


Transcriber's Note: This work was transcribed from a contemporary
                    printing, not from the 1842 edition. Certain
                    spellings may have been modernized and typographic
                    and printer's errors changed from the original.





THE NARRATIVE OF LUNSFORD LANE, FORMERLY OF RALEIGH, N.C.

Embracing an account of his early life, the redemption by purchase
of himself and family from slavery,
And his banishment from the place of his birth for the crime
of wearing a colored skin.

Published By Himself.

Boston:
Printed for the Publisher:
J. G. Torrey, Printer.

1842







NARRATIVE
OF
LUNSFORD LANE.




    [ORIGINAL.]

    The Slave Mother's Address
    TO HER
    INFANT CHILD.

    I cannot tell how much I love
      To look on thee, my child;
    Nor how that looking rocks my soul
      As on a tempest wild;
    For I have borne thee to the world,
      And bid thee breathe its air,
    But soon to see around thee drawn
      The curtains of despair.

    Now thou art happy, child, I know,
      As little babe can be;
    Thou dost not fancy in thy dreams
      But thou art all as free
    As birds upon the mountain winds,
      (If thou hast thought of bird,)
    Or anything thou thinkest of,
      Or thy young ear has heard.

    What are thy little thoughts about?
      I cannot certain know,
    Only there's not a wing of them
      Upon a breath of woe,
    For not a shadow's on thy face,
      Nor billow heaves thy breast,--
    All clear as any summer's lake
      With not a zephyr press'd.






TO THE READER.


I have been solicited by very many friends, to give my narrative to the
public. Whatever my own judgment might be, I should yield to theirs. In
compliance, therefore, with this general request, and in the hope that
these pages may produce an impression favorable to my countrymen in
bondage; also that I may realize something from the sale of my work
towards the support of a numerous family, I have committed this
publication to press. It might have been made two or three, or even six
times larger, without diminishing from the interest of any one of its
pages--_indeed with an increased interest_--but the want of the pecuniary
means, and other considerations, have induced me to present it as here
seen. Should another edition be called for, and should my friends advise,
the work will then be extended to a greater length.

I have not, in this publication attempted or desired to argue anything. It
is only a simple narration of such facts connected with my own case, as I
thought would be most interesting and instructive to readers generally.
The facts will, I think, cast some light upon the policy of a slaveholding
community, and the effect on the minds of the more enlightened, the more
humane, and the _Christian_ portion of the southern people, of holding and
trading in the bodies and souls of men.

I have said in the following pages, that my condition as a slave was
comparatively a happy, indeed a highly favored one; and to this
circumstance is it owing that I have been able to come up from bondage and
relate the story to the public; and that my wife, my mother, and my seven
children, are here with me this day. If for any thing this side the
invisible world, I bless heaven, it is that I was not born a plantation
slave, nor even a house servant under what is termed a hard and cruel
master.

It has not been any part of my object to describe slavery generally, and
in the narration of my own case I have dwelt as little as possible upon
the dark side--have spoken mostly of the bright. In whatever I have been
obliged to say unfavorable to others, I have endeavored not to overstate,
but have chosen rather to come short of giving the full picture--omitting
much which it did not seem important to my object to relate. And yet I
would not venture to say that this publication does not contain a single
period which might be twisted to convey an idea more than should be
expressed.

Those of whom I have had occasion to speak, are regarded, where they are
known, as among the most kind men to their slaves. Mr. Smith, some of
whose conduct will doubtless seem strange to the reader, is sometimes
taunted with being an abolitionist, in consequence of the interest he
manifests towards the colored people. If to any his character appear like
a riddle, they should remember that, men, like other things, have "two
sides," and often a top and a bottom in addition.

While in the South I succeeded by stealth in learning to read and write a
little, and since I have been in the North I have learned more. But I need
not say that I have been obliged to employ the services of a friend, in
bringing this Narrative into shape for the public eye. And it should
perhaps be said on the part of the writer, that it has been hastily
compiled, with little regard to style, only to express the ideas
accurately and in a manner to be understood.

LUNSFORD LANE.

Boston, July 4, 1842.




NARRATIVE.


The small city of Raleigh, North Carolina, it is known, is the capital of
the State, situated in the interior, and containing about thirty six
hundred inhabitants.[A] Here lived MR. SHERWOOD HAYWOOD, a man of
considerable respectability, a planter, and the cashier of a bank. He
owned three plantations, at the distances respectively of seventy-five,
thirty, and three miles from his residence in Raleigh. He owned in all
about two hundred and fifty slaves, among the rest my mother, who was a
house servant to her master, and of course a resident in the city. My
father was a slave to a near neighbor. The apartment where I was born and
where I spent my childhood and youth was called "the kitchen," situated
some fifteen or twenty rods from the "great house." Here the house
servants lodged and lived, and here the meals were prepared for the people
in the mansion.

[Footnote A: 175 whites--207 free people of color--and 2,244 slaves. Total
3,626; according to the census of 1840.]

On the 30th of May, 1803, I was ushered into the world; but I did not
begin to see the rising of its dark clouds, nor fancy how they might be
broken and dispersed, until some time afterwards. My infancy was spent
upon the floor, in a rough cradle, or sometimes in my mother's arms. My
early boyhood in playing with the other boys and girls, colored and white,
in the yard, and occasionally doing such little matters of labor as one of
so young years could. I knew no difference between myself and the white
children; nor did they seem to know any in turn. Sometimes my master would
come out and give a biscuit to me, and another to one of his own white
boys; but I did not perceive the difference between us. I had no brothers
or sisters, but there were other colored families living in the same
kitchen, and the children playing in the same yard, with me and my mother.

When I was ten or eleven years old, my master set me regularly to cutting
wood, in the yard in the winter, and working in the garden in the summer.
And when I was fifteen years of age, he gave me the care of the pleasure
horses, and made me his carriage driver; but this did not exempt me from
other labor, especially in the summer. Early in the morning I used to take
his three horses to the plantation, and turn them into the pasture to
graze, and myself into the cotton or cornfield, with a hoe in my hand, to
work through the day; and after sunset I would take these horses back to
the city, a distance of three miles, feed them, and then attend to any
other business my master or any of his family had for me to do, until bed
time, when with my blanket in my hand, I would go into the dining room to
rest through the night. The next day the same round of labor would be
repeated, unless some of the family wished to ride out, in which case I
must be on hand with the horses to wait upon them, and in the meantime
work about the yard. On Sunday I had to drive to Church twice, which with
other things necessary to be done, took the whole day. So my life went
wearily on from day to day, from night to night, and from week to week.

When I began to work, I discovered the difference between myself and my
master's white children. They began to order me about, and were told to do
so by my master and mistress. I found, too, that they had learned to read,
while I was not permitted to have a book in my hand. To be in the
possession of anything written or printed, was regarded as an offence. And
then there was the fear that I might be sold away from those who were dear
to me, and conveyed to the far South. I had learned that being a slave I
was subject to this worst (to us) of all calamities; and I knew of others
in similar situations to myself, thus sold away. My friends were not
numerous; but in proportion as they were few they were dear; and the
thought that I might be separated from them forever, was like that of
having the heart wrenched from its socket; while the idea of being
conveyed to the far South, seemed infinitely worse than the terrors of
death. To know, also, that I was never to consult my own will, but was,
while I lived, to be entirely under the control of another, was another
state of mind hard for me to bear. Indeed all things now made me _feel_,
what I had before known only in words, that _I was a slave_. Deep was this
feeling, and it preyed upon my heart like a never-dying worm. I saw no
prospect that my condition would ever be changed. Yet I used to plan in my
mind from day to day, and from night to night, how I might be free.

One day, while I was in this state of mind, my father gave me a small
basket of peaches. I sold them for thirty cents, which was the first money
I ever had in my life. Afterwards I won some marbles, and sold them for
sixty cents, and some weeks after Mr. Hog from Fayetteville, came to visit
my master, and on leaving gave me one dollar. After that Mr. Bennahan from
Orange county gave me a dollar, and a son of my master fifty cents. These
sums, and the hope that then entered my mind of purchasing at some future
time my freedom, made me long for money; and plans for money-making took
the principal possession of my thoughts. At night I would steal away with
my axe, get a load of wood to cut for twenty-five cents, and the next
morning hardly escape a whipping for the offence. But I persevered until I
had obtained twenty dollars. Now I began to think seriously of becoming
able to buy myself; and cheered by this hope, I went on from one thing to
another, laboring "at dead of night," after the long weary day's toil for
my master was over, till I found I had collected one hundred dollars. This
sum I kept hid, first in one place and then in another, as I dare not put
it out, for fear I should lose it.

