach her for giving no warning. she spoke, and seemed only to offend. elizabeth could not conceive how such an absurd suspicion should occur to her, and indignantly answered for each party's perfectly knowing their situation. "mrs clay," said she, warmly, "never forgets who she is; and as i am rather better acquainted with her sentiments than you can be, i can assure you, that upon the subject of marriage they are particularly nice, and that she reprobates all inequality of condition and rank more strongly than most people. and as to my father, i really should not have thought that he, who has kept himself single so long for our sakes, need be suspected now. if mrs clay were a very beautiful woman, i grant you, it might be wrong to have her so much with me; not that anything in the world, i am sure, would induce my father to make a degrading match, but he might be rendered unhappy. but poor mrs clay who, with all her merits, can never have been reckoned tolerably pretty, i really think poor mrs clay may be staying here in perfect safety. one would imagine you had never heard my father speak of her personal misfortunes, though i know you must fifty times. that tooth of her's and those freckles. freckles do not disgust me so very much as they do him. i have known a face not materially disfigured by a few, but he abominates them. you must have heard him notice mrs clay's freckles." "there is hardly any personal defect," replied anne, "which an agreeable manner might not gradually reconcile one to." "i think very differently," answered elizabeth, shortly; "an agreeable manner may set off handsome features, but can never alter plain ones. however, at any rate, as i have a great deal more at stake on this point than anybody else can have, i think it rather unnecessary in you to be advising me." anne had done; glad that it was over, and not absolutely hopeless of doing good. elizabeth, though resenting the suspicion, might yet be made observant by it. the last office of the four carriage-horses was to draw sir walter, miss elliot, and mrs clay to bath. the party drove off in very good spirits; sir walter prepared with condescending bows for all the afflicted tenantry and cottagers who might have had a hint to show themselves, and anne walked up at the same time, in a sort of desolate tranquillity, to the lodge, where she was to spend the first week. her friend was not in better spirits than herself. lady russell felt this break-up of the family exceedingly. their respectability was as dear to her as her own, and a daily intercourse had become precious by habit. it was painful to look upon their deserted grounds, and still worse to anticipate the new hands they were to fall into; and to escape the solitariness and the melancholy of so altered a village, and be out of the way when admiral and mrs croft first arrived, she had determined to make her own absence from home begin when she must give up anne. accordingly their removal was made together, and anne was set down at uppercross cottage, in the first stage of lady russell's journey. uppercross was a moderate-sized village, which a few years back had been completely in the old english style, containing only two houses superior in appearance to those of the yeomen and labourers; the mansion of the squire, with its high walls, great gates, and old trees, substantial and unmodernized, and the compact, tight parsonage, enclosed in its own neat garden, with a vine and a pear-tree trained round its casements; but upon the marriage of the young 'squire, it had received the improvement of a farm-house elevated into a cottage, for his residence, and uppercross cottage, with its veranda, french windows, and other prettiness, was quite as likely to catch the traveller's eye as the more consistent and considerable aspect and premises of the great house, about a quarter of a mile farther on. here anne had often been staying. she knew the ways of uppercross as well as those of kellynch. the two families were so continually meeting, so much in the habit of running in and out of each other's house at all hours, that it was rather a surprise to her to find mary alone; but being alone, her being unwell and out of spirits was almost a matter of course. though better endowed than the elder sister, mary had not anne's understanding nor temper. while well, and happy, and properly attended to, she had great good humour and excellent spirits; but any indisposition sunk her completely. she had no resources for solitude; and inheriting a considerable share of the elliot self-importance, was very prone to add to every other distress that of fancying herself neglected and ill-used. in person, she was inferior to both sisters, and had, even in her bloom, only reached the dignity of being "a fine girl." she was now lying on the faded sofa of the pretty little drawing-room, the once elegant furniture of which had been gradually growing shabby, under the influence of four summers and two children; and, on anne's appearing, greeted her with-"so, you are come at last! i began to think i should never see you. i am so ill i can hardly speak. i have not seen a creature the whole morning!" "i am sorry to find you unwell," replied anne. "you sent me such a good account of yourself on thursday!" "yes, i made the best of it; i always do: but i was very far from well at the time; and i do not think i ever was so ill in my life as i have been all this morning: very unfit to be left alone, i am sure. suppose i were to be seized of a sudden in some dreadful way, and not able to ring the bell! so, lady russell would not get out. i do not think she has been in this house three times this summer." anne said what was proper, and enquired after her husband. "oh! charles is out shooting. i have not seen him since seven o'clock. he would go, though i told him how ill i was. he said he should not stay out long; but he has never come back, and now it is almost one. i assure you, i have not seen a soul this whole long morning." "you have had your little boys with you?" "yes, as long as i could bear their noise; but they are so unmanageable that they do me more harm than good. little charles does not mind a word i say, and walter is growing quite as bad." "well, you will soon be better now," replied anne, cheerfully. "you know i always cure you when i come. how are your neighbours at the great house?" "i can give you no account of them. i have not seen one of them to-day, except mr musgrove, who just stopped and spoke through the window, but without getting off his horse; and though i told him how ill i was, not one of them have been near me. it did not happen to suit the miss musgroves, i suppose, and they never put themselves out of their way." "you will see them yet, perhaps, before the morning is gone. it is early." "i never want them, i assure you. they talk and laugh a great deal too much for me. oh! anne, i am so very unwell! it was quite unkind of you not to come on thursday." "my dear mary, recollect what a comfortable account you sent me of yourself! you wrote in the cheerfullest manner, and said you were perfectly well, and in no hurry for me; and that being the case, you must be aware that my wish would be to remain with lady russell to the last: and besides what i felt on her account, i have really been so busy, have had so much to do, that i could not very conveniently have left kellynch sooner." "dear me! what can you possibly have to do?" "a great many things, i assure you. more than i can recollect in a moment; but i can tell you some. i have been making a duplicate of the catalogue of my father's books and pictures. i have been several times in the garden with mackenzie, trying to understand, and make him understand, which of elizabeth's plants are for lady russell. i have had all my own little concerns to arrange, books and music to divide, and all my trunks to repack, from not having understood in time what was intended as to the waggons: and one thing i have had to do, mary, of a more trying nature: going to almost every house in the parish, as a sort of take-leave. i was told that they wished it. but all these things took up a great deal of time." "oh! well!" and after a moment's pause, "but you have never asked me one word about our dinner at the pooles yesterday." "did you go then? i have made no enquiries, because i concluded you must have been obliged to give up the party." "oh yes! i went. i was very well yesterday; nothing at all the matter with me till this morning. it would have been strange if i had not gone." "i am very glad you were well enough, and i hope you had a pleasant party." "nothing remarkable. one always knows beforehand what the dinner will be, and who will be there; and it is so very uncomfortable not having a carriage of one's own. mr and mrs musgrove took me, and we were so crowded! they are both so very large, and take up so much room; and mr musgrove always sits forward. so, there was i, crowded into the back seat with henrietta and louisa; and i think it very likely that my illness to-day may be owing to it." a little further perseverance in patience and forced cheerfulness on anne's side produced nearly a cure on mary's. she could soon sit upright on the sofa, and began to hope she might be able to leave it by dinner-time. then, forgetting to think of it, she was at the other end of the room, beautifying a nosegay; then, she ate her cold meat; and then she was well enough to propose a little walk. "where shall we go?" said she, when they were ready. "i suppose you will not like to call at the great house before they have been to see you?" "i have not the smallest objection on that account," replied anne. "i should never think of standing on such ceremony with people i know so well as mrs and the miss musgroves." "oh! but they ought to call upon you as soon as possible. they ought to feel what is due to you as my sister. however, we may as well go and sit with them a little while, and when we have that over, we can enjoy our walk." anne had always thought such a style of intercourse highly imprudent; but she had ceased to endeavour to check it, from believing that, though there were on each side continual subjects of offence, neither family could now do without it. to the great house accordingly they went, to sit the full half hour in the old-fashioned square parlour, with a small carpet and shining floor, to which the present daughters of the house were gradually giving the proper air of confusion by a grand piano-forte and a harp, flower-stands and little tables placed in every direction. oh! could the originals of the portraits against the wainscot, could the gentlemen in brown velvet and the ladies in blue satin have seen what was going on, have been conscious of such an overthrow of all order and neatness! the portraits themselves seemed to be staring in astonishment. the musgroves, like their houses, were in a state of alteration, perhaps of improvement. the father and mother were in the old english style, and the young people in the new. mr and mrs musgrove were a very good sort of people; friendly and hospitable, not much educated, and not at all elegant. their children had more modern minds and manners. there was a numerous family; but the only two grown up, excepting charles, were henrietta and louisa, young ladies of nineteen and twenty, who had brought from school at exeter all the usual stock of accomplishments, and were now like thousands of other young ladies, living to be fashionable, happy, and merry. their dress had every advantage, their faces were rather pretty, their spirits extremely good, their manner unembarrassed and pleasant; they were of consequence at home, and favourites abroad. anne always contemplated them as some of the happiest creatures of her acquaintance; but still, saved as we all are, by some comfortable feeling of superiority from wishing for the possibility of exchange, she would not have given up her own more elegant and cultivated mind for all their enjoyments; and envied them nothing but that seemingly perfect good understanding and agreement together, that good-humoured mutual affection, of which she had known so little herself with either of her sisters. they were received with great cordiality. nothing seemed amiss on the side of the great house family, which was generally, as anne very well knew, the least to blame. the half hour was chatted away pleasantly enough; and she was not at all surprised, at the end of it, to have their walking party joined by both the miss musgroves, at mary's particular invitation. chapter 6 anne had not wanted this visit to uppercross, to learn that a removal from one set of people to another, though at a distance of only three miles, will often include a total change of conversation, opinion, and idea. she had never been staying there before, without being struck by it, or without wishing that other elliots could have her advantage in seeing how unknown, or unconsidered there, were the affairs which at kellynch hall were treated as of such general publicity and pervading interest; yet, with all this experience, she believed she must now submit to feel that another lesson, in the art of knowing our own nothingness beyond our own circle, was become necessary for her; for certainly, coming as she did, with a heart full of the subject which had been completely occupying both houses in kellynch for many weeks, she had expected rather more curiosity and sympathy than she found in the separate but very similar remark of mr and mrs musgrove: "so, miss anne, sir walter and your sister are gone; and what part of bath do you think they will settle in?" and this, without much waiting for an answer; or in the young ladies' addition of, "i hope we shall be in bath in the winter; but remember, papa, if we do go, we must be in a good situation: none of your queen squares for us!" or in the anxious supplement from mary, of--"upon my word, i shall be pretty well off, when you are all gone away to be happy at bath!" she could only resolve to avoid such self-delusion in future, and think with heightened gratitude of the extraordinary blessing of having one such truly sympathising friend as lady russell. the mr musgroves had their own game to guard, and to destroy, their own horses, dogs, and newspapers to engage them, and the females were fully occupied in all the other common subjects of housekeeping, neighbours, dress, dancing, and music. she acknowledged it to be very fitting, that every little social commonwealth should dictate its own matters of discourse; and hoped, ere long, to become a not unworthy member of the one she was now transplanted into. with the prospect of spending at least two months at uppercross, it was highly incumbent on her to clothe her imagination, her memory, and all her ideas in as much of uppercross as possible. she had no dread of these two months. mary was not so repulsive and unsisterly as elizabeth, nor so inaccessible to all influence of hers; neither was there anything among the other component parts of the cottage inimical to comfort. she was always on friendly terms with her brother-in-law; and in the children, who loved her nearly as well, and respected her a great deal more than their mother, she had an object of interest, amusement, and wholesome exertion. charles musgrove was civil and agreeable; in sense and temper he was undoubtedly superior to his wife, but not of powers, or conversation, or grace, to make the past, as they were connected together, at all a dangerous contemplation; though, at the same time, anne could believe, with lady russell, that a more equal match might have greatly improved him; and that a woman of real understanding might have given more consequence to his character, and more usefulness, rationality, and elegance to his habits and pursuits. as it was, he did nothing with much zeal, but sport; and his time was otherwise trifled away, without benefit from books or anything else. he had very good spirits, which never seemed much affected by his wife's occasional lowness, bore with her unreasonableness sometimes to anne's admiration, and upon the whole, though there was very often a little disagreement (in which she had sometimes more share than she wished, being appealed to by both parties), they might pass for a happy couple. they were always perfectly agreed in the want of more money, and a strong inclination for a handsome present from his father; but here, as on most topics, he had the superiority, for while mary thought it a great shame that such a present was not made, he always contended for his father's having many other uses for his money, and a right to spend it as he liked. as to the management of their children, his theory was much better than his wife's, and his practice not so bad. "i could manage them very well, if it were not for mary's interference," was what anne often heard him say, and had a good deal of faith in; but when listening in turn to mary's reproach of "charles spoils the children so that i cannot get them into any order," she never had the smallest temptation to say, "very true." one of the least agreeable circumstances of her residence there was her being treated with too much confidence by all parties, and being too much in the secret of the complaints of each house. known to have some influence with her sister, she was continually requested, or at least receiving hints to exert it, beyond what was practicable. "i wish you could persuade mary not to be always fancying herself ill," was charles's language; and, in an unhappy mood, thus spoke mary: "i do believe if charles were to see me dying, he would not think there was anything the matter with me. i am sure, anne, if you would, you might persuade him that i really am very ill--a great deal worse than i ever own." mary's declaration was, "i hate sending the children to the great house, though their grandmamma is always wanting to see them, for she humours and indulges them to such a degree, and gives them so much trash and sweet things, that they are sure to come back sick and cross for the rest of the day." and mrs musgrove took the first opportunity of being alone with anne, to say, "oh! miss anne, i cannot help wishing mrs charles had a little of your method with those children. they are quite different creatures with you! but to be sure, in general they are so spoilt! it is a pity you cannot put your sister in the way of managing them. they are as fine healthy children as ever were seen, poor little dears! without partiality; but mrs charles knows no more how they should be treated--! bless me! how troublesome they are sometimes. i assure you, miss anne, it prevents my wishing to see them at our house so often as i otherwise should. i believe mrs charles is not quite pleased with my not inviting them oftener; but you know it is very bad to have children with one that one is obligated to be checking every moment; "don't do this," and "don't do that;" or that one can only keep in tolerable order by more cake than is good for them." she had this communication, moreover, from mary. "mrs musgrove thinks all her servants so steady, that it would be high treason to call it in question; but i am sure, without exaggeration, that her upper house-maid and laundry-maid, instead of being in their business, are gadding about the village, all day long. i meet them wherever i go; and i declare, i never go twice into my nursery without seeing something of them. if jemima were not the trustiest, steadiest creature in the world, it would be enough to spoil her; for she tells me, they are always tempting her to take a walk with them." and on mrs musgrove's side, it was, "i make a rule of never interfering in any of my daughter-in-law's concerns, for i know it would not do; but i shall tell you, miss anne, because you may be able to set things to rights, that i have no very good opinion of mrs charles's nursery-maid: i hear strange stories of her; she is always upon the gad; and from my own knowledge, i can declare, she is such a fine-dressing lady, that she is enough to ruin any servants she comes near. mrs charles quite swears by her, i know; but i just give you this hint, that you may be upon the watch; because, if you see anything amiss, you need not be afraid of mentioning it." again, it was mary's complaint, that mrs musgrove was very apt not to give her the precedence that was her due, when they dined at the great house with other families; and she did not see any reason why she was to be considered so much at home as to lose her place. and one day when anne was walking with only the musgroves, one of them after talking of rank, people of rank, and jealousy of rank, said, "i have no scruple of observing to you, how nonsensical some persons are about their place, because all the world knows how easy and indifferent you are about it; but i wish anybody could give mary a hint that it would be a great deal better if she were not so very tenacious, especially if she would not be always putting herself forward to take place of mamma. nobody doubts her right to have precedence of mamma, but it would be more becoming in her not to be always insisting on it. it is not that mamma cares about it the least in the world, but i know it is taken notice of by many persons." how was anne to set all these matters to rights? she could do little more than listen patiently, soften every grievance, and excuse each to the other; give them all hints of the forbearance necessary between such near neighbours, and make those hints broadest which were meant for her sister's benefit. in all other respects, her visit began and proceeded very well. her own spirits improved by change of place and subject, by being removed three miles from kellynch; mary's ailments lessened by having a constant companion, and their daily intercourse with the other family, since there was neither superior affection, confidence, nor employment in the cottage, to be interrupted by it, was rather an advantage. it was certainly carried nearly as far as possible, for they met every morning, and hardly ever spent an evening asunder; but she believed they should not have done so well without the sight of mr and mrs musgrove's respectable forms in the usual places, or without the talking, laughing, and singing of their daughters. she played a great deal better than either of the miss musgroves, but having no voice, no knowledge of the harp, and no fond parents, to sit by and fancy themselves delighted, her performance was little thought of, only out of civility, or to refresh the others, as she was well aware. she knew that when she played she was giving pleasure only to herself; but this was no new sensation. excepting one short period of her life, she had never, since the age of fourteen, never since the loss of her dear mother, known the happiness of being listened to, or encouraged by any just appreciation or real taste. in music she had been always used to feel alone in the world; and mr and mrs musgrove's fond partiality for their own daughters' performance, and total indifference to any other person's, gave her much more pleasure for their sakes, than mortification for her own. the party at the great house was sometimes increased by other company. the neighbourhood was not large, but the musgroves were visited by everybody, and had more dinner-parties, and more callers, more visitors by invitation and by chance, than any other family. they were more completely popular. the girls were wild for dancing; and the evenings ended, occasionally, in an unpremeditated little ball. there was a family of cousins within a walk of uppercross, in less affluent circumstances, who depended on the musgroves for all their pleasures: they would come at any time, and help play at anything, or dance anywhere; and anne, very much preferring the office of musician to a more active post, played country dances to them by the hour together; a kindness which always recommended her musical powers to the notice of mr and mrs musgrove more than anything else, and often drew this compliment;--"well done, miss anne! very well done indeed! lord bless me! how those little fingers of yours fly about!" so passed the first three weeks. michaelmas came; and now anne's heart must be in kellynch again. a beloved home made over to others; all the precious rooms and furniture, groves, and prospects, beginning to own other eyes and other limbs! she could not think of much else on the 29th of september; and she had this sympathetic touch in the evening from mary, who, on having occasion to note down the day of the month, exclaimed, "dear me, is not this the day the crofts were to come to kellynch? i am glad i did not think of it before. how low it makes me!" the crofts took possession with true naval alertness, and were to be visited. mary deplored the necessity for herself. "nobody knew how much she should suffer. she should put it off as long as she could;" but was not easy till she had talked charles into driving her over on an early day, and was in a very animated, comfortable state of imaginary agitation, when she came back. anne had very sincerely rejoiced in there being no means of her going. she wished, however to see the crofts, and was glad to be within when the visit was returned. they came: the master of the house was not at home, but the two sisters were together; and as it chanced that mrs croft fell to the share of anne, while the admiral sat by mary, and made himself very agreeable by his good-humoured notice of her little boys, she was well able to watch for a likeness, and if it failed her in the features, to catch it in the voice, or in the turn of sentiment and expression. mrs croft, though neither tall nor fat, had a squareness, uprightness, and vigour of form, which gave importance to her person. she had bright dark eyes, good teeth, and altogether an agreeable face; though her reddened and weather-beaten complexion, the consequence of her having been almost as much at sea as her husband, made her seem to have lived some years longer in the world than her real eight-and-thirty. her manners were open, easy, and decided, like one who had no distrust of herself, and no doubts of what to do; without any approach to coarseness, however, or any want of good humour. anne gave her credit, indeed, for feelings of great consideration towards herself, in all that related to kellynch, and it pleased her: especially, as she had satisfied herself in the very first half minute, in the instant even of introduction, that there was not the smallest symptom of any knowledge or suspicion on mrs croft's side, to give a bias of any sort. she was quite easy on that head, and consequently full of strength and courage, till for a moment electrified by mrs croft's suddenly saying,-"it was you, and not your sister, i find, that my brother had the pleasure of being acquainted with, when he was in this country." anne hoped she had outlived the age of blushing; but the age of emotion she certainly had not. "perhaps you may not have heard that he is married?" added mrs croft. she could now answer as she ought; and was happy to feel, when mrs croft's next words explained it to be mr wentworth of whom she spoke, that she had said nothing which might not do for either brother. she immediately felt how reasonable it was, that mrs croft should be thinking and speaking of edward, and not of frederick; and with shame at her own forgetfulness applied herself to the knowledge of their former neighbour's present state with proper interest. the rest was all tranquillity; till, just as they were moving, she heard the admiral say to mary-"we are expecting a brother of mrs croft's here soon; i dare say you know him by name." he was cut short by the eager attacks of the little boys, clinging to him like an old friend, and declaring he should not go; and being too much engrossed by proposals of carrying them away in his coat pockets, &c., to have another moment for finishing or recollecting what he had begun, anne was left to persuade herself, as well as she could, that the same brother must still be in question. she could not, however, reach such a degree of certainty, as not to be anxious to hear whether anything had been said on the subject at the other house, where the crofts had previously been calling. the folks of the great house were to spend the evening of this day at the cottage; and it being now too late in the year for such visits to be made on foot, the coach was beginning to be listened for, when the youngest miss musgrove walked in. that she was coming to apologize, and that they should have to spend the evening by themselves, was the first black idea; and mary was quite ready to be affronted, when louisa made all right by saying, that she only came on foot, to leave more room for the harp, which was bringing in the carriage. "and i will tell you our reason," she added, "and all about it. i am come on to give you notice, that papa and mamma are out of spirits this evening, especially mamma; she is thinking so much of poor richard! and we agreed it would be best to have the harp, for it seems to amuse her more than the piano-forte. i will tell you why she is out of spirits. when the crofts called this morning, (they called here afterwards, did not they?), they happened to say, that her brother, captain wentworth, is just returned to england, or paid off, or something, and is coming to see them almost directly; and most unluckily it came into mamma's head, when they were gone, that wentworth, or something very like it, was the name of poor richard's captain at one time; i do not know when or where, but a great while before he died, poor fellow! and upon looking over his letters and things, she found it was so, and is perfectly sure that this must be the very man, and her head is quite full of it, and of poor richard! so we must be as merry as we can, that she may not be dwelling upon such gloomy things." the real circumstances of this pathetic piece of family history were, that the musgroves had had the ill fortune of a very troublesome, hopeless son; and the good fortune to lose him before he reached his twentieth year; that he had been sent to sea because he was stupid and unmanageable on shore; that he had been very little cared for at any time by his family, though quite as much as he deserved; seldom heard of, and scarcely at all regretted, when the intelligence of his death abroad had worked its way to uppercross, two years before. he had, in fact, though his sisters were now doing all they could for him, by calling him "poor richard," been nothing better than a thick-headed, unfeeling, unprofitable dick musgrove, who had never done anything to entitle himself to more than the abbreviation of his name, living or dead. he had been several years at sea, and had, in the course of those removals to which all midshipmen are liable, and especially such midshipmen as every captain wishes to get rid of, been six months on board captain frederick wentworth's frigate, the laconia; and from the laconia he had, under the influence of his captain, written the only two letters which his father and mother had ever received from him during the whole of his absence; that is to say, the only two disinterested letters; all the rest had been mere applications for money. in each letter he had spoken well of his captain; but yet, so little were they in the habit of attending to such matters, so unobservant and incurious were they as to the names of men or ships, that it had made scarcely any impression at the time; and that mrs musgrove should have been suddenly struck, this very day, with a recollection of the name of wentworth, as connected with her son, seemed one of those extraordinary bursts of mind which do sometimes occur. she had gone to her letters, and found it all as she supposed; and the re-perusal of these letters, after so long an interval, her poor son gone for ever, and all the strength of his faults forgotten, had affected her spirits exceedingly, and thrown her into greater grief for him than she had known on first hearing of his death. mr musgrove was, in a lesser degree, affected likewise; and when they reached the cottage, they were evidently in want, first, of being listened to anew on this subject, and afterwards, of all the relief which cheerful companions could give them. to hear them talking so much of captain wentworth, repeating his name so often, puzzling over past years, and at last ascertaining that it might, that it probably would, turn out to be the very same captain wentworth whom they recollected meeting, once or twice, after their coming back from clifton--a very fine young man--but they could not say whether it was seven or eight years ago, was a new sort of trial to anne's nerves. she found, however, that it was one to which she must inure herself. since he actually was expected in the country, she must teach herself to be insensible on such points. and not only did it appear that he was expected, and speedily, but the musgroves, in their warm gratitude for the kindness he had shewn poor dick, and very high respect for his character, stamped as it was by poor dick's having been six months under his care, and mentioning him in strong, though not perfectly well-spelt praise, as "a fine dashing felow, only two perticular about the schoolmaster," were bent on introducing themselves, and seeking his acquaintance, as soon as they could hear of his arrival. the resolution of doing so helped to form the comfort of their evening. chapter 7 a very few days more, and captain wentworth was known to be at kellynch, and mr musgrove had called on him, and come back warm in his praise, and he was engaged with the crofts to dine at uppercross, by the end of another week. it had been a great disappointment to mr musgrove to find that no earlier day could be fixed, so impatient was he to shew his gratitude, by seeing captain wentworth under his own roof, and welcoming him to all that was strongest and best in his cellars. but a week must pass; only a week, in anne's reckoning, and then, she supposed, they must meet; and soon she began to wish that she could feel secure even for a week. captain wentworth made a very early return to mr musgrove's civility, and she was all but calling there in the same half hour. she and mary were actually setting forward for the great house, where, as she afterwards learnt, they must inevitably have found him, when they were stopped by the eldest boy's being at that moment brought home in consequence of a bad fall. the child's situation put the visit entirely aside; but she could not hear of her escape with indifference, even in the midst of the serious anxiety which they afterwards felt on his account. his collar-bone was found to be dislocated, and such injury received in the back, as roused the most alarming ideas. it was an afternoon of distress, and anne had every thing to do at once; the apothecary to send for, the father to have pursued and informed, the mother to support and keep from hysterics, the servants to control, the youngest child to banish, and the poor suffering one to attend and soothe; besides sending, as soon as she recollected it, proper notice to the other house, which brought her an accession rather of frightened, enquiring companions, than of very useful assistants. her brother's return was the first comfort; he could take best care of his wife; and the second blessing was the arrival of the apothecary. till he came and had examined the child, their apprehensions were the worse for being vague; they suspected great injury, but knew not where; but now the collar-bone was soon replaced, and though mr robinson felt and felt, and rubbed, and looked grave, and spoke low words both to the father and the aunt, still they were all to hope the best, and to be able to part and eat their dinner in tolerable ease of mind; and then it was, just before they parted, that the two young aunts were able so far to digress from their nephew's state, as to give the information of captain wentworth's visit; staying five minutes behind their father and mother, to endeavour to express how perfectly delighted they were with him, how much handsomer, how infinitely more agreeable they thought him than any individual among their male acquaintance, who had been at all a favourite before. how glad they had been to hear papa invite him to stay dinner, how sorry when he said it was quite out of his power, and how glad again when he had promised in reply to papa and mamma's farther pressing invitations to come and dine with them on the morrow--actually on the morrow; and he had promised it in so pleasant a manner, as if he felt all the motive of their attention just as he ought. and in short, he had looked and said everything with such exquisite grace, that they could assure them all, their heads were both turned by him; and off they ran, quite as full of glee as of love, and apparently more full of captain wentworth than of little charles. the same story and the same raptures were repeated, when the two girls came with their father, through the gloom of the evening, to make enquiries; and mr musgrove, no longer under the first uneasiness about his heir, could add his confirmation and praise, and hope there would be now no occasion for putting captain wentworth off, and only be sorry to think that the cottage party, probably, would not like to leave the little boy, to give him the meeting. "oh no; as to leaving the little boy," both father and mother were in much too strong and recent alarm to bear the thought; and anne, in the joy of the escape, could not help adding her warm protestations to theirs. charles musgrove, indeed, afterwards, shewed more of inclination; "the child was going on so well, and he wished so much to be introduced to captain wentworth, that, perhaps, he might join them in the evening; he would not dine from home, but he might walk in for half an hour." but in this he was eagerly opposed by his wife, with "oh! no, indeed, charles, i cannot bear to have you go away. only think if anything should happen?" the child had a good night, and was going on well the next day. it must be a work of time to ascertain that no injury had been done to the spine; but mr robinson found nothing to increase alarm, and charles musgrove began, consequently, to feel no necessity for longer confinement. the child was to be kept in bed and amused as quietly as possible; but what was there for a father to do? this was quite a female case, and it would be highly absurd in him, who could be of no use at home, to shut himself up. his father very much wished him to meet captain wentworth, and there being no sufficient reason against it, he ought to go; and it ended in his making a bold, public declaration, when he came in from shooting, of his meaning to dress directly, and dine at the other house. "nothing can be going on better than the child," said he; "so i told my father, just now, that i would come, and he thought me quite right. your sister being with you, my love, i have no scruple at all. you would not like to leave him yourself, but you see i can be of no use. anne will send for me if anything is the matter." husbands and wives generally understand when opposition will be vain. mary knew, from charles's manner of speaking, that he was quite determined on going, and that it would be of no use to teaze him. she said nothing, therefore, till he was out of the room, but as soon as there was only anne to hear-"so you and i are to be left to shift by ourselves, with this poor sick child; and not a creature coming near us all the evening! i knew how it would be. this is always my luck. if there is anything disagreeable going on men are always sure to get out of it, and charles is as bad as any of them. very unfeeling! i must say it is very unfeeling of him to be running away from his poor little boy. talks of his being going on so well! how does he know that he is going on well, or that there may not be a sudden change half an hour hence? i did not think charles would have been so unfeeling. so here he is to go away and enjoy himself, and because i am the poor mother, i am not to be allowed to stir; and yet, i am sure, i am more unfit than anybody else to be about the child. my being the mother is the very reason why my feelings should not be tried. i am not at all equal to it. you saw how hysterical i was yesterday." "but that was only the effect of the suddenness of your alarm--of the shock. you will not be hysterical again. i dare say we shall have nothing to distress us. i perfectly understand mr robinson's directions, and have no fears; and indeed, mary, i cannot wonder at your husband. nursing does not belong to a man; it is not his province. a sick child is always the mother's property: her own feelings generally make it so." "i hope i am as fond of my child as any mother, but i do not know that i am of any more use in the sick-room than charles, for i cannot be always scolding and teazing the poor child when it is ill; and you saw, this morning, that if i told him to keep quiet, he was sure to begin kicking about. i have not nerves for the sort of thing." "but, could you be comfortable yourself, to be spending the whole evening away from the poor boy?" "yes; you see his papa can, and why should not i? jemima is so careful; and she could send us word every hour how he was. i really think charles might as well have told his father we would all come. i am not more alarmed about little charles now than he is. i was dreadfully alarmed yesterday, but the case is very different to-day." "well, if you do not think it too late to give notice for yourself, suppose you were to go, as well as your husband. leave little charles to my care. mr and mrs musgrove cannot think it wrong while i remain with him." "are you serious?" cried mary, her eyes brightening. "dear me! that's a very good thought, very good, indeed. to be sure, i may just as well go as not, for i am of no use at home--am i? and it only harasses me. you, who have not a mother's feelings, are a great deal the properest person. you can make little charles do anything; he always minds you at a word. it will be a great deal better than leaving him only with jemima. oh! i shall certainly go; i am sure i ought if i can, quite as much as charles, for they want me excessively to be acquainted with captain wentworth, and i know you do not mind being left alone. an excellent thought of yours, indeed, anne. i will go and tell charles, and get ready directly. you can send for us, you know, at a moment's notice, if anything is the matter; but i dare say there will be nothing to alarm you. i should not go, you may be sure, if i did not feel quite at ease about my dear child." the next moment she was tapping at her husband's dressing-room door, and as anne followed her up stairs, she was in time for the whole conversation, which began with mary's saying, in a tone of great exultation-"i mean to go with you, charles, for i am of no more use at home than you are. if i were to shut myself up for ever with the child, i should not be able to persuade him to do anything he did not like. anne will stay; anne undertakes to stay at home and take care of him. it is anne's own proposal, and so i shall go with you, which will be a great deal better, for i have not dined at the other house since tuesday." "this is very kind of anne," was her husband's answer, "and i should be very glad to have you go; but it seems rather hard that she should be left at home by herself, to nurse our sick child." anne was now at hand to take up her own cause, and the sincerity of her manner being soon sufficient to convince him, where conviction was at least very agreeable, he had no farther scruples as to her being left to dine alone, though he still wanted her to join them in the evening, when the child might be at rest for the night, and kindly urged her to let him come and fetch her, but she was quite unpersuadable; and this being the case, she had ere long the pleasure of seeing them set off together in high spirits. they were gone, she hoped, to be happy, however oddly constructed such happiness might seem; as for herself, she was left with as many sensations of comfort, as were, perhaps, ever likely to be hers. she knew herself to be of the first utility to the child; and what was it to her if frederick wentworth were only half a mile distant, making himself agreeable to others? she would have liked to know how he felt as to a meeting. perhaps indifferent, if indifference could exist under such circumstances. he must be either indifferent or unwilling. had he wished ever to see her again, he need not have waited till this time; he would have done what she could not but believe that in his place she should have done long ago, when events had been early giving him the independence which alone had been wanting. her brother and sister came back delighted with their new acquaintance, and their visit in general. there had been music, singing, talking, laughing, all that was most agreeable; charming manners in captain wentworth, no shyness or reserve; they seemed all to know each other perfectly, and he was coming the very next morning to shoot with charles. he was to come to breakfast, but not at the cottage, though that had been proposed at first; but then he had been pressed to come to the great house instead, and he seemed afraid of being in mrs charles musgrove's way, on account of the child, and therefore, somehow, they hardly knew how, it ended in charles's being to meet him to breakfast at his father's. anne understood it. he wished to avoid seeing her. he had inquired after her, she found, slightly, as might suit a former slight acquaintance, seeming to acknowledge such as she had acknowledged, actuated, perhaps, by the same view of escaping introduction when they were to meet. the morning hours of the cottage were always later than those of the other house, and on the morrow the difference was so great that mary and anne were not more than beginning breakfast when charles came in to say that they were just setting off, that he was come for his dogs, that his sisters were following with captain wentworth; his sisters meaning to visit mary and the child, and captain wentworth proposing also to wait on her for a few minutes if not inconvenient; and though charles had answered for the child's being in no such state as could make it inconvenient, captain wentworth would not be satisfied without his running on to give notice. mary, very much gratified by this attention, was delighted to receive him, while a thousand feelings rushed on anne, of which this was the most consoling, that it would soon be over. and it was soon over. in two minutes after charles's preparation, the others appeared; they were in the drawing-room. her eye half met captain wentworth's, a bow, a curtsey passed; she heard his voice; he talked to mary, said all that was right, said something to the miss musgroves, enough to mark an easy footing; the room seemed full, full of persons and voices, but a few minutes ended it. charles shewed himself at the window, all was ready, their visitor had bowed and was gone, the miss musgroves were gone too, suddenly resolving to walk to the end of the village with the sportsmen: the room was cleared, and anne might finish her breakfast as she could. "it is over! it is over!" she repeated to herself again and again, in nervous gratitude. "the worst is over!" mary talked, but she could not attend. she had seen him. they had met. they had been once more in the same room. soon, however, she began to reason with herself, and try to be feeling less. eight years, almost eight years had passed, since all had been given up. how absurd to be resuming the agitation which such an interval had banished into distance and indistinctness! what might not eight years do? events of every description, changes, alienations, removals--all, all must be comprised in it, and oblivion of the past-how natural, how certain too! it included nearly a third part of her own life. alas! with all her reasoning, she found, that to retentive feelings eight years may be little more than nothing. now, how were his sentiments to be read? was this like wishing to avoid her? and the next moment she was hating herself for the folly which asked the question. on one other question which perhaps her utmost wisdom might not have prevented, she was soon spared all suspense; for, after the miss musgroves had returned and finished their visit at the cottage she had this spontaneous information from mary:-"captain wentworth is not very gallant by you, anne, though he was so attentive to me. henrietta asked him what he thought of you, when they went away, and he said, 'you were so altered he should not have known you again.'" mary had no feelings to make her respect her sister's in a common way, but she was perfectly unsuspicious of being inflicting any peculiar wound. "altered beyond his knowledge." anne fully submitted, in silent, deep mortification. doubtless it was so, and she could take no revenge, for he was not altered, or not for the worse. she had already acknowledged it to herself, and she could not think differently, let him think of her as he would. no: the years which had destroyed her youth and bloom had only given him a more glowing, manly, open look, in no respect lessening his personal advantages. she had seen the same frederick wentworth. "so altered that he should not have known her again!" these were words which could not but dwell with her. yet she soon began to rejoice that she had heard them. they were of sobering tendency; they allayed agitation; they composed, and consequently must make her happier. frederick wentworth had used such words, or something like them, but without an idea that they would be carried round to her. he had thought her wretchedly altered, and in the first moment of appeal, had spoken as he felt. he had not forgiven anne elliot. she had used him ill, deserted and disappointed him; and worse, she had shewn a feebleness of character in doing so, which his own decided, confident temper could not endure. she had given him up to oblige others. it had been the effect of over-persuasion. it had been weakness and timidity. he had been most warmly attached to her, and had never seen a woman since whom he thought her equal; but, except from some natural sensation of curiosity, he had no desire of meeting her again. her power with him was gone for ever. it was now his object to marry. he was rich, and being turned on shore, fully intended to settle as soon as he could be properly tempted; actually looking round, ready to fall in love with all the speed which a clear head and a quick taste could allow. he had a heart for either of the miss musgroves, if they could catch it; a heart, in short, for any pleasing young woman who came in his way, excepting anne elliot. this was his only secret exception, when he said to his sister, in answer to her suppositions:-"yes, here i am, sophia, quite ready to make a foolish match. anybody between fifteen and thirty may have me for asking. a little beauty, and a few smiles, and a few compliments to the navy, and i am a lost man. should not this be enough for a sailor, who has had no society among women to make him nice?" he said it, she knew, to be contradicted. his bright proud eye spoke the conviction that he was nice; and anne elliot was not out of his thoughts, when he more seriously described the woman he should wish to meet with. "a strong mind, with sweetness of manner," made the first and the last of the description. "that is the woman i want," said he. "something a little inferior i shall of course put up with, but it must not be much. if i am a fool, i shall be a fool indeed, for i have thought on the subject more than most men." chapter 8 from this time captain wentworth and anne elliot were repeatedly in the same circle. they were soon dining in company together at mr musgrove's, for the little boy's state could no longer supply his aunt with a pretence for absenting herself; and this was but the beginning of other dinings and other meetings. whether former feelings were to be renewed must be brought to the proof; former times must undoubtedly be brought to the recollection of each; they could not but be reverted to; the year of their engagement could not but be named by him, in the little narratives or descriptions which conversation called forth. his profession qualified him, his disposition lead him, to talk; and "that was in the year six;" "that happened before i went to sea in the year six," occurred in the course of the first evening they spent together: and though his voice did not falter, and though she had no reason to suppose his eye wandering towards her while he spoke, anne felt the utter impossibility, from her knowledge of his mind, that he could be unvisited by remembrance any more than herself. there must be the same immediate association of thought, though she was very far from conceiving it to be of equal pain. they had no conversation together, no intercourse but what the commonest civility required. once so much to each other! now nothing! there had been a time, when of all the large party now filling the drawing-room at uppercross, they would have found it most difficult to cease to speak to one another. with the exception, perhaps, of admiral and mrs croft, who seemed particularly attached and happy, (anne could allow no other exceptions even among the married couples), there could have been no two hearts so open, no tastes so similar, no feelings so in unison, no countenances so beloved. now they were as strangers; nay, worse than strangers, for they could never become acquainted. it was a perpetual estrangement. when he talked, she heard the same voice, and discerned the same mind. there was a very general ignorance of all naval matters throughout the party; and he was very much questioned, and especially by the two miss musgroves, who seemed hardly to have any eyes but for him, as to the manner of living on board, daily regulations, food, hours, &c., and their surprise at his accounts, at learning the degree of accommodation and arrangement which was practicable, drew from him some pleasant ridicule, which reminded anne of the early days when she too had been ignorant, and she too had been accused of supposing sailors to be living on board without anything to eat, or any cook to dress it if there were, or any servant to wait, or any knife and fork to use. from thus listening and thinking, she was roused by a whisper of mrs musgrove's who, overcome by fond regrets, could not help saying-"ah! miss anne, if it had pleased heaven to spare my poor son, i dare say he would have been just such another by this time." anne suppressed a smile, and listened kindly, while mrs musgrove relieved her heart a little more; and for a few minutes, therefore, could not keep pace with the conversation of the others. when she could let her attention take its natural course again, she found the miss musgroves just fetching the navy list (their own navy list, the first that had ever been at uppercross), and sitting down together to pore over it, with the professed view of finding out the ships that captain wentworth had commanded. "your first was the asp, i remember; we will look for the asp." "you will not find her there. quite worn out and broken up. i was the last man who commanded her. hardly fit for service then. reported fit for home service for a year or two, and so i was sent off to the west indies." the girls looked all amazement. "the admiralty," he continued, "entertain themselves now and then, with sending a few hundred men to sea, in a ship not fit to be employed. but they have a great many to provide for; and among the thousands that may just as well go to the bottom as not, it is impossible for them to distinguish the very set who may be least missed." "phoo! phoo!" cried the admiral, "what stuff these young fellows talk! never was a better sloop than the asp in her day. for an old built sloop, you would not see her equal. lucky fellow to get her! he knows there must have been twenty better men than himself applying for her at the same time. lucky fellow to get anything so soon, with no more interest than his." "i felt my luck, admiral, i assure you;" replied captain wentworth, seriously. "i was as well satisfied with my appointment as you can desire. it was a great object with me at that time to be at sea; a very great object, i wanted to be doing something." "to be sure you did. what should a young fellow like you do ashore for half a year together? if a man had not a wife, he soon wants to be afloat again." "but, captain wentworth," cried louisa, "how vexed you must have been when you came to the asp, to see what an old thing they had given you." "i knew pretty well what she was before that day;" said he, smiling. "i had no more discoveries to make than you would have as to the fashion and strength of any old pelisse, which you had seen lent about among half your acquaintance ever since you could remember, and which at last, on some very wet day, is lent to yourself. ah! she was a dear old asp to me. she did all that i wanted. i knew she would. i knew that we should either go to the bottom together, or that she would be the making of me; and i never had two days of foul weather all the time i was at sea in her; and after taking privateers enough to be very entertaining, i had the good luck in my passage home the next autumn, to fall in with the very french frigate i wanted. i brought her into plymouth; and here another instance of luck. we had not been six hours in the sound, when a gale came on, which lasted four days and nights, and which would have done for poor old asp in half the time; our touch with the great nation not having much improved our condition. four-and-twenty hours later, and i should only have been a gallant captain wentworth, in a small paragraph at one corner of the newspapers; and being lost in only a sloop, nobody would have thought about me." anne's shudderings were to herself alone; but the miss musgroves could be as open as they were sincere, in their exclamations of pity and horror. "and so then, i suppose," said mrs musgrove, in a low voice, as if thinking aloud, "so then he went away to the laconia, and there he met with our poor boy. charles, my dear," (beckoning him to her), "do ask captain wentworth where it was he first met with your poor brother. i always forgot." "it was at gibraltar, mother, i know. dick had been left ill at gibraltar, with a recommendation from his former captain to captain wentworth." "oh! but, charles, tell captain wentworth, he need not be afraid of mentioning poor dick before me, for it would be rather a pleasure to hear him talked of by such a good friend." charles, being somewhat more mindful of the probabilities of the case, only nodded in reply, and walked away. the girls were now hunting for the laconia; and captain wentworth could not deny himself the pleasure of taking the precious volume into his own hands to save them the trouble, and once more read aloud the little statement of her name and rate, and present non-commissioned class, observing over it that she too had been one of the best friends man ever had. "ah! those were pleasant days when i had the laconia! how fast i made money in her. a friend of mine and i had such a lovely cruise together off the western islands. poor harville, sister! you know how much he wanted money: worse than myself. he had a wife. excellent fellow. i shall never forget his happiness. he felt it all, so much for her sake. i wished for him again the next summer, when i had still the same luck in the mediterranean." "and i am sure, sir," said mrs musgrove, "it was a lucky day for us, when you were put captain into that ship. we shall never forget what you did." her feelings made her speak low; and captain wentworth, hearing only in part, and probably not having dick musgrove at all near his thoughts, looked rather in suspense, and as if waiting for more. "my brother," whispered one of the girls; "mamma is thinking of poor richard." "poor dear fellow!" continued mrs musgrove; "he was grown so steady, and such an excellent correspondent, while he was under your care! ah! it would have been a happy thing, if he had never left you. i assure you, captain wentworth, we are very sorry he ever left you." there was a momentary expression in captain wentworth's face at this speech, a certain glance of his bright eye, and curl of his handsome mouth, which convinced anne, that instead of sharing in mrs musgrove's kind wishes, as to her son, he had probably been at some pains to get rid of him; but it was too transient an indulgence of self-amusement to be detected by any who understood him less than herself; in another moment he was perfectly collected and serious, and almost instantly afterwards coming up to the sofa, on which she and mrs musgrove were sitting, took a place by the latter, and entered into conversation with her, in a low voice, about her son, doing it with so much sympathy and natural grace, as shewed the kindest consideration for all that was real and unabsurd in the parent's feelings. they were actually on the same sofa, for mrs musgrove had most readily made room for him; they were divided only by mrs musgrove. it was no insignificant barrier, indeed. mrs musgrove was of a comfortable, substantial size, infinitely more fitted by nature to express good cheer and good humour, than tenderness and sentiment; and while the agitations of anne's slender form, and pensive face, may be considered as very completely screened, captain wentworth should be allowed some credit for the self-command with which he attended to her large fat sighings over the destiny of a son, whom alive nobody had cared for. personal size and mental sorrow have certainly no necessary proportions. a large bulky figure has as good a right to be in deep affliction, as the most graceful set of limbs in the world. but, fair or not fair, there are unbecoming conjunctions, which reason will patronize in vain--which taste cannot tolerate--which ridicule will seize. the admiral, after taking two or three refreshing turns about the room with his hands behind him, being called to order by his wife, now came up to captain wentworth, and without any observation of what he might be interrupting, thinking only of his own thoughts, began with-"if you had been a week later at lisbon, last spring, frederick, you would have been asked to give a passage to lady mary grierson and her daughters." "should i? i am glad i was not a week later then." the admiral abused him for his want of gallantry. he defended himself; though professing that he would never willingly admit any ladies on board a ship of his, excepting for a ball, or a visit, which a few hours might comprehend. "but, if i know myself," said he, "this is from no want of gallantry towards them. it is rather from feeling how impossible it is, with all one's efforts, and all one's sacrifices, to make the accommodations on board such as women ought to have. there can be no want of gallantry, admiral, in rating the claims of women to every personal comfort high, and this is what i do. i hate to hear of women on board, or to see them on board; and no ship under my command shall ever convey a family of ladies anywhere, if i can help it." this brought his sister upon him. "oh! frederick! but i cannot believe it of you.--all idle refinement!--women may be as comfortable on board, as in the best house in england. i believe i have lived as much on board as most women, and i know nothing superior to the accommodations of a man-of-war. i declare i have not a comfort or an indulgence about me, even at kellynch hall," (with a kind bow to anne), "beyond what i always had in most of the ships i have lived in; and they have been five altogether." "nothing to the purpose," replied her brother. "you were living with your husband, and were the only woman on board." "but you, yourself, brought mrs harville, her sister, her cousin, and three children, round from portsmouth to plymouth. where was this superfine, extraordinary sort of gallantry of yours then?" "all merged in my friendship, sophia. i would assist any brother officer's wife that i could, and i would bring anything of harville's from the world's end, if he wanted it. but do not imagine that i did not feel it an evil in itself." "depend upon it, they were all perfectly comfortable." "i might not like them the better for that perhaps. such a number of women and children have no right to be comfortable on board." "my dear frederick, you are talking quite idly. pray, what would become of us poor sailors' wives, who often want to be conveyed to one port or another, after our husbands, if everybody had your feelings?" "my feelings, you see, did not prevent my taking mrs harville and all her family to plymouth." "but i hate to hear you talking so like a fine gentleman, and as if women were all fine ladies, instead of rational creatures. we none of us expect to be in smooth water all our days." "ah! my dear," said the admiral, "when he had got a wife, he will sing a different tune. when he is married, if we have the good luck to live to another war, we shall see him do as you and i, and a great many others, have done. we shall have him very thankful to anybody that will bring him his wife." "ay, that we shall." "now i have done," cried captain wentworth. "when once married people begin to attack me with,--'oh! you will think very differently, when you are married.' i can only say, 'no, i shall not;' and then they say again, 'yes, you will,' and there is an end of it." he got up and moved away. "what a great traveller you must have been, ma'am!" said mrs musgrove to mrs croft. "pretty well, ma'am in the fifteen years of my marriage; though many women have done more. i have crossed the atlantic four times, and have been once to the east indies, and back again, and only once; besides being in different places about home: cork, and lisbon, and gibraltar. but i never went beyond the streights, and never was in the west indies. we do not call bermuda or bahama, you know, the west indies." mrs musgrove had not a word to say in dissent; she could not accuse herself of having ever called them anything in the whole course of her life. "and i do assure you, ma'am," pursued mrs croft, "that nothing can exceed the accommodations of a man-of-war; i speak, you know, of the higher rates. when you come to a frigate, of course, you are more confined; though any reasonable woman may be perfectly happy in one of them; and i can safely say, that the happiest part of my life has been spent on board a ship. while we were together, you know, there was nothing to be feared. thank god! i have always been blessed with excellent health, and no climate disagrees with me. a little disordered always the first twenty-four hours of going to sea, but never knew what sickness was afterwards. the only time i ever really suffered in body or mind, the only time that i ever fancied myself unwell, or had any ideas of danger, was the winter that i passed by myself at deal, when the admiral (captain croft then) was in the north seas. i lived in perpetual fright at that time, and had all manner of imaginary complaints from not knowing what to do with myself, or when i should hear from him next; but as long as we could be together, nothing ever ailed me, and i never met with the smallest inconvenience." "aye, to be sure. yes, indeed, oh yes! i am quite of your opinion, mrs croft," was mrs musgrove's hearty answer. "there is nothing so bad as a separation. i am quite of your opinion. i know what it is, for mr musgrove always attends the assizes, and i am so glad when they are over, and he is safe back again." the evening ended with dancing. on its being proposed, anne offered her services, as usual; and though her eyes would sometimes fill with tears as she sat at the instrument, she was extremely glad to be employed, and desired nothing in return but to be unobserved. it was a merry, joyous party, and no one seemed in higher spirits than captain wentworth. she felt that he had every thing to elevate him which general attention and deference, and especially the attention of all the young women, could do. the miss hayters, the females of the family of cousins already mentioned, were apparently admitted to the honour of being in love with him; and as for henrietta and louisa, they both seemed so entirely occupied by him, that nothing but the continued appearance of the most perfect good-will between themselves could have made it credible that they were not decided rivals. if he were a little spoilt by such universal, such eager admiration, who could wonder? these were some of the thoughts which occupied anne, while her fingers were mechanically at work, proceeding for half an hour together, equally without error, and without consciousness. once she felt that he was looking at herself, observing her altered features, perhaps, trying to trace in them the ruins of the face which had once charmed him; and once she knew that he must have spoken of her; she was hardly aware of it, till she heard the answer; but then she was sure of his having asked his partner whether miss elliot never danced? the answer was, "oh, no; never; she has quite given up dancing. she had rather play. she is never tired of playing." once, too, he spoke to her. she had left the instrument on the dancing being over, and he had sat down to try to make out an air which he wished to give the miss musgroves an idea of. unintentionally she returned to that part of the room; he saw her, and, instantly rising, said, with studied politeness-"i beg your pardon, madam, this is your seat;" and though she immediately drew back with a decided negative, he was not to be induced to sit down again. anne did not wish for more of such looks and speeches. his cold politeness, his ceremonious grace, were worse than anything. chapter 9 captain wentworth was come to kellynch as to a home, to stay as long as he liked, being as thoroughly the object of the admiral's fraternal kindness as of his wife's. he had intended, on first arriving, to proceed very soon into shropshire, and visit the brother settled in that country, but the attractions of uppercross induced him to put this off. there was so much of friendliness, and of flattery, and of everything most bewitching in his reception there; the old were so hospitable, the young so agreeable, that he could not but resolve to remain where he was, and take all the charms and perfections of edward's wife upon credit a little longer. it was soon uppercross with him almost every day. the musgroves could hardly be more ready to invite than he to come, particularly in the morning, when he had no companion at home, for the admiral and mrs croft were generally out of doors together, interesting themselves in their new possessions, their grass, and their sheep, and dawdling about in a way not endurable to a third person, or driving out in a gig, lately added to their establishment. hitherto there had been but one opinion of captain wentworth among the musgroves and their dependencies. it was unvarying, warm admiration everywhere; but this intimate footing was not more than established, when a certain charles hayter returned among them, to be a good deal disturbed by it, and to think captain wentworth very much in the way. charles hayter was the eldest of all the cousins, and a very amiable, pleasing young man, between whom and henrietta there had been a considerable appearance of attachment previous to captain wentworth's introduction. he was in orders; and having a curacy in the neighbourhood, where residence was not required, lived at his father's house, only two miles from uppercross. a short absence from home had left his fair one unguarded by his attentions at this critical period, and when he came back he had the pain of finding very altered manners, and of seeing captain wentworth. mrs musgrove and mrs hayter were sisters. they had each had money, but their marriages had made a material difference in their degree of consequence. mr hayter had some property of his own, but it was insignificant compared with mr musgrove's; and while the musgroves were in the first class of society in the country, the young hayters would, from their parents' inferior, retired, and unpolished way of living, and their own defective education, have been hardly in any class at all, but for their connexion with uppercross, this eldest son of course excepted, who had chosen to be a scholar and a gentleman, and who was very superior in cultivation and manners to all the rest. the two families had always been on excellent terms, there being no pride on one side, and no envy on the other, and only such a consciousness of superiority in the miss musgroves, as made them pleased to improve their cousins. charles's attentions to henrietta had been observed by her father and mother without any disapprobation. "it would not be a great match for her; but if henrietta liked him,"-and henrietta did seem to like him. henrietta fully thought so herself, before captain wentworth came; but from that time cousin charles had been very much forgotten. which of the two sisters was preferred by captain wentworth was as yet quite doubtful, as far as anne's observation reached. henrietta was perhaps the prettiest, louisa had the higher spirits; and she knew not now, whether the more gentle or the more lively character were most likely to attract him. mr and mrs musgrove, either from seeing little, or from an entire confidence in the discretion of both their daughters, and of all the young men who came near them, seemed to leave everything to take its chance. there was not the smallest appearance of solicitude or remark about them in the mansion-house; but it was different at the cottage: the young couple there were more disposed to speculate and wonder; and captain wentworth had not been above four or five times in the miss musgroves' company, and charles hayter had but just reappeared, when anne had to listen to the opinions of her brother and sister, as to which was the one liked best. charles gave it for louisa, mary for henrietta, but quite agreeing that to have him marry either could be extremely delightful. charles "had never seen a pleasanter man in his life; and from what he had once heard captain wentworth himself say, was very sure that he had not made less than twenty thousand pounds by the war. here was a fortune at once; besides which, there would be the chance of what might be done in any future war; and he was sure captain wentworth was as likely a man to distinguish himself as any officer in the navy. oh! it would be a capital match for either of his sisters." "upon my word it would," replied mary. "dear me! if he should rise to any very great honours! if he should ever be made a baronet! 'lady wentworth' sounds very well. that would be a noble thing, indeed, for henrietta! she would take place of me then, and henrietta would not dislike that. sir frederick and lady wentworth! it would be but a new creation, however, and i never think much of your new creations." it suited mary best to think henrietta the one preferred on the very account of charles hayter, whose pretensions she wished to see put an end to. she looked down very decidedly upon the hayters, and thought it would be quite a misfortune to have the existing connection between the families renewed--very sad for herself and her children. "you know," said she, "i cannot think him at all a fit match for henrietta; and considering the alliances which the musgroves have made, she has no right to throw herself away. i do not think any young woman has a right to make a choice that may be disagreeable and inconvenient to the principal part of her family, and be giving bad connections to those who have not been used to them. and, pray, who is charles hayter? nothing but a country curate. a most improper match for miss musgrove of uppercross." her husband, however, would not agree with her here; for besides having a regard for his cousin, charles hayter was an eldest son, and he saw things as an eldest son himself. "now you are talking nonsense, mary," was therefore his answer. "it would not be a great match for henrietta, but charles has a very fair chance, through the spicers, of getting something from the bishop in the course of a year or two; and you will please to remember, that he is the eldest son; whenever my uncle dies, he steps into very pretty property. the estate at winthrop is not less than two hundred and fifty acres, besides the farm near taunton, which is some of the best land in the country. i grant you, that any of them but charles would be a very shocking match for henrietta, and indeed it could not be; he is the only one that could be possible; but he is a very good-natured, good sort of a fellow; and whenever winthrop comes into his hands, he will make a different sort of place of it, and live in a very different sort of way; and with that property, he will never be a contemptible man--good, freehold property. no, no; henrietta might do worse than marry charles hayter; and if she has him, and louisa can get captain wentworth, i shall be very well satisfied." "charles may say what he pleases," cried mary to anne, as soon as he was out of the room, "but it would be shocking to have henrietta marry charles hayter; a very bad thing for her, and still worse for me; and therefore it is very much to be wished that captain wentworth may soon put him quite out of her head, and i have very little doubt that he has. she took hardly any notice of charles hayter yesterday. i wish you had been there to see her behaviour. and as to captain wentworth's liking louisa as well as henrietta, it is nonsense to say so; for he certainly does like henrietta a great deal the best. but charles is so positive! i wish you had been with us yesterday, for then you might have decided between us; and i am sure you would have thought as i did, unless you had been determined to give it against me." a dinner at mr musgrove's had been the occasion when all these things should have been seen by anne; but she had staid at home, under the mixed plea of a headache of her own, and some return of indisposition in little charles. she had thought only of avoiding captain wentworth; but an escape from being appealed to as umpire was now added to the advantages of a quiet evening. as to captain wentworth's views, she deemed it of more consequence that he should know his own mind early enough not to be endangering the happiness of either sister, or impeaching his own honour, than that he should prefer henrietta to louisa, or louisa to henrietta. either of them would, in all probability, make him an affectionate, good-humoured wife. with regard to charles hayter, she had delicacy which must be pained by any lightness of conduct in a well-meaning young woman, and a heart to sympathize in any of the sufferings it occasioned; but if henrietta found herself mistaken in the nature of her feelings, the alteration could not be understood too soon. charles hayter had met with much to disquiet and mortify him in his cousin's behaviour. she had too old a regard for him to be so wholly estranged as might in two meetings extinguish every past hope, and leave him nothing to do but to keep away from uppercross: but there was such a change as became very alarming, when such a man as captain wentworth was to be regarded as the probable cause. he had been absent only two sundays, and when they parted, had left her interested, even to the height of his wishes, in his prospect of soon quitting his present curacy, and obtaining that of uppercross instead. it had then seemed the object nearest her heart, that dr shirley, the rector, who for more than forty years had been zealously discharging all the duties of his office, but was now growing too infirm for many of them, should be quite fixed on engaging a curate; should make his curacy quite as good as he could afford, and should give charles hayter the promise of it. the advantage of his having to come only to uppercross, instead of going six miles another way; of his having, in every respect, a better curacy; of his belonging to their dear dr shirley, and of dear, good dr shirley's being relieved from the duty which he could no longer get through without most injurious fatigue, had been a great deal, even to louisa, but had been almost everything to henrietta. when he came back, alas! the zeal of the business was gone by. louisa could not listen at all to his account of a conversation which he had just held with dr shirley: she was at a window, looking out for captain wentworth; and even henrietta had at best only a divided attention to give, and seemed to have forgotten all the former doubt and solicitude of the negotiation. "well, i am very glad indeed: but i always thought you would have it; i always thought you sure. it did not appear to me that--in short, you know, dr shirley must have a curate, and you had secured his promise. is he coming, louisa?" one morning, very soon after the dinner at the musgroves, at which anne had not been present, captain wentworth walked into the drawing-room at the cottage, where were only herself and the little invalid charles, who was lying on the sofa. the surprise of finding himself almost alone with anne elliot, deprived his manners of their usual composure: he started, and could only say, "i thought the miss musgroves had been here: mrs musgrove told me i should find them here," before he walked to the window to recollect himself, and feel how he ought to behave. "they are up stairs with my sister: they will be down in a few moments, i dare say," had been anne's reply, in all the confusion that was natural; and if the child had not called her to come and do something for him, she would have been out of the room the next moment, and released captain wentworth as well as herself. he continued at the window; and after calmly and politely saying, "i hope the little boy is better," was silent. she was obliged to kneel down by the sofa, and remain there to satisfy her patient; and thus they continued a few minutes, when, to her very great satisfaction, she heard some other person crossing the little vestibule. she hoped, on turning her head, to see the master of the house; but it proved to be one much less calculated for making matters easy--charles hayter, probably not at all better pleased by the sight of captain wentworth than captain wentworth had been by the sight of anne. she only attempted to say, "how do you do? will you not sit down? the others will be here presently." captain wentworth, however, came from his window, apparently not ill-disposed for conversation; but charles hayter soon put an end to his attempts by seating himself near the table, and taking up the newspaper; and captain wentworth returned to his window. another minute brought another addition. the younger boy, a remarkable stout, forward child, of two years old, having got the door opened for him by some one without, made his determined appearance among them, and went straight to the sofa to see what was going on, and put in his claim to anything good that might be giving away. there being nothing to eat, he could only have some play; and as his aunt would not let him tease his sick brother, he began to fasten himself upon her, as she knelt, in such a way that, busy as she was about charles, she could not shake him off. she spoke to him, ordered, entreated, and insisted in vain. once she did contrive to push him away, but the boy had the greater pleasure in getting upon her back again directly. "walter," said she, "get down this moment. you are extremely troublesome. i am very angry with you." "walter," cried charles hayter, "why do you not do as you are bid? do not you hear your aunt speak? come to me, walter, come to cousin charles." but not a bit did walter stir. in another moment, however, she found herself in the state of being released from him; some one was taking him from her, though he had bent down her head so much, that his little sturdy hands were unfastened from around her neck, and he was resolutely borne away, before she knew that captain wentworth had done it. her sensations on the discovery made her perfectly speechless. she could not even thank him. she could only hang over little charles, with most disordered feelings. his kindness in stepping forward to her relief, the manner, the silence in which it had passed, the little particulars of the circumstance, with the conviction soon forced on her by the noise he was studiously making with the child, that he meant to avoid hearing her thanks, and rather sought to testify that her conversation was the last of his wants, produced such a confusion of varying, but very painful agitation, as she could not recover from, till enabled by the entrance of mary and the miss musgroves to make over her little patient to their cares, and leave the room. she could not stay. it might have been an opportunity of watching the loves and jealousies of the four--they were now altogether; but she could stay for none of it. it was evident that charles hayter was not well inclined towards captain wentworth. she had a strong impression of his having said, in a vext tone of voice, after captain wentworth's interference, "you ought to have minded me, walter; i told you not to teaze your aunt;" and could comprehend his regretting that captain wentworth should do what he ought to have done himself. but neither charles hayter's feelings, nor anybody's feelings, could interest her, till she had a little better arranged her own. she was ashamed of herself, quite ashamed of being so nervous, so overcome by such a trifle; but so it was, and it required a long application of solitude and reflection to recover her. chapter 10 other opportunities of making her observations could not fail to occur. anne had soon been in company with all the four together often enough to have an opinion, though too wise to acknowledge as much at home, where she knew it would have satisfied neither husband nor wife; for while she considered louisa to be rather the favourite, she could not but think, as far as she might dare to judge from memory and experience, that captain wentworth was not in love with either. they were more in love with him; yet there it was not love. it was a little fever of admiration; but it might, probably must, end in love with some. charles hayter seemed aware of being slighted, and yet henrietta had sometimes the air of being divided between them. anne longed for the power of representing to them all what they were about, and of pointing out some of the evils they were exposing themselves to. she did not attribute guile to any. it was the highest satisfaction to her to believe captain wentworth not in the least aware of the pain he was occasioning. there was no triumph, no pitiful triumph in his manner. he had, probably, never heard, and never thought of any claims of charles hayter. he was only wrong in accepting the attentions (for accepting must be the word) of two young women at once. after a short struggle, however, charles hayter seemed to quit the field. three days had passed without his coming once to uppercross; a most decided change. he had even refused one regular invitation to dinner; and having been found on the occasion by mr musgrove with some large books before him, mr and mrs musgrove were sure all could not be right, and talked, with grave faces, of his studying himself to death. it was mary's hope and belief that he had received a positive dismissal from henrietta, and her husband lived under the constant dependence of seeing him to-morrow. anne could only feel that charles hayter was wise. one morning, about this time charles musgrove and captain wentworth being gone a-shooting together, as the sisters in the cottage were sitting quietly at work, they were visited at the window by the sisters from the mansion-house. it was a very fine november day, and the miss musgroves came through the little grounds, and stopped for no other purpose than to say, that they were going to take a long walk, and therefore concluded mary could not like to go with them; and when mary immediately replied, with some jealousy at not being supposed a good walker, "oh, yes, i should like to join you very much, i am very fond of a long walk;" anne felt persuaded, by the looks of the two girls, that it was precisely what they did not wish, and admired again the sort of necessity which the family habits seemed to produce, of everything being to be communicated, and everything being to be done together, however undesired and inconvenient. she tried to dissuade mary from going, but in vain; and that being the case, thought it best to accept the miss musgroves' much more cordial invitation to herself to go likewise, as she might be useful in turning back with her sister, and lessening the interference in any plan of their own. "i cannot imagine why they should suppose i should not like a long walk," said mary, as she went up stairs. "everybody is always supposing that i am not a good walker; and yet they would not have been pleased, if we had refused to join them. when people come in this manner on purpose to ask us, how can one say no?" just as they were setting off, the gentlemen returned. they had taken out a young dog, who had spoilt their sport, and sent them back early. their time and strength, and spirits, were, therefore, exactly ready for this walk, and they entered into it with pleasure. could anne have foreseen such a junction, she would have staid at home; but, from some feelings of interest and curiosity, she fancied now that it was too late to retract, and the whole six set forward together in the direction chosen by the miss musgroves, who evidently considered the walk as under their guidance. anne's object was, not to be in the way of anybody; and where the narrow paths across the fields made many separations necessary, to keep with her brother and sister. her pleasure in the walk must arise from the exercise and the day, from the view of the last smiles of the year upon the tawny leaves, and withered hedges, and from repeating to herself some few of the thousand poetical descriptions extant of autumn, that season of peculiar and inexhaustible influence on the mind of taste and tenderness, that season which had drawn from every poet, worthy of being read, some attempt at description, or some lines of feeling. she occupied her mind as much as possible in such like musings and quotations; but it was not possible, that when within reach of captain wentworth's conversation with either of the miss musgroves, she should not try to hear it; yet she caught little very remarkable. it was mere lively chat, such as any young persons, on an intimate footing, might fall into. he was more engaged with louisa than with henrietta. louisa certainly put more forward for his notice than her sister. this distinction appeared to increase, and there was one speech of louisa's which struck her. after one of the many praises of the day, which were continually bursting forth, captain wentworth added:-"what glorious weather for the admiral and my sister! they meant to take a long drive this morning; perhaps we may hail them from some of these hills. they talked of coming into this side of the country. i wonder whereabouts they will upset to-day. oh! it does happen very often, i assure you; but my sister makes nothing of it; she would as lieve be tossed out as not." "ah! you make the most of it, i know," cried louisa, "but if it were really so, i should do just the same in her place. if i loved a man, as she loves the admiral, i would always be with him, nothing should ever separate us, and i would rather be overturned by him, than driven safely by anybody else." it was spoken with enthusiasm. "had you?" cried he, catching the same tone; "i honour you!" and there was silence between them for a little while. anne could not immediately fall into a quotation again. the sweet scenes of autumn were for a while put by, unless some tender sonnet, fraught with the apt analogy of the declining year, with declining happiness, and the images of youth and hope, and spring, all gone together, blessed her memory. she roused herself to say, as they struck by order into another path, "is not this one of the ways to winthrop?" but nobody heard, or, at least, nobody answered her. winthrop, however, or its environs--for young men are, sometimes to be met with, strolling about near home--was their destination; and after another half mile of gradual ascent through large enclosures, where the ploughs at work, and the fresh made path spoke the farmer counteracting the sweets of poetical despondence, and meaning to have spring again, they gained the summit of the most considerable hill, which parted uppercross and winthrop, and soon commanded a full view of the latter, at the foot of the hill on the other side. winthrop, without beauty and without dignity, was stretched before them; an indifferent house, standing low, and hemmed in by the barns and buildings of a farm-yard. mary exclaimed, "bless me! here is winthrop. i declare i had no idea! well now, i think we had better turn back; i am excessively tired." henrietta, conscious and ashamed, and seeing no cousin charles walking along any path, or leaning against any gate, was ready to do as mary wished; but "no!" said charles musgrove, and "no, no!" cried louisa more eagerly, and taking her sister aside, seemed to be arguing the matter warmly. charles, in the meanwhile, was very decidedly declaring his resolution of calling on his aunt, now that he was so near; and very evidently, though more fearfully, trying to induce his wife to go too. but this was one of the points on which the lady shewed her strength; and when he recommended the advantage of resting herself a quarter of an hour at winthrop, as she felt so tired, she resolutely answered, "oh! no, indeed! walking up that hill again would do her more harm than any sitting down could do her good;" and, in short, her look and manner declared, that go she would not. after a little succession of these sort of debates and consultations, it was settled between charles and his two sisters, that he and henrietta should just run down for a few minutes, to see their aunt and cousins, while the rest of the party waited for them at the top of the hill. louisa seemed the principal arranger of the plan; and, as she went a little way with them, down the hill, still talking to henrietta, mary took the opportunity of looking scornfully around her, and saying to captain wentworth-"it is very unpleasant, having such connexions! but, i assure you, i have never been in the house above twice in my life." she received no other answer, than an artificial, assenting smile, followed by a contemptuous glance, as he turned away, which anne perfectly knew the meaning of. the brow of the hill, where they remained, was a cheerful spot: louisa returned; and mary, finding a comfortable seat for herself on the step of a stile, was very well satisfied so long as the others all stood about her; but when louisa drew captain wentworth away, to try for a gleaning of nuts in an adjoining hedge-row, and they were gone by degrees quite out of sight and sound, mary was happy no longer; she quarrelled with her own seat, was sure louisa had got a much better somewhere, and nothing could prevent her from going to look for a better also. she turned through the same gate, but could not see them. anne found a nice seat for her, on a dry sunny bank, under the hedge-row, in which she had no doubt of their still being, in some spot or other. mary sat down for a moment, but it would not do; she was sure louisa had found a better seat somewhere else, and she would go on till she overtook her. anne, really tired herself, was glad to sit down; and she very soon heard captain wentworth and louisa in the hedge-row, behind her, as if making their way back along the rough, wild sort of channel, down the centre. they were speaking as they drew near. louisa's voice was the first distinguished. she seemed to be in the middle of some eager speech. what anne first heard was-"and so, i made her go. i could not bear that she should be frightened from the visit by such nonsense. what! would i be turned back from doing a thing that i had determined to do, and that i knew to be right, by the airs and interference of such a person, or of any person i may say? no, i have no idea of being so easily persuaded. when i have made up my mind, i have made it; and henrietta seemed entirely to have made up hers to call at winthrop to-day; and yet, she was as near giving it up, out of nonsensical complaisance!" "she would have turned back then, but for you?" "she would indeed. i am almost ashamed to say it." "happy for her, to have such a mind as yours at hand! after the hints you gave just now, which did but confirm my own observations, the last time i was in company with him, i need not affect to have no comprehension of what is going on. i see that more than a mere dutiful morning visit to your aunt was in question; and woe betide him, and her too, when it comes to things of consequence, when they are placed in circumstances requiring fortitude and strength of mind, if she have not resolution enough to resist idle interference in such a trifle as this. your sister is an amiable creature; but yours is the character of decision and firmness, i see. if you value her conduct or happiness, infuse as much of your own spirit into her as you can. but this, no doubt, you have been always doing. it is the worst evil of too yielding and indecisive a character, that no influence over it can be depended on. you are never sure of a good impression being durable; everybody may sway it. let those who would be happy be firm. here is a nut," said he, catching one down from an upper bough, "to exemplify: a beautiful glossy nut, which, blessed with original strength, has outlived all the storms of autumn. not a puncture, not a weak spot anywhere. this nut," he continued, with playful solemnity, "while so many of his brethren have fallen and been trodden under foot, is still in possession of all the happiness that a hazel nut can be supposed capable of." then returning to his former earnest tone--"my first wish for all whom i am interested in, is that they should be firm. if louisa musgrove would be beautiful and happy in her november of life, she will cherish all her present powers of mind." he had done, and was unanswered. it would have surprised anne if louisa could have readily answered such a speech: words of such interest, spoken with such serious warmth! she could imagine what louisa was feeling. for herself, she feared to move, lest she should be seen. while she remained, a bush of low rambling holly protected her, and they were moving on. before they were beyond her hearing, however, louisa spoke again. "mary is good-natured enough in many respects," said she; "but she does sometimes provoke me excessively, by her nonsense and pride--the elliot pride. she has a great deal too much of the elliot pride. we do so wish that charles had married anne instead. i suppose you know he wanted to marry anne?" after a moment's pause, captain wentworth said-"do you mean that she refused him?" "oh! yes; certainly." "when did that happen?" "i do not exactly know, for henrietta and i were at school at the time; but i believe about a year before he married mary. i wish she had accepted him. we should all have liked her a great deal better; and papa and mamma always think it was her great friend lady russell's doing, that she did not. they think charles might not be learned and bookish enough to please lady russell, and that therefore, she persuaded anne to refuse him." the sounds were retreating, and anne distinguished no more. her own emotions still kept her fixed. she had much to recover from, before she could move. the listener's proverbial fate was not absolutely hers; she had heard no evil of herself, but she had heard a great deal of very painful import. she saw how her own character was considered by captain wentworth, and there had been just that degree of feeling and curiosity about her in his manner which must give her extreme agitation. as soon as she could, she went after mary, and having found, and walked back with her to their former station, by the stile, felt some comfort in their whole party being immediately afterwards collected, and once more in motion together. her spirits wanted the solitude and silence which only numbers could give. charles and henrietta returned, bringing, as may be conjectured, charles hayter with them. the minutiae of the business anne could not attempt to understand; even captain wentworth did not seem admitted to perfect confidence here; but that there had been a withdrawing on the gentleman's side, and a relenting on the lady's, and that they were now very glad to be together again, did not admit a doubt. henrietta looked a little ashamed, but very well pleased;--charles hayter exceedingly happy: and they were devoted to each other almost from the first instant of their all setting forward for uppercross. everything now marked out louisa for captain wentworth; nothing could be plainer; and where many divisions were necessary, or even where they were not, they walked side by side nearly as much as the other two. in a long strip of meadow land, where there was ample space for all, they were thus divided, forming three distinct parties; and to that party of the three which boasted least animation, and least complaisance, anne necessarily belonged. she joined charles and mary, and was tired enough to be very glad of charles's other arm; but charles, though in very good humour with her, was out of temper with his wife. mary had shewn herself disobliging to him, and was now to reap the consequence, which consequence was his dropping her arm almost every moment to cut off the heads of some nettles in the hedge with his switch; and when mary began to complain of it, and lament her being ill-used, according to custom, in being on the hedge side, while anne was never incommoded on the other, he dropped the arms of both to hunt after a weasel which he had a momentary glance of, and they could hardly get him along at all. this long meadow bordered a lane, which their footpath, at the end of it was to cross, and when the party had all reached the gate of exit, the carriage advancing in the same direction, which had been some time heard, was just coming up, and proved to be admiral croft's gig. he and his wife had taken their intended drive, and were returning home. upon hearing how long a walk the young people had engaged in, they kindly offered a seat to any lady who might be particularly tired; it would save her a full mile, and they were going through uppercross. the invitation was general, and generally declined. the miss musgroves were not at all tired, and mary was either offended, by not being asked before any of the others, or what louisa called the elliot pride could not endure to make a third in a one horse chaise. the walking party had crossed the lane, and were surmounting an opposite stile, and the admiral was putting his horse in motion again, when captain wentworth cleared the hedge in a moment to say something to his sister. the something might be guessed by its effects. "miss elliot, i am sure you are tired," cried mrs croft. "do let us have the pleasure of taking you home. here is excellent room for three, i assure you. if we were all like you, i believe we might sit four. you must, indeed, you must." anne was still in the lane; and though instinctively beginning to decline, she was not allowed to proceed. the admiral's kind urgency came in support of his wife's; they would not be refused; they compressed themselves into the smallest possible space to leave her a corner, and captain wentworth, without saying a word, turned to her, and quietly obliged her to be assisted into the carriage. yes; he had done it. she was in the carriage, and felt that he had placed her there, that his will and his hands had done it, that she owed it to his perception of her fatigue, and his resolution to give her rest. she was very much affected by the view of his disposition towards her, which all these things made apparent. this little circumstance seemed the completion of all that had gone before. she understood him. he could not forgive her, but he could not be unfeeling. though condemning her for the past, and considering it with high and unjust resentment, though perfectly careless of her, and though becoming attached to another, still he could not see her suffer, without the desire of giving her relief. it was a remainder of former sentiment; it was an impulse of pure, though unacknowledged friendship; it was a proof of his own warm and amiable heart, which she could not contemplate without emotions so compounded of pleasure and pain, that she knew not which prevailed. her answers to the kindness and the remarks of her companions were at first unconsciously given. they had travelled half their way along the rough lane, before she was quite awake to what they said. she then found them talking of "frederick." "he certainly means to have one or other of those two girls, sophy," said the admiral; "but there is no saying which. he has been running after them, too, long enough, one would think, to make up his mind. ay, this comes of the peace. if it were war now, he would have settled it long ago. we sailors, miss elliot, cannot afford to make long courtships in time of war. how many days was it, my dear, between the first time of my seeing you and our sitting down together in our lodgings at north yarmouth?" "we had better not talk about it, my dear," replied mrs croft, pleasantly; "for if miss elliot were to hear how soon we came to an understanding, she would never be persuaded that we could be happy together. i had known you by character, however, long before." "well, and i had heard of you as a very pretty girl, and what were we to wait for besides? i do not like having such things so long in hand. i wish frederick would spread a little more canvass, and bring us home one of these young ladies to kellynch. then there would always be company for them. and very nice young ladies they both are; i hardly know one from the other." "very good humoured, unaffected girls, indeed," said mrs croft, in a tone of calmer praise, such as made anne suspect that her keener powers might not consider either of them as quite worthy of her brother; "and a very respectable family. one could not be connected with better people. my dear admiral, that post! we shall certainly take that post." but by coolly giving the reins a better direction herself they happily passed the danger; and by once afterwards judiciously putting out her hand they neither fell into a rut, nor ran foul of a dung-cart; and anne, with some amusement at their style of driving, which she imagined no bad representation of the general guidance of their affairs, found herself safely deposited by them at the cottage. chapter 11 the time now approached for lady russell's return: the day was even fixed; and anne, being engaged to join her as soon as she was resettled, was looking forward to an early removal to kellynch, and beginning to think how her own comfort was likely to be affected by it. it would place her in the same village with captain wentworth, within half a mile of him; they would have to frequent the same church, and there must be intercourse between the two families. this was against her; but on the other hand, he spent so much of his time at uppercross, that in removing thence she might be considered rather as leaving him behind, than as going towards him; and, upon the whole, she believed she must, on this interesting question, be the gainer, almost as certainly as in her change of domestic society, in leaving poor mary for lady russell. she wished it might be possible for her to avoid ever seeing captain wentworth at the hall: those rooms had witnessed former meetings which would be brought too painfully before her; but she was yet more anxious for the possibility of lady russell and captain wentworth never meeting anywhere. they did not like each other, and no renewal of acquaintance now could do any good; and were lady russell to see them together, she might think that he had too much self-possession, and she too little. these points formed her chief solicitude in anticipating her removal from uppercross, where she felt she had been stationed quite long enough. her usefulness to little charles would always give some sweetness to the memory of her two months' visit there, but he was gaining strength apace, and she had nothing else to stay for. the conclusion of her visit, however, was diversified in a way which she had not at all imagined. captain wentworth, after being unseen and unheard of at uppercross for two whole days, appeared again among them to justify himself by a relation of what had kept him away. a letter from his friend, captain harville, having found him out at last, had brought intelligence of captain harville's being settled with his family at lyme for the winter; of their being therefore, quite unknowingly, within twenty miles of each other. captain harville had never been in good health since a severe wound which he received two years before, and captain wentworth's anxiety to see him had determined him to go immediately to lyme. he had been there for four-and-twenty hours. his acquittal was complete, his friendship warmly honoured, a lively interest excited for his friend, and his description of the fine country about lyme so feelingly attended to by the party, that an earnest desire to see lyme themselves, and a project for going thither was the consequence. the young people were all wild to see lyme. captain wentworth talked of going there again himself, it was only seventeen miles from uppercross; though november, the weather was by no means bad; and, in short, louisa, who was the most eager of the eager, having formed the resolution to go, and besides the pleasure of doing as she liked, being now armed with the idea of merit in maintaining her own way, bore down all the wishes of her father and mother for putting it off till summer; and to lyme they were to go--charles, mary, anne, henrietta, louisa, and captain wentworth. the first heedless scheme had been to go in the morning and return at night; but to this mr musgrove, for the sake of his horses, would not consent; and when it came to be rationally considered, a day in the middle of november would not leave much time for seeing a new place, after deducting seven hours, as the nature of the country required, for going and returning. they were, consequently, to stay the night there, and not to be expected back till the next day's dinner. this was felt to be a considerable amendment; and though they all met at the great house at rather an early breakfast hour, and set off very punctually, it was so much past noon before the two carriages, mr musgrove's coach containing the four ladies, and charles's curricle, in which he drove captain wentworth, were descending the long hill into lyme, and entering upon the still steeper street of the town itself, that it was very evident they would not have more than time for looking about them, before the light and warmth of the day were gone. after securing accommodations, and ordering a dinner at one of the inns, the next thing to be done was unquestionably to walk directly down to the sea. they were come too late in the year for any amusement or variety which lyme, as a public place, might offer. the rooms were shut up, the lodgers almost all gone, scarcely any family but of the residents left; and, as there is nothing to admire in the buildings themselves, the remarkable situation of the town, the principal street almost hurrying into the water, the walk to the cobb, skirting round the pleasant little bay, which, in the season, is animated with bathing machines and company; the cobb itself, its old wonders and new improvements, with the very beautiful line of cliffs stretching out to the east of the town, are what the stranger's eye will seek; and a very strange stranger it must be, who does not see charms in the immediate environs of lyme, to make him wish to know it better. the scenes in its neighbourhood, charmouth, with its high grounds and extensive sweeps of country, and still more, its sweet, retired bay, backed by dark cliffs, where fragments of low rock among the sands, make it the happiest spot for watching the flow of the tide, for sitting in unwearied contemplation; the woody varieties of the cheerful village of up lyme; and, above all, pinny, with its green chasms between romantic rocks, where the scattered forest trees and orchards of luxuriant growth, declare that many a generation must have passed away since the first partial falling of the cliff prepared the ground for such a state, where a scene so wonderful and so lovely is exhibited, as may more than equal any of the resembling scenes of the far-famed isle of wight: these places must be visited, and visited again, to make the worth of lyme understood. the party from uppercross passing down by the now deserted and melancholy looking rooms, and still descending, soon found themselves on the sea-shore; and lingering only, as all must linger and gaze on a first return to the sea, who ever deserved to look on it at all, proceeded towards the cobb, equally their object in itself and on captain wentworth's account: for in a small house, near the foot of an old pier of unknown date, were the harvilles settled. captain wentworth turned in to call on his friend; the others walked on, and he was to join them on the cobb. they were by no means tired of wondering and admiring; and not even louisa seemed to feel that they had parted with captain wentworth long, when they saw him coming after them, with three companions, all well known already, by description, to be captain and mrs harville, and a captain benwick, who was staying with them. captain benwick had some time ago been first lieutenant of the laconia; and the account which captain wentworth had given of him, on his return from lyme before, his warm praise of him as an excellent young man and an officer, whom he had always valued highly, which must have stamped him well in the esteem of every listener, had been followed by a little history of his private life, which rendered him perfectly interesting in the eyes of all the ladies. he had been engaged to captain harville's sister, and was now mourning her loss. they had been a year or two waiting for fortune and promotion. fortune came, his prize-money as lieutenant being great; promotion, too, came at last; but fanny harville did not live to know it. she had died the preceding summer while he was at sea. captain wentworth believed it impossible for man to be more attached to woman than poor benwick had been to fanny harville, or to be more deeply afflicted under the dreadful change. he considered his disposition as of the sort which must suffer heavily, uniting very strong feelings with quiet, serious, and retiring manners, and a decided taste for reading, and sedentary pursuits. to finish the interest of the story, the friendship between him and the harvilles seemed, if possible, augmented by the event which closed all their views of alliance, and captain benwick was now living with them entirely. captain harville had taken his present house for half a year; his taste, and his health, and his fortune, all directing him to a residence inexpensive, and by the sea; and the grandeur of the country, and the retirement of lyme in the winter, appeared exactly adapted to captain benwick's state of mind. the sympathy and good-will excited towards captain benwick was very great. "and yet," said anne to herself, as they now moved forward to meet the party, "he has not, perhaps, a more sorrowing heart than i have. i cannot believe his prospects so blighted for ever. he is younger than i am; younger in feeling, if not in fact; younger as a man. he will rally again, and be happy with another." they all met, and were introduced. captain harville was a tall, dark man, with a sensible, benevolent countenance; a little lame; and from strong features and want of health, looking much older than captain wentworth. captain benwick looked, and was, the youngest of the three, and, compared with either of them, a little man. he had a pleasing face and a melancholy air, just as he ought to have, and drew back from conversation. captain harville, though not equalling captain wentworth in manners, was a perfect gentleman, unaffected, warm, and obliging. mrs harville, a degree less polished than her husband, seemed, however, to have the same good feelings; and nothing could be more pleasant than their desire of considering the whole party as friends of their own, because the friends of captain wentworth, or more kindly hospitable than their entreaties for their all promising to dine with them. the dinner, already ordered at the inn, was at last, though unwillingly, accepted as a excuse; but they seemed almost hurt that captain wentworth should have brought any such party to lyme, without considering it as a thing of course that they should dine with them. there was so much attachment to captain wentworth in all this, and such a bewitching charm in a degree of hospitality so uncommon, so unlike the usual style of give-and-take invitations, and dinners of formality and display, that anne felt her spirits not likely to be benefited by an increasing acquaintance among his brother-officers. "these would have been all my friends," was her thought; and she had to struggle against a great tendency to lowness. on quitting the cobb, they all went in-doors with their new friends, and found rooms so small as none but those who invite from the heart could think capable of accommodating so many. anne had a moment's astonishment on the subject herself; but it was soon lost in the pleasanter feelings which sprang from the sight of all the ingenious contrivances and nice arrangements of captain harville, to turn the actual space to the best account, to supply the deficiencies of lodging-house furniture, and defend the windows and doors against the winter storms to be expected. the varieties in the fitting-up of the rooms, where the common necessaries provided by the owner, in the common indifferent plight, were contrasted with some few articles of a rare species of wood, excellently worked up, and with something curious and valuable from all the distant countries captain harville had visited, were more than amusing to anne; connected as it all was with his profession, the fruit of its labours, the effect of its influence on his habits, the picture of repose and domestic happiness it presented, made it to her a something more, or less, than gratification. captain harville was no reader; but he had contrived excellent accommodations, and fashioned very pretty shelves, for a tolerable collection of well-bound volumes, the property of captain benwick. his lameness prevented him from taking much exercise; but a mind of usefulness and ingenuity seemed to furnish him with constant employment within. he drew, he varnished, he carpentered, he glued; he made toys for the children; he fashioned new netting-needles and pins with improvements; and if everything else was done, sat down to his large fishing-net at one corner of the room. anne thought she left great happiness behind her when they quitted the house; and louisa, by whom she found herself walking, burst forth into raptures of admiration and delight on the character of the navy; their friendliness, their brotherliness, their openness, their uprightness; protesting that she was convinced of sailors having more worth and warmth than any other set of men in england; that they only knew how to live, and they only deserved to be respected and loved. they went back to dress and dine; and so well had the scheme answered already, that nothing was found amiss; though its being "so entirely out of season," and the "no thoroughfare of lyme," and the "no expectation of company," had brought many apologies from the heads of the inn. anne found herself by this time growing so much more hardened to being in captain wentworth's company than she had at first imagined could ever be, that the sitting down to the same table with him now, and the interchange of the common civilities attending on it (they never got beyond), was become a mere nothing. the nights were too dark for the ladies to meet again till the morrow, but captain harville had promised them a visit in the evening; and he came, bringing his friend also, which was more than had been expected, it having been agreed that captain benwick had all the appearance of being oppressed by the presence of so many strangers. he ventured among them again, however, though his spirits certainly did not seem fit for the mirth of the party in general. while captains wentworth and harville led the talk on one side of the room, and by recurring to former days, supplied anecdotes in abundance to occupy and entertain the others, it fell to anne's lot to be placed rather apart with captain benwick; and a very good impulse of her nature obliged her to begin an acquaintance with him. he was shy, and disposed to abstraction; but the engaging mildness of her countenance, and gentleness of her manners, soon had their effect; and anne was well repaid the first trouble of exertion. he was evidently a young man of considerable taste in reading, though principally in poetry; and besides the persuasion of having given him at least an evening's indulgence in the discussion of subjects, which his usual companions had probably no concern in, she had the hope of being of real use to him in some suggestions as to the duty and benefit of struggling against affliction, which had naturally grown out of their conversation. for, though shy, he did not seem reserved; it had rather the appearance of feelings glad to burst their usual restraints; and having talked of poetry, the richness of the present age, and gone through a brief comparison of opinion as to the first-rate poets, trying to ascertain whether marmion or the lady of the lake were to be preferred, and how ranked the giaour and the bride of abydos; and moreover, how the giaour was to be pronounced, he showed himself so intimately acquainted with all the tenderest songs of the one poet, and all the impassioned descriptions of hopeless agony of the other; he repeated, with such tremulous feeling, the various lines which imaged a broken heart, or a mind destroyed by wretchedness, and looked so entirely as if he meant to be understood, that she ventured to hope he did not always read only poetry, and to say, that she thought it was the misfortune of poetry to be seldom safely enjoyed by those who enjoyed it completely; and that the strong feelings which alone could estimate it truly were the very feelings which ought to taste it but sparingly. his looks shewing him not pained, but pleased with this allusion to his situation, she was emboldened to go on; and feeling in herself the right of seniority of mind, she ventured to recommend a larger allowance of prose in his daily study; and on being requested to particularize, mentioned such works of our best moralists, such collections of the finest letters, such memoirs of characters of worth and suffering, as occurred to her at the moment as calculated to rouse and fortify the mind by the highest precepts, and the strongest examples of moral and religious endurances. captain benwick listened attentively, and seemed grateful for the interest implied; and though with a shake of the head, and sighs which declared his little faith in the efficacy of any books on grief like his, noted down the names of those she recommended, and promised to procure and read them. when the evening was over, anne could not but be amused at the idea of her coming to lyme to preach patience and resignation to a young man whom she had never seen before; nor could she help fearing, on more serious reflection, that, like many other great moralists and preachers, she had been eloquent on a point in which her own conduct would ill bear examination. chapter 12 anne and henrietta, finding themselves the earliest of the party the next morning, agreed to stroll down to the sea before breakfast. they went to the sands, to watch the flowing of the tide, which a fine south-easterly breeze was bringing in with all the grandeur which so flat a shore admitted. they praised the morning; gloried in the sea; sympathized in the delight of the fresh-feeling breeze--and were silent; till henrietta suddenly began again with-"oh! yes,--i am quite convinced that, with very few exceptions, the sea-air always does good. there can be no doubt of its having been of the greatest service to dr shirley, after his illness, last spring twelve-month. he declares himself, that coming to lyme for a month, did him more good than all the medicine he took; and, that being by the sea, always makes him feel young again. now, i cannot help thinking it a pity that he does not live entirely by the sea. i do think he had better leave uppercross entirely, and fix at lyme. do not you, anne? do not you agree with me, that it is the best thing he could do, both for himself and mrs shirley? she has cousins here, you know, and many acquaintance, which would make it cheerful for her, and i am sure she would be glad to get to a place where she could have medical attendance at hand, in case of his having another seizure. indeed i think it quite melancholy to have such excellent people as dr and mrs shirley, who have been doing good all their lives, wearing out their last days in a place like uppercross, where, excepting our family, they seem shut out from all the world. i wish his friends would propose it to him. i really think they ought. and, as to procuring a dispensation, there could be no difficulty at his time of life, and with his character. my only doubt is, whether anything could persuade him to leave his parish. he is so very strict and scrupulous in his notions; over-scrupulous i must say. do not you think, anne, it is being over-scrupulous? do not you think it is quite a mistaken point of conscience, when a clergyman sacrifices his health for the sake of duties, which may be just as well performed by another person? and at lyme too, only seventeen miles off, he would be near enough to hear, if people thought there was anything to complain of." anne smiled more than once to herself during this speech, and entered into the subject, as ready to do good by entering into the feelings of a young lady as of a young man, though here it was good of a lower standard, for what could be offered but general acquiescence? she said all that was reasonable and proper on the business; felt the claims of dr shirley to repose as she ought; saw how very desirable it was that he should have some active, respectable young man, as a resident curate, and was even courteous enough to hint at the advantage of such resident curate's being married. "i wish," said henrietta, very well pleased with her companion, "i wish lady russell lived at uppercross, and were intimate with dr shirley. i have always heard of lady russell as a woman of the greatest influence with everybody! i always look upon her as able to persuade a person to anything! i am afraid of her, as i have told you before, quite afraid of her, because she is so very clever; but i respect her amazingly, and wish we had such a neighbour at uppercross." anne was amused by henrietta's manner of being grateful, and amused also that the course of events and the new interests of henrietta's views should have placed her friend at all in favour with any of the musgrove family; she had only time, however, for a general answer, and a wish that such another woman were at uppercross, before all subjects suddenly ceased, on seeing louisa and captain wentworth coming towards them. they came also for a stroll till breakfast was likely to be ready; but louisa recollecting, immediately afterwards that she had something to procure at a shop, invited them all to go back with her into the town. they were all at her disposal. when they came to the steps, leading upwards from the beach, a gentleman, at the same moment preparing to come down, politely drew back, and stopped to give them way. they ascended and passed him; and as they passed, anne's face caught his eye, and he looked at her with a degree of earnest admiration, which she could not be insensible of. she was looking remarkably well; her very regular, very pretty features, having the bloom and freshness of youth restored by the fine wind which had been blowing on her complexion, and by the animation of eye which it had also produced. it was evident that the gentleman, (completely a gentleman in manner) admired her exceedingly. captain wentworth looked round at her instantly in a way which shewed his noticing of it. he gave her a momentary glance, a glance of brightness, which seemed to say, "that man is struck with you, and even i, at this moment, see something like anne elliot again." after attending louisa through her business, and loitering about a little longer, they returned to the inn; and anne, in passing afterwards quickly from her own chamber to their dining-room, had nearly run against the very same gentleman, as he came out of an adjoining apartment. she had before conjectured him to be a stranger like themselves, and determined that a well-looking groom, who was strolling about near the two inns as they came back, should be his servant. both master and man being in mourning assisted the idea. it was now proved that he belonged to the same inn as themselves; and this second meeting, short as it was, also proved again by the gentleman's looks, that he thought hers very lovely, and by the readiness and propriety of his apologies, that he was a man of exceedingly good manners. he seemed about thirty, and though not handsome, had an agreeable person. anne felt that she should like to know who he was. they had nearly done breakfast, when the sound of a carriage, (almost the first they had heard since entering lyme) drew half the party to the window. it was a gentleman's carriage, a curricle, but only coming round from the stable-yard to the front door; somebody must be going away. it was driven by a servant in mourning. the word curricle made charles musgrove jump up that he might compare it with his own; the servant in mourning roused anne's curiosity, and the whole six were collected to look, by the time the owner of the curricle was to be seen issuing from the door amidst the bows and civilities of the household, and taking his seat, to drive off. "ah!" cried captain wentworth, instantly, and with half a glance at anne, "it is the very man we passed." the miss musgroves agreed to it; and having all kindly watched him as far up the hill as they could, they returned to the breakfast table. the waiter came into the room soon afterwards. "pray," said captain wentworth, immediately, "can you tell us the name of the gentleman who is just gone away?" "yes, sir, a mr elliot, a gentleman of large fortune, came in last night from sidmouth. dare say you heard the carriage, sir, while you were at dinner; and going on now for crewkherne, in his way to bath and london." "elliot!" many had looked on each other, and many had repeated the name, before all this had been got through, even by the smart rapidity of a waiter. "bless me!" cried mary; "it must be our cousin; it must be our mr elliot, it must, indeed! charles, anne, must not it? in mourning, you see, just as our mr elliot must be. how very extraordinary! in the very same inn with us! anne, must not it be our mr elliot? my father's next heir? pray sir," turning to the waiter, "did not you hear, did not his servant say whether he belonged to the kellynch family?" "no, ma'am, he did not mention no particular family; but he said his master was a very rich gentleman, and would be a baronight some day." "there! you see!" cried mary in an ecstasy, "just as i said! heir to sir walter elliot! i was sure that would come out, if it was so. depend upon it, that is a circumstance which his servants take care to publish, wherever he goes. but, anne, only conceive how extraordinary! i wish i had looked at him more. i wish we had been aware in time, who it was, that he might have been introduced to us. what a pity that we should not have been introduced to each other! do you think he had the elliot countenance? i hardly looked at him, i was looking at the horses; but i think he had something of the elliot countenance, i wonder the arms did not strike me! oh! the great-coat was hanging over the panel, and hid the arms, so it did; otherwise, i am sure, i should have observed them, and the livery too; if the servant had not been in mourning, one should have known him by the livery." "putting all these very extraordinary circumstances together," said captain wentworth, "we must consider it to be the arrangement of providence, that you should not be introduced to your cousin." when she could command mary's attention, anne quietly tried to convince her that their father and mr elliot had not, for many years, been on such terms as to make the power of attempting an introduction at all desirable. at the same time, however, it was a secret gratification to herself to have seen her cousin, and to know that the future owner of kellynch was undoubtedly a gentleman, and had an air of good sense. she would not, upon any account, mention her having met with him the second time; luckily mary did not much attend to their having passed close by him in their earlier walk, but she would have felt quite ill-used by anne's having actually run against him in the passage, and received his very polite excuses, while she had never been near him at all; no, that cousinly little interview must remain a perfect secret. "of course," said mary, "you will mention our seeing mr elliot, the next time you write to bath. i think my father certainly ought to hear of it; do mention all about him." anne avoided a direct reply, but it was just the circumstance which she considered as not merely unnecessary to be communicated, but as what ought to be suppressed. the offence which had been given her father, many years back, she knew; elizabeth's particular share in it she suspected; and that mr elliot's idea always produced irritation in both was beyond a doubt. mary never wrote to bath herself; all the toil of keeping up a slow and unsatisfactory correspondence with elizabeth fell on anne. breakfast had not been long over, when they were joined by captain and mrs harville and captain benwick; with whom they had appointed to take their last walk about lyme. they ought to be setting off for uppercross by one, and in the meanwhile were to be all together, and out of doors as long as they could. anne found captain benwick getting near her, as soon as they were all fairly in the street. their conversation the preceding evening did not disincline him to seek her again; and they walked together some time, talking as before of mr scott and lord byron, and still as unable as before, and as unable as any other two readers, to think exactly alike of the merits of either, till something occasioned an almost general change amongst their party, and instead of captain benwick, she had captain harville by her side. "miss elliot," said he, speaking rather low, "you have done a good deed in making that poor fellow talk so much. i wish he could have such company oftener. it is bad for him, i know, to be shut up as he is; but what can we do? we cannot part." "no," said anne, "that i can easily believe to be impossible; but in time, perhaps--we know what time does in every case of affliction, and you must remember, captain harville, that your friend may yet be called a young mourner--only last summer, i understand." "ay, true enough," (with a deep sigh) "only june." "and not known to him, perhaps, so soon." "not till the first week of august, when he came home from the cape, just made into the grappler. i was at plymouth dreading to hear of him; he sent in letters, but the grappler was under orders for portsmouth. there the news must follow him, but who was to tell it? not i. i would as soon have been run up to the yard-arm. nobody could do it, but that good fellow" (pointing to captain wentworth.) "the laconia had come into plymouth the week before; no danger of her being sent to sea again. he stood his chance for the rest; wrote up for leave of absence, but without waiting the return, travelled night and day till he got to portsmouth, rowed off to the grappler that instant, and never left the poor fellow for a week. that's what he did, and nobody else could have saved poor james. you may think, miss elliot, whether he is dear to us!" anne did think on the question with perfect decision, and said as much in reply as her own feeling could accomplish, or as his seemed able to bear, for he was too much affected to renew the subject, and when he spoke again, it was of something totally different. mrs harville's giving it as her opinion that her husband would have quite walking enough by the time he reached home, determined the direction of all the party in what was to be their last walk; they would accompany them to their door, and then return and set off themselves. by all their calculations there was just time for this; but as they drew near the cobb, there was such a general wish to walk along it once more, all were so inclined, and louisa soon grew so determined, that the difference of a quarter of an hour, it was found, would be no difference at all; so with all the kind leave-taking, and all the kind interchange of invitations and promises which may be imagined, they parted from captain and mrs harville at their own door, and still accompanied by captain benwick, who seemed to cling to them to the last, proceeded to make the proper adieus to the cobb. anne found captain benwick again drawing near her. lord byron's "dark blue seas" could not fail of being brought forward by their present view, and she gladly gave him all her attention as long as attention was possible. it was soon drawn, perforce another way. there was too much wind to make the high part of the new cobb pleasant for the ladies, and they agreed to get down the steps to the lower, and all were contented to pass quietly and carefully down the steep flight, excepting louisa; she must be jumped down them by captain wentworth. in all their walks, he had had to jump her from the stiles; the sensation was delightful to her. the hardness of the pavement for her feet, made him less willing upon the present occasion; he did it, however. she was safely down, and instantly, to show her enjoyment, ran up the steps to be jumped down again. he advised her against it, thought the jar too great; but no, he reasoned and talked in vain, she smiled and said, "i am determined i will:" he put out his hands; she was too precipitate by half a second, she fell on the pavement on the lower cobb, and was taken up lifeless! there was no wound, no blood, no visible bruise; but her eyes were closed, she breathed not, her face was like death. the horror of the moment to all who stood around! captain wentworth, who had caught her up, knelt with her in his arms, looking on her with a face as pallid as her own, in an agony of silence. "she is dead! she is dead!" screamed mary, catching hold of her husband, and contributing with his own horror to make him immoveable; and in another moment, henrietta, sinking under the conviction, lost her senses too, and would have fallen on the steps, but for captain benwick and anne, who caught and supported her between them. "is there no one to help me?" were the first words which burst from captain wentworth, in a tone of despair, and as if all his own strength were gone. "go to him, go to him," cried anne, "for heaven's sake go to him. i can support her myself. leave me, and go to him. rub her hands, rub her temples; here are salts; take them, take them." captain benwick obeyed, and charles at the same moment, disengaging himself from his wife, they were both with him; and louisa was raised up and supported more firmly between them, and everything was done that anne had prompted, but in vain; while captain wentworth, staggering against the wall for his support, exclaimed in the bitterest agony-"oh god! her father and mother!" "a surgeon!" said anne. he caught the word; it seemed to rouse him at once, and saying only-"true, true, a surgeon this instant," was darting away, when anne eagerly suggested-"captain benwick, would not it be better for captain benwick? he knows where a surgeon is to be found." every one capable of thinking felt the advantage of the idea, and in a moment (it was all done in rapid moments) captain benwick had resigned the poor corpse-like figure entirely to the brother's care, and was off for the town with the utmost rapidity. as to the wretched party left behind, it could scarcely be said which of the three, who were completely rational, was suffering most: captain wentworth, anne, or charles, who, really a very affectionate brother, hung over louisa with sobs of grief, and could only turn his eyes from one sister, to see the other in a state as insensible, or to witness the hysterical agitations of his wife, calling on him for help which he could not give. anne, attending with all the strength and zeal, and thought, which instinct supplied, to henrietta, still tried, at intervals, to suggest comfort to the others, tried to quiet mary, to animate charles, to assuage the feelings of captain wentworth. both seemed to look to her for directions. "anne, anne," cried charles, "what is to be done next? what, in heaven's name, is to be done next?" captain wentworth's eyes were also turned towards her. "had not she better be carried to the inn? yes, i am sure: carry her gently to the inn." "yes, yes, to the inn," repeated captain wentworth, comparatively collected, and eager to be doing something. "i will carry her myself. musgrove, take care of the others." by this time the report of the accident had spread among the workmen and boatmen about the cobb, and many were collected near them, to be useful if wanted, at any rate, to enjoy the sight of a dead young lady, nay, two dead young ladies, for it proved twice as fine as the first report. to some of the best-looking of these good people henrietta was consigned, for, though partially revived, she was quite helpless; and in this manner, anne walking by her side, and charles attending to his wife, they set forward, treading back with feelings unutterable, the ground, which so lately, so very lately, and so light of heart, they had passed along. they were not off the cobb, before the harvilles met them. captain benwick had been seen flying by their house, with a countenance which showed something to be wrong; and they had set off immediately, informed and directed as they passed, towards the spot. shocked as captain harville was, he brought senses and nerves that could be instantly useful; and a look between him and his wife decided what was to be done. she must be taken to their house; all must go to their house; and await the surgeon's arrival there. they would not listen to scruples: he was obeyed; they were all beneath his roof; and while louisa, under mrs harville's direction, was conveyed up stairs, and given possession of her own bed, assistance, cordials, restoratives were supplied by her husband to all who needed them. louisa had once opened her eyes, but soon closed them again, without apparent consciousness. this had been a proof of life, however, of service to her sister; and henrietta, though perfectly incapable of being in the same room with louisa, was kept, by the agitation of hope and fear, from a return of her own insensibility. mary, too, was growing calmer. the surgeon was with them almost before it had seemed possible. they were sick with horror, while he examined; but he was not hopeless. the head had received a severe contusion, but he had seen greater injuries recovered from: he was by no means hopeless; he spoke cheerfully. that he did not regard it as a desperate case, that he did not say a few hours must end it, was at first felt, beyond the hope of most; and the ecstasy of such a reprieve, the rejoicing, deep and silent, after a few fervent ejaculations of gratitude to heaven had been offered, may be conceived. the tone, the look, with which "thank god!" was uttered by captain wentworth, anne was sure could never be forgotten by her; nor the sight of him afterwards, as he sat near a table, leaning over it with folded arms and face concealed, as if overpowered by the various feelings of his soul, and trying by prayer and reflection to calm them. louisa's limbs had escaped. there was no injury but to the head. it now became necessary for the party to consider what was best to be done, as to their general situation. they were now able to speak to each other and consult. that louisa must remain where she was, however distressing to her friends to be involving the harvilles in such trouble, did not admit a doubt. her removal was impossible. the harvilles silenced all scruples; and, as much as they could, all gratitude. they had looked forward and arranged everything before the others began to reflect. captain benwick must give up his room to them, and get another bed elsewhere; and the whole was settled. they were only concerned that the house could accommodate no more; and yet perhaps, by "putting the children away in the maid's room, or swinging a cot somewhere," they could hardly bear to think of not finding room for two or three besides, supposing they might wish to stay; though, with regard to any attendance on miss musgrove, there need not be the least uneasiness in leaving her to mrs harville's care entirely. mrs harville was a very experienced nurse, and her nursery-maid, who had lived with her long, and gone about with her everywhere, was just such another. between these two, she could want no possible attendance by day or night. and all this was said with a truth and sincerity of feeling irresistible. charles, henrietta, and captain wentworth were the three in consultation, and for a little while it was only an interchange of perplexity and terror. "uppercross, the necessity of some one's going to uppercross; the news to be conveyed; how it could be broken to mr and mrs musgrove; the lateness of the morning; an hour already gone since they ought to have been off; the impossibility of being in tolerable time." at first, they were capable of nothing more to the purpose than such exclamations; but, after a while, captain wentworth, exerting himself, said-"we must be decided, and without the loss of another minute. every minute is valuable. some one must resolve on being off for uppercross instantly. musgrove, either you or i must go." charles agreed, but declared his resolution of not going away. he would be as little incumbrance as possible to captain and mrs harville; but as to leaving his sister in such a state, he neither ought, nor would. so far it was decided; and henrietta at first declared the same. she, however, was soon persuaded to think differently. the usefulness of her staying! she who had not been able to remain in louisa's room, or to look at her, without sufferings which made her worse than helpless! she was forced to acknowledge that she could do no good, yet was still unwilling to be away, till, touched by the thought of her father and mother, she gave it up; she consented, she was anxious to be at home. the plan had reached this point, when anne, coming quietly down from louisa's room, could not but hear what followed, for the parlour door was open. "then it is settled, musgrove," cried captain wentworth, "that you stay, and that i take care of your sister home. but as to the rest, as to the others, if one stays to assist mrs harville, i think it need be only one. mrs charles musgrove will, of course, wish to get back to her children; but if anne will stay, no one so proper, so capable as anne." she paused a moment to recover from the emotion of hearing herself so spoken of. the other two warmly agreed with what he said, and she then appeared. "you will stay, i am sure; you will stay and nurse her;" cried he, turning to her and speaking with a glow, and yet a gentleness, which seemed almost restoring the past. she coloured deeply, and he recollected himself and moved away. she expressed herself most willing, ready, happy to remain. "it was what she had been thinking of, and wishing to be allowed to do. a bed on the floor in louisa's room would be sufficient for her, if mrs harville would but think so." one thing more, and all seemed arranged. though it was rather desirable that mr and mrs musgrove should be previously alarmed by some share of delay; yet the time required by the uppercross horses to take them back, would be a dreadful extension of suspense; and captain wentworth proposed, and charles musgrove agreed, that it would be much better for him to take a chaise from the inn, and leave mr musgrove's carriage and horses to be sent home the next morning early, when there would be the farther advantage of sending an account of louisa's night. captain wentworth now hurried off to get everything ready on his part, and to be soon followed by the two ladies. when the plan was made known to mary, however, there was an end of all peace in it. she was so wretched and so vehement, complained so much of injustice in being expected to go away instead of anne; anne, who was nothing to louisa, while she was her sister, and had the best right to stay in henrietta's stead! why was not she to be as useful as anne? and to go home without charles, too, without her husband! no, it was too unkind. and in short, she said more than her husband could long withstand, and as none of the others could oppose when he gave way, there was no help for it; the change of mary for anne was inevitable. anne had never submitted more reluctantly to the jealous and ill-judging claims of mary; but so it must be, and they set off for the town, charles taking care of his sister, and captain benwick attending to her. she gave a moment's recollection, as they hurried along, to the little circumstances which the same spots had witnessed earlier in the morning. there she had listened to henrietta's schemes for dr shirley's leaving uppercross; farther on, she had first seen mr elliot; a moment seemed all that could now be given to any one but louisa, or those who were wrapt up in her welfare. captain benwick was most considerately attentive to her; and, united as they all seemed by the distress of the day, she felt an increasing degree of good-will towards him, and a pleasure even in thinking that it might, perhaps, be the occasion of continuing their acquaintance. captain wentworth was on the watch for them, and a chaise and four in waiting, stationed for their convenience in the lowest part of the street; but his evident surprise and vexation at the substitution of one sister for the other, the change in his countenance, the astonishment, the expressions begun and suppressed, with which charles was listened to, made but a mortifying reception of anne; or must at least convince her that she was valued only as she could be useful to louisa. she endeavoured to be composed, and to be just. without emulating the feelings of an emma towards her henry, she would have attended on louisa with a zeal above the common claims of regard, for his sake; and she hoped he would not long be so unjust as to suppose she would shrink unnecessarily from the office of a friend. in the meanwhile she was in the carriage. he had handed them both in, and placed himself between them; and in this manner, under these circumstances, full of astonishment and emotion to anne, she quitted lyme. how the long stage would pass; how it was to affect their manners; what was to be their sort of intercourse, she could not foresee. it was all quite natural, however. he was devoted to henrietta; always turning towards her; and when he spoke at all, always with the view of supporting her hopes and raising her spirits. in general, his voice and manner were studiously calm. to spare henrietta from agitation seemed the governing principle. once only, when she had been grieving over the last ill-judged, ill-fated walk to the cobb, bitterly lamenting that it ever had been thought of, he burst forth, as if wholly overcome-"don't talk of it, don't talk of it," he cried. "oh god! that i had not given way to her at the fatal moment! had i done as i ought! but so eager and so resolute! dear, sweet louisa!" anne wondered whether it ever occurred to him now, to question the justness of his own previous opinion as to the universal felicity and advantage of firmness of character; and whether it might not strike him that, like all other qualities of the mind, it should have its proportions and limits. she thought it could scarcely escape him to feel that a persuadable temper might sometimes be as much in favour of happiness as a very resolute character. they got on fast. anne was astonished to recognise the same hills and the same objects so soon. their actual speed, heightened by some dread of the conclusion, made the road appear but half as long as on the day before. it was growing quite dusk, however, before they were in the neighbourhood of uppercross, and there had been total silence among them for some time, henrietta leaning back in the corner, with a shawl over her face, giving the hope of her having cried herself to sleep; when, as they were going up their last hill, anne found herself all at once addressed by captain wentworth. in a low, cautious voice, he said:-"i have been considering what we had best do. she must not appear at first. she could not stand it. i have been thinking whether you had not better remain in the carriage with her, while i go in and break it to mr and mrs musgrove. do you think this is a good plan?" she did: he was satisfied, and said no more. but the remembrance of the appeal remained a pleasure to her, as a proof of friendship, and of deference for her judgement, a great pleasure; and when it became a sort of parting proof, its value did not lessen. when the distressing communication at uppercross was over, and he had seen the father and mother quite as composed as could be hoped, and the daughter all the better for being with them, he announced his intention of returning in the same carriage to lyme; and when the horses were baited, he was off. (end of volume one.) chapter 13 the remainder of anne's time at uppercross, comprehending only two days, was spent entirely at the mansion house; and she had the satisfaction of knowing herself extremely useful there, both as an immediate companion, and as assisting in all those arrangements for the future, which, in mr and mrs musgrove's distressed state of spirits, would have been difficulties. they had an early account from lyme the next morning. louisa was much the same. no symptoms worse than before had appeared. charles came a few hours afterwards, to bring a later and more particular account. he was tolerably cheerful. a speedy cure must not be hoped, but everything was going on as well as the nature of the case admitted. in speaking of the harvilles, he seemed unable to satisfy his own sense of their kindness, especially of mrs harville's exertions as a nurse. "she really left nothing for mary to do. he and mary had been persuaded to go early to their inn last night. mary had been hysterical again this morning. when he came away, she was going to walk out with captain benwick, which, he hoped, would do her good. he almost wished she had been prevailed on to come home the day before; but the truth was, that mrs harville left nothing for anybody to do." charles was to return to lyme the same afternoon, and his father had at first half a mind to go with him, but the ladies could not consent. it would be going only to multiply trouble to the others, and increase his own distress; and a much better scheme followed and was acted upon. a chaise was sent for from crewkherne, and charles conveyed back a far more useful person in the old nursery-maid of the family, one who having brought up all the children, and seen the very last, the lingering and long-petted master harry, sent to school after his brothers, was now living in her deserted nursery to mend stockings and dress all the blains and bruises she could get near her, and who, consequently, was only too happy in being allowed to go and help nurse dear miss louisa. vague wishes of getting sarah thither, had occurred before to mrs musgrove and henrietta; but without anne, it would hardly have been resolved on, and found practicable so soon. they were indebted, the next day, to charles hayter, for all the minute knowledge of louisa, which it was so essential to obtain every twenty-four hours. he made it his business to go to lyme, and his account was still encouraging. the intervals of sense and consciousness were believed to be stronger. every report agreed in captain wentworth's appearing fixed in lyme. anne was to leave them on the morrow, an event which they all dreaded. "what should they do without her? they were wretched comforters for one another." and so much was said in this way, that anne thought she could not do better than impart among them the general inclination to which she was privy, and persuaded them all to go to lyme at once. she had little difficulty; it was soon determined that they would go; go to-morrow, fix themselves at the inn, or get into lodgings, as it suited, and there remain till dear louisa could be moved. they must be taking off some trouble from the good people she was with; they might at least relieve mrs harville from the care of her own children; and in short, they were so happy in the decision, that anne was delighted with what she had done, and felt that she could not spend her last morning at uppercross better than in assisting their preparations, and sending them off at an early hour, though her being left to the solitary range of the house was the consequence. she was the last, excepting the little boys at the cottage, she was the very last, the only remaining one of all that had filled and animated both houses, of all that had given uppercross its cheerful character. a few days had made a change indeed! if louisa recovered, it would all be well again. more than former happiness would be restored. there could not be a doubt, to her mind there was none, of what would follow her recovery. a few months hence, and the room now so deserted, occupied but by her silent, pensive self, might be filled again with all that was happy and gay, all that was glowing and bright in prosperous love, all that was most unlike anne elliot! an hour's complete leisure for such reflections as these, on a dark november day, a small thick rain almost blotting out the very few objects ever to be discerned from the windows, was enough to make the sound of lady russell's carriage exceedingly welcome; and yet, though desirous to be gone, she could not quit the mansion house, or look an adieu to the cottage, with its black, dripping and comfortless veranda, or even notice through the misty glasses the last humble tenements of the village, without a saddened heart. scenes had passed in uppercross which made it precious. it stood the record of many sensations of pain, once severe, but now softened; and of some instances of relenting feeling, some breathings of friendship and reconciliation, which could never be looked for again, and which could never cease to be dear. she left it all behind her, all but the recollection that such things had been. anne had never entered kellynch since her quitting lady russell's house in september. it had not been necessary, and the few occasions of its being possible for her to go to the hall she had contrived to evade and escape from. her first return was to resume her place in the modern and elegant apartments of the lodge, and to gladden the eyes of its mistress. there was some anxiety mixed with lady russell's joy in meeting her. she knew who had been frequenting uppercross. but happily, either anne was improved in plumpness and looks, or lady russell fancied her so; and anne, in receiving her compliments on the occasion, had the amusement of connecting them with the silent admiration of her cousin, and of hoping that she was to be blessed with a second spring of youth and beauty. when they came to converse, she was soon sensible of some mental change. the subjects of which her heart had been full on leaving kellynch, and which she had felt slighted, and been compelled to smother among the musgroves, were now become but of secondary interest. she had lately lost sight even of her father and sister and bath. their concerns had been sunk under those of uppercross; and when lady russell reverted to their former hopes and fears, and spoke her satisfaction in the house in camden place, which had been taken, and her regret that mrs clay should still be with them, anne would have been ashamed to have it known how much more she was thinking of lyme and louisa musgrove, and all her acquaintance there; how much more interesting to her was the home and the friendship of the harvilles and captain benwick, than her own father's house in camden place, or her own sister's intimacy with mrs clay. she was actually forced to exert herself to meet lady russell with anything like the appearance of equal solicitude, on topics which had by nature the first claim on her. there was a little awkwardness at first in their discourse on another subject. they must speak of the accident at lyme. lady russell had not been arrived five minutes the day before, when a full account of the whole had burst on her; but still it must be talked of, she must make enquiries, she must regret the imprudence, lament the result, and captain wentworth's name must be mentioned by both. anne was conscious of not doing it so well as lady russell. she could not speak the name, and look straight forward to lady russell's eye, till she had adopted the expedient of telling her briefly what she thought of the attachment between him and louisa. when this was told, his name distressed her no longer. lady russell had only to listen composedly, and wish them happy, but internally her heart revelled in angry pleasure, in pleased contempt, that the man who at twenty-three had seemed to understand somewhat of the value of an anne elliot, should, eight years afterwards, be charmed by a louisa musgrove. the first three or four days passed most quietly, with no circumstance to mark them excepting the receipt of a note or two from lyme, which found their way to anne, she could not tell how, and brought a rather improving account of louisa. at the end of that period, lady russell's politeness could repose no longer, and the fainter self-threatenings of the past became in a decided tone, "i must call on mrs croft; i really must call upon her soon. anne, have you courage to go with me, and pay a visit in that house? it will be some trial to us both." anne did not shrink from it; on the contrary, she truly felt as she said, in observing-"i think you are very likely to suffer the most of the two; your feelings are less reconciled to the change than mine. by remaining in the neighbourhood, i am become inured to it." she could have said more on the subject; for she had in fact so high an opinion of the crofts, and considered her father so very fortunate in his tenants, felt the parish to be so sure of a good example, and the poor of the best attention and relief, that however sorry and ashamed for the necessity of the removal, she could not but in conscience feel that they were gone who deserved not to stay, and that kellynch hall had passed into better hands than its owners'. these convictions must unquestionably have their own pain, and severe was its kind; but they precluded that pain which lady russell would suffer in entering the house again, and returning through the well-known apartments. in such moments anne had no power of saying to herself, "these rooms ought to belong only to us. oh, how fallen in their destination! how unworthily occupied! an ancient family to be so driven away! strangers filling their place!" no, except when she thought of her mother, and remembered where she had been used to sit and preside, she had no sigh of that description to heave. mrs croft always met her with a kindness which gave her the pleasure of fancying herself a favourite, and on the present occasion, receiving her in that house, there was particular attention. the sad accident at lyme was soon the prevailing topic, and on comparing their latest accounts of the invalid, it appeared that each lady dated her intelligence from the same hour of yestermorn; that captain wentworth had been in kellynch yesterday (the first time since the accident), had brought anne the last note, which she had not been able to trace the exact steps of; had staid a few hours and then returned again to lyme, and without any present intention of quitting it any more. he had enquired after her, she found, particularly; had expressed his hope of miss elliot's not being the worse for her exertions, and had spoken of those exertions as great. this was handsome, and gave her more pleasure than almost anything else could have done. as to the sad catastrophe itself, it could be canvassed only in one style by a couple of steady, sensible women, whose judgements had to work on ascertained events; and it was perfectly decided that it had been the consequence of much thoughtlessness and much imprudence; that its effects were most alarming, and that it was frightful to think, how long miss musgrove's recovery might yet be doubtful, and how liable she would still remain to suffer from the concussion hereafter! the admiral wound it up summarily by exclaiming-"ay, a very bad business indeed. a new sort of way this, for a young fellow to be making love, by breaking his mistress's head, is not it, miss elliot? this is breaking a head and giving a plaster, truly!" admiral croft's manners were not quite of the tone to suit lady russell, but they delighted anne. his goodness of heart and simplicity of character were irresistible. "now, this must be very bad for you," said he, suddenly rousing from a little reverie, "to be coming and finding us here. i had not recollected it before, i declare, but it must be very bad. but now, do not stand upon ceremony. get up and go over all the rooms in the house if you like it." "another time, sir, i thank you, not now." "well, whenever it suits you. you can slip in from the shrubbery at any time; and there you will find we keep our umbrellas hanging up by that door. a good place is not it? but," (checking himself), "you will not think it a good place, for yours were always kept in the butler's room. ay, so it always is, i believe. one man's ways may be as good as another's, but we all like our own best. and so you must judge for yourself, whether it would be better for you to go about the house or not." anne, finding she might decline it, did so, very gratefully. "we have made very few changes either," continued the admiral, after thinking a moment. "very few. we told you about the laundry-door, at uppercross. that has been a very great improvement. the wonder was, how any family upon earth could bear with the inconvenience of its opening as it did, so long! you will tell sir walter what we have done, and that mr shepherd thinks it the greatest improvement the house ever had. indeed, i must do ourselves the justice to say, that the few alterations we have made have been all very much for the better. my wife should have the credit of them, however. i have done very little besides sending away some of the large looking-glasses from my dressing-room, which was your father's. a very good man, and very much the gentleman i am sure: but i should think, miss elliot," (looking with serious reflection), "i should think he must be rather a dressy man for his time of life. such a number of looking-glasses! oh lord! there was no getting away from one's self. so i got sophy to lend me a hand, and we soon shifted their quarters; and now i am quite snug, with my little shaving glass in one corner, and another great thing that i never go near." anne, amused in spite of herself, was rather distressed for an answer, and the admiral, fearing he might not have been civil enough, took up the subject again, to say-"the next time you write to your good father, miss elliot, pray give him my compliments and mrs croft's, and say that we are settled here quite to our liking, and have no fault at all to find with the place. the breakfast-room chimney smokes a little, i grant you, but it is only when the wind is due north and blows hard, which may not happen three times a winter. and take it altogether, now that we have been into most of the houses hereabouts and can judge, there is not one that we like better than this. pray say so, with my compliments. he will be glad to hear it." lady russell and mrs croft were very well pleased with each other: but the acquaintance which this visit began was fated not to proceed far at present; for when it was returned, the crofts announced themselves to be going away for a few weeks, to visit their connexions in the north of the county, and probably might not be at home again before lady russell would be removing to bath. so ended all danger to anne of meeting captain wentworth at kellynch hall, or of seeing him in company with her friend. everything was safe enough, and she smiled over the many anxious feelings she had wasted on the subject. chapter 14 though charles and mary had remained at lyme much longer after mr and mrs musgrove's going than anne conceived they could have been at all wanted, they were yet the first of the family to be at home again; and as soon as possible after their return to uppercross they drove over to the lodge. they had left louisa beginning to sit up; but her head, though clear, was exceedingly weak, and her nerves susceptible to the highest extreme of tenderness; and though she might be pronounced to be altogether doing very well, it was still impossible to say when she might be able to bear the removal home; and her father and mother, who must return in time to receive their younger children for the christmas holidays, had hardly a hope of being allowed to bring her with them. they had been all in lodgings together. mrs musgrove had got mrs harville's children away as much as she could, every possible supply from uppercross had been furnished, to lighten the inconvenience to the harvilles, while the harvilles had been wanting them to come to dinner every day; and in short, it seemed to have been only a struggle on each side as to which should be most disinterested and hospitable. mary had had her evils; but upon the whole, as was evident by her staying so long, she had found more to enjoy than to suffer. charles hayter had been at lyme oftener than suited her; and when they dined with the harvilles there had been only a maid-servant to wait, and at first mrs harville had always given mrs musgrove precedence; but then, she had received so very handsome an apology from her on finding out whose daughter she was, and there had been so much going on every day, there had been so many walks between their lodgings and the harvilles, and she had got books from the library, and changed them so often, that the balance had certainly been much in favour of lyme. she had been taken to charmouth too, and she had bathed, and she had gone to church, and there were a great many more people to look at in the church at lyme than at uppercross; and all this, joined to the sense of being so very useful, had made really an agreeable fortnight. anne enquired after captain benwick. mary's face was clouded directly. charles laughed. "oh! captain benwick is very well, i believe, but he is a very odd young man. i do not know what he would be at. we asked him to come home with us for a day or two: charles undertook to give him some shooting, and he seemed quite delighted, and, for my part, i thought it was all settled; when behold! on tuesday night, he made a very awkward sort of excuse; 'he never shot' and he had 'been quite misunderstood,' and he had promised this and he had promised that, and the end of it was, i found, that he did not mean to come. i suppose he was afraid of finding it dull; but upon my word i should have thought we were lively enough at the cottage for such a heart-broken man as captain benwick." charles laughed again and said, "now mary, you know very well how it really was. it was all your doing," (turning to anne.) "he fancied that if he went with us, he should find you close by: he fancied everybody to be living in uppercross; and when he discovered that lady russell lived three miles off, his heart failed him, and he had not courage to come. that is the fact, upon my honour. mary knows it is." but mary did not give into it very graciously, whether from not considering captain benwick entitled by birth and situation to be in love with an elliot, or from not wanting to believe anne a greater attraction to uppercross than herself, must be left to be guessed. anne's good-will, however, was not to be lessened by what she heard. she boldly acknowledged herself flattered, and continued her enquiries. "oh! he talks of you," cried charles, "in such terms--" mary interrupted him. "i declare, charles, i never heard him mention anne twice all the time i was there. i declare, anne, he never talks of you at all." "no," admitted charles, "i do not know that he ever does, in a general way; but however, it is a very clear thing that he admires you exceedingly. his head is full of some books that he is reading upon your recommendation, and he wants to talk to you about them; he has found out something or other in one of them which he thinks--oh! i cannot pretend to remember it, but it was something very fine--i overheard him telling henrietta all about it; and then 'miss elliot' was spoken of in the highest terms! now mary, i declare it was so, i heard it myself, and you were in the other room. 'elegance, sweetness, beauty.' oh! there was no end of miss elliot's charms." "and i am sure," cried mary, warmly, "it was a very little to his credit, if he did. miss harville only died last june. such a heart is very little worth having; is it, lady russell? i am sure you will agree with me." "i must see captain benwick before i decide," said lady russell, smiling. "and that you are very likely to do very soon, i can tell you, ma'am," said charles. "though he had not nerves for coming away with us, and setting off again afterwards to pay a formal visit here, he will make his way over to kellynch one day by himself, you may depend on it. i told him the distance and the road, and i told him of the church's being so very well worth seeing; for as he has a taste for those sort of things, i thought that would be a good excuse, and he listened with all his understanding and soul; and i am sure from his manner that you will have him calling here soon. so, i give you notice, lady russell." "any acquaintance of anne's will always be welcome to me," was lady russell's kind answer. "oh! as to being anne's acquaintance," said mary, "i think he is rather my acquaintance, for i have been seeing him every day this last fortnight." "well, as your joint acquaintance, then, i shall be very happy to see captain benwick." "you will not find anything very agreeable in him, i assure you, ma'am. he is one of the dullest young men that ever lived. he has walked with me, sometimes, from one end of the sands to the other, without saying a word. he is not at all a well-bred young man. i am sure you will not like him." "there we differ, mary," said anne. "i think lady russell would like him. i think she would be so much pleased with his mind, that she would very soon see no deficiency in his manner." "so do i, anne," said charles. "i am sure lady russell would like him. he is just lady russell's sort. give him a book, and he will read all day long." "yes, that he will!" exclaimed mary, tauntingly. "he will sit poring over his book, and not know when a person speaks to him, or when one drops one's scissors, or anything that happens. do you think lady russell would like that?" lady russell could not help laughing. "upon my word," said she, "i should not have supposed that my opinion of any one could have admitted of such difference of conjecture, steady and matter of fact as i may call myself. i have really a curiosity to see the person who can give occasion to such directly opposite notions. i wish he may be induced to call here. and when he does, mary, you may depend upon hearing my opinion; but i am determined not to judge him beforehand." "you will not like him, i will answer for it." lady russell began talking of something else. mary spoke with animation of their meeting with, or rather missing, mr elliot so extraordinarily. "he is a man," said lady russell, "whom i have no wish to see. his declining to be on cordial terms with the head of his family, has left a very strong impression in his disfavour with me." this decision checked mary's eagerness, and stopped her short in the midst of the elliot countenance. with regard to captain wentworth, though anne hazarded no enquiries, there was voluntary communication sufficient. his spirits had been greatly recovering lately as might be expected. as louisa improved, he had improved, and he was now quite a different creature from what he had been the first week. he had not seen louisa; and was so extremely fearful of any ill consequence to her from an interview, that he did not press for it at all; and, on the contrary, seemed to have a plan of going away for a week or ten days, till her head was stronger. he had talked of going down to plymouth for a week, and wanted to persuade captain benwick to go with him; but, as charles maintained to the last, captain benwick seemed much more disposed to ride over to kellynch. there can be no doubt that lady russell and anne were both occasionally thinking of captain benwick, from this time. lady russell could not hear the door-bell without feeling that it might be his herald; nor could anne return from any stroll of solitary indulgence in her father's grounds, or any visit of charity in the village, without wondering whether she might see him or hear of him. captain benwick came not, however. he was either less disposed for it than charles had imagined, or he was too shy; and after giving him a week's indulgence, lady russell determined him to be unworthy of the interest which he had been beginning to excite. the musgroves came back to receive their happy boys and girls from school, bringing with them mrs harville's little children, to improve the noise of uppercross, and lessen that of lyme. henrietta remained with louisa; but all the rest of the family were again in their usual quarters. lady russell and anne paid their compliments to them once, when anne could not but feel that uppercross was already quite alive again. though neither henrietta, nor louisa, nor charles hayter, nor captain wentworth were there, the room presented as strong a contrast as could be wished to the last state she had seen it in. immediately surrounding mrs musgrove were the little harvilles, whom she was sedulously guarding from the tyranny of the two children from the cottage, expressly arrived to amuse them. on one side was a table occupied by some chattering girls, cutting up silk and gold paper; and on the other were tressels and trays, bending under the weight of brawn and cold pies, where riotous boys were holding high revel; the whole completed by a roaring christmas fire, which seemed determined to be heard, in spite of all the noise of the others. charles and mary also came in, of course, during their visit, and mr musgrove made a point of paying his respects to lady russell, and sat down close to her for ten minutes, talking with a very raised voice, but from the clamour of the children on his knees, generally in vain. it was a fine family-piece. anne, judging from her own temperament, would have deemed such a domestic hurricane a bad restorative of the nerves, which louisa's illness must have so greatly shaken. but mrs musgrove, who got anne near her on purpose to thank her most cordially, again and again, for all her attentions to them, concluded a short recapitulation of what she had suffered herself by observing, with a happy glance round the room, that after all she had gone through, nothing was so likely to do her good as a little quiet cheerfulness at home. louisa was now recovering apace. her mother could even think of her being able to join their party at home, before her brothers and sisters went to school again. the harvilles had promised to come with her and stay at uppercross, whenever she returned. captain wentworth was gone, for the present, to see his brother in shropshire. "i hope i shall remember, in future," said lady russell, as soon as they were reseated in the carriage, "not to call at uppercross in the christmas holidays." everybody has their taste in noises as well as in other matters; and sounds are quite innoxious, or most distressing, by their sort rather than their quantity. when lady russell not long afterwards, was entering bath on a wet afternoon, and driving through the long course of streets from the old bridge to camden place, amidst the dash of other carriages, the heavy rumble of carts and drays, the bawling of newspapermen, muffin-men and milkmen, and the ceaseless clink of pattens, she made no complaint. no, these were noises which belonged to the winter pleasures; her spirits rose under their influence; and like mrs musgrove, she was feeling, though not saying, that after being long in the country, nothing could be so good for her as a little quiet cheerfulness. anne did not share these feelings. she persisted in a very determined, though very silent disinclination for bath; caught the first dim view of the extensive buildings, smoking in rain, without any wish of seeing them better; felt their progress through the streets to be, however disagreeable, yet too rapid; for who would be glad to see her when she arrived? and looked back, with fond regret, to the bustles of uppercross and the seclusion of kellynch. elizabeth's last letter had communicated a piece of news of some interest. mr elliot was in bath. he had called in camden place; had called a second time, a third; had been pointedly attentive. if elizabeth and her father did not deceive themselves, had been taking much pains to seek the acquaintance, and proclaim the value of the connection, as he had formerly taken pains to shew neglect. this was very wonderful if it were true; and lady russell was in a state of very agreeable curiosity and perplexity about mr elliot, already recanting the sentiment she had so lately expressed to mary, of his being "a man whom she had no wish to see." she had a great wish to see him. if he really sought to reconcile himself like a dutiful branch, he must be forgiven for having dismembered himself from the paternal tree. anne was not animated to an equal pitch by the circumstance, but she felt that she would rather see mr elliot again than not, which was more than she could say for many other persons in bath. she was put down in camden place; and lady russell then drove to her own lodgings, in rivers street. chapter 15 sir walter had taken a very good house in camden place, a lofty dignified situation, such as becomes a man of consequence; and both he and elizabeth were settled there, much to their satisfaction. anne entered it with a sinking heart, anticipating an imprisonment of many months, and anxiously saying to herself, "oh! when shall i leave you again?" a degree of unexpected cordiality, however, in the welcome she received, did her good. her father and sister were glad to see her, for the sake of shewing her the house and furniture, and met her with kindness. her making a fourth, when they sat down to dinner, was noticed as an advantage. mrs clay was very pleasant, and very smiling, but her courtesies and smiles were more a matter of course. anne had always felt that she would pretend what was proper on her arrival, but the complaisance of the others was unlooked for. they were evidently in excellent spirits, and she was soon to listen to the causes. they had no inclination to listen to her. after laying out for some compliments of being deeply regretted in their old neighbourhood, which anne could not pay, they had only a few faint enquiries to make, before the talk must be all their own. uppercross excited no interest, kellynch very little: it was all bath. they had the pleasure of assuring her that bath more than answered their expectations in every respect. their house was undoubtedly the best in camden place; their drawing-rooms had many decided advantages over all the others which they had either seen or heard of, and the superiority was not less in the style of the fitting-up, or the taste of the furniture. their acquaintance was exceedingly sought after. everybody was wanting to visit them. they had drawn back from many introductions, and still were perpetually having cards left by people of whom they knew nothing. here were funds of enjoyment. could anne wonder that her father and sister were happy? she might not wonder, but she must sigh that her father should feel no degradation in his change, should see nothing to regret in the duties and dignity of the resident landholder, should find so much to be vain of in the littlenesses of a town; and she must sigh, and smile, and wonder too, as elizabeth threw open the folding-doors and walked with exultation from one drawing-room to the other, boasting of their space; at the possibility of that woman, who had been mistress of kellynch hall, finding extent to be proud of between two walls, perhaps thirty feet asunder. but this was not all which they had to make them happy. they had mr elliot too. anne had a great deal to hear of mr elliot. he was not only pardoned, they were delighted with him. he had been in bath about a fortnight; (he had passed through bath in november, in his way to london, when the intelligence of sir walter's being settled there had of course reached him, though only twenty-four hours in the place, but he had not been able to avail himself of it;) but he had now been a fortnight in bath, and his first object on arriving, had been to leave his card in camden place, following it up by such assiduous endeavours to meet, and when they did meet, by such great openness of conduct, such readiness to apologize for the past, such solicitude to be received as a relation again, that their former good understanding was completely re-established. they had not a fault to find in him. he had explained away all the appearance of neglect on his own side. it had originated in misapprehension entirely. he had never had an idea of throwing himself off; he had feared that he was thrown off, but knew not why, and delicacy had kept him silent. upon the hint of having spoken disrespectfully or carelessly of the family and the family honours, he was quite indignant. he, who had ever boasted of being an elliot, and whose feelings, as to connection, were only too strict to suit the unfeudal tone of the present day. he was astonished, indeed, but his character and general conduct must refute it. he could refer sir walter to all who knew him; and certainly, the pains he had been taking on this, the first opportunity of reconciliation, to be restored to the footing of a relation and heir-presumptive, was a strong proof of his opinions on the subject. the circumstances of his marriage, too, were found to admit of much extenuation. this was an article not to be entered on by himself; but a very intimate friend of his, a colonel wallis, a highly respectable man, perfectly the gentleman, (and not an ill-looking man, sir walter added), who was living in very good style in marlborough buildings, and had, at his own particular request, been admitted to their acquaintance through mr elliot, had mentioned one or two things relative to the marriage, which made a material difference in the discredit of it. colonel wallis had known mr elliot long, had been well acquainted also with his wife, had perfectly understood the whole story. she was certainly not a woman of family, but well educated, accomplished, rich, and excessively in love with his friend. there had been the charm. she had sought him. without that attraction, not all her money would have tempted elliot, and sir walter was, moreover, assured of her having been a very fine woman. here was a great deal to soften the business. a very fine woman with a large fortune, in love with him! sir walter seemed to admit it as complete apology; and though elizabeth could not see the circumstance in quite so favourable a light, she allowed it be a great extenuation. mr elliot had called repeatedly, had dined with them once, evidently delighted by the distinction of being asked, for they gave no dinners in general; delighted, in short, by every proof of cousinly notice, and placing his whole happiness in being on intimate terms in camden place. anne listened, but without quite understanding it. allowances, large allowances, she knew, must be made for the ideas of those who spoke. she heard it all under embellishment. all that sounded extravagant or irrational in the progress of the reconciliation might have no origin but in the language of the relators. still, however, she had the sensation of there being something more than immediately appeared, in mr elliot's wishing, after an interval of so many years, to be well received by them. in a worldly view, he had nothing to gain by being on terms with sir walter; nothing to risk by a state of variance. in all probability he was already the richer of the two, and the kellynch estate would as surely be his hereafter as the title. a sensible man, and he had looked like a very sensible man, why should it be an object to him? she could only offer one solution; it was, perhaps, for elizabeth's sake. there might really have been a liking formerly, though convenience and accident had drawn him a different way; and now that he could afford to please himself, he might mean to pay his addresses to her. elizabeth was certainly very handsome, with well-bred, elegant manners, and her character might never have been penetrated by mr elliot, knowing her but in public, and when very young himself. how her temper and understanding might bear the investigation of his present keener time of life was another concern and rather a fearful one. most earnestly did she wish that he might not be too nice, or too observant if elizabeth were his object; and that elizabeth was disposed to believe herself so, and that her friend mrs clay was encouraging the idea, seemed apparent by a glance or two between them, while mr elliot's frequent visits were talked of. anne mentioned the glimpses she had had of him at lyme, but without being much attended to. "oh! yes, perhaps, it had been mr elliot. they did not know. it might be him, perhaps." they could not listen to her description of him. they were describing him themselves; sir walter especially. he did justice to his very gentlemanlike appearance, his air of elegance and fashion, his good shaped face, his sensible eye; but, at the same time, "must lament his being very much under-hung, a defect which time seemed to have increased; nor could he pretend to say that ten years had not altered almost every feature for the worse. mr elliot appeared to think that he (sir walter) was looking exactly as he had done when they last parted;" but sir walter had "not been able to return the compliment entirely, which had embarrassed him. he did not mean to complain, however. mr elliot was better to look at than most men, and he had no objection to being seen with him anywhere." mr elliot, and his friends in marlborough buildings, were talked of the whole evening. "colonel wallis had been so impatient to be introduced to them! and mr elliot so anxious that he should!" and there was a mrs wallis, at present known only to them by description, as she was in daily expectation of her confinement; but mr elliot spoke of her as "a most charming woman, quite worthy of being known in camden place," and as soon as she recovered they were to be acquainted. sir walter thought much of mrs wallis; she was said to be an excessively pretty woman, beautiful. "he longed to see her. he hoped she might make some amends for the many very plain faces he was continually passing in the streets. the worst of bath was the number of its plain women. he did not mean to say that there were no pretty women, but the number of the plain was out of all proportion. he had frequently observed, as he walked, that one handsome face would be followed by thirty, or five-and-thirty frights; and once, as he had stood in a shop on bond street, he had counted eighty-seven women go by, one after another, without there being a tolerable face among them. it had been a frosty morning, to be sure, a sharp frost, which hardly one woman in a thousand could stand the test of. but still, there certainly were a dreadful multitude of ugly women in bath; and as for the men! they were infinitely worse. such scarecrows as the streets were full of! it was evident how little the women were used to the sight of anything tolerable, by the effect which a man of decent appearance produced. he had never walked anywhere arm-in-arm with colonel wallis (who was a fine military figure, though sandy-haired) without observing that every woman's eye was upon him; every woman's eye was sure to be upon colonel wallis." modest sir walter! he was not allowed to escape, however. his daughter and mrs clay united in hinting that colonel wallis's companion might have as good a figure as colonel wallis, and certainly was not sandy-haired. "how is mary looking?" said sir walter, in the height of his good humour. "the last time i saw her she had a red nose, but i hope that may not happen every day." "oh! no, that must have been quite accidental. in general she has been in very good health and very good looks since michaelmas." "if i thought it would not tempt her to go out in sharp winds, and grow coarse, i would send her a new hat and pelisse." anne was considering whether she should venture to suggest that a gown, or a cap, would not be liable to any such misuse, when a knock at the door suspended everything. "a knock at the door! and so late! it was ten o'clock. could it be mr elliot? they knew he was to dine in lansdown crescent. it was possible that he might stop in his way home to ask them how they did. they could think of no one else. mrs clay decidedly thought it mr elliot's knock." mrs clay was right. with all the state which a butler and foot-boy could give, mr elliot was ushered into the room. it was the same, the very same man, with no difference but of dress. anne drew a little back, while the others received his compliments, and her sister his apologies for calling at so unusual an hour, but "he could not be so near without wishing to know that neither she nor her friend had taken cold the day before," &c. &c; which was all as politely done, and as politely taken, as possible, but her part must follow then. sir walter talked of his youngest daughter; "mr elliot must give him leave to present him to his youngest daughter" (there was no occasion for remembering mary); and anne, smiling and blushing, very becomingly shewed to mr elliot the pretty features which he had by no means forgotten, and instantly saw, with amusement at his little start of surprise, that he had not been at all aware of who she was. he looked completely astonished, but not more astonished than pleased; his eyes brightened! and with the most perfect alacrity he welcomed the relationship, alluded to the past, and entreated to be received as an acquaintance already. he was quite as good-looking as he had appeared at lyme, his countenance improved by speaking, and his manners were so exactly what they ought to be, so polished, so easy, so particularly agreeable, that she could compare them in excellence to only one person's manners. they were not the same, but they were, perhaps, equally good. he sat down with them, and improved their conversation very much. there could be no doubt of his being a sensible man. ten minutes were enough to certify that. his tone, his expressions, his choice of subject, his knowing where to stop; it was all the operation of a sensible, discerning mind. as soon as he could, he began to talk to her of lyme, wanting to compare opinions respecting the place, but especially wanting to speak of the circumstance of their happening to be guests in the same inn at the same time; to give his own route, understand something of hers, and regret that he should have lost such an opportunity of paying his respects to her. she gave him a short account of her party and business at lyme. his regret increased as he listened. he had spent his whole solitary evening in the room adjoining theirs; had heard voices, mirth continually; thought they must be a most delightful set of people, longed to be with them, but certainly without the smallest suspicion of his possessing the shadow of a right to introduce himself. if he had but asked who the party were! the name of musgrove would have told him enough. "well, it would serve to cure him of an absurd practice of never asking a question at an inn, which he had adopted, when quite a young man, on the principal of its being very ungenteel to be curious. "the notions of a young man of one or two and twenty," said he, "as to what is necessary in manners to make him quite the thing, are more absurd, i believe, than those of any other set of beings in the world. the folly of the means they often employ is only to be equalled by the folly of what they have in view." but he must not be addressing his reflections to anne alone: he knew it; he was soon diffused again among the others, and it was only at intervals that he could return to lyme. his enquiries, however, produced at length an account of the scene she had been engaged in there, soon after his leaving the place. having alluded to "an accident," he must hear the whole. when he questioned, sir walter and elizabeth began to question also, but the difference in their manner of doing it could not be unfelt. she could only compare mr elliot to lady russell, in the wish of really comprehending what had passed, and in the degree of concern for what she must have suffered in witnessing it. he staid an hour with them. the elegant little clock on the mantel-piece had struck "eleven with its silver sounds," and the watchman was beginning to be heard at a distance telling the same tale, before mr elliot or any of them seemed to feel that he had been there long. anne could not have supposed it possible that her first evening in camden place could have passed so well! chapter 16 there was one point which anne, on returning to her family, would have been more thankful to ascertain even than mr elliot's being in love with elizabeth, which was, her father's not being in love with mrs clay; and she was very far from easy about it, when she had been at home a few hours. on going down to breakfast the next morning, she found there had just been a decent pretence on the lady's side of meaning to leave them. she could imagine mrs clay to have said, that "now miss anne was come, she could not suppose herself at all wanted;" for elizabeth was replying in a sort of whisper, "that must not be any reason, indeed. i assure you i feel it none. she is nothing to me, compared with you;" and she was in full time to hear her father say, "my dear madam, this must not be. as yet, you have seen nothing of bath. you have been here only to be useful. you must not run away from us now. you must stay to be acquainted with mrs wallis, the beautiful mrs wallis. to your fine mind, i well know the sight of beauty is a real gratification." he spoke and looked so much in earnest, that anne was not surprised to see mrs clay stealing a glance at elizabeth and herself. her countenance, perhaps, might express some watchfulness; but the praise of the fine mind did not appear to excite a thought in her sister. the lady could not but yield to such joint entreaties, and promise to stay. in the course of the same morning, anne and her father chancing to be alone together, he began to compliment her on her improved looks; he thought her "less thin in her person, in her cheeks; her skin, her complexion, greatly improved; clearer, fresher. had she been using any thing in particular?" "no, nothing." "merely gowland," he supposed. "no, nothing at all." "ha! he was surprised at that;" and added, "certainly you cannot do better than to continue as you are; you cannot be better than well; or i should recommend gowland, the constant use of gowland, during the spring months. mrs clay has been using it at my recommendation, and you see what it has done for her. you see how it has carried away her freckles." if elizabeth could but have heard this! such personal praise might have struck her, especially as it did not appear to anne that the freckles were at all lessened. but everything must take its chance. the evil of a marriage would be much diminished, if elizabeth were also to marry. as for herself, she might always command a home with lady russell. lady russell's composed mind and polite manners were put to some trial on this point, in her intercourse in camden place. the sight of mrs clay in such favour, and of anne so overlooked, was a perpetual provocation to her there; and vexed her as much when she was away, as a person in bath who drinks the water, gets all the new publications, and has a very large acquaintance, has time to be vexed. as mr elliot became known to her, she grew more charitable, or more indifferent, towards the others. his manners were an immediate recommendation; and on conversing with him she found the solid so fully supporting the superficial, that she was at first, as she told anne, almost ready to exclaim, "can this be mr elliot?" and could not seriously picture to herself a more agreeable or estimable man. everything united in him; good understanding, correct opinions, knowledge of the world, and a warm heart. he had strong feelings of family attachment and family honour, without pride or weakness; he lived with the liberality of a man of fortune, without display; he judged for himself in everything essential, without defying public opinion in any point of worldly decorum. he was steady, observant, moderate, candid; never run away with by spirits or by selfishness, which fancied itself strong feeling; and yet, with a sensibility to what was amiable and lovely, and a value for all the felicities of domestic life, which characters of fancied enthusiasm and violent agitation seldom really possess. she was sure that he had not been happy in marriage. colonel wallis said it, and lady russell saw it; but it had been no unhappiness to sour his mind, nor (she began pretty soon to suspect) to prevent his thinking of a second choice. her satisfaction in mr elliot outweighed all the plague of mrs clay. it was now some years since anne had begun to learn that she and her excellent friend could sometimes think differently; and it did not surprise her, therefore, that lady russell should see nothing suspicious or inconsistent, nothing to require more motives than appeared, in mr elliot's great desire of a reconciliation. in lady russell's view, it was perfectly natural that mr elliot, at a mature time of life, should feel it a most desirable object, and what would very generally recommend him among all sensible people, to be on good terms with the head of his family; the simplest process in the world of time upon a head naturally clear, and only erring in the heyday of youth. anne presumed, however, still to smile about it, and at last to mention "elizabeth." lady russell listened, and looked, and made only this cautious reply:--"elizabeth! very well; time will explain." it was a reference to the future, which anne, after a little observation, felt she must submit to. she could determine nothing at present. in that house elizabeth must be first; and she was in the habit of such general observance as "miss elliot," that any particularity of attention seemed almost impossible. mr elliot, too, it must be remembered, had not been a widower seven months. a little delay on his side might be very excusable. in fact, anne could never see the crape round his hat, without fearing that she was the inexcusable one, in attributing to him such imaginations; for though his marriage had not been very happy, still it had existed so many years that she could not comprehend a very rapid recovery from the awful impression of its being dissolved. however it might end, he was without any question their pleasantest acquaintance in bath: she saw nobody equal to him; and it was a great indulgence now and then to talk to him about lyme, which he seemed to have as lively a wish to see again, and to see more of, as herself. they went through the particulars of their first meeting a great many times. he gave her to understand that he had looked at her with some earnestness. she knew it well; and she remembered another person's look also. they did not always think alike. his value for rank and connexion she perceived was greater than hers. it was not merely complaisance, it must be a liking to the cause, which made him enter warmly into her father and sister's solicitudes on a subject which she thought unworthy to excite them. the bath paper one morning announced the arrival of the dowager viscountess dalrymple, and her daughter, the honourable miss carteret; and all the comfort of no. --, camden place, was swept away for many days; for the dalrymples (in anne's opinion, most unfortunately) were cousins of the elliots; and the agony was how to introduce themselves properly. anne had never seen her father and sister before in contact with nobility, and she must acknowledge herself disappointed. she had hoped better things from their high ideas of their own situation in life, and was reduced to form a wish which she had never foreseen; a wish that they had more pride; for "our cousins lady dalrymple and miss carteret;" "our cousins, the dalrymples," sounded in her ears all day long. sir walter had once been in company with the late viscount, but had never seen any of the rest of the family; and the difficulties of the case arose from there having been a suspension of all intercourse by letters of ceremony, ever since the death of that said late viscount, when, in consequence of a dangerous illness of sir walter's at the same time, there had been an unlucky omission at kellynch. no letter of condolence had been sent to ireland. the neglect had been visited on the head of the sinner; for when poor lady elliot died herself, no letter of condolence was received at kellynch, and, consequently, there was but too much reason to apprehend that the dalrymples considered the relationship as closed. how to have this anxious business set to rights, and be admitted as cousins again, was the question: and it was a question which, in a more rational manner, neither lady russell nor mr elliot thought unimportant. "family connexions were always worth preserving, good company always worth seeking; lady dalrymple had taken a house, for three months, in laura place, and would be living in style. she had been at bath the year before, and lady russell had heard her spoken of as a charming woman. it was very desirable that the connexion should be renewed, if it could be done, without any compromise of propriety on the side of the elliots." sir walter, however, would choose his own means, and at last wrote a very fine letter of ample explanation, regret, and entreaty, to his right honourable cousin. neither lady russell nor mr elliot could admire the letter; but it did all that was wanted, in bringing three lines of scrawl from the dowager viscountess. "she was very much honoured, and should be happy in their acquaintance." the toils of the business were over, the sweets began. they visited in laura place, they had the cards of dowager viscountess dalrymple, and the honourable miss carteret, to be arranged wherever they might be most visible: and "our cousins in laura place,"--"our cousin, lady dalrymple and miss carteret," were talked of to everybody. anne was ashamed. had lady dalrymple and her daughter even been very agreeable, she would still have been ashamed of the agitation they created, but they were nothing. there was no superiority of manner, accomplishment, or understanding. lady dalrymple had acquired the name of "a charming woman," because she had a smile and a civil answer for everybody. miss carteret, with still less to say, was so plain and so awkward, that she would never have been tolerated in camden place but for her birth. lady russell confessed she had expected something better; but yet "it was an acquaintance worth having;" and when anne ventured to speak her opinion of them to mr elliot, he agreed to their being nothing in themselves, but still maintained that, as a family connexion, as good company, as those who would collect good company around them, they had their value. anne smiled and said, "my idea of good company, mr elliot, is the company of clever, well-informed people, who have a great deal of conversation; that is what i call good company." "you are mistaken," said he gently, "that is not good company; that is the best. good company requires only birth, education, and manners, and with regard to education is not very nice. birth and good manners are essential; but a little learning is by no means a dangerous thing in good company; on the contrary, it will do very well. my cousin anne shakes her head. she is not satisfied. she is fastidious. my dear cousin" (sitting down by her), "you have a better right to be fastidious than almost any other woman i know; but will it answer? will it make you happy? will it not be wiser to accept the society of those good ladies in laura place, and enjoy all the advantages of the connexion as far as possible? you may depend upon it, that they will move in the first set in bath this winter, and as rank is rank, your being known to be related to them will have its use in fixing your family (our family let me say) in that degree of consideration which we must all wish for." "yes," sighed anne, "we shall, indeed, be known to be related to them!" then recollecting herself, and not wishing to be answered, she added, "i certainly do think there has been by far too much trouble taken to procure the acquaintance. i suppose" (smiling) "i have more pride than any of you; but i confess it does vex me, that we should be so solicitous to have the relationship acknowledged, which we may be very sure is a matter of perfect indifference to them." "pardon me, dear cousin, you are unjust in your own claims. in london, perhaps, in your present quiet style of living, it might be as you say: but in bath; sir walter elliot and his family will always be worth knowing: always acceptable as acquaintance." "well," said anne, "i certainly am proud, too proud to enjoy a welcome which depends so entirely upon place." "i love your indignation," said he; "it is very natural. but here you are in bath, and the object is to be established here with all the credit and dignity which ought to belong to sir walter elliot. you talk of being proud; i am called proud, i know, and i shall not wish to believe myself otherwise; for our pride, if investigated, would have the same object, i have no doubt, though the kind may seem a little different. in one point, i am sure, my dear cousin," (he continued, speaking lower, though there was no one else in the room) "in one point, i am sure, we must feel alike. we must feel that every addition to your father's society, among his equals or superiors, may be of use in diverting his thoughts from those who are beneath him." he looked, as he spoke, to the seat which mrs clay had been lately occupying: a sufficient explanation of what he particularly meant; and though anne could not believe in their having the same sort of pride, she was pleased with him for not liking mrs clay; and her conscience admitted that his wishing to promote her father's getting great acquaintance was more than excusable in the view of defeating her. chapter 17 while sir walter and elizabeth were assiduously pushing their good fortune in laura place, anne was renewing an acquaintance of a very different description. she had called on her former governess, and had heard from her of there being an old school-fellow in bath, who had the two strong claims on her attention of past kindness and present suffering. miss hamilton, now mrs smith, had shewn her kindness in one of those periods of her life when it had been most valuable. anne had gone unhappy to school, grieving for the loss of a mother whom she had dearly loved, feeling her separation from home, and suffering as a girl of fourteen, of strong sensibility and not high spirits, must suffer at such a time; and miss hamilton, three years older than herself, but still from the want of near relations and a settled home, remaining another year at school, had been useful and good to her in a way which had considerably lessened her misery, and could never be remembered with indifference. miss hamilton had left school, had married not long afterwards, was said to have married a man of fortune, and this was all that anne had known of her, till now that their governess's account brought her situation forward in a more decided but very different form. she was a widow and poor. her husband had been extravagant; and at his death, about two years before, had left his affairs dreadfully involved. she had had difficulties of every sort to contend with, and in addition to these distresses had been afflicted with a severe rheumatic fever, which, finally settling in her legs, had made her for the present a cripple. she had come to bath on that account, and was now in lodgings near the hot baths, living in a very humble way, unable even to afford herself the comfort of a servant, and of course almost excluded from society. their mutual friend answered for the satisfaction which a visit from miss elliot would give mrs smith, and anne therefore lost no time in going. she mentioned nothing of what she had heard, or what she intended, at home. it would excite no proper interest there. she only consulted lady russell, who entered thoroughly into her sentiments, and was most happy to convey her as near to mrs smith's lodgings in westgate buildings, as anne chose to be taken. the visit was paid, their acquaintance re-established, their interest in each other more than re-kindled. the first ten minutes had its awkwardness and its emotion. twelve years were gone since they had parted, and each presented a somewhat different person from what the other had imagined. twelve years had changed anne from the blooming, silent, unformed girl of fifteen, to the elegant little woman of seven-and-twenty, with every beauty except bloom, and with manners as consciously right as they were invariably gentle; and twelve years had transformed the fine-looking, well-grown miss hamilton, in all the glow of health and confidence of superiority, into a poor, infirm, helpless widow, receiving the visit of her former protegee as a favour; but all that was uncomfortable in the meeting had soon passed away, and left only the interesting charm of remembering former partialities and talking over old times. anne found in mrs smith the good sense and agreeable manners which she had almost ventured to depend on, and a disposition to converse and be cheerful beyond her expectation. neither the dissipations of the past--and she had lived very much in the world--nor the restrictions of the present, neither sickness nor sorrow seemed to have closed her heart or ruined her spirits. in the course of a second visit she talked with great openness, and anne's astonishment increased. she could scarcely imagine a more cheerless situation in itself than mrs smith's. she had been very fond of her husband: she had buried him. she had been used to affluence: it was gone. she had no child to connect her with life and happiness again, no relations to assist in the arrangement of perplexed affairs, no health to make all the rest supportable. her accommodations were limited to a noisy parlour, and a dark bedroom behind, with no possibility of moving from one to the other without assistance, which there was only one servant in the house to afford, and she never quitted the house but to be conveyed into the warm bath. yet, in spite of all this, anne had reason to believe that she had moments only of languor and depression, to hours of occupation and enjoyment. how could it be? she watched, observed, reflected, and finally determined that this was not a case of fortitude or of resignation only. a submissive spirit might be patient, a strong understanding would supply resolution, but here was something more; here was that elasticity of mind, that disposition to be comforted, that power of turning readily from evil to good, and of finding employment which carried her out of herself, which was from nature alone. it was the choicest gift of heaven; and anne viewed her friend as one of those instances in which, by a merciful appointment, it seems designed to counterbalance almost every other want. there had been a time, mrs smith told her, when her spirits had nearly failed. she could not call herself an invalid now, compared with her state on first reaching bath. then she had, indeed, been a pitiable object; for she had caught cold on the journey, and had hardly taken possession of her lodgings before she was again confined to her bed and suffering under severe and constant pain; and all this among strangers, with the absolute necessity of having a regular nurse, and finances at that moment particularly unfit to meet any extraordinary expense. she had weathered it, however, and could truly say that it had done her good. it had increased her comforts by making her feel herself to be in good hands. she had seen too much of the world, to expect sudden or disinterested attachment anywhere, but her illness had proved to her that her landlady had a character to preserve, and would not use her ill; and she had been particularly fortunate in her nurse, as a sister of her landlady, a nurse by profession, and who had always a home in that house when unemployed, chanced to be at liberty just in time to attend her. "and she," said mrs smith, "besides nursing me most admirably, has really proved an invaluable acquaintance. as soon as i could use my hands she taught me to knit, which has been a great amusement; and she put me in the way of making these little thread-cases, pin-cushions and card-racks, which you always find me so busy about, and which supply me with the means of doing a little good to one or two very poor families in this neighbourhood. she had a large acquaintance, of course professionally, among those who can afford to buy, and she disposes of my merchandise. she always takes the right time for applying. everybody's heart is open, you know, when they have recently escaped from severe pain, or are recovering the blessing of health, and nurse rooke thoroughly understands when to speak. she is a shrewd, intelligent, sensible woman. hers is a line for seeing human nature; and she has a fund of good sense and observation, which, as a companion, make her infinitely superior to thousands of those who having only received 'the best education in the world,' know nothing worth attending to. call it gossip, if you will, but when nurse rooke has half an hour's leisure to bestow on me, she is sure to have something to relate that is entertaining and profitable: something that makes one know one's species better. one likes to hear what is going on, to be au fait as to the newest modes of being trifling and silly. to me, who live so much alone, her conversation, i assure you, is a treat." anne, far from wishing to cavil at the pleasure, replied, "i can easily believe it. women of that class have great opportunities, and if they are intelligent may be well worth listening to. such varieties of human nature as they are in the habit of witnessing! and it is not merely in its follies, that they are well read; for they see it occasionally under every circumstance that can be most interesting or affecting. what instances must pass before them of ardent, disinterested, self-denying attachment, of heroism, fortitude, patience, resignation: of all the conflicts and all the sacrifices that ennoble us most. a sick chamber may often furnish the worth of volumes." "yes," said mrs smith more doubtingly, "sometimes it may, though i fear its lessons are not often in the elevated style you describe. here and there, human nature may be great in times of trial; but generally speaking, it is its weakness and not its strength that appears in a sick chamber: it is selfishness and impatience rather than generosity and fortitude, that one hears of. there is so little real friendship in the world! and unfortunately" (speaking low and tremulously) "there are so many who forget to think seriously till it is almost too late." anne saw the misery of such feelings. the husband had not been what he ought, and the wife had been led among that part of mankind which made her think worse of the world than she hoped it deserved. it was but a passing emotion however with mrs smith; she shook it off, and soon added in a different tone-"i do not suppose the situation my friend mrs rooke is in at present, will furnish much either to interest or edify me. she is only nursing mrs wallis of marlborough buildings; a mere pretty, silly, expensive, fashionable woman, i believe; and of course will have nothing to report but of lace and finery. i mean to make my profit of mrs wallis, however. she has plenty of money, and i intend she shall buy all the high-priced things i have in hand now." anne had called several times on her friend, before the existence of such a person was known in camden place. at last, it became necessary to speak of her. sir walter, elizabeth and mrs clay, returned one morning from laura place, with a sudden invitation from lady dalrymple for the same evening, and anne was already engaged, to spend that evening in westgate buildings. she was not sorry for the excuse. they were only asked, she was sure, because lady dalrymple being kept at home by a bad cold, was glad to make use of the relationship which had been so pressed on her; and she declined on her own account with great alacrity--"she was engaged to spend the evening with an old schoolfellow." they were not much interested in anything relative to anne; but still there were questions enough asked, to make it understood what this old schoolfellow was; and elizabeth was disdainful, and sir walter severe. "westgate buildings!" said he, "and who is miss anne elliot to be visiting in westgate buildings? a mrs smith. a widow mrs smith; and who was her husband? one of five thousand mr smiths whose names are to be met with everywhere. and what is her attraction? that she is old and sickly. upon my word, miss anne elliot, you have the most extraordinary taste! everything that revolts other people, low company, paltry rooms, foul air, disgusting associations are inviting to you. but surely you may put off this old lady till to-morrow: she is not so near her end, i presume, but that she may hope to see another day. what is her age? forty?" "no, sir, she is not one-and-thirty; but i do not think i can put off my engagement, because it is the only evening for some time which will at once suit her and myself. she goes into the warm bath to-morrow, and for the rest of the week, you know, we are engaged." "but what does lady russell think of this acquaintance?" asked elizabeth. "she sees nothing to blame in it," replied anne; "on the contrary, she approves it, and has generally taken me when i have called on mrs smith." "westgate buildings must have been rather surprised by the appearance of a carriage drawn up near its pavement," observed sir walter. "sir henry russell's widow, indeed, has no honours to distinguish her arms, but still it is a handsome equipage, and no doubt is well known to convey a miss elliot. a widow mrs smith lodging in westgate buildings! a poor widow barely able to live, between thirty and forty; a mere mrs smith, an every-day mrs smith, of all people and all names in the world, to be the chosen friend of miss anne elliot, and to be preferred by her to her own family connections among the nobility of england and ireland! mrs smith! such a name!" mrs clay, who had been present while all this passed, now thought it advisable to leave the room, and anne could have said much, and did long to say a little in defence of her friend's not very dissimilar claims to theirs, but her sense of personal respect to her father prevented her. she made no reply. she left it to himself to recollect, that mrs smith was not the only widow in bath between thirty and forty, with little to live on, and no surname of dignity. anne kept her appointment; the others kept theirs, and of course she heard the next morning that they had had a delightful evening. she had been the only one of the set absent, for sir walter and elizabeth had not only been quite at her ladyship's service themselves, but had actually been happy to be employed by her in collecting others, and had been at the trouble of inviting both lady russell and mr elliot; and mr elliot had made a point of leaving colonel wallis early, and lady russell had fresh arranged all her evening engagements in order to wait on her. anne had the whole history of all that such an evening could supply from lady russell. to her, its greatest interest must be, in having been very much talked of between her friend and mr elliot; in having been wished for, regretted, and at the same time honoured for staying away in such a cause. her kind, compassionate visits to this old schoolfellow, sick and reduced, seemed to have quite delighted mr elliot. he thought her a most extraordinary young woman; in her temper, manners, mind, a model of female excellence. he could meet even lady russell in a discussion of her merits; and anne could not be given to understand so much by her friend, could not know herself to be so highly rated by a sensible man, without many of those agreeable sensations which her friend meant to create. lady russell was now perfectly decided in her opinion of mr elliot. she was as much convinced of his meaning to gain anne in time as of his deserving her, and was beginning to calculate the number of weeks which would free him from all the remaining restraints of widowhood, and leave him at liberty to exert his most open powers of pleasing. she would not speak to anne with half the certainty she felt on the subject, she would venture on little more than hints of what might be hereafter, of a possible attachment on his side, of the desirableness of the alliance, supposing such attachment to be real and returned. anne heard her, and made no violent exclamations; she only smiled, blushed, and gently shook her head. "i am no match-maker, as you well know," said lady russell, "being much too well aware of the uncertainty of all human events and calculations. i only mean that if mr elliot should some time hence pay his addresses to you, and if you should be disposed to accept him, i think there would be every possibility of your being happy together. a most suitable connection everybody must consider it, but i think it might be a very happy one." "mr elliot is an exceedingly agreeable man, and in many respects i think highly of him," said anne; "but we should not suit." lady russell let this pass, and only said in rejoinder, "i own that to be able to regard you as the future mistress of kellynch, the future lady elliot, to look forward and see you occupying your dear mother's place, succeeding to all her rights, and all her popularity, as well as to all her virtues, would be the highest possible gratification to me. you are your mother's self in countenance and disposition; and if i might be allowed to fancy you such as she was, in situation and name, and home, presiding and blessing in the same spot, and only superior to her in being more highly valued! my dearest anne, it would give me more delight than is often felt at my time of life!" anne was obliged to turn away, to rise, to walk to a distant table, and, leaning there in pretended employment, try to subdue the feelings this picture excited. for a few moments her imagination and her heart were bewitched. the idea of becoming what her mother had been; of having the precious name of "lady elliot" first revived in herself; of being restored to kellynch, calling it her home again, her home for ever, was a charm which she could not immediately resist. lady russell said not another word, willing to leave the matter to its own operation; and believing that, could mr elliot at that moment with propriety have spoken for himself!--she believed, in short, what anne did not believe. the same image of mr elliot speaking for himself brought anne to composure again. the charm of kellynch and of "lady elliot" all faded away. she never could accept him. and it was not only that her feelings were still adverse to any man save one; her judgement, on a serious consideration of the possibilities of such a case was against mr elliot. though they had now been acquainted a month, she could not be satisfied that she really knew his character. that he was a sensible man, an agreeable man, that he talked well, professed good opinions, seemed to judge properly and as a man of principle, this was all clear enough. he certainly knew what was right, nor could she fix on any one article of moral duty evidently transgressed; but yet she would have been afraid to answer for his conduct. she distrusted the past, if not the present. the names which occasionally dropt of former associates, the allusions to former practices and pursuits, suggested suspicions not favourable of what he had been. she saw that there had been bad habits; that sunday travelling had been a common thing; that there had been a period of his life (and probably not a short one) when he had been, at least, careless in all serious matters; and, though he might now think very differently, who could answer for the true sentiments of a clever, cautious man, grown old enough to appreciate a fair character? how could it ever be ascertained that his mind was truly cleansed? mr elliot was rational, discreet, polished, but he was not open. there was never any burst of feeling, any warmth of indignation or delight, at the evil or good of others. this, to anne, was a decided imperfection. her early impressions were incurable. she prized the frank, the open-hearted, the eager character beyond all others. warmth and enthusiasm did captivate her still. she felt that she could so much more depend upon the sincerity of those who sometimes looked or said a careless or a hasty thing, than of those whose presence of mind never varied, whose tongue never slipped. mr elliot was too generally agreeable. various as were the tempers in her father's house, he pleased them all. he endured too well, stood too well with every body. he had spoken to her with some degree of openness of mrs clay; had appeared completely to see what mrs clay was about, and to hold her in contempt; and yet mrs clay found him as agreeable as any body. lady russell saw either less or more than her young friend, for she saw nothing to excite distrust. she could not imagine a man more exactly what he ought to be than mr elliot; nor did she ever enjoy a sweeter feeling than the hope of seeing him receive the hand of her beloved anne in kellynch church, in the course of the following autumn. chapter 18 it was the beginning of february; and anne, having been a month in bath, was growing very eager for news from uppercross and lyme. she wanted to hear much more than mary had communicated. it was three weeks since she had heard at all. she only knew that henrietta was at home again; and that louisa, though considered to be recovering fast, was still in lyme; and she was thinking of them all very intently one evening, when a thicker letter than usual from mary was delivered to her; and, to quicken the pleasure and surprise, with admiral and mrs croft's compliments. the crofts must be in bath! a circumstance to interest her. they were people whom her heart turned to very naturally. "what is this?" cried sir walter. "the crofts have arrived in bath? the crofts who rent kellynch? what have they brought you?" "a letter from uppercross cottage, sir." "oh! those letters are convenient passports. they secure an introduction. i should have visited admiral croft, however, at any rate. i know what is due to my tenant." anne could listen no longer; she could not even have told how the poor admiral's complexion escaped; her letter engrossed her. it had been begun several days back. "february 1st. "my dear anne,--i make no apology for my silence, because i know how little people think of letters in such a place as bath. you must be a great deal too happy to care for uppercross, which, as you well know, affords little to write about. we have had a very dull christmas; mr and mrs musgrove have not had one dinner party all the holidays. i do not reckon the hayters as anybody. the holidays, however, are over at last: i believe no children ever had such long ones. i am sure i had not. the house was cleared yesterday, except of the little harvilles; but you will be surprised to hear they have never gone home. mrs harville must be an odd mother to part with them so long. i do not understand it. they are not at all nice children, in my opinion; but mrs musgrove seems to like them quite as well, if not better, than her grandchildren. what dreadful weather we have had! it may not be felt in bath, with your nice pavements; but in the country it is of some consequence. i have not had a creature call on me since the second week in january, except charles hayter, who had been calling much oftener than was welcome. between ourselves, i think it a great pity henrietta did not remain at lyme as long as louisa; it would have kept her a little out of his way. the carriage is gone to-day, to bring louisa and the harvilles to-morrow. we are not asked to dine with them, however, till the day after, mrs musgrove is so afraid of her being fatigued by the journey, which is not very likely, considering the care that will be taken of her; and it would be much more convenient to me to dine there to-morrow. i am glad you find mr elliot so agreeable, and wish i could be acquainted with him too; but i have my usual luck: i am always out of the way when any thing desirable is going on; always the last of my family to be noticed. what an immense time mrs clay has been staying with elizabeth! does she never mean to go away? but perhaps if she were to leave the room vacant, we might not be invited. let me know what you think of this. i do not expect my children to be asked, you know. i can leave them at the great house very well, for a month or six weeks. i have this moment heard that the crofts are going to bath almost immediately; they think the admiral gouty. charles heard it quite by chance; they have not had the civility to give me any notice, or of offering to take anything. i do not think they improve at all as neighbours. we see nothing of them, and this is really an instance of gross inattention. charles joins me in love, and everything proper. yours affectionately, "mary m---. "i am sorry to say that i am very far from well; and jemima has just told me that the butcher says there is a bad sore-throat very much about. i dare say i shall catch it; and my sore-throats, you know, are always worse than anybody's." so ended the first part, which had been afterwards put into an envelope, containing nearly as much more. "i kept my letter open, that i might send you word how louisa bore her journey, and now i am extremely glad i did, having a great deal to add. in the first place, i had a note from mrs croft yesterday, offering to convey anything to you; a very kind, friendly note indeed, addressed to me, just as it ought; i shall therefore be able to make my letter as long as i like. the admiral does not seem very ill, and i sincerely hope bath will do him all the good he wants. i shall be truly glad to have them back again. our neighbourhood cannot spare such a pleasant family. but now for louisa. i have something to communicate that will astonish you not a little. she and the harvilles came on tuesday very safely, and in the evening we went to ask her how she did, when we were rather surprised not to find captain benwick of the party, for he had been invited as well as the harvilles; and what do you think was the reason? neither more nor less than his being in love with louisa, and not choosing to venture to uppercross till he had had an answer from mr musgrove; for it was all settled between him and her before she came away, and he had written to her father by captain harville. true, upon my honour! are not you astonished? i shall be surprised at least if you ever received a hint of it, for i never did. mrs musgrove protests solemnly that she knew nothing of the matter. we are all very well pleased, however, for though it is not equal to her marrying captain wentworth, it is infinitely better than charles hayter; and mr musgrove has written his consent, and captain benwick is expected to-day. mrs harville says her husband feels a good deal on his poor sister's account; but, however, louisa is a great favourite with both. indeed, mrs harville and i quite agree that we love her the better for having nursed her. charles wonders what captain wentworth will say; but if you remember, i never thought him attached to louisa; i never could see anything of it. and this is the end, you see, of captain benwick's being supposed to be an admirer of yours. how charles could take such a thing into his head was always incomprehensible to me. i hope he will be more agreeable now. certainly not a great match for louisa musgrove, but a million times better than marrying among the hayters." mary need not have feared her sister's being in any degree prepared for the news. she had never in her life been more astonished. captain benwick and louisa musgrove! it was almost too wonderful for belief, and it was with the greatest effort that she could remain in the room, preserve an air of calmness, and answer the common questions of the moment. happily for her, they were not many. sir walter wanted to know whether the crofts travelled with four horses, and whether they were likely to be situated in such a part of bath as it might suit miss elliot and himself to visit in; but had little curiosity beyond. "how is mary?" said elizabeth; and without waiting for an answer, "and pray what brings the crofts to bath?" "they come on the admiral's account. he is thought to be gouty." "gout and decrepitude!" said sir walter. "poor old gentleman." "have they any acquaintance here?" asked elizabeth. "i do not know; but i can hardly suppose that, at admiral croft's time of life, and in his profession, he should not have many acquaintance in such a place as this." "i suspect," said sir walter coolly, "that admiral croft will be best known in bath as the renter of kellynch hall. elizabeth, may we venture to present him and his wife in laura place?" "oh, no! i think not. situated as we are with lady dalrymple, cousins, we ought to be very careful not to embarrass her with acquaintance she might not approve. if we were not related, it would not signify; but as cousins, she would feel scrupulous as to any proposal of ours. we had better leave the crofts to find their own level. there are several odd-looking men walking about here, who, i am told, are sailors. the crofts will associate with them." this was sir walter and elizabeth's share of interest in the letter; when mrs clay had paid her tribute of more decent attention, in an enquiry after mrs charles musgrove, and her fine little boys, anne was at liberty. in her own room, she tried to comprehend it. well might charles wonder how captain wentworth would feel! perhaps he had quitted the field, had given louisa up, had ceased to love, had found he did not love her. she could not endure the idea of treachery or levity, or anything akin to ill usage between him and his friend. she could not endure that such a friendship as theirs should be severed unfairly. captain benwick and louisa musgrove! the high-spirited, joyous-talking louisa musgrove, and the dejected, thinking, feeling, reading, captain benwick, seemed each of them everything that would not suit the other. their minds most dissimilar! where could have been the attraction? the answer soon presented itself. it had been in situation. they had been thrown together several weeks; they had been living in the same small family party: since henrietta's coming away, they must have been depending almost entirely on each other, and louisa, just recovering from illness, had been in an interesting state, and captain benwick was not inconsolable. that was a point which anne had not been able to avoid suspecting before; and instead of drawing the same conclusion as mary, from the present course of events, they served only to confirm the idea of his having felt some dawning of tenderness toward herself. she did not mean, however, to derive much more from it to gratify her vanity, than mary might have allowed. she was persuaded that any tolerably pleasing young woman who had listened and seemed to feel for him would have received the same compliment. he had an affectionate heart. he must love somebody. she saw no reason against their being happy. louisa had fine naval fervour to begin with, and they would soon grow more alike. he would gain cheerfulness, and she would learn to be an enthusiast for scott and lord byron; nay, that was probably learnt already; of course they had fallen in love over poetry. the idea of louisa musgrove turned into a person of literary taste, and sentimental reflection was amusing, but she had no doubt of its being so. the day at lyme, the fall from the cobb, might influence her health, her nerves, her courage, her character to the end of her life, as thoroughly as it appeared to have influenced her fate. the conclusion of the whole was, that if the woman who had been sensible of captain wentworth's merits could be allowed to prefer another man, there was nothing in the engagement to excite lasting wonder; and if captain wentworth lost no friend by it, certainly nothing to be regretted. no, it was not regret which made anne's heart beat in spite of herself, and brought the colour into her cheeks when she thought of captain wentworth unshackled and free. she had some feelings which she was ashamed to investigate. they were too much like joy, senseless joy! she longed to see the crofts; but when the meeting took place, it was evident that no rumour of the news had yet reached them. the visit of ceremony was paid and returned; and louisa musgrove was mentioned, and captain benwick, too, without even half a smile. the crofts had placed themselves in lodgings in gay street, perfectly to sir walter's satisfaction. he was not at all ashamed of the acquaintance, and did, in fact, think and talk a great deal more about the admiral, than the admiral ever thought or talked about him. the crofts knew quite as many people in bath as they wished for, and considered their intercourse with the elliots as a mere matter of form, and not in the least likely to afford them any pleasure. they brought with them their country habit of being almost always together. he was ordered to walk to keep off the gout, and mrs croft seemed to go shares with him in everything, and to walk for her life to do him good. anne saw them wherever she went. lady russell took her out in her carriage almost every morning, and she never failed to think of them, and never failed to see them. knowing their feelings as she did, it was a most attractive picture of happiness to her. she always watched them as long as she could, delighted to fancy she understood what they might be talking of, as they walked along in happy independence, or equally delighted to see the admiral's hearty shake of the hand when he encountered an old friend, and observe their eagerness of conversation when occasionally forming into a little knot of the navy, mrs croft looking as intelligent and keen as any of the officers around her. anne was too much engaged with lady russell to be often walking herself; but it so happened that one morning, about a week or ten days after the croft's arrival, it suited her best to leave her friend, or her friend's carriage, in the lower part of the town, and return alone to camden place, and in walking up milsom street she had the good fortune to meet with the admiral. he was standing by himself at a printshop window, with his hands behind him, in earnest contemplation of some print, and she not only might have passed him unseen, but was obliged to touch as well as address him before she could catch his notice. when he did perceive and acknowledge her, however, it was done with all his usual frankness and good humour. "ha! is it you? thank you, thank you. this is treating me like a friend. here i am, you see, staring at a picture. i can never get by this shop without stopping. but what a thing here is, by way of a boat! do look at it. did you ever see the like? what queer fellows your fine painters must be, to think that anybody would venture their lives in such a shapeless old cockleshell as that? and yet here are two gentlemen stuck up in it mightily at their ease, and looking about them at the rocks and mountains, as if they were not to be upset the next moment, which they certainly must be. i wonder where that boat was built!" (laughing heartily); "i would not venture over a horsepond in it. well," (turning away), "now, where are you bound? can i go anywhere for you, or with you? can i be of any use?" "none, i thank you, unless you will give me the pleasure of your company the little way our road lies together. i am going home." "that i will, with all my heart, and farther, too. yes, yes we will have a snug walk together, and i have something to tell you as we go along. there, take my arm; that's right; i do not feel comfortable if i have not a woman there. lord! what a boat it is!" taking a last look at the picture, as they began to be in motion. "did you say that you had something to tell me, sir?" "yes, i have, presently. but here comes a friend, captain brigden; i shall only say, 'how d'ye do?' as we pass, however. i shall not stop. 