After this I lit upon a plan which proved of great advantage to me. My
father suggested a mode of preparing smoking tobacco, different from any
then or since employed. It had the double advantage of giving the tobacco
a peculiarly pleasant flavor, and of enabling me to manufacture a good
article out of a very indifferent material. I improved somewhat upon his
suggestion, and commenced the manufacture, doing as I have before said,
all my work in the night. The tobacco I put up in papers of about a
quarter of a pound each, and sold them at fifteen cents. But the tobacco
could not be smoked without a pipe, and as I had given the former a flavor
peculiarly grateful, it occurred to me that I might so construct a pipe as
to cool the smoke in passing through it, and thus meet the wishes of those
who are more fond of smoke than heat. This I effected by means of a reed,
which grows plentifully in that region; I made a passage through the reed
with a hot wire, polished it, and attached a clay pipe to the end, so that
the smoke should be cooled in flowing through the stem like whiskey or rum
in passing from the boiler through the worm of the still. These pipes I
sold at ten cents apiece. In the early part of the night I would sell my
tobacco and pipes, and manufacture them in the latter part. As the
Legislature sit in Raleigh every year, I sold these articles considerably
to the members, so that I became known not only in the city, but in many
parts of the State, as a _tobacconist_.

Perceiving that I was getting along so well, I began, slave as I was, to
think about taking a wife. So I fixed my mind upon Miss Lucy Williams, a
slave of Thomas Devereaux, Esq., an eminent lawyer in the place; but
failed in my undertaking. Then I thought I never would marry; but at the
end of two or three years my resolution began to slide away, till finding
I could not keep it longer I set out once more in pursuit of a wife. So I
fell in with her to whom I am now united, MISS MARTHA CURTIS, and the
bargain between _us_ was completed. I next went to her master, Mr. Boylan,
and asked him, according to the custom, if I might "marry his woman." His
reply was, "Yes, if you will behave yourself." I told him I would. "And
make her behave herself!" To this I also assented; and then proceeded to
ask the approbation of my master, which was granted. So in May, 1828, I
was bound as fast in wedlock as a slave can be. God may at any time sunder
that band in a freeman; either master may do the same at pleasure in a
slave. The bond is not recognized in law. But in my case it has never been
broken; and now it cannot be, except by a higher power.

When we had been married nine months and one day, we were blessed with a
son, and two years afterwards with a daughter. My wife also passed from
the hands of Mr. Boylan into those of MR. BENJAMIN B. SMITH, a merchant, a
member and class-leader in the Methodist church, and in much repute for
his deep piety and devotion to religion. But grace (of course) had not
wrought in the same _manner_ upon the heart of Mr. Smith, as nature had
done upon that of Mr. Boylan, who made no religious profession. This
latter gentleman used to give my wife, who was a favorite slave, (her
mother nursed every one of his own children,) sufficient food and clothing
to render her comfortable, so that I had to spend for her but little,
except to procure such small articles of extra comfort as I was prompted
to from time to time. Indeed Mr. Boylan was regarded as a very kind master
to all the slaves about him; that is, to his house servants; nor did he
inflict much cruelty upon his field hands, except by proxy. The overseer
on his nearest plantation (I know but little about the rest) was a very
cruel man; in one instance, as it was said among the slaves, he whipped a
man _to death_; but of course denied that the man died in consequence of
the whipping. Still it was the choice of my wife to pass into the hands of
Mr. Smith, as she had become attached to him in consequence of belonging
to the same church, and receiving his religious instruction and counsel as
her class-leader, and in consequence of the peculiar devotedness to the
cause of religion for which he was noted, and which he always seemed to
manifest.--But when she became his slave, he withheld both from her and
her children, the needful food and clothing, while he exacted from them to
the uttermost all the labor they were able to perform. Almost every
article of clothing worn either by my wife or children, especially every
article of much value, I had to purchase; while the food he furnished the
family amounted to less than a meal a day, and that of the coarser kind. I
have no remembrance that he ever gave us a blanket or any other article of
bedding, although it is considered a rule at the South that the master
shall furnish each of his slaves with one blanket a year. So that, both as
to food and clothing, I had in fact to support both my wife and the
children, while he claimed them as his property, and received all their
labor. She was house servant to Mr. Smith, sometimes cooked the food for
his family, and usually took it from the table, but her mistress was so
particular in giving it out to be cooked, or so watched it, that she
always knew whether it was all returned; and when the table was cleared
away, the stern old lady would sit by and see that every dish (except the
very little she would send into the kitchen) was put away, and then she
would turn the key upon it, so as to be sure her slaves should not die of
gluttony. This practice is common with some families in that region; but
with others it is not. It was not so in that of her less pious master, Mr.
Boylan, nor was it precisely so at my master's. We used to have corn bread
enough, and some meat. When I was a boy, the pot-liquor, in which the meat
was boiled for the "great house," together with some little corn-meal
balls that had been thrown in just before the meat was done, was poured
into a tray and set in the middle of the yard, and a clam shell or pewter
spoon given to each of us children, who would fall upon the delicious fare
as greedily as pigs. It was not generally so much as we wanted,
consequently it was customary for some of the white persons who saw us
from the piazza of the house where they were sitting, to order the more
stout and greedy ones to eat slower, that those more young and feeble
might have a chance. But it was not so with Mr. Smith: such luxuries were
more than he could afford, kind and Christian man as he was considered to
be. So that by the expense of providing for my wife and children, all the
money I had earned and could earn by my night labor was consumed, till I
found myself reduced to five dollars, and this I lost one day in going to
the plantation. My light of hope now went out. My prop seemed to have
given way from under me. Sunk in the very night of despair respecting my
freedom, I discovered myself, as though I had never known it before, a
husband, the father of two children, a family looking up to me for bread,
and I a slave, penniless, and well watched by my master, his wife and his
children, lest I should, perchance, catch the friendly light of the stars
to make something in order to supply the cravings of nature in those with
whom my soul was bound up; or lest some plan of freedom might lead me to
trim the light of diligence after the day's labor was over, while the rest
of the world were enjoying the hours in pleasure or sleep.

At this time an event occurred, which, while it cast a cloud over the
prospects of some of my fellow slaves, was a rainbow over mine. My master
died, and his widow, by the will, became sole executrix of his property.
To the surprize of all, the bank of which he had been cashier presented a
claim against the estate for forty thousand dollars. By a compromise,
this sum was reduced to twenty thousand dollars; and my mistress, to meet
the amount, sold some of her slaves, and hired out others. I hired my time
of her,[A] for which I paid her a price varying from one hundred dollars
to one hundred and twenty dollars per year. This was a privilege which
comparatively few slaves at the South enjoy; and in this I felt truly
blessed.

[Footnote A: It is contrary to the laws of the State for a slave to have
command of his own time in this way, but in Raleigh it is sometimes winked
at. I knew one slave-man who was _doing well for himself_, taken up by the
public authorities and hired out for the public good, three times in
succession for this offence. The time of hiring in such a case is one
year. The master is subject to a fine. But generally, as I have said, if
the slave is orderly and appears to be _making nothing_, neither he nor
the master is interfered with.]

I commenced the manufacture of pipes and tobacco on an enlarged scale. I
opened a regular place of business, labelled my tobacco in a conspicuous
manner with the names of "_Edward and Lunsford Lane_," and of some of the
persons who sold it for me,--established agencies for the sale in various
parts of the State, one at Fayetteville, one at Salisbury, one at Chapel
Hill, and so on,--sold my articles from my place of business, and about
town, also deposited them in stores on commission, and thus, after paying
my mistress for my time, and rendering such support as necessary to my
family, I found in the space of some six or eight years, that I had
collected the sum of one thousand dollars. During this time I had found it
politic to go shabbily dressed, and to appear to be very poor, but to pay
my mistress for my services promptly. I kept my money hid, never venturing
to put out a penny, nor to let any body but my wife know that I was making
any. The thousand dollars was what I supposed my mistress would ask for
me, and so I determined now what I would do.

I went to my mistress and inquired what was her price for me. She said a
thousand dollars. I then told her that I wanted to be free, and asked her
if she would sell me to be made free. She said she would; and accordingly
I arranged with her, and with the master of my wife, Mr. Smith, already
spoken of, for the latter to take my money[A] and buy of her my freedom,
as I could not legally purchase it, and as the laws forbid emancipation
except for "meritorious services." This done, Mr. Smith endeavored to
emancipate me formally, and to get my manumission recorded; I tried also;
but the court judged that I had done nothing "meritorious," and so I
remained, nominally only, the slave of Mr. Smith for a year; when, feeling
unsafe in that relation, I accompanied him to New York whither he was
going to purchase goods, and was there regularly and formally made a
freeman, and there my manumission was recorded. I returned to my family in
Raleigh and endeavored to do by them as a freeman should. I had known what
it was to be a slave, and I knew what it was to be free.

[Footnote A: _Legally_, my money belonged to my mistress; and she could
have taken it and refused to grant me my freedom. But she was a very kind
woman for a slave owner; and she would under the circumstances, scorn to
do such a thing. I have known of slaves, however, served in this way.]

But I am going too rapidly over my story. When the money was paid to my
mistress and the conveyance fairly made to Mr. Smith, I felt that I was
free. And a queer and a joyous feeling it is to one who has been a slave.
I cannot describe it, only it seemed as though I was in heaven. I used to
lie awake whole nights thinking of it. And oh, the strange thoughts that
passed through my soul, like so many rivers of light; deep and rich were
their waves as they rolled;--these were more to me than sleep, more than
soft slumber after long months of watching over the decaying, fading frame
of a friend, and the loved one laid to rest in the dust. But I cannot
describe my feelings to those who have never been slaves; then why should
I attempt it? He who has passed from spiritual death to life, and received
the witness within his soul that his sins are forgiven, may possibly form
some distant idea, like the ray of the setting sun from the far off
mountain top, of the emotions of an emancipated slave. That opens heaven.
To break the bonds of slavery, opens up at once both earth and heaven.
Neither can be truly seen by us while we are slaves.

And now will the reader take with me a brief review of the road I had
trodden. I cannot here dwell upon its dark shades, though some of these
were black as the pencillings of midnight, but upon the light that had
followed my path from my infancy up, and had at length conducted me quite
out of the deep abyss of bondage. There is a hymn opening with the
following stanza, which very much expresses my feelings:

    "When all thy mercies, Oh my God,
      My rising soul surveys,
    Transported with the view, I'm lost
      In wonder, love, and praise."

I had endured what a freeman would indeed call hard fare; but my lot, on
the whole, had been a favored one for a slave. It is known that there is a
wide difference in the situations of what are termed house servants, and
plantation hands. I, though sometimes employed upon the plantation,
belonged to the former, which is the favored class. My master, too, was
esteemed a kind and humane man; and altogether I fared quite differently
from many poor fellows whom it makes my blood run chill to think of,
confined to the plantation, with not enough of food and that little of the
coarsest kind, to satisfy the gnawings of hunger,--compelled oftentimes,
to hie away in the night-time, when worn down with work, and _steal_, (if
it be stealing,) and privately devour such things as they can lay their
hands upon,--made to feel the rigors of bondage with no cessation,--torn
away sometimes from the few friends they love, friends doubly dear because
they are few, and transported to a climate where in a few hard years they
die,--or at best conducted heavily and sadly to their resting place under
the sod, upon their old master's plantation,--sometimes, perhaps,
enlivening the air with merriment, but a forced merriment, that comes from
a stagnant or a stupified heart. Such as this is the fate of the
plantation slaves generally, but such was not my lot. My way was
comparatively light, and what is better, it conducted to freedom. And my
wife and children were with me. After my master died, my mistress sold a
number of her slaves from their families and friends--but not me. She sold
several children from their parents--but my children were with me still.
She sold two husbands from their wives--but I was still with mine. She
sold one wife from her husband--but mine had not been sold from me. The
master of my wife, Mr. Smith, had separated members of families by
sale--but not of mine. With me and my house, the tenderer tendrils of the
heart still clung to where the vine had entwined; pleasant was its shade
and delicious its fruit to our taste, though we knew, and what is more, we
_felt_ that we were slaves. But all around I could see where the vine had
been torn down, and its bleeding branches told of vanished joys, and of
new wrought sorrows, such as, slave though I was, had never entered into
my practical experience.

I had never been permitted to learn to read; but I used to attend church,
and there I received instruction which I trust was of some benefit to me.
I trusted, too, that I had experienced the renewing influences of the
gospel; and after obtaining from my mistress a written _permit_, (a thing
_always_ required in such a case,) I had been baptised and received into
fellowship with the Baptist denomination. So that in religious matters, I
had been indulged in the exercise of my own conscience--a favor not always
granted to slaves. Indeed I, with others, was often told by the minister
how good God was in bringing us over to this country from dark and
benighted Africa, and permitting us to listen to the sound of the gospel.
To me, God also granted temporal freedom, which _man_ without God's
consent, had stolen away.

I often heard select portions of the scriptures read. And on the Sabbath
there was one sermon preached expressly for the colored people which it
was generally my privilege to hear. I became quite familiar with the
texts, "Servants be obedient to your masters."--"Not with eye service as
men pleasers."--"He that knoweth his master's will and doeth it not, shall
be beaten with many stripes," and others of this class: for they formed
the basis of most of these public instructions to us. The first
commandment impressed upon our minds was to obey our masters, and the
second was like unto it, namely, to do as much work when they or the
overseers were not watching us as when they were. But connected with these
instructions there was more or less that was truly excellent; though mixed
up with much that would sound strangely in the ears of freedom. There was
one very kind hearted Episcopal minister whom I often used to hear; he was
very popular with the colored people. But after he had preached a sermon
to us in which he argued from the Bible that it was the will of heaven
from all eternity we should be slaves, and our masters be our owners, most
of us left him; for like some of the faint hearted disciples in early
times we said,--"This is a hard saying, who can bear it?"

My manumission, as I shall call it; that is, the bill of sale conveying me
to Mr. Smith, was dated Sept. 9th, 1835. I continued in the tobacco and
pipe business as already described, to which I added a small trade in a
variety of articles; and some two years before I left Raleigh, I entered
also into a considerable business in wood, which I used to purchase by the
acre standing, cut it, haul it into the city, deposit it in a yard and
sell it out as I advantageously could. Also I was employed about the
office of the Governor as I shall hereafter relate. I used to keep one or
two horses, and various vehicles, by which I did a variety of work at
hauling about town. Of course I had to hire more or less help, to carry on
my business.

In the manufacture of tobacco I met with considerable competition, but
none that materially injured me. The method of preparing it having
originated with me and my father, we found it necessary, in order to
secure the advantage of the invention, to keep it to ourselves, and
decline, though often solicited, going into partnership with others. Those
who undertook the manufacture could neither give the article a flavor so
pleasant as ours, nor manufacture it so cheaply, so they either failed in
it, or succeeded but poorly.

Not long after obtaining my own freedom, I began seriously to think about
purchasing the freedom of my family. The first proposition was that I
should buy my wife, and that we should jointly labor to obtain the freedom
of the children afterwards as we were able. But that idea was abandoned,
when her master, Mr. Smith, refused to sell her to me for less than one
thousand dollars, a sum which then appeared too much for me to raise.