'how d'ye do?' brigden stares to see anybody with me but my wife. she, poor soul, is tied by the leg. she has a blister on one of her heels, as large as a three-shilling piece. if you look across the street, you will see admiral brand coming down and his brother. shabby fellows, both of them! i am glad they are not on this side of the way. sophy cannot bear them. they played me a pitiful trick once: got away with some of my best men. i will tell you the whole story another time. there comes old sir archibald drew and his grandson. look, he sees us; he kisses his hand to you; he takes you for my wife. ah! the peace has come too soon for that younker. poor old sir archibald! how do you like bath, miss elliot? it suits us very well. we are always meeting with some old friend or other; the streets full of them every morning; sure to have plenty of chat; and then we get away from them all, and shut ourselves in our lodgings, and draw in our chairs, and are as snug as if we were at kellynch, ay, or as we used to be even at north yarmouth and deal. we do not like our lodgings here the worse, i can tell you, for putting us in mind of those we first had at north yarmouth. the wind blows through one of the cupboards just in the same way." when they were got a little farther, anne ventured to press again for what he had to communicate. she hoped when clear of milsom street to have her curiosity gratified; but she was still obliged to wait, for the admiral had made up his mind not to begin till they had gained the greater space and quiet of belmont; and as she was not really mrs croft, she must let him have his own way. as soon as they were fairly ascending belmont, he began-"well, now you shall hear something that will surprise you. but first of all, you must tell me the name of the young lady i am going to talk about. that young lady, you know, that we have all been so concerned for. the miss musgrove, that all this has been happening to. her christian name: i always forget her christian name." anne had been ashamed to appear to comprehend so soon as she really did; but now she could safely suggest the name of "louisa." "ay, ay, miss louisa musgrove, that is the name. i wish young ladies had not such a number of fine christian names. i should never be out if they were all sophys, or something of that sort. well, this miss louisa, we all thought, you know, was to marry frederick. he was courting her week after week. the only wonder was, what they could be waiting for, till the business at lyme came; then, indeed, it was clear enough that they must wait till her brain was set to right. but even then there was something odd in their way of going on. instead of staying at lyme, he went off to plymouth, and then he went off to see edward. when we came back from minehead he was gone down to edward's, and there he has been ever since. we have seen nothing of him since november. even sophy could not understand it. but now, the matter has taken the strangest turn of all; for this young lady, the same miss musgrove, instead of being to marry frederick, is to marry james benwick. you know james benwick." "a little. i am a little acquainted with captain benwick." "well, she is to marry him. nay, most likely they are married already, for i do not know what they should wait for." "i thought captain benwick a very pleasing young man," said anne, "and i understand that he bears an excellent character." "oh! yes, yes, there is not a word to be said against james benwick. he is only a commander, it is true, made last summer, and these are bad times for getting on, but he has not another fault that i know of. an excellent, good-hearted fellow, i assure you; a very active, zealous officer too, which is more than you would think for, perhaps, for that soft sort of manner does not do him justice." "indeed you are mistaken there, sir; i should never augur want of spirit from captain benwick's manners. i thought them particularly pleasing, and i will answer for it, they would generally please." "well, well, ladies are the best judges; but james benwick is rather too piano for me; and though very likely it is all our partiality, sophy and i cannot help thinking frederick's manners better than his. there is something about frederick more to our taste." anne was caught. she had only meant to oppose the too common idea of spirit and gentleness being incompatible with each other, not at all to represent captain benwick's manners as the very best that could possibly be; and, after a little hesitation, she was beginning to say, "i was not entering into any comparison of the two friends," but the admiral interrupted her with-"and the thing is certainly true. it is not a mere bit of gossip. we have it from frederick himself. his sister had a letter from him yesterday, in which he tells us of it, and he had just had it in a letter from harville, written upon the spot, from uppercross. i fancy they are all at uppercross." this was an opportunity which anne could not resist; she said, therefore, "i hope, admiral, i hope there is nothing in the style of captain wentworth's letter to make you and mrs croft particularly uneasy. it did seem, last autumn, as if there were an attachment between him and louisa musgrove; but i hope it may be understood to have worn out on each side equally, and without violence. i hope his letter does not breathe the spirit of an ill-used man." "not at all, not at all; there is not an oath or a murmur from beginning to end." anne looked down to hide her smile. "no, no; frederick is not a man to whine and complain; he has too much spirit for that. if the girl likes another man better, it is very fit she should have him." "certainly. but what i mean is, that i hope there is nothing in captain wentworth's manner of writing to make you suppose he thinks himself ill-used by his friend, which might appear, you know, without its being absolutely said. i should be very sorry that such a friendship as has subsisted between him and captain benwick should be destroyed, or even wounded, by a circumstance of this sort." "yes, yes, i understand you. but there is nothing at all of that nature in the letter. he does not give the least fling at benwick; does not so much as say, 'i wonder at it, i have a reason of my own for wondering at it.' no, you would not guess, from his way of writing, that he had ever thought of this miss (what's her name?) for himself. he very handsomely hopes they will be happy together; and there is nothing very unforgiving in that, i think." anne did not receive the perfect conviction which the admiral meant to convey, but it would have been useless to press the enquiry farther. she therefore satisfied herself with common-place remarks or quiet attention, and the admiral had it all his own way. "poor frederick!" said he at last. "now he must begin all over again with somebody else. i think we must get him to bath. sophy must write, and beg him to come to bath. here are pretty girls enough, i am sure. it would be of no use to go to uppercross again, for that other miss musgrove, i find, is bespoke by her cousin, the young parson. do not you think, miss elliot, we had better try to get him to bath?" chapter 19 while admiral croft was taking this walk with anne, and expressing his wish of getting captain wentworth to bath, captain wentworth was already on his way thither. before mrs croft had written, he was arrived, and the very next time anne walked out, she saw him. mr elliot was attending his two cousins and mrs clay. they were in milsom street. it began to rain, not much, but enough to make shelter desirable for women, and quite enough to make it very desirable for miss elliot to have the advantage of being conveyed home in lady dalrymple's carriage, which was seen waiting at a little distance; she, anne, and mrs clay, therefore, turned into molland's, while mr elliot stepped to lady dalrymple, to request her assistance. he soon joined them again, successful, of course; lady dalrymple would be most happy to take them home, and would call for them in a few minutes. her ladyship's carriage was a barouche, and did not hold more than four with any comfort. miss carteret was with her mother; consequently it was not reasonable to expect accommodation for all the three camden place ladies. there could be no doubt as to miss elliot. whoever suffered inconvenience, she must suffer none, but it occupied a little time to settle the point of civility between the other two. the rain was a mere trifle, and anne was most sincere in preferring a walk with mr elliot. but the rain was also a mere trifle to mrs clay; she would hardly allow it even to drop at all, and her boots were so thick! much thicker than miss anne's; and, in short, her civility rendered her quite as anxious to be left to walk with mr elliot as anne could be, and it was discussed between them with a generosity so polite and so determined, that the others were obliged to settle it for them; miss elliot maintaining that mrs clay had a little cold already, and mr elliot deciding on appeal, that his cousin anne's boots were rather the thickest. it was fixed accordingly, that mrs clay should be of the party in the carriage; and they had just reached this point, when anne, as she sat near the window, descried, most decidedly and distinctly, captain wentworth walking down the street. her start was perceptible only to herself; but she instantly felt that she was the greatest simpleton in the world, the most unaccountable and absurd! for a few minutes she saw nothing before her; it was all confusion. she was lost, and when she had scolded back her senses, she found the others still waiting for the carriage, and mr elliot (always obliging) just setting off for union street on a commission of mrs clay's. she now felt a great inclination to go to the outer door; she wanted to see if it rained. why was she to suspect herself of another motive? captain wentworth must be out of sight. she left her seat, she would go; one half of her should not be always so much wiser than the other half, or always suspecting the other of being worse than it was. she would see if it rained. she was sent back, however, in a moment by the entrance of captain wentworth himself, among a party of gentlemen and ladies, evidently his acquaintance, and whom he must have joined a little below milsom street. he was more obviously struck and confused by the sight of her than she had ever observed before; he looked quite red. for the first time, since their renewed acquaintance, she felt that she was betraying the least sensibility of the two. she had the advantage of him in the preparation of the last few moments. all the overpowering, blinding, bewildering, first effects of strong surprise were over with her. still, however, she had enough to feel! it was agitation, pain, pleasure, a something between delight and misery. he spoke to her, and then turned away. the character of his manner was embarrassment. she could not have called it either cold or friendly, or anything so certainly as embarrassed. after a short interval, however, he came towards her, and spoke again. mutual enquiries on common subjects passed: neither of them, probably, much the wiser for what they heard, and anne continuing fully sensible of his being less at ease than formerly. they had by dint of being so very much together, got to speak to each other with a considerable portion of apparent indifference and calmness; but he could not do it now. time had changed him, or louisa had changed him. there was consciousness of some sort or other. he looked very well, not as if he had been suffering in health or spirits, and he talked of uppercross, of the musgroves, nay, even of louisa, and had even a momentary look of his own arch significance as he named her; but yet it was captain wentworth not comfortable, not easy, not able to feign that he was. it did not surprise, but it grieved anne to observe that elizabeth would not know him. she saw that he saw elizabeth, that elizabeth saw him, that there was complete internal recognition on each side; she was convinced that he was ready to be acknowledged as an acquaintance, expecting it, and she had the pain of seeing her sister turn away with unalterable coldness. lady dalrymple's carriage, for which miss elliot was growing very impatient, now drew up; the servant came in to announce it. it was beginning to rain again, and altogether there was a delay, and a bustle, and a talking, which must make all the little crowd in the shop understand that lady dalrymple was calling to convey miss elliot. at last miss elliot and her friend, unattended but by the servant, (for there was no cousin returned), were walking off; and captain wentworth, watching them, turned again to anne, and by manner, rather than words, was offering his services to her. "i am much obliged to you," was her answer, "but i am not going with them. the carriage would not accommodate so many. i walk: i prefer walking." "but it rains." "oh! very little, nothing that i regard." after a moment's pause he said: "though i came only yesterday, i have equipped myself properly for bath already, you see," (pointing to a new umbrella); "i wish you would make use of it, if you are determined to walk; though i think it would be more prudent to let me get you a chair." she was very much obliged to him, but declined it all, repeating her conviction, that the rain would come to nothing at present, and adding, "i am only waiting for mr elliot. he will be here in a moment, i am sure." she had hardly spoken the words when mr elliot walked in. captain wentworth recollected him perfectly. there was no difference between him and the man who had stood on the steps at lyme, admiring anne as she passed, except in the air and look and manner of the privileged relation and friend. he came in with eagerness, appeared to see and think only of her, apologised for his stay, was grieved to have kept her waiting, and anxious to get her away without further loss of time and before the rain increased; and in another moment they walked off together, her arm under his, a gentle and embarrassed glance, and a "good morning to you!" being all that she had time for, as she passed away. as soon as they were out of sight, the ladies of captain wentworth's party began talking of them. "mr elliot does not dislike his cousin, i fancy?" "oh! no, that is clear enough. one can guess what will happen there. he is always with them; half lives in the family, i believe. what a very good-looking man!" "yes, and miss atkinson, who dined with him once at the wallises, says he is the most agreeable man she ever was in company with." "she is pretty, i think; anne elliot; very pretty, when one comes to look at her. it is not the fashion to say so, but i confess i admire her more than her sister." "oh! so do i." "and so do i. no comparison. but the men are all wild after miss elliot. anne is too delicate for them." anne would have been particularly obliged to her cousin, if he would have walked by her side all the way to camden place, without saying a word. she had never found it so difficult to listen to him, though nothing could exceed his solicitude and care, and though his subjects were principally such as were wont to be always interesting: praise, warm, just, and discriminating, of lady russell, and insinuations highly rational against mrs clay. but just now she could think only of captain wentworth. she could not understand his present feelings, whether he were really suffering much from disappointment or not; and till that point were settled, she could not be quite herself. she hoped to be wise and reasonable in time; but alas! alas! she must confess to herself that she was not wise yet. another circumstance very essential for her to know, was how long he meant to be in bath; he had not mentioned it, or she could not recollect it. he might be only passing through. but it was more probable that he should be come to stay. in that case, so liable as every body was to meet every body in bath, lady russell would in all likelihood see him somewhere. would she recollect him? how would it all be? she had already been obliged to tell lady russell that louisa musgrove was to marry captain benwick. it had cost her something to encounter lady russell's surprise; and now, if she were by any chance to be thrown into company with captain wentworth, her imperfect knowledge of the matter might add another shade of prejudice against him. the following morning anne was out with her friend, and for the first hour, in an incessant and fearful sort of watch for him in vain; but at last, in returning down pulteney street, she distinguished him on the right hand pavement at such a distance as to have him in view the greater part of the street. there were many other men about him, many groups walking the same way, but there was no mistaking him. she looked instinctively at lady russell; but not from any mad idea of her recognising him so soon as she did herself. no, it was not to be supposed that lady russell would perceive him till they were nearly opposite. she looked at her however, from time to time, anxiously; and when the moment approached which must point him out, though not daring to look again (for her own countenance she knew was unfit to be seen), she was yet perfectly conscious of lady russell's eyes being turned exactly in the direction for him--of her being, in short, intently observing him. she could thoroughly comprehend the sort of fascination he must possess over lady russell's mind, the difficulty it must be for her to withdraw her eyes, the astonishment she must be feeling that eight or nine years should have passed over him, and in foreign climes and in active service too, without robbing him of one personal grace! at last, lady russell drew back her head. "now, how would she speak of him?" "you will wonder," said she, "what has been fixing my eye so long; but i was looking after some window-curtains, which lady alicia and mrs frankland were telling me of last night. they described the drawing-room window-curtains of one of the houses on this side of the way, and this part of the street, as being the handsomest and best hung of any in bath, but could not recollect the exact number, and i have been trying to find out which it could be; but i confess i can see no curtains hereabouts that answer their description." anne sighed and blushed and smiled, in pity and disdain, either at her friend or herself. the part which provoked her most, was that in all this waste of foresight and caution, she should have lost the right moment for seeing whether he saw them. a day or two passed without producing anything. the theatre or the rooms, where he was most likely to be, were not fashionable enough for the elliots, whose evening amusements were solely in the elegant stupidity of private parties, in which they were getting more and more engaged; and anne, wearied of such a state of stagnation, sick of knowing nothing, and fancying herself stronger because her strength was not tried, was quite impatient for the concert evening. it was a concert for the benefit of a person patronised by lady dalrymple. of course they must attend. it was really expected to be a good one, and captain wentworth was very fond of music. if she could only have a few minutes conversation with him again, she fancied she should be satisfied; and as to the power of addressing him, she felt all over courage if the opportunity occurred. elizabeth had turned from him, lady russell overlooked him; her nerves were strengthened by these circumstances; she felt that she owed him attention. she had once partly promised mrs smith to spend the evening with her; but in a short hurried call she excused herself and put it off, with the more decided promise of a longer visit on the morrow. mrs smith gave a most good-humoured acquiescence. "by all means," said she; "only tell me all about it, when you do come. who is your party?" anne named them all. mrs smith made no reply; but when she was leaving her said, and with an expression half serious, half arch, "well, i heartily wish your concert may answer; and do not fail me to-morrow if you can come; for i begin to have a foreboding that i may not have many more visits from you." anne was startled and confused; but after standing in a moment's suspense, was obliged, and not sorry to be obliged, to hurry away. chapter 20 sir walter, his two daughters, and mrs clay, were the earliest of all their party at the rooms in the evening; and as lady dalrymple must be waited for, they took their station by one of the fires in the octagon room. but hardly were they so settled, when the door opened again, and captain wentworth walked in alone. anne was the nearest to him, and making yet a little advance, she instantly spoke. he was preparing only to bow and pass on, but her gentle "how do you do?" brought him out of the straight line to stand near her, and make enquiries in return, in spite of the formidable father and sister in the back ground. their being in the back ground was a support to anne; she knew nothing of their looks, and felt equal to everything which she believed right to be done. while they were speaking, a whispering between her father and elizabeth caught her ear. she could not distinguish, but she must guess the subject; and on captain wentworth's making a distant bow, she comprehended that her father had judged so well as to give him that simple acknowledgement of acquaintance, and she was just in time by a side glance to see a slight curtsey from elizabeth herself. this, though late, and reluctant, and ungracious, was yet better than nothing, and her spirits improved. after talking, however, of the weather, and bath, and the concert, their conversation began to flag, and so little was said at last, that she was expecting him to go every moment, but he did not; he seemed in no hurry to leave her; and presently with renewed spirit, with a little smile, a little glow, he said-"i have hardly seen you since our day at lyme. i am afraid you must have suffered from the shock, and the more from its not overpowering you at the time." she assured him that she had not. "it was a frightful hour," said he, "a frightful day!" and he passed his hand across his eyes, as if the remembrance were still too painful, but in a moment, half smiling again, added, "the day has produced some effects however; has had some consequences which must be considered as the very reverse of frightful. when you had the presence of mind to suggest that benwick would be the properest person to fetch a surgeon, you could have little idea of his being eventually one of those most concerned in her recovery." "certainly i could have none. but it appears--i should hope it would be a very happy match. there are on both sides good principles and good temper." "yes," said he, looking not exactly forward; "but there, i think, ends the resemblance. with all my soul i wish them happy, and rejoice over every circumstance in favour of it. they have no difficulties to contend with at home, no opposition, no caprice, no delays. the musgroves are behaving like themselves, most honourably and kindly, only anxious with true parental hearts to promote their daughter's comfort. all this is much, very much in favour of their happiness; more than perhaps--" he stopped. a sudden recollection seemed to occur, and to give him some taste of that emotion which was reddening anne's cheeks and fixing her eyes on the ground. after clearing his throat, however, he proceeded thus-"i confess that i do think there is a disparity, too great a disparity, and in a point no less essential than mind. i regard louisa musgrove as a very amiable, sweet-tempered girl, and not deficient in understanding, but benwick is something more. he is a clever man, a reading man; and i confess, that i do consider his attaching himself to her with some surprise. had it been the effect of gratitude, had he learnt to love her, because he believed her to be preferring him, it would have been another thing. but i have no reason to suppose it so. it seems, on the contrary, to have been a perfectly spontaneous, untaught feeling on his side, and this surprises me. a man like him, in his situation! with a heart pierced, wounded, almost broken! fanny harville was a very superior creature, and his attachment to her was indeed attachment. a man does not recover from such a devotion of the heart to such a woman. he ought not; he does not." either from the consciousness, however, that his friend had recovered, or from other consciousness, he went no farther; and anne who, in spite of the agitated voice in which the latter part had been uttered, and in spite of all the various noises of the room, the almost ceaseless slam of the door, and ceaseless buzz of persons walking through, had distinguished every word, was struck, gratified, confused, and beginning to breathe very quick, and feel an hundred things in a moment. it was impossible for her to enter on such a subject; and yet, after a pause, feeling the necessity of speaking, and having not the smallest wish for a total change, she only deviated so far as to say-"you were a good while at lyme, i think?" "about a fortnight. i could not leave it till louisa's doing well was quite ascertained. i had been too deeply concerned in the mischief to be soon at peace. it had been my doing, solely mine. she would not have been obstinate if i had not been weak. the country round lyme is very fine. i walked and rode a great deal; and the more i saw, the more i found to admire." "i should very much like to see lyme again," said anne. "indeed! i should not have supposed that you could have found anything in lyme to inspire such a feeling. the horror and distress you were involved in, the stretch of mind, the wear of spirits! i should have thought your last impressions of lyme must have been strong disgust." "the last hours were certainly very painful," replied anne; "but when pain is over, the remembrance of it often becomes a pleasure. one does not love a place the less for having suffered in it, unless it has been all suffering, nothing but suffering, which was by no means the case at lyme. we were only in anxiety and distress during the last two hours, and previously there had been a great deal of enjoyment. so much novelty and beauty! i have travelled so little, that every fresh place would be interesting to me; but there is real beauty at lyme; and in short" (with a faint blush at some recollections), "altogether my impressions of the place are very agreeable." as she ceased, the entrance door opened again, and the very party appeared for whom they were waiting. "lady dalrymple, lady dalrymple," was the rejoicing sound; and with all the eagerness compatible with anxious elegance, sir walter and his two ladies stepped forward to meet her. lady dalrymple and miss carteret, escorted by mr elliot and colonel wallis, who had happened to arrive nearly at the same instant, advanced into the room. the others joined them, and it was a group in which anne found herself also necessarily included. she was divided from captain wentworth. their interesting, almost too interesting conversation must be broken up for a time, but slight was the penance compared with the happiness which brought it on! she had learnt, in the last ten minutes, more of his feelings towards louisa, more of all his feelings than she dared to think of; and she gave herself up to the demands of the party, to the needful civilities of the moment, with exquisite, though agitated sensations. she was in good humour with all. she had received ideas which disposed her to be courteous and kind to all, and to pity every one, as being less happy than herself. the delightful emotions were a little subdued, when on stepping back from the group, to be joined again by captain wentworth, she saw that he was gone. she was just in time to see him turn into the concert room. he was gone; he had disappeared, she felt a moment's regret. but "they should meet again. he would look for her, he would find her out before the evening were over, and at present, perhaps, it was as well to be asunder. she was in need of a little interval for recollection." upon lady russell's appearance soon afterwards, the whole party was collected, and all that remained was to marshal themselves, and proceed into the concert room; and be of all the consequence in their power, draw as many eyes, excite as many whispers, and disturb as many people as they could. very, very happy were both elizabeth and anne elliot as they walked in. elizabeth arm in arm with miss carteret, and looking on the broad back of the dowager viscountess dalrymple before her, had nothing to wish for which did not seem within her reach; and anne--but it would be an insult to the nature of anne's felicity, to draw any comparison between it and her sister's; the origin of one all selfish vanity, of the other all generous attachment. anne saw nothing, thought nothing of the brilliancy of the room. her happiness was from within. her eyes were bright and her cheeks glowed; but she knew nothing about it. she was thinking only of the last half hour, and as they passed to their seats, her mind took a hasty range over it. his choice of subjects, his expressions, and still more his manner and look, had been such as she could see in only one light. his opinion of louisa musgrove's inferiority, an opinion which he had seemed solicitous to give, his wonder at captain benwick, his feelings as to a first, strong attachment; sentences begun which he could not finish, his half averted eyes and more than half expressive glance, all, all declared that he had a heart returning to her at least; that anger, resentment, avoidance, were no more; and that they were succeeded, not merely by friendship and regard, but by the tenderness of the past. yes, some share of the tenderness of the past. she could not contemplate the change as implying less. he must love her. these were thoughts, with their attendant visions, which occupied and flurried her too much to leave her any power of observation; and she passed along the room without having a glimpse of him, without even trying to discern him. when their places were determined on, and they were all properly arranged, she looked round to see if he should happen to be in the same part of the room, but he was not; her eye could not reach him; and the concert being just opening, she must consent for a time to be happy in a humbler way. the party was divided and disposed of on two contiguous benches: anne was among those on the foremost, and mr elliot had manoeuvred so well, with the assistance of his friend colonel wallis, as to have a seat by her. miss elliot, surrounded by her cousins, and the principal object of colonel wallis's gallantry, was quite contented. anne's mind was in a most favourable state for the entertainment of the evening; it was just occupation enough: she had feelings for the tender, spirits for the gay, attention for the scientific, and patience for the wearisome; and had never liked a concert better, at least during the first act. towards the close of it, in the interval succeeding an italian song, she explained the words of the song to mr elliot. they had a concert bill between them. "this," said she, "is nearly the sense, or rather the meaning of the words, for certainly the sense of an italian love-song must not be talked of, but it is as nearly the meaning as i can give; for i do not pretend to understand the language. i am a very poor italian scholar." "yes, yes, i see you are. i see you know nothing of the matter. you have only knowledge enough of the language to translate at sight these inverted, transposed, curtailed italian lines, into clear, comprehensible, elegant english. you need not say anything more of your ignorance. here is complete proof." "i will not oppose such kind politeness; but i should be sorry to be examined by a real proficient." "i have not had the pleasure of visiting in camden place so long," replied he, "without knowing something of miss anne elliot; and i do regard her as one who is too modest for the world in general to be aware of half her accomplishments, and too highly accomplished for modesty to be natural in any other woman." "for shame! for shame! this is too much flattery. i forget what we are to have next," turning to the bill. "perhaps," said mr elliot, speaking low, "i have had a longer acquaintance with your character than you are aware of." "indeed! how so? you can have been acquainted with it only since i came to bath, excepting as you might hear me previously spoken of in my own family." "i knew you by report long before you came to bath. i had heard you described by those who knew you intimately. i have been acquainted with you by character many years. your person, your disposition, accomplishments, manner; they were all present to me." mr elliot was not disappointed in the interest he hoped to raise. no one can withstand the charm of such a mystery. to have been described long ago to a recent acquaintance, by nameless people, is irresistible; and anne was all curiosity. she wondered, and questioned him eagerly; but in vain. he delighted in being asked, but he would not tell. "no, no, some time or other, perhaps, but not now. he would mention no names now; but such, he could assure her, had been the fact. he had many years ago received such a description of miss anne elliot as had inspired him with the highest idea of her merit, and excited the warmest curiosity to know her." anne could think of no one so likely to have spoken with partiality of her many years ago as the mr wentworth of monkford, captain wentworth's brother. he might have been in mr elliot's company, but she had not courage to ask the question. "the name of anne elliot," said he, "has long had an interesting sound to me. very long has it possessed a charm over my fancy; and, if i dared, i would breathe my wishes that the name might never change." such, she believed, were his words; but scarcely had she received their sound, than her attention was caught by other sounds immediately behind her, which rendered every thing else trivial. her father and lady dalrymple were speaking. "a well-looking man," said sir walter, "a very well-looking man." "a very fine young man indeed!" said lady dalrymple. "more air than one often sees in bath. irish, i dare say." "no, i just know his name. a bowing acquaintance. wentworth; captain wentworth of the navy. his sister married my tenant in somersetshire, the croft, who rents kellynch." before sir walter had reached this point, anne's eyes had caught the right direction, and distinguished captain wentworth standing among a cluster of men at a little distance. as her eyes fell on him, his seemed to be withdrawn from her. it had that appearance. it seemed as if she had been one moment too late; and as long as she dared observe, he did not look again: but the performance was recommencing, and she was forced to seem to restore her attention to the orchestra and look straight forward. when she could give another glance, he had moved away. he could not have come nearer to her if he would; she was so surrounded and shut in: but she would rather have caught his eye. mr elliot's speech, too, distressed her. she had no longer any inclination to talk to him. she wished him not so near her. the first act was over. now she hoped for some beneficial change; and, after a period of nothing-saying amongst the party, some of them did decide on going in quest of tea. anne was one of the few who did not choose to move. she remained in her seat, and so did lady russell; but she had the pleasure of getting rid of mr elliot; and she did not mean, whatever she might feel on lady russell's account, to shrink from conversation with captain wentworth, if he gave her the opportunity. she was persuaded by lady russell's countenance that she had seen him. he did not come however. anne sometimes fancied she discerned him at a distance, but he never came. the anxious interval wore away unproductively. the others returned, the room filled again, benches were reclaimed and repossessed, and another hour of pleasure or of penance was to be sat out, another hour of music was to give delight or the gapes, as real or affected taste for it prevailed. to anne, it chiefly wore the prospect of an hour of agitation. she could not quit that room in peace without seeing captain wentworth once more, without the interchange of one friendly look. in re-settling themselves there were now many changes, the result of which was favourable for her. colonel wallis declined sitting down again, and mr elliot was invited by elizabeth and miss carteret, in a manner not to be refused, to sit between them; and by some other removals, and a little scheming of her own, anne was enabled to place herself much nearer the end of the bench than she had been before, much more within reach of a passer-by. she could not do so, without comparing herself with miss larolles, the inimitable miss larolles; but still she did it, and not with much happier effect; though by what seemed prosperity in the shape of an early abdication in her next neighbours, she found herself at the very end of the bench before the concert closed. such was her situation, with a vacant space at hand, when captain wentworth was again in sight. she saw him not far off. he saw her too; yet he looked grave, and seemed irresolute, and only by very slow degrees came at last near enough to speak to her. she felt that something must be the matter. the change was indubitable. the difference between his present air and what it had been in the octagon room was strikingly great. why was it? she thought of her father, of lady russell. could there have been any unpleasant glances? he began by speaking of the concert gravely, more like the captain wentworth of uppercross; owned himself disappointed, had expected singing; and in short, must confess that he should not be sorry when it was over. anne replied, and spoke in defence of the performance so well, and yet in allowance for his feelings so pleasantly, that his countenance improved, and he replied again with almost a smile. they talked for a few minutes more; the improvement held; he even looked down towards the bench, as if he saw a place on it well worth occupying; when at that moment a touch on her shoulder obliged anne to turn round. it came from mr elliot. he begged her pardon, but she must be applied to, to explain italian again. miss carteret was very anxious to have a general idea of what was next to be sung. anne could not refuse; but never had she sacrificed to politeness with a more suffering spirit. a few minutes, though as few as possible, were inevitably consumed; and when her own mistress again, when able to turn and look as she had done before, she found herself accosted by captain wentworth, in a reserved yet hurried sort of farewell. "he must wish her good night; he was going; he should get home as fast as he could." "is not this song worth staying for?" said anne, suddenly struck by an idea which made her yet more anxious to be encouraging. "no!" he replied impressively, "there is nothing worth my staying for;" and he was gone directly. jealousy of mr elliot! it was the only intelligible motive. captain wentworth jealous of her affection! could she have believed it a week ago; three hours ago! for a moment the gratification was exquisite. but, alas! there were very different thoughts to succeed. how was such jealousy to be quieted? how was the truth to reach him? how, in all the peculiar disadvantages of their respective situations, would he ever learn of her real sentiments? it was misery to think of mr elliot's attentions. their evil was incalculable. chapter 21 anne recollected with pleasure the next morning her promise of going to mrs smith, meaning that it should engage her from home at the time when mr elliot would be most likely to call; for to avoid mr elliot was almost a first object. she felt a great deal of good-will towards him. in spite of the mischief of his attentions, she owed him gratitude and regard, perhaps compassion. she could not help thinking much of the extraordinary circumstances attending their acquaintance, of the right which he seemed to have to interest her, by everything in situation, by his own sentiments, by his early prepossession. it was altogether very extraordinary; flattering, but painful. there was much to regret. how she might have felt had there been no captain wentworth in the case, was not worth enquiry; for there was a captain wentworth; and be the conclusion of the present suspense good or bad, her affection would be his for ever. their union, she believed, could not divide her more from other men, than their final separation. prettier musings of high-wrought love and eternal constancy, could never have passed along the streets of bath, than anne was sporting with from camden place to westgate buildings. it was almost enough to spread purification and perfume all the way. she was sure of a pleasant reception; and her friend seemed this morning particularly obliged to her for coming, seemed hardly to have expected her, though it had been an appointment. an account of the concert was immediately claimed; and anne's recollections of the concert were quite happy enough to animate her features and make her rejoice to talk of it. all that she could tell she told most gladly, but the all was little for one who had been there, and unsatisfactory for such an enquirer as mrs smith, who had already heard, through the short cut of a laundress and a waiter, rather more of the general success and produce of the evening than anne could relate, and who now asked in vain for several particulars of the company. everybody of any consequence or notoriety in bath was well know by name to mrs smith. "the little durands were there, i conclude," said she, "with their mouths open to catch the music, like unfledged sparrows ready to be fed. they never miss a concert." "yes; i did not see them myself, but i heard mr elliot say they were in the room." "the ibbotsons, were they there? and the two new beauties, with the tall irish officer, who is talked of for one of them." "i do not know. i do not think they were." "old lady mary maclean? i need not ask after her. she never misses, i know; and you must have seen her. she must have been in your own circle; for as you went with lady dalrymple, you were in the seats of grandeur, round the orchestra, of course." "no, that was what i dreaded. it would have been very unpleasant to me in every respect. but happily lady dalrymple always chooses to be farther off; and we were exceedingly well placed, that is, for hearing; i must not say for seeing, because i appear to have seen very little." "oh! you saw enough for your own amusement. i can understand. there is a sort of domestic enjoyment to be known even in a crowd, and this you had. you were a large party in yourselves, and you wanted nothing beyond." "but i ought to have looked about me more," said anne, conscious while she spoke that there had in fact been no want of looking about, that the object only had been deficient. "no, no; you were better employed. you need not tell me that you had a pleasant evening. i see it in your eye. i perfectly see how the hours passed: that you had always something agreeable to listen to. in the intervals of the concert it was conversation." anne half smiled and said, "do you see that in my eye?" "yes, i do. your countenance perfectly informs me that you were in company last night with the person whom you think the most agreeable in the world, the person who interests you at this present time more than all the rest of the world put together." a blush overspread anne's cheeks. she could say nothing. "and such being the case," continued mrs smith, after a short pause, "i hope you believe that i do know how to value your kindness in coming to me this morning. it is really very good of you to come and sit with me, when you must have so many pleasanter demands upon your time." anne heard nothing of this. she was still in the astonishment and confusion excited by her friend's penetration, unable to imagine how any report of captain wentworth could have reached her. after another short silence-"pray," said mrs smith, "is mr elliot aware of your acquaintance with me? does he know that i am in bath?" "mr elliot!" repeated anne, looking up surprised. a moment's reflection shewed her the mistake she had been under. she caught it instantaneously; and recovering her courage with the feeling of safety, soon added, more composedly, "are you acquainted with mr elliot?" "i have been a good deal acquainted with him," replied mrs smith, gravely, "but it seems worn out now. it is a great while since we met." "i was not at all aware of this. you never mentioned it before. had i known it, i would have had the pleasure of talking to him about you." "to confess the truth," said mrs smith, assuming her usual air of cheerfulness, "that is exactly the pleasure i want you to have. i want you to talk about me to mr elliot. i want your interest with him. he can be of essential service to me; and if you would have the goodness, my dear miss elliot, to make it an object to yourself, of course it is done." "i should be extremely happy; i hope you cannot doubt my willingness to be of even the slightest use to you," replied anne; "but i suspect that you are considering me as having a higher claim on mr elliot, a greater right to influence him, than is really the case. i am sure you have, somehow or other, imbibed such a notion. you must consider me only as mr elliot's relation. if in that light there is anything which you suppose his cousin might fairly ask of him, i beg you would not hesitate to employ me." mrs smith gave her a penetrating glance, and then, smiling, said-"i have been a little premature, i perceive; i beg your pardon. i ought to have waited for official information. but now, my dear miss elliot, as an old friend, do give me a hint as to when i may speak. next week? to be sure by next week i may be allowed to think it all settled, and build my own selfish schemes on mr elliot's good fortune." "no," replied anne, "nor next week, nor next, nor next. i assure you that nothing of the sort you are thinking of will be settled any week. i am not going to marry mr elliot. i should like to know why you imagine i am?" mrs smith looked at her again, looked earnestly, smiled, shook her head, and exclaimed-"now, how i do wish i understood you! how i do wish i knew what you were at! i have a great idea that you do not design to be cruel, when the right moment occurs. till it does come, you know, we women never mean to have anybody. it is a thing of course among us, that every man is refused, till he offers. but why should you be cruel? let me plead for my--present friend i cannot call him, but for my former friend. where can you look for a more suitable match? where could you expect a more gentlemanlike, agreeable man? let me recommend mr elliot. i am sure you hear nothing but good of him from colonel wallis; and who can know him better than colonel wallis?" "my dear mrs smith, mr elliot's wife has not been dead much above half a year. he ought not to be supposed to be paying his addresses to any one." "oh! if these are your only objections," cried mrs smith, archly, "mr elliot is safe, and i shall give myself no more trouble about him. do not forget me when you are married, that's all. let him know me to be a friend of yours, and then he will think little of the trouble required, which it is very natural for him now, with so many affairs and engagements of his own, to avoid and get rid of as he can; very natural, perhaps. ninety-nine out of a hundred would do the same. of course, he cannot be aware of the importance to me. well, my dear miss elliot, i hope and trust you will be very happy. mr elliot has sense to understand the value of such a woman. your peace will not be shipwrecked as mine has been. you are safe in all worldly matters, and safe in his character. he will not be led astray; he will not be misled by others to his ruin." "no," said anne, "i can readily believe all that of my cousin. he seems to have a calm decided temper, not at all open to dangerous impressions. i consider him with great respect. i have no reason, from any thing that has fallen within my observation, to do otherwise. but i have not known him long; and he is not a man, i think, to be known intimately soon. will not this manner of speaking of him, mrs smith, convince you that he is nothing to me? surely this must be calm enough. and, upon my word, he is nothing to me. should he ever propose to me (which i have very little reason to imagine he has any thought of doing), i shall not accept him. i assure you i shall not. i assure you, mr elliot had not the share which you have been supposing, in whatever pleasure the concert of last night might afford: not mr elliot; it is not mr elliot that--" she stopped, regretting with a deep blush that she had implied so much; but less would hardly have been sufficient. mrs smith would hardly have believed so soon in mr elliot's failure, but from the perception of there being a somebody else. as it was, she instantly submitted, and with all the semblance of seeing nothing beyond; and anne, eager to escape farther notice, was impatient to know why mrs smith should have fancied she was to marry mr elliot; where she could have received the idea, or from whom she could have heard it. "do tell me how it first came into your head." "it first came into my head," replied mrs smith, "upon finding how much you were together, and feeling it to be the most probable thing in the world to be wished for by everybody belonging to either of you; and you may depend upon it that all your acquaintance have disposed of you in the same way. but i never heard it spoken of till two days ago." "and has it indeed been spoken of?" "did you observe the woman who opened the door to you when you called yesterday?" "no. was not it mrs speed, as usual, or the maid? i observed no one in particular." "it was my friend mrs rooke; nurse rooke; who, by-the-bye, had a great curiosity to see you, and was delighted to be in the way to let you in. she came away from marlborough buildings only on sunday; and she it was who told me you were to marry mr elliot. she had had it from mrs wallis herself, which did not seem bad authority. she sat an hour with me on monday evening, and gave me the whole history." "the whole history," repeated anne, laughing. "she could not make a very long history, i think, of one such little article of unfounded news." mrs smith said nothing. "but," continued anne, presently, "though there is no truth in my having this claim on mr elliot, i should be extremely happy to be of use to you in any way that i could. shall i mention to him your being in bath? shall i take any message?" "no, i thank you: no, certainly not. in the warmth of the moment, and under a mistaken impression, i might, perhaps, have endeavoured to interest you in some circumstances; but not now. no, i thank you, i have nothing to trouble you with." "i think you spoke of having known mr elliot many years?" "i did." "not before he was married, i suppose?" "yes; he was not married when i knew him first." "and--were you much acquainted?" "intimately." "indeed! then do tell me what he was at that time of life. i have a great curiosity to know what mr elliot was as a very young man. was he at all such as he appears now?" "i have not seen mr elliot these three years," was mrs smith's answer, given so gravely that it was impossible to pursue the subject farther; and anne felt that she had gained nothing but an increase of curiosity. they were both silent: mrs smith very thoughtful. at last-"i beg your pardon, my dear miss elliot," she cried, in her natural tone of cordiality, "i beg your pardon for the short answers i have been giving you, but i have been uncertain what i ought to do. i have been doubting and considering as to what i ought to tell you. there were many things to be taken into the account. one hates to be officious, to be giving bad impressions, making mischief. even the smooth surface of family-union seems worth preserving, though there may be nothing durable beneath. however, i have determined; i think i am right; i think you ought to be made acquainted with mr elliot's real character. though i fully believe that, at present, you have not the smallest intention of accepting him, there is no saying what may happen. you might, some time or other, be differently affected towards him. hear the truth, therefore, now, while you are unprejudiced. mr elliot is a man without heart or conscience; a designing, wary, cold-blooded being, who thinks only of himself; whom for his own interest or ease, would be guilty of any cruelty, or any treachery, that could be perpetrated without risk of his general character. he has no feeling for others. those whom he has been the chief cause of leading into ruin, he can neglect and desert without the smallest compunction. he is totally beyond the reach of any sentiment of justice or compassion. oh! he is black at heart, hollow and black!" anne's astonished air, and exclamation of wonder, made her pause, and in a calmer manner, she added, "my expressions startle you. you must allow for an injured, angry woman. but i will try to command myself. i will not abuse him. i will only tell you what i have found him. facts shall speak. he was the intimate friend of my dear husband, who trusted and loved him, and thought him as good as himself. the intimacy had been formed before our marriage. i found them most intimate friends; and i, too, became excessively pleased with mr elliot, and entertained the highest opinion of him. at nineteen, you know, one does not think very seriously; but mr elliot appeared to me quite as good as others, and much more agreeable than most others, and we were almost always together. we were principally in town, living in very good style. he was then the inferior in circumstances; he was then the poor one; he had chambers in the temple, and it was as much as he could do to support the appearance of a gentleman. he had always a home with us whenever he chose it; he was always welcome; he was like a brother. my poor charles, who had the finest, most generous spirit in the world, would have divided his last farthing with him; and i know that his purse was open to him; i know that he often assisted him." "this must have been about that very period of mr elliot's life," said anne, "which has always excited my particular curiosity. it must have been about the same time that he became known to my father and sister. i never knew him myself; i only heard of him; but there was a something in his conduct then, with regard to my father and sister, and afterwards in the circumstances of his marriage, which i never could quite reconcile with present times. it seemed to announce a different sort of man." "i know it all, i know it all," cried mrs smith. "he had been introduced to sir walter and your sister before i was acquainted with him, but i heard him speak of them for ever. i know he was invited and encouraged, and i know he did not choose to go. i can satisfy you, perhaps, on points which you would little expect; and as to his marriage, i knew all about it at the time. i was privy to all the fors and againsts; i was the friend to whom he confided his hopes and plans; and though i did not know his wife previously, her inferior situation in society, indeed, rendered that impossible, yet i knew her all her life afterwards, or at least till within the last two years of her life, and can answer any question you may wish to put." "nay," said anne, "i have no particular enquiry to make about her. i have always understood they were not a happy couple. but i should like to know why, at that time of his life, he should slight my father's acquaintance as he did. my father was certainly disposed to take very kind and proper notice of him. why did mr elliot draw back?" "mr elliot," replied mrs smith, "at that period of his life, had one object in view: to make his fortune, and by a rather quicker process than the law. he was determined to make it by marriage. he was determined, at least, not to mar it by an imprudent marriage; and i know it was his belief (whether justly or not, of course i cannot decide), that your father and sister, in their civilities and invitations, were designing a match between the heir and the young lady, and it was impossible that such a match should have answered his ideas of wealth and independence. that was his motive for drawing back, i can assure you. he told me the whole story. he had no concealments with me. it was curious, that having just left you behind me in bath, my first and principal acquaintance on marrying should be your cousin; and that, through him, i should be continually hearing of your father and sister. he described one miss elliot, and i thought very affectionately of the other." "perhaps," cried anne, struck by a sudden idea, "you sometimes spoke of me to mr elliot?" "to be sure i did; very often. i used to boast of my own anne elliot, and vouch for your being a very different creature from--" she checked herself just in time. "this accounts for something which mr elliot said last night," cried anne. "this explains it. i found he had been used to hear of me. i could not comprehend how. what wild imaginations one forms where dear self is concerned! how sure to be mistaken! but i beg your pardon; i have interrupted you. mr elliot married then completely for money? the circumstances, probably, which first opened your eyes to his character." mrs smith hesitated a little here. "oh! those things are too common. when one lives in the world, a man or woman's marrying for money is too common to strike one as it ought. i was very young, and associated only with the young, and we were a thoughtless, gay set, without any strict rules of conduct. we lived for enjoyment. i think differently now; time and sickness and sorrow have given me other notions; but at that period i must own i saw nothing reprehensible in what mr elliot was doing. 'to do the best for himself,' passed as a duty." "but was not she a very low woman?" "yes; which i objected to, but he would not regard. money, money, was all that he wanted. her father was a grazier, her grandfather had been a butcher, but that was all nothing. she was a fine woman, had had a decent education, was brought forward by some cousins, thrown by chance into mr elliot's company, and fell in love with him; and not a difficulty or a scruple was there on his side, with respect to her birth. all his caution was spent in being secured of the real amount of her fortune, before he committed himself. depend upon it, whatever esteem mr elliot may have for his own situation in life now, as a young man he had not the smallest value for it. his chance for the kellynch estate was something, but all the honour of the family he held as cheap as dirt. i have often heard him declare, that if baronetcies were saleable, anybody should have his for fifty pounds, arms and motto, name and livery included; but i will not pretend to repeat half that i used to hear him say on that subject. it would not be fair; and yet you ought to have proof, for what is all this but assertion, and you shall have proof." "indeed, my dear mrs smith, i want none," cried anne. "you have asserted nothing contradictory to what mr elliot appeared to be some years ago. this is all in confirmation, rather, of what we used to hear and believe. i am more curious to know why he should be so different now." "but for my satisfaction, if you will have the goodness to ring for mary; stay: i am sure you will have the still greater goodness of going yourself into my bedroom, and bringing me the small inlaid box which you will find on the upper shelf of the closet." anne, seeing her friend to be earnestly bent on it, did as she was desired. the box was brought and placed before her, and mrs smith, sighing over it as she unlocked it, said-"this is full of papers belonging to him, to my husband; a small portion only of what i had to look over when i lost him. the letter i am looking for was one written by mr elliot to him before our marriage, and happened to be saved; why, one can hardly imagine. but he was careless and immethodical, like other men, about those things; and when i came to examine his papers, i found it with others still more trivial, from different people scattered here and there, while many letters and memorandums of real importance had been destroyed. here it is; i would not burn it, because being even then very little satisfied with mr elliot, i was determined to preserve every document of former intimacy. i have now another motive for being glad that i can produce it." this was the letter, directed to "charles smith, esq. tunbridge wells," and dated from london, as far back as july, 1803:-"dear smith,--i have received yours. your kindness almost overpowers me. i wish nature had made such hearts as yours more common, but i have lived three-and-twenty years in the world, and have seen none like it. at present, believe me, i have no need of your services, being in cash again. give me joy: i have got rid of sir walter and miss. they are gone back to kellynch, and almost made me swear to visit them this summer; but my first visit to kellynch will be with a surveyor, to tell me how to bring it with best advantage to the hammer. the baronet, nevertheless, is not unlikely to marry again; he is quite fool enough. if he does, however, they will leave me in peace, which may be a decent equivalent for the reversion. he is worse than last year. "i wish i had any name but elliot. i am sick of it. the name of walter i can drop, thank god! and i desire you will never insult me with my second w. again, meaning, for the rest of my life, to be only yours truly,--wm. elliot." such a letter could not be read without putting anne in a glow; and mrs smith, observing the high colour in her face, said-"the language, i know, is highly disrespectful. though i have forgot the exact terms, i have a perfect impression of the general meaning. but it shows you the man. mark his professions to my poor husband. can any thing be stronger?" anne could not immediately get over the shock and mortification of finding such words applied to her father. she was obliged to recollect that her seeing the letter was a violation of the laws of honour, that no one ought to be judged or to be known by such testimonies, that no private correspondence could bear the eye of others, before she could recover calmness enough to return the letter which she had been meditating over, and say-"thank you. this is full proof undoubtedly; proof of every thing you were saying. but why be acquainted with us now?" "i can explain this too," cried mrs smith, smiling. "can you really?" "yes. i have shewn you mr elliot as he was a dozen years ago, and i will shew him as he is now. i cannot produce written proof again, but i can give as authentic oral testimony as you can desire, of what he is now wanting, and what he is now doing. he is no hypocrite now. he truly wants to marry you. his present attentions to your family are very sincere: quite from the heart. i will give you my authority: his friend colonel wallis." "colonel wallis! you are acquainted with him?" "no. it does not come to me in quite so direct a line as that; it takes a bend or two, but nothing of consequence. the stream is as good as at first; the little rubbish it collects in the turnings is easily moved away. mr elliot talks unreservedly to colonel wallis of his views on you, which said colonel wallis, i imagine to be, in himself, a sensible, careful, discerning sort of character; but colonel wallis has a very pretty silly wife, to whom he tells things which he had better not, and he repeats it all to her. she in the overflowing spirits of her recovery, repeats it all to her nurse; and the nurse knowing my acquaintance with you, very naturally brings it all to me. on monday evening, my good friend mrs rooke let me thus much into the secrets of marlborough buildings. when i talked of a whole history, therefore, you see i was not romancing so much as you supposed." "my dear mrs smith, your authority is deficient. this will not do. mr elliot's having any views on me will not in the least account for the efforts he made towards a reconciliation with my father. that was all prior to my coming to bath. i found them on the most friendly terms when i arrived." "i know you did; i know it all perfectly, but--" "indeed, mrs smith, we must not expect to get real information in such a line. facts or opinions which are to pass through the hands of so many, to be misconceived by folly in one, and ignorance in another, can hardly have much truth left." "only give me a hearing. you will soon be able to judge of the general credit due, by listening to some particulars which you can yourself immediately contradict or confirm. nobody supposes that you were his first inducement. he had seen you indeed, before he came to bath, and admired you, but without knowing it to be you. so says my historian, at least. is this true? did he see you last summer or autumn, 'somewhere down in the west,' to use her own words, without knowing it to be you?" "he certainly did. so far it is very true. at lyme. i happened to be at lyme." "well," continued mrs smith, triumphantly, "grant my friend the credit due to the establishment of the first point asserted. he saw you then at lyme, and liked you so well as to be exceedingly pleased to meet with you again in camden place, as miss anne elliot, and from that moment, i have no doubt, had a double motive in his visits there. but there was another, and an earlier, which i will now explain. if there is anything in my story which you know to be either false or improbable, stop me. my account states, that your sister's friend, the lady now staying with you, whom i have heard you mention, came to bath with miss elliot and sir walter as long ago as september (in short when they first came themselves), and has been staying there ever since; that she is a clever, insinuating, handsome woman, poor and plausible, and altogether such in situation and manner, as to give a general idea, among sir walter's acquaintance, of her meaning to be lady elliot, and as general a surprise that miss elliot should be apparently, blind to the danger." here mrs smith paused a moment; but anne had not a word to say, and she continued-"this was the light in which it appeared to those who knew the family, long before you returned to it; and colonel wallis had his eye upon your father enough to be sensible of it, though he did not then visit in camden place; but his regard for mr elliot gave him an interest in watching all that was going on there, and when mr elliot came to bath for a day or two, as he happened to do a little before christmas, colonel wallis made him acquainted with the appearance of things, and the reports beginning to prevail. now you are to understand, that time had worked a very material change in mr elliot's opinions as to the value of a baronetcy. upon all points of blood and connexion he is a completely altered man. having long had as much money as he could spend, nothing to wish for on the side of avarice or indulgence, he has been gradually learning to pin his happiness upon the consequence he is heir to. i thought it coming on before our acquaintance ceased, but it is now a confirmed feeling. he cannot bear the idea of not being sir william. you may guess, therefore, that the news he heard from his friend could not be very agreeable, and you may guess what it produced; the resolution of coming back to bath as soon as possible, and of fixing himself here for a time, with the view of renewing his former acquaintance, and recovering such a footing in the family as might give him the means of ascertaining the degree of his danger, and of circumventing the lady if he found it material. this was agreed upon between the two friends as the only thing to be done; and colonel wallis was to assist in every way that he could. he was to be introduced, and mrs wallis was to be introduced, and everybody was to be introduced. mr elliot came back accordingly; and on application was forgiven, as you know, and re-admitted into the family; and there it was his constant object, and his only object (till your arrival added another motive), to watch sir walter and mrs clay. he omitted no opportunity of being with them, threw himself in their way, called at all hours; but i need not be particular on this subject. you can imagine what an artful man would do; and with this guide, perhaps, may recollect what you have seen him do." "yes," said anne, "you tell me nothing which does not accord with what i have known, or could imagine. there is always something offensive in the details of cunning. the manoeuvres of selfishness and duplicity must ever be revolting, but i have heard nothing which really surprises me. i know those who would be shocked by such a representation of mr elliot, who would have difficulty in believing it; but i have never been satisfied. i have always wanted some other motive for his conduct than appeared. i should like to know his present opinion, as to the probability of the event he has been in dread of; whether he considers the danger to be lessening or not." "lessening, i understand," replied mrs smith. "he thinks mrs clay afraid of him, aware that he sees through her, and not daring to proceed as she might do in his absence. but since he must be absent some time or other, i do not perceive how he can ever be secure while she holds her present influence. mrs wallis has an amusing idea, as nurse tells me, that it is to be put into the marriage articles when you and mr elliot marry, that your father is not to marry mrs clay. a scheme, worthy of mrs wallis's understanding, by all accounts; but my sensible nurse rooke sees the absurdity of it. 'why, to be sure, ma'am,' said she, 'it would not prevent his marrying anybody else.' and, indeed, to own the truth, i do not think nurse, in her heart, is a very strenuous opposer of sir walter's making a second match. she must be allowed to be a favourer of matrimony, you know; and (since self will intrude) who can say that she may not have some flying visions of attending the next lady elliot, through mrs wallis's recommendation?" "i am very glad to know all this," said anne, after a little thoughtfulness. "it will be more painful to me in some respects to be in company with him, but i shall know better what to do. my line of conduct will be more direct. mr elliot is evidently a disingenuous, artificial, worldly man, who has never had any better principle to guide him than selfishness." but mr elliot was not done with. mrs smith had been carried away from her first direction, and anne had forgotten, in the interest of her own family concerns, how much had been originally implied against him; but her attention was now called to the explanation of those first hints, and she listened to a recital which, if it did not perfectly justify the unqualified bitterness of mrs smith, proved him to have been very unfeeling in his conduct towards her; very deficient both in justice and compassion. she learned that (the intimacy between them continuing unimpaired by mr elliot's marriage) they had been as before always together, and mr elliot had led his friend into expenses much beyond his fortune. mrs smith did not want to take blame to herself, and was most tender of throwing any on her husband; but anne could collect that their income had never been equal to their style of living, and that from the first there had been a great deal of general and joint extravagance. from his wife's account of him she could discern mr smith to have been a man of warm feelings, easy temper, careless habits, and not strong understanding, much more amiable than his friend, and very unlike him, led by him, and probably despised by him. mr elliot, raised by his marriage to great affluence, and disposed to every gratification of pleasure and vanity which could be commanded without involving himself, (for with all his self-indulgence he had become a prudent man), and beginning to be rich, just as his friend ought to have found himself to be poor, seemed to have had no concern at all for that friend's probable finances, but, on the contrary, had been prompting and encouraging expenses which could end only in ruin; and the smiths accordingly had been ruined. the husband had died just in time to be spared the full knowledge of it. they had previously known embarrassments enough to try the friendship of their friends, and to prove that mr elliot's had better not be tried; but it was not till his death that the wretched state of his affairs was fully known. with a confidence in mr elliot's regard, more creditable to his feelings than his judgement, mr smith had appointed him the executor of his will; but mr elliot would not act, and the difficulties and distress which this refusal had heaped on her, in addition to the inevitable sufferings of her situation, had been such as could not be related without anguish of spirit, or listened to without corresponding indignation. anne was shewn some letters of his on the occasion, answers to urgent applications from mrs smith, which all breathed the same stern resolution of not engaging in a fruitless trouble, and, under a cold civility, the same hard-hearted indifference to any of the evils it might bring on her. it was a dreadful picture of ingratitude and inhumanity; and anne felt, at some moments, that no flagrant open crime could have been worse. she had a great deal to listen to; all the particulars of past sad scenes, all the minutiae of distress upon distress, which in former conversations had been merely hinted at, were dwelt on now with a natural indulgence. anne could perfectly comprehend the exquisite relief, and was only the more inclined to wonder at the composure of her friend's usual state of mind. there was one circumstance in the history of her grievances of particular irritation. she had good reason to believe that some property of her husband in the west indies, which had been for many years under a sort of sequestration for the payment of its own incumbrances, might be recoverable by proper measures; and this property, though not large, would be enough to make her comparatively rich. but there was nobody to stir in it. mr elliot would do nothing, and she could do nothing herself, equally disabled from personal exertion by her state of bodily weakness, and from employing others by her want of money. she had no natural connexions to assist her even with their counsel, and she could not afford to purchase the assistance of the law. this was a cruel aggravation of actually straitened means. to feel that she ought to be in better circumstances, that a little trouble in the right place might do it, and to fear that delay might be even weakening her claims, was hard to bear. it was on this point that she had hoped to engage anne's good offices with mr elliot. she had previously, in the anticipation of their marriage, been very apprehensive of losing her friend by it; but on being assured that he could have made no attempt of that nature, since he did not even know her to be in bath, it immediately occurred, that something might be done in her favour by the influence of the woman he loved, and she had been hastily preparing to interest anne's feelings, as far as the observances due to mr elliot's character would allow, when anne's refutation of the supposed engagement changed the face of everything; and while it took from her the new-formed hope of succeeding in the object of her first anxiety, left her at least the comfort of telling the whole story her own way. after listening to this full description of mr elliot, anne could not but express some surprise at mrs smith's having spoken of him so favourably in the beginning of their conversation. "she had seemed to recommend and praise him!" "my dear," was mrs smith's reply, "there was nothing else to be done. i considered your marrying him as certain, though he might not yet have made the offer, and i could no more speak the truth of him, than if he had been your husband. my heart bled for you, as i talked of happiness; and yet he is sensible, he is agreeable, and with such a woman as you, it was not absolutely hopeless. he was very unkind to his first wife. they were wretched together. but she was too ignorant and giddy for respect, and he had never loved her. i was willing to hope that you must fare better." anne could just acknowledge within herself such a possibility of having been induced to marry him, as made her shudder at the idea of the misery which must have followed. it was just possible that she might have been persuaded by lady russell! and under such a supposition, which would have been most miserable, when time had disclosed all, too late? it was very desirable that lady russell should be no longer deceived; and one of the concluding arrangements of this important conference, which carried them through the greater part of the morning, was, that anne had full liberty to communicate to her friend everything relative to mrs smith, in which his conduct was involved. chapter 22 anne went home to think over all that she had heard. in one point, her feelings were relieved by this knowledge of mr elliot. there was no longer anything of tenderness due to him. he stood as opposed to captain wentworth, in all his own unwelcome obtrusiveness; and the evil of his attentions last night, the irremediable mischief he might have done, was considered with sensations unqualified, unperplexed. pity for him was all over. but this was the only point of relief. in every other respect, in looking around her, or penetrating forward, she saw more to distrust and to apprehend. she was concerned for the disappointment and pain lady russell would be feeling; for the mortifications which must be hanging over her father and sister, and had all the distress of foreseeing many evils, without knowing how to avert any one of them. she was most thankful for her own knowledge of him. she had never considered herself as entitled to reward for not slighting an old friend like mrs smith, but here was a reward indeed springing from it! mrs smith had been able to tell her what no one else could have done. could the knowledge have been extended through her family? but this was a vain idea. she must talk to lady russell, tell her, consult with her, and having done her best, wait the event with as much composure as possible; and after all, her greatest want of composure would be in that quarter of the mind which could not be opened to lady russell; in that flow of anxieties and fears which must be all to herself. she found, on reaching home, that she had, as she intended, escaped seeing mr elliot; that he had called and paid them a long morning visit; but hardly had she congratulated herself, and felt safe, when she heard that he was coming again in the evening. "i had not the smallest intention of asking him," said elizabeth, with affected carelessness, "but he gave so many hints; so mrs clay says, at least." "indeed, i do say it. i never saw anybody in my life spell harder for an invitation. poor man! i was really in pain for him; for your hard-hearted sister, miss anne, seems bent on cruelty." "oh!" cried elizabeth, "i have been rather too much used to the game to be soon overcome by a gentleman's hints. however, when i found how excessively he was regretting that he should miss my father this morning, i gave way immediately, for i would never really omit an opportunity of bringing him and sir walter together. they appear to so much advantage in company with each other. each behaving so pleasantly. mr elliot looking up with so much respect." "quite delightful!" cried mrs clay, not daring, however, to turn her eyes towards anne. "exactly like father and son! dear miss elliot, may i not say father and son?" "oh! i lay no embargo on any body's words. if you will have such ideas! but, upon my word, i am scarcely sensible of his attentions being beyond those of other men." "my dear miss elliot!" exclaimed mrs clay, lifting her hands and eyes, and sinking all the rest of her astonishment in a convenient silence. "well, my dear penelope, you need not be so alarmed about him. i did invite him, you know. i sent him away with smiles. when i found he was really going to his friends at thornberry park for the whole day to-morrow, i had compassion on him." anne admired the good acting of the friend, in being able to shew such pleasure as she did, in the expectation and in the actual arrival of the very person whose presence must really be interfering with her prime object. it was impossible but that mrs clay must hate the sight of mr elliot; and yet she could assume a most obliging, placid look, and appear quite satisfied with the curtailed license of devoting herself only half as much to sir walter as she would have done otherwise. to anne herself it was most distressing to see mr elliot enter the room; and quite painful to have him approach and speak to her. she had been used before to feel that he could not be always quite sincere, but now she saw insincerity in everything. his attentive deference to her father, contrasted with his former language, was odious; and when she thought of his cruel conduct towards mrs smith, she could hardly bear the sight of his present smiles and mildness, or the sound of his artificial good sentiments. she meant to avoid any such alteration of manners as might provoke a remonstrance on his side. it was a great object to her to escape all enquiry or eclat; but it was her intention to be as decidedly cool to him as might be compatible with their relationship; and to retrace, as quietly as she could, the few steps of unnecessary intimacy she had been gradually led along. she was accordingly more guarded, and more cool, than she had been the night before. he wanted to animate her curiosity again as to how and where he could have heard her formerly praised; wanted very much to be gratified by more solicitation; but the charm was broken: he found that the heat and animation of a public room was necessary to kindle his modest cousin's vanity; he found, at least, that it was not to be done now, by any of those attempts which he could hazard among the too-commanding claims of the others. he little surmised that it was a subject acting now exactly against his interest, bringing immediately to her thoughts all those parts of his conduct which were least excusable. she had some satisfaction in finding that he was really going out of bath the next morning, going early, and that he would be gone the greater part of two days. he was invited again to camden place the very evening of his return; but from thursday to saturday evening his absence was certain. it was bad enough that a mrs clay should be always before her; but that a deeper hypocrite should be added to their party, seemed the destruction of everything like peace and comfort. it was so humiliating to reflect on the constant deception practised on her father and elizabeth; to consider the various sources of mortification preparing for them! mrs clay's selfishness was not so complicate nor so revolting as his; and anne would have compounded for the marriage at once, with all its evils, to be clear of mr elliot's subtleties in endeavouring to prevent it. on friday morning she meant to go very early to lady russell, and accomplish the necessary communication; and she would have gone directly after breakfast, but that mrs clay was also going out on some obliging purpose of saving her sister trouble, which determined her to wait till she might be safe from such a companion. she saw mrs clay fairly off, therefore, before she began to talk of spending the morning in rivers street. "very well," said elizabeth, "i have nothing to send but my love. oh! you may as well take back that tiresome book she would lend me, and pretend i have read it through. i really cannot be plaguing myself for ever with all the new poems and states of the nation that come out. lady russell quite bores one with her new publications. you need not tell her so, but i thought her dress hideous the other night. i used to think she had some taste in dress, but i was ashamed of her at the concert. something so formal and _arrangã©_ in her air! and she sits so upright! my best love, of course." "and mine," added sir walter. "kindest regards. and you may say, that i mean to call upon her soon. make a civil message; but i shall only leave my card. morning visits are never fair by women at her time of life, who make themselves up so little. if she would only wear rouge she would not be afraid of being seen; but last time i called, i observed the blinds were let down immediately." while her father spoke, there was a knock at the door. who could it be? anne, remembering the preconcerted visits, at all hours, of mr elliot, would have expected him, but for his known engagement seven miles off. after the usual period of suspense, the usual sounds of approach were heard, and "mr and mrs charles musgrove" were ushered into the room. surprise was the strongest emotion raised by their appearance; but anne was really glad to see them; and the others were not so sorry but that they could put on a decent air of welcome; and as soon as it became clear that these, their nearest relations, were not arrived with any views of accommodation in that house, sir walter and elizabeth were able to rise in cordiality, and do the honours of it very well. they were come to bath for a few days with mrs musgrove, and were at the white hart. so much was pretty soon understood; but till sir walter and elizabeth were walking mary into the other drawing-room, and regaling themselves with her admiration, anne could not draw upon charles's brain for a regular history of their coming, or an explanation of some smiling hints of particular business, which had been ostentatiously dropped by mary, as well as of some apparent confusion as to whom their party consisted of. she then found that it consisted of mrs musgrove, henrietta, and captain harville, beside their two selves. he gave her a very plain, intelligible account of the whole; a narration in which she saw a great deal of most characteristic proceeding. the scheme had received its first impulse by captain harville's wanting to come to bath on business. he had begun to talk of it a week ago; and by way of doing something, as shooting was over, charles had proposed coming with him, and mrs harville had seemed to like the idea of it very much, as an advantage to her husband; but mary could not bear to be left, and had made herself so unhappy about it, that for a day or two everything seemed to be in suspense, or at an end. but then, it had been taken up by his father and mother. his mother had some old friends in bath whom she wanted to see; it was thought a good opportunity for henrietta to come and buy wedding-clothes for herself and her sister; and, in short, it ended in being his mother's party, that everything might be comfortable and easy to captain harville; and he and mary were included in it by way of general convenience. they had arrived late the night before. mrs harville, her children, and captain benwick, remained with mr musgrove and louisa at uppercross. anne's only surprise was, that affairs should be in forwardness enough for henrietta's wedding-clothes to be talked of. she had imagined such difficulties of fortune to exist there as must prevent the marriage from being near at hand; but she learned from charles that, very recently, (since mary's last letter to herself), charles hayter had been applied to by a friend to hold a living for a youth who could not possibly claim it under many years; and that on the strength of his present income, with almost a certainty of something more permanent long before the term in question, the two families had consented to the young people's wishes, and that their marriage was likely to take place in a few months, quite as soon as louisa's. "and a very good living it was," charles added: "only five-and-twenty miles from uppercross, and in a very fine country: fine part of dorsetshire. in the centre of some of the best preserves in the kingdom, surrounded by three great proprietors, each more careful and jealous than the other; and to two of the three at least, charles hayter might get a special recommendation. not that he will value it as he ought," he observed, "charles is too cool about sporting. that's the worst of him." "i am extremely glad, indeed," cried anne, "particularly glad that this should happen; and that of two sisters, who both deserve equally well, and who have always been such good friends, the pleasant prospect of one should not be dimming those of the other--that they should be so equal in their prosperity and comfort. i hope your father and mother are quite happy with regard to both." "oh! yes. my father would be well pleased if the gentlemen were richer, but he has no other fault to find. money, you know, coming down with money--two daughters at once--it cannot be a very agreeable operation, and it streightens him as to many things. however, i do not mean to say they have not a right to it. it is very fit they should have daughters' shares; and i am sure he has always been a very kind, liberal father to me. mary does not above half like henrietta's match. she never did, you know. but she does not do him justice, nor think enough about winthrop. i cannot make her attend to the value of the property. it is a very fair match, as times go; and i have liked charles hayter all my life, and i shall not leave off now." "such excellent parents as mr and mrs musgrove," exclaimed anne, "should be happy in their children's marriages. they do everything to confer happiness, i am sure. what a blessing to young people to be in such hands! your father and mother seem so totally free from all those ambitious feelings which have led to so much misconduct and misery, both in young and old. i hope you think louisa perfectly recovered now?" he answered rather hesitatingly, "yes, i believe i do; very much recovered; but she is altered; there is no running or jumping about, no laughing or dancing; it is quite different. if one happens only to shut the door a little hard, she starts and wriggles like a young dab-chick in the water; and benwick sits at her elbow, reading verses, or whispering to her, all day long." anne could not help laughing. "that cannot be much to your taste, i know," said she; "but i do believe him to be an excellent young man." "to be sure he is. nobody doubts it; and i hope you do not think i am so illiberal as to want every man to have the same objects and pleasures as myself. i have a great value for benwick; and when one can but get him to talk, he has plenty to say. his reading has done him no harm, for he has fought as well as read. he is a brave fellow. i got more acquainted with him last monday than ever i did before. we had a famous set-to at rat-hunting all the morning in my father's great barns; and he played his part so well that i have liked him the better ever since." here they were interrupted by the absolute necessity of charles's following the others to admire mirrors and china; but anne had heard enough to understand the present state of uppercross, and rejoice in its happiness; and though she sighed as she rejoiced, her sigh had none of the ill-will of envy in it. she would certainly have risen to their blessings if she could, but she did not want to lessen theirs. the visit passed off altogether in high good humour. mary was in excellent spirits, enjoying the gaiety and the change, and so well satisfied with the journey in her mother-in-law's carriage with four horses, and with her own complete independence of camden place, that she was exactly in a temper to admire everything as she ought, and enter most readily into all the superiorities of the house, as they were detailed to her. she had no demands on her father or sister, and her consequence was just enough increased by their handsome drawing-rooms. elizabeth was, for a short time, suffering a good deal. she felt that mrs musgrove and all her party ought to be asked to dine with them; but she could not bear to have the difference of style, the reduction of servants, which a dinner must betray, witnessed by those who had been always so inferior to the elliots of kellynch. it was a struggle between propriety and vanity; but vanity got the better, and then elizabeth was happy again. these were her internal persuasions: "old fashioned notions; country hospitality; we do not profess to give dinners; few people in bath do; lady alicia never does; did not even ask her own sister's family, though they were here a month: and i dare say it would be very inconvenient to mrs musgrove; put her quite out of her way. i am sure she would rather not come; she cannot feel easy with us. i will ask them all for an evening; that will be much better; that will be a novelty and a treat. they have not seen two such drawing rooms before. they will be delighted to come to-morrow evening. it shall be a regular party, small, but most elegant." and this satisfied elizabeth: and when the invitation was given to the two present, and promised for the absent, mary was as completely satisfied. she was particularly asked to meet mr elliot, and be introduced to lady dalrymple and miss carteret, who were fortunately already engaged to come; and she could not have received a more gratifying attention. miss elliot was to have the honour of calling on mrs musgrove in the course of the morning; and anne walked off with charles and mary, to go and see her and henrietta directly. her plan of sitting with lady russell must give way for the present. they all three called in rivers street for a couple of minutes; but anne convinced herself that a day's delay of the intended communication could be of no consequence, and hastened forward to the white hart, to see again the friends and companions of the last autumn, with an eagerness of good-will which many associations contributed to form. they found mrs musgrove and her daughter within, and by themselves, and anne had the kindest welcome from each. henrietta was exactly in that state of recently-improved views, of fresh-formed happiness, which made her full of regard and interest for everybody she had ever liked before at all; and mrs musgrove's real affection had been won by her usefulness when they were in distress. it was a heartiness, and a warmth, and a sincerity which anne delighted in the more, from the sad want of such blessings at home. she was entreated to give them as much of her time as possible, invited for every day and all day long, or rather claimed as part of the family; and, in return, she naturally fell into all her wonted ways of attention and assistance, and on charles's leaving them together, was listening to mrs musgrove's history of louisa, and to henrietta's of herself, giving opinions on business, and recommendations to shops; with intervals of every help which mary required, from altering her ribbon to settling her accounts; from finding her keys, and assorting her trinkets, to trying to convince her that she was not ill-used by anybody; which mary, well amused as she generally was, in her station at a window overlooking the entrance to the pump room, could not but have her moments of imagining. a morning of thorough confusion was to be expected. a large party in an hotel ensured a quick-changing, unsettled scene. one five minutes brought a note, the next a parcel; and anne had not been there half an hour, when their dining-room, spacious as it was, seemed more than half filled: a party of steady old friends were seated around mrs musgrove, and charles came back with captains harville and wentworth. the appearance of the latter could not be more than the surprise of the moment. it was impossible for her to have forgotten to feel that this arrival of their common friends must be soon bringing them together again. their last meeting had been most important in opening his feelings; she had derived from it a delightful conviction; but she feared from his looks, that the same unfortunate persuasion, which had hastened him away from the concert room, still governed. he did not seem to want to be near enough for conversation. she tried to be calm, and leave things to take their course, and tried to dwell much on this argument of rational dependence:--"surely, if there be constant attachment on each side, our hearts must understand each other ere long. we are not boy and girl, to be captiously irritable, misled by every moment's inadvertence, and wantonly playing with our own happiness." and yet, a few minutes afterwards, she felt as if their being in company with each other, under their present circumstances, could only be exposing them to inadvertencies and misconstructions of the most mischievous kind. "anne," cried mary, still at her window, "there is mrs clay, i am sure, standing under the colonnade, and a gentleman with her. i saw them turn the corner from bath street just now. they seemed deep in talk. who is it? come, and tell me. good heavens! i recollect. it is mr elliot himself." "no," cried anne, quickly, "it cannot be mr elliot, i assure you. he was to leave bath at nine this morning, and does not come back till to-morrow." as she spoke, she felt that captain wentworth was looking at her, the consciousness of which vexed and embarrassed her, and made her regret that she had said so much, simple as it was. mary, resenting that she should be supposed not to know her own cousin, began talking very warmly about the family features, and protesting still more positively that it was mr elliot, calling again upon anne to come and look for herself, but anne did not mean to stir, and tried to be cool and unconcerned. her distress returned, however, on perceiving smiles and intelligent glances pass between two or three of the lady visitors, as if they believed themselves quite in the secret. it was evident that the report concerning her had spread, and a short pause succeeded, which seemed to ensure that it would now spread farther. "do come, anne," cried mary, "come and look yourself. you will be too late if you do not make haste. they are parting; they are shaking hands. he is turning away. not know mr elliot, indeed! you seem to have forgot all about lyme." to pacify mary, and perhaps screen her own embarrassment, anne did move quietly to the window. she was just in time to ascertain that it really was mr elliot, which she had never believed, before he disappeared on one side, as mrs clay walked quickly off on the other; and checking the surprise which she could not but feel at such an appearance of friendly conference between two persons of totally opposite interest, she calmly said, "yes, it is mr elliot, certainly. he has changed his hour of going, i suppose, that is all, or i may be mistaken, i might not attend;" and walked back to her chair, recomposed, and with the comfortable hope of having acquitted herself well. the visitors took their leave; and charles, having civilly seen them off, and then made a face at them, and abused them for coming, began with-"well, mother, i have done something for you that you will like. i have been to the theatre, and secured a box for to-morrow night. a'n't i a good boy? i know you love a play; and there is room for us all. it holds nine. i have engaged captain wentworth. anne will not be sorry to join us, i am sure. we all like a play. have not i done well, mother?" mrs musgrove was good humouredly beginning to express her perfect readiness for the play, if henrietta and all the others liked it, when mary eagerly interrupted her by exclaiming-"good heavens, charles! how can you think of such a thing? take a box for to-morrow night! have you forgot that we are engaged to camden place to-morrow night? and that we were most particularly asked to meet lady dalrymple and her daughter, and mr elliot, and all the principal family connexions, on purpose to be introduced to them? how can you be so forgetful?" "phoo! phoo!" replied charles, "what's an evening party? never worth remembering. your father might have asked us to dinner, i think, if he had wanted to see us. you may do as you like, but i shall go to the play." "oh! charles, i declare it will be too abominable if you do, when you promised to go." "no, i did not promise. i only smirked and bowed, and said the word 'happy.' there was no promise." "but you must go, charles. it would be unpardonable to fail. we were asked on purpose to be introduced. there was always such a great connexion between the dalrymples and ourselves. nothing ever happened on either side that was not announced immediately. we are quite near relations, you know; and mr elliot too, whom you ought so particularly to be acquainted with! every attention is due to mr elliot. consider, my father's heir: the future representative of the family." "don't talk to me about heirs and representatives," cried charles. "i am not one of those who neglect the reigning power to bow to the rising sun. if i would not go for the sake of your father, i should think it scandalous to go for the sake of his heir. what is mr elliot to me?" the careless expression was life to anne, who saw that captain wentworth was all attention, looking and listening with his whole soul; and that the last words brought his enquiring eyes from charles to herself. charles and mary still talked on in the same style; he, half serious and half jesting, maintaining the scheme for the play, and she, invariably serious, most warmly opposing it, and not omitting to make it known that, however determined to go to camden place herself, she should not think herself very well used, if they went to the play without her. mrs musgrove interposed. "we had better put it off. charles, you had much better go back and change the box for tuesday. it would be a pity to be divided, and we should be losing miss anne, too, if there is a party at her father's; and i am sure neither henrietta nor i should care at all for the play, if miss anne could not be with us." anne felt truly obliged to her for such kindness; and quite as much so for the opportunity it gave her of decidedly saying-"if it depended only on my inclination, ma'am, the party at home (excepting on mary's account) would not be the smallest impediment. i have no pleasure in the sort of meeting, and should be too happy to change it for a play, and with you. but, it had better not be attempted, perhaps." she had spoken it; but she trembled when it was done, conscious that her words were listened to, and daring not even to try to observe their effect. it was soon generally agreed that tuesday should be the day; charles only reserving the advantage of still teasing his wife, by persisting that he would go to the play to-morrow if nobody else would. captain wentworth left his seat, and walked to the fire-place; probably for the sake of walking away from it soon afterwards, and taking a station, with less bare-faced design, by anne. "you have not been long enough in bath," said he, "to enjoy the evening parties of the place." "oh! no. the usual character of them has nothing for me. i am no card-player." "you were not formerly, i know. you did not use to like cards; but time makes many changes." "i am not yet so much changed," cried anne, and stopped, fearing she hardly knew what misconstruction. after waiting a few moments he said, and as if it were the result of immediate feeling, "it is a period, indeed! eight years and a half is a period." whether he would have proceeded farther was left to anne's imagination to ponder over in a calmer hour; for while still hearing the sounds he had uttered, she was startled to other subjects by henrietta, eager to make use of the present leisure for getting out, and calling on her companions to lose no time, lest somebody else should come in. they were obliged to move. anne talked of being perfectly ready, and tried to look it; but she felt that could henrietta have known the regret and reluctance of her heart in quitting that chair, in preparing to quit the room, she would have found, in all her own sensations for her cousin, in the very security of his affection, wherewith to pity her. their preparations, however, were stopped short. alarming sounds were heard; other visitors approached, and the door was thrown open for sir walter and miss elliot, whose entrance seemed to give a general chill. anne felt an instant oppression, and wherever she looked saw symptoms of the same. the comfort, the freedom, the gaiety of the room was over, hushed into cold composure, determined silence, or insipid talk, to meet the heartless elegance of her father and sister. how mortifying to feel that it was so! her jealous eye was satisfied in one particular. captain wentworth was acknowledged again by each, by elizabeth more graciously than before. she even addressed him once, and looked at him more than once. elizabeth was, in fact, revolving a great measure. the sequel explained it. after the waste of a few minutes in saying the proper nothings, she began to give the invitation which was to comprise all the remaining dues of the musgroves. "to-morrow evening, to meet a few friends: no formal party." it was all said very gracefully, and the cards with which she had provided herself, the "miss elliot at home," were laid on the table, with a courteous, comprehensive smile to all, and one smile and one card more decidedly for captain wentworth. the truth was, that elizabeth had been long enough in bath to understand the importance of a man of such an air and appearance as his. the past was nothing. the present was that captain wentworth would move about well in her drawing-room. the card was pointedly given, and sir walter and elizabeth arose and disappeared. the interruption had been short, though severe, and ease and animation returned to most of those they left as the door shut them out, but not to anne. she could think only of the invitation she had with such astonishment witnessed, and of the manner in which it had been received; a manner of doubtful meaning, of surprise rather than gratification, of polite acknowledgement rather than acceptance. she knew him; she saw disdain in his eye, and could not venture to believe that he had determined to accept such an offering, as an atonement for all the insolence of the past. her spirits sank. he held the card in his hand after they were gone, as if deeply considering it. "only think of elizabeth's including everybody!" whispered mary very audibly. "i do not wonder captain wentworth is delighted! you see he cannot put the card out of his hand." anne caught his eye, saw his cheeks glow, and his mouth form itself into a momentary expression of contempt, and turned away, that she might neither see nor hear more to vex her. the party separated. the gentlemen had their own pursuits, the ladies proceeded on their own business, and they met no more while anne belonged to them. she was earnestly begged to return and dine, and give them all the rest of the day, but her spirits had been so long exerted that at present she felt unequal to more, and fit only for home, where she might be sure of being as silent as she chose. promising to be with them the whole of the following morning, therefore, she closed the fatigues of the present by a toilsome walk to camden place, there to spend the evening chiefly in listening to the busy arrangements of elizabeth and mrs clay for the morrow's party, the frequent enumeration of the persons invited, and the continually improving detail of all the embellishments which were to make it the most completely elegant of its kind in bath, while harassing herself with the never-ending question, of whether captain wentworth would come or not? they were reckoning him as certain, but with her it was a gnawing solicitude never appeased for five minutes together. she generally thought he would come, because she generally thought he ought; but it was a case which she could not so shape into any positive act of duty or discretion, as inevitably to defy the suggestions of very opposite feelings. she only roused herself from the broodings of this restless agitation, to let mrs clay know that she had been seen with mr elliot three hours after his being supposed to be out of bath, for having watched in vain for some intimation of the interview from the lady herself, she determined to mention it, and it seemed to her there was guilt in mrs clay's face as she listened. it was transient: cleared away in an instant; but anne could imagine she read there the consciousness of having, by some complication of mutual trick, or some overbearing authority of his, been obliged to attend (perhaps for half an hour) to his lectures and restrictions on her designs on sir walter. she exclaimed, however, with a very tolerable imitation of nature:-"oh! dear! very true. only think, miss elliot, to my great surprise i met with mr elliot in bath street. i was never more astonished. he turned back and walked with me to the pump yard. he had been prevented setting off for thornberry, but i really forget by what; for i was in a hurry, and could not much attend, and i can only answer for his being determined not to be delayed in his return. he wanted to know how early he might be admitted to-morrow. he was full of 'to-morrow,' and it is very evident that i have been full of it too, ever since i entered the house, and learnt the extension of your plan and all that had happened, or my seeing him could never have gone so entirely out of my head." chapter 23 one day only had passed since anne's conversation with mrs smith; but a keener interest had succeeded, and she was now so little touched by mr elliot's conduct, except by its effects in one quarter, that it became a matter of course the next morning, still to defer her explanatory visit in rivers street. she had promised to be with the musgroves from breakfast to dinner. her faith was plighted, and mr elliot's character, like the sultaness scheherazade's head, must live another day. she could not keep her appointment punctually, however; the weather was unfavourable, and she had grieved over the rain on her friends' account, and felt it very much on her own, before she was able to attempt the walk. when she reached the white hart, and made her way to the proper apartment, she found herself neither arriving quite in time, nor the first to arrive. the party before her were, mrs musgrove, talking to mrs croft, and captain harville to captain wentworth; and she immediately heard that mary and henrietta, too impatient to wait, had gone out the moment it had cleared, but would be back again soon, and that the strictest injunctions had been left with mrs musgrove to keep her there till they returned. she had only to submit, sit down, be outwardly composed, and feel herself plunged at once in all the agitations which she had merely laid her account of tasting a little before the morning closed. there was no delay, no waste of time. she was deep in the happiness of such misery, or the misery of such happiness, instantly. two minutes after her entering the room, captain wentworth said-"we will write the letter we were talking of, harville, now, if you will give me materials." materials were at hand, on a separate table; he went to it, and nearly turning his back to them all, was engrossed by writing. mrs musgrove was giving mrs croft the history of her eldest daughter's engagement, and just in that inconvenient tone of voice which was perfectly audible while it pretended to be a whisper. anne felt that she did not belong to the conversation, and yet, as captain harville seemed thoughtful and not disposed to talk, she could not avoid hearing many undesirable particulars; such as, "how mr musgrove and my brother hayter had met again and again to talk it over; what my brother hayter had said one day, and what mr musgrove had proposed the next, and what had occurred to my sister hayter, and what the young people had wished, and what i said at first i never could consent to, but was afterwards persuaded to think might do very well," and a great deal in the same style of open-hearted communication: minutiae which, even with every advantage of taste and delicacy, which good mrs musgrove could not give, could be properly interesting only to the principals. mrs croft was attending with great good-humour, and whenever she spoke at all, it was very sensibly. anne hoped the gentlemen might each be too much self-occupied to hear. "and so, ma'am, all these thing considered," said mrs musgrove, in her powerful whisper, "though we could have wished it different, yet, altogether, we did not think it fair to stand out any longer, for charles hayter was quite wild about it, and henrietta was pretty near as bad; and so we thought they had better marry at once, and make the best of it, as many others have done before them. at any rate, said i, it will be better than a long engagement." "that is precisely what i was going to observe," cried mrs croft. "i would rather have young people settle on a small income at once, and have to struggle with a few difficulties together, than be involved in a long engagement. i always think that no mutual--" "oh! dear mrs croft," cried mrs musgrove, unable to let her finish her speech, "there is nothing i so abominate for young people as a long engagement. it is what i always protested against for my children. it is all very well, i used to say, for young people to be engaged, if there is a certainty of their being able to marry in six months, or even in twelve; but a long engagement--" "yes, dear ma'am," said mrs croft, "or an uncertain engagement, an engagement which may be long. to begin without knowing that at such a time there will be the means of marrying, i hold to be very unsafe and unwise, and what i think all parents should prevent as far as they can." anne found an unexpected interest here. she felt its application to herself, felt it in a nervous thrill all over her; and at the same moment that her eyes instinctively glanced towards the distant table, captain wentworth's pen ceased to move, his head was raised, pausing, listening, and he turned round the next instant to give a look, one quick, conscious look at her. the two ladies continued to talk, to re-urge the same admitted truths, and enforce them with such examples of the ill effect of a contrary practice as had fallen within their observation, but anne heard nothing distinctly; it was only a buzz of words in her ear, her mind was in confusion. captain harville, who had in truth been hearing none of it, now left his seat, and moved to a window, and anne seeming to watch him, though it was from thorough absence of mind, became gradually sensible that he was inviting her to join him where he stood. he looked at her with a smile, and a little motion of the head, which expressed, "come to me, i have something to say;" and the unaffected, easy kindness of manner which denoted the feelings of an older acquaintance than he really was, strongly enforced the invitation. she roused herself and went to him. the window at which he stood was at the other end of the room from where the two ladies were sitting, and though nearer to captain wentworth's table, not very near. as she joined him, captain harville's countenance re-assumed the serious, thoughtful expression which seemed its natural character. "look here," said he, unfolding a parcel in his hand, and displaying a small miniature painting, "do you know who that is?" "certainly: captain benwick." "yes, and you may guess who it is for. but," (in a deep tone,) "it was not done for her. miss elliot, do you remember our walking together at lyme, and grieving for him? i little thought then--but no matter. this was drawn at the cape. he met with a clever young german artist at the cape, and in compliance with a promise to my poor sister, sat to him, and was bringing it home for her; and i have now the charge of getting it properly set for another! it was a commission to me! but who else was there to employ? i hope i can allow for him. i am not sorry, indeed, to make it over to another. he undertakes it;" (looking towards captain wentworth,) "he is writing about it now." and with a quivering lip he wound up the whole by adding, "poor fanny! she would not have forgotten him so soon!" "no," replied anne, in a low, feeling voice. "that i can easily believe." "it was not in her nature. she doted on him." "it would not be the nature of any woman who truly loved." captain harville smiled, as much as to say, "do you claim that for your sex?" and she answered the question, smiling also, "yes. we certainly do not forget you as soon as you forget us. it is, perhaps, our fate rather than our merit. we cannot help ourselves. we live at home, quiet, confined, and our feelings prey upon us. you are forced on exertion. you have always a profession, pursuits, business of some sort or other, to take you back into the world immediately, and continual occupation and change soon weaken impressions." "granting your assertion that the world does all this so soon for men (which, however, i do not think i shall grant), it does not apply to benwick. he has not been forced upon any exertion. the peace turned him on shore at the very moment, and he has been living with us, in our little family circle, ever since." "true," said anne, "very true; i did not recollect; but what shall we say now, captain harville? if the change be not from outward circumstances, it must be from within; it must be nature, man's nature, which has done the business for captain benwick." "no, no, it is not man's nature. i will not allow it to be more man's nature than woman's to be inconstant and forget those they do love, or have loved. i believe the reverse. i believe in a true analogy between our bodily frames and our mental; and that as our bodies are the strongest, so are our feelings; capable of bearing most rough usage, and riding out the heaviest weather." "your feelings may be the strongest," replied anne, "but the same spirit of analogy will authorise me to assert that ours are the most tender. man is more robust than woman, but he is not longer lived; which exactly explains my view of the nature of their attachments. nay, it would be too hard upon you, if it were otherwise. you have difficulties, and privations, and dangers enough to struggle with. you are always labouring and toiling, exposed to every risk and hardship. your home, country, friends, all quitted. neither time, nor health, nor life, to be called your own. it would be hard, indeed" (with a faltering voice), "if woman's feelings were to be added to all this." "we shall never agree upon this question," captain harville was beginning to say, when a slight noise called their attention to captain wentworth's hitherto perfectly quiet division of the room. it was nothing more than that his pen had fallen down; but anne was startled at finding him nearer than she had supposed, and half inclined to suspect that the pen had only fallen because he had been occupied by them, striving to catch sounds, which yet she did not think he could have caught. "have you finished your letter?" said captain harville. "not quite, a few lines more. i shall have done in five minutes." "there is no hurry on my side. i am only ready whenever you are. i am in very good anchorage here," (smiling at anne,) "well supplied, and want for nothing. no hurry for a signal at all. well, miss elliot," (lowering his voice,) "as i was saying we shall never agree, i suppose, upon this point. no man and woman, would, probably. but let me observe that all histories are against you--all stories, prose and verse. if i had such a memory as benwick, i could bring you fifty quotations in a moment on my side the argument, and i do not think i ever opened a book in my life which had not something to say upon woman's inconstancy. songs and proverbs, all talk of woman's fickleness. but perhaps you will say, these were all written by men." "perhaps i shall. yes, yes, if you please, no reference to examples in books. men have had every advantage of us in telling their own story. education has been theirs in so much higher a degree; the pen has been in their hands. i will not allow books to prove anything." "but how shall we prove anything?" "we never shall. we never can expect to prove any thing upon such a point. it is a difference of opinion which does not admit of proof. we each begin, probably, with a little bias towards our own sex; and upon that bias build every circumstance in favour of it which has occurred within our own circle; many of which circumstances (perhaps those very cases which strike us the most) may be precisely such as cannot be brought forward without betraying a confidence, or in some respect saying what should not be said." "ah!" cried captain harville, in a tone of strong feeling, "if i could but make you comprehend what a man suffers when he takes a last look at his wife and children, and watches the boat that he has sent them off in, as long as it is in sight, and then turns away and says, 'god knows whether we ever meet again!' and then, if i could convey to you the glow of his soul when he does see them again; when, coming back after a twelvemonth's absence, perhaps, and obliged to put into another port, he calculates how soon it be possible to get them there, pretending to deceive himself, and saying, 'they cannot be here till such a day,' but all the while hoping for them twelve hours sooner, and seeing them arrive at last, as if heaven had given them wings, by many hours sooner still! if i could explain to you all this, and all that a man can bear and do, and glories to do, for the sake of these treasures of his existence! i speak, you know, only of such men as have hearts!" pressing his own with emotion. "oh!" cried anne eagerly, "i hope i do justice to all that is felt by you, and by those who resemble you. god forbid that i should undervalue the warm and faithful feelings of any of my fellow-creatures! i should deserve utter contempt if i dared to suppose that true attachment and constancy were known only by woman. no, i believe you capable of everything great and good in your married lives. i believe you equal to every important exertion, and to every domestic forbearance, so long as--if i may be allowed the expression--so long as you have an object. i mean while the woman you love lives, and lives for you. all the privilege i claim for my own sex (it is not a very enviable one; you need not covet it), is that of loving longest, when existence or when hope is gone." she could not immediately have uttered another sentence; her heart was too full, her breath too much oppressed. "you are a good soul," cried captain harville, putting his hand on her arm, quite affectionately. "there is no quarrelling with you. and when i think of benwick, my tongue is tied." their attention was called towards the others. mrs croft was taking leave. "here, frederick, you and i part company, i believe," said she. "i am going home, and you have an engagement with your friend. to-night we may have the pleasure of all meeting again at your party," (turning to anne.) "we had your sister's card yesterday, and i understood frederick had a card too, though i did not see it; and you are disengaged, frederick, are you not, as well as ourselves?" captain wentworth was folding up a letter in great haste, and either could not or would not answer fully. "yes," said he, "very true; here we separate, but harville and i shall soon be after you; that is, harville, if you are ready, i am in half a minute. i know you will not be sorry to be off. i shall be at your service in half a minute." mrs croft left them, and captain wentworth, having sealed his letter with great rapidity, was indeed ready, and had even a hurried, agitated air, which shewed impatience to be gone. anne knew not how to understand it. she had the kindest "good morning, god bless you!" from captain harville, but from him not a word, nor a look! he had passed out of the room without a look! she had only time, however, to move closer to the table where he had been writing, when footsteps were heard returning; the door opened, it was himself. he begged their pardon, but he had forgotten his gloves, and instantly crossing the room to the writing table, he drew out a letter from under the scattered paper, placed it before anne with eyes of glowing entreaty fixed on her for a time, and hastily collecting his gloves, was again out of the room, almost before mrs musgrove was aware of his being in it: the work of an instant! the revolution which one instant had made in anne, was almost beyond expression. the letter, with a direction hardly legible, to "miss a. e.