Afterwards, however, I conceived the idea of purchasing at once the entire
family. I went to Mr. Smith to learn his price, which he put at _three
thousand dollars_ for my wife and six children, the number we then had.
This seemed a large sum, both because it was a great deal for me to raise;
and also because Mr. Smith, when he bought my wife and _two_ children, had
actually paid but five hundred and sixty dollars for them, and had
received, ever since, their labor, while I had almost entirely supported
them, both as to food and clothing. Altogether, therefore, the case seemed
a hard one, but as I was entirely in his power I must do the best I could.
At length he concluded, perhaps partly of his own motion, and partly
through the persuasion of a friend, to sell the family for $2,500, as I
wished to free them, though he contended still that they were worth three
thousand dollars. Perhaps they would at that time have brought this larger
sum, if sold for the Southern market. The arrangement with Mr. Smith was
made in December, 1838. I gave him five notes of five hundred dollars
each, the first due in January, 1840, and one in January each succeeding
year; for which he transferred my family into my own possession, with a
_bond_ to give me a bill of sale when I should pay the notes. With this
arrangement, we found ourselves living in our own house--a house which I
had previously purchased--in January, 1839.

After moving my family, my wife was for a short time sick, in consequence
of her labor and the excitement in moving, and her excessive joy. I told
her that it reminded me of a poor shoemaker in the neighborhood who
purchased a ticket in a lottery; but not expecting to draw, the fact of
his purchasing it had passed out of his mind. But one day as he was at
work on his last, he was informed that his ticket had drawn the liberal
prize of ten thousand dollars; and the poor man was so overjoyed, that he
fell back on his seat, and immediately expired.

In this new and joyful situation, we found ourselves getting along very
well, until September, 1840, when to my surprise, as I was passing the
street one day, engaged in my business, the following note was handed me.
"Read it," said the officer, "or if you cannot read, get some white man to
read it to you." Here it is, _verbatim_:

  _To Lunsford Lane, a free man of Colour_

  Take notice that whereas complaint has been made to us two Justices of
  the Peace for the county of Wake and state of North Carolina that you
  are a free negro from another state who has migrated into this state
  contrary to the provisions of the act of assembly concerning free
  negros and mulattoes now notice is given you that unless you leave and
  remove out of this state within twenty days that you will be proceeded
  against for the penalty porscribed by said act of assembly and be
  otherwise dealt with as the law directs given under our hands and seals
  this the 5th Sept 1840

  WILLIS SCOTT JP (Seal)

  JORDAN WOMBLE JP (Seal)

This was a terrible blow to me; for it prostrated at once all my hopes in
my cherished object of obtaining the freedom of my family, and led me to
expect nothing but a separation from them forever.

In order that the reader may understand the full force of the foregoing
notice, I will copy the Law of the State under which it was issued:

  SEC. 65. It shall not be lawful for any free negro or mulatto to migrate
  into this State: and if he or she shall do so, contrary to the
  provisions of this act, and being thereof informed, shall not, within
  twenty days thereafter, remove out of the State, he or she being thereof
  convicted in the manner hereafter directed, shall be liable to a penalty
  of five hundred dollars; and upon failure to pay the same, within the
  time prescribed in the judgment awarded against such person or persons,
  he or she shall be liable to be held in servitude and at labor for a
  term of time not exceeding ten years, in such manner and upon such terms
  as may be provided by the court awarding such sentence, and the proceeds
  arising therefrom shall be paid over to the county trustee for county
  purposes: Provided, that in case any free negro or mulatto shall pay the
  penalty of five hundred dollars, according to the provisions of this
  act, it shall be the duty of such free negro or mulatto to remove him or
  herself out of this State within twenty days thereafter, and for every
  such failure, he or she shall be subject to the like penalty, as is
  prescribed for a failure to remove in the first instance.--_Revised
  Statutes North Carolina, chap. III._

The next section provides that if the free person of color so notified,
does not leave within the twenty days after receiving the notice, he may
be arrested on a warrant from any Justice, and be held to bail for his
appearance at the next county court, when he will be subject to the
penalties specified above; or in case of his failure to give bonds, he may
be sent to jail.

I made known my situation to my friends, and after taking legal counsel it
was determined to endeavor to induce, if possible, the complainants to
prosecute no farther at present, and then as the Legislature of the State
was to sit in about two months, to petition that body for permission to
remain in the State until I could complete the purchase of my family;
after which I was willing, if necessary, to leave.

From January 1st, 1837, I had been employed as I have mentioned, in the
office of the Governor of the State, principally under the direction of
his private Secretary, in keeping the office in order, taking the letters
to the Post Office, and doing such other duties of the sort as occurred
from time to time. This circumstance, with the fact of the high standing
in the city of the family of my former master, and of the former masters
of my wife, had given me the friendship of the first people in the place
generally, who from that time forward acted towards me the friendly part.

MR. BATTLE, then private Secretary to Governor Dudley, addressed the
following letter to the prosecuting attorney in my behalf:

  RALEIGH, Nov. 3, 1840.

  DEAR SIR:--Lunsford Lane, a free man of color, has been in the employ of
  the State under me since my entering on my present situation. I
  understand that under a law of the State, he has been notified to leave,
  and that the time is now at hand.

  In the discharge of the duties I had from him, I have found him prompt,
  obedient, and faithful. At this particular time, his absence to me would
  be much regretted, as I am now just fixing up my books and other papers
  in the new office, and I shall not have time to learn another what he
  can already do so well. With me the period of the Legislature is a very
  busy one, and I am compelled to have a servant who understands the
  business I want done, and one I can trust. I would not wish to be an
  obstacle in the execution of any law, but the enforcing of the one
  against him, will be doing me a serious inconvenience, and the object of
  this letter is to ascertain whether I could not procure a suspension of
  the sentence till after the adjournment of the Legislature, say about
  1st January, 1841.

  I should feel no hesitation in giving my word that he will conduct
  himself orderly and obediently.

  I am most respectfully,

  Your obedient servant,

  C.C. BATTLE.

  G.W. HAYWOOD, ESQ.

  Attorney at Law, Raleigh, N.C.

To the above letter the following reply was made:

  RALEIGH, Nov. 3, 1840.

  MY DEAR SIR:--I have no objection so far as I am concerned, that all
  further proceedings against Lunsford should be postponed until after the
  adjournment of the Legislature.

  The process now out against him is one issued by two magistrates,
  Messrs. Willis Scott and Jordan Womble, over which I have no control.
  You had better see them to-day, and perhaps, at your request, they will
  delay further action on the subject.

  Respectfully yours,

  GEO. W. HAYWOOD.

Mr. Battle then enclosed the foregoing correspondence to Messrs. Scott and
Womble, requesting their "favorable consideration." They returned the
correspondence, but neglected to make any reply.

In consequence, however, of this action on the part of my friends, I was
permitted to remain without further interruption, until the day the
Legislature commenced its session. On that day a warrant was served upon
me, to appear before the county court, to answer for the sin of having
remained in the place of my birth for the space of twenty days and more
after being warned out. I escaped going to jail through the kindness of
Mr. Haywood, a son of my former master, and Mr. Smith, who jointly became
security for my appearance at court.

This was on Monday; and on Wednesday I appeared before the court; but as
my prosecutors were not ready for the trial, the case was laid over three
months, to the next term.

I then proceeded to get up a petition to the Legislature. It required
much hard labor and persuasion on my part to start it; but after that, I
readily obtained the signatures of the principal men in the place.--Then I
went round to the members, many of whom were known to me, calling upon
them at their rooms, and urging them for my sake, for humanity's sake, for
the sake of my wife and little ones, whose hopes had been excited by the
idea that they were even now free; I appealed to them as husbands,
fathers, brothers, sons, to vote in favor of my petition, and allow me to
remain in the State long enough to purchase my family. I was doing well in
business, and it would be but a short time before I could accomplish the
object. Then, if it was desired, I and my wife and children, redeemed from
bondage, would together seek a more friendly home, beyond the dominion of
slavery. The following is the petition presented, endorsed as the reader
will see:

  _To the Hon. General Assembly of the State of North Carolina._

  GENTLEMEN:--The petition of Lunsford Lane humbly shews--That about five
  years ago, he purchased his freedom from his mistress, Mrs. Sherwood
  Haywood, and by great economy and industry has paid the purchase money;
  that he has a wife and seven children whom he has agreed to purchase,
  and for whom he has paid a part of the purchase money; but not having
  paid in full, is not yet able to leave the State, without parting with
  his wife and children.

  Your petitioner prays your Honorable Body to pass a law, allowing him to
  remain a limited time within the State, until he can remove his family
  also. Your petitioner will give bond and good security for his good
  behaviour while he remains. Your petitioner will ever pray, &c.

  LUNSFORD LANE.

       *       *       *       *       *

  The undersigned are well acquainted with Lunsford Lane, the petitioner,
  and join in his petition to the Assembly for relief.

  Charles Manly,                     Drury Lacy,
  R.W. Haywood,                      Will. Peck,
  Eleanor Haywood,                   W.A. Stith,
  Wm. Hill,                          A.B. Stith,
  R. Smith,                          J. Brown,
  Wm. Peace,                         William White,
  Jos. Peace,                        Geo. Simpson,
  Wm. M'Pheeters,                    Jno. I. Christophers,
  Wm. Boylan,                        John Primrose,
  Fabius J. Haywood,                 Hugh M'Queen,
  D.W. Stone,                        Alex. J. Lawrence,
  T. Meredith,                       C.L. Hinton.
  A.J. Battle,

       *       *       *       *       *

  Lunsford Lane, the petitioner herein, has been servant to the Executive
  Office since the 1st of January, 1837, and it gives me pleasure to state
  that, during the whole time, without exception, I have found him
  faithful and obedient, in keeping every thing committed to his care in
  good condition. From what I have seen of his conduct and demeanor, I
  cheerfully join in the petition for his relief.

  C.C. BATTLE,

  _P. Secretary to Gov. Dudley._

  Raleigh, Nov. 20, 1840.

The foregoing petition was presented to the Senate. It was there referred
to a committee. I knew when the committee was to report, and watched about
the State House that I might receive the earliest news of the fate of my
petition. I should have gone within the senate chamber, but no colored man
has that permission. I do not know why, unless for fear, he may hear the
name of _Liberty_. By and by a member came out, and as he passed me,
said, "_Well, Lunsford, they have laid you out; the nigger bill is
killed._" I need not tell the reader that my feelings did not enter into
the merriment of this honorable senator. To me, the fate of my petition
was the last blow to my hopes. I had done all I could do, had said all I
could say, laboring night and day, to obtain a favorable reception to my
petition; but all in vain. Nothing appeared before me but I must leave the
State, and leave my wife and my children never to see them more. My
friends had also done all they could for me.

And why must I be banished? Ever after I entertained the first idea of
being free, I had endeavored so to conduct myself as not to become
obnoxious to the white inhabitants, knowing as I did their power, and
their hostility to the colored people. The two points necessary in such a
case I had kept constantly in mind. First, I had made no display of the
little property or money I possessed, but in every way I wore as much as
possible the aspect of poverty. Second, I had never appeared to be even so
intelligent as I really was. This all colored people at the south, free
and slaves, find it peculiarly necessary to their own comfort and safety
to observe.

I should, perhaps, have mentioned that on the same day I received the
notice to leave Raleigh, similar notices were presented to two other free
colored people, who had been slaves; were trying to purchase their
families; and were otherwise in a like situation to myself. And they took
the same course I did to endeavor to remain a limited time. ISAAC HUNTER,
who had a family with five children, was one; and WALLER FREEMAN, who had
six children, was the other. Mr. Hunter's petition went before mine; and a
bill of some sort passed the Senate, which was so cut down in the Commons,
as to allow him only _twenty days_ to remain in the State. He has since,
however, obtained the freedom of his family, who are living with him in
Philadelphia.

Mr. Freeman's petition received no better fate than mine. His family were
the property of Judge BADGER, who was afterwards made a member of Mr.
Harrison's cabinet. When Mr. Badger removed to Washington, he took with
him among other slaves this family; and Freeman removed also to that city.
After this, when Mr. B. resigned his office, with the other members of the
cabinet under President Tyler, he entered into some sort of contract with
Freeman, to sell him this family, which he left at Washington, while he
took the rest of his slaves back to Raleigh. Freeman is now endeavoring to
raise money to make the purchase.

It was now between two and three months to the next session of the court;
and I knew that before or at that time I must leave the State. I was
bound to appear before the court; but it had been arranged between my
lawyer and the prosecuting attorney, that if I would leave the State, and
pay the costs of court, the case should be dropped, so that my bondsmen
should not be involved. I therefore concluded to stay as long as I
possibly could, and then leave. I also determined to appeal to the
kindness of the friends of the colored man in the North, for assistance,
though I had but little hope of succeeding in this way. Yet it was the
only course I could think of, by which I could see any possible hope of
accomplishing the object.

I had paid Mr. Smith six hundred and twenty dollars; and had a house and
lot worth $500, which he had promised to take when I should raise the
balance. He gave me also a bill of sale of one of my children, Laura, in
consideration of two hundred and fifty dollars of the money already paid;
and her I determined to take with me to the North. The costs of court
which I had to meet, amounted to between thirty and forty dollars, besides
the fee of my lawyer.

On the 18th of May, 1841, three days after the court commenced its
session, I bid adieu to my friends in Raleigh, and set out for the city of
New York. I took with me a letter of introduction and recommendation from
Mr. John Primrose, a very estimable man, a recommendatory certificate from
Mr. Battle, and a letter from the church of which I was a member,
together with such papers relating to the affair as I had in my
possession. Also I received the following:

  RALEIGH, N.C. May, 1841.

  The bearer, Lunsford Lane, a free man of color, for some time a resident
  in this place, being about to leave North Carolina in search of a more
  favorable location to pursue his trade, has desired us to give him a
  certificate of his good conduct heretofore.

  We take pleasure in saying that his habits are temperate and
  industrious, that his conduct has been orderly and proper, and that he
  has for these qualities been distinguished among his caste.

  Wm. Hill,               R. Smith,
  Weston R. Gales,        C. Dewey.
  C.L. Hinton,


The above was certified to officially in the usual form by the clerk of
the court of Common Pleas and Quarter Sessions.

My success in New York was at first small; but at length I fell in with
two friends who engaged to raise for me three hundred dollars, provided I
should first obtain from other sources the balance of the sum required,
which balance would be one thousand and eighty dollars. Thus encouraged, I
proceeded to Boston; and in the city and vicinity the needful sum was
contributed by about the 1st of April, 1842. My thanks I have endeavored
to express in my poor way to the many friends who so kindly and liberally
assisted me. I cannot reward them; I hope they will receive their reward
in another world. If the limits of this publication would permit, I
should like to record the names of many to whom I am very especially
indebted for their kindness and aid, not only in contributing, but by
introducing me and opening various ways of access to others.

On the 5th of February, 1842, finding that I should soon have in my
possession the sum necessary to procure my family, and fearing that there
might be danger in visiting Raleigh for that purpose, in consequence of
the strong opposition of many of the citizens against colored people,
their opposition to me, and their previously persecuting me from the city,
I wrote to Mr. Smith, requesting him to see the Governor and obtain under
his hand a permit to visit the State for a sufficient time to accomplish
this business. I requested Mr. Smith to publish the permit in one or two
of the city papers, and then to enclose the original to me. This letter he
answered, under date of Raleigh, 19th Feb. 1842, as follows:

  LUNSFORD:--Your letter of the 5th inst. came duly to hand, and in reply
  I have to inform you, that owing to the absence of Gov. Morehead, I
  cannot send you the permit you requested, but this will make no
  difference, for you can come home, and after your arrival you may obtain
  one to remain long enough to settle up your affairs. You ought of course
  to apply to the Governor immediately on your arrival, before any
  malicious person would have time to inform against you; I don't think by
  pursuing this course you need apprehend any danger.

       *       *       *       *       *

  We are all alive at present in Raleigh on the subjects of temperance and
  religion. We have taken into the temperance societies, about five
  hundred members, and about fifty persons have been happily converted.
  * * * The work seems still to be spreading, and such a time I have never
  seen before in my life. Glorious times truly.

  Do try and get all the religion in your heart you possibly can, for it
  is the only thing worth having after all.

  Your, &c.

  B.B. SMITH.