--," was evidently the one which he had been folding so hastily. while supposed to be writing only to captain benwick, he had been also addressing her! on the contents of that letter depended all which this world could do for her. anything was possible, anything might be defied rather than suspense. mrs musgrove had little arrangements of her own at her own table; to their protection she must trust, and sinking into the chair which he had occupied, succeeding to the very spot where he had leaned and written, her eyes devoured the following words: "i can listen no longer in silence. i must speak to you by such means as are within my reach. you pierce my soul. i am half agony, half hope. tell me not that i am too late, that such precious feelings are gone for ever. i offer myself to you again with a heart even more your own than when you almost broke it, eight years and a half ago. dare not say that man forgets sooner than woman, that his love has an earlier death. i have loved none but you. unjust i may have been, weak and resentful i have been, but never inconstant. you alone have brought me to bath. for you alone, i think and plan. have you not seen this? can you fail to have understood my wishes? i had not waited even these ten days, could i have read your feelings, as i think you must have penetrated mine. i can hardly write. i am every instant hearing something which overpowers me. you sink your voice, but i can distinguish the tones of that voice when they would be lost on others. too good, too excellent creature! you do us justice, indeed. you do believe that there is true attachment and constancy among men. believe it to be most fervent, most undeviating, in f. w. "i must go, uncertain of my fate; but i shall return hither, or follow your party, as soon as possible. a word, a look, will be enough to decide whether i enter your father's house this evening or never." such a letter was not to be soon recovered from. half an hour's solitude and reflection might have tranquillized her; but the ten minutes only which now passed before she was interrupted, with all the restraints of her situation, could do nothing towards tranquillity. every moment rather brought fresh agitation. it was overpowering happiness. and before she was beyond the first stage of full sensation, charles, mary, and henrietta all came in. the absolute necessity of seeming like herself produced then an immediate struggle; but after a while she could do no more. she began not to understand a word they said, and was obliged to plead indisposition and excuse herself. they could then see that she looked very ill, were shocked and concerned, and would not stir without her for the world. this was dreadful. would they only have gone away, and left her in the quiet possession of that room it would have been her cure; but to have them all standing or waiting around her was distracting, and in desperation, she said she would go home. "by all means, my dear," cried mrs musgrove, "go home directly, and take care of yourself, that you may be fit for the evening. i wish sarah was here to doctor you, but i am no doctor myself. charles, ring and order a chair. she must not walk." but the chair would never do. worse than all! to lose the possibility of speaking two words to captain wentworth in the course of her quiet, solitary progress up the town (and she felt almost certain of meeting him) could not be borne. the chair was earnestly protested against, and mrs musgrove, who thought only of one sort of illness, having assured herself with some anxiety, that there had been no fall in the case; that anne had not at any time lately slipped down, and got a blow on her head; that she was perfectly convinced of having had no fall; could part with her cheerfully, and depend on finding her better at night. anxious to omit no possible precaution, anne struggled, and said-"i am afraid, ma'am, that it is not perfectly understood. pray be so good as to mention to the other gentlemen that we hope to see your whole party this evening. i am afraid there had been some mistake; and i wish you particularly to assure captain harville and captain wentworth, that we hope to see them both." "oh! my dear, it is quite understood, i give you my word. captain harville has no thought but of going." "do you think so? but i am afraid; and i should be so very sorry. will you promise me to mention it, when you see them again? you will see them both this morning, i dare say. do promise me." "to be sure i will, if you wish it. charles, if you see captain harville anywhere, remember to give miss anne's message. but indeed, my dear, you need not be uneasy. captain harville holds himself quite engaged, i'll answer for it; and captain wentworth the same, i dare say." anne could do no more; but her heart prophesied some mischance to damp the perfection of her felicity. it could not be very lasting, however. even if he did not come to camden place himself, it would be in her power to send an intelligible sentence by captain harville. another momentary vexation occurred. charles, in his real concern and good nature, would go home with her; there was no preventing him. this was almost cruel. but she could not be long ungrateful; he was sacrificing an engagement at a gunsmith's, to be of use to her; and she set off with him, with no feeling but gratitude apparent. they were on union street, when a quicker step behind, a something of familiar sound, gave her two moments' preparation for the sight of captain wentworth. he joined them; but, as if irresolute whether to join or to pass on, said nothing, only looked. anne could command herself enough to receive that look, and not repulsively. the cheeks which had been pale now glowed, and the movements which had hesitated were decided. he walked by her side. presently, struck by a sudden thought, charles said-"captain wentworth, which way are you going? only to gay street, or farther up the town?" "i hardly know," replied captain wentworth, surprised. "are you going as high as belmont? are you going near camden place? because, if you are, i shall have no scruple in asking you to take my place, and give anne your arm to her father's door. she is rather done for this morning, and must not go so far without help, and i ought to be at that fellow's in the market place. he promised me the sight of a capital gun he is just going to send off; said he would keep it unpacked to the last possible moment, that i might see it; and if i do not turn back now, i have no chance. by his description, a good deal like the second size double-barrel of mine, which you shot with one day round winthrop." there could not be an objection. there could be only the most proper alacrity, a most obliging compliance for public view; and smiles reined in and spirits dancing in private rapture. in half a minute charles was at the bottom of union street again, and the other two proceeding together: and soon words enough had passed between them to decide their direction towards the comparatively quiet and retired gravel walk, where the power of conversation would make the present hour a blessing indeed, and prepare it for all the immortality which the happiest recollections of their own future lives could bestow. there they exchanged again those feelings and those promises which had once before seemed to secure everything, but which had been followed by so many, many years of division and estrangement. there they returned again into the past, more exquisitely happy, perhaps, in their re-union, than when it had been first projected; more tender, more tried, more fixed in a knowledge of each other's character, truth, and attachment; more equal to act, more justified in acting. and there, as they slowly paced the gradual ascent, heedless of every group around them, seeing neither sauntering politicians, bustling housekeepers, flirting girls, nor nursery-maids and children, they could indulge in those retrospections and acknowledgements, and especially in those explanations of what had directly preceded the present moment, which were so poignant and so ceaseless in interest. all the little variations of the last week were gone through; and of yesterday and today there could scarcely be an end. she had not mistaken him. jealousy of mr elliot had been the retarding weight, the doubt, the torment. that had begun to operate in the very hour of first meeting her in bath; that had returned, after a short suspension, to ruin the concert; and that had influenced him in everything he had said and done, or omitted to say and do, in the last four-and-twenty hours. it had been gradually yielding to the better hopes which her looks, or words, or actions occasionally encouraged; it had been vanquished at last by those sentiments and those tones which had reached him while she talked with captain harville; and under the irresistible governance of which he had seized a sheet of paper, and poured out his feelings. of what he had then written, nothing was to be retracted or qualified. he persisted in having loved none but her. she had never been supplanted. he never even believed himself to see her equal. thus much indeed he was obliged to acknowledge: that he had been constant unconsciously, nay unintentionally; that he had meant to forget her, and believed it to be done. he had imagined himself indifferent, when he had only been angry; and he had been unjust to her merits, because he had been a sufferer from them. her character was now fixed on his mind as perfection itself, maintaining the loveliest medium of fortitude and gentleness; but he was obliged to acknowledge that only at uppercross had he learnt to do her justice, and only at lyme had he begun to understand himself. at lyme, he had received lessons of more than one sort. the passing admiration of mr elliot had at least roused him, and the scenes on the cobb and at captain harville's had fixed her superiority. in his preceding attempts to attach himself to louisa musgrove (the attempts of angry pride), he protested that he had for ever felt it to be impossible; that he had not cared, could not care, for louisa; though till that day, till the leisure for reflection which followed it, he had not understood the perfect excellence of the mind with which louisa's could so ill bear a comparison, or the perfect unrivalled hold it possessed over his own. there, he had learnt to distinguish between the steadiness of principle and the obstinacy of self-will, between the darings of heedlessness and the resolution of a collected mind. there he had seen everything to exalt in his estimation the woman he had lost; and there begun to deplore the pride, the folly, the madness of resentment, which had kept him from trying to regain her when thrown in his way. from that period his penance had become severe. he had no sooner been free from the horror and remorse attending the first few days of louisa's accident, no sooner begun to feel himself alive again, than he had begun to feel himself, though alive, not at liberty. "i found," said he, "that i was considered by harville an engaged man! that neither harville nor his wife entertained a doubt of our mutual attachment. i was startled and shocked. to a degree, i could contradict this instantly; but, when i began to reflect that others might have felt the same--her own family, nay, perhaps herself--i was no longer at my own disposal. i was hers in honour if she wished it. i had been unguarded. i had not thought seriously on this subject before. i had not considered that my excessive intimacy must have its danger of ill consequence in many ways; and that i had no right to be trying whether i could attach myself to either of the girls, at the risk of raising even an unpleasant report, were there no other ill effects. i had been grossly wrong, and must abide the consequences." he found too late, in short, that he had entangled himself; and that precisely as he became fully satisfied of his not caring for louisa at all, he must regard himself as bound to her, if her sentiments for him were what the harvilles supposed. it determined him to leave lyme, and await her complete recovery elsewhere. he would gladly weaken, by any fair means, whatever feelings or speculations concerning him might exist; and he went, therefore, to his brother's, meaning after a while to return to kellynch, and act as circumstances might require. "i was six weeks with edward," said he, "and saw him happy. i could have no other pleasure. i deserved none. he enquired after you very particularly; asked even if you were personally altered, little suspecting that to my eye you could never alter." anne smiled, and let it pass. it was too pleasing a blunder for a reproach. it is something for a woman to be assured, in her eight-and-twentieth year, that she has not lost one charm of earlier youth; but the value of such homage was inexpressibly increased to anne, by comparing it with former words, and feeling it to be the result, not the cause of a revival of his warm attachment. he had remained in shropshire, lamenting the blindness of his own pride, and the blunders of his own calculations, till at once released from louisa by the astonishing and felicitous intelligence of her engagement with benwick. "here," said he, "ended the worst of my state; for now i could at least put myself in the way of happiness; i could exert myself; i could do something. but to be waiting so long in inaction, and waiting only for evil, had been dreadful. within the first five minutes i said, 'i will be at bath on wednesday,' and i was. was it unpardonable to think it worth my while to come? and to arrive with some degree of hope? you were single. it was possible that you might retain the feelings of the past, as i did; and one encouragement happened to be mine. i could never doubt that you would be loved and sought by others, but i knew to a certainty that you had refused one man, at least, of better pretensions than myself; and i could not help often saying, 'was this for me?'" their first meeting in milsom street afforded much to be said, but the concert still more. that evening seemed to be made up of exquisite moments. the moment of her stepping forward in the octagon room to speak to him: the moment of mr elliot's appearing and tearing her away, and one or two subsequent moments, marked by returning hope or increasing despondency, were dwelt on with energy. "to see you," cried he, "in the midst of those who could not be my well-wishers; to see your cousin close by you, conversing and smiling, and feel all the horrible eligibilities and proprieties of the match! to consider it as the certain wish of every being who could hope to influence you! even if your own feelings were reluctant or indifferent, to consider what powerful supports would be his! was it not enough to make the fool of me which i appeared? how could i look on without agony? was not the very sight of the friend who sat behind you, was not the recollection of what had been, the knowledge of her influence, the indelible, immoveable impression of what persuasion had once done--was it not all against me?" "you should have distinguished," replied anne. "you should not have suspected me now; the case is so different, and my age is so different. if i was wrong in yielding to persuasion once, remember that it was to persuasion exerted on the side of safety, not of risk. when i yielded, i thought it was to duty, but no duty could be called in aid here. in marrying a man indifferent to me, all risk would have been incurred, and all duty violated." "perhaps i ought to have reasoned thus," he replied, "but i could not. i could not derive benefit from the late knowledge i had acquired of your character. i could not bring it into play; it was overwhelmed, buried, lost in those earlier feelings which i had been smarting under year after year. i could think of you only as one who had yielded, who had given me up, who had been influenced by any one rather than by me. i saw you with the very person who had guided you in that year of misery. i had no reason to believe her of less authority now. the force of habit was to be added." "i should have thought," said anne, "that my manner to yourself might have spared you much or all of this." "no, no! your manner might be only the ease which your engagement to another man would give. i left you in this belief; and yet, i was determined to see you again. my spirits rallied with the morning, and i felt that i had still a motive for remaining here." at last anne was at home again, and happier than any one in that house could have conceived. all the surprise and suspense, and every other painful part of the morning dissipated by this conversation, she re-entered the house so happy as to be obliged to find an alloy in some momentary apprehensions of its being impossible to last. an interval of meditation, serious and grateful, was the best corrective of everything dangerous in such high-wrought felicity; and she went to her room, and grew steadfast and fearless in the thankfulness of her enjoyment. the evening came, the drawing-rooms were lighted up, the company assembled. it was but a card party, it was but a mixture of those who had never met before, and those who met too often; a commonplace business, too numerous for intimacy, too small for variety; but anne had never found an evening shorter. glowing and lovely in sensibility and happiness, and more generally admired than she thought about or cared for, she had cheerful or forbearing feelings for every creature around her. mr elliot was there; she avoided, but she could pity him. the wallises, she had amusement in understanding them. lady dalrymple and miss carteret--they would soon be innoxious cousins to her. she cared not for mrs clay, and had nothing to blush for in the public manners of her father and sister. with the musgroves, there was the happy chat of perfect ease; with captain harville, the kind-hearted intercourse of brother and sister; with lady russell, attempts at conversation, which a delicious consciousness cut short; with admiral and mrs croft, everything of peculiar cordiality and fervent interest, which the same consciousness sought to conceal; and with captain wentworth, some moments of communications continually occurring, and always the hope of more, and always the knowledge of his being there. it was in one of these short meetings, each apparently occupied in admiring a fine display of greenhouse plants, that she said-"i have been thinking over the past, and trying impartially to judge of the right and wrong, i mean with regard to myself; and i must believe that i was right, much as i suffered from it, that i was perfectly right in being guided by the friend whom you will love better than you do now. to me, she was in the place of a parent. do not mistake me, however. i am not saying that she did not err in her advice. it was, perhaps, one of those cases in which advice is good or bad only as the event decides; and for myself, i certainly never should, in any circumstance of tolerable similarity, give such advice. but i mean, that i was right in submitting to her, and that if i had done otherwise, i should have suffered more in continuing the engagement than i did even in giving it up, because i should have suffered in my conscience. i have now, as far as such a sentiment is allowable in human nature, nothing to reproach myself with; and if i mistake not, a strong sense of duty is no bad part of a woman's portion." he looked at her, looked at lady russell, and looking again at her, replied, as if in cool deliberation-"not yet. but there are hopes of her being forgiven in time. i trust to being in charity with her soon. but i too have been thinking over the past, and a question has suggested itself, whether there may not have been one person more my enemy even than that lady? my own self. tell me if, when i returned to england in the year eight, with a few thousand pounds, and was posted into the laconia, if i had then written to you, would you have answered my letter? would you, in short, have renewed the engagement then?" "would i!" was all her answer; but the accent was decisive enough. "good god!" he cried, "you would! it is not that i did not think of it, or desire it, as what could alone crown all my other success; but i was proud, too proud to ask again. i did not understand you. i shut my eyes, and would not understand you, or do you justice. this is a recollection which ought to make me forgive every one sooner than myself. six years of separation and suffering might have been spared. it is a sort of pain, too, which is new to me. i have been used to the gratification of believing myself to earn every blessing that i enjoyed. i have valued myself on honourable toils and just rewards. like other great men under reverses," he added, with a smile. "i must endeavour to subdue my mind to my fortune. i must learn to brook being happier than i deserve." chapter 24 who can be in doubt of what followed? when any two young people take it into their heads to marry, they are pretty sure by perseverance to carry their point, be they ever so poor, or ever so imprudent, or ever so little likely to be necessary to each other's ultimate comfort. this may be bad morality to conclude with, but i believe it to be truth; and if such parties succeed, how should a captain wentworth and an anne elliot, with the advantage of maturity of mind, consciousness of right, and one independent fortune between them, fail of bearing down every opposition? they might in fact, have borne down a great deal more than they met with, for there was little to distress them beyond the want of graciousness and warmth. sir walter made no objection, and elizabeth did nothing worse than look cold and unconcerned. captain wentworth, with five-and-twenty thousand pounds, and as high in his profession as merit and activity could place him, was no longer nobody. he was now esteemed quite worthy to address the daughter of a foolish, spendthrift baronet, who had not had principle or sense enough to maintain himself in the situation in which providence had placed him, and who could give his daughter at present but a small part of the share of ten thousand pounds which must be hers hereafter. sir walter, indeed, though he had no affection for anne, and no vanity flattered, to make him really happy on the occasion, was very far from thinking it a bad match for her. on the contrary, when he saw more of captain wentworth, saw him repeatedly by daylight, and eyed him well, he was very much struck by his personal claims, and felt that his superiority of appearance might be not unfairly balanced against her superiority of rank; and all this, assisted by his well-sounding name, enabled sir walter at last to prepare his pen, with a very good grace, for the insertion of the marriage in the volume of honour. the only one among them, whose opposition of feeling could excite any serious anxiety was lady russell. anne knew that lady russell must be suffering some pain in understanding and relinquishing mr elliot, and be making some struggles to become truly acquainted with, and do justice to captain wentworth. this however was what lady russell had now to do. she must learn to feel that she had been mistaken with regard to both; that she had been unfairly influenced by appearances in each; that because captain wentworth's manners had not suited her own ideas, she had been too quick in suspecting them to indicate a character of dangerous impetuosity; and that because mr elliot's manners had precisely pleased her in their propriety and correctness, their general politeness and suavity, she had been too quick in receiving them as the certain result of the most correct opinions and well-regulated mind. there was nothing less for lady russell to do, than to admit that she had been pretty completely wrong, and to take up a new set of opinions and of hopes. there is a quickness of perception in some, a nicety in the discernment of character, a natural penetration, in short, which no experience in others can equal, and lady russell had been less gifted in this part of understanding than her young friend. but she was a very good woman, and if her second object was to be sensible and well-judging, her first was to see anne happy. she loved anne better than she loved her own abilities; and when the awkwardness of the beginning was over, found little hardship in attaching herself as a mother to the man who was securing the happiness of her other child. of all the family, mary was probably the one most immediately gratified by the circumstance. it was creditable to have a sister married, and she might flatter herself with having been greatly instrumental to the connexion, by keeping anne with her in the autumn; and as her own sister must be better than her husband's sisters, it was very agreeable that captain wentworth should be a richer man than either captain benwick or charles hayter. she had something to suffer, perhaps, when they came into contact again, in seeing anne restored to the rights of seniority, and the mistress of a very pretty landaulette; but she had a future to look forward to, of powerful consolation. anne had no uppercross hall before her, no landed estate, no headship of a family; and if they could but keep captain wentworth from being made a baronet, she would not change situations with anne. it would be well for the eldest sister if she were equally satisfied with her situation, for a change is not very probable there. she had soon the mortification of seeing mr elliot withdraw, and no one of proper condition has since presented himself to raise even the unfounded hopes which sunk with him. the news of his cousin anne's engagement burst on mr elliot most unexpectedly. it deranged his best plan of domestic happiness, his best hope of keeping sir walter single by the watchfulness which a son-in-law's rights would have given. but, though discomfited and disappointed, he could still do something for his own interest and his own enjoyment. he soon quitted bath; and on mrs clay's quitting it soon afterwards, and being next heard of as established under his protection in london, it was evident how double a game he had been playing, and how determined he was to save himself from being cut out by one artful woman, at least. mrs clay's affections had overpowered her interest, and she had sacrificed, for the young man's sake, the possibility of scheming longer for sir walter. she has abilities, however, as well as affections; and it is now a doubtful point whether his cunning, or hers, may finally carry the day; whether, after preventing her from being the wife of sir walter, he may not be wheedled and caressed at last into making her the wife of sir william. it cannot be doubted that sir walter and elizabeth were shocked and mortified by the loss of their companion, and the discovery of their deception in her. they had their great cousins, to be sure, to resort to for comfort; but they must long feel that to flatter and follow others, without being flattered and followed in turn, is but a state of half enjoyment. anne, satisfied at a very early period of lady russell's meaning to love captain wentworth as she ought, had no other alloy to the happiness of her prospects than what arose from the consciousness of having no relations to bestow on him which a man of sense could value. there she felt her own inferiority very keenly. the disproportion in their fortune was nothing; it did not give her a moment's regret; but to have no family to receive and estimate him properly, nothing of respectability, of harmony, of good will to offer in return for all the worth and all the prompt welcome which met her in his brothers and sisters, was a source of as lively pain as her mind could well be sensible of under circumstances of otherwise strong felicity. she had but two friends in the world to add to his list, lady russell and mrs smith. to those, however, he was very well disposed to attach himself. lady russell, in spite of all her former transgressions, he could now value from his heart. while he was not obliged to say that he believed her to have been right in originally dividing them, he was ready to say almost everything else in her favour, and as for mrs smith, she had claims of various kinds to recommend her quickly and permanently. her recent good offices by anne had been enough in themselves, and their marriage, instead of depriving her of one friend, secured her two. she was their earliest visitor in their settled life; and captain wentworth, by putting her in the way of recovering her husband's property in the west indies, by writing for her, acting for her, and seeing her through all the petty difficulties of the case with the activity and exertion of a fearless man and a determined friend, fully requited the services which she had rendered, or ever meant to render, to his wife. mrs smith's enjoyments were not spoiled by this improvement of income, with some improvement of health, and the acquisition of such friends to be often with, for her cheerfulness and mental alacrity did not fail her; and while these prime supplies of good remained, she might have bid defiance even to greater accessions of worldly prosperity. she might have been absolutely rich and perfectly healthy, and yet be happy. her spring of felicity was in the glow of her spirits, as her friend anne's was in the warmth of her heart. anne was tenderness itself, and she had the full worth of it in captain wentworth's affection. his profession was all that could ever make her friends wish that tenderness less, the dread of a future war all that could dim her sunshine. she gloried in being a sailor's wife, but she must pay the tax of quick alarm for belonging to that profession which is, if possible, more distinguished in its domestic virtues than in its national importance. finis the quest of the silver fleece _a novel_ w.e.b. du bois 1911 a.c. mcclurg & co. _contents_ the quest of the silver fleece _note from the author_ 3 _one_: dreams 5 _two_: the school 12 _three_: miss mary taylor 16 _four_: town 23 _five_: zora 33 _six_: cotton 42 _seven_: the place of dreams 53 _eight_: mr. harry cresswell 66 _nine_: the planting 74 _ten_: mr. taylor calls 84 _eleven_: the flowering of the fleece 99 _twelve_: the promise 108 _thirteen_: mrs. grey gives a dinner 122 _fourteen_: love 128 _fifteen_: revelation 134 _sixteen_: the great refusal 146 _seventeen_: the rape of the fleece 154 _eighteen_: the cotton corner 162 _nineteen_: the dying of elspeth 171 _twenty_: the weaving of the silver fleece 182 _twenty-one_: the marriage morning 191 _twenty-two_: miss caroline wynn 199 _twenty-three_: the training of zora 210 _twenty-four_: the education of alwyn 218 _twenty-five_: the campaign 230 _twenty-six_: congressman cresswell 244 _twenty-seven_: the vision of zora 254 _twenty-eight_: the annunciation 263 _twenty-nine_: a master of fate 271 _thirty_: the return of zora 283 _thirty-one_: a parting of ways 293 _thirty-two_: zora's way 309 _thirty-three_: the buying of the swamp 316 _thirty-four_: the return of alwyn 328 _thirty-five_: the cotton mill 339 _thirty-six_: the land 350 _thirty-seven_: the mob 364 _thirty-eight_: atonement 371 the quest of the silver fleece to one whose name may not be written but to whose tireless faith the shaping of these cruder thoughts to forms more fitly perfect is doubtless due, this finished work is herewith dedicated _note_ he who would tell a tale must look toward three ideals: to tell it well, to tell it beautifully, and to tell the truth. the first is the gift of god, the second is the vision of genius, but the third is the reward of honesty. in _the quest of the silver fleece_ there is little, i ween, divine or ingenious; but, at least, i have been honest. in no fact or picture have i consciously set down aught the counterpart of which i have not seen or known; and whatever the finished picture may lack of completeness, this lack is due now to the story-teller, now to the artist, but never to the herald of the truth. new york city _august 15, 1911_ the author _one_ dreams night fell. the red waters of the swamp grew sinister and sullen. the tall pines lost their slimness and stood in wide blurred blotches all across the way, and a great shadowy bird arose, wheeled and melted, murmuring, into the black-green sky. the boy wearily dropped his heavy bundle and stood still, listening as the voice of crickets split the shadows and made the silence audible. a tear wandered down his brown cheek. they were at supper now, he whispered--the father and old mother, away back yonder beyond the night. they were far away; they would never be as near as once they had been, for he had stepped into the world. and the cat and old billy--ah, but the world was a lonely thing, so wide and tall and empty! and so bare, so bitter bare! somehow he had never dreamed of the world as lonely before; he had fared forth to beckoning hands and luring, and to the eager hum of human voices, as of some great, swelling music. yet now he was alone; the empty night was closing all about him here in a strange land, and he was afraid. the bundle with his earthly treasure had hung heavy and heavier on his shoulder; his little horde of money was tightly wadded in his sock, and the school lay hidden somewhere far away in the shadows. he wondered how far it was; he looked and harkened, starting at his own heartbeats, and fearing more and more the long dark fingers of the night. then of a sudden up from the darkness came music. it was human music, but of a wildness and a weirdness that startled the boy as it fluttered and danced across the dull red waters of the swamp. he hesitated, then impelled by some strange power, left the highway and slipped into the forest of the swamp, shrinking, yet following the song hungrily and half forgetting his fear. a harsher, shriller note struck in as of many and ruder voices; but above it flew the first sweet music, birdlike, abandoned, and the boy crept closer. the cabin crouched ragged and black at the edge of black waters. an old chimney leaned drunkenly against it, raging with fire and smoke, while through the chinks winked red gleams of warmth and wild cheer. with a revel of shouting and noise, the music suddenly ceased. hoarse staccato cries and peals of laughter shook the old hut, and as the boy stood there peering through the black trees, abruptly the door flew open and a flood of light illumined the wood. amid this mighty halo, as on clouds of flame, a girl was dancing. she was black, and lithe, and tall, and willowy. her garments twined and flew around the delicate moulding of her dark, young, half-naked limbs. a heavy mass of hair clung motionless to her wide forehead. her arms twirled and flickered, and body and soul seemed quivering and whirring in the poetry of her motion. as she danced she sang. he heard her voice as before, fluttering like a bird's in the full sweetness of her utter music. it was no tune nor melody, it was just formless, boundless music. the boy forgot himself and all the world besides. all his darkness was sudden light; dazzled he crept forward, bewildered, fascinated, until with one last wild whirl the elf-girl paused. the crimson light fell full upon the warm and velvet bronze of her face--her midnight eyes were aglow, her full purple lips apart, her half hid bosom panting, and all the music dead. involuntarily the boy gave a gasping cry and awoke to swamp and night and fire, while a white face, drawn, red-eyed, peered outward from some hidden throng within the cabin. "who's that?" a harsh voice cried. "where?" "who is it?" and pale crowding faces blurred the light. the boy wheeled blindly and fled in terror stumbling through the swamp, hearing strange sounds and feeling stealthy creeping hands and arms and whispering voices. on he toiled in mad haste, struggling toward the road and losing it until finally beneath the shadows of a mighty oak he sank exhausted. there he lay a while trembling and at last drifted into dreamless sleep. it was morning when he awoke and threw a startled glance upward to the twisted branches of the oak that bent above, sifting down sunshine on his brown face and close curled hair. slowly he remembered the loneliness, the fear and wild running through the dark. he laughed in the bold courage of day and stretched himself. then suddenly he bethought him again of that vision of the night--the waving arms and flying limbs of the girl, and her great black eyes looking into the night and calling him. he could hear her now, and hear that wondrous savage music. had it been real? had he dreamed? or had it been some witch-vision of the night, come to tempt and lure him to his undoing? where was that black and flaming cabin? where was the girl--the soul that had called him? _she_ must have been real; she had to live and dance and sing; he must again look into the mystery of her great eyes. and he sat up in sudden determination, and, lo! gazed straight into the very eyes of his dreaming. she sat not four feet from him, leaning against the great tree, her eyes now languorously abstracted, now alert and quizzical with mischief. she seemed but half-clothed, and her warm, dark flesh peeped furtively through the rent gown; her thick, crisp hair was frowsy and rumpled, and the long curves of her bare young arms gleamed in the morning sunshine, glowing with vigor and life. a little mocking smile came and sat upon her lips. "what you run for?" she asked, with dancing mischief in her eyes. "because--" he hesitated, and his cheeks grew hot. "i knows," she said, with impish glee, laughing low music. "why?" he challenged, sturdily. "you was a-feared." he bridled. "well, i reckon you'd be a-feared if you was caught out in the black dark all alone." "pooh!" she scoffed and hugged her knees. "pooh! i've stayed out all alone heaps o' nights." he looked at her with a curious awe. "i don't believe you," he asserted; but she tossed her head and her eyes grew scornful. "who's a-feared of the dark? i love night." her eyes grew soft. he watched her silently, till, waking from her daydream, she abruptly asked: "where you from?" "georgia." "where's that?" he looked at her in surprise, but she seemed matter-of-fact. "it's away over yonder," he answered. "behind where the sun comes up?" "oh, no!" "then it ain't so far," she declared. "i knows where the sun rises, and i knows where it sets." she looked up at its gleaming splendor glinting through the leaves, and, noting its height, announced abruptly: "i'se hungry." "so'm i," answered the boy, fumbling at his bundle; and then, timidly: "will you eat with me?" "yes," she said, and watched him with eager eyes. untying the strips of cloth, he opened his box, and disclosed chicken and biscuits, ham and corn-bread. she clapped her hands in glee. "is there any water near?" he asked. without a word, she bounded up and flitted off like a brown bird, gleaming dull-golden in the sun, glancing in and out among the trees, till she paused above a tiny black pool, and then came tripping and swaying back with hands held cupwise and dripping with cool water. "drink," she cried. obediently he bent over the little hands that seemed so soft and thin. he took a deep draught; and then to drain the last drop, his hands touched hers and the shock of flesh first meeting flesh startled them both, while the water rained through. a moment their eyes looked deep into each other's--a timid, startled gleam in hers; a wonder in his. then she said dreamily: "we'se known us all our lives, and--before, ain't we?" he hesitated. "ye--es--i reckon," he slowly returned. and then, brightening, he asked gayly: "and we'll be friends always, won't we?" "yes," she said at last, slowly and solemnly, and another brief moment they stood still. then the mischief danced in her eyes, and a song bubbled on her lips. she hopped to the tree. "come--eat!" she cried. and they nestled together amid the big black roots of the oak, laughing and talking while they ate. "what's over there?" he asked pointing northward. "cresswell's big house." "and yonder to the west?" "the school." he started joyfully. "the school! what school?" "old miss' school." "miss smith's school?" "yes." the tone was disdainful. "why, that's where i'm going. i was a-feared it was a long way off; i must have passed it in the night." "i hate it!" cried the girl, her lips tense. "but i'll be so near," he explained. "and why do you hate it?" "yes--you'll be near," she admitted; "that'll be nice; but--" she glanced westward, and the fierce look faded. soft joy crept to her face again, and she sat once more dreaming. "yon way's nicest," she said. "why, what's there?" "the swamp," she said mysteriously. "and what's beyond the swamp?" she crouched beside him and whispered in eager, tense tones: "dreams!" he looked at her, puzzled. "dreams?" vaguely--"dreams? why, dreams ain't--nothing." "oh, yes they is!" she insisted, her eyes flaming in misty radiance as she sat staring beyond the shadows of the swamp. "yes they is! there ain't nothing but dreams--that is, nothing much. "and over yonder behind the swamps is great fields full of dreams, piled high and burning; and right amongst them the sun, when he's tired o' night, whispers and drops red things, 'cept when devils make 'em black." the boy stared at her; he knew not whether to jeer or wonder. "how you know?" he asked at last, skeptically. "promise you won't tell?" "yes," he answered. she cuddled into a little heap, nursing her knees, and answered slowly. "i goes there sometimes. i creeps in 'mongst the dreams; they hangs there like big flowers, dripping dew and sugar and blood--red, red blood. and there's little fairies there that hop about and sing, and devils--great, ugly devils that grabs at you and roasts and eats you if they gits you; but they don't git me. some devils is big and white, like ha'nts; some is long and shiny, like creepy, slippery snakes; and some is little and broad and black, and they yells--" the boy was listening in incredulous curiosity, half minded to laugh, half minded to edge away from the black-red radiance of yonder dusky swamp. he glanced furtively backward, and his heart gave a great bound. "some is little and broad and black, and they yells--" chanted the girl. and as she chanted, deep, harsh tones came booming through the forest: "_zo-ra! zo-ra!_ o--o--oh, zora!" he saw far behind him, toward the shadows of the swamp, an old woman--short, broad, black and wrinkled, with fangs and pendulous lips and red, wicked eyes. his heart bounded in sudden fear; he wheeled toward the girl, and caught only the uncertain flash of her garments--the wood was silent, and he was alone. he arose, startled, quickly gathered his bundle, and looked around him. the sun was strong and high, the morning fresh and vigorous. stamping one foot angrily, he strode jauntily out of the wood toward the big road. but ever and anon he glanced curiously back. had he seen a haunt? or was the elf-girl real? and then he thought of her words: "we'se known us all our lives." _two_ the school day was breaking above the white buildings of the negro school and throwing long, low lines of gold in at miss sarah smith's front window. she lay in the stupor of her last morning nap, after a night of harrowing worry. then, even as she partially awoke, she lay still with closed eyes, feeling the shadow of some great burden, yet daring not to rouse herself and recall its exact form; slowly again she drifted toward unconsciousness. "_bang! bang! bang!_" hard knuckles were beating upon the door below. she heard drowsily, and dreamed that it was the nailing up of all her doors; but she did not care much, and but feebly warded the blows away, for she was very tired. "_bang! bang! bang!_" persisted the hard knuckles. she started up, and her eye fell upon a letter lying on her bureau. back she sank with a sigh, and lay staring at the ceiling--a gaunt, flat, sad-eyed creature, with wisps of gray hair half-covering her baldness, and a face furrowed with care and gathering years. it was thirty years ago this day, she recalled, since she first came to this broad land of shade and shine in alabama to teach black folks. it had been a hard beginning with suspicion and squalor around; with poverty within and without the first white walls of the new school home. yet somehow the struggle then with all its helplessness and disappointment had not seemed so bitter as today: then failure meant but little, now it seemed to mean everything; then it meant disappointment to a score of ragged urchins, now it meant two hundred boys and girls, the spirits of a thousand gone before and the hopes of thousands to come. in her imagination the significance of these half dozen gleaming buildings perched aloft seemed portentous--big with the destiny not simply of a county and a state, but of a race--a nation--a world. it was god's own cause, and yet-"_bang! bang! bang!_" again went the hard knuckles down there at the front. miss smith slowly arose, shivering a bit and wondering who could possibly be rapping at that time in the morning. she sniffed the chilling air and was sure she caught some lingering perfume from mrs. vanderpool's gown. she had brought this rich and rare-apparelled lady up here yesterday, because it was more private, and here she had poured forth her needs. she had talked long and in deadly earnest. she had not spoken of the endowment for which she had hoped so desperately during a quarter of a century--no, only for the five thousand dollars to buy the long needed new land. it was so little--so little beside what this woman squandered-the insistent knocking was repeated louder than before. "sakes alive," cried miss smith, throwing a shawl about her and leaning out the window. "who is it, and what do you want?" "please, ma'am. i've come to school," answered a tall black boy with a bundle. "well, why don't you go to the office?" then she saw his face and hesitated. she felt again the old motherly instinct to be the first to welcome the new pupil; a luxury which, in later years, the endless push of details had denied her. "wait!" she cried shortly, and began to dress. a new boy, she mused. yes, every day they straggled in; every day came the call for more, more--this great, growing thirst to know--to do--to be. and yet that woman had sat right here, aloof, imperturbable, listening only courteously. when miss smith finished, she had paused and, flicking her glove,-"my dear miss smith," she said softly, with a tone that just escaped a drawl--"my dear miss smith, your work is interesting and your faith--marvellous; but, frankly, i cannot make myself believe in it. you are trying to treat these funny little monkeys just as you would your own children--or even mine. it's quite heroic, of course, but it's sheer madness, and i do not feel i ought to encourage it. i would not mind a thousand or so to train a good cook for the cresswells, or a clean and faithful maid for myself--for helene has faults--or indeed deft and tractable laboring-folk for any one; but i'm quite through trying to turn natural servants into masters of me and mine. i--hope i'm not too blunt; i hope i make myself clear. you know, statistics show--" "drat statistics!" miss smith had flashed impatiently. "these are folks." mrs. vanderpool smiled indulgently. "to be sure," she murmured, "but what sort of folks?" "god's sort." "oh, well--" but miss smith had the bit in her teeth and could not have stopped. she was paying high for the privilege of talking, but it had to be said. "god's sort, mrs. vanderpool--not the sort that think of the world as arranged for their exclusive benefit and comfort." "well, i do want to count--" miss smith bent forward--not a beautiful pose, but earnest. "i want you to count, and i want to count, too; but i don't want us to be the only ones that count. i want to live in a world where every soul counts--white, black, and yellow--all. _that's_ what i'm teaching these children here--to count, and not to be like dumb, driven cattle. if you don't believe in this, of course you cannot help us." "your spirit is admirable, miss smith," she had said very softly; "i only wish i could feel as you do. good-afternoon," and she had rustled gently down the narrow stairs, leaving an all but imperceptible suggestion of perfume. miss smith could smell it yet as she went down this morning. the breakfast bell jangled. "five thousand dollars," she kept repeating to herself, greeting the teachers absently--"five thousand dollars." and then on the porch she was suddenly aware of the awaiting boy. she eyed him critically: black, fifteen, country-bred, strong, clear-eyed. "well?" she asked in that brusque manner wherewith her natural timidity was wont to mask her kindness. "well, sir?" "i've come to school." "humph--we can't teach boys for nothing." the boy straightened. "i can pay my way," he returned. "you mean you can pay what we ask?" "why, yes. ain't that all?" "no. the rest is gathered from the crumbs of dives' table." then he saw the twinkle in her eyes. she laid her hand gently upon his shoulder. "if you don't hurry you'll be late to breakfast," she said with an air of confidence. "see those boys over there? follow them, and at noon come to the office--wait! what's your name?" "blessed alwyn," he answered, and the passing teachers smiled. _three_ miss mary taylor miss mary taylor did not take a college course for the purpose of teaching negroes. not that she objected to negroes as human beings--quite the contrary. in the debate between the senior societies her defence of the fifteenth amendment had been not only a notable bit of reasoning, but delivered with real enthusiasm. nevertheless, when the end of the summer came and the only opening facing her was the teaching of children at miss smith's experiment in the alabama swamps, it must be frankly confessed that miss taylor was disappointed. her dream had been a post-graduate course at bryn mawr; but that was out of the question until money was earned. she had pictured herself earning this by teaching one or two of her "specialties" in some private school near new york or boston, or even in a western college. the south she had not thought of seriously; and yet, knowing of its delightful hospitality and mild climate, she was not averse to charleston or new orleans. but from the offer that came to teach negroes--country negroes, and little ones at that--she shrank, and, indeed, probably would have refused it out of hand had it not been for her queer brother, john. john taylor, who had supported her through college, was interested in cotton. having certain schemes in mind, he had been struck by the fact that the smith school was in the midst of the alabama cotton-belt. "better go," he had counselled, sententiously. "might learn something useful down there." she had been not a little dismayed by the outlook, and had protested against his blunt insistence. "but, john, there's no society--just elementary work--" john had met this objection with, "humph!" as he left for his office. next day he had returned to the subject. "been looking up tooms county. find some cresswells there--big plantations--rated at two hundred and fifty thousand dollars. some others, too; big cotton county." "you ought to know, john, if i teach negroes i'll scarcely see much of people in my own class." "nonsense! butt in. show off. give 'em your greek--and study cotton. at any rate, i say go." and so, howsoever reluctantly, she had gone. the trial was all she had anticipated, and possibly a bit more. she was a pretty young woman of twenty-three, fair and rather daintily moulded. in favorable surroundings, she would have been an aristocrat and an epicure. here she was teaching dirty children, and the smell of confused odors and bodily perspiration was to her at times unbearable. then there was the fact of their color: it was a fact so insistent, so fatal she almost said at times, that she could not escape it. theoretically she had always treated it with disdainful ease. "what's the mere color of a human soul's skin," she had cried to a wellesley audience and the audience had applauded with enthusiasm. but here in alabama, brought closely and intimately in touch with these dark skinned children, their color struck her at first with a sort of terror--it seemed ominous and forbidding. she found herself shrinking away and gripping herself lest they should perceive. she could not help but think that in most other things they were as different from her as in color. she groped for new ways to teach colored brains and marshal colored thoughts and the result was puzzling both to teacher and student. with the other teachers she had little commerce. they were in no sense her sort of folk. miss smith represented the older new england of her parents--honest, inscrutable, determined, with a conscience which she worshipped, and utterly unselfish. she appealed to miss taylor's ruddier and daintier vision but dimly and distantly as some memory of the past. the other teachers were indistinct personalities, always very busy and very tired, and talking "school-room" with their meals. miss taylor was soon starving for human companionship, for the lighter touches of life and some of its warmth and laughter. she wanted a glance of the new books and periodicals and talk of great philanthropies and reforms. she felt out of the world, shut in and mentally anã¦mic; great as the "negro problem" might be as a world problem, it looked sordid and small at close range. so for the hundredth time she was thinking today, as she walked alone up the lane back of the barn, and then slowly down through the bottoms. she paused a moment and nodded to the two boys at work in a young cotton field. "cotton!" she paused. she remembered with what interest she had always read of this little thread of the world. she had almost forgotten that it was here within touch and sight. for a moment something of the vision of cotton was mirrored in her mind. the glimmering sea of delicate leaves whispered and murmured before her, stretching away to the northward. she remembered that beyond this little world it stretched on and on--how far she did not know--but on and on in a great trembling sea, and the foam of its mighty waters would one time flood the ends of the earth. she glimpsed all this with parted lips, and then sighed impatiently. there might be a bit of poetry here and there, but most of this place was such desperate prose. she glanced absently at the boys. one was bles alwyn, a tall black lad. (bles, she mused,--now who would think of naming a boy "blessed," save these incomprehensible creatures!) her regard shifted to the green stalks and leaves again, and she started to move away. then her new england conscience stepped in. she ought not to pass these students without a word of encouragement or instruction. "cotton is a wonderful thing, is it not, boys?" she said rather primly. the boys touched their hats and murmured something indistinctly. miss taylor did not know much about cotton, but at least one more remark seemed called for. "how long before the stalks will be ready to cut?" she asked carelessly. the farther boy coughed and bles raised his eyes and looked at her; then after a pause he answered slowly. (oh! these people were so slow--now a new england boy would have answered and asked a half-dozen questions in the time.) "i--i don't know," he faltered. "don't know! well, of all things!" inwardly commented miss taylor--"literally born in cotton, and--oh, well," as much as to ask, "what's the use?" she turned again to go. "what is planted over there?" she asked, although she really didn't care. "goobers," answered the smaller boy. "goobers?" uncomprehendingly. "peanuts," bles specified. "oh!" murmured miss taylor. "i see there are none on the vines yet. i suppose, though, it's too early for them." then came the explosion. the smaller boy just snorted with irrepressible laughter and bolted across the fields. and bles--was miss taylor deceived?--or was he chuckling? she reddened, drew herself up, and then, dropping her primness, rippled with laughter. "what is the matter, bles?" she asked. he looked at her with twinkling eyes. "well, you see, miss taylor, it's like this: farming don't seem to be your specialty." the word was often on miss taylor's lips, and she recognized it. despite herself she smiled again. "of course, it isn't--i don't know anything about farming. but what did i say so funny?" bles was now laughing outright. "why, miss taylor! i declare! goobers don't grow on the tops of vines, but underground on the roots--like yams." "is that so?" "yes, and we--we don't pick cotton stalks except for kindling." "i must have been thinking of hemp. but tell me more about cotton." his eyes lighted, for cotton was to him a very real and beautiful thing, and a life-long companion, yet not one whose friendship had been coarsened and killed by heavy toil. he leaned against his hoe and talked half dreamily--where had he learned so well that dream-talk? "we turn up the earth and sow it soon after christmas. then pretty soon there comes a sort of greenness on the black land and it swells and grows and, and--shivers. then stalks shoot up with three or four leaves. that's the way it is now, see? after that we chop out the weak stalks, and the strong ones grow tall and dark, till i think it must be like the ocean--all green and billowy; then come little flecks here and there and the sea is all filled with flowers--flowers like little bells, blue and purple and white." "ah! that must be beautiful," sighed miss taylor, wistfully, sinking to the ground and clasping her hands about her knees. "yes, ma'am. but it's prettiest when the bolls come and swell and burst, and the cotton covers the field like foam, all misty--" she bent wondering over the pale plants. the poetry of the thing began to sing within her, awakening her unpoetic imagination, and she murmured: "the golden fleece--it's the silver fleece!" he harkened. "what's that?" he asked. "have you never heard of the golden fleece, bles?" "no, ma'am," he said eagerly; then glancing up toward the cresswell fields, he saw two white men watching them. he grasped his hoe and started briskly to work. "some time you'll tell me, please, won't you?" she glanced at her watch in surprise and arose hastily. "yes, with pleasure," she said moving away--at first very fast, and then more and more slowly up the lane, with a puzzled look on her face. she began to realize that in this pleasant little chat the fact of the boy's color had quite escaped her; and what especially puzzled her was that this had not happened before. she had been here four months, and yet every moment up to now she seemed to have been vividly, almost painfully conscious, that she was a white woman talking to black folk. now, for one little half-hour she had been a woman talking to a boy--no, not even that: she had been talking--just talking; there were no persons in the conversation, just things--one thing: cotton. she started thinking of cotton--but at once she pulled herself back to the other aspect. always before she had been veiled from these folk: who had put the veil there? had she herself hung it before her soul, or had they hidden timidly behind its other side? or was it simply a brute fact, regardless of both of them? the longer she thought, the more bewildered she grew. there seemed no analogy that she knew. here was a unique thing, and she climbed to her bedroom and stared at the stars. _four_ town john taylor had written to his sister. he wanted information, very definite information, about tooms county cotton; about its stores, its people--especially its people. he propounded a dozen questions, sharp, searching questions, and he wanted the answers tomorrow. impossible! thought miss taylor. he had calculated on her getting this letter yesterday, forgetting that their mail was fetched once a day from the town, four miles away. then, too, she did not know all these matters and knew no one who did. did john think she had nothing else to do? and sighing at the thought of to-morrow's drudgery, she determined to consult miss smith in the morning. miss smith suggested a drive to town--bles could take her in the top-buggy after school--and she could consult some of the merchants and business men. she could then write her letter and mail it there; it would be but a day or so late getting to new york. "of course," said miss smith drily, slowly folding her napkin, "of course, the only people here are the cresswells." "oh, yes," said miss taylor invitingly. there was an allurement about this all-pervasive name; it held her by a growing fascination and she was anxious for the older woman to amplify. miss smith, however, remained provokingly silent, so miss taylor essayed further. "what sort of people are the cresswells?" she asked. "the old man's a fool; the young one a rascal; the girl a ninny," was miss smith's succinct and acid classification of the county's first family; adding, as she rose, "but they own us body and soul." she hurried out of the dining-room without further remark. miss smith was more patient with black folk than with white. the sun was hanging just above the tallest trees of the swamp when miss taylor, weary with the day's work, climbed into the buggy beside bles. they wheeled comfortably down the road, leaving the sombre swamp, with its black-green, to the right, and heading toward the golden-green of waving cotton fields. miss taylor lay back, listlessly, and drank the soft warm air of the languorous spring. she thought of the golden sheen of the cotton, and the cold march winds of new england; of her brother who apparently noted nothing of leaves and winds and seasons; and of the mighty cresswells whom miss smith so evidently disliked. suddenly she became aware of her long silence and the silence of the boy. "bles," she began didactically, "where are you from?" he glanced across at her and answered shortly: "georgia, ma'am," and was silent. the girl tried again. "georgia is a large state,"--tentatively. "yes, ma'am." "are you going back there when you finish?" "i don't know." "i think you ought to--and work for your people." "yes, ma'am." she stopped, puzzled, and looked about. the old horse jogged lazily on, and bles switched him unavailingly. somehow she had missed the way today. the veil hung thick, sombre, impenetrable. well, she had done her duty, and slowly she nestled back and watched the far-off green and golden radiance of the cotton. "bles," she said impulsively, "shall i tell you of the golden fleece?" he glanced at her again. "yes'm, please," he said. she settled herself almost luxuriously, and began the story of jason and the argonauts. the boy remained silent. and when she had finished, he still sat silent, elbow on knee, absently flicking the jogging horse and staring ahead at the horizon. she looked at him doubtfully with some disappointment that his hearing had apparently shared so little of the joy of her telling; and, too, there was mingled a vague sense of having lowered herself to too familiar fellowship with this--this boy. she straightened herself instinctively and thought of some remark that would restore proper relations. she had not found it before he said, slowly: "all yon is jason's." "what?" she asked, puzzled. he pointed with one sweep of his long arm to the quivering mass of green-gold foliage that swept from swamp to horizon. "all yon golden fleece is jason's now," he repeated. "i thought it was--cresswell's," she said. "that's what i mean." she suddenly understood that the story had sunk deeply. "i am glad to hear you say that," she said methodically, "for jason was a brave adventurer--" "i thought he was a thief." "oh, well--those were other times." "the cresswells are thieves now." miss taylor answered sharply. "bles, i am ashamed to hear you talk so of your neighbors simply because they are white." but bles continued. "this is the black sea," he said, pointing to the dull cabins that crouched here and there upon the earth, with the dark twinkling of their black folk darting out to see the strangers ride by. despite herself miss taylor caught the allegory and half whispered, "lo! the king himself!" as a black man almost rose from the tangled earth at their side. he was tall and thin and sombre-hued, with a carven face and thick gray hair. "your servant, mistress," he said, with a sweeping bow as he strode toward the swamp. miss taylor stopped him, for he looked interesting, and might answer some of her brother's questions. he turned back and stood regarding her with sorrowful eyes and ugly mouth. "do you live about here?" she asked. "i'se lived here a hundred years," he answered. she did not believe it; he might be seventy, eighty, or even ninety--indeed, there was about him that indefinable sense of age--some shadow of endless living; but a hundred seemed absurd. "you know the people pretty well, then?" "i knows dem all. i knows most of 'em better dan dey knows demselves. i knows a heap of tings in dis world and in de next." "this is a great cotton country?" "dey don't raise no cotton now to what dey used to when old gen'rel cresswell fust come from carolina; den it was a bale and a half to the acre on stalks dat looked like young brushwood. dat was cotton." "you know the cresswells, then?" "know dem? i knowed dem afore dey was born." "they are--wealthy people?" "dey rolls in money and dey'se quality, too. no shoddy upstarts dem, but born to purple, lady, born to purple. old gen'ral cresswell had niggers and acres no end back dere in carolina. he brung a part of dem here and here his son, de father of dis colonel cresswell, was born. de son--i knowed him well--he had a tousand niggers and ten tousand acres afore de war." "were they kind to their slaves?" "oh, yaas, yaas, ma'am, dey was careful of de're niggers and wouldn't let de drivers whip 'em much." "and these cresswells today?" "oh, dey're quality--high-blooded folks--dey'se lost some land and niggers, but, lordy, nuttin' can buy de cresswells, dey naturally owns de world." "are they honest and kind?" "oh, yaas, ma'am--dey'se good white folks." "good white folk?" "oh, yaas, ma'am--course you knows white folks will be white folks--white folks will be white folks. your servant, ma'am." and the swamp swallowed him. the boy's eyes followed him as he whipped up the horse. "he's going to elspeth's," he said. "who is he?" "we just call him old pappy--he's a preacher, and some folks say a conjure man, too." "and who is elspeth?" "she lives in the swamp--she's a kind of witch, i reckon, like--like--" "like medea?" "yes--only--i don't know--" and he grew thoughtful. the road turned now and far away to the eastward rose the first straggling cabins of the town. creeping toward them down the road rolled a dark squat figure. it grew and spread slowly on the horizon until it became a fat old black woman, hooded and aproned, with great round hips and massive bosom. her face was heavy and homely until she looked up and lifted the drooping cheeks, and then kindly old eyes beamed on the young teacher, as she curtsied and cried: "good-evening, honey! good-evening! you sure is pretty dis evening." "why, aunt rachel, how are you?" there was genuine pleasure in the girl's tone. "just tolerable, honey, bless de lord! rumatiz is kind o' bad and aunt rachel ain't so young as she use ter be." "and what brings you to town afoot this time of day?" the face fell again to dull care and the old eyes crept away. she fumbled with her cane. "it's de boys again, honey," she returned solemnly; "dey'se good boys, dey is good to de're old mammy, but dey'se high strung and dey gits fighting and drinking and--and--last saturday night dey got took up again. i'se been to jedge grey--i use to tote him on my knee, honey--i'se been to him to plead him not to let 'em go on de gang, 'cause you see, honey," and she stroked the girl's sleeve as if pleading with her, too, "you see it done ruins boys to put 'em on de gang." miss taylor tried hard to think of something comforting to say, but words seemed inadequate to cheer the old soul; but after a few moments they rode on, leaving the kind face again beaming and dimpling. and now the country town of toomsville lifted itself above the cotton and corn, fringed with dirty straggling cabins of black folk. the road swung past the iron watering trough, turned sharply and, after passing two or three pert cottages and a stately house, old and faded, opened into the wide square. here pulsed the very life and being of the land. yonder great bales of cotton, yellow-white in its soiled sacking, piled in lofty, dusty mountains, lay listening for the train that, twice a day, ran out to the greater world. round about, tied to the well-gnawed hitching rails, were rows of mules--mules with back cloths; mules with saddles; mules hitched to long wagons, buggies, and rickety gigs; mules munching golden ears of corn, and mules drooping their heads in sorrowful memory of better days. beyond the cotton warehouse smoked the chimneys of the seed-mill and the cotton-gin; a red livery-stable faced them and all about three sides of the square ran stores; big stores and small wide-windowed, narrow stores. some had old steps above the worn clay side-walks, and some were flush with the ground. all had a general sense of dilapidation--save one, the largest and most imposing, a three-story brick. this was caldwell's "emporium"; and here bles stopped and miss taylor entered. mr. caldwell himself hurried forward; and the whole store, clerks and customers, stood at attention, for miss taylor was yet new to the county. she bought a few trifles and then approached her main business. "my brother wants some information about the county, mr. caldwell, and i am only a teacher, and do not know much about conditions here." "ah! where do you teach?" asked mr. caldwell. he was certain he knew the teachers of all the white schools in the county. miss taylor told him. he stiffened slightly but perceptibly, like a man clicking the buckles of his ready armor, and two townswomen who listened gradually turned their backs, but remained near. "yes--yes," he said, with uncomfortable haste. "any--er--information--of course--" miss taylor got out her notes. "the leading land-owners," she began, sorting the notes searchingly, "i should like to know something about them." "well, colonel cresswell is, of course, our greatest landlord--a high-bred gentleman of the old school. he and his son--a worthy successor to the name--hold some fifty thousand acres. they may be considered representative types. then, mr. maxwell has ten thousand acres and mr. tolliver a thousand." miss taylor wrote rapidly. "and cotton?" she asked. "we raise considerable cotton, but not nearly what we ought to; nigger labor is too worthless." "oh! the negroes are not, then, very efficient?" "efficient!" snorted mr. caldwell; at last she had broached a phase of the problem upon which he could dilate with fervor. "they're the lowest-down, ornriest--begging your pardon--good-for-nothing loafers you ever heard of. why, we just have to carry them and care for them like children. look yonder," he pointed across the square to the court-house. it was an old square brick-and-stucco building, sombre and stilted and very dirty. out of it filed a stream of men--some black and shackled; some white and swaggering and liberal with tobacco-juice; some white and shaven and stiff. "court's just out," pursued mr. caldwell, "and them niggers have just been sent to the gang--young ones, too; educated but good for nothing. they're all that way." miss taylor looked up a little puzzled, and became aware of a battery of eyes and ears. everybody seemed craning and listening, and she felt a sudden embarrassment and a sense of half-veiled hostility in the air. with one or two further perfunctory questions, and a hasty expression of thanks, she escaped into the air. the whole square seemed loafing and lolling--the white world perched on stoops and chairs, in doorways and windows; the black world filtering down from doorways to side-walk and curb. the hot, dusty quadrangle stretched in dreary deadness toward the temple of the town, as if doing obeisance to the court-house. down the courthouse steps the sheriff, with winchester on shoulder, was bringing the last prisoner--a curly-headed boy with golden face and big brown frightened eyes. "it's one of dunn's boys," said bles. "he's drunk again, and they say he's been stealing. i expect he was hungry." and they wheeled out of the square. miss taylor was tired, and the hastily scribbled letter which she dropped into the post in passing was not as clearly expressed as she could wish. a great-voiced giant, brown and bearded, drove past them, roaring a hymn. he greeted bles with a comprehensive wave of the hand. "i guess tylor has been paid off," said bles, but miss taylor was too disgusted to answer. further on they overtook a tall young yellow boy walking awkwardly beside a handsome, bold-faced girl. two white men came riding by. one leered at the girl, and she laughed back, while the yellow boy strode sullenly ahead. as the two white riders approached the buggy one said to the other: "who's that nigger with?" "one of them nigger teachers." "well, they'll stop this damn riding around or they'll hear something," and they rode slowly by. miss taylor felt rather than heard their words, and she was uncomfortable. the sun fell fast; the long shadows of the swamp swept soft coolness on the red road. then afar in front a curled cloud of white dust arose and out of it came the sound of galloping horses. "who's this?" asked miss taylor. "the cresswells, i think; they usually ride to town about this time." but already miss taylor had descried the brown and tawny sides of the speeding horses. "good gracious!" she thought. "the cresswells!" and with it came a sudden desire not to meet them--just then. she glanced toward the swamp. the sun was sifting blood-red lances through the trees. a little wagon-road entered the wood and disappeared. miss taylor saw it. "let's see the sunset in the swamp," she said suddenly. on came the galloping horses. bles looked up in surprise, then silently turned into the swamp. the horses flew by, their hoof-beats dying in the distance. a dark green silence lay about them lit by mighty crimson glories beyond. miss taylor leaned back and watched it dreamily till a sense of oppression grew on her. the sun was sinking fast. "where does this road come out?" she asked at last. "it doesn't come out." "where does it go?" "it goes to elspeth's." "why, we must turn back immediately. i thought--" but bles was already turning. they were approaching the main road again when there came a fluttering as of a great bird beating its wings amid the forest. then a girl, lithe, dark brown, and tall, leaped lightly into the path with greetings on her lips for bles. at the sight of the lady she drew suddenly back and stood motionless regarding miss taylor, searching her with wide black liquid eyes. miss taylor was a little startled. "good--good-evening," she said, straightening herself. the girl was still silent and the horse stopped. one tense moment pulsed through all the swamp. then the girl, still motionless--still looking miss taylor through and through--said with slow deliberateness: "i hates you." the teacher in miss taylor strove to rebuke this unconventional greeting but the woman in her spoke first and asked almost before she knew it-"why?" _five_ zora zora, child of the swamp, was a heathen hoyden of twelve wayward, untrained years. slight, straight, strong, full-blooded, she had dreamed her life away in wilful wandering through her dark and sombre kingdom until she was one with it in all its moods; mischievous, secretive, brooding; full of great and awful visions, steeped body and soul in wood-lore. her home was out of doors, the cabin of elspeth her port of call for talking and eating. she had not known, she had scarcely seen, a child of her own age until bles alwyn had fled from her dancing in the night, and she had searched and found him sleeping in the misty morning light. it was to her a strange new thing to see a fellow of like years with herself, and she gripped him to her soul in wild interest and new curiosity. yet this childish friendship was so new and incomprehensible a thing to her that she did not know how to express it. at first she pounced upon him in mirthful, almost impish glee, teasing and mocking and half scaring him, despite his fifteen years of young manhood. "yes, they is devils down yonder behind the swamp," she would whisper, warningly, when, after the first meeting, he had crept back again and again, half fascinated, half amused to greet her; "i'se seen 'em, i'se heard 'em, 'cause my mammy is a witch." the boy would sit and watch her wonderingly as she lay curled along the low branch of the mighty oak, clinging with little curved limbs and flying fingers. possessed by the spirit of her vision, she would chant, low-voiced, tremulous, mischievous: "one night a devil come to me on blue fire out of a big red flower that grows in the south swamp; he was tall and big and strong as anything, and when he spoke the trees shook and the stars fell. even mammy was afeared; and it takes a lot to make mammy afeared, 'cause she's a witch and can conjure. he said, 'i'll come when you die--i'll come when you die, and take the conjure off you,' and then he went away on a big fire." "shucks!" the boy would say, trying to express scornful disbelief when, in truth, he was awed and doubtful. always he would glance involuntarily back along the path behind him. then her low birdlike laughter would rise and ring through the trees. so passed a year, and there came the time when her wayward teasing and the almost painful thrill of her tale-telling nettled him and drove him away. for long months he did not meet her, until one day he saw her deep eyes fixed longingly upon him from a thicket in the swamp. he went and greeted her. but she said no word, sitting nested among the greenwood with passionate, proud silence, until he had sued long for peace; then in sudden new friendship she had taken his hand and led him through the swamp, showing him all the beauty of her swamp-world--great shadowy oaks and limpid pools, lone, naked trees and sweet flowers; the whispering and flitting of wild things, and the winging of furtive birds. she had dropped the impish mischief of her way, and up from beneath it rose a wistful, visionary tenderness; a mighty half-confessed, half-concealed, striving for unknown things. he seemed to have found a new friend. and today, after he had taken miss taylor home and supped, he came out in the twilight under the new moon and whistled the tremulous note that always brought her. "why did you speak so to miss taylor?" he asked, reproachfully. she considered the matter a moment. "you don't understand," she said. "you can't never understand. i can see right through people. you can't. you never had a witch for a mammy--did you?" "no." "well, then, you see i have to take care of you and see things for you." "zora," he said thoughtfully, "you must learn to read." "what for?" "so that you can read books and know lots of things." "don't white folks make books?" "yes--most of the books." "pooh! i knows more than they do now--a heap more." "in some ways you do; but they know things that give them power and wealth and make them rule." "no, no. they don't really rule; they just thinks they rule. they just got things--heavy, dead things. we black folks is got the _spirit_. we'se lighter and cunninger; we fly right through them; we go and come again just as we wants to. black folks is wonderful." he did not understand what she meant; but he knew what he wanted and he tried again. "even if white folks don't know everything they know different things from us, and we ought to know what they know." this appealed to her somewhat. "i don't believe they know much," she concluded; "but i'll learn to read and just see." "it will be hard work," he warned. but he had come prepared for acquiescence. he took a primer from his pocket and, lighting a match, showed her the alphabet. "learn those," he said. "what for?" she asked, looking at the letters disdainfully. "because that's the way," he said, as the light flared and went out. "i don't believe it," she disputed, disappearing in the wood and returning with a pine-knot. they lighted it and its smoky flame threw wavering shadows about. she turned the leaves till she came to a picture which she studied intently. "is this about this?" she asked, pointing alternately to reading and picture. "yes. and if you learn--" "read it," she commanded. he read the page. "again," she said, making him point out each word. then she read it after him, accurately, with more perfect expression. he stared at her. she took the book, and with a nod was gone. it was saturday and dark. she never asked bles to her home--to that mysterious black cabin in mid-swamp. he thought her ashamed of it, and delicately refrained from going. so tonight she slipped away, stopped and listened till she heard his footsteps on the pike, and then flew homeward. presently the old black cabin loomed before her with its wide flapping door. the old woman was bending over the fire, stirring some savory mess, and a yellow girl with a white baby on one arm was placing dishes on a rickety wooden table when zora suddenly and noiselessly entered the door. "come, is you? i 'lowed victuals would fetch you," grumbled the hag. but zora deigned no answer. she walked placidly to the table, where she took up a handful of cold corn-bread and meat, and then went over and curled up by the fire. elspeth and the girl talked and laughed coarsely, and the night wore on. by and by loud laughter and tramping came from the road--a sound of numerous footsteps. zora listened, leapt to her feet and started to the door. the old crone threw an epithet after her; but she flashed through the lighted doorway and was gone, followed by the oath and shouts from the approaching men. in the hut night fled with wild song and revel, and day dawned again. out from some fastness of the wood crept zora. she stopped and bathed in a pool, and combed her close-clung hair, then entered silently to breakfast. thus began in the dark swamp that primal battle with the word. she hated it and despised it, but her pride was in arms and her one great life friendship in the balance. she fought her way with a dogged persistence that brought word after word of praise and interest from bles. then, once well begun, her busy, eager mind flew with a rapidity that startled; the stories especially she devoured--tales of strange things and countries and men gripped her imagination and clung to her memory. "didn't i tell you there was lots to learn?" he asked once. "i knew it all," she retorted; "every bit. i'se thought it all before; only the little things is different--and i like the little, strange things." spring ripened to summer. she was reading well and writing some. "zora," he announced one morning under their forest oak, "you must go to school." she eyed him, surprised. "why?" "you've found some things worth knowing in this world, haven't you, zora?" "yes," she admitted. "but there are more--many, many more--worlds on worlds of things--you have not dreamed of." she stared at him, open-eyed, and a wonder crept upon her face battling with the old assurance. then she looked down at her bare brown feet and torn gown. "i've got a little money, zora," he said quickly. but she lifted her head. "i'll earn mine," she said. "how?" he asked doubtfully. "i'll pick cotton." "can you?" "course i can." "it's hard work." she hesitated. "i don't like to work," she mused. "you see, mammy's pappy was a king's son, and kings don't work. i don't work; mostly i dreams. but i can work, and i will--for the wonder things--and for you." so the summer yellowed and silvered into fall. all the vacation days bles worked on the farm, and zora read and dreamed and studied in the wood, until the land lay white with harvest. then, without warning, she appeared in the cotton-field beside bles, and picked. it was hot, sore work. the sun blazed; her bent and untrained back pained, and the soft little hands bled. but no complaint passed her lips; her hands never wavered, and her eyes met his steadily and gravely. she bade him good-night, cheerily, and then stole away to the wood, crouching beneath the great oak, and biting back the groans that trembled on her lips. often, she fell supperless to sleep, with two great tears creeping down her tired cheeks. when school-time came there was not yet money enough, for cotton-picking was not far advanced. yet zora would take no money from bles, and worked earnestly away. meantime there occurred to the boy the momentous question of clothes. had zora thought of them? he feared not. she knew little of clothes and cared less. so one day in town he dropped into caldwell's "emporium" and glanced hesitantly at certain ready-made dresses. one caught his eye. it came from the great easterly mills in new england and was red--a vivid red. the glowing warmth of this cloth of cotton caught the eye of bles, and he bought the gown for a dollar and a half. he carried it to zora in the wood, and unrolled it before her eyes that danced with glad tears. of course, it was long and wide; but he fetched needle and thread and scissors, too. it was a full month after school had begun when they, together back in the swamp, shadowed by the foliage, began to fashion the wonderful garment. at the same time she laid ten dollars of her first hard-earned money in his hands. "you can finish the first year with this money," bles assured her, delighted, "and then next year you must come in to board; because, you see, when you're educated you won't want to live in the swamp." "i wants to live here always." "but not at elspeth's." "no-o--not there, not there." and a troubled questioning trembled in her eyes, but brought no answering thought in his, for he was busy with his plans. "then, you see, zora, if you stay here you'll need a new house, and you'll want to learn how to make it beautiful." "yes, a beautiful, great castle here in the swamp," she dreamed; "but," and her face fell, "i can't get money enough to board in; and i don't want to board in--i wants to be free." he looked at her, curled down so earnestly at her puzzling task, and a pity for the more than motherless child swept over him. he bent over her, nervously, eagerly, and she laid down her sewing and sat silent and passive with dark, burning eyes. "zora," he said, "i want you to do all this--for me." "i will, if you wants me to," she said quietly, but with something in her voice that made him look half startled into her beautiful eyes and feel a queer flushing in his face. he stretched his hand out and taking hers held it lightly till she quivered and drew away, bending again over her sewing. then a nameless exaltation rose within his heart. "zora," he whispered, "i've got a plan." "what is it?" she asked, still with bowed head. "listen, till i tell you of the golden fleece." then she too heard the story of jason. breathless she listened, dropping her sewing and leaning forward, eager-eyed. then her face clouded. "do you s'pose mammy's the witch?" she asked dubiously. "no; she wouldn't give her own flesh and blood to help the thieving jason." she looked at him searchingly. "yes, she would, too," affirmed the girl, and then she paused, still intently watching him. she was troubled, and again a question eagerly hovered on her lips. but he continued: "then we must escape her," he said gayly. "see! yonder lies the silver fleece spread across the brown back of the world; let's get a bit of it, and hide it here in the swamp, and comb it, and tend it, and make it the beautifullest bit of all. then we can sell it, and send you to school." she sat silently bent forward, turning the picture in her mind. suddenly forgetting her trouble, she bubbled with laughter, and leaping up clapped her hands. "and i knows just the place!" she cried eagerly, looking at him with a flash of the old teasing mischief--"down in the heart of the swamp--where dreams and devils lives." * * * * * up at the school-house miss taylor was musing. she had been invited to spend the summer with mrs. grey at lake george, and such a summer!--silken clothes and dainty food, motoring and golf, well-groomed men and elegant women. she would not have put it in just that way, but the vision came very close to spelling heaven to her mind. not that she would come to it vacant-minded, but rather as a trained woman, starved for companionship and wanting something of the beauty and ease of life. she sat dreaming of it here with rows of dark faces before her, and the singsong wail of a little black reader with his head aslant and his patched kneepants. the day was warm and languorous, and the last pale mist of the silver fleece peeped in at the windows. she tried to follow the third-reader lesson with her finger, but persistently off she went, dreaming, to some exquisite little parlor with its green and gold, the clink of dainty china and hum of low voices, and the blue lake in the window; she would glance up, the door would open softly and-just here she did glance up, and all the school glanced with her. the drone of the reader hushed. the door opened softly, and upon the threshold stood zora. her small feet and slender ankles were black and bare; her dark, round, and broad-browed head and strangely beautiful face were poised almost defiantly, crowned with a misty mass of waveless hair, and lit by the velvet radiance of two wonderful eyes. and hanging from shoulder to ankle, in formless, clinging folds, blazed the scarlet gown. _six_ cotton the cry of the naked was sweeping the world. from the peasant toiling in russia, the lady lolling in london, the chieftain burning in africa, and the esquimaux freezing in alaska; from long lines of hungry men, from patient sad-eyed women, from old folk and creeping children went up the cry, "clothes, clothes!" far away the wide black land that belts the south, where miss smith worked and miss taylor drudged and bles and zora dreamed, the dense black land sensed the cry and heard the bound of answering life within the vast dark breast. all that dark earth heaved in mighty travail with the bursting bolls of the cotton while black attendant earth spirits swarmed above, sweating and crooning to its birth pains. after the miracle of the bursting bolls, when the land was brightest with the piled mist of the fleece, and when the cry of the naked was loudest in the mouths of men, a sudden cloud of workers swarmed between the cotton and the naked, spinning and weaving and sewing and carrying the fleece and mining and minting and bringing the silver till the song of service filled the world and the poetry of toil was in the souls of the laborers. yet ever and always there were tense silent white-faced men moving in that swarm who felt no poetry and heard no song, and one of these was john taylor. he was tall, thin, cold, and tireless and he moved among the watchers of this world of trade. in the rich wall street offices of grey and easterly, brokers, mr. taylor, as chief and confidential clerk surveyed the world's nakedness and the supply of cotton to clothe it. the object of his watching was frankly stated to himself and to his world. he purposed going into business neither for his own health nor for the healing or clothing of the peoples but to apply his knowledge of the world's nakedness and of black men's toil in such a way as to bring himself wealth. in this he was but following the teaching of his highest ideal, lately deceased, mr. job grey. mr. grey had so successfully manipulated the cotton market that while black men who made the cotton starved in alabama and white men who bought it froze in siberia, he himself sat- _"high on a throne of royal state that far outshone the wealth of ormuz or of ind._" notwithstanding this he died eventually, leaving the burden of his wealth to his bewildered wife, and his business to the astute mr. easterly; not simply to mr. easterly, but in a sense to his spiritual heir, john taylor. to be sure mr. taylor had but a modest salary and no financial interest in the business, but he had knowledge and business daring--effrontery even--and the determination was fixed in his mind to be a millionaire at no distant date. some cautious fliers on the market gave him enough surplus to send his sister mary through the high school of his country home in new hampshire, and afterward through wellesley college; although just why a woman should want to go through college was inexplicable to john taylor, and he was still uncertain as to the wisdom of his charity. when she had an offer to teach in the south, john taylor hurried her off for two reasons: he was profoundly interested in the cotton-belt, and there she might be of service to him; and secondly, he had spent all the money on her that he intended to at present, and he wanted her to go to work. as an investment he did not consider mary a success. her letters intimated very strongly her intention not to return to miss smith's school; but they also brought information--disjointed and incomplete, to be sure--which mightily interested mr. taylor and sent him to atlases, encyclopã¦dias, and census-reports. when he went to that little lunch with old mrs. grey he was not sure that he wanted his sister to leave the cotton-belt just yet. after lunch he was sure that he did not want her to leave. the rich mrs. grey was at the crisis of her fortunes. she was an elderly lady, in those uncertain years beyond fifty, and had been left suddenly with more millions than she could easily count. personally she was inclined to spend her money in bettering the world right off, in such ways as might from time to time seem attractive. this course, to her husband's former partner and present executor, mr. edward easterly, was not only foolish but wicked, and, incidentally, distinctly unprofitable to him. he had expressed himself strongly to mrs. grey last night at dinner and had reinforced his argument by a pointed letter written this morning. to john taylor mrs. grey's disposal of the income was unbelievable blasphemy against the memory of a mighty man. he did not put this in words to mrs. grey--he was only head clerk in her late husband's office--but he became watchful and thoughtful. he ate his soup in silence when she descanted on various benevolent schemes. "now, what do you know," she asked finally, "about negroes--about educating them?" mr. taylor over his fish was about to deny all knowledge of any sort on the subject, but all at once he recollected his sister, and a sudden gleam of light radiated his mental gloom. "have a sister who is--er--devoting herself to teaching them," he said. "is that so!" cried mrs. grey, joyfully. "where is she?" "in tooms county, alabama--in--" mr. taylor consulted a remote mental pocket--"in miss sara smith's school." "why, how fortunate! i'm so glad i mentioned the matter. you see, miss smith is a sister of a friend of ours, congressman smith of new jersey, and she has just written to me for help; a very touching letter, too, about the poor blacks. my father set great store by blacks and was a leading abolitionist before he died." mr. taylor was thinking fast. yes, the name of congressman peter smith was quite familiar. mr. easterly, as chairman of the republican state committee of new jersey, had been compelled to discipline mr. smith pretty severely for certain socialistic votes in the house, and consequently his future career was uncertain. it was important that such a man should not have too much to do with mrs. grey's philanthropies--at least, in his present position. "should like to have you meet and talk with my sister, mrs. grey; she's a wellesley graduate," said taylor, finally. mrs. grey was delighted. it was a combination which she felt she needed. here was a college-girl who could direct her philanthropies and her etiquette during the summer. forthwith mary taylor received an intimation from her brother that vast interests depended on her summer vacation. thus it had happened that miss taylor came to lake george for her vacation after the first year at the smith school, and she and miss smith had silently agreed as she left that it would be better for her not to return. but the gods of lower broadway thought otherwise. not that mary taylor did not believe in miss smith's work, she was too honest not to believe in education; but she was sure that this was not her work, and she had not as yet perfected in her own mind any theory of the world into which black folk fitted. she was rather taken back, therefore, to be regarded as an expert on the problem. first her brother attacked her, not simply on cotton, but, to her great surprise, on negro education; and after listening to her halting uncertain remarks, he suggested to her certain matters which it would be better for her to believe when mrs. grey talked to her. "interested in darkies, you see," he concluded, "and looks to you to tell things. better go easy and suggest a waiting-game before she goes in heavy." "but miss smith needs money--" the new england conscience prompted. john taylor cut in sharply: "we all need money, and i know people who need mrs. grey's more than miss smith does at present." miss taylor found the lake george colony charming. it was not ultra-fashionable, but it had wealth and leisure and some breeding. especially was this true of a circumscribed, rather exclusive, set which centred around the vanderpools of new york and boston. they, or rather mr. vanderpool's connections, were of old dutch new york stock; his father it was who had built the lake george cottage. mrs. vanderpool was a wells of boston, and endured lake george now and then during the summer for her husband's sake, although she regarded it all as rather a joke. this summer promised to be unusually lonesome for her, and she was meditating a retreat to the massachusetts north shore when she chanced to meet mary taylor, at a miscellaneous dinner, and found her interesting. she discovered that this young woman knew things, that she could talk books, and that she was rather pretty. to be sure she knew no people, but mrs. vanderpool knew enough to even things. "by the bye, i met some charming alabama people last winter, in montgomery--the cresswells; do you know them?" she asked one day, as they were lounging in wicker chairs on the vanderpool porch. then she answered the query herself: "no, of course you could not. it is too bad that your work deprives you of the society of people of your class. now my ideal is a set of negro schools where the white teachers _could_ know the cresswells." "why, yes--" faltered miss taylor; "but--wouldn't that be difficult?" "why should it be?" "i mean, would the cresswells approve of educating negroes?" "oh, 'educating'! the word conceals so much. now, i take it the cresswells would object to instructing them in french and in dinner etiquette and tea-gowns, and so, in fact, would i; but teach them how to handle a hoe and to sew and cook. i have reason to know that people like the cresswells would be delighted." "and with the teachers of it?" "why not?--provided, of course, they were--well, gentlefolk and associated accordingly." "but one must associate with one's pupils." "oh, certainly, certainly; just as one must associate with one's maids and chauffeurs and dressmakers--cordially and kindly, but with a difference." "but--but, dear mrs. vanderpool, you wouldn't want your children trained that way, would you?" "certainly not, my dear. but these are not my children, they are the children of negroes; we can't quite forget that, can we?" "no, i suppose not," miss taylor admitted, a little helplessly. "but--it seems to me--that's the modern idea of taking culture to the masses." "frankly, then, the modern idea is not my idea; it is too socialistic. and as for culture applied to the masses, you utter a paradox. the masses and work is the truth one must face." "and culture and work?" "quite incompatible, i assure you, my dear." she stretched her silken limbs, lazily, while miss taylor sat silently staring at the waters. just then mrs. grey drove up in her new red motor. up to the time of mary taylor's arrival the acquaintance of the vanderpools and mrs. grey had been a matter chiefly of smiling bows. after miss taylor came there had been calls and casual intercourse, to mrs. grey's great gratification and mrs. vanderpool's mingled amusement and annoyance. mrs. grey announced the arrival of the easterlys and john taylor for the week-end. as mrs. vanderpool could think of nothing less boring, she consented to dine. the atmosphere of mrs. grey's ornate cottage was different from that of the vanderpools. the display of wealth and splendor had a touch of the barbaric. mary taylor liked it, although she found the vanderpool atmosphere more subtly satisfying. there was a certain grim power beneath the greys' mahogany and velvets that thrilled while it appalled. precisely that side of the thing appealed to her brother. he would have seen little or nothing in the plain elegance yonder, while here he saw a japanese vase that cost no cent less than a thousand dollars. he meant to be able to duplicate it some day. he knew that grey was poor and less knowing than he sixty years ago. the dead millionaire had begun his fortune by buying and selling cotton--travelling in the south in reconstruction times, and sending his agents. in this way he made his thousands. then he took a step forward, and instead of following the prices induced the prices to follow him. two or three small cotton corners brought him his tens of thousands. about this time easterly joined him and pointed out a new road--the buying and selling of stock in various cotton-mills and other industrial enterprises. grey hesitated, but easterly pushed him on and he made his hundreds of thousands. then easterly proposed buying controlling interests in certain large mills and gradually consolidating them. the plan grew and succeeded, and grey made his millions. then grey stopped; he had money enough, and he would venture no farther. he "was going to retire and eat peanuts," he said with a chuckle. easterly was disgusted. he, too, had made millions--not as many as grey, but a few. it was not, however, simply money that he wanted, but power. the lust of financial dominion had gripped his soul, and he had a vision of a vast trust of cotton manufacturing covering the land. he talked this incessantly into grey, but grey continued to shake his head; the thing was too big for his imagination. he was bent on retiring, and just as he had set the date a year hence he inadvertently died. on the whole, mr. easterly was glad of his partner's definite withdrawal, since he left his capital behind him, until he found his vast plans about to be circumvented by mrs. grey withdrawing this capital from his control. "to give to the niggers and chinamen," he snorted to john taylor, and strode up and down the veranda. john taylor removed his coat, lighted a black cigar, and elevated his heels. the ladies were in the parlor, where the female easterlys were prostrating themselves before mrs. vanderpool. "just what is your plan?" asked taylor, quite as if he did not know. "why, man, the transfer of a hundred millions of stock would give me control of the cotton-mills of america. think of it!--the biggest trust next to steel." "why not bigger?" asked taylor, imperturbably puffing away. mr. easterly eyed him. he had regarded taylor hitherto as a very valuable asset to the business--had relied on his knowledge of routine, his judgment and his honesty; but he detected tonight a new tone in his clerk, something almost authoritative and self-reliant. he paused and smiled at him. "bigger?" but john taylor was dead in earnest. he did not smile. "first, there's england--and all europe; why not bring them into the trust?" "possibly, later; but first, america. of course, i've got my eyes on the european situation and feelers out; but such matters are more difficult and slower of adjustment over there--so damned much law and gospel." "but there's another side." "what's that?" "you are planning to combine and control the manufacture of cotton--" "yes." "but how about your raw material? the steel trust owns its iron mines." "of course--mines could be monopolized and hold the trust up; but our raw material is perfectly safe--farms growing smaller, farms isolated, and we fixing the price. it's a cinch." "are you sure?" taylor surveyed him with a narrowed look. "certain." "i'm not. i've been looking up things, and there are three points you'd better study: first, cotton farms are not getting smaller; they're getting bigger almighty fast, and there's a big cotton-land monopoly in sight. second, the banks and wholesale houses in the south _can_ control the cotton output if they work together. third, watch the southern 'farmers' league' of big landlords." mr. easterly threw away his cigar and sat down. taylor straightened up, switched on the porch light, and took a bundle of papers from his coat pocket. "here are census figures," he said, "commercial reports and letters." they pored over them a half hour. then easterly arose. "there's something in it," he admitted, "but what can we do? what do you propose?" "monopolize the growth as well as the manufacture of cotton, and use the first to club european manufacturers into submission." easterly stared at him. "good lord!" he ejaculated; "you're crazy!" but taylor smiled a slow, thin smile, and put away his papers. easterly continued to stare at his subordinate with a sort of fascination, with the awe that one feels when genius unexpectedly reveals itself from a source hitherto regarded as entirely ordinary. at last he drew a long breath, remarking indefinitely: "i'll think it over." a stir in the parlor indicated departure. "well, you watch the farmers' league, and note its success and methods," counselled john taylor, his tone and manner unchanged. "then figure what it might do in the hands of--let us say, friends." "who's running it?" "a colonel cresswell is its head, and happens also to be the force behind it. aristocratic family--big planter--near where my sister teaches." "h'm--well, we'll watch _him_." "and say," as easterly was turning away, "you know congressman smith?" "i should say i did." "well, mrs. grey seems to be depending on him for advice in distributing some of her charity funds." easterly appeared startled. "she is, is she!" he exclaimed. "but here come the ladies." he went forward at once, but john taylor drew back. he noted mrs. vanderpool, and thought her too thin and pale. the dashing young miss easterly was more to his taste. he intended to have a wife like that one of these days. "mary," said he to his sister as he finally rose to go, "tell me about the cresswells." mary explained to him at length the impossibility of her knowing much about the local white aristocracy of tooms county, and then told him all she had heard. "mrs. grey talked to you much?" "yes." "about darky schools?" "yes." "what does she intend to do?" "i think she will aid miss smith first." "did you suggest anything?" "well, i told her what i thought about coã¶perating with the local white people." "the cresswells?" "yes--you see mrs. vanderpool knows the cresswells." "does, eh? good! say, that's a good point. you just bear heavy on it--coã¶perate with the cresswells." "why, yes. but--you see, john, i don't just know whether one _could_ coã¶perate with the cresswells or not--one hears such contradictory stories of them. but there must be some other white people--" "stuff! it's the cresswells we want." "well," mary was very dubious, "they are--the most important." _seven_ the place of dreams when she went south late in september, mary taylor had two definite but allied objects: she was to get all possible business information concerning the cresswells, and she was to induce miss smith to prepare for mrs. grey's benevolence by interesting the local whites in her work. the programme attracted miss taylor. she felt in touch, even if dimly and slightly, with great industrial movements, and she felt, too, like a discerning pioneer in philanthropy. both roles she liked. besides, they held, each, certain promises of social prestige; and society, miss taylor argued, one must have even in alabama. bles alwyn met her at the train. he was growing to be a big fine bronze giant, and mary was glad to see him. she especially tried, in the first few weeks of opening school, to glean as much information as possible concerning the community, and particularly the cresswells. she found the negro youth quicker, surer, and more intelligent in his answers than those she questioned elsewhere, and she gained real enjoyment from her long talks with him. "isn't bles developing splendidly?" she said to miss smith one afternoon. there was an unmistakable note of enthusiasm in her voice. miss smith slowly closed her letter-file but did not look up. "yes," she said crisply. "he's eighteen now--quite a man." "and most interesting to talk with." "h'm--very"--drily. mary was busy with her own thoughts, and she did not notice the other woman's manner. "do you know," she pursued, "i'm a little afraid of one thing." "so am i." "oh, you've noted it, too?--his friendship for that impossible girl, zora?" miss smith gave her a searching look. "what of it?" she demanded. "she is so far beneath him." "how so?" "she is a bold, godless thing; i don't understand her." "the two are not quite the same." "of course not; but she is unnaturally forward." "too bright," miss smith amplified. "yes; she knows quite too much. you surely remember that awful scarlet dress? well, all her clothes have arrived, or remained, at a simplicity and vividness that is--well--immodest." "does she think them immodest?" "what she thinks is a problem." "_the_ problem, you mean?" "well, yes." they paused a moment. then miss smith said slowly: "what i don't understand, i don't judge." "no, but you can't always help seeing and meeting it," laughed miss taylor. "certainly not. i don't try; i court the meeting and seeing. it is the only way." "well, perhaps, for us--but not for a boy like bles, and a girl like zora." "true; men and women must exercise judgment in their intercourse and"--she glanced sharply at miss taylor--"my dear, you yourself must not forget that bles alwyn is a man." far up the road came a low, long, musical shouting; then with creaking and straining of wagons, four great black mules dashed into sight with twelve bursting bales of yellowish cotton looming and swaying behind. the drivers and helpers were lolling and laughing and singing, but miss taylor did not hear nor see. she had sat suddenly upright; her face had flamed crimson, and then went dead white. "miss--miss smith!" she gasped, overwhelmed with dismay, a picture of wounded pride and consternation. miss smith turned around very methodically and took her hand; but while she spoke the girl merely stared at her in stony silence. "now, dear, don't mean more than i do. i'm an old woman, and i've seen many things. this is but a little corner of the world, and yet many people pass here in thirty years. the trouble with new teachers who come is, that like you, they cannot see black folk as human. all to them are either impossible zoras, or else lovable blessings. they forget that zora is not to be annihilated, but studied and understood, and that bles is a young man of eighteen and not a clod." "but that he should dare--" mary began breathlessly. "he hasn't dared," miss smith went gently on. "no thought of you but as a teacher has yet entered his dear, simple head. but, my point is simply this: he's a man, and a human one, and if you keep on making much over him, and talking to him and petting him, he'll have the right to interpret your manner in his own way--the same that any young man would." "but--but, he's a--a--" "a negro. to be sure, he is; and a man in addition. now, dear, don't take this too much to heart; this is not a rebuke, but a clumsy warning. i am simply trying to make clear to you _why_ you should be careful. treat poor zora a little more lovingly, and bles a little less warmly. they are just human--but, oh! so human." mary taylor rose up stiffly and mumbled a brief good-night. she went to her room, and sat down in the dark. the mere mention of the thing was to her so preposterous--no, loathsome, she kept repeating. she slowly undressed in the dark, and heard the rumbling of the cotton wagons as they swayed toward town. the cry of the naked was sweeping the world, and yonder in the night black men were answering the call. they knew not what or why they answered, but obeyed the irresistible call, with hearts light and song upon their lips--the song of service. they lashed their mules and drank their whiskey, and all night the piled fleece swept by mary taylor's window, flying--flying to that far cry. miss taylor turned uneasily in her bed and jerked the bed-clothes about her ears. "mrs. vanderpool is right," she confided to the night, with something of the awe with which one suddenly comprehends a hidden oracle; "there must be a difference, always, always! that impudent negro!" all night she dreamed, and all day,--especially when trim and immaculate she sat in her chair and looked down upon fifty dark faces--and upon zora. zora sat thinking. she saw neither miss taylor nor the long straight rows of desks and faces. she heard neither the drone of the spellers nor did she hear miss taylor say, "zora!" she heard and saw none of this. she only heard the prattle of the birds in the wood, far down where the silver fleece would be planted. for the time of cotton-planting was coming; the gray and drizzle of december was past and the hesitation, of january. already a certain warmth and glow had stolen into the air, and the swamp was calling its child with low, seductive voice. she knew where the first leaves were bursting, where tiny flowers nestled, and where young living things looked upward to the light and cried and crawled. a wistful longing was stealing into her heart. she wanted to be free. she wanted to run and dance and sing, but bles wanted-"zora!" this time she heard the call, but did not heed it. miss taylor was very tiresome, and was forever doing and saying silly things. so zora paid no attention, but sat still and thought. yes, she would show bles the place that very night; she had kept it secret from him until now, out of perverseness, out of her love of mystery and secrets. but tonight, after school, when he met her on the big road with the clothes, she would take him and show him the chosen spot. soon she was aware that school had been dismissed, and she leisurely gathered up her books and rose. mary taylor regarded her in perplexed despair. oh, these people! mrs. vanderpool was right: culture and--some masses, at least--were not to be linked; and, too, culture and work--were they incompatible? at any rate, culture and _this_ work were. now, there was mrs. vanderpool--she toiled not, neither did she spin, and yet! if all these folk were like poor, stupid, docile jennie it would be simpler, but what earthly sense was there in trying do to anything with a girl like zora, so stupid in some matters, so startlingly bright in others, and so stubborn in everything? here, she was doing some work twice as well and twice as fast as the class, and other work she would not touch because she "didn't like it." her classification in school was nearly as difficult as her classification in the world, and miss taylor reached up impatiently and removed the gold pin from her stock to adjust it more comfortably when zora sauntered past unseeing, unheeding, with that curious gliding walk which miss taylor called stealthy. she laid the pin on the desk and on sudden impulse spoke again to the girl as she arranged her neck trimmings. "zora," she said evenly, "why didn't you come to class when i called?" "i didn't hear you," said zora, looking at her full-eyed and telling the half-truth easily. miss taylor was sure zora was lying, and she knew that she had lied to her on other occasions. indeed, she had found lying customary in this community, and she had a new england horror of it. she looked at zora disapprovingly, while zora looked at her quite impersonally, but steadily. then miss taylor braced herself, mentally, and took the war into africa. "do you ever tell lies, zora?" "yes." "don't you know that is a wicked, bad habit?" "why?" "because god hates them." "how does _you_ know he does?" zora's tone was still impersonal. "he hates all evil." "but why is lies evil?" "because they make us deceive each other." "is that wrong?" "yes." zora bent forward and looked squarely into miss taylor's blue eyes. miss taylor looked into the velvet blackness of hers and wondered what they veiled. "is it wrong," asked zora, "to make believe you likes people when you don't, when you'se afeared of them and thinks they may rub off and dirty you?" "why--why--yes, if you--if you, deceive." "then you lies sometimes, don't you?" miss taylor stared helplessly at the solemn eyes that seemed to look so deeply into her. "perhaps--i do, zora; i'm sure i don't mean to, and--i hope god will forgive me." zora softened. "oh, i reckon he will if he's a good god, because he'd know that lies like that are heaps better than blabbing the truth right out. only," she added severely, "you mustn't keep saying it's wicked to lie 'cause it ain't. sometimes i lies," she reflected pensively, "and sometimes i don't--it depends." miss taylor forgot her collar, and fingered the pin on the desk. she felt at once a desperate desire to know this girl better and to establish her own authority. yet how should she do it? she kept toying with the pin, and zora watched her. then miss taylor said, absently: "zora, what do you propose to do when you grow up?" zora considered. "think and walk--and rest," she concluded. "i mean, what work?" "work? oh, i sha'n't work. i don't like work--do you?" miss taylor winced, wondering if the girl were lying again. she said quickly: "why, yes--that is, i like some kinds of work." "what kinds?" but miss taylor refused to have the matter made personal, as zora had a disconcerting way of pointing all their discussions. "everybody likes some kinds of work," she insisted. "if you likes it, it ain't work," declared zora; but mary taylor proceeded around her circumscribed circle: "you might make a good cook, or a maid." "i hate cooking. what's a maid?" "why, a woman who helps others." "helps folks that they love? i'd like that." "it is not a question of affection," said miss taylor, firmly: "one is paid for it." "i wouldn't work for pay." "but you'll have to, child; you'll have to earn a living." "do you work for pay?" "i work to earn a living." "same thing, i reckon, and it ain't true. living just comes free, like--like sunshine." "stuff! zora, your people must learn to work and work steadily and work hard--" she stopped, for she was sure zora was not listening; the far away look was in her eyes and they were shining. she was beautiful as she stood there--strangely, almost uncannily, but startlingly beautiful with her rich dark skin, softly moulded features, and wonderful eyes. "my people?--my people?" she murmured, half to herself. "do you know my people? they don't never work; they plays. they is all little, funny dark people. they flies and creeps and crawls, slippery-like; and they cries and calls. ah, my people! my poor little people! they misses me these days, because they is shadowy things that sing and smell and bloom in dark and terrible nights--" miss taylor started up. "zora, i believe you're crazy!" she cried. but zora was looking at her calmly again. "we'se both crazy, ain't we?" she returned, with a simplicity that left the teacher helpless. miss taylor hurried out, forgetting her pin. zora looked it over leisurely, and tried it on. she decided that she liked it, and putting it in her pocket, went out too. school was out but the sun was still high, as bles hurried from the barn up the big road beside the soft shadows of the swamp. his head was busy with new thoughts and his lips were whistling merrily, for today zora was to show him the long dreamed of spot for the planting of the silver fleece. he hastened toward the cresswell mansion, and glanced anxiously up the road. at last he saw her coming, swinging down the road, lithe and dark, with the big white basket of clothes poised on her head. "zora," he yodled, and she waved her apron. he eased her burden to the ground and they sat down together, he nervous and eager; she silent, passive, but her eyes restless. bles was full of his plans. "zora," he said, "we'll make it the finest bale ever raised in tooms; we'll just work it to the inch--just love it into life." she considered the matter intently. "but,"--presently,--"how can we sell it without the cresswells knowing?" "we won't try; we'll just take it to them and give them half, like the other tenants." "but the swamp is mortal thick and hard to clear." "we can do it." zora had sat still, listening; but now, suddenly, she leapt to her feet. "come," she said, "i'll take the clothes home, then we'll go"--she glanced at him--"down where the dreams are." and laughing, they hurried on. elspeth stood in the path that wound down to the cottage, and without a word zora dropped the basket at her feet. she turned back; but bles, struck by a thought, paused. the old woman was short, broad, black and wrinkled, with yellow fangs, red hanging lips, and wicked eyes. she leered at them; the boy shrank before it, but stood his ground. "aunt elspeth," he began, "zora and i are going to plant and tend some cotton to pay for her schooling--just the very best cotton we can find--and i heard"--he hesitated,--"i heard you had some wonderful seed." "yes," she mumbled, "i'se got the seed--i'se got it--wonder seed, sowed wid the three spells of obi in the old land ten tousand moons ago. but you couldn't plant it," with a sudden shrillness, "it would kill you." "but--" bles tried to object, but she waved him away. "git the ground--git the ground; dig it--pet it, and we'll see what we'll see." and she disappeared. zora was not sure that it had been wise to tell their secret. "i was going to steal the seed," she said. "i knows where it is, and i don't fear conjure." "you mustn't steal, zora," said bles, gravely. "why?" zora quickly asked. but before he answered, they both forgot; for their faces were turned toward the wonder of the swamp. the golden sun was pouring floods of glory through the slim black trees, and the mystic sombre pools caught and tossed back the glow in darker, duller crimson. long echoing cries leapt to and fro; silent footsteps crept hither and yonder; and the girl's eyes gleamed with a wild new joy. "the dreams!" she cried. "the dreams!" and leaping ahead, she danced along the shadowed path. he hastened after her, but she flew fast and faster; he followed, laughing, calling, pleading. he saw her twinkling limbs a-dancing as once he saw them dance in a halo of firelight; but now the fire was the fire of the world. her garments twined and flew in shadowy drapings about the perfect moulding of her young and dark half-naked figure. her heavy hair had burst its fastenings and lay in stiffened, straggling masses, bending reluctantly to the breeze, like curled smoke; while all about, the mad, wild singing rose and fell and trembled, till his head whirled. he paused uncertainly at a parting of the paths, crying: "zora! zora!" as for some lost soul. "zora! zora!" echoed the cry, faintly. abruptly the music fell; there came a long slow-growing silence; and then, with a flutter, she was beside him again, laughing in his ears and crying with mocking voice: "is you afeared, honey?" he saw in her eyes sweet yearnings, but could speak nothing. he could only clasp her hand tightly, and again down they raced through the wood. all at once the swamp changed and chilled to a dull grayness; tall, dull trees started down upon the murky waters; and long pendent streamings of moss-like tears dripped from tree to earth. slowly and warily they threaded their way. "are you sure of the path, zora?" he once inquired anxiously. "i could find it asleep," she answered, skipping sure-footed onward. he continued to hold her hand tightly, and his own pace never slackened. around them the gray and death-like wilderness darkened. they felt and saw the cold white mist rising slowly from the ground, and waters growing blacker and broader. at last they came to what seemed the end. silently and dismally the half-dead forest, with its ghostly moss, lowered and darkened, and the black waters spread into a great silent lake of slimy ooze. the dead trunk of a fallen tree lay straight in front, torn and twisted, its top hidden yonder and mingled with impenetrable undergrowth. "where now, zora?" he cried. in a moment she had slipped her hand away and was scrambling upon the tree trunk. the waters yawned murkily below. "careful! careful!" he warned, struggling after her until she disappeared amid the leaves. he followed eagerly, but cautiously; and all at once found himself confronting a paradise. before them lay a long island, opening to the south, on the black lake, but sheltered north and east by the dense undergrowth of the black swamp and the rampart of dead and living trees. the soil was virgin and black, thickly covered over with a tangle of bushes, vines, and smaller growth all brilliant with early leaves and wild flowers. "a pretty tough proposition for clearing and ploughing," said bles, with practised eye. but zora eagerly surveyed the prospect. "it's where the dreams lives," she whispered. meantime miss taylor had missed her brooch and searched for it in vain. in the midst of this pursuit the truth occurred to her--zora had stolen it. negroes would steal, everybody said. well, she must and would have the pin, and she started for elspeth's cabin. on the way she met the old woman in the path, but got little satisfaction. elspeth merely grunted ungraciously while eyeing the white woman with suspicion. mary taylor, again alone, sat down at a turn in the path, just out of sight of the house, and waited. soon she saw, with a certain grim satisfaction, zora and bles emerging from the swamp engaged in earnest conversation. here was an opportunity to overwhelm both with an unforgettable reprimand. she rose before them like a spectral vengeance. "zora, i want my pin." bles started and stared; but zora eyed her calmly with something like disdain. "what pin?" she returned, unmoved. "zora, don't deny that you took my pin from the desk this afternoon," the teacher commanded severely. "i didn't say i didn't take no pin." "persons who will lie and steal will do anything." "why shouldn't people do anything they wants to?" "and you knew the pin was mine." "i saw you a-wearing of it," admitted zora easily. "then you have stolen it, and you are a thief." still zora appeared to be unimpressed with the heinousness of her fault. "did you make that pin?" she asked. "no, but it is mine." "why is it yours?" "because it was given to me." "but you don't need it; you've got four other prettier ones--i counted." "that makes no difference." "yes it does--folks ain't got no right to things they don't need." "that makes no difference, zora, and you know it. the pin is mine. you stole it. if you had wanted a pin and asked me i might have given you--" the girl blazed. "i don't want your old gifts," she almost hissed. "you don't own what you don't need and can't use. god owns it and i'm going to send it back to him." with a swift motion she whipped the pin from her pocket and raised her arm to hurl it into the swamp. bles caught her hand. he caught it lightly and smiled sorrowfully into her eyes. she wavered a moment, then the answering light sprang to her face. dropping the brooch into his hand, she wheeled and fled toward the cabin. bles handed it silently to miss taylor. mary taylor was beside herself with impatient anger--and anger intensified by a conviction of utter helplessness to cope with any strained or unusual situations between herself and these two. "alwyn," she said sharply, "i shall report zora for stealing. and you may report yourself to miss smith tonight for disrespect toward a teacher." _eight_ mr. harry cresswell the cresswells, father and son, were at breakfast. the daughter was taking her coffee and rolls up stairs in bed. "p'sh! i don't like it!" declared harry cresswell, tossing the letter back to his father. "i tell you, it is a damned yankee trick." he was a man of thirty-five, smooth and white, slight, well-bred and masterful. his father, st. john cresswell, was sixty, white-haired, mustached and goateed; a stately, kindly old man with a temper and much family pride. "well, well," he said, his air half preoccupied, half unconcerned, "i suppose so--and yet"--he read the letter again, aloud: "'approaching you as one of the most influential landowners of alabama, on a confidential matter'--h'm--h'm--'a combination of capital and power, such as this nation has never seen'--'cotton manufacturers and cotton growers.' ... well, well! of course, i suppose there's nothing in it. and yet, harry, my boy, this cotton-growing business is getting in a pretty tight pinch. unless relief comes somehow--well, we'll just have to quit. we simply can't keep the cost of cotton down to a remunerative figure with niggers getting scarcer and dearer. every year i have to pinch 'em closer and closer. i had to pay maxwell two hundred and fifty to get that old darky and his boys turned over to me, and one of the young ones has run away already." harry lighted a cigarette. "we must drive them more. you're too easy, father; they understand that. by the way, what did that letter say about a 'sister'?" "says he's got a sister over at the nigger school whom perhaps we know. i suppose he thinks we dine there occasionally." the old man chuckled. "that reminds me, elspeth is sending her girl there." "what's that?" an angry gleam shot into the younger man's eye. "yes. she announced this morning, pert as you please, that she couldn't tote clothes any more--she had to study." "damn it! this thing is going too far. we can't keep a maid or a plough-boy on the place because of this devilish school. it's going to ruin the whole labor system. we've been too mild and decent. i'm going to put my foot down right here. i'll make elspeth take that girl out of school if i have to horse-whip her, and i'll warn the school against further interference with our tenants. here, in less than a week, go two plough-hands--and now this girl." the old man smiled. "you'll hardly miss any work zora does," he said. "i'll make her work. she's giving herself too many damned airs. i know who's back of this--it's that nigger we saw talking to the white woman in the field the other day." "well, don't work yourself up. the wench don't amount to much anyhow. by the way, though, if you do go to the school it won't hurt to see this taylor's sister and size the family up." "pshaw! i'm going to give the smith woman such a scare that she'll keep her hands off our niggers." and harry cresswell rode away. mary taylor had charge of the office that morning, while miss smith, shut up in her bedroom, went laboriously over her accounts. miss mary suddenly sat up, threw a hasty glance into the glass and felt the back of her belt. it was--it couldn't be--surely, it was mr. harry cresswell riding through the gateway on his beautiful white mare. he kicked the gate open rather viciously, did not stop to close it, and rode straight across the lawn. miss taylor noticed his riding breeches and leggings, his white linen and white, clean-cut, high-bred face. such apparitions were few about the country lands. she felt inclined to flutter, but gripped herself. "good-morning," she said, a little stiffly. mr. cresswell halted and stared; then lifting the hat which he had neglected to remove in crossing the hall, he bowed in stately grace. miss taylor was no ordinary picture. her brown hair was almost golden; her dark eyes shone blue; her skin was clear and healthy, and her white dress--happy coincidence!