The way now appeared to be in a measure open; also I thought that the
religious and temperance interest mentioned in the latter portion of Mr.
Smith's letter, augured a state of feeling which would be a protection to
me. But fearing still that there might be danger in visiting Raleigh
without the permit from the Governor, or at least wishing to take every
possible precaution, I addressed another letter to Mr. Smith, and received
under date of March 12th, a reply, from which I copy as follows:

  "The Governor has just returned, and I called upon him to get the permit
  as you requested, but he said he had no authority by law to grant one;
  and he told me to say to you, that you might in perfect safety come home
  in a quiet manner, and remain twenty days without being interrupted. I
  also consulted Mr. Manly [a lawyer] and he told me the same thing. * * *
  _Surely you need not fear any thing under these circumstances. You had
  therefore better come on just as soon as possible._"

       *       *       *       *       *

I need not say, what the reader has already seen, that my life so far had
been one of joy succeeding sorrow, and sorrow following joy; of hope, of
despair; of bright prospects, of gloom; and of as many hues as ever appear
on the varied sky, from the black of midnight, or the deep brown of a
tempest, to the bright warm glow of a clear noon day. On the 11th of
April it was noon with me; I left Boston on my way for Raleigh with high
hopes, intending to pay over the money for my family and return with them
to Boston, which I intended should be my future home; for there I had
found friends and there I would find a grave. The visit I was making to
the South was to be a farewell one; and I did not dream that my old
cradle, hard as it once had jostled me, would refuse to rock me a
pleasant, or even an affectionate good bye. I thought, too, that the
assurances I had received from the Governor, through Mr. Smith, and the
assurances of other friends, were a sufficient guaranty that I might visit
the home of my boyhood, of my youth, of my manhood, in peace, especially
as I was to stay but for a few days and then to return. With these
thoughts, and with the thoughts of my family and freedom, I pursued my way
to Raleigh, and arrived there on the 23d of the month. It was Saturday
about four o'clock, P.M. when I found myself once more in the midst of my
family. With them I remained over the Sabbath, as it was sweet to spend a
little time with them after so long an absence, an absence filled with so
much of interest to us, and as I could not do any business until the
beginning of the week. On Monday morning between eight and nine o'clock,
while I was making ready to leave the house for the first time after my
arrival, to go to the store of Mr. Smith, where I was to transact my
business with him, two constables, Messrs. Murray and Scott, entered,
accompanied by two other men, and summoned me to appear immediately before
the police. I accordingly accompanied them to the City Hall, but as it was
locked and the officers could not at once find the key, we were told that
the court would be held in Mr. Smith's store, a large and commodious room.
This was what is termed in common phrase in Raleigh a "call court." The
Mayor, Mr. Loring, presided, assisted by William Boylan and Jonathan
Busbye, Esqs. Justices of the Peace. There was a large number of people
together--more than could obtain admission to the room, and a large
company of mobocratic spirits crowded around the door. Mr. Loring read the
writ, setting forth that I had been guilty of _delivering abolition
lectures in the State of Massachusetts_. He asked me whether I was guilty
or not guilty. I told him I did not know whether I had given abolition
lectures or not, but if it pleased the court, I would relate the course I
had pursued during my absence from Raleigh. He then said that I was at
liberty to speak.

The circumstances under which I left Raleigh, said I, are perfectly
familiar to you. It is known that I had no disposition to remove from this
city, but resorted to every lawful means to remain. After I found that I
could not be permitted to stay, I went away leaving behind everything I
held dear with the exception of one child, whom I took with me, after
paying two hundred and fifty dollars for her. It is also known to you and
to many other persons here present, that I had engaged to purchase my wife
and children of her master, Mr. Smith, for the sum of twenty-five hundred
dollars, and that I had paid of this sum (including my house and lot)
eleven hundred and twenty dollars, leaving a balance to be made up of
thirteen hundred and eighty dollars. I had previously to that lived in
Raleigh, a slave, the property of Mr. Sherwood Haywood, and had purchased
my freedom by paying the sum of one thousand dollars. But being driven
away, no longer permitted to live in this city, to raise the balance of
the money due on my family, my last resort was to call upon the friends of
humanity in other places, to assist me.

I went to the city of Boston, and there I related the story of my
persecutions here, the same as I have now stated to you. The people gave
ear to my statements; and one of them, Rev. Mr. Neale, wrote back, unknown
to me, to Mr. Smith, inquiring of him whether the statements made by me
were correct. After Mr. Neale received the answer he sent for me, informed
me of his having written, and read to me the reply. The letter fully
satisfied Mr. Neale and his friends. He placed it in my hands, remarking
that it would, in a great measure, do away the necessity of using the
other documents in my possession. I then with that letter in my hands went
out from house to house, from place of business to place of business, and
from church to church, relating (where I could gain an ear) the same
heart-rending and soul-trying story which I am now repeating to you. In
pursuing that course, the people, first one and then another contributed,
until I had succeeded in raising the amount alluded to, namely, thirteen
hundred and eighty dollars. I may have had contributions from
abolitionists; but I did not stop to ask those who assisted me whether
they were anti-slavery or pro-slavery, for I considered that the money
coming from either, would accomplish the object I had in view. These are
the facts; and now, sir, it remains for you to say, whether I have been
giving abolition lectures or not.

In the course of my remarks I presented the letter of Mr. Smith to Mr.
Neale, showing that I had acted the open part while in Massachusetts; also
I referred to my having written to Mr. Smith requesting him to obtain for
me the permit of the Governor; and I showed to the court, Mr. Smith's
letters in reply, in order to satisfy them that I had reason to believe I
should be unmolested in my return.

Mr. Loring then whispered to some of the leading men; after which he
remarked that he saw nothing in what I had done, according to my
statements, implicating me in a manner worthy of notice. He called upon
any present who might be in possession of information tending to disprove
what I had said, or to show any wrong on my part, to produce it, otherwise
I should be set at liberty. No person appeared against me; so I was
discharged.

I started to leave the house; but just before I got to the door I met Mr.
James Litchford, who touched me on the shoulder, and I followed him back.
He observed to me that if I went out of that room I should in less than
five minutes be a dead man; for there was a mob outside waiting to drink
my life. Mr. Loring then spoke to me again and said that notwithstanding I
had been found guilty of nothing, yet public opinion was law; and he
advised me to leave the place the next day, otherwise he was convinced I
should have to suffer death. I replied, "not to-morrow, but to-day." He
answered that I could not go that day, because I had not done my business.
I told him that I would leave my business in his hands and in those of
other such gentlemen as himself, who might settle it for me and send my
family to meet me at Philadelphia. This was concluded upon, and a guard
appointed to conduct me to the depot. I took my seat in the cars, when
the mob that had followed us surrounded me, and declared that the cars
should not go, if I were permitted to go in them. Mr. Loring inquired what
they wanted of me; he told them that there had been an examination, and
nothing had been found against me; that they were at the examination
invited to speak if they knew of aught to condemn me, but they had
remained silent, and that now it was but right I should be permitted to
leave in peace. They replied that they wanted a more thorough
investigation, that they wished to search my trunks (I had but one trunk)
and see if I was not in possession of abolition papers. It now became
evident that I should be unable to get off in the cars; and my friends
advised me to go the shortest way possible to jail, for my safety. They
said they were persuaded that what the rabble wanted was to get me into
their possession, and then to murder me. The mob looked dreadfully
enraged, and seemed to lap for blood. The whole city was in an uproar. But
the first men and the more wealthy were my friends: and they did
everything in their power to protect me. Mr. Boylan, whose name has
repeatedly occurred in this publication, was more than a father to me; and
Mr. Smith and Mr. Loring, and many other gentlemen, whose names it would
give me pleasure to mention, were exceedingly kind.

The guard then conducted me through the mob to the prison; and I felt
joyful that even a prison could protect me. Looking out from the prison
window, I saw my trunk in the hands of Messrs. Johnson, Scott, and others,
who were taking it to the City Hall for examination. I understood
afterwards that they opened my trunk; and as the lid flew up, Lo! a paper!
a paper!! Those about seized it, three or four at once, as hungry dogs
would a piece of meat after forty days famine. But the meat quickly turned
to a stone; for the paper it happened, was one _printed in Raleigh_, and
edited by WESTON R. GALES, a nice man to be sure, but no abolitionist. The
only other printed or written things in the trunk were some business cards
of a firm in Raleigh--not incendiary.

Afterwards I saw from the window Mr. Scott, accompanied by Mr. Johnson,
lugging my carpet-bag in the same direction my trunk had gone. It was
opened at the City Hall, and found actually to contain a pair of old
shoes, and a pair of old boots!--but they did not conclude that these were
incendiary.

Mr. Smith now came to the prison and told me that the examination had been
completed, and nothing found against me; but that it would not be safe for
me to leave the prison immediately. It was agreed that I should remain in
prison until after night-fall, and then steal secretly away, being let
out by the keeper, and pass unnoticed to the house of my old and tried
friend Mr. Boylan. Accordingly I was discharged between nine and ten
o'clock. I went by the back way leading to Mr. Boylan's; but soon and
suddenly a large company of men sprang upon me, and instantly I found
myself in their possession. They conducted me sometimes high above ground
and sometimes dragging me along, but as silently as possible, in the
direction of the gallows, which is always kept standing upon the Common,
or as it is called "the pines," or "piny old field." I now expected to
pass speedily into the world of spirits; I thought of that unseen region
to which I seemed to be hastening; and then my mind would return to my
wife and children, and the labors I had made to redeem them from bondage.
Although I had the money to pay for them according to a bargain already
made, it seemed to me some white man would get it, and they would die in
slavery, without benefit from my exertions and the contributions of my
friends. Then the thought of my own death, to occur in a few brief
moments, would rush over me, and I seemed to bid adieu in spirit to all
earthly things, and to hold communion already with eternity. But at length
I observed those who were carrying me away, changed their course a little
from the direct line to the gallows, and hope, a faint beaming, sprung up
within me; but then as they were taking me to the woods, I thought they
intended to murder me there, in a place where they would be less likely to
be interrupted than in so public a spot as where the gallows stood. They
conducted me to a rising ground among the trees, and set me down. "Now,"
said they, "tell us the truth about those abolition lectures you have been
giving at the North." I replied that I had related the circumstances
before the court in the morning; and could only repeat what I had then
said. "But that was not the truth--tell us the truth." I again said that
any different story would be false, and as I supposed I was in a few
minutes to die, I would not, whatever they might think I would say under
other circumstances, pass into the other world with a lie upon my lips.
Said one, "you were always, Lunsford, when you were here, a clever fellow,
and I did not think you would be engaged in such business as giving
abolition lectures." To this and similar remarks, I replied that the
people of Raleigh had always said the abolitionists did not believe in
buying slaves, but contended that their masters ought to free them without
pay. I had been laboring to buy my family; and how then could they suppose
me to be in league with the abolitionists?

After other conversation of this kind, and after they seemed to have
become tired of questioning me, they held a consultation in a low whisper
among themselves. Then a bucket was brought and set down by my side; but
what it contained or for what it was intended, I could not divine. But
soon, one of the number came forward with a pillow, and then hope sprung
up, a flood of light and joy within me. The heavy weight on my heart
rolled off; death had passed by and I unharmed. They commenced stripping
me till every rag of clothes was removed; and then the bucket was set
near, and I discovered it to contain tar. One man, I will do him the honor
to record his name, Mr. WILLIAM ANDRES, a journeyman printer, when he is
any thing, except a tar-and-featherer, put his hands the first into the
bucket, and was about passing them to my face. "Don't put any in his face
or eyes," said one.[A] So he desisted; but he, with three other
"gentlemen," whose names I should be happy to record if I could recall
them, gave me as nice a coat of tar all over, face only excepted, as any
one would wish to see. Then they took the pillow and ripped it open at one
end, and with the open end commenced the operation at the head and so
worked downwards, of putting a coat of its contents over that of the
contents of the bucket. A fine escape from the hanging this will be,
thought I, provided they do not with a match set fire to the feathers. I
had some fear they would. But when the work was completed they gave me my
clothes, and one of them handed me my watch which he had carefully kept in
his hands; they all expressed great interest in my welfare, advised me how
to proceed with my business the next day, told me to stay in the place as
long as I wished, and with other such words of consolation they bid me
good night.

[Footnote A: I think this was Mr. Burns, a blacksmith in the place, but I
am not certain. At any rate, this man was my _friend_ (if so he may be
called) on this occasion; and it was fortunate for me that the company
generally seemed to look up to him for wisdom.]

After I had returned to my family, to their inexpressible joy, as they had
become greatly alarmed for my safety, some of the persons who had
participated in this outrage, came in (probably influenced by a curiosity
to see how the tar and feathers would be got off) and expressed great
sympathy for me. They said they regretted that the affair had
happened--that they had no objections to my living in Raleigh--I might
feel perfectly safe to go out and transact my business preparatory to
leaving--I should not be molested.

Meanwhile, my friends understanding that I had been discharged from
prison, and perceiving I did not come to them, had commenced a regular
search for me, on foot and on horseback, every where; and Mr. Smith called
upon the Governor to obtain his official interference; and after my
return, a guard came to protect me; but I chose not to risk myself at my
own house, and so went to Mr. Smith's, where this guard kept me safely
until morning. They seemed friendly indeed, and were regaled with a supper
during the night by Mr. Smith. My friend, Mr. Battle, (late private
secretary to the Governor,) was with them; and he made a speech to them
setting forth the good qualities I had exhibited in my past life,
particularly in my connection with the Governor's office.

In the morning Mr. Boylan, true as ever, and unflinching in his
friendship, assisted me in arranging my business,[A] so that I should
start with my family _that day_ for the north. He furnished us with
provisions more than sufficient to sustain the family to Philadelphia,
where we intended to make a halt; and sent his own baggage wagon to convey
our baggage to the depot, offering also to send his carriage for my
family. But my friend, Mr. Malone, had been before him in this kind offer,
which I had agreed to accept.

[Footnote A: Of course I was obliged to sacrifice much on my property,
leaving in this hurried manner. And while I was in the North, a kind
_friend_ had removed from the wood-lot, wood that I had cut and corded,
for which I expected to receive over one hundred dollars; thus saving me
the trouble of making sale of it, or of being burdened with the money it
would bring. I suppose I have no redress. I might add other things as
bad.]

Brief and sorrowful was the parting from my kind friends; but the worst
was the thought of leaving my mother. The cars were to start at ten
o'clock in the morning. I called upon my old mistress, Mrs. Haywood, who
was affected to weeping by the considerations that naturally came to her
mind. She had been kind to me; the day before she and her daughter, Mrs.
Hogg, now present, had jointly transmitted a communication to the court
representing that in consequence of my good conduct from my youth, I could
not be supposed to be guilty of any offence. And now, "with tears that
ceased not flowing," they gave me their parting blessing. My mother was
still Mrs. Haywood's slave, and I her only child. Our old mistress could
not witness the sorrow that would attend the parting with my mother. She
told her to go with me; and said that if I ever became able to pay two
hundred dollars for her, I might; otherwise it should be her loss. She
gave her the following paper, which is in the ordinary form of a _pass_:

  RALEIGH, N.C. April 26, 1842.

  Know all persons by these presents, that the bearer of this, Clarissa, a
  slave, belonging to me, hath my permission to visit the city of New York
  with her relations, who are in company with her; and it is my desire
  that she may be protected and permitted to pass without molestation or
  hindrance, on good behavior. Witness my hand this 26th April, 1842.

  ELEANOR HAYWOOD.

  Witness--J.A. Campbell.

On leaving Mrs. Haywood's, I called upon Mrs. Badger, another daughter,
and wife of Judge Badger, previously mentioned. She seemed equally
affected; she wept as she gave me her parting counsel. She and Mrs. Hogg
and I had been children together, playing in the same yard, while yet none
of us had learned that they were of a superior and I of a subject race.
And in those infant years there were pencillings made upon the heart,
which time and opposite fortunes could not all efface.--May these friends
never be slaves as I have been; nor their bosom companions and their
little ones be slaves like mine.

When the cars were about to start, the whole city seemed to be gathered at
the depot; and among the rest the mobocratic portion, who appeared to be
determined still that I should not go peaceably away. Apprehending this,
it had been arranged with my friends and the conductor, that my family
should be put in the cars and that I should go a distance from the city on
foot, and be taken up as they passed. The mob, therefore, supposing that I
was left behind, allowed the cars to start.