--had been laundered that very morning. her half-suppressed excitement at the sudden duty of welcoming the great aristocrat of the county, gave a piquancy to her prettiness. "the--devil!" commented mr. harry cresswell to himself. but to miss taylor: "i beg pardon--er--miss smith?" "no--i'm sorry. miss smith is engaged this morning. i am miss taylor." "i cannot share miss taylor's sorrow," returned mr. cresswell gravely, "for i believe i have the honor of some correspondence with miss taylor's brother." mr. cresswell searched for the letter, but did not find it. "oh! has john written you?" she beamed suddenly. "i'm so glad. it's more than he's done for me this three-month. i beg your pardon--do sit down--i think you'll find this one easier. our stock of chairs is limited." it was delightful to have a casual meeting receive this social stamp; the girl was all at once transfigured--animated, glowing, lovely; all of which did not escape the caller's appraising inspection. "there!" said mr. cresswell. "i've left your gate gaping." "oh, don't mind ... i hope john's well?" "the truth is," confessed cresswell, "it was a business matter--cotton, you know." "john is nothing but cotton; i tell him his soul is fibrous." "he mentioned your being here and i thought i'd drop over and welcome you to the south." "thank you," returned miss taylor, reddening with pleasure despite herself. there was a real sincerity in the tone. all this confirmed so many convictions of hers. "of course, you know how it is in the south," cresswell pursued, the opening having been so easily accomplished. "i understand perfectly." "my sister would be delighted to meet you, but--" "oh i realize the--difficulties." "perhaps you wouldn't mind riding by some day--it's embarrassing to suggest this, but, you know--" miss taylor was perfectly self-possessed. "mr. cresswell," she said seriously, "i know very well that it wouldn't do for your sister to call here, and i sha'n't mind a bit coming by to see her first. i don't believe in standing on stupid ceremony." cresswell thanked her with quiet cordiality, and suggested that when he was driving by he might pick her up in his gig some morning. miss taylor expressed her pleasure at the prospect. then the talk wandered to general matters--the rain, the trees, the people round about, and, inevitably--the negro. "oh, by the bye," said mr. cresswell, frowning and hesitating over the recollection of his errand's purpose, "there was one matter"--he paused. miss taylor leant forward, all interest. "i hardly know that i ought to mention it, but your school--" this charming young lady disarmed his truculent spirit, and the usually collected and determined young man was at a loss how to proceed. the girl, however, was obviously impressed and pleased by his evidence of interest, whatever its nature; so in a manner vastly different from the one he had intended to assume, he continued: "there is a way in which we may be of service to you, and that is by enlightening you upon points concerning which the nature of your position--both as teacher and socially--must keep you in the dark. "for instance, all these negroes are, as you know, of wretchedly low morals; but there are a few so depraved that it would be suicidal to take them into this school. we recognize the good you are doing, but we do not want it more than offset by utter lack of discrimination in choosing your material." "certainly not--have we--" miss mary faltered. this beginning was a bit ominous, wholly unexpected. "there is a girl, zora, who has just entered, who--i must speak candidly--who ought not to be here; i thought it but right to let you know." "thank you, so much. i'll tell miss smith." mary taylor suddenly felt herself a judge of character. "i suspected that she was--not what she ought to be. believe me, we appreciate your interest." a few more words, and mr. cresswell, after bending courteously over her hand with a deference no new englander had ever shown, was riding away on his white mare. for a while mary taylor sat very quietly. it was like a breath of air from the real world, this hour's chat with a well-bred gentleman. she wondered how she had done her part--had she been too eager and school-girlish? had she met this stately ceremony with enough breeding to show that she too was somebody? she pounced upon miss smith the minute that lady entered the office. "miss smith, who do you think has been here?" she burst out enthusiastically. "i saw him on the lawn." there was a suspicious lack of warmth in this brief affirmation. "he was so gracious and kindly, and he knows my brother. and oh, miss smith! we've got to send that zora right away." "indeed"--the observation was not even interrogatory. the preceptress of the struggling school for negro children merely evinced patience for the younger woman's fervency. "yes; he says she's utterly depraved." "said that, did he?" miss smith watched her with tranquil regard. miss taylor paused. "of course, we cannot think of keeping her." miss smith pursed her lips, offering her first expression of opinion. "i guess we'll worry along with her a little while anyhow," she said. the girl stared at miss smith in honest, if unpardonable, amazement. "do you mean to say that you are going to keep in this school a girl who not only lies and steals but is positively--_immoral_?" miss smith smiled, wholly unmoved. "no; but i mean that _i_ am here to learn from those whose ideas of right do not agree with mine, to discover _why_ they differ, and to let them learn of me--so far as i am worthy." mary taylor was not unappreciative of miss smith's stern high-mindedness, but her heart hardened at this, to her, misdirected zeal. echo of the spirit of an older day, miss smith seemed, to her, to be cramped and paralyzed in an armor of prejudice and sectionalisms. plain-speaking was the only course, and mary, if a little complacent perhaps in her frankness, was sincere in her purpose. "i think, miss smith, you are making a very grave mistake. i regard zora as a very undesirable person from every point of view. i look upon mr. cresswell's visit today as almost providential. he came offering an olive branch from the white aristocracy to this work; to bespeak his appreciation and safeguard the future. moreover," and miss taylor's voice gathered firmness despite miss smith's inscrutable eye, "moreover, i have reason to know that the disposition--indeed, the plan--in certain quarters to help this work materially depends very largely on your willingness to meet the advances of the southern whites half way." she paused for a reply or a question. receiving neither, she walked with dignity up the stairs. from her window she could see cresswell's straight shoulders, as he rode toward town, and beyond him a black speck in the road. but she could not see the smile on mr. cresswell's lips, nor did she hear him remark twice, with seeming irrelevance, "the devil!" the rider, being closer to it, recognized in mary taylor's "black speck" bles alwyn walking toward him rapidly with axe and hoe on shoulder, whistling merrily. they saw each other almost at the same moment and whistle and smile faded. mr. cresswell knew the negro by sight and disliked him. he belonged in his mind to that younger class of half-educated blacks who were impudent and disrespectful toward their superiors, not even touching his hat when he met a white man. moreover, he was sure that it was miss taylor with whom this boy had been talking so long and familiarly in the cotton-field last spring--an offence doubly heinous now that he had seen miss taylor. his first impulse was to halt the negro then and there and tell him a few plain truths. but he did not feel quarrelsome at the moment, and there was, after all, nothing very tangible to justify a berating. the fellow's impudence was sure to increase, and then! so he merely reined his horse to the better part of the foot-path and rode on. bles, too, was thinking. he knew the well-dressed man with his milk-white face and overbearing way. he would expect to be greeted with raised hat but bles bit his lips and pulled down his cap firmly. the axe, too, in some indistinct way felt good in his hand. he saw the horse coming in his pathway and stepping aside in the dust continued on his way, neither looking nor speaking. so they passed each other by, mr. cresswell to town, bles to the swamp, apparently ignorant of each other's very existence. yet, as the space widened between them, each felt a more vindictive anger for the other. how dares the black puppy to ignore a cresswell on the highway? if this went on, the day would surely come when negroes felt no respect or fear whatever for whites? and then--my god! mr. cresswell struck his mare a vicious blow and dashed toward town. the black boy, too, went his way in silent, burning rage. why should he be elbowed into the roadside dust by an insolent bully? why had he not stood his ground? pshaw! all this fine frenzy was useless, and he knew it. the sweat oozed on his forehead. it wasn't man against man, or he would have dragged the pale puppy from his horse and rubbed his face in the earth. it wasn't even one against many, else how willingly, swinging his axe, would have stood his ground before a mob. no, it was one against a world, a world of power, opinion, wealth, opportunity; and he, the one, must cringe and bear in silence lest the world crash about the ears of his people. he slowly plodded on in bitter silence toward the swamp. but the day was balmy, the way was beautiful; contempt slowly succeeded anger, and hope soon triumphed over all. for yonder was zora, poised, waiting. and behind her lay the field of dreams. _nine_ the planting zora looked down upon bles, where he stood to his knees in mud. the toil was beyond exhilaration--it was sickening weariness and panting despair. the great roots, twined in one unbroken snarl, clung frantically to the black soil. the vines and bushes fought back with thorn and bramble. zora stood wiping the blood from her hands and staring at bles. she saw the long gnarled fingers of the tough little trees and they looked like the fingers of elspeth down there beneath the earth pulling against the boy. slowly zora forgot her blood and pain. who would win--the witch, or jason? bles looked up and saw the bleeding hands. with a bound he was beside her. "zora!" the cry seemed wrung from his heart by contrition. why had he not known--not seen before! "zora, come right out of this! sit down here and rest." she looked at him unwaveringly; there was no flinching of her spirit. "i sha'n't do it," she said. "you'se working, and i'se going to work." "but--zora--you're not used to such work, and i am. you're tired out." "so is you," was her reply. he looked himself over ruefully, and dropping his axe, sat down beside her on a great log. silently they contemplated the land; it seemed indeed a hopeless task. then they looked at each other in sudden, unspoken fear of failure. "if we only had a mule!" he sighed. immediately her face lighted and her lips parted, but she said nothing. he presently bounded to his feet. "never mind, zora. to-morrow is saturday, and i'll work all day. we just _will_ get it done--sometime." his mouth closed with determination. "we won't work any more today, then?" cried zora, her eagerness betraying itself despite her efforts to hide it. "_you_ won't," affirmed bles. "but i've got to do just a little--" but zora was adamant: he was tired; she was tired; they would rest. to-morrow with the rising sun they would begin again. "there'll be a bright moon tonight," ventured bles. "then i'll come too," zora announced positively, and he had to promise for her sake to rest. they went up the path together and parted diffidently, he watching her flit away with sorrowful eyes, a little disturbed and puzzled at the burden he had voluntarily assumed, but never dreaming of drawing back. zora did not go far. no sooner did she know herself well out of his sight than she dropped lightly down beside the path, listening intently until the last echo of his footsteps had died away. then, leaving the cabin on her right, and the scene of their toil on her left, she cut straight through the swamp, skirted the big road, and in a half-hour was in the lower meadows of the cresswell plantations, where the tired stock was being turned out to graze for the night. here, in the shadow of the wood, she lingered. slowly, but with infinite patience, she broke one strand after another of the barbed-wire fencing, watching, the while, the sun grow great and crimson, and die at last in mighty splendor behind the dimmer westward forests. the voices of the hands and hostlers grew fainter and thinner in the distance of purple twilight until the last of them disappeared. silence fell, deep and soft; the silence of a day sinking to sleep. not until then did zora steal forth from her hiding-place. she had chosen her mule long before--a big, black beast, snorting over his pile of corn,--and gliding up to him, she gathered his supper into her skirt, found a stout halter, and fed him sparingly as he followed her. quickly she unfastened the pieces of the fence, led the animal through, and spliced them again; and then, with fox-like caution, she guided her prize through the labyrinthine windings of the swamp. it was dark and haunting, and ever and again rose lonely night cries. the girl trembled a little, but plodded resolutely on until the dim silver disk of the half-moon began to glimmer through the trees. then she pressed on more swiftly, and fed more scantily, until finally, with the moonlight pouring over them at the black lagoon, zora attempted to drive the animal into the still waters; but he gave a loud protesting snort and balked. by subtle temptings she gave him to understand that plenty lay beyond the dark waters, and quickly swinging herself to his back she started to ride him up and down along the edge of the lagoon, petting and whispering to him of good things beyond. slowly her eyes grew wide; she seemed to be riding out of dreamland on some hobgoblin beast. deeper and deeper they penetrated into the dark waters. now they entered the slime; now they stumbled on hidden roots; but deeper and deeper they waded until at last, turning the animal's head with a jerk, and giving him a sharp stroke of the whip, she headed straight for the island. a moment the beast snorted and plunged; higher and higher the black still waters rose round the girl. they crept up her little limbs, swirled round her breasts and gleamed green and slimy along her shoulders. a wild terror gripped her. maybe she was riding the devil's horse, and these were the yawning gates of hell, black and sombre beneath the cold, dead radiance of the moon. she saw again the gnarled and black and claw-like fingers of elspeth gripping and dragging her down. a scream struggled in her breast, her fingers relaxed, and the big beast, stretching his cramped neck, rose in one mighty plunge and planted his feet on the sand of the island. * * * * * bles, hurrying down in the morning with new tools and new determination, stopped and stared in blank amazement. zora was perched in a tree singing softly and beneath a fat black mule was finishing his breakfast. "zora--" he gasped, "how--how did you do it?" she only smiled and sang a happier measure, pausing only to whisper: "dreams--dreams--it's all dreams here, i tells you." bles frowned and stood irresolute. the song proceeded with less assurance, slower and lower, till it stopped, and the singer dropped to the ground, watching him with wide eyes. he looked down at her, slight, tired, scratched, but undaunted, striving blindly toward the light with stanch, unfaltering faith. a pity surged in his heart. he put his arm about her shoulders and murmured: "you poor, brave child." and she shivered with joy. all day saturday and part of sunday they worked feverishly. the trees crashed and the stumps groaned and crept up into the air, the brambles blazed and smoked; little frightened animals fled for shelter; and a wide black patch of rich loam broadened and broadened till it kissed, on every side but the sheltered east, the black waters of the lagoon. late sunday night the mule again swam the slimy lagoon, and disappeared toward the cresswell fields. then bles sat down beside zora, facing the fields, and gravely took her hand. she looked at him in quick, breathless fear. "zora," he said, "sometimes you tell lies, don't you?" "yes," she said slowly; "sometimes." "and, zora, sometimes you steal--you stole the pin from miss taylor, and we stole mr. cresswell's mule for two days." "yes," she said faintly, with a perplexed wrinkle in her brows, "i stole it." "well, zora, i don't want you ever to tell another lie, or ever to take anything that doesn't belong to you." she looked at him silently with the shadow of something like terror far back in the depths of her deep eyes. "always--tell--the truth?" she repeated slowly. "yes." her fingers worked nervously. "all the truth?" she asked. he thought a while. "no," said he finally, "it is not necessary always to tell all the truth; but never tell anything that isn't the truth." "never?" "never." "even if it hurts me?" "even if it hurts. god is good, he will not let it hurt much." "he's a fair god, ain't he?" she mused, scanning the evening sky. "yes--he's fair, he wouldn't take advantage of a little girl that did wrong, when she didn't know it was wrong." her face lightened and she held his hands in both hers, and said solemnly as though saying a prayer: "i won't lie any more, and i won't steal--and--" she looked at him in startled wistfulness--he remembered it in after years; but he felt he had preached enough. "and now for the seed!" he interrupted joyously. "and then--the silver fleece!" that night, for the first time, bles entered zora's home. it was a single low, black room, smoke-shadowed and dirty, with two dingy beds and a gaping fire-place. on one side of the fire-place sat the yellow woman, young, with traces of beauty, holding the white child in her arms; on the other, hugging the blaze, huddled a formless heap, wreathed in coils of tobacco smoke--elspeth, zora's mother. zora said nothing, but glided in and stood in the shadows. "good-evening," said bles cheerily. the woman with the baby alone responded. "i came for the seed you promised us--the cotton-seed." the hag wheeled and approached him swiftly, grasping his shoulders and twisting her face into his. she was a horrible thing--filthy of breath, dirty, with dribbling mouth and red eyes. her few long black teeth hung loosely like tusks and the folds of fat on her chin curled down on her great neck. bles shuddered and stepped back. "is you afeared, honey?" she whispered. "no," he said sturdily. she chuckled drily. "yes, you is--everybody's 'feared of old elspeth; but she won't hurt you--you's got the spell;" and wheeling again, she was back at the fire. "but the seed?" he ventured. she pointed impressively roofward. "the dark of the moon, boy, the dark of the moon--the first dark--at midnight." bles could not wring another word from her; nor did the ancient witch, by word or look, again give the slightest indication that she was aware of his presence. with reluctant farewell, bles turned home. for a space zora watched him, and once she started after him, but came slowly back, and sat by the fire-place. out of the night came voices and laughter, and the sound of wheels and galloping horses. it was not the soft, rollicking laughter of black men, but the keener, more metallic sound of white men's cries, and bles alwyn paused at the edge of the wood, looked back and hesitated, but decided after a moment to go home and to bed. zora, however, leapt to her feet and fled into the night, while the hag screamed after her and cursed. there was tramping of feet on the cabin floor, and loud voices and singing and cursing. "where's zora?" some one yelled, with an oath. "damn it! where is she? i haven't seen her for a year, you old devil." the hag whimpered and snarled. far down in the field of the fleece, zora lay curled beneath a tall dark tree asleep. all night there was coming and going in the cabin; the talk and laughter grew loud and boisterous, and the red fire glared in the night. * * * * * the days flew by and the moon darkened. in the swamp, the hidden island lay spaded and bedded, and bles was throwing up a dyke around the edge; zora helped him until he came to the black oak at the western edge. it was a large twisted thing with one low flying limb that curled out across another tree and made a mighty seat above the waters. "don't throw the dirt too high there," she begged; "it'll bring my seat too near the earth." he looked up. "why, it's a throne," he laughed. "it needs a roof," he whimsically told her when his day's work was done. deftly twisting and intertwining the branches of tree and bush, he wove a canopy of living green that shadowed the curious nest and warded it snugly from wind and water. early next morning bles slipped down and improved the nest; adding foot-rests to make the climbing easy, peep-holes east and west, a bit of carpet over the bark, and on the rough main trunk, a little picture in blue and gold of bougereau's madonna. zora sat hidden and alone in silent ecstasy. bles peeped in--there was not room to enter: the girl was staring silently at the madonna. she seemed to feel rather than hear his presence, and she inquired softly: "who's it, bles?" "the mother of god," he answered reverently. "and why does she hold a lily?" "it stands for purity--she was a good woman." "with a baby," zora added slowly. "yes--" said bles, and then more quickly--"it is the christ child--god's baby." "god is the father of all the little babies, ain't he, bles?" "why, yes--yes, of course; only this little baby didn't have any other father." "yes, i know one like that," she said,--and then she added softly: "poor little christ-baby." bles hesitated, and before he found words zora was saying: "how white she is; she's as white as the lily, bles; but--i'm sorry she's white--bles, what's purity--just whiteness?" bles glanced at her awkwardly but she was still staring wide-eyed at the picture, and her voice was earnest. she was now so old and again so much a child, an eager questioning child, that there seemed about her innocence something holy. "it means," he stammered, groping for meanings--"it means being good--just as good as a woman knows how." she wheeled quickly toward him and asked him eagerly: "not better--not better than she knows, but just as good, in--lying and stealing and--and everything?" bles smiled. "no--not better than she knows, but just as good." she trembled happily. "i'm--pure," she said, with a strange little breaking voice and gesture. a sob struggled in his throat. "of course you are," he whispered tenderly, hiding her little hands in his. "i--i was so afraid--sometimes--that i wasn't," she whispered, lifting up to him her eyes streaming with tears. silently he kissed her lips. from that day on they walked together in a new world. no revealing word was spoken; no vows were given, none asked for; but a new bond held them. she grew older, quieter, taller, he humbler, more tender and reverent, as they toiled together. so the days passed. the sun burned in the heavens; but the silvered glory of the moon grew fainter and fainter and each night it rose later than the night before. then one day zora whispered: "tonight!" bles came to the cabin, and he and zora and elspeth sat silently around the fire-place with its meagre embers. the night was balmy and still; only occasionally a wandering breeze searching the hidden places of the swamp, or the call and song of night birds, jarred the stillness. long they sat, until the silence crept into bles's flesh, and stretching out his hand, he touched zora's, clasping it. after a time the old woman rose and hobbled to a big black chest. out of it she brought an old bag of cotton seed--not the white-green seed which bles had always known, but small, smooth black seeds, which she handled carefully, dipping her hands deep down and letting them drop through her gnarled fingers. and so again they sat and waited and waited, saying no word. not until the stars of midnight had swung to the zenith did they start down through the swamp. bles sought to guide the old woman, but he found she knew the way better than he did. her shadowy figure darting in and out among the trunks till they crossed the tree bridge, moved ever noiselessly ahead. she motioned the boy and girl away to the thicket at the edge, and stood still and black in the midst of the cleared island. bles slipped his arm protectingly around zora, glancing fearfully about in the darkness. slowly a great cry rose and swept the island. it struck madly and sharply, and then died away to uneasy murmuring. from afar there seemed to come the echo or the answer to the call. the form of elspeth blurred the night dimly far off, almost disappearing, and then growing blacker and larger. they heard the whispering "_swish-swish_" of falling seed; they felt the heavy tread of a great coming body. the form of the old woman suddenly loomed black above them, hovering a moment formless and vast then fading again away, and the "_swish-swish_" of the falling seed alone rose in the silence of the night. at last all was still. a long silence. then again the air seemed suddenly filled with that great and awful cry; its echoing answer screamed afar and they heard the raucous voice of elspeth beating in their ears: _"de seed done sowed! de seed done sowed!"_ _ten_ mr. taylor calls "thinking the matter over," said harry cresswell to his father, "i'm inclined to advise drawing this taylor out a little further." the colonel puffed his cigar and one eye twinkled, the lid of the other being at the moment suggestively lowered. "was she pretty?" he asked; but his son ignored the remark, and the father continued: "i had a telegram from taylor this morning, after you left. he'll be passing through montgomery the first of next month, and proposes calling." "i'll wire him to come," said harry, promptly. at this juncture the door opened and a young lady entered. helen cresswell was twenty, small and pretty, with a slightly languid air. outside herself there was little in which she took very great interest, and her interest in herself was not absorbing. yet she had a curiously sweet way. her servants liked her and the tenants could count on her spasmodic attentions in time of sickness and trouble. "good-morning," she said, with a soft drawl. she sauntered over to her father, kissed him, and hung over the back of his chair. "did you get that novel for me, harry?"--expectantly regarding her brother. "i forgot it, sis. but i'll be going to town again soon." the young lady showed that she was annoyed. "by the bye, sis, there's a young lady over at the negro school whom i think you'd like." "black or white?" "a young lady, i said. don't be sarcastic." "i heard you. i did not know whether you were using our language or others'." "she's really unusual, and seems to understand things. she's planning to call some day--shall you be at home?" "certainly not, harry; you're crazy." and she strolled out to the porch, exchanged some remarks with a passing servant, and then nestled comfortably into a hammock. she helped herself to a chocolate and called out musically: "pa, are you going to town today?" "yes, honey." "can i go?" "i'm going in an hour or so, and business at the bank will keep me until after lunch." "i don't care, i just must go. i'm clean out of anything to read. and i want to shop and call on dolly's friend--she's going soon." "all right. can you be ready by eleven?" she considered. "yes--i reckon," she drawled, prettily swinging her foot and watching the tree-tops above the distant swamp. harry cresswell, left alone, rang the bell for the butler. "still thinking of going, are you, sam?" asked cresswell, carelessly, when the servant appeared. he was a young, light-brown boy, his manner obsequious. "why, yes, sir--if you can spare me." "spare you, you black rascal! you're going anyhow. well, you'll repent it; the north is no place for niggers. see here, i want lunch for two at one o'clock." the directions that followed were explicit and given with a particularity that made sam wonder. "order my trap," he finally directed. cresswell went out on the high-pillared porch until the trap appeared. "oh, harry! i wanted to go in the trap--take me?" coaxed his sister. "sorry, sis, but i'm going the other way." "i don't believe it," said miss cresswell, easily, as she settled down to another chocolate. cresswell did not take the trouble to reply. miss taylor was on her morning walk when she saw him spinning down the road, and both expressed surprise and pleasure at the meeting. "what a delightful morning!" said the school-teacher, and the glow on her face said even more. "i'm driving round through the old plantation," he explained; "won't you join me?" "the invitation is tempting," she hesitated; "but i've got just oodles of work." "what! on saturday?" "saturday is my really busy day, don't you know. i guess i could get off; really, though, i suspect i ought to tell miss smith." he looked a little perplexed; but the direction in which her inclinations lay was quite clear to him. "it--it would be decidedly the proper thing," he murmured, "and we could, of course, invite miss--" she saw the difficulty and interrupted him: "it's quite unnecessary; she'll think i have simply gone for a long walk." and soon they were speeding down the silent road, breathing the perfume of the pines. now a ride of an early spring morning, in alabama, over a leisurely old plantation road and behind a spirited horse, is an event to be enjoyed. add to this a man bred to be agreeable and outdoing his training, and a pretty girl gay with new-found companionship--all this is apt to make a morning worth remembering. they turned off the highway and passed through long stretches of ploughed and tumbled fields, and other fields brown with the dead ghosts of past years' cotton standing straggling and weather-worn. long, straight, or curling rows of ploughers passed by with steaming, struggling mules, with whips snapping and the yodle of workers or the sharp guttural growl of overseers as a constant accompaniment. "they're beginning to plough up the land for the cotton-crop," he explained. "what a wonderful crop it is!" mary had fallen pensive. "yes, indeed--if only we could get decent returns for it." "why, i thought it was a most valuable crop." she turned to him inquiringly. "it is--to negroes and manufacturers, but not to planters." "but why don't the planters do something?" "what can be done with negroes?" his tone was bitter. "we tried to combine against manufacturers in the farmers' league of last winter. my father was president. the pastime cost him fifty thousand dollars." miss taylor was perplexed, but eager. "you must correspond with my brother, mr. cresswell," she gravely observed. "i'm sure he--" before she could finish, an overseer rode up. he began talking abruptly, with a quick side-glance at mary, in which she might have caught a gleam of surprised curiosity. "that old nigger, jim sykes, over on the lower place, sir, ain't showed up again this morning." cresswell nodded. "i'll drive by and see," he said carelessly. the old man was discovered sitting before his cabin with his head in his hands. he was tall, black, and gaunt, partly bald, with tufted hair. one leg was swathed in rags, and his eyes, as he raised them, wore a cowed and furtive look. "well, uncle jim, why aren't you at work?" called cresswell from the roadside. the old man rose painfully to his feet, swayed against the cabin, and clutched off his cap. "it's my leg again, master harry--the leg what i hurt in the gin last fall," he answered, uneasily. cresswell frowned. "it's probably whiskey," he assured his companion, in an undertone; then to the man: "you must get to the field to-morrow,"--his habitually calm, unfeeling positiveness left no ground for objection; "i cannot support you in idleness, you know." "yes, master harry," the other returned, with conciliatory eagerness; "i knows that--i knows it and i ain't shirking. but, master harry, they ain't doing me right 'bout my cabin--i just wants to show you." he got out some dirty papers, and started to hobble forward, wincing with pain. mary taylor stirred in her seat under an involuntary impulse to help, but cresswell touched the horse. "all right, uncle jim," he said; "we'll look it over to-morrow." they turned presently to where they could see the cresswell oaks waving lazily in the sunlight and the white gleam of the pillared "big house." a pause at the cresswell store, where mr. cresswell entered, afforded mary taylor an opportunity further to extend her fund of information. "do you go to school?" she inquired of the black boy who held the horse, her mien sympathetic and interested. "no, ma'am," he mumbled. "what's your name?" "buddy--i'se one of aunt rachel's chilluns." "and where do you live, buddy?" "i lives with granny, on de upper place." "well, i'll see aunt rachel and ask her to send you to school." "won't do no good--she done ast, and mr. cresswell, he say he ain't going to have no more of his niggers--" but mr. cresswell came out just then, and with him a big, fat, and greasy black man, with little eyes and soft wheedling voice. he was following cresswell at the side but just a little behind, hat in hand, head aslant, and talking deferentially. cresswell strode carelessly on, answering him with good-natured tolerance. the black man stopped with humility before the trap and swept a profound obeisance. cresswell glanced up quizzically at miss taylor. "this," he announced, "is jones, the baptist preacher--begging." "ah, lady,"--in mellow, unctuous tones--"i don't know what we poor black folks would do without mr. cresswell--the lord bless him," said the minister, shoving his hand far down into his pocket. shortly afterward they were approaching the cresswell mansion, when the young man reined in the horse. "if you wouldn't mind," he suggested, "i could introduce my sister to you." "i should be delighted," answered miss taylor, readily. when they rolled up to the homestead under its famous oaks the hour was past one. the house was a white oblong building of two stories. in front was the high pillared porch, semi-circular, extending to the roof with a balcony in the second story. on the right was a broad verandah looking toward a wide lawn, with the main road and the red swamp in the distance. the butler met them, all obeisance. "ask miss helen to come down," said mr. cresswell. sam glanced at him. "miss helen will be dreadful sorry, but she and the colonel have just gone to town--i believe her aunty ain't well." mr. cresswell looked annoyed. "well, well! that's too bad," he said. "but at any rate, have a seat a moment out here on the verandah, miss taylor. and, sam, can't you find us a sandwich and something cool? i could not be so inhospitable as to send you away hungry at this time of day." miss taylor sat down in a comfortable low chair facing the refreshing breeze, and feasted her eyes on the scene. oh, this was life: a smooth green lawn, and beds of flowers, a vista of brown fields, and the dark line of wood beyond. the deft, quiet butler brought out a little table, spread with the whitest of cloths and laid with the brightest of silver, and "found" a dainty lunch. there was a bit of fried chicken breast, some crisp bacon, browned potatoes, little round beaten biscuit, and rose-colored sherbet with a whiff of wine in it. miss taylor wondered a little at the bounty of southern hospitality; but she was hungry, and she ate heartily, then leaned back dreamily and listened to mr. cresswell's smooth southern _r_'s, adding a word here and there that kept the conversation going and brought a grave smile to his pale lips. at last with a sigh she arose to her feet. "i must go! what shall i tell miss smith! no, no--no carriage; i must walk." of course, however, she could not refuse to let him go at least half-way, ostensibly to tell her of the coming of her brother. he expressed again his disappointment at his sister's absence. somewhat to miss taylor's surprise miss smith said nothing until they were parting for the night, then she asked: "was miss cresswell at home?" mary reddened. "she had been called suddenly to town." "well, my dear, i wouldn't do it again." the girl was angry. "i'm not a school-girl, but a grown woman, and capable of caring for myself. moreover, in matter of propriety i do not think you have usually found my ideas too lax--rather the opposite." "there, there, dear; don't be angry. only i think if your brother knew--" "he will know in a very few weeks; he is coming to visit the cresswells." and miss taylor sailed triumphantly up the stairs. but john taylor was not the man to wait weeks when a purpose could be accomplished in days or hours. no sooner was harry cresswell's telegram at hand than he hastened back from savannah, struck across country, and the week after his sister's ride found him striding up the carriage-way of the cresswell home. john taylor had prospered since summer. the cotton manufacturers' combine was all but a fact; mr. easterly had discovered that his chief clerk's sense and executive ability were invaluable, and john taylor was slated for a salary in five figures when things should be finally settled, not to mention a generous slice of stock--watery at present, but warranted to ripen early. while mr. easterly still regarded taylor's larger trust as chimerical, some occurrences of the fall made him take a respectful attitude toward it. just as the final clauses of the combine agreement were to be signed, there appeared a shortage in the cotton-crop, and prices began to soar. the cause was obviously the unexpected success of the new farmers' league among the cotton-growers. mr. easterly found it comparatively easy to overthrow the corner, but the flurry made some of the manufacturers timid, and the trust agreement was postponed until a year later. this experience and the persistence of mr. taylor induced mr. easterly to take a step toward the larger project: he let in some eager outside capital to the safer manufacturing scheme, and withdrew a corresponding amount of mrs. grey's money. this he put into john taylor's hands to invest in the south in bank stock and industries with the idea of playing a part in the financial situation there. "it's a risk, taylor, of course, and we'll let the old lady take the risk. at the worst it's safer than the damned foolishness she has in mind." so it happened that john taylor went south to look after large investments and, as mr. easterly expressed it, "to bring back facts, not dreams." his investment matters went quickly and well, and now he turned to his wider and bigger scheme. he wrote the cresswells tentatively, expecting no reply, or an evasive one; planning to circle around them, drawing his nets closer, and trying them again later. to his surprise they responded quickly. "humph! hard pressed," he decided, and hurried to them. so it was the week after mary taylor's ride that found him at cresswell's front door, thin, eagle-eyed, fairly well dressed and radiating confidence. "john taylor," he announced to sam, jerkily, thrusting out a card. "want to see mr. cresswell; soon as possible." sam made him wait a half-hour, for the sake of discipline, and then brought father and son. "good-morning, mr. cresswell, and mr. cresswell again," said mr. taylor, helping himself to a straight-backed chair. "hope you'll pardon this unexpected visit. found myself called through montgomery, just after i got your wire; thought i'd better drop over." at harry's suggestion they moved to the verandah and sat down over whiskey and soda, which taylor refused, and plunged into the subject without preliminaries. "i'm assuming that you gentlemen are in the cotton business for making money. so am i. i see a way in which you and your friends can help me and mine, and clear up more millions than all of us can spend; for this reason i've hunted you up. this is my scheme. "see here; there are a thousand cotton-mills in this country, half of them in the south, one-fourth in new england, and one-fourth in the middle states. they are capitalized at six hundred million dollars. now let me tell you: we control three hundred and fifty millions of that capitalization. the trust is going through capitalization at a billion. the only thing that threatens it is child-labor legislation in the south, the tariff, and the control of the supply of cotton. pretty big hindrances, you say. that's so, but look here: we've got the stock so placed that nothing short of a popular upheaval can send any child labor bill through congress in six years. see? after that we don't care. same thing applies to the tariff. the last bill ran ten years. the present bill will last longer, or i lose my guess--'specially if smith is in the senate. "well, then, there remains raw cotton. the connection of cotton-raising and its raw material is too close to risk a manufacturing trust that does not include practical control of the raw material. for that reason we're planning a trust to include the raising and manufacturing of cotton in america. then, too, cornering the cotton market here means the whip-hand of the industrial world. gentlemen, it's the biggest idea of the century. it beats steel." colonel cresswell chuckled. "how do you spell that?" he asked. but john taylor was not to be diverted; his thin face was pale, but his gray eyes burned with the fire of a zealot. harry cresswell only smiled dimly and looked interested. "now, again," continued john taylor. "there are a million cotton farms in the south, half run by colored people and half by whites. leave the colored out of account as long as they are disfranchised. the half million white farms are owned or controlled by five thousand wholesale merchants and three thousand big landowners, of whom you, colonel cresswell, are among the biggest with your fifty thousand acres. ten banks control these eight thousand people--one of these is the jefferson national of montgomery, of which you are a silent director." colonel cresswell started; this man evidently had inside information. did he know of the mortgage, too? "don't be alarmed. i'm safe," taylor assured him. "now, then, if we can get the banks, wholesale merchants, and biggest planters into line we can control the cotton crop." "but," objected harry cresswell, "while the banks and the large merchants may be possibilities, do you know what it means to try to get planters into line?" "yes, i do. and what i don't know you and your father do. colonel cresswell is president of the farmers' league. that's the reason i'm here. your success last year made you indispensable to our plans." "our success?" laughed colonel cresswell, ruefully, thinking of the fifty thousand dollars lost and the mortgage to cover it. "yes, sir--success! you didn't know it; we were too careful to allow that; and i say frankly you wouldn't know it now if we weren't convinced you were too far involved and the league too discouraged to repeat the dose." "now, look here, sir," began colonel cresswell, flushing and drawing himself erect. "there, there, colonel cresswell, don't misunderstand me. i'm a plain man. i'm playing a big game--a tremendous one. i need you, and i know you need me. i find out about you, and my sources of knowledge are wide and unerring. but the knowledge is safe, sir; it's buried. last year when you people curtailed cotton acreage and warehoused a big chunk of the crop you gave the mill men the scare of their lives. we had a hasty conference and the result was that the bottom fell out of your credit." colonel cresswell grew pale. there was a disquieting, relentless element in this unimpassioned man's tone. "you failed," pursued john taylor, "because you couldn't get the banks and the big merchants behind you. we've got 'em behind us--with big chunks of stock and a signed iron-clad agreement. you can wheel the planters into line--will you do it?" john taylor bent forward tense but cool and steel-like. harry cresswell laid his hand on his father's arm and said quietly: "and where do we come in?" "that's business," affirmed john taylor. "you and two hundred and fifty of the biggest planters come in on the ground-floor of the two-billion-dollar all-cotton combine. it can easily mean two million to you in five years." "and the other planters?" "they come in for high-priced cotton until we get our grip." "and then?" the quiet question seemed to invoke a vision for john taylor; the gray eyes took on the faraway look of a seer; the thin, bloodless lips formed a smile in which there was nothing pleasant. "they keep their mouths shut or we squeeze 'em and buy the land. we propose to own the cotton belt of the south." colonel cresswell started indignantly from his seat. "do you think--by god, sir!--that i'd betray southern gentlemen to--" but harry's hand and impassive manner restrained him; he cooled as suddenly as he had flared up. "thank you very much, mr. taylor," he concluded; "we'll consider this matter carefully. you'll spend the night, of course." "can't possibly--must catch that next train back." "but we must talk further," the colonel insisted. "and then, there's your sister." "by jove! forgot all about mary." john taylor after a little desultory talk, followed his host up-stairs. the next afternoon john taylor was sitting beside helen cresswell on the porch which overlooked the terrace, and was, on the whole, thinking less of cotton than he had for several years. to be sure, he was talking cotton; but he was doing it mechanically and from long habit, and was really thinking how charming a girl helen cresswell was. she fascinated him. for his sister taylor had a feeling of superiority that was almost contempt. the idea of a woman trying to understand and argue about things men knew! he admired the dashing and handsome miss easterly, but she scared him and made him angrily awkward. this girl, on the other hand, just lounged and listened with an amused smile, or asked the most child-like questions. she required him to wait on her quite as a matter of course--to adjust her pillows, hand her the bon-bons, and hunt for her lost fan. mr. taylor, who had not waited on anybody since his mother died, and not much before, found a quite inexplicable pleasure in these little domesticities. several times he took out his watch and frowned; yet he managed to stay with her quite happily. on her part miss cresswell was vastly amused. her acquaintance with men was not wide, but it was thorough so far as her own class was concerned. they were all well-dressed and leisurely, fairly good looking, and they said the same words and did the same things in the same way. they paid her compliments which she did not believe, and they did not expect her to believe. they were charmingly deferential in the matter of dropped handkerchiefs, but tyrannical of opinion. they were thoughtful about candy and flowers, but thoughtless about feelings and income. altogether they were delightful, but cloying. this man was startlingly different; ungainly and always in a desperate, unaccountable hurry. he knew no pretty speeches, he certainly did not measure up to her standard of breeding, and yet somehow he was a gentleman. all this was new to helen cresswell, and she liked it. meanwhile the men above-stairs lingered in the colonel's office--the older one perturbed and sputtering, the younger insistent and imperturbable. "the fact is, father," he was saying, "as you yourself have said, one bad crop of cotton would almost ruin us." "but the prospects are good." "what are prospects in march? no, father, this is the situation--three good crops in succession will wipe off our indebtedness and leave us facing only low prices and a scarcity of niggers; on the other hand--" the father interrupted impatiently. "yes, on the other hand, if we plunge deeper in debt and betray our friends we may come out millionaires or--paupers." "precisely," said harry cresswell, calmly. "now, our plan is to take no chances; i propose going north and looking into this matter thoroughly. if he represents money and has money, and if the trust has really got the grip he says it has, why, it's a case of crush or get crushed, and we'll have to join them on their own terms. if he's bluffing, or the thing looks weak, we'll wait." it all ended as matters usually did end, in harry's having his way. he came downstairs, expecting, indeed, rather hoping, to find taylor impatiently striding to and fro, watch in hand; but here he was, ungainly, it might be, but quite docile, drawing the picture of a power-loom for miss cresswell, who seemed really interested. harry silently surveyed them from the door, and his face lighted with a new thought. taylor, espying him, leapt to his feet and hauled out his watch. "well--i--" he began lamely. "no, you weren't either," interrupted harry, with a laugh that was unmistakably cordial and friendly. "you had quite forgotten what you were waiting for--isn't that so, sis?" helen regarded her brother through her veiling lashes: what meant this sudden assumption of warmth and amiability? "no, indeed; he was raging with impatience," she returned. "why, miss cresswell, i--i--" john taylor forsook social amenities and pulled himself together. "well," shortly, "now for that talk--ready?" and quite forgetting miss cresswell, he bolted into the parlor. "the decision we have come to is this," said harry cresswell. "we are in debt, as you know." "forty-nine thousand, seven hundred and forty-two dollars and twelve cents," responded taylor; "in three notes, due in twelve, twenty-four, and thirty-six months, interest at eight per cent, held by--" the colonel snorted his amazement, and harry cresswell cut in: "yes," he calmly admitted; "and with good crops for three years we'd be all right; good crops even for two years would leave us fairly well off." "you mean it would relieve you of the present stringency and put you face to face with the falling price of cotton and rising wages," was john taylor's dry addendum. "rising price of cotton, you mean," harry corrected. "oh, temporarily," john taylor admitted. "precisely, and thus postpone the decision." "no, mr. cresswell. i'm offering to let you in on the ground floor--_now_--not next year, or year after." "mr. taylor, have you any money in this?" "everything i've got." "well, the thing is this way: if you can prove to us that conditions are as you say, we're in for it." "good! meet me in new york, say--let's see, this is march tenth--well, may third." young cresswell was thinking rapidly. this man without doubt represented money. he was anxious for an alliance. why? was it all straight, or did the whole move conceal a trick? his eyes strayed to the porch where his pretty sister sat languidly, and then toward the school where the other sister lived. john taylor looked out on the porch, too. they glanced quickly at each other, and each wondered if the other had shared his thought. harry cresswell did not voice his mind for he was not wholly disposed to welcome what was there; but he could not refrain from saying in tones almost confidential: "you could recommend this deal, then, could you--to your own friends?" "to my own family," asserted john taylor, looking at harry cresswell with sudden interest. but mr. cresswell was staring at the end of his cigar. _eleven_ the flowering of the fleece "zora," observed miss smith, "it's a great blessing not to need spectacles, isn't it?" zora thought that it was; but she was wondering just what spectacles had to do with the complaint she had brought to the office from miss taylor. "i'm always losing my glasses and they get dirty and--oh, dear! now where is that paper?" zora pointed silently to the complaint. "no, not that--another paper. it must be in my room. don't you want to come up and help me look?" they went up to the clean, bare room, with its white iron bed, its cool, spotless shades and shining windows. zora walked about softly and looked, while miss smith quietly searched on desk and bureau, paying no attention to the girl. for the time being she was silent. "i sometimes wish," she began at length, "i had a bright-eyed girl like you to help me find and place things." zora made no comment. "sometimes bles helps me," added miss smith, guilefully. zora looked sharply at her. "could i help?" she asked, almost timidly. "why, i don't know,"--the answer was deliberate. "there are one or two little things perhaps--" placing a hand gently upon zora's shoulder, she pointed out a few odd tasks, and left the girl busily doing them; then she returned to the office, and threw miss taylor's complaint into the waste-basket. for a week or more zora slipped in every day and performed the little tasks that miss smith laid out: she sorted papers, dusted the bureau, hung a curtain; she did not do the things very well, and she broke some china, but she worked earnestly and quickly, and there was no thought of pay. then, too, did not bles praise her with a happy smile, as together, day after day, they stood and watched the black dirt where the silver fleece lay planted? she dreamed and sang over that dark field, and again and again appealed to him: "s'pose it shouldn't come up after all?" and he would laugh and say that of course it would come up. one day, when zora was helping miss smith in the bedroom, she paused with her arms full of clothes fresh from the laundry. "where shall i put these?" miss smith looked around. "they might go in there," she said, pointing to a door. zora opened it. a tiny bedroom was disclosed, with one broad window looking toward the swamp; white curtains adorned it, and white hangings draped the plain bureau and wash-stand and the little bed. there was a study table, and a small bookshelf holding a few books, all simple and clean. zora paused uncertainly, and surveyed the room. "sometimes when you're tired and want to be alone you can come up here, zora," said miss smith carelessly. "no one uses this room." zora caught her breath sharply, but said nothing. the next day miss smith said to her when she came in: "i'm busy now, dear, but you go up to your little room and read and i'll call." zora quietly obeyed. an hour later miss smith looked in, then she closed the door lightly and left. another hour flew by before zora hurried down. "i was reading, and i forgot," she said. "it's all right," returned miss smith. "i didn't need you. and any day, after you get all your lessons, i think miss taylor will excuse you and let you go to your room and read." miss taylor, it transpired, was more than glad. day after day bles and zora visited the field; but ever the ground lay an unrelieved black beneath the bright sun, and they would go reluctantly home again, today there was much work to be done, and zora labored steadily and eagerly, never pausing, and gaining in deftness and care. in the afternoon bles went to town with the school wagon. a light shower flew up from the south, lingered a while and fled, leaving a fragrance in the air. for a moment zora paused, and her nostrils quivered; then without a word she slipped down-stairs, glided into the swamp, and sped away to the island. she swung across the tree and a low, delighted cry bubbled on her lips. all the rich, black ground was sprinkled with tender green. she bent above the verdant tenderness and kissed it; then she rushed back, bursting into the room. "_it's come! it's come!--the silver fleece!_" miss smith was startled. "the silver fleece!" she echoed in bewilderment. zora hesitated. it came over her all at once that this one great all-absorbing thing meant nothing to the gaunt tired-look woman before her. "would bles care if i told?" she asked doubtfully. "no," miss smith ventured. and then the girl crouched at her feet and told the dream and the story. many factors were involved that were quite foreign to the older woman's nature and training. the recital brought to her new england mind many questions of policy and propriety. and yet, as she looked down upon the dark face, hot with enthusiasm, it all seemed somehow more than right. slowly and lightly miss smith slipped her arm about zora, and nodded and smiled a perfect understanding. they looked out together into the darkening twilight. "it is so late and wet and you're tired tonight--don't you think you'd better sleep in your little room?" zora sat still. she thought of the noisy flaming cabin and the dark swamp; but a contrasting thought of the white bed made her timid, and slowly she shook her head. nevertheless miss smith led her to the room. "here are things for you to wear," she pointed out, opening the bureau, "and here is the bath-room." she left the girl standing in the middle of the floor. in time zora came to stay often at miss smith's cottage, and to learn new and unknown ways of living and dressing. she still refused to board, for that would cost more than she could pay yet, and she would accept no charity. gradually an undemonstrative friendship sprang up between the pale old gray-haired teacher and the dark young black-haired girl. delicately, too, but gradually, the companionship of bles and zora was guided and regulated. of mornings zora would hurry through her lessons and get excused to fly to the swamp, to work and dream alone. at noon bles would run down, and they would linger until he must hurry back to dinner. after school he would go again, working while she was busy in miss smith's office, and returning later, would linger awhile to tell zora of his day while she busied herself with her little tasks. saturday mornings they would go to the swamp and work together, and sometimes miss smith, stealing away from curious eyes, would come and sit and talk with them as they toiled. in those days, for these two souls, earth came very near to heaven. both were in the midst of that mighty change from youth to womanhood and manhood. their manner toward each other by degrees grew shyer and more thoughtful. there was less of comradeship, but the little meant more. the rough good fellowship was silently put aside; they no longer lightly clasped hands; and each at times wondered, in painful self-consciousness, if the other cared. then began, too, that long and subtle change wherein a soul, until now unmindful of its wrappings, comes suddenly to consciousness of body and clothes; when it gropes and tries to adjust one with the other, and through them to give to the inner deeper self, finer and fuller expression. one saw it easily, almost suddenly, in alwyn's sunday suit, vivid neckties, and awkward fads. slower, subtler, but more striking was the change in zora, as she began to earn bits of pin money in the office and to learn to sew. dresses hung straighter; belts served a better purpose; stockings were smoother; underwear was daintier. then her hair--that great dark mass of immovable infinitely curled hair--began to be subdued and twisted and combed until, with steady pains and study, it lay in thick twisted braids about her velvet forehead, like some shadowed halo. all this came much more slowly and spasmodically than one tells it. few noticed the change much; none noticed all; and yet there came a night--a student's social--when with a certain suddenness the whole school, teachers and pupils, realized the newness of the girl, and even bles was startled. he had bought her in town, at christmas time, a pair of white satin slippers, partly to test the smallness of her feet on which in younger days he had rallied her, and partly because she had mentioned a possible white dress. they were a cheap, plain pair but dainty, and they fitted well. when the evening came and the students were marching and the teachers, save miss smith, were sitting rather primly apart and commenting, she entered the room. she was a little late, and a hush greeted her. one boy, with the inimitable drawl of the race, pushed back his ice-cream and addressed it with a mournful head-shake: "go way, honey, yo' los' yo' tas'e!" the dress was plain and fitted every curving of a healthy girlish form. she paused a moment white-bodied and white-limbed but dark and velvet-armed, her full neck and oval head rising rich and almost black above, with its deep-lighted eyes and crown of silent darkling hair. to some, such a revelation of grace and womanliness in this hoyden, the gentle swelling of lankness to beauty, of lowliness to shy self-poise, was a sudden joy, to others a mere blindness. mary taylor was perplexed and in some indefinite way amazed; and many of the other teachers saw no beauty, only a strangeness that brought a smile. they were such as know beauty by convention only, and find it lip-ringed, hoop-skirted, tattooed, or corsetted, as time and place decree. the change in zora, however, had been neither cataclysmic nor revolutionary and it was yet far--very far--from complete. she still ran and romped in the woods, and dreamed her dreams; she still was passionately independent and "queer." tendencies merely had become manifest, some dominant. she would, unhindered, develop to a brilliant, sumptuous womanhood; proud, conquering, full-blooded, and deep bosomed--a passionate mother of men. herein lay all her early wildness and strangeness. herein lay, as yet half hidden, dimly sensed and all unspoken, the power of a mighty all-compelling love for one human soul, and, through it, for all the souls of men. all this lay growing and developing; but as yet she was still a girl, with a new shyness and comeliness and a bold, searching heart. in the field of the silver fleece all her possibilities were beginning to find expression. these new-born green things hidden far down in the swamp, begotten in want and mystery, were to her a living wonderful fairy tale come true. all the latent mother in her brooded over them; all her brilliant fancy wove itself about them. they were her dream-children, and she tended them jealously; they were her hope, and she worshipped them. when the rabbits tried the tender plants she watched hours to drive them off, and catching now and then a pulsing pink-eyed invader, she talked to it earnestly: "brer rabbit--poor little brer rabbit, don't you know you mustn't eat zora's cotton? naughty, naughty brer rabbit." and then she would show it where she had gathered piles of fragrant weeds for it and its fellows. the golden green of the first leaves darkened, and the plants sprang forward steadily. never before was such a magnificent beginning, a full month ahead of other cotton. the rain swept down in laughing, bubbling showers, and laved their thirsty souls, and zora held her beating breast day by day lest it rain too long or too heavily. the sun burned fiercely upon the young cotton plants as the spring hastened, and they lifted their heads in darker, wilder luxuriance; for the time of hoeing was at hand. these days were days of alternate hope and doubt with bles alwyn. strength and ambition and inarticulate love were fighting within him. he felt, in the dark thousands of his kind about him, a mighty calling to deeds. he was becoming conscious of the narrowness and straightness of his black world, and red anger flashed in him ever and again as he felt his bonds. his mental horizon was broadening as he prepared for the college of next year; he was faintly grasping the wider, fuller world, and its thoughts and aspirations. but beside and around and above all this, like subtle, permeating ether, was--zora. his feelings for her were not as yet definite, expressed, or grasped; they were rather the atmosphere in which all things occurred and were felt and judged. from an amusing pastime she had come to be a companion and thought-mate; and now, beyond this, insensibly they were drifting to a silenter, mightier mingling of souls. but drifting, merely--not arrived; going gently, irresistibly, but not yet at the realized goal. he felt all this as the stirring of a mighty force, but knew not what he felt. the teasing of his fellows, the common love-gossip of the school yard, seemed far different from his plight. he laughed at it and indignantly denied it. yet he was uncomfortable, restless, unhappy. he fancied zora cared less for his company, and he gave her less, and then was puzzled to find time hanging so empty, so wretchedly empty, on his hands. when they were together in these days they found less to talk about, and had it not been for the silver fleece which in magic wilfulness opened both their mouths, they would have found their companionship little more than a series of awkward silences. yet in their silences, their walks, and their sittings there was a companionship, a glow, a satisfaction, as came to them nowhere else on earth, and they wondered at it. they were both wondering at it this morning as they watched their cotton. it had seemingly bounded forward in a night and it must be hoed forthwith. yet, hoeing was murder--the ruthless cutting away of tenderer plants that the sturdier might thrive the more and grow. "i hate it, bles, don't you?" "hate what?" "killing any of it; it's all so pretty." "but it must be, so that what's left will be prettier, or at least more useful." "but it shouldn't be so; everything ought to have a chance to be beautiful and useful." "perhaps it ought to be so," admitted bles, "but it isn't." "isn't it so--anywhere?" "i reckon not. death and pain pay for all good things." she hoed away silently, hesitating over the choice of the plants, pondering this world-old truth, saddened by its ruthless cruelty. "death and pain," she murmured; "what a price!" bles leaned on his hoe and considered. it had not occurred to him till now that zora was speaking better and better english: the idioms and errors were dropping away; they had not utterly departed, however, but came crowding back in moments of excitement. at other times she clothed miss smith's clear-cut, correct speech in softer southern accents. she was drifting away from him in some intangible way to an upper world of dress and language and deportment, and the new thought was pain to him. so it was that the fleece rose and spread and grew to its wonderful flowering; and so these two children grew with it into theirs. zora never forgot how they found the first white flower in that green and billowing sea, nor her low cry of pleasure and his gay shout of joy. slowly, wonderfully the flowers spread--white, blue, and purple bells, hiding timidly, blazing luxuriantly amid the velvet leaves; until one day--it was after a southern rain and the sunlight was twinkling through the morning--all the fleece was in flower--a mighty swaying sea, darkling rich and waving, and upon it flecks and stars of white and purple foam. the joy of the two so madly craved expression that they burst into singing; not the wild light song of dancing feet, but a low, sweet melody of her fathers' fathers, whereunto alwyn's own deep voice fell fitly in minor cadence. miss smith and miss taylor, who were sorting the mail, heard them singing as they came up out of the swamp. miss taylor looked at them, then at miss smith. but miss smith sat white and rigid with the first opened letter in her hand. _twelve_ the promise miss smith sat with her face buried in her hands while the tears trickled silently through her thin fingers. before her lay the letter, read a dozen times: "old mrs. grey has been to see me, and she has announced her intention of endowing five colored schools, yours being one. she asked if $500,000 would do it. she has plenty of money, so i told her $750,000 would be better--$150,000 apiece. she's arranging for a board of trust, etc. you'll probably hear from her soon. you've been so worried about expenses that i thought i'd send this word on; i knew you'd be glad." glad? dear god, how flat the word fell! for thirty years she had sown the seed, planting her life-blood in this work, that had become the marrow of her soul. successful? no, it had not been successful; but it had been human. through yonder doorway had trooped an army of hundreds upon hundreds of bright and dull, light and dark, eager and sullen faces. there had been good and bad, honest and deceptive, frank and furtive. some had caught, kindled and flashed to ambition and achievement; some, glowing dimly, had plodded on in a slow, dumb faithful work worth while; and yet others had suddenly exploded, hurtling human fragments to heaven and to hell. around this school home, as around the centre of some little universe, had whirled the sorrowful, sordid, laughing, pulsing drama of a world: birth pains, and the stupor of death; hunger and pale murder; the riot of thirst and the orgies of such red and black cabins as elspeth's, crouching in the swamp. she groaned as she read of the extravagances of the world and saw her own vanishing revenues; but the funds continued to dwindle until sarah smith asked herself: "what will become of this school when i die?" with trembling fingers she had sat down to figure how many teachers must be dropped next year, when her brother's letter came, and she slipped to her knees and prayed. mrs. grey's decision was due in no little way to mary taylor's reports. slowly but surely the girl had begun to think that she had found herself in this new world. she would never be attuned to it thoroughly, for she was set for different music. the veil of color and race still hung thickly between her and her pupils; and yet she seemed to see some points of penetration. no one could meet daily a hundred or more of these light-hearted, good-natured children without feeling drawn to them. no one could cross the thresholds of the cabins and not see the old and well-known problems of life and striving. more and more, therefore, the work met miss taylor's approval and she told mrs. grey so. at the same time mary taylor had come to some other definite conclusions: she believed it wrong to encourage the ambitions of these children to any great extent; she believed they should be servants and farmers, content to work under present conditions until those conditions could be changed; and she believed that the local white aristocracy, helped by northern philanthropy, should take charge of such gradual changes. these conclusions she did not pretend to have originated; but she adopted them from reading and conversation, after hesitating for a year before such puzzling contradictions as bles alwyn and harry cresswell. for her to conclude to treat bles alwyn as a man despite his color was as impossible as to think mr. cresswell a criminal. some compromise was imperative which would save her the pleasure of mr. cresswell's company and at the same time leave open a way of fulfilling the world's duty to this black boy. she thought she had found this compromise and she wrote mrs. grey suggesting a chain of endowed negro schools under the management of trustees composed of northern business men and local southern whites. mrs. grey acquiesced gladly and announced her plan, eventually writing miss smith of her decision "to second her noble efforts in helping the poor colored people," and she hoped to have the plan under way before next fall. the sharpness of miss smith's joy did not let her dwell on the proposed "board of trust"; of course, it would be a board of friends of the school. she sat in her office looking out across the land. school had closed for the year and bles with the carryall was just taking miss taylor to the train with her trunk and bags. far up the road she could see dotted here and there the little dirty cabins of cresswell's tenants--the cresswell domain that lay like a mighty hand around the school, ready at a word to squeeze its life out. only yonder, to the eastward, lay the way out; the five hundred acres of the tolliver plantation, which the school needed so sadly for its farm and community. but the owner was a hard and ignorant white man, hating "niggers" only a shade more than he hated white aristocrats of the cresswell type. he had sold the school its first land to pique the cresswells; but he would not sell any more, she was sure, even now when the promise of wealth faced the school. she lay back and closed her eyes and fell lightly asleep. as she slept an old woman came toiling up the hill northward from the school, and out of the eastward spur of the cresswell barony. she was fat and black, hooded and aproned, with great round head and massive bosom. her face was dull and heavy and homely, her old eyes sorrowful. she moved swiftly, carrying a basket on her arm. opposite her, to the southward, but too far for sight, an old man came out of the lower cresswell place, skirting the swamp. he was tall, black, and gaunt, part bald with tufted hair, and a cowed and furtive look was in his eyes. one leg was crippled, and he hobbled painfully. up the road to the eastward that ran past the school, with the morning sun at his back, strode a young man, yellow, crisp-haired, strong-faced, with darkly knit brows. he greeted bles and the teacher coldly, and moved on in nervous haste. a woman, hurrying out of the westward swamp up the path that led from elspeth's, saw him and shrank back hastily. she turned quickly into the swamp and waited, looking toward the school. the old woman hurried into the back gate just as the old man appeared to the southward on the road. the young man greeted him cordially and they stopped a moment to talk, while the hiding woman watched. "howdy, uncle jim." "howdy, son. hit's hot, ain't it? how is you?" "tolerable, how are you?" "poorly, son, poorly--and worser in mind. i'se goin' up to talk to old miss." "so am i, but i just see aunt rachel going in. we'd better wait." miss smith started up at the timid knocking, and rubbed her eyes. it was long since she had slept in the daytime and she was annoyed at such laziness. she opened the back door and led the old woman to the office. "now, what have you got there?" she demanded, eyeing the basket. "just a little chicken fo' you and a few aigs." "oh, you are so thoughtful!" sarah smith's was a grateful heart. "go 'long now--hit ain't a thing." then came a pause, the old woman sliding into the proffered seat, while over her genial, dimpled smile there dropped a dull veil of care. her eyes shifted uneasily. miss smith tried not to notice the change. "well, are you all moved, aunt rachel?" she inquired cheerfully. "no'm, and we ain't gwine to move." "but i thought it was all arranged." "it was," gloomily, "but de ole cunnel, he won't let us go." the listener was instantly sympathetic. "why not?" she asked. "he says we owes him." "but didn't you settle at christmas?" "yas'm; but when he found we was goin' away, he looked up some more debts." "how much?" "i don't know 'zactly--more'n a hundred dollars. den de boys done got in dat trouble, and he paid their fines." "what was the trouble?" "well, one was a-gambling, and the other struck the overseer what was a-whippin' him." "whipping him!"--in horrified exclamation, quite as much at aunt rachel's matter-of-fact way of regarding the matter as at the deed itself. "yas'm. he didn't do his work right and he whipped him. i speck he needed it." "but he's a grown man," miss smith urged earnestly. "yas'm; he's twenty now, and big." "whipped him!" miss smith repeated. "and so you can't leave?" "no'm, he say he'll sell us out and put us in de chain-gang if we go. the boys is plumb mad, but i'se a-pleadin' with 'em not to do nothin' rash." "but--but i thought they had already started to work a crop on the tolliver place?" "yes'm, dey had; but, you see, dey were arrested, and then cunnel cresswell took 'em and 'lowed they couldn't leave his place. ol' man tolliver was powerful mad." "why, aunt rachel, it's slavery!" cried the lady in dismay. aunt rachel did not offer to dispute her declaration. "yas'm, hit's slavery," she agreed. "i hates it mighty bad, too, 'cause i wanted de little chillens in school; but--" the old woman broke down and sobbed. a knocking came at the door; hastily wiping her eyes aunt rachel rose. "i'll--i'll see what i can do, aunt rachel--i must do something," murmured miss smith hastily, as the woman departed, and an old black man came limping in. miss smith looked up in surprise. "i begs pardon, mistress--i begs pardon. good-morning." "good-morning--" she hesitated. "sykes--jim sykes--that's me." "yes, i've heard of you, mr. sykes; you live over south of the swamp." "yes, ma'am, that's me; and i'se got a little shack dar and a bit of land what i'se trying to buy." "of colonel cresswell?" "yas'm, of de cunnel." "and how long have you been buying it?" "going on ten year now; and dat's what i comes to ask you about." "goodness me! and how much have you paid a year?" "i gen'rally pays 'bout three bales of cotton a year." "does he furnish you rations?" "only sugar and coffee and a little meat now and then." "what does it amount to a year?" "i doesn't rightly know--but i'se got some papers here." miss smith looked them over and sighed. it was the same old tale of blind receipts for money "on account"--no items, no balancing. by his help she made out that last year his total bill at cresswell's store was perhaps forty dollars. "an' last year's bill was bigger'n common 'cause i hurt my leg working at the gin and had to have some medicine." "why, as far as i can see, mr. sykes, you've paid cresswell about a thousand dollars in the last ten years. how large is your place?" "about twenty acres." "and what were you to pay for it?" "four hundred." "have you got the deed?" "yes'm, but i ain't finished paying yet; de cunnel say as how i owes him two hundred dollars still, and i can't see it. dat's why i come over here to talk wid you." "where is the deed?" he handed it to her and her heart sank. it was no deed, but a complicated contract binding the tenant hand and foot to the landlord. she sighed, he watching her eagerly. "i'se getting old," he explained, "and i ain't got nobody to take care of me. i can't work as i once could, and de overseers dey drives me too hard. i wants a little home to die in." miss smith's throat swelled. she couldn't tell him that he would never get one at the present rate; she only said: "i'll--look this up. you come again next saturday." then sadly she watched the ragged old slave hobble away with his cherished "papers." he greeted the young man at the gate and passed out, while the latter walked briskly up to the door and knocked. "why, how do you do, robert?" "how do you do, miss smith?" "well, are you getting things in shape so as to enter school early next year?" robert looked embarrassed. "that's what i came to tell you, miss smith. mr. cresswell has offered me forty acres of good land." miss smith looked disheartened. "robert, here you are almost finished, and my heart is set on your going to atlanta university and finishing college. with your fine voice and talent for drawing--" a dogged look settled on robert's young bright face, and the speaker paused. "what's the use, miss smith--what opening is there for a--a nigger with an education?" miss smith was shocked. "why--why, every chance," she protested, "and where there's none _make_ a chance!" "miss taylor says"--miss smith's heart sank; how often had she heard that deadening phrase in the last year!--"that there's no use. that farming is the only thing we ought to try to do, and i reckon she thinks there ain't much chance even there." "robert, farming is a noble calling. whether you're suited to it or not, i don't yet know, but i'd like nothing better than to see you settled here in a decent home with a family, running a farm. but, robert, farming doesn't call for less intelligence than other things; it calls for more. it is because the world thinks any training good enough for a farmer that the southern farmer is today practically at the mercy of his keener and more intelligent fellows. and of all people, robert, your people need trained intelligence to cope with this problem of farming here. without intelligence and training and some capital it is the wildest nonsense to think you can lead your people out of slavery. look round you." she told him of the visitors. "are they not hard working honest people?" "yes, ma'am." "yet they are slaves--dumb driven cattle." "but they have no education." "and you have a smattering; therefore are ready to pit yourself against the organized plantation system without capital or experience. robert, you may succeed; you may find your landlord honest and the way clear; but my advice to you is--finish your education, develop your talents, and then come to your life work a full-fledged man and not a half-ignorant boy." "i'll think of it," returned the boy soberly. "i reckon you're right. i know miss taylor don't think much of us. but i'm tired of waiting; i want to get to work." miss smith laid a kindly hand upon his shoulder. "i've been waiting thirty years, robert," she said, with feeling, and he hung his head. "i wanted to talk about it," he awkwardly responded, turning slowly away. but miss smith stopped him. "robert, where is the land cresswell offers you?" "it's on the tolliver place." "the tolliver place?" "yes, he is going to buy it." miss smith dismissed the boy absently and sat down. the crisis seemed drawing near. she had not dreamed the tolliver place was for sale. the old man must be hard pressed to sell to the cresswells. she started up. why not go see him? perhaps a mortgage on the strength of the endowment? it was dangerous--but-she threw a veil over her hair, and opened the door. a woman stood there, who shrank and cowered, as if used to blows. miss smith eyed her grimly, then slowly stepped back. "come in," she commanded briefly, motioning the woman to a chair. but she stood, a pathetic figure, faded, worn, yet with unmistakable traces of beauty in her golden face and soft brown hair. miss smith contemplated her sadly. here was her most haunting failure, this girl whom she first had seen twelve years ago in her wonderful girlish comeliness. she had struggled and fought for her, but the forces of the devil had triumphed. she caught glimpses of her now and then, but today was the first time she had spoken to her for ten years. she saw the tears that gathered but did not fall; then her hands quivered. "bertie," she began brokenly. the girl shivered, but stood aloof. "miss smith," she said. "no--don't talk--i'm bad--but i've got a little girl, miss smith, ten years old, and--and--i'm afraid for her; i want you to take her." "i have no place for one so young. and why are you afraid for her?" "the men there are beginning to notice her." "where?" "at elspeth's." "do you stay there now?" "yes." "why?" "_he_ wants me to." "must you do as he wants?" "yes. but i want the child--different." "don't _you_ want to be different?" the woman quivered again but she answered steadily: "no." miss smith sank into a chair and moistened her dry lips. "elspeth's is an awful place," she affirmed solemnly. "yes." "and zora?" "she is not there much now, she stays away." "but if she escapes, why not you?" "she wants to escape." "and you?" "i don't want to." this stubborn depravity was so distressing that sarah smith was at an utter loss what to say or do. "i can do nothing--" she began. "for me," the woman quickly replied; "i don't ask anything; but for the child,--she isn't to blame." the older woman wavered. "won't you try?" pleaded the younger. "yes--i'll try, i'll try; i am trying all the time, but there are more things than my weak strength can do. good-bye." miss smith stood a long time in the doorway, watching the fading figure and vaguely trying to remember what it was that she had started to do, when the sharp staccato step of a mule drew her attention to a rider who stopped at the gate. it was her neighbor, tolliver--a gaunt, yellow-faced white man, ragged, rough, and unkempt; one of the poor whites who had struggled up and failed. he spent no courtesy on the "nigger" teacher, but sat in his saddle and called her to the gate, and she went. "say," he roughly opened up, "i've got to sell some land and them damn cresswells are after it. you can have it for five thousand dollars if you git the cash in a week." with a muttered oath he rode abruptly off; but not before she had seen the tears in his eyes. all night sarah smith lay thinking, and all day she thought and dreamed. toward dark she walked slowly out the gate and up the highway toward the cresswell oaks. she had never been within the gates before, and she looked about thoughtfully. the great trees in their regular curving rows must have been planted more than half a century ago. the lawn was well tended and the flowers. yes, there were signs of taste and wealth. "but it was built on a moan," cried miss smith to herself, passionately, and she would not look round any more, but stared straight ahead where she saw old colonel cresswell smoking and reading on the verandah. the colonel saw her, too, and was uneasy, for he knew that miss smith had a sharp tongue and a most disconcerting method of argument, which he, as a southern gentleman, courteous to all white females, even if they did eat with "niggers," could not properly answer. he received her with courtesy, offered a chair, laid aside his cigar, and essayed some general remarks on cotton weather. but miss smith plunged into her subject: "colonel cresswell, i'm thinking of raising some money from a mortgage on our school property." the colonel's face involuntarily lighted up. he thought he saw the beginning of the end of an institution which had been a thorn in his flesh ever since tolliver, in a fit of rage, had sold land for a negro school. "h'm," he reflected deprecatingly, wiping his brow. "i need some ready money," she continued, "to keep from curtailing our work." "indeed?" "i have good prospects in a year or so"--the colonel looked up sharply, but said nothing--"and so i thought of a mortgage." "money is pretty tight," was the colonel's first objection. "the land is worth, you know, at least fifty dollars an acre." "not more than twenty-five dollars, i fear." "why, you wanted seventy-five dollars for poorer land last year! we have two hundred acres." it was not for nothing that this lady had been born in new england. "i wouldn't reckon it as worth more than five thousand dollars," insisted the colonel. "and ten thousand dollars for improvements." but the colonel arose. "you had better talk to the directors of the jefferson bank," he said politely. "they may accommodate you--how much would you want?" "five thousand dollars," miss smith replied. then she hesitated. that would buy the land, to be sure; but money was needed to develop and run it; to install tenants; and then, too, for new teachers. but she said nothing more, and, nodding to his polite bow, departed. colonel cresswell had noticed her hesitation, and thought of it as he settled to his cigar again. bles alwyn arose next morning and examined the sky critically. he feared rain. the season had been quite wet enough, particularly down on the swamp land, and but yesterday bles had viewed his dykes with apprehension for the black pool scowled about them. he dared not think what a long heavy rain might do to the wonderful island of cotton which now stood fully five feet high, with flowers and squares and budding bolls. it might not rain, but the safest thing would be to work at those dykes, so he started for spade and hoe. he heard miss smith calling, however. "bles--hitch up!" he was vexed. "are you--in a hurry, miss smith?" he asked. "yes, i am," she replied, with unmistakable positiveness. he started off, and hesitated. "miss smith, would jim do to drive?" "no," sharply. "i want you particularly." at another time she might have observed his anxiety, but today she was agitated. she knew she was taking a critical step. slowly bles hitched up. after all it might not rain, he argued as they jogged toward town. in silence they rode on. bles kept looking at the skies. the south was getting darker and darker. it might rain. it might rain only an hour or so, but, suppose it should rain a day--two days--a week? miss smith was looking at her own skies and despite the promised sunrise they loomed darkly. five thousand was needed for the land and at least another thousand for repairs. two thousand would "buy" a half dozen desirable tenants by paying their debts to their present landlords. then two thousand would be wanted for new teachers and a carpenter shop--ten thousand dollars! it was a great temptation. and yet, once in the hands of these past-masters of debt-manipulation, would her school be safe? suppose, after all, this grey gift--but she caught her breath sharply just as a wet splash of rain struck upon her forehead. no. god could not be so cruel. she pushed her bonnet back: how good and cool the water felt! but on bles as he raised the buggy top it felt hot and fiery. he felt the coming of some great calamity, the end of a dream. this rain might stay for days; it looked like such a downpour; and that would mean the end of the silver fleece; the end of zora's hopes; the end of everything. he gulped in despairing anger and hit the staid old horse the smartest tap she had known all summer. "why, bles, what's the matter?" called miss smith, as the horse started forward. he murmured something about getting wet and drew up at the toomsville bank. miss smith was invited politely into the private parlor. she explained her business. the president was there and colonel cresswell and one other local director. "i have come for a mortgage. our land is, as you know, gentlemen, worth at least ten thousand dollars; the buildings cost fifteen thousand dollars; our property is, therefore, conservatively valued at twenty-five thousand dollars. now i want to mortgage it for"--she hesitated--"five thousand dollars." colonel cresswell was silent, but the president said: "money is rather scarce just now, miss smith; but it happens that i have ten thousand dollars on hand, which we prefer, however, to loan in one lump sum. now, if the security were ample, i think perhaps you might get this ten thousand dollars." miss smith grew white; it was the sum she wanted. she tried to escape the temptation, yet the larger amount was more than twice as desirable to her as the smaller, and she knew that they knew it. they were trying to tempt her; they wanted as firm a hold on the school property as possible. and yet, why should she hesitate? it was a risk, but the returns would be enormous--she must do it. besides, there was the endowment; it was certain; yes--she felt forced to close the bargain. "very well," she declared her decision, and they handed her the preliminary papers. she took the pen and glanced at mr. cresswell; he was smiling slightly, but nevertheless she signed her name grimly, in a large round hand, "sarah smith." _thirteen_ mrs. grey gives a dinner the hon. charles smith, miss sarah's brother, was walking swiftly uptown from mr. easterly's wall street office and his face was pale. at last the cotton combine was to all appearances an assured fact and he was slated for the senate. the price he had paid was high: he was to represent the interests of the new trust and sundry favorable measures were already drafted and reposing in the safe of the combine's legal department. among others was one relating to child labor, another that would effect certain changes in the tariff, and a proposed law providing for a cotton bale of a shape and dimensions different from the customary--the last constituting a particularly clever artifice which, under the guise of convenience in handling, would necessitate the installation of entirely new gin and compress machinery, to be supplied, of course, by the trust. as mr. smith drew near mrs. grey's murray hill residence his face had melted to a cynical smile. after all why should he care? he had tried independence and philanthropy and failed. why should he not be as other men? he had seen many others that very day swallow the golden bait and promise everything. they were gentlemen. why should he pose as better than his fellows? there was young cresswell. did his aristocratic air prevent his succumbing to the lure of millions and promising the influence of his father and the whole farmer's league to the new project? mr. smith snapped his fingers and rang the bell. the door opened softly. the dark woodwork of the old english wainscoting glowed with the crimson flaming of logs in the wide fireplace. there was just the touch of early autumn chill in the air without, that made both the fire and the table with its soft linen, gold and silver plate, and twinkling glasses a warming, satisfying sight. mrs. grey was a portly woman, inclined to think much of her dinner and her clothes, both of which were always rich and costly. she was not herself a notably intelligent woman; she greatly admired intelligence or whatever looked to her like intelligence in others. her money, too, was to her an ever worrying mystery and surprise, which she found herself always scheming to husband shrewdly and spend philanthropically--a difficult combination. as she awaited her guests she surveyed the table with both satisfaction and disquietude, for her social functions were few, tonight there were--she checked them off on her fingers--sir james creighton, the rich english manufacturer, and lady creighton, mr. and mrs. vanderpool, mr. harry cresswell and his sister, john taylor and his sister, and mr. charles smith, whom the evening papers mentioned as likely to be united states senator from new jersey--a selection of guests that had been determined, unknown to the hostess, by the meeting of cotton interests earlier in the day. mrs. grey's chef was high-priced and efficient, and her butler was the envy of many; consequently, she knew the dinner would be good. to her intense satisfaction, it was far more than this. it was a most agreeable couple of hours; all save perhaps mr. smith unbent, the englishman especially, and the vanderpools were most gracious; but if the general pleasure was owing to any one person particularly it was to mr. harry cresswell. mrs. grey had met southerners before, but not intimately, and she always had in mind vividly their cruelty to "poor negroes," a subject she made a point of introducing forthwith. she was therefore most agreeably surprised to hear mr. cresswell express himself so cordially as approving of negro education. "why, i thought," said mrs. grey, "that you southerners rather disapproved--or at least--" mr. cresswell inclined his head courteously. "we southerners, my dear mrs. grey, are responsible for a variety of reputations." and he told an anecdote that set the table laughing. "seriously, though," he continued, "we are not as black as the blacks paint us, although on the whole i _prefer_ that helen should marry--a white man." they all glanced at miss cresswell, who lay softly back in her chair like a white lily, gleaming and bejewelled, her pale face flushing under the scrutiny; mrs. grey was horrified. "why--why the idea!" she sputtered. "why, mr. cresswell, how can you conceive of anything else--no northerner dreams--" mr. cresswell sipped his wine slowly. "no--no--i do not think you do _mean_ that--" he paused and the englishman bent forward. "really, now, you do not mean to say that there is a danger of--of amalgamation, do you?" he sang. mr. cresswell explained. no, of course there was no immediate danger; but when people were suddenly thrust beyond their natural station, filled with wild ideas and impossible ambitions, it meant terrible danger to southern white women. "but you believe in some education?" asked mary taylor. "i believe in the training of people to their highest capacity." the englishman here heartily seconded him. "but," cresswell added significantly, "capacity differs enormously between races." the vanderpools were sure of this and the englishman, instancing india, became quite eloquent. mrs. grey was mystified, but hardly dared admit it. the general trend of the conversation seemed to be that most individuals needed to be submitted to the sharpest scrutiny before being allowed much education, and as for the "lower races" it was simply criminal to open such useless opportunities to them. "why, i had a colored servant-girl once," laughed mrs. vanderpool by way of climax, "who spent half her wages in piano lessons." then mary taylor, whose conscience was uncomfortable, said: "but, mr. cresswell, you surely believe in schools like miss smith's?" "decidedly," returned mr. cresswell, with enthusiasm, "it has done great good." mrs. grey was gratified and murmured something of miss smith's "sacrifice." "positively heroic," added cresswell, avoiding his sister's eyes. "of course," mary taylor hastened to encourage this turn of the conversation, "there are many points on which miss smith and i disagree, but i think everybody admires her work." mrs. grey wanted particulars. "what did you disagree about?" she asked bluntly. "i may be responsible for some of the disagreement," interrupted mr. cresswell, hesitatingly; "i'm afraid miss smith does not approve of us white southerners." "but you mean to say you can't even advise her?" "oh, no; we can. but--we're not--er--exactly welcomed. in fact," said cresswell gravely, "the chief criticism i have against your northerners' schools for negroes is, that they not only fail to enlist the sympathy and aid of the _best_ southerners, but even repel it." "that is very wrong--very wrong," commented the englishman warmly, a sentiment in which mrs. grey hastened to agree. "of course," continued cresswell, "i am free to confess that i have no personal desire to dabble in philanthropy, or conduct schools of any kind; my hands are full of other matters." "but it's precisely the advice of such disinterested men that philanthropic work needs," mr. vanderpool urged. "well, i volunteered advice once in this case and i sha'n't repeat the experiment soon," said cresswell laughing. mrs. grey wanted to hear the incident, but the young man was politely reluctant. mary taylor, however, related the tale of zora to mrs. grey's private ear later. "fortunately," said mr. vanderpool, "northerners and southerners are arriving at a better mutual understanding on most of these matters." "yes, indeed," cresswell agreed. "after all, they never were far apart, even in slavery days; both sides were honest and sincere." all through the dinner mr. smith had been preoccupied and taciturn. now he abruptly shot a glance at cresswell. "i suppose that one was right and one was wrong." "no," said cresswell, "both were right." "i thought the only excuse for fighting was a great right; if right is on neither side or simultaneously on both, then war is not only hell but damnation." mrs. grey looked shocked and mrs. vanderpool smiled. "how about fighting for exercise?" she suggested. "at any rate," said cresswell, "we can all agree on helping these poor victims of our quarrel as far as their limited capacity will allow--and no farther, for that is impossible." very soon after dinner charles smith excused himself. he was not yet inured to the ways of high finance, and the programme of the cotton barons, as unfolded that day, lay heavy on his mind, despite all his philosophy. "i have had a--full day," he explained to mrs. grey. _fourteen_ love the rain was sweeping down in great thick winding sheets. the wind screamed in the ancient cresswell oaks and swirled across the swamp in loud, wild gusts. the waters roared and gurgled in the streams, and along the roadside. then, when the wind fell murmuring away, the clouds grew blacker and blacker and rain in long slim columns fell straight from heaven to earth digging itself into the land and throwing back the red mud in angry flashes. so it rained for one long week, and so for seven endless days bles watched it with leaden heart. he knew the silver fleece--his and zora's--must be ruined. it was the first great sorrow of his life; it was not so much the loss of the cotton itself--but the fantasy, the hopes, the dreams built around it. if it failed, would not they fail? was not this angry beating rain, this dull spiritless drizzle, this wild war of air and earth, but foretaste and prophecy of ruin and discouragement, of the utter futility of striving? but if his own despair was great his pain at the plight of zora made it almost unbearable. he did not see her in these seven days. he pictured her huddled there in the swamp in the cheerless leaky cabin with worse than no companions. ah! the swamp, the cruel swamp! it was a fearful place in the rain. its oozing mud and fetid vapors, its clinging slimy draperies,--how they twined about the bones of its victims and chilled their hearts. yet here his zora,--his poor disappointed child--was imprisoned. child? he had always called her child--but now in the inward illumination of these dark days he knew her as neither child nor sister nor friend, but as the one woman. the revelation of his love lighted and brightened slowly till it flamed like a sunrise over him and left him in burning wonder. he panted to know if she, too, knew, or knew and cared not, or cared and knew not. she was so strange and human a creature. to her all things meant something--nothing was aimless, nothing merely happened. was this rain beating down and back her love for him, or had she never loved? he walked his room, gripping his hands, peering through the misty windows toward the swamp--rain, rain, rain, nothing but rain. the world was water veiled in mists. then of a sudden, at midday, the sun shot out, hot and still; no breath of air stirred; the sky was like blue steel; the earth steamed. bles rushed to the edge of the swamp and stood there irresolute. perhaps--if the water had but drained from the cotton!--it was so strong and tall! but, pshaw! where was the use of imagining? the lagoon had been level with the dykes a week ago; and now? he could almost see the beautiful silver fleece, bedraggled, drowned, and rolling beneath the black lake of slime. he went back to his work, but early in the morning the thought of it lured him again. he must at least see the grave of his hope and zora's, and out of it resurrect new love and strength. perhaps she, too, might be there, waiting, weeping. he started at the thought. he hurried forth sadly. the rain-drops were still dripping and gleaming from the trees, flashing back the heavy yellow sunlight. he splashed and stamped along, farther and farther onward until he neared the rampart of the clearing, and put foot upon the tree-bridge. then he looked down. the lagoon was dry. he stood a moment bewildered, then turned and rushed upon the island. a great sheet of dazzling sunlight swept the place, and beneath lay a mighty mass of olive green, thick, tall, wet, and willowy. the squares of cotton, sharp-edged, heavy, were just about to burst to bolls! and underneath, the land lay carefully drained and black! for one long moment he paused, stupid, agape with utter amazement, then leaned dizzily against a tree. the swamp, the eternal swamp, had been drained in its deepest fastness; but, how?--how? he gazed about, perplexed, astonished. what a field of cotton! what a marvellous field! but how had it been saved? he skirted the island slowly, stopping near zora's oak. here lay the reading of the riddle: with infinite work and pain, some one had dug a canal from the lagoon to the creek, into which the former had drained by a long and crooked way, thus allowing it to empty directly. the canal went straight, a hundred yards through stubborn soil, and it was oozing now with slimy waters. he sat down weak, bewildered, and one thought was uppermost--zora! and with the thought came a low moan of pain. he wheeled and leapt toward the dripping shelter in the tree. there she lay--wet, bedraggled, motionless, gray-pallid beneath her dark-drawn skin, her burning eyes searching restlessly for some lost thing, her lips a-moaning. in dumb despair he dropped beside her and gathered her in his arms. the earth staggered beneath him as he stumbled on; the mud splashed and sunlight glistened; he saw long snakes slithering across his path and fear-struck beasts fleeing before his coming. he paused for neither path nor way but went straight for the school, running in mighty strides, yet gently, listening to the moans that struck death upon his heart. once he fell headlong, but with a great wrench held her from harm, and minded not the pain that shot through his ribs. the yellow sunshine beat fiercely around and upon him, as he stumbled into the highway, lurched across the mud-strewn road, and panted up the porch. "miss smith--!" he gasped, and then--darkness. the years of the days of her dying were ten. the boy that entered the darkness and the shadow of death emerged a man, a silent man and grave, working furiously and haunting, day and night, the little window above the door. at last, of one gray morning when the earth was stillest, they came and told him, "she will live!" and he went out under the stars, lifted his long arms and sobbed: "curse me, o god, if i let me lose her again!" and god remembered this in after years. the hope and dream of harvest was upon the land. the cotton crop was short and poor because of the great rain; but the sun had saved the best, and the price had soared. so the world was happy, and the face of the black-belt green and luxuriant with thickening flecks of the coming foam of the cotton. up in the sick room zora lay on the little white bed. the net and web of endless things had been crawling and creeping around her; she had struggled in dumb, speechless terror against some mighty grasping that strove for her life, with gnarled and creeping fingers; but now at last, weakly, she opened her eyes and questioned. bles, where was he? the silver fleece, how was it? the sun, the swamp? then finding all well, she closed her eyes and slept. after some days they let her sit by the window, and she saw bles pass, but drew back timidly when he looked; and he saw only the flutter of her gown, and waved. at last there came a day when they let her walk down to the porch, and she felt the flickering of her strength again. yet she looked different; her buxom comeliness was spiritualized; her face looked smaller, and her masses of hair, brought low about her ears, heightened her ghostly beauty; her skin was darkly transparent, and her eyes looked out from velvet veils of gloom. for a while she lay in her chair, in happy, dreamy pleasure at sun and bird and tree. bles did not know yet that she was down; but soon he would come searching, for he came each hour, and she pressed her little hands against her breast to still the beating of her heart and the bursting wonder of her love. then suddenly a panic seized her. he must not find her here--not here; there was but one place in all the earth for them to meet, and that was yonder in the silver fleece. she rose with a fleeting glance, gathered the shawl round her, then gliding forward, wavering, tremulous, slipped across the road and into the swamp. the dark mystery of the swamp swept over her; the place was hers. she had been born within its borders; within its borders she had lived and grown, and within its borders she had met her love. on she hurried until, sweeping down to the lagoon and the island, lo! the cotton lay before her! a great white foam was spread upon its brown and green; the whole field was waving and shivering in the sunlight. a low cry of pleasure burst from her lips; she forgot her weakness, and picking her way across the bridge, stood still amid the cotton that nestled about her shoulders, clasping it lovingly in her hands. he heard that she was down-stairs and ran to meet her with beating heart. the chair was empty; but he knew. there was but one place then for these two souls to meet. yet it was far, and he feared, and ran with startled eyes. she stood on the island, ethereal, splendid, like some tall, dark, and gorgeous flower of the storied east. the green and white of the cotton billowed and foamed about her breasts; the red scarf burned upon her neck; the dark brown velvet of her skin pulsed warm and tremulous with the uprushing blood, and in the midnight depths of her great eyes flamed the mighty fires of long-concealed and new-born love. he darted through the trees and paused, a tall man strongly but slimly made. he threw up his hands in the old way and hallooed; happily she crooned back a low mother-melody, and waited. he came down to her slowly, with fixed, hungry eyes, threading his way amid the fleece. she did not move, but lifted both her dark hands, white with cotton; and then, as he came, casting it suddenly to the winds, in tears and laughter she swayed and dropped quivering in his arms. and all the world was sunshine and peace. _fifteen_ revelation harry cresswell was scowling over his breakfast. it was not because his apartment in the new york hotel was not satisfactory, or his breakfast unpalatable; possibly a rather bewildering night in broadway was expressing its influence; but he was satisfied that his ill-temper was due to a paragraph in the morning paper: "it is stated on good authority that the widow of the late multimillionaire, job grey, will announce a large and carefully planned scheme of negro education in the south, and will richly endow schools in south carolina, georgia, alabama, louisiana, and texas." cresswell finally thrust his food away. he knew that mrs. grey helped miss smith's school, and supposed she would continue to do so; with that in mind he had striven to impress her, hoping that she might trust his judgment in later years. he had no idea, however, that she meant to endow the school, or entertained wholesale plans for negro education. the knowledge made him suspicious. why had neither mary nor john taylor mentioned this? was there, after all, some "nigger-loving" conspiracy back of the cotton combine? he took his hat and started down-town. once in john taylor's broadway office, he opened the subject abruptly--the more so perhaps because he felt a resentment against taylor for certain unnamed or partially voiced assumptions. here was a place, however, for speech, and he spoke almost roughly. "taylor, what does this mean?" he thrust the clipping at him. "mean? that mrs. grey is going to get rid of some of her surplus cash--is going to endow some nigger schools," taylor drily retorted. "it must be stopped," declared cresswell. the other's brows drew up. "why?" in a surprised tone. "why? why? do you think the plantation system can be maintained without laborers? do you think there's the slightest chance of cornering cotton and buying the black belt if the niggers are unwilling to work under present conditions? do you know the man that stands ready to gobble up every inch of cotton land in this country at a price which no trust can hope to rival?" john taylor's interest quickened. "why, no," he returned sharply. "who?" "the black man, whose woolly head is filled with ideas of rising. we're striving by main force to prevent this, and here come your damned northern philanthropists to plant schools. why, taylor, it'll knock the cotton trust to hell." "don't get excited," said taylor, judicially. "we've got things in our hands; it's the grey money, you know, that is back of us." "that's just what confounds me," declared the perplexed young man. "are you men fools, or rascals? don't you see the two schemes can't mix? they're dead opposite, mutually contradictory, absolutely--" taylor checked him; it was odd to behold harry cresswell so disturbed. "well, wait a moment. let's see. sit down. wish i had a cigar for you, but i don't smoke." "do you happen to have any whiskey handy?" "no, i don't drink." "well, what the devil--oh, well, fire away." "now, see here. we control the grey millions. of course, we've got to let her play with her income, and that's considerable. her favorite game just now is negro education, and she's planning to go in heavy. her adviser in this line, however, is smith, and he belongs to us." "what smith?" "why, the man who's going to be senator from new jersey. he has a sister teaching in the south--you know, of course; it's at your home where my sister mary taught." "great scott! is that woman's brother going to spend this money? why, are you daft? see here! american cotton-spinning supremacy is built on cheap cotton; cheap cotton is built on cheap niggers. educating, or rather _trying_ to educate niggers, will make them restless and discontented--that is, scarce and dear as workers. don't you see you're planning to cut off your noses? this smith school, particularly, has nearly ruined our plantation. it's stuck almost in our front yard; _you_ are planning to put our plough-hands all to studying greek, and at the same time to corner the cotton crop--rot!" john taylor caressed his lean jaw. "new point of view to me; i sort of thought education would improve things in the south," he commented, unmoved. "it would if we ran it." "we?" "yes--we southerners." "um!--i see--there's light. see here, let's talk to easterly about this." they went into the next office, and after a while got audience with the trust magnate. mr. easterly heard the matter carefully and waved it aside. "oh, that doesn't concern us, taylor; let cresswell take care of the whole thing. we'll see that smith does what cresswell wants." but taylor shook his head. "smith would kick. mrs. grey would get suspicious, and the devil be to pay. this is better. form a big committee of northern business men like yourself--philanthropists like vanderpool, and southerners like cresswell; let them be a sort of negro education steering-committee. we'll see that on such committee you southerners get what you want--control of negro education." "that sounds fair. but how about the smith school? my father writes me that they are showing signs of expecting money right off--is that true? if it is, i want it stopped; it will ruin our campaign for the farmers' league." john taylor looked at cresswell. he thought he saw something more than general policy, or even racial prejudice--something personal--in his vehemence. the smith school was evidently a severe thorn in the flesh of this man. all the more reason for mollifying him. then, too, there was something in his argument. it was not wise to start educating these negroes and getting them discontented just now. ignorant labor was not ideal, but it was worth too much to employers to lose it now. educated negro labor might be worth more to negroes, but not to the cotton combine. "h'm--well, then--" and john taylor went into a brown study, while cresswell puffed impatiently at a cigarette. "i have it," said taylor. cresswell sat up. "first, let mr. easterly get smith." easterly turned to the telephone. "is that you, smith?" "well, this is easterly.... yes--how about mrs. grey's education schemes?... yes.... h'm--well,--see here smith, we must go a little easy there.... oh, no, no,--but to advertise just now a big scheme of negro education would drive the cresswells, the farmers' league, and the whole business south dead against us.... yes, yes indeed; they believe in education all right, but they ain't in for training lawyers and professors just yet.... no, i don't suppose her school is.... well, then; see here. she'll be reasonable, won't she, and placate the cresswells?... no, i mean run the school to suit their ideas.... no, no, but in general along the lines which they could approve.... yes, i thought so ... of course ... good-bye." "inclined to be a little nasty?" asked taylor. "a little sharp--but tractable. now, mr. cresswell, the thing is in your hands. we'll get this committee which taylor suggests appointed, and send it on a junket to alabama; you do the rest--see?" "who'll be the committee?" asked cresswell. "name it." mr. cresswell smiled and left. the winter started in severely, and it was easy to fill two private cars with members of the new negro education board right after thanksgiving. cresswell had worked carefully and with caution. there was mrs. grey, comfortable and beaming, mr. easterly, who thought this a good business opportunity, and his family. mrs. vanderpool liked the south and was amused at the trip, and had induced mr. vanderpool to come by stories of shooting. "ah!" said mr. vanderpool. mr. charles smith and john taylor were both too busy to go, but bronchial trouble induced the rev. dr. boldish of st. faith's rich parish to be one of the party, and at the last moment temple bocombe, the sociologist, consented to join. "awfully busy," he said, "but i've been reading up on the negro problem since you mentioned the matter to me last week, mr. cresswell, and i think i understand it thoroughly. i may be able to help out." the necessary spice of young womanhood was added to the party by miss taylor and miss cresswell, together with the silent miss boldish. they were a comfortable and sometimes merry party. dr. boldish pointed out the loafers at the stations, especially the black ones; mr. bocombe counted them and estimated the number of hours of work lost at ten cents an hour. "do they get that--ten cents an hour?" asked miss taylor. "oh, i don't know," replied mr. bocombe; "but suppose they do, for instance. that is an average wage today." "they look lazy," said mrs. grey. "they are lazy," said mr. cresswell. "so am i," added mrs. vanderpool, suppressing a yawn. "it is uninteresting," murmured her husband, preparing for a nap. on the whole the members of the party enjoyed themselves from the moment they drew out of jersey city to the afternoon when, in four carriages, they rolled beneath the curious eyes of all toomsville and swept under the shadowed rampart of the swamp. "the christmas" was coming and all the southern world was busy. few people were busier than bles and zora. slowly, wonderfully for them, heaven bent in these dying days of the year and kissed the earth, and the tremor thrilled all lands and seas. everything was good, all things were happy, and these two were happiest of all. out of the shadows and hesitations of childhood they had stepped suddenly into manhood and womanhood, with firm feet and uplifted heads. all the day that was theirs they worked, picking the silver fleece--picking it tenderly and lovingly from off the brown and spent bodies which had so utterly yielded life and beauty to the full fruition of this long and silken tendril, this white beauty of the cotton. november came and flew, and still the unexhausted field yielded its frothing fruit. today seemed doubly glorious, for bles had spoken of their marriage; with twined hands and arms, and lips ever and again seeking their mates, they walked the leafy way. unconscious, rapt, they stepped out into the big road skirting the edge of the swamp. why not? was it not the king's highway? and love was king. so they talked on, unknowing that far up the road the cresswell coaches were wheeling along with precious burdens. in the first carriage were mrs. grey and mrs. vanderpool, mr. cresswell and miss taylor. mrs. vanderpool was lolling luxuriously, but mrs. grey was a little stiff from long travel and sat upright. mr. cresswell looked clean-cut and handsome, and miss taylor seemed complacent and responsible. the dying of the day soothed them all insensibly. groups of dark little children passed them as they neared the school, staring with wide eyes and greeting timidly. "there seems to be marrying and giving in marriage," laughed mrs. vanderpool. "not very much," said mr. cresswell drily. "well, at least plenty of children." "plenty." "but where are the houses?" asked mrs. grey. "perhaps in the swamp," said mrs. vanderpool lightly, looking up at the sombre trees that lined the left. "they live where they please and do as they please," cresswell explained; to which mrs. vanderpool added: "like other animals." mary taylor opened her lips to rebuke this levity when suddenly the coachman called out and the horses swerved, and the carriage's four occupants faced a young man and a young woman embracing heartily. out through the wood bles and zora had come to the broad red road; playfully he celebrated all her beauty unconscious of time and place. "you are tall and bend like grasses on the swamp," he said. "and yet look up to you," she murmured. "your eyes are darkness dressed in night." "to see you brighter, dear," she said. "your little hands are much too frail for work." "they must grow larger, then, and soon." "your feet are far too small to travel on." "they'll travel on to you--that's far enough." "your lips--your full and purple lips--were made alone for kissing, not for words." "they'll do for both." he laughed in utter joy and touched her hair with light caressing hands. "it does not fly with sunlight," she said quickly, with an upward glance. "no," he answered. "it sits and listens to the night." but even as she nestled to him happily there came the harsh thunder of horses' hoofs, beating on their ears. he drew her quickly to him in fear, and the coach lurched and turned, and left them facing four pairs of eyes. miss taylor reddened; mrs. grey looked surprised; mrs. vanderpool smiled; but mr. cresswell darkened with anger. the couple unclasped shamefacedly, and the young man, lifting his hat, started to stammer an apology; but cresswell interrupted him: "keep your--your philandering to the woods, or i shall have you arrested," he said slowly, his face colorless, his lips twitching with anger. "drive on, john." miss taylor felt that her worst suspicions had been confirmed; but mrs. vanderpool was curious as to the cause of cresswell's anger. it was so genuine that it needed explanation. "are kisses illegal here?" she asked before the horses started, turning the battery of her eyes full upon him. but cresswell had himself well in hand. "no," he said. "but the girl is--notorious." on the lovers the words fell like a blow. zora shivered, and a grayish horror mottled the dark burning of her face. bles started in anger, then paused in shivering doubt. what had happened? they knew not; yet involuntarily their hands fell apart; they avoided each other's eyes. "i--i must go now," gasped zora, as the carriage swept away. he did not hold her, he did not offer the farewell kiss, but stood staring at the road as she walked into the swamp. a moment she paused and looked back; then slowly, almost painfully, she took the path back to the field of the fleece, and reaching it after long, long minutes, began mechanically to pick the cotton. but the cotton glowed crimson in the failing sun. bles walked toward the school. what had happened? he kept asking. and yet he dared not question the awful shape that sat somewhere, cold and still, behind his soul. he heard the hoofs of horses again. it was miss taylor being brought back to the school to greet miss smith and break the news of the coming of the party. he raised his hat. she did not return the greeting, but he found her pausing at the gate. it seemed to her too awful for this foolish fellow thus to throw himself away. she faced him and he flinched as from some descending blow. "bles," she said primly, "have you absolutely no shame?" he braced himself and raised his head proudly. "i am going to marry her; it is no crime." then he noted the expression on her face, and paused. she stepped back, scandalized. "can it be, bles alwyn," she said, "that you don't know the sort of girl she is?" he raised his hands and warded off her words, dumbly, as she turned to go, almost frightened at the havoc she saw. the heavens flamed scarlet in his eyes and he screamed. "it's a lie! it's a damned lie!" he wheeled about and tore into the swamp. "it's a damned lie!" he shouted to the trees. "is it?--is it?" chirped the birds. "it's a cruel falsehood!" he moaned. "is it?--is it?" whispered the devils within. it seemed to him as though suddenly the world was staggering and faltering about him. the trees bent curiously and strange breathings were upon the breezes. he unbuttoned his collar that he might get more air. a thousand things he had forgotten surged suddenly to life. slower and slower he ran, more and more the thoughts crowded his head. he thought of that first red night and the yelling and singing and wild dancing; he thought of cresswell's bitter words; he thought of zora telling how she stayed out nights; he thought of the little bower that he had built her in the cotton field. a wild fear struggled with his anger, but he kept repeating, "no, no," and then, "at any rate, she will tell me the truth." she had never lied to him; she would not dare; he clenched his hands, murder in his heart. slowly and more slowly he ran. he knew where she was--where she must be, waiting. and yet as he drew near huge hands held him back, and heavy weights clogged his feet. his heart said: "on! quick! she will tell the truth, and all will be well." his mind said: "slow, slow; this is the end." he hurled the thought aside, and crashed through the barrier. she was standing still and listening, with a huge basket of the piled froth of the field upon her head. one long brown arm, tender with curvings, balanced the cotton; the other, poised, balanced the slim swaying body. bending she listened, her eyes shining, her lips apart, her bosom fluttering at the well-known step. he burst into her view with the fury of a beast, rending the wood away and trampling the underbrush, reeling and muttering until he saw her. she looked at him. her hands dropped, she stood very still with drawn face, grayish-brown, both hands unconsciously out-stretched, and the cotton swaying, while deep down in her eyes, dimly, slowly, a horror lit and grew. he paused a moment, then came slowly onward doggedly, drunkenly, with torn clothes, flying collar, and red eyes. then he paused again, still beyond arm's-length, looking at her with fear-struck eyes. the cotton on her head shivered and dropped in a pure mass of white and silvery snow about her limbs. her hands fell limply and the horror flamed in her wet eyes. he struggled with his voice but it grated and came hoarse and hard from his quivering throat. "zora!" "yes, bles." "you--you told me--you were--pure." she was silent, but her body went all a-tremble. he stepped forward until she could almost touch him; there standing straight and tall he glared down upon her. "answer me," he whispered in a voice hard with its tight held sobs. a misery darkened her face and the light died from her eyes, yet she looked at him bravely and her voice came low and full as from afar. "i asked you what it meant to be pure, bles, and--and you told--and i told you the truth." "what it meant!