Mr. Whiting, known as the agent of the rail road company, was going as far
as Petersburg, Va.; and he kindly assisted in purchasing our tickets, and
enabling us to pass on unmolested. After he left, Capt. Guyan, of Raleigh,
performed the same kind office as far as Alexandria, D.C., and then he
placed us in the care of a citizen of Philadelphia, whose name I regret to
have forgotten, who protected us quite out of the land of slavery. But
for this we should have been liable to be detained at several places on
our way, much to our embarrassment, at least, if nothing had occurred of a
more serious nature.

One accident only had happened: we lost at Washington a trunk containing
most of our valuable clothing. This we have, not recovered; but our lives
have been spared to bless the day that conferred freedom upon us. I felt
when my feet struck the pavements in Philadelphia, as though I had passed
into another world. I could draw in a full long breath, with no one to say
to the ribs, "why do ye so?"

On reaching Philadelphia we found that our money had all been expended,
but kind friends furnished us with the means of proceeding as far as
New-York; and thence we were with equal kindness aided on to Boston.

In Boston and in the vicinity, are persons almost without number, who have
done me favors more than I can express. The thought that I was now in my
new, though recently acquired home--that my family were with me where the
stern, cruel, hated hand of slavery could never reach us more--the
greetings of friends--the interchange of feeling and sympathy--the
kindness bestowed upon us, more grateful than rain to the thirsty
earth,--the reflections of the past that would rush into my mind,--these
and more almost overwhelmed me with emotion, and I had deep and strange
communion with my own soul. Next to God from whom every good gift
proceeds, I feel under the greatest obligations to my kind friends in
Massachusetts. To be rocked in their cradle of Liberty,--Oh, how unlike
being stretched on the pillory of slavery! May that cradle rock forever;
may many a poor care-worn child of sorrow, many a spirit-bruised (worse
than lash-mangled) victim of oppression, there sweetly sleep to the
lullaby of Freedom, sung by Massachusetts sons and daughters.

A number of meetings have been held at which friends have contributed to
our temporal wants, and individuals have sent us various articles of
provision and furniture and apparel, so that our souls have been truly
made glad. There are now ten of us in the family, my wife, my mother, and
myself, with seven children, and we expect soon to be joined by my father,
who several years ago received his freedom by legacy. The wine fresh from
the clustering grapes never filled so sweet a cup as mine. May I and my
family be permitted to drink it, remembering whence it came!

I suppose such of my readers as are not accustomed to trade in human
beings, may be curious to see the Bills of Sale, by which I have obtained
the right to my wife and children. They are both in the hand writing of
Mr. Smith. The first--that for Laura is as follows:

  _State of North Carolina, Wake County._

  Know all men by these presents, that for and in consideration of the sum
  of two hundred and fifty dollars, to me in hand paid, I have this day
  bargained and sold; and do hereby bargain, sell and deliver unto
  Lunsford Lane, a free man of color, a certain negro girl by the name of
  Laura, aged about seven years, and hereby warrant and defend the right
  and title of the said girl to the said Lunsford and his heirs forever,
  free from the claims of all persons whatsoever.

  In witness whereof, I have hereunto set my hand and seal at Raleigh,
  this 17th May, 1841.

  B.B. SMITH, [seal.]

  Witness--Robt. W. Haywood.

Below is the Bill of Sale for my wife and other six children, to which the
papers that follow are attached.

  _State of North Carolina, Wake County._

  Know all men by these presents, that for and in consideration of the sum
  of eighteen hundred and eighty dollars to me in hand paid, the receipt
  of which is hereby acknowledged, I have this day bargained, sold and
  delivered unto Lunsford Lane, a free man of color, one dark mulatto
  woman named Patsy, one boy named Edward, one boy also named William, one
  boy also named Lunsford, one girl named Maria, one boy also named
  Ellick, and one girl named Lucy, to have and to hold the said negroes
  free from the claims of all persons whatsoever.

  In witness whereof, I have hereunto affixed my hand and seal this 25th
  day of April, 1842.

  B.B. SMITH, [seal.]

  Witness--TH. L. WEST.

       *       *       *       *       *

  _State of North Carolina, Wake County._

  Office of Court of Pleas and Quarter Sessions, April 26, 1842.

  The execution of the within bill of sale was this day duly acknowledged
  before me by B.B. Smith, the executor of the same.

 [L.S.]

  In testimony whereof, I have hereunto affixed the seal of said Court,
  and subscribed my name at office in Raleigh, the date above.

  JAS. T. MARRIOTT, Clerk.

       *       *       *       *       *

  _State of North Carolina, Wake County._

  I, Wm. Boylan, presiding magistrate of the Court of Pleas and Quarter
  Sessions for the county aforesaid, certify that James T. Marriott, who
  has written and signed the above certificate, is Clerk of the Court
  aforesaid,--that the same is in due form, and full faith and credit are
  due to such his official acts.

  Given under my hand and private seal (having no seal of office) this
  26th day of April, 1842.

  WM. BOYLAN, P.M. [seal.]

       *       *       *       *       *

  _The State of North Carolina._

  To all to whom these presents shall come, Greeting:

  Be it known, that William Boylan, whose signature appears in his own
  proper hand writing to the annexed certificate, was at the time of
  signing the same and now is a Justice of the Peace and the Presiding
  Magistrate for the county of Wake, in the State aforesaid, and as such
  he is duly qualified and empowered to give said certificate, which is
  here done in the usual and proper manner; and full faith and credit are
  due to the same, and ought to be given to all the official acts of the
  said William Boylan as Presiding Magistrate aforesaid.

  [L.S.]

  In testimony whereof, I, J.M. Morehead. Governor, Captain General and
  Commander in Chief, have caused the Great Seal of the State to be
  hereunto affixed, and signed the same at the city of Raleigh, on the
  26th day of April, in the year of our Lord one thousand eight hundred
  and forty-two, and in the sixty-sixth year of the Independence of the
  United States.

  J.M. MOREHEAD.

  By the Governor.

  P. REYNOLDS, Private Secretary.

    But thou art born a slave, my child;
      Those little hands must toil,
    That brow must sweat, that bosom ache
      Upon another's soil;
    And if perchance some tender joy
      Should bloom upon thy heart,
    Another's hand may enter there,
      And tear it soon apart.

    Thou art a little joy to me,
      But soon thou may'st be sold,
    Oh! lovelier to thy mother far
      Than any weight of gold;
    Or I may see thee scourg'd and driv'n
      Hard on the cotton-field,
    To fill a cruel master's store,
      With what thy blood may yield.

    Should some fair maiden win thy heart,
      And thou should'st call her thine;
    Should little ones around thee stand,
      Or round thy bosom twine,
    Thou wilt not know how soon away
      These loves may all be riv'n,
    Nor what a darkened troop of woe
      Through thy lone breast be driv'n.

    Thy master may be kind, and give
      Thy every wish to thee,
    Only deny that greatest wish,
      _That longing to be free:_
    Still it will seem a comfort small
      That thou hast sweeter bread,
    A better hut than other slaves,
      Or pillow for thy head.

    What joys soe'er may gather round,
      What other comforts flow,--
    _That_, like a mountain in the sea,
      O'ertops each wave below,
    That ever-upward, firm desire
      To break the chains, and be
    Free as the ocean is, or like
      The ocean-winds, be free.

    Oh, child! thou art a little slave;
      And all of thee that grows,
    Will be another's weight of flesh,--
      But thine the weight of wees
    Thou art a little slave, my child,
      And much I grieve and mourn
    That to so dark a destiny
      A lovely babe I've borne.

    And gladly would I lay thee down
      To sleep beneath the sod,
    And give thy gentle spirit back,
      Unmarr'd with grief, to God:
    The tears I shed upon that turf
      Should whisper peace to me,
    And tell me in the spirit land
      My lovely babe was free.

    I then should know thy peace was sure,
      And only long to go
    The road which thou had'st gone, and wipe
      Away these tears that flow.
    Death to the slave has double power;
      It breaks the earthly clod,
    And breaks the tyrant's sway, that he
      May worship only God.

J.P.B.