--what it meant!" he repeated in the low, tense anguish. "but--but, bles--" she faltered; there came an awful pleading in her eyes; her hand groped toward him; but he stepped slowly back--"but, bles--you said--willingly--you said--if--if she knew--" he thundered back in livid anger: "knew! all women know! you should have _died_!" sobs were rising and shaking her from head to foot, but she drove them back and gripped her breasts with her hands. "no, bles--no--all girls do not know. i was a child. not since i knew you, bles--never, never since i saw you." "since--since," he groaned--"christ! but before?" "yes, before." "my god!" she knew the end had come. yet she babbled on tremblingly: "he was our master, and all the other girls that gathered there did his will; i--i--" she choked and faltered, and he drew farther away--"i began running away, and they hunted me through the swamps. and then--then i reckon i'd have gone back and been--as they all are--but you came, bles--you came, and you--you were a new great thing in my life, and--and--yet, i was afraid i was not worthy until you--you said the words. i thought you knew, and i thought that--that purity was just wanting to be pure." he ground his teeth in fury. oh, he was an innocent--a blind baby--the joke and laughing-stock of the country around, with yokels grinning at him and pale-faced devils laughing aloud. the teachers knew; the girls knew; god knew; everybody but he knew--poor blind, deaf mole, stupid jackass that he was. he must run--run away from this world, and far off in some free land beat back this pain. then in sheer weariness the anger died within his soul, leaving but ashes and despair. slowly he turned away, but with a quick motion she stood in his path. "bles," she cried, "how can i grow pure?" he looked at her listlessly. "never--never again," he slowly answered her. dark fear swept her drawn face. "never?" she gasped. pity surged and fought in his breast; but one thought held and burned him. he bent to her fiercely: "who?" he demanded. she pointed toward the cresswell oaks, and he turned away. she did not attempt to stop him again, but dropped her hands and stared drearily up into the clear sky with its shining worlds. "good-bye, bles," she said slowly. "i thank god he gave you to me--just a little time." she hesitated and waited. there came no word as the man moved slowly away. she stood motionless. then slowly he turned and came back. he laid his hand a moment, lightly, upon her head. "good-bye--zora," he sobbed, and was gone. she did not look up, but knelt there silent, dry-eyed, till the last rustle of his going died in the night. and then, like a waiting storm, the torrent of her grief swept down upon her; she stretched herself upon the black and fleece-strewn earth, and writhed. _sixteen_ the great refusal all night miss smith lay holding the quivering form of zora close to her breast, staring wide-eyed into the darkness--thinking, thinking. in the morning the party would come. there would be mrs. grey and mary taylor, mrs. vanderpool, who had left her so coldly in the lurch before, and some of the cresswells. they would come well fed and impressed with the charming hospitality of their hosts, and rather more than willing to see through those host's eyes. they would be in a hurry to return to some social function, and would give her work but casual attention. it seemed so dark an ending to so bright a dream. never for her had a fall opened as gloriously. the love of this boy and girl, blossoming as it had beneath her tender care, had been a sacred, wonderful history that revived within her memories of long-forgotten days. but above lay the vision of her school, redeemed and enlarged, its future safe, its usefulness broadened--small wonder that to sarah smith the future had seemed in november almost golden. then things began to go wrong. the transfer of the tolliver land had not yet been effected; the money was ready, but mr. tolliver seemed busy or hesitating. next came this news of mrs. grey's probable conditions. so here it was christmas time, and sarah smith's castles lay almost in ruins about her. the girl moaned in her fitful sleep and miss smith soothed her. poor child! here too was work--a strange strong soul cruelly stricken in her youth. could she be brought back to a useful life? how she needed such a strong, clear-eyed helper in this crisis of her work! would zora make one or would this blow send her to perdition? not if sarah smith could save her, she resolved, and stared out the window where the pale red dawn was sending its first rays on the white-pillared mansion of the cresswells. mrs. grey saw the light on the columns, too, as she lay lazily in her soft white bed. there was a certain delicious languor in the late lingering fall of alabama that suited her perfectly. then, too, she liked the house and its appointments; there was not, to be sure, all the luxury that she was used to in her new york mansion, but there was a certain finish about it, an elegance and staid old-fashioned hospitality that appealed to her tremendously. mrs. grey's heart warmed to the sight of helen in her moments of spasmodic caring for the sick and afflicted on the estate. no better guardian of her philanthropies could be found than these same cresswells. she must, of course, go over and see dear sarah smith; but really there was not much to say or to look at. the prospects seemed most alluring. later, mr. easterly talked a while on routine business, saying, as he turned away: "i am more and more impressed, mrs. grey, with your wisdom in placing large investments in the south. with peaceful social conditions the returns will be large." mrs. grey heard this delicate flattery complacently. she had her streak of thrift, and wanted her business capacity recognized. she listened attentively. "for this reason, i trust you will handle your negro philanthropies judicially, as i know you will. there's dynamite in this race problem for amateur reformers, but fortunately you have at hand wise and sympathetic advisers in the cresswells." mrs. grey agreed entirely. mary taylor, alone of the committee, took her commission so seriously as to be anxious to begin work. "we are to visit the school this morning, you know," she reminded the others, looking at her watch; "i'm afraid we're late already." the remark created mild consternation. it seemed that mr. vanderpool had gone hunting and his wife had not yet arisen. dr. boldish was very hoarse, mr. easterly was going to look over some plantations with colonel cresswell, and mr. bocombe was engrossed in a novel. "clever, but not true to life," he said. finally the clergyman and mr. bocombe, mrs. grey and mrs. vanderpool and miss taylor started for the school, with harry cresswell, about an hour after lunch. the delay and suppressed excitement among the little folks had upset things considerably there, but at the sight of the visitors at the gate miss smith rang the bell. the party came in, laughing and chatting. they greeted miss smith cordially. dr. boldish was beginning to tell a good story when a silence fell. the children had gathered, quietly, almost timidly, and before the distinguished company realized it, they turned to meet that battery of four hundred eyes. a human eye is a wonderful thing when it simply waits and watches. not one of these little things alone would have been worth more than a glance, but together, they became mighty, portentous. mr. bocombe got out his note-book and wrote furiously therein. dr. boldish, naturally the appointed spokesman, looked helplessly about and whispered to mrs. vanderpool: "what on earth shall i talk about?" "the brotherhood of man?" suggested the lady. "hardly advisable," returned dr. boldish, seriously, "in our friend's presence,"--with a glance toward cresswell. then he arose. "my friends," he said, touching his finger-tips and using blank verse in a minor. "this is an auspicious day. you should be thankful for the gifts of the lord. his bounty surrounds you--the trees, the fields, the glorious sun. he gives cotton to clothe you, corn to eat, devoted friends to teach you. be joyful. be good. above all, be thrifty and save your money, and do not complain and whine at your apparent disadvantages. remember that god did not create men equal but unequal, and set metes and bounds. it is not for us to question the wisdom of the almighty, but to bow humbly to his will. "remember that the slavery of your people was not necessarily a crime. it was a school of work and love. it gave you noble friends, like mr. cresswell here." a restless stirring, and the battery of eyes was turned upon that imperturbable gentleman, as if he were some strange animal. "love and serve them. remember that we get, after all, little education from books; rather in the fields, at the plough and in the kitchen. let your ambition be to serve rather than rule, to be humble followers of the lowly jesus." with an upward glance the rev. dr. boldish sat down amid a silence a shade more intense than that which had greeted him. then slowly from the far corner rose a thin voice, tremulously. it wavered on the air and almost broke, then swelled in sweet, low music. other and stronger voices gathered themselves to it, until two hundred were singing a soft minor wail that gripped the hearts and tingled in the ears of the hearers. mr. bocombe groped with a puzzled expression to find the pocket for his note-book; harry cresswell dropped his eyes, and on mrs. vanderpool's lips the smile died. mary taylor flushed, and mrs. grey cried frankly: "poor things!" she whispered. "now," said mrs. grey, turning about, "we haven't but just a moment and we want to take a little look at your work." she smiled graciously upon miss smith. mrs. grey thought the cooking-school very nice. "i suppose," she said, "that you furnish cooks for the county." "largely," said miss smith. mrs. vanderpool looked surprised, but miss smith added: "this county, you know, is mostly black." mrs. grey did not catch the point. the dormitories were neat and the ladies expressed great pleasure in them. "it is certainly nice for them to know what a clean place is," commented mrs. grey. mr. cresswell, however, looked at a bath-room and smiled. "how practical!" he said. "can you not stop and see some of the classes?" sarah smith knew in her heart that the visit was a failure, still she would do her part to the end. "i doubt if we shall have time," mrs. grey returned, as they walked on. "mr. cresswell expects friends to dinner." "what a magnificent intelligence office," remarked mr. bocombe, "for furnishing servants to the nation. i saw splendid material for cooks and maids." "and plough-boys," added cresswell. "and singers," said mary taylor. "well, now that's just my idea," said mrs. grey, "that these schools should furnish trained servants and laborers for the south. isn't that your idea, miss smith?" "not exactly," the lady replied, "or at least i shouldn't put it just that way. my idea is that this school should furnish men and women who can work and earn an honest living, train up families aright, and perform their duties as fathers, mothers, and citizens." "yes--yes, precisely," said mrs. grey, "that's what i meant." "i think the whites can attend to the duties of citizenship without help," observed mr. cresswell. "don't let the blacks meddle in politics," said dr. boldish. "i want to make these children full-fledged men and women, strong, self-reliant, honest, without any 'ifs' and 'ands' to their development," insisted miss smith. "of course, and that is just what mr. cresswell wants. isn't it, mr. cresswell?" asked mrs. grey. "i think i may say yes," mr. cresswell agreed. "i certainly want these people to develop as far as they can, although miss smith and i would differ as to their possibilities. but it is not so much in the general theory of negro education as in its particular applications where our chief differences would lie. i may agree that a boy should learn higher arithmetic, yet object to his loafing in plough-time. i might want to educate some girls but not girls like zora." mrs. vanderpool glanced at mr. cresswell, smiling to herself. mrs. grey broke in, beaming: "that's just it, dear miss smith,--just it. your heart is good, but you need strong practical advice. you know we weak women are so impractical, as my poor job so often said. now, i'm going to arrange to endow this school with at least--at least a hundred and fifty thousand dollars. one condition is that my friend, mr. cresswell here, and these other gentlemen, including sound northern business men like mr. easterly, shall hold this money in trust, and expend it for your school as they think best." "mr. cresswell would be their local representative?" asked miss smith slowly with white face. "why yes--yes, of course." there was a long, tense silence. then the firm reply, "mrs. grey, i thank you, but i cannot accept your offer." sarah smith's voice was strong, the tremor had left her hands. she had expected something like this, of course; yet when it came--somehow it failed to stun. she would not turn over the direction of the school, or the direction of the education of these people, to those who were most opposed to their education. therefore, there was no need to hesitate; there was no need to think the thing over--she had thought it over--and she looked into mrs. grey's eyes and with gathering tears in her own said: "again, i thank you very much, mrs. grey." mrs. grey was a picture of the most emphatic surprise, and mr. cresswell moved to the window. mrs. grey looked helplessly at her companions. "but--i don't understand, miss smith--why can't you accept my offer?" "because you ask me to put my school in control of those who do not wish for the best interests of black folk, and in particular i object to mr. cresswell," said miss smith, slowly but very distinctly, "because his relation to the forces of evil in this community has been such that he can direct no school of mine." mrs. vanderpool moved toward the door and mr. cresswell bowing slightly followed. dr. boldish looked indignant and mr. bocombe dove after his note-book. mary taylor, her head in a whirl, came forward. she felt that in some way she was responsible for this dreadful situation and she wanted desperately to save matters from final disaster. "come," she said, "mrs. grey, we'll talk this matter over again later. i am sure miss smith does not mean quite all she says--she is tired and nervous. you join the others and don't wait for me and i will be along directly." mrs. grey was only too glad to escape and mr. bocombe got a chance to talk. he drew out his note-book. "awfully interesting," he said, "awfully. now--er--let's see--oh, yes. did you notice how unhealthy the children looked? race is undoubtedly dying out; fact. no hope. weak. no spontaneity either--rather languid, did you notice? yes, and their heads--small and narrow--no brain capacity. they can't concentrate; notice how some slept when dr. boldish was speaking? mr. cresswell says they own almost no land here; think of it? this land was worth only ten dollars an acre a decade ago, he says. negroes might have bought all and been rich. very shiftless--and that singing. now, i wonder where they got the music? imitation, of course." and so he rattled on, noting not the silence of the others. as the carriage drove off mary turned to miss smith. "now, miss smith," she began--but miss smith looked at her, and said sternly, "sit down." mary taylor sat down. she had been so used to lecturing the older woman that the sudden summoning of her well known sternness against herself took her breath, and she sat awkwardly like the school girl that she was waiting for miss smith to speak. she felt suddenly very young and very helpless--she who had so jauntily set out to solve this mighty problem by a waving of her wand. she saw with a swelling of pity the drawn and stricken face of her old friend and she started up. "sit down," repeated miss smith harshly. "mary taylor, you are a fool. you are not foolish, for the foolish learn; you are simply a fool. you will never learn; you have blundered into this life work of mine and well nigh ruined it. whether i can yet save it god alone knows. you have blundered into the lives of two loving children, and sent one wandering aimless on the face of the earth and the other moaning in yonder chamber with death in her heart. you are going to marry the man that sought zora's ruin when she was yet a child because you think of his aristocratic pose and pretensions built on the poverty, crime, and exploitation of six generations of serfs. you'll marry him and--" but miss taylor leapt to her feet with blazing cheeks. "how dare you?" she screamed, beside herself. "but god in heaven help you if you do," finished miss smith, calmly. _seventeen_ the rape of the fleece when slowly from the torpor of ether, one wakens to the misty sense of eternal loss, and there comes the exquisite prick of pain, then one feels in part the horror of the ache when zora wakened to the world again. the awakening was the work of days and weeks. at first in sheer exhaustion, physical and mental, she lay and moaned. the sense of loss--of utter loss--lay heavy upon her. something of herself, something dearer than self, was gone from her forever, and an infinite loneliness and silence, as of endless years, settled on her soul. she wished neither food nor words, only to be alone. then gradually the pain of injury stung her when the blood flowed fuller. as miss smith knelt beside her one night to make her simple prayer zora sat suddenly upright, white-swathed, dishevelled, with fury in her midnight eyes. "i want no prayers!" she cried, "i will not pray! he is no god of mine. he isn't fair. he knows and won't tell. he takes advantage of us--he works and fools us." all night miss smith heard mutterings of this bitterness, and the next day the girl walked her room like a tigress,--to and fro, to and fro, all the long day. toward night a dumb despair settled upon her. miss smith found her sitting by the window gazing blankly toward the swamp. she came to miss smith, slowly, and put her hands upon her shoulders with almost a caress. "you must forgive me," she pleaded plaintively. "i reckon i've been mighty bad with you, and you always so good to me; but--but, you see--it hurts so." "i know it hurts, dear; i know it does. but men and women must learn to bear hurts in this world." "not hurts like this; they couldn't." "yes, even hurts like this. bear and stand straight; be brave. after all, zora, no man is quite worth a woman's soul; no love is worth a whole life." zora turned away with a gesture of impatience. "you were born in ice," she retorted, adding a bit more tenderly, "in clear strong ice; but i was born in fire. i live--i love; that's all." and she sat down again, despairingly, and stared at the dull swamp. miss smith stood for a moment and closed her eyes upon a vision. "ice!" she whispered. "my god!" then, at length, she said to zora: "zora, there's only one way: do something; if you sit thus brooding you'll go crazy." "do crazy folks forget?" "nonsense, zora!" miss smith ridiculed the girl's fantastic vagaries; her sound common sense rallied to her aid. "they are the people who remember; sane folk forget. work is the only cure for such pain." "but there's nothing to do--nothing i want to do--nothing worth doing--now." "the silver fleece?" the girl sat upright. "the silver fleece," she murmured. without further word, slowly she arose and walked down the stairs, and out into the swamp. miss smith watched her go; she knew that every step must be the keen prickle of awakening flesh. yet the girl walked steadily on. * * * * * it was the christmas--not christmas-tide of the north and west, but christmas of the southern south. it was not the festival of the christ child, but a time of noise and frolic and license, the great pay-day of the year when black men lifted their heads from a year's toiling in the earth, and, hat in hand, asked anxiously: "master, what have i earned? have i paid my old debts to you? have i made my clothes and food? have i got a little of the year's wage coming to me?" or, more carelessly and cringingly: "master, gimme a christmas gift." the lords of the soil stood round, gauging their cotton, measuring their men. their stores were crowded, their scales groaned, their gins sang. in the long run public opinion determines all wage, but in more primitive times and places, private opinion, personal judgment of some man in power, determines. the black belt is primitive and the landlord wields the power. "what about johnson?" calls the head clerk. "well, he's a faithful nigger and needs encouragement; cancel his debt and give him ten dollars for christmas." colonel cresswell glowed, as if he were full of the season's spirit. "and sanders?" "how's his cotton?" "good, and a lot of it." "he's trying to get away. keep him in debt, but let him draw what he wants." "aunt rachel?" "h'm, they're way behind, aren't they? give her a couple of dollars--not a cent more." "jim sykes?" "say, harry, how about that darky, sykes?" called out the colonel. excusing himself from his guests, harry cresswell came into the office. to them this peculiar spectacle of the market place was of unusual interest. they saw its humor and its crowding, its bizarre effects and unwonted pageantry. black giants and pigmies were there; kerchiefed aunties, giggling black girls, saffron beauties, and loafing white men. there were mules and horses and oxen, wagons and buggies and carts; but above all and in all, rushing through, piled and flying, bound and baled--was cotton. cotton was currency; cotton was merchandise; cotton was conversation. all this was "beautiful" to mrs. grey and "unusually interesting" to mrs. vanderpool. to mary taylor it had the fascination of a puzzle whose other side she had already been partially studying. she was particularly impressed with the joy and abandon of the scene--light laughter, huge guffaws, handshakes, and gossipings. "at all events," she concluded, "this is no oppressed people." and sauntering away from the rest she noted the smiles of an undersized smirking yellow man who hurried by with a handful of dollar bills. at a side entrance liquor was evidently on sale--men were drinking and women, too; some were staggering, others cursing, and yet others singing. then suddenly a man swung around the corner swearing in bitter rage: "the damned thieves, they'se stole a year's work--the white--" but some one called, "hush up, sanders! there's a white woman." and he threw a startled look at mary and hurried by. she was perplexed and upset and stood hesitating a moment when she heard a well-known voice: "why, miss taylor, i was alarmed for you; you really must be careful about trusting yourself with these half drunken negroes." "wouldn't it be better not to give them drink, mr. cresswell?" "and let your neighbor sell them poison at all hours? no, miss taylor." they joined the others, and all were turning toward the carriage when a figure coming down the road attracted them. "quite picturesque," observed mrs. vanderpool, looking at the tall, slim girl swaying toward them with a piled basket of white cotton poised lightly on her head. "why," in abrupt recognition, "it is our venus of the roadside, is it not?" mary saw it was zora. just then, too, zora caught sight of them, and for a moment hesitated, then came on; the carriage was in front of the store, and she was bound for the store. a moment mary hesitated, too, and then turned resolutely to greet her. but zora's eyes did not see her. after one look at that sorrow-stricken face, mary turned away. colonel cresswell stood by the door, his hat on, his hands in his pockets. "well, zora, what have you there?" he asked. "cotton, sir." harry cresswell bent over it. "great heavens! look at this cotton!" he ejaculated. his father approached. the cotton lay in silken handfuls, clean and shimmering, with threads full two inches long. the idlers, black and white, clustered round, gazing at it, and fingering it with repeated exclamations of astonishment. "where did this come from?" asked the colonel sharply. he and harry were both eying the girl intently. "i raised it in the swamp," zora replied quietly, in a dead voice. there was no pride of achievement in her manner, no gladness; all that had flown. "is that all?" "no, sir; i think there's two bales." "two bales! where is it? how the devil--" the colonel was forgetting his guests, but harry intervened. "you'll need to get it picked right off," he suggested. "it's all picked, sir." "but where is it?" "if you'll send a wagon, sir--" but the colonel hardly waited. "here you, jim, take the big mules and drive like--where's that wench?" but zora was already striding on ahead, and was far up the red road when the great mules galloped into sight and the long whip snapped above their backs. the colonel was still excited. "that cotton must be ours, harry--all of it. and see that none is stolen. we've got no contract with the wench, so don't dally with her." but harry said firmly, quietly: "it's fine cotton, and she raised it; she must be paid well for it." colonel cresswell glanced at him with something between contempt and astonishment on his face. "you go along with the ladies," harry added; "i'll see to this cotton." mary taylor's smile had rewarded him; now he must get rid of his company--before zora returned. it was dark when the cotton came; such a load as cresswell's store had never seen before. zora watched it weighed, received the cotton checks, and entered the store. only the clerk was there, and he was closing. he pointed her carelessly to the office in the back part. she went into the small dim room, and laying the cotton-check on the desk, stood waiting. slowly the hopelessness and bitterness of it all came back in a great whelming flood. what was the use of trying for anything? she was lost forever. the world was against her, and again she saw the fingers of elspeth--the long black claw-like talons that clutched and dragged her down--down. she did not struggle--she dropped her hands listlessly, wearily, and stood but half conscious as the door opened and mr. harry cresswell entered the dimly lighted room. she opened her eyes. she had expected his father. somewhere way down in the depths of her nature the primal tiger awoke and snarled. she was suddenly alive from hair to finger tip. harry cresswell paused a second and swept her full length with his eye--her profile, the long supple line of bosom and hip, the little foot. then he closed the door softly and walked slowly toward her. she stood like stone, without a quiver; only her eye followed the crooked line of the cresswell blue blood on his marble forehead as she looked down from her greater height; her hand closed almost caressingly on a rusty poker lying on the stove nearby; and as she sensed the hot breath of him she felt herself purring in a half heard whisper. "i should not like--to kill you." he looked at her long and steadily as he passed to his desk. slowly he lighted a cigarette, opened the great ledger, and compared the cotton-check with it. "three thousand pounds," he announced in a careless tone. "yes, that will make about two bales of lint. it's extra cotton--say fifteen cents a pound--one hundred fifty dollars--seventy-five dollars to you--h'm." he took a note-book out of his pocket, pushed his hat back on his head, and paused to relight his cigarette. "let's see--your rent and rations--" "elspeth pays no rent," she said slowly, but he did not seem to hear. "your rent and rations with the five years' back debt,"--he made a hasty calculation--"will be one hundred dollars. that leaves you twenty-five in our debt. here's your receipt." the blow had fallen. she did not wince nor cry out. she took the receipt, calmly, and walked out into the darkness. they had stolen the silver fleece. what should she do? she never thought of appeal to courts, for colonel cresswell was justice of the peace and his son was bailiff. why had they stolen from her? she knew. she was now penniless, and in a sense helpless. she was now a peon bound to a master's bidding. if elspeth chose to sign a contract of work for her to-morrow, it would mean slavery, jail, or hounded running away. what would elspeth do? one never knew. zora walked on. an hour ago it seemed that this last blow must have killed her. but now it was different. into her first despair had crept, in one fierce moment, grim determination. somewhere in the world sat a great dim injustice which had veiled the light before her young eyes, just as she raised them to the morning. with the veiling, death had come into her heart. and yet, they should not kill her; they should not enslave her. a desperate resolve to find some way up toward the light, if not to it, formed itself within her. she would not fall into the pit opening before her. somehow, somewhere lay the way. she must never fall lower; never be utterly despicable in the eyes of the man she had loved. there was no dream of forgiveness, of purification, of re-kindled love; all these she placed sadly and gently into the dead past. but in awful earnestness, she turned toward the future; struggling blindly, groping in half formed plans for a way. she came thus into the room where sat miss smith, strangely pallid beneath her dusky skin. but there lay a light in her eyes. _eighteen_ the cotton corner all over the land the cotton had foamed in great white flakes under the winter sun. the silver fleece lay like a mighty mantle across the earth. black men and mules had staggered beneath its burden, while deep songs welled in the hearts of men; for the fleece was goodly and gleaming and soft, and men dreamed of the gold it would buy. all the roads in the country had been lined with wagons--a million wagons speeding to and fro with straining mules and laughing black men, bearing bubbling masses of piled white fleece. the gins were still roaring and spitting flames and smoke--fifty thousand of them in town and vale. then hoarse iron throats were filled with fifteen billion pounds of white-fleeced, black-specked cotton, for the whirling saws to tear out the seed and fling five thousand million pounds of the silken fibre to the press. and there again the black men sang, like dark earth-spirits flitting in twilight; the presses creaked and groaned; closer and closer they pressed the silken fleece. it quivered, trembled, and then lay cramped, dead, and still, in massive, hard, square bundles, tied with iron strings. out fell the heavy bales, thousand upon thousand, million upon million, until they settled over the south like some vast dull-white swarm of birds. colonel cresswell and his son, in these days, had a long and earnest conversation perforated here and there by explosions of the colonel's wrath. the colonel could not understand some things. "they want us to revive the farmers' league?" he fiercely demanded. "yes," harry calmly replied. "and throw the rest of our capital after the fifty thousand dollars we've already lost?" "yes." "and you were fool enough to consent--" "wait, father--and don't get excited. listen. cotton is going up--" "of course it's going up! short crop and big demand--" "cotton is going up, and then it's going to fall." "i don't believe it." "i know it; the trust has got money and credit enough to force it down." "well, what then?" the colonel glared. "then somebody will corner it." "the farmers' league won't stand--" "precisely. the farmers' league can do the cornering and hold it for higher prices." "lord, son! if we only could!" groaned the colonel. "we can; we'll have unlimited credit." "but--but--" stuttered the bewildered colonel, "i don't understand. why should the trust--" "nonsense, father--what's the use of understanding. our advantage is plain, and john taylor guarantees the thing." "who's john taylor?" snorted the colonel. "why should we trust him?" "well," said harry slowly, "he wants to marry helen--" his father grew apopletic. "i'm not saying he will, father; i'm only saying that he wants to," harry made haste to placate the rising tide of wrath. "no southern gentleman--" began the colonel. but harry shrugged his shoulders. "which is better, to be crushed by the trust or to escape at their expense, even if that escape involves unwarranted assumptions on the part of one of them? i tell you, father, the code of the southern gentleman won't work in wall street." "and i'll tell you why--there _are_ no southern gentlemen," growled his father. the silver fleece was golden, for its prices were flying aloft. mr. caldwell told colonel cresswell that he confidently expected twelve-cent cotton. "the crop is excellent and small, scarcely ten million bales," he declared. "the price is bound to go up." colonel cresswell was hesitant, even doubtful; the demand for cotton at high prices usually fell off rapidly and he had heard rumors of curtailed mill production. while, then, he hoped for high prices he advised the farmers' league to be on guard. mr. caldwell seemed to be right, for cotton rose to ten cents a pound--ten and a half--eleven--and then the south began to see visions and to dream dreams. "yes, my dear," said mr. maxwell, whose lands lay next to the cresswells' on the northwest, "yes, if cotton goes to twelve or thirteen cents as seems probable, i think we can begin the new house"--for mrs. maxwell's cherished dream was a pillared mansion like the cresswells'. mr. tolliver looked at his house and barns. "well, daughter, if this crop sells at twelve cents, i'll be on my feet again, and i won't have to sell that land to the nigger school after all. once out of the clutch of the cresswells--well, i think we can have a coat of paint." and he laughed as he had not laughed in ten years. down in the bottoms west of the swamp a man and woman were figuring painfully on an old slate. he was light brown and she was yellow. "honey," he said tremblingly, "i b'lieve we can do it--if cotton goes to twelve cents, we can pay the mortgage." two miles north of the school an old black woman was shouting and waving her arms. "if cotton goes to twelve cents we can pay out and be free!" and she threw her apron over her head and wept, gathering her children in her arms. but even as she cried a flash and tremor shook the south. far away to the north a great spider sat weaving his web. the office looked down from the clouds on lower broadway, and was soft with velvet and leather. swift, silent messengers hurried in and out, and mr. easterly, deciding the time was ripe, called his henchman to him. "taylor, we're ready--go south." and john taylor rose, shook hands silently, and went. as he entered cresswell's plantation store three days later, a colored woman with a little boy turned sadly away from the counter. "no, aunty," the clerk was telling her, "calico is too high; can't let you have any till we see how your cotton comes out." "i just wanted a bit; i promised the boy--" "go on, go on--why, mr. taylor!" and the little boy burst into tears while he was hurried out. "tightening up on the tenants?" asked taylor. "yes; these niggers are mighty extravagant. besides, cotton fell a little today--eleven to ten and three-fourths; just a flurry, i reckon. had you heard?" mr. taylor said he had heard, and he hurried on. next morning the long shining wires of that great broadway web trembled and flashed again and cotton went to ten cents. "no house this year, i fear," quoth mr. maxwell, bitterly. the next day nine and a half was the quotation, and men began to look at each other and asked questions. "paper says the crop is larger than the government estimate," said tolliver, and added, "there'll be no painting this year." he looked toward the smith school and thought of the five thousand dollars waiting; but he hesitated. john taylor had carefully mentioned seven thousand dollars as a price he was willing to pay and "perhaps more." was cresswell back of taylor? tolliver was suspicious and moved to delay matters. "it's manipulation and speculation in new york," said colonel cresswell, "and the farmers' league must begin operations." the local paper soon had an editorial on "our distinguished fellow citizen, colonel cresswell," and his efforts to revive the farmers' league. it was understood that colonel cresswell was risking his whole private fortune to hold the price of cotton, and some effort seemed to be needed, for cotton dropped to nine cents within a week. swift negotiations ensued, and a meeting of the executive committee of the farmers' league was held in montgomery. a system of warehouses and warehouse certificates was proposed. "but that will cost money," responded each of the dozen big landlords who composed the committee; whereupon harry cresswell introduced john taylor, who represented thirty millions of southern bank stock. "i promise you credit to any reasonable amount," said mr. taylor, "i believe in cotton--the present price is abnormal." and mr. taylor knew whereof he spoke, for when he sent a cipher despatch north, cotton dropped to eight and a half. the farmers' league leased three warehouses at savannah, montgomery, and new orleans. then silently the south gripped itself and prepared for battle. men stopped spending, business grew dull, and millions of eyes were glued to the blackboards of the cotton-exchange. tighter and tighter the reins grew on the backs of the black tenants. "miss smith, is yo' got just a drap of coffee to lend me? mr. cresswell won't give me none at the store and i'se just starving for some," said aunt rachel from over the hill. "we won't git free this year, miss smith, not this year," she concluded plaintively. cotton fell to seven and a half cents and the muttered protest became angry denunciation. why was it? who was doing it? harry cresswell went to montgomery. he was getting nervous. the thing was too vast. he could not grasp it. it set his head in a whirl. harry cresswell was not a bad man--are there any bad men? he was a man who from the day he first wheedled his black mammy into submission, down to his thirty-sixth year, had seldom known what it was voluntarily to deny himself or curb a desire. to rise when he would, eat what he craved, and do what the passing fancy suggested had long been his day's programme. such emptiness of life and aim had to be filled, and it was filled; he helped his father sometimes with the plantations, but he helped spasmodically and played at work. the unregulated fire of energy and delicacy of nervous poise within him continually hounded him to the verge of excess and sometimes beyond. cool, quiet, and gentlemanly as he was by rule of his clan, the ice was thin and underneath raged unappeased fires. he craved the madness of alcohol in his veins till his delicate hands trembled of mornings. the women whom he bent above in languid, veiled-eyed homage, feared lest they love him, and what work was to others gambling was to him. the cotton combine, then, appealed to him overpoweringly--to his passion for wealth, to his passion for gambling. but once entered upon the game it drove him to fear and frenzy: first, it was a long game and harry cresswell was not trained to waiting, and, secondly, it was a game whose intricacies he did not know. in vain did he try to study the matter through. he ordered books from the north, he subscribed for financial journals, he received special telegraphic reports only to toss them away, curse his valet, and call for another brandy. after all, he kept saying to himself, what guarantee, what knowledge had he that this was not a "damned yankee trick"? now that the web was weaving its last mesh in early january he haunted montgomery, and on this day when it seemed that things must culminate or he would go mad, he hastened again down to the planters' hotel and was quickly ushered to john taylor's room. the place was filled with tobacco smoke. an electric ticker was drumming away in one corner, a telephone ringing on the desk, and messenger boys hovered outside the door and raced to and fro. "well," asked cresswell, maintaining his composure by an effort, "how are things?" "great!" returned taylor. "league holds three million bales and controls five. it's the biggest corner in years." "but how's cotton?" "ticker says six and three-fourths." cresswell sat down abruptly opposite taylor, looking at him fixedly. "that last drop means liabilities of a hundred thousand to us," he said slowly. "exactly," taylor blandly admitted. beads of sweat gathered on cresswell's forehead. he looked at the scrawny iron man opposite, who had already forgotten his presence. he ordered whiskey, and taking paper and pencil began to figure, drinking as he figured. slowly the blood crept out of his white face leaving it whiter, and went surging and pounding in his heart. poverty--that was what those figures spelled. poverty--unclothed, wineless poverty, to dig and toil like a "nigger" from morning until night, and to give up horses and carriages and women; that was what they spelled. "how much--farther will it drop?" he asked harshly. taylor did not look up. "can't tell," he said, "'fraid not much though." he glanced through a telegram. "no--damn it!--outside mills are low; they'll stampede soon. meantime we'll buy." "but, taylor--" "here are one hundred thousand offered at six and three-fourths." "i tell you, taylor--" cresswell half arose. "done!" cried taylor. "six and one-half," clicked the machine. cresswell arose from his chair by the window and came slowly to the wide flat desk where taylor was working feverishly. he sat down heavily in the chair opposite and tried quietly to regain his self-control. the liabilities of the cresswells already amounted to half the value of their property, at a fair market valuation. the cotton for which they had made debts was still falling in value. every fourth of a cent fall meant--he figured it again tremblingly--meant one hundred thousand more of liabilities. if cotton fell to six he hadn't a cent on earth. if it stayed there--"my god!" he felt a faintness stealing over him but he beat it back and gulped down another glass of fiery liquor. then the one protecting instinct of his clan gripped him. slowly, quietly his hand moved back until it grasped the hilt of the big colt's revolver that was ever with him--his thin white hand became suddenly steady as it slipped the weapon beneath the shadow of the desk. "if it goes to six," he kept murmuring, "we're ruined--if it goes to six--if--" "tick," sounded the wheel and the sound reverberated like sudden thunder in his ears. his hand was iron, and he raised it slightly. "six," said the wheel--his finger quivered--"and a half." "hell!" yelled taylor. "she's turned--there'll be the devil to pay now." a messenger burst in and taylor scowled. "she's loose in new york--a regular mob in new orleans--and--hark!--by god! there's something doing here. damn it--i wish we'd got another million bales. let's see, we've got--" he figured while the wheel whirred--"7--7-1/2--8--8-1/2." cresswell listened, staggered to his feet, his face crimson and his hair wild. "my god, taylor," he gasped. "i'm--i'm a half a million ahead--great heavens!" the ticker whirred, "8-3/4--9--9-1/2--10." then it stopped dead. "exchange closed," said taylor. "we've cornered the market all right--cornered it--d'ye hear, cresswell? we got over half the crop and we can send prices to the north star--you--why, i figure it you cresswells are worth at least seven hundred and fifty thousand above liabilities this minute," and john taylor leaned back and lighted a big black cigar. "i've made a million or so myself," he added reflectively. cresswell leaned back in his chair, his face had gone white again, and he spoke slowly to still the tremor in his voice. "i've gambled--before; i've gambled on cards and on horses; i've gambled--for money--and--women--but--" "but not on cotton, hey? well, i don't know about cards and such; but they can't beat cotton." "and say, john taylor, you're my friend." cresswell stretched his hand across the desk, and as he bent forward the pistol crashed to the floor. _nineteen_ the dying of elspeth rich! this was the thought that awakened harry cresswell to a sense of endless well-being. rich! no longer the mirage and semblance of wealth, the memory of opulence, the shadow of homage without the substance of power--no; now the wealth was real, cold hard dollars, and in piles. how much? he laughed aloud as he turned on his pillow. what did he care? enough--enough. not less than half a million; perhaps three-quarters of a million; perhaps--was not cotton still rising?--a whole round million! that would mean from twenty-five to fifty thousand a year. great heavens! and he'd been starving on a bare couple of thousand and trying to keep up appearances! today the cresswells were almost millionaires; aye, and he might be married to more millions. he sat up with a start. today mary was going north. he had quite forgotten it in the wild excitement of the cotton corner. he had neglected her. of course, there was always the hovering doubt as to whether he really wanted her or not. she had the form and carriage; her beauty, while not startling, was young and fresh and firm. on the other hand there was about her a certain independence that he did not like to associate with women. she had thoughts and notions of the world which were, to his southern training, hardly feminine. and yet even they piqued him and spurred him like the sight of an untrained colt. he had not seen her falter yet beneath his glances or tremble at his touch. all this he desired--ardently desired. but did he desire her as a wife? he rather thought that he did. and if so he must speak today. there was his father, too, to reckon with. colonel cresswell, with the perversity of the simple-minded, had taken the sudden bettering of their fortunes as his own doing. he had foreseen; he had stuck it out; his credit had pulled the thing through; and the trust had learned a thing or two about southern gentlemen. toward john taylor he perceptibly warmed. his business methods were such as a cresswell could never stoop to; but he was a man of his word, and colonel cresswell's correspondence with mr. easterly opened his eyes to the beneficent ideals of northern capital. at the same time he could not consider the easterlys and the taylors and such folk as the social equals of the cresswells, and his prejudice on this score must still be reckoned with. below, mary taylor lingered on the porch in strange uncertainty. harry cresswell would soon be coming downstairs. did she want him to find her? she liked him frankly, undisguisedly; but from the love she knew to be so near her heart she recoiled in perturbation. he wooed her--whether consciously or not, she was always uncertain--with every quiet attention and subtle deference, with a devotion seemingly quite too delicate for words; he not only fetched her flowers, but flowers that chimed with day and gown and season--almost with mood. he had a woman's premonitions in fulfilling her wishes. his hands, if they touched her, were soft and tender, and yet he gave a curious impression of strength and poise and will. indeed, in all things he was in her eyes a gentleman in the fine old-fashioned aristocracy of the term; her own heart voiced all he did not say, and pleaded for him to her own confusion. and yet, in her heart, lay the awful doubt--and the words kept ringing in her ears! "you will marry this man--but heaven help you if you do!" so it was that on this day when she somehow felt he would speak, his footsteps on the stairs filled her with sudden panic. without a word she slipped behind the pillars and ran down among the oaks and sauntered out upon the big road. he caught the white flutter of her dress, and smiled indulgently as he watched and waited and lightly puffed his cigarette. the morning was splendid with that first delicious languor of the spring which breathes over the southland in february. mary taylor filled her lungs, lifted her arms aloft, and turning, stepped into the deep shadow of the swamp. abruptly the air, the day, the scene about her subtly changed. she felt a closeness and a tremor, a certain brooding terror in the languid sombre winds. the gold of the sunlight faded to a sickly green, and the earth was black and burned. a moment she paused and looked back; she caught the man's silhouette against the tall white pillars of the mansion and she fled deeper into the forest with the hush of death about her, and the silence which is one great voice. slowly, and mysteriously it loomed before her--that squat and darksome cabin which seemed to fitly set in the centre of the wilderness, beside its crawling slime. she paused in sudden certainty that there lay the answer to her doubts and mistrust. she felt impelled to go forward and ask--what? she did not know, but something to still this war in her bosom. she had seldom seen elspeth; she had never been in her cabin. she had felt an inconquerable aversion for the evil hag; she felt it now, and shivered in the warm breeze. as she came in full view of the door, she paused. on the step of the cabin, framed in the black doorway, stood zora. measured by the squat cabin she seemed in height colossal; slim, straight as a pine, motionless, with one long outstretched arm pointing to where the path swept onward toward the town. it was too far for words but the scene lay strangely clear and sharp-cut in the green mystery of the sunlight. before that motionless, fateful figure crouched a slighter, smaller woman, dishevelled, clutching her breast; she bent and rose--hesitated--seemed to plead; then turning, clasped in passionate embrace the child whose head was hid in zora's gown. next instant she was staggering along the path whither zora pointed. slowly the sun was darkened, and plaintive murmurings pulsed through the wood. the oppression and fear of the swamp redoubled in mary taylor. zora gave no sign of having seen her. she stood tall and still, and the little golden-haired girl still sobbed in her gown. mary taylor looked up into zora's face, then paused in awe. it was a face she did not know; it was neither the beautifully mischievous face of the girl, nor the pain-stricken face of the woman. it was a face cold and mask-like, regular and comely; clothed in a mighty calm, yet subtly, masterfully veiling behind itself depths of unfathomed misery and wild revolt. all this lay in its darkness. "good-morning, miss taylor." mary, who was wont to teach this woman--so lately a child--searched in vain for words to address her now. she stood bare-haired and hesitating in the pale green light of the darkened morning. it seemed fit that a deep groan of pain should gather itself from the mysterious depths of the swamp, and drop like a pall on the black portal of the cabin. but it brought mary taylor back to a sense of things, and under a sudden impulse she spoke. "is--is anything the matter?" she asked nervously. "elspeth is sick," replied zora. "is she very sick?" "yes--she has been called," solemnly returned the dark young woman. mary was puzzled. "called?" she repeated vaguely. "we heard the great cry in the night, and elspeth says it is the end." it did not occur to mary taylor to question this mysticism; she all at once understood--perhaps read the riddle in the dark, melancholy eyes that so steadily regarded her. "then you can leave the place, zora?" she exclaimed gladly. "yes, i could leave." "and you will." "i don't know." "but the place looks--evil." "it is evil." "and yet you will stay?" zora's eyes were now fixed far above the woman's head, and she saw a human face forming itself in the vast rafters of the forest. its eyes were wet with pain and anger. "perhaps," she answered. the child furtively uncovered her face and looked at the stranger. she was blue-eyed and golden-haired. "whose child is this?" queried mary, curiously. zora looked coldly down upon the child. "it is bertie's. her mother is bad. she is gone. i sent her. she and the others like her." "but where have you sent them?" "to hell!" mary taylor started under the shock. impulsively she moved forward with hands that wanted to stretch themselves in appeal. "zora! zora! _you_ mustn't go, too!" but the black girl drew proudly back. "i _am_ there," she returned, with unmistakable simplicity of absolute conviction. the white woman shrank back. her heart was wrung; she wanted to say more--to explain, to ask to help; there came welling to her lips a flood of things that she would know. but zora's face again was masked. "i must go," she said, before mary could speak. "good-bye." and the dark groaning depths of the cabin swallowed her. with a satisfied smile, harry cresswell had seen the northern girl disappear toward the swamp; for it is significant when maidens run from lovers. but maidens should also come back, and when, after the lapse of many minutes, mary did not reappear, he followed her footsteps to the swamp. he frowned as he noted the footprints pointing to elspeth's--what did mary taylor want there? a fear started within him, and something else. he was suddenly aware that he wanted this woman, intensely; at the moment he would have turned heaven and earth to get her. he strode forward and the wood rose darkly green above him. a long, low, distant moan seemed to sound upon the breeze, and after it came mary taylor. he met her with tender solicitude, and she was glad to feel his arm beneath hers. "i've been searching for you," he said after a silence. "you should not wander here alone--it is dangerous." "why, dangerous?" she asked. "wandering negroes, and even wild beasts, in the forest depths--and malaria--see, you tremble now." "but not from malaria," she slowly returned. he caught an unfamiliar note in his voice, and a wild desire to justify himself before this woman clamored in his heart. with it, too, came a cooler calculating intuition that frankness alone would win her now. at all hazards he must win, and he cast the die. "miss taylor," he said, "i want to talk to you--i have wanted to for--a year." he glanced at her: she was white and silent, but she did not tremble. he went on: "i have hesitated because i do not know that i have a right to speak or explain to--to--a good woman." he felt her arm tighten on his and he continued: "you have been to elspeth's cabin; it is an evil place, and has meant evil for this community, and for me. elspeth was my mother's favorite servant and my own mammy. my mother died when i was ten and left me to her tender mercies. she let me have my way and encouraged the bad in me. it's a wonder i escaped total ruin. her cabin became a rendezvous for drinking and carousing. i told my father, but he, in lazy indifference, declared the place no worse than all negro cabins, and did nothing. i ceased my visits. still she tried every lure and set false stories going among the negroes, even when i sought to rescue zora. i tell you this because i know you have heard evil rumors. i have not been a good man--mary; but i love you, and you can make me good." perhaps no other appeal would have stirred mary taylor. she was in many respects an inexperienced girl. but she thought she knew the world; she knew that harry cresswell was not all he should be, and she knew too that many other men were not. moreover, she argued he had not had a fair chance. all the school-ma'am in her leaped to his teaching. what he needed was a superior person like herself. she loved him, and she deliberately put her arms about his neck and lifted her face to be kissed. back by the place of the silver fleece they wandered, across the big road, up to the mansion. on the steps stood john taylor and helen cresswell hand in hand and they all smiled at each other. the colonel came out, smiling too, with the paper in his hands. "easterly's right," he beamed, "the stock of the cotton combine--" he paused at the silence and looked up. the smile faded slowly and the red blood mounted to his forehead. anger struggled back of surprise, but before it burst forth silently the colonel turned, and muttering some unintelligible word, went slowly into the house and slammed the door. so for harry cresswell the day burst, flamed, and waned, and then suddenly went out, leaving him dull and gray; for mary and her brother had gone north, helen had gone to bed, and the colonel was in town. outside the weather was gusty and lowering with a chill in the air. he paced the room fitfully. well, he was happy. or, was he happy? he gnawed his mustache, for already his quick, changeable nature was feeling the rebound from glory to misery. he was a little ashamed of his exaltation; a bit doubtful and uncertain. he had stooped low to this yankee school-ma'am, lower than he had ever stooped to a woman. usually, while he played at loving, women grovelled; for was he not a cresswell? would this woman recognize that fact and respect him accordingly? then there was zora; what had she said and hinted to mary? the wench was always eluding and mocking him, the black devil! but, pshaw!--he poured himself a glass of brandy--was he not rich and young? the world was his. his valet knocked. "gentleman is asking if you forgits it's saturday night, sir?" said sam. cresswell walked thoughtfully to the window, swept back the curtain, and looked toward the darkness and the swamp. it lowered threateningly; behind it the night sky was tinged with blood. "no," he said; "i'm not going." and he shut out the glow. yet he grew more and more restless. the devil danced in his veins and burned in his forehead. his hands shook. he heard a rustle of departing feet beneath his window, then a pause and a faint halloo. "all right," he called, and in a moment went downstairs and out into the night. as he closed the front door there seemed to come faintly up from the swamp a low ululation, like the prolonged cry of some wild bird, or the wail of one's mourning for his dead. within the cabin, elspeth heard. tremblingly, she swayed to her feet, a haggard, awful sight. she motioned zora away, and stretching her hands palms upward to the sky, cried with dry and fear-struck gasp: "i'se called! i'se called!" on the bed the child smiled in its dreaming; the red flame of the firelight set the gold to dancing in her hair. zora shrank back into the shadows and listened. then it came. she heard the heavy footsteps crashing through the underbrush--coming, coming, as from the end of the world. she shrank still farther back, and a shadow swept the door. he was a mighty man, black and white-haired, and his eyes were the eyes of death. he bent to enter the door, and then uplifting himself and stretching his great arms, his palms touched the blackened rafters. zora started forward. thick memories of some forgotten past came piling in upon her. where had she known him? what was he to her? slowly elspeth, with quivering hands, unwound the black and snake-like object that always guarded her breast. without a word, he took it, and again his hands flew heavenward. with a low and fearful moan the old woman lurched sideways, then crashed, like a fallen pine, upon the hearthstone. she lay still--dead. three times the man passed his hands, wave-like, above the dead. three times he murmured, and his eyes burned into the shadows, where the girl trembled. then he turned and went as he had come, his heavy feet crashing through the underbrush, on and on, fainter and fainter, as to the end of the world. zora shook herself from the trance-like horror and passed her hands across her eyes to drive out the nightmare. but, no! there lay the dead upon the hearth with the firelight flashing over her, a bloated, hideous, twisted thing, distorted in the rigor of death. a moment zora looked down upon her mother. she felt the cold body whence the wandering, wrecked soul had passed. she sat down and stared death in the face for the first time. a mighty questioning arose within, a questioning and a yearning. was elspeth now at peace? was death the way--the wide, dark way? she had never thought of it before, and as she thought she crept forward and looked into the fearful face pityingly. "mammy!" she whispered--with bated breath--"mammy elspeth!" out of the night came a whispered answer: "_elspeth! elspeth!_" zora sprang to her feet, alert, fearful. with a swing of her arm, she pulled the great oaken door to and dropped the bar into its place. over the dead she spread a clean white sheet. into the fire she thrust pine-knots. they glared in vague red, and shadowy brilliance, waving and quivering and throwing up thin swirling columns of black smoke. then standing beside the fireplace with the white, still corpse between her and the door, she took up her awful vigil. there came a low knocking at the door; then silence and footsteps wandering furtively about. the night seemed all footsteps and whispers. there came a louder knocking, and a voice: "_elspeth! elspeth! open the door; it's me._" then muttering and wandering noises, and silence again. the child on the bed turned itself, murmuring uneasily in its dreams. and then _they_ came. zora froze, watching the door, wide-eyed, while the fire flamed redder. a loud quick knock at the door--a pause--an oath and a cry. "_elspeth! open this door, damn you!_" a moment of waiting and then the knocking came again, furious and long continued. outside there was much trampling and swearing. zora did not move; the child slept on. a tugging and dragging, a dull blow that set the cabin quivering; then,-"_bang! crack! crash!_"--the door wavered, splintered, and dropped upon the floor. with a snarl, a crowd of some half-dozen white faces rushed forward, wavered and stopped. the awakened child sat up and stared with wide blue eyes. slowly, with no word, the intruders turned and went silently away, leaving but one late comer who pressed forward. "what damned mummery is this?" he cried, and snatching at the sheet, dragged it from the black distorted countenance of the corpse. he shuddered but for a moment he could not stir. he felt the midnight eyes of the girl--he saw the twisted, oozing mouth of the hag, blue-black and hideous. suddenly back behind there in the darkness a shriek split the night like a sudden flash of flame--a great ringing scream that cracked and swelled and stopped. with one wild effort the man hurled himself out the door and plunged through the darkness. panting and cursing, he flashed his huge revolver--"_bang! bang! bang!_" it cracked into the night. the sweat poured from his forehead; the terror of the swamp was upon him. with a struggling and tearing in his throat, he tripped and fell fainting under the silent oaks. _twenty_ the weaving of the silver fleece the silver fleece, darkly cloaked and girded, lay in the cotton warehouse of the cresswells, near the store. its silken fibres, cramped and close, shone yellow-white in the sunlight; sadly soiled, yet beautiful. many came to see zora's twin bales, as they lay, handling them and questioning, while colonel cresswell grew proud of his possession. the world was going well with the colonel. freed from money cares, praised for his generalship in the cotton corner, able to entertain sumptuously, he was again a southern gentleman of the older school, and so in his envied element. yet today he frowned as he stood poking absently with his cane at the baled fleece. this marriage--or, rather, these marriages--were not to his liking. it was a _mesalliance_ of a sort that pricked him tenderly; it savored grossly of bargain and sale. his neighbors regarded it with disconcerting equanimity. they seemed to think an alliance with northern millions an honor for cresswell blood, and the colonel thumped the nearer bale vigorously. his cane slipped along the iron bands suddenly, and the old man lurching forward, clutched in space to save himself and touched a human hand. zora, sitting shadowed on the farther bale, drew back her hand quickly at the contact, and started to move away. "who's that?" thundered the colonel, more angry at his involuntary fright than at the intrusion. "here, boys!" but zora had come forward into the space where the sunlight of the wide front doors poured in upon the cotton bales. "it's me, colonel," she said. he glared at her. she was taller and thinner than formerly, darkly transparent of skin, and her dark eyes shone in strange and dusky brilliance. still indignant and surprised, the colonel lifted his voice sharply. "what the devil are you doing here?--sleeping when you ought to be at work! get out! and see here, next week cotton chopping begins--you'll go to the fields or to the chain-gang. i'll have no more of your loafing about my place." awaiting no reply, the colonel, already half ashamed of his vehemence, stormed out into the sunlight and climbed upon his bay mare. but zora still stood silent in the shadow of the silver fleece, hearing and yet not hearing. she was searching for the way, groping for the threads of life, seeking almost wildly to understand the foundations of understanding, piteously asking for answer to the puzzle of life. all the while the walls rose straight about her and narrow. to continue in school meant charity, yet she had nowhere to go and nothing to go with. to refuse to work for the cresswells meant trouble for the school and perhaps arrest for herself. to work in the fields meant endless toil and a vista that opened upon death. like a hunted thing the girl turned and twisted in thought and faced everywhere the blank impossible. cold and dreamlike without, her shut teeth held back seething fires within, and a spirit of revolt that gathered wildness as it grew. above all flew the dream, the phantasy, the memory of the past, the vision of the future. over and over she whispered to herself: "this is not the end; this can not be the end." somehow, somewhere, would come salvation. yet what it would be and what she expected she did not know. she sought the way, but what way and whither she did not know, she dared not dream. one thing alone lay in her wild fancy like a great and wonderful fact dragging the dream to earth and anchoring it there. that was the silver fleece. like a brooding mother, zora had watched it. she knew how the gin had been cleaned for its pressing and how it had been baled apart and carefully covered. she knew how proud colonel cresswell was of it and how daily he had visitors to see it and finger the wide white wound in its side. "yes, sir, grown on my place, by my niggers, sir!" he assured them; and they marvelled. to zora's mind, this beautiful baled fibre was hers; it typified happiness; it was an holy thing which profane hands had stolen. when it came back to her (as come it must, she cried with clenched hands) it would bring happiness; not the great happiness--that was gone forever--but illumination, atonement, and something of the power and the glory. so, involuntarily almost, she haunted the cotton storehouse, flitting like a dark and silent ghost in among the workmen, greeting them with her low musical voice, warding them with the cold majesty of her eyes; each day afraid of some last parting, each night triumphant--it was still there! the colonel--zora already forgotten--rode up to the cresswell oaks, pondering darkly. it was bad enough to contemplate helen's marriage in distant prospect, but the sudden, almost peremptory desire for marrying at eastertide, a little less than two months away, was absurd. there were "business reasons arising from the presidential campaign in the fall," john taylor had telegraphed; but there was already too much business in the arrangement to suit the colonel. with harry it was different. indeed it was his own quiet suggestion that made john taylor hurry matters. harry trusted to the novelty of his father's new wealth to make the latter complacent; he himself felt an impatient longing for the haven of a home. he had been too long untethered. he distrusted himself. the devil within was too fond of taking the bit in his teeth. he would remember to his dying day one awful shriek in the night, as of a soul tormenting and tormented. he wanted the protection of a good woman, and sometimes against the clear whiteness of her letters so joyous and generous, even if a bit prim and didactic, he saw a vision of himself reflected as he was, and he feared. it was distinctively disconcerting to colonel cresswell to find harry quite in favor of early nuptials, and to learn that the sole objection even in helen's mind was the improbability of getting a wedding-gown in time. helen had all a child's naive love for beautiful and dainty things, and a wedding-gown from paris had been her life dream. on this point, therefore, there ensued spirited arguments and much correspondence, and both her brother and her lover evinced characteristic interest in the planning. said harry: "sis, i'll cable to paris today. they can easily hurry the thing along." helen was delighted; she handed over a telegram just received from john taylor. "send me, express, two bales best cotton you can get." the colonel read the message. "i don't see the connection between this and hurrying up a wedding-gown," he growled. none of them discerned the handwriting of destiny. "neither do i," said harry, who detected yielding in his father's tone. "but we'd better send him the two prize bales; it will be a fine advertisement of our plantation, and evidently he has a surprise in store for us." the colonel affected to hesitate, but next morning the silver fleece went to town. zora watched it go, and her heart swelled and died within her. she walked to town, to the station. she did not see mrs. vanderpool arriving from new orleans; but mrs. vanderpool saw her, and looked curiously at the tall, tragic figure that leaned so dolorously beside the freight car. the bales were loaded into the express car; the train pulled away, its hoarse snorting waking vague echoes in the forest beyond. but to the girl who stood at the end, looking outward to darkness, those echoes roared like the crack of doom. a passing band of contract hands called to her mockingly, and one black giant, laughing loudly, gripped her hand. "come, honey," he shouted, "you'se a'dreaming! come on, honey!" she turned abruptly and gripped his hand, as one drowning grips anything offered--gripped till he winced. she laughed a loud mirthless laugh, that came pouring like a sob from her deep lungs. "come on!" she mocked, and joined them. they were a motley crowd, ragged, swaggering, jolly. there were husky, big-limbed youths, and bold-faced, loud-tongued girls. to-morrow they would start up-country to some backwoods barony in the kingdom of cotton, and work till christmas time. today was the last in town; there was craftily advanced money in their pockets and riot in their hearts. in the gathering twilight they marched noisily through the streets; in their midst, wide-eyed and laughing almost hysterically, marched zora. mrs. vanderpool meantime rode thoughtfully out of town toward cresswell oaks. she was returning from witnessing the mardi gras festivities at new orleans and at the urgent invitation of the cresswells had stopped off. she might even stay to the wedding if the new plans matured. mrs. vanderpool was quite upset. her french maid, on whom she had depended absolutely for five years or more, had left her. "i think i want to try a colored maid," she told the cresswells, laughingly, as they drove home. "they have sweet voices and they can't doff their uniform. helene without her cap and apron was often mistaken for a lady, and while i was in new orleans a french confectioner married her under some such delusion. now, haven't you a girl about here who would do?" "no," declared harry decisively, but his sister suggested that she might ask miss smith at the colored school. again mrs. vanderpool laughed, but after tea she wandered idly down the road. the sun behind the swamp was crimsoning the world. mrs. vanderpool strolled alone to the school, and saw sarah smith. there was no cordiality in the latter's greeting, but when she heard the caller's errand her attention was at once arrested and held. the interests of her charges were always uppermost in her mind. "can't i have the girl zora?" mrs. vanderpool at last inquired. miss smith started, for she was thinking of zora at that very instant. the girl was later than usual, and she was momentarily expecting to see her tall form moving languidly up the walk. she gave mrs. vanderpool a searching look. mrs. vanderpool glanced involuntarily at her gown and smiled as she did it. "could i trust you with a human soul?" asked miss smith abruptly. mrs. vanderpool looked up quickly. the half mocking answer that rose involuntarily to her lips was checked. within, mrs. vanderpool was a little puzzled at herself. why had she asked for this girl? she had felt a strange interest in her--a peculiar human interest since she first saw her and as she saw her again this afternoon. but would she make a satisfactory maid? was it not a rather dangerous experiment? why had she asked for her? she certainly had not intended to when she entered the house. in the silence miss smith continued: "here is a child in whom the fountains of the great deep are suddenly broken up. with peace and care she would find herself, for she is strong. but here there is no peace. slavery of soul and body awaits her and i am powerless to protect her. she must go away. that going away may make or ruin her. she knows nothing of working for wages and she has not the servant's humility; but she has loyalty and pluck. for one she loves there is nothing she would not do; but she cannot be driven. or rather, if she is driven, it may rouse in her the devil incarnate. she needs not exactly affection--she would almost resent that--but intelligent interest and care. in return for this she will gradually learn to serve and serve loyally. frankly, mrs. vanderpool, i would not have chosen you for this task of human education. indeed, you would have been my last thought--you seem to me--i speak plainly--a worldly woman. yet, perhaps--who can tell?--god has especially set you to this task. at any rate, i have little choice. i am at my wits' end. elspeth, the mother of this child, is not long dead; and here is the girl, beautiful, unprotected; and here am i, almost helpless. she is in debt to the cresswells, and they are pressing the claim to her service. take her if you can get her--it is, i fear, her only chance. mind you--if you can persuade her; and that may be impossible." "where is she now?" miss smith glanced out at the darkening landscape, and then at her watch. "i do not know; she's very late. she's given to wandering, but usually she is here before this time." "i saw her in town this afternoon," said mrs. vanderpool. "zora? in town?" miss smith rose. "i'll send her to you tomorrow," she said quietly. mrs. vanderpool had hardly reached the oaks before miss smith was driving toward town. a small cabin on the town's ragged fringe was crowded to suffocation. within arose noisy shouts, loud songs, and raucous laughter; the scraping of a fiddle and whine of an accordion. liquor began to appear and happy faces grew red-eyed and sodden as the dances whirled. at the edge of the orgy stood zora, wild-eyed and bewildered, mad with the pain that gripped her heart and hammered in her head, crying in tune with the frenzied music--"the end--the end!" abruptly she recognized a face despite the wreck and ruin of its beauty. "bertie!" she cried as she seized the mother of little emma by the arm. the woman staggered and offered her glass. "drink," she cried, "drink and forget." in a moment zora sprang forward and seized the burning liquid in both hands. a dozen hands clapped a devil's tattoo. a score of voices yelled and laughed. the shriek of the music was drowned beneath the thunder of stamping feet. men reeled to singing women's arms, but above the roar rose the song of the voice of zora--she glided to the middle of the room, standing tip-toed with skirts that curled and turned; she threw back her head, raised the liquor to her lips, paused and looked into the face of miss smith. a silence fell like a lightning flash on the room as that white face peered in at the door. slowly zora's hands fell and her eyes blinked as though waking from some awful dream. she staggered toward the woman's outstretched arms.... late that night the girl lay close in miss smith's motherly embrace. "i was going to hell!" she whispered, trembling. "why, zora?" asked miss smith calmly. "i couldn't find the way--and i wanted to forget." "people in hell don't forget," was the matter-of-fact comment. "and, zora, what way do you seek? the way where?" zora sat up in bed, and lifted a gray and stricken face. "it's a lie," she cried, with hoarse earnedstness, "the way nowhere. there is no way! you know--i want _him_--i want nothing on earth but him--and him i can't ever have." the older woman drew her down tenderly. "no, zora," she said, "there's something you want more than him and something you can have!" "what?" asked the wondering girl. "his respect," said sarah smith, "and i know the way." _twenty-one_ the marriage morning mrs. vanderpool watched zora as she came up the path beneath the oaks. "she walks well," she observed. and laying aside her book, she waited with a marked curiosity. the girl's greeting was brief, almost curt, but unintentionally so, as one could easily see, for back in her eyes lurked an impatient hunger; she was not thinking of greetings. she murmured a quick word, and stood straight and tall with her eyes squarely on the lady. in the depths of mrs. vanderpool's heart something strange--not new, but very old--stirred. before her stood this tall black girl, quietly returning her look. mrs. vanderpool had a most uncomfortable sense of being judged, of being weighed,--and there arose within her an impulse to self-justification. she smiled and said sweetly, "won't you sit?" but despite all this, her mind seemed leaping backward a thousand years; back to a simpler, primal day when she herself, white, frail, and fettered, stood before the dusky magnificence of some bejewelled barbarian queen and sought to justify herself. she shook off the phantasy,--and yet how well the girl stood. it was not every one that could stand still and well. "please sit down," she repeated with her softest charm, not dreaming that outside the school white persons did not ask this girl to sit in their presence. but even this did not move zora. she sat down. there was in her, walking, standing, sitting, a simple directness which mrs. vanderpool sensed and met. "zora, i need some one to help me--to do my hair and serve my coffee, and dress and take care of me. the work will not be hard, and you can travel and see the world and live well. would you like it?" "but i do not know how to do all these things," returned zora, slowly. she was thinking rapidly--was this the way? it sounded wonderful. the world, the great mysterious world, that stretched beyond the swamp and into which bles and the silver fleece had gone--did it lead to the way? but if she went there what would she see and do, and would it be possible to become such a woman as miss smith pictured? "what is the world like?" asked zora. mrs. vanderpool smiled. "oh, i meant great active cities and buildings, myriads of people and wonderful sights." "yes--but back of it all, what is it really? what does it look like?" "heavens, child! don't ask. really, it isn't worth while peering back of things. one is sure to be disappointed." "then what's the use of seeing the world?" "why, one must live; and why not be happy?" answered mrs. vanderpool, amused, baffled, spurred for the time being from her chronic _ennui_. "are you happy?" retorted zora, looking her over carefully, from silken stockings to garden hat. mrs. vanderpool laid aside her little mockery and met the situation bravely. "no," she replied simply. her eyes grew old and tired. involuntarily zora's hand crept out protectingly and lay a moment over the white jewelled fingers. then quickly recovering herself, she started hastily to withdraw it, but the woman's fingers closed around the darker ones, and mrs. vanderpool's eyes became dim. "i need you, zora," she said; and then, seeing the half-formed question, "yes, and you need me; we need each other. in the world lies opportunity, and i will help you." zora rose abruptly, and mrs. vanderpool feared, with a tightening of heart, that she had lost this strangely alluring girl. "i will come to-morrow," said zora. as mrs. vanderpool went in to lunch, reaction and lingering doubts came trouping back. to replace the daintiest of trained experts with the most baffling semi-barbarian, well! "have you hired a maid?" asked helen. "i've engaged zora," laughed mrs. vanderpool, lightly; "and now i'm wondering whether i have a jewel or--a white elephant." "probably neither," remarked harry cresswell, drily; but he avoided the lady's inquiring eyes. next morning zora came easily into mrs. vanderpool's life. there was little she knew of her duties, but little, too, that she could not learn with a deftness and divination almost startling. her quietness, her quickness, her young strength, were like a soothing balm to the tired woman of fashion, and within a week she had sunk back contentedly into zora's strong arms. "it's a jewel," she decided. with this verdict, the house agreed. the servants waited on "miss zora" gladly; the men scarcely saw her, and the ladies ran to her for help in all sorts. harry cresswell looked upon this transformation with an amused smile, but the colonel saw in it simply evidence of dangerous obstinacy in a black girl who hitherto had refused to work. zora had been in the house but a week when a large express package was received from john taylor. its unwrapping brought a cry of pleasure from the ladies. there lay a bolt of silken-like cambric of wondrous fineness and lustre, marked: "for the wedding-dress." the explanation accompanied the package, that mary taylor had a similar piece in the north. helen and harry said nothing of the cablegram to the paris tailor, and helen took no steps toward having the cambric dress made, not even when the wedding invitations appeared. "a cresswell married in cotton!" helen was almost in tears lest the paris gown be delayed, and sure enough a cablegram came at last saying that there was little likelihood of the gown being ready by easter. it would be shipped at the earliest convenience, but it could hardly catch the necessary boat. helen had a good cry, and then came a wild rush to get john taylor's cloth ready. still, helen was querulous. she decided that silk embroidery must embellish the skirt. the dressmaker was in despair. "i haven't a single spare worker," she declared. helen was appealing to mrs. vanderpool. "i can do it," said zora, who was in the room. "do you know how?" asked the dressmaker. "no, but i want to know." mrs. vanderpool gave a satisfied nod. "show her," she said. the dressmaker was on the edge of rebellion. "zora sews beautifully," added mrs. vanderpool. thus the beautiful cloth came to zora's room, and was spread in a glossy cloud over her bed. she trembled at its beauty and felt a vague inner yearning, as if some subtle magic of the woven web were trying to tell her its story. she worked over it faithfully and lovingly in every spare hour and in long nights of dreaming. wilfully she departed from the set pattern and sewed into the cloth something of the beauty in her heart. in new and intricate ways, with soft shadowings and coverings, she wove in that white veil her own strange soul, and mrs. vanderpool watched her curiously, but in silence. meantime all things were arranged for a double wedding at cresswell oaks. as john and mary taylor had no suitable home, they were to come down and the two brides to go forth from the cresswell mansion. accordingly the taylors arrived a week before the wedding and the home took on a festive air. even colonel cresswell expanded under the genial influences, and while his head still protested his heart was glad. he had to respect john taylor's undoubted ability; and mary taylor was certainly lovely, in spite of that assumption of cleverness of which the colonel could not approve. mary returned to the old scenes with mingled feelings. especially was she startled at seeing zora a member of the household and apparently high in favor. it brought back something of the old uneasiness and suspicion. all this she soon forgot under the cadence of harry cresswell's pleasant voice and the caressing touch of his arm. he seemed handsomer than ever; and he was, for sleep and temperance and the wooing of a woman had put a tinge in his marble face, smoothed the puffs beneath his eyes, and given him a more distinguished bearing and a firmer hand. and mary taylor was very happy. so was her brother, only differently; he was making money; he was planning to make more, and he had something to pet which seemed to him extraordinarily precious and valuable. taylor eagerly inquired after the cloth, and followed the ladies to zora's room, adjoining mrs. vanderpool's, to see it. it lay uncut and shimmering, covered with dim silken tracery of a delicacy and beauty which brought an exclamation to all lips. "that's what we can do with alabama cotton," cried john taylor in triumph. they turned to him incredulously. "but--" "no 'buts' about it; these are the two bales you sent me, woven with a silk woof." no one particularly noticed that zora had hastily left the room. "i had it done in easterly's new jersey mills according to an old plan of mine. i'm going to make cloth like that right in this county some day," and he chuckled gayly. but zora was striding up and down the halls, the blood surging in her ears. after they were gone she came back and closed the doors. she dropped on her knees and buried her face in the filmy folds of the silver fleece. "i knew it! i knew it!" she whispered in mingled tears and joy. "it called and i did not understand." it was her talisman new-found; her love come back, her stolen dream come true. now she could face the world; god had turned it straight again. she would go into the world and find--not love, but the thing greater than love. outside the door came voices--the dressmaker's tones, helen's soft drawl, and mrs. vanderpool's finished accents. her face went suddenly gray. the silver fleece was not hers! it belonged--she rose hastily. the door opened and they came in. the cutting must begin at once, they all agreed. "is it ready, zora?" inquired helen. "no," zora quietly answered, "not quite, but tomorrow morning, early." as soon as she was alone again, she sat down and considered. by and by, while the family was at lunch, she folded the silver fleece carefully and locked it in her new trunk. she would hide it in the swamp. during the afternoon she sent to town for oil-cloth, and bade the black carpenter at miss smith's make a cedar box, tight and tarred. in the morning she prepared mrs. vanderpool's breakfast with unusual care. she was sorry for mrs. vanderpool, and sorry for miss smith. they would not, they could not, understand. what would happen to her? she did not know; she did not care. the silver fleece had returned to her. soon it would be buried in the swamp whence it came. she had no alternative; she must keep it and wait. she heard the dressmaker's voice, and then her step upon the stair. she heard the sound of harry cresswell's buggy, and a scurrying at the front door. on came the dressmaker's footsteps--then her door was unceremoniously burst open. helen cresswell stood there radiant; the dressmaker, too, was wreathed in smiles. she carried a big red-sealed bundle. "zora!" cried helen in ecstasy. "it's come!" zora regarded her coldly, and stood at bay. the dressmaker was ripping and snipping, and soon there lay revealed before them--the paris gown! helen was in raptures, but her conscience pricked her. she appealed to them. "ought i to tell? you see, mary's gown will look miserably common beside it." the dressmaker was voluble. there was really nothing to tell; and besides, helen was a cresswell and it was to be expected, and so forth. helen pursed her lips and petulantly tapped the floor with her foot. "but the other gown?" "where is it?" asked the dressmaker, looking about. "it would make a pretty morning-dress--" but helen had taken a sudden dislike to the thought of it. "i don't want it," she declared. "and besides, i haven't room for it in my trunks." of a sudden she leaned down and whispered to zora: "zora, hide it and keep it if you want it. come," to the dressmaker, "i'm dying to try this on--now.... remember, zora--not a word." and all this to zora seemed no surprise; it was the way, and it was opening before her because the talisman lay in her trunk. so at last it came to easter morning. the world was golden with jasmine, and crimson with azalea; down in the darker places gleamed the misty glory of the dogwood; new cotton shook, glimmered, and blossomed in the black fields, and over all the soft southern sun poured its awakening light of life. there was happiness and hope again in the cabins, and hope and--if not happiness, ambition, in the mansions. zora, almost forgetting the wedding, stood before the mirror. laying aside her dress, she draped her shimmering cloth about her, dragging her hair down in a heavy mass over ears and neck until she seemed herself a bride. and as she stood there, awed with the mystical union of a dead love and a living new born self, there came drifting in at the window, faintly, the soft sound of far-off marriage music. "'tis thy marriage morning, shining in the sun!" two white and white-swathed brides were coming slowly down the great staircase of cresswell oaks, and two white and black-clothed bridegrooms awaited them. either bridegroom looked gladly at the flow of his sister's garments and almost darkly at his bride's. for helen was decked in parisian splendor, while mary was gowned in the fleece. "'tis thy marriage morning, shining in the sun!" up floated the song of the little dark-faced children, and zora listened. _twenty-two_ miss caroline wynn bles alwyn was seated in the anteroom of senator smith's office in washington. the senator had not come in yet, and there were others waiting, too. the young man sat in a corner, dreaming. washington was his first great city, and it seemed a never-ending delight--the streets, the buildings, the crowds; the shops, and lights, and noise; the kaleidoscopic panorama of a world's doing, the myriad forms and faces, the talk and laughter of men. it was all wonderful magic to the country boy, and he stretched his arms and filled his lungs and cried: "here i shall live!" especially was he attracted by his own people. they seemed transformed, revivified, changed. some might be mistaken for field hands on a holiday--but not many. others he did not recognize--they seemed strange and alien--sharper, quicker, and at once more overbearing and more unscrupulous. there were yet others--and at the sight of these bles stood straighter and breathed like a man. they were well dressed, and well appearing men and women, who walked upright and looked one in the eye, and seemed like persons of affairs and money. they had arrived--they were men--they filled his mind's ideal--he felt like going up to them and grasping their hands and saying, "at last, brother!" ah, it was good to find one's dreams, walking in the light, in flesh and blood. continually such thoughts were surging through his brain, and they were rioting through it again as he sat waiting in senator smith's office. the senator was late this morning; when he came in he glanced at the morning paper before looking over his mail and the list of his callers. "do fools like the american people deserve salvation?" he sneered, holding off the headlines and glancing at them. "'league beats trust.' ... 'farmers of south smash effort to bear market ... send cotton to twelve cents ... common people triumph.' "a man is induced to bite off his own nose and then to sing a pã¦an of victory. it's nauseating--senseless. there is no earthly use striving for such blockheads; they'd crucify any saviour." thus half consciously senator smith salved his conscience, while he extracted a certificate of deposit for fifty thousand dollars from his new york mail. he thrust it aside from his secretary's view and looked at his list as he rang the bell: there was representative todd, and somebody named alwyn--nobody of importance. easterly was due in a half-hour. he would get rid of todd meantime. "poor todd," he mused; "a lamb for the slaughter." but he patiently listened to him plead for party support and influence for his bill to prohibit gambling in futures. "i was warned that it was useless to see you, senator smith, but i would come. i believe in you. frankly, there is a strong group of your old friends and followers forming against you; they met only last night, but i did not go. won't you take a stand on some of these progressive matters--this bill, or the child labor movement, or low tariff legislation?" mr. smith listened but shook his head. "when the time comes," he announced deliberately, "i shall have something to say on several of these matters. at present i can only say that i cannot support this bill," and mr. todd was ushered out. he met mr. easterly coming in and greeted him effusively. he knew him only as a rich philanthropist, who had helped the neighborhood guild in washington--one of todd's hobbies. easterly greeted smith quietly. "got my letter?" "yes." "here are the three bills. you will go on the finance committee tomorrow; sumdrich is chairman by courtesy, but you'll have the real power. put the child labor bill first, and we'll work the press. the tariff will take most of the session, of course. we'll put the cotton inspection bill through in the last days of the session--see? i'm manoeuvring to get the southern congressmen into line.... oh, one thing. thompson says he's a little worried about the negroes; says there's something more than froth in the talk of a bolt in the northern negro vote. we may have to give them a little extra money and a few more minor offices than usual. talk with thompson; the negroes are sweet on you and he's going to be the new chairman of the campaign, you know. ever met him?" "yes." "well--so long." "just a moment," the statesman stayed the financier. "todd just let fall something of a combination against us in congress--know anything of it?" "not definitely; i heard some rumors. better see if you can run it down. well, i must hurry--good day." while bles alwyn in the outer office was waiting and musing, a lady came in. out of the corner of his eye he caught the curve of her gown, and as she seated herself beside him, the suggestion of a faint perfume. a vague resentment rose in him. colored women would look as well as that, he argued, with the clothes and wealth and training. he paused, however, in his thought: he did not want them like the whites--so cold and formal and precise, without heart or marrow. he started up, for the secretary was speaking to him. "are you the--er--the man who had a letter to the senator?" "yes, sir." "let me see it. oh, yes--he will see you in a moment." bles was returning the letter to his pocket when he heard a voice almost at his ear. "i beg your pardon--" he turned and started. it was the lady next to him, and she was colored! not extremely colored, but undoubtedly colored, with waving black hair, light brown skin, and the fuller facial curving of the darker world. and yet bles was surprised, for everything else about her--her voice, her bearing, the set of her gown, her gloves and shoes, the whole impression was--bles hesitated for a word--well, "white." "yes--yes, ma'am," he stammered, becoming suddenly conscious that the lady had now a second time asked him if he was acquainted with senator smith. "that is, ma'am,"--why was he saying "ma'am," like a child or a servant?--"i know his sister and have a letter for him." "do you live in washington?" she inquired. "no--but i want to. i've been trying to get in as a clerk, and i haven't succeeded yet. that's what i'm going to see senator smith about." "have you had the civil-service examinations?" "yes. i made ninety-three in the examination for a treasury clerkship." "and no appointment? i see--they are not partial to us there." bles was glad to hear her say "us." she continued after a pause: "may i venture to ask a favor of you?" "certainly," he responded. "my name is wynn," lowering her voice slightly and leaning toward him. "there are so many ahead of me and i am in a hurry to get to my school; but i must see the senator--couldn't i go in with you? i think i might be of service in this matter of the examination, and then perhaps i'd get a chance to say a word for myself." "i'd be very glad to have you come," said bles, cordially. the secretary hesitated a little when the two started in, but miss wynn's air was so quietly assured that he yielded. senator smith looked at the tall, straight black man with his smooth skin and frank eyes. and for a second time that morning a vision of his own youth dimmed his eyes. but he spoke coldly: "mr. alwyn, i believe." "yes, sir." "and--" "my friend, miss wynn." the senator glanced at miss wynn and she bowed demurely. then he turned to alwyn. "well, mr. alwyn, washington is a bad place to start in the world." bles looked surprised and incredulous. he could conceive of no finer starting-place, but he said nothing. "it is a grave," continued the senator, "of ambitions and ideals. you would far better go back to alabama"--pausing and looking at the young man keenly--"but you won't--you won't--not yet, at any rate." and bles shook his head slowly. "no--well, what can i do for you?" "i want work--i'll do anything." "no, you'll do one thing--be a clerk, and then if you have the right stuff in you you will throw up that job in a year and start again." "i'd like at least to try it, sir." "well, i can't help you much there; that's in civil-service, and you must take the examination." "i have, sir." "so? where, and what mark?" "in the treasury department; i got a mark of ninety-three." "what!--and no appointment?" the senator was incredulous. "no, sir; not yet." here miss wynn interposed. "you see, senator," she said, "civil-service rules are not always impervious to race prejudice." the senator frowned. "do you mean to intimate that mr. alwyn's appointment is held up because he is colored?" "i do." "well--well!" the senator rang for a clerk. "get me the treasury on the telephone." in a moment the bell rang. "i want mr. cole. is that you, mr. cole? good-morning. have you a young man named alwyn on your eligible list? what? yes?" a pause. "indeed? well, why has he no appointment? of course, i know, he's a negro. yes, i desire it very much--thank you." "you'll get an appointment to-morrow morning," and the senator rose. "how is my sister?" he asked absently. "she was looking worried, but hopeful of the new endowment when i left." the senator held out his hand; bles took it and then remembered. "oh, i beg pardon, but miss wynn wanted a word on another matter." the senator turned to miss wynn. "i am a school-teacher, senator smith, and like all the rest of us i am deeply interested in the appointment of the new school-board." "but you know the district committee attends to those things," said the senator hastily. "and then, too, i believe there is talk of abolishing the school-board and concentrating power in the hands of the superintendent." "precisely," said miss wynn. "and i came to tell you, senator smith, that the interests which are back of this attack upon the schools are no friends of yours." miss wynn extracted from her reticule a typewritten paper. he took the paper and read it intently. then he keenly scrutinized the young woman, and she steadily returned his regard. "how am i to know this is true?" "follow it up and see." he mused. "where did you get these facts?" he asked suddenly. she smiled. "it is hardly necessary to say." "and yet," he persisted, "if i were sure of its source i would know my ground better and--my obligation to you would be greater." she laughed and glanced toward alwyn. he had moved out of earshot and was waiting by the window. "i am a teacher in the m street high school," she said, "and we have some intelligent boys there who work their way through." "yes," said the senator. "some," continued miss wynn, tapping her boot on the carpet, "some--wait on table." the senator slowly put the paper in his pocket. "and now," he said, "miss wynn, what can i do for you?" she looked at him. "if judge haynes is reappointed to the school-board i shall probably continue to teach in the m street high school," she said slowly. the senator made a memorandum and said: "i shall not forget miss wynn--nor her friends." and he bowed, glancing at alwyn. the woman contemplated bles in momentary perplexity, then bowing in turn, left. bles followed, debating just what he ought to say, how far he might venture to accompany her, what--but she easily settled it all. "i thank you--good-bye," she said briefly at the door, and was gone. bles did not know whether to feel relieved or provoked, or disappointed, and by way of compromise felt something of all three. the next morning he received notice of his appointment to a clerkship in the treasury department, at a salary of nine hundred dollars. the sum seemed fabulous and he was in the seventh heaven. for many days the consciousness of wealth, the new duties, the street scenes, and the city life kept him more than busy. he planned to study, and arranged with a professor at howard university to guide him. he bought an armful of books and a desk, and plunged desperately to work. gradually as he became used to the office routine, and in the hours when he was weary of study, he began to find time hanging a little heavily on his hands; indeed--although he would not acknowledge it--he was getting lonesome, homesick, amid the myriad men of a busy city. he argued to himself that this was absurd, and yet he knew that he was longing for human companionship. when he looked about him for fellowship he found himself in a strange dilemma: those black folk in whom he recognized the old sweet-tempered negro traits, had also looser, uglier manners than he was accustomed to, from which he shrank. the upper classes of negroes, on the other hand, he still observed from afar; they were strangers not only in acquaintance but because of a curious coldness and aloofness that made them cease to seem his own kind; they seemed almost at times like black white people--strangers in way and thought. he tried to shake off this feeling but it clung, and at last in sheer desperation, he promised to go out of a night with a fellow clerk who rather boasted of the "people" he knew. he was soon tired of the strange company, and had turned to go home, when he met a newcomer in the doorway. "why, hello, sam! sam stillings!" he exclaimed delightedly, and was soon grasping the hand of a slim, well-dressed man of perhaps thirty, with yellow face, curling hair, and shifting eyes. "well, of all things, bles--er--ah--mr. alwyn! thought you were hoeing cotton." bles laughed and continued shaking his head. he was foolishly glad to see the former cresswell butler, whom he had known but slightly. his face brought back unuttered things that made his heart beat faster and a yearning surge within him. "i thought you went to chicago," cried bles. "i did, but goin' into politics--having entered the political field, i came here. and you graduated, i suppose, and all that?" "no," bless admitted a little sadly, as he told of his coming north, and of senator smith's influence. "but--but how are--all?" abruptly sam hooked his arm into alwyn's and pulled him with him down the street. stillings was a type. up from servility and menial service he was struggling to climb to money and power. he was shrewd, willing to stoop to anything in order to win. the very slights and humiliations of prejudice he turned to his advantage. when he learned all the particulars of alwyn's visit to senator smith and his cordial reception he judged it best to keep in touch with this young man, and he forthwith invited bles to accompany him the next night to the fifteenth street presbyterian church. "you'll find the best people there," he said; "the aristocracy. the treble clef gives a concert, and everybody that's anybody will be there." they met again the following evening and proceeded to the church. it was a simple but pleasant auditorium, nearly filled with well-dressed people. during the programme bles applauded vociferously every number that pleased him, which is to say, every one--and stamped his feet, until he realized that he was attracting considerable attention to himself. then the entertainment straightway lost all its charm; he grew painfully embarrassed, and for the remainder of the evening was awkwardly self-conscious. when all was over, the audience rose leisurely and stood in little knots and eddies, laughing and talking; many moved forward to say a word to the singers and players, stillings stepped aside to a group of men, and bles was left miserably alone. a man came to him, a white-faced man, with slightly curling close gray hair, and high-bred ascetic countenance. "you are a stranger?" he asked pleasantly, and bles liked him. "yes, sir," he answered, and they fell to talking. he discovered that this was the pastor of the church. "do you know no one in town?" "one or two of my fellow clerks and mr. stillings. oh, yes, i've met miss wynn." "why, here is miss wynn now." bles turned. she was right behind him, the centre of a group. she turned, slowly, and smiled. "oh!" she uttered twice, but with difference cadence. then something like amusement lurked a moment in her eye, and she quietly presented bles to her friends, while stillings hovered unnoticed in the offing: "miss jones--mr. alwyn of--" she paused a second--"alabama. miss taylor--mr. alwyn--and," with a backward curving of her neck, "mr. teerswell," and so on. mr. teerswell was handsome and indolent, with indecision in his face and a cynical voice. in a moment bles felt the subtle antagonism of the group. he was an intruder. mr. teerswell nodded easily and turned away, continuing his conversation with the ladies. but miss wynn was perverse and interrupted. "i saw you enjoyed the concert, mr. alwyn," she said, and one of the young ladies rippled audibly. bles darkened painfully, realizing that these people must have been just behind him. but he answered frankly: "yes, i did immensely--i hope i didn't disturb you; you see, i'm not used to hearing such singing." mr. teerswell, compelled to listen, laughed drily. "plantation melodies, i suppose, are more your specialty," he said with a slight cadence. "yes," said bles simply. a slight pause ensued. then came the surprise of the evening for bles alwyn. even his inexperienced eye could discern that miss wynn was very popular, and that most of the men were rivals for her attentions. "mr. alwyn," she said graciously, rising. "i'm going to trouble you to see me to my door; it's only a block. good-night, all!" she called, but she bowed to mr. teerswell. miss wynn placed her hand lightly on bles's arm, and for a moment he paused. a thrill ran through him as he felt again the weight of a little hand and saw beside him the dark beautiful eyes of a girl. he felt again the warm quiver of her body. then he awoke to the lighted church and the moving, well-dressed throng. the hand on his arm was not so small; but it was well-gloved, and somehow the fancy struck him that it was a cold hand and not always sympathetic in its touch. _twenty-three_ the training of zora "i did not know the world was so large," remarked zora as she and mrs. vanderpool flew east and northward on the new york-new orleans limited. for a long time the girl had given herself up to the sheer delight of motion. gazing from the window, she compared the lands she passed with the lands she knew: noting the formation of the cotton; the kind and growth of the trees; the state of the roads. then the comparisons became infinite, endless; the world stretched on and on until it seemed mere distance, and she suddenly realized how vast a thing it was and spoke. mrs. vanderpool was amused. "it's much smaller than one would think," she responded. when they came to atlanta zora stared and wrinkled her brows. it was her first large city. the other towns were replicas of toomsville; strange in number, not in kind; but this was different, and she could not understand it. it seemed senseless and unreasonable, and yet so strangely so that she was at a loss to ask questions. she was very solemn as they rode on and night came down with dreams. she awoke in washington to new fairylands and wonders; the endless going and coming of men; great piles that challenged heaven, and homes crowded on homes till one could not believe that they were full of living things. they rolled by baltimore and philadelphia, and she talked of every-day matters: of the sky which alone stood steadfast amid whirling change; of bits of empty earth that shook themselves here and there loose from their burden of men, and lay naked in the cold shining sunlight. all the while the greater questions were beating and curling and building themselves back in her brain, and above all she was wondering why no one had told her before of all this mighty world. mrs. vanderpool, to whom it seemed too familiar for comment, had said no word; or, if she had spoken, zora's ears had not been tuned to understand; and as they flew toward the towering ramparts of new york, she sat up big with the terror of a new thought: suppose this world were full yet of things she did not know nor dream of? how could she find out? she must know. when finally they were settled in new york and sat high up on the fifth avenue front of the hotel, gradually the inarticulate questioning found words, albeit strange ones. "it reminds me of the swamp," she said. mrs. vanderpool, just returned from a shopping tour, burst into laughter. "it is--but i marvel at your penetration." "i mean, it is moving--always moving." "the swamp seemed to me unearthly still." "yes--yes," cried zora, eagerly, brushing back the rumpled hair; "and so did the city, at first, to me." "still! new york?" "yes. you see, i saw the buildings and forgot the men; and the buildings were so tall and silent against heaven. and then i came to see the people, and suddenly i knew the city was like the swamp, always restless and changing." "and more beautiful?" suggested mrs. vanderpool, slipping her arms into her lounging-robe. "oh, no; not nearly so beautiful. and yet--more interesting." then with a puzzled look: "i wonder why?" "perhaps because it's people and not things." "it's people in the swamp," asserted zora, dreamily, smoothing out the pillows of the couch, "'little people,' i call them. the difference is, i think, that there i know how the story will come out; everything is changing, but i know how and why and from what and to what. now here, _every_thing seems to be happening; but what is it that is happening?" "you must know what has happened, to know what may happen," said mrs. vanderpool. "but how can i know?" "i'll get you some books to-morrow." "i'd like to know what it means," wistfully. "it is meaningless." the woman's cynicism was lost upon zora, of course, but it possessed the salutary effect of stimulating the girl's thoughts, encouraging her to discover for herself. "i think not; so much must mean something," she protested. zora gathered up the clothes and things and shaded the windows, glancing the while down on the street. "everybody is going, going," she murmured. "i wonder where. don't they ever get there?" "few arrive," said mrs. vanderpool. zora softly bent and passed her cool soft hand over her forehead. "then why do they go?" "the zest of the search, perhaps." "no," said zora as she noiselessly left the room and closed the door; "no, they are searching for something they have lost. perhaps they, too, are searching for the way," and the tears blinded her eyes. mrs. vanderpool lay in the quiet darkened room with a puzzled smile on her lips. a month ago she had not dreamed that human interest in anybody would take so strong a hold upon her as her liking for zora had done. she was a woman of unusual personal charm, but her own interest and affections were seldom stirred. had she been compelled to earn a living she would have made a successful teacher or manipulator of men. as it was, she viewed the human scene with detached and cynical interest. she had no children, few near relations, a husband who went his way and still was a gentleman. essentially mrs. vanderpool was unmoral. she held the code of her social set with sportsmanlike honor; but even beyond this she stooped to no intrigue, because none interested her. she had all the elements of power save the motive for doing anything in particular. for the first time, perhaps, zora gave her life a peculiar human interest. she did not love the girl, but she was intensely interested in her; some of the interest was selfish, for zora was going to be a perfect maid. the girl's language came to be more and more like mrs. vanderpool's; her dress and taste in adornment had been mrs. vanderpool's first care, and it led to a curious training in art and sense of beauty until the lady now and then found herself learner before the quick suggestiveness of zora's mind. when mrs. harry cresswell called a month or so later the talk naturally included mention of zora. mary was happy and vivacious, and noted the girl's rapid development. "i wonder what i shall make out of her?" queried mrs. vanderpool. "do you know, i believe i could mould her into a lady if she were not black." mary cresswell laughed. "with that hair?" "it has artistic possibilities. you should have seen my hair-dresser's face when i told her to do it up. her face and zora's were a pantomime for the gods. yet it was done. it lay in some great twisted cloud and in that black net gown of mine zora was simply magnificent. her form is perfect, her height is regal, her skin is satin, and my jewels found a resting place at last. jewels, you know, dear, were never meant for white folk. i was tempted to take her to the box at the opera and let new york break its impudent neck." mary was shocked. "but, mrs. vanderpool," she protested, "is it right? is it fair? why should you spoil this black girl and put impossible ideas into her head? you can make her a perfect maid, but she can never be much more in america." "she is a perfect maid now; that's the miracle of it--she's that deft and quick and quiet and thoughtful! the hotel employees think her perfect; my friends rave--really, i'm the most blessed of women. but do you know i like the girl? i--well, i think of her future." "it's wrong to treat her as you do. you make her an equal. her room is one of the best and filled with books and bric-a-brac. she sometimes eats with you--is your companion, in fact." "what of it? she loves to read, and i guide her while she keeps me up on the latest stuff. she can talk much better than many of my friends and then she piques my curiosity: she's a sort of intellectual sauce that stirs my rapidly failing mental appetite. i think that as soon as i can make up my mind to spare her, i'll take her to france and marry her off in the colonies." "well, that's possible; but one doesn't easily give up good servants. by the way, i learn from miss smith that the boy, bles alwyn, in whom zora was so interested, is a clerk in the treasury department at washington." "indeed! i'm going to washington this winter; i'll look him over and see if he's worth zora--which i greatly doubt." mrs. cresswell pursed her lips and changed the subject. "have you seen the easterlys?" "the ladies left their cards--they are quite impossible. mr. easterly calls this afternoon. i can't imagine why, but he asked for an appointment. will you go south with mr. cresswell? i'm glad to hear he's entering politics." "no, i shall do some early house hunting in washington," said mrs. cresswell, rising as mr. easterly was announced. mr. easterly was not at home in mrs. vanderpool's presence. she spoke a language different from his, and she had shown a disconcerting way, in the few times when he had spoken with her, of letting the weight of the conversation rest on him. he felt very distinctly that mrs. vanderpool was not particularly desirous of his company, nor that of his family. nevertheless, he needed mrs. vanderpool's influence just now, and he was willing to pay considerable for it. once under obligation to him her services would be very valuable. he was glad to find mrs. cresswell there. it showed that the cresswells were still intimate, and the cresswells were bound to him and his interests by strong ties. he bowed as mrs. cresswell left, and then did not beat around the bush because, in this case, he did not know how. "mrs. vanderpool, i need your aid." mrs. vanderpool smiled politely, and murmured something. "we are, you know, in the midst of a rather warm presidential campaign," continued mr. easterly. "yes?" with polite interest. "we are going to win easily, but our majority in congress for certain matters will depend on the attitude of southerners and you usually spend the winters in washington. if, now, you could drop a word here and there--" "but why should i?" asked mrs. vanderpool. "mrs. vanderpool, to be frank, i know some excellent investments that your influence in this line would help. i take it you're not so rich but that--" mrs. vanderpool smiled faintly. "really, mr. easterly, i know little about such matters and care less. i have food and clothes. why worry with more?" mr. easterly half expected this and he determined to deliver his last shot on the run. he arose with a disappointed air. "of course, mrs. vanderpool, i see how it is: you have plenty and one can't expect your services or influence for nothing. it had occurred to me that your husband might like something political; but i presume not." "something political?" "yes. you see, it's barely possible, for instance, that there will be a change in the french ambassadorship. the present ambassador is old and--well, i don't know, but as i say, it's possible. of course though, that may not appeal to you, and i can only beg your good offices in charity if--if you see your way to help us. well, i must be going." "what is--i thought the president appointed ambassadors." "to be sure, but we appoint presidents," laughed mr. easterly. "good-day. i shall hope to see you in washington." "good-day," mrs. vanderpool returned absently. after he had gone she walked slowly to zora's room and opened the door. for a long time she stood quietly looking in. zora was curled in a chair with a book. she was in dreamland; in a world of books builded thoughtfully for her by mrs. vanderpool, and before that by miss smith. her work took but little of her time and left hours for reading and thinking. in that thought-life, more and more her real living centred. hour after hour, day after day, she lay buried, deaf and dumb to all else. her heart cried, up on the world's four corners of the way, and to it came the vision splendid. she gossiped with old herodotus across the earth to the black and blameless ethiopians; she saw the sculptured glories of phidias marbled amid the splendor of the swamp; she listened to demosthenes and walked the appian way with cornelia--while all new york streamed beneath her window. she saw the drunken goths reel upon rome and heard the careless negroes yodle as they galloped to toomsville. paris, she knew,--wonderful, haunting paris: the paris of clovis, and st. louis; of louis the great, and napoleon iii; of balzac, and her own dumas. she tasted the mud and comfort of thick old london, and the while wept with jeremiah and sang with deborah, semiramis, and atala. mary of scotland and joan of arc held her dark hands in theirs, and kings lifted up their sceptres. she walked on worlds, and worlds of worlds, and heard there in her little room the tread of armies, the paeans of victory, the breaking of hearts, and the music of the spheres. mrs. vanderpool watched her a while. "zora," she presently broke into the girl's absorption, "how would you like to be ambassador to france?" _twenty-four_ the education of alwyn miss caroline wynn of washington had little faith in the world and its people. nor was this wholly her fault. the world had dealt cruelly with the young dreams and youthful ambitions of the girl; partly with its usual heartlessness, partly with that cynical and deadening reserve fund which it has today for its darker peoples. the girl had bitterly resented her experiences at first: she was brilliant and well-trained; she had a real talent for sculpture, and had studied considerably; she was sprung from at least three generations of respectable mulattoes, who had left a little competence which yielded her three or four hundred dollars a year. furthermore, while not precisely pretty, she was good-looking and interesting, and she had acquired the marks and insignia of good breeding. perhaps she wore her manners just a trifle consciously; perhaps she was a little morbid that she would fail of recognition as a lady. nor was this unnatural: her brown skin invited a different assumption. despite this almost unconscious mental aggressiveness, she was unusually presentable and always well-groomed and pleasant of speech. yet she found nearly all careers closed to her. at first it seemed accidental, the luck of life. then she attributed it to her sex; but at last she was sure that, beyond chance and womanhood, it was the colorline that was hemming her in. once convinced of this, she let her imagination play and saw the line even where it did not exist. with her bit of property and brilliant parts she had had many suitors but they had been refused one after another for reasons she could hardly have explained. for years now tom teerswell had been her escort. whether or not caroline wynn would every marry him was a perennial subject of speculation among their friends and it usually ended in the verdict that she could not afford it--that it was financially impossible. nevertheless, the two were usually seen in public together, and although she often showed her quiet mastery of the situation, seldom had she snubbed him so openly as at the treble clef concert. teerswell was furious and began to plot vengeance; but miss wynn was attracted by the personality of bles alwyn. southern country negroes were rare in her set, but here was a man of intelligence and keenness coupled with an amazing frankness and modesty, and perceptibly shadowed by sorrow. the combination was, so far as she had observed, both rare and temporary and she was disposed to watch it in this case purely as a matter of intellectual curiosity. at the door of her home, therefore, after a walk of unusual interest, she said: "i'm going to have a few friends in next tuesday night; won't you come, mr. alwyn?" and mr. alwyn said that he would. next morning miss wynn rather repented her hasty invitation, but of course nothing could be done now. nothing? well, there was one thing; and she went to the telephone. a suggestion to bles that he might profitably extend his acquaintance sent him to a certain tailor shop kept by a friend of hers; a word to the tailor guarded against the least suspicion of intrigue entering bles's head. it turned out quite as miss wynn had designed; mr. grey, the tailor, gave bles some points on dressing, and made him, southern fashion, a frock-coat for dress wear that set off his fine figure. on the night of the gathering at miss wynn's bles dressed with care, hesitating long over a necktie, but at last choosing one which he had recently purchased and which pleased him particularly. he was prompt to the minute and was consequently the first guest; but miss wynn's greeting was so quietly cordial that his embarrassment soon fled. she looked him over at leisure and sighed at his tie; otherwise he was thoroughly presentable according to the strictest washington standard. they sat down and talked of generalities. then an idea occurring to her, she conducted the conversation by devious paths to ties and asked alwyn if he had heard of the fad of collecting ties. he had not, and she showed him a sofa pillow. "your tie quite attracted me," she said; "it would make just the dash of color i need in my new pillow." "you may have it and welcome. i'll send--" "oh, no! a bird in the hand, you know. i'll trade with you now for another i have." "done!" the exchange was soon made, miss wynn tying the new one herself and sticking a small carved pin in it. bles slowly sat down again, and after a pause said, "thank you." she looked up quickly, but he seemed quite serious and good-natured. "you see," he explained, "in the country we don't know much about ties." the well-balanced miss wynn for a moment lost her aplomb, but only for a moment. "we must all learn," she replied with penetration, and so their friendship was established. the company now began to gather, and soon the double parlor held an assemblage of twenty-five or thirty persons. they formed a picturesque group: conventional but graceful in dress; animated in movement; full of good-natured laughter, but quite un-american in the beautiful modulation of their speaking tones; chiefly noticeable, however, to a stranger, in the vast variety of color in skin, which imparted to the throng a piquant and unusual interest. every color was here; from the dark brown of alwyn, who was customarily accounted black, to the pale pink-white of miss jones, who could "pass for white" when she would, and found her greatest difficulties when she was trying to "pass" for black. midway between these two extremes lay the sallow pastor of the church, the creamy miss williams, the golden yellow of mr. teerswell, the golden brown of miss johnson, and the velvet brown of mr. grey. the guest themselves did not notice this; they were used to asking one's color as one asks of height and weight; it was simply an extra dimension in their world whereby to classify men. beyond this and their hair, there was little to distinguish them from a modern group of men and women. the speech was a softened english, purely and, on the whole, correctly spoken--so much so that it seemed at first almost unfamiliar to bles, and he experienced again the uncomfortable feeling of being among strangers. then, too, he missed the loud but hearty good-nature of what he had always called "his people." to be sure, a more experienced observer might have noted a lively, excitable tropical temperament set and cast in a cold northern mould, and yet flashing fire now and then in a sudden anomalous out-bursting. but bles missed this; he seemed to have slipped and lost his bearings, and the characteristics of his simple world were rolling curiously about. here stood a black man with a white man's voice, and yonder a white woman with a negro's musical cadences; and yet again, a brown girl with exactly miss cresswell's air, and yonder, miss williams, with zora's wistful willfulness. bles was bewildered and silent, and his great undying sorrow sank on his heart with sickening hopeless weight. his hands got in the way and he found no natural nook in all those wide and tastefully furnished rooms. once he discovered himself standing by a marble statue of a nude woman, and he edged away; then he stumbled over a rug and saved himself only to step on miss jones's silken train. miss jones's smile of pardon was wintry. when he did approach a group and listen, they seemed speaking of things foreign to him--usually of people he did not know, their homes, their doings, their daughters and their fathers. they seemed to know people intimately who lived far away. "you mean the smiths of boston?" asked miss jones. "no, of cleveland. they're not related." "i heard that mcghee of st. paul will be in the city next week with his daughter." "yes, and the bentleys of chicago." bles passed on. he was disappointed. he was full of things to say, of mighty matters to discuss; he felt like stopping these people and crying: "ho! what of the morning? how goes the great battle for black men's rights? i have came with messages from the host, to you who guard the mountain tops." apparently they were not discussing or caring about "the problem." he grew disgusted and was edging toward the door when he encountered his hostess. "is all well with you, mr. alwyn?" she asked lightly. "no, i'm not enjoying myself," said bles, truthfully. "delicious! and why not?" he regarded her earnestly. "there are so many things to talk about," he said; "earnest things; things of importance. i--i think when our people--" he hesitated. our?--was _our_ right? but he went on: "when our people meet we ought to talk of our situation, and what to do and--" miss wynn continued to smile. "we're all talking of it all the time," she said. he looked incredulous. "yes, we are," she insisted. "we veil it a little, and laugh as lightly as we can; but there is only one thought in this room, and that's grave and serious enough to suit even you, and quite your daily topic." "but i don't understand." "ah, there's the rub. you haven't learned our language yet. we don't just blurt into the negro problem; that's voted bad form. we leave that to our white friends. we saunter to it sideways, touch it delicately because"--her face became a little graver--"because, you see, it hurts." bles stood thoughtful and abashed. "i--i think i understand," he gravely said at last. "come here," she said with a sudden turn, and they joined an absorbed group in the midst of a conversation. "--thinking of sending jessie to bryn mawr," bles heard miss jones saying. "could she pass?" "oh, they might think her spanish." "but it's a snobbish place and she would have to give up all her friends." "yes, freddie could scarcely visit--" the rest was lost. "which, being interpreted," whispered miss wynn, "means that bryn mawr draws the color line while we at times surmount it." they moved on to another group. "--splendid draughtsman," a man was saying, "and passed at the head of the crowd; but, of course, he has no chance." "why, it's civil-service, isn't it?" "it is. but what of that? there was watson--" miss wynn did not pause. she whispered: "this is the tale of civil service reform, and how this mighty government gets rid of black men who know too much." "but--" bles tried to protest. "hush," miss wynn commanded and they joined the group about the piano. teerswell, who was speaking, affected not to notice them, and continued: "--i tell you, it's got to come. we must act independently and not be bought by a few offices." "that's all well enough for you to talk, teerswell; you have no wife and babies dependant on you. why should we who have sacrifice the substance for the shadow?" "you see, the judge has got the substance," laughed teerswell. "still i insist: divide and conquer." "nonsense! unite, and keep." bles was puzzled. "they're talking of the coming campaign," said miss wynn. "what!" exclaimed bles aloud. "you don't mean that any one can advise a black man to vote the democratic ticket?" an elderly man turned to them. "thank you, sir," he said; "that is just my attitude; i fought for my freedom. i know what slavery is; may i forget god when i vote for traitors and slave-holders." the discussion waxed warm and miss wynn turned away and sought miss jones. "come, my dear," she said, "it's 'the problem' again." they sauntered away toward a ring of laughter. the discussion thus begun at miss wynn's did not end there. it was on the eve of the great party conventions, and the next night sam stillings came around to get some crumbs from this assembly of the inner circle, into which alwyn had been so unaccountably snatched, and outside of which, despite his endeavors, stillings lingered and seemed destined to linger. but stillings was a patient, resolute man beneath his deferential exterior, and he saw in bles a stepping stone. so he began to drop in at his lodgings and tonight invited him to the bethel literary. "what's that?" asked bles. "a debating club--oldest in the city; the best people all attend." bles hesitated. he had half made up his mind that this was the proper time to call on miss wynn. he told stillings so, and told him also of the evening and the discussion. "why, that's the subject up tonight," stillings declared, "and miss wynn will be sure to be there. you can make your call later. perhaps you wouldn't mind taking me when you call." alwyn reached for his hat. when they arrived, the basement of the great church was filling with a throng of men and women. soon the officers and the speaker of the evening appeared. the president was a brown woman who spoke easily and well, and introduced the main speaker. he was a tall, thin, hatchet-faced black man, clean shaven and well dressed, a lawyer by profession. his theme was "the democratic party and the negro." his argument was cool, carefully reasoned, and plausible. he was evidently feeling for the sympathy of his audience, and while they were not enthusiastic, they warmed to him gradually and he certainly was strongly impressing them. bles was thinking. he sat in the back of the hall, tense, alert, nervous. as the speaker progressed a white man came in and sat down beside him. he was spectacled, with bushy eyebrows and a sleepy look. but he did not sleep. he was very observant. "who's speaking?" he asked bles, and bles told him. then he inquired about one or two other persons. bles could not inform him, but stillings could and did. stillings seemed willing to devote considerable time to him. bles forgot the man. he was almost crouching for a spring, and no sooner had the speaker, with a really fine apostrophe to independence and reason in voting, sat down, than bles was on his feet, walking forward. his form was commanding, his voice deep and musical, and his earnestness terribly evident. he hardly waited for recognition from the slightly astonished president, but fairly burst into speech. "i am from alabama," he began earnestly, "and i know the democratic party." then he told of government and conditions in the black belt, of the lying, oppression, and helplessness of the sodden black masses; then, turning, he reminded them of the history of slavery. finally, he pointed to lincoln's picture and to sumner's and mentioned other white friends. "and, my brothers, they are not all dead yet. the gentleman spoke of senator smith and blamed and ridiculed him. i know senator smith but slightly, but i do know his sister well." dropping to simple narrative, he told of miss smith and of his coming to school; and if his audience felt that great depth of emotion that welled beneath his quiet, almost hesitating, address, it was not simply because of what he did say, but because, too, of the unspoken story that lay too deep for words. he spoke for nearly an hour, and when he stopped, for a moment his hearers sighed and then sprang into a whirlwind of applause. they shouted, clapped, and waved while he sat in blank amazement, and was with difficulty forced to the rostrum to bow again and again. the spectacled white man leaned over to stillings. "who is he?" he asked. stillings told him. the man noted the name and went quietly out. miss wynn sat lost in thought, and teerswell beside her fumed. she was not easily moved, but that speech had moved her. if he could thus stir men and not be himself swayed, she mused, he would be--invincible. but tonight he was moved as greatly as his hearers had been, and that was dangerous. if his intense belief happened to be popular, all right; but if not? she frowned. he was worth watching, she concluded; quite worth watching, and perhaps worth guiding. when alwyn accompanied her home that night, miss wynn set herself to know him better for she suspected that he might be a coming man. the best preliminary to her purpose was, she knew, to speak frankly of herself, and that she did. she told him of her youth and training, her ambitions, her disappointments. quite unconsciously her cynicism crept to the fore, until in word and tone she had almost scoffed at many things that alwyn held true and dear. the touch was too light, the meaning too elusive, for alwyn to grasp always the point of attack; but somehow he got the distant impression that miss wynn had little faith in truth and goodness and love. vaguely shocked he grew so silent that she noticed it and concluded she had said too much. but he pursued the subject. "surely there must be many friends of our race willing to stand for the right and sacrifice for it?" she laughed unpleasantly, almost mockingly. "where?" "well--there's miss smith." "she gets a salary, doesn't she?" "a very small one." "about as large as she could earn. north, i don't doubt." "but the unselfish work she does--the utter sacrifice?" "oh, well, we'll omit alabama, and admit the exception." "well, here, in washington--there's your friend, the judge, who has befriended you so, as you admit." she laughed again. "you remember our visit to senator smith?" "yes." "well, it got the judge his reappointment to the school board." "he deserved it, didn't he?" "i deserved it," she said luxuriously, hugging her knee and smiling; "you see, his appointment meant mine." "well, what of it--didn't--" "listen," she cut in a little sharply. "once a young brown girl, with boundless faith in white folks, went to a judge's office to ask for an appointment which she deserved. there was no one there. the benign old judge with his saintly face and white hair suggested that she lay aside her wraps and spend the afternoon." bles arose to his feet. "what--what did you do?" he asked. "sit down--there's a good boy." i said: "'judge, a friend is expecting me at two,' it was then half-past one, 'would i not best telephone?'" "'step right into the booth,' said the judge, quite indulgently." miss wynn leaned back, and bles felt his heart sinking; but he said nothing. "and then," she continued, "i telephoned the judge's wife that he was anxious to see her on a matter of urgent business; namely, my appointment." she gazed reflectively out of the window. "you should have seen his face when i told him," she concluded. "i was appointed." but bles asked coldly: "why didn't you have him arrested?" "for what? and suppose i had?" bles threw out his arms helplessly. "oh! it isn't as bad as that all over the world, is it?" "it's worse," affirmed miss wynn, quietly positive. "and you are still friendly with him?" "what would you have? i use the world; i did not make it; i did not choose it. he is the world. through him i earn my bread and butter. i have shown him his place. shall i try in addition to reform? shall i make him an enemy? i have neither time nor inclination. shall i resign and beg, or go tilting at windmills? if he were the only one it would be different; but they're all alike." her face grew hard. "have i shocked you?" she said as they went toward the door. "no," he answered slowly. "but i still--believe in the world." "you are young yet, my friend," she lightly replied. "and besides, that good miss smith has gone and grafted a new england conscience on a tropical heart, and--dear me!--but it's a gorgeous misfit. good-bye--come again." she bowed him graciously out, and paused to take the mail from the box. there was, among many others, a letter from senator smith. _twenty-five_ the campaign mr. easterly sat in mrs. vanderpool's apartments in the new willard, washington, drinking tea. his hostess was saying rather carelessly: "do you know, mr. vanderpool has developed a quite unaccountable liking for the idea of being ambassador to france?" "dear me!" mildly exclaimed mr. easterly, helping himself liberally to cakes. "i do hope the thing can be managed, but--" "what are the difficulties?" mrs. vanderpool interrupted. "well, first and foremost, the difficulty of electing our man." "i thought that a foregone conclusion." "it was. but do you know that we're encountering opposition from the most unexpected source?" the lady was receptive, and the speaker concluded: "the negroes." "the negroes!" "yes. there are five hundred thousand or more black voters in pivotal northern states, you know, and they're in revolt. in a close election the negroes of new york, ohio, indiana, and illinois choose the president." "what's the matter?" "well, business interests have driven our party to make friends with the south. the south has disfranchised negroes and lynched a few. the darkies say we've deserted them." mrs. vanderpool laughed. "what extraordinary penetration," she cried. "at any rate," said mr. easterly, drily, "mr. vanderpool's first step toward paris lies in getting the northern negroes to vote the republican ticket. after that the way is clear." mrs. vanderpool mused. "i don't suppose you know any one who is acquainted with any number of these northern darkies?" continued mr. easterly. "not on my calling-list," said mrs. vanderpool, and then she added more thoughtfully: "there's a young clerk in the treasury department named alwyn who has brains. he's just from the south, and i happened to read of him this morning--see here." mr. easterly read an account of the speech at the bethel literary. "we'll look this young man up," he decided; "he may help. of course, mrs. vanderpool, we'll probably win; we can buy these negroes off with a little money and a few small offices; then if you will use your influence for the part with the southerners, i can confidently predict from four to eight years' sojourn in paris." mrs. vanderpool smiled and called her maid as mr. easterly went. "zora!" she had to call twice, for zora, with widened eyes, was reading the washington post. meantime in the office of senator smith, toward which mr. easterly was making his way, several members of the national republican campaign committee had been closeted the day before. "now, about the niggers," the chairman had asked; "how much more boodle do they want?" "that's what's bothering us," announced a member; "it isn't the boodle crowd that's hollering, but a new set, and i don't understand them; i don't know what they represent, nor just how influential they are." "what can i do to help you?" asked senator smith. "this. you are here at washington with these negro office-holders at your back. find out for us just what this revolt is, how far it goes, and what good men we can get to swing the darkies into line--see?" "very good," the senator acquiesced. he called in a spectacled man with bushy eyebrows and a sleepy look. "i want you to work the negro political situation," directed the senator, "and bring me all the data you can get. personally, i'm at sea. i don't understand the negro of today at all; he puzzles me; he doesn't fit any of my categories, and i suspect that i don't fit his. see what you can find out." the man went out, and the senator turned to his desk, then paused and smiled. one day, not long since, he had met a colored person who personified his perplexity concerning negroes; she was a lady, yet she was black--that is, brown; she was educated, even cultured, yet she taught negroes; she was quiet, astute, quick and diplomatic--everything, in fact, that "negroes" were not supposed to be; and yet she was a "negro." she had given him valuable information which he had sought in vain elsewhere, and the event proved it correct. suppose he asked caroline wynn to help him in this case? it would certainly do no harm and it might elect a republican president. he wrote a short letter with his own hand and sent it to post. miss wynn read the letter after alwyn's departure with a distinct thrill which was something of a luxury for her. evidently she was coming to her kingdom. the republican boss was turning to her for confidential information. "what do the colored people want, and who can best influence them in this campaign?" she curled up on the ottoman and considered. the first part of the query did not bother her. "whatever they want they won't get," she said decisively. but as to the man or men who could influence them to believe that they were getting, or about to get, what they wanted--there was a question. one by one she considered the men she knew, and, by a process of elimination, finally arrived at bles alwyn. why not take this young man in hand and make a negro leader of him--a protagonist of ten millions? it would not be unpleasant. but could she do it? would he be amenable to her training and become worldly wise? she flattered herself that he would, and yet--there was a certain steadfast look in the depths of his eyes that might prove to be sheer stubbornness. at any rate, who was better? there was a fellow, stillings, whom alwyn had introduced and whom she had heard of. now he was a politician--but nothing else. she dismissed him. of course, there was the older set of office-holders and rounders. but she was determined to pick a new man. he was worth trying, at any rate; she knew none other with the same build, the brains, the gifts, the adorable youth. very good. she wrote two letters, and then curled up to her novel and candy. next day senator smith held miss wynn's letter unopened in his hand when mr. easterly entered. they talked of the campaign and various matters, until at last easterly said: "say, there's a negro clerk in the treasury named alwyn." "i know him--i had him appointed." "good. he may help us. have you seen this?" the senator read the clipping. "i hadn't noticed it--but here's my agent." the spectacled man entered with a mass of documents. he had papers, posters, programmes, and letters. "the situation is this," he said. "a small group of educated negroes are trying to induce the rest to punish the republican party for not protecting them. these men are not politicians, nor popular leaders, but they have influence and are using it. the old-style negro politicians are no match for them, and the crowd of office-holders are rather bewildered. strong measures are needed. educated men of earnestness and ability might stem the tide. and i believe i know one such man. he spoke at a big meeting last night at the metropolitan church. his name is alwyn." senator smith listened as he opened the letter from caroline wynn. then he started. "well!" he ejaculated, looking quickly up at easterly. "this is positively uncanny. from three separate sources the name of alwyn pops up. looks like a mascot. call up the treasury. let's have him up when the sub-committee meets to-morrow." bles alwyn hurried up to senator smith's office, hoping to hear something about the school; perhaps even about--but he stopped with a sigh, and sat down in the ante-room. he was kept waiting a few moments while senator smith, the chairman, and one other member of the sub-committee had a word. "now, i don't know the young man, mind you," said the senator; "but he's strongly recommended." "what shall we offer him?" asked the chairman. "try him at twenty-five dollars a speech. if he balks, raise to fifty dollars, but no more." they summoned the young man. the chairman produced cigars. "i don't smoke," said bles apologetically. "well, we haven't anything to drink," said the chairman. but senator smith broke in, taking up at once the paramount interest. "mr. alwyn, as you know, the democrats are making an effort to get the negro vote in this campaign. now, i know the disadvantages and wrongs which black men in this land are suffering. i believe the republicans ought to do more to defend them, and i'm satisfied they will; but i doubt if the way to get negro rights is to vote for those who took them away." "i agree with you perfectly," said bles. "i understand you do, and that you made an unusually fine speech on the subject the other night." "thank you, sir." this was a good deal more than bles had expected, and he was embarrassed. "well, now, we think you're just the man to take the stump during september and october and convince the colored people of their real interests." "i doubt if i could, sir; i'm not a speaker. in fact, that was my first public speech." "so much the better. are you willing to try?" "why, yes, sir; but i could hardly afford to give up my position." "we'll arrange for a leave of absence." "then i'll try, sir." "what would you expect as pay?" "i suppose my salary would stop?" "i mean in addition to that." "oh, nothing, sir; i'd be glad to do the work." the chairman nearly choked; sitting back, he eyed the young man. either they were dealing with a fool, or else a very astute politician. if the former, how far could they trust him; if the latter, what was his game? "of course, there'll be considerable travelling," the chairman ventured, looking reflectively out of the window. "yes, sir, i suppose so." "we might pay the railroad fare." "thank you, sir. when shall i begin?" the chairman consulted his calendar. "suppose you hold yourself in readiness for one week from today." "all right," and bles rose. "good-day, gentlemen." but the chairman was still puzzled. "now, what's his game?" he asked helplessly. "he may be honest," offered senator smith, contemplating the door almost wistfully. the campaign progressed. the national republican committee said little about the negro revolt and affected to ignore it. the papers were silent. underneath this calm, however, the activity was redoubled. the prominent negroes were carefully catalogued, written to, and put under personal influence. the negro papers were quietly subsidized, and they began to ridicule and reproach the new leaders. as the fall progressed, mass-meetings were held in washington and the small towns. larger and larger ones were projected, and more and more alwyn was pushed to the front. he was developing into a most effective speaker. he had the voice, the presence, the ideas, and above all he was intensely in earnest. there were other colored orators with voice, presence, and eloquence; but their people knew their record and discounted them. alwyn was new, clear, and sincere, and the black folk hung on his words. large and larger crowds greeted him until he was the central figure in a half dozen great negro mass-meetings in the chief cities of the country, culminating in new york the night before election. perhaps the secret newspaper work, the personal advice of employers and friends, and the liberal distribution of cash, would have delivered a large part of the negro vote to the republican candidate. perhaps--but there was a doubt. with the work of alwyn, however, all doubt disappeared, and there was little reason for denying that the new president walked into the white house through the instrumentality of an unknown georgia negro, little past his majority. this is what senator smith said to mr. easterly; what miss wynn said to herself; and it was what mrs. vanderpool remarked to zora as zora was combing her hair on the wednesday after election. zora murmured an indistinct response. as already something of the beauty of the world had found question and answer in her soul, and as she began to realize how the world had waxed old in thought and stature, so now in their last days a sense of the power of men, as set over against the immensity and force of their surroundings, became real to her. she had begun to read of the lives and doing of those called great, and in her mind a plan was forming. she saw herself standing dim within the shadows, directing the growing power of a man: a man who would be great as the world counted greatness, rich, high in position, powerful--wonderful because his face was black. he would never see her; never know how she worked and planned, save perhaps at last, in that supreme moment as she passed, her soul would cry to his, "redeemed!" and he would understand. all this she was thinking and weaving; not clearly and definitely, but in great blurred clouds of thought of things as she said slowly: "he should have a great position for this." "why, certainly," mrs. vanderpool agreed, and then curiously: "what?" zora considered. "negroes," she said, "have been registers of the treasury, and recorders of deeds here in washington, and douglas was marshal; but i want bles--" she paused and started again. "those are not great enough for mr. alwyn; he should have an office so important that negroes would not think of leaving their party again." mrs. vanderpool took pains to repeat zora's words to mr. easterly. he considered the matter. "in one sense, it's good advice," he admitted; "but there's the south to reckon with. i'll think it over and speak to the president. oh, yes; i'm going to mention france at the same time." mrs. vanderpool smiled and leaned back in her carriage. she noted with considerable interest the young colored woman who was watching her from the sidewalk: a brown, well-appearing young woman of notable self-possession. caroline wynn scrutinized mrs. vanderpool because she had been speaking with mr. easterly, and mr. easterly was a figure of political importance. that very morning miss wynn had telegraphed bles alwyn. alwyn arrived at washington just as the morning papers heralded the sweeping republican victory. all about he met new deference and new friends; strangers greeted him familiarly on the street; sam stillings became his shadow; and when he reported for work his chief and fellow clerks took unusual interest in him. "have you seen senator smith yet?" miss wynn asked after a few words of congratulation. "no. what for?" "what for?" she answered. "go to him today; don't fail. i shall be at home at eight tonight." it seemed to bles an exceedingly silly thing to do--calling on a busy man with no errand; but he went. he decided that he would just thank the senator for his interest, and get out; or, if the senator was busy, he would merely send in his card. evidently the senator was busy, for his waiting-room was full. bles handed the card to the secretary with a word of apology, but the secretary detained him. "ah, mr. alwyn," he said affably; "glad to see you. the senator will want to see you, i know. wait just a minute." and soon bles was shaking senator smith's hand. "well, mr. alwyn," said the senator heartily, "you delivered the goods." "thank you, sir. i tried to." senator smith thoughtfully looked him over and drew out the letters. "your friends, mr. alwyn," he said, adjusting his glasses, "have a rather high opinion of you. here now is stillings, who helped on the campaign. he suggests an eighteen-hundred-dollar clerkship for you." the senator glanced up keenly and omitted to state what stillings suggested for himself. alwyn was visibly grateful as well as surprised. "i--i hoped," he began hesitatingly, "that perhaps i might get a promotion, but i had not thought of a first-class clerkship." "h'm." senator smith leaned back and twiddled his thumbs, staring at alwyn until the hot blood darkened his cheeks. then bles sat up and stared politely but steadily back. the senator's eyes dropped and he put out his hand for the second note. "now, your friend, miss wynn"--alwyn started--"is even more ambitious." he handed her letter to the young man, and pointed out the words. "of course, senator," bles read, "we expect mr. alwyn to be the next register of the treasury." bles looked up in amazement, but the senator reached for a third letter. the room was very still. at last he found it. "this," he announced quietly, "is from a man of great power and influence, who has the ear of the new president." he smoothed out the letter, paused briefly, then read aloud: "'it has been suggested to me by'"--the senator did not read the name; if he had "mrs. vanderpool" would have meant little to alwyn--"'it has been suggested to me by blank that the future allegiance of the negro vote to the republican party might be insured by giving to some prominent negro a high political position--for instance, treasurer of the united states'--salary, six thousand dollars," interpolated senator smith--"'and that alwyn would be a popular and safe appointment for that position.'" the senator did not read the concluding sentence, which ran: "think this over; we can't touch political conditions in the south; perhaps this sop will do." for a long time alwyn sat motionless, while the senator said nothing. then the young man rose unsteadily. "i don't think i quite grasp all this," he said as he shook hands. "i'll think it over," and he went out. when caroline wynn heard of that extraordinary conversation her amazement knew no bounds. yet alwyn ventured to voice doubts: "i'm not fitted for either of those high offices; there are many others who deserve more, and i don't somehow like the idea of seeming to have worked hard in the campaign simply for money or fortune. you see, i talked against that very thing." miss wynn's eyes widened. "well, what else--" she began and then changed. "mr. alwyn, the line between virtue and foolishness is dim and wavering, and i should hate to see you lost in that marshy borderland. by a streak of extraordinary luck you have gained the political leadership of negroes in america. here's your chance to lead your people, and here you stand blinking and hesitating. be a man!" alwyn straightened up and felt his doubts going. the evening passed very pleasantly. "i'm going to have a little dinner for you," said miss wynn finally, and alwyn grew hot with pleasure. he turned to her suddenly and said: "why, i'm rather--black." she expressed no surprise but said reflectively: "you _are_ dark." "and i've been given to understand that miss wynn and her set rather--well, preferred the lighter shades of colored folk." miss wynn laughed lightly. "my parents did," she said simply. "no dark man ever entered their house; they were simply copying the white world. now i, as a matter of aesthetic beauty, prefer your brown-velvet color to a jaundiced yellow, or even an uncertain cream; but the world doesn't." "the world?" "yes, the world; and especially america. one may be chinese, spaniard, even indian--anything white or dirty white in this land, and demand decent treatment; but to be negro or darkening toward it unmistakably means perpetual handicap and crucifixion." "why not, then, admit that you draw the color-line?" "because i don't; but the world does. i am not prejudiced as my parents were, but i am foresighted. indeed, it is a deep ethical query, is it not, how far one has the right to bear black children to the world in the land of the free and the home of the brave. is it fair--to the children?" "yes, it is!" he cried vehemently. "the more to take up the fight, the surer the victory." she laughed at his earnestness. "you are refreshing," she said. "well, we'll dine next tuesday, and we'll have the cream of our world to meet you." he knew that this was a great triumph. it flattered his vanity. after all, he was entering this higher dark world whose existence had piqued and puzzled him so long. he glanced at miss wynn beside him there in the dimly lighted parlor: she looked so aloof and unapproachable, so handsome and so elegant. he thought how she would complete a house--such a home as his prospective four or six thousand dollars a year could easily purchase. she saw him surveying her, and she smiled at him. "i find but one fault with you," she said. he stammered for a pretty speech, but did not find it before she continued: "yes--you are so delightfully primitive; you will not use the world as it is but insist on acting as if it were something else." "i am not sure i understand." "well, there is the wife of my judge: she is a fact in my world; in yours she is a problem to be stated, straightened, and solved. if she had come to you, as she did to me yesterday, with her theory that all that southern negroes needed was to learn how to make good servants and lay brick--" "i should have shown her--" bles tried to interject. "nothing of the sort. you would have tried to show her and would have failed miserably. she hasn't learned anything in twenty years." "but surely you didn't join her in advocating that ten million people be menials?" "oh, no; i simply listened." "well, there was no harm in that; i believe in silence at times." "ah! but i did not listen like a log, but positively and eloquently; with a nod, a half-formed word, a comment begun, which she finished." bles frowned. "as a result," continued miss wynn, "i have a check for five hundred dollars to finish our cooking-school and buy a cast of minerva for the assembly-room. more than that, i have now a wealthy friend. she thinks me an unusually clever person who, by a process of thought not unlike her own, has arrived at very similar conclusions." "but--but," objected bles, "if the time spent cajoling fools were used in convincing the honest and upright, think how much we would gain." "very little. the honest and upright are a sad minority. most of these white folk--believe me, boy," she said caressingly,--"are fools and knaves: they don't want truth or progress; they want to keep niggers down." "i don't believe it; there are scores, thousands, perhaps millions such, i admit; but the average american loves justice and right, and he is the one to whom i appeal with frankness and truth. great heavens! don't you love to be frank and open?" she narrowed her eyelids. "yes, sometimes i do; once i was; but it's a luxury few of us negroes can afford. then, too, i insist that it's jolly to fool them." "don't you hate the deception?" she chuckled and put her head to one side. "at first i did; but, do you know, now i believe i prefer it." he looked so horrified that she burst out laughing. he laughed too. she was a puzzle to him. he kept thinking what a mistress of a mansion she would make. "why do you say these things?" he asked suddenly. "because i want you to do well here in washington." "general philanthropy?" "no, special." her eyes were bright with meaning. "then you care--for me?" "yes." he bent forward and cast the die. "enough to marry me?" she answered very calmly and certainly: "yes." he leaned toward her. and then between him and her lips a dark and shadowy face; two great storm-swept eyes looked into his out of a world of infinite pain, and he dropped his head in hesitation and shame, and kissed her hand. miss wynn thought him delightfully bashful. _twenty-six_ congressman cresswell the election of harry cresswell to congress was a very simple matter. the colonel and his son drove to town and consulted the judge; together they summoned the sheriff and the local member of the state legislature. "i think it's about time that we cresswells asked for a little of the political pie," the colonel smilingly opened. "well, what do you want?" asked the judge. "harry wants to go to congress." the judge hesitated. "we'd half promised that to caldwell," he objected. "it will be a little costly this year, too," suggested the sheriff, tentatively. "about how much?" asked the colonel. "at least five thousand," said the legislator. the colonel said nothing. he simply wrote a check and the matter was settled. in the fall harry cresswell was declared elected. there were four hundred and seventy-two votes cast but the sheriff added a cipher. he said it would look better. early december found the cresswells domiciled in a small house in du pont circle, washington. they had an automobile and four servants, and the house was furnished luxuriously. mary taylor cresswell, standing in her morning room and looking out on the flowers of the square, told herself that few people in the world had cause to be as happy as she. she was tastefully gowned, in a way to set off her blonde beauty and her delicate rounded figure. she was surrounded with wealth, and above all, she was in that atmosphere of aristocracy for which she had always yearned; and already she was acquiring that poise of the head, and a manner of directing the servants, which showed her born to the purple. she had cause to be extremely happy, she told herself this morning, and yet she was puzzled to understand why she was not. why was she restless and vaguely ill at ease so often these days? one matter, indeed, did worry her; but that would right itself in time, she was sure. she had always pictured herself as directing her husband's work. she did not plan to step in and demand a share; she knew from experience with her brother that a woman must prove her usefulness to a man before he will admit it, and even then he may be silent. she intended gradually and tactfully to relieve her husband of care connected with his public life so that, before he realized it, she would be his guiding spirit and his inspiration. she had dreamed the details of doing this so long that it seemed already done, and she could imagine no obstacle to its realization. and yet she found herself today no nearer her goal than when first she married. not because mr. cresswell did not share his work, but because, apparently, he had no work, no duties, no cares. at first, in the dim glories of the honeymoon, this seemed but part of his delicate courtesy toward her, and it pleased her despite her thrifty new england nature; but now that they were settled in washington, the election over and congress in session, it really seemed time for work and life to begin in dead earnest, and new england mary was dreaming mighty dreams and golden futures. but harry apparently was as content as ever with doing nothing. he arose at ten, dined at seven, and went to bed between midnight and sunrise. there was some committee meetings and much mail, but mary was admitted to knowledge of none of these. the obvious step, of course, would be to set him at work; but from this undertaking mary unconsciously recoiled. she had already recognized that while her tastes and her husband's were mostly alike, they were also strikingly different in many respects. they agreed in the daintiness of things, the elegance of detail; but they did not agree always as to the things themselves. given the picture, they would choose the same frame--but they would not choose the same picture. they liked the same voice, but not the same song; the same company, but not the same conversation. of course, mary reflected, frowning at the flowers--of course, this must always be so when two human beings are thrown into new and intimate association. in time they would grow to sweet communion; only, she hoped the communion would be on tastes nearer hers than those he sometimes manifested. she turned impatiently from the window with a feeling of loneliness. but why lonely? she idly fingered a new book on the table and then put it down sharply. there had been several attempts at reading aloud between them some evenings ago, and this book reminded her of them. she had bought jane addams' "newer ideals of peace," and he had yawned over it undisguisedly. then he had brought this novel, and--well, she had balked at the second chapter, and he had kissed her and called her his "little prude." she did not want to be a prude; she hated to seem so, and had for some time prided herself on emancipation from narrow new england prejudices. for example, she had not objected to wine at dinner; it had seemed indeed rather fine, imparting, as it did, an old-fashioned flavor; but she did not like the whiskey, and harry at times appeared to become just a bit too lively--nothing excessive, of course, but his eyes and the smell and the color were a little too suggestive. and yet he was so kind and good, and when he came in at evening he bent so gallantly for his kiss, and laid fresh flowers before her: could anything have been more thoughtful and knightly? just here again she was puzzled; with her folk, hard work and inflexible duty were of prime importance; they were the rock foundation; and she somehow had always counted on the courtesies of life as added to them, making them sweet and beautiful. but in this world, not perhaps so much with harry as with others of his set, the depths beneath the gravely inclined head, the deferential smile and ceremonious action, the light clever converse, had sounded strangely hollow once or twice when she had essayed to sound them, and a certain fear to look and see possessed her. the bell rang, and she was a little startled at the fright that struck her heart. she did not analyze it. in reality--pride forbade her to admit it--she feared it was a call of some of harry's friends: some languid, assured southern ladies, perilously gowned, with veiled disdain for this interloping northerner and her strong mind. especially was there one from new orleans, tall and dark-but it was no caller. it was simply some one named stillings to see mr. cresswell. she went down to see him--he might be a constituent--and found a smirky brown man, very apologetic. "you don't know me--does you, mrs. cresswell?" said stillings. he knew when it was diplomatic to forget his grammar and assume his dialect. "why--no." "you remember i worked for mr. harry and served you-all lunch one day." "oh, yes--why, yes! i remember now very well." "well, i wants to see mr. harry very much; could i wait in the back hall?" mary started to have him wait in the front hall, but she thought better of it and had him shown back. less than an hour later her husband entered and she went quickly to him. he looked worn and white and tired, but he laughed her concern lightly off. "i'll be in earlier tonight," he declared. "is the congressional business very heavy?" he laughed so hilariously that she felt uncomfortable, which he observed. "oh, no," he answered deftly; "not very." and as they moved toward the dining-room mary changed the subject. "oh," she exclaimed, suddenly remembering. "there is a man--a colored man--waiting to see you in the back hall, but i guess he can wait until after lunch." they ate leisurely. "there's going to be racing out at the park this evening," said harry. "want to go?" "i was going to hear an art lecture at the club," mary returned, and grew thoughtful; for here walked her ghost again. of course, the club was an affair with more of gossip than of intellectual effort, but today, largely through her own suggestion, an art teacher of european reputation was going to lecture, and mary preferred it to the company of the race track. and--just as certainly--her husband didn't. "don't forget the man, dear," she reminded him; but he was buried in his paper, frowning. "look at that," he said finally. she glanced at the head-lines--"prominent negro politician candidate for high office at hands of new administration. b. alwyn of alabama." "why, it's bles!" she said, her face lighting as his darkened. "an impudent negro," he voiced his disgust. "if they must appoint darkies why can't they get tractable ones like my nigger stillings." "stillings?" she repeated. "why, he's the man that's waiting." "sam, is it? used to be one of our servants--you remember? wants to borrow more money, i presume." he went down-stairs, after first helping himself to a glass of whiskey, and then gallantly kissing his wife. mrs. cresswell was more unsatisfied than usual. she could not help feeling that mr. cresswell was treating her about as he treated his wine--as an indulgence; a loved one, a regular one, but somehow not as the reality and prose of life, unless--she started at the thought--his life was all indulgence. having nothing else to do, she went out and paraded the streets, watching the people who were happy enough to be busy. cresswell and stillings had a long conference, and when stillings hastened away he could not forbear cutting a discreet pigeon-wing as he rounded the corner. he had been promised the backing of the whole southern delegation in his schemes. that night teerswell called on him in his modest lodgings, where over hot whiskey and water they talked. "the damned southern upstart," growled teerswell, forgetting stillings' birth-place. "do you mean to say he's actually slated for the place?" "he's sure of it, unless something turns up." "well, who'd have dreamed it?" teerswell mixed another stiff dram. "and that isn't all," came sam stillings' unctuous voice. teerswell glanced at him. "what else?" he asked, pausing with the steaming drink poised aloft. "if i'm not mistaken, alwyn intends to marry miss wynn." "you lie!" the other suddenly yelled with an oath, overturning his tumbler and striding across the floor. "do you suppose she'd look at that black--" "well, see here," said the astute stillings, checking the details upon his fingers. "they visit senator smith's together; he takes her home from the treble clef; they say he talked to nobody else at her party; she recommends him for the campaign--" "what!" teerswell again exploded. but stillings continued smoothly: "oh, i have ways of finding things out. she corresponds with him during the campaign; she asks smith to make him register; and he calls on her every night." teerswell sat down limply. "i see," he groaned. "it's all up. she's jilted me--and i--and i--" "i don't see as it's all up yet," stillings tried to reassure him. "but didn't you say they were engaged?" "i think they are; but--well, you know carrie wynn better than i do: suppose, now--suppose he should lose the appointment?" "but you say that's sure." "unless something turns up." "but what _can_ turn up?" "we might turn something." "what--what--i tell you man, i'd--i'd do anything to down that nigger. i hate him. if you'll help me i'll do anything for you." stillings arose and carefully opening the hall door peered out. then he came back and, seating himself close to teerswell, pushed aside the whiskey. "teerswell," he whispered, "you know i was working to be register of the treasury. well, now, when the scheme of making alwyn treasurer came up they determined to appoint a southern white republican and give me a place under alwyn. now, if alwyn fails to land i've got no chance for the bigger place, but i've got a good chance to be register according to the first plan. i helped in the campaign; i've got the negro secret societies backing me and--i don't mind telling you--the solid southern congressional delegation. i'm trying now ostensibly for a chief-clerkship under bles, and i'm pretty sure of it: it pays twenty-five hundred. see here: if we can make bles do some fool talking and get it into the papers, he'll be ditched, and i'll be register." "great!" shouted teerswell. "wait--wait. now, if i get the job, how would you like to be my assistant?" "like it? why, great jehoshaphat! i'd marry carrie--but how can i help you?" "this way. i want to be better known among influential negroes. you introduce me and let me make myself solid. especially i must get in miss wynn's set so that both of us can watch her and alwyn, and make her friends ours." "i'll do it--shake!" and stillings put his oily hand into teerswell's nervous grip. "now, here," stillings went on, "you stow all that jealousy and heavy tragedy. treat alwyn well and call on miss wynn as usual--see?" "it's a hard pill--but all right." "leave the rest to me; i'm hand in glove with alwyn. i'll put stuff into him that'll make him wave the bloody shirt at the next meeting of the bethel literary--see? then i'll go to cresswell and say, 'dangerous nigger--, just as i told you.' he'll begin to move things. you see? cresswell is in with smith--both directors in the big cotton combine--and smith will call alwyn down. then we'll think further." "stillings, you look like a fool, but you're a genius." and teerswell fairly hugged him. a few more details settled, and some more whiskey consumed, and teerswell went home at midnight in high spirits. stillings looked into the glass and scowled. "look like a fool, do i?" he mused. "well, i ain't!" congressman cresswell was stirred to his first political activity by the hint given him through stillings. he not only had a strong personal dislike for alwyn, but he regarded the promise to him of a high office as a menace to the south. the second speech which alwyn made at the bethel literary was, as stillings foresaw, a reply to the stinging criticisms of certain colored papers engineered by teerswell, who said that alwyn had been bribed to remain loyal to the republicans by a six thousand dollar office. alwyn had been cut to the quick, and his reply was a straight out defence of negro rights and a call to the republican party to redeem its pledges. caroline wynn, seeing the rocks for which her political craft was headed, adroitly steered several newspaper reports into the waste basket, but stillings saw to it that a circumstantial account was in the _colored american_, and that a copy of this paper was in congressman cresswell's hands. cresswell lost no time in calling on senator smith and pointing out to him that bles alwyn was a dangerous negro: seeking social equality, hating white people, and scheming to make trouble. he was too young and heady. it would be fatal to give such a man office and influence; fatal for the development of the south, and bad for the cotton combine. senator smith was unconvinced. alwyn struck him as a well-balanced fellow, and he thought he deserved the office. he would, however, warn him to make no further speeches like that of last night. cresswell mentioned stillings as a good, inoffensive negro who knew his place and could be kept track of. "stillings is a good man," admitted smith; "but alwyn is better. however, i'll bear what you say in mind." cresswell found mr. easterly in mrs. vanderpool's parlor, and that gentleman was annoyed at the news. "i especially picked out this alwyn because he was southern and tractable, and seemed to have sense enough to know how to say well what we wanted to say." "when, as a matter of fact," drawled mrs. vanderpool, "he was simply honest." "the south won't stand it," cresswell decisively affirmed. "well--" began mr. easterly. "see here," interrupted mrs. vanderpool. "i'm interested in alwyn; in fact, an honest man in politics, even if he is black, piques my curiosity. give him a chance and i'll warrant he'll develop all the desirable traits of a first class office-holder." easterly hesitated. "we must not offend the south, and we must placate the negroes," he said. "the right sort of negro--one like stillings--appointed to a reasonable position, would do both," opined cresswell. "it evidently didn't," mrs. vanderpool interjected. cresswell arose. "i tell you, mr. easterly, i object--it mustn't go through." he took his leave. mrs. vanderpool did not readily give up her plea for alwyn, and bade zora get mr. smith on the telephone for discussion. "well," reported easterly, hanging up the receiver, "we may land him. it seems that he is engaged to a washington school-teacher, and smith says she has him well in hand. she's a pretty shrewd proposition, and understands that alwyn's only chance now lies in keeping his mouth shut. we may land him," he repeated. "engaged!" gasped mrs. vanderpool. zora quietly closed the door. _twenty-seven_ the vision of zora how zora found the little church she never knew; but somehow, in the long dark wanderings which she had fallen into the habit of taking at nightfall, she stood one evening before it. it looked warm, and she was cold. it was full of her people, and she was very, very lonely. she sat in a back seat, and saw with unseeing eyes. she said again, as she had said to herself a hundred times, that it was all right and just what she had expected. what else could she have dreamed? that he should ever marry her was beyond possibility; that had been settled long since--there where the tall, dark pines, wan with the shades of evening, cast their haunting shadows across the silver fleece and half hid the blood-washed west. after _that_ he would marry some one else, of course; some good and pure woman who would help and uplift and serve him. she had dreamed that she would help--unknown, unseen--and perhaps she had helped a little through mrs. vanderpool. it was all right, and yet why so suddenly had the threads of life let go? why was she drifting in vast waters; in uncharted wastes of sea? why was the puzzle of life suddenly so intricate when but a little week ago she was reading it, and its beauty and wisdom and power were thrilling her delighted hands? could it be possible that all unconsciously she had dared dream a forbidden dream? no, she had always rejected it. when no one else had the right; when no one thought; when no one cared, she had hovered over his soul as some dark guardian angel; but now, now somebody else was receiving his gratitude. it was all right, she supposed; but she, the outcast child of the swamp, what was there for her to do in the great world--her, the burden of whose sin-but then came the voice of the preacher: _"behold the lamb of god, that taketh away the sin of the world_." she found herself all at once intently listening. she had been to church many times before, but under the sermons and ceremonies she had always sat coldly inert. in the south the cries, contortions, and religious frenzy left her mind untouched; she did not laugh or mock, she simply sat and watched and wondered. at the north, in the white churches, she enjoyed the beauty of wall, windows, and hymn, liked the voice and surplice of the preacher; but his words had no reference to anything in which she was interested. here suddenly came an earnest voice addressed, by singular chance, to her of all the world. she listened, bending forward, her eyes glued to the speaker's lips and letting no word drop. he had the build and look of the fanatic: thin to emancipation; brown; brilliant-eyed; his words snapped in nervous energy and rang in awful earnestness. "life is sin, and sin is sorrow. sorrow is born of selfishness and self-seeking--our own good, our own happiness, our own glory. as if any one of us were worth a life! no, never. a single self as an end is, and ought to be, disappointment; it is too low; it is nothing. only in a whole world of selves, infinite, endless, eternal world on worlds of selves--only in their vast good is true salvation. the good of others is our true good; work for others; not for your salvation, but the salvation of the world." the audience gave a low uneasy groan and the minister in whose pulpit the stranger preached stirred uneasily. but he went on tensely, with flying words: "unselfishness is sacrifice--jesus was supreme sacrifice." ("amen," screamed a voice.) "in your dark lives," he cried, "_who_ is the king of glory? sacrifice. lift up your heads, then, ye gates of prejudice and hate, and let the king of glory come in. forget yourselves and your petty wants, and behold your starving people. the wail of black millions sweeps the air--east and west they cry, help! help! are you dumb? are you blind? do you dance and laugh, and hear and see not? the cry of death is in the air; they murder, burn, and maim us!" ("oh--oh--" moaned the people swaying in their seats.) "when we cry they mock us; they ruin our women and debauch our children--what shall we do? "behold the lamb of god that taketh away sin. behold the supreme sacrifice that makes us clean. give up your pleasures; give up your wants; give up all to the weak and wretched of our people. go down to pharaoh and smite him in god's name. go down to the south where we writhe. strive--work--build--hew--lead--inspire! god calls. will you hear? come to jesus. the harvest is waiting. who will cry: 'here am i, send me!'" zora rose and walked up the aisle; she knelt before the altar and answered the call: "here am i--send me." and then she walked out. above her sailed the same great stars; around her hummed the same hoarse city; but within her soul sang some new song of peace. "what is the matter, zora?" mrs. vanderpool inquired, for she seemed to see in the girl's face and carriage some subtle change; something that seemed to tell how out of the dream had stepped the dreamer into the realness of things; how suddenly the seeker saw; how to the wanderer, the way was opened. just how she sensed this mrs. vanderpool could not have explained, nor could zora. was there a change, sudden, cataclysmic? no. there were to come in future days all the old doubts and shiverings, the old restless cry: "it is all right--all right!" but more and more, above the doubt and beyond the unrest, rose the great end, the mighty ideal, that flickered and wavered, but ever grew and waxed strong, until it became possible, and through it all things else were possible. thus from the grave of youth and love, amid the soft, low singing of dark and bowed worshippers, the angel of the resurrection rolled away the stone. "what is the matter, zora?" mrs. vanderpool repeated. zora looked up, almost happily--standing poised on her feet as if to tell of strength and purpose. "i have found the way," she cried joyously. mrs. vanderpool gave her a long searching look. "where have you been?" she asked. "i've been waiting." "i'm sorry--but i've been--converted." and she told her story. "pshaw, zora!" mrs. vanderpool uttered impatiently. "he's a fakir." "maybe," said zora serenely and quietly; "but he brought the word." "zora, don't talk cant; it isn't worthy of your intelligence." "it was more than intelligent--it was true." "zora--listen, child! you were wrought up tonight, nervous--wild. you were happy to meet your people, and where he said one word you supplied two. what you attribute to him is the voice of your own soul." but zora merely smiled. "all you say may be true. but what does it matter? i know one thing, like the man in the bible: 'whereas i was blind now i see.'" mrs. vanderpool gave a little helpless gesture. "and what shall you do?" she asked. "i'm going back south to work for my people." "when?" the old careworn look stole across mrs. vanderpool's features. zora came gently forward and slipped her arms lovingly about the other woman's neck. "not right off," she said gently; "not until i learn more. i hate to leave you, but--it calls!" mrs. vanderpool held the dark girl close and began craftily: "you see, zora, the more you know the more you can do." "yes." "and if you are determined i will see that you are taught. you must know settlement-work and reform movements; not simply here but--" she hesitated--"in england--in france." "will it take long?" zora asked, smoothing the lady's hair. mrs. vanderpool considered. "no--five years is not long; it is all too short." "five years: it is very long; but there is a great deal to learn. must i study five years?" mrs. vanderpool threw back her head. "zora, i am selfish i know, but five years truly is none too long. then, too, zora, we have work to do in that time." "what?" "there is alwyn's career," and mrs. vanderpool looked into zora's eyes. the girl did not shrink, but she paused. "yes," she said slowly, "we must help him." "and after he rises--" "he will marry." "whom?" "the woman he loves," returned zora, quietly. "yes--that is best," sighed mrs. vanderpool. "but how shall we help him?" "make him treasurer of the united states without sacrificing his manhood or betraying his people." "i can do that," said mrs. vanderpool slowly. "it will cost something," said zora. "i will do it," was the lady's firm assurance. zora kissed her. the next afternoon mrs. cresswell went down to a white social settlement of which congressman todd had spoken, where a meeting of the civic club was to be held. she had come painfully to realize that if she was to have a career she must make it for herself. the plain, unwelcome truth was that her husband had no great interests in life in which she could find permanent pleasure. companionship and love there was and, she told herself, always would be; but in some respects their lives must flow in two streams. last night, for the second time, she had irritated him; he had spoken almost harshly to her, and she knew she must brood or work today. and so she hunted work, eagerly. she felt the atmosphere the moment she entered. there were carelessly gowned women and men smart and shabby, but none of them were thinking of clothes nor even of one another. they had great deeds in mind; they were scanning the earth; they were toiling for men. the same grim excitement that sends smaller souls hunting for birds and rabbits and lions, had sent them hunting the enemies of mankind: they were bent to the chase, scenting the game, knowing the infinite meaning of their hunt and the glory of victory. mary cresswell had listened but a half hour before her world seemed so small and sordid and narrow, so trivial, that a sense of shame spread over her. these people were not only earnest, but expert. they acknowledged the need of mr. todd's educational bill. "but the republicans are going to side-track it; i have that on the best authority," said one. "true; but can't we force them to it?" "only by political power, and they've just won a campaign." "they won it by negro votes, and the negro who secured the votes is eager for this bill; he's a fine, honest fellow." "very well; work with him; and when we can be of real service let us know. meantime, this child labor bill is different. it's bound to pass. both parties are back of it, and public opinion is aroused. now our work is to force amendments enough to make the bill effective." discussion followed; not flamboyant and declamatory, but tense, staccato, pointed. mrs. cresswell found herself taking part. someone mentioned her name, and one or two glances of interest and even curiosity were thrown her way. congressmen's wives were rare at the civic club. congressmen todd urged mrs. cresswell to stay after the discussion and attend a meeting of the managers and workers of the washington social settlements. "have you many settlements?" she inquired. "three in all--two white and one colored." "and will they all be represented?" "yes, of course, mrs. cresswell. if you object to meeting the colored people--" mrs. cresswell blushed. "no, indeed," she answered; "i used to teach colored people." she watched this new group gather: a business man, two fashionable ladies, three college girls, a gray-haired colored woman, and a young spectacled brown man, and then, to her surprise, mrs. vanderpool and zora. zora was scarcely seated when that strange sixth sense of hers told her that something had happened, and it needed but a side-glance from mrs. vanderpool to indicate what it was. she sat with folded hands and the old dreamy look in her eyes. in one moment she lived it all again--the red cabin, the moving oak, the sowing of the fleece, and its fearful reaping. and now, when she turned her head, she would see the woman who was to marry bles alwyn. she had often dreamed of her, and had set a high ideal. she wanted her to be handsome, well dressed, earnest and good. she felt a sort of person proprietorship in her, and when at last the quickened pulse died to its regular healthy beat, she turned and looked and knew. caroline wynn deemed it a part of the white world's education to participate in meetings like this; doing so was not pleasant, but it appealed to her cynicism and mocking sense of pleasure. she always roused hostility as she entered: her gown was too handsome, her gloves too spotless, her air had hauteur enough to be almost impudent in the opinion of most white people. then gradually her intelligence, her cool wit and self-possession, would conquer and she would go gracefully out leaving a rather bewildered audience behind. she sat today with her dark gold profile toward zora, and the girl looked and was glad. she was such a woman she would have bles marry. she was glad, and she choked back the sob that struggled and fought in her throat. the meeting never got beyond a certain constraint. the congressman made an excellent speech; there were various sets of figures read by the workers; and miss wynn added a touch of spice by several pertinent questions and comments. then, as the meeting broke up and mrs. cresswell came forward to speak to zora, mrs. vanderpool managed to find herself near miss wynn and to be introduced. they exchanged a few polite phrases, fencing delicately to test the other's wrist and interest. they touched on the weather, and settlement work; but miss wynn did not propose to be stranded on the negro problem. "i suppose the next bit of excitement will be in the inauguration," she said to mrs. vanderpool. "i understand it will be unusually elaborate," returned mrs. vanderpool, a little surprised at the turn. then she added pleasantly: "i think i shall see it through, from speech to ball." "yes, i do usually," miss wynn asserted, adjusting her furs. mrs. vanderpool was further surprised. did colored people attend the ball? "we sorely need a national ball-room," she said. "isn't the census building wretched?" "i do not know," smiled miss wynn. "oh, i thought you said--" "i meant _our_ ball." "oh!" said mrs. vanderpool in turn. "oh!" here a thought came. of course, the colored people had their own ball; she remembered having heard about it. why not send zora? she plunged in: "miss wynn, i have a maid--such an intelligent girl; i do wish she could attend your ball--" seeing her blunder, she paused. miss wynn was coolly buttoning her glove. "yes," she acknowledged politely, "few of us can afford maids, and therefore we do not usually arrange for them; but i think we can have your _protã©gã©e_ look on from the gallery. good-afternoon." as mrs. vanderpool drove home she related the talk to zora. zora was silent at first. then she said deliberately: "miss wynn was right." "why, zora!" "did helene attend the ball four years ago?" "but, zora, must you folk ape our nonsense as well as our sense?" "you force us to," said zora. _twenty-eight_ the annunciation the new president had been inaugurated. beneath the creamy pile of the old capitol, and facing the new library, he had stood aloft and looked down on a waving sea of faces--black-coated, jostling, eager-eyed fellow creatures. they had watched his lips move, had scanned eagerly his dress and the gowned and decorated dignitaries beside him; and then, with blare of band and prancing of horses, he had been whirled down the dip and curve of that long avenue, with its medley of meanness and thrift and hurry and wealth, until, swinging sharply, the dim walls of the white house rose before him. he entered with a sigh. then the vast welter of humanity dissolved and streamed hither and thither, gaping and laughing until night, when thousands poured into the red barn of the census shack and entered the artificial fairyland within. the president walked through, smiling; the senators protected their friends in the crush; and harry cresswell led his wife to a little oasis of southern ladies and gentlemen. "this is democracy for you," said he, wiping his brow. from a whirling eddy mrs. vanderpool waved at them, and they rescued her. "i think i am ready to go," she gasped. "did you ever!" "come," cresswell invited. but just then the crowd pushed them apart and shot them along, and mrs. cresswell found herself clinging to her husband amid two great whirling variegated throngs of driving, white-faced people. the band crashed and blared; the people laughed and pushed; and with rhythmic sound and swing the mighty throng was dancing. it took much effort, but at last the cresswell party escaped and rolled off in their carriages. they swept into the avenue and out again, then up 14th street, where, turning for some street obstruction, they passed a throng of carriages on a cross street. "it's the other ball," cried mrs. vanderpool, and amid laughter she added, "let's go!" it was--the other ball. for washington is itself, and something else besides. along beside it ever runs that dark and haunting echo; that shadowy world-in-world with its accusing silence, its emphatic self-sufficiency. mrs. cresswell at first demurred. she thought of elspeth's cabin: the dirt, the smell, the squalor: of course, this would be different; but--well, mrs. cresswell had little inclination for slumming. she was interested in the under-world, but intellectually, not by personal contact. she did not know that this was a side-world, not an under-world. yet the imposing building did not look sordid. "hired?" asked some one. "no, owned." "indeed!" then there was a hitch. "tickets?" "where can we buy them?" "not on sale," was the curt reply. "actually exclusive!" sneered cresswell, for he could not imagine any one unwelcome at a negro ball. then he bethought himself of sam stillings and sent for him. in a few minutes he had a dozen complimentary tickets in his hand. they entered the balcony and sat down. mary cresswell leaned forward. it was interesting. beneath her was an ordinary pretty ball--flowered, silked, and ribboned; with swaying whirling figures, music, and laughter, and all the human fun of gayety and converse. and then she was impressed with the fact that this was no ordinary scene; it was, on the contrary, most extraordinary. there was a black man waltzing with a white woman--no, she was not white, for mary caught the cream and curl of the girl as she swept past: but there was a white man (was he white?) and a black woman. the color of the scene was wonderful. the hard human white seemed to glow and live and run a mad gamut of the spectrum, from morn till night, from white to black; through red and sombre browns, pale and brilliant yellows, dead and living blacks. through her opera-glasses mary scanned their hair; she noted everything from the infinitely twisted, crackled, dead, and grayish-black to the piled mass of red golden sunlight. her eyes went dreaming; there below was the gathering of the worlds. she saw types of all nations and all lands swirling beneath her in human brotherhood, and a great wonder shook her. they seemed so happy. surely, this was no nether world; it was upper earth, and--her husband beckoned; he had been laughing incontinently. he saw nothing but a crowd of queer looking people doing things they were not made to do and appearing absurdly happy over it. it irritated him unreasonably. "see the washer-woman in red," he whispered. "look at the monkey. come, let's go." they trooped noisily down-stairs, and cresswell walked unceremoniously between a black man and his partner. mrs. vanderpool recognized and greeted the girl as miss wynn. mrs. cresswell did not notice her, but she paused with a start of recognition at the sight of the man. "why, bles!" she exclaimed impetuously, starting to hold out her hand. she was sincerely pleased at seeing him. then she remembered. she bowed and smiled, looking at him with interest and surprise. he was correctly dressed, and the white shirt set off the comeliness of his black face in compelling contrast. he carried himself like a man, and bowed with gravity and dignity. she passed on and heard her husband's petulant voice in her ear. "mary--mary! for heaven's sake, come on; don't shake hands with niggers." it was recurring flashes of temper like this, together with evidences of dubious company and a growing fondness for liquor, that drove mary cresswell more and more to find solace in the work of congressman todd's civic club. she collected statistics for several of the committee, wrote letters, interviewed a few persons, and felt herself growing in usefulness and importance. she did not mention these things to her husband; she knew he would not object, but she shrank from his ridicule. the various causes advocated by the civic club felt the impetus of the aggressive work of the organization. this was especially the case with the national education bill and the amendment to the child labor bill. the movement became strong enough to call mr. easterly down from new york. he and the inner circle went over matters carefully. "we need the political strength of the south," said easterly; "not only in framing national legislation in our own interests, but always in state laws. particularly, we must get them into line to offset todd's foolishness. the child labor bill must either go through unamended or be killed. the cotton inspection bill--our chief measure--must be slipped through quietly by southern votes, while in the tariff mix-up we must take good care of cotton. "now, on the other hand, we are offending the southerners in three ways: todd's revived blair bill is too good a thing for niggers; the south is clamoring for a first classy embassy appointment; and the president's nomination of alwyn as treasurer will raise a howl from virginia to texas." "there is some strong influence back of alwyn," said senator smith; "not only are the negroes enthused, but the president has daily letters from prominent whites." "the strong influence is named vanderpool," easterly drily remarked. "she's playing a bigger political game than i laid out for her. that's the devil with women: they can't concentrate: they get too damned many side issues. now, i offered her husband the french ambassadorship provided she'd keep the southerners feeling good toward us. she's hand in glove with the southerners, all right; but she wants not only her husband's appointment but this darkey's too." "but that's been decided, hasn't it?" put in smith. "yes," grumbled easterly; "but it makes it hard already. at any rate, the educational bill must be killed right off. no more talk; no more consideration--kill it, and kill it now. now about this child labor bill: todd's civic club is raising the mischief. who's responsible?" the silent jackson spoke up. "congressman cresswell's wife has been very active, and todd thinks they've got the south with them." "congressman cresswell's wife!" easterly's face was one great exclamation point. "now what the devil does this mean?" "i'm afraid," said senator smith, "that it may mean an attempt on the part of cresswell's friends to boost him for the french ambassadorship. he's the only southerner with money enough to support the position, and there's been a good deal of quiet talk, i understand, in southern circles." "but it's treason!" easterly shouted. "it will ruin the plans of the combine to put this amended child labor bill through. john taylor has just written me that he's starting mills at toomsville, and that he depends on unrestricted labor conditions, as we must throughout the south. doesn't cresswell know this?" "of course. i think it's just a bluff. if he gets the appointment he'll let the bill drop." "i see--everybody is raising his price, is he? pretty soon the darky will be holding us up. well, see cresswell, and put it to him strong. i must go. wire me." senator smith presented the matter bluntly to cresswell as soon as he saw him. "which would the south prefer--todd's education bill, or alwyn's appointment?" it was characteristic of cresswell that the smaller matter of stillings' intrigue should interest him more than todd's measure, of which he knew nothing. "what is todd's bill?" asked harry cresswell, darkening. smith, surprised, got out a copy and explained. cresswell interrupted before he was half through. "don't you see," he said angrily, "that that will ruin our plans for the cotton combine?" "yes, i do," replied smith; "but it will not do the immediate harm that the amended child labor bill will do." "what's that?" demanded cresswell, frowning again. senator smith regarded him again: was cresswell playing a shrewd game? "why," he said at length, "aren't you promoting it?" "no," was the reply. "never heard of it." "but," senator smith began, and paused. he turned and took up a circular issued by the civic club, giving a careful account of their endeavors to amend and pass the child labor bill. cresswell read it, then threw it aside. "nonsense!" he indignantly repudiated the measure. "that will never do; it's as bad as the education bill." "but your wife is encouraging it and we thought you were back of it." cresswell stared in blank amazement. "my wife!" he gasped. then he bethought himself. "it's a mistake," he supplemented; "mrs. cresswell gave them no authority to sign her name." "she's been very active," smith persisted, "and naturally we were all anxious." cresswell bit his lip. "i shall speak to her; she does not realize what use they are making of her passing interest." he hurried away, and senator smith felt a bit sorry for mrs. cresswell when he recalled the expression on her husband's face. mary cresswell did not get home until nearly dinner time; then she came in glowing with enthusiasm. her work had received special commendation that afternoon, and she had been asked to take the chairmanship of the committee on publicity. finding that her husband was at home, she determined to tell him--it was so good to be doing something worth while. perhaps, too, he might be made to show some interest. she thought of mr. and mrs. todd and the old dream glowed faintly again. cresswell looked at her as she entered the library where he was waiting and smoking. she was rumpled and muddy, with flying hair and thick walking shoes and the air of bustle and vigor which had crept into her blood this last month. truly, her cheeks were glowing and her eyes bright, but he disapproved. softness and daintiness, silk and lace and glimmering flesh, belonged to women in his mind, and he despised amazons and "business" women. he received her kiss coldly, and mary's heart sank. she essayed some gay greeting, but he interrupted her. "what's this stuff about the civic club?" he began sharply. "stuff?" she queried, blankly. "that's what i said." "i'm sure i don't know," she answered stiffly. "i belong to the civic club, and have been working with it." "why didn't you tell me?" his resentment grew as he proceeded. "i did not think you were interested." "didn't you know that this child labor business was opposed to my interests?" "dear, i did not dream it. it's a republican bill, to be sure; but you seemed very friendly with senator smith, who introduced it. we were simply trying to improve it." "suppose we didn't want it improved." "that's what some said; but i did not believe such--deception." the blood rushed to cresswell's face. "well, you will drop this bill and the civic club from now on." "why?" "because i say so," he retorted explosively, too angry to explain further. she looked at him--a long, fixed, penetrating look which revealed more than she had ever seen before, then turned away and went slowly up-stairs. she did not come down to dinner, and in the evening the doctor was called. cresswell drooped a bit after eating, hesitated, and reflected. he had acted too cavalierly in this civic club mess, he concluded, and yet he would not back down. he'd go see her and pet her a bit, but be firm. he opened her boudoir door gently, and she stood before him radiant, clothed in silk and lace, her hair loosened. he paused, astonished. but she threw herself upon his neck, with a joyful, half hysterical cry. "i will give it all up--everything! willingly, willingly!" her voice dropped abruptly to a tremulous whisper. "oh, harry! i--i am to be the mother of a child!" _twenty-nine_ a master of fate "there is not the slightest doubt, miss wynn," senator smith was saying, "but that the schools of the district will be reorganized." "and the board of education abolished?" she added. "yes. the power will be delegated to a single white superintendent." the vertical line in caroline wynn's forehead became pronounced. "whose work is this, senator?" she asked. "well, there are, of course, various parties back of the change: the 'outs,' the reformers, the whole tendency to concentrate responsibility, and so on. but, frankly, the deciding factor was the demand of the south." "is there anything in washington that the south does not already own?" senator smith smiled thinly. "not much," drily; "but we own the south." "and part of the price is putting the colored schools of the district in the hands of a southern man and depriving us of all voice in their control?" "precisely, miss wynn. but you'd be surprised to know that it was the negroes themselves who stirred the south to this demand." "not at all; you mean the colored newspapers, i presume." "the same, with teerswell's clever articles; then his partner stillings worked the 'impudent negro teacher' argument on cresswell until cresswell was wild to get the south in control of the schools." "but what do teerswell and stillings want?" "they want bles alwyn to make a fool of himself." "that is a trifle cryptic," miss wynn mused. the senator amplified. "we are giving the south the washington schools and killing the education bill in return for this support of some of our measures and their assent to alwyn's appointment. you see i speak frankly." "i can stand it, senator." "i believe you can. well, now, if alwyn should act unwisely and offend the south, somebody else stands in line for the appointment." "as treasurer?" she asked in surprise. "oh, no, they are too shrewd to ask that; it would offend their backers, or shall i say their tools, the southerners. no, they ask only to be register and assistant register of the treasury. this is an office colored men have held for years, and it is quite ambitious enough for them; so stillings assures cresswell and his friends." "i see," miss wynn slowly acknowledged. "but how do they hope to make mr. alwyn blunder?" "too easily, i fear--unless _you_ are very careful. alwyn has been working like a beaver for the national education bill. he's been in to see me several times, as you probably know. his heart is set on it. he regards its passage as a sort of vindication of his defence of the party." "yes." "now, the party has dropped the bill for good, and alwyn doesn't like it. if he should attack the party--" "but he wouldn't," cried miss wynn with a start that belied her conviction. "did you know that he is to be invited to make the principal address to the graduates of the colored high-school?" "but," she objected. "they have selected bishop johnson; i--" "i know you did," laughed the senator, "but the judge got orders from higher up." "shrewd mr. teerswell," remarked miss wynn, sagely. "shrewd mr. stillings," the senator corrected; "but perhaps too shrewd. suppose mr. alwyn should take this occasion to make a thorough defence of the party?" "but--will he?" "that's where you come in," senator smith pointed out, rising, "and the real reason of this interview. we're depending on you to pull the party out of an awkward hole," and he shook hands with his caller. miss wynn walked slowly up pennsylvania avenue with a smile on her face. "i did not give him the credit," she declared, repeating it; "i did not give him the credit. here i was, playing an alluring game on the side, and my dear tom transforms it into a struggle for bread and butter; for of course, if the board of education goes, i lose my place." she lifted her head and stared along the avenue. a bitterness dawned in her eyes. the whole street was a living insult to her. here she was, an american girl by birth and breeding, a daughter of citizens who had fought and bled and worked for a dozen generations on this soil; yet if she stepped into this hotel to rest, even with full purse, she would be politely refused accommodation. should she attempt to go into this picture show she would be denied entrance. she was thirsty with the walk; but at yonder fountain the clerk would roughly refuse to serve her. it was lunch time; there was no place within a mile where she was allowed to eat. the revolt deepened within her. beyond these known and definite discriminations lay the unknown and hovering. in yonder store nothing hindered the clerk from being exceptionally pert; on yonder street-car the conductor might reserve his politeness for white folk; this policeman's business was to keep black and brown people in their places. all this caroline wynn thought of, and then smiled. this was the thing poor blind bles was trying to attack by "appeals" for "justice." nonsense! does one "appeal" to the red-eyed beast that throttles him? no. he composes himself, looks death in the eye, and speaks softly, on the chance. whereupon miss wynn composed herself, waved gayly at a passing acquaintance, and matched some ribbons in a department store. the clerk was new and anxious to sell. meantime her brain was busy. she had a hard task before her. alwyn's absurd conscience and quixotic ideas were difficult to cope with. after his last indiscreet talk she had ventured deftly to remonstrate, and she well remembered the conversation. "wasn't what i said true?" he had asked. "perfectly. is that an excuse for saying it?" "the facts ought to be known." "yes, but ought you to tell them?" "if not i, who?" "some one who is less useful elsewhere, and whom i like less." "carrie," he had been intensely earnest. "i want to do the best thing, but i'm puzzled. i wonder if i'm selling my birthright for six thousand dollars?" "in case of doubt, do it." "but there's the doubt: i may convert; i may open the eyes of the blind; i may start a crusade for negro rights." "don't believe it; it's useless; we'll never get our rights in this land." "you don't believe that!" he had ejaculated, shocked. well, she must begin again. as she had hoped, he was waiting for her when she reached home. she welcomed him cordially, made a little music for him, and served tea. "bles," she said, "the opposition has been laying a pretty shrewd trap for you." "what?" he asked absently. "they are going to have you chosen as high school commencement orator." "me? stuff!" "you--and not stuff, but 'education' will be your natural theme. indeed, they have so engineered it that the party chiefs expect from you a defence of their dropping of the educational bill." "what!" "yes, and probably your nomination will come before the speech and confirmation after." bles walked the floor excitedly for a while and then sat down and smiled. "it was a shrewd move," he said; "but i think i thank them for it." "i don't. but still, _"''t is the sport to see the engineer hoist by his own petar.'"_ bles mused and she watched him covertly. suddenly she leaned over. "moreover," she said, "about that same date i'm liable to lose my position as teacher." he looked at her quickly, and she explained the coming revolution in school management. he did not discuss the matter, and she was equally reticent; but when he entered the doors of his lodging-place and, gathering his mail, slowly mounted the stairs, there came the battle of his life. he knew it and he tried to wage it coolly and with method. he arrayed the arguments side by side: on this side lay success; the greatest office ever held by a negro in america--greater than douglass or bruce or lynch had held--a landmark, a living example and inspiration. a man owed the world success; there were plenty who could fail and stumble and give multiple excuses. should he be one? he viewed the other side. what must he pay for success? aye, face it boldly--what? mechanically he searched for his mail and undid the latest number of the _colored american_. he was sure the answer stood there in teerswell's biting vulgar english. and there it was, with a cartoon: his master's voice alwyn is ordered to eat his words or get out watch him do it gracefully the republican leaders, etc. he threw down his paper, and the hot blood sang in his ears. the sickening thought was that it was true. if he did make the speech demanded it would be like a dog obedient to his master's voice. the cold sweat oozed on his face; throwing up the window, he drank in the spring breeze, and stared at the city he once had thought so alluring. somehow it looked like the swamp, only less beautiful; he stretched his arms and his lips breathed--"zora!" he turned hastily to his desk and looked at the other piece of mail--a single sealed note carefully written on heavy paper. he did not recognize the handwriting. then his mind flew off again. what would they say if he failed to get the office? how they would silently hoot and jeer at the upstart who suddenly climbed so high and fell. and carrie wynn--poor carrie, with her pride and position dragged down in his ruin: how would she take it? he writhed in soul. and yet, to be a man; to say calmly, "no"; to stand in that great audience and say, "my people first and last"; to take carrie's hand and together face the world and struggle again to newer finer triumphs--all this would be very close to attainment of the ideal. he found himself staring at the little letter. would she go? would she, could she, lay aside her pride and cynicism, her dainty ways and little extravagances? an odd fancy came to him: perhaps the answer to the riddle lay sealed within the envelope he fingered. he opened it. within lay four lines of writing--no more--no address, no signature; simply the words: _"it matters now how strait the gate, how charged with punishment the scroll; i am the master of my fate, i am the captain of my soul."_ he stared at the lines. eleven o'clock--twelve--one--chimed the deep-voiced clock without, before alwyn went to bed. miss wynn had kept a vigil almost as long. she knew that bles had influential friends who had urged his preferment; it might be wise to enlist them. before she fell asleep she had determined to have a talk with mrs. vanderpool. she had learned from senator smith that the lady took special interest in alwyn. mrs. vanderpool heard miss wynn's story next day with some inward dismay. really the breadth and depth of intrigue in this city almost frightened her as she walked deeper into the mire. she had promised zora that bles should receive his reward on terms which would not wound his manhood. it seemed an easy, almost an obvious thing, to promise at the time. yet here was this rather unusual young woman asking mrs. vanderpool to use her influence in making alwyn bow to the yoke. she fenced for time. "but i do not know mr. alwyn." "i thought you did; you recommended him highly." "i knew of him slightly in the south and i have watched his career here." "it would be too bad to have that career spoiled now." "but is it necessary? suppose he should defend the education bill." "and criticise the party?" asked miss wynn. "it would take strong influence to pull him through." "and if that strong influence were found?" said mrs. vanderpool thoughtfully. "it would surely involve some other important concession to the south." mrs. vanderpool looked up, and an interjection hovered on her lips. was it possible that the price of alwyn's manhood would be her husband's appointment to paris? and if it were? "i'll do what i can," she said graciously; "but i am afraid that will not be much." miss wynn hesitated. she had not succeeded even in guessing the source of mrs. vanderpool's interest in alwyn, and without that her appeal was but blind groping. she stopped on her way to the door to admire a bronze statuette and find time to think. "you are interested in bronzes?" asked mrs. vanderpool. "oh, no; i'm far too poor. but i've dabbled a bit in sculpture." "indeed?" mrs. vanderpool revealed a mild interest, and miss wynn was compelled to depart with little enlightenment. on the way up town she concluded that there was but one chance of success: she must write alwyn's speech. with characteristic decision she began her plans at once. "what will you say in your speech?" she asked him that night as he rose to go. he looked at her and she wavered slightly under his black eyes. the fight was becoming a little too desperate even for her steady nerves. "you would not like me to act dishonestly, would you?" he asked. "no," she involuntarily replied, regretting the word the moment she had uttered it. he gave her one of his rare sweet smiles, and, rising, before she realized his intent, he had kissed her hands and was gone. she asked herself why she had been so foolish; and yet, somehow, sitting there alone in the firelight, she felt glad for once that she had risen above intrigue. then she sighed and smiled, and began to plot anew. teerswell dropped in later and brought his friend, stillings. they found their hostess gay and entertaining. miss wynn gathered books about her, and in the days of april and may she and alwyn read up on education. he marvelled at the subtlety of her mind, and she at the relentlessness of his. they were very near each other during these days, and yet there was ever something between them: a vision to him of dark and pleading eyes that he constantly saw beside her cool, keen glance. and he to her was always two men: one man above men, whom she could respect but would not marry, and one man like all men, whom she would marry but could not respect. his devotion to an ideal which she thought so utterly unpractical, aroused keen curiosity and admiration. she was sure he would fail in the end, and she wanted him to fail; and somehow, somewhere back beyond herself, her better self longed to find herself defeated; to see this mind stand firm on principle, under circumstances where she believed men never stood. deep within her she discovered at times a passionate longing to believe in somebody; yet she found herself bending every energy to pull this man down to the level of time-servers, and even as she failed, feeling something like contempt for his stubbornness. the great day came. he had her notes, her suggestions, her hints, but she had no intimation of what he would finally say. "will you come to hear me?" he asked. "no," she murmured. "that is best," he said, and then he added slowly, "i would not like you ever to despise me." she answered sharply: "i want to despise you!" did he understand? she was not sure. she was sorry she had said it; but she meant it fiercely. then he left her, for it was already four in the afternoon and he spoke at eight. in the morning she came down early, despite some dawdling over her toilet. she brought the morning paper into the dining-room and sat down with it, sipping her coffee. she leaned back and looked leisurely at the headings. there was nothing on the front page but a divorce, a revolution, and a new trust. she took another sip of her coffee, and turned the page. there it was, "colored high schools close--vicious attack on republican party by negro orator." she laid the paper aside and slowly finished her coffee. a few minutes later she went to her desk and sat there so long that she started at hearing the clock strike nine. the day passed. when she came home from school she bought an evening paper. she was not surprised to learn that the senate had rejected alwyn's nomination; that samuel stillings had been nominated and confirmed as register of the treasury, and that mr. tom teerswell was to be his assistant. also the bill reorganizing the school board had passed. she wrote two notes and posted them as she went out to walk. when she reached home stillings was there, and they talked earnestly. the bell rang violently. teerswell rushed in. "well, carrie!" he cried eagerly. "well, tom," she responded, giving him a languid hand. stillings rose and departed. teerswell nodded and said: "well, what do you think of last night?" "a great speech, i hear." "a fool speech--that speech cost him, i calculate, between twenty-four and forty-eight thousand dollars." "possibly he's satisfied with his bargain." "possibly. are you?" "with his bargain?" quickly. "yes." "no," he pressed her, "with your bargain?" "what bargain?" she parried. "to marry him." "oh, no; that's off." "is it off?" cried teerswell delightedly. "good! it was foolish from the first--that black country--" "gently," miss wynn checked him. "i'm not yet over the habit." "come. see what i've bought. you know i have a salary now." he produced a ring with a small diamond cluster. "how pretty!" she said, taking it and looking at it. then she handed it back. he laughed gayly. "it's yours, carrie. you're going to marry me." she looked at him queerly. "am i? but i've got another ring already," she said. "oh, send alwyn's back." "i have. this is still another." and uncovering her hand she showed a ring with a large and beautiful diamond. he rose. "whose is that?" he demanded apprehensively. "mine--" her eyes met his. "but who gave it to you?" "mr. stillings," was the soft reply. he stared at her helplessly. "i--i--don't understand!" he stammered. "well, to be brief, i'm engaged to mr. stillings." "what! to that flat-headed--" "no," she coolly interrupted, "to the register of the treasury." the man was too dumbfounded, too overwhelmed for coherent speech. "but--but--come; why in god's name--will you throw yourself away on--on such a--you're joking--you--" she motioned him to a chair. he obeyed like one in a trance. "now, tom, be calm. when i was a baby i loved you, but that is long ago. today, tom, you're an insufferable cad and i--well, i'm too much like you to have two of us in the same family." "but, stillings!" he burst forth, almost in tears. "the snake--what is he?" "nearly as bad as you, i'll admit; but he has four thousand a year and sense enough to keep it. in truth, i need it; for, thanks to your political activity, my own position is gone." "but he's a--a damned rascal!" wounded self-conceit was now getting the upper hand. she laughed. "i think he is. but he's such an exceptional rascal; he appeals to me. you know, tom, we're all more or less rascally--except one." "except who?" he asked quickly. "bles alwyn." "the fool!" "yes," she slowly agreed. "bles alwyn, the fool--and the man. but by grace of the negro problem, i cannot afford to marry a man--hark! some one is on the steps. i'm sure it's bles. you'd better go now. don't attempt to fight with him; he's very strong. good-night." alwyn entered. he didn't notice teerswell as he passed out. he went straight to miss wynn holding a crumpled note, and his voice faltered a little. "do you mean it?" "yes, bles." "why?" "because i am selfish and--small." "no, you are not. you want to be; but give it up, carrie; it isn't worth the cost. come, let's be honest and poor--and free." she regarded him a moment, searchingly, then a look half quizzical, half sorrowful came into her eyes. she put both her hands on his shoulders and said as she kissed his lips: "bles, almost thou persuadest me--to be a fool. now go." _thirty_ the return of zora "i never realized before just what a lie meant," said zora. the paper in mrs. vanderpool's hands fell quickly to her lap, and she gazed across the toilet-table. as she gazed that odd mirage of other days haunted her again. she did not seem to see her maid, nor the white and satin morning-room. she saw, with some long inner sight, a vast hall with mighty pillars; a smooth, marbled floor and a great throng whose silent eyes looked curiously upon her. strange carven beasts gazed on from a setting of rich, barbaric splendor and she herself--the liar--lay in rags before the gold and ivory of that lofty throne whereon sat zora. the foolish phantasy passed with the second of time that brought it, and mrs. vanderpool's eyes dropped again to her paper, to those lines,-"the president has sent the following nominations to the senate ... to be ambassador to france, john vanderpool, esq." the first feeling of triumph thrilled faintly again until the low voice of zora startled her. it was so low and calm, it came as though journeying from great distances and weary with travel. "i used to think a lie a little thing, a convenience; but now i see. it is a great no and it kills things. you remember that day when mr. easterly called?" "yes," replied mrs. vanderpool, faintly. "i heard all he said. i could not help it; my transom was open. and then, too, after he mentioned--mr. alwyn's name, i wanted to hear. i knew that his appointment would cost you the embassy--unless bles was tempted and should fall. so i came to you to say--to say you mustn't pay the price." "and i lied," said mrs. vanderpool. "i told you that he should be appointed and remain a man. i meant to make him see that he could yield without great cost. but i let you think i was giving up the embassy when i never intended to." she spoke coldly, yet zora knew. she reached out and took the white, still hands in hers, and over the lady's face again flitted that stricken look of age. "i do not blame you," said zora gently. "i blame the world." "i am the world," mrs. vanderpool uttered harshly, then suddenly laughed. but zora went on: "it bewildered me when i first read the news early this morning; the world--everything--seemed wrong. you see, my plan was all so splendid. just as i turned away from him, back to my people, i was to help him to the highest. i was so afraid he would miss it and think that right didn't win in life, that i wrote him--" "you wrote him? so did i." zora glanced at her quickly. "yes," said mrs. vanderpool. "i thought i knew him. he seemed an ordinary, rather priggish, opinionated country boy, and i wrote and said--oh, i said that the world is the world; take it as it is. you wrote differently, and he obeyed you." "no; he did not know it was i. i was just a voice from nowhere calling to him. i thought i was right. i wrote each day, sometimes twice, sending bits of verse, quotations, references, all saying the same thing: right always triumphs. but it doesn't, does it?" "no. it never does save by accident." "i do not think that is quite so," zora pondered aloud, "and i am a little puzzled. i do not belong in this world where right and wrong get so mixed. with us yonder there is wrong, but we call it wrong--mostly. oh, i don't know; even there things are mixed." she looked sadly at mrs. vanderpool, and the fear that had been hovering behind her mistress's eyes became visible. "it was so beautiful," said zora. "i expected a great thing of you--a sacrifice. i do not blame you because you could not do it; and yet--yet, after this,--don't you see?--i cannot stay here." mrs. vanderpool arose and walked over to her. she stood above her, in her silken morning-gown, her brown and gray sprinkled hair rising above the pale, strong-lined face. "zora," she faltered, "will you leave me?" zora answered, "yes." it was a soft "yes," a "yes" full of pity and regret, but a "yes" that mrs. vanderpool knew in her soul to be final. she sat down again on the lounge and her fingers crept along the cushions. "ambassadorships come--high," she said with a catch in her voice. then after a pause: "when will you go, zora?" "when you leave for the summer." mrs. vanderpool looked out upon the beautiful city. she was a little surprised at herself. she had found herself willing to sacrifice almost anything for zora. no living soul had ever raised in her so deep an affection, and yet she knew now that, although the cost was great, she was willing to sacrifice zora for paris. after all, it was not too late; a rapid ride even now might secure high office for alwyn and make cresswell ambassador. it would be difficult but possible. but she had not the slightest inclination to attempt it, and she said aloud, half mockingly: "you are right, zora. i promised--and--i lied. liars have no place in heaven and heaven is doubtless a beautiful place--but oh, zora! you haven't seen paris!" two months later they parted simply, knowing well it was forever. mrs. vanderpool wrote a check. "use this in your work," she said. "miss smith asked for it long ago. it is--my campaign contribution." zora smiled and thanked her. as she put the sealed envelope in her trunk her hand came in contact with a long untouched package. zora took it out silently and opened it and the beauty of it lightened the room. "it is the silver fleece," said zora, and mrs. vanderpool kissed her and went. zora walked alone to the vaulted station. she did not try to buy a pullman ticket, although the journey was thirty-six hours. she knew it would be difficult if not impossible and she preferred to share the lot of her people. once on the foremost car, she leaned back and looked. the car seemed clean and comfortable but strangely short. then she realized that half of it was cut off for the white smokers and as the door swung whiffs of the smoke came in. but she was content for she was almost alone. it was eighteen little months ago that she had ridden up to the world with widening eyes. in that time what had happened? everything. how well she remembered her coming, the first reflection of yonder gilded dome and the soaring of the capitol; the swelling of her heart, with inarticulate wonder; the pain of the thirst to know and understand. she did not know much now but she had learned how to find things out. she did not understand all, but some things she-"ticket"--the tone was harsh and abrupt. zora started. she had always noted how polite conductors were to her and mrs. vanderpool--was it simply because mrs. vanderpool was evidently a great and rich lady? she held up her ticket and he snatched it from her muttering some direction. "i beg your pardon?" she said. "change at charlotte," he snapped as he went on. it seemed to zora that his discourtesy was almost forced: that he was afraid he might be betrayed into some show of consideration for a black woman. she felt no anger, she simply wondered what he feared. the increasing smell of tobacco smoke started her coughing. she turned. to be sure. not only was the door to the smoker standing open, but a white passenger was in her car, sitting by the conductor and puffing heartily. as the black porter passed her she said gently: "is smoking allowed in here?" "it ain't non o' my business," he flung back at her and moved away. all day white men passed back and forward through the car as through a thoroughfare. they talked loudly and laughed and joked, and if they did not smoke they carried their lighted cigars. at her they stared and made comments, and one of them came and lounged almost over her seat, inquiring where she was going. she did not reply; she neither looked nor stirred, but kept whispering to herself with something like awe: "this is what they must endure--my poor people!" at lynchburg a newsboy boarded the train with his wares. the conductor had already appropriated two seats for himself, and the newsboy routed out two colored passengers, and usurped two other seats. then he began to be especially annoying. he joked and wrestled with the porter, and on every occasion pushed his wares at zora, insisting on her buying. "ain't you got no money?" he asked. "where you going?" "say," he whispered another time, "don't you want to buy these gold spectacles? i found 'em and i dassen't sell 'em open, see? they're worth ten dollars--take 'em for a dollar." zora sat still, keeping her eyes on the window; but her hands worked nervously, and when he threw a book with a picture of a man and half-dressed woman directly under her eyes, she took it and dropped it out the window. the boy started to storm and demanded pay, while the conductor glared at her; but a white man in the conductor's seat whispered something, and the row suddenly stopped. a gang of colored section hands got on, dirty and loud. they sprawled about and smoked, drank, and bought candy and cheap gewgaws. they eyed her respectfully, and with one of them she talked a little as he awkwardly fingered his cap. as the day wore on zora found herself strangely weary. it was not simply the unpleasant things that kept happening, but the continued apprehension of unknown possibilities. then, too, she began to realize that she had had nothing to eat. travelling with mrs. vanderpool there was always a dainty lunch to be had at call. she did not expect this, but she asked the porter: "do you know where i can get a lunch?" "search me," he answered, lounging into a seat. "ain't no chance betwixt here and danville as i knows on." zora viewed her plight with a certain dismay--twelve hours without food! how foolish of her not to have thought of this. the hours passed. she turned desperately to the gruff conductor. "could i buy a lunch from the dining-car?" she inquired. "no," was the curt reply. she made herself as comfortable as she could, and tried to put the matter from her mind. she remembered how, forgotten years ago, she had often gone a day without eating and thought little of it. night came slowly, and she fell to dreaming until the cry came, "charlotte! change cars!" she scrambled out. there was no step to the platform, her bag was heavy, and the porter was busy helping the white folks to alight. she saw a dingy lunchroom marked "colored," but she had no time to go to it for her train was ready. there was another colored porter on this, and he was very polite and affable. "yes, miss; certainly i'll fetch you a lunch--plenty of time." and he did. it did not look clean but zora was ravenous. the white smoker now had few occupants, but the white train crew proceeded to use the colored coach as a lounging-room and sleeping-car. there was no passenger except zora. they took off their coats, stretched themselves on the seats, and exchanged jokes; but zora was too tired to notice much, and she was dozing wearily when she felt a touch on the arm and found the porter in the seat beside her with his arm thrown familiarly behind her along the top of the back. she rose abruptly to her feet and he started up. "i beg pardon," he said, grinning. zora sat slowly down as he got up and left. she determined to sleep no more. yet a vast vision sank on her weary spirit--the vision of a dark cloud that dropped and dropped upon her, and lay as lead along her straining shoulders. she must lift it, she knew, though it were big as a world, and she put her strength to it and groaned as the porter cried in the ghostly morning light: "atlanta! all change!" away yonder at the school near toomsville, miss smith sat waiting for the coming of zora, absently attending the duties of the office. dark little heads and hands bobbed by and soft voices called: "miss smith, i wants a penny pencil." "miss smith, is yo' got a speller fo' ten cents?" "miss smith, mammy say please lemme come to school this week and she'll sho' pay sata'day." yet the little voices that summoned her back to earth were less clamorous than in other years, for the school was far from full, and miss smith observed the falling off with grave eyes. this condition was patently the result of the cotton corner and the subsequent manipulation. when cotton rose, the tenants had already sold their cotton; when cotton fell the landlords squeezed the rations and lowered the wages. when cotton rose again, up went the new spring rent contracts. so it was that the bewildered black serf dawdled in listless inability to understand. the cresswells in their new wealth, the maxwells and tollivers in the new pinch of poverty, stretched long arms to gather in the tenants and their children. excuse after excuse came to the school. "i can't send the chilluns dis term, miss smith; dey has to work." "mr. cresswell won't allow will to go to school this term." "mr. tolliver done put sam in the field." and so miss smith contemplated many empty desks. slowly a sort of fatal inaction seized her. the school went on; daily the dark little cloud of scholars rose up from hill and vale and settled in the white buildings; the hum of voices and the busy movements of industrious teachers filled the day; the office work went on methodically; but back of it all miss smith sat half hopeless. it cost five thousand a year to run the school, and this sum she raised with increasingly greater difficulty. extra and heart-straining effort had been needed to raise the eight hundred dollars additional for interest money on the mortgage last year. next year it might have to come out of the regular income and thus cut off two teachers. beyond all this the raising of ten thousand dollars to satisfy the mortgage seemed simply impossible, and miss smith sat in fatal resignation, awaiting the coming day. "it's the lord's work. i've done what i could. i guess if he wants it to go on, he'll find a way. and if he doesn't--" she looked off across the swamp and was silent. then came zora's letter, simple and brief, but breathing youth and strength of purpose. miss smith seized upon it as an omen of salvation. in vain her shrewd new england reason asked: "what can a half-taught black girl do in this wilderness?" her heart answered back: "what is impossible to youth and resolution?" let the shabbiness increase; let the debts pile up; let the boarders complain and the teachers gossip--zora was coming. and somehow she and zora would find a way. and zora came just as the sun threw its last crimson through the black swamp; came and gathered the frail and white-haired woman in her arms; and they wept together. long and low they talked, far into the soft southern night; sitting shaded beneath the stars, while nearby blinked the drowsy lights of the girls' dormitory. at last miss smith said, rising stiffly: "i forgot to ask about mrs. vanderpool. how is she, and where?" zora murmured some answer; but as she went to bed in her little white room she sat wondering sadly. where was the poor spoiled woman? who was putting her to bed and smoothing the pillow? who was caring for her, and what was she doing? and zora strained her eyes northward through the night. at this moment, mrs. vanderpool, rising from a gala dinner in the brilliant drawing-room of her lake george mansion, was reading the evening paper which her husband had put into her hands. with startled eyes she caught the impudent headlines: vanderpool dropped senate refuses to confirm todd insurgents muster enough votes to defeat confirmation of president's nominee rumored revenge for machine's defeat of child labor bill amendment. the paper trembled in her jewelled hands. she glanced down the column. "todd asks: who is vanderpool, anyhow? what did he ever do? he is known only as a selfish millionaire who thinks more of horses than of men." carelessly mrs. vanderpool threw the paper to the floor and bit her lips as the angry blood dyed her face. "they _shall_ confirm him," she whispered, "if i have to mortgage my immortal soul!" and she rang up long distance on the telephone. _thirty-one_ a parting of ways "was the child born dead?" "worse than dead!" somehow, somewhere, mary cresswell had heard these words; long, long, ago, down there in the great pain-swept shadows of utter agony, where earth seemed slipping its moorings; and now, today, she lay repeating them mechanically, grasping vaguely at their meaning. long she had wrestled with them as they twisted and turned and knotted themselves, and she worked and toiled so hard as she lay there to make the thing clear--to understand. "was the child born dead?" "worse than dead!" then faint and fainter whisperings: what could be worse than death? she had tried to ask the grey old doctor, but he soothed her like a child each day and left her lying there. today she was stronger, and for the first time sitting up, looking listlessly out across the world--a queer world. why had they not let her see the child--just one look at its little dead face? that would have been something. and again, as the doctor cheerily turned to go, she sought to repeat the old question. he looked at her sharply, then interrupted, saying kindly: "there, now; you've been dreaming. you must rest quietly now." and with a nod he passed into the other room to talk with her husband. she was not satisfied. she had not been dreaming. she would tell harry to ask him--she did not often see her husband, but she must ask him now and she arose unsteadily and swayed noiselessly across the floor. a moment she leaned against the door, then opened it slightly. from the other side the words came distinctly and clearly: "--other children, doctor?" "you must have no other children, mr. cresswell." "why?" "because the sins of the fathers are visited upon the children unto the third and fourth generation." slowly, softly, she crept away. her mind seemed very clear. and she began a long journey to reach her window and chair--a long, long journey; but at last she sank into the chair again and sat dry-eyed, wondering who had conceived this world and made it, and why. a long time afterward she found herself lying in bed, awake, conscious, clear-minded. yet she thought as little as possible, for that was pain; but she listened gladly, for without she heard the solemn beating of the sea, the mighty rhythmic beating of the sea. long days she lay, and sat and walked beside those vast and speaking waters, till at last she knew their voice and they spoke to her and the sea-calm soothed her soul. for one brief moment of her life she saw herself clearly: a well-meaning woman, ambitious, but curiously narrow; not willing to work long for the vision, but leaping at it rashly, blindly, with a deep-seated sense of duty which she made a source of offence by preening and parading it, and forcing it to ill-timed notice. she saw that she had looked on her husband as a means not an end. she had wished to absorb him and his work for her own glory. she had idealized for her own uses a very human man whose life had been full of sin and fault. she must atone. no sooner, in this brief moment, did she see herself honestly than her old habits swept her on tumultuously. no ordinary atonement would do. the sacrifice must be vast; the world must stand in wonder before this clever woman sinking her soul in another and raising him by sheer will to the highest. so after six endless months mary cresswell walked into her washington home again. she knew she had changed in appearance, but she had forgotten to note how much until she saw the stare--almost the recoil--of her husband, the muttered exclamation, the studied, almost overdone welcome. then she went up to her mirror and looked long, and knew. she was strong; she felt well; but she was slight, almost scrawny, and her beauty was gone forever. it had been of that blonde white-and-pink type that fades in a flash, and its going left her body flattened and angular, her skin drawn and dead white, her eyes sunken. from the radiant girl whom cresswell had met three years earlier the change was startling, and yet the contrast seemed even greater than it was, for her glory then had been her abundant and almost golden hair. now that hair was faded, and falling so fast that at last the doctor advised her to cut it short. this left her ill-shaped head exposed and emphasized the sunken hollows of her face. she knew that she was changed but she did not quite realize how changed, until now as she stood and gazed. yet she did not hesitate but from that moment set herself to her new life task. characteristically, she started dramatically and largely. she was to make her life an endless sacrifice; she was to revivify the manhood in harry cresswell, and all this for no return, no partnership of soul--all was to be complete sacrifice and sinking soul in soul. if mary cresswell had attempted less she would have accomplished more. as it was, she began well; she went to work tactfully, seeming to note no change in his manner toward her; but his manner had changed. he was studiously, scrupulously polite in private, and in public devoted; but there was no feeling, no passion, no love. the polished shell of his clan reflected conventional light even more carefully than formerly because the shell was cold and empty. there were no little flashes of anger now, no poutings nor sweet reconciliations. life ran very smoothly and courteously; and while she did not try to regain the affection, she strove to enthrall his intellect. she supplied a sub-committee upon which he was serving--not directly, but through him--with figures, with reports, books, and papers, so that he received special commendations; a praise that piqued as well as pleased him, because it implied a certain surprise that he was able to do it. "the damned yankees!" he sneered. "they think they've got the brains of the nation." "why not make a speech on the subject?" she suggested. he laughed. the matter under discussion was the cotton-goods schedule of the new tariff bill, about which really he knew a little; his wife placed every temptation to knowledge before him, even inspiring senator smith to ask him to defend that schedule against the low-tariff advocate. mary cresswell worked with redoubled energy, and for nearly a week harry staid at home nights and studied. thanks to his wife the speech was unusually informing and well put, and the fact that a prominent free-trader spoke the same afternoon gave it publicity, while mr. easterly saw to the press despatches. cresswell subscribed to a clipping-bureau and tasted the sweets of dawning notoriety, and mrs. cresswell arranged a select dinner-party which included a cabinet officer, a foreign ambassador, two millionaires, and the leading southern congressmen. the talk came around to the failure of the senate to confirm mr. vanderpool, and it was generally assumed that the president would not force the issue. who, then, should be nominated? there were several suggestions, but the knot of southern congressmen about mrs. cresswell declared emphatically that it must be a southerner. not since the war had a prominent southerner represented america at a first-class foreign court; it was shameful; the time was ripe for change. but who? here opinions differed widely. nearly every one mentioned a candidate, and those who did not seemed to refrain from motives of personal modesty. mary cresswell sped her departing guests with a distinct purpose in mind. she must make herself leader of the southern set in washington and concentrate its whole force on the appointment of harry cresswell as ambassador to france. quick reward and promotion were essential to harry's success. he was not one to keep up the strain of effort a long time. unless, then, tangible results came and came quickly, he was liable to relapse into old habits. therefore he must succeed and succeed at once. she would have preferred a less ornamental position than the ambassadorship, but there were no other openings. the alabama senators were firmly seated for at least four years and the governorship had been carefully arranged for. a term of four years abroad, however, might bring harry cresswell back in time for greater advancement. at any rate, it was the only tangible offering, and mary cresswell silently determined to work for it. here it was that she made her mistake. it was one thing for her to be a tactful hostess, pleasing her husband and his guests; it was another for her to aim openly at social leadership and political influence. she had at first all the insignia of success. her dinners became of real political significance and her husband figured more and more as a leading southerner. the result was two-fold. cresswell, on the one hand, with his usual selfishness, took his rising popularity as a matter of course and as the fruits of his own work; he was rising, he was making valuable speeches, he was becoming a social power, and his only handicap was his plain and over-ambitious wife. but on the other hand mrs. cresswell forgot two pitfalls: the cleft between the old southern aristocracy and the pushing new southerners; and above all, her own northern birth and presumably pro-negro sympathies. what mrs. cresswell forgot mrs. vanderpool sensed unerringly. she had heard with uneasiness of cresswell's renewed candidacy for the paris ambassadorship, and she set herself to block it. she had worked hard. the president stood ready to send her husband's appointment again to the senate whenever easterly could assure him of favorable action. easterly had long and satisfactory interviews with several senators, while the todd insurgents were losing heart at the prospect of choosing between vanderpool and cresswell. at present four southern votes were needed to confirm vanderpool; but if they could not be had, easterly declared it would be good politics to nominate cresswell and give him republican support. manifestly, then, mrs. vanderpool's task was to discredit the cresswells with the southerners. it was not a work to her liking, but the die was cast and she refused to contemplate defeat. the result was that while mrs. cresswell was giving large and brilliant parties to the whole southern contingent, mrs. vanderpool was engineering exclusive dinners where old new york met stately charleston and gossiped interestingly. on such occasions it was hinted not once, but many times, that the cresswells were well enough, but who was that upstart wife who presumed to take social precedence? it was not, however, until mrs. cresswell's plan for an all-southern art exhibit in washington that mrs. vanderpool, in a flash of inspiration, saw her chance. in the annual exhibit of the corcoran art gallery, a southern girl had nearly won first prize over a western man. the concensus of southern opinion was that the judgment had been unfair, and mrs. cresswell was convinced of this. with quick intuition she suggested a southern exhibit with such social prestige back of it as to impress the country. the proposal caught the imagination of the southern set. none suspected a possible intrusion of the eternal race issue for no negroes were allowed in the corcoran exhibit or school. this mrs. vanderpool easily ascertained and a certain sense of justice combined in a curious way with her political intrigue to bring about the undoing of mary cresswell. mrs. vanderpool's very first cautious inquiries by way of the back stairs brought gratifying response--for did not all black washington know well of the work in sculpture done by mrs. samuel stillings, _nee_ wynn? mrs. vanderpool remembered mrs. stillings perfectly, and she walked, that evening, through unobtrusive thoroughfares and called on mrs. stillings. had mrs. stillings heard of the new art movement? did she intend to exhibit? mrs. stillings did not intend to exhibit as she was sure she would not be welcome. she had had a bust accepted by the corcoran art gallery once, and when they found she was colored they returned it. but if she were especially invited? that would make a difference, although even then the line would be drawn somehow. "would it not be worth a fight?" suggested mrs. vanderpool with a little heightening of color in her pale cheek. "perhaps," said mrs. stillings, as she brought out some specimens of her work. mrs. vanderpool was both ashamed and grateful. with money and leisure mrs. stillings had been able to get in new york and boston the training she had been denied in washington on account of her color. the things she exhibited really had merit and one curiously original group appealed to mrs. vanderpool tremendously. "send it," she counseled with strangely contradictory feelings of enthusiasm, and added: "enter it under the name of wynn." in addition to the general invitations to the art exhibit numbers of special ones were issued to promising southern amateurs who had never exhibited. for these a prize of a long-term scholarship and other smaller prizes were offered. when mrs. vanderpool suggested the name of "miss wynn" to mrs. cresswell among a dozen others, for special invitation, there was nothing in its sound to distinguish it from the rest of the names, and the invitation went duly. as a result there came to the exhibit a little group called "the outcasts," which was really a masterly thing and sent the director, signor alberni, into hysterical commendation. in the private view and award of prizes which preceded the larger social function the jury hesitated long between "the outcasts" and a painting from georgia. mrs. cresswell was enthusiastic and voluble for the bit of sculpture, and it finally won the vote for the first prize. all was ready for the great day. the president was coming and most of the diplomatic corps, high officers of the army, and all the social leaders. congress would be well represented, and the boom for cresswell as ambassador to france was almost visible in the air. mary cresswell paused a moment in triumph looking back at the darkened hall, when a little woman fluttered up to her and whispered: "mrs. cresswell, have you heard the gossip?" "no--what?" "that wynn woman they say is a nigger. some are whispering that you brought her in purposely to force social equality. they say you used to teach darkies. of course, i don't believe all their talk, but i thought you ought to know." she talked a while longer, then fluttered furtively away. mrs. cresswell sat down limply. she saw ruin ahead--to think of a black girl taking a prize at an all-southern art exhibit! but there was still a chance, and she leaped to action. this colored woman was doubtless some poor deserving creature. she would call on her immediately, and by an offer of abundant help induce her to withdraw quietly. entering her motor, she drove near the address and then proceeded on foot. the street was a prominent one, the block one of the best, the house almost pretentious. she glanced at her memorandum again to see if she was mistaken. perhaps the woman was a domestic; probably she was, for the name on the door was stillings. it occurred to her that she had heard that name before--but where? she looked again at her memorandum and at the house. she rang the bell, asking the trim black maid: "is there a person named caroline wynn living in this house?" the girl smiled and hesitated. "yes, ma'am," she finally replied. "won't you come in?" she was shown into the parlor, where she sat down. the room was most interesting, furnished in unimpeachable taste. a few good pictures were on the walls, and mrs. cresswell was examining one when she heard the swish of silken skirts. a lady with gold brown face and straight hair stood before her with pleasant smile. where had mrs. cresswell seen her before? she tried to remember, but could not. "you wished to see--caroline wynn?" "yes." "what can i do for you?" mrs. cresswell groped for her proper cue, but the brown lady merely offered a chair and sat down silently. mrs. cresswell's perplexity increased. she had been planning to descend graciously but authoritatively upon some shrinking girl, but this woman not only seemed to assume equality but actually looked it. from a rapid survey, mrs. cresswell saw a black silk stocking, a bit of lace, a tailor-made gown, and a head with two full black eyes that waited in calmly polite expectancy. something had to be said. "i--er--came; that is, i believe you sent a group to the art exhibit?" "yes." "it was good--very good." miss wynn said nothing, but sat calmly looking at her visitor. mrs. cresswell felt irritated. "of course," she managed to continue, "we are very sorry that we cannot receive it." "indeed? i understood it had taken the first prize." mrs. cresswell was aghast. who had rushed the news to this woman? she realized that there were depths to this matter that she did not understand and her irritation increased. "you know that we could not give the prize to a--negro." "why not?" "that is quite immaterial. social equality cannot be forced. at the same time i recognize the injustice, and i have come to say that if you will withdraw your exhibit you will be given a scholarship in a boston school." "i do not wish it." "well, what do you want?" "i was not aware that i had asked for anything." mrs. cresswell felt herself getting angry. "why did you send your exhibit when you knew it was not wanted?" "because you asked me to." "we did not ask for colored people." "you asked all southern-born persons. i am a person and i am southern born. moreover, you sent me a personal letter." mrs. cresswell was sure that this was a lie and was thoroughly incensed. "you cannot have the prize," she almost snapped. "if you will withdraw i will pay you any reasonable sum." "thank you. i do not want money; i want justice." mrs. cresswell arose and her face was white. "that is the trouble with you negroes: you wish to get above your places and force yourselves where you are not wanted. it does no good, it only makes trouble and enemies." mrs. cresswell stopped, for the colored woman had gone quietly out of the room and in a moment the maid entered and stood ready. mrs. cresswell walked slowly to the door and stepped out. then she turned. "what does miss wynn do for a living?" the girl tittered. "she used to teach school but she don't do nothing now. she's just married; her husband is mr. stillings, register of the treasury." mrs. cresswell saw light as she turned to go down the steps. there was but one resource--she must keep the matter out of the newspapers, and see stillings, whom she now remembered well. "i beg pardon, does the miss wynn live here who got the prize in the art exhibition?" mrs. cresswell turned in amazement. it was evidently a reporter, and the maid was admitting him. the news would reach the papers and be blazoned to-morrow. slowly she caught her motor and fell wearily back on its cushions. "where to, madame?" asked the chauffeur. "i don't care," returned madame; so the chauffeur took her home. she walked slowly up the stairs. all her carefully laid plans seemed about to be thwarted and her castles were leaning toward ruin. yet all was not lost, if her husband continued to believe in her. if, as she feared, he should suspect her on account of this negro woman, and quarrel with her-but he must not. this very night, before the morning papers came out, she must explain. he must see; he must appreciate her efforts. she rushed into her dressing-room and called her maid. contrary to her puritan notions, she frankly sought to beautify herself. she remembered that it was the anniversary of her coming to this house. she got out her wedding-dress, and although it hung loosely, the maid draped the silver fleece beautifully about her. she heard her husband enter and come up-stairs. quickly finishing her toilet, she hurried down to arrange the flowers, for they were alone that night. the telephone rang. she knew it would ring up-stairs in his room, but she usually answered it for he disliked to. she raised the receiver and started to speak when she realized that she had broken into the midst of a conversation. "--committee won't meet tonight, harry." "so? all right. anything on?" "yes--big spree at nell's. will you go?" "sure thing; you know me! what time?" "meet us at the willard by nine. s'long." "good-bye." she slowly, half guiltily, replaced the receiver. she had not meant to listen, but now to her desperate longing to keep him home was added a new motive. where was "nell's"? what was "nell's"? what was--and there was fear in her heart. at dinner she tried all her powers on him. she had his favorite dishes; she mixed his salad and selected his wine; she talked interestingly, and listened sympathetically, to him. he looked at her with more attention. her cheeks were more brilliant, for she had touched them with rouge. her eyes flashed; but he glanced furtively at her short hair. she saw the act; but still she strove until he was content and laughing; then coming round back of his chair, she placed her arms about his neck. "harry, will you do me a favor?" "why, yes--if--" "it is something i want very, very much." "well, all right, if--" "harry, i feel a little--hysterical, tonight, and--you will not refuse me, will you, harry?" standing there, she saw the tableau in her own mind, and it looked strange. she was afraid of herself. she knew that she would do something foolish if she did not win this battle. she felt that overpowering fanaticism back within her raging restlessly. if she was not careful-"but what is it you want?" asked her husband. "i don't want you to go out tonight." he laughed awkwardly. "nonsense, girl! the sub-committee on the cotton schedule meets tonight--very important; otherwise--" she shuddered at the smooth lie and clasped him closer, putting her cheek to his. "harry," she pleaded, "just this once--for me." he disengaged himself, half impatiently, and rose, glancing at the clock. it was nearly nine. a feeling of desperation came over her. "harry," she asked again as he slipped on his coat. "don't be foolish," he growled. "just this once--harry--i--" but the door banged to, and he was gone. she stood looking at the closed door a moment. something in her head was ready to snap. she went to the rack and taking his long heavy overcoat slipped it on. it nearly touched the floor. she seized a soft broad-brimmed hat and umbrella and walked out. just what she meant to do she did not know, but somehow she must save her husband and herself from evil. she hurried to the willard hotel and watched, walking up and down the opposite sidewalk. a woman brushed by her and looked her in the face. "hell! i thought you was a man," she said. "is this a new gag?" mrs. cresswell looked down at herself involuntarily and smiled wanly. she did look like a man, with her hat and coat and short hair. the woman peered at her doubtingly. she was, as mrs. cresswell noticed, a young woman, once pretty, perhaps, and a little over-dressed. "are you walking?" she asked. "what do you mean?" asked mrs. cresswell, and then in a moment it flashed upon her. she took the woman's arm and walked with her. suddenly she stopped. "where's--nell's?" the woman frowned. "oh, that's a swell place," she said. "senators and millionaires. too high for us to fly." mrs. cresswell winced. "but where is it?" she asked. "we'll walk by it if you want to." and mary cresswell walked in another world. up from the ground of the drowsy city rose pale gray forms; pale, flushed, and brilliant, in silken rags. up and down they passed, to and fro, looking and gliding like sheeted ghosts; now dodging policemen, now accosting them familiarly. "hello, elise," growled one big blue-coat. "hello, jack." "what's this?" and he peered at mrs. cresswell, who shrank back. "friend of mine. all right." a horror crept over mary cresswell: where had she lived that she had seen so little before? what was washington, and what was this fine, tall, quiet residence? was this--"nell's"? "yes, this is it--good-bye--i must--" "wait--what is your name?" "i haven't any name," answered the woman suspiciously. "well--pardon me! here!" and she thrust a bill into the woman's hand. the girl stared. "well, you're a queer one! thanks. guess i'll turn in." mary cresswell turned to see her husband and his companions ascending the steps of the quiet mansion. she stood uncertainly and looked at the opening and closing door. then a policeman came by and looked at her. "come, move on," he brusquely ordered. her vacillation promptly vanished, and she resolutely mounted the steps. she put out her hand to ring, but the door flew silently open and a man-servant stood looking at her. "i have some friends here," she said, speaking coarsely. "you will have to be introduced," said the man. she hesitated and started to turn away. thrusting her hand in her pocket it closed upon her husband's card-case. she presented a card. it worked a rapid transformation in the servant's manner, which did not escape her. "come in," he invited her. she did not stop at the outstretched arm of the cloakman, but glided quickly up the stairs toward a vision of handsome women and strains of music. harry cresswell was sitting opposite and bending over an impudent blue-and-blonde beauty. mary slipped straight across to him and leaned across the table. the hat fell off, but she let it go. "harry!" she tried to say as he looked up. then the table swayed gently to and fro; the room bowed and whirled about; the voices grew fainter and fainter--all the world receded suddenly far away. she extended her hands languidly, then, feeling so utterly tired, let her eyelids drop and fell asleep. she awoke with a start, in her own bed. she was physically exhausted but her mind was clear. she must go down and meet him at breakfast and talk frankly with him. she would let bygones be bygones. she would explain that she had followed him to save him, not to betray him. she would point out the greater career before him if only he would be a man; she would show him that they had not failed. for herself she asked nothing, only his word, his confidence, his promise to try. after his first start of surprise at seeing her at the table, cresswell uttered nothing immediately save the commonplaces of greeting. he mentioned one or two bits of news from the paper, upon which she commented while dawdling over her egg. when the servant went out and closed the door, she paused a moment considering whether to open by appeal or explanation. his smooth tones startled her: "of course, after your art exhibit and the scene of last night, mary, it will be impossible for us to live longer together." she stared at him, utterly aghast--voiceless and numb. "i have seen the crisis approaching for some time, and the negro business settles it," he continued. "i have now decided to send you to my home in alabama, to my father or your brother. i am sure you will be happier there." he rose. bowing courteously, he waited, coldly and calmly, for her to go. all at once she hated him and hated his aristocratic repression; this cold calm that hid hell and its fires. she looked at him, wide-eyed, and said in a voice hoarse with horror and loathing: "you brute! you nasty brute!" _thirty-two_ zora's way zora was looking on her world with the keener vision of one who, blind from very seeing, closes the eyes a space and looks again with wider clearer vision. out of a nebulous cloudland she seemed to step; a land where all things floated in strange confusion, but where one thing stood steadfast, and that was love. when love was shaken all things moved, but now, at last, for the first time she seemed to know the real and mighty world that stood behind that old and shaken dream. so she looked on the world about her with new eyes. these men and women of her childhood had hitherto walked by her like shadows; today they lived for her in flesh and blood. she saw hundreds and thousands of black men and women: crushed, half-spirited, and blind. she saw how high and clear a light sarah smith, for thirty years and more, had carried before them. she saw, too, how that the light had not simply shone in darkness, but had lighted answering beacons here and there in these dull souls. there were thoughts and vague stirrings of unrest in this mass of black folk. they talked long about their firesides, and here zora began to sit and listen, often speaking a word herself. all through the countryside she flitted, till gradually the black folk came to know her and, in silent deference to some subtle difference, they gave her the title of white folk, calling her "miss" zora. today, more than ever before, zora sensed the vast unorganized power in this mass, and her mind was leaping here and there, scheming and testing, when voices arrested her. it was a desolate bit of the cresswell manor, a tiny cabin, new-boarded and bare, in front of it a blazing bonfire. a white man was tossing into the flames different household articles--a feather bed, a bedstead, two rickety chairs. a young, boyish fellow, golden-faced and curly, stood with clenched fists, while a woman with tear-stained eyes clung to him. the white man raised a cradle to dash it into the flames; the woman cried, and the yellow man raised his arm threateningly. but zora's hand was on his shoulder. "what's the matter, rob?" she asked. "they're selling us out," he muttered savagely. "millie's been sick since the last baby died, and i had to neglect my crop to tend her and the other little ones--i didn't make much. they've took my mule, now they're burning my things to make me sign a contract and be a slave. but by--" "there, rob, let millie come with me--we'll see miss smith. we must get land to rent and arrange somehow." the mother sobbed, "the cradle--was baby's!" with an oath the white man dashed the cradle into the fire, and the red flame spurted aloft. the crimson fire flashed in zora's eyes as she passed the overseer. "well, nigger, what are you going to do about it?" he growled insolently. zora's eyelids drooped, her upper lip quivered. "nothing," she answered softly. "but i hope your soul will burn in hell forever and forever." they proceeded down the plantation road, but zora could not speak. she pushed them slowly on, and turned aside to let the anger, the impotent, futile anger, rage itself out. alone in the great broad spaces, she knew she could fight it down, and come back again, cool and in calm and deadly earnest, to lead these children to the light. the sorrow in her heart was new and strange; not sorrow for herself, for of that she had tasted the uttermost; but the vast vicarious suffering for the evil of the world. the tumult and war within her fled, and a sense of helplessness sent the hot tears streaming down her cheeks. she longed for rest; but the last plantation was yet to be passed. far off she heard the yodle of the gangs of peons. she hesitated, looking for some way of escape: if she passed them she would see something--she always saw something--that would send the red blood whirling madly. "here, you!--loafing again, damn you!" she saw the black whip writhe and curl across the shoulders of the plough-boy. the boy crouched and snarled, and again the whip hissed and cracked. zora stood rigid and gray. "my god!" her silent soul was shrieking within, "why doesn't the coward--" and then the "coward" did. the whip was whirring in the air again; but it never fell. a jagged stone in the boy's hand struck true, and the overseer plunged with a grunt into the black furrow. in blank dismay, zora came back to her senses. "poor child!" she gasped, as she saw the boy flying in wild terror over the fields, with hue and cry behind him. "poor child!--running to the penitentiary--to shame and hunger and damnation!" she remembered the rector in mrs. vanderpool's library, and his question that revealed unfathomable depths of ignorance: "really, now, how do you account for the distressing increase in crime among your people?" she swung into the great road trembling with the woe of the world in her eyes. cruelty, poverty, and crime she had looked in the face that morning, and the hurt of it held her heart pinched and quivering. a moment the mists in her eyes shut out the shadows of the swamp, and the roaring in her ears made a silence of the world. before she found herself again she dimly saw a couple sauntering along the road, but she hardly noticed their white faces until the little voice of the girl, raised timidly, greeted her. "howdy, zora." zora looked. the girl was emma, and beside her, smiling, stood a half-grown white man. it was emma, bertie's child; and yet it was not, for in the child of other days zora saw for the first time the dawning woman. and she saw, too, the white man. suddenly the horror of the swamp was upon her. she swept between the couple like a gust, gripping the child's arm till she paled and almost whimpered. "i--i was just going on an errand for miss smith!" she cried. looking down into her soul, zora discerned its innocence and the fright shining in the child's eyes. her own eyes softened, her grip became a caress, but her heart was hard. the young man laughed awkwardly and strolled away. zora looked back at him and the paramount mission of her life formed itself in her mind. she would protect this girl; she would protect all black girls. she would make it possible for these poor beasts of burden to be decent in their toil. out of protection of womanhood as the central thought, she must build ramparts against cruelty, poverty, and crime. all this in turn--but now and first, the innocent girlhood of this daughter of shame must be rescued from the devil. it was her duty, her heritage. she must offer this unsullied soul up unto god in mighty atonement--but how? here now was no protection. already lustful eyes were in wait, and the child was too ignorant to protect herself. she must be sent to boarding-school, somewhere far away; but the money? god! it was money, money, always money. then she stopped suddenly, thrilled with the recollection of mrs. vanderpool's check. she dismissed the girl with a kiss, and stood still a moment considering. money to send emma off to school; money to buy a school farm; money to "buy" tenants to live on it; money to furnish them rations; money-she went straight to miss smith. "miss smith, how much money have you?" miss smith's hand trembled a bit. ah, that splendid strength of young womanhood--if only she herself had it! but perhaps zora was the chosen one. she reached up and took down a well-worn book. "zora," she said slowly, "i've been going to tell you ever since you came, but i hadn't the courage. zora," miss smith hesitated and gripped the book with thin white fingers, "i'm afraid--i almost know that this school is doomed." there lay a silence in the room while the two women stared into each other's souls with startled eyes. swallowing hard, miss smith spoke. "when i thought the endowment sure, i mortgaged the school in order to buy tolliver's land. the endowment failed, as you know, because--perhaps i was too stubborn." but zora's eyes snapped "no!" and miss smith continued: "i borrowed ten thousand dollars. then i tried to get the land, but tolliver kept putting me off, and finally i learned that colonel cresswell had bought it. it seems that tolliver got caught tight in the cotton corner, and that cresswell, through john taylor, offered him twice what he had agreed to sell to me for, and he took it. i don't suppose taylor knew what he was doing; i hope he didn't. "well, there i was with ten thousand dollars idle on my hands, paying ten per cent on it and getting less than three per cent. i tried to get the bank to take the money back, but they refused. then i was tempted--and fell." she paused, and zora took both her hands in her own. "you see," continued miss smith, "just as soon as the announcement of the prospective endowment was sent broadcast by the press, the donations from the north fell off. letter after letter came from old friends of the school full of congratulations, but no money. i ought to have cut down the teaching force to the barest minimum, and gone north begging--but i couldn't. i guess my courage was gone. i knew how i'd have to explain and plead, and i just could not. so i used the ten thousand dollars to pay its own interest and help run the school. already it's half gone, and when the rest goes then will come the end." without, the great red sun paused a moment over the edge of the swamp, and the long, low cry of night birds broke sadly on the twilight silence. zora sat stroking the lined hands. "not the end," she spoke confidently. "it cannot end like this. i've got a little money that mrs. vanderpool gave me, and somehow we must get more. perhaps i might go north and--beg." she shivered. then she sat up resolutely and turned to the book. "let's go over matters carefully," she proposed. together they counted and calculated. "the balance is four thousand seven hundred and ninety-eight dollars," said miss smith. "yes, and then there's mrs. vanderpool's check." "how much is that?" zora paused; she did not know. in her world there was little calculation of money. credit and not cash is the currency of the black belt. she had been pleased to receive the check, but she had not examined it. "i really don't know," she presently confessed. "i think it was one thousand dollars; but i was so hurried in leaving that i didn't look carefully," and the wild thought surged in her, suppose it was more! she ran into the other room and plunged into her trunk; beneath the clothes, beneath the beauty of the silver fleece, till her fingers clutched and tore the envelope. a little choking cry burst from her throat, her knees trembled so that she was obliged to sit down. in her fingers fluttered a check for--_ten thousand dollars!_ it was not until the next day that the two women were sufficiently composed to talk matters over sanely. "what is your plan?" asked zora. "to put the money in a northern savings bank at three per cent interest; to supply the rest of the interest, and the deficit in the running expenses, from our balance, and to send you north to beg." zora shook her head. "it won't do," she objected. "i'd make a poor beggar; i don't know human nature well enough, and i can't talk to rich white folks the way they expect us to talk." "it wouldn't be hypocrisy, zora; you would be serving in a great cause. if you don't go, i--" "wait! you sha'n't go. if any one goes it must be me. but let's think it out: we pay off the mortgage, we get enough to run the school as it has been run. then what? there will still be slavery and oppression all around us. the children will be kept in the cotton fields; the men will be cheated, and the women--" zora paused and her eyes grew hard. she began again rapidly: "we must have land--our own farm with our own tenants--to be the beginning of a free community." miss smith threw up her hands impatiently. "but sakes alive! where, zora? where can we get land, with cresswell owning every inch and bound to destroy us?" zora sat hugging her knees and staring out the window toward the sombre ramparts of the swamp. in her eyes lay slumbering the madness of long ago; in her brain danced all the dreams and visions of childhood. "i'm thinking," she murmured, "of buying the swamp." _thirty-three_ the buying of the swamp "it's a shame," asserted john taylor with something like real feeling. he was spending sunday with his father-in-law, and both, over their after-dinner cigars, were gazing thoughtfully at the swamp. "what's a shame?" asked colonel cresswell. "to see all that timber and prime cotton-land going to waste. don't you remember those fine bales of cotton that came out of there several seasons ago?" the colonel smoked placidly. "you can't get it cleared," he said. "but couldn't you hire some good workers?" "niggers won't work. now if we had italians we might do it." "yes, and in a few years they'd own the country." "that's right; so there we are. there's only one way to get that swamp cleared." "how?" "sell it to some fool darkey." "sell it? it's too valuable to sell." "that's just it. you don't understand. the only way to get decent work out of some niggers is to let them believe they're buying land. in nine cases out of ten he works hard a while and then throws up the job. we get back our land and he makes good wages for his work." "but in the tenth case--suppose he should stick to it?" "oh,"--easily, "we could get rid of him when we want to. white people rule here." john taylor frowned and looked a little puzzled. he was no moralist, but he had his code and he did not understand colonel cresswell. as a matter of fact, colonel cresswell was an honest man. in most matters of commerce between men he was punctilious to a degree almost annoying to taylor. but there was one part of the world which his code of honor did not cover, and he saw no incongruity in the omission. the uninitiated cannot easily picture to himself the mental attitude of a former slaveholder toward property in the hands of a negro. such property belonged of right to the master, if the master needed it; and since ridiculous laws safeguarded the property, it was perfectly permissible to circumvent such laws. no negro starved on the cresswell place, neither did any accumulate property. colonel cresswell saw to both matters. as the colonel and john taylor were thus conferring, zora appeared, coming up the walk. "who's that?" asked the colonel shading his eyes. "it's zora--the girl who went north with mrs. vanderpool," taylor enlightened him. "back, is she? too trifling to stick to a job, and full of northern nonsense," growled the colonel. "even got a northern walk--i thought for a moment she was a lady." neither of the gentlemen ever dreamed how long, how hard, how heart-wringing was that walk from the gate up the winding way beneath their careless gaze. it was not the coming of the thoughtless, careless girl of five years ago who had marched a dozen times unthinking before the faces of white men. it was the approach of a woman who knew how the world treated women whom it respected; who knew that no such treatment would be thought of in her case: neither the bow, the lifted hat, nor even the conventional title of decency. yet she must go on naturally and easily, boldly but circumspectly, and play a daring game with two powerful men. "can i speak with you a moment, colonel?" she asked. the colonel did not stir or remove his cigar; he even injected a little gruffness into his tone. "well, what is it?" of course, she was not asked to sit, but she stood with her hands clasped loosely before her and her eyes half veiled. "colonel, i've got a thousand dollars." she did not mention the other nine. the colonel sat up. "where did you get it?" he asked. "mrs. vanderpool gave it to me to use in helping the colored people." "what are you going to do with it?" "well, that's just what i came to see you about. you see, i might give it to the school, but i've been thinking that i'd like to buy some land for some of the tenants." "i've got no land to sell," said the colonel. "i was thinking you might sell a bit of the swamp." cresswell and taylor glanced at each other and the colonel re-lit his cigar. "how much of it?" he asked finally. "i don't know; i thought perhaps two hundred acres." "two hundred acres? do you expect to buy that land for five dollars an acre?" "oh, no, sir. i thought it might cost as much as twenty-five dollars." "but you've only got a thousand dollars." "yes, sir; i thought i might pay that down and then pay the rest from the crops." "who's going to work on the place?" zora named a number of the steadiest tenants to whom she had spoken. "they owe me a lot of money," said the colonel. "we'd try to pay that, too." colonel cresswell considered. there was absolutely no risk. the cost of the land, the back debts of the tenants--no possible crops could pay for them. then there was the chance of getting the swamp cleared for almost nothing. "how's the school getting on?" he asked suddenly. "very poorly," answered zora sadly. "you know it's mortgaged, and miss smith has had to use the mortgage money for yearly expenses." the colonel smiled grimly. "it will cost you fifty dollars an acre," he said finally. zora looked disappointed and figured out the matter slowly. "that would be one thousand down and nine thousand to pay--" "with interest," said cresswell. zora shook her head doubtfully. "what would the interest be?" she asked. "ten per cent." she stood silent a moment and colonel cresswell spoke up: "it's the best land about here and about the only land you can buy--i wouldn't sell it to anybody else." she still hesitated. "the trouble is, you see, colonel cresswell, the price is high and the interest heavy. and after all i may not be able to get as many tenants as i'd need. i think though, i'd try it if--if i could be sure you'd treat me fairly, and that i'd get the land if i paid for it." colonel cresswell reddened a little, and john taylor looked away. "well, if you don't want to undertake it, all right." zora looked thoughtfully across the field-"mr. maxwell has a bit of land," she began meditatively. "worked out, and not worth five dollars an acre!" snapped the colonel. but he did not propose to hand maxwell a thousand dollars. "now, see here, i'll treat you as well as anybody, and you know it." "i believe so, sir," acknowledged zora in a tone that brought a sudden keen glance from taylor; but her face was a mask. "i reckon i'll make the bargain." "all right. bring the money and we'll fix the thing up." "the money is here," said zora, taking an envelope out of her bosom. "well, leave it here, and i'll see to it." "but you see, sir, miss smith is so methodical; she expects some papers or receipts." "well, it's too late tonight." "possibly you could sign a sort of receipt and later--" cresswell laughed. "well, write one," he indulgently assented. and zora wrote. when zora left colonel cresswell's about noon that sunday she knew her work had just begun, and she walked swiftly along the country roads, calling here and there. would uncle isaac help her build a log home? would the boys help her some time to clear some swamp land? would rob become a tenant when she asked? for this was the idle time of the year. crops were laid by and planting had not yet begun. this too was the time of big church meetings. she knew that in her part of the country on that day the black population, man, woman, and child, were gathered in great groups; all day they had been gathering, streaming in snake-like lines along the country roads, in well-brushed, brilliant attire, half fantastic, half crude. down where the toomsville-montgomery highway dipped to the stream that fed the cresswell swamp squatted a square barn that slept through day and weeks in dull indifference. but on the first sunday it woke to sudden mighty life. the voices of men and children mingled with the snorting of animals and the cracking of whips. then came the long drone and sing-song of the preacher with its sharp wilder climaxes and the answering "amens" and screams of the worshippers. this was the shrine of the baptists--shrine and oracle, centre and source of inspiration--and hither zora hurried. the preacher was jones, a big man, fat, black, and greasy, with little eyes, unctuous voice, and three manners: his white folks manner, soft, humble, wheedling; his black folks manner, voluble, important, condescending; and above all, his pulpit manner, loud, wild, and strong. he was about to don this latter cloak when zora approached with a request briefly to address the congregation. remembering some former snubs, his manner was lordly. "i doesn't see," he returned reflectively, wiping his brows, "as how i can rightly spare you any time; the brethren is a-gettin' mighty onpatient to hear me." he pulled down his cuffs, regarding her doubtfully. "i might speak after you're through," she suggested. but he objected that there was the regular collection and two or three other collections, a baptism, a meeting of the trustees; there was no time, in short; but--he eyed her again. "does you want--a collection?" he questioned suspiciously, for he could imagine few other reasons for talking. then, too, he did not want to be too inflexible, for all of his people knew zora and liked her. "oh, no, i want no collection at all. i only want a little voluntary work on their part." he looked relieved, frowned through the door at the audience, and looked at his bright gold watch. the whole crowd was not there yet--perhaps-"you kin say just a word before the sermont," he finally yielded; "but not long--not long. they'se just a-dying to hear me." so zora spoke simply but clearly: of neglect and suffering, of the sins of others that bowed young shoulders, of the great hope of the children's future. then she told something of what she had seen and read of the world's newer ways of helping men and women. she talked of cooperation and refuges and other efforts; she praised their way of adopting children into their own homes; and then finally she told them of the land she was buying for new tenants and the helping hands she needed. the preacher fidgeted and coughed but dared not actually interrupt, for the people were listening breathless to a kind of straightforward talk which they seldom heard and for which they were hungering. and zora forgot time and occasion. the moments flew; the crowd increased until the wonderful spell of those dark and upturned faces pulsed in her blood. she felt the wild yearning to help them beating in her ears and blinding her eyes. "oh, my people!" she almost sobbed. "my own people, i am not asking you to help others; i am pleading with you to help yourselves. rescue your own flesh and blood--free yourselves--free yourselves!" and from the swaying sobbing hundreds burst a great "amen!" the minister's dusky face grew more and more sombre, and the angry sweat started on his brow. he felt himself hoaxed and cheated, and he meant to have his revenge. two hundred men and women rose and pledged themselves to help zora; and when she turned with overflowing heart to thank the preacher he had left the platform, and she found him in the yard whispering darkly with two deacons. she realized her mistake, and promised to retrieve it during the week; but the week was full of planning and journeying and talking. saturday dawned cool and clear. she had dinner prepared for cooking in the yard: sweet potatoes, hoe-cake, and buttermilk, and a hog to be barbecued. everything was ready by eight o'clock in the morning. emma and two other girl helpers were on the tip-toe of expectancy. nine o'clock came and no one with it. ten o'clock came, and eleven. high noon found zora peering down the highway under her shading hand, but no soul in sight. she tried to think it out: what could have happened? her people were slow, tardy, but they would not thus forget her and disappoint her without some great cause. she sent the girls home at dusk and then seated herself miserably under the great oak; then at last one half-grown boy hurried by. "i wanted to come, miss zora, but i was afeared. preacher jones has been talking everywhere against you. he says that your mother was a voodoo woman and that you don't believe in god, and the deacons voted that the members mustn't help you." "and do the people believe that?" she asked in consternation. "they just don't know what to say. they don't 'zactly believe it, but they has to 'low that you didn't say much 'bout religion when you talked. you ain't been near big meetin'--and--and--you ain't saved." he hurried on. zora leaned her head back wearily, watching the laced black branches where the star-light flickered through--as coldly still and immovable as she had watched them from those gnarled roots all her life--and she murmured bitterly the world-old question of despair: "what's the use?" it seemed to her that every breeze and branch was instinct with sympathy, and murmuring, "what's the use?" she wondered vaguely why, and as she wondered, she knew. for yonder where the black earth of the swamp heaved in a formless mound she felt the black arms of elspeth rising from the sod--gigantic, mighty. they stole toward her with stealthy hands and claw-like talons. they clutched at her skirts. she froze and could not move. down, down she slipped toward the black slime of the swamp, and the air about was horror--down, down, till the chilly waters stung her knees; and then with one grip she seized the oak, while the great hand of elspeth twisted and tore her soul. faint, afar, nearer and nearer and ever mightier, rose a song of mystic melody. she heard its human voice and sought to cry aloud. she strove again and again with that gripping, twisting pain--that awful hand--until the shriek came and she awoke. she lay panting and sweating across the bent and broken roots of the oak. the hand of elspeth was gone but the song was still there. she rose trembling and listened. it was the singing of the big meeting in the church far away. she had forgotten this religious revival in her days of hurried preparation, and the preacher had used her absence and apparent indifference against her and her work. the hand of elspeth was reaching from the grave to pull her back; but she was no longer dreaming now. drawing her shawl about her, she hurried down the highway. the meeting had overflowed the church and spread to the edge of the swamp. the tops of young trees had been bent down and interlaced to form a covering and benches twined to their trunks. thus a low and wide cathedral, all green and silver in the star-light, lay packed with a living mass of black folk. flaming pine torches burned above the devotees; the rhythm of their stamping, the shout of their voices, and the wild music of their singing shook the night. four hundred people fell upon their knees when the huge black preacher, uncoated, red-eyed, frenzied, stretched his long arms to heaven. zora saw the throng from afar, and hesitated. after all, she knew little of this strange faith of theirs--had little belief in its mummery. she herself had been brought up almost without religion save some few mystic remnants of a half-forgotten heathen cult. the little she had seen of religious observance had not moved her greatly, save once yonder in washington. there she found god after a searching that had seared her soul; but he had simply pointed the way, and the way was human. humanity was near and real. she loved it. but if she talked again of mere men would these devotees listen? already the minister had spied her tall form and feared her power. he set his powerful voice and the frenzy of his hearers to crush her. "who is dis what talks of doing the lord's work for him? what does de good book say? take no thought 'bout de morrow. why is you trying to make dis ole world better? i spits on the world! come out from it. seek jesus. heaven is my home! is it yo's?" "yes," groaned the multitude. his arm shot out and he pointed straight at zora. "beware the ebil one!" he shouted, and the multitude moaned. "beware of dem dat calls ebil good. beware of dem dat worships debbils; the debbils dat crawl; de debbils what forgits god." "help him, lord!" cried the multitude. zora stepped into the circle of light. a hush fell on the throng; the preacher paused a moment, then started boldly forward with upraised hands. then a curious thing happened. a sharp cry arose far off down toward the swamp and the sound of great footsteps coming, coming as from the end of the world; there swelled a rhythmical chanting, wilder and more primitive than song. on, on it came, until it swung into sight. an old man led the band--tall, massive, with tufted gray hair and wrinkled leathery skin, and his eyes were the eyes of death. he reached the circle of light, and zora started: once before she had seen that old man. the singing stopped but he came straight on till he reached zora's side and then he whirled and spoke. the words leaped and flew from his lips as he lashed the throng with bitter fury. he said what zora wanted to say with two great differences: first, he spoke their religious language and spoke it with absolute confidence and authority; and secondly, he seemed to know each one there personally and intimately so that he spoke to no inchoate throng--he spoke to them individually, and they listened awestruck and fearsome. "god is done sent me," he declared in passionate tones, "to preach his acceptable time. faith without works is dead; who is you that dares to set and wait for the lord to do your work?" then in sudden fury, "ye generation of vipers--who kin save you?" he bent forward and pointed his long finger. "yes," he cried, "pray, sam collins, you black devil; pray, for the corn you stole thursday." the black figure moved. "moan, sister maxwell, for the backbiting you did today. yell, jack tolliver, you sneaking scamp, t'wil the lord tell uncle bill who ruined his daughter. weep, may haynes, for that baby--" but the woman's shriek drowned his words, and he whirled full on the preacher, stamping his feet and waving his hands. his anger choked him; the fat preacher cowered gray and trembling. the gaunt fanatic towered over him. "you--you--ornery hound of hell! god never knowed you and the devil owns your soul!" there leapt from his lips a denunciation so livid, specific, and impassioned that the preacher squatted and bowed, then finally fell upon his face and moaned. the gaunt speaker turned again to the people. he talked of little children; he pictured their sin and neglect. "god is done sent me to offer you all salvation," he cried, while the people wept and wailed; "not in praying, but in works. follow me!" the hour was halfway between midnight and dawn, but nevertheless the people leapt frenziedly to their feet. "follow me!" he shouted. and, singing and chanting, the throng poured out upon the black highway, waving their torches. zora knew his intention. with a half-dozen of younger onlookers she unhitched teams and rode across the land, calling at the cabins. before sunrise, tools were in the swamp, axes and saws and hammers. the noise of prayer and singing filled the sabbath dawn. the news of the great revival spread, and men and women came pouring in. then of a sudden the uproar stopped, and the ringing of axes and grating of saws and tugging of mules was heard. the forest trembled as by some mighty magic, swaying and falling with crash on crash. huge bonfires blazed and crackled, until at last a wide black scar appeared in the thick south side of the swamp, which widened and widened to full twenty acres. the sun rose higher and higher till it blazed at high noon. the workers dropped their tools. the aroma of coffee and roasting meat rose in the dim cool shade. with ravenous appetites the dark, half-famished throng fell upon the food, and then in utter weariness stretched themselves and slept: lying along the earth like huge bronze earth-spirits, sitting against trees, curled in dense bushes. and zora sat above them on a high rich-scented pile of logs. her senses slept save her sleepless eyes. amid a silence she saw in the little grove that still stood, the cabin of elspeth tremble, sigh, and disappear, and with it flew some spirit of evil. then she looked down to the new edge of the swamp, by the old lagoon, and saw bles alwyn standing there. it seemed very natural; and closing her eyes, she fell asleep. _thirty-four_ the return of alwyn bles alwyn stared at mrs. harry cresswell in surprise. he had not seen her since that moment at the ball, and he was startled at the change. her abundant hair was gone; her face was pale and drawn, and there were little wrinkles below her sunken eyes. in those eyes lurked the tired look of the bewildered and the disappointed. it was in the lofty waiting-room of the washington station where alwyn had come to meet a friend. mrs. cresswell turned and recognized him with genuine pleasure. he seemed somehow a part of the few things in the world--little and unimportant perhaps--that counted and stood firm, and she shook his hand cordially, not minding the staring of the people about. he took her bag and carried it towards the gate, which made the observers breathe easier, seeing him in servile duty. someway, she knew not just how, she found herself telling him of the crisis in her life before she realized; not everything, of course, but a great deal. it was much as though she were talking to some one from another world--an outsider; but one she had known long, one who understood. both from what she recounted and what she could not tell he gathered the substance of the story, and it bewildered him. he had not thought that white people had such troubles; yet, he reflected, why not? they, too, were human. "i suppose you hear from the school?" he ventured after a pause. "why, yes--not directly--but zora used to speak of it." bles looked up quickly. "zora?" "yes. didn't you see her while she was here? she has gone back now." then the gate opened, the crowd surged through, sweeping them apart, and next moment he was alone. alwyn turned slowly away. he forgot the friend he was to meet. he forgot everything but the field of the silver fleece. it rose shadowy there in the pale concourse, swaying in ghostly breezes. the purple of its flowers mingled with the silver radiance of tendrils that trembled across the hurrying throng, like threads of mists along low hills. in its midst rose a dark, slim, and quivering form. she had been here--here in washington! why had he not known? what was she doing? "she has gone back now"--back to the sun and the swamp, back to the burden. why should not he go back, too? he walked on thinking. he had failed. his apparent success had been too sudden, too overwhelming, and when he had faced the crisis his hand had trembled. he had chosen the right--but the right was ineffective, impotent, almost ludicrous. it left him shorn, powerless, and in moral revolt. the world had suddenly left him, as the vision of carrie wynn had left him, alone, a mere clerk, an insignificant cog in the great grinding wheel of humdrum drudgery. his chance to do and thereby to be had not come. he thought of zora again. why not go back to the south where she had gone? he shuddered as one who sees before him a cold black pool whither his path leads. to face the proscription, the insult, the lawless hate of the south again--never! and yet he went home and sat down and wrote a long letter to miss smith. the reply that came after some delay was almost curt. it answered few of his questions, argued with none of his doubts, and made no mention of zora. yes, there was need of a manager for the new farm and settlement. she was not sure whether alwyn could do the work or not. the salary was meagre and the work hard. if he wished it, he must decide immediately. two weeks later found alwyn on the train facing southward in the jim crow car. how he had decided to go back south he did not know. in fact, he had not decided. he had sat helpless and inactive in the grip of great and shadowed hands, and the thing was as yet incomprehensible. and so it was that the vision zora saw in the swamp had been real enough, and alwyn felt strangely disappointed that she had given no sign of greeting on recognition. in other ways, too, zora, when he met her, was to him a new creature. she came to him frankly and greeted him, her gladness shining in her eyes, yet looking nothing more than gladness and saying nothing more. just what he had expected was hard to say; but he had left her on her knees in the dirt with outstretched hands, and somehow he had expected to return to some corresponding mental attitude. the physical change of these three years was marvellous. the girl was a woman, well-rounded and poised, tall, straight, and quick. and with this went mental change: a self-mastery; a veiling of the self even in intimate talk; a subtle air as of one looking from great and unreachable heights down on the dawn of the world. perhaps no one who had not known the child and the girl as he had would have noted all this; but he saw and realized the transformation with a pang--something had gone; the innocence and wonder of the child, and in their place had grown up something to him incomprehensible and occult. miss smith was not to be easily questioned on the subject. she took no hints and gave no information, and when once he hazarded some pointed questions she turned on him abruptly, observing acidly: "if i were you i'd think less of zora and more of her work." gradually, in his spiritual perplexity, alwyn turned to mary cresswell. she was staying with the colonel at cresswell oaks. her coming south was supposed to be solely for reasons of health, and her appearance made this excuse plausible. she was lonely and restless, and naturally drawn toward the school. her intercourse with miss smith was only formal, but her interest in zora's work grew. down in the swamp, at the edge of the cleared space, had risen a log cabin; long, low, spacious, overhung with oak and pine. it was zora's centre for her settlement-work. there she lived, and with her a half-dozen orphan girls and children too young for the boarding department of the school. mrs. cresswell easily fell into the habit of walking by here each day, coming down the avenue of oaks across the road and into the swamp. she saw little of zora personally but she saw her girls and learned much of her plans. the rooms of the cottage were clean and light, supplied with books and pictures, simple toys, and a phonograph. the yard was one wide green and golden play-ground, and all day the music of children's glad crooning and the singing of girls went echoing and trembling through the trees, as they played and sewed and washed and worked. from the cresswells and the maxwells and others came loads of clothes for washing and mending. the tolliver girls had simple dresses made, embroidery was ordered from town, and soon there would be the gardens and cotton fields. mrs. cresswell would saunter down of mornings. sometimes she would talk to the big girls and play with the children; sometimes she would sit hidden in the forest, listening and glimpsing and thinking, thinking, till her head whirled and the world danced red before her eyes, today she rose wearily, for it was near noon, and started home. she saw alwyn swing along the road to the school dining-room where he had charge of the students at the noonday meal. alwyn wanted mrs. cresswell's judgment and advice. he was growing doubtful of his own estimate of women. evidently something about his standards was wrong; consequently he made opportunities to talk with mrs. cresswell when she was about, hoping she would bring up the subject of zora of her own accord. but she did not. she was too full of her own cares and troubles, and she was only too glad of willing and sympathetic ears into which to pour her thoughts. miss smith soon began to look on these conversations with some uneasiness. black men and white women cannot talk together casually in the south and she did not know how far the north had put notions in alwyn's head. today both met each other almost eagerly. mrs. cresswell had just had a bit of news which only he would fully appreciate. "have you heard of the vanderpools?" she asked. "no--except that he was appointed and confirmed at last." "well, they had only arrived in france when he died of apoplexy. i do not know," added mrs. cresswell, "i may be wrong and--i hope i'm not glad." then there leapt to her mind a hypothetical question which had to do with her own curious situation. it was characteristic of her to brood and then restlessly to seek relief in consulting the one person near who knew her story. she started to open the subject again today. but alwyn, his own mind full, spoke first and rapidly. he, too, had turned to her as he saw her come from zora's home. he must know more about the girl. he could no longer endure this silence. zora beneath her apparent frankness was impenetrable, and he felt that she carefully avoided him, although she did it so deftly that he felt rather than observed it. miss smith still systematically snubbed him when he broached the subject of zora. with others he did not speak; the matter seemed too delicate and sacred, and he always had an awful dread lest sometime, somewhere, a chance and fatal word would be dropped, a breath of evil gossip which would shatter all. he had hated to obtrude his troubles on mrs. cresswell, who seemed so torn in soul. but today he must speak, although time pressed. "mrs. cresswell," he began hurriedly, "there's a matter--a personal matter of which i have wanted to speak--a long time--i--" the dinner-bell rang, and he stopped, vexed. "come up to the house this afternoon," she said; "colonel cresswell will be away--" then she paused abruptly. a strange startling thought flashed through her brain. alwyn noticed nothing. he thanked her cordially and hurried toward the dining-hall, meeting colonel cresswell on horseback just as he turned into the school gate. mary cresswell walked slowly on, flushing and paling by turns. could it be that this negro had dared to misunderstand her--had presumed? she reviewed her conduct. perhaps she had been indiscreet in thus making a confidant of him in her trouble. she had thought of him as a boy--an old student, a sort of confidential servant; but what had he thought? she remembered miss smith's warning of years before--and he had been north since and acquired northern notions of freedom and equality. she bit her lip cruelly. yet, she mused, she was herself to blame. she had unwittingly made the intimacy and he was but a negro, looking on every white woman as a goddess and ready to fawn at the slightest encouragement. there had been no one else here to confide in. she could not tell miss smith her troubles, although she knew miss smith must suspect. harry cresswell, apparently, had written nothing home of their quarrel. all the neighbors behaved as if her excuse of ill-health were sufficient to account for her return south to escape the rigors of a northern winter. alwyn, and alwyn alone, really knew. well, it was her blindness, and she must right it quietly and quickly with hard ruthless plainness. she blushed again at the shame of it; then she began to excuse. after all, which was worse--a cresswell or an alwyn? it was no sin that alwyn had done; it was simply ignorant presumption, and she must correct him firmly, but gently, like a child. what a crazy muddle the world was! she thought of harry cresswell and the tale he told her in the swamp. she thought of the flitting ghosts that awful night in washington. she thought of miss wynn who had jilted alwyn and given her herself a very bad quarter of an hour. what a world it was, and after all how far was this black boy wrong? just then colonel cresswell rode up behind and greeted her. she started almost guiltily, and again a sense of the awkwardness of her position reddened her face and neck. the colonel dismounted, despite her protest, and walked beside her. they chatted along indifferently, of the crops, her brother's new baby, the proposed mill. "mary," his voice abruptly struck a new note. "i don't like the way you talk with that alwyn nigger." she was silent. "of course," he continued, "you're northern born and you have been a teacher in this school and feel differently from us in some ways; but mark what i say, a nigger will presume on the slightest pretext, and you must keep them in their place. then, too, you are a cresswell now--" she smiled bitterly; he noticed it, but went on: "you are a cresswell, even if you have caught harry up to some of his deviltry,"--she started,--"and got miffed about it. it'll all come out right. you're a cresswell, and you must hold yourself too high to 'mister' a nigger or let him dream of any sort of equality." he spoke pleasantly, but with a certain sharp insistence that struck a note of fear in mary's heart. for a moment she thought of writing alwyn not to call. but, no; a note would be unwise. she and colonel cresswell lunched rather silently. "well, i must get to town," he finally announced. "the mill directors meet today. if maxwell calls by about that lumber tell him i'll see him in town." and away he went. he had scarcely reached the highway and ridden a quarter of a mile or so when he spied bles alwyn hurrying across the field toward the cresswell oaks. he frowned and rode on. then reining in his horse, he stopped in the shadow of the trees and watched alwyn. it was here that zora saw him as she came up from her house. she, too, stopped, and soon saw whom he was watching. she had been planning to see mr. cresswell about the cut timber on her land. by legal right it was hers but she knew he would claim half, treating her like a mere tenant. seeing him watching alwyn she paused in the shadow and waited, fearing trouble. she, too, had felt that the continued conversations of alwyn and mrs. cresswell were indiscreet, but she hoped that they had attracted no one else's attention. now she feared the colonel was suspicious and her heart sank. alwyn went straight toward the house and disappeared in the oak avenue. still colonel cresswell waited but zora waited no longer. alwyn must be warned. she must reach cresswell's mansion before cresswell did and without him seeing her. this meant a long detour of the swamp to approach the oaks from the west. she silently gathered up her skirts and walked quickly and carefully away. she was a strong woman, lithe and vigorous, living in the open air and used to walking. once out of hearing she threw away her hat and bending forward ran through the swamp. for a while she ran easily and swiftly. then for a moment she grew dizzy and it seemed as though she was standing still and the swamp in solemn grandeur marching past--in solemn mocking grandeur. she loosened her dress at the neck and flew on. she sped at last through the oaks, up the terraces, and slowing down to an unsteady walk, staggered into the house. no one would wonder at her being there. she came up now and then and sorted the linen and piled the baskets for her girls. she entered a side door and listened. the colonel's voice sounded impatiently in the front hall. "mary! mary?" a pause, then an answer: "yes, father!" he started up the front stairway and zora hurried up the narrow back stairs, almost overturning a servant. "i'm after the clothes," she explained. she reached the back landing just in time to see colonel cresswell's head rising up the front staircase. with a quick bound she almost fell into the first room at the top of the stairs. bles alwyn had hurried through his dinner duties and hastened to the oaks. the questions, the doubts, the uncertainty within him were clamoring for utterance. how much had mrs. cresswell ever known of zora? what kind of a woman was zora now? mrs. cresswell had seen her and had talked to her and watched her. what did she think? thus he formulated his questions as he went, half timid, and fearful in putting them and yet determined to know. mrs. cresswell, waiting for him, was almost panic-stricken. probably he would beat round the bush seeking further encouragement; but at the slightest indication she must crush him ruthlessly and at the same time point the path of duty. he ought to marry some good girl--not zora, but some one. somehow zora seemed too unusual and strange for him--too inhuman, as mary cresswell judged humanity. she glanced out from her seat on the upper verandah over the front porch and saw alwyn coming. where should she receive him? on the porch and have mr. maxwell ride up? in the parlor and have the servants astounded and talking? if she took him up to her own sitting-room the servants would think he was doing some work or fetching something for the school. she greeted him briefly and asked him in. "good-afternoon, bles"--using his first name to show him his place, and then inwardly recoiling at its note of familiarity. she preceded him up-stairs to the sitting-room, where, leaving the door ajar, she seated herself on the opposite side of the room and waited. he fidgeted, then spoke rapidly. "mrs. cresswell--this is a personal affair." she reddened angrily. "a love affair"--she paled with something like fear--"and i"--she started to speak, but could not--"i want to know what you think about zora?" "about zora!" she gasped weakly. the sudden reaction, the revulsion of her agitated feelings, left her breathless. "about zora. you know i loved her dearly as a boy--how dearly i have only just begun to realize: i've been wondering if i understood--if i wasn't--" mrs. cresswell got angrily to her feet. "you have come here to speak to me of that--that--" she choked, and bles thought his worst fears realized. "mary, mary!" colonel cresswell's voice broke suddenly in upon them. with a start of fear mrs. cresswell rushed out into the hall and closed the door. "mary, has that alwyn nigger been here this afternoon?" mr. cresswell was coming up-stairs, carrying his riding whip. "why, no!" she answered, lying instinctively before she quite realized what her lie meant. she hesitated. "that is, i haven't seen him. i must have nodded over my book,"--looking toward the little verandah at the front of the upper hall, where her easy chair stood with her book. then with an awful flash of enlightenment she realized what her lie might mean, and her heart paused. cresswell strode up. "i saw him come up--he must have entered. he's nowhere downstairs," he wavered and scowled. "have you been in your sitting-room?" and then, not waiting for a reply, he strode to the door. "but the damned scoundrel wouldn't dare!" he deliberately placed his hand in his right-hand hip-pocket and threw open the door. mary cresswell stood frozen. the full horror of the thing burst upon her. her own silly misapprehension, the infatuation of alwyn for zora, her thoughtless--no, vindictive--betrayal of him to something worse than death. she listened for the crack of doom. she heard a bird singing far down in the swamp; she heard the soft raising of a window and the closing of a door. and then--great god in heaven! must she live forever in this agony?--and then, she heard the door bang and mr. cresswell's gruff voice-"well, where is he?--he isn't in there!" mary cresswell felt that something was giving way within. she swayed and would have crashed to the bottom of the staircase if just then she had not seen at the opposite end of the hall, near the back stairs, zora and alwyn emerge calmly from a room, carrying a basket full of clothes. colonel cresswell stared at them, and zora instinctively put up her hand and fastened her dress at the throat. the colonel scowled, for it was all clear to him now. "look here," he angrily opened upon them, "if you niggers want to meet around keep out of this house; hereafter i'll send the clothes down. by god, if you want to make love go to the swamp!" he stamped down the stairs while an ashy paleness stole beneath the dark-red bronze of zora's face. they walked silently down the road together--the old familiar road. alwyn was staring moodily ahead. "we must get married--before christmas, zora," he presently avowed, not looking at her. he felt the basket pause and he glanced up. her dark eyes were full upon him and he saw something in their depths that brought him to himself and made him realize his blunder. "zora!" he stammered, "forgive me! will you marry me?" she looked at him calmly with infinite compassion. but her reply was uttered unhesitantly; distinct, direct. "no, bles." _thirty-five_ the cotton mill the people of toomsville started in their beds and listened. a new song was rising on the air: a harsh, low, murmuring croon that shook the village ranged around its old square of dilapadated stores. it was not a song of joy; it was not a song of sorrow; it was not a song at all, perhaps, but a confused whizzing and murmuring, as of a thousand ill-tuned, busy voices. some of the listeners wondered; but most of the town cried joyfully, "it's the new cotton-mill!" john taylor's head teemed with new schemes. the mill trust of the north was at last a fact. the small mills had not been able to buy cotton when it was low because cresswell was cornering it in the name of the farmers' league; now that it was high they could not afford to, and many surrendered to the trust. "next thing," wrote taylor to easterly, "is to reduce cost of production. too much goes in wages. gradually transfer mills south." easterly argued that the labor was too unskilled in the south and that to send northern spinners down would spread labor troubles. taylor replied briefly: "never fear; we'll scare them with a vision of niggers in the mills!" colonel cresswell was not so easily won over to the new scheme. in the first place he was angry because the school, which he had come to regard as on its last legs, somehow still continued to flourish. the ten-thousand-dollar mortgage had but three more years, and that would end all; but he had hoped for a crash even earlier. instead of this, miss smith was cheerfully expanding the work, hiring new teachers, and especially she had brought to help her two young negroes whom he suspected. colonel cresswell had prevented the tolliver land sale, only to be inveigled himself into zora's scheme which now began to worry him. he must evict zora's tenants as soon as the crops were planted and harvested. there was nothing unjust about such a course, he argued, for negroes anyway were too lazy and shiftless to buy the land. they would not, they could not, work without driving. all this he imparted to john taylor, to which that gentleman listened carefully. "h'm, i see," he owned. "and i know the way out." "how?" "a cotton mill in toomsville." "what's that got to do with it?" "bring in whites." "but i don't want poor white trash; i'd sooner have niggers." "now, see here," argued taylor, "you can't have everything you want--day's gone by for aristocracy of old kind. you must have neighbors: choose, then, white or black. i say white." "but they'll rule us--out-vote us--marry our daughters," warmly objected the colonel. "some of them may--most of them won't. a few of them with brains will help us rule the rest with money. we'll plant cotton mills beside the cotton fields, use whites to keep niggers in their place, and the fear of niggers to keep the poorer whites in theirs." the colonel looked thoughtful. "there's something in that," he confessed after a while; "but it's a mighty big experiment, and it may go awry." "not with brains and money to guide it. and at any rate, we've got to try it; it's the next logical step, and we must take it." "but in the meantime, i'm not going to give up good old methods; i'm going to set the sheriff behind these lazy niggers," said the colonel; "and i'm going to stop that school putting notions into their heads." in three short months the mill at toomsville was open and its wheels whizzing to the boundless pride of the citizens. "our enterprise, sir!" they said to the strangers on the strength of the five thousand dollars locally invested. once it had vigor to sing, the song of the mill knew no resting; morning and evening, day and night it crooned its rhythmic tune; only during the daylight sundays did its murmur die to a sibilant hiss. all the week its doors were filled with the coming and going of men and women and children: many men, more women, and greater and greater throngs of children. it seemed to devour children, sitting with its myriad eyes gleaming and its black maw open, drawing in the pale white mites, sucking their blood and spewing them out paler and ever paler. the face of the town began to change, showing a ragged tuberculous looking side with dingy homes in short and homely rows. there came gradually a new consciousness to the town. hitherto town and country had been ruled by a few great landlords but at the very first election, colton, an unknown outsider, had beaten the regular candidate for sheriff by such a majority that the big property owners dared not count him out. they had, however, an earnest consultation with john taylor. "it's just as i said," growled colonel cresswell, "if you don't watch out our whole plantation system will be ruined and we'll be governed by this white trash from the hills." "there's only one way," sighed caldwell, the merchant; "we've got to vote the niggers." john taylor laughed. "nonsense!" he spurned the suggestion. "you're old-fashioned. let the mill-hands have the offices. what good will it do?" "what good! why, they'll do as they please with us." "bosh! don't we own the mill? can't we keep wages where we like by threatening to bring in nigger labor?" "no, you can't, permanently," maxwell disputed, "for they sometime will call your bluff." "let 'em call," said taylor, "and we'll put niggers in the mills." "what!" ejaculated the landlords in chorus. only maxwell was silent. "and kill the plantation system?" "oh, maybe some time, of course. but not for years; not until you've made your pile. you don't really expect to keep the darkies down forever, do you?" "no, i don't," maxwell slowly admitted. "this system can't last always--sometimes i think it can't last long. it's wrong, through and through. it's built on ignorance, theft, and force, and i wish to god we had courage enough to overthrow it and take the consequences. i wish it was possible to be a southerner and a christian and an honest man, to treat niggers and dagoes and white trash like men, and be big enough to say, 'to hell with consequences!'" colonel cresswell stared at his neighbor, speechless with bewilderment and outraged traditions. such unbelievable heresy from a northerner or a negro would have been natural; but from a southerner whose father had owned five hundred slaves--it was incredible! the other landlords scarcely listened; they were dogged and impatient and they could suggest no remedy. they could only blame the mill for their troubles. john taylor left the conference blithely. "no," he said to the committee from the new mill-workers' union. "can't raise wages, gentlemen, and can't lessen hours. mill is just started and not yet paying expenses. you're getting better wages than you ever got. if you don't want to work, quit. there are plenty of others, white and black, who want your jobs." the mention of black people as competitors for wages was like a red rag to a bull. the laborers got together and at the next election they made a clean sweep, judge, sheriff, two members of the legislature, and the registrars of votes. undoubtedly the following year they would capture harry cresswell's seat in congress. the result was curious. from two sides, from landlord and white laborer, came renewed oppression of black men. the laborers found that their political power gave them little economic advantage as long as the threatening cloud of negro competition loomed ahead. there was some talk of a strike, but colton, the new sheriff, discouraged it. "i tell you, boys, where the trouble lies: it's the niggers. they live on nothing and take any kind of treatment, and they keep wages down. if you strike, they'll get your jobs, sure. we'll just have to grin and bear it a while, but get back at the darkies whenever you can. i'll stick 'em into the chain-gang every chance i get." on the other hand, inspired by fright, the grip of the landlords on the black serfs closed with steadily increasing firmness. they saw one class rising from beneath them to power, and they tightened the chains on the other. matters simmered on in this way, and the only party wholly satisfied with conditions was john taylor and the few young southerners who saw through his eyes. he was making money. the landlords, on the contrary, were losing power and prestige, and their farm labor, despite strenuous efforts, was drifting to town attracted by new and incidental work and higher wages. the mill-hands were more and more overworked and underpaid, and hated the negroes for it in accordance with their leaders' directions. at the same time the oppressed blacks and scowling mill-hands could not help recurring again and again to the same inarticulate thought which no one was brave enough to voice. once, however, it came out flatly. it was when zora, crowding into the village courthouse to see if she could not help aunt rachel's accused boy, found herself beside a gaunt, overworked white woman. the woman was struggling with a crippled child and zora, turning, lifted him carefully for the weak mother, who thanked her half timidly. "that mill's about killed him," she said. at this juncture the manacled boy was led into court, and the woman suddenly turned again to zora. "durned if i don't think these white slaves and black slaves had ought ter git together," she declared. "i think so, too," zora agreed. colonel cresswell himself caught the conversation and it struck him with a certain dismay. suppose such a conjunction should come to pass? he edged over to john taylor and spoke to him; but taylor, who had just successfully stopped a suit for damages to the injured boy, merely shrugged his shoulders. "what's this nigger charged with?" demanded the judge when the first black boy was brought up before him. "breaking his labor contract." "any witnesses?" "i have the contract here," announced the sheriff. "he refuses to work." "a year, or one hundred dollars." colonel cresswell paid his fine, and took him in charge. "what's the charge here?" said the judge, pointing to aunt rachel's boy. "attempt to kill a white man." "any witnesses?" "none except the victim." "and i," said zora, coming forward. both the sheriff and colonel cresswell stared at her. of course, she was simply a black girl but she was an educated woman, who knew things about the cresswell plantations that it was unnecessary to air in court. the newly elected judge had not yet taken his seat, and cresswell's word was still law in the court. he whispered to the judge. "case postponed," said the court. the sheriff scowled. "wait till jim gets on the bench," he growled. the white bystanders, however, did not seem enthusiastic and one man--he was a northern spinner--spoke out plainly. "it's none o' my business, of course. i've been fired and i'm damned glad of it. but see here: if you mutts think you're going to beat these big blokes at their own game of cheating niggers you're daffy. you take this from me: get together with the niggers and hold up this whole capitalist gang. if you don't get the niggers first, they'll use 'em as a club to throw you down. you hear me," and he departed for the train. colton was suspicious. the sentiment of joining with the negroes did not seem to arouse the bitter resentment he expected. there even came whispers to his ears that he had sold out to the landlords, and there was enough truth in the report to scare him. thus to both parties came the uncomfortable spectre of the black men, and both sides went to work to lay the ghost. particularly was colonel cresswell stirred to action. he realized that in bles and zora he was dealing with a younger class of educated black folk, who were learning to fight with new weapons. they were, he was sure, as dissolute and weak as their parents, but they were shrewder and more aspiring. they must be crushed, and crushed quickly. to this end he had recourse to two sources of help--johnson and the whites in town. johnson was what colonel cresswell repeatedly called "a faithful nigger." he was one of those constitutionally timid creatures into whom the servility of his fathers had sunk so deep that it had become second-nature. to him a white man was an archangel, while the cresswells, his father's masters, stood for god. he served them with dog-like faith, asking no reward, and for what he gave in reverence to them, he took back in contempt for his fellows--"niggers!" he applied the epithet with more contempt than the colonel himself could express. to the negroes he was a "white folk's nigger," to be despised and feared. to him colonel cresswell gave a few pregnant directions. then he rode to town, and told taylor again of his fears of a labor movement which would include whites and blacks. taylor could not see any great danger. "of course," he conceded, "they'll eventually get together; their interests are identical. i'll admit it's our game to delay this as long possible." "it must be delayed forever, sir." "can't be," was the terse response. "but even if they do ally themselves, our way is easy: separate the leaders, the talented, the pushers, of both races from their masses, and through them rule the rest by money." but colonel cresswell shook his head. "it's precisely these leaders of the negroes that we mush crush," he insisted. taylor looked puzzled. "i thought it was the lazy, shiftless, and criminal negroes, you feared?" "hang it, no! we can deal with them; we've got whips, chain-gangs, and--mobs, if need be--no, it's the negro who wants to climb up that we've got to beat to his knees." taylor could not follow this reasoning. he believed in an aristocracy of talent alone, and secretly despised colonel cresswell's pretensions of birth. if a man had ability and push taylor was willing and anxious to open the way for him, even though he were black. the caste way of thinking in the south, both as applied to poor whites and to negroes, he simply could not understand. the weak and the ignorant of all races he despised and had no patience with them. "but others--a man's a man, isn't he?" he persisted. but colonel cresswell replied: "no, never, if he's black, and not always when he's white," and he stalked away. zora sensed fully the situation. she did not anticipate any immediate understanding with the laboring whites, but she knew that eventually it would be inevitable. meantime the negro must strengthen himself and bring to the alliance as much independent economic strength as possible. for the development of her plans she needed bles alwyn's constant cooperation. he was business manager of the school and was doing well, but she wanted to point out to him the larger field. so long as she was uncertain of his attitude toward her, it was difficult to act; but now, since the flash of the imminent tragedy at cresswell oaks had cleared the air, with all its hurt a frank understanding had been made possible. the very next day zora chose to show bles over her new home and grounds, and to speak frankly to him. they looked at the land, examined the proposed farm sites, and viewed the living-room and dormitory in the house. "you haven't seen my den," said zora. "no." "miss smith is in there now; she often hides there. come." he went into the large central house and into the living-room, then out on the porch, beyond which lay the kitchen. but to the left, and at the end of the porch, was a small building. it was ceiled in dark yellow pine, with figured denim on the walls. a straight desk of rough hewn wood stood in the corner by the white-curtained window, and a couch and two large easy-chairs faced a tall narrow fireplace of uneven stone. a thick green rag-carpet covered the floor; a few pictures were on the walls--a madonna, a scene of mad careering horses, and some sad baby faces. the room was a unity; things fitted together as if they belonged together. it was restful and beautiful, from the cheerful pine blaze before which miss smith was sitting, to the square-paned window that let in the crimson rays of gathering night. all round the room, stopping only at the fireplace, ran low shelves of the same yellow pine, filled with books and magazines. he scanned curiously plato's republic, gorky's "comrades," a cyclopã¦dia of agriculture, balzac's novels, spencer's "first principles," tennyson's poems. "this is my university," zora explained, smiling at his interested survey. they went out again and wandered down near the old lagoon. "now, bles," she began, "since we understand each other, can we not work together as good friends?" she spoke simply and frankly, without apparent effort, and talked on at length of her work and vision. somehow he could not understand. his mental attitude toward zora had always been one of guidance, guardianship, and instruction. he had been judging and weighing her from on high, looking down upon her with thoughts of uplift and development. always he had been holding her dark little hands to lead her out of the swamp of life, and always, when in senseless anger he had half forgotten and deserted her, this vision of elder brotherhood had still remained. now this attitude was being revolutionized. she was proposing to him a plan of wide scope--a bold regeneration of the land. it was a plan carefully studied out, long thought of and read about. he was asked to be co-worker--nay, in a sense to be a follower, for he was ignorant of much. he hesitated. then all at once a sense of his utter unworthiness overwhelmed him. who was he to stand and judge this unselfish woman? who was he to falter when she called? a sense of his smallness and narrowness, of his priggish blindness, rose like a mockery in his soul. one thing alone held him back: he was not unwilling to be simply human, a learner and a follower; but would he as such ever command the love and respect of this new and inexplicable woman? would not comradeship on the basis of the new friendship which she insisted on, be the death of love and thoughts of love? thus he hesitated, knowing that his duty lay clear. in her direst need he had deserted her. he had left her to go to destruction and expected that she would. by a superhuman miracle she had risen and seated herself above him. she was working; here was work to be done. he was asked to help; he would help. if it killed his old and new-born dream of love, well and good; it was his punishment. yet the sacrifice, the readjustment was hard; he grew to it gradually, inwardly revolting, feeling always a great longing to take this woman and make her nestle in his arms as she used to; catching himself again and again on the point of speaking to her and urging, yet ever again holding himself back and bowing in silent respect to the dignity of her life. only now and then, when their eyes met suddenly or unthinkingly, a great kindling flash of flame seemed struggling behind showers of tears, until in a moment she smiled or spoke, and then the dropping veil left only the frank open glance, unwavering, soft, kind, but nothing more. then alwyn would go wearily away, vexed or disappointed, or merely sad, and both would turn to their work again. _thirty-six_ the land colonel cresswell started all the more grimly to overthrow the new work at the school because somewhere down beneath his heart a pity and a wonder were stirring; pity at the perfectly useless struggle to raise the unraisable, a wonder at certain signs of rising. but it was impossible--and unthinkable, even if possible. so he squared his jaw and cheated zora deliberately in the matter of the cut timber. he placed every obstacle in the way of getting tenants for the school land. here johnson, the "faithful nigger," was of incalculable assistance. he was among the first to hear the call for prospective tenants. the meeting was in the big room of zora's house, and aunt rachel came early with her cheery voice and smile which faded so quickly to lines of sorrow and despair, and then twinkled back again. after her hobbled old sykes. fully a half-hour later rob hurried in. "johnson," he informed the others, "has sneaked over to cresswell's to tell of this meeting. we ought to beat that nigger up." but zora asked him about the new baby, and he was soon deep in child-lore. higgins and sanders came together--dirty, apologetic, and furtive. then came johnson. "how do, miss zora--mr. alwyn, i sure is glad to see you, sir. well, if there ain't aunt rachel! looking as young as ever. and higgins, you scamp--ah, mr. sanders--well, gentlemen and ladies, this sure is gwine to be a good cotton season. i remember--" and he ran on endlessly, now to this one, now to that, now to all, his little eyes all the while dancing insinuatingly here and there. about nine o'clock a buggy drove up and carter and simpson came in--carter, a silent, strong-faced, brown laborer, who listened and looked, and simpson, a worried nervous man, who sat still with difficulty and commenced many sentences but did not finish them. alwyn looked at his watch and at zora, but she gave no sign until they heard a rollicking song outside and tylor burst into the room. he was nearly seven feet high and broad-shouldered, yellow, with curling hair and laughing brown eyes. he was chewing an enormous quid of tobacco, the juice of which he distributed generously, and had had just liquor enough to make him jolly. his entrance was a breeze and a roar. alwyn then undertook to explain the land scheme. "it is the best land in the county--" "when it's cl'ared," interrupted johnson, and simpson looked alarmed. "it is partially cleared," continued alwyn, "and our plan is to sell off small twenty-acre farms--" "you can't do nothing on twenty acres--" began johnson, but tylor laid his huge hand right over his mouth and said briefly: "shut up!" alwyn started again: "we shall sell a few twenty-acre farms but keep one central plantation of one hundred acres for the school. here miss zora will carry on her work and the school will run a model farm with your help. we want to centre here agencies to make life better. we want all sorts of industries; we want a little hospital with a resident physician and two or three nurses; we want a cooperative store for buying supplies; we want a cotton-gin and saw-mill, and in the future other things. this land here, as i have said, is the richest around. we want to keep this hundred acres for the public good, and not sell it. we are going to deed it to a board of trustees, and those trustees are to be chosen from the ones who buy the small farms." "who's going to get what's made on this land?" asked sanders. "all of us. it is going first to pay for the land, then to support the home and the school, and then to furnish capital for industries." johnson snickered. "you mean youse gwine to git yo' livin' off it?" "yes," answered alwyn; "but i'm going to work for it." "who's gwine--" began simpson, but stopped helplessly. "who's going to tend this land?" asked the practical carter. "all of us. each man is going to promise us so many days' work a year, and we're going to ask others to help--the women and girls and school children--they will all help." "can you put trust in that sort of help?" "we can when once the community learns that it pays." "does you own the land?" asked johnson suddenly. "no; we're buying it, and it's part paid for already." the discussion became general. zora moved about among the men whispering and explaining; while johnson moved, too, objecting and hinting. at last he arose. "brethren," he began, "the plan's good enough for talkin' but you can't work it; who ever heer'd tell of such a thing? first place, the land ain't yours; second place, you can't get it worked; third place, white folks won't 'low it. who ever heer'd of such working land on shares?" "you do it for white folks each day, why not for yourselves," alwyn pointed out. "'cause we ain't white, and we can't do nothin' like that." tylor was asleep and snoring and the others looked doubtfully at each other. it was a proposal a little too daring for them, a bit too far beyond their experience. one consideration alone kept them from shrinking away and that was zora's influence. not a man was there whom she had not helped and encouraged nor who had not perfect faith in her; in her impetuous hope, her deep enthusiasm, and her strong will. even her defects--the hard-held temper, the deeply rooted dislikes--caught their imagination. finally, after several other meetings five men took courage--three of the best and two of the weakest. during the spring long negotiations were entered into by miss smith to "buy" the five men. colonel cresswell and mr. tolliver had them all charged with large sums of indebtedness and these sums had to be assumed by the school. as colonel cresswell counted over two thousand dollars of school notes and deposited them beside the mortgage he smiled grimly for he saw the end. yet, even then his hand trembled and that curious doubt came creeping back. he put it aside angrily and glanced up. "nigger wants to talk with you," announced his clerk. the colonel sauntered out and found bles alwyn waiting. "colonel cresswell," he said, "i have charge of the buying for the school and our tenants this year and i naturally want to do the best possible. i thought i'd come over and see about getting my supplies at your store." "that's all right; you can get anything you want," said colonel cresswell cheerily, for this to his mind was evidence of sense on the part of the negroes. bles showed his list of needed supplies--seeds, meat, corn-meal, coffee, sugar, etc. the colonel glanced over it carelessly, then moved away. "all right. come and get what you want--any time," he called back. "but about the prices," said alwyn, following him. "oh, they'll be all right." "of course. but what i want is an estimate of your lowest cash prices." "cash?" "yes, sir." cresswell thought a while; such a business-like proposition from negroes surprised him. "well, i'll let you know," he said. it was nearly a week later before alwyn approached him again. "now, see here," said colonel cresswell, "there's practically no difference between cash and time prices. we buy our stock on time and you can just as well take advantage of this as not. i have figured out about what these things will cost. the best thing for you to do is to make a deposit here and get things when you want them. if you make a good deposit i'll throw off ten per cent, which is all of my profit." "thank you," said alwyn, but he looked over the account and found the whole bill at least twice as large as he expected. without further parley, he made some excuse and started to town while mr. cresswell went to the telephone. in town alwyn went to all the chief merchants one after another and received to his great surprise practically the same estimate. he could not understand it. he had estimated the current market prices according to the montgomery paper, yet the prices in toomsville were fifty to a hundred and fifty per cent higher. the merchant to whom he went last, laughed. "don't you know we're not going to interfere with colonel cresswell's tenants?" he stated the dealers' attitude, and alwyn saw light. he went home and told zora, and she listened without surprise. "now to business," she said briskly. "miss smith," turning to the teacher, "as i told you, they're combined against us in town and we must buy in montgomery. i was sure it was coming, but i wanted to give colonel cresswell every chance. bles starts for montgomery--" alwyn looked up. "does he?" he asked, smiling. "yes," said zora, smiling in turn. "we must lose no further time." "but there's no train from toomsville tonight." "but there's one from barton in the morning and barton is only twenty miles away." "it is a long walk." alwyn thought a while, silently. then he rose. "i'm going," he said. "good-bye." in less than a week the storehouse was full, and tenants were at work. the twenty acres of cleared swamp land, attended to by the voluntary labor of all the tenants, was soon bearing a magnificent crop. colonel cresswell inspected all the crops daily with a proprietary air that would have been natural had these folk been simply tenants, and as such he persisted in regarding them. the cotton now growing was perhaps not so uniformly fine as the first acre of silver fleece, but it was of unusual height and thickness. "at least a bale to the acre," alwyn estimated, and the colonel mentally determined to take two-thirds of the crop. after that he decided that he would evict zora immediately; since sufficient land was cleared already for his purposes and moreover, he had seen with consternation a herd of cattle grazing in one field on some early green stuff, and heard a drove of hogs in the swamp. such an example before the tenants of the black belt would be fatal. he must wait a few weeks for them to pick the cotton--then, the end. he was fighting the battle of his color and caste. the children sang merrily in the brown-white field. the wide baskets, poised aloft, foamed on the erect and swaying bodies of the dark carriers. the crop throughout the land was short that year, for prices had ruled low last season in accordance with the policy of the combine. this year they started high again. would they fall? many thought so and hastened to sell. zora and alwyn gathered their tenants' crops, ginned them at the cresswells' gin, and carried their cotton to town, where it was deposited in the warehouse of the farmers' league. "now," said alwyn, "we would best sell while prices are high." zora laughed at him frankly. "we can't," she said. "don't you know that colonel cresswell will attach our cotton for rent as soon as it touches the warehouse?" "but it's ours." "nothing is ours. no black man ordinarily can sell his crop without a white creditor's consent." alwyn fumed. "the best way," he declared, "is to go to montgomery and get a first-class lawyer and just fight the thing through. the land is legally ours, and he has no right to our cotton." "yes, but you must remember that no man like colonel cresswell regards a business bargain with a colored man as binding. no white man under ordinary circumstances will help enforce such a bargain against prevailing public opinion." "but if we cannot trust to the justice of the case, and if you knew we couldn't, why did you try?" "because i had to try; and moreover the circumstances are not altogether ordinary: the men in power in toomsville now are not the landlords of this county; they are poor whites. the judge and sheriff were both elected by mill-hands who hate cresswell and taylor. then there's a new young lawyer who wants harry cresswell's seat in congress; he don't know much law, i'm afraid; but what he don't know of this case i think i do. i'll get his advice and then--i mean to conduct the case myself," zora calmly concluded. "without a lawyer!" bles alwyn stared his amazement. "without a lawyer in court." "zora! that would be foolish!" "is it? let's think. for over a year now i've been studying the law of the case," and she pointed to her law books; "i know the law and most of the decisions. moreover, as a black woman fighting a hopeless battle with landlords, i'll gain the one thing lacking." "what's that?" "the sympathy of the court and the bystanders." "pshaw! from these southerners?" "yes, from them. they are very human, these men, especially the laborers. their prejudices are cruel enough, but there are joints in their armor. they are used to seeing us either scared or blindly angry, and they understand how to handle us then, but at other times it is hard for them to do anything but meet us in a human way." "but, zora, think of the contact of the court, the humiliation, the coarse talk--" zora put up her hand and lightly touched his arm. looking at him, she said: "mud doesn't hurt much. this is my duty. let me do it." his eyes fell before the shadow of a deeper rebuke. he arose heavily. "very well," he acquiesced as he passed slowly out. the young lawyer started to refuse to touch the case until he saw--or did zora adroitly make him see?--a chance for eventual political capital. they went over the matter carefully, and the lawyer acquired a respect for the young woman's knowledge. "first," he said, "get an injunction on the cotton--then go to court." and to insure the matter he slipped over and saw the judge. colonel cresswell next day stalked angrily into his lawyers' office. "see here," he thundered, handing the lawyer the notice of the injunction. "see the judge," began the lawyer, and then remembered, as he was often forced to do these days, who was judge. he inquired carefully into the case and examined the papers. then he said: "colonel cresswell, who drew this contract of sale?" "the black girl did." "impossible!" "she certainly did--wrote it in my presence." "well, it's mighty well done." "you mean it will stand in law?" "it certainly will. there's but one way to break it, and that's to allege misunderstanding on your part." cresswell winced. it was not pleasant to go into open court and acknowledge himself over-reached by a negro; but several thousand dollars in cotton and land were at stake. "go ahead," he concurred. "you can depend on taylor, of course?" added the lawyer. "of course," answered cresswell. "but why prolong the thing?" "you see, she's got your cotton tied by injunction." "i don't see how she did it." "easy enough: this judge is the poor white you opposed in the last primary." within a week the case was called, and they filed into the courtroom. cresswell's lawyer saw only this black woman--no other lawyer or sign of one appeared to represent her. the place soon filled with a lazy, tobacco-chewing throng of white men. a few blacks whispered in one corner. the dirty stove was glowing with pine-wood and the judge sat at a desk. "where's your lawyer?" he asked sharply of zora. "i have none," returned zora, rising. there came a silence in the court. her voice was low, and the men leaned forward to listen. the judge felt impelled to be over-gruff. "get a lawyer," he ordered. "your honor, my case is simple, and with your honor's permission i wish to conduct it myself. i cannot afford a lawyer, and i do not think i need one." cresswell's lawyer smiled and leaned back. it was going to be easier than he supposed. evidently the woman believed she had no case, and was weakening. the trial proceeded, and zora stated her contention. she told how long her mother and grandmother had served the cresswells and showed her receipt for rent paid. "a friend sent me some money. i went to mr. cresswell and asked him to sell me two hundred acres of land. he consented to do so and signed this contract in the presence of his son-in-law." just then john taylor came into the court, and cresswell beckoned to him. "i want you to help me out, john." "all right," whispered taylor. "what can i do?" "swear that cresswell didn't mean to sign this," said the lawyer quickly, as he arose to address the court. taylor looked at the paper blankly and then at cresswell and some inkling of the irreconcilable difference in the two natures leapt in both their hearts. cresswell might gamble and drink and lie "like a gentleman," but he would never willingly cheat or take advantage of a white man's financial necessities. taylor, on the other hand, had a horror of a lie, never drank nor played games of chance, but his whole life was speculation and in the business game he was utterly ruthless and respected no one. such men could never thoroughly understand each other. to cresswell a man who had cheated the whole south out of millions by a series of misrepresentations ought to regard this little falsehood as nothing. meantime colonel cresswell's lawyer was on his feet, and he adopted his most irritating and contemptuous manner. "this nigger wench wrote out some illegible stuff and colonel cresswell signed it to get rid of her. we are not going to question the legality of the form--that's neither here nor there. the point is, mr. cresswell never intended--never dreamed of selling this wench land right in front of his door. he meant to rent her the land and sign a receipt for rent paid in advance. i will not worry your honor by a long argument to prove this, but just call one of the witnesses well known to you--mr. john taylor of the toomsville mills." taylor looked toward the door and then slowly took the stand. "mr. taylor," said the lawyer carelessly, "were you present at this transaction?" "yes." "did you see colonel cresswell sign this paper?" "yes." "well, did he intend so far as you know to sign such a paper?" "i do not know his intentions." "did he say he meant to sign such a contract?" taylor hesitated. "yes," he finally answered. colonel cresswell looked up in amazement and the lawyer dropped his glasses. "i--i don't think you perhaps understood me, mr. taylor," he gasped. "i--er--meant to ask if colonel cresswell, in signing this paper, meant to sign a contract to sell this wench two hundred acres of land?" "he said he did," reiterated taylor. "although i ought to add that he did not think the girl would ever be able to pay. if he had thought she would pay, i don't think he would have signed the paper." colonel cresswell went red, than pale, and leaning forward before the whole court, he hurled: "you damned scoundrel!" the judge rapped for order and fidgeted in his seat. there was some confusion and snickering in the courtroom. finally the judge plucked up courage: "the defendant is ordered to deliver this cotton to zora cresswell," he directed. the raging of colonel cresswell's anger now turned against john taylor as well as the negroes. wind of the estrangement flew over town quickly. the poor whites saw a chance to win taylor's influence and the sheriff approached him cautiously. taylor paid him slight courtesy. he was irritated with this devilish negro problem; he was making money; his wife and babies were enjoying life, and here was this fool trial to upset matters. but the sheriff talked. "the thing i'm afraid of," he said, "is that cresswell and his gang will swing in the niggers on us." "how do you mean?" "let 'em vote." "but they'd have to read and write." "sure!" "well, then," said taylor, "it might be a good thing." colton eyed him suspiciously. "you'd let a nigger vote?" "why, yes, if he had sense enough." "there ain't no nigger got sense." "oh, pshaw!" taylor ejaculated, walking away. the sheriff was angry and mistrustful. he believed he had discovered a deep-laid scheme of the aristocrats to cultivate friendliness between whites and blacks, and then use black voters to crush the whites. such a course was, in colton's mind, dangerous, monstrous, and unnatural; it must be stopped at all hazards. he began to whisper among his friends. one or two meetings were held, and the flame of racial prejudice was studiously fanned. the atmosphere of the town and country quickly began to change. whatever little beginnings of friendship and understanding had arisen now quickly disappeared. the town of a saturday no longer belonged to a happy, careless crowd of black peasants, but the black folk found themselves elbowed to the gutter, while ugly quarrels flashed here and there with a quick arrest of the negroes. colonel cresswell made a sudden resolve. he sent for the sheriff and received him at the oaks, in his most respectable style, filling him with good food, and warming him with good liquor. "colton," he asked, "are you sending any of your white children to the nigger school yet?" "what!" yelled colton. the colonel laughed, frankly telling colton john taylor's philosophy on the race problem,--his willingness to let negroes vote; his threat to let blacks and whites work together; his contempt for the officials elected by the people. "candidly, colton," he concluded, "i believe in aristocracy. i can't think it right or wise to replace the old aristocracy by new and untried blood." and in a sudden outburst--"but, by god, sir! i'm a white man, and i place the lowest white man ever created above the highest darkey ever thought of. this yankee, taylor, is a nigger-lover. he's secretly encouraging and helping them. you saw what he did to me, and i'm warning you in time." colton's glass dropped. "i thought it was you that was corralling the niggers against us," he exclaimed. the colonel reddened. "i don't count all white men my equals, i admit," he returned with dignity, "but i know the difference between a white man and a nigger." colton stretched out his massive hand. "put it there, sir," said he; "i misjudged you, colonel cresswell. i'm a southerner, and i honor the old aristocracy you represent. i'm going to join with you to crush this yankee and put the niggers in their places. they are getting impudent around here; they need a lesson and, by gad! they'll get one they'll remember." "now, see here, colton,--nothing rash," the colonel charged him, warningly. "don't stir up needless trouble; but--well, things must change." colton rose and shook his head. "the niggers need a lesson," he muttered as he unsteadily bade his host good-bye. cresswell watched him uncomfortably as he rode away, and again a feeling of doubt stirred within him. what new force was he loosening against his black folk--his own black folk, who had lived about him and his fathers nigh three hundred years? he saw the huge form of the sheriff loom like an evil spirit a moment on the rise of the road and sink into the night. he turned slowly to his cheerless house shuddering as he entered the uninviting portals. _thirty-seven_ the mob when emma, bertie's child, came home after a two years' course of study, she had passed from girlhood to young womanhood. she was white, and sandy-haired. she was not beautiful, and she appeared to be fragile; but she also looked sweet and good, with that peculiar innocence which peers out upon the world with calm, round eyes and sees no evil, but does methodically its simple, everyday work. zora mothered her, miss smith found her plenty to do, and bles thought her a good girl. but mrs. cresswell found her perfect, and began to scheme to marry her off. for mary cresswell, with the restlessness and unhappiness of an unemployed woman, was trying to atone for her former blunders. her humiliation after the episode at cresswell oaks had been complete. it seemed to her that the original cause of her whole life punishment lay in her persistent misunderstanding of the black people and their problem. zora appeared to her in a new and glorified light--a vigorous, self-sacrificing woman. she knew that zora had refused to marry bles, and this again seemed fitting. zora was not meant for marrying; she was a born leader, wedded to a great cause; she had long outgrown the boy and girl affection. she was the sort of woman she herself might have been if she had not married. alwyn, on the other hand, needed a wife; he was a great, virile boy, requiring a simple, affectionate mate. no sooner did she see emma than she was sure that this was the ideal wife. she compared herself with helen cresswell. helen was a contented wife and mother because she was fitted for the position, and happy in it; while she who had aimed so high had fallen piteously. from such a fate she would save zora and bles. emma's course in nurse-training had been simple and short and there was no resident physician; but emma, in her unemotional way, was a born nurse and did much good among the sick in the neighborhood. zora had a small log hospital erected with four white beds, a private room, and an office which was also emma's bedroom. the new white physician in town, just fresh from school in atlanta, became interested and helped with advice and suggestions. meantime john taylor's troubles began to increase. under the old political regime it had been an easy matter to avoid serious damage-suits for the accidents in the mill. much child labor and the lack of protective devices made accidents painfully frequent. taylor insisted that the chief cause was carelessness, while the mill hands alleged criminal neglect on his part. when the new labor officials took charge of the court and the break occurred between colonel cresswell and his son-in-law, taylor found that several damage-suits were likely to cost him a considerable sum. he determined not to let the bad feelings go too far, and when a particularly distressing accident to a little girl took place, he showed more than his usual interest and offered to care for her. the new young physician recommended zora's infirmary as the only near place that offered a chance for the child's recovery. "take her out," taylor promptly directed. zora was troubled when the child came. she knew the suspicious temper of the town whites. the very next day taylor sent out a second case, a child who had been hurt some time before and was not recovering as she should. under the care of the little hospital and the gentle nurse the children improved rapidly, and in two weeks were outdoors, playing with the little black children and even creeping into classrooms and listening. the grateful mothers came out twice a week at least; at first with suspicious aloofness, but gradually melting under zora's tact until they sat and talked with her and told their troubles and struggles. zora realized how human they were, and how like their problems were to hers. they and their children grew to love this busy, thoughtful woman, and zora's fears were quieted. the catastrophe came suddenly. the sheriff rode by, scowling and hunting for some poor black runaway, when he saw white children in the negro school and white women, whom he knew were mill-hands, looking on. he was black with anger; turning he galloped back to town. a few hours later the young physician arrived hastily in a cab to take the women and children to town. he said something in a low tone to zora and drove away, frowning. zora came quickly to the school and asked for alwyn. he was in the barn and she hurried there. "bles," she said quietly, "it is reported that a toomsville mob will burn the school tonight." bles stood motionless. "i've been fearing it. the sheriff has been stirring up the worst elements in the town lately and the mills pay off tonight." "well," she said quietly, "we must prepare." he looked at her, his face aglow with admiration. "you wonder-woman!" he exclaimed softly. a moment they regarded each other. she saw the love in his eyes, and he saw rising in hers something that made his heart bound. but she turned quickly away. "you must hurry, bles; lives are at stake." and in another moment he thundered out of the barn on the black mare. along the pike he flew and up the plantation roads. across broad fields and back again, over to the barton pike and along the swamp. at every cabin he whispered a word, and left behind him grey faces and whispering children. his horse was reeking with sweat as he staggered again into the school-yard; but already the people were gathering, with frightened, anxious, desperate faces. women with bundles and children, men with guns, tottering old folks, wide-eyed boys and girls. up from the swamp land came the children crying and moaning. the sun was setting. the women and children hurried into the school building, closing the doors and windows. a moment alwyn stood without and looked back. the world was peaceful. he could hear the whistle of birds and the sobbing of the breeze in the shadowing oaks. the sky was flashing to dull and purplish blue, and over all lay the twilight hush as though god did not care. he threw back his head and clenched his hands. his soul groaned within him. "heavenly father, was man ever before set to such a task?" fight? god! if he could but fight! if he could but let go the elemental passions that were leaping and gathering and burning in the eyes of yonder caged and desperate black men. but his hands were tied--manacled. one desperate struggle, a whirl of blood, and the whole world would rise to crush him and his people. the white operatore in yonder town had but to flash the news, "negroes killing whites," to bring all the country, all the state, all the nation, to red vengeance. it mattered not what the provocation, what the desperate cause. the door suddenly opened behind him and he wheeled around. "zora!" he whispered. "bles," she answered softly, and they went silently in to their people. all at once, from floor to roof, the whole school-house was lighted up, save a dark window here and there. then some one slipped out into the darkness and soon watch-fire after watch-fire flickered and flamed in the night, and then burned vividly, sending up sparks and black smoke. thus ringed with flaming silence, the school lay at the edge of the great, black swamp and waited. owls hooted in the forest. afar the shriek of the montgomery train was heard across the night, mingling with the wail of a wakeful babe; and then redoubled silence. the men became restless, and johnson began to edge away toward the lower hall. alwyn was watching him when a faint noise came to him on the eastern breeze--a low, rumbling murmur. it died away, and rose again; then a distant gun-shot woke the echoes. "they're coming!" he cried. standing back in the shadow of a front window, he waited. slowly, intermittently, the murmuring swelled, till it grew distinguishable as yelling, cursing, and singing, intermingled with the crash of pistol-shots. far away a flame, as of a burning cabin, arose, and a wilder, louder yell greeted it. now the tramp of footsteps could be heard, and clearer and thicker the grating and booming of voices, until suddenly, far up the pike, a black moving mass, with glitter and shout, swept into view. they came headlong, guided by pine-torches, which threw their white and haggard faces into wild distortion. then as bonfire after bonfire met their gaze, they moved slowly and more slowly, and at last sent a volley of bullets at the fires. one bullet flew high and sang through a lighted window. without a word, uncle isaac sank upon the floor and lay still. silence and renewed murmuring ensued, and the sound of high voices in dispute. then the mass divided into two wings and slowly encircled the fence of fire; starting noisily and confidently, and then going more slowly, quietly, warily, as the silence of the flame began to tell on their heated nerves. strained whispers arose. "careful there!" "go on, damn ye!" "there's some one by yon fire." "no, there ain't." "see the bushes move." _bang! bang! bang!_ "who's that?" "it's me." "let's rush through and fire the house." "and leave a pa'cel of niggers behind to shoot your lights out? not me." "what the hell are you going to do?" "i don't know yet." "i wish i could see a nigger." _"hark!"_ stealthy steps were approaching, a glint of steel flashed behind the fire lights. each band mistook the other for the armed negroes, and the leaders yelled in vain; human power can not stay the dashing torrent of fear-inspired human panic. whirling, the mob fled till it struck the road in two confused, surging masses. then in quick frenzy, shots flew; three men threw up their hands and tumbled limply in the dust, while the main body rushed pellmell toward town. at early dawn, when the men relaxed from the strain of the night's vigil, alwyn briefly counselled them: "hide your guns." "why?" blustered rob. "haven't i a right to have a gun?" "yes, you have, rob; but don't be foolish--hide it. we've not heard the last of this." but rob tossed his head belligerently. in town, rumor spread like wildfire. a body of peaceful whites passing through the black settlement had been fired on from ambush, and six killed--no, three killed--no, one killed and two severely wounded. "the thing mustn't stop here," shouted sheriff colton; "these niggers must have a lesson." and before nine next morning fully half the grown members of the same mob, now sworn in as deputies, rode with him to search the settlement. they tramped insolently through the school grounds, but there was no shred of evidence until they came to rob's cabin and found his gun. they tied his hands behind him and marched him toward town. but before the mob arrived the night before, johnson feeling that his safety lay in informing the white folks, had crawled with his gun into the swamp. in the morning he peered out as the cavalcade approached, and not knowing what had happened, he recognized colton, the sheriff, and signalled to him cautiously. in a moment a dozen men were on him, and he appealed and explained in vain--the gun was damning evidence. the voices of rob's wife and children could be heard behind the two men as they were hurried along at a dog trot. the town poured out to greet them--"the murderers! the murderers! kill the niggers!" and they came on with a rush. the sheriff turned and disappeared in the rear. there was a great cloud of dust, a cry and a wild scramble, as the white and angry faces of men and boys gleamed a moment and faded. a hundred or more shots rang out; then slowly and silently, the mass of women and men were sucked into the streets of the town, leaving but black eddies on the corners to throw backward glances toward the bare, towering pine where swung two red and awful things. the pale boy-face of one, with soft brown eyes glared up sightless to the sun; the dead, leathered bronze of the other was carved in piteous terror. _thirty-eight_ atonement three months had flown. it was spring again, and zora sat in the transformed swamp--now a swamp in name only--beneath the great oak, dreaming. and what she dreamed there in the golden day she dared not formulate even to her own soul. she rose with a start, for there was work to do. aunt rachel was ill, and emma went daily to attend her; today, as she came back, she brought news that colonel cresswell, who had been unwell for several days, was worse. she must send emma up to help, and as she started toward the school she glanced toward the cresswell oaks and saw the arm-chair of its master on the pillared porch. colonel cresswell sat in his chair on the porch, alone. as far as he could see, there was no human soul. his eyes were blood-shot, his cheeks sunken, and his breath came in painful gasps. a sort of terror shook him until he heard the distant songs of black folk in the fields. he sighed, and lying back, closed his eyes and the breath came easier. when he opened them again a white figure was coming up the avenue of the oaks. he watched it greedily. it was mary cresswell, and she started when she saw him. "you are worse, father?" she asked. "worse and better," he replied, smiling cynically. then suddenly he announced: "i've made my will." "why--why--" she stammered. "why?" sharply. "because i'm going to die." she said nothing. he smiled and continued: "i've got it all fixed. harry was in a tight place--gambling as usual--and i gave him a lump sum in lieu of all claims. then i gave john taylor--you needn't look. i sent for him. he's a damned scoundrel; but he won't lie, and i needed him. i willed his children all the rest except two or three legacies. one was one hundred thousand dollars for you--" "oh, father!" she cried. "i don't deserve it." "i reckon two years with harry was worth about that much," he returned grimly. "then there's another gift of two hundred thousand dollars and this house and plantation. whom do you think that's for?" "helen?" "helen!" he raised his hand in threatening anger. "i might rot here for all she cares. no--no--but then--i'll not tell you--i--ah--" a spasm of pain shot across his face, and he lay back white and still. abruptly he sat up again and peered down the oaks. "hush!" he gasped. "who's that?" "i don't know--it's a girl--i--" he gripped her till she winced. "my god--it walks--like my wife--i tell you--she held her head so--who is it?" he half rose. "oh, father, it's nobody but emma--little emma--bertie's child--the mulatto girl. she's a nurse now, and i asked to have her come and attend you." "oh," he said, "oh--" he looked at the girl curiously. "come here." he peered into her white young face. "do you know me?" the girl shrank away from him. "yes, sir." "what do you do?" "i teach and nurse at the school." "good! well, i'm going to give you some money--do you know why?" a flash of self-consciousness passed over the girl's face; she looked at him with her wide blue eyes. "yes, grandfather," she faltered. mrs. cresswell rose to her feet; but the old man slowly dropped the girl's hand and lay back in his chair, with lips half smiling. "grandfather," he repeated softly. he closed his eyes a space and then opened them. a tremor shivered in his limbs as he stared darkly at the swamp. "hark!" he cried harshly. "do you hear the bodies creaking on the limbs? it's rob and johnson. i did it--i--" suddenly he rose and stood erect and his wild eyes stricken with death stared full upon emma. slowly and thickly he spoke, working his trembling hands. "nell--nell! is it you, little wife, come back to accuse me? ah, nell, don't shrink! i know--i have sinned against the light and the blood of your poor black people is red on these old hands. no, don't put your clean white hands upon me, nell, till i wash mine. i'll do it, nell; i'll atone. i'm a cresswell yet, nell, a cresswell and a gen--" he swayed. vainly he struggled for the word. the shudder of death shook his soul, and he passed. a week after the funeral of colonel cresswell, john taylor drove out to the school and was closeted with miss smith. his sister, installed once again for a few days in her old room at the school, understood that he was conferring about emma's legacy, and she was glad. she was more and more convinced that the marriage of emma and bles was the best possible solution of many difficulties. she had asked emma once if she liked bles, and emma had replied in her innocent way, "oh, so much." as for bles, he was often saying what a dear child emma was. neither perhaps realized yet that this was love, but it needed, mrs. cresswell was sure, only the lightning-flash, and they would know. and who could furnish that illumination better than zora, the calm, methodical zora, who knew them so well? as for herself, once she had accomplished the marriage and paid the mortgage on the school out of her legacy, she would go abroad and in travel seek forgetfulness and healing. there had been no formal divorce, and so far as she was concerned there never would be; but the separation from her husband and america would be forever. her brother came out of the office, nodded casually, for they had little intercourse these days, and rode away. she rushed in to miss smith and found her sitting there--straight, upright, composed in all save that the tears were streaming down her face and she was making no effort to stop them. "why--miss smith!" she faltered. miss smith pointed to a paper. mrs. cresswell picked it up curiously. it was an official notification to the trustees of the smith school of a legacy of two hundred thousand dollars together with the cresswell house and plantation. mrs. gresswell sat down in open-mouthed astonishment. twice she tried to speak, but there were so many things to say that she could not choose. "tell zora," miss smith at last managed to say. zora was dreaming again. somehow, the old dream-life, with its glorious phantasies, had come silently back, richer and sweeter than ever. there was no tangible reason why, and yet today she had shut herself in her den. searching down in the depths of her trunk, she drew forth that filmy cloud of white--silk-bordered and half finished to a gown. why were her eyes wet today and her mind on the silver fleece? it was an anniversary, and perhaps she still remembered that moment, that supreme moment before the mob. she half slipped on, half wound about her, the white cloud of cloth, standing with parted lips, looking into the long mirror and gleaming in the fading day like midnight gowned in mists and stars. abruptly there came a peremptory knocking at the door. "zora! zora!" sounded mrs. cresswell's voice. forgetting her informal attire, she opened the door, fearing some mishap. mrs. cresswell poured out the news. zora received it in such motionless silence that mary wondered at her want of feeling. at last, however, she said happily to zora: "well, the battle's over, isn't it?" "no, it's just begun." "just begun?" echoed mary in amazement. "think of the servile black folk, the half awakened restless whites, the fat land waiting for the harvest, the masses panting to know--why, the battle is scarcely even begun." "yes, i guess that's so," mary began to comprehend. "we'll thank god it has begun, though." "thank god!" zora reverently repeated. "come, let's go back to poor, dear miss smith," suggested mary. "i can't come just now--but pretty soon." "why? oh, i see; you're trying on something--how pretty and becoming! well, hurry." as they stood together, the white woman deemed the moment opportune; she slipped her arm about the black woman's waist and began: "zora, i've had something on my mind for a long time, and i shouldn't wonder if you had thought of the same thing." "what is it?" "bles and emma." "what of them?" "their liking for each other." zora bent a moment and caught up the folds of the fleece. "i hadn't noticed it," she said in a low voice. "well, you're busy, you see. they've been very much together--his taking her to her charges, bringing her back, and all that. i know they love each other; yet something holds them apart, afraid to show their love. do you know--i've wondered if--quite unconciously, it is you? you know bles used to imagine himself in love with you, just as he did afterward with miss wynn." "miss--wynn?" "yes, the washington girl. but he got over that and you straightened him out finally. still, emma probably thinks yours is the prior claim, knowing, of course, nothing of facts. and bles knows she thinks of him and you, and i'm convinced if you say the word, they'd love and marry." zora walked silently with her to the door, where, looking out, she saw bles and emma coming from aunt rachel's. he was helping her from the carriage with smiling eyes, and her innocent blue eyes were fastened on him. zora looked long and searchingly. "please run and tell them of the legacy," she begged. "i--i will come--in a moment." and mrs. cresswell hurried out. zora turned back steadily to her room, and locked herself in. after all, why shouldn't it be? why had it not occurred to her before in her blindness? if she had wanted him--and ah, god! was not all her life simply the want of him?--why had she not bound him to her when he had offered himself? why had she not bound him to her? she knew as she asked--because she had wanted all, not a part--everything, love, respect and perfect faith--not one thing could she spare then--not one thing. and now, oh, god! she had dreamed that it was all hers, since that night of death and circling flame when they looked at each other soul to soul. but he had not meant anything. it was pity she had seen there, not love; and she rose and walked the room slowly, fast and faster. with trembling hands she drew the silver fleece round her. her head swam again and the blood flashed in her eyes. she heard a calling in the swamp, and the shadow of elspeth seemed to hover over her, claiming her for her own, dragging her down, down.... she rushed through the swamp. the lagoon lay there before her presently, gleaming in the darkness--cold and still, and in it swam an awful shape. she held her burning head--was not everything plain? was not everything clear? this was sacrifice! this was the atonement for the unforgiven sin. emma's was the pure soul which she must offer up to god; for it was god, a cold and mighty god, who had given it to bles--her bles. it was well; god willed it. but could she live? must she live? did god ask that, too? all at once she stood straight; her whole body grew tense, alert. she heard no sound behind her, but knew he was there, and braced herself. she must be true. she must be just. she must pay the uttermost farthing. "bles," she called faintly, but did not turn her head. "zora!" "bles," she choked, but her voice came stronger, "i know--all. emma is a good girl. i helped bring her up myself and did all i could for her and she--she is pure; marry her." his voice came slow and firm: "emma? but i don't love emma. i love--some one else." her heart bounded and again was still. it was that washington girl then. she answered dully, groping for words, for she was tired: "who is it?" "the best woman in all the world, zora." "and is"--she struggled at the word madly--"is she pure?" "she is more than pure." "then you must marry her, bles." "i am not worthy of her," he answered, sinking before her. then at last illumination dawned upon her blindness. she stood very still and lifted up her eyes. the swamp was living, vibrant, tremulous. there where the first long note of night lay shot with burning crimson, burst in sudden radiance the wide beauty of the moon. there pulsed a glory in the air. her little hands groped and wandered over his close-curled hair, and she sobbed, deep voiced: "will you--marry me, bles?" l'envoi lend me thine ears, o god the reader, whose fathers aforetime sent mine down into the land of egypt, into this house of bondage. lay not these words aside for a moment's phantasy, but lift up thine eyes upon the horror in this land;--the maiming and mocking and murdering of my people, and the prisonment of their souls. let my people go, o infinite one, lest the world shudder at the end 